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mageofseven · 1 year ago
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My Taste in Fictional Men??
Honestly, talking about Twisted Wonderland has got me thinking about my taste in fictional men.
In Obey Me, I crush hard for Lucifer and Satan.
In Twisted Wonderland, I am madly freaking in love with Leona, Malleus, and to a smaller extent, Azul.
What do all of these men have in common???? I'm not sure.
The best answer I can come up with is they are depressed and lonely and I'm just like?????
Really????
Are depressed and lonely men really my type?????
Send help please for I am spiralling with this information.
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meamiki · 6 months ago
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[reverse entry AU]
so glad the work week is over!
no more meetings!
what do you mean its only tuesday.
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smokbeast · 11 months ago
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Seeing allot of trans stuff lately. I don't do this but obviously trans people and all people of LGBTQ+ are welcome here!! If you are a terf or sick mf I will stomp on you till you die you are not welcome here.
Also merlot, frak and soma are trans! Allot of my ocs are of the queer skellies and my goobies alike so hehe :]
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dadfag · 2 months ago
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I am 26 years old and ngl guys I've been feeling a lil behind with life rn like im literally just a barista at a coffee shop and its fun and kinda easy (for me, im not working at a large chain, just a local chain) but like idk I kinda want an Adult ™ job with like benefits and weekends off
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badboysupr · 7 months ago
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“ i’m not sure i should leave you alone. ” 👊🏽
@kindofuneven || meme
The laugh he expels is probably too high-pitched. More of a puh! that sounds extremely prepubescent and therefore extremely cool as he doesn't even attempt to hide the grin spreading across his cheeks. Leo, for a few lingering seconds, doesn't even look at the poor little Roman boy, but when he does . . . it's with a very unrushed, very languid cock of his head over his shoulder.
And a pathetic look that screams, Oh, buddy . . . Buddy, please. That's so cute.
“Why, did the other guys warn you or something?” he ventures, and quickly deepens his voice into something authoritative as he mimes, “'Keep an eye on that one, Scotty!' 'Ooh, that one might blow up a thing or two, Scotty!' I mean—!” The hand he flourishes nearly drops his wrench, but he tightens his fingers around it and instead uses the tool as a good gesturing stick. “They're not wrong. I'm pretty good at that, but I'm also equally good at actually . . . creating things—? And yet people always seem to forget.”
Tsk tsk . . . So much unrecognized talent.
Eventually, he turns all the way around, shoves his welding goggles up to the crown of his head to get a better look at his company. Man, why is he so strung up all the time . . . ? “Hey, dude . . . It's good, okay? I'm not about to cause any problems, so you can just . . . chill. What do moms say—?” Leo taps his wrench to his lips. “Your face is gonna get stuck like that . . . ? Something something, blah blah blah. I'd hate to see that happen to you, so.”
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sick-as-a-dog · 1 year ago
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#just the thought of him not loving me the same way and amount i love him makes me want to slice myself up#ill only stop cutting when i cant feel anything anymore not pain not love just emptiness#just want to be with master but dont want to make him stressed out because im too dependent and reliant on him#why cant i just feel my emotions the right way or a normal amount or at least less strong? why am i like this?#why cant i love like a human and why must that shit be so complicated? why am i so feralminded?#and why cant i feel my loves separately? should i even? or am i not understanding it right? why do i feel everything wrong?#why must i love him like a wild animal loves its lifelong mate? but also like how that animal loves the taste of prey and hungers for it?#like a dog loves its master and feels the unending loyalty and unconditional love overtake remaining wolflike instinct#like a best friend i also wish to do stereotypical romantic and domestic things with and so much more#i want to be bound to him in any way possible marriage and collars and microchips and blood pacts and marking and such#but im so scared he wont want that anymore i want to stop feeling i need to completely stop feeling and worrying but i cant#even when im emotionally numb i still feel that canine love for him even if just a glimmer#i wish i knew what he thinks love is and what hes comfortable with and how he felt and experienced love and if he still loves me like#he did before he came out as aro....im scared to bring up how calling himself aro and me his exception actually hurts and idk if i should#tbh him saying hes aro yet says he loves me feels like when a close friend keeps saying they dont have any friends while youre right there#like my existence makes his identity a lie or a betrayal to him i cant shake the gross feeling that hes forcing himself to stay for my sake#....hell am i even his exception anymore? what did he mean by same amount but not the same? what changed? did anything actually change?#wish i could figure out what love is and how to feel it right..esp dont understand romantic or queerplatonic or anything its all confusing#i want to take on the world with him and stop being an emotional wreck so we can fuck anyone together like we swore to#i just want to live the rest of my life by his side and i want to experience all we can together#picnics and movies and living together and sharing a nest and....idk i just want to be with him forever and hope he still feels the same#it would literally kill me if he ever left or fell out of love i think i would lose whats left of my mind and end up bleeding myself dry#i want us to be together forever and never ever stop being mates but i cant help but be terrified and confused and hurt
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flippinpancakes64 · 3 months ago
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This may be a weird request, but can you do The Cullens x Cat like! Reader, the reader just scratches at random things? And just very grumpy.
The Cullens with a Cat-Like! Reader
Hello! As a cat owner myself I feel pretty prepared to answer this so hopefully it’s good
Also, I’m going to be moving into my dorm room soon! I’m so excited and kinda scared too, but what that means for you guys here is that I might not be able to write as much. I’ll be sure to keep you all updated though!
Thank you for requesting and I hope you enjoy!
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Edward:
He doesn’t immediately connect your behavior to a cat
He hasn’t been around too many of them tbh
The first time he tried to give you a hug and you batted him away, he was shocked
Just sort of stood there like 😟
He thinks it’s cute when you’re grumpy though
He likes to just sit next to you and smile until you give in and cuddle with him
And you can scratch him all you like, if you want
It’ll hurt you more than it hurts him so go for it
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Alice:
She’s vaguely cat-like in her own regard
Graceful, quiet, beautiful
She got all the good parts I guess
She’s definitely the first one to call you a grumpy kitty
It happens when you’re a little annoyed and she comes in for a kiss only for you to twist your head away
She giggles and calls you her grump cat
She learns your limits pretty quick
But she still pushes you a little ❤️
And as long as you don’t scratch at her clothes she doesn’t care
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Jasper:
In public you would think he’s more cat-like
Quiet, reserved, on edge
But in private he is a golden retriever
He loves to cuddle, thrives on your attention, and just wants you to be happy
You two are opposites
But he can tell when you’re just being annoying/having fun versus when you’re actually upset
And he’s really good at respecting your boundaries
If you don’t want to cuddle, don’t worry he can go do something else
And as far as scratching at things, you do you
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Rosalie:
Cat girl
She doesn’t like to be smothered all of the time
And sometimes she wants to be inside of your skin
And she’s very vocal about when she wants her space
If you’re too close, she pushes you away
And if she wants attention she is all over you
So you two compliment each other perfectly
It’s pretty great actually
Only she doesn’t scratch
Unless she’s pissed at something
Then she might to break a tree or two
Two peas in the cat tree over here
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Emmett:
Complete opposite
If Jasper is half golden retriever this man is pure-bred
He wants to cuddle, he wants kisses, he needs to be around you 24/7
He doesn’t care if you’re grumpy
He thinks it’s kinda funny actually
He loves when he lifts you up into a hug and you just hang there with a frown on your face
He acts fake offended when you scratch him tho
“What’d I do to deserve that, grumpy?”
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Esme:
She gets a little hurt sometimes
When she comes in for a hug and you push her away
Or bat away her face when she comes in for a kiss
Or if you scratch at her arm
And when you’re grumpy even thought you don’t seem to have a reason
But then sometimes you come right up to her and hold her so tight
And other times you just come up next to her and latch onto her
She’s getting whiplash
Just more confused than anything
Her first thought is that she did something to upset you
Please be nice to her :(
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Carlisle:
He doesn’t take anything personally
He doesn’t want to change anything about you or make you feel bad for the way that you are
So he doesn’t care if you push him away or turn your face from him
That’s just how you are
Same deal if you go from wanting seemingly nothing to do with him to all of a sudden sitting in his lap
He also doesn’t care if you scratch shit
He only cares if it’s really important stuff
Like documents he needs or vintage items that are one of a kind
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Vampire! Bella:
She has some of these traits as well
She doesn’t like to be smothered all of the time
And other times she likes to lay on top of you
So you are both pretty similar in that regard
Only difference is the scratching really
And even then she doesn’t really mind
In fact, once you started doing it, she started scratching stuff too
Yall have fun outside scratching the trees
And if Bella knocks a couple of them over… that’s for you two to know the forest rangers to never find out
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lovely-peace · 4 months ago
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After last night...
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Summary: After meeting and talking with a certain brown haired boy with those lovely scars in the hospital wing, well let's just say you think about giving people a chance.
Pairing: Remus Lupin x Gryffindor!reader
Part 1 Part 2
I think this is the last part tbh but tell me if you want more. 2.1k wc.
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"And he really said that??" Amy looked at me as if he proposed.
"Yeah, I guess." This was so confusing, I couldn't make anything out of it.
"You guess?!!" I shushed Amy, since other people at the table were looking at us. And we shouldn't be so loud on a monday morning at the breakfast table.
"I mean, I don't really know what he means with that and-"
"You don't know what he means? Bi- I mean- Stupid, he means what he says! He wants to know you!"
Her eyebrow raised a bit.
"But-" I searched for the words in my head but there was only blank. "Why?"
Amy facepalmed hard and sighned. "You are hopless. Really hopless."
"Kinda harsh." I whispered.
Amy smirked as she looked behind me. And as if to throw me in a cave of waiting lions, she said: "James, Sirius! So good to see you."
I felt myself tensing at the exclamation of their names and at the fact they were standing not so far behind me.
Amy's smirk widened. "You know my friend and I were just talking about your friend Remus. How is he? We were kinda worried. Is he still in the hospital wing?"
Oh sweet death. Sometimes I wonder, when will you release me fron this torture? This torture which is also called embarrassment or humiliation.
I heard James' laughter.
"Oh, are you now? I will tell him that." I turned around to see him smirking at me. "He is out of the hospital wing, no worries. He got something else that's keeping him in his bed."
Sirius cleared his throat. "And before you think anything not so good of him, he got something we call cowardritis. He's a scaredy-cat."
Amy leaned forward. "And why does he has this sickness?" I could hear her smirk.
