#Hanae Kan

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[cinemaronin]

Dead Run (2005)

疾走 Dead Run (2005)  directed by SABU cinematography by Masao Nakabori

[antinousamongthereeds]

[lesmana-enterprise-ltd]

WIP: Lesmana Resorts, 星の夜 (Hoshino-ya)

We are happy to announce that the progress of the upcoming five stars Ryokan resort "Lesmana Resorts Hoshino-ya" in Wakaba, Mount Komorebi is currently at 70% to completion.

The Hoshino-ya Ryokan will be situated on a secluded end of Wakaba neighborhood, with two main buildings Hana-kan (花館）and Izumi-kan (泉館）which translates to Flower Pavilion and Spring Pavilion respectfully.

The Resort will be occupying two lots, and the buildings are to be placed accross to each other as in the above layout picture.

Hana-kan (100% Completed)

Hana-Kan will serve as the main building of the Resort, functioning as a restaurant lot. Facilities in Hana-kan ranges from main hotel lobby, bar, meditation room, private rooms, and private onsen for each room.

Izumi-kan (20% Completed)

Izumi-kan will serve as a private spa building for resort guests, offering a secluded wellness experience totally separate from the main building.

Just a Few Moments more to Opening

We thank all our shareholders and loyal customers alike for your support and enthusiasm towards the completion of Lesmana Resorts Hoshino-ya, and our engineers and planners from Lesmana建設株式会社 (Lesmana Kensetsu Kabushiki-gaisha) is working tirelessly to perfect the resort for the best future retreat experience.

Sul Sul!,

The Lesmana Enterprise Co., Ltd Lesmana建設株式会社

[mihotose]

ijigen radio (calling the imas seiyuu by family name since i dont know nicknames)

inoue says kan-san was amazing in how she always practised her choreography right up until she had to go on. kankan gets flustered and says inoue and shuka are amazing as well and they made her feel really comfortable. shuka says theyre both cute

inoue, shuka, and kankan were the first collab unit singing let's sail away on day 1, and theyre really grateful they got to be the top batters

after watching a clip of their performance kankan tells them how the other hasunosora members kept making fun of her for blocking her face with her hand mic when looking through the telescope she had made with her hands lmao (also brought up on mirapa radio). inoue tells her the actual move was making a telescope with one hand (with the mic in the other)

shuka says when aqours were given the choreography for dreamy color it was a kind of dance they hadnt really done before, so they thought it was nice to have grown a little. kankan and inoue gush over how beautiful they were performing it

they talked about the cute lotus image of the eien no euphoria choreo and since kankan and inoue collabed on both it and let's sail away shuka complains its unfair and she wants to do the lotus moves too lol (kankan: i wanted you to join too 🥺)

shuka's top song that left an impression on her was doing aozora jumping heart with everyone to open day 1

kankan was really moved by the other members working together with the senpai during the collab songs. also! one of her friends from university was in sukumyu (minamino hana) and theyve always wanted to perform on the same stage together someday, so she was really happy for it to happen at ijigen. she watched the sukumyu songs while backstage and liked that they started off the second half

inoue liked going on the carts! shuka is jealous aqours didnt get a go on those special big carts

inoue says akarin teased her during a rehearsal of ijigen big bang one time when she happened to be next to her and she got obsessed and every rehearsal after tried to find her to keep going. shuka tries to tsukkomi this but says this is something only kitou-chan can do. kankan's like "this bond of theirs is nice" and shuka's like "idk about a Bond" and then inoue's like "our bond has deepened because of the teasing." shuka then recommends this method to get close to people since it was april

the next behind the scenes anecdote is titled "she barged into aqours' dressing room!?" and shuka's like "this one could only be mine guys" when the others try and make it a mystery

shuka says kurosawa tomoyo came to hang out in aqours' dressing room, since even though she voices an imas girl, she also voices you's cousin tsuki! which made shuka feel weird since it was like looking at two different people. she talks about how they hung out and took videos together and kankan adds she saw them and that they have the same vibes. inoue says they do have the same kind of fun approachable aura

kankan's anecdote was how she was able to take lots of photos with her senpai, but the most memorable was the one with cyaron. she really wanted to take a photo with them but she was scared to ask since theyre her senpai. she was just outside the dressing room when she saw them and she must have been staring because furirin-paisen asked what was up and that's when she was able to speak to them and finally ask for a photo, and thats how she was able to have the confidence to talk to other senpai too. she says aqours are really good at closing the distance and shes really grateful they all posted the photos with her on twitter

shuka says there was pressure not to mess up the songs from the other work, and they were worried how the fans would feel, but theyre really glad P and love live fans accepted them. but even then behind the scenes was a pain w but everyone had fun! thats how she'd sum it up. it was fun!

