#I Have Steralized Myself

[silverskye13]

Doing my best Etho cosplay today

[weed-vodka-vomit]

I'm on a new form of birth control (3 month depod syringe) since 25 days and it's hell.

Currently bleeding the 9th day and it's painful. My mood is shitty, I can't sleep but I'm constantly tired but I can't rest because doing nothing feels bad. I hate everything (anhedonia and depression are bad rn), can't concentrate on anything, constantly forget everything ect so my adhd symptoms are stronger too + my meds feel like they work less or not at all for some days.

I gotta go to my doctor again in june anyways but idk if I should continue taking it, switch to another contraceptive (cant do pill or spirale so there's not much left) or stop taking birth control alltogether...the fear of pregnancy is super bad though and I also worry my period pain+bleeding will get worse and make me unable to work for a week each month.

At this point she should just give me a scalpel and teach me how to safely cut my ovaries out because if this bs doesn't stop soon I really fear I'll do stupid sewersidal stuff. (:

[heartshapedgreen]

have a lot more to say about the whole "tme afab trans woman" circle of intersex blogs here but the fixation on "perisex trans people" is so weird to me for a multitude of reasons (one of which is i don't like presuming anyone is perisex by default + i like to come at dyadism as a false science anyone can believe in - even intersex people, yes, i know many personally - so i dislike focusing on individuals, specifically zeroing in on trans people & particularly transfem, almost as if there aren't intersex & trans people out there) but i feel like this is an unsurprising manifestation of how most intersex activism i've seen revolves around our supposed gender fuckery (under the lens of dyadism, which is most interested in subjugating individuals into the dichotomy of womanhood & manhood - and i can't say intersex people bear the brunt of this because but how many "perisex" people out there truly know? - otherwise, outside sex dimorphism, we're literally just how human bodies work and gender has very little to do with it, at least for me & my journey with transing my gender in a heavily cultural context.)

and less activism is focused on like... how it's intertwined with disabled/mad rights (not because intersexuality is a disorder but how many disabled & mad people out there are pathologized for something that's 'normal'? even if they're struggling with a life threatening disease, how much are they helped and how much are their 'normal' functions/behaviours within that context pathologized only to overshadow their actual pleas for help? the same can be said for intersex individuals who are forced into 'correcting' their exterior then left to die from high levels or defiency of hormones causing them fatal tumors and bone fractures etc.), children liberation (much of the violence on intersex bodies happens in childhood, particularly sexing, which is what the discourse has revolved around) & fat antagonism (i don't even need to explain this, i think).

and those were where i found better community and understanding of for myself & why i could never really come to this through a us vs. them, perisex individuals vs. intersex individuals, mindset. oh, and also for all the work that "cis perisex" racially otherized people have done for us all when they have to daily contend with race realist science, face medical abuse for it, get steralized & degendered if they even make it out if childhood. i feel like this should be more of a given, especially if you talk about gender?????, but somehow it's not. it's like... do perisex people benefit from sex dimorphism? sure, even the trans community has the whole medicalist narrative, but who has that truly served? certainly not every trans person for the mere fact they're perisex, not if you learn about intersectionality and actually apply it how it's intended.

this is why i keep a distance from most of these niche intersex communities. they never take into account race & disability & desirability in their discussions and i'm already from a heavily disabled racially otherized intersex family so i'm not really lacking in 'community' anyway + i actually see the contradictions & inaccuracy in much of their discussions because of my background. i've learned a lot more from 'perisex' people and many of them, because i would insist that very few people are actually perisex (unlike the intersexist 1.7% population narrative), they came to realize they are in fact intersex & it helped them understand + take care of their body better in this fucked up world that alienated them, from others & from their own body.

[isthata-jojoreference]

I want to be steralized so bad. but apparently I'm too young to decide something like that for myself. old enough to decide to have kids though. despite the fact they're also a major permanent life decision.

