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ramble about everything, na author!!! i really love when you just talk about the things you like :))

remember when we talked about love? when you wrote a lot! i was happy to read everything and re-read!

and your spanish is good, author!! i think even better than mine, i never studied spanish i just do some improvisation with my portuguese lmao

#latinas!!

now... a theme to ramble about... maybe, friendship? im having some thinking about my close friends... bc one of them changed her view on things and she's more... idk living on the edge? she said something that it's on my mind for a long time and i feel kinda uncomfortable, but it's my fault too, i didn't open up to her about what im really feeling and i don't think she knows anyway...

i just avoid conflict to be honest and I think this time ill have to speak my mind, but i feel kinda pressure to do so

man... im overthinking!

hahaha my love ramble was just a whole brain dump LMAO

i had to dig for the spanish in my memories i swear, i forgot so much.

anyways let me ramble ab the thing you sent!

friendship hmmm i've also been thinking ab my close friends. if she said something that made you uncomfortable i think it's best that you talk it out with her, make sure both sides are heard and always know that communcation is very important!! with that being said, make sure you convey your ideas and actually process them, not just spit them out and create a false resolution. i avoid conflict too, but it's really important to communicate if this friend is very close to you.

a couple of years ago i was stuck with friends that didn't really fit with me; my old friends were too judgy and i didn't like being around people like that and couldn't really be myself. i distanced myself from them and ended up branching out, because of them i hadn't really done that much, and branching out led me to such amazing friendships. i think a lot of my current, stronger friendships are thriving bc i can express myself freely and not feel judged, and if i have a problem it's not hard to express--but also there aren't many problems bc my friends and i are pretty tight and connected.

i think friendships are really important becasue they can lead you to your platonic soulmates, twin flames, etc. i have a couple friends at the moment that I love so much, and i'm very grateful for them. little ramble: i think the purpose of life is to build great relationships--but with that being said it doesn't have to be romantic. I think platonic friendships are so so sos so important and it's very important to work out difficulties for people that are worth doing it for if ykwim.

friends are so important and imo, many people you build relationships can be much mroe valuable than family/blood ties.

[writer-komaru]

*insert fanfair here*

Two new pieces of news for you all!

First, Im currently starting a new fic! Wooo! I haven’t wrote something for myself in a while, so I want to make this one as good and long as I can! ^^ it will be about a curtain someone~ that I feel would enjoy being “pushed around” a little bit. Heheh!~

And two! While rummaging through my old docs, I found all of old, dusty, prompts I was planning on writing for my either 50 or 100 follower celebration, so I’ll just post them here as a sorry for not being able to finish my old one and the other one I tried to do. I’m so sorry, I’m just really bad a completing big things like that </3 so this is a way for me to show that I’m sincerely sorry for not being about to do that.

Love you guys!!!~ enjoy!!

❀ Chiaki ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

You make her feel like she has the ability to not only become more, but just straight up be more than her ultimate, but also to become mroe social. She feels so happy around you, even if she wears her usual neutral expression. You make her realize how much she cares about others. I think that with your support, she would probably actually try to vioenteer herself as class president (or something like that, I forgot what it was called) while in school, and persuade her to make more friends again after the whole despair ordeal.

❀ a way they are adorable

Whenever she plays games next to you, it’s so adorable to see her fighting back against her body’s affords to fall asleep. Her eyes will be focused on the game in front of her, like a predator stalking their prey, and then they will fall heavier and heavier until they are almost closed, and they they snap back open and return to normal. If she can’t control it anymore, she will just flip against your shoulder and take a mini nap.

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

Playing games, of course. But, spending time with you in a general sense is also her fav. Most of the time when you hang out together, you are usually playing games. But when it’s class time, she may or not put them away, depending on if Chisa is lenient or not. If so, you and her will spend your class time playing all sorts of games she had on her hand held. Also, you get to pick what you play. Since she has already played all of them, she doesn’t really have a preference. Just as long as it’s with you.

❀ way of showing affection

Quality time. Absolutely. She’s not very good with words, so not words of affection, plus spending time with you playing her games makes her feel connected to you even more. She may feel like she is only her talent, but there is something about doing her talent with you that makes it more… she doesn’t quite know how to describe it.

❀ nicknames

She doesn’t really use nicknames and would rather use your real name. And the way she says it is even better than a nickname, let me tell ya ;)

❀ How do they cuddle?

Starts with her leaning against you. She never really initiates anything head on and normally finds it easier to do things to hunt that she wants to cuddle (ie leaning against you, putting her legs on your lap, etc) when you both do start cuddling, she pretty much acts like an affection cat, nuzzling into you, humming gently, gentle breathing. It’s adorable tbh.

❀ Scenario

“Hey Chiaki, want to play this new game I got for us?”

You showed her the box and she nodded, a bright, excited expression on her still face.

“Heheh, I’ll start it up now.”

After a few hours both of you were very tired, limps sprawled out over each others’, barely able to keep up with the game. Chiaki yawned and shifted over to lay next to you. She wrapped her arms around your body, pressing her face into your shoulder. Your eyes widened at her display of affection.

“Do you… wanna go to bed now?”

She nodded sleepily, but didn’t move at all to get up. You chuckled. Maybe it would be okay to just take a nap here.

“Okay. Are you sure you don’t want to get ready for bed or anything?”

You waited for a response, but you were only met with soft breathing. She had already fallen asleep. You smiled at her, giving her a light kiss on the forehead.

“I hope you rest well, I know you really need it.”

❀ Nagito ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

As stated before [;)] everything. Anything and everything. Even the parts you apparently don’t like about yourself. The way you bring hope to others and himself, the way you constantly strive to improve your ultimate, the way you act so kind to scum like him. All so perfect in his eyes. Everything about you is perfect.

❀ a way they are adorable

His. Fucking. Expressions! If you literally just hold his hand, give him and short hug, or compliment him on something he did, he will break out into a wild bush and smile, trying to play it off as nothing, as if it was just an accident. But, for god's sake, you gave him a kiss, he would truly combust. He would look like he was on cloud nine, like he is under the influence or something, all just from you doing something so mundane. He is truly an enigma.

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

Doesn’t have a preference. Anything you want to do is his favorite! He is very easygoing. But, if you truly want to know, it’s doing everyday things with you. For example, when you two are cleaning the classroom, or studying, or even showing him how to cook, he really loves it. When you aren’t looking he will gaze at you with a love sick expression. And it’s just his luck if you accidentally get a glimpse of his face when he does. He will turn bright red and apologize, probably degrading himself as well.

❀ way of showing affection

Acts of service, definitely, even if he slightly thinks that the things he does for you are just a waste of your time. He will make you lunch just in case you forgot it, help you with your homework, give you back something you dropped with walking in the halls of in class, or even fucking carry you to school if you want! Hehe! He would honestly do pretty much anything for you tbh.

❀ nicknames

Doesn’t think he deserves to use nicknames, or even your name for that matter. He doesn’t want to dirty it. But with persistence, time, and reassurance, he will come around eventually. He likes calling you his hope (because you literally are his hope. Without you, he feels like a shell of a person), and his Angel. Or, if he is feeling poetic, he will call you his Angel of hope or his divinity or just beacon of hope.

❀ How do they cuddle?

Here’s the thing. We all know he is a very clingy guy, but he never wants to actually initiate anything unless it is further into the relationship and knows he can open up around you. So it can go two ways. One, the relationship is fairly new and it’s been around maybe half a year. He would only use your last name to be as polite as possible. If you started callin g his nicknames of even just his first name, he would get so

❀ Scenario

On one lazy Saturday while you were off from school, you decided you wanted to surprise your boyfriend, Nagito. He was unsuspectingly cleaning around your house, which is something he just does without being told to do so, and you were leaking out of a room. He had his back facing you, peacefully dusting the tables. You snickered under your breath and slowly approached him. Once you were close enough, it was time to strike!

“Hiiiiyyyyaaa!!”

You wrapped your arms around his waist tightly, triggering Nagito freeze response. His head whipped around to face you, expecting it to be some sort of killer. But as soon as he saw it was his S/O, a blush and a dazed smile appeared on his face.

“Awww someone’s happy, hm? Just from me hugging you?”

His breathing was a bit uneven as he hummed in response.

“Y-you.. you’re so hopeful, even when I clearly don’t deserve it. I’m such an awful person-“

“Shut it with that. You absolutely deserve it, you deserve everything, you know. You’re so kind to me, so nice to others, heck, you even do my homework when I leave to use the bathroom! That doesn’t sound like a awful person to me.”

Is he thought you were giving him more hope then he could handle before, he definitely did now. He let out a couple soft but deranged laughs, his eyes swirling into spirals, face completely flushed. You realized if you said anymore, he would probably faint or something.

“Why not we both relax on the couch and watch a movie? Does that sound good?”

“Yes! Anything you want to do! I’ll do anything for you!”

(I wanna say he dropped on his knees and looked up at you with a depraved look but I don’t want this to be too long so-)

❀ Fuyuhiko ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

Your determination. He loves a person with as much determination or presence as himself, it makes him feel as though you are on the same level of him and not some person to be bossed around. He admires that. He doesn’t like someone just based on their looks. He’s not that kind of guy. So if you have a personally similar to himself, know how to hold your own, and are very strong willed, he will low key start to get a crush on you, against his greater judgment of course.

❀ a way they are adorable

Well, let’s let’s just say if you, I don’t know, totally sweep him off his feet, or even, for the sake of argument, look at him with a pricing look, he may or may not look away out of embarrassment. But yes, he will be a little annoyed he feels this way. A lot annoye,

actually. He will turn into a total tsundere of you play your cards right. You should really try it, it’s totally worth it. ;) And you better know he is literally the most adorable tsundere, some may say even cuter than Mr.Himbo.

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

Dates at nice places. Since you are his partner, he wants to treat you the way he feels you should be treated. This means that even though you both are in High School, he will not hesitate to take you to fancy dinners on Friday nights, non-alcoholic drinks, of course. He might even give you some nice jewelers or clothes, too, depending on his mood and if he has warmed up to you yet.

❀ way of showing affection

Quality time and gifts. Since he is the leader of the yakuza, saying he is rich would be an understatement. He could get you anything you could ever want. (just like Nagito lol) So expect many, many dates and many, many gifts.

❀ nicknames

Doesn’t use them that much. He’ll call you baby, darling, sweetie.

❀ How do they cuddle?

Okay, okay, you might think I’m going to say he wants to be held, or he is the little spoon, or that kinda stuff, huh? Well, yes and no. Deep inside he knows he likes being the big spoon. Protecting you from the world makes him feel like even more of a strong man. (Lol) but, something else, maybe his heart, tells him that he does really like being held. Maybe it’s the fact he was brought up in a fairly unsafe environment. Even when he had Peko to protect him, he never truly felt safe. So when you swaddle him in your warmth, even though he doesn’t like being treated like a kid, he can’t deny how comfortable it is.

❀ Scenario

“Hey Fuyu! I have something for you!”

He gives you a confused look as he walked over to you.

“Here! I made it myself! I… wanted to give you something nice since you always spoil me.. I mean, it’s not as nice as-“

“Don’t say that kind of shit. I bet it’s beautiful since you were the one who made it.”

He takes the small box from your hands and opens it. His eyes widen as he takes out a small bracelet with black beads on it. A metal plate attached to it had the words ‘Fuyu’ engraved on it.

“You…. You made this for me?”

You nodded with a smile, anxiously anticipating what reaction he would have. You slightly gasp as you see tears prick at his eyes.

“Aww, are you crying?”

“N-no! I’m not fucking crying.. it’s just…”

He carefully puts the bracelet on, feeling his heart beat rapidly.

“You’re… you’re just too damn perfect sometimes… come here.”

❀ Akane ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

Your determination and drive!!! She admires people who have the ability to push themselves out of their comfort zones sometimes. Since she never had the perfect life growing up, but has overcome the life and troubles she used to have, she wants to see others achieve the same thing! So if you are down in the dumps, expect a very passionate Akane to be knocking at your door so you, her, and Nekomaru can train together. And it truly does pay off, you feel a lot stronger than before, But unfortunately… it has its downsides. She may try to wake you up at the crack of dawn so you can work out to be ready for the day. So if you aren’t a morning person… good luck

❀ a way they are adorable

Her enthusiasm is truly something to marvel at! The way she acts like an excited puppy when she sees something she likes is so adorable! Her eyes will light up with joy and if she had a tail, it would definitely be wagging.

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

Training, of course! She wants to see you and herself improve, So expect many gym dates and work out sessions together. Watching you grow fills her with even more determination!!

❀ way of showing affection

Quality time, of course! Time spent with you, even when it’s not working out, is never a waste in her book.

❀ nicknames

Honey, babe, pumpkin. All that cute stuff :)

❀ How do they cuddle?

With lots and lots of passion! And movement. She can never sit still long enough to straigh up cuddle, she always ends up either carrying you around or bench pressing you. But when she is tired she will be a lot more clingy.

❀ Scenario

“Hey Akane, are you okay?”

Akane only murmured sleepily, rubbing her eyes as she both entered your house. She had just gotten back from a whole day spent training with Nekomaru and she was thoroughly exhausted. She wasn’t really hungry for once since she ate before coming back home, so all she felt was an insane amount of tiredness.

Before she could stop herself, she gently grabbed your hand and lead you to the couch, flopping down on top of you. She nuzzled her head in your neck, her body relaxing into yours.

“Ack! Akane?! Huh? Oh, are you tired?”

She slowly nodded in response.

“Want to sleep on the couch tonight or do you want to go to my bed?”

“…. Here…”

“Hehe, okay. Goodnight, sweetie. You did great today.”

Her face grew warmer at your words.

“Mmm… thank you, I love you so much.”

❀ Sonia ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

It’s a mixture of things, but overall, she just loves you for you! You’re a new experience, to put it bluntly, for her and as someone who has never really had any of those, she cherishes you so so so much! She loves how unique you are and she especially loves it if you are a bit of a daredevil. She was always sheltered as a kid and she always day dreamed about that kind of stuff!