[hanaerize]

[IDOLiSH7]

MEDiUM / IDOLiSH7 (Anniversary Song 2024) Kan/Rom/Eng Lyrics

- Iori

- Yamato

- Mitsuki

- Tamaki

- Sogo

- Nagi

- Riku

🎵

Let's steal the applause... do the magic trick!

Let's steal the applause... do the magic trick!

名もない Painter 暮らす傍らに心を預ける Gardener

ひっそり日々は在った

比類なき Noble

同じ空の下

交わらない運命をただ刻んでた

ある時

不思議を仕掛けるように

舞い降りた (飛行艇) -Illusionist-

観覧自由 但し... ひとつ宝を盗んでゆくと噂の

おとけ Clown 合図したら始まるは華麗なショー

Marionette に陽気な Musician

見せるまばゆい (一夜の夢)・エフェメール・

誰もが夢中 華やぐ空

人々は酔いしれて

喜びという絵になった

Oh! Magic tricks on stage

喝采とボルテージ

止まないとよめきは街で波打って

喧騒に置いて行かれた寂しさ隠す

孤独に泣いて豪奢に埋もれた目

傷負って庭よろめく背 そっと撫で生きようと筆捨てる手

歓声はるか遠い

煌めくライト花を添えて Knife 投げ 揺れる満場

光と影を胸に抱いて 街の夜は更ける

最後の願いキャンバスへとその様を描いてた

誰かの前降り立った

Wonderful to meet you

微笑うシルエット

こんな絵でもいいなら

Dear stranger

見つけてくれた君へ託すよ

おとけ Clown 挨拶して幕閉じた華麗なショー

(飛行艇) -Illusionist- は次の街へ

まばゆい夢を連れて

街ではひとつ盗まれてた とある絵が視線浴びた

孤独を慰めたその絵は 運命さえも回す

さあ、ショータイムなにが起きた

描かれた情景は...

この世全てが MEDiUM

Oh! Magic tricks on stage

喝采は誰に?

🎵

Let's steal the applause... do the magic trick!

Let's steal the applause... do the magic trick!

Na mo nai Painter kurasu katawara ni kokoro o azukeru Gardener

Hissori hibi wa atta

Hirui naki Noble

Onaji sora no shita

Majiwaranai unmei o tada kizandeta

Aru toki

Fushigi o shikakeru yō ni

Maiorita (hikōtei) -Illusionist-

Kanshō jiyū tadashi... hitotsu takara o nusunde yuku to uwasa no

Otoke Clown aizu shitara hajimaru wa karei na shō

Marionette ni yōki na Musician

Miseru mabayui (ichiya no yume) · Efemēru ·

Dare mo ga muchū hanayagu sora

Hitobito wa yoishirete

Yorokobi to iu e ni natta

Oh! Magic tricks on stage

Kassai to borutēji

Yamanai toyomeki wa machi de namiutte

Kensō ni oite ikareta sabishisa kakusu

Kodoku ni naite gōsha ni umoreta me

Kizu otte niwa yoromeku se sotto nade iki yō to fude suteru te

Kansei haruka tōi

Kirameku raito hana o soete Knife nage yureru manjō

Hikari to kage o mune ni daite machi no yoru wa fukeru

Saigo no negai kyanbasu e to sono sama o egaite ta

Dareka no mae oritata

Wonderful to meet you

Warau shiruetto

Konna e demo ī nara

Dear stranger

Mitsukete kureta kimi e takusu yo

Otoke Clown aisatsu shite maku tojita karei na shō

(Hikōtei) -Illusionist- wa tsugi no machi e

Mabayui yume o tsurete

Machi de wa hitotsu nusumareta to aru e ga shisen abita

Kodoku o nagusameta sono e wa unmei sae mo mawasu

Sā, shōtaimu nani ga okita

Egakareta jōkei wa...

Kono yo subete ga MEDiUM

Oh! Magic tricks on stage

Kassai wa dare ni?

🎵

Let's steal the applause... do the magic trick!

Let's steal the applause... do the magic trick!

An anonymous painter,

entrusting their heart to the gardener living alongside,

their days passed in silence.

A peerless noble,

under the same sky,

marking a destiny that would never intersect.

