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Ranboo saying they aren’t sure if gay rlly covers or fully describes them and honestly what if I go on a whole rant abt how difficult it’s been navigating sexuality while I’m transgender
Like idk I commend that, for some ppl it IS easy and that’s valid too. but god I’ve pent up so many feelings of uncertainty that it’s..rough sometimes. I feel like I HAVE to almost decide on a label becuz even in posts saying how valid questioning is. they almost make that an end goal. “You’ll figure it out eventually” and I do sometimes feel comfy with labels. Sometimes it’s nice. Feels secure. But sometimes it feels.. restricting?
I’ve used gay for now becuz well, I know for sure I like men and ppl outside the binary! And the majority of the time I do just, feel like a man.
But I’ll have these fleeting moments where I feel like just “anything goes” I don’t have a care in the world, for both gender and sexuality. I’m just human we’re just human whatever. Do these short periods invalidate the majority?
Sometimes I’m a man but at the same time maybe I feel like a lady a little bit, while yeah I’m still a dude, that feminine aspect sometimes makes me feel a lil disconnected from the gay label. Those who r fem and gaymlm r valid but idk sometimes for *ME* I feel out of place..
I’m attracted to ppl outside the binary, sometimes very feminine ppl. where yeah, they’re still always gonna be outside the binary but it makes me think, AM I not attracted to women? gender is just a label, idc abt genitals, idc abt gender presentation, whatever u wanna be? Valid. But like. Idk it’s difficult to just exclude who I might be attracted to based on what just.. a label? It’s hard to picture myself with a woman but at the same time it’s hard to explain or make sense to myself becuz people are all so different. Sometimes a random girl will look like a dude and it’s like ?!?!? AUGH?!? I find them attractive but is it just that I thought they were a guy or is it that I just find certain women attractive ??
IDK IF THAT MAKES SENSE TO ANYONE ELSE. I’m also worried I come off as like transphobic or smthin😭 I swear I respect ppls genders no matter what just sometimes how ppl present themselves gives *me* a sexuality crisis and that’s not their problem it’s mine AUGH this almost 100% could be worded better but idk how. Just please keep in mind I’m not trying to be a transmed or smthin🤮
I never feel sure of myself I never feel sure of how I feel about other ppl. It’s prolly also the neurodivergence of not understanding societal rules and standards but AUGHGH Emotions, gender, and sexuality are all such difficult things for me. God I wish I was one of the ppl who just, understood immediately. Idk man
I might just say fuck it and just give up figuring shit out and call myself achillean or queer. At least for a lil while
#transgender#questioning#neurodivergent#like it SHOCKS ME when ppl r like (I lose all interest immediately if they’re not the gender Im attracted to) I WISH IT WAS EASY 4 ME😭😭#HAPPY FOR U THO😭😭#in my head gender and sexuality r just kinda attached somewhat cuz how I identify influences relationships IDK#so ONE gets fucked up and then SO DOES THE OTHER#AND ITS FRUSTRATING#I hate bringing up prolly being neurodivergent in these posts tho cuz I know some ppl r weird abt that🤮🤮
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early morning ✨☀️
gale x ylqinvrae commission for @/justlookingatstuffandthings over on insta. thank you so much for working with me 🫶💗
#gale x tav#gale dekarios#baldur's gate 3#bg3#drow tav#commissions.#mine.#my first time drawing gale actually so im kind of 😭🙏 just hoping he looks recognisable lol#I liked working on this one hehe I’ve been enjoying drawing ocs lately#if u remembered my prev posts where I was crying abt patterns this is it lol#I’m happy w how it turned out tho I always have trouble with sleeve detailing looking disjointed#but this one was p seamless 😤 honestly there’s prob easier ways to draw patterns but am I gonna find that? well no! 👨🦲
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mishanks lotr au wip inspired by the march of the fellowship by divinesleep_24 on ao3 :) it's slow burn zolu + established mishanks! this piece is based on screenshots from the aragorn/arwen wedding ✨️✨️
#one piece#one piece fanart#fic recs#akataka#mishanks#opla#opla fanart#bc i actually think shanks kinda looks like mr gadiot in this lol go me 🎉 we'll see if that lasts 😂#dracule mihawk#shanks#akagami no shanks#red haired shanks#i never do this style. semi-realism + painting??? who am i???????#im really happy with how shanks's gaze looks. there's like. a light there.#i struggled a lot with mihawk's eyes tho 😭😭😭#we'll see if i continue working on this. it's fun tho!!!#idk if u can tell but this is a mishanks blog now hashtag sorry not sorry
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A batch of Artfight revenges!
Ciera for Hush-art on AF
Nakir for SugarInferno on AF
and Rowan Hawke for @proserpiiart !
