#I FUCKING LOVE RADIOHEAD OKAY????

[for-zionists]

Radiohead vocalist abandons the stage in protest of pro Palestinian chant

Not only are Radiohead an amazing band, but they're also sane about Israel: A very rare occurrence these days.

[booklova0-0]

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Frank ocean, Lana del Rey, Brent faiyaz, tv girl, Radiohead, the smiths, arctic monkeys, sza, Tyler, the creator, Nirvana, Beabadoobee, Chase Atlantic.

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𝘼𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙢𝙚

Just a girl who loves to read, likes fashion and indulges in writing the odd fan fiction here and there.Lover of all things horror and girly.Huge movie and music nerd. Honestly I’m just here to have a good time. Feel free to dm me about anything on your mind xx

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[wildesqdreams]

canceled plans, sweet love

summary - sometimes you have to experience pain again and again, even if it's caused by friends, until you find that person who would fall into tartarus for you.

pairing - percy jackson x fem!reader.

warnings - angst (not because of our man), but percy saves the day, kissing/making out.

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a/n: i wrote this in one sitting, why? because this actually happened to me. am i okay? no, i'm not... but i hope u guys like it!

you know what's the biggest problem with selfless people? they usually end up as idiots, lying in bed listening to radiohead and still WONDERING how they can make others feel better.

it was 3pm. she was supposed to be back at 7. percy knew it, so he went out skateboarding with his new colleagues that he has befriended.

y/n knew it, too. she had planned the day out. well her and her friends. a lake day, a long needed reunion, since she didn't see them for quite a while.

the thing is she was so sentimental and she was waiting when she could finally see her friends again. and as she was told, they were too. but then why did the plans suddenly change? and why did suddenly everyone have to leave 5 hours earlier than intended?

a tear rolled down her face, and she hid her face in the blanket.

god, she felt so stupid. always listening. always trying. always waiting. ALWAYS CHASING OTHERS. but in the end, being left alone like a piece of shit.

it may seem dramatic. but when all your lifetime you have been the one running after and being ditched, it just makes you feel so embarrassing and lonely. so fucking lonely.

she felt something vibrate. she reached for her phone under the pillow, hoping for some apologies, but all she got was a notification from the weather app. y/n put her phone back down on the bed, closing her eyes, trying to fall asleep. trying to run away from her clouded mind.

some minutes passed, and she heard the apartment doors open. there was some shuffling before she heard a voice yell from the foyer, "hey, baby, you're already back?!"

percy.

the girl felt the nerves in her body come back alive. how stupid. such an idiot. dumb. dumb. dumb.

"weren't you supposed to be at home much later," she heard him come to the bedroom, "not that i'm complaining or anything," percy set the keys on the cupboard in the room.

y/n just hummed.

"ey," the boy went to the bed, sitting down, where she was lying on her side. he placed his hand on her upper thigh, rubbing circles with his thumb, "did something happen?"

"no, everything is fine," she put on a small smile, as she sat up, percy's hand sliding up and down her leg, that was covered with the blanket, "so, how was your day? have fun?"

percy squeezed her thigh before putting his hand on the bed beside it, the other reaching for her hair, pushing it behind her ear, "baby," he kissed her cheek, that was stained with tears, resting his other hand on the other side of the bed, traping her between his arms, "don't lie to me."

"perce, i'm fine, really."

"then why have you been crying?"

y/n shrugged, "watched a sad movie."

"and why are you home so early?"

"got bored, decided that i wanted to leave," she tried to act unbothered, but percy could see right through her. of course he could.

"y/n," he sat closer, as he put his arms around her, "fuck em," he pulled her closer.

she tried to smile, but tears started to spill again, "again, no big deal."

she heard him sigh, "i hate when you just act like it's okay, when it's not, " he rubbed his hand up and down her back, "i just wished you had called me, i would be here in a heartbeat-"

"percy-"

"i'm serious, y/n," he pulled back, resting his hands on her cheeks, "i'm here, baby, always. i'm not gonna just throw you away. if you need me, i'm here," he rested his forehead against hers, "those idiots aren't worth your tears. gods, pretty, you deserve so much better than them."

she smiled, tears still in her eyes. the girl gave him a peck on his nose, "i'll live, i mean, i have you. that's more than i could ask for."

she felt his hands go down to her waist, lying her back down, as he climbed on top of her, giving her soft kisses on her neck, "that's right, baby. just remeber that," he trailed his lips up her neck, "don't want you forgeting what you mean to me," her hands went to his hair, as his kisses traveled up to her mouth, "i love you so much, y/n."

"i love you, perce," the boy captured her lips into a passionate kiss.

but the best thing about selfless people? they are patient enough to wait for the right people to come into their lives and make all the tears and pain be replaced with endless love.

"but really," she mumbled into the kiss, "how did it go?"

percy just laughed, "let's just say we both should just stick with each other," and with that, he placed his lips back on hers.

taglist: @pleasingregulus

[bloodywilliams]

HOW DID IT END?

cw: none! takes place when reader is a minor - NO SMUT!! entirely based off of my first lesbian experience not proofread…

right after new years during sophomore year, you came to a realization that’s been sneaking up in you your whole life. and how did you come to this divine revelation? a video game. you had just finished a game that would end up being a life long favorite, that turned you lesbian. 

of course it didn’t “turn you lesbian”, but it opened your eyes. when you first saw the female protagonist open the game, something in you switched completely. all the boy craziness washed off of you forever. leaving you confused, nervous, and alone. 

it took you four months to tell your best friend “the truth”. the truth being… the person you’ve been crushing on for months is a girl. not a guy. somehow, she already knew. maybe from your not so subtle hints about video game women you grew tk be obsessed with. regardless, she knew and really didn’t mind.

 but elie. ellie was like something you’ve never seen. she seemed so confident roaming around school everyday, chunky headphone atop her head bobbing her head to whatever music she was listening to.

you were smitten, and SURE she had to like girls, although you weren’t a seasoned lesbian… you just knew…

it took months of creeping on her, trying to find any information you could about her. she was in the grade above you so you didn’t really know anyone who knew her. it was hard. buuut, you eventually found her snapchat (i know gross, but this was the app to use at the time! it was the thing!!!)

so with hesitation, and a fake account… you add her. and wait… and wait… and add her again… and wait some more, until… SHE ADDS YOU BACK OMG OMG OMG!!!!

you: do you like girls

ellie: what

ellie:who’s this?

you: my name is jake

ellie:oh um

ellie: do i know u?

you: no i go to a different school i was just wondering 

ellie: oh um okay 

ellie: yeah i’m lesbian 

you throw your phone and scream in excitement 

you: i have to confess something

ellie: the floor is yours jake.

you: so i’m actually not a boy i’m a girl and i girl to your school and i know this is really creepy and i’m sorry i just think you’re really cool and pretty and i kinda have a crush on you.

holy shit holy shit holy shotitititursodhdu

ellie: oh!

ellie: no worries! that’s really sweet!

ellie: but i am currently in a relationship and i’m moving pretty soon so i wouldnt really be able to reciprocate anything with you aaalso i’m moving this summer so it just wouldn’t work:( but no worries!!

oh. oh? fuck. fuck. fuuuck.

that message shattered you in multiple ways. first, the humiliation. you let yourself get so excited over someone who doesn’t even know you.

next, you’re sad because FUCK. she has a girlfriend. she’s probably gonna tell her girlfriend about how some anonymous creep confessed their love to her and they’re gonna laugh and kiss and FUCK.

somehow, you guys stay in touch. you log into your anonymous snapchat account multiple times a day to talk about music you guys like. she tells you she’s been loving radiohead lately, so you tell her to listen to ‘black star’ she loves it.

music is how you guys stay in connection, it’s strange to you cause why would she still be talking to you after you pretty much exposed yourself as an anonymous weirdo. but you don’t mind. in fact, this is all you’ve ever wanted. you get to feel her essence. look at her in school and think about the things you’ve guys talked about, feeling like you know her more specially than before, although you still don’t really know anything about her at all.

about two weeks of brief but meaningful (to you) conversations with ellie go by and this happens

ellie: so when r u gonna tell me your real name?

you: i would but i’m scared you might know me

ellie: didn’t you say you go to a different school?

you: aboutttttt that…..

ellie: omg

ellie: now i have to know who you are

and after a lot… and A LOT of convincing, you’re sold. she’s making you feel like MAYBE just MAYBE you might have a chance at something more with her. walking with her in the hallway, hanging out with her, pretending not to like her anymore… etc.

the next day, you get done up all pretty. you wake up *extra* early to get all pretty for her. the plan yoh two arranged was that when the second lunch bell rings, you walk down the hallway by the spanish room. you sit in the bathroom infront of said hallway and panic. fuckfufkcifkcufkcufkfieosjoad it’s okay. it’s okay there’s gonna be a whole lot of people in the hallway and she probably won’t even be able to figure out which one was you! yes… thats right..

except that wasn’t right. the bell rings and you leave the bathroom- shaking albeit. you start to walk and your stomach drops when the crowd in the hallways quickly fizzle out and it’s just you and ellie. walking towards eachother. you don’t have to stomach to look at her but for the split second you did, you saw the biggest smile on her face, staring right at you.

fuck. fuckfuckfuckfuckkkk this is NOT how this was meant to pan out. but it’s happening

part two coming soon!