❀ a way they are adorable

This is more on the funny side, but the way she says and does things. Like, for example, when she gushes about horror movies and true crime with a face of someone who got a puppy for Christmas or the way she will use the most bland and basic curse words and apologize profusely right after. It cracks you up! But, kinda like Akane, she gets this fluffy smile whenever she talks about something she likes. You can tell she is extremely happy when she gets to. So let her talk about her interests more often!!!!

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

She loves to watch horror movies with you at midnight, eat lunch and study together, or even go on adventures to all kinds of different places! To be honest, touring the world is one of the things on her bucket list. Oh, btw she has a bucket list of things she wants to do before she becomes queen and can’t do it because she would be too busy.

❀ way of showing affection

Quality time! But, she likes to spend it most of the time in private. It’s not because she is shy or something (ahem Hinata-) but she just likes it more when it’s just you and no one else.

❀ nicknames

Darling, sweetheart, maybe even Cutie pie! Sometimes flower names as well!

❀ How do they cuddle?

Her cuddles are very soft and snuggly! She will let you sit on her lap and hold you close to her. Maybe she will even hum to you if you want her too!

❀ Scenario

“Her Sonia! Look at these pretty flowers!”

You ran over to a large bed of all kinds of flowers in all kinds of colors.

“Ooo!~ they’re gorgeous, aren’t they? They were planted here very recently by the gardeners.”

You bent over and held one of the flowers close to your nose, soaking in the scent.

“Mmmm~ they smell so good!”

As you stood back up and looked over at Sonia, you realized she was holding a red camellia in her hand.

“My mother always said flowers were like a special kind of language. Some mean loyalty, some mean purity, and some mean love.”

With a careful hand, she placed the flower in your hair.

“This one means love. I want you to know that no matter what happens, no matter where life takes us, I will always love you.”

❀ Twogami ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

Tbh he can’t really pick a favorite. If he ever asks you, he will just say the last thing you were complaining about yourself. For example, if you said your face looked weird, he would say his favorite thing was the shape of your face, or if you said you said you were too clingy, he would say his favorite thing was your willingness to rely on others. But If you kept complaining, he would go on a whole long lecture about how you are literally the most perfect person to him. Don’t tempt him, he truly will.

❀ a way they are adorable

The way he tries to protect you, even in situations where he doesn’t have to. For example of you and him were walking to school together and some on the streets were giving you a weird look, he would move you so he was in between the both of you. And god forbid if they started following the two of you, he wouldn’t hesitate to use his ultimate to trick the person into running away as fast as they could.

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

Just your everyday things are perfect for him. Eating lunch together, sitting next to you in class, spending time at a restaurant together.

❀ way of showing affection

Acts of service. He wants to make sure you are okay at all times, so if that means protecting you from others, making you some food, or just cuddling you, he would do it all.

❀ nicknames

Doesn’t use them much, he normally uses names, but sometimes if you are lucky he will call you Dear.

❀ How do they cuddle?

Warmly! He is very comfortable when it comes to hugs and snuggling. Though, it does make him a tad nervous, but he will never admit it. As long as you are content, he is as well.

❀ Scenario

(I can’t think of anything I’m sorry T T just know he loves you a lot! He is very devoted to you! Maybe he will even tell you about his ultimate… maybe!)

❀ Mahiru ❀ ~

❀ fav thing about you

Your willingness to stand up for yourself! She really admires that in people. She will absolutely fall in love if she ever sees you standing up for others. Something about that just makes her heart flutter! She will compliment you with a smile as she approaches you.

❀ a way they are adorable

The way she pouts sometimes. Whenever she finishes an argument with someone, her face is always stuck in a pout. But please, don’t tease her for it or else she won’t hesitate to have an argument with you as well. Just try and cheer her up, she will thank you after.

❀ fav way to spend time w/ u

Making memories! All kinds of memories! A reason she takes pictures of others is so you all can have something to cherish, something that doesn’t fade like a memory. So if you say you want to do all kinds of things with her for the purpose of making memories, she would be overjoyed!!

❀ way of showing affection

Quality time! As said before, she greatly values making memories with others. But also… something cute she does is sometimes in the morning when you sit down at your desk, you might just see a picture of you and Mahiru spending time together after school the previous day. It’s honestly really sweet. <3

❀ nicknames

Doesn’t really use them that much since it makes her a tad shy, but she’ll call you sweetie or baby.

❀ How do they cuddle?

Her cuddles are filled with love for you and only you! She hopes that every time she gives you a hug you can feel just as happy as you make her!

❀ Scenario

“Ah, I’m so glad we finally have some time to relax after class!”

“Yeah, I agree. Class can really stretch on for longer than it needs to thanks to… everyone. Ugh, I mean they are great friends, but sometimes they get needlessly crazy.”

As you and Mahiru chatted while sitting next to the daytime, you felt droplets of water on your legs and shoulders. At first, you thought it was just the water from the fountain, but it gradually started to get heavier.

“Ah, I think it’s starting to rain! Should we go inside?”

“Yeah, we shouldn’t be out here for too long or we will catch a cold.”

Just as the two of you were beginning to walk back inside, something caught your eye. You turned around to see a huge rainbow stretching over the sky. You put a hand on Mahiru's shoulder to stop her.

“Huh? Something wrong?”

“Look! It’s a rainbow! It’s so beautiful!”

She turned around to see the same sight you were. Her eyes lit up, mind reeling with the possibilities of pictures.

“Hey, can you pose in front of it?”

“Heheh… what happened to going inside?”

“Come on, please? Eheh! It will be really pretty!”

“Okay, if you want me to!”

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Request: Yes / No  do you write for narcissa malfoy? if so can you a smut with fem reader pls ? 🥰🥰 @generalwinnerbearalien

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Narcissa Malfoy x Fem!Reader 

Word count: 1386

Warnings: Smut!

Y/N: Your Name 

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I probably had the most unwizardly job ever, I was a real estate agent. I wasn’t a huge fan of it, but it paid the bills. I was currently trying to sell a very nice looking manor, but no takers yet. I sighed heavily, there was just one more couple I was meeting with after lunch. I honestly almost called them and told them not to come, but I powered through. I greeted them at the door and instantly knew that they were the ones. I let out a sigh of relief. The wife Narcissa had long dark hair with a blonde streak and the husband Lucius had very long platinum blonde hair. I could tell Lucius was good to her and took care of her. To my luck they took the house on the spot. 

The next week I was at the bar. I was sitting with my second drink when someone sat down next to me. I looked over and to my shock it was Narcissa. I smiled at her and she ordered herself a drink. 

“Narcissa, how are you?” I asked and she smiled. 

“Very well dear, how are you?” She asked. 

“Good, how are you and your husband settling in?” I asked. 

“Oh good, the house is lovely.” She said, taking a sip of her drink. 

A few drinks later and some pleasant conversations later, we were a little tipsy at this point as well. Narcissa gently touched my arm, tracing a path with her fingernails. She started at my wrist and moved her nails slowly up my arm. My senses stirred and by the look in her eyes I knew she wanted something from me that I wasn't supposed to give. 

“You have a husband, Narcissa.” I said. 

“Isn’t this what you wanted?” She asked, moving her arm up to touch my shoulder. I felt chills settle over my entire body, her touch was awakening something carnal within me. I made a sound quite like any other sound I’ve made before. I placed the money on the bar and grabbed her hand. We silently apparate to my place and as soon as we got to my living room I pulled her by the hips to me. She placed her arms around my neck and smiled. We shared a long, lingering look of desire before I leaned in to finally kiss her. Her mouth tasted like sweet heaven and I let my tongue explore hers while I tried my best not to think about how her husband might react. 

“Come on, let’s go to my bedroom.” I said, pulling her to the room. I shut the door behind us and my hands once again found her body, gently caressing every inch of her skin that wasn’t covered by her very nice dress. I paused as I inched my hand up under her dress and up her thigh. I looked into her eyes and saw that she wanted me to touch her pussy. She wanted me to do all the dirtiest things I could think of and she was ready for it all to happen. Our kiss made me wead, so weak I was having trouble standing. I gripped the end of her dress and pulled it over her arms. She wasn’t wearing a sitch of clothing underneath. I gasped as I looked at her naked body for the first time. Narcissa had full hips and a rounded abdomen that curved up toward her waist. Her tits were a nice size with nice hard nipples. Instantly, my hands moved to her breasts and my mouth followed. I took one nipple into my mouth and sucked until Narcissa was jumping with pleasure. I moved her to my bed, where I laid her out, naked and waiting for me as I undressed. I parted her legs and saw her pussy on display for the first time. 

“Y/N, please, lick me!” She begged and I was shocked. She did not seem like the type of woman to beg for anything. I looked up and saw her eyes were filled with excitement and I noted the chills all over her legs as I gently stroked her pussy with my fingers. She had a beautiful pussy and I took a moment to admire it. It had been a long time since I’d been with a woman and I wanted to savor every second with Narcissa. I played with her pussy, teasing her a bit so she was good and wet by the time I put my fingers inside her. She moaned as I felt around inside her, trying my best to find the sweet spot that would make her lose control. She let out a whimper as I pushed against the inside of her pussy with my fingers. I moved faster, moving my body over her to get more leverage. She bucked against me, screaming as the intensity of her pleasure increased. She was trying to wriggle away from me but I held her down, making sure she took every thrust of my fingers until her pussy finally popped. 

“Oh Merlin!” She screamed. I could feel her pussy give way and I quickly pulled my fingers from her and smiled as she squirted all over my bedspread. I didn’t care if she ruined them or anything else. Sex with Narcissa was far mroe important to me than any material possession. I instantly buried my face in her pussy, licking and sucking all her orasm juice like a thirsty fool. I couldn’t get enough of her taste, sticking my tongue deep into her hole and then pulling it back out and up towards her clit. 

“Fuck! You’re so bloody good!” She moaned as she gripped my head in her hands and held me where she wanted me to lick. This is more what I was expecting her to be like. She began grinding her pussy on my mouth, working her clit against my tongue until she was merely using my face to get herself off. I looked up at her with luck in my eyes. This woman was fucking me back and it was hot the way she was owning me. 

“You taste so good!” I moaned, drunk on the taste of her pussy. 

“I want to taste you now.” Narcissa pushed me off her and we traded spots. She parted my lips with both hands, one on each side of my pussy. She pulled down and and then up on both my lips, revealing my clit. She looked up at me with an evil, sideways smile that I soon realized was her signature look. She kept her eyes open and on me as she descended until her tongue was at clit level. She made a big production of lapping at my clit with long, slow stokes. 

“You’ve done this before!” I cried as I felt my orgasm building. My legs began to shake as she slowly moved her tongue all over me. It was amazing the things that she was doing with her tongue and I thought that was absolutely impressive until she added two fingers inside of me and worked me over completely with them. The orgasms I had were of an intensity I had never experienced. I was in shock that this woman was able to make me cum this often and this hard. No female has ever licked my pussy like that and maybe that’s why I fell in love with Narcissa right then and there. 

“I’m not done with you yet.” She said and pulled me back toward her by my legs and I watched her nipples bounce as she violently fingered my pussy. Her tongue was resting innocently on my pussy, not doing much until she could feel my legs start to shake from her fingers. Then she would add her tongue and my whole body would sing with pleasure as I shook beneath her. She was a powerful lover and by the time she was done with me, I was unable to move a single muscle. I laid there as she got up and put her dress on. 

“I have to get back before Lucius is home.” She said and kissed me one last time before apparating home. I laid there and wondered, would I ever see her like this again?

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[icantthinkofanythingcool3]

traitor (pt 2)

AN: This story is actually getting really long. I already have 4 parts I think....let me know if you like the direction I'm headed and want mroe plz! <3

third person pov

Stiles and Scott ran up to Isaac, having witnessed the breakup in the hallway along with most of the junior class.

“What the fuck was that Isaac?” Scott said through gritted teeth.

“Well what did it look like? It’s not how I wanted it to happen, but I knew it was going to.” Isaac replied.

“You just broke y/n’s heart…” Stiles said, sadly. He didn’t need Scott to tell him how she was feeling, he could see it in your heart and how your body deflated when Isaac yelled.

“It happened and I can’t take it back now. I have to go.” Isaac said and walked to the cafeteria.

“Should we go after her?” Stiles turned to Scott.

“I think she’ll be okay, she probably doesn’t want to even see us. I mean we are friends because of Isaac. We should find Lydia though, maybe send her a text?” They both pulled out their phones to text y/n and went to find Lydia.

Lydia was in the library with Allison, “Lydia, you have to call y/n..” Stiles told her.

“Why what’s wrong?” She asked, looking between the boys.

“y/n and Isaac just broke up in the hallway, it was pretty harsh, Isaac said some really messed up shit.” Scott explained.

Before Lydia could answer Allison chimed in, “Wh-what do you mean just broke up? I thought they had broken up already…” She asked hesitantly.

All three of them looked at her quizzically, “Why would you think that?” Lydia asked the girl.

“Well… I mean that’s just what Isaac said, or maybe I just misunderstood.”

Stiles and Lydia were fuming and Scott was just shocked, knowing what this must have meant.

“No-nothing has happened...yet, but I thought they were broken up I swear! I never saw them together anymore. I swear I would never do that to y/n.. I had no idea.”

Lydia took her phone out and tried calling y/n, “She’s not answering...I can’t skip anymore classes…”

“Me either..” Stiles and Scott said in unison.

“I think I need to talk to her anyway…” Allison said, looking at the trio hesitantly.

“Don’t hurt her anymore than she already is.” Stiles said, feeling the need to stick up for y/n, he couldn’t get the look of her face out of his head.

y/n pov

There was a knock on my door as soon as I got out of the shower. I opened the door, seeing the last person I expected. Allison. It’s not that we weren’t friends...we just never talked much. I hardly knew anything about her, not like Lydia or Scott or Stiles.

