#I am being tame

[brunhielda]

I have yet to use this phrase but it is exactly how I direct theater.

I say- once we know it well enough to just have random fun with it we can create some really GOOD stuff.

For reference I work in community theater with people who come to rehearsal after doing a full day of work and volunteer all thier time for 3 months for a weekend of performance. The general attitude is- “If they are willing to volunteer thier time, we can’t ask too much of them” and the usual show is only just memorized and everyone is happy is they remember where they stand on stage.

Meanwhile I demand you know the text a month in and have blocking down by the end of the second. It gives us just a couple of weeks to really “fuck around” and find great stuff.

But mostly- I pull in things from fandom.

I say- “find a song for you character. Find a playlist of songs. Why does it connect?” By the end of the show, I swear, every song playing on the radio as I drive home from rehearsal relates somehow, (and I see it in full fanvid behind my eyes).

I say- talk to your fellow actor. We know the present from the script. What does it tell us about the past? What WAS your relationship? What parts can you fill in together? (The word headcannon is never used, but that is EXACTLY what we are doing)

What are you wearing and why? (I also demand my costumes so much earlier) Is it said in script? Does it give you a nervous thing to do with your hands? Is your character being rebellious? What in the script would suggest that? (Don’t tell me one of the favorite bits of fan work isn’t dressing up your favorite character in a new outfit they would TOTALLY love, and I can prove it with these 3 episodes!)

I know there is more, but I am struggling to think of them in the moment.

The point is- fan work has shaped how I used my brain to look at stage craft and that is only good. I get EXCITED about my shows- the story becomes my FAVORITE for awhile and the work only benefits.

If you are an avid member, or even an occasional visitor, of fan spaces, you have artistic skills in dissecting text that are useful to you in other spaces. Use it. Enjoy it.

Anytime I see people talking about canon and fan fiction and all the discourse that happens therein, my brain always goes back to this line from Slings and Arrows. It’s been living in my head rent free for nearly 20 years.

Geoffrey Tennant is standing in front of a workshop class full of corporate middle management people who tell him they’re at the workshop to learn communication skills and management styles by learning about the works of Shakespeare. And they’re all just very cut and dry business folk who are there and are gonna Learn a Thing. Geoffrey basically waves the class’s notions aside and says: “Let’s fuck around with some text.”

I love that line. I think about that line a lot when I think about fandom. Taking canon and finding our own way to play and fuck around with it. Search for profound truths about a character. And the horny. The silliness and fun. Explore the new and process trauma or share joy with fic or art or vids. Going in completely different direction from canon because we’re in so deep and are possessed and that’s where the stories and the fanon has carried us.

Let’s fuck around with some text. It’s so good.

[eyelovveu]

I made a little pmv thingy I hope it’s not too cringe for y’all’s taste

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

I randomly get inspired to write weird stuff with Gabriel that I'm usually not even into and a lot of the time I get comments that amount to I'm not into this. Am I? or being surprised they were into it. Gabriel is just randomly inflicting this sort of thing on everyone I suppose

Gabriel Ultrakill has been reclassified as a gateway drug. Please keep an eye out for any suspicious activity.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Agh. Looking at some old notes from some of Pac's 2023 October streams and suffering...

Pac calls Pequito his son, saying he looks tired and realizing it’s because he is tired. (10/30)

"I'm afraid that Cell will show up and come here to kill Péquito. I need to protect Péquito, he's very important." (10/30)

"O Mike não tá aqui pra me proteger – Mike isn’t here to protect me." (10/27)

(While talking about Pac's past trauma and Cellbit) - Bagi: Did he do something to you? - Pac: Mmhm. I don't remember well, but it hurt a lot.

(While wondering if the Risus pills could help Cellbit) - Bagi: I don’t think destroying my brother to try and get him black will work. - Pac: ...You’re right. I’m trying to think of drastic measures because I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid. I’m afraid. (10/27)

Considering their recent conversation and Bagi threatening Pac's other leg, this conversation really hurts in retrospect: - Bagi: I know he gets along very well with you now, doesn’t he? - Pac: He’s fine with me. But sometimes he doesn’t remember, that maybe I don’t know, let’s hope. - Bagi: He’ll have to go through me to get to you.  Don’t worry, I will protect you with my life, Pac. - Pac: I love Cellbit, we’re a family, and I’m here for whatever you need. Favela until the end. (10/27)

"Survive? I’ve been doing that for the last 20 years of my life, no, I think I– I’m going to die tomorrow." (10/27)

Pac tells Fit that with Richarlyson missing and Mike MIA, he’s “without course” and directionless. (10/16)

[zappedbyzabka]

[silverskye13]

I get how Wels is really protective of the Hermits, but I think part of that has given Tango some prejudices about the Helsmets. I feel like he thinks of Tanguish as a defanged lion or something, like "oh Helsmets are dangerous, but mine's not so I can hang with him" and he's trying to convince his "parent" to let him keep the wild animal he's found. I feel like Tanguish trying to convince him the other Helsmets don't mean any harm is never going to work, but Tango is also not aware of some of the struggles the Helsmets can go through and doesn't realise they are capable of actually being nice to each other without tearing the other to shreds.