[appleblueberry-pie]

OOOHHHH, OKAY HERE MY REQUEST FOR YANDERE MILE MORALES SCENARIO! I imagine him being the type of guy to break into the reader's locker and leave a CD(the song is probably cheesy like Radiohead-creep) while leaving a sticky note like “I really, really, like you. And I wanna get to know you more, can you meet at [insert abandoned building here] ❣️”~secret admirer (*cough* it's Miles *cough*) This freaks the reader out, cuz they've been dealing with this bs for 3 months and the authorities can't do shit, can I request the reader confronting their “secret admirer”? 🥺

N/A: I hope you heard me evilly laugh when I first read this. Boutta spill all of my delusions on this. Also i've never written worse luck than the reader had in this one.

Be Mine? Yes or No.

It's about ten minutes before first period begins and you've already spent five of them rereading the 20th love letter you've received over the course of a few months. You felt the hairs on the back of your neck rise as you continue to find more and more things to worry about in this letter. You'd think that this person would stop pestering you, but they really weren't. At all whatsoever. The same little sweet names they'd compliment you with. The same main idea they had in the previous note continuing into the next one. This has been happening over and over.

And it was so, so sweet when this fiasco first started. When you first opened your locker and it was placed so nicely in the center as if someone carefully placed it there. It was definitely spritzed with some kind of cologne, because no scent from someone just rubs off onto a letter like that. The beautiful envelope it was put in, the paper on the inside. The neat handwriting that was clearly practiced just to put some love onto the paper for you to hopefully absorb. And it worked the first three times, but it just kept getting weirder from there.

The way they wrote to you was extremely genuine, something that was hard to find in relationships nowadays. It really made you want to meet this person. They mixed in casual sweet names in Spanish into the writing in a way that wasn't hard for you to understand at all. They definitely had a crush on you. But then they began mentioning you in ways that seemed to make you borderline uncomfortable. Mentioning your beautiful hair, your eyes, your lips, the way you spoke, how you smelled. How they'd watch you and your friends in the park. Slipping in a few mentions of you walking to and from a corner store nobody in your school but you knew about.

They would write about how they could help you with specific classes that they knew you were struggling with. What foods they theorized you don't like(they were right), your type of man and how they fit that exact description, if not, more. How he knows he's the one you'd want and need. How the two of you are meant to be, he'd love you the way you need to be loved and he cant wait to actually meet you. How he'd bring you to the address of your favorite breakfast spot that no one should know about and he'd buy you that plate you always wanted to get that you couldn't afford. How he'd spoil you and-

All of this tension he built up on his own, which was all fueled by his own delusions, drew you to the conclusion that this nigga needed to be put in his place. You wanted a boyfriend. Not a fucking perverted stalker. Whoever this was, he was taking it too far, and was ultimately scaring you. It took you fifteen of these letters for you to realize that he wasn't actually slipping the letter into the locker between the cracks, but he was putting in the real code of your lock to properly unlock it. How he found it out, you have no idea. You didn't know what this guy was capable of and didn't know if he'd hurt you if you said no. But it had to be done somehow or he'd take shit too far and kidnap you or some crazy shit like that.

None of the school officials would help you because they're pieces of shit. Your friends tell you to bag him like dumbasses, and what the fuck are your parents gonna do? Yell at the dean and stand by your locker all day to wait for the guy?? You were all alone in this. So the most reasonable thing you came up with is to bluntly write to him to meet you after school at the park you and your friends go to often since he knows the spot already.

And quite literally the day after, you sat at the bench at the park after school, and he showed up.

You remember being so damn scared. What if he was big and burly and angry? What if he was one of the popular boys and would record the entire interaction? What if he follows you back home? What does he plan to do once you try to tell him off? You shouldn't have done this. The setting sun wasn't comforting you. The abandoned playground that usually was bustling with squealing kids was just making you more nervous. It was silent and cold today, but your mind just wouldn't shut up. Suddenly, the school uniform you wore wasn't as comfortable and you clutched your backpack closer to your body.

The wind blew gently on your bare knees and you heard someone call out your name. You flinched and felt your heart drop and turned to see the source of the voice, hoping for the worst. There was a boy sitting on a bench right next to yours. He was staring at you. It made you feel....unsettled and something else you couldn't put your finger on. To calm yourself, you listed his characteristics in his head. He was....reasonably attractive. Light brown eyes. Sculpted face. A light Spanish accent to his voice exactly how you'd imagine. Neat braids on his head. But something about his aura messed with you. He wasn't as good as he portrayed himself to be. You didn't want to speak and watched him stand from his spot to sit next to you on your bench. You clutched your bag to your chest as you watched him try to calmly approach you without making you too nervous.

With nervous eyes on him, he sits down next to you, letting a small smile grace his lips. "Hey, ma...how you doin'?" He sounded like he was trying to lure a scared dog into his arms. But it was awkward because he was trying to act normal with his dream girl and it was an actual human being and not a dog. "....fine." You respond. He scratches his nape and averted his eyes for a quick second. He really wanted to know why you wanted to talk to him. You gave no context within your letter, and it was a blessing, nonetheless. You actually responded to him. He predicted that he wouldn't get one for another good three weeks to two months almost. But this must be serious. He prepared himself for all possible scenarios that this could end up being.

"So....why'd you want to meet all of a sudden? It's getting late and I don't want you going home in the dark, you know?" You nod and take a deep breath, scared as fuck for how this could end. "Yeah.....so....I just wanted to tell you that I just- I don't want to be with you." It felt like you had to pull the words out of your throat for him to hear. You saw his face drop and decided to explain before he did anything else. "Like....I don't know you. I just realized that. You know so much about me and about my friends and the places I go to. I don't know a damn thing- Are you stalking me??" You turn to face him and stare into his wide eyes. He almost seemed as if he was caught doing some weird shit. And it was weird.

The silence started to make you angry when you realized he probably has been following you all this time. He shakes his head and sits up. "No...no, I haven't been stalking you at all, ma, I promise. I never want to make you uncomfortable, ever. Where are you getting that?" Oh, so now he's gaslighting you. If you brought all of his envelopes to this meeting, you would've dumped all of the evidence on his lap. You roll your eyes, grab your bag, and stand to leave. He stands at the same time as you when he sees you're trying to leave and stands in your way. "Wait, wait, wait, that's it? You not gon' give me a chance?" "A chance? Nigga, you lost your chance when you started being weird and fucking acting like you wasn't being weird this entire time!"

It was hard to get mad at you or reason with you. You were too pretty to get mad at even when you were nearly yelling in his face. And he had no logical reason to behave the way he was behaving, either. So, he might lose you unless he does something risky. And to risk your trust and love is something he doesn't want on the line.

You watch him watch you leave and he picks up his bag as well. The street lights turn on once it gets dark enough and Miles interrupts you walking away. "I'm not letting you walk home in the dark, Y/n." You flinch at his voice and growl a groan in fuming anger. An older lady passes the both of you and praises the mystery boy for being such a good gentleman and how 'there needs to be more of you out on these streets'. You almost slapped the fuck out of her for even hyping him up. He gives her a beautiful smile and tells her to get home safe, while walking you in the direction of your home.

