#Hope this helped Anon

[comradekarin]

I do agree that people will hate Farleigh and then worship Felix because yk racism but let's not act like Farleigh wasn't an asshole. You're downplaying his actions just to make him look good but you should be arguing that asshole characters of colour are easily hated when compared to their white counterparts. You don't have to lie about "oh he's not even bad y'all are dramatic" because at the end of the day he's an asshole rich boy just like Felix just like everyone else.... 😐

Sorry it just annoys me because as a poor Black person who went to school with Farleighs it grinds my gears to see you and others downplay his bad behaviour because of the racism he is facing. You can acknowledge the racism without making him an angel. Racism towards even the worst people is wrong because there is no excuse for racism (I am not saying Farleigh is the worst person ever btw, he's the same brand of asshole like Felix and everyone else obviously. They're family lol.)

i mean you’re absolutely right. he was an asshole. he was a dick, just like the rest of them was. personally for me, that’s apart of the appeal of this character. when I said “farleign was not that bad lmao” I meant that in response to everyone who has this visceral disgust for the stuff he does and says but not for anyone else. if I gave off the impression of “he did absolutely nothing wrong”, well… my bad lmao. the posts I have made are more shitpost-y in nature anyway, but they still hold some merit. i feel like this post really encapsulates my intent.

as someone who is also black, it is harmful to have this notion that poc characters have to be perfect and can’t have character flaws. part of being a good character is having flaws and faults. however, it’s just weird seeing farleigh being held to a very different standard than the other characters who have done the same shit he did (or, have done worse). it’s even weirder pretending his character is meant to be one dimensional, or just this huge asshole, while simultaneously being able to see the complexities in the rest of the cattons/oliver. i’ve even seen people hate him for reasons that aren’t even true if they actually paid attention (i.e him stealing or even being completely at fault for what happened to felix). my posts were never supposed to give “you guys are racist for not liking farleign”. boring, maybe, but racist? nah. they were supposed to give “you guys may have biases to address if the reasons you hate farleign is something you can overlook in the rest of the white cast”.

feel free to ask me anything else though, anon. i’m always up for healthy convo :)

[echo-goes-mmm]

Are you a sadist or a masochist? Are you comfortable talking about what you get out of whump?

Honestly a little of both. I definitely identify more with whumpees than any other role, but like. I wouldn't mind if it went both ways

And yeah I'm comfortable with discussion about that sort of thing

For me, whump is cathartic in many ways. And yeah, there is some whump that gets me uh riled up. That's pretty common in the community.

I do get "whumperflies", but rarely.

My favorite parts of whump is actually the comfort. It's my most indulgent work, bc the idea of someone caring for me like, say, Ambrose (from Ambrose and Elliot) is just... so wonderful. I wish I had that.

I also really like the psychology of whumpees. Like the conditioning aspect, and how they rationalize how they've been treated. I've sort of done similar stuff to justify others actions in my life. It's not realistic depictions of someone's mentality (but who writes whump for realism? no one) but I find it... Comforting. Relatable.

Psychological whump also scratches that psychological horror fan itch in me (watch midsommar and the shining. my favs!)

I actually struggle with writing hurt, and you'll notice a lot off actual whump I write happens in flashback chapters or in brief "off-camera" scenes, or even throwaway lines or dreams

I would like to write more "on camera" torture, but I just find it difficult. Like how some writers struggle to write action sequences.

Anyway there's a variety of things people get out of whump, and I feel like I fit in most categories. I'm not a very specific dude

[koshercosplay]

Hi!! I hope this isn't an unsolicited ask but I was hoping you might have some insight.

I'm currently speaking with the Rabbis of my local Reform and Liberal synagogues, hoping to learn more about each movement, because I want to become Jewish. I'm trying to figure out which movement I feel most at home with.

Thing is..I don't want to completely write off Orthodox, I do feel that Orthodox Judaism strongly resonates with me, just like the other denominations. I'm trans and queer and I know that there are some differences in how LGBTQ+ identities are talked about. I know there are probably many Orthodox communities out there that are 100% welcoming and accepting, but it's still something I'm scared of eventually confronting. I'm also afraid that if I do convert with a Reform or Liberal synagogue, I'll not be accepted as 'really Jewish' by Orthodox communities (I read that a non-Orthodox conversion isn't considered valid by Orthodox Jews).

