#Grr I am scary

[stormscience]

EVEN MORE Art for "To Mend Without Thread"

Even more Mend Art! This one is from a flashback in an upcoming chapter. Little Adolin learning to fight with a far too put together Zahel. I love his serious little frowny face!

[whumpshaped]

loving the consensus between absolutely everyone

[beastsovrevelation]

I was looking through my notes for Good Omens fanfiction, and realized almost every damn story includes Crowley having a baby.

There's the one where Heaven and Hell decide to use an angel baby carried by a demon as a diplomatic tool, leading into Crowley being protected by Michael, and them falling in love.

There's the one where she leaves her baby with Anathema and disappears, which triggers all the following events - from the search, to Aziraphale's trial, and everything else.

There's the one where she has to supply the new Antichrist, which leads to her and Lucifer falling in love, and her being crowned the Queen of Hell. (Well, this one is really two stories set in different timelines, in the second one the "baby" is like 27)

In the one inspired by a dream, she does have a baby eventually, but that's far from the worst thing that happens to her. Gabriel's treatment of her after is... How the Hell will I write this damn thing if I can't even think about it.

There's no baby in the one where she gets tortured with diluted holy water.

I see I have no storyline with male Crowley just yet... Fine, that's not true. I do have some thoughts for Crowley x Fem!Lucifer... It could include a new Antichrist, too. And, Crowley wouldn't be the pregnant one for once. But, dealing with pregnant Lucifer would probably be even scarier.

[volfoss]

im very normal about media i assure you

[nikethestatue]

Rant incoming.

Maybe I am a bit of a psycho (okay, not a bit) but for the love of God and all that is holy--Sarah, give us the Shadowsinger that you keep hinting at.

I need at least ONE of these men to go dark. Go fucking black.

We keep hearing about the violence, the terror, the sheer presence of them that would make a grown man piss his pants---but we never see it?

The one and ONLY time where I feel it happened (and marginally too) was when Rowan skinned (not gonna say who) alive.

But it's kind of like--if SJM insists on making all these men ruthless warriors, torturers, the most powerful Fae in the kingdom or the world or whatever--then SHOW IT. Show us the men we are supposed to crave and fear.

We had Hunt, the Umbra Mortis, who barely ever 'mortis-nized' anyone ever. He was just a himbo who wanted to eat pizza and watch sunball.

Cassian, the Commander General, had one good run during the war and then became a human dildo.

Azriel cut the Attor a lil bit.

Give me the scary. The unhinged. I don't need cinnamon rolls. I want one of these dudes to rip out someone's heart and then fuck his ladylove on top of the corpse.

I am also so so so tired of the 'girl Power woooo!' thing that SJM keeps writing--where the women always take care of business and need no help, no protection, no revenge, no assistance from the men whatsoever. Why even bother making these men these illustrious warriors, when we know that Nesta can kill a Death God in 10 minutes, and Bryce can kill an Asteri in about 8 minutes.

I am beginning to wonder what is the point of men in SJMs' stories at all?

We had the 'Most Powerful High Lord In History' running around dropping to his knees, looking for a good OBGYN for all of ACOSF. We had the Commander General taking lots and lots of time from his clearly not very busy schedule to train some girlies and have repetitive sex. Lucien, not much of a warrior to begin with, just hangs out at his country manor. Azriel seems to be working at least, but mostly he is just being angsty.

Like there's been a shipwar raging for 3.5 years over these guys, and honestly, for what? Azriel is a spy, a torturer and 'a freak'. If it all ends up being for nothing, and he is just going to be some pining useless follower, carrying Elain's purse, whose 'freakiness' consists of light spanking and a nipple bite, then honestly, GAs or whoever, can have him.

I feel like 90% of all ACOTAR readers came to the series through Rhys. Because Rhys was so shifty. So cold. So unremorseful. Rhys was...INTERESTING.

What happened? Where are the interesting male characters? We know that SJm is not GRR Martin or anything, but come on.

Let's even take Lucien--and I don't give a shit about Lucien--but make Lucien...interesting? If he is so wily and crafty, why can't Lucien at least TRY to trick Elain into liking him, going out with him on a date? ANYTHING. Try to gaslight her, lie to her, trick her--do anything that makes me want to read about you. Eluciens keep whining about 'mean Elain' but like, why are they satisfied with this limp noodle of a painfully boring character? Why no demands of fucking everyone over and going after what he wants? 'Oh, he is so respectful'! Who cares? Why do you want to read that in a fantasy book about supposedly violent and brilliant fairies?