One day,

like a mystery waiting to be revealed,

a flying ship descended - the Illusionist -

A spectacle free to watch, but... rumored to steal a single treasure.

The mischievous clown signals, a start of a magnificent show,

with the marionette dancing to the lively tunes of the musician,

a dazzling display, an ephemeral dream for one night.

Everyone was captivated as the sky comes alive with splendor.

People were entranced with joy,

becoming a picture of happiness.

Oh! Magic tricks on stage,

The cheers and excitement (voltage) rise.

In the city, the buzz of the crowd never fades,

masking the loneliness left behind by the noise.

Tears flowing down in solitude, buried in luxury,

a wounded soul staggering through the garden,

gently caressing it with trembling hands, the painter abandons his brush,

as the cheers fade into the distance.

As glittering lights adorned with flowers sway,

knives are thrown in a full house.

Embracing both light and shadow,

the night in the town deepened.

A final wish is painted onto the canvas,

and there someone stood before it.

Wonderful to meet you,

a smiling silhouette.

If this kind of painting is alright,

dear stranger,

I'll entrust it to you, who found me.

The mischievous clown bids farewell, and the curtain falls on the splendid show.

The flying ship - the Illusionist - heads to the next town,

Bringing the radiant dream along.

In the town, one painting that comforted solitude was stolen and caught the eye of many.

That painting, with soothing loneliness,

had the power to even alter fate.

Now, what transpired during the showtime?

The depicted scenery...

Everything in this world is a MEDiUM.

Oh! Magic tricks on stage,

Who does the applause belong to?

[imasallstars]

INTERDIMENSION FESTIVAL: IDOLM@STER★♥LOVE LIVE! UTA GASSEN

Information regarding the first IJIGEN FES 2023 live has been revealed! The live will occur in the TOKYO DOME on the 9th and 10th of December 2023. This first fes will feature three branches of IDOLM@STER performing with four branches of Love Live!

The voice providers participating in this stop are as follows:

DAY 1 ONLY

IDOLM@STER CINDERELLA GIRLS 　Kotomi Aihara (Shiki Ichinose), Hiromi Igarashi (Anzu Futaba), Asami Takano (Frederica Miyamoto), Yuki Nakashima (Yuuki Otokura), Yuko Iida (Kanade Hayami), Honoka Inoue (Nanami Asari), Sumire Uesaka (Anastasia), Aya Suzaki (Minami Nitta), Miyu Tomita (Akira Sunazuka), Ru Thing (Syuko Shiomi), Teru Ikuta (Natalia), Hina Tachibana (Nagi Hisakawa), Nanami Yamashita (Yui Ohtsuki) IDOLM@STER MILLION LIVE 　Haruka Yamazaki (Mirai Kasuga), Azusa Tadokoro (Shizuka Mogami), Machico (Tsubasa Ibuki), Momo Asakura (Serika Hakozaki), Kotori Koiwai (Tomoka Tenkubashi), Atsuki Nakamura (Roco Handa), Emi Hirayama (Reika Kitakami), Yui Watanabe (Nao Yokoyama) IDOLM@STER SHINY COLORS 　Karin Isobe (Kogane Tsukioka), Chisa Suginuma (Mamimi Tanaka), Anna Yamaki (Sakuya Shirase), Shio Watanabe (Yuika Mitsumine), Yuina Mizuki (Kiriko Yukoku), Honoka Kuroki (Amana Osaki), Ryoko Maekawa (Tenka Osaki), Noriko Shibasaki (Chiyuki Kuwayama), Yuu Wakui (Toru Asakura), Rio Tsuchiya (Madoka Higuchi), Saran Tajima (Koito Fukumaru), Miho Okasaki (Hinana Ichikawa), Azusa Shizuki (Nichika Nanakusa), Aya Yamane (Mikoto Aketa)