"Well…" James raised his hand towards his hair and tried to tame it, which would never succeed. "He may has said something he's embarrassed about."
"To someone, he doesn't know what to expect from." Sirius coughed and quickly looked away from me. But his smirk said more than any word could.
What should I do? I didn't even know him. Like, at all? And I didn't know if he was even serious about anything he said.
"Well.." I started. And I almost just stopped at that. Like always I almost just ignored everything around me. But this time-
"Tell him to get well soon from me."
. . .
James and Sirius stared at me as if I said I wanted to marry a Werwolf. Both of them slowly looked at each other. And then there it was. The smirks of them slowly grew.
"But oh! look at the time!" I grabbed my things and stood up. "We have DADA next, Amy! Can't be late!" I hurried down the hall as I heard Amy say:
"Don't mind her guys. She's just shy."
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"Soooooooo…" Amy slowly catched up to me. "You and Remus, huh?"
"Amy." I tried to stop her, but who in this world could ever stop Amy?
"Well, you wouldn't look bad together, I must say that." I could hear her devious smirk. "And he is even tall! And has those brown curls…"
"AMY!" I hid my face between my hands. "Please."
"What? I'm just saying, I can understand you. He IS handsome. And even though the bookish silent guy is not my type, I can understand it."
She sounded so proud of herself. Somehow it made me laugh.
"And those scars? They do make him mysterious and cool."
I couldn't stop my laughter escape my hands. "Amy, Stop."
"Who are you talking about?"
Never in my life. Did I turn so fast. Did my laughter die so fast. Never.
Marlene grinned at us. "Perhaps Remus Lupin?"
Amy looked at me and laughed. I bet I had the most horrified expression of the century. This scene could be out of my worst nightmares.
"What did you hear?" My voice was shaking as I looked at her.
Her grin widened even more. "Well that answers my question."
And with that she just turned and walked away.
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"Please get a hold of yourself! This is really pathetic." Amy shook her head as I hid myself under my blanket in our dorm.
"She heard us."
I could practically hear her rolling her eyes. "Yeah she did."
"And she thinks I would date Remus."
"I mean is she wrong?"
I threw my blanket to the other side of ny bed and looked up at Amy.
"What?"
"What?" She looked at me clueless and I sighed. I grabbed my blanket again and hid my face again.
Amy almost groaned, like one of those alpha males in these fanfictions- and that was ridiculous, I mean we aren't in a fanfiction.
"Would dating him be so bad?"
I looked up at her again. "What? No, of course not. That's not my point."
She tilted her head. "Then what is it?"
I don't want anyone making fun of me. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want that.
But I do want to know him.
"I don't know."
Amy raised an eyebrow. "Come on, let's go to the common room."
"Why?" My blanket felt so warm.
"Maybe they are there."
And as if that was convincing me to go there. As if the option of seeing his beautiful deep eyes again would make me leave my bed and go the stairs down to the common roo-
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"Oh look who the cat dragged in!" Sirius' voice startled me a bit as we came into the room. But he smiled nicely at us and waved us towards their group. James, Lily, Marlene, Sirius and, well he was there.
I tried not to look at him too much, but his eyes were like magnets for my eyes. But somehow I managed to look away.
"Wanna join us? We planned a little get together. And we even managed to get food from the kitchen."
I'm really pathetic.
And my mind was constantly screaming at me. This would never end well, at some point I would be only a joke for them. My mind was going crazy.
But something somehow changed. I don't know what it was. But my mind wasn't the loudest in my body.
No my heartbeat was going crazy.
"Oh, that sounds wonderful!" Amy smiled and looked at me like a mother trying to get her kid to say something. And this kid was struggling. I didn't want to sound mean, but also not to desperate. How do you even talk normal with new people???
I cleared my throat. "Yeah, that wouldn't be so bad I guess."
OH MY GOD I WAS SOUNDING LIKE ONE OF THESE TRY HARDS
But somehow no one looked at me weird. Lily even smiled at me and nodded next to her towards an empty spot on the couch.
And on this side of the couch was next to it the chair Remus was sitting in, but that was obviously beside the point.
Amy sat down next to lily and I sat next to her.
"Sooooo…" James looked at me and Amy. "Why were you two coming down at this late hour?"
"Oh we just wanted a little bit of fresh air, you know?" Amy smiled as she said this lie. And we all ignored that in the common room wasn't even fresh air.
"Well we were just talking about our favorite foods!" Marlene started and looked at me mischievously.
"But didn't we just talk about Re-" James started but Marlene cut him off while looking at him with a look that could kill.
"What's your favorite food?" she looked at me expecting.
"My favorite food?" I blinked two times, somehow suprised that I was already asked something.
"Yeah, or maybe like favorite sweet or something you just really like to have as a snack."
"Well…" That wasn't a so easy question to be honest. But the first thing that came to mind,when I was sitting here… I even smelled it… "Chocolate. I really like Chocolate. Like chocolate cookies or cake."
I laughed. "I love chocolate since I first ate one of these chocolate frogs. Blew my mind."
Now everyone was looking at me like I said something really really mind blowing. Like chocolate was a extraordinary answer, what it really wasn't.
And even those brown eyes, which color reminded me of light chocolate, widened a bit as I looked at him after I said that.
I cleared my throat again. "Well, I dont eat only chocolate obviously. It's one of my favorite sweets, like who doesn't like chocolate?"
I looked around searching for a reason they were being so weird, but I only saw knowing smirks.
"Me." Amy said and smiled at me knowingly. I rolled my eyes.
"How could I forget, your highness?" I remarked at her and she laughed quietly.
"Well…" Marlene looked at me again and I just knew she was not finished with her Cross-examination. "Do you like Valentine's Day? I mean it is next week."
Oh. The conversation was going in this direction.
"It's.. I don't know, I mean… It's not bad, I guess?" I couldn't keep the nervous laughter inside of me.
"What do you mean with not bad?" Marlene really seemed like one of these Aurors trying to get information out of me.
"I mean I don't really know how it really feels like… Well no, that sounds dumb, that's not how I meant it! I mean I… Just never, like... had a date on Valentine's Day, so it's not really a special day for me."
Oh my god was I a rambling mess. Why was I even talking that much??? AMY SAVE MEE
"You never were taken out, on Valentine's Day?" James asked bluntly and Lily shot him a scolding look.
"Yeah, I guess." I mumbled.
This was going horribly. I was only making a fool out of me. After my embarrassing monolog I couldn't look into Remus direction, because this was almost humiliating.
I tried to subtly sink more into the couch and more into invisibility.
"I mean, of course we both spend time together in hogsmeade on Valentine's Day."
Amy slid into the conversation like the lord's savior himself. "Then we drink while looking at all these happy couples. And sometimes there is even Drama! It's very amusing."
"Would you like to-" Marlene started and I tensed. But then…
"Marlene stop it, you are making her uncomfortable."
Was Remus' voice always this beautiful? It was so soothing and still steady.
What was I even thinking?
Marlene looked at me now a bit embarrassed. "Sorry, I got a bit carried away. You can just say if I'm being to much."
"But then you could never say anything?" Sirius looked at her teasingly.
"Hey!"
I felt myself smiling now and I couldn't believe it. I was beginning to enjoy myself here. I was sitting next to the marauders and I was laughing. What has gotten into me?
"Well if we are talking about Valentine's Day, I find it very unpleasant." Lily stated while yawning.
"The overpriced chocolate with someone -" a glare shot at James. "Making always a big deal over a day on which we still have school."
"The so called 'big deal' is called being romantic." James looked at her with a hand on his chest. "But you wouldn't know anything about it, wouldn't you Evans?"
"Oh please, the stuff you do isn't romantic, just embarrassing." She shot back unimpressed.
James gasped loudly, while Sirius loudly laughed. And I couldn't help myself and chuckle.
And then I felt it.
His look.
I knew he was looking at me I could feel it. But it didn't bother me. No it just made my heartrate go up and I felt lightheaded.
Crazy, right?
It felt so cosy here, next to Remus the fire. The presence made it so warm here.
"Do you want a bit chocolate?"
I looked to my left and almost drowned in those eyes. WHAT WAS HAPPENING, WHY WAS I SO…??
"Me?" I dumbly asked. He looked down and I almost regretted.
"Well you did just say you liked it? And I have more than enough." He held chocolate towards me but still didn't meet my eyes again.
I softly took it while my mind was silent for the first time as I brushed his hands.
"Thank you."
He didn't react at first but then just nodded.
For someone who said he wanted to know me last night, he was really not so social now. But somehow that didn't bother me. It was a start.
"What's your favorite food?"
I was not a fast person. In fact I would always take things very slow. I mean in what reality are you dating someone after two conversations?
For me? Unthinkable.
He doesn't have to tell me if he likes Valentine's Day or not. He doesn't need to tell me what he likes in girls. Not in our second conversation.
But with food you can really start to know a person, you know?
That's what I searched. A start.
"Chocolate."
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hazashiovo · 8 months ago
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Heyy can I have Korra x reader, where they're kinda in a situationship, where Korra ends up confessing everything with a fluffy ending
I kinda see it happening tbh,she can be so awkward sometimes,it's funny.
Gen:angst to comfort ,kinda situationship, Korra worried she would hurt you.
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Korra x Gn!Reader
After defeating Amon,Korra started doubting the idea of becoming something more with you.
It's not that she lost feelings for you but after all that happened this feeling took place in her gut. Always there to remind her that if she gets close to you, danger would always lurk in the dark.
And she started distancing herself, training more just to resist the urge to be with you. But it was so hard.
Whenever you'd show up just to see her, the feeling in her gut would grow , almost competing with the feeling in her heart.
So you began worrying, after all you were her best friend more than that. When she started distancing from you,you felt hurt.
You understood that her position as the Avatar would put you and your friends in danger,but it didn't mean that you would leave her,or allow her to leave you just because she believes it's safer this way.
What you have to do,is confront her,it's all just a big mess that hopefully you could fix.
And to top it all of, you couldn't just let things as they are. Because every time you think of Korra and you, the same question echoes in the depths of your mind.
What are we?
You're more than friends you know this much from the way the two of you treat each other...but also less than lovers.
So here you are,ready to confront the avatar for ghosting you after everything you've been through.
When you showed up at her door, Korra had this confused expression on her face, probably wondering where did you come from out of the blue or something.
But she knew,that she couldn't just ignore you forever,and hope for the best outcome.
It was just a matter of time before you came knocking at her door demanding answers,and the time is here.
