#I Just Want to Feel SOMETHING [ ic ]

[redrobin-detective]

My favorite part of my Adventure Time binge is I pick what looks like the most silly episodic episode with a weird title and a plot that seems pretty open and shut and it goes in the most unexpectedly painful and lowkey horrifying direction that leaves me shook. I expected shenanigans and got an existential crisis instead.

[strryhaze]

bobby & david kennedy

“There was some level on which David tapped his father’s sensitivity. You would find him walking with David or with his arm around David. David just seemed to need it.”

— chuck mcdermott.

“If his father’s death hit David harder than the others, it was because there had been a special bond between them—both were the runts of the litter, sandwiched into the middle of a large family. He was the only one in the family who hadn’t been enthusiastic about the run for the presidency. For weeks after his father’s announcement, David had been plagued by recurring nightmares about Bobby’s death. Distraught over episodes that seemed premonitory, and missing the special attention his father had given him, David had gotten in trouble for throwing rocks at cars passing by Hickory Hill. The day of the California primary, he had joined his father in Los Angeles. The two of them had been swimming and he had felt himself being carried out by the undertow when his father grabbed him, scraping his own head on the ocean floor as he reached for David’s slippery arm. With a teenager’s melodrama, David had decided that he owed his father a life and would look for an opportunity to pay him back in the years ahead. That night as he sat in front of the television set in his room in the Ambassador Hotel and watched [his father] bleeding on the floor downstairs, one of the thoughts he had was that the debt would be forever undischarged.”

“As the worst year of their young lives came to a close, they decided to surprise their mother at Christmas with a book comprised of letters about their father. David’s said: ‘Daddy was very funny in church because he would embarrass all of us by singing very loud. Daddy did not have a very good voice. There will be no more football with Daddy, no more swimming with him, no more riding and no more camping with him. But he was the best father there ever was and I would rather have him for a father for the length of time I did than any other father for a million years.”

— the kennedy’s, peter collier & david horowitz.

“David looked at himself in those pictures like they were a strange sort of mirror. He looked at them half a dozen times at least, mesmerized by them, and he kept asking me questions. There was a tremendous desire to know his father, to really know him.”

— john seigenthaler.

“David and Bobby were so close. They were inseparable. David was small, a runt like Bobby had been.” Ethel then explained to Noelle (her secretary) that David had always been a very sensitive youngster, very introverted, "not like the other boys. He and I would go and pick flowers while his brothers were killing each other with their crazy games", Ethel recalled with a smile.

— ethel kennedy.

“I think about death a lot. Time hasn’t erased the death of my father from my mind. My family thinks I’m no good and that I’ll never beat my problem. They’ve written me off. I’m trying to get it together, but it’s so difficult. I’m having a terrible time at it. And the thing I want most in the world is the approval of my family, but they want nothing to do with me. All I want is to be with my father.”

— david kennedy, april 1984.

“Like his family, his friends had all wondered at one time or another if he would kill himself; but when it finally came his death was nonetheless shocking. ‘I keep asking myself why. Why David? Why now? All I can come up with is that maybe his father was looking down from heaven and saw all the hell these people were putting him through and said, ‘Come on, You’ve suffered enough. It’s time you were up here with me.’”

— nancy narleski.

Years after David Kennedy’s death, his cousin, Patrick Kennedy recalled a haunting and heartbreaking recollection he had with his father, Teddy, sitting beside his cousin’s casket: “My father remembered Bobby telling him that, as a father, he needed to spend more time with David. He also recounted a story Uncle Bobby had told him just before his own death. On the day before the California primary, the Robert Kennedys had gone swimming in Malibu, to relax together. David had been knocked over by a wave and got caught in the undertow, and his father had come to his rescue. When Uncle Bobby told my father this story, he talked about ‘the undertow’ in broader terms, how there was an undertow in life and David, who was only then thirteen, already seemed vulnerable to it. And then, just hours later, Uncle Bobby was murdered as David watched the TV coverage in their hotel room upstairs. It was unbelievably poignant to hear my father tell this story. David was in the casket next to us. And I wasn’t that much older than David when his father worried whether he could survive the undertow.”

[badninken]

Law vs Blackbeard reaction 4 of 4

Like I said in the first of these posts, I already knew that Law would get defeated in this fight and that the Polar Tang would get destroyed. Some things are just impossible to avoid seeing. I'm glad I was prepared so I wouldn't have to take that emotional hit. Turns out there were even bigger emotions waiting.

