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akapanuka · 11 months ago

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Would be really nice if I could talk to a specialist about Hugo atm... I'm at a loss for what to do and I'm worried I'm going to have to opt for a CT scan or go back to his old medication. It's just continuously expensive and confusing. I know I shouldn't be looking for a fix-all but I at least want some kind of equilibrium. It's exhausting when medication doesn't work...I'm just going to have to wait since I don't think other clinics are fully comfortable treating him without knowing his history.

#cat health #felinehealth #rambles #HES FEELING MOSTLY OK!!! WHICH IS GOOD #but oh my god everything is covered in blood.

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krysmcscience · 5 months ago

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BILLDUMP TIME (with transparency, because I can). Don't mind me, I'm just yeeting my goofy art at some way more talented individuals out of nowhere and then hauling ass back to the security of being a weird silent lurker ahaha

@tesscourtes and @beccadrawsstuff, respectively! These two Bills make a little prism of sorts together because of their recent crossovers on Patreon~ :3c Speaking of which, I highly recommend supporting both these artists! They do fantastic work! (TessCourtes and Beccup)

@qoolk on the left, and @monobmp on the right! I am such a sucker for these outfits~ OuO Go and check these two out, their art is phenomenal!!! >u<

@1spooky2me The most difficult Bill of the lot for me to draw, ahaha... Their art is so incredibly consistent and dynamic, I am, a little envious <:,) A little envious, but mostly impressed, so go look at their amazing art, what are you waiting for

And finally, @ckret2, whose writing is sublimely in-character and just a delight to read - they're a great artist, as well! I simply Could Not resist drawing their Bill in this ridiculous incredible and very fashionable pink feather dress, even though he only briefly wears it in their fic, so I also did a little bonus doodle of him in his standard hoodie to make up for it. XD (Also, as far as I'm concerned, Bill and Mabel were both correct in that lime green accessories make the dress Much Better.)

This is just a small selection of the human Bill designs I enjoy. I may draw and post more later on, who knows! Feel free to reblog with some neat Bill designs, either your own or by other folks - if any of the designs particularly call to me, I'll add them to the little list I've got going~ :D (Alternatively, if you really like my stuff and want me to draw something specific, you could...mmm...perhaps, commission me...? OuO)

Also I'm tagging Billford because uhhhh yeah, sorry not sorry, every single one of these Bills is getting shipped with Ford by the artists in some way or another, lmao

#fanart #gravity falls #bill cipher #human bill cipher #human bill design #billford #bill is just so Gender #regardless of whether or not he's a triangle. just. such Gender. wow #honestly tempted to draw the OG twink!bill and the mangopablo save-the-town!bill just for funzies #i may also attempt to draw alex hirsch's “canon” human!bill but uhhhh who knows LOL #i kinda feel like he made the design extra ugly just to poke fun at the fandom #so the “canon” aspect of it is kinda up in the air for me personally LMAO #not sure if i drew goldilocks!bill thicc enough tbh #just. look. it's hard to draw a person who is as close to triangular as a human can possibly get. ok??? ok #I TRIED AND THAT'S WHAT'S IMPORTANT OnO #in other news why did these turn out so much better than the drawings of my own design??? wtf that's so rude #get it together ME this is fukken embarrassing #btw if i draw something for you and you respond to thank me only to have me say nothing back it's because i am very awkward and anxious lol #there is also the adhd which makes me forget that i failed to respond like a normal person would have ahahahaha o-o #but mostly it's the horrors of being perceived for more than the two seconds it takes to yeet an art at a person O-O #why am i like this? good question! maybe i'll have an answer someday when i can actually afford therapy XD #I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP FIVE HOURS AGO

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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago

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just read the new mutants issue where Charles chose to stay behind in space and my god the juxtaposition between Charles trusting Erik and Erik joining the hellfire club and wondering at his own trust worthiness. I wonder how much of Charles decision was him ultimately trying to avoid the fact that his first class had seemingly betrayed mutant kind and not be willing to face them and how much of it was Dani and Illyana's reaction to him having Karma mind control Illyana. the fact that Illyana was depending on him to ease her mind through limbo and in choosing to stay he forced karma to do it instead, probably fucking up their relationship in the process.

I love him, this is crazy, how much of this is him trying to runaway and how much is this him not trusting himself to fix things and how much is it just him trusting Erik?

i keep trying to put into words my exact thoughts about the sitch but there really is a lot for one issue aintit... oh charles you and your brain...