I am reading all kinds of things outside of ACOTAR, and I reflect and I think, OMG, SJMs males are boring AF!!!! Why do they even inspire a glimmer of desire or interest? They literally do nothing memorable or interesting.

Honestly, if the next book is the same, and she murders Azriel's character, it will be a big fat goodbye from me.

I am holding on to hope that she'll write him and even Lucien somehow, somewhat compellingly.

[ramblingsfromthytruly]

4th September 2024, Wednesday

*sigh* my alarm woke me up at 5.30 and i just turned it off and was like *hmm just a few moments* yk how it goes.. also i had this insanely scary dream of a masked murderer chasing me that ended with me getting stabbed in the back, but in a weird way i was sorta making the plot as i ran from the killer?? once i woke up, my first thought was *that was so scary i am def killing my character like that* (from my novel)

day 10/50 productivity challenge

🕒 7:00 a.m. - for school

morning skincare

extended duolingo streak

this day was so tiring. wednesdays are full days so maybe that's why.. but i'm kinda loving physics, don't get me wrong it's frustrating and makes you cry, etc, etc but it's so interesting!! especially gravity and motion and stuff. we're doing ch-4: laws of motion in class and that teacher sure is capable of sucking out any joy you get in the subject but i'm staying strong and still interested. def prefer this chapter over the first 2 even if it's also harder. also yapped about my novel to my friend.

came back home and slept like a log for HOURS.. got some rest ig

re-planned my day

talked on phone with my best friend (she's changed but i feel she's still the same with me, like i'm the only constant in her life apart from her family) (we're planning on meeting for my birthday but that's 1.5 months away, grr we live so close but can't meet it's so excruciating)

took headbath

night skincare

practiced playing keyboard

prepared for psychology seminar (istg i am not gonna rest until i'm done with this)

🕒 12:00 a.m. - went to sleep earlier so i could wake up earlier but it was pointless 🤡

🎧 we fell in love in october - girl in red

[deimosbreakfrost]

Total Drama Island (2023) S2 "Rewrited" au

A possibly cringe Fan Fic that I'll hate on the future

So, this is a fan fic of an Rewrited au of mine... """""Rewrited""""" because I'll change alot of things and I am just making this fan fic for fun while showing you guys what I would change.

Okay, let I start this modern tragedy already.

First part:

Episode 01, The kids will (not) be okay:

-The episode starts with Chris, Chef and the entire cast from the Total Drama island (2023) on a plane, going to a new season in a "new" place. Chris was talking to someone by a Walkie Talkie.

*Biiz*

???: Mr. McLean, seriously that you're lying to them saying that they're going to some kind of "total drama: World Tour" 2?

Chris: umm... Maybe--?

???: McLean! That's pratically clickbai-

Chris: Hey! Don't you dare use this "modern generation" language on me! Anyways, be ready because we're almost getting to there.

???: ah, ok-

- Chris ends the transmission

Chris: wow! That boy still annoying...

Chef: Chris, we're recording!

Chris: Ah, don't worry! After this introduction we will be finally free! ... I mean, just me, not you!

Chef: grr...

Chris: ah, calm down! Anyways, it's been a year 'total drama fans'! Since we don't see Each other THAT long, I'll give y'all a quick recap.

Last season on Total Drama Island:

16 new contestants showed up with the dream of taking that 1 million dollars price.

And the eliminations we're surprising!

Caleb was just there. until he even had the chance of doing something, Bowie made everyone eliminate him! Poor boy...

Nichelle humiliated herself Infront of everyone.

Emma HAD a chance of showing to everyone on live tv that Chase is (or was) a horrible person, but Chase was luckier than her.

Julia was boring, the way she talked, the "spiritual, love and peace" things that she normally talks about was annoying enough to her team.

Wayne would do anything and everything for his best friend Raj, and he was more than happy when he found out about his buddy's secret!

Scary Girl was Creepy, but not for Axel and Ripper! They we're her Unic friends that she had in a while, and the Unic ones that think that her actions are more annoying than scary.

Priya was pathetic! Seriously that she think her parents are so great that she easily go insane when someone criticizes them? Pff, surely the most well deserved elimination of that season.

Mk was smart, a little too much. And because of that, she went from being Bowie's Allie, to be a traitor! Well, it was that, that Bowie made everyone believe.

Raj has a secret, he loves Bowie! And because of that, he made our fandom go wild for them! The fandom loves them! Especially that people from that one Social Media that has "Tum" on the start...

