#I am Bad at relaxation
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It's tough trying to balance work and household management with parenting a lively and energetic baby! Baby C is in that in-between stage, where she doesn't enjoy being independent for very long but gets bored hanging out after a while and so we flip flop all day between her being held and her playing on her own.
As much as I would like to spend all day just playing with her, certain needs do have to be met. Namely, I have to work and earn money, because we live in an expensive place and can't afford to be on only one income. Also, basic household tasks! I work from home and so I'm available to do the housework, and I personally need it to be a certain level of clean or my mental health suffers. So that's also a priority.
But I explain to Baby C what I'm doing when she's strapped to my chest, or I sing to her (regular songs and songs I make up for her), and sometimes we dance. That's always fun for us both! When she's more mobile and thus a little more independent, I imagine it will be somewhat easier. But there's something very special about having had to learn how to do all these chores with a baby snuggled up to me.
I worry that I'm not doing enough for her. That we don't read enough, or lay on the floor and play with toys enough. She's not super interested in any of that, yet, although she's definitely getting there. I hope to use that worry to nudge myself into figuring out a new rhythm, one that adds more quality time with Baby C into my already full days. Maybe as she drops naps, I can turn that time into playtime?
I don't intend to worry overly much about it, though. She's new at being a person, and we're new at being parents. We have time to experiment and see how things go and adjust little bits at a time! She's not even crawling yet. We have so much time.
#Parenting#Household management#I'm conquering parenthood tbh#I'm doing it all and honestly kind of thriving#I am Bad at relaxation
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Ragdoll [Yandere Mahito x Reader]
Title: Ragdoll [Yandere Mahito x Reader]
Synopsis: Your back hurts and Mahito fixes it for you. inspired by snatches of conversation with @absolute-flaming-trash as so many Mahito things are!
Word count: 500ish
notes: yandere, kidnapped reader, body modification
“Well? How does it feel?” Mahito asks, and whenever Mahito asks, you are bound to consider the answer. Whether or not you actually give it depends on the day and time and how much you’re willing to endure.
You’re… Weightless. That’s what you feel–no, no, no. That’s wrong. Not weightless. There is weight to you. You are not some candy floss being tossed in the wind by a child uncaring of the time spent crafting it, hot metal bowls and spinning sticks and carpal tunnel from too many summers on a carnival job.
You have weight, but it is thick and slimy and moveable, like a glob of remorseless slime built up in a forgotten bathroom sink. Or something heavier, filled with beans or sand or stuffing.
A doll, maybe? Oh, yes.
A doll. A ragdoll. The kind your grandparents gifted you when you were little, because it’s what they grew up with on the dusty old farm, and your parents cooed over her yarn hair and homespun look.
But you shoved her onto the decorative chair in the corner of your bedroom and never played with her because you wanted something chic and fun, a doll with brushable hair and clothes that came off.
Now you’re stuck in that corner chair, or you would be, except Mahito wants to play with you. Likes to play with you. Likes to hold you, like he’s doing now, humming and holding out one hand so all of your weight slides to one side and the only thing keeping you upright is the grip of his fingers.
Then flopping you to the other side, and doing it again, and again. Then holding you close and down, like he’s dipping you in a dance.
He could let you go and you’d fall, a heap, onto the floor. Would it hurt? Maybe the rest of you would.
But not your back. Not your spine. He replaced it all with gelatin or goo or slime or whatever he’d decided upon, after you’d begged and begged and begged. Chronic back pain was a bitch. Chronic back pain when you were sleeping on floors and hammocks was bitchier.
“It hurts so much. I can’t stand it. Please, please, please.”
And he’d tickled his fingers up your back–it hurt, too–and smiled down.
“You really want me to fix you?”
And you did, and he did, and here you are now.
Weighty and weightless all the same, his pretty ragdoll.
Only he can brush your hair and change your clothes and maybe that will keep him from shoving you into the corner and forgetting about you.
The thought is too far back to be anything more than a gnat you’ll swat when it comes closer, though. Because your spine is jello, sure, sure, sure. But it doesn’t hurt. And you can’t strain a ligament or herniate a disc when there’s nothing there to hurt, can you?
