#I am shit at making my own content

[dearweirdme]

Rain, I just saw that Jkkr's post about your blog from a while ago got so many likes 😭. Do you think Jkkrs are winning these days? Like, you are one of the bigger blogs, but your likes are not as high. Not to sound disrespectful to you, I think your blog is great, but I do wish Taekookblogs would get more likes as well.

Hi anon! 😂 well, I've been pissing off Jkkrs big time the whole of 2023... so I bet they were elated to see that post.

My blog isn't big, I have about 370 followers, which isn't much at all. I get quite a bit of tracktion, and many Jkkrs actually also visit my blog (I know, because accidental follows and likes happen a lot... also.. I get a lot of Jkk asks, and my blocklist has become pretty long). Last year was pretty crazy, because I went from almost no asks to over 80 a day on eventful days. I still have around 250 unread asks in my inbox from around november/december, because I just couldn't manage the amount of asks I got while also going through a busy time (so sorry to everyone who wanted a reply.. I just couldn't).

Enlistment time is hard for Tkkrs. We just get no to little content. We have to make do with the snippets we get, or with old content. Some of the bigger Tkk blogs have left, others aren't posting much for several reasons. It's just adraught we're going through, nothing more. I've noticed that people come running back whenever something exciting does happen.. so it's not like people don't care anymore.. there's just nothing going on.

Because of Jm and Jk enlisting together, and with the prospect of the travel show... Jkkrs have felt victorious. After last year this times feels like redemption to them. They wont admit it now, but everyone who kept an eye on Jkk blogs last year (hi, it's me) knows that the first half of 2023 was a bad time for jkkrs. Their blogs were struggling. Many Jkkrs started to voice their worries about the state of Jm and Jk's relationship, because it was so obvious that they weren't hanging out for a long time. The few moment's they got (Jk's live) got them through it, but it was really angsty for them for a while. They played it off with things like "going through a rough spot" "Jm is playing hard to get" "Jk has to work for it" "maybe they broke up temporarily", but in reality the very obvious answer is that Jm and Jk just had different schedules for the first time in their lives and they actually did jjust not see each other much. The times we did see them they were just fine, normal.. nothing was weird. Jkkrs just constantly expect to see a relationship when in reality it's a friendship.

The way a fandom moves isn't a good representation of reality anon. Even if a hundred or a thousand Jkkrs scream about Jk and Jm being a couple still won't make it true. Also... always lmao with Jkkrs response to a Jkk debunk being a Tkk debunk 😂. To me the Jkk/Tkk situation isn't a competition. I love talking about Tae and Jk and I enjoy discussing everything about them with all of you.. I find the Jkk side very interesting ofcourse, but not one part of me takes them seriously.

[sergle]

I'm thinking abt that pretty fall leaves embroidery pattern post and about how like... it is categorically a repost, it's a reupload. right? a thing that is generally disliked. but because it's credited, it's genuinely boosting the artist in question. and it could ALWAYS be like this. reposting content could ALWAYS be a symbiotic relationship, but because sourcing back to the original creator of something is so uncommon, it's just easier to ask people not to repost it at all. and people still don't understand the difference. or they'll go to the effort of cropping out usernames/signatures to repost something, which is More Effort than literally crediting the creator of something you liked enough to want to repost. Like. I literally don't actually care if my own shit gets reposted, you have to understand. I just don't want it STOLEN. But "do not repost" is easier to write on my art than "you can repost this, but don't alter the image/remove my signature, don't you dare write 'credit goes to the artist' because that is not credit, please link back to my original post or someplace that you can actually find me. please use an actual link/url instead of writing a non-clickable link of my username, because making it text instead of a clickable link cuts the number of people who will go to the effort of visiting my own page in Half." All those aggregate themed accounts, those fuckin annoying as hell instagrams and facebook groups that are like "body positive art we love wamen 💕 hashtag feminism" and then MASS-STEAL plus sized art created by women, if pages like these that always go and steal my older self-portraits and other works... If they just put a link to my prints of those pieces in the text of those posts, or, fuck, my commission info page? I would literally be living on the moon right now. I would have a house on the moon

[fumifooms]

The ultimate dogboy in Dunmeshi to me isn’t Laios, Lycion or even Kuro. It’s Mickbell.