And Chase knowed About that! The fact that Bowie and Raj we're dating, of course. Not the fact that the fandom is crazy for them. So, as a indirect revenge for MK, he was double eliminated with Raj!

Ripper and Damien have a... Interesting friendship. A "nerd hater" and a nerd!

Ripper was... Adorable? Yeah, he went from being a pathetic alpha male wannabe, from being a even nicer version of Owen, and because of that "adorable" personality that he gained he made Damien, Zee and especially Chase be his best friends! (Axel and scary girl too) Good for him, I guess.

Damien screamed a lot until His friends convinced him that being public humiliated in live television isn't that bad!

And Millie was nice, she tried to write a book about how much this generation is potentially bad, but after Priya's elimination, she learned that it was just a exception! There IS good people from this generation, you just need to find the right ones! (Priya not included)

And let's go to the final 3...

Axel, she had everything to win! The strength, the power, the personality... But, Ripper and Scary Girl missed her, so they finded a way to make her go back to them! That's what you gain when you are friends with a fake emo and ex-bad boy.

Zee, how did he got in there?! He could easily be eliminated until the merge but no one wanted to! And if wasn't for the "milk" part of the last challenge, he would have won! But he didn't.

And Bowie won! He used and eliminated half of the cast not counting with Wayne and Raj, of course.

Chris: So yeah, EVERYONE that I mentioned is back!

-Then it cuts to Chris in the passagers cabin with the 16 participants.

All the 16 participants are in here

The one that went out first:

Caleb: I'll make YOU guys regret voting me off...

-Caleb said in anger, while pointing at Bowie

Bowie: geez...

Ripper: you got a bit 'edgy' after 1 year, huh?

Caleb: what?

The most misunderstood one:

Ripper: huh?

Chase: wait, since when Ripper is misunderstood?

And the worse one:

Chase: excuse me?!

Emma: pff...

And of course, the winner:

Bowie: yeah, exactly, me!

Chris: well, I don't know if you guys noticed but Bowie was the Unic villain after a long time that won a season, the Unic one that did that was heather.

Bowie: wait, reall-

Chris: okay, this is slowly getting boring! So let's make the things end quickly!

-the ground below all the participants opened up, making all the participants fall into The water.

Chris: Ahaha... I'll miss that, and Chef already leaved without even saying "bye"!!

-Chris quickly ran to the drivers cabin, grabbing the plane's volant and taking control of it.

Chris: arg! Okay, I'll be quick! This surely the last time you all will see me hosting this program! Yeah, this is Sooo sad! But listen up! The future is bullet proof and the aftermath WILL be secundary! And time to them do it now and do it loud! I am Chris McLean, and I'll never, EVER see y'all again! Bye, losers!!

-after Chris leaved everyone behind, the scene cuts to the brand new hosts

...

Topher: Yeah, we're finally hosting our favorite reality show ever!

Sierra: But it's just so sad that Chris is gone for like... Forever?

Topher: nah, judging by the way he is he'll surely randomly appear when we Least expect it or something. But anyways, yeah, Chris finally gave his role as host for someone else!

Sierra: two to be exact.

Topher: yeah, right! Anyways, I am Topher! I was a participant of Pahkitew island!

Sierra: and I'm Sierra--!! I was a participant of World Tour!

Topher: and if you haven't noticed yet...

*Both Sierra and Topher say together*

We are the brand new hosts of total drama island

...

Topher: season 2.

Sierra: you don't need to explain it to the Audience-

Topher: okay, now pull the opening already.

[astr0-philia]

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟙: 𝕎𝕖𝕝𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕋𝕠 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕍𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕒𝕚𝕟'𝕤 𝕎𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕

Prolouge 1 2

[Y/N] POV:

My eyes finally opened as if they had been closed for a millenia.  'Why the hell is it so dark...???'  Yes, that was my first thought. It was pitch-black, just like the mirror. The darkness felt as if it was swallowing me up. It was terrifying. I don't like this at all.  'Where is this?'  A bead of sweat rolled down my face. 

How did I not notice where I was? This is scary. As I looked around, with trembling hands I touched everywhere as if to find solace in finding something familiar to hold onto.

Then as my hands moved below me I felt the cushion underneath. It was soft as if covered in silk and fluff. It reminded me of the chairs and cushions in my library where I would spend most of my time reading and passing time. Tears were welling up in my eyes. Suddenly I slammed myself back into reality by slapping my cheeks 'Ok ! '  The slap started to sting. I seriously cannot be;ieve any of this is real though.  'I need to get out of here, this place is Uncomfortable...'  With annoyance I looked around as if I hadn't already. ' Dang this space really cramp'  As I started to nudge the top, but It wouldn't even budge at all. 