So Law is on the ground bleeding, clearly having been through a long difficult fight, not having any more to give. I was very satisfied to see that Blackbeard seemed to be worn out and in pain too and that Law didn't go out easy. But we learn that his ship has been sunk and his crew is scattered, dying or already dead.

But Bepo is nearby.

And of course I start to cry immediately. I can't take Bepo laying well out of reach, desperate to save his captain but barely being able to move. All while a pack of genuinely horrifying men are about to kill Law and take his powers.

And then there's a flashback of Chopper giving Bepo a mysterious bag of medicine and my heart rate picks up so fast. I felt robbed of Sulong-Bepo in Wano when all the other minks got to transform but this, this was certainly the time to save that moment for.

I get shivers just looking at this screenshot. I can't properly explain how intensely I silent-screamed my way through this entire scene.

FERAL BEPO!!!!!!!

KICKING BLACKBEARD'S UGLY ASS!!!!

Until he's all out of feral T__T

But he's not out of regular Bepo love and ohmygoddddd he's such a hero >__< So he manages to grab his captain and his sword and escapes out into the ocean with Law on his back.

Law who tells him to go back again, because of the crew.

Because Law can't leave his friends behind.

And this is where I start clawing at my own face because of course he can't! He loves his friends! He cares about them so so much he'd die for each and every one of them, even the ones he doesn't know very well, and it's been kinda obvious since way back, even though the very word friend seems to offend him. Except now he's using it so easy and I'm chewing on electrical chords.

Law says to go back for the crew, but Bepo says: "No I won't! Trust them, Captain! From the extremely cold port of the north till now… we've always survived! So… none of us will die here! We've overcome so much together! So, Captain! Don't die!"

And then they get swept under the surface

And I'm crying my fucking eyes out because BEPO and because the North Blue and the significance of the day and the place where they met and all the things they've been through since then, and their ship and BEPO!

And all that hit me a lot harder than I thought it would, considering I knew what would happen. I didn't know about the Bepo rescue and the whole fiercely protective polar bear friend hit me right in the childhood.

So I went to get Vitis, my own protective polar bear:

Since I've brought him up several times I felt I should introduce him properly. I also really needed a polar bear hug after that episode <3

Now I will calm down, have some tea, process all of this and eventually write some kind of wrap-up post about my overall One Piece experience. It has been intense.

[pumpkinrootbeer]

I loved the vibe mikko brought specifically bc he's such a good player but the first thing people always mention about him is that he's nice. he's a hard worker, he's talented, but above all, he's friendly. He's kind. in the rise of mikko rantanen video Keefer talks about how Mikko is a star player but more than that his personality is great, he's fun. The journalists that work with the team gave him a homemade aware for putting up with them, and he immediately smiled and said, "No bitching, eh?" the videos where he gives that little kid a puck and then when she comes back to another game he gives her a stick... and the one where he trades a stick for finish candy and the more recent one where he signs a stick for a kid saying his new year resolution was to get a stick from mikko (spelled mico I love kids omg 😭😭 so cute) And I might have hallucinated this one but I swear there was a video where Cale got asked to describe Mikko in one word and his first answer was "nice". Almost every avs beat reporter and commentator made a post explaining how great of a guy he was, and how said they were to see him go. Even Cmac when explaining why they willingly gave up on him and traded him away stressed that Mikko was a wonderful person. Former teammates have come out to talk about how amazing he is, EJ reached out to people at the Canes to talk about how phenomenal he is as a player and a teammate. like. he's a huge sweetheart. i love him. Literally a once in a lifetime kind of player.

[plusultraetc]

Have you published this yet? 😭 i NEED IT

I have not, I'm so sorry 😭 I am a very slow writer and fake dating real feelings turned into a longer fic than I anticipated!! I do have a tag for it now where I post snippets, and here's some more of The Phone Call as an apology for how long this dang fic is taking (little language warning for anyone who needs it!):

[rickybaby]

thinking a little more positively about after f1 — what do you think he’ll move onto? do you think he’ll stay a public figure, or will he take the route of a quiet life? and, what would you like to see him do in the future?

I think he’s going to take a long long long time for himself before he even thinks about what he wants to do. And I love that for him.