It doesn’t hurt, for once, and that’s enough.
Mahito drops you low, again, catching you before your head smacks against the concrete.
He smiles.
So do you.
#afterwitch writes#yandere mahito#yandere jjk#mahito x reader#I am on muscle relaxers and I am using this as catharsis for my back issue flaring up so bad idk idk idk#also my grandparents didn't gift me a ragdoll this fic is grandparent slander#my gran did get me a creepy porcelain doll I wasn't allowed to play with because her family couldn't afford expensive dolls tho
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HI. IM PLAYING CATCH UP 24 DAYS LATER DONT MIND ME HERMIT A DAY DAY 1 - ETHOSLAB
#mcyt#hermitcraft#ethoslab#hermitaday#cuteiecreates#im going to limit myself to an hourish on these i just need to get back into colouring so bad#didnt think taking classes would burn me out this bad but it did and now i am here scribble colouring ^-^#its v relaxing. scribbling my favourite part of art#its also. way faster than fully rendering things. i got from point a to point b in 50 minutes. help.#im going to bed and we'll see how many i can do tomorrow </3#im also poking at how i draw all the hermits so if they look weird. sorry LOL runs and jumps into bed
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i went to Pride today, may have gotten a bit excited from all the different people and flags and stuff. so i drew some Fakes to get my excitement out hehe ✨
(he can change colors to match Peppino, so, who's to say this isn't an option as well?)
#only bad thing about Pride. is it's goddang early. i set my alarm to 8am so i could wake up in time and my brain decided to wake me at *6*#GODDAMN 6AM AAUUUGH#i am kinda tired now. prob gonna pop part of a gummy and go relax. but i had to get some colorful frogs out first ❤#also. me resisting the urge to just rip my dang shirt off the entire time since it's my first Pride without a binder lmao 😂#my art#pizza tower#pizza tower fake peppino#pizza tower peppino#pizza tower gustavo#pride#lgbtqia
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Foolish: Listen– I've always survived these "Hey, come with me!" encounters.
Ironmouse: What do you mean "Hey, come with me" encounter? I just wanna talk!
Foolish: Well, you know, it's just– there's a history of like, someone says "Hey, come with me!" and then– [Laughs] You know. They do the deed.
Ironmouse: It's been so long since we've talked! I feel like we haven't spoken in a million years!
Foolish: Oh! I guess- I guess it has been a minute. Um, hey, what's up, dude?
Ironmouse: I mean, we definitely need to hang out more.
Foolish: Um, listen– I'm down to like, try to get some like, Fortnite in–
Ironmouse: [Kills him]
Foolish: Oh my– [Laughs] It's just a tale as old as time, dude. Just a tale as old as time!
#Foolish Gamers#Ironmouse#Foolish#September 2 2024#Twitch clipper so bad it crashed the stream for 5 minutes when I clipped these. Sorry guys no more clips from me#I am trying to relax today and that made me furious#This was a funny moment though#I miss seeing all the QSMP folks interacting o(-(#If Foolish's voice sounds a bit weird it's because I used both their audio for that#Mouse was IMPOSSIBLE to hear on his end#so I mixed the audio together a bit and kept the radio ''grainy-ness'' to keep that consistent with what it sounded like from Mouse's end#But I made it a bit easier to hear both#Edited#Lockdown Protocol
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While I scream into the void of not finishing any art, have this silly oc interaction of Dandy and Will cause Will's hands are huge and I couldn't stop thinking about how tiny he'd make Dandy's hands look in comparison.