DAY 2 ONLY

IDOLM@STER CINDERELLA GIRLS 　Ayaka Ohashi (Uzuki Shimamura), Ayaka Fukuhara (Rin Shibuya), Sayuri Hara (Mio Honda), Amina Sato (Arisu Tachibana), Tomoyo Kurosawa (Miria Akagi), Hana Tamegai (Risa Matoba), Makoto Koichi (Haru Yuuki), Asaka Imai (Chie Sasaki), Natsumi Haruse (Kaoru Ryuzaki), Misaki Kuno (Nina Ichihara), Yuri Komori (Koharu Koga), Mina Nakazawa (Yukimi Sajo), Maki Hanatani (Kozue Yusa) IDOLM@STER MILLION LIVE 　Aimi (Julia), Miku Itou (Yuriko Nanao), Ibuki Kido (Kana Yabuki), Arisa Kori (Kaori Sakuramori), Yuri Komagata (Sayoko Takayama), Rie Suegara (Fuka Toyokawa), Saki Minami (Tsumugi Shiraishi), Rikako Yamaguchi (Rio Momose) IDOLM@STER SHINY COLORS 　Hitomi Sekine (Mano Sakuragi), Reina Kondo (Hiori Kazano), Mayu Mineda (Meguru Hachimiya), Hiyori Konno (Kaho Komiya), Haruka Shiraishi (Chiyoko Sonoda), Mariko Nagai (Juri Saijo), Wakana Maruoka (Rinze Morino), Akiho Suzumoto (Natsuha Arisugawa), Yuki Tanaka (Asahi Serizawa), Eri Yukimura (Fuyuko Mayuzumi), Sayaka Kitahara (Mei Izumi), Rina Kawaguchi (Luca Ikaruga), Haruna Mikawa (Hana Suzuki), Rena Ozawa (Haruki Iketa)

DAY 1&2

AQOURS (LOVE LIVE! SUNSHINE!!) 　Anju Inami (Chika Takami), Rikako Aida (Riko Sakurauchi), Nanaka Suwa (Kana Matsuura), Arisa Komiya (Dia Kurosawa), Shukai Saito (You Watanabe), Aika Kobayashi (Yoshiko Tsushima), Kanako Takatsuki (Hanamaru Kunikida), Aina Suzuki (Mari Ohara), Ai Furihata (Ruby Kurosawa) NIJIGASAKU SCHOOL IDOL CLUB 　Aguri Ohnishi (Ayumu Uehara), Mayu Sagara (Kasumi Nakasu), Kaori Maede (Shizuku Osaka), Miyu Kubota (Karin Asaka), Natsumi Murakami (Ai Miyashia), Akari Kito (Kanata Konoe), Coco Hayashi (Setsuna Imura), Maria Sashide (Emma Verde), Chiemi Tanaka (Rina Tennoji), Moeka Koizumi (Shioriko Mifune), Shu Uchida (Mia Taylor), Akina Homoto (Zhong Lanzhu). 　Support Member: Hinaki Yano (Yu Takasaki) Liella! (LOVE LIVE! SUPERSTAR!!) 　Sayuri Date (Kanon Shibuya), Liyuu (Keke Tang), Nako Misaki (Chisato Arashi), Naomi Payton (Sumire Heanna), Nagisa Aoyama (Ren Hazuki), Nozomi Suzuhara (Kinako Sakurakoji), Akana Yabushima (Mei Yoneme), Wakana Okuma (Shiki Wakana), Aya Emori (Natsumi Onitsuka), Yuina (Wien Margarete), Sakura Sakakura (Tomari Onitsuka) HASUNOSORA SCHOOL IDOL CLUB 　Nirei Nozomi (Kaho Hinoshita), Kokona Nonaka (Sayaka Murano), Nina Hanamiya (Kozue Otomune), Kotoka Sasaki (Tsuzuri Yugiri), Kanna Kan (Rurino Osawa), Kona Tsukine (Megumi Fujishima)

[extenler]

Berartiiiiii el-hana sama dwi-elle lebih duluan el-hana yahhhh jadiannya? Waww tidak ternotice

iyaaaaah 🥰 tp mereka diam diam aja sih karena kan emang nothing changed dari hubungannya mah mereka masih berantem berantem gak jelas masih spt biasa jadi org org ngeliatnya oh yaudah gak aneh 😭 kl tb tb lucu lucu jg ky yaudah biasanya begitu 😭

[mynameiskan]

[Ikesen x OC series]

Hana takes the gang to the beach. She wants the Sengoku warlords to enjoy a little bit of summer in modern day Japan.

I think I'm gonna draw a lot about the lords having fun in modern Japan.

╰(*´︶`*)╯Masamune, Ieyasu and Mitsunari is my favourite trio in Ikesen.

Btw, according to the plot of my Ikesen x OC fic, the lords who go to modern Japan along with Mai are Shingen (Mai and Shingen are a couple already), Sasuke, Masamune, Ieyasu and Mitsunari. I'm not good art writing and creating plots so I need to limit the number of the characters. 😭😭😭 You can see more my Ikesen x OC art with the hashtag #kan oc or #kan fic

However, I will sometimes draw the other lords in modern Japan. If you have any ideas or requests, feel free to DM me.