I've been researching my socks off but I'm finding it hard to get any real info about how true this is. You seem to know more about Judaism than me. Is this true, will Orthodox Jews not consider me to be Jewish if I convert with a different movement? Or is that just a gross generalisation?

there are multiple layers to this ask, so I'll try to answer them one by one. This got long so I'll put it under a cut.

it is true that generally, reform and conservative conversions are not accepted by mainstream orthodoxy. there are individual orthodox communities that do accept them, but yes, it's not wrong to say that as a general statement.

if you do convert with another group other than orthodoxy, one would hope that you feel strongly about being a part of that group, and feel connected to that particular community. in that case, it honestly shouldn't matter or affect your life that much about whether or not orthodoxy will "accept" you, since you will not be a part of that community.

case in point: I was born jewish, raised orthodox, and am still religious to this day. many many orthodox jews don't accept ME as orthodox, simply based on the fact that I'm queer. and, of course, many other orthodox jews simply don't give a shit. the right community will accept you for who you are. I currently attend an orthodox shul with my partner, as openly queer people. it's relatively rare, but it's possible.

that's different of course than denying me my jewish identity entirely, but I hope you see my point in bringing it up. if you like, you can try to do research specifically for orthodox queer-friendly synagogues, and contact the rabbi to see if you'd be able to work on conversion with them.

lastly, and honestly this is my most important point: once you convert, your conversion is nobody's damn business. I don't know how aware you are of how strongly the torah insists that we do not ask converts for details about their conversion. it is entirely up to you whether you reveal information about your conversion to others. if anybody asks you if you're a convert, or who you converted with, or anything like that, THEY are the ones unequivocally in the wrong according to halacha (jewish law.)

I strongly recommend what I mentioned above: reach out to an openly queer-friendly orthodox rabbi/synagogue. Rabbi Mike Moskowitz might be a good person to reach out to about this, as an orthodox rabbi who does a lot of trans and queer advocacy. regardless of where you are located, he may have some excellent resources to help you.

I wish you luck in your conversion journey anon, and I hope you find a home in the jewish community. ❤️

[arthurtaylorlester]

Hello found you through your malevolent posting and you post a lot about aroace stuff (the percentage of Ari fans in this fandom is so high?? I'm not sure what happened but I'm having the time of my life). I have a question. Don't feel pressured to answer, if you ignore this ask, no problem, it's your yard I'm just throwing messages in a bottle into it.

But Is there a word for person who experiences no romantic attraction? Like just for them. BC aromantic is of course "a person with little to no romantic attraction etc etc". So it's an umbrella term. But ppl who feel romantic attention under specific circumstances like greyaro, demiaro etc. They all get their own word. And they're valid, that's not what this is about. But there's no word just for people who don't feel romantic attraction. And it's not even really about labelling, it's that there's no space I can look for where romance isn't constantly a topic. I look up aro and 90% of it is people who experience some form of romantic attraction and discourse around that. Cool but it's not what I'm looking for.

I'm just wondering. If I'm the only person bothered by this or not.

(look I realise this is a bit of an essay but it's really not that important, please don't take it too seriously. Anyway love your malevolent content, bye)

hi! first of all, yeah malevolent is an aromanric magnet. don’t question it too much. /lh

second, i’m honoured you asked me of all people about this, i’ll try to answer you best i can !

i’m personally the kind of aromantic you’re describing, no romantic attraction at all. personally, i use aromantic to describe myself and be done with it, mostly because allos…. can be very uninformed to put it kindly.

i agree it can be very frustrating seeing people still talk about romance a lot if you aren’t favourable to it, so when i’m in aro space it tend to use terms like heartless aro or loveless aro.

these spaces are usually romance-free, because they inherently choose to reject all sorts of love!

don’t worry, i’m sure youre not alone in your search of a romance-free community. i actually (used to) post way more aromantic related content on my main blog, @aromantic-aromantic, so check out the aromantic tag on that blog if youre interested!

lastly, thank you for liking my malevolent “content” (its shitposts /j), it genuinely means a lot :)

[alarrytale]

No disrespect but how was Haylor worse than Holivia? Haylor only lasted two months; Holivia was two long years of hell and making out in public.

Hi anon!

It's okay! It's apparent to me you weren't here during Haylor since your're asking this, so let me explain.

I guess it depends on WHO haylor was worse for than holivia. But to me haylor was worse for both fans, harry and louis than holivia ever was. So it's not even a competition. Haylor was way worse.

Haylor was an uneven playing field. She was the bigger star, she had agency and she was the main driving force of making the stunt happen. She had plenty of high publicity pr relationships behind her (she was already a veteran). Harry less so. Holivia was more an even playing field in all ways.

Harry was only 18 and she was 22. That's a big age difference at that age. Holiva had age difference too but Harry was older and more experienced with pr relationships.

Haylor couldn’t stand each other from day one (for several reasons). Holivia got along fine (until she starting airing dirty laundry and harry soured).

Harry looked dead, tired and pale, sad and very uncomfortable at every haylor outing. T looked smug, smiling to the cameras and was awful to him bts for his lack of participation (just read the blinds and fan stories about it, it's not good...) Harry looked fine during holivia (until the last outings).

Harry had to kiss her at midnight at new years eve, smack dab in the middle of the crowds at times square. Watching the video she drags him, and sternly tells him what to do. Harry looked so sad and like he was just finished with a round of crying minutes before. Holivia kissed, but at least they pretended to be private about it. And harry wasn't crying.

