#I am so mitigated
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stitchposts · 5 days ago
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"how's the embroidery going?" well my furnace broke like 3 hours before a massive snowstorm so there's that edit 1/7/25: heat restored! thanks for all the well wishes you guys
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rileys-battlecats · 1 month ago
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was trying to figure out why I feel so Wrong rn and I think it's because I didn't follow my usual daily routine like At All and now my brain is freaking out. woke up at a vastly different time, had entirely different tasks throughout the day, took a nap at a weird time (to make up for the fact I had about 3 hours of sleep last night), zero human contact for the past 15 hours, and ate different food from usual (various leftovers from social events/thanksgiving, instead of cooking for myself like normal). and before I really realized that these were all things that were Bad For My Brain I was just wandering around my house like "why do I feel like garbage?? I've literally been outside so much today my brain should be happy"
ANYWAY here's to me not remembering I have issues with unstructured living because my days have been so similar for the past 4ish years that I straight up Forgot that things being too different too fast makes me crazy ✌️
#rye.txt#I'll be fine lol#the sudden shift in my daily schedule and my generally unhealthy eating today were the big things that made me feel Bad#so now that I am actually cognizant of this I can take steps to mitigate it tomorrow#god. what the hell did I even eat#leftover soup. that was breakfast (very out of my ordinary). uhh. a lot of pie (grandma made a ton for thanksgiving).#a tangerine that miiight have been on the edge of going bad#(thought I should eat a fruit. fruit did not improve status)#reheated ​popcorn chicken? that was not a good decision I felt so gross after eating that#hrm. ok my issue is that I feel like I Need To Eat These Leftovers So They Don't Go Bad#otherwise i'll be Wasting Perfectly Good Food#BUT. I don't want to eat it and eating it makes me feel generally unfulfilled and kinda blehg#ough. why can't I be normallllll#I'm also not dealing with the whole 'zero human contact' very well tbh. which is weird because I'm a deeply introverted person#and usually spend my days avoiding people like the plague#but idk. it's been literal years since I've spent and extended period of time completely alone#I don't knowwww i don't know#I'm gonna invite some friends over tomorrow and get them to help me eat these dang pies#ALSO. ITS BEEN REALLY COLD TODAY. AND I HAD TO BREAK INTO MY NEIGHBORS' HOUSE#(was not breaking in; I was trying to take care of their dogs since they're out of town)#(but their door code AND their garage door code weren't working#and I didn't have a physical key to use#so I had to push my way in through a back door that'd been blocked by a pile of boxes taller than my head#and squirm into their garage in order to get inside and take care of the dogs)#(was a very stressful way to spend my early waking hours)#i ALSO had to drive to the AIRPORT this morning which SUCKED. had to drop off family#which like I'm happy to help but also airports suck so much ass I hate them#anyway. today was sort of shitty#but mostly I only have myself to blame#did not structure my day well enough
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deoidesign · 8 months ago
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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frustratedpker · 1 year ago
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Good thinking! I think that's the only logical explanation too. It does make sense and it has to be like this, taking into account the chronological order of the events
Personally, I am kind of mitigated though. When I first read the first issues, before anything about him was revealed I headcannoned him in his late '20s (like 27-28). Obviously, that doesn't add up with the rest of the information we got later. So, all information considered, I personally would now place him in his '30s.
Still, let me explain my initial line of though:
It baffles me how young he looks without his helmet (at least to me). Still, I don't know whether it is just the art style or a deliberate choice of the artist. But we should take into account that these short stories are a much later addition to the source material and are actually spin-offs.
Still, judging from his personality alone (no backstory involved), I'd make him much younger. One would imagine that by his age he would have developed some brains, but that's the main point of his whole character. He used to be curious once and has been succumbing to the same fatal flaw ever since. Him being in his '40s highlights that even more than him being in his -let's say- 20's when this kind of immaturity is natural and to be expected.
Also, other traits he displays (like letting others push him around, impulsive actions) are generally associated with younger people (stereotypically speaking, it can happend to anyone). Which makes me wonder about the attitude of his colleagues like Angus etc. Not that I believe that he would be any kinder if he knew (because I suppose he doesn't) Camera 9's actual age.
Plus, he hangs out a lot with Lyla who (despite being an android) I would place in her '30s. I always imagined these two as belonging to the same generation.
(I know that him being in his '40s doesn't contradict any of the aforementioned)
Extra note: if we take into account the headcannon that he lost his nationality because his country doesn't exist anymore, we could find an approximate birth date for him, but since this isn't a headcannon I comply with I won't analyse this point of view
Doing the math (according to my headcannons):
Graduating at 21, working at newspapers and making a name for a couple of years [3-4] (I always imagined him as someone with an almost instant success in the field - just to make his downfall even more angstier), so he starts the hot spot coverages at about 25-30 and keeps going for some years (not many). He loses his nationality, becomes Camera 9. You are right here, he mustn't have been working at 00 for a long time since people do remember Stefan Vladuck.