Panic was the first thought that came to my mind and panic is what I did.

I started to pound at the lid with panic.  'I don't want to be stuck here forever!'   I start to pound at the lid. I can't believe I am so naive! What if some kidnapped me! I can' t be stuck here forever! Then in my moment of panic I heard a voice.....

"Darn it, people are coming soon! Grr....Better get the uniform fast...." mumbled a high-pitched voice.

'Who the hell was that? The person's voice sounded high-pitched like they had inhaled helium?'

The person as if on cue walked towards my box at a rapid pace, making me stunned. I froze in place. Was this really it? Was I the future empress of Andromeda really going to die?

*Starts to recite the holy bible of Andromeda*

"Oooo.... I don't think I want this one. This coffin looks shabby as hell. Hey, that one looks cool! I want that one!"

As if the heavens heard my plea the helium voiced individual scurried off to the coffin in a terrifyingly quick pace.  'Wait....COFFIN????'  I was in a freaking coffin? Who in the right mind would put a person in a coffin.....

'Damn did the soldiers really think I dropped dead or something?'

"Ugh- why is this lid so heavy? Guess I'll have to use my last resort...."

Then it felt hot. So hot that the coffin I was in was starting to become humid and even more uncofortable. I do not like this at all. 'It feels as if i am getting burned alive....don't tell me....AM I ACTUALLY GETTING BURNED ALIVE??? ' 

Then all of sudden I heard a new voice.

"You, why are you awake already?!" said the high pitched voice.

Then the new voice, as if had just woken up from deep sleep, replied with "A t-talking raccoon?!"

'Ok, excuse me, a talking racoon? Is the guy out of his mind or something?'

The voice sounded like a male. Maybe this guy could help me get out! And maybe he can help me find out how to get out of this place. So then I screamed.

"Hey whoever is out there help me! Get me out of here! Please!" I begged in plea.

I could not handle being in this cramped and humid coffin anymore. It was getting very uncomfortable.

As if hearing my plea. I heard the person scurry over in a fast pace towards my coffin and start to pull. I got the gist of the plan and started pushing as well. This is such a mess.

I don’t like this situation at all! I just wanna go back to my palace and see my family again!

"I-it’s opening! Just push a bit more" said the stranger.

"I'm trying! I’m trying!!! It's just so hard to budge!" I felt my energy getting drained from me.

With the last of my strength I kicked the lid of the coffin as hard as I could. 

Then boom 💥

The lid flew off the coffin and almost hit the head of the stranger. The next I knew I was falling from the coffin at high speeds. Just as I was about to hit the floor, I closed my eyes waiting for impact.

Then I collided with something.

“Oof-"

’Huh? That didn’t hurt…..’

I opened my eyes slowly….. I was on top of the stranger. 

I.Was.On.Top.Of.The.Stranger.

Why is my luck so bad?

I looked at the man’s face in a hurry to see who caught me.

…..was this the man who just saved me?

Well damn... he looks kinda cute. Also why was his chest so soft? 

‘Dude has man-boobs fr’

Well was very nice to look at as well. His face has a sharp jawline and hints of baby fat but it was still very cute. He had black eyes and black hair too. To sum it up he was handsome.

As I was laying there the man caught me staring and asked “Are you okay?” In slight concern.

It was then when he said that the situation had dawned on me. I was still on the man.

I got up as quickly as possible,

"I am very sorry! I just w-wanted to get out and-" Why did I stutter! Now he'll think I am weird......

"It's okay." Even his voice sounded a bit hoarse. It was probably because I fell on him. I feel kinda bad…...

"What's your name?" I asked trying to start a conversation to diminish the awkward atmosphere.

"My name is Enma Yuuken and I am a first year in college. What’s your name?" He asked in curiosity.

Knowing me I was prepared to answer this question.

"I am the royal princess of the planet Andromeda. My name is [Y/N] Alastair, it is a pleasure to meet you." Heh. His jaw slacked in suprise and looked at me with wide eyes.

Did I say too much? He looks a bit out of himself right now.

"W-wait a princess-" Was that too much for him?

'Hmmm….. Nahhhh’

"Hey what the hell are you two doing? Did you forget about the great Grim?!" exclaimed the high-pitched voice. What's with people cutting each off today?

I turned my head around trying to find the human with the high-pitched voice, but instead saw a raccoon. My face contorted into one of confusion and surprise. Was the guy Enma Yuuken really telling the truth?

