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this is so late but for the writer meme!! 2 4 31 41 57 58 84 (👀) 92! however many you want to answer
well, my friend, you may be late but I love this meme so it all works out! <3
(time is soup and the writer asks meme is still here)
2. talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”
Time to be a little mean. The whole "oh nooo my characters won't do what I want!" routine exhausts me. Yes, of course they'll do what you want, quirkily self-deprecating online writer; you're the one putting the words down. Characters "refusing" to follow a plan is just your own cognitive dissonance, because part of you realizes it's a bad plan that makes no sense for the character. Characters aren't troublesome children throwing a tantrum in the icecream aisle, and there's nothing to gain by treating them that way. When I realize making the character act the way I want them to for the sake of my plot is a little too convenient to be believable, I try to ask the character: If you won't do this under these circumstances, how much worse would the situation need to get before you'll consider it? Because most everyone will do most anything if pushed far enough in the right direction. So then I amend my plan to make the circumstances worse in the lead-up to that problem point, and it usually works out.
4. what is the plot bunny you’ve been carrying for the longest? optional bonus question: do you ever wonder why you haven’t written it yet and experience deep existential dread?
[staring ahead with dead eyes] Honestly, ideas have an expiration date, and there's just stuff I'll never get to so I might as well give up. Pour a drink for absent friends*. [*Absent friends meaning all the stories I never wrote in old fandoms because I wasn't "good enough" to write them yet, failing to grasp the very simple truth that you have to write in order to get better at writing.]
31. tell us about one of your characters who’s an absolute joy to write
Just any character who needs to Always Be In Control and suddenly finds themself (plot twist!) no longer in control. Like, control is a distant dot on the horizon for them and the way toward it is lined with carnivorous plants ready to chew them up. Delicious.
41. what is the weirdest story idea you’ve ever had.
I honestly don't know what classifies as weird because (having recently been very exposed to Normie, Non-Fanfiction Consuming People's plot ideas through improv) all my story ideas are some degree of weird. That said, I wrote a story about a T-Rex who was a spaceship captain once.
57. what is the last thing that a fic made you google when you were reading it?
I googled Tether Essence to figure out if it's a concentration spell. You can guess the plot of what I was reading. (It is concentration! Also, once of the first hits on "tether essence 5e" is an article called: "Tether Essence: 3 Unique Uses" and it made me laugh because, well. "Unique", applied to stuff like "can willingly fail". Dear writer of this article: I can show you the world...)
58. what is the last thing that a fic made you google when you were writing it?
Also spells. I wanted to be sure that both Greater Invisibility and Expeditious Retreat, great spells for escaping pursuit after you've done a Crime, are all concentration, so if you're just one guy, you're either in plain sight or you're too slow to get away and either way you're screwed. Very fun.
84. said: overused or underused?
"said" is great. I don't need characters to "exclaim" and "demand" and "enunciate" or whatever the fuck every single line of dialogue. If it's clear who's talking from the content itself then skipping the dialogue tag altogether is great, and if you absolutely have to put a dialogue tag there, well, sometimes people just "say" things normally.
92. first, second or third person?
I love them all. I kiss them on the mouth. But I kiss second person a little harder, because there's not enough of it and it's such a delight to read. We should all write more 2nd person. For Harrow, and the Homestucks that came before her (so I hear).
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have any spare dress kankri. .... Mayhaps.
Anon I love you
#homestuck#homestuck fanart#kankri vantas#transfem kankri#htnejjgndhgfj#sorry I love her like a lot#I drew up a few poses and I couldn't pick between them so I did them all o7#could go either way btw your choice#I just love Kankri and I also really love drawing dresses
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The basegame wedding dress has a pregnancy morph??
#I can never be positive if something in my game is like. a third-party launcher addition#but this is so funny and I had such a strong hunch#because rushing to have your Sim get married before they give birth is such a thing so many players would do!!#and it would be so funny to pay attention to that detail by having the wedding dress show the bump!!!!#all your sim's wedding photos very obviously giving away the reason for the rushed date HAHA#the dress with the pendant at the back that everyone default replaces off (the one with the knife texture) also has a preg morph#which I know because it's the one your Sims get forced into if they attend a wedding#but it's kind of unusual because pregnant Sims don't have the opportunity to change into formal wear?#like pregnant Sims get new undies pyjamas and swimwear in addition to their maternity outfit#and if you direct a pregnant Sim to change into one of them then it changes them into the appropriate maternity fit instead of their usual#but you can't direct them to change into formal and if you use a hacked option like the shop any-wear rack it uses their usual non morph fi#so it has to be something external like a wedding that triggers them to change into formal. and I have no idea why#does this mean there's a BG suit with a preg morph for men??#or did maxis not think that pregnant male Sims would be quite so desperate to get married#anyway I'm probably the last person to know about this LMAO and I'm sure no one cares bc everyone uses wear-anything mods#but I'm a scrub who still prefers to use the default maternity meshes so this is yuge to me#also if you've never seen this dress b4: in the early game all Sims getting married under an arch used to be forced into the same outfits#actually I can't remember if the men got forced into the same suit or if they just used their regular formal#because most BG formal outfits for men were mostly wedding-appropriate#but at any rate. all women wore the same wedding dress. and it was this .... beauty#and I don't remember with which EP it changed but probably pretty early on they just let Sims use their regular formal wear for weddings#so you could pick their wedding dress yourself#but this dress remained hidden by default (I think?) so ironically it meant you COULDN'T use the wedding dress even if you wanted to#also this is completely off topic but you would also go away for your honeymoon#which meant the Sims getting married would literally get driven away in a limousine and stay off-world for a while#it was kind of cute because it really was like they took a vacation from the player too. got up to their own mischief away from your contro#then with bon voyage they introduced ACTUAL vacations and they turned honeymoons into an actual game mechanic#but again these offworld honeymoons are no longer a possibility#kind of like teens 'going out' with permission got replaced by going out on actual outings/dates even though it was a cute event#wow this note section is long and irrelevant. anyway enjoy picking up your wedding dress from a store called 'It's Not Too Late'
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Me, episode 1: Oh, a relatable protag! And a relatable female protag, at that. Sweet! That never happens.
