#HEY I DO WHAT I WANT ACTUALLY /silly
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(from left to right) their names are Rice Pudding, Milkshake and Mascarpone
Rice Pudding and Milkshake carry out elaborate heists including a lot of costume changes and theft in Parfaedia because they can. And Mascarpone is a sphinx because you know smc beast of knowledge or whatever and her other dad is a black panther polymorph and I do what I want
And Rice Pudding is an aspiring rockstar/metal band player bc I wanted him to be on stage... differently. There's lots of things you can do on a stage. And metal is one of them.
torturing smc with the joys of parenthood /silly

#I HATE smc#but#I will create him a bunch of kids with a made-up-on-a-whim beast cookie oc or whatever#my mind works too much sometimes I have to get the ideas out of my system as a one-time non-canon just silly oneshot thing#sits in the corner of shame#uhm plz ignore the fact Rice Pudding... doesn't look like rice pudding I just needed lactose related names for at least one or two of them#and the beast oc's name being Risotto uhm well uhm#HEY I DO WHAT I WANT ACTUALLY /silly#cookie run kingdom#crk#crk oc#cookie run ocs#shadow milk cookie#<- only tagging him bc its supposed to be his kids or whatever#Mascarpone is supposed to be closer to Risotto. Milkshake to Shadow Milk. And Rice Pudding an even mix despite the emo transition#crk beasts#crk beast oc#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#art#oc art#ocs#crk ocs#SMTH Idk if I'll do something with them or anything or whatever I JUST NEED THEM OUT OF MY HEAD ATM#smc crk#shadow milk#crk shadow milk cookie
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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hey guys remember that thing. with the stuff. the sillys
(ignore that this is a redraw i hated the other one so much i deleted the post. ah)
#off game#scotcharts#off the batter#off batter#batter off#the batter#puella magi madoka magica#pmmm#pmmm madoka#madoka kaname#madoka magica#madoka magica fanart#off mortis ghost#off fanart#off#i think were gonna have to kill this guy steven#art#digital art#finding things to tag this because i like it alot#i like my recent art alot actually#madoka has a lazy eye its true i made the show#and manga idk what came first#i want to read it so bad#hey tumblr why the hell do you want me to tag this horrible things#im trying to be silly here
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I've been trying to figure out how to incorporate religious practice into my life & trying to get over the fear of being...annoying? If that's the right word? It feels a little like tugging on the gods' sleeves when I make more than one offering a day to them even though I know I'm not, like, being rude by *checks notes* giving them things or dedicating time/activities to them. Today I made a dessert in preparation for tomorrow's Pathfinder game and dedicated that time spent baking to Hestia and Aphrodite, and it was really nice! I feel like I'm starting to find my footing despite my worries. I'm also trying to make sure I take time where I'm not thinking about religion at all so that I don't start to ruminate/spiral. It's happened a few times already to varying degrees and it's! Not fun!
It's possible it's hindsight/confirmation bias, but I do think the vibes of my tarot deck changed when I started reaching out to the Greek deities. It makes sense: I was using my deck to reach out to a completely different deity/deities before I started exploring Hellenic polytheism. And it's definitely not in a bad way, just more energetic and...light? When before it was heavier (in a comforting way). I've gotten consistently coherent pulls, too, which is nice.
I've been trying to remember to pour a libation to Hermes at certain street corners when I'm out & about, but I have to make a game plan for when other people are also in the area, even if it's just psyching myself up so I don't look awkward while I do it. I have a pendant that I keep in front of his altar/shrine jar that I try to remember to take with me when I travel, and it's been cool having something in my pocket that's consistently reminding me of him because I check so often to make sure it's still there. There were some...issues with my commute on Monday (a true comedy of errors on the city's part) but the change in routine was a *lot* easier to handle in the morning. Of course, the unusually cool temperature helped, but I do accredit the smooth transition to Hermes because I wasn't stressed at *all* for the vast majority of my commute when I usually would have been wiped from the mental/sensory strain of having to pivot & kinda just hope I guessed right on what to do next. The commute home was a nightmare but I didn't have a whole-ass work day ahead of me after that so the stress didn't matter as much (and I was able to get through the last bus ride & walk from the stop which I wasn't sure I'd have the mental fortitude for).