"Speak to me Korra,what have I done that made you decide you don't want to be my friend anymore?" Your pleading eyes begged her to look at you, to tell you the truth. But the girl had a hard time finding the right words,her silence stressing you out more than you expected.
"It's not about you,I mean it is ,but not something that you did." You huff annoyed.
"Then talk to me! You can't just shut yourself away from me and call it a day!" Your hands tangle in your hair, already feeling like ripping your hair out.
Korra groans annoyed,her attitude starting to match with yours.
"If it's safer to shut myself out,then be it." She crosses her arms avoiding your gaze.
You move closer to her, "It doesn't matter if it's safe or not,you could handle a blood bender but not me?" She feels it,the change in your voice.
Softer sounding now,she also saw the close proximity between the two of you,and she barely resists pulling you in and never letting you go, bad Korra,no no.
"That's different,you're my friend. I could never bear the thought of losing you because of me." She averts her eyes, pinning her gaze on the ground, anything to ignore the puppy look in your eyes. Afraid that if she looks when would no longer be able to hold back her need for you.
"Don't do that,don't decide what's best for me. I'm very capable of doing that myself."
You sigh, touching her arms in a comforting manner. You won't allow her to give up on this,on what you have.
"People got hurt because of me. Beifong lost her bending for a while,and Amon almost got to you! I'm not good for you." She furrows her brows ,eyes narrowed at you. This is the best thing she can do to you.
"Korra...that's not true, nothing that happened was because of you,and even so,you made it right!" Your hands find their way to her cheeks,gently caressing it with your thumb in a soothing manner.
"What if something happens to you and I'm not there to save you,or what if you get harmed because of me?" She sighs,her hands coming around your wrist.
You smile,"Don't live in fear because of a 'What if',I'm here and I'm not going anywhere."your head meets hers lovingly.
That was all Korra needed to hear to kiss you. Her lips meet yours faster than you could register,one hand going around the back of your neck while the other is sneaked around your waist, pulling you even closer to her. Your chests stuck to another, you're able to feel her heart beating,and you could bet she can feel yours to .
This is a new page for you two,and nothing is going to tear it apart.
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I had another writer's block while writing this😅
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starillusion13 · 5 months ago
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Am I late?
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Pairing: roommate! Mark x f! reader (ft. bff Haechan & Mark's brother Taeyong)
Genre: Fluff, slight angst, mafia
Warning: getting lost in an unknown place, missing your best friend (lol), having fever, confession, confusion of feelings, secrets and heartbroken. idk what warnings should I give when the story has none.
W.C: 7.3k Network: @k-vanity
Basically I was drunk when I wrote this(not really), I just love Mark too much and I was drooling over him most of the time instead of writing the fic. I had totally kept this fic aside to write down the NCT series (tbh I forgot I had this in my draft). the thought for this plot only came to mind after I had saved all the pics from the day of the third picture above so dont judge the fic too hard.
“Yeah, I have reached the place. You can cut the call, Hyuck.”
You smiled into the call and stood in front of the new building, titling your head back to look at the tall view. The buildings towering over you and you swore that was what you really expected when you decided to move to states for your university. But leaving Haechan behind all alone back in your home town was miserable.
“But how am I supposed to know that you are safe out there?” he asked you and coughed a little.
“Hyuck. Are you sick?” your worried tone made him smile and he hugged the pillow tighter. Curling on his bed, he pressed the phone to his ears. The only source which felt like you are still with him. even if you were far away from his embrace, he could still feel your warmth. As if just a second ago, you last hugged him and bid goodbye. it’s been a day when he last saw you in person and don’t know again when he would get the chance.
“just a little. Leave that for now and tell me. Is the place safe for you?”
You were still worried as you were always the one who took care of him and now you were not there, how will that clumsy ass take care of his own?
You sighed into the call, “this place is safe for outsiders and I have a roommate. I can tell him if I feel unsafe about anything. Don’t worry, please. I want you to take care of yourself until I go back there again. I want you to be healthy and fine…for me. Please.”
“For you, I am always fine.” He chuckled and added, “Also, I have to take care of myself as you are not here like always. I will miss you a lot. Better take care and if your roommate disturbs you for anything. Just call me and-“
“and? We are far away, Hyuck. Don’t forget that you can’t come to me anytime you want like before.” You sadly chuckled, pulling your bag towards your block and looking around. Arriving in front of the lift, you were still smiling.
“y/n…you will not forget me, right?” his voice was low and almost sounded like a whisper. He was trying hard to hold back his tears.
You bit your lips, “go to sleep, Hyuck. It’s already late at night.”
“I want to hear your voice more.” He mumbled to himself but still you heard it. You chuckled and pressed the button for the 9th floor.
“Bye. I need to get into the lift and then survive the rest of the day. Please, take medicines and rest. You have to go to work tomorrow.”
He hummed, “Bye……I l-“
You cut the call before getting inside the call. But on the other side of the call, a tear fell from his eyes.
I love you, Y/n.
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*Ding*
Stumbling upon the things scattered on the floor, the boy rushed towards the door. He was rubbing his eyes and without looking into the peephole, he swung open the door, revealing you standing at the doorway awkwardly. He frowned at you and looked around to grasp the situation.
Why was a girl standing at his footsteps and even with luggage?
He scratched his neck and smiled, “um…you?”
You were still shocked with the image in front of you. You gulped at the sight and when you caught his sleepy eyes, you looked away. Can’t he understand? You mentally prayed for him to get away from there but a second voice made the man in front of you look back inside the room.
“ Is this your new chick?” he yawned and eyed your bags, obviously checking you out in the way. He smirked and went towards the table, a little visible to you. As far as you were told, you have one roommate then why there’s two of them?
The boy with round eyes and a smiley face in front of you was staring at the boy at the table and then turned towards you, “hello! Do I know you? Do you need some help?”
You blinked a few times and checked the apartment No. and it was the right one. You gulped and before you could speak, the other boy with red hair appeared behind him and slid his arm around the boy at the door, “Mark, put on a shirt. She is obviously flustered.”
The boy named Mark looked down at himself, only in a trouser and blushed. He excused himself quickly to jog towards the bedroom while the other boy suddenly held your chin and made eye contact with yours, “so, what’s your purpose to be here?”
“I…I am going to live here.”
He smirked, “that easily? You think I will allow this?” as soon as he heard noise, he left your chin and stepped back.
You blinked and before you could reply to him, Mark came back and laughed, “Oh…I’m so sorry to keep you waiting outside for this long. Please come inside.” He slapped the other boy’s arm and gestured towards the bags. He pulled a trolley bag and the other one was still held by you. You forced a smile when the other boy smiled towards you and took the one from you.
Mark and him placed all your bags beside the table and sighed, “Taeyong, she is my new roommate. Meet her.”
Taeyong raised a brow at him and turned towards you before nodding, “a girl? Mark, don’t be freaky again like that. You can’t stay with her. I’m not allowing this.”
“No. It’s not like that. We are going to the same university and she is an international student. I was searching for a roommate to kill the boredom and she was searching for an accommodation and well, it's good we found each other.” He smiled towards you at the end of the statement.
Freaky again? Not like that? What does he mean?
Taeyong didn’t know what to say more but just nodded and sighed. He stepped away from the living room and disappeared behind a door. You were staring at the now closed door and didn’t notice the boy who placed a hand on your shoulder. When he noticed you flinching to his touch, he quickly apologized and stepped back, chuckling awkwardly.
“I am the roommate with whom you contacted.” He held his hand forward for a handshake. You stared at it and then at his face when he raised his brows to which you just smiled and shook his hands. “your name? ah…wait..oh shit…”
“y/n.” you said quietly.
“Sorry I am bad at remembering names.”
Taeyong came back into the living room when Mark guided you towards the couch and offered you a glass of water.  He looked at you and then at Mark, “don’t pretend to be like this Mark. You better know that’s not you.” He turned towards you, “the way he is acting towards you, just to let you know he is nothing like that.”
Nothing like that…
“Taeyong, if you don’t want to be late for the meeting then I suppose you should leave.” Mark said a bit annoyedly. The latter chuckled and grabbed an apple from the table and winked towards you before closing the apartment door behind him.
“Who is he?” you were still staring at the door and the same question running across your mind.
Mark scoffed before taking the glass from you and placing it near the sink, “my brother.”
You turned towards him, who was busy searching through a plastic bag on the counter, “is he going to stay here?”
He laughed and shook his head, “no way. I’m not living with him any day. He was just here last night because he fought with his friend and no girl let him inside the house. Just stay away from him and don’t let his actions bother you. I hope he didn’t make you feel weird for anything.”
His words for sure did confuse you.
 Mark’s eyes were round and curious when he asked you about your situation. You slightly shook your head even though you were weirded out about his brother’s earlier actions. Does he come here often? If Haechan hears about this then it's not going to be good as he would definitely find a way to create a scene with these two.
“You can freshen up. I will find a way to bring some breakfast for us.” He pointed towards the closed door, just opposite to the door earlier where he and his brother went inside, “that’s your room. The washroom is just in the corner behind that wall beside.”
 You nodded and got up to walk towards your room, “um…thank you.”
“hey, we are now friends and also roommates. No need to thank me.” he laughed awkwardly and you smiled.
“still I wanted to say this.”
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The sunlight from the window kissing your face tenderly. Worn out, you sighed and covered your face, blocking the sunlight that shined on your weary eyes. Groaning, you turned off the phone and leaned back into the chair. You heard some shuffle sounds from behind but knowing who the person is, a smile crept on your face.
He is back home.
Don’t think otherwise, you just love to spend time with him a lot and it’s really boring to be alone at home and him staying out for too long.
You got up from the chair in the balcony and walked inside the doors. You couldn’t see his face because his back was towards you and he was in a racer jacket and a flower bouquet beside him.
Does he have a girlfriend?
The closer you got, the more things you noticed on the counter top. A bouquet, a greetings card and a gift box. Someone gave it to him or he is going to give it to someone? Curiously, you walked in and leaned on the wall to get a closer look. Just to stare at him. It's been one month that you are living with him under the same roof. Strangers to friends. That’s how your relationship developed between you two. That’s really a great development in just a month.
He was yet to notice you standing just a few feet away and staring at him. He was totally immersed into the phone, might be texting his girlfriend or some issues might be up with him. your eyes followed his side profile. His pretty nose bridge with thin cute lips with curved brows and black hair disheveled and his each twitch of the nose making his veins prominent on the crane of the neck, disappearing behind his jacket’s collar. His racer gloved palms scratched the jawline and you were somehow getting attracted to him.