Harry got physically hurt during stunting (snowmobile accident). He's still got the scar from it. Us fans were furious, and he'll always have that 'battle scar' from it. Holivia didn’t cause anyone any physical harm.

Harry had to do a 'walk of shame' from her hotel with a toilet bag. They really flaunted it in a way that the fandom didn’t accept at all. It enforced his womaniser image that the fandom so actively tried to dispel for him. The image rehab the fandom tried to do on his behalf was all for nothing.

Haylor had his family actively participating (not just on social media). Like 'meet the parents', joining them at the pub, hugging her etc. They had to help him sell it and be a comfort goat to him on dates. She visited him at home (feeding ducks in Warrington). Holivia never did interfere with his private life like that.

Louis. He looked devastated during the entire time. He looked sad, depressed and constantly on the verge of crying. He had to stunt himself, and even E looked worried about him. Just look at the pics of him at the time (where he is carrying the giant lion) and his sassy 'they're good friends (if that...)' comment. Compare that to the pap pics of him when they 'broke up'. It was the first smile we'd seen on Louis face in a month. It was a really dark time for him. Holivia, i'm sure, didn’t bother Louis. (except for him saying ted lasso is shit lol).

T played the victim (again) when they broke up and got an entire album out of it. Harry took the brunt of it of course. He got attention (as did 1D in extention), and people are still talking about the stunt till this very day, so we still have to suffer through it. Give it some time and holivia will be soon be forgotten (as the public did with DWD lol).

And last but not least, the fans. We were so upset looking at the absolute misery of H and L during haylor, while having to deal with T's smug face, empathyless and manipulative ways. I will never ever forget that time. We were genuinely concerned for their wellbeing. It was fandoms first 'big' stunt (first cut is the deepest). I will never forget how powerless we felt and how horrible the haylors were towards larries. Remember this was also just months after Louis's BS tweet so the fandom was unstable and fractioning. The larrie hate (from every corner) exploded. Haylor exacerbated everything and made fandom so much worse off. Holivia didn’t change fandom dynamics at all. It was just a source of irritation and insulting to our intelligence. Yes, it lasted longer than haylor did, but the impact on fandom and H and L was wayyy less than Haylor.

Tldr; Haylor was way worse than Holivia ever was.

[countessofravenclaw]

I remember you mentioned you used to make some Violetta/Soy Luna character comparisons, do you wanna explain them?

Hmmm, sure. That was in 2021 when I was just starting out. I'll fetch the post for you...

...update, I could not find the post so I'll just paraphrase it for you

Lets treat this as an updated version

Luna ~ Violetta (The protagonist)

They are the main character who change their hairstyle every season. They are pretty, and talented but also humble and everyone loves them almost. They get into the most drama with boys even when neither of them is straight. They also have very complicated family relationships. They can sometimes be super frustrating with how much screen time they hog and occasionally and unintentionally make everything about them when something else would have been more important. They have flaws, but the show and the other characters ignore them, so the flaws never slow them down or get developed on. They are still focus point of the show and the one viewer often relates to te most

Ambar ~ Ludmila (The mean girl)

They are the blonde popular girl who starts feeling threatened by the protagonist almost as soon as they arrive. They feel like they need to be the best no matter what and try to sabotage the protagonist often but almost always fail and never actually bother the protagonist. They have an extremely toxic friendship with their best friend/s. They secretly have broken home lives and get pseudo-adopted to the protagonist's' family in the final season, finding a new parental figure.

Matteo ~ Leon (The cool guy)

They start out as the coolest guy possible and date the mean girl. They and the protagonist meet by chance and they start pursuing her for not-so-noble means until they fall for her. The protagonist makes them rethink their life and become a better person. They and the protagonist have the most amount of drama and multiple break ups. They try/do leave the designated hangout spot because they want to discover themselves. They also end up in hospital in the final season

Simon ~ Tomas (The "nice" guy)

From the start seems like the obvious love interest for the protagonist. They are presented as the better choice than the cool guy and are the protagonist's first exploration into relationship/love

Simon ~ Federico (The brother)

The protagonist brotherly figure who she can confide and trust in. They also started out liking the protagonist but got past that after she didn't feel the same. They fall in love with the means girl and and up helping her change

Nina ~ Francesca (The best friend)

The platonic soulmate of the protagonist who she meets by chance but they automatically connect. They support the protagonist through their struggles and are often the more level-headed one. They are often relegated to the protagonist's emotional support even when exploration of their own struggles would be much more interesting. They end up having the best love story and the healthiest relationship in the show

Gastón ~ Marco (The disappearing love interest)

The love interest of the best friend who ends up leaving the show in the final season and they never mention him again, even though he was a very close friend of the other main characters.