I'm almost done with the statue of Hermes I've been working on, and I finished a set of alphabet oracle "stones" (squares made from air dry clay...would that technically be closer to potsherds?) tonight. I'll share a picture of them once I finish their bag- I have some leftover green cotton yarn from a recent project that I think will go well with them. We'll see how well they hold up, though I'm not planning on doing the "shake them until one falls out" method so hopefully they'll last a while. I worked on them in the living room this evening, instead of in my room. I'm getting more comfortable showing little elements of what I've been exploring to my housemates; it was nice to be able to sit & paint & listen to the iliad while my friend did his own thing next to me on the couch.
I'm still trying to figure out how to gauge each housemates' potential reactions. It'll probably be fine: friend 1 actively has an altar-esque space and uses tarot cards and a pendulum and friend 2 is friend 1's wife. I'm a bit worried about friend 3 being weird about it, at least at first, but considering he was experimenting with witchcraft-esque things a few years ago (I distinctly remember charms & him discussing which of the wheel of the year days he wanted to observe) I think I'm overthinking things. He's an atheist & his view of witchcraft was, at the very least, *similar* to the psych model, which I think is where the hesitation has been coming from on my end. I have therapy this weekend so I think I'll start bringing things up then. The office my therapist is in openly advertises all sorts of alt/witchcraft things so I think I'll be safe there lol
#i tried out a daily pull-type tarot session the other morning ('what do i need to learn today')#and the answer pretty clearly boiled down to 'hey. you're in a rut & dont know what to do w/ your life but. like. you have a solution#*right there* so take advantage of it while you have a stable job paying your rent'#(cue the drying oracle stones on my bedroom floor i'd molded the night before)#i'd realized that i actually did like working on them & that they were pretty easily repeatable#& had a moment of 'oh! i could make other sets to sell'#(i want to *make* for a living & have been trying to get the ball rolling on both commissions & an etsy shop for literal years)#but i dismissed it b/c. like. obv exploring paganism isnt tied to that but i worry that that'#*that's ✨ secretly ✨ the case or that others will think it is which is. silly#i'm interested in them & they're fun to make & the idea of selling them doesnt sketch me out#and i do think the next morning's tarot pull was Apollo and Hermes going 'dude get your head out of your ass' which i appreciate#i've also had an offering very clearly go badly! which was not fun but was a good learning experience! im not gonna go into detail about it#but im giving it a mention b/c. you know. transparency#coriander says#hellenic pagan#hellenic polytheism#helpol#pagans of tumblr#hellenic community#pagan
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I sincerely think if Dennis Reynolds and Jeff Winger were to makeout, it would benefit them both immensely, in fact, it’d be good for their health
#jeff winger#dennis reynolds#wait wait okay they run into each other because Jeff’s a student and Dennis is out looking for his usual college girl type he’s so set on#but like they both come to the realization that’s not what they want anymore/never what they wanted or what will make them happy#because they see reflections of themselves in each other#and after having a wild whirlwind affair or one night stand they part ways each changed by the experience#and Dennis comes home and tells Mac how he feels#and Jeff tentatively accepts the dean’s invite to a dinner or something#text#anmmbposts#and also the next time the gang needs a lawyer Dennis is like I know a guy so they don’t have to use uncle jack anymore#and Jeff takes The Lawyer completely off guard and absolutely destroys him#and Charlie gets to excitedly talk with him about bird law to which Jeff either tells him hey greendale actually has a class on that#or hey you could teach a class on that at greendale#ignore me writing my silly crossover fanfic in the tags I’m at work and the thoughts are suddenly vibing#and they become like amicable sorta exes and if they ever meet each other’s friends do you think Mac and Shirley would bond over religion?#do you think Britta and Dee would get along?#I think Charlie might have fun playing games or building forts with troy and abed they could play night crawlers together#help me my mind keeps going
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Boo!