[vintage-marina]

An important phone call pt. 3

pt. 1 pt. 2

Kit Walker x F!Reader

summary: Kit and you are trying to safe your (failing) marriage

wordcount: 1996 words

CW: cheating, forced steralization

inspired by: @undeadcortez

I don't know exactly the precise plot for Asylum anymore so I'm sorry about that lol

You had tried to dial the number from the couple counselor that lived nearby, but after you explained your situation the man didn't want to help and sent you away. You tried other counselors but they heard of Kit's reputation and didn't dare to help you two. You almost smashed the house phone against the wall and you sighed in desperation.

The last week you were reflecting your behavior and the behavior of Kit and Grace. What they did was unacceptable and you still teared up by the thought that he cheated on you with Grace. It maked you angry and sad at the same time, especially that he liked her or maybe even loved her. Jealous, the pit in your stomach was jealousy and it made you feel disgusting. You were never jealous, but now? Even after you made sort of up with Kit, you couldn't shake off the green monster that lived in your stomach. It ate you up and tore you apart.

Did Grace know that you had a husband? Ofcourse not, why were you blaiming her when you didn't even know the whole situation? Because it's easier to blame someone else and to escape the truth. The truth that he was willingly to cheat on you then be faithful. It was easier to break his vows then to follow, being loyal was harder for him then loving you. Because he did love you, but he wasn't faithful.

You found yourself sitting on the couch fiddling with the divorce papers. You loved him, love him and you will always love him. But a quiet voice in your head told you that Kit would never love you in the way he liked Grace, why would you even bother to safe your marriage? Because you pitied him?

No, you shaked your head. You loved him, that's why you want to safe your marriage, you loved him even though you shouldn't. But why only try to forgive Kit and not Grace, isn't that unfair? Maybe, no, yes. It is unfair, especially the guilty look she sent you your way or how sick she looked.

The bell rung and you jumped off the couch and picked up the phone.

''Hello?''

''Hello mrs. Walker,'' it was dr. Thredson.

''Oh hello doctor Thredson, is something wrong?''

''No nothing,'' you heard him smile through the phone. ''But I heard from Kit during his therapy session that the two of you have some family problems. Is that right?''

So Kit talked about everything that happend between the two of you.

''Yes,'' your eyes grew wide when you thought how he knew your phone number. ''But, how do you know my phone number?''

You heared him chuckle lightly from the telephone, ''it's in his file mrs. Walker, I'm not a stalker, don't worry.'' He chuckled again, it gave you an eerie vibe.

''But I rang you because I wanted to help,'' you looked out the window and you noticed that it was raining. ''You see, I can't help Kit when he has other problems that needed to be fixed. I thought by myself you two probably can't get a counselor couple to fix your problems and if you two had one, Kit can't go out off the asylum. So I thought I had to help you two if you accept my offer.''

You were baffled and surprised that he wanted to help.

''Yes, ofcourse I accept your offer! Thank you so much,'' he chuckled again, but this time you didn't get a bad vibe.

''Can you make it in one hour by Briarcliff, mrs. Walker?''

''Yes, ofcourse I can!''

''Goodby then mrs. Walker.''

''Goodbye.''

Happiness maked your way into your system and you felt hopeful for the first time. You went to your shared bedroom and pulled open Kit's closet to pick a sweather for him. You pulled out a dark green one that complimented his skin and you hold it in your arms, the last time you were in Briarcliff you noticed that it was a bit chilly in there, so it must be very cold with the raining. A sweather was the start of making it up.

You walked in the livingroom and picked up your car and home key and closed the door behind you. You felt nervous about seeing Kit again, did he miss you? You missed him, if you had to be honest.

The car ride was again uncomfortable but this time you put on the radio and you softly sang along with the Rolling Stones. The sweather was laying on the passenger seat of your car and rain was ticking on your windows. That was calming your nerves down.

