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Cleansing Rain (@digitalagepulao Drabble)
This was something that came to mind at the little Tumblr post this creator prosed below! Itās short but I hope you enjoy!
A great clap of thunder shattered the birdsong and scattered them like rice grains in the wind. The rumbling beast in the sky sounded tiger-like, itās approach as soft as those jungle cats. Only itās breath, as cold and full of water, warned that the beast was about to pounce upon them.
The pilgrims upon the road looked up all with varying expressions of worry. All except one. The youngest of the pilgrims- the youngest in disciplehood that is. The stone monkey had lived longer then a man, longer then most trees, and almost as long as some great dragons of the seas. He had seen the Heavens, had waged war with Immortals and Demons alike. The stone monkey had been King, Student, Sage, and Warlord. He had seen horrors, had survived many of them, and had brought his own to those that had been in his path.
The storms breath heaved again. An exhale of a roar as the rain splattered dry dirt, as it began to create a chime of sounds as the trees leaves laughed in its wake. The earth exhaled, the smell of dampening stone, earth and dirt, rising. As Water and Earth met the Monkey stood still, caught in between.
Sun Wukong, King of Flower Fruit Mountain, Sage equal to Heaven, Warlord and almost usurper of the Jade Emperor- looked upward. While the rest of the band made for a low hanging honeysuckle Wukong stood. The rain fell like the softest breath on his skin. The first droplets were cool. A storm from the mountains blown off course. It would have been snow if it had not been brought to them. To him.
The other pilgrims frantically set up a tent for their Master, Tripitaka. He was but mortal and this cold downpour could take root as a chill and sickness. They worked quickly. All except the newest edition.
Wukong felt the wind run fingers through his fur as if greeting a new friend. The dirt and rock that had clung to him since his imprisonment beneath the mountain was brushed away. To the other pilgrims it looked as if Wukong was just standing in the rain.
The water fell in a heavy sheet, not a soft thing now. The tiger had leapt onto them and roared its rain onto that dry bit of earth. Itās fury however was a welcome thing to the stone monkey. He felt it wash over him- nature in its pure, untamed movement. The water soon had his fur sodden. Wukong leaned into the invisible claws of the storm, enjoying the rush of sensations. It was cold, the wind tried to steal at his clothes in a playful manner, and the thunder clapped his ears as his mother would if he had tried to play a prank on her.
āWhat is he doing?ā Bajie said. He was incredulous beneath his eyebrows, frowning as rain soaked his skin even beneath the tree.
āLooks like heās enjoying the rain.ā Wujing commented. The great red beard beneath his chin flowed like a river of molten fire- the rain making it stick to his shirt.
āMore like getting a bath.ā Longma spoke from beneath the branches. The horse shook itself and, with the last shiver, reverted to the dragon prince he was. Longma checked the tent flaps to make sure the ties were secure. It was a small tent and worn. They would have to get a new one soon from the damage this one had taken. From within - and before the eldest disciple could latch the last tie- the young monk poked his head out.
Tripatakas bald head already glistened with the rain as he called Bajie back to his place beneath the tree. The boar had been making its way to the stone monkey, a moody look in his eyes.
āLeave him.ā It only took those simple words to recall the boar back to the tree. The monk looked at Wukong again. He took in the stance of the monkey, how the rain was now washing over him. How he looked almost ā¦. Peaceful. Harmonious in a sense. The mortal man felt a small smile steal upon his face. Tripitaka felt he got a glimpse into a personal joy, as one a child gave when experiencing a new sight or as a man enjoying the fruits of his labour come to fruition.
āHe looks ā¦happy.ā
Longma tied the last flap closed then he, Bajie and Wujing set about erecting another tent for themselves.
Sun Wukong laid back in the green grass, making a soft bed for his head. He stared up into the storm with eyes wide, face soft. The rain continued, the sound slapping against rock and petal, against road and wood, against his fur and ears. The noise- the noise!- it was bliss. No silent stone, no unfeeling chains. Here the wind trussed and pulled at him. Here the rain cleaned away the hundreds of years of neglect left in his fur. It groomed him, awakened his senses, made him feel alive.
