#I barely got in the shower
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Me: *up all night with a bad cold, runny nose, freezing, wearing 3 jackets and a long sleeve shirt, by a heater most of the night, sore throat, not really feeling any food, don't want to eat,legs don't want to stand, too weak*
#the dishes really need to be washed and I'm too weak to do them#I barely got in the shower#I just want to sit and lay on the couch all day#my stomach is growling but nothing in the kitchen is appetizing#Can barely sleep because of my sore throat and my nose gets stuffy#I'm freezing#Like really freezing#The shower was extremely difficult because it gets cold easily and I barely had time to use soap#I hate the feeling of wet hair#I also hate the feeling of cold wet hair#I've always hated the feeling of cold wet hair touching me#being sick made the feeling worse
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real talk having the 2nd worst new years eve yet π€’π€’π€’ (throat infection, twisted neck, banged-about-foot, ego AND the rest o' me all bruised like misjuggled peaches πππ)
im bent outa shape and suspectin the universe owes me 8 buck if anyone wannsa chip in
#yes the πππwas just an excuse to shove ass emojis in your face i'm only (occasionally. allegedly) human#now ask me about my FIRST worst new year eve. it involves wizards and portals and elaborate lies i make up on the spot#SAD REAL TALK <STARTS>:#also made the mistake of reaching out to my mom post-xmas#like what kind of c-ptsd NOOB does that. what kinda chronic holiday trauma survivor NOVICE??? embarrassing#THE SEDUCTIVE FALSE HOPE OF NOSTALGIA WILL LURE YOU IN EVERY TIME#'oh but maybe they won't disappoint me. but maybe they won't rip my heart out this time'#sweetheart that's your dear sweet inner child's yearning for what never was or will be. BEAT IT BACK WITH A STICK!#SAD REAL TALK <ENDS>#....back to that part where i talked about being bent out of shape#if anyone w/ metalwork skills wants ta take a blowtorch & hammer & tongs & have at... I'm open to experimentation is all im sayin#in lieu of that i would also welcome someone buying me a sandwich. i am. so sore.#(metaphysically sore but also the other more urgent im-at-my-daily-NSAIDs-limit kinda sore)#(hence: sanwimch)#...i got so sleepy writing this i started imagining the astonishing hedonism#of stroking a freshly grilled cheese-dripping sandwhich across my body like a loofah#the soothingness of the gooey warm near liquid cheese. the vaguely spongelike quality of toasted sourdough slice.#look i didn't imagine it on PURPOSE it just came to me like a vision like a threat#like one of those weird mens locker room ads where the sportsball is watermelon??? u know the one#where there's nudity & food & homoerotica & hot steaming showers in the background and STILL the overall effect is more offputting than sex#look i have a throat infection. i can barely swallow. i'm sipping chocolate milk to survive and i'm NOT EVEN ENJOYING IT. each drop is agon#(opposite side of the Tantalus spectrum but i'm suffering more than he has in 3.5 thousand years)#i'm dehydrated. barely conscious. electrolytes are circling down the drain. doctors should be incubating me w/ capri sun straws right now.#I GET A PASS ON THESE TAGS#i don't know what i wrote! and i don't stand by it! and you can't make me read em!!!
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So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?
