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rainofthetwilight · 2 months ago

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OH MY GOD??????????????????

#OH MY GOD #OH MY GODHSGSGW828EHSHEUIWIDENWUEOKAEGYQIQKAHSJ #I WAS GONE FOR A FEW HOURS. WHAT.#I WAS JUST WATCHING EL WASSEYA AND THIS IS WHAT I COMR BACK TO????????????#I ALMOST HAD A HEART ATTACK #I'M GOING CRAZY RIGHT NOW HOLY SHITVSGRBEVRVSBABDBWJ2IEIRJHWHEHWUISJ #MY HEART IS BEATING SO FAST RN. SOEMOENE HELP #YA ALLAH??????#levi's ted talks #BEING MUTUALS WITH *LLOYDSKYWALKERS* WAS NOT ON MY 2024 BINGO CARD .#I DON'T USUALLY POST ABT COOL PEOPLE FOLLOWING ME BUT THIS. THIS WAS THE LEAST UNEXPECTED #HELLOIDGRHSHDHDHDGEGRGWRVVSJW3

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sagaubeloved · 1 year ago

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I noticed while walking around with Xiao that he just — he just has his mask on?? At first I thought it was just him in his ideal animation or something and stopped to let him take it off, and even minutes later he STILL HAD IT ON. Switched with my other characters and then back to him and STILL WEARING THAT MASK. Jumped and smacked things to hopefully trigger the mask away and nope, still there.

What??? FOR WHAT REASON????

#genshin sagau #sagau xiao #Genshin impact #Sagau #for reals he just kept vibing with the mask on #FOR SO LONG #I was confused #and then a few hours later I came back and it was finally gone!#what was the reason xiao???#what was the reason to keep the mask on as I swirl you around to swing that mask off of your CUTE FACE #the mask was the true xiao we had all along

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jabberwockprince · 3 months ago

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#reverse 1999 #reverse: 1999 #reverse 1999 oc #venison #purinsu art #i cant even do proper vent art. so cryptic drawings abt venison's trauma it is #things just got worse in the span of 2 hours so here we are #not healthy enough to talk to people and not healthy enough to be left alone #and i was just told that im going to be away for a few days #in a new place i dont know with people who are going to stress me out #while im still fucking reeling from what happened two days ago #and all the plans i was looking forward to just poof. who cares. gone. idk whats gonna happen and im stressed

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simgerale · 8 months ago

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me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake….#I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour.#I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing?#y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day.#but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!!#I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

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girlthativealwaysbeen · 16 days ago

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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow #2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too #like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does #i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made #after school was leaving my work and therefore my life #9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday #i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics #barely affects me #but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well #it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be #i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time #like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news #i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc #i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't #make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc #but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully #drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood #when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily #at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know #we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly #in the dead of night in our room #i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus #that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their #body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive #i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times #like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not #have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone

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somegrumpynerd · 2 months ago

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Can't decide if I want to do one more week of regular cats or start the silly event this week...

#UTDR #UTMV #Neko Sansume #I have like an hour or so to decide before I need to put up the new poll #What do you guys think?#For reference when I say ''event'' it just changes out the kitty options for a few weeks #The kitties that haven't been picked yet will come back when it's done they're not gone forever!#It's just a chance to get different kitties seen so I can start making more silly special options c:#I haven't decided if I should make the end of the event an option that could be picked any time #Or a forced end like the start of the event #I'm open to opinions if you guys have preferences!!

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genekies · 5 months ago

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tag vent

#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas #and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when #we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates #just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night #ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me #ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but #she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening #he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by #people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again #i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends #and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer #than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they #helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that #they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient #im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk #tag vent #vent in tags

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mwagneto · 11 months ago

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any time i remember time lord victorious arc i start shaking like a sick fucking dog