Wukong laughed. He laughed until his own rain fell from his eyes. He was alive. He could not die - but there were feelings - there were things worse then death. Life meant so little when one could not experience what it meant to be alive. In the rain, in the cold, in the growls of the storm, Wukong revelled in it.
He was alive. He was glad for the storm, for it covering the sudden well of feeling that made their way down his cheeks and from his eyes. Wukong didnāt stop his tears. They were not of sorrow. Not of pity. They were of joy- the joy of experiencing and touching, tasting, smelling and seeing the world again.
He was alive.
#hcwrites#hcfanfics#jttw au#for ādigitalagepulao AU#I Hope you like this it was very short and not what I intended to write to you first!#but the way you mentioned him enjoying the rain- it caught me last night so I gently wrote something before bed#very short but the joy in experiencing a rainstorm hehehe#I could see it because I LOVE RAIN#I listened to a song from Tales of Earthsea on repeat#therrus song- from the movie#it is very pretty and nice to listen to and it helped me imagine the peace that Wukong would experince in that rush of natural storm rage#jttw fanfic#jttw#journey to the west#sun wukong#zhu bajie#sha wujing#Ba Longma#tripitaka#jttw tag#mmm would this fit your Sun Clan Au or would it fit the other ?#Iāll Tag them anyway#Sun Clan Au#Expedition to the West AU#let me know if I tagged them incorrectly#also enjoy this snippet! I CANT wait to see more of your work and Iām excited#more slice of life scenarios for you and Iāll have more questions for you after work and into the next day#for now I go to work ! enjoy heheh !
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OKay last post about parkour civ I promise, but--
The parkour noobs, they dont get to see the sky. The only world they live and die knowing is one of dirt. They look up at night and they cant see the stars, they cant see anything above them. They dont have anything to reach for.
And, do think theres myths about the upper level ? Passed down from those that knew a world before the new parkour champion took over. Do they tell tales of a sky that is filled with diamonds ? That sparkle and if you reach up real high you can touch them ? Surely no one believes that, theyve never seen anything but dirt, and everybody knows theres no real way up.
#sparrow speaks#parkour civilization#evbo#parkour civilization evbo#pkciv#parkciv#sorry i feel weirdly strongly about this#I saw some art of evbo experiencing rain for the first time and I felt a despair so deep I was compelled to write this#its always the simple things I fall in love with#Because the series treats it so causually but ---\#AHHHHHH#I could write a ficlet about evbo seeing the stars for the first time
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astarion saying he doesn't like horses because they bite and shadowheart saying 'so do you, but we still keep you around'....i love my girls so much
#baldur's gate 3#i love that astarion and shadowheart are like. very different flavours of Bitch#i only wish i could have a party of 5 so that i could tale gale AND lae'zel with me#i default to gale because i love my silly sad wizard man but i really enjoy lae'zel as well#i just did the githyanki creche quest and it was so interesting to see her struggling with her perspective on her queen#i like her development so far. i just wish i'd been able to recruit her right at the beginning (i walked right past her)#i was sweating so hard trying to make sure i made the right choices#i've decided to trust the dream visitor for now but i am. very Unsure as to whether it was the right call#but raines (my character) has no real link to the githyanki so i doubt he'd trust them#he doesn't trust the dream visitor either but at least she has protected him before
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due to my autism getting bored of object shows ill be posting my winner & loser designs out of order. i made them a while ago but i really like them designing an object out of a concept rather than any set object was a fun little romp that i enjoyed a ton :-) i hope you like them
#hopefully ill come back to this project (it has been a lot of fun)#but autism is the way it is yk ?? now that im not nearly as interested in object shows im just like#i could be drawing rain world rn LOL#not design#actually will probably post everything i made for this blog that i couldnt post because i hadnt quite gotten to that character yet#we'll see#but winner has my favorite ive made LOL#loosseerrr ive kinda fallen out of love with ...... cute but i think i got a bit complicated#as i tried to kind of follow the loser is ACTUALLY SO POPULAR thing that canon has#but like with the twist that its not fucking working š#ill post them in a sec here ive got to get them together lol
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Helloooo popping in to say I love your art! Itās cute and feels soft (reminds me of when youāve got a really smooth pencil and it just ghosts across the paper) but your poses and anatomy also give it a good feeling of realism :D
classic question here; do you have anything youād say is a big influence on your art? I love seeing what people answer and trying to connect it back to the kind of thing they currently make :]