#snap chats #thats why we have tag rambles AHAHA #ok so to tackle things one at a time charles ultimately deciding to stay in space despite his expressed want to return to earth #obviously it was when lilandra pointed out if her sister took charge of the shi'ar then the universe- earth included- would be in peril #charles notes his position as a losing one: whichever choice he makes he loses #he goes to earth then the universe could be at stake/he stays in space he loses his kids #of course charles COULD just put his faith in the starjammers but is that a risk he wants to take ? evidently not #charles' reoccurring flaw is he's willing to sacrifice personal relationships for the greater perceived good #even lilandra acknowledges this- that charles' homesickness for earth was an inevitability just as she is indebted to protecting the stars #so now his ruptured relationship with illyana and co- esp right after comforting a split illyana last issue #we've seen charles act more coldly/rashly when he's about to lose people (i think of his first death with the og5 mostly)#i mean it's a key part to charles' chara that he doesn't favor mind controlling others and im sure he has the same regard for his students #he's aware of the damage it can do and in this instance- for one reason or another- he orders it to be done regardless #im sure he does this as a form of defense: if his kids are upset with him they won't feel too bad about losing him and it'll be less painfu #obviously we still see sam wish charles farewell and wish for him to come back soon but yk.. worthy attempt..#and it's not as if charles wants them to hate him ENTIRELY.. he's still touched by sam's goodbye no.... fickle man he is..#i dont think charles is totally afraid to confront the og5- its what made him want to return to earth with the nms initially #tho again.. could his decision to stay in the stars be influenced by that? that maybe he ISNT prepared to confront them like he thought?#who's to say... not me i dont got that psych degree yet..#erik being charles' trusted confidant definitely made his decision easier on top of that: i mean is he needed if he has a substitute #i think charles DOES wholly trust erik: charles really doesnt approach his x-men half heartedly. from his pov ofc #if he didn't genuinely believe in erik's potential he wouldn't have picked him; hes a comforting thought when charles decides to depart #'although i'm gone erik understands me and my goals enough to continue my work as good as i would have so i have nothing to worry about'#which. yk. makes the whole White King thing kinda awkward VJAELVJEAKL charles you fool #i have no idea how this saga ends though... tbh im only on ish 45 of NM i just read 50 and 51 to get context for this ask #so i can only wait and see how this saga turns out... once i finish reading house of m/secret invasion stuff jvLKEJKA #idk im tired and rambling dont pay attention to me.. ramblin bout charles' brain is a good day for me regardless if i make sense jVLAJ

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cacw · 29 days ago

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do you know the movie manchester by the sea? im watching it right now and it reminded me of someone i know. here is a drawing i made for you 💖💞💖💕

1) i dont even have words for the things im feeling right now. youre so good to me. youre too good to me sam i will be going to staples soon to get this printed so i can tape it to my wall. ive spent so much time looking at it already... its the only thing i could think about last night. i fell asleep thinking about it. a few sparse tears may have been shed because 2) i stopped everything i was doing to watch this movie and it bummed me out so bad. all the more because i was thinking about this frostpod picture the entire time... very on point. thank you so much for thinking of my horrible little family IM RUNNING AWAY.... IM RUNNING AWAY TO STAPLES!!!!!!!!!

#podlight #frostpaw #THANK YOU... *COVERING MY FACE KICKING MY LEGS #thank you so much im so so happy its unbelievable. you made my whole night AM AND PM...#❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🩶🩶🩶🧡🧡🧡#in return let me share some podlight facts #his name is PETER HALL 43 to fionas 17 and hes definitely the type to start bar fights for no good reason #especially after cameron dies and especially after he gets hit with the guardianship news #hes kind of a deadbeat so his mother diedre is outraged by the news... he did know but he never thought it would happen #no one expected cameron to die when she did #so he stays with fiona in HER HOUSE and she is so mad about it #its less than a year until shes 18 so peter promises to get out as soon as he can as soon as she wants #he sort of leaves her alone for the most part. hes out a lot which isnt ok but she can take care of herself #his behavior towards her is still kind of mean but its not as malicious as the books i feel...#in my mind a part of him blames her for camerons death even though he knows thats not fair to anyone #but he mostly blames himself for failing at being a brother. he was never very good at it #im not sure if fiona ever tells him what shelby did. im not sure if that would even go public or if its something she takes to her grave #he works on boats i dont know if ive said that before... he repairs boats #and i stole that from gifted which is another frostpod movie #fiona will do this with him eventually because she has no future. this movie is so on point i cant even begin to tell you #i keep scrolling up to look at it again. im so happy i could throw up and cry 1000000 times. take my hand