He turns back to you and almost laughs at the face you're making. "I wonder how your mom would feel about you going home in the dark." "Mind yo fucking business." He happily leaves it there, continuing to walk with you down the street. Maybe this way, he can have more than one excuse to continue walking you home from now on. "Ion even know yo name." You mutter under your breath and Miles smiles at you. "My name is Miles. Great to finally meet you in person, Mami." You scoff and gladly let him scroll on his phone. You tried to speed ahead of him in hopes he'd stay at his slower pace, but he always caught up to you. You inwardly groan, knowing he'd probably make it to your door before you get rid of him.

"Glad to know the name of the person who's been stalking me. Now I can report you officially." You smirk at him and he gives one right back. "Just a name won't cut it, ma." "I got photos." "Where?" He hands you your phone back and you snatch it, realizing he was scrolling on your phone the whole time AND deleted your photo evidence. Before you can shove him into the street for a car to run him over, your mom bursts the door open and eyes the boy next to you. "Girl, you finally brought someone home with you." You didn't even realize you were on your street, better yet, your house. And your mom liked him already??

Your face dropped as you approached the front door. "No, no, no, it's not like that-" "What's your name, sweetie?" Miles steps up to the door and holds out his hand for her to shake, a beaming smile on his face. "My name is Miles Morales, ma'am." She shakes his hand before scrunching her eyebrows. " 'Morales'? You know Rio??" "That's my mamá, right there." Horrifying, how quickly a new relationship between the two bloomed right before your eyes as they continued to converse.

How are you going to get out of this? Your stalker is making great friends with your mom, no one can help because he deleted the evidence, and you would soon find out the next morning at school that your locker was clean of envelopes as well. Nothing was working in your favor and you realized that there was no way to escape. He included himself into your life so easily, when you wanted him out, out, out. You hated this shit, but he seemed to love it, sending you a look of appreciation as you both stepped into your abode.

Miles was so grateful for having you as a part of his life. The stars aligned and allowed you both a chance at beauty and growth. He wouldn't let this opportunity waste away like he had done many times in the past. You were his chance at redemption for all of the things he had done and the things that he planned to do later on. You were finally his.

[emyyxy]

music taste

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billy loomis and stu macher music taste headcanons

billy 🔪

this boy does not stop playing the smashing pumpkins holy shite 😣 i just KNOW his spotify wrapped hates to see him coming with SP in that top 5 most listened to artists. i think cherub rock is his favorite smashing pumpkins song tbh

quite literally 90s divorced dad rock

do NOT and i mean do NOT play radiohead around him he will completely just shut down and mope in the corner

the cure the cure the cure the cure the cure the cure (tho he doesn’t admit it cuz he thinks it’s gay mind u he’s literally dating stu🤨)

he’s the type of guy to cover the radio with his hand and ask ��who sings this song?” “what band is this?” “what song is this?”

he was never the same after kurt cobain passed 🙁 and despises courtney love and hole (hate her love her music tho)

when listening to a song with a guitar solo he will play his air guitar and shred it and after the song is over he will pretend to smash said air guitar onto his fake stage (this is only when he is home alone)

also plays fake drums and will bang pencils or whatever he has around him on the nearest surface (again also when he is home alone)

male manipulator deftones kind of guy

he listens to nine inch nails before he goes out for a killing spree it’s like his hype music

he owns lots of jane’s addiction cds

stu 🔪

holy shite #1 weezer fan i had to say it

he really enjoys the beatles and he will defend them always. his parents would play the beatles all the time in the house for him so their songs are very meaningful and sentimental to him. his favorite song is Oh! Darling and sometimes whenever he’s feeling down he will put his walkman on and just fall asleep listening to it on repeat

the trajectory of his life was changed after he heard the beastie boys for the first time

THE CURE THE CURE THE CURE OMG but he is PROUD of who he is unlike billy so stu is not ashamed of listening to the cure he dont gaf

pearl jam and i like to think that when he skates if he does but in my mind stu skates 🛹 he listens to pearl jam

he also likes the smashing pumpkins but not as much as billy

green day is like stu’s favorite thing in the whole wide world and i can’t tell u why but i feel it in my heart that stu is like the worlds biggest green day fan i think its the whole like fuck the patriarchy kind of thing

THE CRANBERRIES HOLy (you guys danced to Dream together and it was sooo magical for him)

stu resonates with radiohead a lot so you’d catch him sitting in the same corner with billy moping together

the offspring because he thinks he’s really fly for a white guy

ooooooouuuuuuuu do NOT get him started with fleetwood mac! that boy is passionate about their music and especially stevie nicks

okay foo fighters, red hot chili peppers, stone temple pilots, linkin park, lash, hole

[loveshotzz]

He’s not tech savvy, and he doesn’t really like to be laughed at. It doesn’t stop you from giggling under your breath at every wrong button he presses. The lag on the connection from the remote to the TV consistently getting letters wrong.

“If you don’t stop…” he mutters, frustrated. The curl you love so much falling over his glasses while he leans further forward on the couch. He squints at the television, jutting the remote toward the screen in an angry thrust just to accidentally hit ‘delete’. You break, letting out a loud laugh that wakes Bandit up from his nap on the dog bed. Steve can’t help it, he laughs too, a chuckle birthed from how annoyed he is trying to set up a ‘party watch�� for the Friday the 13th movies with Peach and Eddie in New York.

It made his heart soften at any hint of his best friend that he found in you. Smirking to himself when you mentioned watching them whenever a Friday the 13th happened to fall. It’s like Ed spoke through you. So he made a whole plan for it — a stay at home date night where he made snacks, ordered cannolis, got a good fall candle, and set the lights to an eerie low red.

And it would be perfect if he could figure out how to get the fucking link to work.

“If you think it’s so easy, why don’t you do it tough girl?” he asks, putting the remote on the center cushion on the couch, “Go ahead, show me how smart you are.”

“You’re just not being patient,” you tease in a measured, holier-than-thou tone, “You have to be one with the remote.”

“Okay,” he says smoothly, “Show me then, karate kid. Show me how to become one with the remote.”

You can smell the spice and cedar on him when he inches closer, big hand closing over yours while you take the remote in your hand, slowly spelling out Eddie’s email address for the invite on the screen. A silence falls between you, feeling the scruff of his five o’clock shadow near your cheek.

“You’re showin’ off, angel,” he murmurs, he breath coasting over your ear.

“So what if I am?” you ask headily, turning your head so your lips nearly brush. The remote drops between you, noses teasing against each other with gentle smiles on your lips, eyes closing.

Steve’s phone rings, Eddie’s ringtone — Creep by Radiohead blowing from the speaker.

“Hold that thought,” Steve sighs. He picks up, screen reflecting himself back when he realizes it’s a FaceTime call.

“‘Yyyello,” Steve says, settling the phone against a mug of decaf on the coffee table. You sigh at the way he can’t help but answer the phone like a geriatric.

“I’ve been waiting for this invite for like, twenty minutes — what’s the deal?” Eddie asks, from the background it looks like his phone is in a similar spot. Halloween decorations set and ready, fairy lights flickering orange and purple hanging prettily on the wall.

“We’re getting there man, relax,” Steve says, taking his glasses off to massage the bridge of his nose, “Technical difficulties.”

“Or you just don’t know how to do it,” he grins, “Where’s your girl? Ask if she can help.”

“I’m trying,” you pipe up, putting yourself in the frame and waving.

“Hey lady,” he smiles lazily, “You teachin’ him a thing or two?’

“Every day,” you smile back.

“They say you can’t teach an old dog new tricks,” Eddie shrugs, “So…”

“Well, you’re older than me, so,” Steve bites back.

“Ooh, I love when you’re a little mean,” Ed flirts, “Do it again.”

“The invite should come in for you in a couple minutes, are you on the main page? It’ll pop up there,” you say, picking the remote up again.

“Yeah, I’m ready when you are,” he nods. You both can hear the lock click in Ed’s apartment, his face splitting into a smile and gentle eyes.

“Hey baby,” he says to his wife off screen, “Com’ere we’re gonna watch Jason with St—”

Off camera you can hear Peach’s voice, soft, and laced with a hint of disappointment, “You decorated…”

His face quirks, “Yeah, d-do you not like it?”

“I like it but…you um, you did it without me. We were supposed to do it together.”