#having an extraordinarily hard time watching waters of mars rn literally episode of all fucking time #they dont make them like this anyMOOOOOOOOOORE OHHMY GODDDD #icould talk abt it for hours istg it's so. grips you shakes you shakes you shakes you shakes you sh #the WAYYDYDYDHDHDJDJDJDUJDJDHDJDUDJD THHHEEEE THE THE THE . HTHHEHEH #the way u can see glimpses of what's to come in all 4 seasons but especially in voyage of the #damned and then s4 onwards but u dont realise JUST how much he went insane until now #like there's echoes of this in votd but you might not even pick up on it if you dont Know #n here he's just fully gone it's sooo. IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO. CHARACTER OF ALL TIME #man so profoundly tragic his entire story is abt speedrunning losing everything and #going insane and dying. and yet he still spends like 20 entire minutes crying and begging not to die. okay #i cant rank drs they're my best friends so idk who my fave dr is but 10's is easily my favourite story it's so. it's SOOO.#anyway sorry. stops shaking you and pats your arms down awkwardly. carry on #doctor who #dw lb #10th doctor #the waters of mars #time lord victorious #i was today years old when i learned there's apparently a whole audio series about it that #came out in the past few years. well i aint listenin to that. everything i need is on my screen already #also. the way most ppl havent even seen these specials coz they're impossible to find online..#even tho waters of mars is like. not just extremely important but also yknow. extremely good

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thevioletcaptain · 5 months ago

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#I hadn’t posted about this but last night I found out that my cousin’s kid had gone missing while travelling with friends in Barcelona #they’d lost contact with him 24 hours earlier #and couldn’t find him anywhere #and my mum was with my cousin at the police station for a few hours while they launched an investigation #that basically went from the Victoria police > Australian federal police > interpol > Barcelona police #nobody had any idea where he was and it was genuinely terrifying #anyway I just woke up to a message from mum #saying that they found him and he was okay #his phone and wallet had been stolen #and the poor kid had been wandering around Barcelona for almost two full days trying to find the airbnb #what a massive relief #we were all so worried about him #I guess he was initially a little drunk and shaken up by having his stuff stolen #so didn’t think to wait in the last place he’s seen his friends #and by the time he sobered up he was dehydrated and exhausted and hungry so wasn’t thinking any clearer #especially seeing as it’s been pretty hot there #anyway let this be a psa reminder that if you’re visiting a country where you don’t speak the language #ALWAYS make sure you have a planned meeting point that you know how to find #in case you get into a situation like this #and at the very least learn how to ask for help in the language the locals speak #god he’s so lucky he didn’t end up passed out from heat stroke #or worse

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tamagotchikgs · 3 months ago

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my mom keeps listing off things i need to do and accusatorily asking why i never do anything like art anymore n i am just. so exhausted. ive never been more tired i just want to burrow myself in the earth n disappear in the cold dirt

#i dont have energy for art and i honestly never have #ive never been creative #drawing sucks everything out of me and it takes me hours what it does other people a few minutes #i wasnt built for it either maybe #everything about living is so difficult for me #i cant even b loose and doodle #it doesnt happen #how can i think i was made to live when i cant even make art #silly joyful moments everyone else can #nothing feels good to me #except being with my boyfriend #im scared im gonna ruin everything #if not already w the way i look #then with how useless n empty n just snapping at everything to go away i get when im lost those bad things #ive never felt safe with anyone before so maybe itll be different but still im Scared #& on my own . its always the same its always tainted w that ache that dirty stain on everything that hits like nails being driven into me #i cant go shopping #i cant listen to music #i cant feel the sun on me or listen to birds #i cant look at water #i cant go grocery shopping #i cant even hear the sound of metal cutlery #only 1 second and im gone #lost in the agony n dizziness #i want to think i can escape it i can get better #but i dont know if i can #or how much false hope i can keep forcing myself through #it always comes back to me #no matter how much i hide n avoid it all #because im the problem

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT.#anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure.#and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone.#i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:((#honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug.#im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

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randomactsofpigeon · 5 months ago

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I will not call out the contracts person for being a self-righteous cunt in an email. I will not call out the contracts person for being a self-righteous cunt in an email. I will not call out the contracts person...

#not me doing five things at once all week so i can leave for THREE FREAKING DAYS to attend my grandfather's funeral out of state #without anything exploding while I'm gone #sorry you asshole I didn't have a few spare hours to process your 20 page process document on top of everything else #can you please just tell me what the eff you want changed in the dra without copying a bunch of coworkers #snidely pointing out that you 'helpfully' sent the process document #I've had a moment every fucking day this week where I want to walk out without notice but this is the first time it's happened at 7:00 a.m.

