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there's something i need to say and yall can boo me for it but deep in my heart i'll always know i'm correct: crowley already forgave aziraphale. like already would take him back at one flutter of his eyelashes. that's all.
#do i wish he wouldn't forgive so easily (tho i don't actually think aziraphale needs forgiveness since he didn't do anything wrong and#actually without his decision their love story would've been stuck as it was for more than 6000 years and also heaven would never change#without someone dismantling it and making it new)#yes i do wish that and i also wish he'd learn self worth but we gotta be realistic here he never once been able to stay mad at aziraphale#all those times they had fights where aziraphale was (mostly) in the wrong and rejected crowley what did crowley do? immediately come#CRAWLING and BEGGING back like pls yall this is why i don't read post s2 fics bc everyone suddenly seems to forget their whole canon#personalities and history w each other and it's annoying me so much like i get that we all are hoping crowley learns from his mistakes and#stops being so easy for aziraphale (not me tho) but realistically speaking it's just not gonna happen and once again aziraphale DIDN'T. DO.#ANYTHING. WRONG. yes he hurt crowley with his decision but CROWLEY HURT HIM WITH HIS TOO so if yall wants an apology dance it's gonna turn#into a waltz cause they'd both need to do it#good omens#good omens s2#azicrow#crowley#aziraphale#aziracrow#ineffable spouses#good omens season 2#ineffable husbands#go s2
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my favorite bookworm
#ok as u can tell (like everything I post here) super rushed and scribble bahahahahahahahahah#trying to get likeness without many lines & as fast as possible…🥲#I hope I get better😆#today all I did was art#my hands have finally stopped shaking so much since I had Covid for a whole month (🥲) and I started tattooing a lot#but lots of practice bc it’s been so long🥲🥲🥲#I love how the tattoo turned out though#then I did an acrylic underpainting for an oil self-portrait I’m going to do tomorrow#bc the last one was in 2021😳 I posted it to my Twitter if u want to see#and then I went and bought LOTS OF BOOKS for my 2 year old nephew…need to get him started early😆#and then I got home and I had…15 min for this little scribble#idk I wanted to post it even though it doesn’t look like him#but the last eloise drawing I did didn’t look like her either😆😆#anyways bookworm Sebastian supremacy#I love the posr so tbh I might redo it sometime soon but like. actually good#and I need to do the next illustrstion for my fic I already have it sketched out and everything!!!!!!!!!#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart
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I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :
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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )
#tumblr polls#hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today#still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual#They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully#it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec#fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since#I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm#ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos#or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things#I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming#over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY#I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb#e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about#different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see#stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I#can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud..#but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone#said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects#the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm
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remember when i had that dream where you [Y/N] have a sleepover with tumblr sexyman tony and sketchbook where you guys just end up in a polyamorous relationship ??? well . i tried to find a fanfic that would even slightly line up with the description. even if it was only vaguely
but uhhh ....
there were none . so i had to do it myself
#have i ever told you how fucking scared i am of tumblr sexyman tony and paige ?#actually . im not scared of them – but seeing them just makes me go into a fight or flight state#i hate my nine year old self for being obsessed with them . and i think they'd hate current me for being obsessed with digitaltime#so . really . i think we're even#can you tell which one i hate less ? [hint : it's not the blue twink]#anyway . im doing this more for you – the people who follow my account – than i am for myself#i tried to make it believable for the 2014 era of padlock but like i dunno how good or bad of a job i did (~_~;)#i hope they all get obliterated ; blown up to smithereens#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis fanfic#dhmis tony#tony the talking clock#dhmis sketchbook#dhmis paige#paige the sketchbook#dhmis padlock#apparently there are no tony x reader or paige x reader tags on tumblr . so whoops#x reader fanfiction#x reader fic#for the first time in my life . i hope one of my posts / fanfics absolutely flops#my fanfiction#archive of our own#pls ignore#its not finished btw#and i don't know when ill be updating it#shrug
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Hunting Season
cw: trophy hunting of sentient creatures, severe leg injury, oral sex, fingering, thigh humping
fem jackalope hybrid x afab reader
Word count: 8k
You hated hunting season. You moved out here, all the way to the woods, to escape people and yet every year they came, the worst people you could possibly imagine. Every summer stupid men came into your forest with their guns and their traps and every year it infuriated you. You wouldn’t be so mad if they were hunting for food, that you understood, but almost all of them were trophy hunters.
You set off on your daily ritual of trying to set off all the traps they’d set this morning so no one would get caught in them.
Your head jerked up as the sound of distant wailing pierced through the quiet of the forest. You took off. If you’d heard it, then it was only a matter of time before someone else did.
As you got closer to the noise, you realized that it sounded human and you cursed, knowing a hybrid had gotten stuck in one of their traps.
You approached slowly, making sure no one else was around. Your relationships with the hunters were already strenuous. They knew you were setting off all of their traps, if they knew you were also setting their prey free… well, you weren’t sure what they might do but you were certain it wouldn’t be good.
The first thing you saw, hidden away amongst the leaves, was a set of antlers. They poked up above the foliage as you crept up slowly.
Through the leaves you saw a girl, around your age, with a pair of long fluffy ears that were tucked down behind her antlers overtop her mousy hair. The flattened ears matched her terrified expression, her cheeks wet with tears as she kept desperately clawing at her leg.
You didn’t even think jackalope hybrids existed, thought they were an urban legend hunters told each other about. And yet there she was, panicked and crying and very much real.
As you began to approach, her big ears perked up. They were nestled behind her antlers, her nose twitching as you moved through the foliage.
Big, teary brown eyes met your own as you emerged from your hiding spot. As soon as she saw you she tugged urgently at her leg, which was wedged firmly between the teeth of the metal trap. The only thing she succeeded in was getting digging the metal further into her flesh as she desperately tried to pull away.
You took a step back in an attempt to get her to stop moving. “Hey, I’m not here to hurt you but if you keep moving like that you’re going to hurt yourself even worse.
She tried to thrash away from you, muttering no to herself as she was painfully rooted in place.
“You need my help to open this kind of trap, just please stay still,” you pleaded with her.
She listened, freezing in place, wet eyes looking expectantly at you as you edged closer.
As soon as you were within reach you got to work compressing the springs on either side of the trap to free her. After a few substantial pushes the trap fell open and you quickly latched it that way before pushing it away from the both of you.
The poor girl immediately tried to stand up and collapsed, her injured leg not allowing her to put any weight on it. You went down with her, pulling her arm over your shoulder to help her stand. “There you go, sweetheart, just lean on me. That’s it, there you go.”