“Uhh..hi Allison...what’s up..?” I asked her.

“I heard about what happened. Lyds, Stiles, and Scott were worried, but they couldn’t skip anymore classes.” She explained.

“Oh..well that makes sense. I should have just answered them and saved you a trip.”

“Well, actually...I think there’s something I need to tell you...could I come in?” She asked me nervously. I didn’t know what on earth she could need to say to me, but I opened the door wider for her to come in.

We sat on the couch in silence for about 5 minutes, at this point I was freaked out about what she could possibly have to tell me that she was clearly freaked out about.

“Allison… I don’t want to push...but are you gonna tell me what you need to talk about, because you’re kind of scaring me?”

“I...well, this is hard for me to say. I never meant for this to happen. I really had no idea.” She said, not making any sense to me.

“Honey, I literally have no idea what you mean...I’m sorry could you give me some more?”

“Isaac…” My heart literally dropped. “He never said explicitly that you two were broken up...but he implied it. And we have been spending some time together trying to figure out the sacrifices and stuff. You have to believe me, I really thought you were broken up. That’s how he made it seem and I never saw you two together…”

I thought back to the last few weeks and how Isaac had been talking to me less and how we’d been hanging out less. That didn’t stop him from coming over and fucking me though...and I guess that’s all it had been the last few weeks. He must have been hanging out with Allison, but couldn’t make a move so came to me. I knew somewhere in the back of my mind that we had been growing distant...and maybe for a second I had thought there had been another girl, but never would I have thought Allison.

“y/n...you’re scaring me. You haven’t said anything yet.”

“What’s happened between you guys?” I asked, emotionless.

“Nothing. I swear, nothing has happened. Not even a kiss...not yet anyway. It was definitely heading there… I really didn’t know. I thought….he made it seem...I would never do this to you y/n. I know we’re not the best of friends, but I do still care about you and I swear if I had known…” She trailed off.

“You like him?” I asked.

“I...well yeah I did. But after this...I don’t want to do this to you…”

“If you like him….it is what it is. Clearly he hasn’t been in love with me for a while. I guess I’m the only one who didn’t know. Do whatever makes you happy Allison….I’m not going to stand in the way of that. It’s done now...it has been for a while I suppose.”

“y/n…” She started.

“No, I’m serious. It’s fine. Like you said, it’s not like we're best friends, you’re not breaking some code. You didn’t even know we were still together. Go do what makes you happy, I’m not holding you back from that.” I knew any minute, my composure would fall apart.

“I..I don’t know what to say..” Allison looked at me, confused and surprised.

“You don’t have to say anything...but I would like you to leave. I...I would just like to be alone for right now. You can tell them that I’m fine and I just want to be left alone. Please.” I stood up.

“I’m so sorry y/n….I really am.” And she left without another word.

I didn’t think it was possible for me to cry harder than when I walked out of school, but boy was I wrong. I cried all night, ignored my phone and ignored my doorbell. I knew my friends were just trying to check in on me, but it was not something I could handle. The next day I faked sick...and the next...and the next.

[kai5621]

Deja vu [Heisenberg x OC]

Warning: age gap, slow burn, platonic to romantic relationship. Grammer issues (english is my first language criiii) . Child abuse, family abuse, death (not major character ). Eventual smut (maybe?）

Note: OK !!!! SO after drawing a bunch of RE8 OCs I finally could resist my self writing my own story about it. Cuz damm Heisenberg stole all my heart and I have no complains about it.

This is my first time writing a fanfic, so I will try my best !! And lastly-----

HEISENBERG DESERVES SOOO MUCH MROE LOVE.  

And here’s a little potrait thet I drew for the oc (as for why I didn’t draw heisenberg as well, is bcuz im shit at drawing males ┭┮﹏┭┮)

1.

The first time Heisenberg met Erin, she was only eight, can barely reach his waist and always be smiling everyday, like an every single child would at her age. She came to this shitty village with her dad, which claims to be her only family member. They are obviously foreigners to the villagers, as no one remembered there’s anyone in this place would have a such strong British accent, therefore they must be new.

Their family history has remained a mystery to most of them, oddly enough, only a few people who are about eighty or ninety years old do recall their family name, and were quite surprised to see that Erin’s father is back here again. Although every single one of them would shoot him with fierce glances that are not so friendly, even towards Erin. Except for Luiza, but even though her kindness was mainly for the poor little girl.

“I don’t understand, Charles. If you decided to leave this place before with such determination, why bother came back?” She asked her father sternly, while watching Erin just quietly standing behind him. She was thin, with a long, dark raven hair tied into a loose pony tail. But she does look endearing, those big, innocent watery eyes could gain everyone’s sympathy.

“That’s none of your business, and why does it even matter to you?” He seemed annoyed when answering this question, he roughly grabbed Erin’s wrist, without looking any of the people here, he just simply left, leaving others remain in silent confusion. Some younger villagers did ask Luiza about Erin’s origin, but all the time she just shooked her head, signed heavily.

 “May mother Miranda bless that little girl. She does not deserve such man as her father.....”  

Of course, Heisenberg would never missed such local news from the village. He did pay a visit to the new “guests” before informing Miranda and his siblings. The appearance of new faces surely hooked his curiosity quite high, but to be honest, he doesn’t even understand why he was that excited, as surely they would probably just end like the locals here, worshiping Miranda like she’s an actual god, and then would went missing mysteriously but eventually end up on her cold, metal operating table, with chest being cut open, blood splatters all around the body, while the Cadou parasite just devouring the remains.

Didn’t someone mentioned the family also has a daughter? Ah, then perhaps that lucky little thing would go to his sister’s castle and can becomes one of the “maid”. Just another victim, Heisenberg thought to himself, he could not hide his grin back. Holding his hammer at the back of his shoulder, he walked quickly to that infamous cottage where the new family is settled, a few quite whispers can be heard during his journey, the villagers were all surprised to see the presence of the metal lord, and naturally inquiring behind his journey.

Just like before, Heisenberg ignored all of them,

When he finally reached the shabby wooden door, of the cottage, he didn’t even bother knocking, just pushed the door wide open violently, using his ridiculous strength meanwhile announcing his arrival.      

“Well, well, there’s been news all around the village about the new family, and I thought I could a pay a little visit, to get to know the new members! You are welcome, by the way......”

 But when all he saw was a little girl standing by the dinning table, looking confused and stunned at him, his smug smile disappeared quickly, and even the eyes behind his dark specs were filled with momentary surprise.

“Uh, sir?” She asked quietly, putting the tray of cookies down on the table in a panic.

“Are you.... my father’s guest? I’m really sorry, he will be a away for a quite long time, and I’m not sure if.....”

 He stood there for a moment, and then realized that she must be the daughter, although she’s much much younger than he anticipated. He cut her off before she finished the sentence : “Huh, so you don’t know who I am ?”

 She looked so lost, after blinked her eyes a few times, she nervously said : “Sorry sir, I’m afraid I don’t.”

 Heisenberg was never good with children, never, he didn’t really know what to do, after all he wasn’t expecting to meet a child who probably doesn’t even know what a dick is. So, they just stood where they were before, and staring at each other awkwardly in silence, to a point that even the little girl started to feel uncomfortable. She looked around quickly, trying to find something that could resolve this situation, then her eyes fixed on the tray of cookies on the table.

“Um, maybe...do you want to have a cookie, sir?”

The man with the hammer went speechless, he coughed a few times, put his hammer down next to the door frame, and blankly replied back with a tiny bit of fluster.

“Alright then. ”

   2.

It was fucking ridiculous.

Heisenberg would never imagined himself sitting in a old cottage, eating chocolate cookies and drinking teas like a normal human, while chatting with an eight years old girl.

Yes, he’s never good with kids, why would he? Being brought by a psycho bitch means he shouldn’t have any sympathy towards anything, everyone in this village had a good taste about his temper before, even his “Lord” title makes it too intimidate for anyone to have any contact with him. Thus, he never had a decent conversation with anyone else besides his cursed family. Frankly speaking, they were not really conversations, more like endless quarrels.    

He had a quick look around in the room, when Erin went to the kitchen to make tea. This place is shabby, there’s no doubt about it. No painting, no decorations, only an old wool blanket laying down on the floor of the living room. He could see a few photo frames on the bookshelf, cover by dusts. He tried to have to closer look, but all he could see was three people standing together, presumably a family photo that was taken a long time ago.

“Here’s your tea, sir. And there’s milk and sugar.” She was holding a big tray, walking carefully towards table and almost got tripped by the chair. Heisenberg almost chuckled at her clumsy yet cute actions, but he remained silent, and finished his ninth cookie.

“Well, thanks, little one.” He said simply, then started to sip his tea. He saw Erin was standing next to the table like a lost little lamb, he can’t help but chuckled a bit, gesturing her towards the seat across him.

“ Oh come on, no need to be so frightened! I won’t eat ya.”

She was a bit hesitate at first, but eventually took his offer, sit across the table facing him. Although the teapot blocked half of her face.

“So....” Heisenberg started again, with his smug smile back on his face: “You are new here aren’t you, with your family.”

“Yes. Me and my father came a week ago, from England. But he used to live here, at least that’s what I know. ”

That made his curiosity even higher. An outsider, that originally lived here, how interesting, and how did they even escaped this twisted place.

“Where’s your father now?”

This question let her seemed a bit troubled, she shooked her head, looking disappointed : “I don’t know, sir. He said he’s busy, and that’s it.”

His grin became wider:  “And didn’t your daddy tell you, that do not let strangers come into your house while you are alone?”

To his surprise, she did not seem scared, but instead she tilted her head as she was a bit confused, and answered him back politely.

“But I didn’t let you in, sir. You just opened the door and, broke in........”    

 Heisenberg burst into laughter right after he heard this answer, it was really loud, even the teapot and the cups on the table started to shake a bit, but thankfully Erin didn’t notice, she was completely stunned by his reaction and didn’t know what to do. She thought she probably offend him by saying that. But the truth is, Heisenberg is not mad at all, this child’s unintentional boldness is exactly what he likes.  

“ Oh yes! I did break into your house, and aren’t you scared?”

“Should I be scared?” She calmly asked him back, filling his cup again with more tea. “I was tho, but you seem like a nice guy. At least I don’t think a bad person would eat my cookies and having tea with me. If you want harm me you would've done this way earlier.”

He could have so much fun with this kid, Heisenberg though to himself. An outsider was rare enough on its own, no praying, no worshiping, and he won’t hear all those “Miranda bless us” shit. Although, it’s quite ironic that his first decent conservation in 20 was held with a freaking child.

But he’s not complaining. He finished his tea, looking around the room for the last time then shoot his glance back on her. He stood up, ignoring the girl’s skeptical look, Heisenberg chuckled a bit.

 With that, he simply waved his hand, and left the house.

“Well, thank you for your service little one, I’m afraid I must got now. But I’m sure we will meet again soon.”

 He grabbed his hammer by the door frame, opened the door in a swift motion.

“And send my greetings to your father, will you, little one?”

[bandsanitizer]

okay okay but like high and place in me as complementary songs for so many reasons.

starting off with the epistolary-adjacent feel. like they aren’t letters but there’s this aspect to their sound that gives this pre-recorded message imagery to the song. that luke was aiming for a voice mail vibe with place in me which he absolutely nailed. then with high there’s that vinyl record crackle going on that conveys this sense of playing something recorded. then added to the lyrics in both songs being written towards a certain person but progressing in a way that also conveys time passing.

notably verse one of high says “today” and “waking up” then the chorus hits and there the use of “mornings” in verse two before back into the chorus and repetition is used a lot throughout the song. similarly, place in me uses a bit of repetition particularly with the first two verses/stanzas with “hold on” and “with eyes wide open” into the chorus with “call me in the morning” (which another parallel is luke’s use of mornings/waking up in both songs) and then the third/middle verse “how many chances does it take?”

and then speaking of the that verse there’s the line “no words left to play on” in place in me which when you look at high’s lyrics plus the music&production, there’s a bit of word play going on in the chorus with high/highly and lie/like, along with the song getting higher when “high” is sung.

so considering the continuity of place in me coming after high, and high being something narcissistic—with recognition of mistakes (“I need to stop letting me down”) there’s a lack of apology and it’s pretty arrogant—compared to place in me where there’s recognition of the mistakes in a different form along with apology (“I’m sorry that I let you down”). plus the lyrics in place in me: “now with my eyes wide open / I’m nothing but a fake” if we consider high to be this post break-up bordering angry/denial “I know I did something wrong but I just want you back” then place in me is along the lines of the grief of post break-up that still focuses on mistakes but “I know I did something wrong but I’m afraid to lose you” with a key difference being high assumes a state of affection of liking of “this is you losing me” while place in me with the ending is like “I don’t know how to be without you. please don’t go”

and I think about this in terms of growth. that these could easily not be break-up songs and more of “we got into a really bad argument” songs. and I think about what it implies to go from this state of feeling like you changed so that makes you almost deserving of forgiveness? this “well now i’m just disappointing myself” whereas place in me is focused outwards on “oh i hurt you.” and particularly with “i never meant” repeated in the opening of the verses it’s this sense of “oh I hurt you. I didn’t intend to, but I still did. and then I reacted poorly.” that the poor reaction (“I’m so apathetic”) could even be a reference to high itself? and place in me is recognizing the shit apology that was and offering this in place. that it’s still equally along the lines of some level of maybe they don’t deserve this so why ask? but it’s way less self-centric about it and even though it is, it’s still something mroe genuine. more thoughtful. less narcissistic and more of “I know I’m really caught up in my mistakes right now and I’m sorry but I’m trying so please stay”

and I guess for a running theme of wfttwtaf being what luke describes in slip away where there’s fears of them leaving and this need for him to run away, it’s like place in me is that inbetween. it’s him catching himself in the midst of walking away from his mistakes bc “what can I do? how could I possible change?” and as the person the songs are directed to leave in this “please stay. please be patient with me” and then go into bloodline and the whole “your heart can’t keep a vacancy for me / only you know how long you’ve got to go” where overall it’s grappling with this understanding that he probably couldn’t handle another person leaving but also doesn’t know if he’s worth sticking around for/deserving of the patience that sticking around takes.

so like with “when facing the things we turn away from” it’s facing the mistakes instead of running away—for both people in the relationship and analyzing where to go from there, which is almost essentially what comedown is. it’s this eventual give into the fact that you cant keep running and the acceptance of however things go from here is how it is meant to go. and back to place in me and high, place in me is an interesting comparison in how much those songs do and don’t differ. that high is self-centered and naracissitic while place in me is within a similar realm of something selfish but not how high is. and both struggle with this idea of “I made mistakes but I don’t want you to leave so how do I get you to stay?”

alternative idea is going from high’s “I called to tell you that I’m changing” but they don’t answer and the voicemail aka place in me is left but by the time he’s finished with the voicemail it’s back to the angry/bitter sort of pain that pulls out the feeling of “but you don’t have enough respect to see me try”

[axemetaphor]

augh i kept forgetting to post this because i kept wantgin to draw mroe for it but i really suck at emulating Animal Crossing Art Style so im just going to go on a rambling explanation about this under the cut but the basic concept is. they deserve a vacation. and whats more relaxing than animal crossing? probably several things but let me have this ok

id had a bunch of ideas for mroe drawings in this style but Clearly, i am not very good at it, and every time i sat down to Try Again it ended up shitty. this is from literally months ago by now lmao

my Basic Concept was just. take the 3 of them and dump them on an animal crossing island, cause while ive been sick ive been playing a lot of new horizons to try and stay stable, and my brain likes to mush together whatever 2-or-more things im invested in together all the time. here’s some bullet points!