Me, a few episodes in: Wait, the protag really is going to be my character? The one I identify with the most? Seriously? It's not going to be a strange, at least somewhat sinister, seemingly hostile male side character? It's gonna be a female character and the protagonist? That's insane, that literally never happens... what's the catch??
Me, more than halfway through the season: ... huh, I guess Maomao really is it. Okay, then ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Me to myself, after episodes 22/23:
#i let my guard down#i should have known#like really i should know better by now lmao#that's probably the best depiction of prosopagnosia i've seen in fiction ngl#also luo//men's suggestion re: using other attributes to tell people apart??#A++ approach what a guy#mine isn't nearly as severe but i totally use footsteps/gait/mannerisms as my primary means of distinguishing people#the very few people i care about i can definitely recognize by facial features#and people i see frequently; though i do have trouble recognizing them if they appear in a context i'm not used to#like. if i were to see one of my sword classmates at my workplace for instance i would have trouble recognizing them#but anyone else? forget it#the most difficult part of working veterinary front desk was returning animals to their owners#bc even though i could have /just/ spoken with the owners like. ten minutes ago#i couldn't tell you which animal belonged to which owner#faces just don't register with me#dogs were easier in that i'd just let them lead me to their owners#but if it was a cat in a carrier i was fucked lmaooo#it's why if there was another receptionist working i'd let them handle any hand offs XDD#i don't remember most of my childhood but i have some very vivid impressions of moments like#my mother asking me to go give a cash tip to the hairdresser who did her hair and me being unable to pick who it was out#of everyone that was working even though i'd been there with them for two plus hours.#or like. taking the school bus home and being unable to recognize my bus monitor and so getting on the wrong bus#and also getting ridiculed about this by my parents lol. ah good times.#on the other hand i can easily recognize a dog i've met once or twice even years later. and remember their name.#i think it all mostly comes down to disinterest for me. i've tried to change this but it's just how i am#so. he's very relatable. painfully so#also the pragmatism and rationality and hyperfixating on things.#i've never hyperfixated on another person tho and i am so grateful for that every single day#i know in my bones it would be an absolute disaster XD#withoutwords
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dishes are forever
#I MISSED HAVING A TABLET!!!!#ht papyrus#a gentle touch when you're sad#a menacing touch when it would be funny#he can do it all#LITTLE PRO TIP LIFE HACK THOUGH: IF WASHING DISHES MAKES YOU WANT TO LIVE ON A DIFFERENT PLANET#MAYBE YOU HAVE TOO MANY DANG DISHES#BEING IN A SITUATION WHERE I HAVE 80% FEWER DISHES THAN BEFORE MEANS I DO DISHES MORE OFTEN BUT IT'S SO EASY#AND NOT SOUL SUCKING AT ALL#JUST MY EXPERIENCE!!!!!! THAT'S ALL#I'm sure when i am reunited with my other dishes i will languish in bed staring at this psyching myself up to the task#but i like keeping random jars from food i bought and dishes that i picked up in different places.#they physically remind me of everywhere I've been and sometimes i just look at them and remember where I've been#my favorite is the old ratatouille jar i bought at carrefour in Chengdu#that jarred ratatouille was the nastiest food to grace this earth#i bought it in case it would make a quick easy meal (you don't really find those at the grocery store in China at least not back then)#but even my cheap lazy self couldn't eat it#so no one ever consumed that ratatouille but the jar was pretty big so i put other stuff in it and now it's my dish#and somehow the label is glued on PERMANENTLY it has never washed off after all these years#actually idk maybe it eventually did it isn't here for me to look at but it lasted a long time i know that
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you don't play on the en server?