So, I'd say he's 35+ when the actual story takes place. I like the number 37 for some reason.
Our views don't differ a lot. But it is as if, in my mind, Stefan is 27, 37 and 45 at the same time depending the point of view I analyse him from xD
But technically speaking, anything from 30+ could be possible chronologically.
Hello! I hope you're doing well! I was thinking about Stefan (to no one's surprise) and I was wondering how old he could be. As a Stefan expert, I'd like to hear your thoughts on this subject
Hi! I'm doing well, hope you're well too.
I would say in his 40s, based on what he has done so far. We would also have to consider how long he has been Camera 9, but let's speculate:
I don't know how old you would typically graduate from journalism school, but let's assume around 24-25, then, I guess he didn't started as a hotstop journalist right away, he likely worked writing articles or notes for newpapers. Maybe he started his real career in his late 20s or early 30s. He did make a name for himself in the field. He is talented, so it may happen right away, but I'd say it took some time, so maybe mid to late 30s? Maybe he lost his nationality around that time, too... and we don't know how long he has been Camera 9, but it can be THAT long since people still recognize the name Stefan Vladuck (though nobody knows it's him).
I may be missing or overseeing a lot of details, but, yeah, I would say on his 40s.
What do you think?
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qoldenskies · 1 month ago
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Also you 🤝me
Doing Bad Things Happen Bingo looking at Rise and cackling wickedly…..now to make them their own separate thing or write more CC brainrot
always the option to mix it up a little !!! i'll probably be writing a little cc if i get an idea for something really good with my bthb but im probably going to focus mooostly on original prompts so mess around. do what your heart desires!!!
#ask#my brain races in circles for ages until i get a Zing#and that is what makes me write the good shit#and i literally could not tell you what makes it happen it just kinda. pop#WHERE DID I GET THE CANARIES FROM BRUH#fun fact for CU i was originally planning on doing a curse that affected all of them#to draw a line between donnie and his family like#its a kind of affliction that can be mitigated with physical touch#for the rest of them it barely means anything. its so easy to handle#so they dont even consider donnie at all at first until its too late#and they werent even told it COULD get that bad because why would they be???#i couldnt find a structure for it so i changed it to venom instead howeverrr#i am very invested in the idea of doing some whump for all of them like that#like idk pollen that heightens paranoia severely or something#and splinter has to confront the ways his neglect has affected his children definitely by the ways they act#OH THE ZING HAPPENED#splinter pov ....#raph fight leo flight mikey freeze donnie fawn...... chat im cooking. CHAT IM COOKING#eyeing the self loathing prompt#like mikey cant do anything but cry and cling to his family#and raph is super protective and trying to herd them and keep them AWAY from splinter out of distrust#and leo flees because he's ashamed of being distress and they cant see him like that#while donnie obsessively cleans and checks stock#and splinter thinks he's being reliable 'as ever' until he breaks down over something so simple#like not enough food and its the day before grocery day#CHAT IM COOKING#omfg
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a-lonely-dunedain · 2 months ago
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54, 55, 57, and 36 for Ethedis/Corunir 💜?
36. Who’s more likely to fire up the stove at 2am because the other woke up in the middle of the night hungry? Ethedis would be. Corunir of course would never ask her to, I don't think he likes to ask people for things, but Ethedis will never pass up an excuse to do something nice for him <3. Currently I hc elves don't need to sleep as much as humans do, so odds are she was probably awake anyway
on that note, a cute thing I should also mention: though she's awake for a lot of the night she stays in bed with Corunir anyway. No one else is awake and she doesn't have much else to do, so she just likes to relax there and Be Held <3 (of course in my hc Corunir is a big cuddler. why give him such big arms if not to Hold the Ethedis?)
54. Who’s more likely to carry the other to bed?
So Ethedis would really want to, but the thing is, Corunir is a big guy and she's a lil elf with lil noodley scholar arms, it just isn't happening. Corunir would be more than happy to scoop her up though, she weighs about as much as a small sack of flour to him <3 (I am also a huge supporter of the hc that elves are just, slightly less effected by gravity, so Corunir is initially very shocked at how easy she is to pick up)
55. Do they like watching clouds or star gazing?
Of course! you know how elves are about stars ✨
Eth probably has a massive pool of knowledge about constellation Lore™ built up over her years of study that she would be more than happy to dump on Corunir at a moment's notice <3 and he's happy to hear all about it! (even if she does end up going on for so long that he falls asleep 😅 in his defense, it's very late and the sound of her voice is just such a comforting thing to drift off to, who can blame him really?)
57. Whose the serious one when grocery shopping and who likes to toss random things in the cart?
in a modern AU Corunir is in charge of making the grocery list and sticking to it. Ethedis, filled with the whimsy and impulsiveness of a young elf, is in charge of tossing Fun Treats™ into the cart whenever he's not looking (they are not leaving the store without at least 1 (one) new scented candle or potted plant)
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yrlocalghost · 1 day ago
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there has got to be some kind of long term consequence for living in a way in which you fear for your life almost 24/7
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blizzardfluffykpop · 1 month ago
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it's starting to hit me that i'm going to have a career soon and like... that is like a wild thing to try to comprehend?? like yes i've studied my ass off for the past twoish months- to pass a test. but that test means i have job where i can sit and do my job? it's still a very radical concept to me.