-john really loves diving for sea critters and frequently pulls up those bigass lobsters and eels and shit, he’s got an unnatural knack for it. loves to startle the shit out of dave by just whipping an eel out of his pocket. no thats not an innuendo stop that-- -amy loves planting/watering the flowers but shes not like invested in getting All The Different Types (although that Would be neat) she’s just having fun building a large flower patch. it’s slowly overtaking the island. also dave likes to just kinda sit in the flower patch -speaking of dave he kind of doesnt do much, i think he’d like fishing with john and/or amy and maybe hed like digging up fossils but for the most part hes just chillin, as he deserves to be, -amy likes the DIY recipe stuff though and will frequently politely ask dave to go fetch stuff for her. this has led to most of the villagers/islanders/whateverthetermis, the animal citizens, to have their Main exposure to dave be him wandering around with an axe at 3am because amy’s out of hardwood -speaking of the animal citizens, because i just really like them as a concept, i have no solid concept of who-all would be on their island but whoever they are, john is “friends” with All of them (and by that i mean he says theyre all his friends; whether or not they find him obnoxious Varies,) and amy is genuine friends with most of them/has spoken to all of them at least, and dave rarely if ever speaks to them. hes not very social. most of the animals are a little scared of him until they Actually get to talk to him and then they realize hes just an awkward misanthropic bastard -also in case it wasnt clear id think the 3 of them would all be in one little cabin i mean you can upgrade the shit out of those so they could all feasibly have their own spaces. but also i like polyamory and id say they all 3 share a room because fight me they do itd be cute. also of course the decor of their cabin is absolutely bonkers like listen not only does animal crossing have some weird items but nearly any living space john inhabits most likely has some very strange decor in it !  -tbh actually i think john would do Most of the decor stuff cause like based on the way his house is described i think he’d go NUTS for animal crossing’s Theme Decor Shit i dont know i dont actually do a bunch of that but i sure do think he would! amy would help out esp since she likes the DIY stuff, and i think dave is just kind of ..... allowing this nonsense to happen. letting john be free. probably convincing him to not change the theme every day, maybe every week, if only because it’s a bit of a hassle to have everything Constantly Rearranged.  -hang on wait i just thought of the 3 of them wandering along the beach and picking up seashells and now im like emotional over it bro pls. lovely. -also i jsut realized if daves the guy who digs up fossils he definitely talks to blathers a lot and thats an extremely funny thing to contemplate. the dude who seems to not really liek talking to people and the chatterbox owl. fantastic. you know dave is probably too awkward to tell blathers he doesnt want to hear all thsoe archaeopteryx facts! (also tbh maybe dave would actually like learning stuff) -also. john catches bugs just to give them to blathers and watch him freak out just a little about it.  -john always ends up buying fake art from redd but it’s fine because he just puts it somewhere in or near their cabin. amy however has the uncanny good luck to somehow always find the real artworks! dave doesnt talk to redd, he doesnt really care. -this ones definitely projection because my animal crossing island is a mess (And I Like It That Way Thank U Very Much) but john definitely is the guy who will dump extra furniture at random spots on the island. too much shit in storage? don’t need that Harmonious Chair right now? holding it in ur pockets just because u dont know where else to put it? just dump it on the ground! uncannily, john fuckin Always remembers where he’s put that shit when he happens to need it again. however this does mean sometimes the animal citizens will just ... find a mysterious new chair in their front yard.  -i know that terraforming is a new thing in acnh but i havent done it yet because i dont care about the whole 3 stars rating thing like listen im jsut here to run around and fill the museum if i feel like it but mostly pick up pumpkins and hoard bells for no reason and let my island be taken over by wildflowers. if any of the 3 are into that tho its john or amy--john just for the hell of it, amy would actually like try to Make Stuff of it -their front yard (and back yard if their cabin is put somewhere to allow that) is full of unused furniture as well. and also sometimes random dropped fruits or something, if dave is already carrying a ton when he sees something to dig up. -i think im out of shit to say right now but i might reblog to add mroe so. yes. if youve read this far then holy shit youre dedicated or really bored or something but whatever your reason is i hope this was A Fun Read and if it gave you any ideas Please Tell Me my inbox is open im sick and still in quarantine and i crave human interaction from literally anyone who isnt my parents. thank u 

[mochikeiji]

Take a Hint.

↠ Pairing: Bokuto Koutarou x Akaashi Keiji

↠ Warning: College AU! Fukurodani Volleybal Team!(with managers) Shy Akaashi! Popular Bokuto! Slight NSFW, Fluffy

↬ Word Count: 3,912

Summary: First year college student, Akaashi Keiji begins his new life away from the comfort of his home solitude. Growing up to be an introvert, Akaashi had a hard time gaining friends and fitting in. But what happens to someone when they've met a rowdy senior who somehow slithers their way into their lives and becomes their only friend? Or maybe more.

⇢ Day 2: Obliviousness/Pinning, Roomates, College AU @bokuakaweek2020

✎﹏

It really is terrifying for some to move out of the comfort of their house and their personal room to move into a dorm for their first year in college. For some it seemed fun and adventurous, only because they were an extrovert.

Unlike Akaashi, a man with few words, was an introvert. Sure he used to play volleyball back in his highschool days— even got himself the spotlight as their schools top tier setter, but he believes he could never match the other monsters such as Atsumu Miya, Kageyama Tobio and former captain of an opposing school, Oikawa Tooru. To him, he was nothing but an average person trying to get a good grade and a college degree and good job and die just like that.

His mother did try to tell him to atleast make some friends during his days in highschool so he wouldn't be so lonely. He couldn't say he can't do it due to his facial expression and blunt words. He couldn't help it, it was already part of his charisma. Now, he wished he wasn't so alone as he carries a box of his belongings in a crowded hallway to the dorms. Seeing other freshmen and seniors helping out each other was one thing he secretly envied. He wanted a friend too, but he was just clueless on how to even make one.

Keeping his head lowered and muttering small, soft excuses on his way to his dorm, he manages to make his way smoothly away from the crowd, thinking they might've been whispering stuff about him being odd when clearly no one even saw him pass through.

Rummaging in his pocket for the key, he pulls out the small metallic object. But before he could thrust the key up into the doorknob, it flung open.

"Oh? Are you my roommate!?"

The chattering hallway was immediately silenced as the mega phone like tone of voice dominated the entire atmosphere. He was a loud person, Akaashi thought.

"Y-yes, but you may want to keep it do—"

"Ah? What are you nervous about! These guys," he points behind Akaashi with a grin, "They're all my buds! Right? Hey!" he starts as the students behind Akaashi laughed and followed his lead, "Hey, hey, hey!!"

It surprised the black haired male to see them, even the mean looking ones just go along with this mans quirks. He must be popular then.

"Anyways, come in! I'll show ya around." Bringing his hand on Akaashi's smaller frame from behind, he flinches from the contact and squeaks silently with the door clicking behind him closed. Sighing, he takes a long look at each corner of the dorm. It only held two beds from each side and two study tables. Typical.

He then reviews over his roommate's side of the dorm, it wasn't as neat as he expected from him. His bag was wode open with papers bulging out, his sheets were torn off the mattress, and what caught his eye was a volleyball jersey displayed on his pillow.

So that's why he was so popular, he thought.

"Sorry about the mess there, didn't expect my roommate to come until tomorrow." Bokuto follows Akaashi's eyes, giving him a sheepishly smile while scratching the back of his head in embarrassment. "But enough about that, I forgot to introduce myself." he swung his right arm toward Akaashi, "My name's Bokuto, Bokuto Koutarou, second year college student."

Fumbling with the box, Akaashi quickly places it down on his side and bows in respect, "Sorry, I didn't know you were a senior....Senpai." he can feel his skin crawl with goosebumps from the honorific rolling out of his tongue like a female character in a shonen manga, "I'm Akaashi Keiji, first year college student. Thank you for having me here."

After that small introduction Akaasgi managed to pull off, he was giving himself a pat on the back for actually interacting with someone normally with out bluntly saying anything out of the blue.

Or so, he thought.

"A-ah, no, it's fine. You can just lay off the honorifics, Kaashi. Bokuto is fine."

He was caught off guard by the sudden nickname he was given. I guess they were in that bases now. Akaashi gets up from his position and gives him a small nod, "Very well, Bokuto."

The room fell into a deep silence, other than the sound of Akaashi's stuff being carefully put away properly. His other stuff were still downstairs in his mother's car, he'd have to hurry un packing. But his movements were not only slow, nor careful, it was as if he was trying not to mess up or do something embarrassing as he felt golden eyes just grazing at the back of his head.

"Say, Kaashi," flinching again from Bokuto's sudden call, "Do you play volleyball? You have pretty big hands for a small boy like you."

"Have you been watching me?" that's what he wanted to say, instead he was flustered and pushed up his glasses to hide his already sweaty self.

"I used to be a setter."

Putting his leg down, Bokuto's eyes lightens up with a sparkle, "Really!? Then join the volleyball club here!" jumping off of his bed while looking at Akaashi with hope glittering his golden eyes.

"There's a volleyball club here?" to Akaashi, all he thought of college was just study, libraries, and cafeteria. He didn't stop to think if there were clubs like the ones during his highschool days.

"Of course! It would've been boring to study if we didn't atleast have a sports club. So, will ya join?" egging him, Bokuto was on his feet awaiting for the males answer.

"No."

Ah, that was too blunt.

"EHH?! Why not? You must be a pretty good setter!" His eyes trail at the tips of his seniors hair. They were dropping down as if they too were also feeling his emotions. Afraid that he might've hurt the males feelings, he quickly apologized and explained.

"Sorry, it's just, I think there will be mroe better setters for your team, Bokuto."

"Hm? But we don't even have a setter."

Akaashi's mouth closes, not knowing how to tell Bokuto that he was just not the type to be outgoing and indulging himself into prying eyes. Sure, he was able to sought out his passion in volleyball back in middle school and highschool, but that was only because he was never noticed by some people. During official games, he'd only have his hair slightly grown a bit to hide his eyes whenever he plays to avoid feeling thw pressure by the crowd. Sometimes, he'd allow himself to be seated during an entire game and watch his other setter take his on his role.

Yet somehow on his third year, he manages to catch the title of being captain.

"I'm just not cut out for it, Bokuto." he twiddled with his fingers from both habit and to ease his sweaty palms, "I'm not a pretty good setter."

"Show me first, and I'll be the one to comment." Bokuto huffs and crosses his arms with a childlike pout forming on his mouth, "And for the record, I think you're pretty."

And that was the beginning of Akaashi's heart always beating harder whenever he was with Bokuto.

After four months of adjusting into the new world, Akaashi had gone through the months according to his neatly made schedule. But even so, the past four months was also filled with Bokuto's never ending pleads for him to join the volleyball club and be their setter.

Which leads to him now panting in his sweaty attire with Bokuto still high on stamina and determination.

"One more, Kaashi. Give me a good toss!" with that being said, the setter runs into his position after one of their teammate's had flung the ball up. With long fingers easily grazing the ball and fitting his hands perfectly, Akaashi delivers it to his right to where Bokuto had already sprung up with his feet.

Like a big bang, the ball sounded as it looked squished by the floor after having the ace smash it down. Pants were heard from all players, but Akaashi paid no attention to the sweat dripping on his forehead nor was feeling exhausted. His eyes were more focused on the way Bokuto had spike the ball and landed perfectly on his feet.

And it was oddly satisfying for Akaashi to keep seeing his only friend send him straight into an awe.

That being said, it wasn't the only thing that was seen by just him, but the fact that he has done it ever since he has gotten in the team, it was so obvious to everyone that he was staring at their ace.

No one bothered to say a word about it, but being with an airheaded captain, at some point without Akaashi by the distance, they would run forward to him and say, "Looks like you've caught a really rare attention there, Bokuto."

And it always ends with, "How do you catch someone's attention though?"

Blowing a whistle far from the team had broken his stare from the captain. Before any of them could gather up, there were cheering from both above and below the sidelines of the gym.

"Bokuto senpai! You did so good!"

"What an amazing spike!"

"You really are an unstoppable ace!"