Gastón ~ Diego (The bestie love interest)

The love interest of the best friend who is her true love and they go through a bit more complicated and uniquer love story, which ends up kind of frustrating to watch since it could have been solved better. They have the most normal and healthy relationship in the show

Gastón ~ Andres (The cool best friend)

The cool guys best friend who wants nothing more than happiness for him. They give pretty solid advice and stand by the cool guy no matter what kind of mess the cool guys gets themselves into

Jim & Yam ~ Camila (The other best friend/s)

The protagonist's's obviously queer other best friend/s. They bring chaos and have one brain cell.

Delfi & Jazmin ~ Naty (The minion/s)

The best friend/s of the mean girl who uses them to achieve her scenes. They end up abandoning the mean girl at some point during the series

Ramiro ~ Broduey (The dancer)

They are the guy who just dances through life with no care in the world

Pedro & Nico ~ Maxi (The other guys)

The other guys in the designated friendgroup

[cherryfleischer]

Any tips on language learning?

not an expert but I have a few !

- don't be afraid to take long ass breaks sometimes. studying is not going to be fun 100% of the time but it shouldn't be weighing u down mentally

- get a notebook. write down all the basic info of a language (adjectives, verbs, nouns) and the names of everyday objects (clothes, movies, food)

- start a diary in the language u want to learn. it can be basic as describing when u woke up and what u ate and if u left ur house. it really helps !

- watch videos/movies in that language. I fucked myself over in the beginning when learning chinese because despite knowing how to pronounce stuff, I kind of got lost on how u actually talk in chinese :P

I'm still struggling but hey I learned english and german this way

[trials-of-a-spirit-worker]

Could we hear more about your animal spirit experiences

Sure thing, Anon.

I've had a few animal experiences. They're not super exciting.

Most often, it's small instances of a pet that died a while ago. A lot of the time, these experiences are my spouse's old pets. Sometimes they just let us know they're still there. A gentle rub on the leg. A meow we haven't heard in years.

One instance is when I head towards the door, a little black figure sprints towards it. It's their old cat who was an indoor-outdoor cat years ago before my spouse and I even met.

Their old black cat will still stare at me (he was very skittish and wary of anyone, but especially me) before jumping down from the counter and disappearing.

I still hear the thumping of her old dog who died a decade ago, slowly trying to follow me. But that's just inside.

Outside those are odd sensations. I've had some good experiences. I've been followed home by a dead stray. He was a good boy. Stayed by my side very loyally. I might've reminded him of someone he liked, or maybe because I'm small, he probably thought I was a kid. I felt the swish of his tail while he walked me home, always sitting at the last corner before my house right before turning back. It was always the same path with him. He'd wait to see me walking home, especially if I was alone, and then he'd accompany me to the same street corner before letting me leave. Told him he was a good boy near my last days of high school because I didn't want him to worry about me since I had no reason to walk that path again. He seemed satisfied with that and I never saw him again. Friendly dead strays usually follow, pawing for attention. I've seen people's old cats stare through the window before disappearing. Little shit. Sometimes an animal will call for my attention to follow only to disappear.

One I got really excited about was when I was in bed alone, and there was a little dip by my side. It was a mini fox looking spirit and it allowed me to pet it.

I've had some bad experiences. I've been growled at by something not human... Watching me while I was walking home at night. I've felt something dark nip at my legs while I walk home. I've felt stalked by something, to hear it jump out and only feel the cold wind on me.

My spouse and I swore we saw something like a hellhound once.

Walking across the street. Its form was inky and black. It looked like part of it melted into the asphalt as it walked. It was way too big to be a dog or coyote. No wolves go where we live. Too urban, too many people and things for a person avoidant creature. It was heading towards a nearby park. We wasted no time getting inside after we saw that.

We've heard a dog bark in the middle of the night but nothing about it sounded right. It was almost mechanical and far too echoey to be natural. Our dog refused to go near any doors when this happened. Our usually playful cats hid and stayed deathly silent. It was only until it stopped completely that everything went to normal again.

I wish I could tell you why these things happen, but only so much of the other side is known. Animal Spirits are one of those tricky ones. Never know what you're going to get with them.

[deep-space-lines]

okay but like. I just had the weirdest thought about that ‘don’t look I’m naked’ comic. Which is that that’s essentially the same thing Adam and Eve did after they ate the fruit of knowledge of good&evil. So I feel like the theological implications of that could kneecap Gabe if he doesn’t think V1 is a being with free will.

yeah ok. i dunno man. is this anything

((side note. this isn’t necessarily meant to be in-character or story-accurate or take place at any particular point in time, just a way to explore some Thoughts. i was also imagining more that V1’s words aren't actually spoken, more like Gabriel’s more articulate interpretation of whatever garbled mechanical noise V1 is using to communicate. I think an angel could do that.))

and then they fucked nasty the end

[mecachrome]

DUTCH GP 2024 | How well Lando and Oscar know each other

L: Sooo we don't really know each other that well. O: *giggles*

[bidamonalbarn]