His eyes are so pure.
Oh..wait…he is looking at you.
“y/n?” he smiled , running his fingers through his hair.
You licked your lips, “are you going somewhere?” you didn’t dare to look at him again, ignoring his obvious gaze on you, you stepped towards the refrigerator to take a bottle of water. You could hear him chuckle but then he placed his phone aside. You were mentally cursing yourself for him to catch you checking him out.
“yeah. Later in the evening. Not now. Do you need something?”
You drank a little and shook your head, answering politely, “no. just curious.”
He stood up, taking off his jacket and hanging it on the back of the chair, “I know I just came back but there’s something that came up. I hope you don’t mind me staying out for too long.”
Why is he asking you? It doesn’t like that you would be bothered by it and you have a say in this. He is just your roommate and he can do anything so there’s no reason for him to ask your opinion but it’s a good gesture from him.
“It's okay.” You eyed the things on the counter, he noticed your curiosity, “ I hope your date goes well.”
Confused, he creased his brows, “date?” then something clicked his mind when you gestured towards the things, he laughed again. He laughs a lot. “That's not mine. My brother told me to buy these things. Soon he would be coming to take these things and don’t know which girl he is going to give fake promises to.”
He said the words so nonchalantly. Do they not care about others' feelings? You felt sorry for that unknown girl. In this one month, you already got a grasp of his brother’s behavior and you simply hate him. but hearing Mark and his brother’s slight indication of his different personality makes you lost in thought. Is Mark also like him?
You gave him a muddled smile and drank the water again. But before you could place the bottle down, he grabbed it from your hand and started drinking from it. You gulped when you noticed how his Adam's apple poked attractively and few water droplets sliding down his smooth skin of the throat. What the hell are you thinking?
You shook off your thoughts, exited the kitchen and continued to grab your things from the chair in the balcony. You could feel him trailing behind you, close enough to know his presence. You casted a glance at him long enough to admire his handsome features standing in a black tee with black pants with zippers designed all over.
“y/n-“
“ I will be in my room for a while. You…you can speak to me later.” You hurriedly walked inside your room, closing your door, you decided to lie back in bed and blankly stared at the ceiling. You dialed a very familiar number which is always on the top and pressed the phone to your ears. Not after a full three rings, someone eagerly picked up your call.
“Hey! Did you just ditch me for the past weeks? Is your roommate so special to you now?”
You chuckled, “Hyuck…stop being dramatic. It’s not like that. I was busy with my university in this new place and he is helping me out a lot.”
“as he should. And…how are you, y/n?” he asked you in a low voice.
You sighed, “Haechan…” he hummed on the other side. He was breathing heavily hearing his name from your mouth, even though it's through the device yet he was having a warm feeling in his heart. You called him by his name, not just the nickname. But he also knew, that means you were thinking about something.
“what is it, y/n?”
“What's falling in love, Haechan?”
“Are you asking me? Are you in love?” coz I am with you…
You rolled your eyes, “just tell me, please.”
He hesitated and why would he not because it’s like you asked him to describe his feelings and situation with you. He gulped and looked over at the picture of you two in a frame hanging on his wall, “love is complicated.”
“how?”
“falling in love with someone is very easy. Too easy, just like falling on a slippery floor. Even if you try to grab for support yet you will fall. But the realization and the acceptance is the complicated part. You don't realize how and why you have fallen but somehow you love the feeling of love. You will feel lost and confused but at the same time there will be fear. A fear of losing the person or how to let the person know about it.” He sighed.
“and?”
“Even if you wanted to say your feelings to the person, to let the person a part of your dreamy thoughts yet you would step back in the fear of rejection. Sometimes a person falls in love already knowing that they won’t get a happy ending and it’s forbidden but still they do. They do fall in love. Sometimes you love to see that person happy so if it means you want to have them then also just let them go…just to let them be happy.”
“But what about the person who is falling in love?” you blinked, waiting for his response but he was silent. You called his name a few times but there were just some faint sounds and before you could call out his name again, he whispered your name.
“y/n… don’t hesitate to confess when there’s still time so you don’t have to regret later.”
“Do you have regrets?”
“No.”
Yes. but he still has time.
“You sound like you have fallen in love, hyuck.” Yes. It’s because I have. I am in love.
“y/n…I-“
You told him to pause a second when your conversation got interrupted by a few knocks on the door, “yeah?”
“It's me. Can I come in?”
“Yeah, sure.” You answered him and said in the call, “Mark is here. I will talk to you later.”
You cut the call quickly and tossed the phone to your side. Mark entered inside your room and looked around, “this room looks so neat and heavenly.”
You smiled, “thank you. I’m not like you who can’t keep his room tidy even for a whole minute.”
He protested quickly, “hey!” but quickly joined your laughing. He was again wearing the biker jacket and now holding the helmet in his arm and a blue bouquet in another hand.
“Are you here in my room for a reason?”
He nodded, “I’m leaving now and won’t be home until night. I will order some food for you and don’t worry, if anyone rings the bell then don’t open the door. Just call me quickly.” He looked at you seriously and when you just nodded, he raised a brow, “answer me, y/n. let me know that you heard me clearly.”
Did he just talk with you in a demanding way? Did he just ask for an answer? Are you hearing right? You stared at him and noticed him walking closer to you. You took a step back and then paused. No, what is he doing? You can just shout right now. Your back of the knee hit the bed but you stood strong, but your legs were weak under his intense gaze, he held your chin and fingers gazing over your cheeks. His leather gloves brushed against your skin when he made you look up, “please be safe for me.”
That’s how he left you dumbfounded after giving you a smile and walking out of the door.
People should also take permission before leaving the room just like when entering it. You kept staring at the space from where he just left.
What are you thinking, y/n? It's nothing. Haechan also says the same thing every time.
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“where are you?”
You were scared and the way the person on call was near to yelling was making it worse. You scanned the surroundings and obviously no one was familiar in sight and your heart beat picking up with every little sound. It’s a cat or maybe a different animal. Yeah nothing more. Ghost? Far better than those creepy people. You were convincing yourself with these thoughts and now you were lost.
Earlier you were on a call with Hyuck when you parted ways with your university friends. It’s late in the evening as your five friends thought that it would be nice to spend some time after the exams got over and so you decided to go for a pub time. Everything was cool until one got a call from her boyfriend and two boys leaving for a club with their other friends, leaving you with Sera. She urged you to bring you to your place but you waved it off and bid goodbye.
You didn’t notice that there was a lack of transportation and you were all alone, few people staring at you. You scolded yourself for not taking someone’s help and so to avoid the fear of being alone, you dialed Hyuck’s number and started walking.
“Are you okay?”
The moment he heard your voice, he panicked. He didn’t know what to do but he swore he was going mad and worried for you. You typed the location in your GPS tracking but it’s not working. How could you be so irresponsible to not notice that you walked to an unknown neighborhood and then you were lost. But while being on the call and it was almost thirty minutes of being homeless, you got calls from Mark.
Why is he calling you? Maybe he needs something on the way back home?
And the moment you picked up the call, you were greeted with a groan and ‘where are you?’
“mark…”
“Tell me the address.” He demanded the full address where you went with your friends but still he couldn’t brush off the feelings of uneasiness. Why was he feeling like that? Oh. The address seems familiar. Wait, he knows this place. you are at a risky place. If only he would have known, he could have warned you. “listen to me. if there’s a place to hide nearby, hide there. I’ll be there soon and won't talk to anyone.”
“Mark…please come soon. I’m scared.” You clutched your bag tightly towards you and sweat visibly lining on your forehead.
He nodded, “I’m coming. Wait for me.”
And he did. He kept his promise.
At first you didn’t recognize the person on the bike. He was wearing a helmet. You were hiding behind a wooden fence. Yeah, not a good place to hide but still you didn’t have any other option so it was better to stay quiet and hide in the shadows. You thought the biker to be some kind of creepy dude but when your gaze fell on the familiar biker jacket he was wearing and then he called out your name.
“y/n! y/n…are you here?”
He got off the bike and took off his helmet to look around. There was no sight of you and you quickly ran towards him, back-hugging him and pressing your face to his back. “Mark.”
He looked down to the arms wrapped around him and caressed it when he found the grip tightened around his torso. He firmly held your hand and loosen your hold to turn around and engulf you in a hug. “it’s okay, y/n. I’m here.” Stroking your back and head, he ensured your safety.
Upon realizing the situation you were in, you parted yourself and tugged your hair back, “I’m sorry, I made you worried. I was reckless not to notice and got myself into danger.” He licked his lips and patted your head, noticing a slight hesitation in you. Is he crossing his border? Are you uncomfortable with him?
“don’t say sorry. Let’s go home. It’s not safe here.”
You were still looking down and nodded. He went towards the bike, holding your hand in his grip.
“get on quickly.” He said and put on the helmet again. You haven’t seen him ride a bike ever in these six months, you have only come across him while parking it in the parking area of the university or the apartment.
“Is it safe?” you asked quietly.
He laughed, the sound was muffled by his helmet. He swiped the face shield up and craned his neck to look at you, your scared pupils reflecting the street light staring back at him. He flicked the retention and put off the helmet just to get it on your head. You let out a surprise sound, “what are you doing?”
“making sure that you are safe.” He tightened the retention strap and smiled at you.
“What about you?” you raised your hand to undo the strap but he held your hand, “I don’t need. Your safety is more important.” Before you could speak anything more, he swiped down the face shield, shuttin you up and smirked.
He was still staring at you, there were some unspoken words behind those eyes. Some feelings which he himself wasn’t even sure about. He wanted to understand them and he was desperate to realize the meaning of them. The silence between you two broke because of the ring from your phone. You both glanced at the screen ‘Hyuck’.
The question hit Mark- Is he late? Or he never had any chance from the start?
“Who is he?”
Your gaze returned to his face, “my best friend.”
Best Friend…still a step ahead. Because he is just a friend or maybe even not.
“call him after we reach home. Now get on the bike.”
You knew Haechan was probably worried and that’s why he was calling to know your condition but also, you had to go home and you don’t want to speak on a call while riding a bike. You waited for the call to end and mount over the bike behind him. you didn’t know where to hold…his shoulders…his biceps…his torso-
“Is it your first time?” he asked you, meeting your gaze through the rear mirror. You shook your head, “no. I have been with Hyuck on bikes a lot.”