Will Wayward belongs to the lovely @kandavers
#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#welcome home oc#welcome home original character#dandy leon#will wayward#sketches#my art#kandavers#Hey remember when I said I'd post some finished art before making yall look at my sketches again??? I LIED#Im sorry I've just been doodling so much instead of finishing shit#I've been drawing...a LOT of oc interactions#And I keep wanting to post them but they're ALL sketches#would you guys hate me if I was true to my name and sketched all the time???#lmao im kidding I know yall wouldnt hate me but I do feel kinda bad cause I love posting finished colored art#but I am also a man with little time because of work and sketching is how I relax#Maybe I'll sketch dump a lot of them so yall dont get spammed#this one gets its own post tho#dont ask me i dont make the rules
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I am always ready to drop the biggest bangers of my career at 2am. Anyway look at his ear I'm so proud of it
#i used to struggle with ears so bad. so i started studying them to Not do that anymore and. boom. realistic ear without a reference#this wip was MONTHS old dear lord#i drew the hair stoke by stroke because i'm insane (it was relaxing)#tumblr if you kill the quality i will explode all of your bones one by one. with my bare hands#also no he doesn't have his earmuffs yes it's intentional i had plenty of room to add them but it just didn't look very good#i am STRUGGLING on that hoodie by god i need to study more fold references#omori#drawing#arsenic#(because it's from his au . thats not the guy though#art#digital#omori sunny#sunny omori#yippee. i will now go to sleep my cats are waiting for me i feel bad
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Gil really does calm down when Tarvek enters the room like;
He is so thrilled!
Look at him he's so happy. He's so exhausted but Tarvek's presence relaxes him so much.
#Gil has been having a Very Bad Time but getting his weasel back is making him so calm and relaxed and exuberant#I love them#Gilgamesh Wulfenbach#Tarvek Sturmvoraus#girl genius#gilvek#GilTarvek#yes I am referencing that one post about Tarvek being like a dog friend for a stressed-out Gil cheetah
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RealAgeAu Drabble - Shopping
I am back at it again because I had ideas. (don't worry friend @spotaus things are being planned and I got many many ideas :3 but before those happen stuff needs to be established and put in place!)
I was debating between like four different drabble ideas but settled on this one. Something calming for a bit :)
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Dust shoots Killer another glare as he holds Nightmare clsoer "I mean it Killer. get out of my blindspot. It is getting annoying."
Nightmare looks from Dust to Killer and sees the large grin on Killer's face as he skips after Dust and Nightmare "Nah. I think it is good i am here because it is your blindspot!"
Dust grumbles as he holds Nightmare clsoer. Nightmare just pushes his skull under Dust's chin as he listens to the two bicker. Dust gives him a quick nuzzle before shooting Killer another glare "Why are you even here?" Killer still has a large grin on his face "I am backup!"
Dust groans "I am getting Nightmare clothes."
Killer nods as he follows them "backup!"
Dust huffs before looking back at Nightmare. Nightmare sees the glare disappear from his face as Dust lets out a sigh before smiling at Nightmare "makes you start to wonder who helped who out of getting stuck in a wall."
Killer gasps loudly "That only happened a few times!"
Ngihtmare grins and laughs as he leans fully against Dust again. He likes being held by Dust and Dust must like it too because he always holds him.
Nightmare figured it was because his spine is fragile and walking for too long starts to bother him but Dust still just holds him. always. Maybe he also likes being close like this?
Thoguht Nightmare isn't sure what Dust gets out of it but he must really like something abut the close contact.
They walk past another few people who look at them. Nightmare shoots a glance as Dust and Killer continue to bicker. They seem to shoot Dust and him worried looks but chuckle once they realise that Dust and Killer are just doing their way of bonding.
Nightmare always thought the flirting between those two was weird but then again he thought most things dating was weird. Maybe because he was still a child in his soul...
Not that it matters.
Nightmare shoots a glance and spots Killer grinning widely as his soul is clearly in soulshape and looks stable. Dust may have an annoyed look on his face but he has a tiny smile on his face.
Nightmare hides his face in Dust's sweater but he can't hide the purr. He wants them to be happy. They are happy even with him near.
Dust notices of course nad gives him another nuzzle "comfy? Spine okay?"
Nightmare nods "Yeah."
Dust hums to signal he heard him but still rubs his back.
They finally stop near one of the smaller houses which is the clothing shop for this town.
Dust tilts his skull as Killer snorts "oh that is adorable. ready to dress Nightmare as a tiny old man?" he grins
Dust shoots Killer a glare "It isn't that bad..." then he looks at the store "just... a bit old fashioned..." he looks at him "That okay?"
Nightmare nods before shrugging "I don't get why i need new things..."
