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read the maze runner books for answers after watching the movies and now after finishing those I fear I only have more questions
#I also fear i’m going insane#why is the lore of this series driving me insane???#i’m spiraling#this is crazy#I feel like making a mike’s mic pll style investigation wall to figure out wtf is going on in this canon#tmr#the maze runner series#the death cure#the maze runner#thomas tmr#the maze runner books#maze runner
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“Twiyor reveal” this “Briar sibling reveal” that BRO LOID KNOWS TELEPATHS EXIST ANYA IS LIKE ONE MISTAKE AWAY FROM GETTING REVEALED AS A TELEPATH????
#everyone was so blinded w the adult drama we forgot anya is also hiding an insane secret i fear😭#im not ok after that last chapter WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON#spy x family#sxf#spy x family manga spoilers#spy x family spoilers#spy x family manga#anya forger#loid forger#she’s gonna be the reveal that snowballs the rest trust#the second she’s found out it’s gonna come crumbling down#and idk if i’m ready for it GAHHH
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!!~TPOT 16 YAPPING~!!
Had more thoughts about why I’m so insane about this ep and why I’m so glad the silly guy got a W for once
It’s cause of all the parallels and how the message really hits close to home for me and aughhh
Pen and Pencil parallel with handling the loss of those close to you with this being especially devastating and ironic considering Pencil is technically responsible for Pen struggling with his loss as she put down the straw that broke the camel’s back (Eraser elim and also reality falling apart methinks) AND the fucking reference to the last episode in TPOT 16 as seen here:
Match and Pen parallel shown with that line transition a and coming into their own characters when forced to be separated with a group that’s formed so much of your personality that you’ve been a part of for so long (IVE ALWAYS THOUGHT THEY WERE COUNTERPARTS IN THEIR CLIQUES RAHHHHH)
Pen and Liy foiling with their problems with anger specifically but paralleling with the fact they both struggle with it and also their absurd strength when it controls them (I really hope neither of them are taken away when it’s too late I’m really digging their dynamic!!!)
ALSO TPOT 15 CONSEQUENCES MENTIONED
ALSO HE WAS SO EXPRESSIVE THIS EPISODE VA-ING,ANIMATION AND ALL AND I NEED THE SONG THAT PLAYS DURING PEN AND LIY’S CONVO STAT IT WAS SO NICEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!
LOOK AT HIMMMMMMM!!!
GOD NOT EVEN FUCKING TALKING ABOUT THE PERSPECTIVE FUCKERY DURING THE VENTING SCENE IT WAS SO DYNAMIC !!!! OH MY BOY PEN!!!!
BIG fucking fan of this episode while it doesnt beat the last it was really fucking good and could compete with it honestly Pen my beloved I’m joyous as FUCK you FINALLY got the development episode I’ve been banking on you having since BFB 1’s team splitting scene !!!!!!
#amethyst’s little rambles#analysis#I guess#tpot#bfdi#bfdi tpot#bfdi pen#bfdi pencil#tpot pencil#tpot pen#bfdi match#tpot match#tpot liy#bfdi liy#tpot 16#tpot 16 spoilers#tpot spoilers#it was so fucking peak#I’m actually tweaking GOD MY BOY FINALLY IN THE SPOTLIGHHT!!!!#THE DEVELOPMENT EPISODE IVE BEEN BEGGING FOR HIM ITS SO PEAK#going back to my roots as an insane autistic BFDI fan guys uhohs#also fun fact if Pen hadn’t tried to help CloudYAY in the final throw of the freesmart van there Bagged would’ve also been UFE with them#very ironic but I’m so fucking grateful BAGGED is my favorite team by a mile#because if he let CloudYAY get tagged by 4 instead of them being tagged by X instead#then CloudYAY would only lose one member as they would have the most 4 tags#not tags from X - which would mean that Pen and Liy being tagged by X would have doomed their team#but because of Pen stopping CloudYAY being tagged by 4#Bagged is now safe (god bless) and CloudYAY is losing two members ironically enough#Pen my king you doomed them I fear#they had it coming Tbf they have a numbers advantage iirc
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psst pspspsps u should totally talk about grebbymints more ... i am enabling u......