“Oh, honey,” he frowns, “Wait no, don’t frown like that — Peach…”

Eddie looks at the screen, “Sorry guys, can you send the invite in like a half hour? Peach, sweetheart, I’m so sorry…don’t be upset…I — fuck, hold on — Yeah, send it in like a half hour — bye.”

The call disconnects, leaving you both sitting there in the glow of the TV, the cursor blinking waiting for you to click ‘Invite’ now that Eddie’s email was successfully entered.

“All that and now we have to wait,” Steve snaps, “He’s never on time.”

“I feel bad,” you give a small pout in solidarity, “She sounded so sad.”

“She’ll get over it,” Steve lets out a breath, shaking his head like he’s used to this, “She just wants some attention. Speaking of…”

“Speaking of…?” you respond, turning toward him on the couch.

“We were having a lot of fun before we were interrupted,” Steve smiles, leaning forward, lips skimming your cheek to press a kiss by your ear, “And I can think of a few good ways to kill a half hour.”

- not Carol, oh wait, yes it is

🥺 i’ve been selfish and kept this to myself for a little while and have been reading it when i get overwhelmed at work. you spoil me bf 🥺💕 I love him so much.

[daengtokki]

✶ spotify playlist ✶ youtube playlist ✶ DEITY ML ✶

Parts 1—6…starting with the song that named the series. Parts 7—11 will be added soon!

Thank you to all of my lovely and patient readers ♡ music has been a massive part of the inspiration for this fic, and even though it’s changed and evolved a lot over the last eight months, a handful of these songs have been there since the very beginning. They definitely won’t be to everyone’s taste, but they are Seungmin and Tokki, and they are the overall vibe I try to bring. I hope, at the very least, it makes some good background music for someone ♡ ˎˊ˗

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intro | part one

Deity / dir en grey

“It’s alright.” Both hands close around your neck and squeeze, softly at first, "the ending will still be the same.” Little by little his grip tightens, and you begin to squirm.

Wandering star / portishead

Just as he moves to approach you, you lift your gaze, and your eyes find his. Seungmin freezes for a moment, then slowly takes the cigarette from him lips. “Hello,” he smiles and turns away a little to blow out his smoke.

Blue sky / art school girlfriend

If there’s something you can do to save yourself, you can’t seem to think of it, so you give in and let him put his arms around you.

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part two

And all that could have been / nine inch nails

"I'm sorry I fucked everything up, but if you leave, you'll be happier, and safer" "Safer from you?" Once again, you're stuck in this room, only this time, it's your own fault. The door is wide open, but you can't move. "Maybe"

Every single night / fiona apple

It was stupid to expect him to just be okay, but he was okay. He was himself when he brought you back, and when he made you a bath. When he cooked for you.

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part three

✶ Seungmin's driving playlist Street Spirit (Fade Out) / radiohead Jesus Christ / brand new Further ahead of warp / envy ✶

艶かしき安息、躊躇いに微笑み (A charming repose, a hesitant smile) / dir en grey

Seungmin is always careful about how much he cuts and where he cuts from. Some blossoms seem brighter than others, and those are the ones he knows he can take. But before he does anything… “how have you been?”

Take the blame so I don’t have to / spooky black

You don’t bite yet, but you kiss him again, lick, and graze your teeth across his skin. “Right here?”The sound he makes is small, and desperate, like he’s afraid you might not do it. “Please.”

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part four

Daydreaming / radiohead

It feels good; the soft warmth of the couch, and the silky pillow under his head. And he can see you from here, moving back and forth in his vision, disappearing and reappearing as you…well, he’s not sure what you’re doing. He likes watching you, though.

Skin to skin / movements

Seungmin wonders if that’s how it usually feels—like you’re going to explode from the pain. That’s how it feels when he’s kneeling in the dirt with his flowers, and that’s how he feels when he remembers too much all at once. But this was a different type of pain.

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part five

Sour times / portishead

“What have you done?” He whispers and kisses the corner of your lips. “Hm?”“I’m sorry”“No.” He kisses you fully, and brings you close enough to feel every aching inch. The grip on your neck tightens, he can’t help it. “Have you been here the whole time?”

Intro / alt-j

“Are we ready?” He looks at the bag you packed for him, and only adds a few more things.“I think so. Where are we going?”“We’ll figure that out after we get rid of the body.”

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part six

Moonstruck / enhypen

The words in your head don’t seem big enough, and at the same time, your head is making you feel silly for feeling the way you do, and as much as you do.

Seungmin feels it, too, and he can’t look you in the eyes when he tells you. It’s still too much for him.

Afraid / day6

“I’ll take care of you, whether you’re sick or not. Whether you can handle it, or you can’t. You come first.”

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[ann1e-on-earth]

Yaelokre modern AU!!!

(Part one)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Cole:

-GAD

-Probably would listen to The Crane Wives

-SUCH an introvert. Literally barely interacts with their classmates.

-7th/8th grade

-Has amazing English grades

-Won a poetry contest once and their guardian tells everyone about how “their adopted child is sooo smart” and embarrasses the crap out of Cole 😭

“[name] you’re embarrassing me..”

-If anyone remembers that one dude who kind of fostered young Cole from when Meadowlark was in earlier development, I feel like they’d live with them

-Theatre kid. 100%.

-Insecure about their face and hair

-Wears a lot of big hoodies and baggy jeans, for comfort and to not call attention to themself

-They’d LOVE minecraft. They’d play it with the other Lark kids all the time. They redesigned a village and it took them a month but they were so proud of it, then Kingsley burnt the whole village down and Cole didn’t talk to them for 3 days

-Its bed is a literal nest of 10000 blankets and a bunch of stuffed animals that they got a thrift shop

-They’d go to therapy for their anxiety

-Is allowed to have TikTok and stuff but they’re scared that if they posted or commented something they’d get bullied online or smth 😭

-Very big Anne with an E fan. Watches it with Clémmie and alone. Cried multiple times.

-Hates baking competition shows because they stress them the fuck out

-Also hates horror movies, games, etc

-Listens to rain sounds to help them sleep

Clémentine:

-Lives with their mother because in a modern AU they probably wouldn’t have been able to run away due to missing child protocols

-7th grade

-WhatsApp, Phone tracker, Safari. That’s it

-Would’ve loved Annie (the musical)

-LOVES LOVES LOVES DISNEY

-Also a theatre kid

-Their mom doesn’t know that they like Cole (She’d be okay with it I think but she wouldn’t exactly want Clém dating people yet if that makes sense?)

-Sooo good at math. Their math teacher voluntold them to be a tutor for other kids

-Absolutely adored Claire’s as a younger kid. ADORED.

-They secretly downloaded Discord on their phone without asking their mother and feel guilty every day for it

-Their mother is on the PTA and constantly complains about everything wrong with the school

-At school they wear a lot of sweater vests, long-ish skirts, headbands, and really plain shoes (Or Sketchers for gym) but at home they can wear more comfortable clothes

-Needs to beg their mom to let them go to a sleepover (or even a walk by themself)

-TERRIFIED OF CABBAGE PATCH DOLLS.

“Hey clém look at this doll”

“Get it away GET IT AWAY KILL IT KILL IT”

-Loves Calico Critters

-would listen to Melanie Martinez (before the allegations), big fan of PORTALS

Peregrine:

-Just for this AU I think they’d be Kingsley’s older cousin (YES IK IT ISN’T CANON, IT’S AN AU) and would live with Kingsley and Tita Amara because their parents suck.

-8th grade

-Hates most people, their friends and Tita Amara being the exception

-Gets pretty good grades!

-Also a theatre kid because let’s be honest all of them are

-DETESTS BRAINROT.

-They have a phone but really only use it to message people and maybe watch shows

-It’d love Stranger Things.

-Drinks so much coffee, like an unhealthy amount of coffee

“Peregrine, not to.. bother, but isn’t that your 7th cup??”

“*slams cup down* YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, TITA AMARA!”

-Calls Cole “Coleslaw”

-Radiohead fan.