Look. He has already given her bike rides. Not one. But a lot.
Mark, you are late.
He gripped your wrists tightly wrapped around his torso, as if securing the tight knot. He felt your head resting against his back and a little smile appeared on his lips. You are comfortable with him and
“Thanks for coming, Mark.”
And you are thankful.
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It’s been almost a year staying with him and your finals are nearing.
Something really changed the relationship between you two after that day.
Mark became a bit too flirty and of course, you didn’t complain. You were enjoying his company and well, a warm blanket of feelings was surrounding you these days.
Well, now whenever you are going out anywhere other than the university class timings. Sometimes if it’s too far or in the evening, he would convince you to give you a ride to the place and would call you when it’s time to return.
The thought of staying with a boy was a bit icky with you.
You had different imaginations regarding staying together. But to the positive point, you both were compatible with each other. Even sometimes more than you both wanted. He treats you in a way as if he knows you for too long. His friendliness really makes you wonder why Taeyong said not to trust his brother’s attitude. You haven’t found anything unusual yet.
Groaning you woke up from your sleep, your head was paining and your body felt so weak. You felt your body heating up for some reason and your eyes felt heavy. Your hands wandered to the bedside nightstand but your bottle was missing. Oh, you have mistakenly left it on the kitchen counter. You were so tired after returning home that you didn’t care to eat or clean your room and chose to somehow freshen up and go to sleep.
But the sleep didn’t last too long and now you are feeling sick. Managing to stand on your feet and walk towards the door, supporting yourself to nearby things in your grasp. Occasionally you were rubbing your forehead and stepped out of the room. The night lamps on the ceilings were on because there were times you both tripped over a few things at night so it was better to keep them on so that the dim lights could atleast help you.
The bottle was half filled and when you picked it up, you felt the world spinning around you. Taking a seat on the stools, you quickly drank the water and sighed in the end. You glanced at the door --- Mark is sleeping there. You should not make noise to disturb him. you placed the bottle back on the marbled top and extended your hands above the place and rested your head on top of them. You were repeating to yourself to have medicines but didn’t have the energy to do so. You closed your eyes, feeling the cold sensation of the marbles against your warm skin. you could hear the front door open and close but you shrugged it off with the thought that you might be imagining things or hearing things.
If there's a risk of someone attacking, you felt like dying from this fever before that.
A cold hand touched your forehead and brushed your hairs away from your face, “you are having fever, y/n.”
I know.
You nodded and hid your face into your arms. Not actually hearing what the person is saying to you. Was the person talking to you or might be with someone else or might be on a call-
“can you hear me, y/n?” oh, he is talking to you.
You hummed.
He lifted you up from the stool and held you in his arms, caressing your head and rested it on his chest. You managed to open your eyes to look at the person, unconsciously you smiled at the very familiar eyes to which the person returned the same gesture, “Mark…”
“yes. It’s me. don’t speak if you don’t want to.”
“but-“
“shh..let’s get to your room.”
You didn’t say a word just rubbing your forehead and he did notice it. He got you inside the room, putting you on the bed and sitting beside your head, to massage your forehead. He asked you about your medicine box and he was quick enough to bring a thermometer and medicine for fever. You quickly had it and closed your eyes when your head hit the mattress.
“where were you?” you asked him while still closing your eyes.
He was staring at you and caressed your head, “just somewhere.”
“Are you hiding something from me?”
He gulped, not knowing how to reply to you but somehow few words escaped his mouth, “No. it’s nothing. You don’t have to know about it. Go to sleep.” He held his palm over your eyes.
“Did you go to meet someone?” you held his wrist and looked at him. “I am just curious.”
“look…it’s nothing like that.”
“Why are you hesitating to tell me? I won’t get mad or query for an explanation. You can do anything, just I wanted to know if you are okay or in trouble.” You said slowly.
He shook his head and brushed back his hairs in frustration and held your cheek, “but I want you to get mad at me if I go to meet someone. I want you to feel jealous and ask me questions when you doubt me. I want you to wait for me and call me when you are in danger. I want to feel that my world is you. I love you, y/n.”
The sudden confession really worked as a miracle to your headache as it suddenly disappeared and then your shocked eyes met his desperate gaze. A gaze that’s saying you more words than his mouth did. You weakly held his hand, feeling his touch against your skin.
“Mark. Are you okay?”
He inhaled sharply before shaking his head and stroked your head before standing up.
“where are you going?”
“go to sleep, y/n. just forget what I said.” His quick steps led him to the door and before he could step out, he paused and turned around to find you were still looking at him, “Good-night.” Then he closed the door behind him.
If he really cared for your fever then he shouldn’t have said those things. Did you hear him right? You are not dreaming right? He said he loves you. And you?
‘don’t wait longer.’
‘don’t hesitate to confess…when there’s still a chance.’
Hyuck’s words were flooding your brain but before you could dwell on the thought more, your droopy eyes closed in slumber and the night fell low.
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“Mark…wait.”
He flinched hearing your sudden voice from his back. He was wearing a black sleeveless shirt with a red wide border running across over his chest horizontally.
“yeah?”
“Are you leaving again?” you glanced at the clock, “so late at night.”
“Why are you still awake? Go back to sleep. You have university classes tomorrow.” He gestured towards your room and you shook your head. Approaching him, you stared deep into his eyes.
“Please tell me. Are you okay? We haven’t talked properly after that night and I have so much to ask you but here you are ignoring me and running away. We should talk. You and me.”
He licked his lips and raised a brow, “do you want to come with me?”
“where?”
“somewhere. The place I go to every night.” He waited for your reply. He noticed your eyes, contemplating the choice but suddenly you blurted out.
“take me there with you.”
And he did.
Fresh cold air hitting your face and your hair flowing with the wind. A bright smile illuminating your face and you were hugging him tightly. Whenever he tried to slow down, you shouted to turn up the speed and he likely did listen to you. He was smiling, watching you through the rear view. Neither of you were wearing a helmet, well that’s not a good idea but both of you debated against each other who should wear and ended up leaving the helmet behind. The only thing you said before getting on the bike was, “I feel safe with you.”
“and we will be safe when we are together.” Everytime he ensured your safety.
Reaching the place, you were confused yet you got off the bike and looked around. There was a car parked in the distance and two men were leaning against it. Mark parked the bike to the side of the bridge and patted your head, “I’ll be back in a minute.”
You grabbed his forearm, “where are you going?”
“I’ll have a talk with them and return back. I promise. Wait for me.”
He walked towards the car and you squinted your eyes to get a better look. Mark greeted them with a hug and the shorter one hit his head jokingly and then you could hear laughs. The shorter one turned towards you and then you noticed that’s Taeyong, who waved at you but his smirk was not fully visible and the other one beside him still laughing was Jaehyun. You have seen him with Mark in a few pictures. What are they doing here?
The car drove in the other direction and Mark approached you.
“why are we here?”
He leaned forward to the cemented railing beside you and rested his elbows, clasping the palms together, “this place is special to me.”
“why?”
“coz I realized so many things.” He mumbled.
You mimicked his posture and stared at the sky, “and they are?”
“Do you know I’m not a regular citizen? You noticed my brother and Jaehyun earlier, we had a schedule today for a deal but I told him that I don’t want to get involved today.” He turned his head towards you, “I work as a spy and the fighter for the mafia gang which is led by my brother. I’m a messed up individual and this place is where it all started and ended.”
“you…you are a mafia member?”
He nodded, not knowing what to say more but still he wanted to clear his thoughts today. He will say everything to you. You wanted to talk and he will talk and will say everything to you as he can’t bottle up his feelings and emotions anymore.
Your phone vibrated again. It was vibrating for the last few minutes but you ignored it because something about Mark was hypnotizing and before you could look at the screen. Mark took away the phone and typed into something, you didn;t even protested against it. Are you so desperate for him?
He put the phone into his jeans pocket and returned his gaze to you.
“I never wanted to be a part of this but you know blood speaks faster than mind. My blood was to paint this shit in my life and somehow this intrigued me to dive deeper into this world. I started to love being in this world. It seemed I had everything but I was wrong. Even if I could get everything, I couldn’t get her.”
“who?” you were also surprised with your quick question.
“Sana.” he paused and then chuckled, “I loved her. I didn’t know what love was but she made me feel emotions which I had never felt before. She was always like a rainbow of hope and love but…it was all fake. She left me when she realized my secret. Can’t she accept me like this? That was the only thought left. I lost her and also a part of myself but…” he averted his eyes away. You could feel his body tensing up when you placed your hand above his. “but even if I’m like this, I'm a bad person. I want love too.”
“So you confessed to me to forget her?”
He shook his head before turning towards you, “I confessed to you because I felt safe with you. I felt I could vent to you after she left me hopeless in this place. But I don’t know if I’m able to protect you when I myself is the danger.”
You cupped his face, his fingers circling your wrist. He was leaning against your affectionate touch, “Mark. I feel safe with you too. I didn’t know about love and so I asked Hyuck about it and then I realized something that you don’t know how and when you will love someone but if you do it is because that’s the time you need it and the person would save you from the void.”
“don’t pity me. I just wanted to say this because you wanted to talk to me. you were curious where I went every night and returned home late. You were doubting me whenever I left university in a hurry. I don’t know but I just couldn’t see you in confusion and to feel that I am hiding something from you.”
You shook your head, “I am trying to embrace you. if you embrace the danger then it can’t hurt you.”
“don’t leave me like her.”
"Mark...it wasn't her fault either. She was obviously scared of the secret. You can see, I am taking this situation very logically but she was not ready to accept it. Maybe you both were not destined and it was better for her to leave, preventing some further complications."
"And are we destined?"
You were at a loss of words. Destined? It was easy to give lectures to others but when it came to you, you were hit with the same emotions as him.
"I don't know..." you trailed off.
He scoffed, "are you going to leave me too? Now you know me...the real me." He chuckled and stepped back, "wait...what am I even saying? We are not even friends. Hyuck is your best friend and if you have to choose someone then you would definitely choose him. You asked him about love and here I am trying to get what is already someone else’s.”
“No.'' You raised your voice and maintained eye contact with him. you stepped front to stand near him. “I am not his, Mark. Don’t think of this as if I’m trying to convince you but he is my best friend and he is special to me because I got him when I needed someone and he stayed with me. He proved to me every time that he is someone to me whom nobody can ever replace but you are a person who made me feel needed even when I had everything.”
