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Noah fence but I do get very 😬 when I see BotW Zelda. It’s so rough. Her design is so so so rough. I hate her giant eyes she’s like if a baikal seal was an anime girl. Which I know sounds like a neutral comment from know seal lover Sylvia, but she’s just so lame and weird looking. I love her deeply and I really like her characterization. But some of the most cringe fail character design I’ve ever seen.
#I LOVE HER I DO I DO I PROMISE.#But like I draw my silly little Zelda design or look at Twilight Princess and it’s like “Wow she’s so striking and dynamic”#But BotW Zelda is like a wet rag.#But I’ll never dislike her design as much as I HATE LINK’S STUPID OUTFIT#GODDDDD I HATE THAT LAME BLUE SHIRT IDC IF IT HAS LIKE A STORY EXPLANATION BAD CHARACTER DESIGN IS BAD CHARACTER DESIGN.#ophidian lore
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*Talia visiting Damian*
Talia: Damian, how are you? *glares at Dick*
Damian: I am doing well mother
Dick: *from behind him* *mouthing: why the fuck are you here?*
Talia: oh that's great! I see you have a new pet? *Mouthing back: to see MY son*
Damian: this is Haley, Grayson's dog, she's staying with me while he goes on a mission.
Dick: *flipping Talia off where Damian can't see* yep, he's so good with animals
Talia: I'm aware *throws a knife at him*
Dick: *throws it back*
#Dick hates Talia its so funny that he loves damian so much#dick grayson#nightwing#talia al ghul#damian wayne#robin#batman#dc comics#comics#damian knows what their doing but hes not touching that drama for anything#they have beef spanning decades bruce can deal with it#bruce: *walks in* *sees Dick and Talia in the same room* *walks out*#bruce wayne#incorect quote#incorect batfam#batfam#batfamily#dicks beef is canon btw. he hates her and ras. he is brutalias number one hater he wants her out of their lives#i saw a compilation of dick hating talia and i was like `its so funny that he loves damian when he lothes talia`#they promised not to fight in front of Damian.... they never agreed to not fight behind or over him
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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"
like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.
"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."
... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.
and i'd still keep writing.
i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.
i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley
"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"
and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.
it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.
you create because you're greedy.
#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME#there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing#and the writing is what i need to be doing#writeblr#this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to#edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol#i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means#i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong#i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse#i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO#i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness#and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it#im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us#i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer#and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work#even if it means being miserable#but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.
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Book 2 au doodles
It's just a bunch of random moments with Zuko looking grumpy for most of them,,, he can be happy for at least one drawing tho
#zutara#zuko#katara#atla#book 2 au#my art#chibi zuko looks pretty happy too#more like pleased with himself actually aludksjdkks#i didn't really mean to draw him looking so grumpy aoidksksk#but grumpy expression fun to draw#grumpy pouty zuko kinda cute too#i love short hair katara but i didn't really get to draw her with her long hair much in this au#so i sketch up two kataras with long hair#but neither of them have her hair properly fixed qldjksjdksk#anyways here's my monthly art post before i disappear again :'>>#i am currently on break rn so i wanna try to be a bit mpre active#no promises tho cause i still have shit i need to do :'>>>
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i love the DLC man