She eagerly leaned into your side, putting almost all of her weight on you. There was no attempt to fling herself away this time and you weren’t sure if it was because you’d earned her trust or because she’d realized she had no other options.
Either way, you needed to get her to safety, and fast.
Your pace was slower than you would have liked. You’d have preferred to attempt to carry her but you got the distinct feeling that would spook her even further.
Luckily you weren’t too far from your cabin and you managed to make your way back without encountering anyone.
You pulled her through the door, quickly shutting it behind you, closing her off from any prying eyes. If anyone saw her, you weren’t sure there was anything you could do to stop them.
“You’re helping me?” She said it like she couldn't quite believe it, like she was still waiting for the other shoe to drop. You had a feeling only time would take away that instinct. There wasn’t anything you could say to make it go away right now, it was too ingrained in her.
The most you could do was help her with gentle hands and a soft voice.
“Yup. Come on, up here.” You shifted her onto your bed, the blood from her injured leg seeping into the sheets.
You cursed under your breath as you realized that all that was left of your first aid supplies was an old roll of gauze and a half empty box of bandaids. Certainly not enough to fix this. You grabbed some vodka and a clean rag, determined to do the best you could to sanitize it before wrapping it up, or at least to remove some of the grime it was currently covered in.
The wound was barely visible, clots of blood and dirt streaked across her, spread everywhere from her writhing on the ground.
“This is going to hurt,” you warned her as you soaked the cloth, hoping she understood that this had to be done.
She drew back a little back a little before nodding and grabbing a handful of your sheets in preparation as you knelt by her injured leg.
The little shriek she let out as the vodka soaked rag touched her wounds broke your heart. You were going to string those hunters up the second you got the chance.
The more blood and dirt you pulled away, the better you could to see the gashes in her leg. They were even worse than you’d imagined. She’d clearly been trying to pull herself out for a while before you got there.
“Really hurts,” she whimpered out.
“I know hun, but we have to get you cleaned up. I promise I’ll be quick, we’re almost done.”
You dabbed at her wounds as gingerly as you could, trying to distract her from the pain by talking while you cleaned her up.
“Your english is really good.”
She swayed back and forth a little, a proud smile crossing her face. “Thank you.”
“Of course. I know very little about your language, I’ve looked but it’s very hard to find anything about it.”
“Secret,” she said with a wince.
“Oh, is it? I had no idea.”
You’d left the worst part for last but you’d run out of opportunities to avoid it.
Too nervous to get near it, you opted instead to empty what was left of the bottle onto her leg. As you did, she grabbed your unoccupied hand, squeezing it as hard as she could.
The bottle ran empty and you looked up to see her with her eyes shut tight and her jaw clenched.
You stood up to go get the gauze you had left and she tentatively opened one eye at the sound of your retreat. At the sight of her bloody leg she promptly shut it again. You couldn’t blame her, it was hard for you to look at and it wasn’t even your blood.
You grabbed the old gauze from inside your half forgotten first aid kit and promised yourself that soon you’d go into town and gather more supplies so next time you needed it you’d be prepared.
Your heart sank at the thought of there being a next time, at the idea that no matter how hard you tried, you could never stop this from happening.
That there would always be some you couldn’t get to in time.
You shook the thought out of your head. Worrying about them wouldn’t fix anything. All you could do was care for the one you’d managed to save.
“Do you have a name?”
She nodded, her ears shifting as she did. “Posy.”
“Well, Posy, you should get some rest. I’ve gotta go out for a while but you’ll be safe in here.”
She glanced around the room nervously, eyes grazing over the furniture. She must have found her surroundings satisfactorily safe because after a few moments she fell backwards onto the bed, nestling into the blankets.
Despite the fact that she seemed content, you were hesitant to leave her alone. The only thing that managed to send you out that door was the thought that she might not be the only one.
Night was falling but you couldn’t bring yourself to care. You knew these woods more than well enough to navigate in the dark and god knows you wouldn’t be able to sleep tonight, you knew your mind wouldn’t stop racing long enough to allow you to rest.
You set off the rest of the traps you could find before returning home, breaking and displacing all the ones that you could. They’d already done far more damage than you would have liked.
Thankfully, every trap you came across was untripped. You already felt in over your head, you weren’t sure you could take care of any more injured creatures.
You half expected her to be gone when you got back.
Instead, she was out cold on the bed, curled up around a pillow she was hugging close to her chest. She was lit up by the rays of the sunrise creeping through the gaps in your drawn curtains.
She jerked awake at the sound of the door closing. She tried to bolt upright before being stopped by a painful reminder of why she was in your bed in the first place.
She pulled her legs up towards her, tucking them into herself and inspecting the bloody bandages she had wrapped around her calf.
“How’re you feeling,” you asked, careful to keep your distance so you didn’t scare her even more.
“Bad.”
You nodded solemnly. “Yeah, it’s going to be like that for a while, you hurt yourself pretty badly. But it’ll heal, I’ll make sure you’ll be okay, you don’t have to worry.”
Her head cocked to the side and she studied you from her position on the bed.
“Do you want something to eat?” you asked as she surveyed you.
She nodded hesitantly.
Her big eyes watched you carefully as you put a pot on the stove, lighting the fire under it. She moved closer, hopping so as not to put weight on her injured leg and quickly settling in on the floor, positioning herself so she was eye level with the flame.
“Be careful, don’t burn yourself,” you called back as you grabbed a can of soup from the pantry, sticking to something with vegetables in it and hoping that jackalope hybrid’s diets weren’t too dissimilar from bunny hybrids.
“I’m not stupid.” She pouted at you before returning to her fire watching. “How did you make fire so fast?”
She chose her words slowly and intentionally, working her way through the question while you busied yourself with heating up the soup for the two of you, letting her figure out the words in her own time.
“Um, there’s gas in the stove and the knob makes a little spark that lights it.”
“Gas?”
“Mmhmm.”
“It’s warm in here all night.” It was more of a statement than an observation but you understood what she was asking.
“Yeah, that’s because of a fire too, it’s a heating system. What do you guys normally do at night?”
“We stay close and sheltered.”
“Well, we’re sheltered here, and we’re pretty close.”
She shook her head. “No, closer.”
“Like cuddling?”
Posy nodded.
“How do you speak English so well?”
“I learned. We all did.”
“Why?”
“To talk our way out of trouble. If you can’t escape, make them like you. Buys time.”
“You know you don’t have to do that with me, right? You can say or do whatever you want to, I’m going to take care of you either way.”
“Why?”
“It’s the decent thing to do. Unfortunately for you, decency is not a universal trait but I promise, no harm will come to you here. Be as much of a little shit as you want.”
She scrunched up her nose as she smiled. “Challenge accepted!”
“Not quite how I meant it.”