You parked your car where it was the last time and you pushed the sweather under yours. Pushing the frontdoor open you maked your way into the asylum where dr. Thredson was waiting for you.

''Y/N, your finally here,'' he clasped his hand together and he turned his back to you. ''Follow me, please.''

The two of you were walking through the livingroom, you spotted Pepper but no sign of Grace or Lana, what happend to them?

''Doctor Thredson?''

He hummed, a sign for you to continue.

''Where are Grace or Lana?''

''Oh, Grace is laying in our infirmary, she was sick. I don't know the details, but Lana I think she had the permission to go away.''

''When? I wished I could say goodbye, you know?''

''A few days ago, I'm not sure the exact date, I'm sorry.''

You said nothing in return, but walked silently behind the doctor while the living room was a noise. You noticed that the asylum was colder then last week and you were thankful that you bring a sweather for Kit.

Thredson opened the door for you and you stepped inside his office, where Kit was sitting. When he heard the door creaking he turned his head and smiled a bit when he saw you taking a sweather from underneath yours

You stepped into the room and took the seat by Kit, holding it in your hands.

''Is that for me?'' He said quietly.

''Yes, for you,'' you shoved the sweather in his hands. You didn't knew how to act around him, he noticed that and dr. Thredson did too. But Kit didn't said anything about your actions, he only gave you a small smile and pulled it over his what is it, a dress? that he got from the asylum.

''Thank you suga', I-I mean Y/N.''

''Your welcome,'' you softly said to Kit while looking in your lap.

A mug of hot water was givin to you with a tea bag that you grateful accepted.

''So mr. Walker, mrs. Walker,'' said Thredson interrupting your conversation. ''The two of you are having some trouble in Paradise?''

''Yeah, that's right,'' Kit said to him while his eyes were trained on the floor.

''How did it start?''

''I think ya know how doctor, it was-''

''No, not that. That will be discussed later, how did your relationship start? Y/N will you answer that?''

''Well I met Kit, it's kinda cliché to be honest. I met Kit four years ago when my car went down, so I had to go to a garage you know? He told me that I was scammed and he offered to give me a discount that I gladly accepted. He told me later that he would fix my car for free if something broke down again and a few weeks later he asked me out. Then we dated for two years, got proposed and we're now married for 1,5 year.''

You heard the sound of pen scracthing on paper.

''I got in trouble ya know, for fixin' ya car for free,'' he turned his head towards you and smiled. ''It was worth it.''

''Well I'm glad you found that worthy, Kit.''

You crossed your arms.

''What's that supposed to mean?''

''Nothing, absolute nothing.''

''If it's nothin' then why did ya say that?''

''I said it's nothing! Don't make such a fuss Kit!'' You hissed out, ''damn it.''

A sad look was on his face and you deeply sighed while dr. Thredson scraped his throat.

''Y/N I see that you have been bottling up your emotions, that are finally pouring out. Can you describe your emotions to me and Kit?''

You were silence for a few seconds, thinking how to answer it.

''I feel,'' you were blinking away tears. ''I uh feel, I feel sad and angry and-and confused,'' tears were pricking in your Y/E/C eyes. ''Most of all I feel betrayed and unloveable,'' you wiped away a few tears and looked to your lap, avoiding the guilty eyes of Kit.

''Can you describe to me why you feel confused and unloveable?''

''I feel confused because-because'' you were fiddling with your fingers and shot a quick glance at Kit. He shot you an encouraging look. ''Because I shouldn't love Kit after what he did, but here I am being pathetic and still loving him.'' Kit's eyes widened after your confession and in an upwelling he took your hand. ''I love you too.''

You looked at him with watery eyes and gave a small smile.

''And I feel unloved because, how-how,'' you turned your head to Kit. ''How can you have sex with another and like her, while your wife is at home worrying about you. How Kit? How?''

You slipped your hand out of his.

''Kit,'' Thredson said. Kit looked towards the doctor and nodded at him.

