#I am doing my job as an artist right

[frankenbuggee]

I had a headache last night so I worked on bright colours 💀 the crocodile Devious art was actually straining my head weirdly. So I worked on some story ideas for Lors and Alexi from my comic. 👀 I’ve already got a min story in my head on how they met but noooo I need to not work on that I need to work on the main story of my comic not the side characters 💀😭

[inkskinned]

i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.

and that should be fine; but it's never fine.

i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.

for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.

we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.

i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.

restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.

[starscreamingg]

Detroit Become Human and why does this game decide that the problem in society is individual people treating androids poorly because those androids are choking them out of the workforce and NOT the corporations and governments who deliberately designed the androids to do this

[yuseirra]

he looks really, really round when I draw him..I don't understand how that keeps happening

[squisheebugdoodles]

Okay Here Is The Problem: everything costs money and yet money is something that i just literally never have. solution? kill the idea of money so that nothing costs anything Please. i'm so tired

[ilovedthestars]

i understand and appreciate the sentiment behind them but god, as someone in the process of getting an art degree and intending to pursue a career in art, those "don't get a job doing what you love because you'll start to hate it" posts are depressing

[fiapple]

society if dc hired a writing team of colour who could acknowledge the racial coding of starfire & raven, explore vic's status as a Black man in modern america who's specific disability further means his body is going to be read a certain way by certain people no matter what he does, along with potentially finding a way to sort through the racisim + fetishization that went into prior depictions of dick's heritage:

[conm1go]

idk if i should strive for a career like I've thought... i need a sign of sorts

[khaotunq]

ah.

[fflaminlo]

is there anywhere besides twitter or therapy where i can complain about the economy rn

[qumiiiquinnquin]

ill never be good enough at anything

[surreal-duck]

messing around a bit

[twodragonsinatrenchcoat]

Girls will have one thing throw their schedule for the day off and then the rest of their afternoon ruined

[flame-shadow]

one of the hardest parts of human studies is trying to figure out what expressions the references have. like, oh this one's anger- oh, no it's labeled disgust or something. okay well then this one must be anger, just not the loud kind. no, that's frustration? isn't that close enough to anger to count? okay and what the FUCK is THIS ONE then?? because CLEARLY i don't fucking know how to read static human expressions. gee, i might as well look in the mirror to see MY angerfrustrationdisgust at having to look at human faces at all

[fingertipsmp3]

Why is my granddad messaging me and shading my uncle

[seungmoes]

Jyp/div1 better sleep with one eye open, telling Chris he can’t do channie’s room anymore and not telling us about it, then just watching as everyone talks about it every week wishing for it to come back