-Wears jeans, sweaters, and boots everywhere. Pretty much like Cole but less “Please don’t look at me” and more “Look at me the wrong way and I will kill you”

Kingsley:

-Lives with Tita Amara and Perrine

-6th grade

-Met Cole and Clémmie through Peregrine+From drama club

-Pretty social, not like, super popular but everyone gets along well with them and whatever

-DRAMA CLUBBBB

-Loves making jokes about brainrot to bug Peregrine because they think it’s funny

-NOT AN iPAD KID!!!!!! They do own an iPad but they also touch grass and eat dirt and whatnot 💔💔

-When they are actually on their iPad, they play dress to impress with Clémmie

“Vote me 5 stars or else I’m telling Enaïs about your Science test grade”

-Has one of those ant hill farm things in their room

-I think it’d like old (90s-early 2000s) SpongeBob? Like when it was actually funny

-Wears literally whatever. As long as it’s clean and comfortable, they’ll wear it.

-SUCH mixed music taste. One minute they’re listening to Katy Perry and the next they’re listening to some random artist that nobody has ever heard of from 1960 something who died in the 90s and released one album in their whole career

-They get okay grades in all classes but are amazing at Science and Gym. Science because they like learning about the rock cycle or whatever and Gym because they have an insane amount of energy

EDIT!!!!:

So apparently the only middle school aged one is Perrine? (Kingsley being 9, Cole and Clém being 10-11) sorry about that 🥲

[m155y-74]

gang this took me so long holy shit im so tired ughhhh, yes my comments r completely incoherent and my rating system is stupidly inconsistent also no it’s not a star per song it’s purely based on vibes. i’m very very sorry if i was mean in fairness to me its 1am anyways tysssm for replying this was acc sm fun and now i have a shit tonne of new music so yay (also u all get a sentence on my judgement of u based on ur music if i had never spoken to u so have fun with that)

@vitch-with-v ⭐️⭐️⭐️

IM SORRY BUT OMG DO WE HAVE DIFFERENT TASTE

u defo love a mosh pit in theory but are terrified of getting trampled

Mi Buen Amor/Antes De Ti-lowkey loved them both have very much the musical theatre belty vibe that i love tho i think i would have liked it a bit more if i spoke spanish lmao Kunst-ngl i rlly didn’t see that coming but kinda yes tho i’d defo have to be in the mood, the smezir2 one and give it up-no sorry but not my vibe like at all where r the words?? Eres-like yes maybe i think i’d like it a lot more if i knew spanish but kinda cool

@directorsbeencut ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

we have very similar taste, bravo flawless excellent (also love ur new pfp it’s making me wanna change mine back to my man)

u love eyeliner but can’t do it and it haunts u

beat my guest/prince charming-fuck yea love both these songs especially beat my guest too much too young/ghost town-kinda loved both of these very much my vibe might be going on the playlist complicated game-i love XTC acc a stupid amount love this well done the distance-hmm less my vibe sorry bout that the the empty-excellent flawless love le tigre bravo

@l1v3r-al0n3 ⭐️⭐️

i saw nu metal and my heart sank (u get an extra star for sonne be grateful)

u haven’t a glass of water in over a year

sonne-one of my fav songs ever thank fuck u put that on there otherwise i’d have to unfollow u. the rest i’m sorry but no like rlly not my vibe (i liked the emptiness machine more than i thought but still not enough) i’m a big thrash/power/heavy metal fan and just nu metal no no thank u

@i-ate-the-sun7 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

okay so i’m just mystified as to how out of all the amazing clash songs u could’ve chosen that was the one u went with (extra star for metallica)

i have nothing to say about u ur very confusing but you’ve never painted ur toenails

pretty fly-like yeah maybe pretty good not quite my vibe but sure why not janie jones- i love the clash with my whole heart like so so much but of all the clash songs u coulda picked like come on dude, still excellent song tho you know what they do…- hot take and i’m gonna be crucified for this but i rlly don’t like mcr so sorry bout that it was okay cannibal girlfriend-yeha acc yeah rlly liked it which i didn’t see coming for whom the bell tolls-well done very well done u get an extra star just for this song

@horrormoviepsycho ⭐️⭐️⭐️

pretty good all good songs im just not super into nineties sorryyy (rlly not sorry)

u rlly want to skateboard but are shit at it and don’t wanna look like a dork when u fall off

this is love-lowkey a big fan i liked this kinda a lot debaser-finally listened to this despite being obsessed with the fic yeah kinda? never been super into the pixies ngl but pretty good love is a mutt from hell-yeah pretty good? kinda a vibe but not rlly mine dirty little secret-yeha again sorta yes, not no? i dunno red right hand-hmm yes i think so yes defo yes

@amnesiamilk ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

stunning beautiful amazing bravo

u have an amazing jewellery collection and value it over your life

silver springs-flawless amazing obviously hertz-never heard this song before fucking love it made it to the playlist kiss them for me- obviously yes siouxsie my absolute queen ugh i love her so much all i need-hmm yes weirdly enough not the biggest radiohead fan but yeah kinda like it black-ooooh yes didn’t think i would but defo yes i’m a fan

@rose-bunny-28 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

pretty good just different vibes, love ayesha erotica tho (and sabrina carpenter 🫣)

your badass but are shit at painting your nails

lazy bones-not the biggest green day but yeah sure why not pretty good sixteen-i love ayesha erotica m yes yes love it ok-hmm yeha acc pretty good littke bit chill for me tho hide it away-yeahhh sure good just not rlly my vibe lie to girls- deeply ashamed to admit this but yeha i kinda love sabrina carpenter

@yourmasteramon ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

took me surprise i liked more than i though i would ngl

you’ve never in your life worn a backpack with both straps

county line-surprising yes very stu macher vibes somehow max don’t have sex-hmm like yes? but defo like in a certain mood but lowkey a fan undone-hmm yeha not rlly sorry not sorry just not very my vibe the stalker-fucking love this band name i’d never heard of them before song yeah kidna loved it boys don’t cry-don’t rlly like the cure but yeah sure why not pretty good im a fan

@paroxysmofhate ⭐️⭐️⭐️

my god we have different taste but lowkey pretty good

ur have a pet rodent of some sort

supa freak love-kinda maybe not super my vibe but sure cult of personality- yeha acc kinda loved it like a lot tear you apart-yeha yeha maybe but also wiat yes yes i’m kinda a fan epic-noooo sorry but noooo mx.sinister-okay acc yeah sorta a fan i can go with this

@crookedchildphantom ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

so i had never heard any of these songs before and u got five stars so holy shit go u

u only use wired headphones

a hundred kisses-yeha yeah acc a fan like this a lot strip-yes yes love it yep good good angry johnny-lowkey love it it made it to a playlist soooo andrew in drag-oooh omg wiat yes yes love it bloodsport-hmmm no like maybe but not really

@joelle2038 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

lowkey rlly good defo a fan might have to check out los campesinos lmao

u love scented candles but forget you’ve left them burning and neatly set shit on fire

beetlebum-yeah yeah pretty good v chill i’m a fan i just sighed….-okay so sorta yes like i’m a fan but not quite by your hand-like this quite a lot im a big fan good good baby i got….-hmm yes yes good but not quite sure holy smoke-yes yes big fan like it a lot

[myironluce]

hi guys this is a rant about supernatural on reddit

cursing, like a lot, i am very pissed off, may call them basement dwellers and idiots, also destiel denial??? not on my part, destiel is canon to me. also wincest mentioned. so like go ahead knock yourself out, and please lmk if you also have had any similar bs happen, and grammatical errors because who the hell proofreads a rant

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKING FUCK IS GOING ON ON THERE ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

apparently you can’t even complain about how fucking insane and stupid they are without getting your post taken down, so much for freedom of speech 💀

and you know the absolute dumbest part, apparently having headcanons is a sin on there, like god FORBID you mention something that isn’t 100% canon and they’ll pull out their pitchforks to fucking slaughter you. and the amount of internalized homophobia and transphobia. DONT GET ME STARTED.