She ignored you in favor of staring at the stove as you worked around her.
Eventually, you broke her little hypnotic spell as you announced, “Food’s done. Do you like tea?”
She shrugged. “What is it?”
“It’s good, you should try it.”
You couldn’t exactly ask her how she liked her tea so instead you opted to put some sugar in it and hope for the best.
“Do you need help?” you asked as you looked down at her sitting on the floor.
“With what?”
“With moving to the table. Come on, I’ll…”
“No. Stay here.”
You weren’t sure if she actually wanted to stay on the ground or if the thought of you helping her up wounded her pride. Either way, you weren’t going to fight her on it.
“Alright. Is this seat taken?” you asked, gesturing at the floor next to her.
She shook her head with a giggle and you settled down next to her, setting two bowls of soup and two mugs of tea on the floor.
She took a sip out of the mug and scrunched up her nose.
“Too hot.”
“Well, you have to let it cool down first. The soup should be better, I didn’t bring it to a full boil”
She picked up the bowl, ignoring the spoon in favor of sipping directly from it.
“What is this?” she asked, giving it a curious look.
“It’s just soup, I get it from the store when I go out.”
“Store?”
“Yeah, it’s where I go to get food.”
“You don’t make it. What do you do with all your forages?”
“Oh, I don’t forage.”
She seemed baffled by this revelation. “Why?”
“I don’t know, I guess I don’t really know how.”
“You live here? And you don’t know how?” she asked incredulously.
“Hey, I’m not stupid either, I just never needed to learn. We all have blind spots.”
“You should learn. This is disgusting.”
“Sorry, but I’m afraid you’re gonna be eating a lot of this stuff until I can get you back on your feet.”
She made no attempt to mask her pout and you couldn’t help but laugh as you added, “Just think of it as motivation to get better faster.”
She didn’t seem convinced by your arguments but was too hungry to care. She practically inhaled her food, despite her less than glowing review regarding its taste.
The tea was more of a hit, her first sip not leaving her questioning your survival skills at the very least.
After a few more tastes she announced, “This is fine.”
“I’m glad it’s to your liking.”
And honestly, you really were. You were incredibly happy to see her settling in, the jumpiness from before all but gone.
She looked up from an empty bowl, clutching a still warm mug in her hands. “What now?”
“I don’t normally have guests, I don’t really know how all of this works. Do you want to watch a movie?” It felt like an absurdly pedestrian thing to ask someone who’d almost been hunted for sport the day before but you got the sense she’d appreciate the distraction.
“What’s a movie?”
“I can show you, c’mon, they’re over here.”
You didn’t have any real service out here in the woods, but what you did have was an old tv and a box of vhs tapes. They were all grainy and in black and white but if she didn’t even know what a movie was, you couldn’t imagine Posy would be particularly picky about the quality.
You picked something light and hit play. Her eyes widened the second the tv lit up with a picture, scrambling to get a closer look.
“How does it do that?” she asked, her eyes unblinking as she stared at it.
“I’m not really sure to be honest, it’s a bit above my paygrade.”
She scooted across the floor to the back of the tv, searching for the origin of the little moving image.
You let her explore, settling down on the couch as she moved across the floor. Eventually, she settled down with her back against the couch, leaning her head against your leg.
“Hi there,” you said, looking down at the girl and wondering whether or not you should join her on the floor.
She tilted her head back, looking up at you with big eyes. “Hello.”
She didn’t seem partial to personal space, nuzzling into you as she watched.
As the movie neared its close you weaseled away from her and got up from your seat to try and clean up while she was distracted. You didn’t want to remind her about some of the messier things that were still lying around.
Despite her wonder at the movie, she stopped and turned to instead watch you.
You went to make the bed, removing all the bloody blankets and replacing them with clean ones, tossing everything covered in blood into the trash. You had a feeling they wouldn’t be salvageable.
“I can sleep on the floor tonight, you can take the bed,” you called over to her.
She looked at you like you’d lost your mind. “No, you won’t.”
“Please, you’re hurt, I can’t ask you to sleep down there.”
“I don’t want to sleep on that thing,” she said, eyeing your bed distastefully.
You ceded the floor to her after it became clear she would not budge on her position.
Later that night, you awoke from the feeling of something moving around you. As you gathered your bearings, you felt someone nestle into your chest and you realized that Posy had risen from her spot on the floor and had instead opted to wrap her arms around you.
She was looking for comfort. It didn’t take a genius to figure that much out.
You never could have done this, been as brave as her, sought out comfort like this when you needed it. There was courage in the gesture you couldn’t help but admire, a distinct bravery in the vulnerability.
You ran your fingers through her hair and her grip on you only got tighter, pleading you to stay with her. You’d just felt her get into the bed and wrap herself around you but she seemed to already be drifting off in your arms.
“I’ve got you,” you muttered, positioning yourself to try and make sure you wouldn’t get whacked by her antlers in your sleep.
It didn’t take long for you to drift off. You hated to admit it but maybe the closeness didn’t just help her.
You were just as close when you woke up the next morning, her head resting on your shoulder and her arms wrapped around you.
“I thought you said you preferred the floor,” you said with a chuckle as she shifted further beneath the blankets, still attached to your side.
“I do. I dont like sleeping alone.”
“No, I don’t think I do either. Well, you’re welcome to stay up here, I don’t mind.”
“Mkay,” she said, sounding like she was drifting off again. “This thing is more comfortable than it looks.”
Before she could succumb to the newfound wonders of your blankets and the mattress, you nudged her awake.
“Come on, there’ll be time for that later, we need to get those bandages changed.”
She looked nervous about the proposition and you tried to cede ground and make the vulnerable position she was in feel a little less scary. “You can change them yourself if you want, I understand if you don’t want me near your injuries.”
She looked up at you from her spot on the pillow, a timidness present now that certainly hadn’t been there moments before. Her ears were the telltale sign, rising from their relaxed position and stiffening back. “Can you help?”
“Of course I can,” you reassured her. “Your wish is my command.”
“Be careful what you promise, who knows what I’ll ask for,” she said with a smile, her ears falling back into place at your words.
“Aren’t you a little tyrant in the making? Come on then, let’s take care of that leg so you can get right to bossing me around.”
She pulled her leg up next to you, wincing a little as she did. You pretended not to notice.
Your brain ran through contingencies as you bound her injuries. So many things could go wrong with her being here, you weren’t prepared for this.
You barely had the supplies to tend to her injuries, let alone keep her safe and hidden.
“Have you been through your mating season?” you asked, trying to figure out exactly where you stood.
She nodded, ears bobbing up and down as she did. Her dark eyes shone with mischief. “Why are you asking?”