PLEASE infodump about drake

okok this is specific to the drake/kendrick drama but i can also do a drake one too - im assuming you know basically nothing. & i barely know this shit so correct me if im wrong. also this will be routinely updated so! check in :D

2011 - Take Care (album) by Drake features Kendrick Lamar on the track Buried Alive Interlude

2012 - Drake has Kendrick open for his Club Paradise Tour. The same year they both feature on A$AP Rocky's song Fuckin Problems (also with 2 Chainz)

2013 - Kendrick called out a few rappers (J. Cole, Pusha T, Big Sean, etc.) including Drake. Drake responds saying he had no response, basically. They do this again the same year (Kendrick says shit, Drake doesnt respond)

2016 (ish) - They continue subtle beef (Kendrick saying Drake has ghost writers, Drake saying Kendrick "sold out")

2023 - First Person Shooter by Drake and J. Cole drops (their first collab since 2013). In the song Drake mentions "the big three" in reference to himself, J. Cole, and Kendrick

2024, Mar. - Like That by Metro Boomin' and Kendrick Lamar drops. In it Kendrick responds to Drake, saying "the big three ... it's just big me", implying that Kendrick is above Drake and J. Cole. Drake attempts to ban Like That from the radio.

2024, Apr. - Push Ups by Drake is released. The song is about how Drake believes Kendrick is being extorted - the track referencing the phrase "drop and give me 50".

2024, Apr. - Taylor Made Freestyle by Drake is released, his second diss track at Kendrick. Here Drake disses Kendrick for "selling out" specifically in reference to Bad Blood by Taylor Swift ft. Kendrick Lamar. Drake also used AI vocals of Snoop Dogg and Tupac - this resulted in him almost being sued by Tupac's Estate. Drake wiped the song from his sites

2024, Apr. - Euphoria by Kendrick Lamar is released. The track is 6 minutes long, cut down from its original 19 minutes. The title is in reference to the TV series Euphoria which Drake is an executive producer of - it's also referencing the sexualisation of underage people, something done by the show and (allegedly) Drake himself. Within the track Kendrick makes fun of Drakes accent, how Drake says the n-word, how Drake dresses... and a fuck load more

2024, May. - 6:16 in LA by Kendrick Lamar releases, less than 72 hours after Euphoria dropped. This track specifically disses Drake for having ghost writers/lots of co-writers. He also implies that Drakes friends are stabbing him in the back and selling his info. This track is co-produced by Jack Antonoff, who co-writes and co-produces for Taylor Swift.

2024, May. - Family Matters by Drake is released. I want to be honest with you, i didn't listen to this until i got this ask. This track implies Kendrick beats his wife. Drake also disses other rappers such as A$AP Rocky, Future, etc.

2024, May. - Drake releases a Buried Alive Interlude Parody on his Instagram

2024, May. - Meet the Grahams by Kendrick Lamar is released. In this track (which is by far my favourite of all the tracks) Kendrick calls Drake a deadbeat dad and accuses Drake of having another secret child (apart from Adonis). Kendrick has a verse dedicated to this supposed child in which he basically parents her - teaching her all the things Drake wont. He also implies Drake struggles with alcohol and gambling

2024, May. - Not Like Us by Kendrick Lamar is released. The fourth diss track from Kendrick. In this track Kendrick alleges that there's pedophiles and trafficking within OVO (an indie record label founded by Drake). Kendrick also says that every rapper who's complimented Drake is lying and now hates him for using Tupac's vocals through AI. This track includes my favourite line "Tryna stike a chord and it's probably A-Minor"

[kuni-kuun]

still [unhealthily] obsessed with that one bsd mayoi halloween thing (Reaper!Dazai and Vampire!Kunikida) like cmon, Death and the deathless

Kiss(es) of Death

[bulldog-butch]

do you have any tips for eating pussy !!!!

BOY DO I

i feel like i have to put a corporate disclaimer so i don’t get sued, but obviously not everyone likes getting their pussy ate the same way and it’s good to talk to a partner about what they like and dislike. that being said i often get stellar feedback on my pussy eating (i literally changed my girlfriend’s mind about getting their pussy ate 😈)

first off, forget probably everything you’ve seen in porn. if someone could watch you eating pussy and see your tongue then you’re doing it wrong (unless you’re in the first few minutes and warming up or like taking a tiny breather) otherwise if you’re getting down to business then your face should be drowning in the pussy.

second, forget all the kitschy shit you hear. no one is actually getting off to someone spelling out the alphabet on their clit. finding a consistent rhythm is key and it’s usually something incredibly simple. i opt for up and down because i can go longer with that motion and it tends to get a better reaction than side to side (but i do throw a little of that in there). also when i say up and down i don’t mean like a flicking motion. do not flick the clit with your tongue. you’re rubbing it not flicking it, so keep your tongue flat and just rub it up and down (or side to side whatever you’re going with). the other most important thing i can say is SUCK THEIR CLIT. start soft if you don’t know how sensitive their clit is and then ramp it up if you’re getting positive feedback. save this for a little flare, i wouldn’t usually stay sucking it for more than a few seconds.