Most of them were consist of females. From senior to freshmen, they seemed to be oogling more on his physical appearance more than his passion according to Akaashi. It had been like this ever since he joined, every end of their practice, his senior would always be crowded in a herd of praises and swooning ladies. It was said by his teammates that Bokuto was a sucker for praises, and since he was well known to this university everyone of his adoring fans knew that about him.

And it made his insides churn into an unpleasant twist to see him casually talking to them, more so letting them touch him so freely.

"Akaashi, you seem troubled." another one of his senior who was at the same class as Bokuto, Yukie had spoken as she passes him his water bottle. Looking at to where his eyes were seconds ago, she could see Bokuto and couple of males but more on females gather around him with another round of praising and some gifts given.

"Bokuto has always been gaining a lot of attention ever since he entered the campus," Yukie sighs, "It's getting really annoying, we can't even finish a simple meeting after games." looking back at Akaashi, she let's out a small flinch when she saw him looking almost depressed by staring at Bokuto.

"I wish they'd leave him for his peace." no, that wasn't what he meant. Feelings were not a stranger to Akaashi, he wasn't oblivious of his own emotions. He knows what he has between him and the ace, and knowing that and seeing something like this happen all the time crushed him. The only thing the setter didn't know was how obvious he was pinning after the ace to his teammates and managers.

"Hey, hey, Bokuto senpai," calls out by a random girl, "Who's that guy over there, the one wearing number 5." she points at Akaashi, who now averted his eyes immediately away from Bokuto and started talking to Yukie.

"Yeah, I don't think we've seen him before."

"Isn't he that nerd from Class 1?"

"I think sensei offered me a tutor from him."

"Wasn't he wearing glasses? He looks kinda hot without them."

Each comment passes to Bokuto's ears made him bite the insides of his cheeks. There was no way they were going after Akaashi.

"Ah, well, that over there ladies is our setter, Akaashi Keiji. He just joined in a month ago so he's still kinda shy." Konoha, another close friend of Bokuto and his teammate steps in the conversation, "He's single but I don't think it's easy to catch a fella like him." he jabs the ace's chest with his arm, hinting him about something with his eyebrows moving up and down.

Wincing at the slight pain, he glares at Konoha, "I don't think it's a good idea to pin for Kaashi, ladies." he finally spoke, this time his tone somehow getting lower only to be noticed by Konoha who was quietly snickering behind his fist, walking away to go talk to the red haired manager.

"Why not, Bokuto?"

"Does he already have his eye on someone?"

Contemplating whether or not he should admit it, Bokuto blurts out, "Yes! Well no! Soon, someone's already have their eye on him and well," glancing slightly at Akaashi with a hint of longing and impatience, he holds himself together and lets out a sigh, "That someone is trying really hard to get him to like them."

"So, did he got mad at you?" Yukie places her hands on his hips as Konoha approaches her with a sly grin on his face.

"No but he did somehow indirectly admit his love." winking at Yukie, who sighed at his little antics.

"You really are an idiot."

"So are those two."

An hour passes, Bokuto managed to get all of his fans out for them to resume packing up and cleaning the gym. Akaashi was silent after the entire fiasco and placed each ball on the basket carefully, still deep in thought about his friend.

Bokuto notices how quiet he has grown. It wasn't the normal kind of quiet he's known to Akaashi, but rather this one seemed to be sad, "Hey, Yukie. What's up with Kaashi? He hasn't spoken to anyone, let alone, me." finally done lowering the net, Yukie sighs once more and lightly smacks his head with her clipboard, earning a small whine from Bokuto.

"Honestly, can't you take a hint Bokuto?"

For the past four months, since Akaashi's first day in the University. When Bokuto had decided to introduce him to his group of friends, despite them being older than him, they could already see how fond the owl haired male was with the smaller male.

Even before Akaashi was introduced, he was all he talks about with them during dismissal or anytime they'd get together. Everytime they'd go ahead to the cafeteria, they can see his eyes caught in his direction all the time. The kind of eyes that showed so much emotion to volleyball.

And once they got to know Akaashi, they thiught to themselves they were going to be fine knowing Akaashi wasn't as dense as their baby like captain was.

Oh how wrong they were.

Akaashi had gotten close to Yukie for the oast two months since she was mostly on her own. Kaori was always with Konoha and Washio since she was in the same class they were, but different schedules. When Yukie found out that Akaashi did too, have emotions for Bokuto, she was giddy. But when she heard him utter out, "I don't think he likes me." that's when the frustration built up. Doesn't he notice the way he was being stared at or even the lingering hand on his shoulder whenever Bokuto pats him?

"What hint?" his tone was troubled, Bokuto was truly lost at this moment, not knowing what had caused his beloved friend to feel this way.

"Try talking to him later, Bokuto," patting his shoulder, "And please, tell him already." letting go of him, Yukie walks away with the rest of the team, leaving Bokuto behind to think.

"Tell him what though?"

Back to their dorms, Akaashi rubs his eyes using his fingers to ease the tension that had been laid upon his shoulders for the past few hours. Admittedly, he has this kind of bitterness flowing in his blood remembering the events earlier, but after a few seconds, those bitterness occurred to his insecurities. He was used to over thinking a lot when he was alone, but never about another person. It was always about him.

Groaning loudly he lands his face on the plush of his pillow, releasing a shaky breath as he looks at the bedside Bokuto owns, "Why did it had to be you?"

"Who are you talking about Kaashi?"

Jolting up at the sound of the door clicking behind him, Akaashi could only stare into his face with the orange light of their room illuminating his features in the dark night. Being roommates was harder when you were living with someone that literally shakes your entire world.

"Nothing." plopping back down on his pillow, Akaashi exhales deeply. To Bokuto, it seemed Akaashi was more frustrated to see him here, but to the timid male, he was just calming his heart from beating erratically inside of him. Hearing his footsteps closing in, he thoughts to himself he was finally going to sleep. What surprised him and made his face flush against the pillow was when he felt his bed dip down from his feet as Bokuto sat down.

"Are you mad at me Kaashi?" Bokuto looks at his back side in worry, "You haven't talked to me after practice. You even left without me today." There was a tinge of guilt inside Akaashi. He didn't realize he left Bokuto alone after he left since they always walk together back in the dorms.

When Bokuto heard no reply, he continues, "Yukie told me something about not taking a hint on something? I don't really get it," golden eyes averting up on their dim light of the room, "But the more I thought about it on the way back, all I could think of was you, Kaashi."

Holy shit, he wasn't going to do it now.

"I know it sounds lame, but I really did thought of what she said and all that pops out was you, you get where I'm getting at, right?" Bokuto had his arms on his legs by now from moving into motion as he spoke. Meanwhile if Akaashi were to sit up, his heartbeat might've been already heard.

Gulping quietly, feeling Bokuto's eyes watching him intently, all he could do was shake his head slowly. He wanted him to go on. He needed to hear where he was going with this. He can feel the vibrations of his light chuckling from his body as Bokuto sighs.

"Usually I'm not afraid of doing something out of the blue, y'know? You've seen me do some weird crap all the time." Akaashi's light laugh muffles against his pillow as he continues, "But when it comes to these, it really gets into me. Telling someone how you feel about them."

The last line made Akaashi almost ascend to heaven. Was he dreaming? Was he expecting too much to know what was going to happen next? The numerous scenarios running through his head all mixing up, causing his cheeks to flare up. They got worse when Bokuto landed a soft palm on the small of his back, jolting a bit from the sudden contact.

"I guess what I'm trying to say is that," Bokuto pauses, shifting his position closer to Akaashi, leaning his head next to his ear, "I like you."

Shivering at his warm breath against his ear, Akaashi bit his lower lip at the small rush of arousal from his lower regions, clenching his thighs together to ease himself.

"I like you. I don't know why it connects to Yukie's words, but somehow telling you this at this moment felt kinda right." he gave his back a small stroke for comfort, noticing him tensing after uttering out his sudden confession, "You probably don't like me, Kaashi. It's not everyday you see someone the same gender as you say that nonchalantly." chuckling out sadly, he smiles, "Still, I'm still here for you. So please, whatever is bothering you, tell me. We can dismiss what just happened now."

Not liking the end of his sentence, Akaashi grabs his hand from behind and sits up quick, "No! That's not what I meant, Bokuto." both were in shock and daze. Their faces held a tinge of redness in them, for Bokuto, Akaashi looked way more tempting than he already was with his added messy appearance.

"I-I'm sorry I left you unintentionally." he glances down at his smaller hands being held by himself, fighting away the butterflies as his feet were getting colder, "I was just really troubled by those people," he explains, "It had been a bother to me that you were always crowded by so many people...That I began to look down at myself." he grips his hand as he thought about how painful it was to endure the same scene as earlier everyday.

"What's worse is that I have feelings for you.." Finally admitting with quivering lips, "I like you, but there were so many people better than a squanny nerd like me." sighing, he lowers his forehead on Bokuto's hand that he held, avoiding eye contact. Despite having to hear his confession first, he was in fear of the future he had no idea what held the possibilities that might hurt him.

"Kaashi, why do you think I came here, sitting down on your bed, and telling you that I like you," each line he said, his voice was going lower, huskier, followed by moving his hand away from his forehead and cupping his cheek, "And just you."

Akaashi was shaking on his spot. He didn't know what to do consisting this was his first time to be experiencing this. And his first instinct?

Was kissing him.

It caught Bokuto off guard and balance, luckily he stabilizes himself by carrying his weight with one hand leaned on the mattress, and the other pulling Akaashi closer in the kiss. Both males were stuck being oblivious to each other, now getting addicted into something that they've wanted for so long ever since they've encountered each other.

Akaashi whimpers a bit feeling Bokuto's tongue swipe his lower lips for entrance, in obligating, he allows himself to be dominated by the muscled male, letting himself gently fall back into bed with him hovering over him. Hands making their way on his sides to squeeze them, making him squeak and melt into the kiss.

Pulling away panting from the loss of oxygen, they both stared at each other in daze and with so much love.

"I guess you made your own point there, Kaashi." Bokuto teases, lacing his hands together from the side of Akaashi's head.

"Shut up, please." he scoffs, pushing his head to his side to feel less embarrassed of his vulnerable state. Bokuto chuckles, peppering the side of his cheek with kisses and affection.

"I'm kidding, Keiji. I've been wanting to kiss you too."

He sees the way Akaashi's cheeks reddened from calling him by his first name. It felt so right coming from his mouth. And he loved every second of it.

"So why don't you do it again..."

"Do what again?"

"Koutarou..."

"I'M KIDDING— KAASHI WAIT NO, DON'T GET UP."

He laughs, and it was music to Bokuto's ears. Making him flustered above him. Akaashi pulls him by the neck, an inch aay from his face, "Does this mean I'm your boyfriend now?" he asks, his voice lacing with worry.

"Well you are my boyfriend, but you can ve the girlfriend if you want." Bokuto teases once more, before giving his pouting lips a short kiss of confirmation,

"But yes, I'm all yours now, Keiji."

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The time has come at last everyone. After a very rough year and a very tense end to Volume 7, Volume 8 has arrived. I have no idea what to expect this time around except that it’s going to be all out war. I’m scared. You’re scared. We’re all scared. But this is still RWBY, so it can’t get too dark and depressing... can it? Well only one way to find out. I’ve done my post for the opening, but now it’s time to get to the meat. So for the first time this volume, let us begin by reviewing Chapter 1, appropriately titled ‘Divide’.

Overview

We begin with an image of a young woman. A woman who seems to be down on her luck, wearing tattered clothes and scrubbing at the floor by hand. It then cuts to Cinder, clawing at Neo’s chair in the same manor as she directs Neo towards the Whale Grimm. The two enter, revealing the Whale to essentially be a large battleship and waiting in her throne is Salem. Cinder presents the Relic of Knowledge, though she claims the credit for herself which does not amuse Neo. Tyrian is also there, who mocks her for getting outwitted by a bunch of kids to begin with. Salem asks about Neo, who Cinder merely calls a ‘useful asset’.

Emerald, Mercury, and Hazel are also there and with some new duds! Emerald is elated to see Cinder alive, but the Fall Maiden simply silences her. When Tyrian again mocks her for spending her time fixing past mistakes, Cinder is determined to track down Penny and get the Winter Maiden powers. Salem, however, makes it clear that she is not to do s. After all while Cinder is no pawn, she is NOT a player. She is playing Salem’s game, not her own. Cinder concedes, saying that without Salem, she is nothing.

We cut to the slums, where Oscar has taken refuse. But he isn’t alone for long as he is picked up by Ruby, Weiss, and Maria. Oscar feels guilty for trying to talk to Ironwood and how he made all the wrong choices, but Ruby comforts him, saying that all tried to do what was best. The heroes have taken refuge wit the Happy Huntresses, who are running their own operations from within an abandoned bar. The others are relieved that Oscar is okay, but they sadly still don’t know about Qrow. When asked how he got to the slums, Oscar simply says it was a long story, opting to not reveal Ozpin’s return until he has finished talking to him.

Joanna goes to the group, now fully expecting them to work to help Mantle. The plan? Due to the Grimm numbers and the heat being gone, the plan is to take the refuges into the crater below Atlas. It’s dangerous, but it is warm and will allow a singular location where everyone can be watched over safely. Weiss makes a remark about not ever being able to sleep again, a clear humorous quip, but Joanna makes it clear that it’s either work, or be branded as baggage. Yang agrees, saying that they need to help with Mantle. Ruby, however, argues that they need to warn the other kingdoms. Pietro confirms that while not finished, Amity did have significant process made to it. However it needs the green-light from a terminal and aside from the one in Ironwood’s office, the only other one is in the military compound.

Yang, seeing Amity as a lost cause and that not being guaranteed to get help, sticks to her plan. Ruby argues however that Salem is going to attack the other kingdoms once she’s done with Atlas and thus, all fo Remnant is in danger. At this point, Yang addresses that despite following her lead at the start, she feels that Ruby’s lead has... well, gone badly. In other words, she feels that Ruby has failed in her duty. Ruby is clearly hurt by this and Yang starts to explain further, but Ren interrupts, saying that helping Mantle is something that they can do now. Nora however sides with Ruby regarding the larger picture.