“What am I to you?”
“what do you want to be?” you asked confidently.
“your home where you will be safe and where I feel safe with you.” His palm rested on your cheek and you closed your eyes and inhaled.
He tugged a strand of hairs behind your ear, scanning your every little twitch of your facial expression. You are really his dream girl and his safe place. Even if this cruel and harsh world is incomparable to your innocence, he always makes sure to keep you safe with him. He never realized that he could love someone after Sana but something in you pulled him and can’t help but he fell in love with you.
Is it love?
“What's love?”
“Are you asking me?” hearing his question, you parted your eyelids and nodded.
You smiled and held his wrist with both of your hands, “you said I asked about it to Hyuck then you tell me. Now, I’m asking you.”
“To me…Love is you. But I can’t explain. I want to show you. To show how different you make me see things and feel them.”
You chuckled, “you suck at explaining.”
“The possibility to show my explanation in action is gonna be better for you.” He laughed and his fingers caressed your face.
“mark…”you whispered his name, making him nod and urging you to speak more. “I love you.”
“I love you too, y/n. Just trust me.”
“I will. Always.”
He licked his lips before asking slowly, “Can I be your boyfriend?”
As soon as you nodded, he engulfed you in a hug and kissed your head, smiling and nuzzling his nose into your hair. His one hand holding the back of your head and the other caressing your back. Your arms wrapped around his body tightly and pressing your head against his chest.
The thing you didn’t notice was that a boy was standing in the distance behind you, watching you two for a while. His tight fist and clenched jaw, anger bubbling inside him and hot tears running down his cheeks, as if he wanted revenge for something or maybe he wanted something which was slipping from his hand.
Mark caught the gaze of the boy who was glaring at him and as the boy was about to take a step ahead towards both of you, Mark asked you without breaking eye contact with the boy, “Am I late, y/n?”
“No.”
The boy halted in his steps, a tear fell from his eyes. 
A Tear of losing.
Mark smirked and kissed your head, hovering his lips a little longer. When he felt you pulling back, he averted his eyes from him to you and smiled affectionately.
The sweetest smile you have seen.
“Let's go home.”
He nodded and kissed your forehead. He intertwined his fingers with yours and turned around to walk towards the bike. You asked for your phone from the pocket and convinced Mark to click a picture of your hands holding each other but somehow the phone fell from your grasp. You bent down to pick it up and glanced towards the other way and could see a boy walking away in the darkness of the lonely road.
The familiar back. The way he was walking and your favorite flower in his hand. A certain person came across your mind and you felt a tug in your heart. Is that him?
“Haechan…” you whispered to yourself.
Tears were helplessly running down his cheeks while walking away and he clutched the flower tightly, “I am late, y/n.”
“I couldn’t save you from the danger you stepped in.”
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[Anyways he is MY MAN 🎀] both Hyuck and Mark😉
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the--rebel--fae · 8 months ago
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HELLO!!!
do u think I could ask for some angst->fluff for nightmares for the Diasomnia boys?
(twisted wonderland)
A/N: Hiya, my dear! First off, I'd like to say I'm so so sorry for the late response to your request. Life's been...hectic, to say the least, and I'm still getting the hang of trying to do proper time management. Anyhoot! Thanks so much for the request! I really enjoyed writing this one. Tbh, I love these boys so much and have been getting back into the Twist fandom again, so yea 💜 Well my friend, I hope the wait was worth it! Enjoy!
Pairing: Diasomnia boys x Reader
Tw: None! Just pure fluff!
Word Count: 607
Chase The Nightmares Away - Bad Dream Comfort Headcanons
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Lilia
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First up, we have our lovely bat dad. We all know he’d probably be the perfect person to go to for nightmares.
He’s bat dad for a reason y’all.
When you walk in he’s probably still up, probably playing video games. 
So when you mumble you couldn’t sleep because of nightmares, he’s pulling up a chair, getting you a blanket, and snacks. Everything you need, peepaw has it. 
Wanna talk about what happened? No worries, he’s helped Silver, Sebek, and Malleus many times with their nightmares.
“Little bat? Are you alright? Ah, a nightmare. There’s no need to worry, why don’t you come sit by me and we can play this new video game together? And if you want, you can tell me about what happened.”
Sebek
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Sebek, yea..good luck on getting some comfort from him. But he’ll try his best!
He’ll probably be like: Human what are you doing in here? Oh, you had a nightmare? Uhm, why are you here then?
Poor boy would be so confused.
He’ll definitely point out how weak humans are, but then I think when he sees you truly upset, he’d feel it as his duty as a knight to protect “those weaker than him”. At least that’s the excuse he’s playing when we both know the crocodile boy cares in his own tsun-tsun way.
“Human? Why are you here so late? A nightmare? I do suppose a human would be bugged by something like that. Fae are much stronger. O-oh I didn’t mean to make you more upset. Ahem, well, as my duty as a knight in training I’ll do you the service of protecting you. You should be honored. Here, you can borrow my Malleus-Sama plush. I made it myself! It looks just like the young lord, doesn’t it?”
Silver
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Ah yes, our sleepy little prince Silver. If this boy is actually awake for once I think he’d do a pretty good job at comforting you.
I can see him as the type to have a lot of blankets so he’d probably give you one to snuggle with as comfort.
I could also see him get some of his little animal friends to comfort you too if you wanted that. 
And if you wanted to talk about your nightmare, he’d be all ears, at least until he’d fall back asleep. But, I bet he’d do his best to fight back the sleepiness as long as possible for you.
“Oh, Prefect. You’re up late. What’s that? You had a nightmare? I’m sorry, not sleeping well is never a good thing. Here, I have some extra blankets, and we can even get some of my animal friends here if you’d like. Don’t worry, it was just a dream, you’re ok now.”
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Ah, our Housewarden of Diasomnia, the future ruler of Briar Valley. Malleus Draconia. Our sweet draconic prince.
I think he’d care the most but not know whatever the loving hell what to do.
Does this man even get nightmares?
Walks around the Night Raven campus is definitely going to happen the second you tell him what’s wrong. Nothing solves problems better than a nice walk in some fresh air.
He’ll probably even tell you stories about his time in Briar Valley to distract you or even let you play with Gao Gao Dragon-kun!
10/10 best person to go to for comfort aside from Lilia.
“Child of Man? What’s the matter? You seem upset. Oh, a nightmare? Yes, those can be troubling. How about we take a walk outside and if you feel up to it, you can talk about it. It's better than being alone. I'll even let you play with Gao-Gao Dragon-kun.”
Well, that's it for these headcanons! I hope you enjoyed them! It was a lot of fun to write! And again, so sorry for the delay! Feel free to request again!
And if you guys want even more stories--like maybe your own personalized several-page long one-shots or even a multi-chap fic take a look at my Etsy Shop! I do commissions! I even have listings for Twisted wonderland!
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intimidatingpuffinstudios · 5 months ago
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Thanks for all the things you've written and done for us Puffin! ❤️
TSSW and BTM has been one of the interactive stories that has brought me comfort and happiness during my lowest point. I really appreciate the effort and creativity you have to write these stories and wonderful characters.
I'm not sure if this has been asked on the sin stones or BTM NSFW asks yet and sorry if I sound weird but...
In this hypothetical scenario, let's say the MC and RO haven't had sex for a while because... well– things had gotten hectic and haywire so they couldn't have the proper time to settle down, maybe to a point where everyone is too preoccupied.
But one night, just when the RO is preoccupied by their thoughts, they overhear and catch the MC getting off and moaning their name. And when MC realizes they caught them, they quietly admit that they haven't initiated sex with RO because they were worried that they would be burdensome.
Like– even if the MC wanted to have sex so bad, they couldn't bring themselves to bring it up at all because of that lingering feeling of being too much.
As an easily anxious and self-conscious individual myself, it's really hard for me to ask people for things I want to do without feeling like I'm being an embarrassment or a burden even if I badly desire it.
So how would the ROs deal with an MC like this? Thanks Puffin! I apologize that my ask is too long 😭
Thank you, anon 🥹 I needed to hear that today...
As for your question!
Morkai would immediately get into the mood if he caught the MC doing that. He wouldn't be able to hold back a rumbly groan before advancing toward the MC, making eye contact and saying, "Let me help you with that." Once he finds out about MC's reasons, he frowns and clutches them closer. His response is like, "I guess I'll have to make sure to give it to you even more so that you never miss it." If he's always around, then the MC will never have to feel alone and like they have only themselves to depend on.
Straasa immediately stops moving, and his eyes zero in on the pleasured wxpression on the MC's face. After a heated second, he clears his throat so that the MC notices him, and then he breathlessly asks if he can stay to watch. Or to help. Once the real issue comes to light, he gathers the MC in his arms and cradles their face, his gaze and voice so serious and concerned as he asks, "What can I do to help you see that being with you and giving you anything and everything you need is my privilege, my joy, my greatest honor. Never a burden."
Daelynn would freeze for a single millisecond before moaning loudly and prowling her way to the MC lightning fast. She falls upon them with greedy hands and hungry mouth before they get the chance to say anything. Once she's had her fill and the MC admits the real issue, Daelynn frowns for a second before suggesting in all seriousness that she and the MC just drop everything that keeps them busy and elope somewhere far away. "Nothing matters except you. Always."
Eledwen would become a pillar of salt tbh LMAO! She is rooted to the spot, both aroused and confused. She doesn't know what to do, should she keep watching (she wants to) or is that inappropriate? But if she moves away, she could disturb the MC... Maybe she should just close her eyes or...? Long story short, she doesn't join in unless directly acknowledged and asked to. She has the exact same problem with the MC, so when she finds out about the issue, her eyes widen with shock and realization. She leans in until her forehead rests on the MC's shoulder and murmurs, "I will believe that you always, happily, want to meet my needs if you believe the same of me..."
Manerkol would materialize right next to the MC in a breath's span, sliding down next to them and dragging them onto his lap, their back to his front. Then, he'd growl in the MC's ear, his voice husky and deep as he orders them. "Show me." He uses his teeth, lips, tongue, and hands to caress and coax until the MC loses control. Then, afterwards, once the real issue is revealed, Manerkol frowns and then says, "I would give my very soul to you if you only asked. I want you, everything about you, to the point of insanity. Do not ever ask me for anything. Simply claim it."