okay now that i’ve gone over technique, let’s put it all together. start of slow, really show that you’re giving the pussy all your attention and not just doing it because you feel obligated. lick the whole length, stick your tongue in their vagina, suck on the labia, have fun with it! get to know the pussy you’re about to go to town on! then when you’re ready to get down to business start focusing more on the clit and setting a steady rhythm. maybe start getting a little faster but as soon as you hear “right there” or they start pulling your hair DONT ALTER YOUR PACE. i think a common mistake is people hear that and get excited and start going faster but the whole point is you just had the right tempo and now you’ve changed it. also if your jaw starts hurting (as mine often does) but you don’t want to stop, i would suggest try moving your whole head up and down to give your jaw a break.

last but certainly not least, my personal favorite move is to give the g-spot some attention while you’re down there. use a finger or two (or three if you’re feeling spicy) and do the come hither motion while you’re working on their clit, and i can almost guarantee that you’ll have that person seeing the light

[jkvjimin]

PARK JIMIN ↳ 5th muster - japan making film

[cr. namuspromised]

[mangostarjam]

OKAY HEAR ME OUT I sent this to one other person and I feel like maybe you’d also vibe with this but PLEASE DONT FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO RESPOND OR WRITE ABOUT THIS I JUST LIKE SHARING THOUGHTS

So like Hoshina is lowkey possessive(not like scary kind but the kind where it’s like “hey that’s my gf wtf”) and lets say his s/o is a platoon leader and people have noticed that she has a bite scar where her neck and shoulder meet(maybe one of the rookies likes her oooooh 👀) and there’s rumors and NO ONE KNOWS HOSHINA HAS A MATCHING BITE SCAR ON HIS NAPE BECAUSE ITS ALWAYS COVERED BY HIS COMPRESSION SHIRT(and then Kafka notices in the bath ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE VICE CAPTAIN IS MARRIED) AND JOKES ON EVERYBODY BECAUSE HIS WIFE IS ALSO POSSESSIVE(or maybe she got fed up with his shit once and bit him back lol)

OKAY ANYWAYS I LOVE YOUR WRITING AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME PLEASE MAKE SURE TO REST AND DRINK WATER BYE

-🐌

bless you snail anon i was ignoring some hardcore writer's block and this jump started something in my brain

bathtime revelations — hoshina soshiro x f!reader, established (secret) relationship, reader is a platoon leader, some minor narumi slander (sorry buddy. love that loser but it had to be done), biting, marking, possessiveness, uhhhh hickeys, edging?? nothing descriptive though sorry not today, 1.7k words

"Did you get attacked by a kaiju there, platoon leader? That's a strange looking scar."

The remark is innocent enough. You've been a member of the Defense Force for ages, and it's only natural to have numerous scars and aching bones from all the missions and kaiju neutralizing. Especially since you're a platoon leader of the Third Division, and you've leapt into the thick of things time and again to help Captain Ashiro get the best possible angle for her killing shots.

It would be fine, except the scar in question is a neat ring of teeth marks at the juncture between your shoulder and neck, where you're sensitive.

"Oh... no, that's not. Um." Shit. You've taken some of the Vice Captain's newest officers for an afternoon training session, and they're all looking at you now as you fumble for an explanation that doesn't expose your relationship. "I didn't get attacked by a kaiju, don't worry."

"Eh?? But that looks like a bite mark, platoon leader!" Iharu's voice is loud. You frown at him.

"It wasn't a kaiju," you say firmly. That much, at least, is the truth. "Anyway, if you guys wanna stay alive with just as many battle scars as me, go run some laps!"

Whew. There's a murmuring grumble, but everyone obeys orders. The summer heat and humidity wears you out quickly, and in an effort to combat the drain, you've stripped down to a tank top and your uniform pants. The bite mark in question feels like a brand on your skin, a ring of slightly raised flesh that should blend in with your other scars except for the clear circle it makes. You watch the rookies run, but your mind drifts, thinking back to when you got that set of teeth marks on your skin. Your body warms at the memory. Stupid boyfriend with his stupidly sharp canines.

You snap back to attention as Kikoru and Reno jog past, their words floating towards you on the breeze —

"—looks like maybe human?"

"Definitely not kaiju. You think the platoon leader's still with the person who marked her?"

"Oh, we can't ask that. Hibino senpai will be devastated."

Oh, jeez. There's no way you can let your boyfriend hear anything about this —

"How's it goin', platoon leader?"

Shit. You turn to the Vice Captain of the Third Division and frown. "What're you doing here?"

Hoshina Soshiro smirks at you, taking the tiniest step closer into what most people would consider to be personal space. "Just checkin' on my lil' fledglings! They've still got breath to gossip, eh? Are ya lettin' 'em off easy today, platoon leader?"