With the tension up, Jaune steps in. He suggests that they can simply divide up and do both. Yang and her group assist Mantle, Ruby and her group go and get Amity. Ruby disagrees as this is causing the divide that Salem wants, but Oscar says that working separately doesn’t mean that they are against each other. Penny, who has been quiet and to herself to this point, suggests that she simply give Salem the Relic. But no one believes that Salem will keep her word about backing down and all agree against this.

Thus, the heroes split up. Ruby has Weiss and Blake of course, but to Jaune and Ren’s surprise, Nora decides to also go with them. Penny also goes despite the risk to help the group bypass security. Yang agrees to it, but she makes to leave to do, as she says, what she can. A comment that clearly strikes Blake. Before she goes though, Pietro gives her the keys to the pharmacy so that they can get some of the equipment he had been developing for them. Thus we have Yang, Jaune, Ren, and Oscar in Mantle, while Ruby, Weiss, Blake, Penny, and Nora plan to get up to Atlas.

Ruby is still upset by the split up, but Blake tries to assure her that they are still united. Maria can bring bring Pietro to Amity once it’s retrieved and Weiss has an idea on how they can get to the kingdom. Before she can reveal it however, Penny’s scroll goes off. It’s Ironwood. he asks Penny to come back, claiming that he’s worried for her safety and he needs her for Atlas’ sake. Ruby takes the Scroll, refusing any cooperation unless Ironwood changes his mind and helps Mantle. Ironwood blasts at her for still caring about Mantle when Salem is outside Atlas’ doorstep and a threat to all of Remnant. Whatever happens, he says it will be on Ruby’s hands. Ruby hugs a clearly shaken Penny, but her expression conveys that the general’s words hurt her as well.

Back in Atlas, the remaining Ace-Ops are in a room with Clover’s corpse. Ironwood is watching form another as Winter is receiving treatment for her injuries. She’s given what looks like cybernetic armor pieces, and Ironwood himself has replaced his singed arm with a new cybernetic. He is informed of the prisoners being interrogated and thanks Winter for all she did, but is still tense due to the Grimm horde. When Winter asks what he’s going to do, Councilman Sleet and Councilwoman Camilla enter, demanding to know what Ironwood is doing with his recent actions. Ironwood says that he’s going to do what he has to... no matter the cost. As such, eh steps out and coldly shoots Sleet to death, horrifying not only Camilla, but the Ace-Ops and Winter. Harriet steps out and looks at Winter, but despite their shock, both more or less resign to the fact of this being necessary.

Back at the Whale, Salem has some kind of pod that she opens up. She has questions for the Relic, but first she needs the one who can reveal to her how it works. She holds the Lamp before some kind of slobbering, eyeless Grimm. Her orders? For it to find and bring Ozpin to her, bringing the first chapter of the volume to a close.

Review

Holy crap people... I was expecting tension, but.... damn guys...

Okay, we’ll start with the villains. So... that first scene, huh? Well after years of waiting for it, it looks like we may finally be getting some Cinder focus/backstory. We’ve been waiting a long time, huh? Her scene here really shows a lot. Cinder downplays Neo’s contributions, taking the credit for herself. She cruelly tells Emerald to be quiet, despite having not seen the girl in who knows how long. She still wants the Maiden powers, despite how she has continuously failed not counting the Fall Maiden. The usual smugness and power-hunger that we expect from Cinder is in full force here.

Yet we also have Salem’s words to her. Salem makes it clear that Cinder is a mere chess piece. Which isn’t what Cinder wants. She wants to the the chessmaster. She wants to do what she wants. She is constantly baffled by Salem’s choices. Yet, she continues to submit to the wicked witch. Considering she’s evil Cinderella, it really speaks a lot about Cinder’s mindset. She wants power. She wants control. But she continues to obey someone else in hopes that it gets her what she wants. These two mindsets can’t co-exist forever. I’m not convinced at all of Cinder being redeemed, she’s done far too many cruel things imo. But I do think that by this end of this volume, she’s going to decide what she wants for herself, and whatever it is the path to it likely won’t be pretty especially with how Neo is clearly getting fed up.

So now let’s do Oscar. I... do not like how they did him reuniting with the group. It’s another ‘Oscar is in trouble... oops! No he isn’t!’ psyche out and it’s getting real old. Especially since there’s zero build-up to it. Ruby and the others just... find him. Maybe he called them? I don’t know, there’s no clear indication. But after how dramatic the end of Volume 7 was, having him just reunite with the gang again feels very anti-climactic. I can only assume that they realized that with so much going on, they needed to get it out of the way and do it early, especially with him begin Salem’s target. But I don’t think it was handled the best it could have been.

But we do have Oscar deciding to keep Open’s return a secret. The reason being that he hasn’t finished talking to him yet. Yeah, Oscar’s clearly not 100% okay with what happened prior and wants everything set straight first before he reveals anything. But at the same time... this is Oscar keeping a secret back form the others. And secret keeping is not only what got everyone angry at Oz, but contributed to the current situation. It just... doesn’t come off as the best move to make in this situation. Then again, we don’t know if the heroes are in a forgiving mood, so... it’s hard for me to not understand his reasonings, at least. But it’s gonna have to come out sooner or later, especially since Oscar is short on time.

Then we have the conflict between the heroes. The theme of the volume seems to be division, at least so far. We have Ren and Nora still in conflict. Ren wants to be able to help now, Nora wants to save everyone in Mantle. Volume 7 set it up, and it seems that this one is going to push it even mroe. But then we have Ruby and Yang. While they don’t start yelling, ti is very clear that they are at odds. Same deal, Yang wants to do what can be done now as mantle is in danger. Ruby is concerned about Remnant and the lives of the world and wants to warn the kingdoms. Bit then we have Yang bringing up how things have gone downhill under Ruby’s lead. To be fair, she seems guilty for it and she does try to further explain before Ren interrupts her. But, in essence, it is her saying that she doesn’t trust Ruby’s lead. After putting her faith in her sister fully in V5, the recent events has Yang doubtful.

Not gonna lie... I have been wanting this for a long time. V7 had a lot of hints that Yang in particular was not on the same page as Ruby. She was the one who questioned her lying to Ironwood. It was her who proposed the plan to Blake about revealing Amity to Robyn, also expressing her doubts about Ruby’s choices there. But despite it, she still followed her. But now, with Ironwood’s descent, Yang’s faith is shaken. IDT it’s gone, but it is rocky. I’ve been critical of Yang and have had issues with her decisions, the Amity reveal to Robyn especially. However... I can’t fault her either. She has the right intentions, and her logic about Mantle isn’t wrong. There are people in danger right now. They have the ability to help those people. Saving the lives in immediate danger is important and is their job as Huntresses. I don’t blame Yang at all in her decision and her sticking to it despite Ruby disagreeing.

But I don’t think that Ruby is wrong either. She is right about how Salem will go against the rest of the world as soon as Atlas has fallen. Countless lives are in danger on a global scale. Vacuo, Mistral, Vale, Menagerie, Patch, every character that we have ever known will be at risk unless they are warned. Amity is the best ticket to doing so. Ruby’s drive has always been to save everyone. The Happy Huntresses have the situation under control, so why not focus on the larger picture? It’s the most stressed I think we’ve ever seen Ruby and it’s certainly the first time we’ve seen her upset at Yang like this.  There’s just... no good options really. Either way, someone suffers. War is Hell.

There’s also the fact that as the leader, whether it was directly her fault or not, the heroes failure does rest on her shoulders. She is the leader, that is her burden. it is the burden that she accepted. She was the one who made the call to hide Salem’s immortality to Ironwood. It was her who alerted everyone about the martial law, officially marking the heroes as enemies of Atlas. Now is it her fault? Not fully. Ironwood’s choices are not her fault, but one can argue that had she just told Ironwood the truth upfront, it may not have happened. Ironwood guilts her over this, claiming that whatever happens will be her fault. Now we all know that's bullshit and Ironwood is even more to blame... but the question is if Ruby knows that. Judging her expressions... I’m thinking it’s gonna haunt her.

Then we have Penny. Oh gosh Penny. The poor girl just seems so utterly broken. She’s quiet, to herself, and whenever she does talk it’s in a pained whisper. The girl got framed for murder, and then watched an old woman die and be given her powers. She clearly is at a loss of what to do. She’s ready to sacrifice herself to Salem to save everyone, that is how much n despair this girl is. Then we have Ironwood try88ing to manipulate her into returning to his side. He needs her for Atlas’ safety. he’s concerned for her. It’s all lies, but Penny is concerned about Atlas. She doesn’t want to fight like this. She’s conflicted onw hat to do with this divide. The poor girl just... needs a hug. A lot of them.

Then we have Ironwood. Oh God... Ironwood. I know that he had snapped, but for him to shoot Sleet like he did? With no emotion. In just one motion, he killed a man dead. Someone whose only crime was wanting answers for Ironwood’s actions. The council is in no position of power, they were no threat. Ironwood did it simply because he doesn’t want to deal with them anymore as he said at the end of V7. He’s going to do whatever he deems appropriate to protect Atlas. When all he’s doing is letting fear control him and further seal Atlas’ fate as dead. Like I said in the V7 reviews, Ironwood is at his point of no return. So far, he’s only cementing that position further. His fall was tragic, but now all that remains is a heartless soldier.

We also see the aftermath of Clover’s death and Winter’s injuries. It’s not much, but it tells us a lot. The Ace-Ops leader is dead. No one is happy about it, but especially not Marrow and Harriet. Marrow by far expresses the most sadness in his expression. God I am still hoping that he comes ot his senses. But then there’s Harriet. She is angry. She briefly growls even. She already feels betrayed by RWBY, now in her mind her leader was killed by Qrow. It’s only going to add fuel to the fire with her wanting to take them down. Then we have Winter. She’s in bad shape. She seems to be benched for now, but IDK if that’s gonna last. But to say I’m worried is an understatement. Especially with her noticeable horror at Ironwood killing Sleet. She internalizes it as she has been, but can she continue to do so as Ironwood continues to descent into madness? I’m really hoping not...

Finally, the end scene. So yeah... Salem is targeting Oscar. So it looks like Salem knows what the Relics can do, but she doesn’t know how to make them work. Makes sense, only Ozpin knew. Remember, Oscar found out through the mind-link and told the heroes. Plus of course Salem would want Oscar. After all, she hasn’t seen her former husband in quiet a long time, has she? And we know fully well that she’s going to rub his demise in his face. Oscar is not in for a fun time this volume... then again, is anyone?

There’s a clear seriousness here. Moreso than any volume. Weiss’ quit about sleeping is very quickly shot down. The stakes are at the highest they’ve ever been. It is outright war now. The heroes are on their own. Mantle is in a desperate situation. Ironwood is barley holding out against Salem’s invasion. People who should be allies are divided to the point of no return. While we know from some sneak peaks that the volume won’t be devoid of humor/levity, it’s clearly not going to be the light-hearted fun that we’ve had in the past. Not even Ruby and Penny, two of the most pure-hearted characters in the show, display any of those usual traits. This might as well be the equivalent of Order of the Phoenix, where the kids can only rely on themselves and where everting has gone to Hell. That ended on a bittersweet note and only got darker from there. RWBY works in a  similar ‘grow up with the audience’ approach as Harry Potter, so... yeah... prepare yourselves folks. It’s gonna be a bumpy ride.

Chapter Two Predictions

I think we’ll be checking in on Qrow and Robyn. Thus we’ll be seeing the interrogations go down (which we saw footage of in the trailer). We’ll also likely see Jaques and Watts. IDK i Ironwood will go to Qrow directly or any of the other Ace-Ops, but it won’t be pretty. Qrow is likely still feeling guilty for what happened, but I absolutely believe that if Ironwood confronts him, he’s going to give him the verbal lashing that he deserves. I’m not when they'll plot a prison break, but I assume it’ll happen sooner or later.

As for the heroes... it’s hard to say. My guess is we’ll be following mainly Team JYRO as they get the equipment from Pietro’s lab. So we might see that clip they showed at SDCC as well as the secret clip of them leading civilians tot he crater from a few weeks back. Which would also mean first fight scene of the volume, yay! We might see RWBNP as well, but I’m not sure. Maybe some villain stuff as well, like maybe we’ll get more hints about Cinder or something minor. Either way, the tension I think will continue forward.

Chapter Stats

Favorite Character: Cinder Fall Favorite Moment: The opening villain scene Least Favorite Moment: Oscar retrieval due to the anti-climax after V7 Favorite Voice Actor: Jen Taylor (Salem) Favorite Animation: The Blind Grimm Rating: 9/10

Final Thoughts

This was an excellent volume opener. The stakes are established right off the bat, along with the tension and character conflicts. This was so good that I didn’t even realize that there wasn’t a fight scene, the first time since Volume 5. Which honestly, we didn’t need one. They had more than enough to kick this volume off. This promises to be a very dark, very intense volume. I am terrified for whatever is coming, but like Hell am I missing it. An excellent start~!