#elden ring#miquella the unalloyed#promised consort radahn#I’ve been thinking about how despite all the talk of age of compassion… Miquella’s first spell as a god is an offensive incantation#with a wide af damage radius 💀💀💀#meanwhile Marika who built her age upon violence… her spells are all healing and defense buffs#and her first spell as a God is a little tree that heals a wide area#she was still trying to heal her ppl to the bitter end AND gunning for revenge. there’s a kind of heartbreaking honesty to it#the cruel irony in the DLC story is crazy#really show how badly Miq had strayed from his original path after forsaking Trina#then that meme pops in my head ajshsjhsjhs#now i do think the vow is two-way btw Radahn just got cold feet near the end#the only thing i dont like about the DLC is i cant draw jokes without explaining I LOVE THESE CHARACTERS i think their actions are valid !!#like having to pull up a whole lore presentation slide for this#yes i think it's funny as hell that Miq did show Radahn why he should not fuck around and find out
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Aaanywayss here’s a redraw of my favorite scene from Goncharov 1973
#TikTok can’t compare to gonch#anyways the fact that gonch genuinely thiught she wouldnt shoot#and the fact they had an intentional shot of Katya doing her aiming face#showing her aiming for his shoulder#so he wouldn’t die OR so he would die slowly#either way within Sofia’s promise of not killing#but sofia expecting her last kill to be gonch#AND the fact andrey will be the one to finish the job#therefore his death being a job between his two closest people#crazy#GONCHAROV FOR LYFE!!#IM A LIL sloshed rn but even unsober I will#always love gonch#art#fanart#digital art#fan art#my art#Goncharov#goncharov fanart#katya goncharov#sofia goncharov#tw shooting#cw shooting#shooting#goncharov 1973#unreality
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Don't Wormy About Me.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#yu ziyuan#Please allow me to make it clear how important I think the hug between YZY and JC is in regards to several aspects of their characters#For one - it is the resolution and reveal that behind all the harsh words and bitterness...She really did love her son.#A hug is a soft gesture that you would never expect from someone like YZY and the fact she shows JC this affection now -#-Tells us how she knows that this upcoming battle is a death sentence for her.#Her giving away Zidan is honestly overkill but another sign of her truly showing him how she loves him and wants him to survive.#The dread of knowing she's walking back to a fight without zidian and trying to keep up brave face one last time...chilling.#Zidian represents legacy and promises. And this is going to both save and destroy Jiang Cheng as he carries this weight alone.#Heartbreaking stuff! Didn't draw it in the comic because I wanted to draw a silly worm on a string!#WWX tried to help JC out of the knot but got stuck in it.#Those worm on a string tricks are harder than they look!#Also; it's been about a year since the last boat joke - but indeed this is the 11th boat of pd-mdzs. No need to do the math.
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first project of the new year? committing to willow creek with the help of @inspiredsimmerx's fantastic builds and a familiar broke build
#ts4#anything for brandi broke ANYTHING FOR BRANDI BROKE#not a trailer just a low income home babey its comfortable its carpeted the kitchen is pink lets GO#you know i'm going to end up doing rotational gp i must follow the stream... i must love all over my ts2 babies#dont ask why gen1 will have pleasantview and gen2 will have strangetown like they didnt exist at the same time dont WORRY ABT IT I PROMISE#dallas is going to run rampant thru the women of pleasantview lets go baby#i really really hope you all had a fantastic new years!!#i work today and then i am OFF for the next two days!!#these builds have helped me curate a vision so much faster than usual dmfhdfjk i'm such a fool for never using others' builds and being#soooo oooooo o o o o ooo micromanagey#it looks fantastic the houses look GORGEOUSSSS and they only made my fudgy ass building skills look better im love#brandi has always loved flower arranging when i play ts2 sooo she's very proud of her tulips and her yard ok#what tf else do u do after your husband drowns in a 2x2 pool and all your kids look like him
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Okay so with the line "the olive tree where we first met" we have two equal hilarious options.
When penelope was sassily like oh I'll marry you if you make a living bed out of this tree right here! Cue penelope stumbling over odysseus very very carefully digging up the tree "because how else is he going to get it to itacha we can't have a wedding bed out in the open in sparta duh"
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2. Penelope, knowing that Helen's suitors would soon be arriving to take over her home for a while. Snuck out and went on her own wacky shenanigan filled journey where she scoped out all the major players. Odysseus caught her spying in an olive tree. And when she got back she told Helen she had dibs on the cutie from itacha.