Realistically, it was because her going into heat in your cabin could cause a world of problems. The last thing you needed was to attract more attention to her presence here. Other hybrids might not hurt her but a congregation of them outside wouldn’t exactly be discreet.
That didn’t feel like the right thing to say though, so instead you opted for a playful, “I can’t be curious?”
“Maybe. I could show you sometime, if you wanted.”
“Yeah?” you said with a laugh, her enthusiasm infectious. “Maybe I’ll take you up on that offer one of these days.”
Her cheeks flushed, despite her being the one to propose the idea and you got the distinct impression her teasing was not going to plan. “I thought humans were prudes.”
“Come on, am I anything like the humans they told you about?”
She sighed, knowing when she’d lost. “No.”
She was even cute when she was pouting, it wasn’t fair.
“I’m gonna go out and make sure no one else got caught in those traps, okay? I hope that pretty smile of yours is back when I get back or else…”
“Or else?”
You hadn’t quite thought that far ahead. “Or else I’ll find out if you’re ticklish, how’s that sound?”
She giggled, her arms moving over her stomach defensively at the mere thought. “Anything but that,” she pleaded.
“There’s that smile again. See you in a few hours.” Before you could really think about your actions you pressed a quick kiss into her cheek. The second her arms dropped in surprise you poked her in the stomach, leaving the cabin as you heard cries of protest behind you.
She was sitting cross legged right inside the door when you got home, her ears perked up and at attention. The second you crossed through the doorway she sprung up, practically tackling you.
She pressed kisses into both of your cheeks in what you could only describe as an attack.
“I win.”
“Jesus, you scared the shit out of me. What was that for?”
“You poked me!”
“Only because you let your guard down.” You took another easy shot and poked her again
“You’re doing better,” you noted. She was still significantly favoring her left leg, the right one almost hovering above the floor as she stood, but the fact that she was standing and moving at all was frankly incredible. “Healed enough for a sneak attack.”
“Healed enough for revenge,” she said with a smile and a nod.
There was no way that she had significantly healed in the few hours you were gone. You could see it in every movement, she was just as hurt as she’d been this morning.
The change in her disposition seemed more tied to her growing comfort around you than anything.
You wanted to keep that going, make sure she felt welcome here, felt at home. You swore you’d put even more effort into it and make sure she knew she was cared for.
It was that promise to yourself that led you to making homemade cookies for your newfound roommate.
You swatted her hand away from the bowl as she snuck another bite of cookie dough away from you.
“You’re going to make yourself sick, you shouldn’t eat that.”
She just giggled, intent on ignoring your protests.
“Well, when we don’t have enough cookies we’ll both know who to blame.”
That seemed to get through to her, her eyes widening as she surveiled the bowl. “You’ll make more for me, right?”
“I’m not your personal chef,” you protested.
That didn’t stop you from caving and making her more cookies. You were certain even the strongest will couldn’t withstand those big, sad eyes. They were a powerful weapon and she knew it.
Eventually you managed to get a full batch of cookies into the oven, despite Posy making every attempt to stop you.
While the cookies were baking, you hopped up on the counter and watched Posy on the floor, her preferred seat.
You tilted your head, getting a better look at her as she stared down at her feet. Normally she stared up at you endlessly but now she seemed lost in thought.
“What’re you thinking about,” you prodded.
“Just wondering if anyone’s worried about me.”
“I’m sure people are. Do you have any family?”
She nodded. “Yeah, a big one. I have five sisters, Rose, Violet, Poppy, Lily, and Daisy, she’s the only one younger than me. I was out with her right before I got caught, was getting her home, I had her run when there was trouble.”
“And they’re jackalopes like you?”
She nodded. “There aren’t many of us outside the family though.”
“Do you know what happened to the rest?”
“People happened to them. Not my family though. They’re very very safe, they never let me go out.”
“I’m sure they miss you, I’ll try and find them next time I go out, tell them you’re okay.”
She shrugged. “I go missing a lot, they always say I’m trouble. Everyone else is always home but I get restless, stuck in there.” She rubbed her injured leg as she spoke, the other one bouncing up and down nervously.
“Well, we’ll make sure you can tell them you’re okay as soon as we can, when you get all healed up and are able to get back into trouble.”
“Do you get restless?”
“Not really, I like staying put. I do like rescuing you though. How about you keep getting into trouble and I’ll keep rescuing you, deal?”
You stuck out your hand, leaning towards the floor as much as you could so she could reach you.
She stared at it like you were crazy, moving around it to see if you were secretly holding something.
“You shake it,” you whispered to her. “That’s how we humans make deals.”
She took it and gave it a violent shake.
“Yeah, just like that,” you laughed.
Your little timer went off and you hopped down from the counter to pull the cookies out. Per usual, Posy did not wait for the food to cool before trying them, scooping a collapsing cookie into her mouth.
“Are they to your liking, m’lady,” you teased her.
“Better than your soup.”
You scoffed and swatted at her as she leaned away, collapsing to the floor in a fit of giggles.
“You’re lucky you’re so cute or that mouth of yours might get you into some real trouble.”
A blush began to bloom beneath her facefull of freckles. “I thought you said I wasn’t trouble?”
“I said I didn’t mind and that I’d rescue you, I never said you weren’t trouble. Even I wouldn’t go making claims like that, especially not after you stole my cookies.”
Your little attempts to make her feel welcome got more and more frequent, despite feeling less and less necessary.
On one of your trips through the forest, you found some lavender, picking some for her without a second thought, leaving a little bouquet of them on the pillow next to her sleeping head.
It wasn’t uncommon for you to be able to come and go without Posy ever waking. As her initial jumpiness faded, you found out that she was an incredibly deep sleeper.
She was sleeping in bed with you every night, the cuddling never ending, even when you weren’t sleeping.
When the summer nights got too warm she kicked the blankets off the both of you, staying firmly attached to your side all the while.
Without a concerted effort from you to get her to move, she’d stay nestled into the covers most of the time.
There were, as there always are, exceptions to the rule.
When you got back home, you found her sitting at the door with a sprig of lavender in her hair and the rest clutched in her hands. She was just as excited to see you as ever, already shouting out thank yous and springing up to give you a hug, being able to put a little more weight on her injured foot every time she jumped up to greet you.
She was getting better and better at English as well, her already amazing English constantly improving. She was an incredibly fast learner. She could hear you use a word once or twice and pick up its meaning almost immediately.
She’d started picking up curse words from you, which you found endlessly amusing. Her soft, sweet voice would let out an impatient “fuck” and you couldn’t help but snort out a laugh.
The whole ordeal made her quite cross. She insisted she was just mimicking you and there wasn’t anything funny about it. You unconvincingly reassured her that of course it wasn’t, not funny at all, all spoken behind a smile.