I'm the paranormal activity on your dash :]
#Udi posting in 2023? truly a christmas miracle#Now it'd be pretty funny if everyone seeing this collectively thought 'who the hell is this person?' I mean. UNDERSTANDABLE-#I've been gone for so long I don't even recognise this dash layout help??#Excuse me while I have a grandma moment trying to figure out where things are#Anyway I don't have much to post since I've barely drawn in all these months. So many art blocks stacked on top of more art blocks#(among other things)#BUT I still have some drawings here and there. Not the best I've ever produced but hey it's something#and you know what happens when Udi has an art block? Exactly. Cateeva content (and silly drawings) (。•̀ᴗ-)✧#Now it's time for me to fill my room with sticky notes reminding me to take things easy#you'll have to bear with my slowness for a little bit longer. Life hit me hard recently and everything feels so heavy to me#but I just didn't want to let this year pass without saying anything...#I actually missed being on here. If I see art or an oc from any of my moots I'll probably cry on the spot#Moot reading this you've been warned (🫶)#I'll shut up now. I really hope everyone's doing as good as they can. This is such an awful world#Udi talks
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I never got too deep into enstars but there are days where I miss Mama 😔



#no one should ever be surprised that I main Boothill >:( /silly#yeehaw partner /jjjjjjjjj#i also like eichi for the aesthetic. he's like if you mix dain's face and ayato's mindset. actual warcriminal emperor-#and i think in terms of singing kaito slays 🔥🔥🔥🔥 I'm sorry.#actually in terms of songs in general imho it's valkyrie and akatsuki HAHAHAH#then idk i think i vibe with most undead songs though i wish there were like valentine eve's nightmare-#PERFECTLY-IMPERFECT 🔥🔥🔥🔥#fORBIDDEN RAIN- okay ill#stfu abt undead songs HAHAH#me typing these tags just slowly but surely reminds me I actually very much enjoy adonis' voice#in terms of trauma I think I got it most from Eden songs HAHAHAHHA the fricking apocalypse dance shit i forgot name but THAT#i love how i went “oh i like undead too but not as much i guess” and then proceeded to talk about undead songs more than akatsuki#and valkyrie HAHAHAHHA I'm a fricking liar#HEY HEY i mostly like valkyrie cuz shu's voice is mesmerizing- and every song in akatsuki slays because of their vocals even if I'm not th#e biggest fan of their genre leave me alone my biggest taste in men depends on their voice 😭😭😭😭😭#though in terms of friendship MaM/DoubleFace CrazyB and alkaloid for sure we'd be friends absolutely-#i played the music!! one not the original and nothing got me as hyped in the story as the fricking crazy roulette HAHAHAHA#GOT ME FEELIN LIKE I WAS IN THE CONCERT#never be a loooooSAAAAAUURRRRR *breakdances*#kiss of life is also mwah they're all my children. i know nothing on properly playing this game but i know i tried to main the christian guy#produce? forgot name but HIM I also love his voice and I have one of his priest card so he fricking dances with the priest uniform HAHAHAH#random confession: i don't have a 5 star mama card. orz.#anyways back to regular chaos in the tags omg aira i remember him what a mood and also the phantom oh frick forgot his name but i have his#sanrio card HAHAHHA 😭😭 i haven't leveled it up. i don't play this religiously-#the grind feels so overwhelming and i understand nothing I'm still on the work task 2 thing HAHHAA 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#most importantly i want to mention my redhead son i forgot his name but i love him very much my pretty son and his chaotic older bro i#support them both amen#as for fine. i don't really like most their songs that much...? okay this time I'm not lying like with Undead HAHAHAH I do vibe with#tempest nights for SURE absolute bop my dear blue haired clown is my fave fine member (as you can tell i love my loud girlies HAHAHHA)#most knight songs are bops and I like all the members- specially mister ensemble stRaws musiC (my other red haired son)
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#periodical life updates#eurgh. hiiii im so tired just got home from the family gathering thing im. exhausted hkjfh. and i still gotta draw the eca#still gonna be quiet for a while sorry gang <3 anyway lets not talk about any of that hdkjf ARTFIGHT THEME REVEAL!!#you'll never guess which team jace ''kellystar321'' starlight is choosing for seafoam vs stardust hfjkh#*gestures at my oc list* but also. what if i dont CARE anymore hfjkhf obviously i want to draw for people! its my favorite part! but like.#GODDD i dont care about my ocs anymore!! :') ive always been more of a fandom guy i dont... /want/ art of my ocs?