[docmanda]

I got tagged by FixaIdea :-) Thank you dear <3

My AO3 is mandalorian come have a look around and see if you like something ^^

Fandoms

At the moment I am in Danmei-hell mostly, with TGCF and SVSSS being the ones I write most about, I´m reading a bunch of novels atm and am rewatching The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty. I do like MDSZ too but haven´t gotten around to write something proper for that. Aside from these I am an old die hard Star Wars fan, love Tolkien/LOTR/Hobbit, dabble around in the MCU...basically I have a lot of things I like and I tend to get hyperfocused on something and then hop to the next thing^^

Where You Post

on AO3, with links to my stuff on tumblr. head canon talk and stuff will usually stay on tumblr unless it becomes a snippet/drabble/one shot/epic series than it´ll go on AO3

Most Popular Oneshot

The most popular, true, just a single chapter one shot per kudos would be As Empty As Death , a TGCF, Hualian/pre-HeHuaLian short story (it is part of the As Golden As the Sun-series though)

Most Popular Multichap

Running through your Veins, my (just freshly finished) SVSSS, LiuShen Succubus-Extra fix it fic that ran away from me ^^

Favourite Story You’ve Written So Far

Hm I do like the things I write otherwise I would not continue writing them ^^” But I do like my As Golden As the Sun-verse and my favorite here is my He Xuan backstory Salt from Our Eyes and For the End of my Broken Heart

Fic You Were Nervous to Post

Hm. I´m not really nervous when I post things? I mean I am an self indulgent writer so I only write and post things that bring me joy? Salt From Our Eyes was probably the one where I was a little concerned with how people would take it, just because it comes with some STRONG warnings and very unhappy things. I wa smore worried about not tagging something properly than the actual fic though

How Your Choose Your Titles

Hahahahaa...yeah, that. I do tend to go for bits of song lyrics sometimes? Or I just stare the thing and hope I have an epiphany...

Do You Outline

Not really no. I usually just intend to write a small little things that then runs away from me and I do end up with basically loosely interconnected, sometimes multi-chapter fics instead of one cohesive story (I kinda do regularly have to reread stuff before I can keep writing the next chapter to not loose track of smth ^^).

The only thing where I have kinda like an idea spreadsheet is Leaving on a Jet Plane...and since that fic has been stuck at chapter 2 for weeks now that ain´t working out so well^^”

Complete

Well, officially only Running through your Veins and Whumptober since October is over already^^I do have plans to add some more things to the series-type fics I have and fill some holes 

In Progress

I haven´t yet thought about what I want to work on next tbh?

Coming Soon / Not Yet Started

Maybe something TSOMD? I want to fill out/finish my current projects a bit mroe before I start smth new (I am always open for prompts and ideas though^^)

Prompts?

Yes, always^^ I usually do end I writing something for them and sometimes a small little shared head canon idea or prompt can lead to  55,682  words of losely interconnected fics ^^”

Upcoming Work You’re Most Excited About

As I said, haven´t decided what will be next yet ^^”

Tagging

@dandy-lions, @zoeymcroyan, @ruoyeming, @justatouchofgoldsickness

and whoever else feels like doing this, please feel free I can never remember handles when I need them ^^”

[lingdidi]

tagged by: @completely-fused i’m sorry it took me so long to get to it :((

tagging: no one as always oOP

rules: answer the questions and tag people you’d like to get to know better!

as always i will put a read mroe for people who are not interested hehe

what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

everyone nowadays calls me Berry even irl! it’s been like this for many years now skjfnsdkjfn but i also like being called by my real name! (for those who know what it is, of course lol)

when is your birthday?

july 4th~

where do you live?

i live in spain!

three things you are doing right now?

i’m listening to this song i really liked back in???? 2015? 2016? i suddenly remembered it yesterday skjfdsnkjf

i’m about to answer the ask kee sent me to ship my mutuals with golcha!

i’m... breathing? i’m not doing much more and tbh i’m a little bored sjknfkdsj but i guess the ships will entertain me sjkfndskj

four fandoms that have piqued your interest?

to be honest i think besides kpop fandoms i don’t think i’m in many fandoms? earlier this year i watched The Untamed and i loved it so that could count, I’m watching Guardian with mirf now so maybe that too? i can’t think of much more rip

how has the pandemic been treating you?

:) if uni didn’t exist i’d say it was pretty decent and could have been way worse. in fact, this summer despite the pandemic i was the happiest i had been in a very long time and i just??? felt sooo mentall healthy. but of course, when uni came back, everything went down again and here we are. 3rd year of uni and the worst so far and by far :)))))))))

a song you can’t stop listening to right now?

belle epoque by onf!! i feel like most people know it sjknfkjdsnfk but it’s really my comfort song lately... it’s so beautiful

school, university, occupation, other?

as i said i’m in uni :>

do you prefer heat or cold?

i prefer cold!! if i get cold i can get comfy with many layers of clothing or blankets or anything but?? if it’s too hot??? i could go full nakde and turn the fan on and still suffer (: and i hate sweating

name one fact others may not know about you

i...... this will probs be unexpected for everyone except isa and mirf who know it all but.. i really..... really like dragon ball z since i was a kid snkfjdsnkj i may not be the most knowledgeable person about it but i love it. i slept over at isa’s beach house for a week in summer and one night past midnight we were in bed and i. talked to her about the whole story for probably over an hour. in fact when i asked her what’s a fact others don’t know about me she said “that you’re the ultimate goku fan” so that’s why i settled for this sjnfsdkjf i like it so much that when they released the game dragon ball z kakarot in january this year i wanted it SO much but i couldn’t buy it for reasons. i settled for watching streamers playing it but i kept wanting it the whole year and around september i was so desperate to play something about dragon ball z that i PLAYED A 2004 GBA GAME OF IT ON AN EMULATOR ON MY LAPTOP. my brother told his friend while chatting on his ps4 that he saw me playing that game and that i had been wanting the new one so much but we were waiting for a good sale so we could buy it together. but his friend, who had the game and already finished playing it long ago, felt so much pity for me that he came to my house the next day, handed me the game and said “take as long as you need to play it”. i still haven’t been able to finish the game because of uni but as much as i wanna give it back because it’s not mine i... dread the moment i finish the game and have to say goodbye to it forever... fun fact i even have a dragon ball shirt that resembles the Turtle School uniform (a martial arts school of the db universe) and a little figurine of my favorite character.......

are you shy?

yeah i’d say i am very shy :))) and on top of that i’m very awkward and a v big introvert but surprisingly?? a lot of people say i manage well enough in social situations when i have to,,, good for me sjfndsjknfsj

biggest pet peeve?

this may be very typical but the sound of chewing (if it’s with their mouth open it’s extra annoying to me, but when i can still hear it even when they chew with their mouth closed........), sitting next to someone and they dON’T STOP shaking their leg(s), or this stupid weird habit my brother has of making farting noises with his hands?? like why does he even do that

what’s your main blog?

this one!

list your sideblogs and what they’re used for

GOD, GET READY (i even have more but those are just either urls i hoard or a sEcReT -if you ever find them you’ll know it’s mine real quick tho sjkfdsjkf-)

@/noirdecoco: art blog with isa!

@/baecobie: fic rec blog that i haven’t used in the longest time ever

@/angelwenning: the untamed blog that i haven’t used in t-

@/daengni: noir blog with isa that we used like two days

@/youthhasboyfriends: group blog for bf headcanons of ip+qcyn trainees. some were hilarious sjfndskj

@/mcsungjin: the most cursed blog (with isa)

@/chengchengfans: listen this is one of my favorite sideblogs ever. it’s a pity that it’s dead (with isa too)

now some honorable mentions of a couple urls i hoard: speedidi (i believe mirf never posted her superhero didi fic so i could never use this url), didikong (if you’ve been following me for a very long time, you’ll remember didikong day.), tiddydidi

is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?

i may be veeeeeeeeeeeery slow with replies sometimes but 1- i’m really busy with uni as i said :( 2- sometimes i just don’t feel like talking at all (not even because i’m feeling sad or anything but sometimes i just wanna do something else)

[journal-three]

Honestly White's reaction just felt like insight into her still being kind of shit. She's all high & mighty on her powers, got so overwhelmed by Steven's emotions she got blown back and was immediately ITS NOT STEVEN ANYMORE, the only one like this. I can understand being bummed we dont get more insight into Worm's thoughts but that's the vibe I got. You can see it again later on when she kind of apprehensively touches & puts on a nervous smile in the big hug out while everyone is hugging n crys

(Same anon as before) I also think they had it this way since either way we’d probably get the pity party that gets broken up by Connie, but now we streamline it and can have mroe room for the pity & connie’s speech. If they really wanted they could’ve Worm broadcasting it on all the electronics or something but we did kind of already do that the episode prior so just seems like diff priorities. Maybe if it was a 20 minute ep but idk, that’s a lot of repeat ground to cover maybe?

That’s a good point. I’m not really mad about how they handled it, I understand they got the point they wanted through in the amount of time they had (except the idea that a breakdown means the person isnt themselves anymore which is kinda weird but that’s a whole different conversation.)

I did like how apprehensive she was about hugging Steven, I thought that was appropriate. She’s aware she’s one of his biggest triggers, and I think they showed that she didn’t want to abuse that. 

I wish they had covered some ground repeatedly. I know they didn’t have time for it, but it felt like there was a lot of stuff set up with no payoff. Rose’s portrait, Steven’s speech in Little Homeschool about “making decisions from the heart,” and his apparent conflict with his gem half, to name a few. I’ll concede it makes a sort of sense, because it’s an epilogue series with an open ending. We’re supposed to wonder how stuff plays out because these characters are still “alive,” their story is still going. 

Mostly it’s that this story has always been told from Steven’s perspective, and his breakdown especially should’ve been about him, from his perspective, about his feelings. We got that from Connie, who literally told that to all of the gems, but at the same time the show dropped its own moral? And focused on the gems’ feelings and perspectives over Steven’s? 

eeehhhh I don’t know, something about it just rubs me weird. 

[thesardonicwriter]

Harry x Reader

Request: Anon - if you wouldn't mind taking a request for earth 2 harrison wells x reader, could you maybe do one where harry is a bit under the weather but hiding it from the team and the reader comforts/takes care of him? I love your work!!

A/N Just finished writing up a roommate agreement and I’m not ignoring my sociology teacher. I’m paying for these classes! Anyway, Let’s get started with ignoring my responsibilities. 

Also, in terms of requests, I’m not really taking them right now. I want to, but at the same time I do need to focus on school. Finals start next(?) week and I honestly need to get a bunch of my grades up so I can transfer colleges. 

Warnings: None

You were focusing on your computer when you heard it: a sneeze following by a coughing fit. You had been training to be a medical doctor before you switched to physics and you had been in medical school long enough to know that that was the beginning of some kind of sickness. More importantly, Harry was the only other person in your flat and he had been promising you for the last week or so that he was fine. You had had a feeling that he was lying, but you had let it slide. No more.

You marched across the hall. Harry was rubbing his nose with a Kleenex. Even mroe evidence. 

“I knew it,” you said triumphantly.

“Knew what?” Harry asked.

“I knew you were getting sick.”

“I am not. I’m fine.”

“I know how you operate, Harrison Wells. You say that you’re fine and let yourseld get worse and worse until you literally cannot move because you’re overworked.”

“I do no-”

“And more urgently, you’ve never been sick in this dimension before,” you let your worry show, “so we don’t know how this will affect you. A common cold could kill you.”

“(Y/N), I’ll be fine.”

“Nope. Go lay down. Doctor’s orders.”

“Physicist doctor, not medical doctor.”

“Both. Go. Now.”

He looked at you, appraising your body language and reluctantly agreed. Harry walked over to the cot and laid down. You heard him grumble something under his breath that sounded like a curse and you hid a smile. Harry never let other people take care of him. He was always too busy worrying about everything else and everyone else, even if he denied it. It was also true that you didn’t get to see him as often as you wanted to. Harry had asked you to come to Earth-2 with him, but you didn’t. You visited every once and a while, when Cisco could open a portal, but you never stayed very long. Team Flash needed you here. Moments like these were what you needed. Just the two of you, even if Harry was sick.

You took his temperature. It was definitely higher than normal, but not high enough to cause any real concern. Maybe he had to flu, but you doubted it. You left in in the room with strict orders to stay put. You weren’t entirely sure that he would, but the look you sent back over your shoulder was enough to scare him to stay in bed. 

After looking through your cupboards for a moment, you found what you were looking for. A can of soup. You weren’t sure how long it had been in that cupboard, but it was well before the expiration date and that was what was important. You leaned back against the counter while you waited for it to heat up, looking up at the ceiling. You couldn’t help but smile at this turn of events. Harry had made a lot of mistakes. There were things you wished he hadn’t done and things you were grateful for. Still, he always made sure that you were safe and taken care of. This was a small way that you could return the favour. It was the only way you felt you could for the time being. 

Finally, the soup was ready. You put it in a bowl and walked back to the room, happy to see that Harry had listened to you. He had stayed put. You sat next to him. Harry took the bowl in his lap and took a sip.

“I feel better already,” he smiled.

It was rare to see a genuine smile on his face. It was always small and closed, but reserved fully for you. 

“Good. I’m glad. Can’t have you getting horribly ill on us now, can we?”

“No, I suppose not.”

A/N That’s two stories within a week. Who am I? What happened? No clue, honestly, but let’s not question it quite yet. Still have mixed feelings about tumblr. I think I’m just going to avoid actively looking into any fandom tags. Anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed the story! I hope to get back to writing more in the future, but I’ve really been focusing on like full-on stories, not just one shots. I like have a full plot line.

[roxannc]

❝ Girls like her were born in a storm. They have lightning in their souls. Thunder in their hearts. And chaos in their bones. ❞ AISHA DEE? No, that’s actually ROXANNE WEASLEY. A SIXTH YEAR student, this RAVENCLAW student is sided with MCGONAGALL’S ARMY. SHE identifies as CIS-WOMAN and is a HALFBLOOD who is known to be DRAMATIC, HAUGHTY, and TEMPERAMENTAL but also PASSIONATE, SOCIABLE, and OPENMINDED.