Things I need to do:
Finish reading icebound land
Make a whole lotta art that I promised people
Research study abroad programs
At least one Dutch lesson a day
Keep my room clean
Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)
My math homework
Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane
Eat at 7pm
Various things I enjoy as to not go insane
All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00
So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks
But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup
#βbut you never actually do that stuff! you just sit and scroll!β#yeah cause if I'm not doing what I need to I'm not Allowed to do anything else#but I'm just. too tired. to do what I need yo#I hate high school#rambles#adhd#executive dysfunction#<- I've heard that this kinda mental math can be a symptom of those things? idk#im so tired#burnout#adhd burnout#(????? I think????)#high school#I'm just so tired of all of this#the sun is going down way too early and I barely speak at all at school and I never finish work early anymore and the teen center is loud#and I still want to be active in the fandom but I don't have time to make posts anymore#and I don't have any in person friends anymore and I don't know when the last time I got a hug was#and I'm just. so. tired. my room is clean and I have good grades and I talk to my friends everyday and I shower routinely#why the hell am I so stressed#I do everything I'm supposed to do#I just want to go somewhere else man#The Netherlands hopefully#I wanna actually DO something#go on a trip for band#not just finish the work put in front of me day after day after day after day#I wasn't built for this shit#I'm so fucking tired
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never in my life have i wanted a Daddy more than i do rn π
#personal#i'm going to ramble and drop it all in the tags#i'd like to have a pity party for myself thanks#the election?#fucked i've just been scrambling for a week now to prepare for the worst that feels like it's rapidly approaching#vaccines updated birth control bought out stockpile of food started passport appointments made tasers and protective gear purchased#banned books put on a wishlist#the holidays?#trying to make them enjoyable instead of so so so triggering#husband's new job?#barely home he's barely home i feel like a solo parent#i'm absolutely drowing at home mainly alone with two toddlers who have found their spirit and resilience and attitude...#the new house?#we've been fighting we are not vibing it's taking forever for me to feel in love with it#we do not get along rn lol#writing? personal time? self care? nonexistent i have no time alone during the day and then i spend the two hours i have to myself at night#fighting sleep and doing nothing#took a shower today and when i got out my eyelash line started burning and then my eyes were burning and then my nose was running and#then my eyes were watering and i could barely open them and goop started building and then they were SWOLLEN to the point where i could see#the muscles bulging and then i couldn't move them left or right#so i drove I DROVE myself to the urgent care#turns out my water has way too much chlorine in it and now that i've started taking hot as fuck and steamy showers it's just made me#susceptible to severe allergic reactions to chlorine?#it's been horrible my eyes are so sore now and they're just now not sopping in goop#and yeah#just...#i live the same day every day and i'm spiraling and drowning and about to go off the rails while also trying to SUCK THE JOY out of the las#month we have before democracy crumbles so#i just wish i had a Daddy to take care of me and tell me things are going to be okay π#preferably a Big Daddy that would let me sleep for days and would bring me food and let me hug and snuggle on him and not talk
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spent too much time in the sun today and now itβs just like you mean i have to put on aloe by MYSELF? wash off all the grime by MYSELF?? get some water and make a snack and get the bed all comfy ALL BY MYSELF?? just so i can go to sleep all ALONE??? with NO ONE here to hold me or cover me in every blanket i own??literally so offensiveπ€
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#spending time in the sun makes me so sleepy itβs not even funnyπ΄#and of course i got a little burntπ so now im even MORE tired#shoulders and face got crispyπ#was barely making it through showering and lotion and hair and bed etc etc#so sleepy and relaxed was just READY to fall asleep#if you want a very sleepy and pliant partner just date me and put me out in the sun for like an hour#bout to fall asleep SO fast#hopefully for SO long too#i did too much the past few days and need a BREAKπ€π€#im gay and i like sleeping
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i am clinically crazy about him this isnβt funny anymore πππππ
#β ai rambles#how come i feel like this after all this time#in fact i am crazier than ever now#SICK AND TWISTED#the way heβs got me wrapped around his finger#sigh π#also i am eyeing the two asks from yesterday ποΈποΈ that got me hot and bothered during work hours ποΈποΈ#was going to answer but i crashed after work and took a nap and then wasnβt able to bounce back rip i barely took a shower before actually#going to bed but i shall entertain you later π€
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We thought we got one glasses pic. But nope. It's not one. Not two. Not three. Not four.
It's five glasses pics.
And one is better than the other! ππππππππππππππππππ
#AAFAGSGHSHJSHHSHJANJSJSJJS#I DONT CHECK TWITTER ONCE AND SEE WHAT WE MISS#WE GOT FIVE PICTURES WHAT IS GOING ON πππππππππππππππππ#AND HE LOOKS SO GOOD IN ALL OF THEM#the first one is so soft π#my favs are 4 and 5 β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ#the light today was perfecr#THE FLUFFY HAIR#and the grey in the beard looks so goooooood π« π« π« π« π« π« π« #i need that look in a suit#its either the light or the beard is really getting grey fast right now#and i want to believe its just because of natural aging process#no really the salt and pepper beard is looking so good on him π« #WE GOT 5 PICS#I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT#WE STARTED WITH BARELY A CENTIMETRE OF GLASSES ZOOMED IN AND HIDDEN BY HIM#AND NOW WR GET THEM ALMAST DAILY#AND A LOT#it must be the new glasses πππ#i want to believe they really are a gift from olena (and sasha picked them out)#and olena used all her power and charme and flattered him and showered him with comments and compliments#so he would wear them#WE ARE GETTING CLOSER TO ZE WEARING THEM OUTSIDE THE OFFIXE#I CAN FEEL IT#5 PICS πππππππππππππ
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i rememorized how to solve a rubik's cube!