AAAAAA bro….. my dude…. the thing is i always feel crazy talking about them together bc i think like they’ve only publicly interacted like 3 times? LOL (i have watched and documented every interview minty and grebby has appeared in for the leafs/marlies. it’s so bad. me being sick has actually helped me not be as weird about it since i had less screen time in general)
but even then me and @tufzy just constructed this whole separate reality in our heads for months about how like they prob got closer after getting called up and minty is the only familiar guy for grebby there due to being on the marlies together + no russian player on the leafs to fall back on for help so grebby is just sticking to minty’s side the whole time, and minty even tho he’s a lil popular with the leaf boys he still is looking out for his linemate. even when they get sent down they’re still drawn to each other out of habit. but i’m always like second guessing like wow this is pure delusion like maybe they don’t even fuck with each other like that it’s just coworker friendliness this rpf shit is truly a disease fr fr 🙏
and then the videos started dropping. they’re goofing off and pushing each other around during sewer ball. and then i see a single frame of minty next to grebs during the one rare tiktok that he shows up in. and the delusion starts anew
#like… he was waiting for him… giggling at him…#like does minty help him parse the insane tiktok trends they make them do (jellybean challenge comes to mind)#and everytime grebs is just like eh whatever go marlies/leafs go they love that shit#and minty is laughing aa they both walk down the tunnel to the locker room being like thats not what they asked man#but yes i am enabled. thank you *bows low enough that my forehead hits the table*#see the thing is i haven’t even gotten into the crazier part. which is the family tree au#which is really the dysfunctional abo family au#and no one has like commented on the greek symbols on it despite it getting way more eyes than i thought it would#(me acting like i wasnt looking for attention when i tagged that post)#but yeah there is a section of grebby and mints there in my drafts for that whole *waves hand* thing#which is#completely separate from the grebbymints fic (also set abo bc i’m crazy) that i’ve been slowly working on#both things will come out in due time.. maybe…#but i fear it might actually be too insane for the public eye LOL#BUT THE PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW. THE DEMONS WHISPER TO ME EVERYDAY.#this would be really embarrassing if you didn’t mean this in a hrpf way LOL#but i can also just start yapping about them separately forever too#starting with minty reading fucking MEDITATIONS. BY MARCUS AURELIUS#LIKE OKAY … NERD…#gonna need him to sign my copy when i go to toronto#i wish i also knew some level of russian bc i wanna know what grebby was up to being a menace in the khl…#all i can do is read like sonata and minuet in cyrillic LOL#but i digress…… i wrote up a whole essay of nonsense in here….#fraser minten#nikita grebenkin#grebbymints#hrpf#asks#yapping#<- need to learn the meaning of the phrase ‘self control’
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My drawing of 338 Mistake on a Plate :) Glen in the ring in the centre of The Great Weave.
Conceptually, a guy that can see the threads of fate and destiny that connect us all and so minimises contact with other people because he’s afraid of altering their fate, not realising that that’s not only normal but also what makes human contact so beautiful in the first place is genuinely really cool.
