#Grr I am scary

[stormscience]

EVEN MORE Art for "To Mend Without Thread"

Even more Mend Art! This one is from a flashback in an upcoming chapter. Little Adolin learning to fight with a far too put together Zahel. I love his serious little frowny face!

[whumpshaped]

loving the consensus between absolutely everyone

[beastsovrevelation]

I was looking through my notes for Good Omens fanfiction, and realized almost every damn story includes Crowley having a baby.

There's the one where Heaven and Hell decide to use an angel baby carried by a demon as a diplomatic tool, leading into Crowley being protected by Michael, and them falling in love.

There's the one where she leaves her baby with Anathema and disappears, which triggers all the following events - from the search, to Aziraphale's trial, and everything else.

There's the one where she has to supply the new Antichrist, which leads to her and Lucifer falling in love, and her being crowned the Queen of Hell. (Well, this one is really two stories set in different timelines, in the second one the "baby" is like 27)

In the one inspired by a dream, she does have a baby eventually, but that's far from the worst thing that happens to her. Gabriel's treatment of her after is... How the Hell will I write this damn thing if I can't even think about it.

There's no baby in the one where she gets tortured with diluted holy water.

I see I have no storyline with male Crowley just yet... Fine, that's not true. I do have some thoughts for Crowley x Fem!Lucifer... It could include a new Antichrist, too. And, Crowley wouldn't be the pregnant one for once. But, dealing with pregnant Lucifer would probably be even scarier.

[volfoss]

im very normal about media i assure you

[nikethestatue]

Rant incoming.

Maybe I am a bit of a psycho (okay, not a bit) but for the love of God and all that is holy--Sarah, give us the Shadowsinger that you keep hinting at.

I need at least ONE of these men to go dark. Go fucking black.

We keep hearing about the violence, the terror, the sheer presence of them that would make a grown man piss his pants---but we never see it?

The one and ONLY time where I feel it happened (and marginally too) was when Rowan skinned (not gonna say who) alive.

But it's kind of like--if SJM insists on making all these men ruthless warriors, torturers, the most powerful Fae in the kingdom or the world or whatever--then SHOW IT. Show us the men we are supposed to crave and fear.

We had Hunt, the Umbra Mortis, who barely ever 'mortis-nized' anyone ever. He was just a himbo who wanted to eat pizza and watch sunball.

Cassian, the Commander General, had one good run during the war and then became a human dildo.

Azriel cut the Attor a lil bit.

Give me the scary. The unhinged. I don't need cinnamon rolls. I want one of these dudes to rip out someone's heart and then fuck his ladylove on top of the corpse.

I am also so so so tired of the 'girl Power woooo!' thing that SJM keeps writing--where the women always take care of business and need no help, no protection, no revenge, no assistance from the men whatsoever. Why even bother making these men these illustrious warriors, when we know that Nesta can kill a Death God in 10 minutes, and Bryce can kill an Asteri in about 8 minutes.

I am beginning to wonder what is the point of men in SJMs' stories at all?

We had the 'Most Powerful High Lord In History' running around dropping to his knees, looking for a good OBGYN for all of ACOSF. We had the Commander General taking lots and lots of time from his clearly not very busy schedule to train some girlies and have repetitive sex. Lucien, not much of a warrior to begin with, just hangs out at his country manor. Azriel seems to be working at least, but mostly he is just being angsty.

Like there's been a shipwar raging for 3.5 years over these guys, and honestly, for what? Azriel is a spy, a torturer and 'a freak'. If it all ends up being for nothing, and he is just going to be some pining useless follower, carrying Elain's purse, whose 'freakiness' consists of light spanking and a nipple bite, then honestly, GAs or whoever, can have him.

I feel like 90% of all ACOTAR readers came to the series through Rhys. Because Rhys was so shifty. So cold. So unremorseful. Rhys was...INTERESTING.

What happened? Where are the interesting male characters? We know that SJm is not GRR Martin or anything, but come on.

Let's even take Lucien--and I don't give a shit about Lucien--but make Lucien...interesting? If he is so wily and crafty, why can't Lucien at least TRY to trick Elain into liking him, going out with him on a date? ANYTHING. Try to gaslight her, lie to her, trick her--do anything that makes me want to read about you. Eluciens keep whining about 'mean Elain' but like, why are they satisfied with this limp noodle of a painfully boring character? Why no demands of fucking everyone over and going after what he wants? 'Oh, he is so respectful'! Who cares? Why do you want to read that in a fantasy book about supposedly violent and brilliant fairies?

I am reading all kinds of things outside of ACOTAR, and I reflect and I think, OMG, SJMs males are boring AF!!!! Why do they even inspire a glimmer of desire or interest? They literally do nothing memorable or interesting.

