#I cried a lot this episode

[itsthegirlinthebowtie]

moments this episode where actual crying tears came from my eyes: ezra using the emitter from kanan’s lightsaber in creating his new lightsaber, chopper recognizing ezra somehow in trooper armor, “hi hera, I’m home”, the look on hera’s face when she sees ezra, and anakin’s force ghost watching over ahsoka with pride to end the episode…bye i’ll just be weeping in a corner

[poetry-protest-pornography]

Older means we're still here

ok so i watched episode 3 of the zombie show and had feelings patreon * twitch * shop    

[graythursday]

cent'anni

[cozylittleartblog]

400% sure he would love steven universe

[catminecraft]

i cant seriously be the only person whos super disappointed and frustrated with the direction that the life series has taken right. the love i felt for the series was because of the organic relationships and alliances between the players, not because of the gimmick. in secret and wild life the gimmick has become so overpowering (although sl less so) that the players have little room to actually play; the players are punished for engaging in the game (social, and the mechanics of minecraft) and forced to spend the entire time navigating around the gimmick.

this has been a problem in secret life (the players' plans for the session being completely thwarted by secret tasks) but has been completely blown out of proportion in wild life, where a sessions were filled with deaths caused by the gimmick- players taken out of the series through no fault of their own.

i feel like the frustration on the players part comes through very strongly in their episodes. in the snail episode, it didnt even seem like most players were having any fun; players eliminated by the snails were understandably disappointed and frustrated as well. the finale was imo completely lackluster, with most conflict culminating right after the wild cards were turned off. the players do want to engage in the social game (pearl and gem were doing their absolute best to work out their beef in the finale) but they just Cant due to the way that the gimmick has been designed to work. grian of course will not learn from this

[saint-claymore]

death is life

[louferrignojrofficial]

love watching his expression slowly change...

[dreamsy990]

YAY I GOT THIS DONE ON HIS BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAJIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU RUINED MY LIFE AND ALSO MAYBE SAVED MY LIFE. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS I DO LIKE YOU A LOT THOUGH

[shinjiikar1]

I've been trying to think about what I want to say about these first two episodes of Love in the Big City. I'm watching it slowly, it's a show that makes me want to sit rather than rush ahead, and it also hits a little too close to home to enjoy freely (I've only watched the first two episodes so far and my knowledge of the rest of the story is fairly vague so bear with me).

Go Young experiences two major losses. The parallels between these losses, what could have been vs. what can never be again was what particularly stood out to me.

Mi Ae represents a beautiful time that is forever lost. After she gets married, there's no one he can be fully himself with. He simply doesn't have another relationship on that level, platonic or otherwise, and that's truly such an isolating experience. Who do you call when you're in trouble? Who do you complain to? Who will always be your first port of call?

Often, youthful friendships are particularly intense, you're at a point where the world feels so enormous but you don't quite know what to do with it, or yourself yet. Everything still feels new and exciting. You meet people who understand you in ways you've never been understood and can't imagine it won't last forever.

And then you experience that loss for the first time.

Kim Nam Gyu experiences it too. It's clear early in their relationship that Go Young is overwhelmed and uncomfortable with the intensity of Nam Gyu's feelings (his expressions during the padlock and ring scenes in particular). He feels suffocated and anxious, he's not ready for it. So, rather harshly (at least the first time) he ends things. I've been on both ends, which makes it a lot easier to empathize with both of them. While I feel for Nam Gyu incredibly (especially as I read him as very neurodivergent), that discomfort is not something easily resolved, and it's only made worse by his inability to move on. But how can he when he also has no one else?

In the end, Go Young mentions that he missed out on what could have been a long and lasting love with Nam Gyu but I wonder if that's true. Would he have eventually opened up and reciprocated that intensity? Or would he have continued to wallow in his discomfort and let that resentment pile up even further? It's hard to say, but based on the way he behaves, I think the latter. He just wasn't in a stage of life to accept it yet, without the experiences he has with Mi Ae, and without Nam Gyu's death, would he have made it to that point before it became too much? He says he didn't really believe love was possible for someone like him, it took him a lot to get to the point where he even starts to believe it; I find it hard to imagine that he could've gotten there purely through a relationship with Nam Gyu at that stage, as sad as that might be.