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napoftustar · 1 month ago

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my best friend came to me said “one of our friends wanted to know/try out kpop and while others were sending blackpink, exo, bts songs i sent her txt!!! i’m the best, right???” HAHAHSGQGSHFJFJEJKDMQHF and i was like “proud of you lil soldier” hahsbdnwjqkdjxdmwkkf

#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 SO CUTE #i said “well FIRSTLY. txt IS NOT kpop” hahahfhenwhfjckfjjdhddskmd just joking. but mean it too #these things make me sohappy idk why ahdhrnwjqkxkcmdhwhhdhxf #of course i immediately asked her which song she sent and she sent 0×1 lovesong and chasing that feeling. well. good choices #AND she said her friend fell in love with beomgyu hahshfbwbbqjskxkxhdg LIKEEEEE 0×1 beomgyu? of course? is there people who’s not in love #with him?? i don’t think so but anyways ALSO HER FRIEND said that she liked txt’s songs more and it’s more of her vibe #and HEAR ME OUT. i know her ok. i don’t know her very well but we met once and my best friend tells me about her so i have an idea about he #personality. and I THINK SHE WOULD LOVE TXT. and she would fall for their music IF I WAS THERE to explain her well #because she already fell for the music‚ she just needs someone to explain the lyrics and etc to her and....... i just feel like txt’s music #would really help her. anyways so i was like SEND HER TO ME RIGHTTTT NOW I NEED TO INTRODUCE MY TUBATU PROPERLY ahhshfbensnsbdhxjjdjs #but anyways ...... my friend said if her friend is interested to know more she will direct her to me hahdbfnwnsjdjxhfh #no but i asked her music taste and my friend send me her spotify profile and i looked at the artists she listens #she mostly listens turkish —the reason my friend said because she wants to understand the music she listens? valid...#but THE ARTISTTSSS she listens to.... they’re mostly stars of the turkish rock and i also love them and the songs i would recommend to her #immediately flew around my mind ㅠㅠㅠ and honestly my first choices wouldn’t be 0×1 & ctf. it would be #growing pain‚ quarter life‚ farewell neverland‚ higher than heaven‚ forty one winks‚ miracle....... ㅠ #but apparently they were talking about music videos and she wanted to recommend something with the mv. and again‚ i said good choice hahdnf #because 0×1 lovesong music video is one of my favs. it really is like a mini movie soooooooooo. but anyways ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ i hope her friend itche #to know more... i know... i feel like she would love it...#i mean i get the “understanding what you hear” part but... it’s okay.. i can tell you about it... we can learn korean together hahshdnsnqjg #the language isn’t a big problem for me but i agree that if you know the language‚ you enjoy it even more. and you also get to appreciate #the art even more. that’s why i’m trying to learn korean and..... that’s also why.... i want to learn japanese too because #WELL AGAIN BECAUSE OF TUBATU hahdnenwkskcjcg because i’m in love with their japanese discography too and i’d love to understand it even mor #but no really there are great japanese artists which i fell in love with their songs... but japanese looks so scary idk... yup #sighs. i know she won't misunderstand me but i hope i didn't sound like a freak ahahfnensjkdjchfnsks because i can't help it #i feel obligated to tell people about txt’s music. because it changed and made me gain so many perspectives in my life... i’m grateful and #it’s just so beautiful..... i need more people to know this. and i also can’t stop yapping about the things i deeply love. so yes #can’t stop can’t stop lost it in your eyes~~#**AND IT CONtinues to change so many aspects of my life. everytime i listen i hear something new i realize something different i learn #something valuable.. and i think that’s just magical. <3

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arolesbianism · 4 months ago