nope, I play JP! been there since day one, babyyyy ✌️
I do sometimes try to check in on where EN is, but it's not always super clear (I think they might've finished episode 6? except in only two parts...?) so I try to spoiler-tag over-judiciously just in case. :') though I did see it's getting Kelkkarotu soon, which is -- well okay the first part kind of drags but once it picks up it's one of my favorites, I'm excited for EN to get it! REVEL IN THE COMFY WINTER OUTFITS
#i did think about checking out en when it came out#but then i realized i'd have to be leveling up and unlocking everything all over again#more power to people that can keep up with that but i am not one of them#i did see you guys got the diasomnias IMMEDIATELY and i was jealous :(#it took a while for them to be implemented into jp so you couldn't pick any of them for your free robes sr#belor on the production team going 'i DENY you the malleus'
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lets think of everyone who had persona blogs and obliterated them off the face of the earth instead of just archiving and keep them in our thoughts tonight. everyone else who directly caused them into doing that go and fucking behave
#kommento#// talking about people I admire or just knew and realized the majority of the persona ones completely blew up what related them to prsona#// some started from scratch or picking up off of anything salvageable and are now living a better online life only to be haunted by#// those who knew them before and would rather not be reminded and just lightly brush away those asking because they genuinely don't know#// the games aren't all that bad and their flaws are of different circumstances that can only be explained differently from one another#// but that one scrap of the community can just tear away at your soul taking something you love and made with love to become fuel for fire#// it's clear when you've been scarred and everyone handles those scars differently. if they show them valiantly or still hide them#// in any other case. stepping out of your bubble you made around you reminds you just how horrid everything you blocked out really is#// it's worse when it seeps into the cracks you couldn't patch and it comes back to make you rot until you deal with it#// I know how others would just get up and abandon their blogs or accounts and let them be archived#// but with this community I fear they do their best to wipe that entire footprint off of the face of the web as much as they can#// and these people were the smartest and sweetest ever and handled the characters they love with care and consideration and love#// to be caught in the middle of a war they didn't want to fight for their characters or opinions that the best option was just leave#// my complete and utter fear to never get to viral heights and if I did I'd try to keep my anonymity as much as possible because#// the tales have been told scare me so much I don't want to experience it#// its been too long I really shouldn't be a hater about this at this point but something got me to pinch my nose bridge really hard#// well whatever. I'm glad I've made this space for me and for all of you. whatever you see this place as. a gas station or what#// everyone of you here warms my heart even if you come and go. I'm just glad I know I touched people's hearts and circulated#// my love for something so silly around other people
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#there's no way i could ever have another pet bc this has destroyed me in unimaginable ways#despite him being old and his health declining the past three or so years#we did everything we could to keep him around and healthy but his little body just couldn't do it anymore#i love him so much i hope he wasn't in pain#i regret not saying goodbye when my mom told me to before he went to the hospital friday but i was in denial#we held out all weekend to see if the treatment would work but he was just so weak my dad gave them the go-ahead to stop it today#idk if they've put him to sleep yet but we're assuming so since my dad is gonna go pick up his collar tomorrow#i cried so much last night because i just had a feeling today would be it#and then i woke up this morning and already had tears in my eyes#this is gonna be. another long grieving process and i'm already so tired from losing my sister last year#when does it fucking end lol like when do i get to the other side#i'm just exhausted. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted#he's such a big extension of me like who tf am i without my dog i'm nothing he's all i had
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Me starting another bg3 run where I will make virtually all the same decisions in mostly the same order as if there isn't different branching paths
#the horrifying idea of things going differently if i choose something different#my ass sitting here wanting other content for it as if i'm not actively refusing to make the choices to get other content#i've still only romanced astarion bro#i had my og. the EXACT copy of my og but durge this time.#began a karlach run to romance wyll and am still in early act 1 so nothing will happen for a long ass time#and i left that because i missed my paladin. the party feels incomplete without them bro#started a rogue/fighter run of one of my ocs retrofitted into the game.#but also am incapable of staying true to the character cause i'll miss stuff if i do and i need to do EVERYTHING explore EVERYWHERE#nearly couldn't get over the hurdle of having no strength and no speak with animals (so karlach and wyll gotta speak to critters)#then just started a sorcerer to try to really push myself to branch out. but all it did was reaffirm that being a spell caster sucks#no jump cause no strength no health no armour no decent melee. like motherfucker pick a struggle#luckily that oc is into music so sorcerer-bard here we come#but every single one of these bitches is good aligned#(and anything i SHOULD do different i don't cause there's still different varoeties of good but alas)#still haven't romanced another party member (but that's not ENTIRELY my fault!!!!)#my og/og durge was the same person i couldn't just romance someone else. they got with astarion i don't make the rules#karlach WILL romance wyll if i ever get farther in#my rogue/fighter oc is heading the baldur's gate for his boyfriend and they have an open relationship so he COULD fuck other people#alas he would never due to his own issues#BUT THIS WILL CHANGE#my sorcerer/bard (who is the boyfriend of the rogue. just imagining the plot as if he was on the adventure or rogue was in baldur's gate)#and he WOULD fuck other people no strings attached#so my goal is to fuck all potentially non-monogamous party members#so lae'zel shadowheart astarion#wyll is a slow burn so that's emotional depth we wouldn't put in#gale is king or monogamy (plus him and this character together would make the rogur pass the fuck out)#karlach is complicated because of the no touch thing? hard to say how much emotional depth ends up required there#meanwhile shadowheart has mentioned she does no strings attached hook-ups#lae'zel propositions you ten seconds in for a good tumble#and from romancing astarion i know fucking the first time seems like it'll just be casual hook up time and i needn't go further
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My @milgram-valentines-exchange gift for @good-beans. Honestly I was worried about getting this finished on time but I actually got a couple of weeks to spare at the end of it. Once I got it to a fairly good standard I ended up putting it aside to focus on studies. While I'm not sure if it's as good as I want it to be, it's good enough. This is the first fanfic I finished and it's the first Milgram fic I've written (I have a Danganronpa fic I've uploaded but it's multi-chapter and really long, I need to get back onto that). Taking this from my notes app and reformatting it was hell, I hope I didn't miss anything. Hope you enjoy this and Happy Valentines Day! (Please ask me about the writing process please ask me about the writing process please ask me about-)
What a pain...