!! thank u!!! i do wish i could get more creative with angles, but im happy knowing my art gives u that feeling ^_^
I really enjoy comics!! I like poking thru graphic novels and webcomics, so I've fallen into the habit of exposing myself to lots of different styles over time that I'm fairly explorative with my art. It gives me a lot to study, especially since different artists have different strengths and preferences
I also think of myself as a simple person, so I'm not strongly attached to anything in particular... I notice a lot of artists find their ground in certain interests or aesthetics. But since I'm not really like that, I try to put a bit of myself in whatever I draw to connect with my art better. Its probably why I like taking creative liberty when making fanart lol
im also drawn to indie creative work like games and animation! they tend to be extremely varied and unique from each other, which is great since I work from my own sense of curiosity. I also hate repetition, so having things that set themselves apart visually or otherwise is something I like to look for.
#thank u for sending this in!!! i had fun answering this.. i had to think really hard so im glad it helped me do some reflection ^_^#on top of all this im a very visual person so i look at things if theyre eyecatching and then see if i like it for any of these qualities#afterwards.. so i do tend to lean to cutesy styles like soft shapes and big eyes but i wouldnt go as far as making it a calling card for my#art style since i love to keep shaking things up whenever i can. if that makes sense? or u could say im impulsive and u would be right#i rly like gigi dg and plushpon since theyve been a huge inspiration for my art over time.. as for comics i remember being really into#always raining here and colorless... its been a while since ive looked at any webcomics though so maybe i should make time to do that#BONE was one of my favorites as a kid because of the storytelling and art style even if i could never read the books in order#although im also really picky so even if i dont have a set taste there are some things i dont really find interesting like superhero comics#i do wish i had an interest that i could pour my art into instead of just drawing whatever on a whim#i think nature comes pretty close but thats more of an appreciation than smth like. birdwatching or camping or animals#so rather than wanting my art to be known for a certain thing i think ill try and be happy with drawing things i know i like and people#liking whatever that might be. shrugs#yapping#ask
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once again back at the cemetery finding all the color
#got rained out and couldnāt stay long I was sad#goin back wednesday or thurs though#should volunteer there basically live in there anyway#all seasons#in the winter less because they close too early and I'm like a chihuahua in the cold#the early dark days and cold isnāt my jam#but still went a few times to try and catch snow but didn't#I never get bored of seeing it like I could go everyday and still get that ! feeling when pulling in#gives me crazy peace and even if I'm not taking pictures it's the best place to walk and talk#we go there just to walk sometimes#anyways I love her#my spot#have to catch a moonrise from the tower this year#itās tricky to do#mount auburn#cambridge#cemetery#mine
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Song of the Day: June 1
"Easy Come, Easy Goā by George Strait
#song of the day#I lost track of time even more than I already had and forgot to call an end to Friday#Friday was essentially the same day as Thursday is the thing. song would've been 'Crucible' by Sleigh Bells#same album and all#today-yesterday (Saturday) I slept a lot but in the weirdest chunks and when I was awake mostly I was still pretty out of it#I got to see more FFXIV stuff and hear a little from some friends I've really missed#it was lovely#uh I'm trying to think what else was yesterday-today#the garden work which is why George Strait is today's song#too fuzz-brained to remember anything fancy but there's a handful of songs I could sing drunk & upside-down at the end of the world#'Easy Come Easy Go' and 'Go On' and 'I'd Just As Soon Go' and 'If It's Gonna Rain' and 'If You Can Do Anything Else'#'I Can Still Make Cheyenne' and 'Amarillo By Morning' and 'Ocean Front Property in Arizona'#always love George Strait#I made more cheddar-dill bread! it just finished cooling so that was definitely today#it's a little over-sugared because I wasn't paying attention but still pretty good#I'll be out of dill after the next loaf (until my plants grow a bit more for me. lovely things) so I'm thinking onion & mushroom soup mixes#maybe without cheese? or just with parmesan maybe. I'll have to see#more than anything what I need to do tomorrow is answer all my messages#I haven't been all of me together with free time and internet much and all these notifications are going unread#I am eternally grateful for what patient friends I have <3#I'm going to sleep now and when I wake up maybe I'll have an entire brain again
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if we meet again, somewhere far away
My dearest, I will not rush to join you in heaven, to stand by your side again.