Honestly, if the next book is the same, and she murders Azriel's character, it will be a big fat goodbye from me.

I am holding on to hope that she'll write him and even Lucien somehow, somewhat compellingly.

[ramblingsfromthytruly]

4th September 2024, Wednesday

*sigh* my alarm woke me up at 5.30 and i just turned it off and was like *hmm just a few moments* yk how it goes.. also i had this insanely scary dream of a masked murderer chasing me that ended with me getting stabbed in the back, but in a weird way i was sorta making the plot as i ran from the killer?? once i woke up, my first thought was *that was so scary i am def killing my character like that* (from my novel)

day 10/50 productivity challenge

🕒 7:00 a.m. - for school

morning skincare

extended duolingo streak

this day was so tiring. wednesdays are full days so maybe that's why.. but i'm kinda loving physics, don't get me wrong it's frustrating and makes you cry, etc, etc but it's so interesting!! especially gravity and motion and stuff. we're doing ch-4: laws of motion in class and that teacher sure is capable of sucking out any joy you get in the subject but i'm staying strong and still interested. def prefer this chapter over the first 2 even if it's also harder. also yapped about my novel to my friend.

came back home and slept like a log for HOURS.. got some rest ig

re-planned my day

talked on phone with my best friend (she's changed but i feel she's still the same with me, like i'm the only constant in her life apart from her family) (we're planning on meeting for my birthday but that's 1.5 months away, grr we live so close but can't meet it's so excruciating)

took headbath

night skincare

practiced playing keyboard

prepared for psychology seminar (istg i am not gonna rest until i'm done with this)

🕒 12:00 a.m. - went to sleep earlier so i could wake up earlier but it was pointless 🤡

🎧 we fell in love in october - girl in red

[deimosbreakfrost]

Total Drama Island (2023) S2 "Rewrited" au

A possibly cringe Fan Fic that I'll hate on the future

So, this is a fan fic of an Rewrited au of mine... """""Rewrited""""" because I'll change alot of things and I am just making this fan fic for fun while showing you guys what I would change.

Okay, let I start this modern tragedy already.

First part:

Episode 01, The kids will (not) be okay:

-The episode starts with Chris, Chef and the entire cast from the Total Drama island (2023) on a plane, going to a new season in a "new" place. Chris was talking to someone by a Walkie Talkie.

*Biiz*

???: Mr. McLean, seriously that you're lying to them saying that they're going to some kind of "total drama: World Tour" 2?

Chris: umm... Maybe--?

???: McLean! That's pratically clickbai-

Chris: Hey! Don't you dare use this "modern generation" language on me! Anyways, be ready because we're almost getting to there.

???: ah, ok-

- Chris ends the transmission

Chris: wow! That boy still annoying...

Chef: Chris, we're recording!

Chris: Ah, don't worry! After this introduction we will be finally free! ... I mean, just me, not you!

Chef: grr...

Chris: ah, calm down! Anyways, it's been a year 'total drama fans'! Since we don't see Each other THAT long, I'll give y'all a quick recap.

Last season on Total Drama Island:

16 new contestants showed up with the dream of taking that 1 million dollars price.

And the eliminations we're surprising!

Caleb was just there. until he even had the chance of doing something, Bowie made everyone eliminate him! Poor boy...

Nichelle humiliated herself Infront of everyone.

Emma HAD a chance of showing to everyone on live tv that Chase is (or was) a horrible person, but Chase was luckier than her.

Julia was boring, the way she talked, the "spiritual, love and peace" things that she normally talks about was annoying enough to her team.

Wayne would do anything and everything for his best friend Raj, and he was more than happy when he found out about his buddy's secret!

Scary Girl was Creepy, but not for Axel and Ripper! They we're her Unic friends that she had in a while, and the Unic ones that think that her actions are more annoying than scary.

Priya was pathetic! Seriously that she think her parents are so great that she easily go insane when someone criticizes them? Pff, surely the most well deserved elimination of that season.

Mk was smart, a little too much. And because of that, she went from being Bowie's Allie, to be a traitor! Well, it was that, that Bowie made everyone believe.

Raj has a secret, he loves Bowie! And because of that, he made our fandom go wild for them! The fandom loves them! Especially that people from that one Social Media that has "Tum" on the start...

And Chase knowed About that! The fact that Bowie and Raj we're dating, of course. Not the fact that the fandom is crazy for them. So, as a indirect revenge for MK, he was double eliminated with Raj!

Ripper and Damien have a... Interesting friendship. A "nerd hater" and a nerd!