Yuno looks up from her navigation to check her surroundings. A client was going to take her to the bar in the Ritz-Carlton Tokyo and asked her to dress up for the day, so she is looking for a beauty parlour to help her get ready. It was a well paying client, so she couldn't refuse him, but it did bother her to have to mould herself into the desires of others. Whatever. She had chosen this work of her own accord, so she needs to just suck it up and do what she does best: lie and keep appearances.
Ah. This must be the place.
Yuno stands in front of parlour her phone sent her to. She pulls up the receipt from her booking and walks in.
"Excuse me," she says to the receptionist. "I have an appointment for 10:15."
"Alright. Can I have your name?"
"Kashiki Yuno."
The lady behind the desk checks some things on her computer before looking back up at her. "There you are. Would you like to come with me?" She takes her to one of the stations and settle her down. "Your stylist will be here shortly."
Yuno takes a minute to take in her surroundings. This place seems quite well run and professional, and the products high quality; not a bad deal for the cost.
"Ah, hello there. I haven't seen you before."
Yuno turns to her side to find the voice. Next to her, a woman with light brown hair and round face sat by the neighbouring station. She looked from be in her early twenties and she wore a warm smile that felt like the sun itself.
Yuno attempted to match her disposition with a smile of her own. "Yeah, this is my first time here. I'm Kashiki Yuno."
"Shiina Mahiru. Nice to meet you, Yuno-san. I come here all the time. Usually its just for advise from my beautician. She's like my closest friend right now. Today I'm going on a date, though, so I need to look my best. Even though my boyfriend never really pays attention to how hard I try for him. Hey, what are you here for?"
"I'm going to be going out to a fancy place tonight so I'm dressing up for the occasion." She leaves out a lot of details, having no interest in telling a stranger about her job. She didn't need anyone's judgement on it.
"Ooh, fancy. Is it for a date?"
"Hm? Something like that." Mahiru giggles in response.
"Found it! This one is sure to - ah! Were you two talking?" a woman on the other side of Mahiru, presumably her beautician, perks up.
"Ah, yes, we were just introducing ourselves. This is Yuno-san, it's her first time here," Mahiru answers. Yuno gives the woman an awkward wave. She sure loves talking, doesn't she?
"Hi. I'm Sayori, Mahiru-chan's beautician. Nice to meet you. Mahiru-chan, I found the thing. This one is sure to catch his eye," says Sayori, holding up a bottle of something Yuno can't identify.
"Ah, I wanna try," responds the brunette. Yuno turns back to her own desk, assuming the conversation to be over.
"Sorry for the wait. You must be Kashiki Yuno, correct?" A ginger woman in her early thirties walks to her side.
"Yes, that's me," Yuno replies.
"Oh, she's a good one. You're in amsafe hands with her," says Sayori.
"Thank you, Nanami-san. Ms. Kashiki, Is there a particular look you are going for?"
"Oh, I don't know. Maybe something a bit more refined?"
"Alright. First, I am going to wash your face and clean up your nails. Is that okay?"
"Sure. You would know best, after all.
"The woman, who Yuno assumes to be her stylist for the day, begins to apply a scrub to her face. It feels weird on her face, though her touch isn't too rough. She leaves it on and washes her hands before picking up a nail file and taking Yuno's hand in her own and getting to work on them.
"Hey, Yuno-san," Mahiru says, causing Yuno to face her slightly. "What do you normally like to do?"
"Oh, I like shopping and going out with my friends. I'm also part of the theatre club at school, so you could say that's also a hobby of mine."
"Theatre sounds pretty exciting. I've been to a few shows. It looks like a lot of fun."
"It is. At least I think so. Very different from watching." Yuno is pretty used to playing a part, but at least with theatre it was entirely for fun, with no one assuming anything about her based on her role.
"Ooh, maybe I should try it. There's a theatre group at my university. I'm in my final year at Aoyama Gakuin University studying literature. Me... I also enjoy shopping. I'm into fashion and astrology, and I like reading magazines and watching dramas. I mainly do running and film watching because those are my lover's hobbies."
"You just copy your lover's hobbies?"
"Oh yes. In order to have a good relationship with your partner, you must adapt to them. Relationships are about compromise."
"Yep, yep. As said in the Lain magazine, a good relationship relies on shared interests. It is important to take interest in the things your partner likes and abide by what they desire," says Sayori.
"Even so," says Yuno, "to change your lifestyle for their sake... you have to leave something for yourself, right?"
Mahiru says, "No need. I'm ready to give all of me for my lover, and I only ask for him to do the same. Say, have you ever been in love before?"