You, on the other hand, were a little slower with her langugae
She was willing to share but replicating her words was more difficult than you’d anticipated. It had sounds you were unfamiliar with, little clicks and shifts in tone you’d never had to make before.
You’d asked her about her family names, if they were translations or if they just happened to line up with english words
“I translated them. The meaning’s what’s important anyways.”
“What is your real name?”
“Posy is my real name.”
“But how would you say it?”
She made one of the noises you were becoming more and more familiar with. It was more subtle than any word you’d ever heard before, almost being mistakable for a sound of the trees rustling or the wind outside.
You did your best to repeat back what she’d said and immediately knew you’d gotten it wrong based on her snickering.
It took a few tries but eventually you got it right.
“Call me Posy though.” she added. “The meaning is what matters.”
“Yeah okay, I will”
As you sat there, mulling over the secret words she’d been gifting you, you blurted out a question you’d been unable to shake. “Do you trust me?”
“Of course I do! Did you really think I might not trust you?” She seemed more hurt by the question than anything.
Did you? “Not really. I think I just wanted to hear you say it.
She thought for a minute and then shot back a question of her own. “Why did you get me flowers?”
“I don’t know. I suppose I thought you might like them. Did you?”
“Mmhmm.” she nodded enthusiastically. “The thing is… I’ve just heard things about humans and giving people flowers.”
You felt your cheeks begin to warm and tried to play it off. “Have you? Good things or bad things?”
She shrugged. “Just things.”
You had an idea where she might have been getting these ideas from.
Her obsession with movies was there from the start. She was endlessly fascinated by the moving images and your inability to explain to her how they worked only seemed to fuel her fascination. You were certain she was going to wear through your vhs tapes.
Her fascination seemed to warp over time, however. You noticed the movies she’d keep watching, the fixation on romance movies growing steadily the more she consumed.
For the fifth time this week alone you came home to her watching an old black and white romance, her nose practically touching the screen.
“Is it true humans mate for life?” she asked as you settled in next to her.
“Sometimes. Depends on the human.”
“Oh. What about you human?”
“Maybe. I suppose I’d just have to find the right person. Or the right bunny.”
Her face immediately lit up with no attempt to hide it
“I think I like human romance.”
“What, no one ever get you flowers before?”
“We get each other flowers. We just don’t have partners. It seems nice.”
“You could have a partner, nothing’s stopping you.”
“Nothing?”
You slid down from the couch next to her on the floor. “Nope, nothing. Which one’s your favorite?”
She rushed over to your collection of tapes. Her movement was practically normal now. She was still favoring her left side but it seemed more out of habit than from her injury, being fully capable of forgetting all about it and darting about when she got excited.
She wasted no time before getting comfortable, clamoring up into your lap and nuzzling into you as the movie began.
You should get more tapes for her, you thought offhandedly before realizing there might not be a point. She was practically healed and as much as you tried to forget it, she would eventually leave.
You had no clue how to bring up the topic, how to suggest that maybe she could visit you despite knowing that everyone she knew and loved would want her to stay far away from you the second they got her back.
Maybe you were being selfish by not talking about it, trying to keep her with you as long as possible. Frankly, you couldn’t bring yourself to care.
She noticed your mind drifting and brought you back to reality with an elbow to the side. You let out an oof and shot an accusatory glance her way but she was staring at you with frantic eyes.
“This is the best part,” she insisted. “You can’t miss it.”
You turned back to the screen just in time to catch the climax of the movie. The music swelled, the camera zoomed in, and the pair on your screen finally kissed.
She must have this movie memorized by now but Posy still seemed utterly entranced by the scene in front of her.
“I’ve kissed some people, but never like that,” she informed you, her eyes still glued to the screen.
You wanted to kiss her like that. You wanted to kiss her every way she wanted to be kissed, to show her a romance to rival all of her little movies.
But what if that wasn’t what she wanted? What if she was just a friend showing another friend a movie and you’d misread every signal.
Posy put those doubts right out of your mind, staring at you with resolve as she clearly hinted, “If only someone would kiss me like that.”
You laughed out, “you dumbass,” before leaning in, slowly, carefully, intentionally, just like in her little movie, with all the love in the world in your eyes.
You shut them the moment before you made contact, her hands immediately coming up to cup your face, holding you close.
You fell into the kiss immediately. It just felt right, you fit together perfectly. You were pressed up against each other but you kept trying to pull her closer, wanting more.
The tip of her tongue teased at the seam of your mouth until you let her in, deepening the kiss.
Her legs fell to either side of your thigh and she slid herself forwards and back, letting out little whimpers into your mouth.
You pushed your leg up into her grinding, encouraging her.
You broke the kiss for a second, muttering out, “Do you want to…”
She nodded and cut you off as she pushed her lips back into yours.
You tried to lead the two of you back towards the bed while she refused to let you go, causing you to slightly misjudge how far away you were from it and go tumbling down onto the sheets, giggling into each other as you fell.
You guided her onto her back, pulling your shirt off as she desperately pulled hers off, dragging you back down while your arms were still wrapped up in its sleeves. You struggled to pull it the rest of the way off and throw it to the floor while she trailed kisses down your neck.
Your hand slipped under the waistband of her pants, and you gently slid your fingers inside her. She was so wet they slid inside with no resistance, her walls fluttering around your fingers.
You kissed your way down her body, pulling her pants off as you went. As you did, you found something you hadn’t known existed. A little white tail sat right above her ass.
“What’s this?” you asked as you shifted her onto her side to get a better look.
She rolled back onto her back, hiding the tail from sight once more. “Don’t be mean,” she pouted.
“I’m not! It’s cute.”
You leaned down to press kisses into her thigh as she tried to pull you up where she wanted you.
Eventually you gave in to her pleas, your fingers continuing to crook upwards inside of her as you pressed gentle kisses to her clit. She bucked into your face, wanting more.
You hooked your arms around her plush thighs to get her even closer to you, focusing more of your attention on her clit as she started to squirm, lapping and sucking at it. As she got closer to her climax her thighs squeezed around your head and you were convinced you might be in heaven. Your hips pushed down into the sheets as you worked her through her orgasm.
Your hand slipped down to try and provide yourself with some friction but it wasn’t enough. You needed her, needed her to touch you.
As if answering your prayers, Posy pulled you up and kissed you deeply, licking her own taste out of your mouth.
She flipped you over, pinning you against the mattress, her bare chest warm and soft against yours as her fingers dove inside of you, her palm pressing down against your clit.
You were embarassingly close already, her soft touches bringing you right up to the edge.