Ripper was... Adorable? Yeah, he went from being a pathetic alpha male wannabe, from being a even nicer version of Owen, and because of that "adorable" personality that he gained he made Damien, Zee and especially Chase be his best friends! (Axel and scary girl too) Good for him, I guess.

Damien screamed a lot until His friends convinced him that being public humiliated in live television isn't that bad!

And Millie was nice, she tried to write a book about how much this generation is potentially bad, but after Priya's elimination, she learned that it was just a exception! There IS good people from this generation, you just need to find the right ones! (Priya not included)

And let's go to the final 3...

Axel, she had everything to win! The strength, the power, the personality... But, Ripper and Scary Girl missed her, so they finded a way to make her go back to them! That's what you gain when you are friends with a fake emo and ex-bad boy.

Zee, how did he got in there?! He could easily be eliminated until the merge but no one wanted to! And if wasn't for the "milk" part of the last challenge, he would have won! But he didn't.

And Bowie won! He used and eliminated half of the cast not counting with Wayne and Raj, of course.

Chris: So yeah, EVERYONE that I mentioned is back!

-Then it cuts to Chris in the passagers cabin with the 16 participants.

All the 16 participants are in here

The one that went out first:

Caleb: I'll make YOU guys regret voting me off...

-Caleb said in anger, while pointing at Bowie

Bowie: geez...

Ripper: you got a bit 'edgy' after 1 year, huh?

Caleb: what?

The most misunderstood one:

Ripper: huh?

Chase: wait, since when Ripper is misunderstood?

And the worse one:

Chase: excuse me?!

Emma: pff...

And of course, the winner:

Bowie: yeah, exactly, me!

Chris: well, I don't know if you guys noticed but Bowie was the Unic villain after a long time that won a season, the Unic one that did that was heather.

Bowie: wait, reall-

Chris: okay, this is slowly getting boring! So let's make the things end quickly!

-the ground below all the participants opened up, making all the participants fall into The water.

Chris: Ahaha... I'll miss that, and Chef already leaved without even saying "bye"!!

-Chris quickly ran to the drivers cabin, grabbing the plane's volant and taking control of it.

Chris: arg! Okay, I'll be quick! This surely the last time you all will see me hosting this program! Yeah, this is Sooo sad! But listen up! The future is bullet proof and the aftermath WILL be secundary! And time to them do it now and do it loud! I am Chris McLean, and I'll never, EVER see y'all again! Bye, losers!!

-after Chris leaved everyone behind, the scene cuts to the brand new hosts

...

Topher: Yeah, we're finally hosting our favorite reality show ever!

Sierra: But it's just so sad that Chris is gone for like... Forever?

Topher: nah, judging by the way he is he'll surely randomly appear when we Least expect it or something. But anyways, yeah, Chris finally gave his role as host for someone else!

Sierra: two to be exact.

Topher: yeah, right! Anyways, I am Topher! I was a participant of Pahkitew island!

Sierra: and I'm Sierra--!! I was a participant of World Tour!

Topher: and if you haven't noticed yet...

*Both Sierra and Topher say together*

We are the brand new hosts of total drama island

...

Topher: season 2.

Sierra: you don't need to explain it to the Audience-

Topher: okay, now pull the opening already.

[elf-ring-system]

I'm only doing awake people (+Shorter) this year because um. I don't wanna do a million people who will never front again <3

Happy sysversary everyone, may year four be a little nicer 🙏

Angel- Thank you for handling a lot of Ito's beta episodes with him, I know he feels bad about it even if he doesn't say it. I'm sorry it's hard for you too, but I really am grateful you can make things go smoother when it's needed. I hope they can all help you out some more in the upcoming year to maybe process some things and get to a point where it's easier for you

@hot-bitch-disorder Thanks for keeping me and Kurogiri (+etc) away from the front for the majority of this year. I know it's been difficult with everyone working on deprogramming things, but I think you've kept a very good hold on what's going on in the front. I'm glad your last reset worked out well for everyone. I know most of them can't fully appreciate the work you do, but I'm thankful on their behalf. Sorry about the drama with x this summer too, I know that was really hard on you. I hope it continues to stick next year so you've got less to worry about all the time

@grr-bark-bark You got your vacation!! I know it's been scary for you lately between not fronting as often and having to deal with most of our family attachments, but you continue to be a lot tougher about it than anyone else in here. I'm really glad you're not having to do as much lately, I know it was taking a toll on you, and I hope in the future you can front for more mundane things sometimes like anybody else. Even if you've fronted less, you're still sort of the only thing keeping us together, so thank you for being that for us. I'm sorry you had to front to yell at Rain so often