Zach would silently make their way to the MC, draw no attention to themselves, and watch them quietly until they climax. Then, once the MC is done, they clear their throat and make eye contact before licking their lips, pushing away from the wall they were leaning against and rumble, "My turn to make you scream now." Once everything is said and done, they hold the MC close and apologize for not tending to them sooner. "The day will come when I've proven it enough to you that I am always here, here for you and anything you need, that you won't even give it a second thought before asking for what you want. I look forward to that day."
Cy would never have that happen tbh. They are a HIGHLY sexual person, and the MC just breathing is enough to set them off. No matter how hectic things get, Cy will MAKE time for it. The MC is not getting away without at least a couple of orgasms per day. Plus, they are always ready to give the MC anything they want, so they'd be SUPER confused if the MC tried to hold back about telling them what they need. If something like that comes to light, Cy would frown disapprovingly, grab their chin, and tell the MC, "Songbird, everything that makes you you is mine. You belong to me. Your fear, your joy, your needs, your doubts. I want all of it. Do not deny me a single thing about you. I will always have it in the end."
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ofstarsandvibranium · 3 months ago
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Precious Truths: Part 13
Fandom: Bridgerton
Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x F!Reader
Summary: After your father finds out you’ve been writing under a male pseudonym, he threatens to marry you off to an atrocious man unless you find yourself a husband within a month’s time.
A/N: hello! yes, finally, an update! thank you to all of you who were patiently waiting for this. tbh the Benophie announcement gave me a bit of a spark of motivation to finish this chapter! enjoy!
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My dearest Y/N,
I am not sure what else to say other than I am sorry. I am sorry for making you feel as though you meant nothing to me. I must admit, due to my own self-induced heartbreak, I refused to read your letters previously. However, you will not find me doing that again. I have missed your friendship dearly. It is my own fault for doing this to us. I will never do that to you again, I promise.
Always feel free to write to me. You will receive a response from me, now and always.
Yours,
Benedict
You read the short letter over and over again. You're in a bit of disbelief, yet you're overjoyed. You kept your expectations low after sending that letter to Benedict. However, you're pleasantly surprised that not only has he written back, but he desires to renew your friendship once more.
You immediately go to your writing desk and begin to write a reply.
You spend some time writing everything down, how grateful you are for Ben, how you've been spending your days, as well as your moments of grief.
James' parents have provided good company to you. Ever since meeting you, that have been so kind and loving. They remind you of how your parents used to be prior to your mother's passing.
In your letter, your relay to Benedict how you've been trying to write poetry to help you process and cope James' passing, but nothing has come from these attempts.
Admittedly, Benedict was your muse for so long. After he left, James became your muse. Now he's gone. You don't want to think about Benedict potentially taking up the place as your muse again. A part of you feels as though that would be a betrayal to James, however, your muse was originally Benedict...
It's fine. You won't worry about it too much right now. You'll just take things day by day.
After you finish your letter, you fold and seal it. Calling upon a footman, you ask him to send it to Benedict and the young man leaves promptly.
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Dear Benedict,
I may be going stir-crazy here. Mama and papa have been very loving and supportive, however, I feel that, even in this large estate, I cannot get away.
I've been riding a lot more than usual now just to get out. I know, it is shocking to me as well since I was never fond of it. However, now I find myself wanting to ride every single day just to be out and about.
Maybe I should discuss with mama and papa if I can start accepting guests again. For I am not sure how much longer I can take this.
Anyway, I hope you are well. It has been some time since we last exchanged letters. I am sure you have been busy with the new exhibit coming up. I hope it is successful. Everyone will be able to see just how talented you are.
I am so proud of you and what you have achieved, Ben. Never forget that.
Yours,
Y/N
Benedict sighs, reading over your letter. He is visiting his family, taking break from working on his last painting for the exhibition.
"What ails you, brother?" Eloise asks as she sits beside him.
"Would it be improper if I were to visit Y/N soon?" he asks her with confliction written on his face.
"Why would it be improper? You two are friends again, yes?" Eloise asks confused.
He lets out a deep breath before explaining, "After the death of a spouse, it's customary to mourn them for a year before accepting guests and taking part is society again. It's only been sixth months."
Eloise scoffs, "Benedict, you know that I am the last person to tell you of what you should or should not do in terms of societal rules."
"Of course," he says with a roll of his eyes.
"What is it that you really want to ask me?"
Benedict remains silent, contemplating on how he should ask his sister.
The truth is, Benedict has felt whole again. Having you back in his life has brought so much happiness, familiarity, and comfort that he's been seeking for the past few years.
It's clear to him that his love for you will never seize. You will always remain a part of him and he will always hold you in a special place in his heart. However, if he takes this step to be close to you again, will it end in heartbreak once more? He doesn't want to think of such an outcome, but there's always a possibility. No. Nonsense. He can't think about that.
Benedict may love you, but you are first and foremost his best friend. Therefore, any feelings he has of you must be cast aside. Being your friend, in your company, speaking with you, being there for you, that is the priority. Benedict's feelings be damned. He will not make the same idiotic mistakes he made before. He's wiser and stronger now.
The relationship you two share is much more important, now that ever.
Benedict turns to Eloise and smiles, "I think I'll alright, Eloise," he stands with confidence.
His sister looks at him with uncertainty, "Are you sure? You're not going to do anything stupid again, are you?"
He shakes his head, "No. I promise, I am better. I will be better for Y/N."
"If you're sure," Eloise says before Benedict exits the sitting room.
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The wind is blowing through your hair as you ride through the forest. It is midday and you have a lot of energy. James' horse, now yours, Bluebell, is fast and agile. She leaps over bushes and fallen tree trunks with ease.
You and Bluebell have gotten quite close these past few months. She's been able to grant you the freedom you've been aching for.
The first three months after James' passing were hard. Now six months later, you've finally accepted his death. It was unexpected and there was nothing you could do to help. You had loved him dearly and he accepted and understood you like very few have.
You are grateful for the short time you had with him, but now you'd like to slowly move on with your life.
You've been trying to get back into writing. Very few pieces have come out well. The rest thrown into the fireplace, burning to ash so you wouldn't have to see it again.
You've come to realize that the few works that have been kept, you've come up with while riding. Another reason why you have gone out a lot more. You're trying to find that spark again that you once had before James' passing.
You stop at a small creek flowing through the Montclair land. You dismount Bluebell and guide her to the water so she may quench her thirst and rest a bit. You sit by the creek, watching as the water flows by. You listen to the birds chirping, the trees swaying in the wind.
You think about how you've been feeling the past six months. How only in the late hours of the night is when you experienced the heart ache of James' passing, how you felt knowing you will no longer experience his freeing and doting love.
You pull out your journal from your satchel and begin to write:
Deep in the shadows where heartache grew
Mourning hearts match skies of grey
A love once bright as morning dew
Now drifted gone as night to day
The halls keep our memories
Our laughter and tears
Walking among those walls, memories sunken
deep within the seas
It's short yet conveys the feelings you want it too. You don't hate it, but it may need some work. So you keep it in your journal and stand. Some time has passed for Bluebell to catch a break. You mount her once more and head back to the estate in more of a trot rather than a flying gallop.
When you arrive back, you see Clarissa waiting for you.
"Something the matter?"
She gives you a small smile, "I know Jean Louis and myself have informed you of the mourning customs, however, it has been brought to our attention that sometimes one does not need twelve months to mourn the loss of her husband."
"Mother?" you ask her confused.
"I just know that you have always been more of a free spirited woman, which is why James was so drawn to you. I also know that you did love him dearly and I will not be upset that you shorten your mourning period. You wanted to be free from societal standards from the very beginning, therefore, we will allow you to start accepting guests back at this home. You are also free to go back to yours and James' home in London."
You're not sure why your mother-in-law is saying all of this, "I-Thank you, mama. I do appreciate all of that, however, I must admit I am confused why you are mentioning this."
"I received a letter from Mister Benedict Bridgerton. He was requesting to see you."
Your eyes widen in surprise, "I assure you, I didn't ask him to do that. I was planning on asking you myself."
Your mother-in-law chuckles, "Yes, well, it seems Mister Bridgerton beat you to it."
You sigh, "So it seems."
"Everyone mourns differently, cheri, we understand that you would also like to be in the company of others during this time. Mister Bridgerton is a close friend of yours, yes?"
You nod, "He is. I'll make sure we can be seen and-"
Clarissa chuckles, "You don't have to worry about those things here, cheri. I trust you. I will write back to Mister Bridgerton right now."
You curtsey, "Thank you, mama. As usual, your kindness is greatly appreciated."
The older woman sighs, walking up to you and cupping your face, "You never have to thank me for kindness. It is a mother's duty to listen and understand her children. Although you are not my blood, you are my daughter just the same."
Her words brings tears to your eyes. She reminds you so much of your own mother, it hurts a little. To know that your own mother can't be here with you during this time. You're sure she would have provided a lot of her wisdom and advice. Nonetheless, you are grateful to now call Madame Montclair as your own mother.
"Thank you, again."
"Of course," she kisses your cheek, "Best wash up before lunch, yes?"
"Right. Excuse me," you pick up your skirt and rush back into the house to have a quick bath.
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bloody-cupcakes · 5 months ago
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Whump one shot; Whumpee begs to be hit, much to the dismay of Caretaker
Tw: unhealthy behavior demonstrated by Whumpee that includes wanting/begging to be hit by Caretaker to the point of bleeding/bruising, implications of self harm (it's not said what kind), Caretaker is understandably worried/concerned
A/N: I was struck by sudden inspiration from all the whump prompts that I see on my dashboard so i wrote something whumpish as a result 🤗 I've never written anything in this format before so I have no idea if this is good or not tbh (also technically it's unfinished but I don't plan on expanding/adding anything to it for the time being so 🤷‍♂️)
"Hit me."
Caretaker's brow furrowed in confusion at the question. They thought for sure they had misheard Whumpee, but the look on their face was deadly serious. "I- what?"
"Hit me," Whumpee repeated in a firmer tone as they stood in front of Caretaker. "C'mon, just once. You don't even have to do it that hard."
Sputtering, Caretaker responded with, "I- I'm not going to hit you! Why would I ever do that?"
'What is wrong with you' was the next question Caretaker wanted so desperately to ask, but luckily for them they were able to keep it on the tip of their tongue so they wouldn't make Whumpee's current attitude go from bad to worse.
"Well, why not?"
That was something they definitely weren't expecting. They didn't think Whumpee would get mad, of all things, for refusing to hit them.
"Because I don't want to hurt you," they explained earnestly, hoping that would be enough.