Dust sighs. Killer leans on Dust's other shoulder and shoots him a wink "Because you are still wearing Dust's things. and quite honestly. Dusty does not have a large enough wardrobe to dress both of you."
Nightmare frowns as he pushes clsoer to Dust. He doesn't mind wearing stuff them them. It are things that are well worn and soft and smell of them and old laundry detergent.
Dust nuzzles his skull "It will be nice. You can check what you like and what feels nice and is comfortable."
Nightmare frowns "it is expensive." which is another reason why he doesn't want to get anything.
Dust frowns and Killer quickly answers "That is a worry for us. And Dusty said it is fine so it is fine." he grins.
Dust nods "made some money. more than enough to get you some things."
Nightmare wants to disagree more but Dust walks into the store.
The inside isn't like he thought it would be. there is actually quite a number of nice looking things and looks more modern than you would think from the outside.
DUst makes a pleased sound before smiling smugly "Seems like they were just showing off the knitwear because it is autumn." he shoots Killer a look "Almost as if i did my research and knew it would be okay here." and he walks further into the store.
Killer sputters before following them "I know that Dusty! You always do that! I was just joking around!" he pouts but doesn't offer anything. Really just a shadow. It reminds Nightmare a bit about how it was before. Killer beign his right hand and always by his side to help and protect him. It still feels different now and even when thinking back to those memories they feel different.
Killer spots him looking at him and grins before wriggling his phalanges in a tiny wave at him. Nightmare huffs and pushes back closer to Dust.
Dust is looking through some clothes on the hanger "Stop bothering Nightmare." he pulls something off and looks it over critically. he holds it up for him to inspect and Nightmare just shrugs.
Killer pouts as he crosses his arms "Just having fun. And tiny boss is fine with it!" he grins at him "Right nighty?"
Nightmare shrugs. he doens't mind. it is nice.
Dust rolls his eye lights and doesn't look at Killer "Even if he is fine with is safe it for later. first buying clothes. Then you can tire him out."
Nightmare huffs and grumbles. he doesn't need tiring out. he is perfectly fine. Dust holds up another sweater and he shrugs again.
"Oh hello there dears! Can you find it all?"
Killer nad Dust turn and Nightmare feels Dust freeze for a moment. Yeah not a surprise because the woman looks a lot like Toriel. But Nightmare doubts it is the her of this universe. The closer he looks the more this woman seems like a sheep monster.
Killer and Dust must see it too as Killer grins "Pretty much! but we got it!"
Dust shoots him a look "Killer knock it off." he looks at the lady "We are looking for stuff for the little guy."
The lady smiles sweetly "Oh! You two must be two of Sans- I am sorry, Crop's friends!" she looks them over and her gaze lingers on Dust for a moment before settling on Nightmare. Nightmare can't stop the instinct of holding on tighter to Dust. He doesn't like having stranger's gazes on him.
The smiles sweetly "I can see the resemblance! You must be very proud of such a young handsome little boy!"
Dust looks to the side and shrugs but his hold on him tightens. Killer snorts, which is fair as they aren't actually related. Maybe she just sees the resemblance before Nightmare now looks much more like a tiny swap sans, as that was the original form his mother used to craft their bodies. And Dust is the one of the four that still resemblance who he used to be.
At elast Nightmare assumes that is why people think they see a resemblance. That or they are just racists and think all skeletons look alike.
the woman smiles "I am sure there is something fitting for him. Do you need any help?"
Killer's laugh turns cold as he smiles widely "No thanks! We got this!"
Dust rolls his eye lights and nudges him in the side "Stop it." he looks back to the lady "I was wodnering what the... organisation was. I wanted to look at stuff his size..." and he looks at the things he had been looking at with a glare.
The sheep monster looks a bit paler after Killer's interaction but smiles sweetly at Dust. "It is a bit of a mixmatch. Of all the stuff that is handmade it only has a few of each size. you will have to guestimate those. The imported clothes are by the walls, those have more standard sizing."
Dust nods "I see." and he starts walking towards the side first to check the sizing.
Killer grins as he leans close and whispers "Holding a babybones does wonders for making you look approachable"
Dust shoots him a glare and hisses "One word and I will put you in a wall myself." and he stomps over towards the clothes.