#epic the musical#epic spoilers#Itacha saga#penelope#Odysseus#Odypen#odysseus x penelope#Young odypen courting was filled with wacky nonsense basically canon confrimed#The line “....where we first met” implying that they first met under that specific olive tree#Which has to have some absolutely insane logistics that only odypen (and maybe Athena) could pull off#Odypen being 🥰 🤝 rat bastards in love#Option one odysseus Athena please please please helpppp me pen said she'd only marry me if I made a wedding bed out of this tree#Athena: once again I think you are praying to the wrong person but fuck it how do you think you're going to keep that tree alive#Odysseus: ....a large bucket?#Athena gimme a sec okay I need to go have ares bash my skull in before I watch something this stupid#Athena: checking in on penelope her chosen weaver only for her to be pulling her hair out#Penelope (to her cousins): why did I fucking say that! Beating fathers already an impossible challenge why did I say that#He's going to think I was making fun of him! He's not going to want to marry me now!#Helen: weren't you? Making fun of him?#Penelope: That's not the point!#clytemnestra: Hey he's digging the tree up and has the biggest bucket I've ever seen#Penelope: what?! Trips over every item in the room and gets tangled in her curtains blushing like crazy#Athena: ....it's been a while since I checked up on diomedes training. He'd never put me through this nonsense#Option 2#Helen's maybe a little nervous and wants to know more about who she has to potentially marry and penelope promises her she'll get rundown#Helen did not expect penelope to disappear but she probably should have....it'll probably be fine. Right?#Some kings penlope just straight up greets some she stays hidden and spies#Odysseus is the only one who catches her (he trains woth Athena in the olive Grove#She was not happy when odysseus nearly tripped onto her spear point face first when he saw the strange pretty girl)#And odysseus who's been king for a few years now knows every lady's face because he'll probably have to marry one of them someday
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BEAR SEVIKA BEAR SEVIKA BEAR SEVIKA BEAR SEVIKA BEAR SEVIKA BEAR SEVIKA. SEVIKA WITH BROWN BEAR EARS AND BROWN BEAR TAIL GRHRGRYRYRH
bears are one of my favorite animals :3
Men DNI
#sorry if this isnt maybe what you wanted 😭#kinda rushed and I didn’t know what to do for her BUTTT i will be coming back to bear sev .#Maybe#Hairier#more bearish yknow#This is more like she just put on a silly lil headband and mittens :3#sevika#arcane#my art#fanart#arcane league of lesbians#lesbian#wlw#LESBIAM BEAR !#i will draw her more#promise#she is my baby precious princess teddy bear#mwah mwah meah#mWHA#💋💋💋💋💋#i love her dearly can u tell
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Finally got around to painting my Inquisitor, Shivana
#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#lavellan#shivana lavellan#my art#dragon age fanart#I think I’m finally happy with my digital art making skills#I need to post literally anything other than portraits I promise I can do more#but#at least I’m posting two things in the same month that’s progress#dai#she’s such a problem I love her#hopefully tumblr didn’t just destroy this#I don’t know how to technology help#:) this is fine#she’s a knight enchanter btw#da: inquisitor#da:i
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okay here's part 3! (still no dinner scene sorry, but we're slowly getting there!) (this is a long one heads up)
the post/thread that started this whole au
dinner scene: part 1 | part 2 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7 | part 8
there's a masterlist now!
*back at the palace*
penelope: i wonder how it went…
penelope: *starts walking toward the entrance for the palace gardens*
penelope: *notices odysseus running through the gardens towards the very same entrance*
penelope: *was concerned until she could clearly see a joyful look on her husband’s face*
odysseus: *sees penelope and heads towards her*
penelope: *notices and opens her arms for an embrace*
odysseus: *grabs penelope by the waist and twirls her around in the air* good morning wife, did you miss me?
penelope: *holding onto odysseus’ shoulders laughing*
penelope: good morning husband *leans down to kiss odysseus*
penelope: *looks him in the eyes with a smile* more than you know.