''How do you feel about what Y/N said?''

''Shit, I feel like shit and guilty.''

''Care to explain more?''

''I feel like shit because,'' you heard his voice cracking and his eyes dwelled up with tears. ''Cause I've promised to ma self that I will neva' hurt ma wife. And here I am, hurting her,'' wiping a few tears a few he told his story further. ''And-and I don't even know why I did that, I promised on our weddin' that I always will be loyal and here I am breaking ma own vows.'' His voice was cracking again and he cried softly.

Dr. Thredson was writing something more, you drank your tea up and he laid his pen by the paper.

''I think I have heard enough for now, Kit and I will discuss this tommorrow and if it's okay with you I want to see you again in two days.''

''Alright, thank you doctor.''

''Your welcome,'' he smiled.

''Then I will dismiss you two now, see you tommorrow Kit and see you in two days Y/N.''

''Goodbye,''

''Goodbye.''

Kit and you stood up and walked out of the office and to the livingroom, but you felt the feeling of two eyes staring at you. As always the song Dominique was playing and you watched Kit's side profile. ''Kit?''

''Yes?'' His eyes were resting on your face happily that you talked to him, he was yearning and all he wanted was to hug you.

''What happend to Lana and uhm Grace?''

''Grace is badly sick and Lana I don't know.''

''How?''

The two of you took a seat and he fiddled with his green sweather. ''Grace was steralized and uhm the surgery didn't end well.''

''What? That's very illegal, they can't do that.''

''I know.''

The two of you sat in silence both not knowing what to say.

''I think it's time that I went home Kit, Kit promise me,'' you took a deep breath. ''If something happens that is illegal or feels illegal, please please write that down or say it to me, alright? I don't know if I can do that, probably not. But it's important to note what is happening here okay? I'm still so mad at you but I care about you and all these people here and it isn't fair what is happenign here.''

''Okay,''

''Okay, well goodbye then Kit see you in two days, should I bring something?''

Kit slowly looked at you, a small blush of embarrassment on his cheeks. ''Can you bring a small picture of me and you with you? Maybe on our wedding or on a date, you don't have to if you want.''

''No it's okay, I will find a nice picture that isn't to big. But now I have to go, goodbye Kit.''

''Bye Y/N,'' a sad smile was forming on his face.

You walked out of the asylum and made your way to your farm, feeling weird about the leering eyes on you.

A/N: I hope you guys liked this, please leave a like and a comment because I'm striving about comments lol.

[beyoncessugarbaby]

im watching what happened to monday

[babyboy-ollie]

Having a Little Who Self-Harms Means...

Trigger Warning

“People [self-harm] as a coping mechanism. [...] Self-harm can be a way for a person to feel something when experiencing numbness or to distract themselves from depression or anxiety. Some people [self-harm] to create a wound that can symbolize their emotional pain, while others use [it] as a way to avoid telling loved ones about their feelings”. (Source)

Understanding that self-harm is not the same as a suicide attempt

Not punishing relapses or making rules against it

Encouraging them to recover but not forcing them to

Helping them clean and sanitize any open wounds and placing a cute cartoon bandage on it afterwards

Understanding that it can be an addiction and should be treated as such

Not guilting them or shaming them for self harming (People who self-harm are in a lot of pain and often already struggle with guilt, we do not need you to make us feel worse than we already do)

Learning their triggers and avoiding them 

Helping them into small space when they get the urge to hurt themself

Encouraging them to tell you if they relapse but do not force them to (ex. do not grab their arms to look for cuts or yank up their sleeves)

Reminding them that a relapse is not the end of the world, and that relapse is a step in recovery

Having skin-safe, non-toxic markers on hand and encourage them to use the markers instead of sharp or hot objects

Setting a solid bedtime to try and keep them from being up too late (sad thoughts often get worse later at night)

Understanding the feelings and urges that drive them to self-harm

Reminding them that their scars are not ugly, they are a story of strength and survival 