LINKS: stats, pinboard, character tag. CHARACTER PARALLELS: donna pinciotti (that 70s show), amy pond (doctor who), amy santiago (brooklyn 99), dan wilds (aftg) HELLO just a quick note from me mar, some of this is for sure up for change, mostly regarding the wotters and family in general!! besides that, here we finally Go

history

roxanne voice: i was born in an iconic family because it was my destiny to be iconic! but --- in all honesty --- she is right. roxanne is born to george & angelina one hot summer morning, waking up the whole damn hospital with her crying and huge lungs. she has a brother --- fred, who’s officially her half brother, but that’s not something that makes him anything less than her brother. and then there’s heaps of cousins, almost too many of them, and uncles and aunts and other people to call family, and from day one, it’s all good.

roxanne was a chaotic kid, growing up. a cheerful and energetic and exciting one, but a chaotic one. dirty walls and destruction followed her wherever she went. a bit of a hurricane of a girl, even then. roxanne discovered her love for quidditch at a young age, too, and how couldn’t she? it was in her blood and all around her and there was something bloody magical about flying.

a love for people and laughter and loving people was also discovered. roxanne grew up in a warm environment and had plenty of reasons to love the people she loved, even if she needed none. there was, of course, tragedy in her blood too, an awareness that there’s horrible things in this world --- an awareness that she buried as soon as she was able to.

upon arrival at hogwarts, the hat took a while to decide between gryffindor and ravenclaw but went with the latter, in the end. was roxanne disappointed? a bit, maybe. she would have liked to be sorted into the same house as her parents and brother and a lot of her family but the hat had made some solid points and heck, she wouldnt be roxanne if she looked at ravenclaw as a challenge.

was eventually sorted in ravenclaw because her mind, in the end, is her motivator. she might be a very physically active and present person, but she thinks. a lot. about everything. ( with an exception for moments where she acts on impulse. ) roxanne is a very bright individual, to be honest --- she’s able to be booksmart and she likes learning. she likes challenging herself. above all, she just has a Very open mind and is always looking to broaden it.

is a whirlwind. roxanne joined and dropped clubs like no other, switched favourite subject every month, delved into odd sections of the library to become an expert on rare subjects ... it was a lot. her grades suffered under it, too --- roxanne might be a loyal person, but she’s damn flighty. there were, of course, passions that she stuck with. quidditch, of course, but also justice. roxanne, as a queer woman of colour, has always felt very passionately for human rights issues and knows shit about it too. always down for a debate over lunch. getting on the quidditch team was one of the best days of her damn life. getting the quidditch badge later on was an even better day. roxanne loves the sport so much, wants to go pro once she’s graduated, is crazy competitive. she’s a gay jock. another cliché character by mar learned eventually how to focus and keep her grades up, but she does have trouble motivating herself for things that dont interest her. she’s just not an academic. she likes learning, loves it actually --- but hates the way she has to do it at school. hates it. she’s still working hard to get good grades, of course, because she gets that that’s part of life but she just really... wishes it wasnt. [ death, murder tw  so life was going pretty good and then her uncle was murdered and everything went to shit like that. and--- here’s roxanne’s question: how in the living hell do you deal with that? she doesn’t know, that’s for sure. she knows that she’s angry. that she’s absolutely livid and not sure what to do with the grief in her chest because damn it, that’s not her thing, not at all. she’s sickened with worry. she mostly is enraged at the world and that this is happening and that people can be like this. end of tw ]

so joining the DA was something roxanne didn’t even think about. she just did it. her studies, once again, have taken a backseat while she pushes all her energy into the DA and the team, as that functions as something ... as close as therapeutic as she can get, i suppose. leading her team, searching that snitch, hoping to win, win, win --- all things that in the grand scheme of things dont matter but do make it easier to deal.

roxanne ... she’s a lot. she’s a fucking lot. she’s a mess. 

personality & rambling

roxanne does NOTHING half heartedly; she either commits fully or doesn’t do something at all. she doesn’t do half-assing, doesn’t believe in it — this got her in a fair amount of trouble at hogwarts (handing in 10/10 homework or ,,, not doing it or barely doing it) and she knows it’s a bad attitude to have, deep down. not that she’s admitted that to herself yet, though. things have been put in perspective now, though. it’s clear that there’s no room for just doing what she wants to do and what she feels like, so she’s ... improving ( and yet completely abandoning her studies lmao )

when roxanne is passionate about something, she goes on about it for a long time. loves ranting about topics that drive her, is very vocal of her views and thoughts and hardly shuts up about it. can be condescending, at times; roxanne believes she’s always right, has little humility to her — she often doesn’t try to put herself in other people’s shoes, thinks that anyone who disagrees is simply wrong. it’s a thinking pattern she’s trying to shake, but alas; it’s easier said than done.

this is also a way for her to cope with her insecurities, tbh; she puts others down in her head so she can lift herself up. unhealthy!!! yikes! it’s something she’s pretty unaware of.

i mean, roxanne is, deep down, very fucking insecure. she has this surname that’s got a bit of fame to it and she has such high ideals for everyone around her including herself. especially for herself. her confidence is not completely feigned, i think part of it is definitely real, but part of it is definitely a mask

roxanne LOVES music. she’s into everything that either is a jam, old classic rock or has a damn good message. she’s v passionate abt it. her spotify? gold. she’s also a good singer! this video is literally roxanne im sorry aisha dee move over! honestly if she had mroe time she would try and get into music bc she would love that but yeno quidditch is the name of the game (someone show her hsm and show her that u can do both)

she’s so competitive someone please stop her from fighting everyone over quidditch

uh she’s just very... much. she’s outgoing and loud and dramatic and her emotions are like! all over the place! and change very easily! she thinks she’s a lot herself too tbh she’s constantly exhausted from herself which i think is valid and relatable on a personal lvl for me. 

possible plots

friendos roxanne loves ppl and loving ppl so let’s go and have some FRIENDS up in this building. couldve met through family things, in the library, on the pitch, in dueling club, in any other club that roxanne was in for a short amount of time, etc etc etc. roxanne is fairly easy to place at hogwarts bc she’s everywhere

quidditch competition just give me all the plots if you have a fellow quidditch pal because roxanne is ready to fight to the death for that cup!!

dumbledore’s army bros people that roxanne got to know better through the da would be v interesting because it’s a ??? weird base for a friendship or dynamic ( i mean, a tough one. like ... we’re buds because we’re fighting for a cause whihc we shouldnt even be fighting for bc the world shouldnt be like this )

idk roxanne is literally so all over the place, if your character is at hogwarts im sure we can plot something??? enemies, shenanigan pals, exes, study buddies, etc etc etc

[gracedandelioninkmind]

Since it's pride month

For most of my time at school betweeb last september and febrary I had a crush on this girl. And you see Id been working through how feelings and sexuality work for me ever since the end of high school, because id been realizing that id never been actively interested in kissing or anything intimate with anyone. Id had plenty of what I call Sparks of Interests, where I just enjoyed looking at someone, talking to them, but more and in a different way than normally for friends. But all of those Interests were towards guys. I loved talling to my friends about guys and hypotheticals about them. I always envisioned myself in a man and woman couple and I loved that opposites pairing in every romance. But I wouldnt say that the ppssibility that I could be interested in girls hadnt crossed my mind. It didnt when I was little, and it didnt in middle school when I told girls that I didnt like boys, because they were stupid, and someoen asked if I was a lesbian. But in high school there was this awesome chick that transferred into our school. I woulsnt say I was overtly attracted to her, I certainly never had any fantasies about her, but I just thought she was so cool and I definitely wanted her to like me and to be friends eith her. Her twin brother was cool too. Oh oh and dont let me forget that one year I was apart of the schools journalism program and some of us were sitting around the classroom and I suddenly giggled at something I was reading, and this one nice tomboy girl was like omygod was that you that was the most adorable sound. I was so flustered, i will never forget that compliment.

But still i was straight. I fantasized about m/f relationships, not necessarily involving me because I cant often envision myself eith just anyone. I just think that romance is fascinating and enthralling and sometimes lots of things can be interesting.

And then I was reading a fanfic, and the girl was asexual, and Id been thinking about asexuality as an explanation for why I just didnt think i wanted to be sexual with anyone id ever met. But it didnt feel quite right because I know i mustve felt some attraction to some guys before, and definitely felt attraction to actors and such.

And then my friend gave me the term Gray Asexuality to research. Have you ever been putting together a puzzle and u put a piece in place, and it looks right and the picture doesnt seem to be wrong--but then you find another piece that looks so similar and you try it instead and it fits so much better, not loose or jammed. That was my feeling finding out that there was this complexity to sexuality and romance to explain why things just always feel so subtle for me. To explain why I can crave love but I really very often find that the very idea of kissing and sex is just awkward and weird to imagine for myself. It explained part of why my one week relationship fell through. Id had a crush on the guy since first meeting him at the start if the school year, and i had been so excited when he asked me out, and it was fun to hold hands and hug. But i hadnt wanted to kiss him, and it had bene so annoying when my friend told me i should kiss him, even just on the cheek. It just hadnt felt like there was a very big difference between my friendship with him and dating him.

So i got to thinking over all of my feelings towards all sorts of people. And if my sexuality and attraction was as rare and subdued as all that towards men, then I felt that maybe I hadnt wuite recognized any feelings id had towards girls.

And after discovering the asexual spectrum, i finally had some very interesting dreams, the likes of which id never had before turning 18 let me tell you. And they didnt only focus on men anymore.

And then i was in my second year at college, and i hadnt had many more dreams, and i hadnt found any real crushes my first year. But my second year i started working at the library, and one day this cute asian girl came through with a polite hello as she passed the front desk where i sat politely greeting everyone for my first week. I found myself memorizing her immediately. I would hope to catch her eye, catch a hello, a goodbye. I found myself glancing over to ehere she sat if she was in sight. And when she came to check out dvds i memorized her name immediately, all the more because id seen it on a study desk while doing rounds. See i hadnt knoem that if someone leaves something at their desk ee leave it alonenso id taken the open umbrella doem to the front desk and asked my coworkers and they said to put it back so i remembered the namr on the desk and returned it. So when i saw this cute girls name and recognized it from that desk, it almsot felt like fate. But that was silly. And i only thought she seemed nice and she was cute. That was all.

But then i was trying to capture her likeness on paper, ehich didnt go well those first few sketches because i hadnt gotten any good looks at her face. And after finding out her name I suddenly heard it cropping up elsewhere, and i was talking to my friends about her. My friends did not agree that i wasnt crushing. I insisted that i just wanted to get to know her was all. And then one day at lunch a new friend id made in class invited me to sit with her and her friends, and she mentioned an Eliza. Boy the anticipation, the excitement, the shy feelings, and the satisfaction when the very same girl sat with us.

Then that same friend invited me to a movie night at her dorm lounge with her friends, and when i asked who all would be there, anyone i know, she said maybe. I wondered to myself if She would be there. When i got into the dorm, lost and unfamiliar with the halls, waiting for my friend to come find me, I suddenly heard teo voices from upstairs. I knew one was my new friend, and with joy i recognized the other as Her. As it turned out She was the only other friend to join us. We 3 spent the night watching black panther and history of japan, getting to know each other, and I painted Her nails. It was different touching her hands then itd ever been with another girl. I found myself hoping for something. I hoped at least that she would like me as a person and wed be friends.

Every interaction after was a treasure for me. Moments we happened to be alone, when she offered to keep me company at lonely meals, when we had a big kdrama hangout and she did my hair, etc etc.

I had to acknowledge that it was crush of course. I told my closest friends about it.

And one day this crazy thing happened. I was sitting with Her and our friend and the two of us apart from Her were discussing dating apps and whatnot. And She asked why was i even concerned eith that stuff anyways. Id been thinking by then that she might be aspec because she never threw in her oen teo cents about interest in relationships whrn we discussed these things. I explained that i just wanted to try dating. I hadnt ever been on a real date.

While our friend was continuing with another topic, i heard Her say that She could take me on a date. My mind caught on it, but the topic had changed, and I felt that it couldnt have been serious. And so i gushed and whined about it to my friends. But the next day I brought it up as a joke with our group of friends, and she acknowledged that shed said it. Our friends supported it, because why not. Theres such a thing as a friendly joke date. I kind of messed it up i think though because when it was jsut us parting ways after brunch, she said she was going downtown, and i said That couldve been our date. And she agreed and invited me along. I wish id been dressed cuter. But it was fine, and it was a nice enough date, though i dont think she had any experience or interedt in how dates usually worked--it wasnt a serious date anyways, so i wouldnt get my hopes up. I wouldnt be invested. But wr passed a friend of hers, another cute girl maybe smaller than me, and She told her that we were on a date. That felt significant.

The next day i brought up that wed gone on the date to my group of friends, with Her sitting next to me. And she became so awkward, and after my friends congratulated us, she told me It wasnt a real date. On the outside i played it off casually saying Listen do you know how excited friends get about dates let me have this. On the inside i was so disappointed and heartbroken and a bit defensively angry with her. I announced to the table that she wasnt to make sure everyone knew it wasnt a real date. What i was really saying was hey friends she just crushed my heart.

But we were still friends. And after a while i got okay again. She hadnt even noticed anything had gone wrong.

At some point I told that first mutual friend about my crush on Her. Id been withholding eho my crush was on from her for a while and she hadnt even guessed Her. But when I told her she said everything made sense.

And then she set us up for a valentines day date. I couldnt believe it. She jsut randomly messaged me Would u want Her to be ur valentines date. And i was like Id appreciate any date tbh but yeah id like to go on a date with Her. And apparently She just agreed. I couldnt tell you why she did any of the things she did. But i can tell you that thru some conversations it became clear that my hypothesis was likely accurate. She didnt understand dates, she didnt see the difference beteren friend date and real date. This was just this nice outing with a friend. Part of me was okay with that, because i did simply enjoy Her. But another part of me felt unfulfilled and sad. But we had a nice date anyways. I learned even mroe about her and she made me this oittle clay blueberry because i would sometimes just pick out a blueberry at the dining hall and admire its beauty. It was a very nice date and i got to dress up cute for someone. I didnt let myself hope for much.

And then i was talking to more of our mutual friends about crushing on Her, and someone told me that shed asked Her out before and that her response had been something along the lines of not being interested like that. We all agreed that She likely just doesnt have any interest in romance or whatnot.

And so i began burying it away. My mourning period passed. She graduated, and its all over. My first ever crush on a non-man. It had been nice.

Btw her ringtone in my phone was Mindy Gledhill's I Do Adore.