#artfight#artfight 2024#team stardust#my square coloured background swag#i think thats gonna be it for me this year tho😭#i got so sidetracked with uh coding#so happy with how rowan hawke turned out btw I LOVE U HAWKE. I LOVE YOU#my art
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pisces/virgo placements... it's about time you took care of yourself, too, ok?
you burn yourselves out allowing yourself to be pulled by so many people in all different directions. you exhaust all your resources and empty your cup - no, your entire well - to help those around you, even people you don't know. it's such a beautiful thing, and i know you genuinely love helping others, supporting people, seeing them thrive. it's such a beautiful trait! but you constantly end up neglecting yourself, right? you don't realize that you have permission to set aside time to care for you, to cater to your needs for once. you often feel like no one puts a drop in your cup, the favor is never returned - it's exhausting; you might think if you just keep giving your all it will come back; i understand. you will find the people that give the same energy back to you one day, but regardless of whether you've found those people yet, you need to learn to step aside and fill your own cup!
setting boundaries and saying no is the most important thing you will learn to do in this lifetime. it will not be easy for you, sometimes it will feel painful. but you cannot help the world if you're constantly drained and tired! you deserve to take care of yourself in the same way you do for others. be gentle to your kind soul, nourish yourself; do the things you love to do. learn to worry about others less, as hard as it is, and focus on yourself more.
#astrology#luna.txt#pisces#virgo#mutable#ok i love making posts in this style and like the last post i made#i almost didnt make my last post bc i was worried no one would like it#but u all were so nice and received it so well#so i hope this one can resonate too!!!#i luv u <3#i really really wanna carve out time to post here more!!#im currently working three jobs tho so a little exhausted flkdjfjdlf#also i cannot stop watching anime lately#if any of u have suggestions for stuff that has the vibe of my happy marriage and lvl 999 yamada... pls tell me#i love that cheesy non-stressful romance especially like the yamada 999 anime 😭💖#genshin. anime. work. thats my life lately. and thats ok#omg ive also been watching hidden love and its so cute#i was worried it'd be creepy w/ the age gaps but so far seems ok??#sorry i always end my posts with unrelated rants but anyway<3#if anyone ever needs to talk abt anime/astro/genshin/cdramas.. i am here#mine
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ᯓᡣ𐭩 can’t believe kento beat satoru and me to the punch and proposed before either of us could :( but i won’t complain when i’m the luckiest person in the world to have partners as lovely as kento and satoru ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა
thank you so much to @petridumps for the wonderful commission!
#RAHHHHHHHHHHHH COULD NOT STOP SMILING WHEN I GOT THIS GODKFMFMDLDKDNDDJDMDNDJCKDKDNFJFJFSODNCJDK#WAS CHEESIN NONSTOP 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷#IVE BEEN WANTING A COMM W MY GUYS FOREVER…….IM SO HAPPY THEY LOOK SO GOOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#u will see me rb this again and again#also feel free to rb if u want lol#dont repost or save tho pls 😭😭😭#all.right#nanapersgo#<- new shipname dropped 😖😖😖😖😖😖😖😖😖😖#MY GUYS AHHHHHHHHHHHH MY BELOVEDSSSSSSS
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I want the infodump on Jamil and Yuusha ma'am I beg
THIS HAS BEEN UNANSWERED FOR A MONTH IM SORRY AUGH
but thank you so much yes im okay im normal about them i’ll do my best (for context i mentioned in the tags of one of my posts a while back wanting to infodump about them, but i forget which one it was jfkdlsjhl anyways-)
this won't be a full info dump because i think that would somewhat restrict my dynamic of them if i put it all into words (if that makes sense) ;;;
and i realized i lowkey dont have a coherent timeline for them (yet); i just put them in random scenarios of what i think would be fun at the moment
to make up for it i'll also put a silly self-indulgent sketch dump all below ;;;
I JUST REALIZED I DRAW THEM MAKING EYE CONTACT A LOT (bc something something there's a level of trust that jamil wont use his snake whisper on yuu anymore)
okay now for some random jamiyuu dynamics/hcs/lore
yuu fell first -> yuu lost feelings (bc why would you trust someone who took advantage you) -> ✨ then something happened ✨ -> jamil fell next but harder.
highkey disliked each other -and showed it- in the beginning bc of the whole scarabia drama; then an -accidental- act of service got them to think differently about one another. like "holy shit maybe they're not so bad after all???"
extremely slow burn.
very competitive with one another which then bled into their "flirting" / affectionate acts when they eventually became closer.
basically: “sweetheart” but rivalry -> “babe” but platonically -> “bro” but romantically pipeline.