#kate rambles from here on#the thing is- my family has always been working class- so i really wrote off college at a young age- mostly cause my dream differed#bc of wanting to make music and what not- but like they offered the course to me for free and it's sth i've thought about before and#i've been struggling not having a job bc of my plantars fasciitis (it's from stress) so not working on my feet = lifesaver for me#i am thankful for saving up as hard as i did when i could- bc i've been living off it until recently- where it's gotten too low for my liki#it's not that i'm complaining and/or changing my lifestyle- it's just i had been fighting to get a job that i could do that wouldn't kill m#to do- and i applied to this job thinking 'they're never even going to look at my application' bc imo i have no real qualifications outside#of customer service- but they did- and i've been in the process of being hired for the past 2-3~ mos- in two days it is tech the start of#my contract- in five days i'll be going near the big city to do my onboarding? and then i'll do more course work and like the idea that soo#in January- officially- part time- i'll be working at office? like is just a wild concept to me- i'll be getting paid for learning in dec~#and i just? omg... this is wild to me... yes i realize my plantars could strike back here- but- bc i will be sitting it'll mitigate it sm#it is still part time for now- bc i asked for it to be part time and work my way up to full time- i'm allowed at any time w/training to#move up to the next level- but i can stay at level 2 for hwvr long i wish if i want to- mostly i'll be working from jan to may#and idk random fact but after applying i got to learn that my grandma before she passed did the same thing- i really do take#after my namesake- hehe- idk this is a big ramble but it's just vv wild to me#(me over here “my first big purchase will be the byz's sgs” ((i could buy it now but i'm waiting for it as a treat~)) i bought their album#when i successfully completed the scary test~ so i'm using them as a motivator to work hard ebhbhea)#kate rambles#idk i'm vv proud of myself and i just wanted to share-
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macden · 6 months ago
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THANK GOD THERE MIGHT STILL BE HOPE
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lobotomy-lady · 6 months ago
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my cousin has a strong fear of being attacked by a sharks & he was talking about how he's never gonna swim in the ocean ever again & I was like "that's silly, there's 1 fatal shark attack every other year in the US & only around 15 per year in the entire world. unless you're an australian surfer your chances are basically zero" & he was like "hm. fascinating. now tell me about the plane crash stats" -_-
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amrv-5 · 7 months ago
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in my cutthroat careerbitch era
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thementalistscandidate · 9 months ago
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For the last 3 days or so, my face has been having a horrible eczema flare up, just the top 5 layers on my skin nothing but flakes. Itchy, uncomfortable, painful and I could Not figure out why until my mom commented thinking it was stress and I was like no that’s not it but idk what it is. And she was like “oh, I changed the washing liquid from the non-allergenic non-bio to bio, maybe that’s it?” And I had to try not to scream and sob while going “Aha maybe, could you perhaps not use that please?”
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naomiknight-17 · 2 months ago
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Mom had a lunch date with some coworkers today, and we had planned that I would meet her at her place after to do a resistance training video and then make dinner
But when I came over she was like 'oh no we don't have time to do that, help me make banana bread' so I did, like a sucker. Then I helped make dinner (I say helped but I did like 70-80% of the baking and cooking) and then we had dinner together and I went home and collapsed on the couch
I was so worn out I fell asleep for like 90 minutes. Then I was awoken by my nighttime meds alarm, took my meds, did a load of dishes, fed the cats, and had a shower
Never got that exercise in, and now it's 2 AM, and I'm exhausted
Guess I'll just have to turn in and try again tomorrow
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angorwhosebabyisthis · 11 months ago
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man i have not posted enough pericky-specific content lately. i need to fix that. partly because it's a quality ship i love very much, and partly out of spite because tumblr is a garbage website and blocking does not keep me from seeing popular blogs around who talk about murdering pericky shippers and people who just, like, acknowledge that it's canonical SA/CSA/domestic violence survivor rep lol
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blujayonthewing · 4 months ago
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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude
#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically#where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time#and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time#are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol#christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him#AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun#anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good#after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign#the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters#so we weren't acting on it#and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY#but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics#he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly#he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary#so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao#this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!
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dumbdiscodragon · 4 months ago
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Sometimes I hate talking to people on the internet because you can think you are being super nice and reasonable and they will act like you came at them all crazy like.
Like "yes hello thank you for working so hard on porting this mod forward. I just request that you post on the page what features are or aren't available in your version, because it can be frustrating to get really far into the game only to find out that features you thought would be there, aren't, but it's too late to do anything about it. TY"
And someone got mad??? Like if u wanna keep ppl like me from coming into your discord Maybe Make This Information Available Somewhere Other Than Your Discord!?!?!?!
I Did Not Want To Join A Discord Just For This!!!
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