#I HAVE ANXIETY ABOUT TOMORROW

[nonhumen]

hey do you ever think about no longer human nullifies dazai from being part of all men are equal which means that fukuzawa would not actually know if dazai were to perish or not.

[irenespring]

Really I think nothing shouts "my first Presidential election as a politically active person was 2016" more than the fact that when I feel hope and excitement for the future (possible President Harris) for more than five minutes I immediately get a crushing, all-consuming anxiety of "feeling this positive emotion now is going to make it so much worse when the worst thing possible happens" to the extent that I'll probably need my break-glass-in-case-of-emergency anxiety medication.

[forgetme-eternally-blissfully]

Ehehehe... I've finally finished In Stars and Time... I can enter the fandom now..!

[gorelesbian]

new jobs be like do not worry queen we will train you thoroughly until you're confident and calm at the job. btw you're working alone tomorrow and there is no one available for you to call if you need help and i also refuse to check whether you even have access to the system. good luck :3

[monstermoviedean]

if you have a good vibe/kind thought to spare and could send it my way. i'd really appreciate it.

[iamlostandinneedofcoffee]

All right you fuckers I’m going to bed cause it’s 1 am and if when I wake up I have to break into super hell to scream out my lungs in fury at the gay sad angel over what his crush just told me I will be very mad.

[borealopelta]

comparing an injured body part to its healthy counterpart gets rid of medical panic so fast... oh god my foot looks swollen is it infected. checking my other foot hm no it looks like that when it's normal. oh god i'm losing sensation it's going numb. check healthy foot Brother There Are Like Three Nerve Endings In That Spot your normal foot doesn't have sensation either. IT WORKS.

[filet-o-feelings]

Is it weird that I'm kinda excited to be able to honestly answer polls with the I'm bald option soon? It's weird, huh?

[sapphicautistic]

Repeatedly chanting "I don't want to, but I can, and I'm going to."

[cata-strophes]

two babies !! two happy babies who im willing to die and kill for !!

[clonedchaos]

Okay, so— like.

I’m doing drag queen/king camp this week and HOLY CRAP I did not realize the amount of thought and effort that goes into this work of art. Like, kudos to all the drag icons because it’s only day one and I’m scrambling to try and figure everything out.

All I know is I am neither drag king or queen, I am a drag thing. At least, that’s what they’re referring to it as.

Like, I want my performance to confuse the heck out of the audience over what my persona’s gender is. Are they male? Female? Nonbinary? Yes and no all at the same time.

I feel like that’s part of the idea I want to portray here. I’m a cis female (I don’t care if ppl refer to me as “they” irl or online tho, it doesn’t bother me), but I always referred to myself as a “tomboy” growing up for one reason or another. I want this character to challenge the very gender roles that we as a society fostered into being. Breaking boundaries and being between the lines of what constitutes as a “man” or a “woman”, that’s what I want my persona to represent. They don’t fit into any one category, simply because they don’t need to. They’re just a person. A silly goober, if you will.

As for the fit— thanks to my friend’s advisement — I’m thinking of a 1940s Flapper Dress paired with some more masc attire in shoes, makeup, and maybe hat and tie. It would be very fun and something I’d honestly wear outside of drag. Like DANG 1940s fits are FIRE 🔥! I can get a top hat, add the feathers, wear the gloves, etc. (Yes my friends told me I should make the drag outfit Batim inspired since it’s my fixation and maybe this is my excuse for that, but I really do enjoy the Golden Era of film and media culture of that time period. Either way it works in my favor)

And, of course, I couldn’t resist taking some inspiration from Luz’s Grom outfit from The Owl House. Can you blame me though? I mean, look at it!

Very demure, very mindful, very slay. 💅

Coming up with names and a personality is something I’m going to have to come up with later in the week when I have more time. :3

So sorry if I’m not as active on any of my accounts this week. I’ll try to write when I can, but I have a lot on my plate between work, school, and planning my drag persona and performance. Maybe I’ll ramble more about this if anyone is interested. For now… I need to study (Y’all I was sick all last week and didn’t go to school and apparently I have an exam tomorrow that I didn’t study for I’m SO cooked 🙏😭)

[akkivee]

Vee it’s almost time for bats dt preview !!! From scale of 1 to 10 how scared are you? I’m currently at 85 after chuos dt title dropped.

it’s been about the same i think lol me on a normal day:

me with every passing day we get closer to the bat drama track:

[thevoidstaredback]

2021

Me: I work in a different city almost everyday this month. Can I take the train? It'll save ya gas and money and time

Parents: No

2022

Me: I work in a different city almost everyday this month. To save gas and money, can I take the train?

Parents: No

2023

Me: I work in a different city almost everyday this month. Can I take the train to save gas and money?

Parents: No

2024

Me: I work in a different city almost everyday this month. Can I take the train to save gas and money?

Parents: No

Parents, a week later: Buy a train pass because gas is expensive

Me: Okay, but I don't get paid until Tuesday

Parents, that Tuesday: Don't get a pass; we'll take you to work

Me: Alright, then I'm going to spend this $85 on food and gas

Parents, yesterday: You're taking the train to work tomorrow because gas is expensive

Me, to myself: If you'd actually teach me to drive, we wouldn't be having this problem

[aster-aspera]

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[starbuck]

my manager: relax over your holiday break!

my holiday break: i have to go to multiple stores in the days leading up to Christmas, then i have to do a whirlwind of tasks for my mom on Christmas Day while also looking after my friend’s emotions all day, i wake up the next morning sick from anxiety so i sleep that off and then immediately drive five hours through heavy traffic to my grandparents’ house, my cousins arrive but one of them is SICK sick… they isolate him but i spend the next three days paranoid that i will also get sick bc my aunt guilted me into sharing food with him before we realized he was sick, the toilet we typically use in the house isn’t working so i have to use the very public downstairs toilet the whole time which is stressful, i drive five hours home and just as i lay down in bed my friend starts threatening self harm because a guy he knows from college isn’t communicating well, tomorrow i have to drive my mom and mom-mom and this same friend around to look at Christmas lights and also possibly hang out with this friend afterwards (and/or spend the night stopping him from self harming) and then it’s back to work on the 1st!!!!!!!! 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

[hope-ur-ok]

I have not eaten anything today and I frankly don't have the motivation to make anything, or even care that I haven't had anything