#off book#my art#zach reino#and#jess mckenna#if you think about it#I love the bit where jess explains sandwiches (‘but I’m in food. you don’t have to know all that’ ‘I only know stuff about The Great Weave’#I just enjoy when jess explains in detail a specific real world thing and when zach explains a magic system he just made up#yeah if you bury kimchi under a Place of Power then eating it will give you a prophetic vision and loop you into The Great Weave#also jess’s ‘I just want you to know. this is sad - are you sad?’ idk much about music but whatever she was doing there ruled#I loved this episode#glen doesn’t have any friends because he can see fate and fears making any changes to their future ?? is anyone else going insane#he loves to hang out but he can’t… also he’s the Centre of Time and blake sparkles
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urgh angel devil brainworms but its js me thinking abt what other things from the christian canon would be as devils
#I need a God devil to be real#and I say God w a capital g bc that’s a very specific thing#like God would be more feared than an angel#which also angel seems to represent the lowest class of angel so would there also be a seraphim devil or a cherub devil?#is there a demon devil?? satan??#we have the hell devil but satan(/lucifer if we wanna go seven sins route) being the prince/ruler of hell could make dynamics in hell crazy#also would the devil be more feared or the concept of hell itself#like o my god idk#maybe this all gets explained in p2 so maybe I’m going insane over nothing#anyways four horsemen are SICK and lowkey the reason I even started yapping#but also idk biblical mythology is deeply fascinating and I mourn my inability to push through the genesis bc i need to read the Bible#I feel like that one girl that read the bible bc she saw evangelion#like that’s me w csm#for absolutely no reason other than ‘biblical devils go brr’#ANYWAYS gonna stop yapping in the tags now and return to akiangel fanfic#bullshitting
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goooood morning and happy monday my friendz ! ! it’s the start of a new week and i am waving my wand + manifesting that we all have a good one ✨🤍🧚♀️
#i haven’t properly scrolled dash in awhile i fear i am so behind#going to try to play catch up after work bc i miss reading my mooties yummy fics !!#there’s been a few i’ve been tagged in and i can’t wait to dive in hehe feel free to tag me in some !! ^_^#i’ve been rewatching a bunch of one piece lately & feeling impossibly more insane about zoro … sigh.#but also i am thinking about getting a kuroo comm … one ive been dreaming about for a bit#these two continue to play tug of war with my brain and i’m just :3 !#sigh sigh sigh#feeling gross with yearning the last few days#i could yap on and on but … u get the vibes 🫂🤍#hope u all have a wonderful dayyyyy ^_^ ily !!!#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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okay so I finished XO Kitty s2 today and I fear I’m OBSESSED. Like I have so many thoughts but I can’t put any of them into words other than I miss the show and I barely finished it this morning.
#xo kitty#minho#dae#kitty song covey#q#yuri#literally every character in this show#i fear i’m obsessed#q might be my favorite character#like in the world#i’m also team minho#him and kitty HAVE to be endgame#oh and i liked to say I HATED her from the beginning#iykyk#I’m so dead#like it was so insanely good#anyways i’m done but go watch xo kitty cause i need s3
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This isn’t a dig at those who do cosmetic enchantments, but please explain to me the logic of all these women who clearly have fillers in their face but are this concerned about red 40
#this isn’t an attack on those who do those#I’m just curious about the logic here#the full name for Botox literally has the word toxin#and some types of implant do cause health issues if they leak#if I see one more filler injected face going on about red 40 and plastics#I know some do react to red 40 but most are fine. it’s also not banned it Europe it’s just under a diff name#I say the same about anti vaxers who are fine injecting Botox and other things yet a vaccine is dangerous#most hair dye is also crazy high in formaldehyde#a lot of the weird fear mongering genuinely makes no sense to me#like being against all sugar unless it’s cane sugar or honey - as if it’s not still sugar#I know they don’t connect the dots but it’s just insane the things they will lecture us on
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Taylor returning over and over to the falling through the ice accident in the Bolter—everything to me