#unfortunately i accomplished this at 3am last night ;-;#i stayed up late for hw again and then needed a break#i love my stellar class sm bc the prof is such a down to earth and silly guy#who really prioritizes student lesrning over grades#and i love that so so so very much#and the content in class is cool!!!#the hw just takes me forever#and with everything else i have to do it piles up and i keeping staying up late to do it ;-;#and then after doing that + staring at a screen/coding for so many hours in a row i need a break before i go to bed#and then i stay up later#and by that time it's too late for melatonin#so i end up staying up later bc even though i'm exhausted i can't fall asleep bc i'm anxious#about the fact that it's late + how little sleep i'm going to get + whether or not i'll sleep through my alarms#+ the parts of the hw i still have left + the one million tasks i've put off and still need to do#tldr: i got like 4 hours of sleep and woke up 30 mins before class and rushed to campus (i didn't get to shower)#and i barely ate anything and i feel like shit#i'm about to eat lunch but i am shaky and unwell#i keep telling myself i can't keep living like this but i can't figure out how to not be in this situations ;-;#<- oh wow that's a lot of tags o.o#if you got to the end of them pls know i love + appreciate you sm for listening to me <3#i will be okay. just having a rough time rn#zip quips
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Do yβall want to see me hopping around dressed up as a green tree frog for our Halloween kids event at work???
#u guys totally want to see this I promise#I had sUCH a good day on Saturday holy shit#literally jumping around and dancing and talking abt frogs all day#it was SO much fun holy shit#I am slightly sore today after the fact#but it was barely painful and so much fun yesterday#I canβt wait for them to share the Official Photos they took during the event#Iβve got some silly ones from coworkers tho and theyβre great#I made my own frog feet shoe covers to complete the look and it was like wearing diving flippers I had to walk super funny to keep them up#so they didnβt drag or get bent on the ground bc it was just cardboard and duct tape#I was SO hyper all day I could not stop giggling and dancing and wiggling and jumping#it took until like midnight to wind down enough for sleep#I showered and had a cup of tea and was still giggly#I have not had that feral energy in a long while#im a rambling Sam
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[ID: three digital illustrations based on episodes of the owl house. The first image is based on Understanding Willow and features Amity and Inner Willow. Amity looks at Inner Willow regretfully, holding a hand to her chest, as Inner Willow stands surrounded by pink fire, yelling at Amity with steam coming from her eyes. Lyrics are written crookedly across the background: "I'm not here for your entertainment/your the kinda guy that likes some fun/am I just here for a bit of amusement?/you'll never be my NUMBER 1!!!".
The second image is based off For the Future and features Willow and Hunter. Hunter hugs willow, his face obscured, as she sobs and vines glow green around them both. The lyrics this time are written more neatly in the middle of the image and read "are you bored?/or are you scared?/what happened to secrets we shared?/ Did I say something/? Have I crossed the line?/you know I never meant it/when I said I was FINE!".
The final image is both drawings on one canvas with no lyrics. Each image has a dark blue background. End ID]
Thinks about Willow's repressed emotions and eats glass. Cutely (song is Con Man by The Tuts!)
