#I am disgusted with myself.
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Um...👀
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trick or treat!
#my art#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#maki zenin#yuta okkotsu#inumaki toge#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#u could argue that the spoilers r hidden by the costumes but idw take my chances#i havent posted art in a billion years i feel like a fraud and i am going to get a bad grade in tumblr dot com#so i am posting these early idc anymore#i still have probably one more halloween draws i plan on posting but im cracking i want these out of my drafts Now#these KILLED ME#i miss drawing fast i miss it so badddddd#dont get me wrong the costume design ws so fun i loved it but god did it take ages#but on the bright side. yuuji in a toga.#on another bright side. little devil nobara n cowgirl maki#on yet anotHER bright side. eldritch horror pandachu#these costumes eat if i do say so myself ghjsdfkgjf undead inuokko makes me so happy also they r so cute#not to mention megumi in his gay little hat god i made itfs so obnoxiously flirty in this#remember when i said the timeskip art ws the least heterosexual group photo i've ever drawn i take it back#theyre disgusting . save nobara episode 356325746732#anyway happy 10 days early halloween <3#i will try to not take a whole week to finish the last piece(s)
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Welp, there went my whole childhood
#producer of my favorite dance show growing up is a r@pist p#i cant believe i looked up to this man for years#i am disgusted with myself.#ew#(i didn’t know at all but like…)#but ya know what? recently i had iffy feelings about him.#anywhoooo do NOT watch so you think you can dance
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he did it! 🐍 and it only took...uhhh...well, there probably could've been less punches, but why hold back!
PUNCHES FOR EVERYONE
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 9 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 9 spoilers#snakes#ONE MORE DOWN#oh my god happy jamil was SO scary and yet adorable all at once#i want real jamil to see him and just be utterly disgusted#and yet he got nothing on the return of everyone's favorite twst character: WEIRD RHYTHMIC ELEPHANT#oh weird rhythmic elephant what would we do without you#me kicking my stupid little feet as jamil wakes up through sheer force of kalim though#he was SO happy for jamil and SO ready to just go along with everything. my sweet boy.#jamil getting so flustered by him that he's just shocked back into reality#and the SLAPFIGHT#silver being like 'they need this' and doing his one smile animation as kalim and jamil are pulling on each other's hair and going YOU SMEL#mmm yes delicious#also this is probably nothing but#but...they brought up the whole thing with azul having dirt on crowley again#the thing that was briefly alluded to in episode 4 and never mentioned ever again?!#i had JUST finally convinced myself that i was reading too much into it and it was just azul playing along with jamil's plan#but now they've mentioned it again and i'm going to be all BUT WHAT DOES IT MEEEEEAAAAN for another three years about it#is it a meaningless reference to that one scene?! is it absolutely ridiculous foreshadowing?! am i ever going to be validated?!#I HAVE TO KNOW
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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*clears throat*
Trans women do not have it easier.
Trans women are not just a fetish.
Trans women can be asexual.
Trans women are not ‘begging for attention’.
Trans women are not ‘asking for it’.
Trans women are just as equal as trans men.
Trans women are just as equal as cis women.
Trans women are just as equal as literally anybody.
Trans women deserve respect.
Trans women deserve rights.
Trans women deserve to feel safe.
Trans women are women. If you cannot wrap your head around that; get off my fucking blog.
#i myself am a trans man#and it’s fucking sickening the attitude i see towards trans women#yet i haven’t gotten even an ounce of that disrespect myself#it’s fucking disgusting#it’s fucking vile#and it’s not fucking okay#trans women are women#that is final#trans#transgender#trans feminine#trans woman#trans girl#trans rights
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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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i give up
#despite peoples approval it will never be enough i'll always think they're lying#they only say nice things bc they dont really know me#im the one with myself 24/7 i know the disgusting person i am#mine#traumacore#trauma#actuallymentallyill#actuallytraumatized#pink#actuallybpd#actuallyborderline#actuallyneglected#actually neglected#actually bpd#bpd#i hate myself
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Because of this post reminding me about the Bad Kidz Parent Polycule, I present to you the Bad Kidz Family Cluster.
[ID: A family tree of all the Bad Kidz and their parents using the updated official art. In the top right corner, Gorgug has a solid green line connecting him and Roz and Gorbag. A dotted green line connects him and Digby and Wilma. Roz, Gorbag, Digby, and Wilma are connected by a solid black line with a question mark below it.
Below that, The Applebees are connected to Kristen, Bucky, Bricker, and Cork by solid green lines. Kristen and Tracker are connected by a solid pink line with a red X crossed through it.
Tracker is connected to "Unknown Parents" by a solid green line. "Unknown Parents" is connected to Jawbone by a solid blue line, and Tracker and Jawbone are connected by a dotted green line with a question mark above it. Adaine is connected to Jawbone by a dotted green line, and Aelwyn is connected to Adaine by a solid blue line.
Jawbone and Sandra Lynn are connected by a pink line. Sandra Lynn and Gorthalax are connected by a pink line with a red X crossed through it, and Fig is connected to them by a solid green line. Gorthalax and Sklonda are connected by a pink line with a question mark below it. Sklonda and Pok are connected by a purple line that is bisected by the skull and crossbones emoji. Riz is connected to them by a solid green line.
Sandra Lynn and Gilear are connected by a purple line with a red X crossed through it. Gilear and Fig are connected by a dotted green line, and he and Hallariel are connected by a pink line. Hallariel and Bill are connected by a purple line that's bisected by a skull and crossbones emoji. Fabian is connected to them by a solid green line, and Fabian and Fig are connected by a dotted blue line. End ID]
Green means parents/children, Blue means siblings, Pink means dating, and Purple means marriage. Dotted lines mean non-biological. The black line means I have no idea what the Thistlesprings and Roz and Gorbag have going on.