odysseus: *smiles back with eyes full of adoration*
odysseus: *goes in for another kiss*
*a while later after many more morning kisses between the two*
*penelope & odysseus now walking arm in arm back into the palace*
penelope: so, i’m assuming by the look i saw on your face, your friend agreed to dinner?
odysseus: uh yeah, surprisingly he did. no forcing or threats needed.
penelope: *hums and holds a finger to her chin in slight thought*
odysseus: *wondering what she’s thinking of* penelope?
penelope: *giggles and looks at odysseus* maybe you’re already more friends than you thought?
odysseus: *blinks repeatedly and then shakes his head*
odysseus: my love, trust me… the god of the seas and i are not friends
odysseus: *looks down in thought* after everything that’s happened, i don’t think we could ever be
penelope: *stops walking and turns to odysseus who has also stopped walking*
penelope: *holds her hand to odysseus’ cheek* i thought you said after all these incidents on the sailing trips with our son, that you had put that behind you?
odysseus: *leans into her hand and reaches to hold it with his own*
odysseus: *sighs* i- i have. i admit that while it’s a lot of fun being able to mess with him… all that anger & resentment i held has left me.
penelope: *gives a small smile*
penelope: how do you know that lord poseidon hasn’t too? maybe he’s learnt to forgive?
odysseus: *thinks back to the moment he held his hand out to poseidon while on his raft, asking him the same question*
odysseus: … *blinks the memory away*
odysseus: yeah… i don’t think so, i tried that once already…
odysseus: *grabs both penelope’s hands* anyway! that doesn’t matter-
odysseus: *lets go of her hands and once again links his arm with hers* what matters is… what the cooks have planned for breakfast!
penelope: *letting the subject drop for now*
penelope: *smiles* i don’t know about breakfast… but i’m sure that after you and our son’s fishing trip, i would say fish is the plan again for lunch *laughs*
odysseus: *laughs with her* yes, we certainly brought enough back.
odysseus: though speaking of our son. just how excited do you think he’ll be when i tell him the good news?
penelope: oh, i am sure he’ll be delighted! why don’t you go wake him for breakfast and let him know?
penelope: *unlinks their arms, turns and gives odysseus another quick kiss* i shall see you soon my dear husband
odysseus: yes soon, my lovely wife *watches her go down the hall until she out of sight*
odysseus: *turns to head the way to his son’s bedroom*
*odysseus arrives at the door leading to telemachus’ room*
odysseus: *knocks on the door*
odysseus: telemachus? are you awake yet?
*after hearing no response & no noise to signal movement*
odysseus: *gently opens the door and heads inside*
odysseus: *looks across the room to the bed and sees his son still fast asleep*
odysseus: *makes his way over, while looking at the walls covered tapestries of monsters, -also seeing ones he himself has faced- all slightly starting to fray from the years they’ve been hanging there*
odysseus: *sees the newest tapestry above telemachus’ bed -one he knows that penelope and athena had weaved together- the tapestry of him, penelope & telemachus also including a owl sitting on telemachus’ shoulder*
odysseus: *smiles* *gently sits down on the edge of his son’s bed*
odysseus: *reaches his hand out to stroke telemachus’ hair, like he would do when he was just a baby*
odysseus: *in a soft voice* telemachus, son it’s time to wake up
telemachus: *makes a small groan at being woken up*
telemachus: *voice heavy with sleep* father?
odysseus: *pulls his hand back & chuckles to himself at his son’s sleepy confusion* yes, it’s me, did you sleep well?
telemachus: *now slightly more awake* yeah, i dreamt of the dolphins we saw a while ago-
telemachus: *sleepiness long gone and now slightly excited* -did you manage to speak to lord poseidon?!
odysseus: *smiling at his son’s excitement* i did indeed
telemachus: annnnnd?
odysseus: he will be at dinner tomorrow
telemachus: *leaps forward at his father and hugs him* yes! thank you for asking him!
odysseus: *hugs his son back* i promised i would didn’t i?