Learning proper first-aid and wound care, as well as teaching it to your little

Remind them that of they have to hurt themself it should only be with a clean and steralized object (No rust) 

Not yelling or getting angry when they relapse

Under no circumstances should you ever threaten to hurt yourself if your little relapses!!! (ex. “every time you cut yourself, I’ll cut myself too) This causes us to feel trapped and guilty for hurting you. It is very often an addiction that we cannot control as well as we would like to, it’s not as easy as “just don’t hurt yourself”. Remember that self-harm is not always cutting. It can be burning, bruising, hair pulling, or other forms of harm. Always always always encourage them to seek professional help from a doctor or a therapist who can teach them safe and healthy coping mechanisms! 

**From personal experience I would just like to say that hiding sharp objects and locking them up does not help. It only served to make me more clever with my hiding spots and methods of getting sharp things.**

If your little (or a loved one in general) self-harms, I really encourage you to read these two articles! They are very informative and can guide you on how to best help your loved one. [x] [x]

[stimman4000]

How did you train yourself to not be afraid of needles? I want to be on T but I am absolutely TERRIFIED of needles, I can't even watch someone else get a shot.

ok so!!!

first of all, if you really really hate needles, t gel is always an option, although you still have to do occasional blood tests. i chose to do the shot just bc i didn’t want to have to worry abt the gel every single day. that being said i also used to have the same Level of fear of needles-i avoided going to the dr for years, would have to leave the room if someone in a movie was getting a shot, etc. so here’s how i trained myself out of it! disclaimer- I don’t Know What I’m Doing, this is just what worked for me lol

-i started by waiting till i was relaxed/doing something i liked, and then tried to picture someone getting a shot. if i got rlly freaked out (again, my fear was REALLY bad), i’d stop thinking about it and go back to whatever I was doing. I did this for MONTHS, till I could picture someone getting a shot without wanting to Scream

-i then moved onto looking at still images of people getting shots, again while doing stuff like watching a tv show i liked or eating food i liked or smth. repeat till i cld look at pictures of ppl getting shots withour cringing

-next, i started watching videos of people getting shots. I started w videos where it was further away (so not like a super close up visual of a needle going into skin) and then moved on to videos where the camera was closer, again doing things that made me happy/ taking deep breaths and stopping if i have to. don’t overdo it by watching videos for hours on end, just do 1 or 2 a day

-because i am a big stupid dumb idiot, my next step was getting a friend to give me a stick and poke. i figured if it was a friend i’d have a harder time backing out then if i did it, & for some reason i’m less scared of a needle going a little bit into me multiple times than a needle going into me a lot bit one time. again tho i’m really dumb so while this worked for me, there’s no guarantee it would for you. if you want to do something like this but don’t want a stick and poke, you could steralize a needle and just lightly poke yourself a few times, barely piercing the skin, without any ink on the needle

- after that i was just like “fuck it” and went in to get my blood drawn (bc for some reason i’m also less afraid of that than shots) i was still scared, but a TON less scared than i used to be, and i did Almost break down but I didn’t and managed to let someone put a needle in my arm for the first time in years. have a supportive friend go with you if you can to tell you jokes or smth to distract you. if not, i recommend being on your phone

-i’ve gotten a lot of shots & blood tests done since then and it gets a little easier each time!! I’m pretty cool with it now

additional tips:

-remind yourself that this is an unreasonable fear, they’re not actually going to do anything to you besides being a little uncomfortable, your lizard brain is a measly little worm that decided you must be afraid and you will defeat it

-most drs and nurses are really understanding if you tell them abt your fear and will do their best to make you more comfortable/ give u a more experienced nurse

-i think what helped most for me was reminding myself that i had to do this if i wanted to start t. although my fear of needles isn’t what was holding me back-it was lack of parental consent- i still knew this was something i was going to have to face someday

i hope this helps you out some!