I will not run to the arms of relief, the sweet embrace of death, to escape this pain.
I will not end my time prematurely, I will not do as you did.
I will take my time, picking flowers in the field, buying every souvenir, eating something new, meeting the people you did not.
I will take my time, in visiting the places that you wanted to go with me, smiling in the sunshine, getting wet in the rain.
I will gather these experiences, photographs, trinkets, flavours, scents, and I will present them to you, when it is all over.
I will empty my pockets before you, and show you what you willingly gave up. I will show you the laughter, the joy, the love, the light, and the sadness, the grief, and the bittersweet.
I will present it all to you, and I will tell you, smiling, "Do you see what you missed?"
And I will sob before you too, and I will ask what I've been wondering all this time, "Why didn't you want to Come with me?"
And I will have to settle for the answer I didn't want, "I didn't know there was such beauty, until you showed it to me."
And I will grab your hands, and I will look you in the eyes. "I could've shown you, if you'd asked." And we will both cry and apologize, finally understanding each other, because we will both know that I was lying.
#tw: suicide and death#someone i knew passed away a long time ago#and no it isn't the anniversary of their passing#it isn't close to their birthday or a special day at all#i miss them every day and not just on holidays and I wish there was an afterlife so I could meet them again and I could tell them#ādo you see what you left me with? do you see what you made me do without you?ā#and I want to show them the mountains and my university dorm#i want to show them my cats and introduce them to my boyfriend and I want to take them to a field of wildflowers#and I want them to feel the sunshine on their cheeks and that indescribable joy that fills in your stomach#i want them to tell me that they understand why I love living and I want them to love it too#I want them back. I want them to know the sound of rain and the view of sunsets on the ocean and the screams on rollercoasters#and the pain of breakups and the heartbreak and joy of moving away from your parents and I want them to know#I want them to know the first day of high school. I want them to know graduating from middle school. I want them to know and have known#and I am angry that they will never get a second chance because the world is cruel but beautiful#and yet i understand that what would we be if we were given a second chance at life? would we be more loving?#would we be more hateful?#there is only one chance at life. and all I want is that I could go back and I could remind them#this is your one chance. and it gets better#i promise#because i didn't understand the beauty of life until I was without you#i wish i could have shown it to you. and I will spend forever regretting that I couldn't#vent poetry#vent writing#vent poem#poetry#poem#depressing poem#tag: in case you're wondering where i went
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I am very much a Grima apologist nfjdkshdn
#rain rambles#Like yeah his actions eventually git a ton of people killed but. you're not considering something.#the fact that he has big wet puppy dog eyes and that I love him.#jdjdksjs no but actually like. the man was weak willed and manipulated into committing acts of attrocity.#his soul was bought by the promise of wealth. power. and someone to love him.#could you blame a man with nothing for taking the chance to get everything he ever wanted?#when he sees the scale of what he's done he CRIES. i dont think that single tear is because he thinks the army is beautiful#i think that tear is his realization of what he's caused. the place that was his home would fall because of his actions.#that is REMORSE#that is GUILT#that makes him far from the evil that people would call him for what he's done#he was easily manipulated. exactly the puppet saru.man wanted.#he hated Saru.man and what he had made him. that is undeniable. by the time he [spoiler] stabs Saru.man he is no longer referred to as a man#Gan.dalf doesnt even use he/him pronouns for him anymore. referring to him as 'it'#it/its are valid pronouns btw! but this was used in a dehumanizing way#It just Gets me that people are so willing to forgive Gol.lum/Sme.agle but not Grima.#sure it wasnt the ring that temped Grima and warped him. but isn't Saru.man's manipulation and abuse just as powerful?#slithering sycophant