Whumpee merely scoffed and shook their head. "I thought you were my friend. I thought you cared about me."
Caretaker's confusion only grew at the accusation that Whumpee wasn't their friend. "What are you talking about? Of course I am. I just..."
Their sentence trailed off, and while they were quiet Whumpee took that as an opportunity to speak again.
"If you were really my friend, you'd do this for me. You'd help me. It's not like I'm asking you to beat the shit out of me or something, I just want you to hit me a little bit. Just enough to leave a small bruise or cut. Just enough for it to hurt, and bleed."
They were scarily calm and sincere when speaking, something that alarmed Caretaker greatly. "But... I still don't understand why. Why would you ever want that?"
The sigh of disappointment Whumpee let out nearly broke Caretaker's heart, but they tried not to let it show. "I want it because I have too much going on in my mind right now, way too much for me to handle. And I need something to use as a distraction. I know you don't like it when I hurt myself, so I figured if you hurt me everything would cancel out, and it'd all be fine."
That made since, Caretaker supposed. They still didn't quite like the idea of hurting Whumpee, even if they were consenting to it, but if they were certain it would help...
"Okay, fine. If... if you really think that it'll help, then I will. I- I want to help you."
It was hard for Whumpee to keep from grinning as Caretaker finally cracked, giving in to their request.
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vinnyhongnsfwgurl · 10 months ago
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1st Vinny Hong FanFic? I literally have no idea what this should be LOL
Hello all Windbreaker fans and Vinny Hong lovers. This is my first Vinny Hong x female reader fanfic. I hope you enjoy and comments/feedback is always welcome! Thanks :3
So, I didn't realize what kind of fanfic this would be after I finished writing it LMAO. Complete despair and heartbreak hahaha. I just chose to write and not think to hard. tbh I'm pretty happy with it. Let me know what you think :) .... also I did not proof read haha I am lazy.
I think I'll do a part 2 to this one!
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"y/n? ...... y/n?"
"Y/N?!"
You're head snaps up to look at your mother sitting in the hospital bed next to you. She looked at you slightly worried.
She tilted her head as she asked "Are you okay? I called your name multiple times."
You sat up straighter in your chair and nodded. "Yes. Sorry. I, uh, just got lost in my thoughts for a moment." A lot had happened in the past couple of weeks. My mother got very sick and ended up in the hospital for a second time, nearly dying due to a brain aneurysm. It had put a lot of stress on every part of our lives, mostly financially. We weren't poor, but we certainly did not have the luxury to not work and stay in the hospital for extended periods.
I had thought about picking up extra hours at my part-time job, but I knew it wouldn't help much and I knew my studies would suffer. I was already struggling to keep my grades up. Besides my part-time job, I had to train for the upcoming final race of League of Streets. I was a part of Hummingbird and it was amazing but like my personal life, it was a mess. So much had happened with our team.
The most recent event was Vinny leaving our team deciding to ride with the Ghost crew. He started doing small races for money, which were broadcasted online. I had seen a few. Everyone was confused and upset including me. The whole reason we created Hummingbird was to compete in LOS and win the price money for Vinny's mother but I guess he had different plans in mind.
"It'll be okay honey" my mom said as she reached for my hand. I let let her hold my hand. It was warm and reassuring.
I smiled. "I know mom. I'm glad you're alright .... I was really scared actually." I could feel the pressure behind my eyes build up.
My mom started tearing up. "I know. I know y/n. but it's okay, I'm okay." She squeezed my hand.
I just nodded. "yeah."
After a few minutes and making sure my mother didn't need anything, I hugged her goodbye and started making my way out of the hospital. I took a seat on a bench that was stationed right next to the entrance of hospital. I had taken a bus here and planned on taking it to get back home. It only took me ten minutes to get to the bus stop, so I had a bit of time before I had to leave. I was really tired and too stressed. I found myself looking for more quiet moments out of my day.
I looked out toward the street across from the hospital. It was already dark out, but there was quite a bit of traffic. Honking interrupted the empty, docile night every now and than.
I heard footsteps come around the corner that ended abruptly once they caught up to the bench I was sitting at. As I turned my head to see what or who it was, I hear a familiar voice.
"What are you doing here?"
Vinny. It was all I thought as my eyes met his. His red eye seemed strikingly brighter than it usually was. Maybe it's just because I hadn't seen him in awhile.
"Oh. I was visiting my mom. She recently had surgery." I explained. ".... Are you hear to see your mom?" I asked.
He was quiet for a second before answering my question. "Yeah, she's staying here."
"MMm that's good. Glad to hear she is getting treatment" I said.
"What about your mom? Is she okay?"
"oh yeah! The surgery went well, so everything is good." I gave a sheepish thumbs up. I always became painfully aware of how awkward I felt when interacting with Vinny. I was a fairly shy person and it didn't help how handsome I thought he was. It took time in the beginning for us to get along and establish a relationship. It wasn't hard for me to figure out soon after that I was falling in love with him.
There was a lot I learned about him after Hummingbird was formed and the more I learned the more I desired to be near him. He was hot headed and pretty reserved, but it never really bothered me. I always went out of my way to greet him at practice and I chat with him when I could. I never cared if it was just small talk.
He just stared at me for a moment before saying "Good to hear that."
I knew what what was coming next, or what wasn't. This would be the end of our conversation. I didn't want it to be.
"How have you been?" I asked.
"I'm fine." He said plainly.
"And Jack?" following it up with a smile.
"He's fine too."
Man of few words I thought. I was used to it but I always wondered what actually behind those words: I'm fine.
"Are you really doing fine? I know I'm probably not the first person you think of when you want to talk to someone, but you're my friend. I'm here for you." I blurted out without much thinking.
When I had mentioned how confusing and upset I was when he left our crew, it was an understatement. I was sad and hurt. I also felt so helpless. He left us all behind and had no desire to return.
I looked down at the backpack I held in my arms. There was so much I wanted to say, but none of it seemed enough.
"I'm sorry for everything that's happened. I know you're having a hard time. I wish you hadn't had to leave the team."
"I don't know why you're apologizing, y/n. You don't need to." He replied.
Vinny walked up closer to me until he stood just a few inches from my feet. I looked up and he gaze had softened just a bit.
"You don't need to worry about me. Just focus on yourself. You have a lot going on."
"Yeah."
There was a moment of silence as Vinny and I held each other's gaze.
Then Vinny turned to leave. "I'll see you later y/n."
Before he took another step, I reached for his hand. It was a light grasp, just enough to stop him.
"Come back to Hummingbird ..... at least, at some point. We'll wait for you. It's nothing without you"
Vinny just stared at me before pulling his hand away from my mine.
"Y/n."
"It doesn't matter if it's not tomorrow, or the next day, or weeks from now! J-just come back. Please." I could feel a increase in my heart rate and the pressure behind my eyes building up again.
Vinny sighed and turned away from me.
"There's no reason for me to come back." He said sternly. "There's nothing you or the others can offer me." He continued has he started walking away.
Something warm slid down the right side of me cheek. I blinked and more came out. I was crying.
I just stood there as I continued to watch him walk away. My crying only worsened and I could feel a lump form in my throat.
I can't give up on you Vinny I thought as I recollected the memories of us together and how much our relationship progressed.
I just can't Vinny. I won't. I love you.
After he was well out of my sight, I finally left for the bus station. I cried the entire way.
For once, I wished it wasn't so quiet out.
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It is once more fox girl friday, but along with that it's also friday the 13th. So happy fox girl friday and...
BOOOO!
sorry that was pretty scary, but you know whats scarier? A story I heard about a merchant and his son stopping at a village. But this story might be toooo scary for a scared little fox like you, so I'll be nice just this once and hide it below.
I might misremember it since i heard it from like a youth pastor way back when (it's been a long time).
so like get this, this merchant and his son stopped by an otherwise unremarkable town to do like merchant stuff or whatever. And like eventually he got to selling some of his wares, but everyone kept avoiding one of his wares in particular. Can you guess what it was?
That's right, it was his apples, so he asked some of the villagers what was up.
"Is there anything about my apples that bothers you all?"
upon mention of apples, the villagers went stiff, fear enveloping their face's.
"Sir, t-t-t-heir marvelous apples sir. I-i-it's just that there lives an awful "plague god", in that manor across the lake."
"that vile creature... in it's infinite jealousy, ended up cursing those that ingest an apple."
The villagers went on to explain various tragedies that affected those unfortunate enough to eat one. And mentioning that the vile plague god takes the form of a young girl. And that if ever you notice a young girl on that isle, it's already to late for you. The plague god has already noticed you, prepare for the worst and hope for the best.
But the merchant merely laughed and said
"Very well, I suppose I should enjoy my marvelous apples myself! WEHHEHHEH" (He had a really odd laugh, runs in the family I believe)
He had a bite.
Not long after he went looking for his son so that they could have a meal. Only to realize his son was missing, so off in a hurry he went to look for him. Asking as many people as he could.
Eventually a villager said that they saw a boat go out not long ago, towards that vile little plague god's domain.
He wasted no time and desperately paddled his way over to that cursed isle. Much to his relief his son was within sight, yet something was odd.
His son, one to only ever draw anything in the comfort of their own carriage was sat on the ground drawing the mansion. Relieved he gave his son a warm hug, and told him how dangerous it was here.
They had a moment, before the son asked if he could draw one more thing before they left the isle. The dad was worried, but he happened to be a softie when it came to his son, so he relented.
As the son finished drawing, he waved towards the manor, his father become confused, and very worried. The merchant was fearing that the vile plague god was in there. But he turned around and cast his gaze towards the mansions window, and saw nothing but the curtains.
Fearing his son was seeing things he said we leave now, and leave they did.
On their way back towards the town, the son proudly showed off various drawing's to his father. Explaining each and every one of them, and the son's final piece depicted a crying girl.
The father obviously confused mentioned "what brought this one on?"
"ooooo that was the girl in the window earlier"
The dad had never seen any girl, fear gripped his heart, and he decided that they leave immediately. And so leave they did, the dad swore never to return again, and to never have another marvelous apple again.
Heh, it's not really as scary as I remember if i'm being honest, it's the usual classic "ghost girl only the kid sees" kinda thing, a teensy bit boring tbh.
Honestly the only reason it stuck with me was because I kept wondering just why the ghost girl was crying? Well it's probably just adding the crying ghost trope for the sake of adding a trope, kinda lame imo.
Well that's that, have a marvelous fox girl friday!
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