Her fingers slipped out of you and circled your clit, swallowing all of your moans as she guided you towards your peak. You pulled away from the never-ending kiss and buried your face in her neck as you came, rolling your hips as waves of pleasure radiated out from your core.
After you came down you collapsed, your head resting on her chest. Her hand was caressing your cheek as she smiled down fondly at you.
“Was the kiss just like you wanted?” you asked.
“It was with you so yes, it was.”
“You big sap,” you said with a laugh.
A wave of exhaustion hit you and you were glad you were already in bed, using Posy as your own personal pillow as you got some much needed rest.
You woke up to the sound of pounding at your door.
The first instinct from your half-asleep brain was to ignore it and go back to sleep, snuggled into Posy’s side.
The sound of a fist slamming against the wood continued ceaselessly and you could make out the muffled noises of the person outside shouting. The second you heard the word traps you sprung up, throwing clothes on and ushering Posy out of sight.
She picked up on your panic immediately, glancing anxiously at the door as you tucked her away.
“What the fuck do you want?” you hissed as you threw the door open.
Your attitude towards the hunters wasn’t pleasant on a good day but now, after you’d been taking care of Posy for weeks, you’d never felt angrier.
“I want you to stop messing with my shit, that’s what I fucking want,” he shot back. “Do you think we didn’t know it was you? You’ve become a real pain in my ass.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about. Not my fault if you can’t trap prey to save your life, maybe get better at hunting and stop blaming me for your shitty haul.”
“We found blood coming from one of our traps, you know. After a few feet, the trail went cold. Like someone covered it up.”
“Well, I suppose that’s the price you pay when you’re hunting intelligent creatures, sometimes they outsmart you and your shit-for-brains friends.”
He lurched towards you and you instinctively drew back towards the shut door of your cabin.
As you did, you saw a familiar face peek through the curtain and panic shot through you, endlessly worried they’d spot her. You talked a big game but if it came down to a straight up fight you didn’t like your odds.
“Listen,” you said, knowing you needed to end this as quickly as you could. “You’re not the only one with a hunting riffle. I advise you to stay away from here or that camouflage you’re wearing may end up being a defense of mine. Now please get the fuck off of my property.”
You were bluffing, you didn’t have a hunting riffle. But at the end of the day, you didn’t need one. All you needed was for him to believe you.
His wide eyes and nervous glance back at your home told you that he did.
“Bitch,” he spat at you as he began his retreat.
As he drew out of sight, you slipped inside, careful not to open the door anymore than you needed to.
You locked the door and immediately whipped around and looked for Posy.
She was sitting on the floor with her back to the wall, her legs curled inwards and tears streaming down her face. She was visibly shaking and clutching her leg and you got the sense she’d collapsed from her spot at the window.
You grabbed a blanket from the bed and wrapped her up, pulling her into you. Her breaths were coming fast and you just held her, pressing gentle kisses into her forehead and rubbing the base of her ears while whispering soft reassurances to her.
You slowly pulled her leg out from under the blanket and gently unwound the bandages from the leg she was clutching, trying to show her what you’d been putting off mentioning for days, what you couldn’t help but notice every time you changed her bandages.
“Hey, you’re okay, you’re all healed up. Look,” you said as you revealed her leg, covered in scars but functionally healed. “You’re fine. They can’t get you in here, you’re okay. You’re all healed up and I’ll never let them touch you again, you’re gonna be just fine.”
Her shaky breaths got slower as she started to calm down, her hand tenuously reaching down to touch her old wounds.
She slowly calmed down, her hand grasping a handful of your shirt as if she was afraid you’d leave her. You had no plans on doing so, keeping her as close as you could.
You did your best to cheer her up, to show her that things really were getting better. “Hey, on the bright side, your legs all healed up. You should be able to leave soon, go back home.”
“What?”
“You’re fine now, you should be able to walk. We can get you back home.” You focused on keeping a pleasant smile on your face, on not showing her how distraught you were of thinking about her leaving, about this place being empty, about not having Posy to come home to.
“Oh. Okay.”
She didn’t speak much after that. You left her alone for days, wanting to give her space to recover, ignoring that nagging feeling in your gut screaming at you to just say something. You refused to push. You would wait for her to speak first, to make the first move.
She never did.
Against your better judgment, you left her alone again, setting off to undo as many traps as you could once more.
When you got back she was gone.
Panic immediately bloomed in your chest, convinced that someone had gotten to her, that she’d been taken.
The pile of clean bandages wadded up and thrown in your trash indicated otherwise.
Maybe you shouldn’t chase after her. Maybe this was what she wanted, to go home to her family and forget all of this. Maybe this was her way of saying she didn’t want to see you again.
You barely even had time to process any of those thoughts before you took off running.
She hadn’t been careful. Her trail was easy to follow, much easier than it should have been.
You were out of breath when you came upon her. You knelt in front of her sobbing form, making sure she wasn’t hurt before you spoke.
“Hey, what… what’s going on? Why did you run, what’s happening?”
She sniffled, trying to wipe the tears from her cheeks. “You dont want me.”
“What?”
“You were just waiting for me to heal and now you want me to leave. I thought you really wanted me.”
“I do! I want you to stay, I thought you would want to leave.”
“Why would I want to leave?”
“To go back to your family, back home. You’re not like me, you have people to go back to.”
“You’re my people. Wait, so you’ll let me stay.”
“Let you? Posy, I want you to stay, I’ve been dreading you leaving ever since you showed up. Besides, with you gone who else would I sav-”
You didn’t get to finish your sentence, it being cut short as the wind was knocked out of you when she tacked you, knocking you on your back as her arms wrapped around you. You could feel her massive smile as she pressed her face into the crook of your neck, kissing you every time she managed to suppress her smile for a moment.
She sat up suddenly, her thighs on either side of your waist, keeping you trapped where you lay. Her ears were perked up as she grinned down at you
She started talking a mile a minute, the excitement taking over her. “I can take you to meet everyone one of these days, when hunting season is over. I’ll get to show you off. Oh, and I can forage for you. Then you’ll find out how gross all your food is. ”
You snorted. “Posy?”
“Yeah?”
“Can I get up please?”
“Oh. Right, yeah of course.” She helped you to your feet, still eagerly making plans as she grabbed your hand, tugging you behind her as you both headed back home.
#terato#terato writing#jackalope hybrid#bunny hybrid#monster x reader#monster x human#monster girlfriend#monster gf#Disclaimer: do not actually use alcohol to clean a wound#you are not meant to do that despite what fiction has told you#This is a day late#terribly sorry for breaking my promise </3#This was actually supposed to be the first fic I posted on this blog#It has taken one million years to write lol#As far as the more stilted talking Posy does#I did develop some very fundamental grammar rules for her native language#So that’s why her speech is kind of stilted at the start
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“I thought there might be some measure of hope still left for you.”