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I gotta stop saying "left eye" first whenever someone proposes a saw trap where they remove parts of your body. I could be getting free wisdom tooth surgery
#emma posts#I just have a grudge against that eye#it affected several things about my development and current life and I'm still mad at it#fucking depth of field and perspective and shit being so hard to naturally create from my mind because I grew up with my eyes seeing TWO#DIFFERENT DISTANCES#being bad at throwing things in gym class because I was seeing in TWO DIFFERENT FOCUSES#me having a hard time at little kid baseball because of that#I was surprisingly still good a bowling though#and had gotten very good at dodging object in gym class by highschool#and so much more!#got migraines from the textbooks and computer monitors in middleschool because of that bitch#I already got headaches by the end of the day because of everything else. I did not need it worse#I used to love running in the rain but then I got glasses and it's like a car windshield#to be fair though my bottom wisdom teeth decided to grow their roots around major nerves and need a specialist#the top two could be ripped out easily though. they even broke the surface on their own! They just came out at a 90 degree angle...#which makes them basically useless and hard to clean#I've managed so far though! My dentist was impressed#I'm getting a good grade in teeth
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i genuinely feel so bad for my ex's gf though because she's out here posting on her insta that it's their 3 month anniversary but boyo is making me playlists with unrequited love songs and posts stuff about being nostalgic about when we were dating, keeps complimenting how i look, and literally yesterday was telling me he still has the sticker we stole from the library where we held hands and cuddled like. he's such an important friend to me but really i guess i will have to cut him off (again) bc i thought we were both over this but apparently not and it's just going to hurt a lot of people if i don't
#also in all honesty i am scared that i will do something stupid without realising it or while in a not very lucid state#like once after we broke up i let him fall asleep on me around 4am then we watched the sun rise together until i finally left to find#my own bed#like i knew i shouldn't be doing that but i hadn't slept in over 24 hours and#he was so sad and so was i and i just needed someone but he just needed me. and we really did seem like we could but perfect#but yk what this relationship has taught me a lot and still does because to him? we should have been soulmates and i get why#i mean we read the same poetry and cry at the same music and he loves it when i infodump about greek mythology and i love it when he sends#pictures of his cats and our art is so desperate for another person to See Us and we danced in the rain once#and it was one of the most beautiful moments of my life#but it's never going to be right and idk he can't accept that i don't and never will and never have loved him. i'm sorry it seems perfect#but it's a good reflection moment for me too in all honesty yk#bc the boy i'm obsessed with also could have been someone fated for me i mean#what's the chance we live on the same street twice despite having travelled the world?#what's the chance he and i-both very private and solitary individuals-immediately felt we could confide in each other?#but apparently that doesn't mean shit to him#and idk maybe he's also just as sorry and as apologetic and maybe even a little#heartbroken over it#just like i am w my ex but. idk#i do not know#anyways once i get the motivation to write a full novel then it's over for everyone#until then you get my shitty journal musings#blue screams into the void
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back from good olā WY. hereās some pictures from my travels :)