[barid-bel-medar]

world turned upside down:

Who are The Yomi and League of Heroes?

The Yomi is a group of yurei and onryo lead by the one and only Dabi. Included in it is yurei by the name of Oboro, who seems to have a connection to the Bragelonne member Kurogiri.

The League of Heroes is a major hero team lead by Izanagi, aka Shimura Tenko.

League of Heroes members:

Izanagi: Shimura Tenko (leader)

Endurance: Todoroki Fuyumi (second-in-command)

Persephone: Kan Himiko (born Toga Himiko)

Watatsumi: Iguchi Shuichi

Polaris: Hikiishi Kenji (Magne)

Duplex: Bubaigawara Jin

A part time member is Amaterasu, aka Shimura Hana, Tenko's older sister. She's more commonly associated with a team made of her, Mt. Lady and Edgeshot.

(Honestly I remain surprised by how no one has asked me really on the more magic implied aspects of this world...)

[rolesplay]

in another life | an l&ds MC + Xia Yizhou playlist

❝　I don’t care what you are or aren’t— you were my first real friend。❞

Paper Plane - Kan Gao | Ash and Dust - Taylor Ambrosio Wood | Drifting Ashes - Belzipher, Delphia | The End of All Things - Reeder | You Are My Sunshine - Sadie Trigg | g u i l t y - Halina Heron | I Carry Your Heart - Jessica Curry | Homemade Coat - Berlinist | Somewhere Only We Know - Rozen, Pamy Lozano | 花降らし (Hana Furashi / Flowers, Made to Fall) - Wind Echoes

[strzqn]

Jatuh Cinta Seperti di...

Dulu aku nonton film "Jatuh Cinta Seperti di Film-Film" sendiri yaa kan wkwk.

Tanpa tau spoiler apa pun bahkan trailer.

Kepo aja dr judulnya, pas itu jg lg pgn nonton krn udh berbulan² jg gak nonton. Ratenya jg bagus.

Baru² ini random merenung, baru ngeh makna tersembunyinya coba🤣

!Spoiler Alert!

Jd ini tu kan film romance yaa yg kisahnya ttg jatuh cinta di usia dewasa. Tp tau gak kalo mostly di film ini isinya bagus sm hana "ngobrol".

Gak ada hal spesial/seromantis itu yg terjadi.

Satu²nya hal romantis yg bagus lakuin ke hana adalah waktu dia nurunin egonya dan coba ngertiin dr sudut pandangnya hana, lalu dia datengin rumahnya buat minta maaf & ngajak "ngobrol".

Yap, lagi² "ngobrol".

Aku baru ngeh maksud film ini knp filmnya tu kesannya ngebosenin krn mostly isinya yaa 2 orang itu ngobrol.

Ngobrol di pasar bunga waktu bagus pgn tau kesukaan hana, ngobrol di kafe waktu hana pgn tau kehidupan kerjanya bagus, ngobrol di rumah, ngobrol waktu ada konflik, ngobrol di warung pinggir jalan, dll.

Dr film ini kita bakal ngerti kalo bentuk cinta itu gak mesti kyk di film² dgn adegan² romantisnya.

Gak hrs dgn bawain bunga, hujan²an, ngasih kejutan, dll nya itu🤣

Ternyata.. jd temen keseharian, nemenin pergi kemana, ngobrolin apa pun, jd tenang dewasa & nurunin ego, coba ngerti satu sm lain, ngajak ngobrol kalo ada masalah & berusaha memperbaiki brg, itu jg bentuk cinta lho.

Dan itu jg romantis.

Cinta yg kisahnya tercipta pelan², sederhana, apa adanya gak hrs begini begitu, tp saling memutuskan untuk menerima & menetap lama.

Drpd jatuh cinta spt di film², mending jatuh cinta spt di kisah² nabi😅

Yg saling mencintai Allah, lalu Allah tumbuhkan cinta keduanya untuk saling mencintai krn Allah dan mjd teman memperjuangkan kebaikan.

Yg muaranya sama² menuju Allah.

Sederhana, bukan ttg 2 org. Melainkan ttg 3.

Aku, km, dan Allah.

[konjaku]

二輪草[Nirinsō] Anemone flaccida

二[Ni] : Two

輪[Rin] : Ring; wheel; quantifier that counts flowers and wheels; size of flower

草[Sō] : Grass, herb

It is so named because two scapes grow from one stem, and each flower blooms at the tips of the scapes.