“Hope?” The word was uttered with disdain. “I thought you were smarter than that, elf,” Miraak said, turning his ethereal form to the surrounding peaks. “I don’t want it. I don’t need it. I would sooner spend a second eternity in Apocrypha than allow it to poison my mind.”
He turned to Solinar again.
“There is no hope, only action.”
#the elder scrolls#tes skyrim#skyrim#tesblr#miraak#tes oc#dovahkiin#this is from a fic i've been writing for a year and a half now#unfortunately haven't gotten around to actually posting it yet lol#the bubble-less version isn't particularly more detailed so not gonna post it i think#kinda wanted to draw him maskless as i usually do but at this point he would still be wearing it so#did not do that#idk if it's noticeable but the orange thingie coming from miraak's hood is hair.#i have no idea how he wouldn't have at least some of it stick from under the hood/mask if he had it longer than shoulder length#oh also he's supposed to be see-through (hence the 'ethereal') but i didn't like how that looked so he got a halo of sunrise instead x)#so there
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HE ALMOST SURRENDERS TO THE KISS
HE WAS SUPPOSED TO SURRENDER TO THE KISS
IM SOBBING
#did I post abt this yet#I've had this in my mind for over a year now but ig I forgot to mention it here lol#no but I'm actually sobbing the way he did want to give in and kiss alice but decided against it to save her ☹️☹️#its not that obvious in the vid bc it all happens so quickly but u could see him soften up a bit after alice's line like :(#also semi side note I read a fic once years ago where alfred wasnt able to stop alice from kissing him in time and so they just wait the#sickness out together and it absolutely BROKE ME#give them their happy ending PLEASE#also for some reason a bunch of my abh libretto posts are getting traction again after almost a year#and out of all of em the stoned post is the most popular lmao#I love that there's still active members in this fandom#hi guys this is for yall <3#I should post abt abh more#alice spencer#alfred hallam#abh#alice by heart#doggo rambles
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just some 🥥 related sillies i've made for that fic we all know.
#durarara#izaya orihara#shizuo heiwajima#shizaya#a cheap imitation#i made a thing#i've been holding off on posting these here for so long whoops#i'm so shy... check out my lemonade guys#i've been very motivated to make various things for this fic as a result of this book club i've been hosting for my friends#i actually made the first image (not the video) like two years ago?#back around when i first read the fic and started being annoying about it to my friends#never posted it though because the shizuo i drew was ugly!!!#and the shizuo i drew for the second image this time around is still ugly!! unfortunately :(#well anyways if it isn't clear the images are both for chapter 19 while the video is for chapters 28 to 29 and a little bit of 30 lol#also i know izaya's actual problem isn't fucking shizuo but kissing him lol but it was funnier to keep it like this#you can check out more of this deranged behaviour over at my twitter of the same name#i know not everyone wants to go there though especially with the current situation...#so i'll try to bring over the more memorable stuff to post in batches over here which i think is the stuff i did any art for#since i've made a lot of multimedia type things dedicated to particular chapters as “marketing” for my friends#but i'm not sure they'll make much sense out of context so#my plan is to compile all of everything i've made for the fic during the book club into a powerpoint that i'll try to keep for posterity#because ngl i feel i went kinda hard with certain things that maybe only two people will appreciate#but i'll do it for those two people out there#also it's a whole book club for aci!!#*i'd* want to see what some random people have been up to with a book club for this fic#be the change you want to see in the world#side note i wonder if having so many fucking tags on your own post is a bad look...#idk it's so much clutter but i have too many things to say!!#i look back at my own previous tags and i physically can't bring myself to read them ahhhh#i hope anyone's enjoying them anyways
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And thus, with the passing of 24 hours, Caeru's ambition truly comes to an end. Major Nemesis spoilers below the cut- we're talking endgame ambition business here. Mostly on a character RP front.
The Doomed Scientist made quite a few... choice decisions, in the end. Killing Cups once and for all, recording his story as one of grief-
And sparing what little remained of Mr Mirrors, leaving it free to roam Parabola as it sees fit.
Some of them, he can explain. Others, he's still left to feel... discontent.
Cups needed to die. That much was certain from the start. It was a tyrant, as all Masters are, and complicit in the bargaining and eventual destruction of four (potentially five) cities, as all Masters are. It was an obstacle. A murderer. A petty monster that felt no remorse even on its deathbed, and it went out of its way to ruin multiple lives just because it felt owed its own sick and twisted idea of revenge.
It killed his first love. It looked him in the eyes and he knew what it had done and he knew from the start it was going to die.
Perhaps, in the end, it knew too. And yet it still pleaded, and wanted to live, and-
It made a bargain.
A bargain Caeru didn't take.
Not because he didn't want to. Gods, he wanted to. He wanted it. He wanted it more than anything else in the world. To have Greylu back, to give him the gift of life, of love, to show him the wonders of the Neath and the beauty of the correspondence and all of the people Caeru has met and loved and found home with along the way-
But. He couldn't.
Because Cups was a monster. And no matter what, it deserved to die. And he could not, in good conscience, allow it to live.
Even if sparing it meant everything he's ever wanted.
So he's left here, now. With a bloodied traveling coat, and a bloodsoaked knife, and a favor finally fulfilled.
And nothing to live for. No resurrected lover, no charming visits to Helicon, no slow dances in the living room, no memories to rebuild and lives to live and he won't live again-
Nothing. All he has is a coat born of obligation, not to his love, but to people he's never even met. To lives he's never even touched. To a paramour, still alive, with hair of rose-pink, who doesn't even remember her own brother's existence.
Cups didn't die for Caeru's sake. Cups died for the sake of all who wanted it dead. For the revenger's court, and the ghost screaming in his ear, and the reckoning that will not be postponed indefinitely.
And Caeru, who acted as a tool to carry out their wills? Who all but betrayed his own lover, just to satisfy a cause he never knew existed?
All Caeru is left with, is regret. Regret-
-And grief.