@spaces-first-barbeque I don't think we've ever spoken actually. Hi nice to meet you. I'm sorry you have to deal with the after-effects of me fronting a lot. I know you haven't had a lot of time to develop yet, but I'm glad you seem to be processing some of our feelings about finally accepting we might possibly be disabled. I know that can be very taxing, so thank you. I'm sorry everyone's weird about your source. My advise is to pick a secret code name, that mostly worked out for me

@tears-you-asunder I'm so so sorry you've had to front so much jesus christ. I think I'd die. I won't get into your personal business too much for the sake of not getting either of us in trouble, but I really hope something happens within the next year to make things easier on you. I'm sorry it all sort of gets brushed aside, I know that can be really discouraging in the long term. For what it's worth, I think you've done a wonderful job of balancing your job and having to host for most of the year. I'd be willing to go along with your plan if you decide that's the best way to go about your situation. Also thanks for letting me in your little band, I know I haven't been able to participate much, but it's nice to be included in things like that

Kurogiri- Mwah. Ily. I hope we can continue to front together more now that you don't have to worry as much about Rain or fronting in front of people, if I'm going to improve I'd much rather you be by my side for it. Thank you for helping with things internally, and for doing most of the cleaning in our room when Rain left. Regardless of how much you've tried to stay in the headspace as much as possible, I think you've done really well anyway. I'm sorry everyone still gets snippy about the belt, myself included, but it's really very impressive you were able to do that at all. I wish you got more credit for the times you do things like that

@nya-transes-ur-gender Um erm ah sorry I've been really distant this year. I'm sure you know why, so I won't get into it. I'm really glad that you seem to be someone who will stick around, given you've been here two and a half years now. I don't really know what I'd be without you helping me. I'm sorry this year's been so hard on you, and that you've had so much to manage mostly alone. I'm also sorry about the whole Mizu5 thing, that seemed miserable. I know your job is frustrating, and really slow work, but any progress is good progress, especially when it's really just you and Shorter actually doing anything about it. I hope I can be less of a pain in the ass this coming year, at least for your sake. I love you, and I miss you very much

@collector-of-hats-and-emos I hope everyone gets off your ass a little next year. I'm sorry they started bugging you about things they've remembered, even if most of them don't now, I wish they'd leave you alone about it until you're ready. Thanks for handling a lot of times we've had to keep the front under watch, and for dealing with Rain so much. That's really not your job, and I'm sorry you're stuck being the best one to do it. I hope you get some more time to front and just be a kid soon

@shehopesimcursedforever RIP please wake up. I'm really grateful to you for dealing with most of the spring/summer trauma dates, that was a lot to manage, especially given you're only barely a year old. I'm sorry it's such an overwhelming amount of work to do, and that none of us are really all that cooperative. You've proven to be an extremely hard and dedicated worker, and I'm glad you decided to take on such a difficult role purely out of wanting to do the right thing. Not a lot of people manage to stick around for longer than a week like that, so it's very impressive. Even if you can't keep up with it, I'm thankful for what you did do already

@cisgender-male Noooo don't detransition you're so sexy ahahaha /ref I'm sorry you seem to get stuck fronting when we're socializing a lot. I don't know if recent developments are you growing or regressing, so I won't comment one way or the other just in case, but aside from that I think you've done a really good job holding it together. I know it's a pain dealing with those of us that are more feminine, but I think it's really big of you to not hold it against us. I'm sorry it ended up that we still can't transition for a while. I hope it's everything you want and more if we ever do get around to it

[astr0-philia]

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟙: 𝕎𝕖𝕝𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕋𝕠 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕍𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕒𝕚𝕟'𝕤 𝕎𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕

Prolouge 1 2

[Y/N] POV:

My eyes finally opened as if they had been closed for a millenia.  'Why the hell is it so dark...???'  Yes, that was my first thought. It was pitch-black, just like the mirror. The darkness felt as if it was swallowing me up. It was terrifying. I don't like this at all.  'Where is this?'  A bead of sweat rolled down my face. 

How did I not notice where I was? This is scary. As I looked around, with trembling hands I touched everywhere as if to find solace in finding something familiar to hold onto.

Then as my hands moved below me I felt the cushion underneath. It was soft as if covered in silk and fluff. It reminded me of the chairs and cushions in my library where I would spend most of my time reading and passing time. Tears were welling up in my eyes. Suddenly I slammed myself back into reality by slapping my cheeks 'Ok ! '  The slap started to sting. I seriously cannot be;ieve any of this is real though.  'I need to get out of here, this place is Uncomfortable...'  With annoyance I looked around as if I hadn't already. ' Dang this space really cramp'  As I started to nudge the top, but It wouldn't even budge at all. 