#like yeah obviously agent my beloved! alexandria my beloved! eca has a whole daily blog! but my actual interest in them is sooo low.#there's so many people on artfight who LOVE their ocs like their children. their ocs are their blorbos!! but my ocs are like nothing to me?#i like fandom characters :'0 i would not be as excited to see art of my characters as someone else would be who actually likes their ocs!!#people should focus more on drawing art for people who CARE about their ocs. because if /I/ don't care about my oc and /YOU/ don't care#about my ocs then WHOS FLYING THE PLANE HJFSD no but theres ZERO ENJOYMENT coming out of it you get me? it doesnt make sense to draw for me#BUT ALSO. for silly ''i dont like seeing them all greyed out/hidden :('' reasons i dont want to archive them and hide them from everyone#/BUT ALSO./ i DON'T WANT ART OF THEM. ATTACK SOMEONE ELSE PLEASE. SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT THEIR CHARACTERS hfjkfh urgh.#like hey sorry i dont? care enough about the guys i made up? can you draw reader or kim k!tsuragi instead? thank you. hdjhfg;;;#also ive been. so tired :'> how much will i even be able to do this year? every year i gain more targets to attack because i keep meeting-#new friends all the time. i have some people from lgbt club im attacking this year! my stickmin friends. avm friends. my hell gang hkhg#my hlvrai friends and my longtime mutuals and MY BUREAU OF BALANCE GANG... not to mention revenges from last year :'>#its a lot. and im so tired;;; so. im not sure. i'd still like to join for my 8th year of artfight but damb. i dunno. :'> <3#okay thats all GOTTA DRAW AN ECA GOODBYE I LOVE YOU!!
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when i say get me OUT OF HERE. yeah ok so i redownloaded the devils app (tinder) and after swiping through all the like spam and couples and random men that popped up and stuff i got to someone and i was like Oh theyre hot they seem cool geeked abt seeing if we match. HALT! is that my friend sams roommate. fuck. right. and is that another gay girl that maybe tried to slide in my dms once but i was so far up film girl's ass at the time i didnt think about it. in their one photo. right. and what's their name? we dont need to talk about it. im sick
#i might just see if we match...#no. is that weird? what are the lines of weird. oh who cares#my fucking dating pool feels like the worlds tiniest puddle. so. i dunno.#abby talks#its actually silly though. hey ive been in your house. lmfao <3#i might also be giving myself too much credit re the other girl. i am not good at reading things i dont know#well and as u can see im not normal about things#me journaling yesterday basically im a creep im a weirdo i dont fit in i dont want to fit in what the hell am i doing here i dont belong he
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one time i tried that "mentally ask yourself if anyone else is in there" thing & i didn't get a Direct response but the song stuck in my head (which i Do Not control) would change and the new repeating lyric would function as a response to whatever question i asked. so that was kind of fucked up & i don't know if i'm supposed to do anything about it. it just kinda sounds ridiculous to say "there are entities in my head attempting to communicate with me via song lyrics"... i realize now i don't actually have a specific question i just wanted to tell someone about this sorry
THAT'S. HOW IT GOES SOMETIMES... yeah i have no idea what's up with that either brains are weird
#answered#+ while i get why it sounds ridiculous that IS like . entirely possible thats whats going on#to be clear im not saying this to say it is or isnt plurality specifically (thats up to you to figure out and decide)#im more trying to make the point that it sounding ridiculous doesnt make it less possible if that makes sense#plurality as a whole is weird and weird stuff like that happens all the time#+ tbh there isn't really anything you're inherently *supposed* to do? what to do is a case by case sorta deal if that makes sense#but if you want my advice i'd recommend seriously trying to talk even if it feels silly and going from there#wont neccessarily for sure get any useful information but hey. maybe you will.#it *is* also fine if u don't end up figuring out whats going on. sometimes u just simply *are*#shit can be hard to figure out especially with how much grey area there is. so you don't really *have* to figure it out#in hindsight i do think my og post lacked nuance in this regard which i do apologize for ^^;;#anyway i dunno whatevers going on and whatever happens i hope youre doing well and having a nice day. thumbs up#yknow i couldve put this shit in the actual post... tags are a game and i'm either winning or losing depending on your definition#voidposting
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the paperwork's essential!