#yin-thoughts#fallen london#fallen london spoilers#nemesis spoilers#so! nemesis huh!#i have. a lot of thoughts#overall i think heart's desire remains closest to my heart#but that's almost certainly bc of the obvious ''you always remember your first'' bias#there's a lot of problems with nemesis that have been talked to death by other people way more eloquently than i could ever express#(the big notable stopgates littered throughout. the weird pacing at the end. the fact you never meet your actual nemesis til the finale)#but overall i still liked it a lot!! i loved it actually!!! it singlehandedly made me like cups as a master!!!!#not because of anything nemesis actually DID mind you. i just really liked making up things about it#in place of nemesis. actually featuring it.#which could either be a plus or a minus against the ambition depending on what angle you look at it from#but. yeah. i'd say i enjoyed it. i enjoyed it a whole bunch#and now that ive played 2 out of the 4 ambitions and my FL hyperfixation evidently isnt letting up#it's safe to say we're all here for the long haul#tune in (insert miscellaneous time in the future) for when i finally after like a year and a quarter#get to find out what the fuck truly goes down in light fingers#and also keep an eye out for that caeru-centric fic ive been unsubtly alluding to and still need to write.#ive got a whole outline for it and it's. well#you'll all see when (if?) i finish it#i have some ideas abt how i wanna play around with the nemesis endings + what they mean to caeru#(and i do mean endings as in both of them)#and it all may seem. insane. when we get there#but i swear i have a direction plotted in my head#i swear#scoundrelventures#<- the scoundrel isnt mentioned At All in this post but that works as a general FL oc lore tag
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something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.
“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”
#makoto naegi#Danganronpa character analysis#Danganronpa#danganronpa thh#danganronpa future arc#I fucking love Makoto Naegi man.#I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known#he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said#he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky#he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did#if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world.#he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done#and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend.#I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though#post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do#it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to#and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc#he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions#I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse#and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate#and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable.#honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually#I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself#that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels#it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it#it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic#anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for#the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!
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Happy birthday to this nerd i guess
#dear lord I made him look even more like a lesbian#did I spend all night drawing this cuz I didn’t finish writing the fic I planned on posting today?#maybe…#but I have a good reason#I literally got hit by a hurricane#bakudeku#bnha#bkdk#midoriya izuku#mha#puff draws#anyways I’m gonna leave this here cuz the longer I stare at it the worse it looks to me#I like drawing until I have to show it to people#but ily guys#and i love him#so I’m dealing with it#the last time I posted halfway rendered art was on katsukis birthday like two years ago#omg that one was really bad#I’m gonna find it and delete it actually#deku#also yes he’s wearing katsukis shirt#bye
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a moment of rest
#.jpg#linked universe#lu#linked universe fanart#lu fanart#lu twilight#lu wild#do not tag as ship#this is actually a redraw of a twi and wild drawing i did in feb#the original is so bad its insane how much ive improved just this year alone#we move#my first posted lu fanart. wild. ive posted several lu fics but never fanart#though tbf i generally never finish fanart? like at all? its only been recently i have#anyway ill stop rambling now#sorry for any inaccuracies i did most of this while half asleep last night
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read your fic about cooper and lucy (all i want) and i adored it so i just wanted to tell you that !!! keep writing because you're talented!!
THIS ACTUALLY MADE MY DAY TYSM ??? I DIDNT EXPECT ANYBODY TO ACTUALLY ENJOY IT MUCH LESS REACH OUT ON TUMBLR AND TELL ME
#asks#inbox#context: I blacked out at 4 AM last night and when I regained actual consciousness I had posted a platonic Cooper x Lucy fic to ao3#I lowkey haven't written in like half a year and posted anything to ao3 since 2021 idk how I did it#if enough (like 3 probably) people want the link then I'll post it here ...#fallout#fallout tv#fallout tv series#fallout tv show#lucy maclean#cooper howard#the ghoul#writing#ao3#Paranoid radio originals
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till all the seas run dry
"Oi! Are you Shimotsuki?" Turning to his left, he squinted a bit against the sun and leaned over the railing to see a young man around his own age, dark hair mussed and a huge duffel bag slung over his shoulder. His face was open and friendly and his bright eyes stared up at Zoro expectantly. "No, uh… she's in the shop," he offered, gesturing vaguely downwards towards the door. Then, his brain catching up, he continued, "are you… Garp's… new tenant?" Apparently the boy found the question amusing, because his face split into a huge grin and he broke into a peal of laughter. "Haha, yeah, I guess that's me!" he stated, still smiling up at Zoro. For some reason, it made Zoro want to smile back.
Roronoa Zoro, university student and florist, meets someone for the first time that he already knows.
-- relationship: monkey d. luffy/roronoa zoro rating: explicit word count: 27,976 chapter count: 7 tags: modern au, flower shop au, zoro is good at math, too many hidden references, mentioned nami/vivi, mvp sanji, developing relationship, angst and fluff and smut, most of the strawhats are just cameos so don't read specifically for them lmao, minor spoilers through wano act 1
#oh lord here we GO#one piece fanfiction#op fanfic#zolu#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#one piece#ff#mine:fic#did NOT think i would be creating that tag in 2024 but here we are!!#did not think i'd be wanting to actually wanting to write again either!!#SENKA HAS DONE THIS TO ME AND I LOVE HER FOR IT BUT ALSO :RYUMASCREAM:#anyway if anybody wants to read my silly little attempt at a story about silly little pirates here it is i just have so many feelings#stay tuned for my next planned fic (yes ofc there's another) coming in like 10 years or something after i get past the research stage HGKJS#i have to post this before i go back in and convince myself i need to add more. or change phrasing again. or both-
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i think taking a break from writing smut for like almost a year has been rly refreshing bc i think it made me stop questioning if my writing is interesting without sex and just write it how i want. and then tbh a part of me has realized i like writing without the sex half the time. it’s nice. it’s fun to explore intimacy in as many non sexual ways as you can
#not that i don’t like writing smut#bc tbh sometimes u just have to write gojo cumming#to feel fulfilled#but#yeah idk#dipping my toes back into sm.ut has been a journey#bc on one hand i actually didn’t like it at all when i started writing it again#i was like bro how did i write this so often#this sucks ass i will go back to sfw fluff cuteness#but then i slowly got back into the swing of things#and now it’s like#ok yeah i did miss this a bit#but i think if anything#the break was good for me it made me#overall more confident in my writing and it’s ability to compel / draw in an audience without sex appeal#but also just have more plot based development#which is why i’m so happy w that post canon geto fic#bc me of a year ago#could never fathom writing 10k words of no smut#yeah anyway ramble over#but that being said#ima till write pure filth for october LMAO
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got an idea that i'm not entirely committed to doing a comic for so if i start i may never finish or i just wont have that much fun doing it, but also not confident enough in writing to turn it into a fic instead but it would be easier and quicker. what do i do
#clai speaks#i actually write a bit. but i never post it bc i dont exactly do the fancy prose and stuff its more like.#me getting out scenes that are WAY too long for me to do in comic form. so they're for my eyes only#i posted One (1) fic last year that i was happy with and people liked it but idk#maybe i'll just try the fic first see how i go#if anything. i can turn that into the comic script? its not very long of a scenario but that two page volo comic i once did--#--was already nearing my limit of how much i'm willing to do BDJBFJF
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