Little dog man’s never had enough. Little dog man has someone in his hands already but it’s not all that he’s wanted and craved. He’s hungered for so long and now he doesn’t know what can quench it. When you’ve been hungry, once you have something it’s hard to not binge eat it because you never know when you’ll lose it. He wants more from them, more of them, more to chew, more safely locked within his teeth, more to taste on his tongue. Hungry greedy unkempt misbehaved. I think he loves like a dog I think he slobbers and digs his teeth in because he doesn’t want to let his bone go and he’s hungry and starved.

And he’s not like Laios he’s not like Kuro he’s not like Lycion, calling him a dog in any way would be the greatest offense to him but also it’s true. Sorry. Dogboy against your consent. You better be ready to unpack a lot of stuff you don’t like hearing about yourself!!!! The unwilling dogboy analogies are the most interesting ones get out Laios and Lycion. Mick doesn’t want to be a dog, it’s dehumanizing, demeaning, but he is, he loves like a dog.

Feeling dehumanized and demeaned by loving so much, by being walked on a leash by your feelings until your body acts on instinct like it’s primal and animalistic, for feelings you cannot control, and you’re drooling you’re drooling you’re clawing teeth snapping but you’re on hands and knees begging for scraps and treats. Just a dog picking up crumbs of a fine meal from where it’s dropped on the floor, affection from coerced hands, peanuts of self-esteem from judging others, anything to soothe while surviving.

It will come back by Hozier save me. "I love like a dog" and everyone is unhappy about this, it’s too much for everyone involved, 10/10. Dunmeshi animalistic metaphors you never miss. Stray dog mick. If I don’t use a dog motif in my mick fics it’s not me someone is impersonating me

This was my train of thought for the mickbell & kuro web weaving i made a while ago I guess. Dog imagery mickbell you will always get to me…

Little dog man wants a white picket fence family and house, somewhere someone to belong to :( Okay that’s more Kuro actually, happy to just have his little kennel day after day just following his owner, shackling yourself for the love. Ough.

Mickbell, my ultimate dogboy... He plays the part so well (derogatory)

Coughing blood

[bucket-puns]

Whale fall.

[deconstructivesurgery]

controversial post but i think i'm just too much of an actual adult to be into hlvrai shipping. none of them are kissing on the mouth. none of em.

especially not gordon and benrey. they are however the world's worst roommate. worsties, if you will. gordon gets a notification every time he looks at that uncanny shitass gamer and it says "newsflash: the worst person you know is hysterically funny sometimes" and the funny aspect is just endearing enough that it prevents him from going entirely looney tunes insane

likewise benrey looks at him through the lens of like "man my new friend I found at the end of the world alien event is fucking mean to me sometimes for no reason. this surely has nothing to do with me, benrey, because I am normal and excellent at making friends on PSN." but also he mutually just finds him fun enough that he's genuinely distraught when it turns out gordon actually fucking hates him and isn't picking up on any of his (incomprehensible) bullshit about not wanting to be an antagonist

literally tldr: why would you ever want to make their relationship into anything else when the "wow everyone else here is so strange (mildly lovingly and also with a fair amount of dread and frustration). glad I'm the only normal person here" dynamic is there and 10x funnier than any possible outcome in which neurotic gordon freeman makes out with low res security guard

and also there are literally 3 other deranged individuals ripe for you people's enjoyment. go get them.

[always-andromeda]

I always wondered how James Somerton could crank out such many well written video essays in such a short amount of time…

Because he’s stealing the words of literally dozens of writers who are better than him. 😀

[cloudd-nyne]

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[devilsskettle]

i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

[icewindandboringhorror]

Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

[cosmic-ships]

Gonna take a little break. I'll still queue stuff but I can't really be here as of late.

[anxeious]

sometimes you reblog from some... "interesting" blogs but I don't really mind bc I block them and bc you're not hypervigilant which is good and part of your easy going nature. yay. anyway I like your blog

i very often go thru my followers blogs & follow some people back as well as like/reblog/queue random posts on random blogs that could be suggested to me. sometimes those blogs look okay/normal and similar to mine whenevrr i look thru it but afterwards they might rb/say some questionable things or you know, not be as similar to my blog as i thought,, which is my bad

[cowboy-robooty]

guys i have a secret... i expanded upon the idol x manager heta au thing that i drew for wiener bc i like that shit ngl and im so on the fence wether i should keep it as heta or just make them ocs lol

[crowswarm]

😤

[todayisafridaynight]

dodging-the-question ass type of answer i have to lay down

[deviousdiesel]

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[netscapenavigaytor]

the stage in a hyperfixation wehre every day you go talk to a friend on the same wavelength of insanity about it as you, and every day emerge from the dms shaking and covered in blood .