[flintlock fortress is a collaboration with @dxppercxdxver]
#em draws stuff#flintlock fortress#team fortress 2#miss pauling#this was an interesting one to draw because I know for a fact that when I was thirteen this is Exactly how and what I wanted to be drawing#and let me tell you that I was Not getting there at that time. but hey look what I can do now!#we are getting there eventually!#bit more commentary while we're here. hair powder is quite cool actually and I will sacrifice recognizability for that coolness.#it may not seem like it but a lot of thought does go into this. silly as both the project and I appear to be.
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been almost 3 yrs and i am still struggling with the whole mikachi first meeting thing. bye
#for zl its something simple. i just saw cute fanart of it with another ship [ p sure it was someones 2 ocs ] and enjoyed the idea#i lost my black umbrella irl but tbf it doesnt really matter because i always fucking forget to bring it anyways. so sometimes i get caught#in the rain. so idk zl lends me his umbrella bc. fuck! heading in the same direction and is like hey loser . . let me help you . .#cue immediate heart eyes bc handsome stranger helped her. like Wow Yuo Are So Cool... ♡#afterwards she mentions this interaction to her friend [ yun jin or hu tao .. unsure but they are both so silly so its hard 2 decide ] and#then they are like wait i know that grandpa you're talking about! let me set you up lalala theres this whole thing i'm lazy#i'll write about it Maybe bc i do want to write for my platonic f/os. and also cover all the [ firsts ] in my self ships#its just: i don't like feeling obligated to stick to things (like a series or theme or whatever) so maybe not. would be nice though..#nobody in this world is allowed to laugh at me i'll die#as for childe my plan was he breaks into her house and then shes like wtf who r u?!! they make eye contact and kiss + get married asap#no actually i truly dont know. zl's is slightly easier because he lives a mortal life. just chills#has connections with a lot of the liyue chars. literally just enjoying his retirement era now#ajax doesn't have many connections ( other harbingers but they dgaf about each other i think x ) and i just cant imagine that. idk#just fucking. bumping into him would lead to anything. maybe i should turn into a fish and have him fish me up and then i transform into a#girl and then we fall in love what do you guys think (losing my grip on humanity)#💭#mika ♡ ajax#mika ♡ zhongli
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what the fuck i didn’t expect to cry just now. it’s so amazing how you can connect to people you’ll never meet.