Yuno thinks. "There was this one boy I had a crush on in middle school, Haruto-kun. I wouldn't really say I was in love with him, though. So, no, I haven't been in love."
"A shame. Don't worry, Yuno-san, I'm sure it will happen to you eventually. Love is like a time bomb that will explode one day. You can't stop it from happening. And when it does, you will understand just how beautiful it is."
To Yuno, this all seems a bit idealised. She has been empty for so long she can't remember what it is like to form close bonds with people. Sure, she cares about her friends and family, but even they don't fully understand her, so she cannot truly feel close to them. For someone like her, does 'true love' really exist? "I hope so." Yuno trails off. "Say, Shiina-san -"
"Oh please, Mahiru is fine."
"Mahiru-san, then. What's your boyfriend like? You've been talking about him a lot."
She brightens up at this. "My boyfriend is a really kind person. He takes care of me really well. We get into arguments sometimes, but we always come out of it closer than before."
"Uh huh. What else can you tell me?"
"What else... Oh! Do you want to see a picture of him?"
Yuno didn’t miss how she dodged the question. "Sure." Mahiru pulls up her phone and opens up her photos, showing Yuno a selfie of her and her boyfriend smiling together. He looked somewhat plain, but still cute. They did look happy, so Yuno may be overthinking their relationship. It wasn't like it was any of her business anyways. "He looks alright."
"I know. But it's not just his looks that make me like him. He has a charming personality too."
"Haha, that's nice to hear."
"Miss Kashiki, can you lean forward?" her stylist asks, gesturing to the sink in front of her. She does so and her stylist washes her face before placing her back and wiping it with a small towel. She then picks up a foundation from a shelf. "This is the product I am going to use for your face," she says, applying it on. Yuno suspects this is a way of trying to advertise it to her. Once she is done she takes a contour pen and applies to to different pats of her face, blending them with a beauty blender. "This is how you look so far. How do you think?" The beautician turns her to the mirror. Her face looks natural, barely as if anything is there, but she still appears to be somewhat older and more mature.
"Looks good so far," she says.
"Alright." The lady picks up a book. "You said you wanted a refined look. Do you have an outfit prepared?"
"Hm, I think I do."
"OK. Describe it to me and I'll see if I can come up with something that matches." Yuno opens her mouth to reply, but at that moment a voice calls from behind her drawing her stylist's attention.
"Natsumi."
Yuno turns to see what she is looking at and finds a man with bright red hair wearing a union jack hoodie running up to them.
"Futa? What are you doing here?" the beautician, apparently named Natsumi, asks.
"Dad called. He wants to talk to you."
She sighs. "Now? I'm in the middle of an appointment."
"He says it's urgent."
"Fine. Hand it over," she groans, taking the phone from Futa's hand. "I'm sorry about this, ma'am. Stay here, Futa, I'll be back."
"I'm not staying in a beauty parlour. That's gross."
"Maybe you should. It might make you less misogynistic."
Futa stares at her in disgust as she walks away. Nearby, Mahiru's stylist whispers "I've never heard Kajiyama-senpai speak like that before."
"I'm not misogynistic. I just think girl talk is boring," Futa complains.
Yuno comments, "That sounds pretty misogynistic to me."
Futa glares at her. "And who are you?"
"Kashiki Yuno. Nice to meet you. You are..." Sayori called her stylist Kajiyama and, from them appearing to have the same father, they are probably siblings. "...Kajiyama Futa?"
He rolls his eyes. "Why are you acting do friendly with me? Its weird to talk that way to strangers, you know."
"All relationships start with strangers."
"What makes you think I want to be friends with you?"
"How rude," Sayori whispers.
"Just ignore him. He's being a jerk," says Mahiru. "By the way, didn't you say you were in school? Which year are you in?"
Relieved to change the subject, she replies, "In my final year."
"Oh, that means exams and applications and all of that. How's that coming along?" asks Sayori.
"It's a struggle, but I think I'm doing well. I go to cram school, so that should help."
"That's good to hear. What universities or courses are you thinking of applying to?" says Mahiru.
"I'm not sure. To be honest, I'm not if I even want to go to university."
"Oh, you absolutely should! It's a completely different experience from school. You get to meet so many new people and try new things in a new environment. You might even find your true love there. I believe it's worth it."
"It really isn't," chimes in Futa. "You barely learn anything and all the people there are so lame. There's no point, most degrees are useless anyways."
"Didn't you say you didn't want to be friends with us?" Mahiru retorts. Futa huffs, looking away.
"Why did you go then?" Yuno asks. Mahiru gives her a look but Yuno shrugs. I'm curious.
He sighs. "My dad made me. Said I would never get anywhere without one. Not that having one would get me anywhere. Besides, it was what everyone else was doing, and I didn't want to start working immediately or do a vocational course."
Yuno hums. "Honestly, the main reason why I'm not sure is because I don't know what I want to do with my future. I haven't thought that far ahead yet. I don't want to choose a path and end up regretting it."
"You're probably better off than me, in that case."