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I wish So Bad that I could confidently recommend lob corp and library of ruina to people because they're both genuinely rly good games and I also need ppl I know to understand the insanity that is project moon but like godddd they are a fucking Investment. Both in time and in brainpower. I generally think ppl exaggerate how hard lob corp is but it's certainly not easy and when it does get hard it gets HARD. Also it literally requires at least one day 1 reset (basically a new game+) to fully beat the game and at this point I've done at least 10. And for lor I'm not nearly as far in and I'm just scratching the surface of the real game but it's a beast of its own. Also 100+ hours and also hard as hell. Like this game does not fuck around with its difficulty spikes it will make you use your brain and it will give you a damn headache in the process. It's also one of my favorite card combat games I've ever played with mechanics that just so beautifully complement each other to create a dynamic and interesting battle system that gives it a completely different vibe and feeling than any other deck builder games I've played to the point where it almost feels wrong to me to categorize them together. But also I am not even slightly joking abt the headache thing every time I play this damn game I close it with a horrible headache and have to take a multi day break. I think everyone should experience this with me <3

#rat rambles #for the record I have not played limbus company nor do I plan to but the cast is rly good and I know a lot of ppl vouch for it #let it be known if I ever do get around to reading limbus stuff I will become obsessed with outis shes so me bait #youre telling me shes a middle aged woman a war criminal and a bootlicker? sign me the fuck up #I <3 crusty dusty women who suck ass #also ofc don is also the beloved but thats a given #the real question would be which of the other limbus women would comsume my life #because theyre all contenders for characters that could make me go insane. for better or for worse.#also reason number 500 that everyone I know should play these games is that its sooooo fun to make project moon ocs #ofc I and I imagine most ppl mostly make nugget ocs (aka your employees and combat units in the first two games)#but like its just fun to make ocs in this world in general #the worldbuilding of this game is like 90% built on 'would that be fucked up or what?' and I adore it for that #theyll just be like yeah theres a whole faction that follows these things called prescripts which can range from super simple stuff to #literally impossible stuff and if you aren't able to follow them you will be killed and theres a guy whos job it is to hand them out and he #has to routinely inform people to their face that they have to destroy their lives or die and it eventually breaks him #and you go ok cool Im still not over the teleporting trains that dont actually instantly teleport but instead travel through pocket #dimensions over the course of thousands of years during which the passengers can be injured and mangled and feel pain but not die and it's #not uncommon for whole societies to be formed in them but once they arrive to their destination the state of all the passengers is #perfectly reverted back to their state uppon entering leading to them being none the wiser of anything that had previously happened to them #and they go yeah haha we liked love town too anyways wanna watch this robot have another mental breakdown #and you go fuck yeah and get your ass handed to you

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villainvillain · 1 year ago

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fionna and cake having a really underwhelming ending (glob knows if we get a season 2) was NOT on my expectations list at all like genuinely i was ready to be emotionally devastated and screaming endlessly for the next week but.. hm,,..

#fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #mostly in the tags #idk just... hm.. i mean yeah objectively the simon betty closure scene was lovely #but it felt. so fast as well #like theyre just telling us how to feel #which is odd bc AT is usually so good at just letting things speak for themself #letting your brain interpret things in your own way #ALSO WHAT THE FUCK WHY ARE JAY AND DESTINY SO COOL WITH JUST ABANDONING THEIR OLD WORLD? IS FW FINN DEAD OR NOT? WHAT THE FUCK?????#HIS OWN SON AINT GONNA SAY ANUTHING ABOUT THAT? WE CANT SEE IF HES OK? WHAT #HWHATGHHHHG;DFJGFG #I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND THAT DECISION #i was happy to see baby finn bc thank god hes safe BUT THEN ITS JUST LIKE #OH JAY AND DESTINY? HI?#IS YOUR DAD OK JAY? ARE YOUR SIBLINGS SAFE??#FJGKDFLGDFJ #?????

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unproduciblesmackdown · 7 months ago

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omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!