I wasn't sure if Gorthalax and Sklonda are actually dating so I put a question mark, and I wasn't sure if Jawbone actually adopted Tracker or was just letting her live with him. Regardless, here's the full family tree. I hope it gets worse <3 thanks for your time.
#nick knacks#i am so fucking tired this took a disgusting amount of time to make#fantasy high#fhjy#i made a version for myself of just the parents and its a fucking circle#the thistlesprings being the only ones not directly a part of the polycule is baffling#considering they seem down for polyamory as long as theyre together lmao#i think by the end of fantasy high this diagram should be unreadable#i think they should be SO messy it would be so funny#also i didnt add a couple people (cathilda ayda gertie nara etc) bc theyre not connecting bad kids with other bad kids#theyre not Part of The Family yknow
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Leshy hates the lamb this, tsundere Narinder that , blah blah blah
WHAT ABOUT HEKET, HUH ??! WHAT ABOUT HEKET?!?!
#i have an emotional connection w/ heket bc i too am the 2nd oldest daughter#she's disgusted by how easy her brothers are#heket is a hater first lesbian second#too many ppl i aint tagging all them this is about heket#she does draw on her lashes & eyebrows#i had to control myself from putting something truly nasty as the caption#cw cursing#cotl fanart#cotl bishops#cotl heket#cult of the lamb#my art
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this looked better in my head :<
bloody version under the cut
edit: guess who misspelled something.....
#one piece#one piece luffy#roronoa zoro#mokey d luffy#one piece zoro#zolu#luzo#ohhhh zoro's devotion oooohhhhh#yes it's a phrase from a twenty one pilots' song#but i hate tyler joseph#fuck you tyler joseph i hope you shit yourself#god that guy is insufferable#n e ways#zoro is so devoted it's actually kinda disgusting and worrying#I need to find myself a man who has Christian level of devotion towards me#maybe im the man who has christian levels of devotion#who knows!#i mispelled everything#i need to stop posting at 4 am and just sleep#twenty one pilots fans dni
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Too bright☀️
#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Hajime hinata#Sdr2#Super danganronpa 2#Kuzuhina#Kind of disgusted by how sappy I am lately but also beating that part of myself with a broom. Let us be sappy idiot!#Then beating THAT part for calling myself an idiot all the time. Be nice to yourself asshole! So on so forth#Anyway you know how it is. Dont perceive me etc. Its been very nice and sunny out lately. ☀️#Been a while since I selection-shaded. Forgot how easy it is
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Deep down I wanna be worse because I deserve it... I don't wanna be happy, safe, or loved. They are such alienated feelings to me... I deserve to live a life full of misery, because I am evil.
#self hatred#self hate#self loathing#depressive#depression#paranoia#paranoid#unlovable#i feel so unloveable#i hate myself#i am stupid#mother wound#i am disgusting#cptsd#trauma#coping#traumatised#traumatized#dysfunctional family#dysfunctional household#narcissistic abuse#mother issues#father issues#father wound#emotional abuse#physical abuse#psychological abuse#neglect#childhood trauma#personal
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So, I cannot show support to Palestine at my university (flyers for protest, the colors and the flag, you get it...) because it's "encouraging violence and antisemitism" but when my university was tagged with antisemitic symbols, they did NOTHING. When the students union was targeted with threat of violence and their office was destroyed, covered with neo-nazis symbols, they did NOTHING.
The Neo-Nazis student association (which has been multiple times reported for their hate-crimes) were distributing flyers at the entrance yesterday WITHOUT ANY ISSUES, because they support Israel.
#I'm so mad#france#palestine#And I will not talk about the caricature of leftists in a nazi uniform because we support Palestine#That's like so fucking disgusting how dare they compare people being AGAINST a genocide to Nazis#repeating to myself that murdering one of those assholes of the gov will only make it worse#don't fucking judge me on my violent thought I a French leftist this is normal to us we know this is the only way to get things done#bro look at the Marseillaise lyrics it's about fighting turanny and oppressors that kill your family#and you dare make France stand with Israel#I know things suck way more for other people but I am tired and scared about what France is becoming
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I can't stand ship wars but I physically can't restrain myself when I see my faves mentioned in the comments of a video that says smth like "when there's a disgusting ship that makes you sick to your stomach but for some reason it's popular"
Cuz they gotta be rage-bait, ain't no way you're saying bkdk or stsg or itafushi or killugon or sns or erasermic or any other perfectly normal ship instead of naming shit like gojo x yuuji?
Saw someone say "any ship that isn't canon" and I started laughing, some y'all really hate fun huh
#like it can't be that hard to conceptualize that a ship you dislike≠disgusting and revolting and should be burnt at the stake#they got me ready to start with the paragraphs#i never do i manage to hold myself back but trust that i am laughing at your nonsense#stsg#itafushi#bkdk#satosugu#killugon#bakudeku#fandom ships#sns#erasermic#and i understand hating bkdk cuz some of the fans ARE annoying or maybe you for some reason still hate katsuki in the year 2024#but itafushi? like what have they done to yall that you comment them under a “ships that i hate sm i could kill yo mama for shipping them”#ain't no way#it's not that serious#like if you wanna hate fun and have horrible taste be my guest ig not like it's gonna stop me from being a diehard shipper of these morons#at least i never see haikyuu ships mentioned. idk what id do if i saw anyone saying#shobio#or#bokuaka#but i know it wouldn't be pretty#haikyuu
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#lance slashblade#inside out disgust#disgust inside out#bloofy#inside out bloofy#inside out 2#inside out#inside out lance#lance x bloofy#pixar fanart#fanart#digital art#my art#just a silly doodle teehee#this movie still lives rent free in my head#also i am aware that ive used this meme already but i couldnt help myself
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