Mahiru says, "What I did is choose a subject I liked in school and look up universities that offered it. I knew I wanted to move to Tokyo because it's a busy city with lots of things to do..." she trails off. Did the city not live up to her expectations? She brightens back up. "So I looked into universities here that offered courses in literature, and I really liked Aoyama Gakuin's course because it's really varied. Of course, there's also admissions tests and tuition fees to think about: they weren't particularly a problem for me but I can imagine you different people have different needs. You just need to think about what's important to you."
"Nice going, Mahiru-chan," says Sayori. "Personally, I knew I wanted to be in the beauty industry, so I went to a junior college and took a course in it."
"That was really helpful. I might have a better idea now. To be honest, it's figuring out what I like that's the main issue. Most of my friends are going to different unis, so it's not like I can just follow them."
Mahiru says, "You are going to make new friends at uni anyway. What about theatre?"
"Well, I'm not sure if after 3 or 4 years I'll still like it, and I don't think I can change my course half way through. I'm really worried about not having good time. It may be a bit self-centered, but I hate things that are boring."
"That's understandable. If you really can't think of anything, why not take a gap year? You can try lots of different things in that time and decide what you enjoy the most that way."
"That's a good idea, actually. You're like a dependable older sister who sounds very wise."
Mahiru laughs. "Really? That makes me so happy. I'm an only child, but I've always wanted a younger sibling to fawn over. Maybe I'll have that chance when I have a child of my own."
"Hoping for the traditional lifestyle, are you?"
"Yep. Isn't that the ideal?"
"You know some people would call you old-fashioned for that?"
"Not a problem. It's my dream, after all."
"Well, I wouldn't put that much stock in it. I have a younger brother myself, and it's really not super exciting."
"Don't you get along with him?"
"I do, and I'm glad to have him, but he can be annoying at times. That's just how younger siblings are."
"More like older siblings," Futa mutters under his breath. Unfortunately for him, Yuno is close enough to hear.
"What was that?" she asks.
He begins, "My older sister loves to get on my nerves. Every chance she gets, she keeps interrupting me whenever I'm doing something and going on about how I should try harder in life and make real friends. When I was younger and she first started out on here, she would try to test her stuff on me. Do I look like I'd be into that girly shit?"
"Do you not like her very much?"
Futa pauses. "Somewhat. She did take care of me when I was younger, especially after mum left. It's just sometimes, she can get real grating. H-Hey, don't tell her I said any of that!" he nervously tacks on at the end.
Yuno giggles. "Don't worry. I won't. Say, did your parents get divorced as well? For me it was my father, instead."
"Really? Yeah, they did."
"Guess we are more similar than we thought."
"Don't even try that. We're nothing alike. Besides, you're probably more like my sister."
"Yeah, Yuno-san, don't insult yourself like that," Mahiru adds, which Futa tries to ignore. But Yuno could tell. While their outward appearances were very different, they had things in common. His apathetic attitude to life, his fickle and shallow relationships, all were things he shared with her. Yet in some ways they were different. He didn't hide the way he thought about things the way she did, yet he appeared to care more about what people think about him. In a way, they were like fire and ice.
"Sorry for the wait," Ms. Natsumi hurries to her side.
"My phone," says Futa, extending an arm.
"You're so addicted to that thing," she retorts, handing it back."I'm not addicted. It's the 21st century, everyone's on their phones these days. You're not in the 90s anymore."
"You say that as if I'm some old woman. You're only, what, 13 years younger than me."
"Exactly. Ancient. Besides, you flaunt that around all the time when it's convenient, so you have no right to get mad when I bring it up. Whatever, I'm getting out of this dumb place with all of it's dumb people." Futa turns away and walks out, not taking a second glance back.
Natsumi sighs. "That boy. I'm sorry if he disturbed you in any way. Anyway, where were we? Ah, yes, you were going to describe your preferred look. Would you please continue?" Yuno starts explaining what she's planning to wear. Mahiru watches her for a moment before turning back to her own stylist for her own job.
The rest of the session passes smoothly with little interruption, and by the end her stylist turns her to the mirror. "What do you think?"
Yuno watches herself in the mirror, hardly able to recognise herself. She has not changed much, but she gives off a subtly sophisticated aura. "It's perfect," she breathes.
"That's good. That would be time, so you are free to go. If you liked any of the products used today, you can purchase them at the counter. Have a nice day, I hope you come again."
"Thank you." She moves to leave, but gets stopped by Mahiru.
"Wow. You look great," she says.
"Thanks. You look really good too," Yuno says. And she did. She was given a more youthful appearance that really brought out her features in a very flattering manner.
"Thank you. I hope my boyfriend sees this as well."
"Did your session end just now as well?" asks Yuno, surprised she's still here. Mahiru was here before her, so surely her session would have ended earlier.
"Nope, ended a while back. I waited for you."
"Really? Why?"
"I wanted to talk to you again," she says, as if it's the most obvious thing in the world. "Are you heading to your outing now?"
"I'm going home first to change. What about you? Are you going on your date?"
"Hehe, yep. Do you live nearby?"
"Uh huh. I'm assuming you do as well."
"Yes. Hey, do you want to exchange Lines?"