Mi Ae offers a bit of an interesting foil here. She chooses loss, but the loss of her authentic self. She chooses the safe option, a stable relationship and job, pleasing her parents, following societal expectations. Maybe the guy isn't quite right, but in the end what seems most important to her is that security, and she's willing to take a loss to get it. As others in the tags have pointed out, Go Young doesn't have that option. There is no option that will (mostly) guarantee him security and safety that would even be remotely tolerable and grant him any degree of happiness. Perhaps he could have chosen to lose parts of himself to be with Nam Gyu, but that wouldn't have provided him the type of security Mi Ae enjoys. If something went wrong and it didn't work out, he could stand to lose even more.

I think that's something that a lot of cishet people fail to understand, and part of what these episodes have done so well for me. Really underlining how the queer experience differs and how isolating it can be (which I think is reflected in Nam Gyu as well).

[superduperkas]

Caitlyn and/or Jayce died in the alternate timeline explosion along with Vi.

I thought Vi was getting the worst possible version of It's A Wonderful Life but I think Jayce (and Viktor) are and it hints at how all this is gonna end in episode 9.

Caitlyn is more than likely dead, too, because her death would be the catalyst to stopping all HexTech research because someone from a super wealthy Piltover family with influence was negatively affected by it.

Cait and Vi are parallels to Jayce and Viktor. Both pairs are very "wherever you go, I will go, wherever you stay, I will stay". The one doesn't (can't?) exist without the other. They are the other's balance/tether. So whatever change happened that caused the explosion to kill Vi took out Jayce and Cait too. Viktor probably didn't last long without meeting Jayce in that universe

That's why Cait and Vi are drawn to one another, and Cait continuously seeks Vi out while Vi pushes her away. Inadvertently, Vi would be "responsible" for their deaths because she came up with the heist. So naturally, in other universes where she lived, Vi would almost have a natural instinct to create distance between them

That's why it had to be Viktor who saved Jayce as a child, it had to be Viktor who kept Jayce from jumping, Jayce who panically saved his partner the other way he knew how,and Jayce who saved Viktor from himself again the only way he knew how

Bruh, this show is so beautiful and loving even in its tragedies

[orion-pdf]

my live reaction to wwdits season 6 summarized

[samglyph]

Pardon if this isn’t coherent but I care so much about Evan and Sam’s relationship. I love their dynamic of “you saved my life. We saved each other. I love you so much. We haven’t spoke in months but the second I see you again I know I never want to leave you alone. Why didn’t we stay in touch. We know why we didn’t stay in touch. I’m scared to be close to you. I would die for you. Live for me. I want you to be happy. I want you to be safe. I cannot be happy if you are not safe. You’re my best friend. I love you so much.”

[peachviz]

Jonathan Frakes and writers of Picard, when I catch you for this episode

[erphy]

i will remember you until the end of my days. but at the same time i will look for my own words!

[vee-lociraptor]

so proud of john doe this episode my man is GETTING that character development

[macbethz]

Thinking about this vis a vis how Clara’s grief drove her to suicidal recklessness. She would never just kill herself a normal way because that would, well first of all be admitting that she’s still grieving and deeply unwell to herself, but also that would be boring and ordinary and the last thing she ever wanted was an ordinary death. “Don’t you dare lump me in with the rest of all the little humans that you think are so tiny and silly and predictable.” She has to die for something because that’s what the doctor would do.

Season 9 is just a season of near misses and of course what finally gets her is stupid and pointless because we’ve been trained by the previous episodes, as she has, to expect she’ll always make it out alive. Schrödinger suicide - she actively seeks out death and convinces herself she knew she would live all along. And ofc when it finally happens she has a speech prepared. Most normal character of all time