Panic was the first thought that came to my mind and panic is what I did.

I started to pound at the lid with panic.  'I don't want to be stuck here forever!'   I start to pound at the lid. I can't believe I am so naive! What if some kidnapped me! I can' t be stuck here forever! Then in my moment of panic I heard a voice.....

"Darn it, people are coming soon! Grr....Better get the uniform fast...." mumbled a high-pitched voice.

'Who the hell was that? The person's voice sounded high-pitched like they had inhaled helium?'

The person as if on cue walked towards my box at a rapid pace, making me stunned. I froze in place. Was this really it? Was I the future empress of Andromeda really going to die?

*Starts to recite the holy bible of Andromeda*

"Oooo.... I don't think I want this one. This coffin looks shabby as hell. Hey, that one looks cool! I want that one!"

As if the heavens heard my plea the helium voiced individual scurried off to the coffin in a terrifyingly quick pace.  'Wait....COFFIN????'  I was in a freaking coffin? Who in the right mind would put a person in a coffin.....

'Damn did the soldiers really think I dropped dead or something?'

"Ugh- why is this lid so heavy? Guess I'll have to use my last resort...."

Then it felt hot. So hot that the coffin I was in was starting to become humid and even more uncofortable. I do not like this at all. 'It feels as if i am getting burned alive....don't tell me....AM I ACTUALLY GETTING BURNED ALIVE??? ' 

Then all of sudden I heard a new voice.

"You, why are you awake already?!" said the high pitched voice.

Then the new voice, as if had just woken up from deep sleep, replied with "A t-talking raccoon?!"

'Ok, excuse me, a talking racoon? Is the guy out of his mind or something?'

The voice sounded like a male. Maybe this guy could help me get out! And maybe he can help me find out how to get out of this place. So then I screamed.

"Hey whoever is out there help me! Get me out of here! Please!" I begged in plea.

I could not handle being in this cramped and humid coffin anymore. It was getting very uncomfortable.

As if hearing my plea. I heard the person scurry over in a fast pace towards my coffin and start to pull. I got the gist of the plan and started pushing as well. This is such a mess.

I don’t like this situation at all! I just wanna go back to my palace and see my family again!

"I-it’s opening! Just push a bit more" said the stranger.

"I'm trying! I’m trying!!! It's just so hard to budge!" I felt my energy getting drained from me.

With the last of my strength I kicked the lid of the coffin as hard as I could. 

Then boom 💥

The lid flew off the coffin and almost hit the head of the stranger. The next I knew I was falling from the coffin at high speeds. Just as I was about to hit the floor, I closed my eyes waiting for impact.

Then I collided with something.

“Oof-"

’Huh? That didn’t hurt…..’

I opened my eyes slowly….. I was on top of the stranger. 

I.Was.On.Top.Of.The.Stranger.

Why is my luck so bad?

I looked at the man’s face in a hurry to see who caught me.

…..was this the man who just saved me?

Well damn... he looks kinda cute. Also why was his chest so soft? 

‘Dude has man-boobs fr’

Well was very nice to look at as well. His face has a sharp jawline and hints of baby fat but it was still very cute. He had black eyes and black hair too. To sum it up he was handsome.

As I was laying there the man caught me staring and asked “Are you okay?” In slight concern.

It was then when he said that the situation had dawned on me. I was still on the man.

I got up as quickly as possible,

"I am very sorry! I just w-wanted to get out and-" Why did I stutter! Now he'll think I am weird......

"It's okay." Even his voice sounded a bit hoarse. It was probably because I fell on him. I feel kinda bad…...

"What's your name?" I asked trying to start a conversation to diminish the awkward atmosphere.

"My name is Enma Yuuken and I am a first year in college. What’s your name?" He asked in curiosity.

Knowing me I was prepared to answer this question.

"I am the royal princess of the planet Andromeda. My name is [Y/N] Alastair, it is a pleasure to meet you." Heh. His jaw slacked in suprise and looked at me with wide eyes.

Did I say too much? He looks a bit out of himself right now.

"W-wait a princess-" Was that too much for him?

'Hmmm….. Nahhhh’

"Hey what the hell are you two doing? Did you forget about the great Grim?!" exclaimed the high-pitched voice. What's with people cutting each off today?

I turned my head around trying to find the human with the high-pitched voice, but instead saw a raccoon. My face contorted into one of confusion and surprise. Was the guy Enma Yuuken really telling the truth?

’Well damn, guess I was wrong.’

"You better give me your robes if you don't want to face the wrath of the great grim! There's no time to chit-chat!"