#& [it might be 5am but i'll still see if i can draw some] trackpad homemade reacts. inhales & hands to head/face x9 then walking off #site giving pretty random Suggested assortment there where i was like oh right sure. prob not tumblr keywords captures lmaooo #(plus happened to have it open in firefox) but my god Not the scapegoated literal seers lmfao. whoooo. my god #also it was just really good anyways like right nice. damn #the (queerrr) seerrr the perceiverrr the truth tellerrr the ruinerrr the scapegoat be-errr the internalizerrr the neurodivergerrr #& now i Know there is 0% chance ppl weren't putting ''always a gay cousin or it's you (avuncular edition)'' in that thing #family tree design not even leaving space for the hypothetical kids of this relative we mostly pretend is nonexistent hmm #also that necessarily. it's giving all intents & purposes Disability abt a dozen ways & it's saying [accept that] vs [we'd better fix him]#you don't cite said [it's giving disability] as part of the We All Hate The Horrible Little Freak scapegoating justification & then be like #''actually we don't have to do that anymore b/c he's sooo normal :)'' or not if you're serious about [don't scapegoat your family] anyways #which like oh ok they Are serious so The Weirdo's scapegoating / casting out / lack of support Isn't justified #so he's still weird & you just gotta get over that b/c otherwise. bye. having a natural rat affinity is such a slay btw #& we've all been there like ''you NEVER want two scapegoats talking it's Over if they do'' + littlest kid is like um. they're the best #plankton voice Correct! inhale i'm so impressed like. getting to go ''finally someone Normal'' (serious abt letting someone Be Weird(tm))#which also always counts as like mm hard time suggesting someone's Not queer & also autistic for a start lmao. an award #adding in suggested layers like talking to oneself; talking Oddly / w difficulty; physical uncoordination; rituals ; acting; animal friend #the layer of ''& all that's fine? like?'' again rather than him ever suppressing or even changing it so far as it's suggested #besides that it's observed as Weird like but so? or else what? nonrhetorical: hostility / rescinded support & driving someone off is what?#& that Truth like the [worse treatment / exclusion / scapegoat] oft recipe for someone giving the support they're not getting themself #again Never let the [ppl both experiencing this] talk oh it's So over. or the child who's all i like family support & kindness actuallyy...#obviously also like the complete opposite of billions. knowing what they're about & letting this Just As Beloved crucial guy be So Weird #but billions Also [hmm feels right for our scapegoated guy to Perceive / Tell Truths / openly want/need & then be hurt] now get his ass #anyway [guy who could always go way on could go way on but only has thirty tags & it's 6am & i still mean to try some drawing] voice #remarkable amt of So True & ''it feels like ppl on the same page w/exactly what they're doing are all behind this''#remarkable amount of concentrated My God That Is So A Slay located in bruno all at once. what a gift #sticking to ''sometimes someone In Your Group is Weird. Disabled. deal'' firmly enough there's no ;) oh u can bet we'll Fix Him in the end #everyone always assumes the worst so....me when i'm [always as a kid yearning for Living In Secret Passages]. emile gtmpota?#oh congrats to whatever rando who will be having his dramatic gay reunion w/bruno just out of frame obviously. i perceive #now imagine if That rando was....emile gtmpota! what a crossover event. haunting4haunting. do i have enough tags for this lmao. yea #& having 1 more tag to say: as though the [endless serving] isn't enough bruno's also as close to gender envy as it gets. incl rats; sure

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offthewall1979 · 2 months ago

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my review of Moonwalk: hot mess. ★★★.

#i will refer to it #but oh god... it's just #1st of all. the added afterword from 2009 should have been a FOREWORD bc it gives you the context for how this book was made #so they did have a real writer put it together based on long transcripts of interviews one of the publishing people did with mj #if those tapes exist or pieces of then exist i need to find them. i think i've seen some floating around #bc ... the way it's written sounds very michael. it's not well written. so i'm surprised they even had an actual writer do it #but that makes me think maybe the writer just pulled a lot of exact wording from the tapes?#i hope that's how it happened #like the publishing lady said i Also wish michael had been devoted to this project. this could've been really good #i'm interested in anything that comes straight from michael so ultimately i'm just grateful he did a book at all #and really WAS involved in it #but it just. it's a mess. it's disorganized. it's disjointed #it just does not deliver in so many ways #there were so many times i would read a couple paragraphs and be like. wait What. that went Nowhere #there are really wonderful parts of course too #first of all i'm happy to hear him talk about parts of his life he didn't necessarily talk about that much #i find everything he says about motown and esp the mid-late j5 motown years Supremely interesting #everything written about music and dancing and performing is great. seeing the way he thinks about those things. divine. enlightening.#the thing is. the tone is extremely defensive and passive aggressive throughout the whole book #which is amusing and i mostly like it. michael jackson was one petty and spiteful mf. he loved being right and he reiterates that a lot #but bc of the press treatment of more personal things like his appearance and relationships. those parts are just. eugh #like when it comes to music/dance/performance he can defend himself no problem. concrete evidence that he's fucking awesome and he knew it #he brings up dating and stuff and it feels like he was like. floundering. maybe he just couldn't decide how much to share?#idk it just feels like. he won't outright SAY some things but he'll sort of hint at things. and i can't tell if what he's hinting at #is the real truth or him being defensive and wanting to give the impression that he was 'normal' so people would just leave him alone #i can't tell. i really can't. i wanna just believe him but i'm like. wtf do you mean. and then there'll be inconsistencies #like WHAT R U TRYING TO SAY. you might as well just tell me what you WANT me to think and what you want people to stop bothering you about #ok anyways #it definitely feels like they rushed to get it out asap #i have like 10 questions for every page. i feel like a writer/editor should've been working with him in that way