telemachus: *lets his father go and gets ready to get of bed* i need to start planning for tomorrow-
odysseus: *laughs and stops his son from running off* yes you can, but later. first you need to wash yourself up and get down to dining hall
telemachus: how come?
odysseus: it’s morning remember? the cooks have made us breakfast and your mother is waiting for us to join her
telemachus: oh yeah! that makes sense.
telemachus: *gets out of bed more calmly* okay well i’ll wash up quick and be there shortly
odysseus: okay i’ll see you there *watches his son leave*
odysseus: *to himself* i guess i’d better make my way there mysel-
*a small breeze hits him and then a soft hoot of an owl sounds out*
odysseus: *turns to see athena in owl form sitting on the perch by the balcony, that odysseus had made for telemachus’ room*
odysseus: *hands on hips* so how come when i was young, you had me up for training everyday before sunrise, yet my son gets to lay in?
athena: *turns back into her normal appearance* good morning to you too odysseus
odysseus: don’t change the subject ‘thena
athena: *shrugs* what can i say? times have changed
odysseus: *drops his arms and laughs*
odysseus: *looks back to the (family photo) tapestry* indeed they have
odysseus: *looks back to athena* so, breakfast?
athena: *smiles* let’s go.. my friend
odysseus: *smiles back and then heads out telemachus’ room with athena*
#odysseus & athena: *on their way to breakfast together*#odysseus: so when do you train telemachus then?#athena: when telemachus asks me for a training session#odysseus: *under his breath* favouritism.#athena: what was that?#odysseus: what was what?#athena: *has a glint in her eye* oh odysseus! if you’re worried about early dawn training so much#athena: then i won’t hesitate to once again start dragging you out of bed for it#odysseus: NO- *coughs* i mean… that won’t be needed! i don’t want to take away any potential training time from my son#athena: *smirks* ah! such a shame#odysseus: yep.. a shame- oh look penelope!#odysseus: *runs to the safety of his wife*#man that was a long one#me: *looks at the long odypen segment* *points at a smooching odypen* they're in love your honour#ok im not gonna promise the next part will be the dinner scene#but I WILL TRY to for it to be the dinner scene#epic the musical#odysseus epic#odysseus#penelope epic the musical#odypen#telemachus epic#telemachus epic the musical#telemachus#athena#athena epic#epic: the musical#friends in higher places au?#ongoing#nonsense thoughts
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thinking about how mulder loves to get scully a gift, usually terribly heartfelt, even if disguised as something flippant:
the superbowl vhs tape he brings her when she wakes up from her coma in one breath (and her deadpan "i knew there was a reason to live")
tickets for a football game to watch together in irresistible
bringing her flowers to the hospital in memento mori (he lies, saying he stole them from a guy with broken legs to make her laugh)
the birthday keychain in tempus fugit (and when she finds a meaning to it, he claims "i just thought it was a pretty cool keychain")
that is a man who is always thinking about her.
#you can just picture him at the store thinking “oh boy she's gonna love this :)”#i think the superbowl vhs one chokes me up the most because he's trying so hard to play it cool when he had just lost her#and he needs to break the ice somehow because he hates to put those big feelings into words#he's more into saying what he means with touch and subtext#it's as if he needed SOMETHING off of the shelf at the store to say “i'm glad you're back. i missed you. i hope you're well”#so he goes with a dumbass VHS she is never going to watch. just to see her recognize his coded declaration of love.#and that exhausted smile she reserves for his antics#and it makes me tear up! still! thinking about it!#i know love languages are problematic but i do think there is something underrated about giving gifts as an act of love#of having your thoughts for someone being represented with a physical object. making that love tangible. you can touch it.#(it works very well on me because i tend to assume if you're out of sight you're not thinking about me)#(so looking at a little trinket someone gave me is like oh!!! they actually are thinking about me often. enough to find this Thing)#anyway. that is my emotional ramble for the evening. please enjoy#AND DISCLAIMER: i am sure there are other examples of him giving gifts i forgot and that there are more yet to come#but as a reminder i have only seen up to s5 ep 3 so! pls no spoilers even if i do tag this for the general public#okay promise? promise no spoilers in the tags? thank youuuuu mwah#the x files#txf#msr#fox mulder
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Millymeryl eheh :)
Just one more.