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stellewriites · 2 months ago

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fuck me.. work tonight was so draining like i suddenly remember why i moved into admin a few years ago now. let me never complain about my job again

#covering youth sessions ages me ten years every time #these 16something lads will continually condescend to me but i’m nothing if not sarcastic and stubborn - i WILL get that apology from them #lmaoooo #im exhausted but it wasn’t half bad overall tbh im just out of practice for youth work #it’s been years but the groups i used to have when i started were so much ‘worse’ behaved than these lot #they were just rowdy and hungry and petty #which yeah checks out 100000% for teen boys #stelle yaps #the group i’ve had for the last few years as i’ve gone into admin were so easy in that they were polite and mature - but the other #issues i was helping them with regarding da and healthy relationships #we’re not so easy but still it’s a totally different kettle of fish to what tonight was like #fucking food thrown all over 😭😭 like what a waste and kicking at the doors and the windows and shit #ugh anyway vent over it was fine and tomorrow im doing three hours of work before im off on holiday for a week!#also i should add it was a 12 hour work day today… like they couldn’t have picked a worse day for me 🙃

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carsickcrow · 10 days ago

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death at the movies by car seat headrest is one of the songs ever to me.

#every time i listen to it i’m like. this is it. this is The Song.#but i think i just like movies.#“it’s hard to adjust your eyes after the matinee. from the womb of the theater to the light of day”#hell yeah it is #“the spirits did it all in an hour and a half. bring me to pain. bring me to relief. turn off my brain. suspend my disbelief”#“there’s a wonderful line I can’t remember. i can’t rewind so i better remember”#“i must be saved. i must be saved before the end”#“the hero stands up and the blood rushes out of his head. but you can still see him breathing after he’s dead. and after the soul is gone #his body’s back to himself. and you’ll say ‘oh who is he? i’ve seen him in something else’”#“and so I pray to the movie screen that i’ll be shown something i’ve never seen. a revelation i can sense it but this part don’t make any #sense yet. if heaven is a film that never ends. and the characters are all my friends. or is that what we call a tv show?#or is that the real life that we’re living now?”#“could’ve been better. had such potential. could've been better. had such potential.”#i was planning on quoting just a few of my favorite lyrics but this is most of the song. so #remy rambles #car seat headrest

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thornybubbles · 2 years ago

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Silly thought... weirdness incoming...

Can you imagine if vlogging was somehow a thing in the late 80s? What if Kakyoin vlogged all the time during Stardust Crusaders? Kakyoin's holding a giant ass camcorder filming as The Sun Stand rains fireballs down on them while they're hiding in a pitiful little hovel:

Kakyoin: "Hey guys! Welcome to another episode of Shit I Didn't Expect to See Today..."

Everybody else: *groans*

Joseph: "KAKYOIN, IS THIS REALLY THE TIME FOR THAT?!"

Kakyoin: *focuses the camera on the annoyed, sweaty old man who's trying not to panic while it sounds like the world is ending just outside*

"Yes."

You can't tell me he wouldn't be THAT kind of vlogger.

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 6 months ago

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they call me the griever because halfway through a thing I enjoy I’m already sad that it’s closer to being over

#blue chatter #trying to work on not doing this #and just enjoying the thing in the moment #this happens to me a lot with school breaks and such #like ‘oh I love being on spring break but I’m sad bc I’m already 3 days in’#‘oh I love summer vacation so far it’s too bad it’s already a month over’#and I’m like NO!!!!! blue!!!!!!!! you’re missing the point!!!!!!!!#you have the joy *right now* and you are SPOILING IT bc you’re too busy looking ahead to when it will be gone!!!!!!!!!#it happens with friend visits a lot. it’s less bad now but it still happens.#like. the first time I visited friends over spring break I woke up in the early morning of the last morning and just cried #because I only had a few hours left before I had to get on the plane home #and I start hurriedly stuffing seconds and minutes into my mouth and refusing to swallow #because maybe if I just cling extra hard then the time won’t pass-#but it does pass. and that’s okay. and I know that’s okay because life had more joyful things after that moment #had I stayed there on that day I would have been frozen as a much more miserable person #my friends themselves would have been very different people #I mean. fuck. between then and now two of us figured out our genders. both of them got married. they moved somewhere else now.#there’s a lot of little joys that got left behind there. a church they loved. a local park. mountains and windy streets.#but I wouldn’t hold ourselves there. which I try to remind myself when I start crying about lost time again #because yeah. this will end someday. human lifespans aren’t infinite.#but the future is full of life I still have to live. there’s no saying that I can’t have good things again.#and this period of my life is rapidly rushing towards a much more uncertain future and I know that and it’s scary #I know I have about 11 months to make several very adult decisions that will determine a lot of my future #but no matter what I choose this period of my life is not wasted #and I don’t need to hurriedly optimize every second and mourn losing them #and I know that. and I still feel sad and mourny. but that might be more indicative that I’m hungry or smth.

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