[wolfcat-hybrid]

Also! There is a difference between anxiety and panic attacks! Anxiety attacks are very similar to panic attacks, but often anxiety attacks are caused by a stressful thing, while panic attacks can happen for seemingly no reason.

I don’t know if some people just experience panic attacks way different from the way I do, but a lot of writers seem to write panic attacks as thought they read a list of symptoms and just picked some to go with. Here are things for writing panic attacks:

I always, always notice when a panic attack is starting. The panic is usually a pretty good indicator of it. Why do all of your charaters end up mid-panic attack before they notice the panic attack is happening?

Panic attacks should include at least 80% more thinking than they’re usually written as including. The thoughts can/should be disjointed, incoherent, and repetitive. The reader should feel like the character is panicking instead of having to be told that they’re panicking.

Panic attack symptoms don’t abruptly disappear when the main panic attack stops. A person isn’t automatically fine 30 seconds after finishing having a panic attack.

There are varying degrees of panic attacks.

Go with symptoms beyond “can’t breathe and feeling like I’m going to die���.

Please.

Look up some other symptoms. Include the shittier ones like irritability, screaming at people, etc.

It’s hard to be coherent during a severe panic attack. A bizarre number of characters will stand there going “I can’t breathe” as though they’re vaguely having an allergic reaction. Give me characters apologizing four hundred times in a row. Give me characters who can’t complete a sentence. Give me characters who can’t say anything.

If you have to tell the reader the character is panicking, it’s not a well-written panic attack.

Bystanders almost never react as well in real life as they do in stories.

A lot of people (me included) don’t like to be touched during panic attacks. Every character in stories seems to react well to a hug. Give me characters frantically shoving someone away. Give me characters who can’t manage to tell the other person to get off of them because they can’t get the words out.

The experience of having a panic attack can be exceedingly embarrassing. People will do a lot to hide them.

Stop pretending friendship is the cure for panic attacks. It can certainly help, and having people who are there for you is exceedingly important, but a friend/lover existing doesn’t make a panic attack magically go away.

[thespiritofeon]

decided to take my T shot fresh out the shower

it went.. very bad lamo

have trouble drawing out my dose (on god im glad im not at like 1.5 yet djjsjsjwkso)

accidentally throw the drawing needle away instead of putting it in the bin

reneedle the syringe

realize i threw the other needle away, fish it out and put it in the bin

poke myself where i didnt steralize

realize im far away from sterilized point and realize im very close to belly button at the same time

sigh and just administer

have to fight with the syringe cause it doesnt want to administer

also i literally was like "its 1am i hope i dont pass out" cause when i poked it Raised The Alarms

finally get the dose in

struggle to bandaid the injection sight

worry that i didnt put the bandaid on the right spot

oh and by the way i wasnt wearing my glasses cause they were foggy (:

[fl-oralfawnarchive]

i rlly like this addition.

it’s been a long time, but hitting myself was my main form of self harm along with scratching for a long time. and i feel like i was both never taken seriously bc my self harm came out in ways that wasn’t cutting, and those around me had no clue how to handle it bc it wasn’t the norm. feels good to be recognized 💓

Having a Little Who Self-Harms Means…

Trigger Warning

Not punishing relapses or making rules against it

Encouraging them to recover but not forcing them to

Helping them clean and sanitize any open wounds and placing a cute cartoon bandage on it afterwards

Understanding that it can be an addiction and should be treated as such

Learning their triggers and avoiding them

Helping them into small space when they get the urge to hurt themself

Encouraging them to tell you if they relapse but do not force them to (ex. do not grab their arms to look for cuts or yank up their sleeves)

Reminding them that a relapse is not the end of the world, and that relapse is a step in recovery

Having skin-safe, non-toxic markers on hand and encourage them to use the markers instead of sharp or hot objects

Setting a solid bedtime to try and keep them from being up too late (sad thoughts often get worse later at night)