#WELL LOOK AT WHAT THE CAT BROUGHT IN 🗣️#LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO#It was about time I did something properly just for them#I should start doing better and draw them more often. Though no promises#To me in my head they are both bi. but at the same time. LESBIANS.#they are so sweet i love them sm#clingy Milly wanting just one more kissy pretty please :(#clingy but space aware Meryl knowing it's not going to be “just one more” if she gives in#however she makes it up to her when they are in the comfort of Meryl's place. oh and you bet they made up real good for it alright#oh man I love women. so much. wlw my beloved#trigun#trigun fanart#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#millymeryl#lenssi draws
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sorry but do you ever think about the fact that the bernard we have today is a direct amalgamation of everything that happened in his past and i know that sound like such an obvious statement to say but it actually kills me to know that you can draw a direct line from who he is today all the way back to that sixteen year old boy who watched his best friend bleed out. like it is the defining moment in his life. it fundamentally shaped who he is and the person he's become. he is the bernard we know and love not despite the grieves shooting but because of it. because the gangs all got together and shot up his school. because tim walked out of that room with nothing but a baseball bat. because his darla got shot. because he watched her gasp and cry as she died. because he watched the blood coagulate around the wound. because he sat there and held her hand as her life drained out of her. because he walked into school that day with a joke he knew would make her laugh and her nose would scrunch up and she'd snort a little and tim would roll his eyes at him and call him ridiculous and instead he walked out with a bloody white shirt, blood under his fingernails, and two friends less. because, even now, almost half a decade out from the shooting, he thinks that if he closes his eyes, he will always be that stupid, scared little sixteen year old, holding the cooling body of dead best friend.
#there is a direct throughline from the boy we meet in robin 121 all the way to man tim reconnects with in urban legends 4#like maybe you guys have other interpretations of it but to me this is *the* defining moment in his life#and that's not to say that he perpetually bound to this traumatic event but it impacted him sooo much that his life is now divided#before shooting and after shooting#like you cannot tell me him falling into the cult was just something that happened to him#it happened bc he was in such a bad place from watching his friend die and then on top of that he loses contact with tim!!!!#this is his canon event!!!!#if you took it away from him if you made it so that he never had to go through it#the bernard we would get would not be the same bernard we got in urb leg4 and tdr#does it not make you want to chew on drywall that to get to the bear we love he has watch his darla die first????#head in hands head in hands#and it wasnt like batman came immediately after darls died!!! iirc they had to wait a little before he came#which means!!!!! alll those kids but bear esp had to sit in that room with darls' dead body until batman came!!!!!#do you think he cried and held her hand until batman came??? do you think he begged her not to go??? or do you think he told her#stories and made promises of all the things they were gonna do after they got out??? do you think he put pressure on the wound and#watched as the blood soaked through the jacket they were using as a towel??? and when she finally passed do you think he bit his lip#clean through to stop himself from wailing? bc if he's too loud the gunmen will hear them and he cannot be the reason jay from#history dies#auuuugh i cant fucking do this anymore#bernard dowd#timbern#darla aquista#louis grieve trio
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more p5 text posts but it’s kind of just shuake and akechi
#guys i promise i care about all the pt…morgana + ann + ryuji + yusuke + makoto and#checks smudged writing on hand#hair oakland#KIDDING i love haru i actually got a pin of her recently :)#goro akechi#shuake#persona 5#persona 5 text posts#TS IS SO FUNNY LOOKING RN I COMPLETELY FORGOT FUTABA NOT ON PURPOSE OML#futaba im so sorry i love you so much. i actually do rlly like futaba bc she is kinda me lwk.#my personality is 1/3 futaba 1/3 makoto 1/3 akechi. basically.
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