#like. just. the shock of it all#there’s something about Taylor where her experience of life is so ….. brutal#like I don’t know how else to say it but it just is. life is not easy on her it is always ready to CLOBBER her#and in a way she’s not easy on life. there’s some kind of magnets/opposite poles stuff where she’s just always drawn to the worst things#to feeling them and experiencing them and almost ??? creating them#like I don’t mean to overstate it. and I know she has a family who loves her (thank GOD)#and also she’s very practical and industrious about creating this very Instagram worthy life full of Fine Things and a Fun Time#and of course all the resources in the world at her disposal to create all the trappings of it#whether it’s a celebrity Fourth of July party or the eras tour#and she’ll do it and love it. but as all the best critics know and point out the most fascinating thing about Taylor is always the music#and it’s where all the weirdness and stubbornness and difficulties of her life. her a c t u a l longings her actual fears#her actual terrible awful experiences that she charges headlong down the paths of#is set free! and it’s breathtaking in the most shocking way#like falling through the ice! I always say the first thing that always hits me about a Taylor album is the bitterness#just this blast in the face. and her music is so gentle! in so many ways#and the packaging is so appealing and her voice is so soft and expressive and there is none of that weird experimentation#even musically (remember when she shut down imogen heap for putting a minor chord in clean she was like absolutely not. I’m obsessed)#(with that moment forever)#but like. so much of Taylor’s packaging and life and HER really does SEEM so basic or ordinary or just rich girl ordinary I guess#she likes basic things and wants basic things. but also she is so hungry so restless so angry so wounded the rich internal life is CHURNING#all the time. every second. and it’s spectacular to watch and also I will worry about her until the day I die#or just—-I don’t know. it’s going to be spectacular and it is sometimes going to be awful#but she will keep furiously writing her way through it!!#there IS such a woundedness to her. and it makes me love her so much because it’s packaged in such a way people think it must just be#whining or privilege. but it’s not! it’s just. the human condition and Taylor’s own flaws#okay I’ve lost the plot here a bit in my ramblings but yeah the ice metaphor. insanely perfect
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Idk why I’ve been so insecure about my interpretation of Gato cause it’s so silly
Like 1 Wonderland doesn’t have a fandom in the first place and second of all, Gato is in like two fics(one where it’s basically like two pieces of dialogue and another where it’s the smallest blurb in existence) and has three whole pieces of fanart that aren’t mine like nobody is gonna care if I headcanon Gato as liking going into the water or think about angst for him
It doesn’t help that my brain is like Well he laughs at his problems and such so therefore you are stupid and mischaracterizing him like
This is what happens when you consistently like the comic relief character 😔
#I am also going a little bit insane because there is no one to talk to about him#but also the fear of judgement and that I’m taking the character way too seriously#just dhdhdjdjjdjdjd#alice in wonderland#wonderland the musical#wonderland musical#wonderland broadway#el gato#cheshire cat#javi rambles
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planning document must be going well I just said the words “explaining the endurance of Platonism could be the life I’m living” to myself. Alone. At 2:30am. Because yeah. Could be.
#mrowmrowmrowmrowmrow I should be able to submit the word nya and the word nya alone in place of a second chapter#tumblr gets my planning thoughts because. yeah#I fucking hate chapter 2 so much for being a relations chapter in what began as a relations dissertation#on one hand I feel like I’m insane if I don’t talk about Origen in ReHashing Christian Neoplatonism The Dissertation but on the other hand#it is disingenuous to talk about incorporation of Platonism without addressing the vehement arguments against it#like I was there going what I would love is a good writer/writers between Justin+clem and Augustine and went well big issue is most of the#writings between actively addressing christianity and Platonism as a shared logos are arguing by against so#there is that#(I am at peace ish with the arbitrary decision to do Justin and clem for ch1 because I do think apologetics is the best genre to illustrate#the shift I’m discussing; ideal world would have me using every writer ever but. my supervisor says I can’t do that so)#but also it is so bullshit arbitrary relations chapter#I think it weakens my argumentation as opposed to contextualising it or adding complexity#it’s just like oh you were told to show opposing views and you did#clap clap whatever#I don’t know what it’s saying#in theory I’d love to find something about the root of the difficult of reconciling the two#but also what if I don’t find that#what then#Augustine must be discussed but otherwise every other writer is more or less arbitrary short of perhaps the issue of orthodoxy#but also that is what I get for doing a deeply arbitrary capstone as opposed to something with teeth#past Lewis deciding surely I will find something of substance if I engage in investigation of something I find interesting falling into the#eternal trap of contemporary humanities#things could be framed as an examination of how ideas get incorporated into canon#but also then it’s like why this as an example#and then it’s like well maybe there’s teeth in examining whether this was a part of platonism’s endurance and#you can spend a life explaining the endurance of Platonism#you can’t just say that in your introduction and conclusion and call it a day#connecting to medieval receptions is perhaps my only hope but why do medieval receptions matter I don’t know I am not a medievalist#and i fear I could spend a lifetime examining that#capstone