’Well damn, guess I was wrong.’

"You better give me your robes if you don't want to face the wrath of the great grim! There's no time to chit-chat!"

"Why would we give you our robes?" I replied back wanting to receive an answer but instead was faced with a huge blue flame thrown at me. Just as it was about to hit me, Yuuken jumped in front of me and pulled us both out of the way.

"Give you robes now-"

In the rush of the moment we both ran together to the safety of the hallways trying to get the raccoon off our trail. Then we reached a library. It was teeming with towers and towers of stacked books. Looked even bigger than the library we had in our palace. It looked amazing. 

As we entered I heard Yuuken mumble something, "If this is a dream please let me wake up." he whispered. 

'Me too, my man. Seriously how did we end up here anyways?' 

Getting bored I turned from Yuuken and looked around. As I looked around our surroundings, I couldn't believe what I saw.

Floating bookshelves. How in the world were they able to accomplish that. 

"Did you think you could run away from me!? You lowly humans!" A voice suddenly interrupted my thoughts.

I turned around only to see the fire-breathing cat. "OH MY GOD?! How did you appear here so fast?" I screamed in terror.

"Now, if you don't want to be roasted whole, give me those clothesーFugya!?" A flash of black appeared in my vision. I couldn't identify what it was but it sounded like it hurt a lot.

"It hurts! What's this string!?" In pain as something wrapped around him with a vice grip.

Looking closely at the object wrapping him my jaw dropped. Was that a whip?

Me and Yuuken stared in disbelief as a guy with a bird mask came up to us with a whip in hand.  It looked too kinky and weird for its own good. Grim was tied up in the whip and was grunting in what sounded as grunts of pain and displeasure. The sight was very unpleasant to watch.

"It's not a string. It's the whip of love! Aah, I finally found you." Turning to us he exclaimed. "You're this year's new student, right? You should not be wandering around like this! Also to have a familiar! It's against the rules in this school, I'm afraid." he warned us, putting his hands on his hips. First of all okay????

Second of all....school? I didn't sign for any school? I already have royal tutore back home in Andromeda.

Third of all. A familiar? Since when did was grim a familiar? He's probably talking about Grim being Yuuken's familiar-

As I turned around to look at him in a questioning gaze, I looked at him in disbelief as even he looked confused. Was it not his either? He then also looked at Grim and spoke,

"Sir, that thing is not my familiar."

"Yeah and it's not mine either." I said gathering up all my courage.

"Yeah! Let me go- I'm not this guy's familiar!" Grim shouted in annoyance. That whip looked quite uncomfortable in his defense. 

"Oh what a rebellious familiar you have, well then let's head to the mirror chamber not quickly." said the bird man, ignoring our statement. Was he serious? Why was this adult man ignoring our statements?

I  in disbelief took a closer look at the bird man. His eyes were hidden behind his mask and his yellow eyes shone amidst the darkness they held. They were like amethysts shining in the light. He had a large jacket on his shoulders which had irregular feathers sticking out of them, quite fashionable I would say. He wore a hat atop his head. His ears were pointed as if he was those of an elf from my homeland. His hair was also quite wavy and messy too.

"Where is this?" asked Yuu in a apprehensive voice.

The bird man sweat-dropped and coughed at the question, as he answered. "This is Night Raven also known as NRC. Its a place where magicians with exceptional talents gather, Twisted Wonderland's most prestigious magician training academy." in a monotone voice he spoke. "I am the acting director and headmage of this college, my name is Dire Crowley." So that's his name. Also Why is this unresponsible man the headmage of this school?

"The chosen ones are called into this academy through the door, from all over the world. In your place, too, surely a black carriage carrying a door came to pick you up." Wait what....wasn't the thing that brought me here a black mirror?

"Wait so you're saying I was forcefully brought here by a carriage against my own will!?" shouted Yuuken with shock.

"Yes, yes. Happens to everyone who enters this school" Crowley sweat dropped as he calmly responded.

"I was brought in here by a mirror though?" In unsureness and contemplation.

"A Mirror? How...hmm.... interesting.... Well then let's head to your orientation now!" Okay bro let that go too fast.

I couldn't help but give him a side-eye. He is really too ignorant for his own good.

As I looked at Yuuken in acknowledgement as if asking him if I could follow him, he nodded. So then I quickly grabbed his hand and headed to where Crowley was. Grim was grunting and wiggling  as if trying to get out of the vice-like grasp of the whip. Then Crowley...Crowley was just whistling and enjoying his day. While me and Yuuken were behind him trying not to give up on life. 