(“are you flirting or starting a fight”)
yuu kinda throws around “love you” a lot, especially to her close friends; so -during their “platonic” stage- for some reason, jamil was the only “friend” she has not said this to. but it’s okay it’s not like jamil had referred to her as the “f-word” (friend) anyway.
had a mutual agreement that their romantic relationship is temporary because of yuu wanting to go home; they’re just going to “try it out” “no hard feelings”.
yuu made jamil promise to never use snake whisper on her ever again.
jamil: personal beef w/ bugs + afraid of them; yuu: personal beef w/ bugs (w/ a few exceptions) + not afraid of them, just generally pissed at their existence.
dancing and music lowkey became one of their love languages.
kalim genuinely became one yuu’s best friends because of how much they hit it off. jamil always third wheels them no matter the circumstance.
yuu loves grim more than jamil; jamil knows this very well. and so does grim.
#i was today years old that asks will not let me put images next to each other sigh#WAIT IT’S DIFFERENT ON MOBILE#smh tumblr u are stressin me out#anyways idek if you're still here anon but akjfkldsslk#the way i was jumpscared when i saw this in my inbox tho#it just made me really happy that people are interested in these two 😭#im still just afjkdlslsj why#but honestly thank you 🫶#im glad people can enjoy them as much as me#also i am just posting back to back what is wrong with me#i should make the most of it bc my schedule’s going to be BUSY after this week#also also there's one particular way some artists draw jamil's nose and i love it#i really wanna draw it like that too hkdsljs#i'll try it out next time i draw his side profile#[—✦ chatting#-✧ my art#-✧ oc rambles#jamil viper#(💜) yuusha#(💜) curry noodles#-✦—]
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GOD get married about it or something
<3
#i can’t breathe they’re so#eyes!!!!!!! so bright and lovely!!!!!!!!!!!!!#they’re . So soft. to me personally#wish we got more crumbs but jayson throwing the lob makes me happy#jaylen fake upset about the loss:(he’s happy he at least got 2nd) babe do you still think im sexy even tho i lost to a white g-leaguer 💔💔😭😞#jayso: Ofc bbygirl *kiss* u did so good *kiss* and i love you *kiss*#the jays#writing fanfic in tumblr tags is my fav hobby Tbh#🩷
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It is Now
My birthday 😌
I am now 27 💃
#speculation nation#i'll update my bio later bcus i gotta b on my computer to not wreck my html#but the age old 'it's my birthday which means it's time to tick that age up one more year'#been doing this ever since i was 15 lol. and so it shall continue for the foreseeable future.#anyways im feeling better than i was earlier. my girlfriend came over & that helped a Lot#just chatted and cuddled as i waited for my birthday to hit.#it is now may 13th. my 27th birthday. and i have absolutely nothing written for ITNL chapter 19 😭#i'm working on getting there tho. making good progress in my reread. just having to be more thorough than expected.#i'll still make it my birthday chapter. just in a 'hey my birthday was a few days ago. if u guys wanna wish me happy birthday :]' way#anyways yea if anyone wants to be oh so niceys to me in my comments or asks i would enjoy that very much 🥺
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WHAT'S CAMPUS APOCALYPSE....
I'M SO GLAD YOU ASKED Campus Apocalypse (also known as Gakuen Datenroku) is an Evangelion spinoff manga!!! It has 4 volumes and 22 chapters, and it's basically an AU series with an action-y shonen feel to it.
It retains a lot of the cast and some elements from the anime, but for the most part does its own thing with the lore! Instead of piloting giant robots, the kids fight angels using these magic-y weapons (Shinji has a gun, for example), and the angels themselves are very different from the main series too. It can be odd at times, but it's a pretty fun and interesting take on the series imo!
The plot gets a little wild at times and the ending is sadly pretty rushed (I think it got cancelled?), but it's a fairly quick read and has enough neat concepts along the way that I feel it's worth checking out! :] (i am of course biased, but y'know)
What Personally makes me so fond of it is that it has more of the main 4 kids as friends, as well as features Kaworu as one of the main characters and introduces him right at the beginning! He gets to interact more with Rei and Asuka, as well as has more time with Shinji, and I really really love how his and Shinji's relationship is developed.
It's not as explicitly Romantic as in the anime (CA mostly focuses more on the friendships; there's some ship tease and it occasionally leans towards Shinji/Rei, but the romantic stuff is vague enough that you can see what you wanna see for the most part imo), but it's still very sweet and meaningful all the same. The development of their friendship is a significant part of the story, and it's not that hard to view it in a romantic light. It's like. Friends to lovers kawoshin. To me
IN SHORT: Campus Apocalypse has a different vibe from the anime and has some interesting stuff, but it may be just kind of average as a whole. BUT it does some specific things really well imo and said things are like catnip to me. If you too enjoy seeing the main four interacting and being friends and Shinji and Kaworu's relationship being able to take more time to develop, it may be worth checking out!
