#I AM SO BAD AT THIS YOU GUYS

[pabulumm]

when crowley is destroying job's goats, we see them turn to dust, but we never stay on screen long enough to see any aftermath beyond that

but then we land on this and i noticed a few crows flying in the background (starred here), and you can even hear cawing, but we're too busy paying attention to crowley, who is making silly sounds of his own, possibly to cover up that of the birds...

[ralkana]

I am the main driver for our group of friends, so it falls to me to figure out things like pickup times and arrival times, and I am so bad at it. How long will the drive take? How long will picking up a friend take? How long will it take to find parking and get where we need to go? Who knows?! Not me. Add in the variable of traffic on the freeways and forget it, I'm screwed.

And then if we add a second activity, like an outing and then a meal, it's even more difficult! How long is the outing going to take? How long do we need to get from point A to point B? Do we have to pick someone else up in between? How long will that take? Who knows?! Not me!

Tonight, I'm going to a show in downtown LA, which is about a 60-90 minute drive, depending on traffic. I also have to eat dinner somewhere along the way. The show is at 8. I'm leaving work at 3:45. Will that give me enough time? Who knows?! Not me!

I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"

But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.

Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!

I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.

Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.

Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)

And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.

You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.

So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?

My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.

(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)

[egophiliac]

(looks at upcoming card releases)

I'm in danger :)

[rassblerry]

The idikeiers yearn for styx

[heartorbit]

figure skating set right now please. thanks

[oh-gh0st]

i heart these rivals so much. maybe they'll kill each other. maybe they'll kiss. maybe they'll make ou

[damian-lil-babybat]

They're judging their sibling's life decisions, and they are not impressed.

(And to think Jason and Dami have pit-madness in their system)

[evelynpr]

Congratulations My Hero Academia for providing, possibly, the biggest and longest legit straightbaiting yet in shonen history.

Bonus points that their final chapter was released on yaoi day.

[paimt]

you know relationship drama in teufort goes crazy

[scalpho]

fantasy high pcs ranked by how willing i would be to get in a car with them in the driver's seat

gorgug. the canon designated driver. his van is a boat and his boat is a van. no issues here

riz. also has canonically driven and done it well. good reflexes and sufficiently paranoid. i trust him

adaine. she'd figure it out and drive carefully enough. once again no issues here

INSERT INCREDIBLY LARGE GAP HERE

kristen applebees. drives wearing flip flops. would smash the entire front of the car just trying to get out of the driveway. accidentally hits the accelerator when she means to hit the brakes. i'm 100% going to die

fabian. he cannot drive and has zero road sense. the hangman does it all for him. he's below kristen because if we get into a terrible accident kristen can revivify me. fabian would backflip out of the car as it's crashing and leave me for dead

fig. FLIPPED A CAR. i mean she's 100% a better driver than both kristen and fabian but i wouldn't be able to get over the fact that she FLIPPED A CAR ON THE HIGHWAY

[bacchuschucklefuck]

while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.

[lucabyte]

A belief in Nominative Determinsim

[fearfulandhungry]

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[swiftmitsu]

small angsty Dust comic EHEH

TW // self deprecation/spiraling, sweraring, suicidal ideations

please don’t read/read cautiously if you’re sensitive to this stuff ^^