Nightmare still doens't understand why Killer thinks that kinda flirting is efficient but what does he know.
Dust is clearly unimpressed with the clothing offered with the more standard design and fabric. but they use it to figure out which size he is before moving towards the handmade stuff.
DUst and Nightmare check what is nice and soft as Killer shadows them. Staying nearby and pretty much glaring at anyone who as much as glances in their direction.
They end up settling for two big sweaters and some sweats. They wait by the cash register as Dust has picked him up again.
The nice woman smiles at them "That will be 140!" she smiles.
Killer winces at the price and Nightmare pushes closer to Dust "I don't need two." wool sweaters are expensive...
Dust shrugs as he looks at Killer "Be usefull and hold him for a moment." and Ngihtamre feels hismelf be handed over to Killer. Dust takes out some cash from his inventory and counts quickly before putting most of the stash he had on the counter "That should be enough." he stashes whatever is left.
The lady counts it and smiles as she puts it away. She packs it in a bag and holds it out to Dust "Thank you for shopping! And Can I just say it is lovely to see such a devoted father."
Dust shrugs and mutters a thanks before shooting Killer a warning look.
Killer grins as he nuzzles Nightmare "How are you this huggable tiny boss?"
Nightmare shrugs but holds unto Killer. Killer is also nice to be held by.
They leave the store together and walk back towards the parking lot. Something about meeting up again to go back to Crop's farm. Nightmare isn't really sure. He is already getting tired again adn he mumbles unhappily.
Killer purrs and coos "It is okay tiny boss. babybones need their sleep and rest after all."
Dust nods "Shopping is always busy." he shoots Killer a glare "Why is why i didn't want you to get him tired or overwhelmed."
Killer groans "Yeah yeah you were right. you are always right. can i go back to nuzzlign the baby now?"
Dust looks considerate before nodding "You may."
Killer grins and the nuzzles resume and Nightmare wants to pout and push him off but it is so nice and he can feel himself start to relax as he starts to purr again.
He likes it when his family holds him.
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#realageau#utmv#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#dust sans#killer sans#What is this?! An actual lore reason why Nightmare is carried all the time and everywhere?!#aside from the fact everyone wants to hold and snuggle the baby#the baby also has a really bad and fragile spine and walking and putting weight on that is a bad idea. so they minimalise it unless it is i#a safe area where they can monitor it easily. like at home or the temp base they set up!#outside though is not safe so it is time to 'Hold Baby'#Nightmare is A-okay with it!#Nightmare is also aware all these four disasters kinda flirting and being interested in one another but doesn't get the big deal#Look this baby lived together with those four while nightmare was still an empath#There is no way he WOULDN'T know#Just something a bit sweet and nice to relax after the other drabbles :3#Also don't worry about them starting to physically resemble one another! After all! I am sure soul adopting a baby doens't have consequence#especially not if said baby is a god! :D
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Mini Sinclairs
#A little and small messy drawing of the sinclairs. I needed this.#It's really fun drawing them all small and cute#Been a while since I've felt a little relaxed#my art#solmuse art#slasher#slashers#slasher fanart#house of wax#house of wax 2005#how 2005#lester sinclair#bo sinclair#beauregard sinclair#vincent sinclair#sinclair brothers#messy sketch#This also helps me with my digital art as I am still bad at it#horror#slasher movie
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Any gesture that uses just the first 2 fingers is vulgar to Irkens. Zim was very confused by humans doing peace signs for photos or using finger quotes when talking
Doing this sign from the forehead means the Irken military in particular bc of the forehead symbol the elite soldiers have
Editing to add: Irkens would be APALLED to see any of these gestures used- Zim has just been on earth long enough that he doesn't care anymore lmao if he does this in other Irkens' presence they would smack his hand down so fast AND ALSO Zim isn't wearing any gloves?? This makes the gesture even worse!