I wouldn’t be surprised if, after all that’s happened, he decides to withdraw completely from public life. As a fan, I will simply be glad to have what and when he decides to share anything with us

[favorite-lie]

recent art

[angelmush]

went to the state fair yesterday and tried so so much good food !!! my favorite things were the pickle lemonade (literally my favorite drink ever since i first tried it a couple weeks ago) and the fried pickles and the roasted corn. feeling like a true midwesterner after that :-)

[ratatatastic]

local man haunts (me) open practise yet again more news at 11

[agoldengalaxy]

since it seems I’m one of like 3 people that like minsc/jaheira, let me see if I can recruit more to my cause:

- while he was trapped in stone, jaheira visited him all the time, openly weeping and speaking to him

- even while under the tadpole’s control, minsc only listened to “jaheira”

- when minsc thought “jaheira” died, he was inconsolably angry

- jaheira was willing to risk EVERYTHING to get minsc back. nothing mattered to her more. she threatened the emperor - and the rest of your party for that matter - and screamed “help my friend!”

- when jaheira talked about how she had to leave him behind, she explained it was the logical thing to do…but she said she hated herself for it because minsc never would have left her, ever

- minsc referred to her as his wychlaran - a wise woman of rasheman, bonded to a berserker bodyguard for life. there is no higher title or deeper bond in all of rashemaar custom

- jaheira disagreed with this, to which he said “the title matters not. only this: when minsc does as minsc does, and charges in to make a mess, jaheira does as jaheira does, and saves us all anyway”

- minsc knows her children and they know him

- jaheira smiles the most around him

- they love each other

[carmenpeach]

had this moment yesterday of "what am i gonna do, go take ceramic classes and do what i enjoy in life that makes me happy instead of being useful?" and it was this 💡 of like. thats probably something to strive for. to not be miserible.

[gothsuguru]

personal rant incoming bc i yap like it’s no one’s business

[yaoiconnoisseur]

Let’s get to know each other, Yūri~

[lovesick-x-prince]

Hello, can I have a reassurance that NFLY Scarian end up happy? 🥹

-🍨

I will say, that I had to go back and finally remove the "time travel fix-it" tag because I had a few people (rightfully) point out to me in the comments that NFLY can't be considered a fix-it. I am not sure why I used that tag in the first place. I was in a silly, goofy mood. Regarding the ending of NFLY, I won't say much because of spoilers. If you'd rather know nothing at all, not even a vague hint, don't read the next paragraph. All I will say is that I'm not a fan of... needlessly tragic, angsty endings? I think that's a good way to put it. I read a fic once when at the end, one of the main characters straight up died after they spent the entire time trying to get back to each other, and then the story just ended like that. Nothing else happened. Story done. I was flabbergasted! A little voice in my head went, "what was the point of everything they went through? What was the point of this story?" So take that as you will.

[noodelnoodelapplestrudel]

accidentally making your 6’4 30something military grunt of a boyfriend addicted to dress to impress on roblox 🤭 he’s seen you playing it before and made a grumbly comment or two about it being “a game for snot nose ipad babies with lousy parents” which is kinda true but also,,, it’s fun and he’s just being mean because your attention isn’t on him 🥺

but really, there’s nothing you love more than coming home after a stressful day at work, pouring a generous glass of wine, and playing a few (16) rounds of the silly game! picking out fun little outfits and finding the perfect hair and makeup to tie everything together (just to get placed 6th behind a 12 year old who doesn’t even dress according to the theme and just presses pose 28 a bajillion times on the runway)

finally after the third or fourth sassy remark from your grumpy old boyfriend, you decide he needs to actually play the game so he can see the hype. you expected he would watch you play a round or two, get bored and make you turn it off before even giving the game a chance. which is exactly what happened… but, he gets bored when your at work and he’s on leave,, so one day he decides to log on your computer and just give it a try, what’s the harm right?!?

a few weeks after you showed him the game and it completely backfired (or so you thought) you get home from work and are greeted with a dark and quiet house and no boyfriend in sight. after you take off your shoes and hang up your coat and bag, you hear a few low rumbles coming from upstairs, followed by some aggressive clicking and,,, a familiar catchy song,,, wait, is that the dti music?? you tiptoe up the stairs and peek into the dark room. what you find is equally shocking and adorable?!? the lights are off and the curtains are drawn (he couldn’t risk a single soul seeing the embarrassing scene) and your big, burly man huddled over your monitor, which looks comedically small next to the grizzly bear. his big paw is completely covering the mouse, as he chaotically moves it around, frantically looking for something, muttering under his breath in concentration “c’mon you worthless twat, we’ve got less an’ thir’ey seconds to find a par a shoe that don’t look li shite”

you’ve created a monster, and you couldn’t be more proud 🥲 

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.