"Huh? Sure, why not?" Of all things to happen, Yuno didn't expect to make a new friend here. They exchange Line numbers and Mahiru promises to keep in touch with her before leaving. Yuno stands there for a second watching her go, before turning away herself. In a sense, Mahiru was different to Yuno as well, in a way that made her similar to Futa, though neither would admit to it. They were earnest, willing to be genuine with others and trust them with their hearts, while Yuno could only lie her way through life to be accepted. If Yuno was ice, Futa would be fire and Mahiru the sun.
She walks off; she needed to get back to work anyway. Whatever friendship Mahiru thinks will come out of this, it probably won't happen. By the end of the day, they'll forget about each other. Not like her compensated dating gives any warmth either, but it's not like she can quit it now. She goes home, gets ready, lies to her family about where she's going again and heads out to another lonely luxury date with a client who will refuse to see her as she is and spend the night with her to offer her temporary warmth that will fade just as quickly as it came, leaving her empty once again.
When she arrives home that night and is about to tuck into bed, she gets a message.
Hi Yuno. How was your day?
And, for a moment, she feels slightly warmer.
#milgramvalentines2024#I was playing around with a few ideas but decided I liked this one the best#I am not surprised these are the people you picked#At first I wasn't sure how to make all three of them interact but I got there in the end#I know you said you could do two of but I wanted to include everyone. I like a challenge#You did give ideas but frankly I prefer coming up with my own. I find it easier#Obviously if you said do this I would have but since it wasn't like that I decided to do things my own way#I wasn't sure if I was going to make them friends at the end of it but it felt a bit sad not to. So I did :D#Unfortunately they only talk to Fuuta once. Couldn't force them into a friendship.#They hang out with each other a lot and do fun things together and eventually help each other get over their problems.#Because it's my focus and I get to make the rules#hope you like this!#milgram#yuno kashiki#mahiru shiina#fuuta kajiyama
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I feel a little bad because my parents banked so much on me being into playing music and put me in school choirs and private music lessons and band and everything and now I just kind of can't stand all of it and want nothing to do with it
#rambles#personal#i mean i'm glad i did it i guess because it's good to do things but i feel like i'm never going to pick up a clarinet again lol#i really just don't enjoy playing instruments and definitely not in a group#and i definitely hated when there were periods where i had to do music concerts weekly#i couldn't stand all the loud noise that often it was to the point where i would have breakdowns because i hated it so much#and don't even get me started on marching band#it especially sucks because my instructors and bandmates were really nice and i liked talking to them i just didn't like playing at all
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here are some outtakes from my last edit btw
#myedits#smoking tw#harley#arthur#idk i didn't really think they fit the rest of the post tbh#but ofc i decided that *after* rendering & editing them#i have the most severe brainrot for vellichor rn#like it's so bad i can't even write anything for it. i'm just stuck thinking about them#i'm really sad actually that these two couldn't stay friends bc harley genuinely did care about arthur#even though he didn't always act like it#& i think arthur just really needed harley#like he's the one who cut artie's hair for him when arthur came out & he would literally fight anyone who tried to give artie shit about it#& he'd pick up the phone anytime arthur called#like if artie called him in the middle of the night he would literally bolt out the door#no shoes no jacket just stole his mom's car keys & went#harley was the only one who really knew about all of artie's problems#but idk they grew up & jealousy & bitterness overtook their relationship#& they'd weaponize each others' secrets#& when everything w daisy happened that was like. the final push ig#they could no longer see passed each others' flaws or differences & things just like. went to shit#i've been working on the playlist#that's why there are these thoughts in my head rn
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#lucid dreaming is the most epic and teriffying thing sometimes#I've been building it up over the years and i feel like im getting to that point where when i feel that space between sleep and alertness#i can push myself into whatever is happening and mostly be in control#for me it literally feels like im walking through a heavy veil#like that tingling static you feel when your foot falls asleep#its like you're detaching from your body and going somewhere else#i can't pick how my dream turns out i kind of just walk through and deal with whatever I'm dealing with#earlier while napping i did it and i was like in my 50s or so checked my mirror and saw my wrinkles then i went out to my car#lived somewhere else entirely and i get in the car and im going down the highway and I'm in the left lane going the speed limit and this#older guy with curlyish white hair and a peppered beard black sunglasses and a white dress shirt is driving a convertible#and he looks over at me and gets pissed that im “trying to pass him” and proceeds to try and run me off the road#my car starts to begin to flip i can feel this whoosh of air in my face and hair and right before i start tumbling i shoot up from bed#like ive had an exorcism and my hearts going like 90 bpm#it felt so real like you couldn't distinguish if it was a dream even if you tried hard enough#touch taste sight smell its all there#i stg for me lucid dreaming feels like im highjacking the bodies of alternative mes in the universe and using them as temp avatars#to experience some weird shit#lmao 😂#I don't have apnea or anything else like that so not worried there#but shit man#these have been getting pretty intense over the last few months as ive gotten better at it#ted talk info dump#no magenta here#i feel like i need a safe word for these types of posts#magenta has already taken the mantle of complaining/venting
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also, hello padisarah nonnie !! it's good to see you again :>
i decided to not answer your ask regarding the wholeeee stuff.. because i don't really care what they want to do anymore. i've done my part of speaking up about their behaviours and calling them out - which made a lot of people open their eyes for once instead of ignoring the warnings they got from me or other people. and i think that's all i want to do.