Reminding them that their scars are not ugly, they are a story of strength and survival 

Learning proper first-aid and wound care, as well as teaching it to your little

Remind them that of they have to hurt themself it should only be with a clean and steralized object (No rust) 

Not yelling or getting angry when they relapse

Under no circumstances should you ever threaten to hurt yourself if your little relapses!!! (ex. “every time you cut yourself, I’ll cut myself too) This causes us to feel trapped and guilty for hurting you. It is very often an addiction that we cannot control as well as we would like to, it’s not as easy as “just don’t hurt yourself”. Remember that self-harm is not always cutting. It can be burning, brusing, hair pulling, or other forms of harm. Always always always encourage them to seek professional help from a doctor or a therapist who can teach them safe and healthy coping mechanisms! 

**From personal experience I would just like to say that hiding sharp objects and locking them up does not help. It only served to make me more clever with my hiding spots and methods of getting sharp things.**

[scarlet-titan]

welcometothetripsestra

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“Get a grip of yourself if you think autism is a "culture" like fuck...”

1. I suffer and am diagnosed with Aspegers/autism/ASD/ASC or whatever it is called, so I think I'm educated enough. 2.maybe you should learn that not all people who suffer from this condition are happy to have it and see it is as debilitating. 3.I see autism as an illness, and it's easier to treat it like one to help people understand why a cure in my personal opinion would be something which would be greatly appreciated. 4. "Autism Culture" I disagree still and find it stupid.

welcometothetripsestra

replied to your post

“Get a grip of yourself if you think autism is a "culture" like fuck...”

5. There is a huge difference between "culture" and reading up on a topic therefore if in my personal opinion "autism" is treated as a "culture" something that can be picked up then anyone can suffer from the condition. For example the likes of depression and anxiety can be argued to be a "culture" or the fact someone likes cheese is a culture. It's all very contrived and takes away from the actual meaning of it. 6. I study politics so I am very aware of what culture means and is.

7. There has got to be a realisation that having a cure for autism is not eugenics. A cure can enable people like myself to live a better life, that is what I choose and want. Nobody is forcing that on anyone. But I shouldn't be denied the option to truly experience life because some people think it's wrong to find a cure. You've got to stop and realise not everyone is happy with the condition. But should have the right to access the right treatment to change if that's what a person wants.

1. Just being diagnosed doesn’t make you an expert the rest of your post shows how little research you’ve done on autism. You know very little about it.

2. I am aware some autistic hate themselves. But you need to stop shaming other autistics for not hating theirselves.

3. There is thing called medical classification. Autism is NOT classified as an illness. Your opinion doesn’t change that. It is impossible to change how someone’s brain developed. We will never see a “cure” for already born autistics.

4. Now you’re using ableist slurs to further your point. If you didn’t know “stupid” was coined by eugenists.

5 AND 6. STRAWMAN ARGUMENT!!!!!

7. If a cure for already born autistic even was possible it absolutely would be forced. Children and those considered too “low-functioning” would be forced to take it. Accommodations would be withheld because they would “why should I accomodate you when you could get cured?” That sort of coersion is not free choice. 

There is also the fact that such a thing would mean you would cease being yourself and another person has taken over your body. That’s just a horrifying thought. The fact you want to be a completely different person is extremely tragic.

But going past the pretend cure the real mission of the pro-cure movement is to prevent autistic people from being born. Those in science know curing an already born autistic is impossible. So they are trying to develop pre-natal tests for autism so they get aborted. They would also want to steralize people who carry autism genes. That is eugenics. Nazis did this and the fact you support this is very gross.

Then there is also the fact the pro-cure movement has already led to dangerous paths. People have claimed autism is caused by metal poisoning (either by vaccines or elsewhere) and gut parasites. The people making these claims have offered deadly “cures” such as chelation and bleach enemas. That is the pro-cure movement. No matter what hardship I may face because I’m autistic, this is why I can never stand behind people who want to cure it.

