#I am fucked

[omegaversereloaded]

Im sorry for being 25 and like this genuinely

[dr-spectre]

As someone who takes photos of the Idols performances. I am FUCKED!!! I'M GONNA BE WORKING OVERTIME IN THOSE 3 DAYS!!!!

WE'RE GETTING ALL THE OLD PERFORMANCES COMING BACK AS WELL AS NEW ONES!!!! ITS A WRAP BRO! IM DONE!!!

[sergle]

the really sick and twisted part is I Am Drawing but all that time is being clocked into a few non-posting categories - commissioned pieces - skirt asset art (Detailed and Large) - sticker / product design - pieces that are personal or unfinished enough that they should really only go on my patreon

[d3lusi0nal-d33r]

shout out to people who have a lot of mental health disorders. you're not faking. your disorders are real, no matter what anyone says (also i love you 💚)

[niadotcom]

i have bitsat on 26th and when i tell you i haven't picked up a book since 11th may-

[secretsofanympho]

That moment, where he's squeezed all the air out of you and black is crawling up the edges of your vision and you think "Oh, he could actually fucking kill me right now" and it gives you such a rush

[mylasttwobraincellsandi]

Folks. I too have succumbed to the powers of hilson.

I don't think I'll make it out alive.

[bunglegaydogs]

BSD CH.109 SPOILERS AGAIN

So, I said this in my other post, but I really want this to be just focusing on that one point because I actually lowkey believe that Dazai would pull some shit like this.

So, my theory is obviously that Dazai isn't dead and he wasn't actually shot; there's a fucking mountain of evidence pointing to it just smelling so fishy like, where's all the blood? Where's how gorey getting shot in the head at point blank is? Where's the bullet wound on the wall? TW for gore, but when you get shot in the head, typically your brain/muscle and all that good stuff will explode out of the back of your head as the bullet pierces through and splatters it all on the wall (if you're in front of a wall like this mf was).

He should NOT have been able to talk. He should not have been able to laugh, he should not have been able to MOVE POSITIONS BECAUSE YES, HE MOVED POSITIONS.

THIS is the position he "dies" in.

And THIS is supposedly the position he's in next; when and how did this motherfucker move? And if this is the camera that Fyodor is watching, then has someone somehow tampered with it? Man, I don't know.

ANYWAYS.

My theory on how Dazai can possibly survive this shit is that it wasn't a real bullet; and listen, I KNOW that we literally watched Chuuya shoot him three other times and we see the blood, the bullet going through his body and hitting the wall, and we see that he has been shot. That's fucking clear as day; my theory, however, because Dazai is this type of cunning bastard, is that that one round in the gun wasn't a real bullet.

Listen, I know I might be clutching at straws here, but PLEASE hear me out.

My theory is that that round was a paintball. Which would explain 1. the slight dent in his head and 2. the "blood" on his forehead. And, can I just point out how bright those fucking flashes are? Nobody can see anything when Chuuya pulls the trigger; however, the next two times he does, we can see it perfectly fine. I don't know, seems suspicious lol. Anyways.

I think that Dazai either somehow got a hold of the gun that Chuuya has or maybe gave it to him before he ever even went to Meursault, and Chuuya fired one round into his shoulder; he's showing Fyodor that, yes, this is a real bullet. This is a real gun. Then, he shoots him in the head with the paintball bullet. I thought that when Dazai started deciding to shout "Where the hell are you aiming you god damn clutz?!" That it was a signal or him trying to tell Chuuya, who's still in there, "Shoot me in the head next. Aim good." or something; Dazai is NEVER that profane or like that at all. Maybe it's strong emotions/words that get through to the vampires. I don't know. But yeah, so, Chuuya shoots him in the head. Then, he shoots him in the shoulder and in the side to once again prove that it is in fact a real gun, loaded with real bullets. And so Fyodor now thinks that he has won; where in actuality, Dazai is just really injured, but still alive enough to touch Chuuya whilst Fyodor's back is maybe turned from the cameras. Also, we don't know what happened when Fyodor wasn't looking and he was talking to Sigma. Either way, I feel as if he's going to think he's won and think it's all over, then idk Nikolai somehow appears? Where the fuck is that guy? What's going on with the poison? Hm. Anyways, and so yeah.

Maybe I'm clutching at straws because I just refuse to believe that Asagiri is going to kill off Dazai. I don't know. Bro, I'm still just trying to hold out hope for Sigma as well. Too many people are either presumed dead or are in actual like fatal positions and honestly I feel like fucking this;

Anyways, thanks for reading this. I am emotionally distressed.

[ant1quarian]

Oh no I got Sad Again :THEHORROR:

Ough man. College is crazy

[logiesargeant]

logan on instagram

[atelophobicself]

i fear i pretended to know anything and now am a year and a half behind in a foreign language. save me.

[gorgugplushie]

I hope he gets stuck in a shotgun sawtrap and his brain matter goes splattering everywhere but thats just meeeee

[the-chaotic-child]

im more cooked than the vegetables in primary school

[nellysview]

I don’t feel really well. I thought everything will be fine by now but it’s worse. How do I even know if this is true. It feels like it’s true. Why does it feels like my heart is broken but it isn’t. When can I stop pretending everything. I don’t want to. I am so sick of all of this. Why can’t the world be okay? Why can’t I be okay? I have seen a video of me talking to my future self I it feels like this is a other person. This person who is talking is loud and doesn’t care about all of this. This person thinks her dreams are just dreams and that all of this will never come true. This person dreams every night about this girl and can’t imagine her life without them but now.. I should be happy. That’s what they all say. You should be happy. You have everything you want. There is no reason for you to be that way. Should I end it? Should I end her? Idk

Idk anything. Why am I crying all night just because I miss her. Why am I still thinking I don’t deserve her? Why is she still so mean and loud in my head. WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING? IDK! IDK!

Get out of here. Let me live my fucking stupid life and get out. Now.

(Sorry needed this as a diary and as therapy)

Thanks and I am sorry if you understand it:/

[longhair-loverboy]

i am going to be homeless outside this winter, I don’t have any means to do anything about it.

I need a Hail Mary right now.