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#invader zim#iz zim#Irken lore#Irken language#Irken#my art#Irkens have a thing about hands and feet being covered#feet more so than hands#zim eventually relaxes enough not to wear gloves on earth but going barefoot takes him WAY longer#also also#i give Irkens 3 fingers and a thumb#in the show while zim has 3 fingers total which is one less than humans who have 4 fingers total. So if I give dib 5 I give zim 4#I'm a nerd#I have so many Irken cultural headcanons. gestures. words. you don't wanna get me started lol#fun fact- the reason this gesture is vulgar is bc it vaguely resembles Irken genitalia#much like how the middle finger is bad supposedly bc it represents human male genitalia#the more you know!#am I gonna get in trouble for this? do I need to tag it as something??
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You know what? People shouldn't feel bad about liking things in fandom, or creating things that make them happy. I'm absolutely vagueposting, but this really isn't about one post, it's about a tone I've noticed popping up again lately from multiple people (including people I follow and generally respect!)
-"They absolutely cannot fuck! So crazy people would think about that and be into it, it would break canon! "
-"Mod AU doesn't work, they're Serious Characters they aren't gonna run a coffee shop its OOC! "
-"Actually, fun fluffy fic about them at all during a certain era doesn't work!"
I get it. I agree with a fair part of it. People post all kinds of asinine shit that I hate actually. But you know where I bitch about it? Privately in group chat.
Let people fucking have fun. I get the sense that many people come to this fandom specifically because it's Serious and Challenging and you want to Do Serious Analysis. I think a lot of folks around these parts either are in school and not having a good time about it, or wish that they had gone into better academia that doesn't really exist, and they're getting that need met here. And that's great! For real!
But you know what else is fine? People who either don't have that need, or are getting it met in other parts of their lives, and come here for stress relief and a fun free hobby.
Of course they can't fuck for real! It's not in the text, they simply don't. But the tension is obviously written in, and playing with possibilities can be fun! Also if you can't see how it could happen and still not fix shit, that's a skill issue. Fic authors aren't stupid, we don't fail to understand canon, but not everything has to be everything all the time. Sometimes you want to do all the work and try to match the level of writing in the show, and sometimes you want to have something nice and easy. The show is REALLY well written and what it needs to be, the point of transformative works is playing with what it's NOT. Some people cope with fluff, or good ending everybody lives AUs, and it might be so totally valid to look down on that, but maybe being publicly correct might be less important than being kind?
Actually, the main thing I want to say is that if YOU reading this are a person who wants to write a cute coffeeshop AU, or be horny on main about your boys kissing, it's actually fine!! At least, it historically has been fine. This is a really small fandom now and not that many people are actively creating, please don't be discouraged by this stuff, because the people who criticize on tumblr are actually not the majority. The REASON they criticize is that, if you go to AO3 and sort by kudos, much of it is this super sweet OOC stuff! It looks like that's most of what there is, because a lot of readers in the wild who watch the show and look up fic like it!
Anyway. Let people have fun, it doesn't cost you anything, and not every thought needs to be public. It actually does discourage people.
#not ME lol i cannot be discouraged I am unstoppable#i'm not really even defending myself here at all believe it or not#like i do a specific thing and its not everybody's cup of tea but its generally not what's being complained about#anyway i know you're just stating your own opinion and what works and doesn't work for you and that's your right#i just think there are other ways to make the same points that don't make people feel bad about their fun relaxation thing#part of this is a cultural/generational difference about fandom I'm sure#i'm being a defensive den mom because I remember when fandom was supposed to be weird and silly and it was nice#(thank you kinkmeme that is the antidote to this mindset in some ways)#(i'm about to reveal/post my other thing later and its gonna be a hilarious followup to this in context)#again its not that anybody is wrong just there is room for all of the things maybe?#black sails#silverflint#i'm also gonna reblog this in a few minutes with some of my favorite just AWFUL did not fix ANYTHING fics#that i think would meet anybody's criteria of matching canon#just for funsies
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well, i was going to wait to formally announce something when i got the time but i’m a bit irritated that the first thing i see when i log in is this ask
^ to answer your question anon, idk why you’re following if that’s what you feel 💀 respectfully, unfollow and never interact with me again. and this goes for everyone else who has left nasty asks in my inbox demanding me to update. my priority is law school and family, not to update fanfics that i don’t get paid for. this is something i do on the side for fun, it is not a job nor does it help me secure my future. spend less time demanding free work from people and spend more time working on your own future. it quite literally should never get to the point where you’re demanding strangers on the internet to provide you with fanfiction and insulting them when they have other things going on—seek help. that is weird.