"Why would we give you our robes?" I replied back wanting to receive an answer but instead was faced with a huge blue flame thrown at me. Just as it was about to hit me, Yuuken jumped in front of me and pulled us both out of the way.

"Give you robes now-"

In the rush of the moment we both ran together to the safety of the hallways trying to get the raccoon off our trail. Then we reached a library. It was teeming with towers and towers of stacked books. Looked even bigger than the library we had in our palace. It looked amazing. 

As we entered I heard Yuuken mumble something, "If this is a dream please let me wake up." he whispered. 

'Me too, my man. Seriously how did we end up here anyways?' 

Getting bored I turned from Yuuken and looked around. As I looked around our surroundings, I couldn't believe what I saw.

Floating bookshelves. How in the world were they able to accomplish that. 

"Did you think you could run away from me!? You lowly humans!" A voice suddenly interrupted my thoughts.

I turned around only to see the fire-breathing cat. "OH MY GOD?! How did you appear here so fast?" I screamed in terror.

"Now, if you don't want to be roasted whole, give me those clothesーFugya!?" A flash of black appeared in my vision. I couldn't identify what it was but it sounded like it hurt a lot.

"It hurts! What's this string!?" In pain as something wrapped around him with a vice grip.

Looking closely at the object wrapping him my jaw dropped. Was that a whip?

Me and Yuuken stared in disbelief as a guy with a bird mask came up to us with a whip in hand.  It looked too kinky and weird for its own good. Grim was tied up in the whip and was grunting in what sounded as grunts of pain and displeasure. The sight was very unpleasant to watch.

"It's not a string. It's the whip of love! Aah, I finally found you." Turning to us he exclaimed. "You're this year's new student, right? You should not be wandering around like this! Also to have a familiar! It's against the rules in this school, I'm afraid." he warned us, putting his hands on his hips. First of all okay????

Second of all....school? I didn't sign for any school? I already have royal tutore back home in Andromeda.

Third of all. A familiar? Since when did was grim a familiar? He's probably talking about Grim being Yuuken's familiar-

As I turned around to look at him in a questioning gaze, I looked at him in disbelief as even he looked confused. Was it not his either? He then also looked at Grim and spoke,

"Sir, that thing is not my familiar."

"Yeah and it's not mine either." I said gathering up all my courage.

"Yeah! Let me go- I'm not this guy's familiar!" Grim shouted in annoyance. That whip looked quite uncomfortable in his defense. 

"Oh what a rebellious familiar you have, well then let's head to the mirror chamber not quickly." said the bird man, ignoring our statement. Was he serious? Why was this adult man ignoring our statements?

I  in disbelief took a closer look at the bird man. His eyes were hidden behind his mask and his yellow eyes shone amidst the darkness they held. They were like amethysts shining in the light. He had a large jacket on his shoulders which had irregular feathers sticking out of them, quite fashionable I would say. He wore a hat atop his head. His ears were pointed as if he was those of an elf from my homeland. His hair was also quite wavy and messy too.

"Where is this?" asked Yuu in a apprehensive voice.

The bird man sweat-dropped and coughed at the question, as he answered. "This is Night Raven also known as NRC. Its a place where magicians with exceptional talents gather, Twisted Wonderland's most prestigious magician training academy." in a monotone voice he spoke. "I am the acting director and headmage of this college, my name is Dire Crowley." So that's his name. Also Why is this unresponsible man the headmage of this school?

"The chosen ones are called into this academy through the door, from all over the world. In your place, too, surely a black carriage carrying a door came to pick you up." Wait what....wasn't the thing that brought me here a black mirror?

"Wait so you're saying I was forcefully brought here by a carriage against my own will!?" shouted Yuuken with shock.

"Yes, yes. Happens to everyone who enters this school" Crowley sweat dropped as he calmly responded.

"I was brought in here by a mirror though?" In unsureness and contemplation.

"A Mirror? How...hmm.... interesting.... Well then let's head to your orientation now!" Okay bro let that go too fast.

I couldn't help but give him a side-eye. He is really too ignorant for his own good.

As I looked at Yuuken in acknowledgement as if asking him if I could follow him, he nodded. So then I quickly grabbed his hand and headed to where Crowley was. Grim was grunting and wiggling  as if trying to get out of the vice-like grasp of the whip. Then Crowley...Crowley was just whistling and enjoying his day. While me and Yuuken were behind him trying not to give up on life. 

This is not a great day.

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Author note:  I hope you guys like this chapter ;) Wait till you see what I got planned for the next chapter!

[truearchangel]

"Grr! I am the scary all powerful Radio Demon! Fear me!"