like okay i know it’s fucking reddit the app built for basement dwelling but jesus christ i didn’t expect the SUPERNATURAL FANDOM to be so bigoted 😭

the other day i saw a post saying “there was no subtext about destiel” with like 1k+ upvotes… did we watch the same show?????? the writers have officially said there was in fact subtext, specially in later seasons, even jensen- the guy who famously swears that dean’s straight- agreed that cas was in fact in love with dean, there’s misha collins, destiel is recognized multiple times in canon, THE FUCKING OFFICIAL SUPERNATURAL YOUTUBE CHANNEL recognizes destiel. what are these people man 😭😭😭

but hey let’s fucking recognize wincest instead, like no hate to wincesters, the people that i have met on this app are like nice people, or nice to me at least, but the wincesters on REDDIT 💀 buddy how you gonna deny dean being gay on any point of the spectrum then make him kiss his brother. you just contradicted yourself you fucking dumb bitch. anyways. “erm but there’s subtext for wincest🤓” yes and there’s subtext for destiel too?? girl don’t pmo, if you can recognize kripke’s freaky ass writing about sam and dean, you can recognize the freaky ass writing about dean and cas too. incest subtext is okay but they draw the line at being gay?

do not even make me begin on the trans headcanons it’s all blatant transphobia disguised behind “what’s canon”

like people can have headcanons??? its not hurting you??

i have been having such a good time on the radiohead circlejerk subreddit that i forget reddit is the birthplace of most incels and then get reminded of the harsh reality by the spn subreddit.

moral of the story: live and let live, and don’t take down posts if you don’t “wike it 🥺🥺🥺” and its “not canon🥺🥺”

also saw someone deny cas being gay with another fuckton of upvotes which is just ……sigh, seriously?

[five-raccoons-in-a-trenchcoat]

watching supernatural, weeks 11&12 (14 - 27 IV 2025)

well, I forgot to post that and its been sitting in my notes app for a while so here you go

episodes watched: 12x03 - 12x14

week 11

14 IV 2025:

WE'RE BACK FELLAS okay so im back from school and the test i was supposed to have tomorrow was put off for after easter so like 2 weeks or so and hell yeah im back and im indulging in the sweet activity of watching supernatural

12x03: cutting your hair short with a knife is always a power move // "morning sunshine, want some coffee?" "no. I gotta go" ow :c that was genuinely kinda sad // I LOVE SASSY CAS // im gonna scream, Dean looks so fucking heartbroken when Mary leaves like oh my goodness he just wanted to have family and now Cas left and Mary left and aaa

15 IV 2025

12x04: "watching fake people do fake things, while the real world gets more and more screwed up" okay that's kinda a call out. rude. // nah its the woman, sth seems off with her // what the hell // what the fuck // OH OH okay so at the beginning the recap included the gifted children so my guess is that the girl is one of them? but that wouldn't make much sense // I really enjoy how the look on their faces when they get jumped by sb is like "welp, as per usual" or "that was expected" its funny // what the fuck // oh damn

16 IV 2025:

I have pizza, a long list of uncompleted chores and a show to watch

12x05: Dean not wanting pie, something seriously wrong // "Nazis. I hate these guys" same, actually // bringing Hitler back, sounds like a plan // Sam, you see, I dont think you get it, Dean killed Hitler

12x06: oh damn what a guy // okay well oops // Radiohead concert???? // "be proud of your hobbies" LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK // truly what a guy // dude honestly a house full of hunters, that's cool, that's freaking cool // okay so are we all just gonna ignore the guy who got stabbed in the neck? // btw what happened to "only those dying can see the reaper"? //

12x07: Lucy is back in the game! // "at least i dont look like a lumberjack" 😭 hes right though // the sarcastic "yay" I love you Cas // dont you insult Cas like that // and stop beating Crowley up // "hey assbutt" I love you so much Castiel // "nothing down here but a bunch of hopeless distraction addicts" this seems more relevant than ever tbh //

week 12

24 IV 2025:

12x08: so im like halfway through so // "that is the sweetest thing youve ever done for me" yeah // Cas simply standing there while the guy blows up a car // yess, Kelly, meaning that we will get Jack soon (soon aka next season, right?) // uh oh //

12x09: Cas looks so genuinely stressed and worried // fake, the phone never rings long enough to find it // dude is counting every hour 😭😭 // TF YOU MEAN THEYRE DEAD // "that is totally mentally normal" well now that you mention it // Cas :c but sitting alone in the dark so relatable // okay but im curious of how they pulled it off // CAS PICK UP // the voice crack 😭😭 // "we're not trapped with you. Youre trapped with us" classic // Brits so proud and full of themselves // yeah I expected this much // Castiel i love you so fucking much, oh my goodness, aw fuck im gonna cry oh my oh goodness Castiel i love you //

25 IV 2025:

12x10: he was doing the right thing imo // they both so bitchy lmao // I fucking love them // FEMALE CAS LETS GO // I love them so much oh my, my heart.

26 IV 2025

12x11: Dean is forgetting everything // "light stick" yea sure // "Dean Winchester's gonna die" "sucks for that guy" sure does, Dean // fucking beautiful acting from Jensen, fucking good job playing on my emotions // once in a while I get once again slapped in the face by this show // Rowena casually venting to Dean cause he won't remember, I would do the same tbh

12x12: okay I love this family dinner thing, Dean telling Cas about the waitress lmao, all the chaos // what the fuck happened here // not the slow motion walk 😭 // "don't die" welp. // highkey what is going on // no seriously what the fuck // this episode is one hell of a fever dream // the fuck is this, seriously, you got an episode that feels like its gonna end with "and then I woke up" but also apparently some huge ass, maybe plot relevant info is dropped? princes of hell? spear of michael? Crowleys origin story? Castiel dying? like this just feels weird and also the guy at the beggining, I mean, you can see how frustrated i am with this episode. // Deans being all panicky over Cas dying (more than others) // "three humans with one good liver between them" IM FUCKING WHEEZING // chat is this real IS THIS REAL CAUSE THIS EPISODE DOESNT FEEL REAL I MEAN // I almost smacked my laptop whoops no cause actually is this real??? im scared to get emotional and then feel dumb cause this was some weird ass shit idk guys I dont fucking trust this show. I dont fucking trust it anymore seriously Im so frustrated. Im gonna defenestrate my laptop srsly. Im going to get snacks // I did not get snacks // "knowing you.. its been the best part of my life" // "I love you" *camera on Dean* "I love all of you" *camera on Dean once again* pure cinema // Misha I love your acting // "and I will hold Ramiel off as long as I can" dude you cant even sit straight // i guess the cat is out of the something, I dont remember the saying // lmao srsly ? // okay so apparently the cat stayed inside, idk // the colt? we're recycling // Lucifer? more recycling

27 IV 2025:

12x13: two family reunions gone wrong

12x14: "and you are not a child" "I never was" ouch. but like, shes in the wrong here and they have every right to be mad // ay Dean, you have the right to be angry, but Sam has the right to try to make peace with others, like seriously man, don't attack him over it // there is no way Dean's gonna get bribed over a bottle of alcohol, is he?

[ledetlore]

listen, i know everyone hates nathaniel coal and a small part of me does too, but a bigger part of me ACHES wondering about how much he's feeling right now. i mean!! here is your son. your first baby. you loved him so much. you didn't always get it right, and you did your best, even if you didn't have help. maybe, at some point, you started noticing what he lacked, and maybe you pushed him to be better, but that's only because you saw so much potential in him! for the longest time, it was you and him against the world... until suddenly, it wasn't. and that broke you.

but you got up! bc if there's one thing you know how to do, it's to keep going! it's to keep working! to keep living! you have more kids, your family grows, you have more boys and a girl. you can never replace your first baby, but life has gotten better.

and then suddenly. he's back! the son you thought you lost is back!! and he's different and he's hurt and he's been used and abused and oh, he asks you, where were you? why didn't you come after me? why did i have to be the one to go to you? why did you give up? you didnt give up on my your life here, you got up, got better, but not once did you come after me? not once? you gave up on me that easily, papa?

anyway. here's my partner. this man you think of as a monster. he's my family now. he was there for me when you weren't. he knows things about me i'll never tell you.

gideon never says all those things, but that's what nathaniel hears.

what's an old man to do, then, huh? what's an old man to do with all these feelings? does anyone know? certainly not nathaniel coal.

anyway. i can't wait for the breakdown that's about to happen. your fic has me by the throat.

i miss the boys, though. gricko would not STAND for this behavior from the coals, im sure of it.

also are we ever going to figure anything out about gideon's mom?

okay this ask got me so bad I ran a bubble bath, cracked open a nice cold cider and I'm now gonna answer best as I can. Just imagine me typing this on a layer of white bubbles.