but on a more serious note to everyone who has been respectful & kind about it—i don’t think i’m gonna be able to update anything until winter break, i apologize to everyone who has been waiting patiently, i promise i’m not abandoning heliotropes but it will not be updated for at least a month and a half. my workload has skyrocketed the past two weeks and my professors are warning us that it’s only uphill until after finals when we get our break. i need to be focusing on work, i barely even have the energy to answer messages from ppl right now.
^^ so if you are here for just my writing, this is the time to leave. i’ve been very vocal about this not being a writing blog. it is just my blog. if you only want writing, unfollow and find it in the tags.
i am going to be closing my inbox to prevent more asks like this because it’s rude and it’s not something i want to deal with. officially on semi-hiatus.
#tw discourse#i guess#i’m just irritated#i did not want to see that as soon as i log in#but anyway#i will try to post more like regular posts so i don’t disappear off the face of earth but#they’ll be sparse#i literally am so busy i only texted my bf like a dozen times over the past week 😭 i feel so bad#i’ve been taking like#an hour and a half a day to decompress and relax and even then i don’t even have the energy to write#i caught up on jjk manga and anime#i’ll lyk what i think about it soon#but anyway i have to go shower and get ready for my 4 o’clock class
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i enjoy toxic yuri mafuena as much as the next person but sometimes i wish people would focus more on how ena takes care of mafuyu. like when ena held her hand in one of the guiding a list child card stories. or when she was telling mafuyu to move when the light turned green in that one area conversation. they complement each other in so many different ways that's so fucking good and idk how to put it into words and i want to explode
#splootspeaks#pjsk#mafuena#it's time like this that i wish i was a fanfic writer tbh shdkgj. if i could only formulate the words#LIKE. ARCHERS GLOVE VS ARTIST GLOVE#ena having the conviction and commitment to becoming an artist but not getting the support from her dad n mafuyu not knowing what she wants#to do but getting the “support” from her mom#they each have what the other wants and they complete each other in the most perfect and painful way possible and i wANT TO EXPLORE THEIR#RELATIONSHIP SO BAD AOURGH. ok fic idea#mafuena and shizuairi hang out n while they're all out together it's like mafuyu taking care of ena but when they each go back to their#respective sekais or smth it's more like ena taking care of mafuyu or smth#or. ACK. IDK I JUST. AM SOOO ILL ABT THEM RN#it would also b soooso nice for shizuai to notice the little things abt the two bc of archeryclub n middleschool friends or whatevr#shizuku noticing how mafuyu seems a bit more relaxed or airi noticing how ena's a bit more or smth like that#does this mean anything 🧍🧍🧍#sory for my very unstructured rambling but i am so ill abt the girlies rn. 💥💥💥💥
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I randomly get inspired to write weird stuff with Gabriel that I'm usually not even into and a lot of the time I get comments that amount to I'm not into this. Am I? or being surprised they were into it. Gabriel is just randomly inflicting this sort of thing on everyone I suppose
Gabriel Ultrakill has been reclassified as a gateway drug. Please keep an eye out for any suspicious activity.
#i can be your angle or yuor devil#metaphorical piece of ham/cheese that you wrap around a pill before feeding it to a dog#many things can be made palatable if you’re down bad enough#speaking from the heart#I would Not do that. oh but if he wants to it’s okay 🥰#I’m being so tame and normal please. you can’t do this. you can’t enable me#I have work tomorrow I need to. relax#trying and failing pathetically to keep this account somewhat tame#non voice post#ask#asks#ask spam continues.. the dashboard cries#looks around nervously#i am so very scared and terrible at speaking#but if you really want to send me insane things I do have a Different Account For That#you gotta message me for it#but. I mean if you do that just know. I can’t even form coherent sentences#what im trying to say is that I can’t hold a conversation for shit#but. you can always send.. gabe things..#ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ENOUGH. pack it up boys. im going to get shot if i continue
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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