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As someone who has been near deathly afraid of tornados since I was little
I am never watching the new Twisters movie
#it’s been like a fearful fascination though#so I made the mistake of viewing the ENTIRE EF5 clip on TikTok#worst mistake I could have made#just with everyone getting sucked in#that poor girl getting absolutely SIDEWIPED by debris#and the dude laying on top of the protagonist to protect her GETTING YOINKED OUT OF NOWHERE#I COULDNT EVEN PREPARE FOR IT I THOUGH THEY WOULD BOTH MAKE IT OUT#It doesn’t help that the insane summer weather has been causing massive thunderstorms and tornado warnings in a place THAT DOESNT GET THEM#horrified#next time that happens you can count on yours truly having a fucking panic attack#I’m never going to tornado alley#you couldn’t make me go at gunpoint#the gun would go off#at least that would be quick#and death wouldn’t be spent suspended midair getting bashed or skewered by debris and suffocating with all air being sucked out of you#fuck tornados man#bless storm chasers but fuck the storms they chase#and fuck me too for being an idiot and watching that video#never again#dragon speaks#dragon is also shaking in their fucking boots because goddamn
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lesbian culture is essentially gaslighting yourself into believing that girls (gn) are never flirting with you and that they’re only ever being very very nice
#genuinely it takes way too much to convince me i fear#we could be married 20 years and you could tell me you love me and i’m like ‘as a friend right?’#i’m only slightly exaggerating imaooo#it comes from years of straight girl over friendliness and none of my crushes liking me back lol#genuinely when ppl actually like me back i’m like 🤯#bc i never think that far ahead#and i don’t know how to deal#i think i will just dykely pine until i die#i also have no game in the slightest#i just let my inner freak show and hope ppl are down with it or whatever#i’m also bad at dealing with crushes#i basically go even more insane#and i don’t know how to let ppl know sometimes#bc i’m also bad with feelings#putting yourself out there is scary!!#scarier than any horror movie#to me at least#it would be cool if ppl could just fall in love with me and i didn’t to do anything <3#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW TSAMS EPISODE YET?!!!
Bloodmoon might be coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THIS ASK SENT ME FLYING ACROSS THE ROOM OMG. WATCHED IT AND HOLY SHIT. I’M LIKE ?!?!!!!! IM GENUINELY SURPRISED HE’S COMING BACK ???? I WAS SO SURE BLOODMOON WAS GUNNA STAY DEAD THIS IS FASCINATING. ESPECIALLY RUIN’S IMPLICATION OF ALTERING THEM ???? WHAT IS HE GUNNA DO 2 THE BOYS……. IM VERY INTRIGUED
#asks#crack-a-lackin-max#honestly tho i rlly can’t stress how much i thought bloodmoon was going to Stay Dead?????#Like don’t get me wrong i am honestly terribly excited because i miss bloodmoon a LOAHT and if they return that means I can pick apart-#-their character more!!!#however to Me this is so out of left field that i’m also just like HUH AHDISNKDLC#i wonder if ruin is going 2 put bloodmoon thru the horrors tho……#modify them 2 make them obedient is what ruin said. that is smth they have Never wanted to be and I can imagine that will be Maddening if-#-it works. but also like. this isn’t exactly a revival like it is with Lunar. Bloodmoon /died/ died. No nanobots left#A second version of being built. A new version is being built. It’s likely that the new Bloodmoon won’t have any memories#So can you imagine waking up with an insatiable urge to maim and kill and the one person you want to do it to has a failsafe to make sure-#-that you can’t do that and everyone around you seems to know you already and has a deep fear of hatred towards you?#wouldn’t that be more frustrating and confusing than the ever-present hunger? Wouldn’t that drive them a little insane?#sorry this probably won’t happen but could u imagine AHAHBSJABS#sun and moon show spoilers#tsams#bloodmoon#xero thoughts and rambles#bc of my tags LMAO
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things I don’t give a shit about: a bunch of chucklefucks at the top who want money and power who think they’re the representative of an entire country
things I give a shit about: as many people as possible being able to live as safely, comfortably, and happily as is possible.
#👏government fuckheads 👏 eat glass👏#You can be pissed at an individual for a heinous crime but my god will the government that let it happen and subsequently tries to cover it#Will be the main focus of my wrath#Give me a politician who runs on empathy and not just saying keywords to get the most amount of money and power#I’m drunk on soju but I’m also right#I keep seeing clips about the Horrors ™️ in China and I think of all the people who demonize Chinese people#Like my guy they’re under an insanely oppressive regime I just want those people to be able to live safely#And for the people who make that impossible To fuck off#I get people look at countries as its most oppressive aspects but man it’d probably be a lot harder to blame the down fall of society#On random minorities if they could simply go about their lives without living in fear and pain because random assholes decided that would#Make them the most money
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