Way of counting (those in common use are italicized)

花[Hana](Flower) -輪[-rin] : 一輪[Ichirin], 二輪, 三輪[Sanrin]

花弁[Kaben|Hanabira](Petal) -枚[-mai] : 一枚[Ichimai] 二枚[Nimai] 三枚[Sanmai] -片[-hen|-hira] : 一片[Ippen|Hitohira], 二片[Nihen|Futahira], 三片[Sanpen|Mihira]

葉[Ha](Leaf) -枚[-mai] ; -葉[-yō|-ha] : 一葉[Ichiyō|Hitoha] 二葉[Niyō|Futaha] 三葉[San'yō|Miha]

枝[Eda](Branch) -本[-hon] : 一本[Ippon] 二本[Nihon] 三本[Sanbon] -枝[-eda] : 一枝[Hitoeda] 二枝[Futaeda] 三枝[Mieda]

木[Ki](Tree), 茎[Kuki](Stem) -本[-hon]

And,

本[Hon](Book) -冊[-satsu] : 一冊[Issatsu] 二冊[Nisatsu] 三冊[Sansatsu] -巻[-kan] : 一巻[Ikkan] 二巻[Nikan] 三巻[Sankan] etc.

[faizaalbi]

Aku ingin dirimu bahagia #3

Tumpukan laporan mahasiswa yang terjilid rapih menumpuk di atas mejaku. Aku berniat untuk membacanya dan memberi nilai laporannya. Saat aku membuka laporan pertama dan siap membaca, nada dering teleponku berbunyi. Yang menelpon adalah Bu Tina, wali kelas Airi. Aku mengangkatnya.

"Assalamualaikum Bu. Maaf mengganggu waktunya. Saya Tina wali kelas Airi. Saya boleh minta waktunya sebentar, Bu?"

"Waalaikumussalam, Bu. Silahkan, Bu. Ada apa ya?"

"Begini, Bu. Saya mau mengonfirmasi mengenai kehadiran orang tua pada festival olahraga tahun ini, tanggal 5 minggu depan. Karena sepertinya Airi belum cerita-cerita ke ibu. Kali ini kami membuat acara ini dengan berharap orang tua bisa ikut berpatisipasi. Ada perlombaan untuk orang tua juga. Untuk ayahnya, ada lomba estafet bersama anaknya. Untuk ibunya, ada lomba lompat tali bersama anaknya. Sorenya ada pertandingan sepak bola para ayah antar kelas. Kalau berhalangan hadir bisa juga digantikan dengan paman atau saudaranya, bu."

"Tanggal 5 hari Sabtu ya."

"Iya, bu."

"Kapan terakhir konfirmasinya ya?"

"Apa boleh malam ini ya, bu?"

"Malam ini ya. Baik, bu. Secepat mungkin saya kabarif ya, bu."

"Baik, uu. Terima kasih ya, bu."

"Terima kasih kembali, Bu."

Aku terdiam, memikirkan kenapa Airi tidak cerita?  Teringat kata Fatih kemarin, peran ayah bisa digantikan. Tapi kalau lomba estafetnya khusus ayah, tidak mungkin bisa kuikuti. Siapa ya? Kepada siapa aku minta tolong? Aku tidak ingin Airi sendiri tidak bisa mengikuti lombanya. Dan aku takut Airi merasa sendirian.

Fatih? Gapapa aku meminta tolong kepadanya?

Aku langsung keluar dari ruangan, menuju ruangan Nami.

Setelah mengetuk pintunya, aku memasuki ruangannya dan langsung bercerita tentang festival olahraga Airi.

"Nam, jadi kan di sekolah Airi ada acara. Tapi orang tuanya kalo bisa ikut. Ada lomba buat ayah, ada lomba buat ibu. Siapa ya yang bisa aku minta tolong?"

"Tanggal berapa?"

"Tanggal 5, hari sabtu."

"Minta tolong Fatih aja. Sini aku yang nelpon." Nami dengan gesitnya membuka handphonenya. Nada dering berbunyi.

Tuut.... tuut....

"Assalamualaikum. Halo? Iya Mi?"

"Waalaikumussalam, Tih. Lu tanggal 5, hari Sabtu nganggur ga?"

"...Kayaknya nganggur. Kenapa, Mi?"

"Diajak main estafet bareng Airi, anaknya Hana."

"Boleh. Mau banget."

"Jam berapanya nanti dikabarin lagi sama Hana ya. Makasih, Tih."

Nami menutup teleponnya. Percakapan yang singkat, padat, dan jelas.