#the owl house#toh#willow park#amity blight#hunter toh#hunter noceda#(aw i haven't used that one in a while :'))#Understanding Willow#For the Future#i have to go shower so i can't add tag commentary rn all i can tell you is RRRAGH GO LISTEN TO THAT SONG AND GET FEELINGS ABT IT LIKE ME#I'VE WANTED TO MAKE THIS FOR WEEKS AND I FINALLY GOT AROUND TO IT#i wish you could see hunters face but it just didn't work with the proportions so i had to live with that#SAD. ah well there's other blonde boys (<- cruel joke abt grimwalkers)#not about him though. it's about willow#i think (and this is a big maybe) once I'm done my rewatch of s2A (and the frog show cause I'm rewatching that too)#I'm gonna rewatch EVERY willow ep right before ASIAS and then go from there#she's special she deserves it#same way i might rewatch the gus episodes before Labyrinth Runners. it's just a little ritual i have sometimes :]#anyway. oooooh you want to appreciate willows repressed rage and fear and sadness soooo bad#also I'M SORRY IF THE HAND LETTERING IS BAD FONTS JUST LOOKED TO GOOFY. I'M TRYING BARE WITH ME
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How its been going if I'm being quite honest
#Sorry this is ooc it's just how I'm feeling#My brain went 'oh? You're in the middle of the worst week of your life? Here's a random character to fixate on until things calm down π'#I'm back at the apartment btw#Severe thunderstorms here so they kept us in the air for an extra hour#But yeah I'm sorry I've been inactive and not chatty lately. Just going through a lot right now and it's taking its toll#I'm doing what I can just to keep myself from falling to pieces#On the brightside the paper work went through so she will be seeing the specialists on Monday if all goes well#On the downside I just can't stop crying#I can barely walk as soon as I got in I just collapsed#I barely slept all weekend#This is the first shower I'm taking since Thursday night#Haven't brushed my teeth either#I know I smell like shit I just couldn't be bothered#My hair was matted to my head#I felt bad for everyone at the airport but I just couldn't bear to be away from her longer than absolutely necessary#Cruddy rambles
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this again but remade with npcs that i personally enjoy
#there are a lot of problems with every seat btw but it's all in my own headcanons i've barely shared KJHGFDG#maddox and aatrox are a relatively fine seat i just like them and wanted to put the brothers on a flight together lol#shouldve swapped them with the paul diana seat to cause barry even more problems </3 im too lazy to go fix it#bartender is also a pretty normal seat but you gotta be behind ugo and scorn#puzzler Might be a normal seat but now you have to be in front of them kjgfhg#sb#mine#i love the fact that this got done so fast i knew EXACTLY who was getting in this plane hfkjgh#just got out of the shower and had to make my vision a reality
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My wall being done in one day was too good to be true
Paints peeling
Itβs also still soft. Not as bad. But i think they were focused on toilet-tub, but the counter-toilet side is also soft and maybe I just didnβt notice it til now bc of how bad the other side was buttttttttt it seems like they fixed the tub side (maybe the soft is bc itβs still drying? Or bc the other side is also wetβ¦β¦)
New maintenance request! π«
#ugh#and I havenβt showered here so itβs not that#literally canβt move like I think I barely got accepted here so I gotta stay here#jacks post
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he's so real for this
#god i wish that were me#i wanna sleep as a kitty cat#mylittleguys#also hi i am sick and i feel half dead and i can barely eat or drink i am not entirely sure that i am awake right now#so thats what ive been up to the past few days :))))))#ahahahaahahahahahahahaaaaaa wish me luck o7#rly badly wanna draw but ive got a fever and im all shaky and my throat is all stuffy and i havent eaten much bc of it so i cant even rly c#concentrate at anything and i have been wasting away in my bed and i havent showered in too long and its shark week and :(((#im just being put through so many horrors rn πͺπ#when everything bad hits all at once πͺπ#this guys my new bff p sure -> πͺπ#hi sorry bout all that its been piling up :))))c#πͺπ#<- for when ur on the verge of a shutdown and/or meltdown
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it finally hit me boys
#im a very internal person and any time my chest was bare in the last two weeks it was usually around nurses and stuff#but i finally got to have a proper shower and could spend some time with it and it hit me#top surgery
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having a serious crush for the first time in a long time is so fucking scary i want to drive into a brick wall
#WHY CANT I STOP THINKING ABOUT HER I CANT EVEN FOCUS ON MY WORK#every single time im doing something i keep thinking of how much more fun it would be if she was there#i think of when we woke up early in the morning and after i showered she gave me a sweater to wear and we walked her dogs together#stopping mid conversation to point out pretty trees and the color of the sky in puddles and the sound of the leaves underfoot#and less than a week later it got too warm so she borrowed one of my goth shirts and was so excited to wear it when we went out dancing#and quickly escaped the men who tried to teach us and we laughed as i spun her the wrong way as i led a dance i barely knew#she pops into my office with a grin on her face to remind me we're running late to class and we walk across campus sharing an umbrella
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