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spaghett-onaplate · 3 months ago

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new years vibes

#in the city for thr fireworks woo and everyone is worried bc my mum lowkey threatened to kill herself..#cant tell if we are all over or under reacting #eiee i hope she will be ok tho im texting her rn. should have gotten up earlier to get ready with her #so she could come along to the city too #but anyway. all should be fine. hopefully #the fireworks are really good #the 9pm ones were decent and it isnt long til midnight now #idk i feel mostly unemotional abt the new year but it also makes me feel like a particularly unaccomplished loser #but then. being upset over all i lack does not make me work toward improvement. so there is no real point ij being upset #anyway. happy new years everyone #i am a bit concerned about some friendships. and about the slight crush stirrings #bc i swear im not delusional. he was always the one to approach me and keep in contact. more so than any other friend ive had #which is firstly just yay nice friend but now were joke friend flirting except hes come out to me? helloooo #like. after the initial spiral i mostly don't feel super emotional about it #but a bit confused and stressed #eeee #anyway hope my mum is ok.. tbh i think my brothers gf shouldn't be so upset over it #like yeah its concerning and kinda inappropriate to say to a child #but isn't being upset over this indicative of the privilege we have of this being uncommon #oscar.exe

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cherry-bomb-ships · 1 year ago

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Honestly my friends, my lovelies, my beautiful followers you are not getting the full experience of this PPG phase unless ur also following my gf @rexscanonwife cuz as we watch the series together we are each falling for a character, her with Utonium and.... okay maybe I like Mojo Jojo a LIIITTLE BIT OKAY 😠😳😠 But like her posts are so fun and deranged and she has the energy and is not afraid to gush, meanwhile I am still in my denial phase so you gotta give me a few days and then Imma be losing it 💖💖💖💖

#mostly not saying a lot tonight cuz in the 3 episodes we watche dthere wasnt a ton of mojo #but what there was. OHHH MAN #guys its bad. its ugly its so so so vile (my feelings)#lile he was sooooooo fucking confident that he finally got the girls for good that #he was just taking his sweet time piling up every deadly weapon in his house. which is a LOT tbh #and he was just soooooooo fucking condident and when he was done he did a gay lil sit aND THE. THE SMUGNESSSSSSS. GOD 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#ok sorry thats all ur getting out of me. runs away #it was... rly nice to see and especially hear him again after the past 2 days just thinkin bout him 👉👈💖💖💖💖#UGH EW ENOUGH SENTIMENT. GOODNIGHT #ruby rambles #🧬.crsh #jane!🐝

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merlinmerlot · 1 year ago

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I could play one of the most beautiful well crafted video games on the planet and it will never be as appealing to me as one that kind of sucks shit but has soooo much potential