Technically, this is answered over the next chapters, but I can give you a sneak peak.

Okay, let's get into it. Radiohead is playing, I am emotional, and fuck it, I wanna answer.

Without giving too much away;

Pa loves Gideon. He loves his kids. When you love something with your whole heart and it goes, it takes your heart with it. None of Pa's kids will ever know what Pa was with Gideon, and they sort of know it, with the way he gets sometimes - looking at the fields like there's still someone running through them when they're all inside. Hopeful.

Pa woke up to Gideon left on his doorstep, months after what he thought was a casual lay with a woman he thought he had dreamed. Parents dead, ranch just about running, about twenty three with no clue in the world of what to do with himself or a baby.

Giving up his youth for the baby, cause that's what you do when you're a good man with a big heart. He gave every part of that big heart to Gideon, keeping just enough back to keep his body running.

Then it's burning.

He's screaming, your baby is screaming, and you're running out to touch him, save him, stroke his hair and whisper that you'd never let anything happen - when a thud hits you, something dark and sharp across your face like the world's cruelest slap.

You wake up to a friend shaking you, begging you to be alive. You get up and you look for him, for your baby, but all there is are steadily filling train tracks, the scent of sulfur, and a long dark horizon.

You lose yourself. You give up. You drink, but that's not enough. Suddenly, all the coin you've been saving? Women. More drinks. Waking up in ditches.

You meet a girl two years younger than you. You saw her when you were younger, in the market with her mother while you had just lost yours.

You fuck her. She's lovely, she's sweet, it's her first time - it's your fiftieth. A month later she runs to your house, paint peeling, still smoke-stained. She's pregnant.

You could get a healer, sweep it all away, but fuck, she's scared. You feel responsible. Suddenly, you're swearing to do right by her and the kid, barely an hour after drinking another bottle of whiskey down. Maybe it helps. Maybe it doesn't.

So you buck up. Quit cold, you ain't a fucking wimp. She helps you, the first few months, and then you're helping her, she's tired, she's hurting, she's got a baby in her and God don't you remember how hard it was to have one just show up?

She gives birth. It's painful, she's screaming, your favourite hat tears in your hands from how tight you're holding it.

You don't give the baby your name, that was Gideon's. You call him John Markus Cowle - it's a fine name enough. The woman, she's sweaty, exhausted, eyes bagged and hands shaking.

She's never looked more beautiful.

You marry the next year, and the ceremony is empty on your side of the aisle, but she's stunning in her white dress. You fall harder than you thought possible.

Life goes on. Three more children, the third a surprise neither expected but both want so so terribly. She's a girl, and suddenly there's two angels in your life. You love and care for your sons, but baby girl is special- the first deep love you've felt since Gideon.

Life is beautiful, for a while. She grows up, like her mother but so stubborn, like you.

Then he comes back.

The day isn't even special. it's not an anniversary or a holiday. It's the start of another week in growing season.

You feel everything, so you make yourself feel nothing. Close yourself. Struggle to speak. He looks nothing like your baby, but all like you, the curve of his brows like his mother (distant as she is in your mind) and scarred like a circus lion. His tail, which used to smack you in bed, is gone. His horns are smaller than you thought they'd be.

He's shackled.

Then out from behind him comes something you've only ever heard about. A lizardfolk. An alligator. Both predators.

You couldn't protect your son, and now there's four more of your babies that you can't see, can't defend. Your girl, your angel, she's too curious - she's so similar to Gideon, who's here now, and she's going to be hurt.

You can't lose another.

Gideon is so big, you can't fit his face in your palm anymore, he looks like you but just a little off, he's beautiful and everything you wanted to see him grow into.

This lizardfolk is dressed far too nice. That's... worse almost. Because the shackles on his wrists need to come from somewhere.

Dear Anon, you will see more soon. Pa also needs to work through this, and he's spent years treating the memory of Gideon like a drop of diamond, precious and unbreakable.

He's a complicated man. I am crying now, having written this out. God, I am not made for this kind of angst, and here I am, hurting myself.

There's going to be a moment it all crashes down and the rubble may not be able to be used to rebuild. Still, a foundation doesn't disappear.

[freshlyinlovewchris]

All I need

No warnings- fluff… in which Chris comes home feeling drained and all he wants to do is lay up under you and watch movies. Maybe some kissing and cuddling but nothing serious pink- y/n orange-chris green-nick

Sitting in your boyfriend’s bed waiting for him to arrive home from filming videos, collaborating with some other famous content creators, you lie on his bed music playing on his tv scrolling on instagram.

You take a deep sigh refreshing your feed constantly and checking to see if anyone, anyone. Texted you but no, Chris and his brothers were always really your only friends so whenever they left you alone you really were a lost cause..

Your eyes start to feel heavy waiting up for Chris after a hour has passed by you’re out like a light. Cuddled up into a little ball with his hoodie on and sweats hair everywhere just missing your boyfriend.

You wake up to 3 missed phone calls from Chris, growing serious of if something bad happened you called him immediately

*answered*

“Omg I’m sorry babe I fell asleep in your bed is everything okay?”

“It’s okay mama I was just checking up on you I miss you I can’t wait to be home and hold you”

“I miss you more are you on the way home?”

“Yeaaa let’s watch cars when I get there”

“Okay I love you”

“I love you”

“OKAY CHRIS HANG UP”

“Shut the fuck up nick”

“Bye y/n love you baby”

You laugh hanging up the phone hurriedly attempting to fix the mess that happened to your head while you slept.

*knock knock knock*

“Hey y/n” chris says with a exhausted look on his face taking a deep groan walking over to you flopping down on top of you

“Hi baby how was it?” You say, “exhausting as fuck” he mumbles in the crook of your neck.

“It’s okay your home now let’s just relax” you say massaging his head leaving him to exhale gently leaving a soft groan escaping his lips. “I missed you so much I wish I never had to leave the house” chris says kissing your neck with slow small kisses

“I wish you never had to leave either baby I was so lonely here” chris sits up quickly, “why don’t you call me?!” He says with a upset look on his face, “fuck those other people y/n your all I need when you don’t feel okay call me always” you smile softly, “okay I love you let’s watch a movie” you kiss the small of Chris’s lips leaving his face to turn red and he falls asleep in your lap.

Chris really is all you need.

[hardtobethebardbitch]

I want all your thoughts about Maya and the Three as well as The Book of Life (remember I'm Mexican bitch so I reserve EVERYTHING LATINA RIGHT to judge your answer >:3)

*claps hands together* HERE WE GO TIME TO YAP ABOUT THE BEST MOVIE EVER.

I literally grew up watching this movie. My earliest memory is showing it to my best friend at a sleepover when I was like 6.

My entire WORLD as a kid was Book of Life. Got my first phone, what was the first thing in my music library? Book of Life. Every birthday and when I was sick, what would I pick? Book of Life. Hell, I wrote a self-insert as Manolo's older sister who was best friends with Maria and in love with Joaquin(before I figured I was gay, but like...Joaquin)

I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE IT WAS A JUKEBOX MUSICAL

Once I found one of my favorite cover artist Annapantsu's rendition of Can't Help Falling In Love With You, and I thought, "yes, she's seen Book of Life!" Ectasy of Gold? Saw those beer commercials and thought, "Hold up-" I heard Radiohead for the first time and I went, "Wait this was in Book of Life!"

But my God, I as a white person of European descent, adore Dia De Lose Muertos. It is my favorite holiday right after Halloween, because it's my excuse to watch Book Of Life on repeat. I know it entirely by heart, and-although I've now forgotten-I used to scare my sister because I could sing I Love You Too Much and The Apology Song in Spanish, without knowing a lick of the language otherwise. I HAVE A COPY OF A NOVELIZED VERSION OF THE MOVIE, ITS IN SPANISH, AND I UNDERSTAND EVERY WORD.

Okay okay, now onto the actual movie other than my experiences.

This thing is one of the best pieces of media I've consumed in literally forever. While it has certain flaws-pfft what am I saying, IT HAS LITERALLY LIKE ONE MINISCULE FLAW, AND I CANT EVEN PIN IT DOWN.