#yo it's d :)#💙♾️#rant incoming ->#okay so if i’m being honest being a black fan in mana/mdm/mm spaces is actually kinda isolating sometimes if i’m being honest bc a lot of#western fans are white people. that’s just the truth. and like i’ve been sorta subtly ���bullied’ (lightheartedly) for years over my interests#misaligning with what is typically ascribed to black people. i know it’s silly to let it get to me but after a while that shit wears you out#that being said. i was watching the mdm 2007 paris show bc i wanted to see a specific song real quick. the video pans over the crowd and obv#it’s white people as far as the eye can see. shocker. however. then it gets a bit closer to the stage. not too close. but sorta. right there#is a black fan. they stand out a bit. besides their skin being brown their hair is also in cornrows! a protective style!! at an mdm show!!!#seeing them in the crowd caused me to be overcome w/ emotion. i felt so instantly connected to this person across time and space from a two#second clip of them. and of course i shouldn’t cry about it but knowing that hey. i’m not alone out here and that we’ve probably had similar#experiences is so……? it was so easy to suddenly put myself in their position. a person that looks like me in a room full of people who don’t#god.#i hope they’re doing well nowadays and that they still rock out to mdm. i hope the feel incredibly valid in their blackness.#HOLY SHIT WE BELONG IN THE SCENE !!!!! WE BELONG !!!!!#I BELONG !!!!!!!!!!!#dev rants
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wondering if there's something wrong with my phone like why aren't people replying to my texts are they even getting them knowing full well it's probably just because they don't want to answer
#but also like. hey you asked for volunteers maybe consider deigning to write back when someone accepts ?#anyway this reminded me of something i used to do as a child#i'd see my peers like my classmates and kids my age at summer camp or whatnot getting texts all the time#and i couldnt figure out why i wasnt getting any#so i had a theory that there was a network issue and that it was clogged up somehow#and to unclog it i'd send myself a text and hopefully a barrage of texts would come through#it sounds pathetic but to be fair the network clogging up was an actual thing that happened at least once so i thought that's what happened#but of course i would only get my own text#it was very silly of me i know#oh and this reminds me of another anecdote#one time at home we were talking about how my brother or my sister (i dont recall who exactly) kept getting texts all the time and#and how it irritated my parents and i mentioned how i only got texts from the network provider (which were ads)#and my father was like oh what do you want Me to text you? all mockingly#like i dont know maybe i would have liked that#maybe then we wouldnt be so estranged now#im sorry about ranting like this#i know nobody likes listening about loneliness#but these days it's really getting to me
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a ba/rbie or ken: omg whats ur job is it business? haha u seem really good at business!! you have a suit and everything!! :DD clark vc: im about to change career paths very suddenly and ur not going to like what it is and i dont think u have the justice system here equipped to handle it.
#hey google what circle of hell do i go to if i introduce murder to a perfect and pastel doll world where nothing goes wrong#is that even a feasible thing actually now that i think about it#asking for a friend tbh#(au v: life in plastic shitpost)#having au verses you know you just get to shout into the void about and not actually rp out is so therapeutic tbh#i can just do whatever i want i can be as silly as i want#he's kidding btw he would just threaten ok i swear
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So I kind of asked my boss out and after some excuses she said "let me think about it" which here is code for "no". Kind of bummed, kind of still have a bit of hope, kind of just hoping it becomes clear she is 0 interested and I can at some point move on
#I know it was a risky move but I could not take it any longer#this is actually the 3rd time that I ask her if she wants to go grab something with me#but this was the first time where it was very intentional and not as casual as hey wanna grab something after work#Yesterday was my bday and we were in the office together#At the end of the day I asked her if she had time and first she went silent then she said she was busy#but then she said something like maybe if you had said something sooner#then I said it was my bday and she was like oh if I had known sooner! congratulations!! etc#Since we will be at the office together on Monday I did what I almost never do. I called her on the phone#I called her to check about some other work related stuff and at the end I asked her if she would want to go eat with me on Monday#She mentioned that she does not eat out because of health issues but we have done so at least 5 times in the past for company related stuff#then she said that she was also very busy right now with work stuff which is true#I know that things would probably not work out anyway but for some reason she makes me feel very strong emotions#whatever happens I hope that she finds happiness and that we can continue having a positive work relationship#I also cannot help but feel undesirable. I hope she does not freak out like so many people have done in the past when I like them#I hope this was not too much for her#a part of me thinks that she will forget about it by tomorrow though#she really is kind of a workaholic and she really is quite busy. So no time to think about the silly coworker and his feelings I think
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