[alvaeris]

OHMYGOD YEAH!!! So sorry that was so rude of me, yesyes lets skin each otherr!!!! OH horray we're friends. theres a no refund policy on that statement btw just so you know!! && i. ykw yes okay I'll take your word that 2 hours late is 2 hours earlier than 4 hours late. wait im rereading it and it's making sense. i thingk? yeah i think

good to know you have realised your mistake!!! i was thinking i'd have to go all eris scary (trademarked) on you. because i am so, soooo scary. grr. if i had a cloak i would be dramatically flaring it right now. why is there no emoji for dramatic cloak flaring!! technology is sooo useless. YIPPEE, FRIENDS! i am no longer friendless. i have a FRIEND. begone, all you friendless deviants. i am not one of you!!!!! of course my math is right! i'm reallllyyyyy good at math.........!

[cyclizarkid]

Things people get wrong about Team Star

By: A member of Team Star

People tend to misunderstand us so. This.

The Bosses (Not including Big Boss cause I don't know them that well):

Giamoco (POV you're me and can't pronounce his name)/Momo (Giacomo)

Assumption: Jerk stickler to the rules. He will Get You if you aren't perfect and don't follow the rules 10000% of the time. Grr Scary Dark Types >:(

Truth: Lol music dork. Will Make You Tracks. Shares Bestie Status with Atticus. Will probably cry if you somehow manage to get him a Poochyena (He has seen Pictures).

Attie (Atticus)

Assumption: Is mean and will Get You if you aren't perfectly propr and have perfect grammar. Is a weird meanie ninja guy

Truth: The!!!!!! Fashion!!!!!!!! Ever!!!!!!!!!! Has a speech quirk thing (Gotta love the tism) and really likes classical literature. Is actually the funniest guy ever. Shares Bestie status with Giacomo.

Ortie/Tega (Ortega)

Assumption: Rich Kid Brat(tm)

Truth: Mechanicc....!!! Fairy types are scary but he's cool. He and Attie are tied for Most Swag (That's a lie Eri has most swag. Or Mela). So very baby but don't tell him I said that.

Mels (Mela)

Assumption: Angry grrrr will fight you

Truth: The human version of [Insert Pokémon equivalent of a chihuahua]. Small so acts angry as a Defense Mechanism. Actually kinda shy. Can't whether she or Attie is more girlboss but she's definitely Girlie #1. Pretty dang She/her, maybe the most ever.

Riri (Eri)

Assumption: Ahhhh scary big girl she's gonna murder me ahhhh

Truth: So tall. So She. Probably crush #1 (But like in a friend way now). The nicest ever dONT EVER SAY MEAN THINGS TO HER you WILL be in danger (Of me and Mels). I'm not a girl but she still invites me to girl's night so. The Best Ever.

Team Star (As a whole)

Assumption: Scary bullies ahhhhh

Truth: A bunch of bullied kids who got together to fight back and got stuck with the consequences (Even though nobody else made any effort to help). I'm not saying what we did was okay but I am asking for people to realize that we're working to get past that. Thank you so much to Director Clavell for actually listening to us and getting our side of the story.

A lot of the more.. violent? Wrong word but you get the idea. Kids were new members. They wanted to join 'The Scary Gang!' For the most part we just wanted to be left alone, not to build up a reputation.

Anyways sorry for getting (kinda) serious here just wanted to like. Clear things up. Cause some peopleare still like Grrr all Team Star kids should be EXPELLED GRRR!! So thanks for listening if you read this!

Hasta la vistar! ☆

[helloangelu]

ily, nov!

grr kita nyo yang green and pinks na yan? I'M SO FREAKING GRATEFUL..

if you scroll through all my 2024 journals here, you'll see that ok :) and happy dominated my months until the 3rd week of march. really really reaaaally thought this would be my year (wow) kasi i was genuinely happy that it was actually scary. also, year of the dragon din ako and sabi nila, this year would be great for us. i believed and i hoped.

you know the rest, got heartbroken and everything changed — every month became filled with gray ~ down. it was just one fateful day that affected the entirety of my being, my self-worth, and everything i believed in (wait pang december na ata dapat 'to eme).

these past few months have been full of changes. the transition period (august, september, october) was dominated pa by green and a some grays kasi na change is scary. pero now that i'm finally finding my place in the new phase and place i am in, i'm starting to welcome and embrace the joy that i once lost (ang arte?). i met so many nice people with really different backgrounds and perspectives that i treasure so much! i'm also able to spend more time with my family, which i'm eternaly grateful for!

of course there are still some days where i'm down. hindi naman siguro yun mawawala for so many reasons. and if we're being honest, i'm still a little terrified. parati akong takot maging masaya kasi andaming pwedeng mangyari.

but i'm just trying to surrender everything for now. sobrang grateful ko lang talaga. here's to hope and peace and a good december :")

if for some reason, you read all of this, thank you. i hope you have a really nice holiday season! 🎄

[1-deadgirlwalking-1]

7/6/2024

it is 5:59am. I didn’t sleep obvi. I’ve been staying up all night for. Like two months straight at this point. Less than a handful of regular night sleeps. I go outside only a handful of times in a week most of the time, and 95% of those times is going outside for two seconds to hand something to my dad then go back in immediately after. Going out for something other than to the store is like once or twice a month. Generally.

