#I don’t miss the abuse

[afluria]

Saw a post that reminded me of you Dex. It’s convention season. I miss being able to send you things about a convention or about the new twister movie. I don’t miss the abuse you put me through…but I miss the friend I used to have. I hope you’re becoming a better person and I pray for you everyday.

[howlsofbloodhounds]

Do you genuinely dislike killermare? Just asking for clarification, im sorry if youve gotten this ask before already

I hate it. I dislike fanon Killermare a lot more though. I have found a few interpretations I can maybe like, but most I have found do not do Killer’s character any justice whatsoever and frankly I just feel Nightmare ugly ass doesn’t deserve Killer and he should keep his funky disgusting tentacles away from him. And I don’t see any reason why theyd be interested in eachother beyond a power dynamic.

[phoenixmetaphor]

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oct 1 - aqua ring

man why does the aqua ring gotta look like… that.

… i am trying something new this october, which is to just.. focus on one au. which isn’t to say every piece will be in the same au, but just that instead of agonizing over prompts, i can just keep developing one idea.

i am also doing a new au. i’m too invested in most of the others to do rushed drawtober pieces for them 🤣

so here we goooooooooooo.

see the tags if you want to know vaguely where this is going. we’ll talk more about it later.

(btw, i am DEFINITELY not doing comics every day all month. i am not doing comics every piece nor am i doing them every day. i mean… let’s be real, it’s me, we’re doing good if you get like…. 4 pieces out of me in october.)

[snowberry-pie]

something very interesting to me. about people who see a guy whose arc centers around the question of whether or not cruelty inflicted upon you gives you the right to inflict cruelty on others. and go “i can’t believe people think this guy is in the wrong for inflicting cruelty on others when he was in fact, the victim of cruelty in the past”

[lesbianfakir]

Talking about fakir with fakir fans: while fakir is a fun and genuinely likeable character the show dropped the ball on recognizing and holding him accountable for how he behaved towards mytho in season 1. The show has an element of fairytale violence to it—not meant to be taken too seriously—but fakir has been downright abusive towards mytho for YEARS and that leads to some genuinely uncomfortable scenes that are not treated with the gravity they deserve. The show could have benefited from either toning down the extremity of how fakir’s actions or taking the time to create a proper resolution to his and mytho’s relationship. As it stands, the nonchalance with with the show treats mytho’s abuse is, in my opinion, one of its biggest flaws

Talking about fakir with the mytho heathens: YOUR HONOR IN HIS DEFENSE FAKIR WAS JUST GETTING A LITTLE SILLAY WITH IT

[dykedvonte]

I keep seeing fanarts of ppl's OC's being on the ship, so do you think that if there was 6st crewmember (specifically, another woman) Anya would've been more safe? Like, someone to actually call Jimmy's begaviour out, someone Anya might wanna trust? Is there a possibility something might have changed (even if a little) or it would not have mattered at all?

-💀

I feel like the game would make it part of the commentary on where she would believe and help Anya but still be sort of dismissive? Like the whole “don’t waste time crying and being scared keep going and move on, don’t let him win”. It’s supposed to be positive and reinforcing but sometimes it does more damage in those times of mourning and grief, it feels patronizing, like you don’t understand what you’re going through but they do. Even if they did call out his behavior it’s still on Curly to act and while another voice would help, it’s still 4 against 2 on guys that don’t get it until they have to vs women who always have to.

I don’t mind mouthwashing OCs but I do get a bit bored as they tend to be borderline saviors or like Jimmy aligned. They are either more complicit than Curly or just Jimmy haters for no reason, outside of what the creators know about what he did to Anya. I am never irked by OCs but in a story like mouthwashing you really need to think about what your character adds to the commentary, especially if they are there during the crash. It’s nice to have like characters on Anya’s side more whole heartedly and interesting to see characters who placate Jimmy but sometimes it’s one note.

I can’t and don’t want to police peoples OCs it’s never my intention when I comment on trends I notice, but I do feel like the way people make their OCs interact with these two characters and especially Curly, really show a grave misunderstanding of the narrative and these characters as people vs roles in the story. Still, I know people just make up characters for fun and that’s fine. Great even, but I guys I’m focusing more on OCs that are supposed to have those serious dynamics. My favs tend to be pretty-Tulpar or post-Tulpar au OCs.

