#life issues

[annalifes]

she is kate moss

[lacy-0hlacy]

you're my playground love.

[reality-detective]

"The Road Rage Lady" and She has major issues to unravel 🤔

[unaarista]

I've been absent for some time because we recently took in a new cat (a sphynx, abandoned on the streets by his previous family in November. We have snow here).

Unfortunately, the little guy turned out to be very sick, so I've been very busy with his treatment - at first he had a gall bladder inflammation, then caught some secondary infection. He refused to eat and drink anything for days, lost a lot of weight, and is currently on the IV treatment, but fortunately, it seems to be working and he's getting better! Week later, and he started drinking on his own, and looks much more lively now. I have a cautious optimism that the worst is over. Which means i can finally ease up a bit, and allocate some time to my own hobbies again (so if you're waiting for a request or a response from me - rest assured, i'll get to them soon!)

That's him before the illness! Previous owners named him Lemur, but he doesn't react to this name, and i'm thinking giving him a new one. Suggestions are welcome 😄

[jazzyblusnowflake]

i may avoid being online for a while or avoid responding to anyone for a while. im not doing too well.

[threeuniverses]

Getting older sucks

[lunariavondelacroix]

Posting this here cause idk where else to put it. But… I know a lot of yall don’t know or remember me that well. But if you wouldn’t mind sharing this with as many people as you could, that would help me out tremendously.

I’m trying to raise funds in order to move out of my elder parents house all while I’m still under a medical leave of absence from my gastric surgery back in June. I had complications that prevented the doctors from being able to finish the procedure and they had to quit at 70% completion. My doctors don’t want me to start working physically again until after my 6mo evaluation in December. All to see if I need the second half of the surgery or if I’m fine at where I’m at.

So that alone is keeping me in a financial struggle as my parents are in their late 70s and are struggling while helping. And as much as I love being a freelance artist, it isn’t enough to cover living expenses while here at my parents with AI running amok and taking potential clients away from freelance artists like myself.

Also my and my daughter’s presence at my parents is putting a strain on everyone here both financially and mentally. With constant clashing here and there with two separate households trying to coexist.

My child’s father is also refusing to pay the full child support since the split. Which has drained my savings account I’ve had trying just to stay afloat while recovering. Which my doctors claim I may never fully heal 100%. Or that I stand the chance of not being able to work as many hours as I once use to because of the complications.

So any help and share support you can give is greatly appreciated. Even if it only by just sharing this with as many outsources as you can.

I can’t even post this on my Facebook account seeing as I have family who would try to claim I’m being ungrateful to my parents or that I’m being irresponsible and not accepting what fate has dealt us for even trying to seek help from others. Old military mentalities at play. But yeah… here is the link if you wish or can share it

https://gofund.me/84fdad52

[noa-ciharu]

I really wish romance was less idealized. I really wish it wasn't put on such high pedestal and regarded as "ultimate life achievement" and something that everyone aims for by default.

I could go lengths about amatonormativity and harm it has on aspec people - but truth is amatonormativity harms everyone. There are people out there that genuinely believe it's better to be in unfulfilling or dysfunctional relationship than to be alone. There are people out there that would pursue relationships at any cost or try to prolong current dysfunction ones just out of fear of being alone. There are people out there that start thinking they're damaged goods if they've been single for some amount of time; that they have no value because "noone wants them"

List goes on and on, and that's just personal beliefs and world views; even if subconscious. Add society's pressure into mix and you get bomb ready to go off at any moment

[thewanderingcotabus]

Life update

Things are still a ****show for several topics. Still having YouTube issues though completely different ones now that I bought premium (YouTube sent me 7 months of notifications for 3 channels I randomly stopped getting notifications on the moment i got premium). Several personal problems still persist and I can add dental issues to that list (broken tooth finally got infected and now I can't chew) and my appointment is the end of august. I also have gotten fed up over a certain well known topic to the point I'm fed up about being told what I can and can't like and post. Its lead to me deciding to starting an Alternate COTA bus in an effort to bring back some freedom of expression without interfering with this blog or the surge tank. Consider this blog and surge tank Side A and the alternate bus Side B. If anyone remembers the bet I lost last year, that is a big hint to this topic but this time on my own free will. I will still be on hiatus for the foreseeable future but will try to keep the queues filled with content.

[jthorsten]

Hi yes hello I just need vent for a moment because I think my brain is wired wrong. I live in a relatively quiet neighborhood with an elementary school at one end of the street. I walk my son there every school day. He’s 5.

Today, for the first time in the four years we’ve lived here, we were chased by two of what I think were cane corso dogs. They charged us from across the street. Luckily the driveway we were passing had a truck bed we could jump into in time so we weren’t bitten. I’m mad at myself because I stumbled and slammed myself and my little boy against the truck as we got in. The lady who owned the house with the truck came out with a baseball bat as the owner of the dogs across the street called his dogs back.

My son was frightened and a little sore from hitting the truck. I asked him if he wanted to go home, and it would be okay if he wanted to, or if he wanted to go to school. He chose school. I’m still worried about him.

I’m home. I filed reports with the proper authorities. I tried to work but I couldn’t. This is the part where I think my brain is wired wrong. I have, for all of my adult life, experienced incidents and my brain has always said, “You’re okay, move forward.” Today I can’t. I’m okay but I think I’m stuck in flight mode. My brain keeps repeating ‘move forward’ but my body is antsy and frazzled. I’ve had very little sleep due to windstorms in southern CA and risks of evacuations due to wild fires.

I know all I can do is ride out the state I’m in, but it’s awful. I’ve always been able to brush off or put behind me anything that’s caused problems before. I can’t this time and I don’t know what to do with myself. I want sleep but all I can see are two huge black black dogs charging at me and my son.

Fortunately, even with todays events, I am still not fearful of dogs. And for all I know those dogs, in the correct environment, are just big sweeties who want snacks and cuddles. But they behaved incorrectly today, and that’s the fault of the owner for letting them get out of the yard, not the dogs.

Done now. Brain tired. Maybe writing this helped calm the flight mode a little. Not sure.

[annalifes]

not mine!

[lacy-0hlacy]

[fvckbluelives]

[nellysview]

I don’t feel really well. I thought everything will be fine by now but it’s worse. How do I even know if this is true. It feels like it’s true. Why does it feels like my heart is broken but it isn’t. When can I stop pretending everything. I don’t want to. I am so sick of all of this. Why can’t the world be okay? Why can’t I be okay? I have seen a video of me talking to my future self I it feels like this is a other person. This person who is talking is loud and doesn’t care about all of this. This person thinks her dreams are just dreams and that all of this will never come true. This person dreams every night about this girl and can’t imagine her life without them but now.. I should be happy. That’s what they all say. You should be happy. You have everything you want. There is no reason for you to be that way. Should I end it? Should I end her? Idk

Idk anything. Why am I crying all night just because I miss her. Why am I still thinking I don’t deserve her? Why is she still so mean and loud in my head. WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING? IDK! IDK!

Get out of here. Let me live my fucking stupid life and get out. Now.

(Sorry needed this as a diary and as therapy)

Thanks and I am sorry if you understand it:/

[emelies-lifeinpictures]

HAHA