#merlin.txt #just finished cyberpunk #i feel like they could have done sooo much more with the concepts they had #the game showed us a bit of everything in the world but i dont think they explored any one topic enough #and they pulled a ton of punches. the ending did not feel like this big 'grab your allies and fuck the corpos' thing it shouldve been #it was mostly just tying up johnnys loose end. one big loop. which i fuck with; but it wasnt rlly anticapitalist at all in that sense #i have a bunch of other thoughts on johnny but ill save it #but god. the beginning (act 1 and the first bits of act 2) where just soooo fucking good #and it rlly felt like it was going to gear up into this huge thing instead of just being one last hurrah for rogue and johnny #AUUUGHH theres just So Much Potential. goddamn #imo i think the major thing is that at some point it stopped being v's story. it was everyone elses #he has Very little agency. which is interesting but man this guy deserves better #when it comes down to it the game Is really shallow. whenever there is any sincerity in themes its very centrist #the fact is you dont rlly meet many characters in game who are Truly working to take down corps except for johnny and he doesnt rlly count #and if there Are its usually played for irony and laughs (looking at kerry) or theyre flat out kind of awful.#judys story is probably the best of the companions bc shes actively trying to help sex workers and its played very positively #i also think two of the main themes (letting go of the past; what it means to die) are Majorly helped by some incredible emotional beats #and w/o some just Really Really good scenes and good repetition of lines and motifs its very tropey.#ok i wasnt going to write a full thing. but let me be clear: i fucking loved this game. i would not be writing so much if i did not love it #the sun ending was Still soooo vindicating. v is still kicking and that's all that matters to me #(it helps that v is a Great protag like one of the Best voiced rpg protags next to hawke da2)#(which is kind of a funny comparison since i think both protags suffer from a lack of agency)#ok im done now

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scienceismygirlfriend · 3 months ago

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2. Flops! Or 9. Compels me tho

2. flops! i consider this one a flop because i really wanted to like it BUT. i did not enjoy Things In Jars. it had a great premise, and i love a ghost sidekick as much as the next guy, but it just did not come together for me. and the most frustrating this is that the things i didn't enjoy about it don't seem to be the things that bothered anyone else who didn't like the book so i didn't even get the cathartic release of reading the two star reviews of the book!!

9. compels me tho: this is maybe a goofy answer but i read the first dinotopia children's novel (Windchaser) while on a road trip and it's pretty simple and predictable but DINOSAURS THOUGH. i don't know why i never read this as a child (i devoured A Land Apart from Time) but i know i would have been soooo annoying about it if i had. it's cute!

#thanks for the ask!#i love to blather about books. lmao #also. for the curious. re: things in jars #(i didn't put this in the main answer for some plot spoilers and the answer was already getting long)#i was annoyed that the answer to the main mystery that the mc was trying to solve... is told to you within like the first couple chapters #and so you get this feeling like... ok maybe there's a twist then!! but no #you just know basically from the beginning and then you have to watch the mc slowly figure it out herself. which was not very exciting to m #and the identity of the ghost is also supposed to be this big mystery but when we find out who he was it's like. ok? and??#it was a very unsatisfying reveal! because (bit of a spoiler) there wasn't a way you could have figured it out on your own! it's just like #(spoiler) some guy from her past she forgot about and never mentioned!! huh???? that's unsatisfying!!!!!!!#my last gripe that i will burden anyone reading these tags with. is how they talk about the mc's maid #(and when i say “they” i mean the narrator)#because the maid is clearly intended to be a trans woman. and i know that the book is set in the 1800s but like. it really bothered me how #often they brought up like how big her hands are or how she's so tall or how broad her shoulders are. like continually! throughout the book #it just felt weird!! i think the author meant well but like. when you constantly point out these things and make her seem So Different #and like An Outcast it just feels like. wow isn't mc such a good person for employing her. she doesn't care about what's normal in society #because she's just such a good person. like ok i guess the maid is just trans to. make a point?? or something??? is that what i'm reading??#like! yeesh it would be one thing for some characters in the book to treat the maid differently (given the time period and all) but like.#it mostly came from the narration!! and i wanted to be like!!! ok!!!! we get it!!!!#she has big hands!!!!! what about the size of everyone ELSE'S hands for a change!!!!!!#idk like i said i think the author meant well but just missed the mark on that particular character #ok i'm. done. lol #also sorry if you liked this book haha i don't think it was Objectively Bad but many things just did not come together for me :/#if you got all the way down here and read all of these tags: congratulations and hello cherry

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arolesbianism · 3 months ago

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I have been playing beastieball and first of all very good game second of all smth smth Olivia Broussard