The inevitably of the crash is on Jimmy. He did that not because he wasn’t stopped but because all his means to kill Anya were taken. The gun, the axe. Even if Curly did strip him of his co-pilot privileges and try to keep him contained there’s only so many people. An extra body helps but they have jobs they have to do, he’s the only one steering the whole ship and Jimmy would likely have an out: food, bathroom, etc. He’s not new and if he couldn’t crash the ship directly, who’s to say he wouldn’t sabotage something else? A clunker like the Tulpar wouldn’t take much. An extra person helps but it’s just another thing that prolongs what a person like Jimmy is willing to do to shirk responsibility.

It’s more than just needing someone to stand up to him and think that’s what is missing when it comes to inserting a character into the mouthwashing setting.

[whatsjulietslastname]

if i see any more Chloe hate i’m going to fucking explode. i’m not even kidding this makes me physically ill i’m going to create a fucking uQuiz about Chloe Price’s character and if you get a bad score you officially do not understand her character and has no right to talk about her whatsoever because you cannot just……say shit like « yeah duh of course i chose Arcadia Bay over her she was so dramatic and annoying and so mean omg 🙄🙄🙄 » i’m coming for you. like you can chose Arcadia Bay it’s a choice based game but if you did it because ‘Chloe was such a meanie 😓’ OH MY GOD. i’m. aidiaoisoz. can someone plz stop me i’m going to jump off a roof /j

[bunisher]

yeah i do think it’s interesting how the guy who plays a character who kills abusers had one on his podcast and then was like hehehe frankcastlecore Bro The Character You Play Would Shoot You Too

[jamandjazz]

Sodapop would’ve been the type of kid to make himself puke just to get out of school instead of faking a fever or cold like everyone else.

[angelnumber27]

It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.

[atsushis-fangs]

Scotland: get in the halloween spirit and make a ghost!!

Ireland: that’s called murder and I heard somewhere that it’s illegal

@winterwrites23 I’ll have you know that I am NOT dead, SoT is STILL my all time favourite fic, and I MISSED making these. Happy Halloween! :D

[selunesfavouriteprincess]

i really don’t have words to phrase this properly but what I don’t see people discussing enough is how Shadowheart is actively still being abused and indoctrinated through the journey of the game.

Shar is in her head the WHOLE time. her thoughts aren’t even private to herself. every time she does or even approves of a good action her magic shock collar activates, and Shadowheart herself (who has endured this pain for years and, as a Sharran, has experienced extreme pain from other means as part of training and/or worship) says it hurts a LOT. Shads is happy about a little tiefling girl being saved from death? Shar literally tortures her for it right in front of you. and apart from saying that it hurts, all she does is move on because this happens all the time for her. and “pain is sacred to followers of Lady Shar”.

pain was a regular punishment too it seems, if you play her origin she has a flashback to being beaten with a rod by the Mother Superior as a child. and now she’s an adult it’s graduated to a direct painful punishment from Shar herself. and IT’S ACTIVELY HAPPENING. she isn’t only remembering the abuse, she’s living it right now.

and yet? she still approves of saving children and animals, or freeing the enslaved gnomes, or convincing Lae’zel to get out of the zaith’isk even after all their fighting.

in the Shadowfell Shar is whispering in Shads’ ear about how she’s going to be her chosen, her perfect little follower, her voice made flesh, everything Shadowheart has been told she should want, that was drummed into her since childhood. and it makes Shadowheart afraid. she should be strong and confident, not acting like a cornered terrier whenever Aylin speaks to her. you ask her if she really wants to do this, and even after Shar pouring these thoughts into her ear, the promises that were made to her, all Shadowheart can say is that she thinks so. telling her not to do it makes her snap and lash out, and she’ll even fight you if she’s pushed into that corner she got backed into, but even after she says she’ll fight you if you try to stop her, she can still choose the good path if you take a step back and let her handle it by herself. she’s confused and scared and has so many thoughts in her head that aren’t hers, and she doesn’t need yours adding to it. she needs to be given space to think by herself. and most of the time, if you allow her that space, she makes the decision herself to throw away the spear.

because Shar has been trying to eliminate the good from Shadowheart for forty years. she’s tried erasing it from her mind, tried beating it out of her, tried brainwashing her so all she knew was Shar’s embrace. but all it takes is having someone she can trust and she’ll defy the only thing she can remember in order to do the right thing. i’m eating drywall thinking about her right now