Im going to treat this as one of my movie reviews, just so I don't make this an entire essay lol

Plot: DUDE, THE PLOT?? it's just-beautiful. Just imagine it for a second, as if you were part of this as a main character like Manolo. You are in love with your best friend-your other best friend is in love with her too. You continue with your life, still in love even after she leaves for finishing school. When she returns you do your best to impress her, despite the fact you're kind of the village loser. You die, and when you get to the afterlife you find out that your love life has been betted on by literal gods, just cause they're bored?? I am shocked Manolo kept his cool as much as he did. And then the freaking bandits?? The battle?? I just fucking love this movie man.

10/10

Music: JUKEBOX MOVIE ALERT!!! Except one-I think two?-songs, everything is from somewhere else. And my gods, the conversion from whatever they used to be into the style of the movie is ASTOUNDING. I completely believed that Creep was supposed to be played on guitar like that. And then I could go on for literal hours about The Apology Song-and most of it would just be screaming in joy. I DON'T UNDERSTAND, IT'S JUST SO GOOD FOR NO REASON?

100/10

Animation: How the hell do I explain this with words? Just look at it yourself.

LOOK AT IT!!! Care and love was put into every single frame and it SHOWS.

10000/10

Writing: I do have to admit that maybe, occasionally, from time to time, rarely, the writing is a little strange. But then when there's real heavy scenes-okay who am I kidding, the writings amazing. Humor, pacing, and everything in between-they made due with what they got, and they left ZERO CRUMBS. JUST LOOK AT THD GRANDMA

Queen. AND THEN THIS FUCKING SCENE I JUST-

"Don't forget me."

Waiter! You forgot my tissues!

Characters: I...cannot stress enough...how much I love everyone in this movie.

Manolo? Peak. He molded what my type would be. Selfless, strong, but allows you to be independent, a complete pathetic cat to his lover. His conflict can be felt by anyone with disapproving guardians, or even those who just had disappointed figures in their life. And Diego Luna???? Fuck. Perfect character right there.

Maria? Badass. Likes to lead a little on, but what girl hasn't? She's the leader's daughter and has a pet pig. Need I say more? And Zoe Saldana fucking smashed the role.

JOAQUIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

I LOVE Joaquin. When I saw Deadpool and Wolverine and my friends pointed out Channing Tatum I went, "JOAQUIIN" and they stared like I was senile. I do honestly believe that he is extremely underrated within this niche Fandom. Just saying, I had an epiphany a few years ago: How did Joaquin feel?

Maria was believed to be dead. Blinded by grief he tells his best friend that it should have been him. I entirely believe that he was the one to return to the tree. To apologize, of course. And what does he find? His best friend, dead. He doesn't have anyone left. Maria comes back, and he can only imagine the pain she's feeling. He hates that General Posada is only thinking of marriage at a time like this.

And if he hadn't been the one to find Manolo? Then it was Carlos. And Joaquin watched as a man he respected carry his best friend's body out of the fog from the lonely dock. Or perhaps Carlos buried him right under the tree, and returned with nothing but grief.

And he completely accepts Manolo and Maria's love! He definitely felt hurt, but I'm sure it took a minute because he was just happy Manolo was alive man. He'll find love, I'm sure he will. He'll get a medal from me, no doubt.

Im simply saying, Joaquin had the most development of everyone in this movie.

La Muerte and Xibalba? Peak on and off married couple. La Muerte is hot as hell, and Xibalba's hilarious. Candlemaker, peak. Carlos, peak. The Mariachi Brothers, peak. Luis, peak. Carmen, peak. Book, peak. Even the detention kids were so incredible!

100/10

Overall movie: This movie has so many layers, and it can be enjoyed by all ages. I have enjoyed it since I first watched it, and I will adore it until I die. I will have this play at my funeral, and all you sick fucks are invited.

100000000000000000000000000000 x infinity/10.

And MAYA AND THE THREE???? UGH. MADRE DE DIOS I WANT TO CRY THIS THING MADE ME SOB.

I heard my dad call me from the living room. It was during COVID so I was a little under the weather. I go to the living room, and he's showing a new release on Netflix: Maya And The Three.

I CRASHED OUT. I was SCREAMING at him, begging him to give me the remote. I almost cried right then and there.

AND THEN I STARTED WATCHING?!?!?!!! AND IM INSTANTLY HIT WITH...ZOE SAL-FUCKING-DANA.

AND THEN...DRUMROLL...

DIEGO LUNAAAAA

(I'm fine guys I swear.)

Guys...this thing reignited something in me. The absolute fabulousness of the entire show screamed "Gutierrez". While no one was bursting into Radiohead this time, I swear my heart gave out from all the absolute nostalgia I was getting, and the new story that was tugging my heartstrings in a direction they had never gone.

(You can only imagine how I felt with that La Muerte Xibalba and Candlemaker cameo lol)

I adored every character, but I feel like one can guess who my favorite was haha...

Hes so pathetically down bad for Maya and I can't blame him one bit. LOOK AT THAT FACE!!! I wanna squish it.

Man his reincarnations are gonna feel that lovestruckness. (*cough,* MANOLO, *cough*)

This entire thing, even with all the deaths, I just adore.

I FELT THAT SCREAM WHEN ZATZ DIED. I FELT THAT SCREAM FROM MAYA DEEP IN MY CORE.

AND THEN THEY BROUGHT BACK THE MISBEGOTTEN SON OF A LEPROUS DONKEY BUT JUST A LIL DIFFERENT I CLOCKED THAT IMMEDIATELY AND SCREAMED.

And, of course the ever popular

Rico, Chimi, Picchu, Lance, Daggers, Shield, Camazotz, Puma princess, Micte, Queen Teca, Chiapa, Apush-I love every single character in this show.

AND THEN ALL THE THREE SYMBOLISMS JUST ARGGH

I can't go on man, I'm either gonna die of euphoria or pass out I have been writing this for almost an hour now. But it was so worth it, and I hope it was worth your time too.

No retreat, no surrender.

I am so behind on my French.

[quinnwhatthefuck]

guys listen i know i'm almost a whole 2 years late BUT I JUST FINISHED YELLOWJACKETS S2 AND BRO...SUDDENLY EVERYTHING BAD I EVER SAID ABOUT THE WRITERS DOESN'T MATTER BECAUSE THE END TO NATALIE'S CHARACTER ARC WAS BIBLICAL LEVEL WRITING OH MY GODD

THE PARALLELS ARE SICK AND FUCKING TWISTEDD ONCE RADIOHEAD STARTED PLAYING I KNEW IT WAS SO OVER BUT TO TWIST THE DAMN KNIFE WITH JAVI BEING THERE AND NATALIE SAYING "I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE" ARE YOU FUCKING JOKINGG THE FACT SHE FINALLY WAS AT A POINT IN HER LIFE WHEN SHE FELT SOME SORT OF PEACE AND DIDN'T CRAVE DEATH OF SELF HARM AND STARTING HAVING TO CARE ABOUT OTHERS EVEN THO IT MIGHT HURT HER AND THEN HER SACRIFICING HERSELF AND DOING WHAT SHE DIDN'T DO WITH JAVI BROAUSGJSGS AND THEN HER YOUNGER SELF SAYING "WE BOTH KNOW THAT'S NOT TRUE. THIS IS EXACTLY WHERE WE BELONG. WE'VE BEEN HERE FOR YEARS." WHICH IS THE MINDSET SHE JUST MANAGED TO ESCAPE ONLY TO HAVE TO FACE IT AGAIN SO SOON AT HER DEATH AND HER GENUINELY MOURNING THAT BECAUSE SHE VALUES HER LIFE OH MY GODDD NOOO BUT ALSO SHE WAS WILLING TO SACRIFICE HERSELF FOR LISA BECAUSE LISA REMINDS HER OF HER YOUNGER SELF AND SHE WANTS LISA TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE THAN HER BECAUSE LISA STILL HAS HOPE AND LISA HELPED HER FIND HOPE AGAIN EVEN IF SHE CANNOT FORGIVE RAHHH ALSO MISTY KILLING HER BEST FRIEND SHE LOVES AGAINN PAIN AND ABSOLUTE SUFFERINGG AND NATALIE'S DEATH BREAKING EVERYONE NAHHH I CANNOT

p.s them playing two version of killing moon in the same ep is insane work like okay cool i'll just tweak out twice awesome fun love it!!!!