#it was!!! so wonderful!!!!#like. it rained? but it was nice to experience rainy weather up there#iāve only been in WY when itās sunnyā¦ it was really cool seeing it shrouded in clouds and fog#and it made it so cool outside to ahh it was so nice. such a great change of pace#at least from the constant triple digits in cali š®āšØ#i camped at wolf creek- ^pictured above. right off of snake river#it was great. had dutch oven chicken and rice the first night and sāmores on both nights#and in the morningā¦ iād wake up and grab the binoculars and run outside#so i could watch the bald eagles across the river. iād wake up and hear them calling#and this morning!!! i saw two of them chasing each other#theyād fly way up high and back down in seconds i had to watch them without the binoculars#i couldnāt keep up otherwise#it was so lovelyā¦ i had such a great time. i canāt wait to go back#especially because next summer!! iām gonna bring my little brother with me#& weāre gonna go to YELLOWSTONE!!!!!!!#iāve been but he hasnāt. i canāt wait to show it to him#also!!! that dandelion above^. was LEGIT the biggest dandelion iād ever seen.#liam and i wished on it together. top 10 yaoi momence#& SPEAKING OF BIGā¦ā¦.#i saw just the most MASSIVE slugs last night. they were longer than my hand!!!!!!!!!#they came out when it rainedā¦ two of them moving along one in front of the other#they had black spotsā¦ i wish i got pictures but liam was taking a video of them and#i was using the flashlight on my phone so he could have good lighting (it was very darkā¦)#maybe iāll get him to send me the video ^_^!!!
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the fact that no game in existence activates a primal, deep-rooted fear in me like rain world, somehow
#this is all /pos btw like i fucking love this game and i think it's fascinating that it does this when no other game i've played does#but like. i did the ascending without max karma ending#real tears. i cried in fear-#THE VOID WORMS SCARE ME SO FUCKING BAD MAN#like there are no two areas that make me more afraid than submerged superstructure and the void sea#leviathans fucking HORRIFY me#AND THE FACT THAT APPARENTLY THERE IS A CANON REASON TO VOID WORMS AND LEVIATHANS LOOKING SIMILAR?????????#WHATS THE REASON. WHATS THE REASON ššš#LIKE. I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH THAT THIS FEAR OF THE VOID WORMS I HAVE FEELS LIKE A PRIMAL VISCERAL FEAR LIKE THIS IS FROM DEEP WITHIN MY SOU#I DON'T KNOW WHAT COULD HAVE CAUSED IT BUT THEY CERTAINLY ACTIVATE SOMETHING IN MY BRAIN!!!!!!#i'm literally refusing to do any ascension endings i don't have to do because fuck that no thanks š#i was planning on doing a save file with all ascension endings too when i first got the game lol#also like no other game activates my agoraphobia like rain world does#i think it has something to do with how the camera moves#and how when you're in a large room there's absolutely no way to see the entirety of it#so there's no way of knowing if you're really alone#and when there might be a leviathan swimming around this room with you just outside of view#ohhhhhhhhhhhh boy
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You know i was thinking kiryu getting introduced to the wii would immediately throw it as hard as he can at the tv screen but actually he would wear the strap because the instructions said to do so and then when hes doing bowling hes playing for a while until he suddenly crushes it in his hand because he got too focused and clenched his fist
#Yakuza loveblog#kiryu wears the strap its strap on time he says he puts on the strap he wears the strap hear me listen to me he wears the strap#i was olaying hylics too just now but i got too scared because of the maze portion#like ahh no no no no no. theres monsters too. and its two am naoayghhhh#i believe in my heart kiryu just smashes things in his hands. like anything from controllers to eggs to lighters. like he could be holding#a can of coffee and he starts to get lost in his thiughts and he looks down and his chest is covered in leaked coffee and the can is#slicing his hand like i think he should have dinner with tachibana and hes swilling his wine fancy style and tachibana says something that#pisses him off and he just cracks the stem of the glass between his fingers. like sometimes he might not even be angry he just squeezes his#fist and somethimg gets destroyed just like hiw my hands unclench randomly his hands will clench up randomly like holding harukas hand and#she goes Ouch !!! and hes like (snoaped out of his thiughts) whuh- oh im sorry haruka. and shes like that hurt ...