I’ve become practically addicted to AI chats. I keep deleting then redownloading apps because I’ll spend hours on them doing nothing, until I am forced to delete them because I can’t stop. Then I’m like “Oh, I’ll redownload it and use it moderately this time!!” And the cycle continues.

There are my most general life / mental updates.

Theoretically I want to get better but the safety and comfort of my bed is too alluring! I don’t want to leave it. I don’t want to go outside. Scary.

I was watching Bocchi the Rock recently, and her complaining that joining a band didn’t fix all her unhelpful habits made me realize that getting friends won’t fix all my unhelpful habits or make me healthy and stable either.

Not having friends or not going outside or not doing this or that is not the root of all my problems, it’s all just me, and I’m the only one who can change me. Which upsets me. I don’t wanna get better I wanna sleep. All day forever and ever. Getting better is too much work. I don’t wanna do anything ever. But I want to be better and do things, but I also don’t. Grr.

I don’t want to do anything. Sigh. I wanna wallow in my own misery and go back to all the old unhelpful habits I have gotten rid of. They’re comforting. It’s easier. It feels good. Getting better DOESN’T feel good, it feels unfamiliar, and like I’m always doing everything wrong.

I wish it was night time forever. Stay awake in bed forever. No one else but me because they’re all asleep. I wish I was nocturnal.

Also Bocchi is literally me. I too fear that I won’t break out of my bad habits by the time the invisible timer in my head goes off and I’ll be forced to become a corporate slave where I’ll just get fired over and over because I’m so bad that no job will want me, and after I grow tired of that I’ll eventually become a NEET leeching off of my poor parents. Technically I am a NEET right now since it’s summer…

I wish I was in Bocchi’s position. She’s living the shut-in with no friend’s dream. The whole show people just keep approaching her and forcefully becoming her friends, giving her things to do, and places to be (+ a job). I WISH. But alas, the onus is on me to make my life better.

I’ll be going to sleep now because the sun has come up and it scares me. I don’t wanna be awak.

It is 7:51pm. I’m working on some art fights. I’ve finished 5 attacks in two days cause I’ve just been making memes. They’re much easier and less intimidating to draw than poses and stuff. Easier to make look neat, easier to finish.

But my (only) IRL friend attacked me so I have to attack them back, I will make something nice looking for them! Even if it’s just a sketch.

I’m feeling less terrible about the concept of getting better and doing the work myself now that it’s not 6:30 in the morning. But it’s still so intimidating, and like “Do I haaave tooo…” Blehh.

[revenantlamb]

Okay more messmer posting cuz i love her and i want to pamper her w cute gifts n make her look Pretty !!/ stuff below the cut cuz i put in some images and the post got a tad bit long

this is what i mean by "fancy braids" .. very pretty i think it would suit her red hair super super well to put flowers and weaving in some ribbon too ( couldnt find any braids w ribbon grr but U get the idea )

OKAY i cant explain these dresses well but uhm the back & waist support w looser tops ( above the boning or corset ) and skirts sounds pretty good for her.. id have to assume she'd need little holes n stuff cut into them for the snakes but these look pretty close to the ideas i had for the bases of the dresses.. theyre all pink cuz i love pink and couldnt find any other colors aurgh . shoes r pretty much the same as always.. sandals n flats...

i dont think she would wear makeup often.. maybe a little eyeshadow and limited blush ( enough to get her to not look like a "Corpse" she says ) but thats it.. probably a dark brown or something dark and not very colorful for the eyeshadow??

im trying to think of like. material birthday n holiday gift stuff but shes not too into collecting items like i am so this is staying short.. im the Collect and Hoard Everything one in this relationship :pp she likes quality time n trust stuff better ( SCARY but i do it for her.. )

( i WILL give her an unintentional trinket collection on her shelves thou . bird behavior )

[the-literal-sun]

it's completely ok I promise 😭 you're so wholesome I cant

I AM NOT WHOLESOME!!!

I AM A SCARY PLAGUE MAN

GRR-