Tango has made one of my favorite blunders in media: he has mistaken no intent to harm with harmless. A harmless thing couldn't hurt you even if it wanted to. A thing with no harmful intent could do a great amount of harm, but does not wish to.

I think you're very right in saying he treats Tanguish like a tame lion. He isn't really a person. He's certainly more of a person to Tango than he is to Welsknight, but he's still a step down. Tanguish is his pet hype man, a rubber duck that happens to occasionally have opinions, a toothless predator.

Personally! I think this is less a flaw of Welsknight's influence, and more a flaw in Tango. Welsknight has done a lot to heck up the situation, don't get me wrong, but his has more to do with making Tango doubt his relationships. Tango didn't treat Tanguish like his own person before Wels found out about him.

[mumblesplash]

the fact that doctors can just Recommend Weight Loss with no instructions beyond ‘eat healthier/less’ is actually insane to me, i lost weight on purpose ONCE and it took me like 6 years to recover a semi-normal relationship with food and hunger

[boyswillbedogz]

whats up chat. its me. the evil alter /sar. im going to skin puppies or whatever lennon thinks i fucking do

[sapphodelia]

why did i have to be born with huge tits and curves... i'm butch but i feel like a joke when i see my silhouette

[moliathh]

hellsing and the case study of vanitas crossover would be so cool omg i like how blonde hair green eyed monster-hunter priest that is overly enthusiastic, have superhuman strength thanks to medical enhancement, is a big brother to others in his team and is only loyal to god is a universal thing in both of this media

cute short haired vampire girls with big ahh weapons

and a lot of vampires too (basically vanitas no carte is a manga about vampires)

it would be amusing to see alucard in this setting because according to the vanitas lore vampires are born under red moons and those born under blue moon are cursed, alucard was born in sunrise so hes built different plus that would be interesting to see a new type of vampire being introduced in the vanitas universe

in the vanitas setting there were vampires everywhere but they function and disguise like humans until there is a type of vampire rabbies that make them go bloodlust 🧎‍♂️ i would like to see alucard get sick with this typa rabbies too

and the vampire biology in vanitas universe allowed vampire and human crossbreed into half vampire half human called dhampir 😭 omg alutegra can have kids in this setting

and the difference is that vanitas is set in france while hellsing is set in england, that explain the big difference in attire etiquette (vanitas is set in 19th century and hellsing is set in 20th)

probably it have to be some sort of time travelling shenanigans that get the hellsing cast into vanitas universe where women dressing in breeches is not new but guns like hellsing arms is definitely a refreshing addition to the lack of gun as a weapon choice in vanitas no carte

i like how the vanitas cast are mostly bourgeois and dressed like one while the hellsing cast is also very high status but due to their job requirementsthey dress in uniforms like military force, it is stated in gonzoverse that there are other true vampires besides alucard that fly under the radar and was not exterminated since they did not pose a threat (idk if hellsing knew about helena’s existence but im sure they must had known and with the way helena phrased it there are more than only her and alucard) so despite france in vanitas universe being swarmed with vampires in hiding i dont think the hellsing cast would butcher them all since the vampires in vanitas universe live by vampire’s underground codes and rules forbid them from attacking human to protect their own people from hunters too

also vanitas no carte is a manga i would recommend because the WOMEN

[y-rhywbeth2]

Who decided the drow should have so much fucking lore anyway.

('I should've been a drow.' You can't fucking stand Cazador or your 'siblings' you would not fucking want to be a drow. Although I guess Astarion would make a fair Vhaeraunite.)

[musical-chick-13]

The problem is. When I go, "Oh, this system is bullshit" and try to live outside it. My choices are still defined by that system. And that makes me feel really weird.

[sharkenedfangs]

ngl i love checking on your account from time to time. but the whiplash is insane on some of your posts 😭

it was the previous post, wasn’t it.. my bad. I forget I’m not the only one on here and that this is the equivalent of flashing my dick to a crowd who came to all sit around and read in a circle.

I’ll act more accordingly next time, promise.

[rhysnolastname]

all the cis straight men on reddit who complained about karlach pegging them… you are so weak minded and weak willed… and most of all… you have no idea what pegging is… you will never see the gates of heaven. you will forever be a stranger to the kingdom of god, for you could have tasted it on earth (by getting pegged) and refused the blessing it had to offer. mark my words.

[edensbite]

me 🤝 eden not wanting a relationship but wanting someone who's obsessed with us but on our own terms. like a cat.