"I was letting them run off some energy so they'd forget about this bite mark on my neck, you vampire," you mumble. Soshiro laughs, leaning just a bit towards you. The afternoon sun glints off his purple hair in sparkles that dazzle your eyes, though it's easy to get pulled into his orbit when he's so magnetizing. You catch yourself and bring your outstretched hand up to your face, rubbing at your nose instead of sinking your fingers into the fluffy strands like you intended.

"Sounds like someone's got a lil' crush on our fearsome platoon leader," Soshiro says quietly, shooting you a lopsided grin. "Not that I blame 'em since it's you we're talkin' about. Still, it'd be good to send a message, y'know? Should I refresh your marks tonight?"

Your face feels hot. "'Marks?' But only one of them is visible when I'm in uniform!"

"What about the bath? We should give Shinomiya somethin' to report, don'tcha think?" His low voice sends a shiver down your spine and you frown to hide how much it's affecting you. Your boyfriend tilts his head. "Fresh marks'll show 'em all you belong to me."

Something hot and sharp lances through you and you bite at your lip to hold in a whine at the words. "That won't work," your voice is breathier than you'd like, but Soshiro is watching you like he wants to eat you alive and it's thrilling and terrifying and not enough. "They won't know it's you unless we match."

He raises an eyebrow at that, but the corner of his lips twitch as he fights down a grin. "Good point, platoon leader. We should discuss this in my office later."

"You're a menace."

Soshiro's smile softens into something fond and he takes another tiny step closer, until the fabric of his jacket brushes against your bare shoulder. You inhale his scent — bright, woodsy, something intrinsically Hoshina Soshiro — and all of your muscles relax. "And you're too dang cute for your own good, my love. See ya later?"

You nod and salute as he walks away, biting down a silly grin as you watch him call out encouragements and teases to his rookies. They all respond with good cheer and an edge of fierce determination, and once Soshiro fully exits the training area you allow yourself to return to the task at hand. You know, possibly more than anyone else on base, how hard Soshiro works to take care of his officers. You aren't going to let him down.

... but maybe you'll die of embarrassment first.

"Platoon leader! Did you spar after our training session? I would've liked to join!" Kikoru says, coming closer eagerly as you begin washing up in the communal bath. Your hand slips along your leg as you jerk up in surprise and Kikoru visibly falters as she takes in your bruises.

"This was a... private session, Shinomiya. I'd be happy to spar with you another time, though." Your entire body is warm, and not from the steam wafting through the echoing room.

"Aah, yes, of course! Sorry to disturb you, platoon leader!"

You resume your scrubbing with a quiet snort, listening as her footsteps return to the corner where Akari and Hakua are clearly ready to pounce. The girls probably don't realize how much sound travels in the bath, but you can hear their hushed whispers and giggling as Kikoru reports back that you're covered in hickeys.

You press down on a few of the blossoming bruises between your thighs and snort again. There's no way these could pass as training bruises — they're too intentional, too close to your aching center where Soshiro paid special attention earlier in his office — without letting you reach your peak. Bastard.

He made sure to leave marks along your chest and neck and shoulders again, taking advantage of your tank top for its easy access to your skin. Only after begging and pleading did he finally remove his stupidly tight compression shirt for you to drag your nails down his back and shoulders, fingers fisting into his hair as he licked and sucked at your core. After he ripped away your orgasm, you made good on your promise and left your own marks on his skin, kissing and sucking along the strong column of his throat and shoulders and pumping him with your hand until he nearly came on your thighs. Two could play at that game, after all.

Your ears perk as you catch your boyfriend's name. "Vice Captain Hoshina says I'm improving rapidly," Kikoru says cheerfully, tossing her head back. She certainly has the right to boast — her combat power levels just keep rising. She's going to make both of you proud. "Someday I will beat him in a practice match!"

"I'd like him to spar with me," another officer giggles. "Have you seen his back? Defense Force men are really no joke."

You bristle automatically. You're used to it by now — Soshiro's hot — but it doesn't make it any easier to hear confirmation of the fact out loud. "What about Captain Narumi? He's got really nice arms!" another officer says.

"You mean Captain Ego?" The communal bath fills with laughter as the girls gossip. "He's good looking, too, but Vice Captain Hoshina in that shirt..."

You're done bathing and changing into your nighttime clothes when a loud commotion from the other communal bath erupts. You share a look with a few of the girls, but you take your time pulling on your clothes (Soshiro's shirt, your shorts, your panties mysteriously missing — though you're sure you'll find them safely tucked into Soshiro's own sleeping pants pocket later).

You come out of the changing room and blink. "Vice Captain, how could you?!" Kafka is wailing dramatically. "You've already beat me by taking my spot by Mina's side, but you're beating me in having a girlfriend, too?!"