#rat rambles #oni posting #the second I heard the basic concept I knew I had to make my player character olivia #Ive also been ofc doing an oni naming theme but thats a given #important context in my hcs olivia was a pretty sportsy teenager #but yeah Im also enjoying the endless sense of dread I get anytime I make story progress in this game #I need that guy dead NOW #also I forget their name but yeah rpedictably the nonbinary scientist is my favorite npc currently #but yeah I feel like Im at a weird point game progression wise where Im strong enough to take every fight I know of but I don't know how to #access most of the side content I want to do first so Ive mostly just been further training #dont get me wrong I was still underleveled for the last star coach match I did but they were like level 50 so y'know #I won btw because Im a hashtag gamer (I got my ass kicked the first time but the second time I barely scraped by)#ok I say barely but Im pretty sure I only lost one round most of my party was just on deaths door the whole time #I recently decided to rework my team since I wasn't having a lot of fun with my old one #I might end up mixing and matching my old and new teams a bit eventually but I rly like my current team #Im definitely still learning how to use it well tho and I can definitely feel that offensively it could be better #well actually more like it needs better defense to be more offensive #all my guys have good bulk in at least one damage type but only two are all around capable of taking hits #the other three are incredibly fragile in different stats and as such a lot of my gameplay at higher levels involved baiting and switching #which has been working out well enough so far but it definitely means my battles run slower than Id like #in particular because I only have one beastie capable of healing itself so its easy to back myself into a corner if I take too long #I also definitely need to look into redoing the stats for my dragonfly beastie as while shes fairly bulky she rly needs a bit more bulk #I also super need to look into getting some friendship skills for her since she just doesn't have the tools she needs rn to truly flourish #I believe in her tho she was the main inspiration for my current team and how I wanted it to play #which unfortunately we aren't quite able to do yet due to the fragility of everyone #again they Are quite bulky in certain areas but extremely fragile in others #the exception is my boy joshua who can tank most hits but is noy particularly helpful outside of that rn #which I also want to remedy #now the main question for me rn is if I considered switching out one of my more offensive units for someone with more utility #because a certain nikola may be a needed pivot currently but he was also supposed to be far more offensively useful than he can be atm

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artisanalpeanutbutter · 7 months ago

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I'm happy overall that I was able to work & develop better empathy, but sometimes it makes life much harder than it used to be

#i still think my empathy is pretty low. and i dont talk to people about it because i know what the pop perception #of that is #im not incapable of understanding peoples emotions #i just like. sympathize more than i empathizr #i can feel angry for people #im good at that #but thats because anger/frustration is the emotion i can most readily understand in myself #i have trouble processing other emotions #and have trouble maintaining certain emotions #but frustration and anger are my (unwilling) friends #i often get frustrated when i cant understand or feel another emotion that i want to feel #or know i should feel #i often cant figure out what emotion im feeling #but I'm more successful than i used to he #and i really only find myself feeling sad or happy etc. on behalf of other people when ive caused that feeling #but it's fleeting #i think im getting better at feeling happy for other people though #but idk if that happiness is empathy #i actively WANT other people to be happy or at least content #and strive to help cause or maintain that condition in others #but i dont think that's rooted in empathy #i think thats more rooted in my desire to help people #because i feel good when people help me #so i try to help others in hopes that theyll feel good #but is that empathy? idk #idk anymore lmao #i think i mostly sympathize #and thats ok #makes my life easier bc im already so bad at regulating and deciphering my own emotions #I'm bad at feelings. which is why i want to make people feel good. contentment is a simple emotion which makes it wonderful

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talkorsomething · 9 months ago

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They literally just had a conversation about ice cube trays and whether or not they were clean (they decided they were not i think?) and did NOT ask me anything. Do i not exist to you people

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #the ice cube trays were clean btw just the water wasn't good at the time #which is why they were empty #this and also some things in the freezer that need moved and NOBODY has asked me to move them and i literally could #like #augh. god. i exist!!! i live here! i know things!!! i'm awake!!!!!!#i'm not SUPER annoyed by it but i Could Be if i think about it too much #which i mean. i probably will.#anyways this has annoyed me into deciding *i* will deal with the freezer stuff when i wake up if nobody else has by that point #just ... a constant list of things that's just gonna keep getting longer.#cause i don't want to ... ugh words tonight #i don't want to add the stress of because like. listen.#i get angry a LOT and it's not really warranted most of the time. i do not want to subject people to that.#and also just ... everythiiiing everything about the way i hear him act has been bugging me this week and its only MOSTLY because it's #almost (or is by now?) shark week and i always get pissed at everything right before then.#the other part is that he reminds me of the father unit who ALREADY bugs me just. in general so. yippee i guess.#its like 'hey u should communicate if u have a problem :)' and then i go 'ok i will :)' LYING because i do NOT want to make this situation #exponentially worse. cause thats how it would go. i dont need to feel even LESS wanted in my own home lol

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