This is not a great day.

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Author note:  I hope you guys like this chapter ;) Wait till you see what I got planned for the next chapter!

[truearchangel]

"Grr! I am the scary all powerful Radio Demon! Fear me!"

[alvaeris]

OHMYGOD YEAH!!! So sorry that was so rude of me, yesyes lets skin each otherr!!!! OH horray we're friends. theres a no refund policy on that statement btw just so you know!! && i. ykw yes okay I'll take your word that 2 hours late is 2 hours earlier than 4 hours late. wait im rereading it and it's making sense. i thingk? yeah i think

good to know you have realised your mistake!!! i was thinking i'd have to go all eris scary (trademarked) on you. because i am so, soooo scary. grr. if i had a cloak i would be dramatically flaring it right now. why is there no emoji for dramatic cloak flaring!! technology is sooo useless. YIPPEE, FRIENDS! i am no longer friendless. i have a FRIEND. begone, all you friendless deviants. i am not one of you!!!!! of course my math is right! i'm reallllyyyyy good at math.........!

[cyclizarkid]

Things people get wrong about Team Star

By: A member of Team Star

People tend to misunderstand us so. This.

The Bosses (Not including Big Boss cause I don't know them that well):

Giamoco (POV you're me and can't pronounce his name)/Momo (Giacomo)

Assumption: Jerk stickler to the rules. He will Get You if you aren't perfect and don't follow the rules 10000% of the time. Grr Scary Dark Types >:(

Truth: Lol music dork. Will Make You Tracks. Shares Bestie Status with Atticus. Will probably cry if you somehow manage to get him a Poochyena (He has seen Pictures).

Attie (Atticus)

Assumption: Is mean and will Get You if you aren't perfectly propr and have perfect grammar. Is a weird meanie ninja guy

Truth: The!!!!!! Fashion!!!!!!!! Ever!!!!!!!!!! Has a speech quirk thing (Gotta love the tism) and really likes classical literature. Is actually the funniest guy ever. Shares Bestie status with Giacomo.

Ortie/Tega (Ortega)

Assumption: Rich Kid Brat(tm)

Truth: Mechanicc....!!! Fairy types are scary but he's cool. He and Attie are tied for Most Swag (That's a lie Eri has most swag. Or Mela). So very baby but don't tell him I said that.

Mels (Mela)

Assumption: Angry grrrr will fight you

Truth: The human version of [Insert Pokémon equivalent of a chihuahua]. Small so acts angry as a Defense Mechanism. Actually kinda shy. Can't whether she or Attie is more girlboss but she's definitely Girlie #1. Pretty dang She/her, maybe the most ever.

Riri (Eri)

Assumption: Ahhhh scary big girl she's gonna murder me ahhhh

Truth: So tall. So She. Probably crush #1 (But like in a friend way now). The nicest ever dONT EVER SAY MEAN THINGS TO HER you WILL be in danger (Of me and Mels). I'm not a girl but she still invites me to girl's night so. The Best Ever.

Team Star (As a whole)

Assumption: Scary bullies ahhhhh

Truth: A bunch of bullied kids who got together to fight back and got stuck with the consequences (Even though nobody else made any effort to help). I'm not saying what we did was okay but I am asking for people to realize that we're working to get past that. Thank you so much to Director Clavell for actually listening to us and getting our side of the story.

A lot of the more.. violent? Wrong word but you get the idea. Kids were new members. They wanted to join 'The Scary Gang!' For the most part we just wanted to be left alone, not to build up a reputation.

Anyways sorry for getting (kinda) serious here just wanted to like. Clear things up. Cause some peopleare still like Grrr all Team Star kids should be EXPELLED GRRR!! So thanks for listening if you read this!

Hasta la vistar! ☆

[wherefore-whinnies]

lemon (pos), rust, ruby, green, jade!!

I AM SOUR AND SCARY!!! 🥰🥰🥰 of course we can touch grass together! I'm honoured you asked!

I mean, of course we can touch grass together >:( I'm honoured you asked >:( grr

I truly am hanging on by a thread... 12 days until the appointment with the endometriosis surgeon 🙏

[rawralittlerawr]

An Announcement

About Whispers: The United States of Christ

After much consideration and careful deliberation - and in light of the ongoing malicious attacks on POC, Jewish people, the LGBTQ+ community, transgender people, drag performers/venues, and others, as well as the heightened white supremacist activity and terrorism in the US (and technically across the world) and an uptick in their disgusting propaganda, etc. - I have made a very painful decision to put a hold on the timely release of new episodes for my Kindle Vella Story, "Whispers: The United States of Christ."

