#I don’t want to feel like this anymore

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

It’s really crazy how you’ll be in bed deciding whether or not you’re gonna get up and out or sleep a few more hours and then you’re dad walks in tells you to get up and that you need to leave the house more and your like yeah I’m aware thanks for making me feel even worse about it then I already did though

And now you’ve been in bed awake for hours feeling more depressed then you already did and you don’t even want to do the things that were supposed to motivate you into getting up anymore

[corazon01]

If words in the dictionary had pictures attached to them, you’d see my face under so many

alone

pathetic

unwanted

used

[doodle-bug81111]

[gayandconfusedmotherfucker]

I hate feeling like I’m faking everything even to myself, somehow fully convinced that I’m experiencing/doing those things so I have an “excuse” or “evidence”, I swear this extends to EVERYTHING.

[thenarrativeofjohnsmith]

i am a forest fire in a place that requests only candles,

i am a storm that takes trees as casualties in a place where lovers kiss in a light drizzle,

does nobody ask if it hurts a flood when it rips through homes,

the innards of the house is ripping it to shreds.

perhaps when the weather settles, the flood goes home and tends to its wounds that it got for daring to go outside.

i tried so hard to be loved,

i have no interest in further attempts.

my mother does not like me very much. though she has an obligation to pretend that is written in her blood as it flows through me.

- temperance ong (2023)

[bollylion]

What is so frustrating about being high masking is that no one believes I’m disabled.

Yes, I can banter and make small talk all the live long day with you, but I also cry myself to sleep from exhaustion.

Yes, I am the articulate Black token of your dreams, but I am also a middle to high support needs autistic that can only safely unmask at home.

I have a plethora of diagnoses that seems to increase everyday, but no one sees that. Instead, I’m told that, “You don’t look autistic!” as if it’s a compliment. More often than not, I am denied support services because I’m so intelligent and can’t possibly need help.

And the worst part of all is that so often I believe them. I believe I don’t deserve help. I believe my struggles are a moral failing on my part. I believe that I deserve to rot in my sorrow as if it wasn’t them who left me here.

I’m just so tired.

[xxlosthopesxx]

The demons in my head are so loud again.

[possibly-pasta]

third time calling a suicide hotline in a 12 month span eyyyyyyyyy

[corazon01]

You say we’re different because of our ages.

I say we’re different because I can see you in my future & you only see me warming your bed at night.

[doodle-bug81111]

[hasbro-necromancer]

i wish that i was anyone but me

anywhere but where i am now

[feveredandalone]

I never ever ever ever ever ever ever want kids.

[possibly-pasta]

bashing my head against the wall in my mind bashing my head against the wall in my mind bashing my head against the wall in my mind bashing my head against the wall in my mind bashing my head against the wall in my mind bashing my head against the wall in my mind

[blue-as-the-languid-skies]

I cant wrap my head around the fact that I am living each day in a world where we are not speaking? I never imagined I would lose you. I was scared, but I was still so sure of us. I was so sure you’d stay.

[darksigns-exe]

Love a day where I feel like deleting everything and removing myself from society entirely.

If you need me I’m hiding in the moss.