[donaldtrumpatthemovies-blog]

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What an unplesent movie. Got me in such a bad mood. Don’t know how it got made. Who wants to see a movie about a space germ that kills everyone? What’s fun about that? I hate germs. Can’t stand thinking about them. So disgusting. Movie made me want to wash my hands so hard. Steralize everything. Cringing for the whole run time. Watching that thing wiggling around. Getting huge. Eating Ryan Renold’s throat. Getting inside the english black guy’s leg. All those tentacles. Came very close to barfing. Very close. Held it together. I’m an extremely strong man.

Good that I was watching this in an empty theater. If I had been watching a movie like this surrounded by whole bunch of people and whatever germs they probably have, I wouldn’t have been able to take it. I bought out the whole theater. That’s what I do most of the time. Bring a few guys along if I feel like it, usually just go by myself. Secret Service people always come of course. I sell them their tickets at a 300% mark up. Exactly what any smart businessman would do.

Anyway, this movie’s plot made no sence. Bunch of scientists go out to the space station to find a bit of dirt from Mars for some reason. Pointless mission. And they get this space germ. And instead of killing it with Purell right away, they start playing with it and trying to make it get big. Wacko behavior. Dying was their own fault. And when it gets too big to get disinfected, they just start running away and messing with the air. Why didn’t anyone bring guns? That would of helped! Not only would that have made sence, it would of made the movie a lot more fun too. Way better action than we got to see.

But they did a lot of things to make the movie not fun. Like they killed Ryan Rennolds first. Why would you kill the guy who tells jokes first? Takes away the entertaining part! Totally backwards way to do a movie. So right away we’re left with the boring people who like to talk about babies and wheel chairs and kid books. Movie not doing itself any favors here. And the ending. Was that Terrible or what? Everyone loses and the germ wins? How is that an enjoyable ending? Who wants to watch this? No fun at all. Staring at the stars, knowing your gonna die. We can all do that ourselves. Don’t need a movie for that. Movies are for entertainment! Story could of gone much differentaly. They had good security in place. Walls and rules and doors. Very secure. And yeah people broke the rules and that caused the problems. And that stuff some times happens in real life, but the movie takes it way too far. Things keep going wrong! And keep going wrong! Way too much! Can you imagine that many things ever going wrong in such a short time? To the point that it leads to these terrible results? Ridiculous! Someone smart would step in and fix things before it got this bad. Make everything right again. Movie is seriously negative. What is the point of a movie that just makes you feel nocious and frightened? What were they thinking?

Jake Gillenhall’s character apparently spends a whole year in the space station. Can you imagine doing that? I get stirr crazy when I’m stuck at the White House for 5 days in a row. And it’s not nearly as big a dump as this space station. Sure there’s a bunch of things I’d like to renovate to make it comfortable. But Reince says I can’t knock out any walls. Even in the “east wing.” So stupid. But at least you don’t have to go to the bathroom in a weird tube like the space ship people do. Really gross. Gillenhall has a point about not wanting to be around so many people. Lot of dangerous germs on earth too. And people carry a lot of them. Plus most people are basically worthless anyway. Always want something from you, never give you a moment to yourselve. But hiding in space is not a good solution. Alone way too much. Would make you forget who you are. If a man up in space is a great man, how can he tell? Needs people to tell him how great he is. Also needs losers for contrast. So better to stay on earth.

I did a really good job last month signing a bill to give NASA a bunch of money. Beautiful bold signature, like I always do. Talked about how “inspiring” NASA is for the future and for American jobs. Some of that money was for Mars and the space station. The movie is making me rethink all that. If they’re just going to Mars to look at dirt, it’s a big league time waster. And if their gonna bring back flesh eating space germs? Then their as bad as the terrorist bomber guys. Bad for America. Threat to us all. Maybe scrap the whole program? Need to have Ivanka look into this.

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