[dimsilver]

cannot recommend adding the word “my” to your surroundings enough.

my house, my sunset spot, my little field, my tree, my daffodil patch. my creek. my hilltop. my tiny little thai place. my library. my old stone ruin. my love.

the woods full of bluebells a stranger let me go into one time after I drove past, was immediately captivated, and sent them a letter begging to be allowed? sorry that’s my bluebell woods now

yes those things might just be a basement apartment and a roadside and five feet of ground behind a building and a bookshelf and a place you drive past every day but!! there’s something about claiming and loving the things around you that makes life so sweet

[hellishgayliath]

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[bumblebree1903]

Edit: Please checkout my reblog, I didn’t articulate myself very well in this and come across as a massive dick. Sorry about that, seriously. I am legitimately curious as to the reasons behind the positive Ascended Astarion interpretations/what in the text makes people feel that way.

Okay I read something about this over the weekend and it’s been bothering me since because I feel like people are missing the point.

People were upset it felt like BG3 was forcing you into the role of a victim if you ascended Astarion during your romance. They were insistent they and their character HAPPILY and WILLINGLY ascended him and would be more than happy with him and his behaviour after. Which, don’t get me wrong, can be true.

You can very happily ascend Astarion and give him the power he wanted and support him throughout. It doesn’t stop the fact he’s going to abuse your character and that your character is going to become a victim. Because that’s the point. That’s what the whole deal with the characters are, finding freedom from unhealthy relationships of some kind. Astarion’s specifically touches on the cycle of abuse. Cazador abused Astarion and the other vampire spawn, and maybe Astarion isn’t making you eat rats and locking you in coffins, but he’s still abusing you. He will always have power over you if he ascends and he will never treat you as or respect you as an equal. He will isolate you and ignore your wishes and treat you as an object, because ascending him continues that cycle. He doesn’t respect you if you ascend him.

I’m not faulting anyone that ascends him, it’s not something I would do but that doesn’t mean you’ve done a bad or are “playing wrong.” There’s no wrong way to play the game, especially if they give you the option. I am saying, however, that regardless of how happily someone ascends Astarion and how much they support it they’re still going to become a victim. Even if it’s not right away, it will happen because ascending Astarion continues the cycle of abuse, just in a different form.

[gunkbaby]

i used to be quite brazen in my vocalisations about my frustrations with Shuu’s treatment - both in fandom and in text - but i don’t think i really understood why i was frustrated with it. I think i was pretty terrible at articulating myself and it led to some horrendously cringeworthy ‘essays’ on my old blog that haunt me. Like I’d get pissed off about things that, in reality, aren’t at all serious (it’s the internet, what is) - like the French jokes have always rly set me off lmao - and I’d write those ‘essays’ or ‘analysis’ in some kind of insomnia driven fury, and I’d throw in buzzwords or (x)phobic accusations because I felt that frustrated. I fully believed in what I was saying, but i think the issue was more so me not understanding what exactly i was frustrated with, and not being able to articulate that.

In hindsight, i think my frustration lay both in the repeated, common mischaracterisation of Shuu as a character i had seen, and the fact that perhaps, I felt as if no one was taking his character seriously. Like he was a collection of quirks and things that people could laugh about, and it felt like his character - the complexities and nuances of it - was completely ignored.

It felt like Shuu was just a joke; nothing more - a series of mischaracterisations that could be summed up in a few words. It felt like the nuances of Shuu - what I saw in him, how his story had moved me and the interpretations that could be drawn from it - were being entirely ignored, and for the sake of what? The same Gay French joke I’d seen repeated for 5 years by then - the kind of jokes that had perpetuated his mischaracterisation, but the lack of ‘serious’ discussion (in my mind) prevented anyone from challenging said mischaracterisation, so it continued in this kind of cycle? It all sounds so dramatic, but I was a dramatic 17, so who gaf.

i like to think (hope) that I’ve grown since then - both as a writer and a person. I hope that my ability to articulate the frustrations I might have with his characterisation or treatment has improved, and that my analysis is better than it was. It won’t be perfect, but better is fine, just as long as it keeps getting better. I like to think my ability to take criticism has also improved, but I’m not sure. I don’t really interact with the fandom anymore, in part because of how much Shuu takes still generally frustrate me, but I think I handle I my frustration wayyyyy better now, if only because I understand it. I think that helps. I don’t know. Maybe I’m blind, and I haven’t improved at all.