"H-1 kamu ingetin lagi aja, Han. Kasih tau juga jam berapa dan lokasinya ya." Gesitnya Nami emang ga ada yang bisa ngalahin ya.

*****

Tok tok

Aku mengetuk pintu kamar Airi.

"Bunda boleh tidur bareng Airi lagi?" Sambil menolehkan kepalaku ke dalam kamarnya. Tanganku memeluk bantal.

"Boleh, bunda." Airi yang sudah siap untuk tidur, bangun untuk duduk dan membuka selimut untukku. Aku masuk ke kamarnya dan duduk di sampingnya.

Aku membelai rambutnya yang panjang dan harum.

"Airi udah ngantuk?"

Airi menggelengkan kepalanya.

"Boleh bunda nanya sesuatu ke Airi?"

Airi mengangguk. Menatap kakinya yang terselimuti.

"Airi kenapa ga pernah nanya tentang ayah lagi?"

Airi terdiam.

"Airi ga kangen sama ayah?"

Airi tetap terdiam.

"Airi... Boleh Airi lihat mata bunda?"

Ia melihat mataku. Matanya mulai berkaca-kaca.

"Apa Airi bahagia tinggal sama bunda aja?"

Air matanya menetes. Ia mengangguk.

"Apa bunda juga bahagia tinggal sama Airi aja?"

Aku langsung memeluknya. Saat itu tangisannya pecah. Air matanya mengalir deras.

"Apa bunda ga terlihat bahagia di mata Airi?" Aku tidak menyangka Airi akan menanyakan seperti itu. Apa selama ini aku terlihat sengsara hidup bersamanya?

"Airi tau, bunda udah susah payah membesarkan Airi sendirian. Bunda kerja dari pagi sampai sore, tapi tetep masakin sarapan buat Airi. Tetep buatin bekal untuk Airi. Tetep antar jemput Airi. Kapan bunda ada waktu untuk bunda sendiri?" Mendengar suaranya yang serak, dadaku terasa sesak. Kenapa Airi harus menjadi dewasa sebelum waktunya?

"Setiap ngeliat Airi makan masakan bunda dengan lahap. Setiap bunda ngeliat bekal Airi bersih, ga ada sisa makanan. Setiap bunda ngeliat Airi bangga dengan rambut Airi yang bunda kuncir. Setiap Airi peluk bunda. Itu buat bunda bahagia. Itu buat bunda kuat.

"Bunda sayang banget sama Airi. Ngeliat Airi tumbuh besar aja, bunda udah seneng banget." Aku tetap memeluknya. Kali ini aku yang ingin memberikan pelukan hangat untuknya. Aku ingin Airi yakin bundanya selalu ada untuknya.

Aku ingin mengajarkan kepada Airi, kita memang hidup di keluarga yang tidak sempurna. Tapi bukan berarti kita ga bisa bahagia dengan cara kita. Aku berharap dengan Airi melihat kegagalanku, ia bisa tumbuh dengan lebih kuat, lebih bijak, dan mengerti kebahagiaan itu hal yang harus diperjuangkan. Kebahagiaan itu tidak tergantung oleh orang lain, tapi tanggung jawab diri sendiri.

Setelah Airi mulai tenang, aku melepas pelukannya dan berkata, "Hari Sabtu minggu depan, bunda datang ya." Sambil tersenyum nyengir.

"Bunda tau?"

Aku mengangguk. "Bunda bakal dateng sama paman, temennya Bunda dan Onty Nami. Nanti bunda kenalin."

Sejak Airi kecil, kami sudah pindah ke kota ini. Tidak ada saudara dekat. Aku anak tunggal dan orang tuaku sudah meninggal. Tidak ada orang yang bisa Airi panggil sebagai paman. Hanya Nami, satu-satunya Onty bagi Airi. Mungkin mulai sekarang aku harus membangun relasi, tidak hanya untukku, tapi juga untuk Airi.

Bersambung.

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Just me and me

“But, hijrah is hard right? kerasa banget. Ada perasaan gak nyamannya. Ninggalin sesuatu yang udah jadi comfort zone, even for good sake, tetep gak mudah.- curhatku random.

Air mata udah penuh di ujung dua bola mata.

“Hei. Fi. are you okay. Kita lagi di Alfamart. Tapi gak papa kalo mau nangis. Gak usah nunda.”

Katanya berusaha menenangkanku.

“Yesss. aku juga gak mau nahan. Air mata baik buat kesehatan perasaanku. Dan buatku merasa makin baik-baik aja dengan nangis depan Mas. Udah biasa juga kan nangis random semauku.” hahaha.