#dont worry she will live. but also i love the idea of kiryu shattering a lighter in his hand because he was looking at the clouds trying to#determine if it will rain. thats why he needs expensive metal ones but he keeps losing them so he buys the chesp plastic ones. he has the#hardest life ever. ihey how good do you think kiryu is at making bread i bet he can knewd some crazy dough with his grip strength i think#he would be happier baking befause theres a lot of downtime involved he can just put it in the oven and reread the instructions while its#baking ... plus i think he would look sweet with flour on his hands and cheeks ... kissing him hee hee ....#same thing with his jaw he climbs up a ladder with a lightbulb in his mouth and then he just hites down and shatters the butt end#i think it would be nice to wstch him spit glass and his poor lips are all cut up .... what a handsome young man would love to see him#crying in frustrtion because this is the seventh time its happened this month and he wishes his body woildnt spasm randomly
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#i just likeā donāt want to do anythin anmore lol#im so tired and have no sense of time i never know what day it is or what time it is i feel so lost#maybe iāll just rot away in my room#i need to cry but the tears never come i always cry when i dont want to#let me fucking cry argrhrhggg#rotting away in my room forever probably gonna spiral but its fine i whatever i have water so peace and love i guess#im just so deeply sad and iāve been just unhealthily scrolling on social media i need to stop instagram is so stupid for making reels#never going on instagram reels actually just say no#ugh im literally so sad and dont want to do anything i keep seeing nature and its just so beautiful and i think about a life i could have#i think and think about it and want to cry because itās the most ideal life i could ever hope for but its just a silly fantasy#i know iāll never actually have a life i want#i just want to live in a cottage and paint and be good at it and go for morning walks when the sun rises and afternoon walks when its rains#and pick flowers and go home and make soup and have a nice room to get all comfy and why am i even saying this lol#with the way the worlds turning out with everything unfortunately revolving around money iāll never have an ideal life#it just feels like my whole life is just crumbling down around me#anyways im like totally fine by the way im literally so silly all of the time
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#a mystery grab-bag of thoughts:#sometimes i just want to send you dumb memes out of nowhere and hope that the randomness and absurdity will make you laugh#when i do my daily crossword puzzles i wish we were sitting across from each other racing to see who finishes first#(but working together on the really difficult ones because god knows Iāll never get a Sunday NYT by myself)#i think of you often but especially when itās raining#Iāve taken to making a pie every weekānothing fancy just something in a graham cracker crust that sets in the fridge#(so far i have one olā faithful recipe and Iāve had a couple of failures but they were still tasty)#my phone sometimes suggests a selection of pictures of you and it used to make my heart stop a little bit#but now i just look at your face and smile and think about how lovely it was to see you every day; Iāll cherish that#i never thought you were a āmedia bullyā but if I could return the favor Iād urge you to watch amcās interview with the vampire#itās so GOOD and so GAY and i have a small crush on Eric bogosian that goes in the same category as my crush on Greg Davies#and itās quite funny in places like a dry humor that leans surreal/absurd#i dunno i think youād appreciate it even though youāre not a horror person#i wish i could hold your hand and kiss your fingers and probably nibble on them a bit#(what can i say? Iām a cat)#i made some new glitter bottles this week and they look so pretty in the sun#today my Spanish lesson was about telling time#i have no problem remembering Āæa quĆ© hora? but get tripped up on the format of answering#(son las (hora) y (minutos) and son (minutos) para las (hora) and i could get around it by only ever answering on the half hour)#Iām not like *confident* about my Spanish but Iām picking up more than whatās in English captions when i watch stuff which is neat#i do wonder if itās sad or weird to still feel you here with me in my heart#but i think when someone is precious to you time and distance canāt really touch that love#anyway Iām going to go do my dishes instead of blithering here all night lol#sending you care and love and sunshine and flowers my darling dearest#š#š»
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