I'm not going to unpublish it or even mark the story complete, because it is nowhere close to being finished or over. And I am not giving up on it entirely. I will continue to write new episodes and will occasionally publish those new ones. I just won't be following a schedule or doing weekly releases at this time.

First - let me say this and get it out of the way - THIS IS NOT THEM WINNING! I am NOT doing this because I'm scared of them (although they can be scary and are always dangerous), or backing down, or taking a seat. I will continue to stand up for what is right and will continue to speak out even when it's not easy or comfortable.

I am, in fact, doing this for these two reasons:

1. I've come to realize that sadly, the audience who I felt needed to read it (a cautionary story such as this one) THE MOST is likely not ever going to. (even if ALL the episodes were free) Those who have been on the fence, and unwilling to make a stand - those who have been silent and continue to remain silent even when their friends and loved ones or others in their communities are being attacked for simply being themselves or simply existing - are the audience I hoped to reach the most when I started writing this story. But as things progressively worsen in America (and across the world), they are STILL silent and unwilling, and clearly, they consider this story to be "too uncomfortable" for them. And I won't even go there with the "you know if something like this were to actually happen, it wouldn't just be "the gays" who would be targeted," comments by straight white people who didn't even take the time to read any of the free episodes, which would have answered their own darn question, before attacking me.😑🥴

2. The other reason is that in light of recent events - like the recent targeted killings of gay people and allies at a gay club in Colorado and the continuous and ongoing attacks on drag story time or drag shows (two totally different things btw, grr) in addition to the attacks on transgender people across the country, and the vile and dangerous racist and antisemitic rhetoric being spewed and the violence being pushed, "suggested" and encouraged by certain politicians and/or those in positions of influence or power - (in light of these things) those who ARE willing and want to read this cautionary story, can hardly stomach it right now with everything going on. I myself had to take a break in writing the next episode after what happened in Colorado. Episode 8 went live the night before I woke up to the news. And I still haven't been able to finish writing and editing episode 9 even though it's the episode introducing the "good guys."

When I had the idea for the story and began this journey, I did so as much for myself, as anyone else. I felt it was a better and healthier way to deal with and cope with the rage I felt (and still feel) in response to the injustices happening every day, rather than just rage posting on social media to vent.

As an individual, a woman, a gay woman, a white woman married to a black woman, a mother, and as a member of a two-mom family, it is easy to feel powerless against all the hate. Easy to feel like my one voice could never make a difference. And so this was just one way for me to feel a little more seen and heard. One way to make a difference. And hopefully, reach just one person who really needed to read this story as much as I needed to write it, and perhaps even help someone else find their voice.

And maybe one day that will happen.

Like I said - I'm not going to unpublish or even mark the story as complete. Because it is nowhere close to being finished or over. And I'm not giving up on it entirely. I will continue to write new episodes (it really has been a great way to cope) and will occasionally publish those new ones. But only occasionally, unless Whispers somehow gains a readership, at which time I will reconsider and take another look at my original plan/goal of dropping an episode or two a week.

Despite the fact that it's sometimes painful and challenging to write, I have really enjoyed peeling back the layers of the characters in this story and the troubling and dangerous world they are navigating. And in light of this decision, I have also decided to announce the main character's name even though the episode announcing it, episode 9, hasn't yet been finished.

My plan was to finally reveal the main character's name (the author of the journal entries) at the end of the coming episode. But what the heck! Readers already know that Amora Begay is a strong, fiercely protective, quiet, wise, skilled, unique woman and they know her wife, Mrs. Lexi Begay, the author of the journal entries, to be every bit as strong, courageous, and fierce as Amora. And now they'll have a name for this courageous woman, the author of the journal, which will play a much bigger role later on when the rest of the story unfolds.

If you're still reading, (I know this is a long one) I just want to say thank you to those who have been encouraging and supportive from day one, and again give a big shout-out to my biggest fans, for always believing in me and in this story. And to my wife, Christina Washington @darkaries for inspiring me, and helping me shape and name the characters (especially Amora)

It has been an honor and a pleasure to write Whispers.

So this is not a farewell. I guess it's more like a "to be continued at a later date" kind of announcement.