Jawabku sambil ada tawa tipis yang menghangatkan suasana.

Akhirnya, setelah hampir 4 tahun tinggal menemani Bapak, sejak almarhum Ummi gak ada, aku merasa keputusan untuk pindah di tempat kecilku bertumbuh, yang gak pernah ada di rencana pernikahan kami. Tapi ternyata, kehidupan pernikahan memang sedinamis itu. Malah, nikmat banget bisa nemenin Bapak di sini. Belum lagi kadang ada mamah, dan di tengah perjalanan, aku ketemu Bibi yang sayang banget sama Bapak. Tapi, karena kuliah mulai padat, akhirnyakami sekeluarga memilih menetap sementara di tempat kampusku.

Mas uta meyakinkanku bahwa ini demi kebaikan. Yess kerjaan beliau gak akan keteteran selama ada koneksi, tapi kuliahku ini amanah dari orang-orang yang udah ngasih kepercayaan ke Fifi, bahkan jerih payah banyak orang banyak kalangan dari membayar pajak. 

“Iya pun meyakini, bahwa insyaAllah kita akan bisa melaluinya. Seperti biasa. Kita akan selalu sama-sama.”

Tangisku pun makin pecah. Entah kenapa, aku berat melepas Bapak, yang makin hari makin tua. Meski Beliau nampak ikhlas dan baik-baik aja, tapi siapa yang tahu kedalaman hati. 

“Fi akan rajin nengok enggih Pa.” Jawabku.

“Hussh.. Sebulan atau 2 bulan sekali juga cukup. Gak perlu sering-sering yah. Pastikan bahwa Mas Uta tetap nyaman aman sama kamu. Bapak baik-baik aja.” Iya pun menimpali.

Solat maghrib berjamaah sama Bapa tadi, juga berasa tumpah-tumpah air mata. Liat Punggung Bapak saat doa, banyak sekali ungkapan cinta sayang lewat lantunan doanya.

Bismillah. Semoga bisa melaluinya. Semoga aku dan sekeluarga baik-baik aja.

Semoga apa yang di perjuangankan dalam rangka mencari ridho-Nya semata. 

Terima kasih yang sedalam-dalamnya untuk Allah, dan keluarga yang begitu hangat. 

Awalnya ingin menemani Bapak untuk bisa berbakti sama Bapak di sini. Tapi, malah aku juga yang diurusin sama beliau-beliau, Bapak dan Mas Uta. 

:’)

Semoga bisa melaluinya. Semoga Allah ta’ala memberikan keberkahan di sisa umur kita dan orangtua kita. Karena bisa jadi, kemudahan yang ku dapat selama ini, adalah dari doa-doa mereka. 

all is well. all is wel..

Bismillah.

Makasih juga untuk Ziyad dan Hana, yang makin hari makin pinter belajar meregulasi emosinya. Makasih untuk saling menyempurnakan dan selalu menyediakan ruang yang besar untuk bunda belajar menjadi Ibu yang baik untuk kalian. Semoga kalian sadar, betapa besar kasih sayang Nenek, Kakek, dan kita semua. Terima kasih telah menjadi qurrota a’yun untuk kami.

Kadang dalam hati suka nanya sama Allah, apakah kami pantas, mendapatkan cinta dan kasih sayang yang sangat besar dari hati kalian yang besar, meski di balut dengan fisik yang kecil mungil. :’)

Terima kasih ya Allah, telah mengirimkan kalian untuk kami cintai dan jaga. Semoga kita bisa terus saling menjaga ya Nak. Amiiin. :’)

Mulai lembaran baru, dengan mencoba hijrah ke Jakarta. 

Semoga berkah.

Perjalanan ke Bandung kemarin, sekaligus jadi perjalanan yang sangat menyenangkan, hangat, dan menambah tabungan kenangan untuk kami sekeluarga.

InsyaAllah, terhubung dalam dimensi doa ya Pak.  :’)

Btw, untuk kakak-kakaku, kak basyt dan t nzah, Barokallahu fiikum untuk bisnisnya yah. Semoga berkah,lancar, Amiiin. Love you genks! Buat suamiku sayang, semangat ya yang lagi di ikhtiarkannya. Aku menghargai privasi karena suamik amanahi gak boleh cerita-cerita sebelum terlaksana, hihihi. Gemes. Bismillah. Semoga Allah senantiasa bimbing keluarga kita ya Amiiin.

Jakarta, we are coming. 🙂