#iwannaholdyoulikeyouremine#asks#neon genesis evangelion#evangelion campus apocalypse#campus apocalypse#nge ca#nge#THANK U SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK IM SO HAPPY TO HAVE A REASON TO TALK ABOUT CAMPUS APOCALYPSE..... MY BELOVED#i've been rotating it nonstop in my mind so i really just took this as an excuse to ramble abt it 😭 tried not to get spoilery tho#also trying to balance not making it seem like the best thing ever bc i don't wanna disappoint ppl but also showing why i love it so much 🥺#it was the first eva spinoff i checked out iirc bc it was fairly short and easy to find to read online#and it ended up doing things to my brain so i got Attached to it. now im doomed to always have it in the back of my mind#toma talks
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brb crying real tears about this
#carolina hurricanes#jesperi kotkaniemi#michael bunting#BUNTS I’M GONNA SOB I MISS U SO MUCH#THERE’S STILL A PIC OF U AT SCOTIABANK I AM IN THE NILE#I MISS U SO MUCH#I’M HAPPY TO SEE UR BIG BRIGHT SMILE THO#😭😭😭😭😭
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Hi!!! I'm a new fan of ghost. their music and aesthetic are just amazing i'm obsessed 😍 Do you have any tips on how to make friends in the ghost fandom?
If you find out let me know anon 🥲
(i guess the best way is to just chat to people on here if you're brave or join a discord maybe? I can't recommend one im currently not in any hhh)
#you picked the worst person to ask this im so sorry 😭#it's just me here fbdnsnsnsn#i could make a list of cool blogs but idk how u find a friend group sorry 😭#happy to see you join the fandom tho!!! 💓#hope you enjoy it here!!! 🫶
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How 2 do well in school, which is starting soon, no glue no borax
#i think im smart. maybe. cuz my finals last uear were aparently AWESOME for some fucking reason#i was failing allll my classes tho#except like. gym. but the rest were legit all Fs#idk how i passed.....#im just godly#but fr ive gyat no motivation to do anything ever and honestly id rather kms than be there BUT i have a gf now and also the convergence ->#-> reboot hasnt come out so i cant die yet#ive lost most motivation for my hobbies at this point and now i gotta go back to that freakshow#SIGH#the ppl there are MEAN and some of the things they tey to teach us with suck ASS#PLEASE. IM SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD AT ENGLISH. IT USED TO BE MY BEST SUBJECT#😭😭😭😭😭#the thing we have to do stuff on tho SUCKS bc i can barely ever finish it in class cuz theres not enough time and i dont have the motivation#to do it at home so eventually i just stopped bothering with it#like i just stopped#honestly halfway through last year i just gave tf up in general 😭💀and they literally pulled me away and were like “r u ok....”#i dont remember where i was going with this#im eepy everything hurrts i dont wanna go back#i wanna be silly i wanna make straight As and Bs like when i was an little kid i want to make the ppl that care about me happy but.augh#vent post#I GUESS#mother get me tested + medicated challeng e level IMPOSSIBLE😭😭😭😭😭#ganvg im starting to think i may have smth besides the adhd.... hmmm.......
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Homeeee:)))!!!!
#foxie pics#nes the dog#pepper the cat#i cant believe ive been up for over 24 hrs erm#i gen. forgot LMAO#hatt was like “how are u still awake” and i was like “wdym its 11pm??” before Remembering it is in fact like 8am internal clock time#oh well jet lag won't get to meeee hehehe im immune mwahahaha#so ready to sleep in my own bed tonight w ny stuffies and sleep in and relax and hang out w the pets tomorrow rahshsh#maybe go on a walk who knowsss#im really happy being home tho i had a lovely night w my stepmom:))))))❤️❤️❤️#and the PETS ohkygod they missed me sm it was adorable omg i feel so loved#they both love the toys i got for them sm??1😭😭 snd theyre picky animals im gonna cryhdhddjkdkd#foxie rambles
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HELLO THE NEW WEB EVENT AVATAR IS SO CUTE IN GAME ????
CRYING AND LOOK AT SOME OF THE CARDS I AM SO UNWELL
#may the stars guide you <3#THROWS UP VERITAS BELOVED U LOOK DASHING OURGH#AND WIFE JINGLIU U ARE THE MOMENT 😭🫶#also hanabi…. ueueue im so happy shes here too….#blade where tho….. blade out there somewhere…..
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ALEX STOP BEING SO CUTE!!!
#nah jk DON'T STOP#the amount of joy on his face when aleksa made a mess which is like 0.1% compared to alex's mess#aleksa's reaction tho#alex is like a child who feels so happy & proud when they beat their parents in a game once in a lifetime#aleksa plz make more mess when u eat cause we want our baby boi to be happy#giant of a baby that is#sorry for low quality y'all I got it from YouTube and it wasn't available above 720😭#then cropping made it worse#boy boy#i did a thing#alex apollonov#aleksa vulović#ididathing#idat
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