And as always, *these opinions/thoughts are strictly my own and do not express the views/opinions of the platform I publish my story on*

For anyone who may have been following the haunting story of Lexi and Amora Begay, and would like to connect or chat - Please feel free to contact me at ambroseawakened@gmail.com, until I get media accounts and author pages set up for my pen, Octavia Ambrose. (which is on my to-do list)

[1-deadgirlwalking-1]

7/6/2024

it is 5:59am. I didn’t sleep obvi. I’ve been staying up all night for. Like two months straight at this point. Less than a handful of regular night sleeps. I go outside only a handful of times in a week most of the time, and 95% of those times is going outside for two seconds to hand something to my dad then go back in immediately after. Going out for something other than to the store is like once or twice a month. Generally.

I’ve become practically addicted to AI chats. I keep deleting then redownloading apps because I’ll spend hours on them doing nothing, until I am forced to delete them because I can’t stop. Then I’m like “Oh, I’ll redownload it and use it moderately this time!!” And the cycle continues.

There are my most general life / mental updates.

Theoretically I want to get better but the safety and comfort of my bed is too alluring! I don’t want to leave it. I don’t want to go outside. Scary.

I was watching Bocchi the Rock recently, and her complaining that joining a band didn’t fix all her unhelpful habits made me realize that getting friends won’t fix all my unhelpful habits or make me healthy and stable either.

Not having friends or not going outside or not doing this or that is not the root of all my problems, it’s all just me, and I’m the only one who can change me. Which upsets me. I don’t wanna get better I wanna sleep. All day forever and ever. Getting better is too much work. I don’t wanna do anything ever. But I want to be better and do things, but I also don’t. Grr.

I don’t want to do anything. Sigh. I wanna wallow in my own misery and go back to all the old unhelpful habits I have gotten rid of. They’re comforting. It’s easier. It feels good. Getting better DOESN’T feel good, it feels unfamiliar, and like I’m always doing everything wrong.

I wish it was night time forever. Stay awake in bed forever. No one else but me because they’re all asleep. I wish I was nocturnal.

Also Bocchi is literally me. I too fear that I won’t break out of my bad habits by the time the invisible timer in my head goes off and I’ll be forced to become a corporate slave where I’ll just get fired over and over because I’m so bad that no job will want me, and after I grow tired of that I’ll eventually become a NEET leeching off of my poor parents. Technically I am a NEET right now since it’s summer…

I wish I was in Bocchi’s position. She’s living the shut-in with no friend’s dream. The whole show people just keep approaching her and forcefully becoming her friends, giving her things to do, and places to be (+ a job). I WISH. But alas, the onus is on me to make my life better.

I’ll be going to sleep now because the sun has come up and it scares me. I don’t wanna be awak.

It is 7:51pm. I’m working on some art fights. I’ve finished 5 attacks in two days cause I’ve just been making memes. They’re much easier and less intimidating to draw than poses and stuff. Easier to make look neat, easier to finish.

But my (only) IRL friend attacked me so I have to attack them back, I will make something nice looking for them! Even if it’s just a sketch.

I’m feeling less terrible about the concept of getting better and doing the work myself now that it’s not 6:30 in the morning. But it’s still so intimidating, and like “Do I haaave tooo…” Blehh.

[revenantlamb]

Okay more messmer posting cuz i love her and i want to pamper her w cute gifts n make her look Pretty !!/ stuff below the cut cuz i put in some images and the post got a tad bit long

this is what i mean by "fancy braids" .. very pretty i think it would suit her red hair super super well to put flowers and weaving in some ribbon too ( couldnt find any braids w ribbon grr but U get the idea )

OKAY i cant explain these dresses well but uhm the back & waist support w looser tops ( above the boning or corset ) and skirts sounds pretty good for her.. id have to assume she'd need little holes n stuff cut into them for the snakes but these look pretty close to the ideas i had for the bases of the dresses.. theyre all pink cuz i love pink and couldnt find any other colors aurgh . shoes r pretty much the same as always.. sandals n flats...

i dont think she would wear makeup often.. maybe a little eyeshadow and limited blush ( enough to get her to not look like a "Corpse" she says ) but thats it.. probably a dark brown or something dark and not very colorful for the eyeshadow??

im trying to think of like. material birthday n holiday gift stuff but shes not too into collecting items like i am so this is staying short.. im the Collect and Hoard Everything one in this relationship :pp she likes quality time n trust stuff better ( SCARY but i do it for her.. )

( i WILL give her an unintentional trinket collection on her shelves thou . bird behavior )

[the-literal-sun]

it's completely ok I promise 😭 you're so wholesome I cant

I AM NOT WHOLESOME!!!

I AM A SCARY PLAGUE MAN

GRR-