"Hang on a sec, old timer! You've already got the 'childhood friend promise' with the Captain!" Iharu shouts. "Leave something for the rest of us!"

"My, my, what a fuss," Soshiro says, waving his fingers. You blink, but the vision before you doesn't change. Most of the men are shirtless, towels wrapped around their waists as they spill out into the hallway in their chaos, and Soshiro is no exception. You can clearly see the raised pink lines your nails left behind on his densely muscled back, even with the small clump of officers between you. "We're all gonna catch a cold standin' out here like this."

"Those bruises on his neck... they look... fresh..." Reno says, his bright gaze darting between his Vice Captain and your exposed neck. Belatedly, you swing a towel around your shoulders, but Reno's eyes widen and you groan inwardly. "The platoon leader has fresh bruises, too."

Soshiro turns and your eyes snag on the blossoming pink and purple along his neck and shoulders. A quiet satisfaction settles in your gut at the sight, and you can't help but grin. "Keep that up, Officer Ichikawa, and you'll end up getting snagged for the Investigations Unit."

"They look good on her, don't they?" Soshiro hums, raising an eyebrow as the officers put two and two together. He meets your eye from across the small group and smirks. "Ain't it nice, platoon leader? Matchin' with the Vice Captain?"

Your answering smile makes his face light up with a deep fondness. "I wouldn't have it any other way."

[hansoeii]

Hello! Hope you're having a great day/night! I absolutely adore your art, you are one of my favourite artists. I love the way you shade and do backrounds. Also everytime I get into a new show I immediately see your art for it??

I was wondering if you had any advice on drawing more realistically (backrounds, anatomy etc) but still keeping a style?

Hey hey!

Thank you so much!

I have a pretty good understanding of facial structures, because before I got into drawing more semi-realisticly, I heavily focused on realistic portraits. Here are some example, these are from around 2019!

(yes, I was really into danmei and kpop back then, haha)

I just always loved drawing/painting faces and it was all I did. But at some point I realized that I wanted to do more than that because just portraits felt super restricting. So it took me around 2-3 years to somewhat find my style. Thought it would be fun to show a little timeline! Advice will follow afterwards :)

2020

I began working on my OCs in 2020 and since I didn't have an exact reference to work off of, I struggled a lot. My art from this year is super wonky.

2021

Still wonky, but the Lokius obsession was the jumpstart into finding my style! My work from this year is all over the place haha, I was experimenting a lot.

2022

This first ofmd piece is pretty much the first drawing where you can see where my style is gonna go, which I think is pretty cool! This is the year I made the biggest progress cos I was drawing SO much. These two pieces are only six months apart. The one on the right was the first time I gave drawing a background a proper go, too! It was a good year.

2023

And this is where I am now! I'm still constantly learning and improving, but I'd say I have a style you can recognize now!

Now here comes some actual advice, haha:

What I highly recommend you to do is to study your favorite artists as much as you can! I have like 5 A4 sketchbooks all from 2020 that I filled with sooooo many studies, where basically all I did was look at artists I like and copy how they draw stuff, to try and figure out how to stylize certain things. Some of my favorite artists are Ami Thompson, Velinxi and TB Choi. But I also liked to just scroll through pinterest and study all the art I came across that I liked! For example, if I saw a really great drawing of a pair of pants I would copy it many times in my sketchbook and try to learn how they stylized the folds. Doing this for a prolongued period of time will naturally improve your own work! It'll be difficult at first, but you gotta push through, it's gonna be worth it!

I also highly recommend studying unique faces to try and avoid the same-face syndrome. Find some cool looking people and try to draw them as simple as you can! Maybe even draw a little timeline where you first draw them as cartoon-y as you can, and keep going until you end up with a more detailed, realistic drawing. Maybe in the middle of it you find a step that feels the most fun to you, so you can try to build on that! It's a great way to figure out what kind of style might be the best for you.

Here are some cool faces I found on pinterest!

I have a pinterest board with many more!

One REALLY important part of learning how to draw all kinds of things is to understand forms and shapes and how to manipulate them. I have so many pages in my sketchbook filled with just shapes that I drew from all kinds of angles without any references.

This is a great video on it:

6 Ways to Draw Anything by Proko

Learning how to do this is so crucial! Young artists often think they first have to learn all kinds of detailed anatomy before doing anything else, but all that's gonna do is make you tired and hate drawing. Shapes are where it's at! Once you understand how shapes work and which ones to use for certain parts of bodies or objects, drawing is gonna get so much easier! Once you understand them, you can get into details such as muscles and bones!

And honestly the most important point is to just absolutely love what you're doing! I wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't for the fact that I get extreme hyperfixations on certain media that turn me into some kind of beast where I can suddenly draw 10 detailed illustrations a week, haha. Just be passionate about what you do, find something you REALLY love and go crazy!

I really hope this was somewhat helpful! My inbox is always open if there's any more questions :)