THIS WILL FORMALLY BE THE LAST POST ABOUT THEM. I will not answer any asks regarding it anymore, so if you want to make your own posts regarding those users, please use your own platforms, thank you.
as much as i encourage speaking up, i also don't want to give a flying duck about them anymore. y'know, like, i spoke up because i couldn't tolerate them and their behaviours anymore - couldn't just keep quiet when my mutuals are knowingly or unknowingly talking to shitty people like that. if they started a new blog, just let them. i don't really care anymore 😭 all i hope is that my mutuals and those that see this are more aware of internet safety and who you surround yourself with. it was already exhausting trying to warn others about them and not being listened to until i made this shit public — i'm not going to start becoming a blog that runs on discourse just so some can finally realise that this person was shitty and that person was the devil.
thanks for also caring abt me and informing me of their new url, i appreciate that a lot! it's on my blocklist now + the mutuals they've tagged on that post too 💀 if, however, i blocked you without a good reason why, or if i blocked you before you knew of this and had already cut ties with them, feel free to send me a message or ask on a different blog! i took precautionary blocks when it comes to having those kind of people as mutuals so .. yeah.
#visitors from teyvat : padisarah anon#thea answers#the post was made because i just couldn't stand the audacity of certain people still claiming to be the victim.#imagine claiming yourself as the victim when your story wasn't even straight.#venting in public but you can't even pick a plot. were you banned or did you leave willingly first without being punished?#then proceeded to say you were wrongly banned when you were literally guilttripping the mods . what did you think-#was gonna happen when you come back? did you think our arms were open then?#you left first . to avoid consequences . now that the consequences are staring right at you#you chicken out? you curse at the effects of your actions? YOUR actions? what about the people you've affected .#you say you aren't the same person you are a year ago but you only left a few months ago and you still affect the mental health of many .#our server wasn't even a mental health server. it's a positivity server. you're supposed to use it to get serotonin boosts#or boost other people. not a place for us to be your therapists and fix your problems.#i still can't get over the fact that neither of them can get their stories straight. wdym a year ago lmao. it was literally 4-5 months ago.#and you still act the same as ever. venting about how you wanted to kys or break down when a damn post unrelated to you talks-#-abt ur fav character in a scenario where they don't love you.#do you realize that the artists and writers' works you consume are for the general and not just you. what is your logic .#and i know you see this . you vague about us all the time. did you think i didn't notice.#the only mercy i've granted you was the peace for 4 months. you tell me i was dogpiling on you but you didn't change at all . so entitled t#-your ways of thinking and what you think is right.#in the first few weeks of u in that server i was the only one who thought better of u. funny how that turned out.#cuz u didn't change then and you wouldn't change now.#idk how many times i hv to repeat this but i blocked each n every ONE of them. including their moots.#and including anyone who interacted with them. im not sorry. if you were wrongly blocked then u can shoot a dm.#otherwise stay blocked and stay mad loser L.
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A “Do it for Her” meme for Avril Lavigne. I’ve loved her music since I was 13. I thought it would be fun to do this after doing one for the novelist Radclyffe Hall.
All these pictures are from Pintrest.
#there were TONS of her pictures on Pintrest so many I couldn't fit them all on here actually#I hope I picked a good mix#avril lavigne#someone has probably done something like this already tbh#this is my version#she's one of my favorite singers#do it for her meme#music#2000s#emo#punk pop#fashion#old memes#this was a popular meme a few years ago I know so I would not be surprised if several people did one of these for her already#I love avril <3#my photoshoping#this was kind of rushed but hopefully someone other than me likes this#fan art#this was one of the memes I was talking about from earlier#one of the best singer/songwriters of my generation for sure
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This took me literally all day but I feel very correct in my takes so at least that’s something.
#Fairy Tail#Queer#I like hand drawing flags other than the Transmace/femme and the mlm flag those all got copy/pasted after the first time#I'm so sorry to Makarov Cana and Guildarts I love you three but cannot for the life of me pick up on your vibes#None of the Celestial Spirits are Cis half of them don't have gender to begin with#Leo He/Him Lesbian and copycat Scorpio who came out as a He/Him Lesbian literally a week after Leo#Brothers#T4T Taurus/Lucy is my everything I need you all to understand this#I couldn't decide if Capricorn was Aro/Ace or Aro/Gay I settled on Aro/Gay but it's still very much in the air#Lucy/Natsu queer plantonics#Lily/Gajeel/Levy Polycule#I'm going insane I need you to understand#Elfman a bi man with a huge preferance for other men so excited to meet a man and have a manly wedding and grow into old men together#Falls in love with Evergreen and is mad about it for the rest of his life#You can pry Transfem/Femboy Queer Grey from my cold dead hands#That Lucy looking fit he wore in at the end of the Magic Games opened my eyes#Long skirt not shirt kinda gal I love her#I'm so tired I've got a little fever and my arms hurt but I did the thing I wanted to do today#Woo!#Neoprounoun Autigender Laxus.... I gotta write that Autistic Laxus essay man
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