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well it finally happened

so my dad is almost 80, this man's been making Spirk content since Star Trek started airing basically

he never knew ao3 existed, he just thought people stopped writing fanfic when ff.net died, like it was a fad that had outgrown him or smth

he clicked an ao3 link in my pinned last night, realizing that they were in fact clickable

he's mad at me for not telling him earlier. "I don't have a lot of years left in me and there's so much to read"

he's gonna spend his whole retirement reading trek fanfic now jesus christ

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well it finally happened

so my dad is almost 80, this man's been making Spirk content since Star Trek started airing basically

he never knew ao3 existed, he just thought people stopped writing fanfic when ff.net died, like it was a fad that had outgrown him or smth

he clicked an ao3 link in my pinned last night, realizing that they were in fact clickable

he's mad at me for not telling him earlier. "I don't have a lot of years left in me and there's so much to read"

he's gonna spend his whole retirement reading trek fanfic now jesus christ

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well it finally happened

so my dad is almost 80, this man's been making Spirk content since Star Trek started airing basically

he never knew ao3 existed, he just thought people stopped writing fanfic when ff.net died, like it was a fad that had outgrown him or smth

he clicked an ao3 link in my pinned last night, realizing that they were in fact clickable

he's mad at me for not telling him earlier. "I don't have a lot of years left in me and there's so much to read"

he's gonna spend his whole retirement reading trek fanfic now jesus christ

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jokes that will literally never not be funny to me:

saying “speedrun strats” every time you fuck up

saying “first try” when you’ve tried the thing like 15 times, minimum

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Pour one out for a real one.

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New Year's Eve part. 23

Continuation of our story with @corneille-but-not-the-author and @hel-phoenyx

Sigi's out of the hospital and just passed out watching Desperate Housewives. I, on the other hand, start my tradwife era as I'm cleaning his flat. I've already cooked dinner and folded his laundry.

...

I think I'm doing that because I still haven't gotten over those stares from the Warsowar. Those self-righteous eyes shouting "slut" to me. The fact they aren't wrong. What kind of proper girl goes to her boyfriend with her cervix still bruised due to her other boyfriend?

Well.

A slut does.

And even if Sigi doesn't mind too much... Welp, I'm insecure since I've met his family. I am just gross for everyone. For them. I don't know why I need their approval.

Perhaps because Sigi can't introduce me to them as his girlfriend.

That doesn't sit right by me.

I don't want to change. I love who I am. I love my way of life. Working, flirting, fucking, smoking, drinking, playing, my life is a party and I wouldn't have it any other way.

But still. That shit hurts.

***

Okay okay so every is squeaky clean and I even made something to eat when he'll wake up. As a snack.

I turn off the TV because he is still asleep.

Has Fenrir told him what I've said? Not unlikely. At least now we're even. That's perhaps why I feel like he is a bit distant.

I sit next to him and snuggle against his chest. It feels safe. I don't want this to end. I really don't want this to end. Sigi's face is so pretty, so peaceful when he sleeps. I stroke his cheek. How dare you look so dreamy, darling? I kiss him on his forehead before going back to the cuddle.

He is safe.

I need to protect him. Even from me. He needs to be shielded from my disgusting self.

If he wakes up and tells me to get out I'll just put on my coat and disappear. I'd just leave his life if he were to ask. But Sigi is an angel. My angel. My Knight in shining armour.

Have I a right to love someone so clean and pure?

I am spiraling.

"Have... have I been napping for too long...?" Sigi says as he slowly emerges. "Domhildr... why do you smell like bleach?"

I snort.

"I've done a lil bit of cleaning", I smile.

"You shouldn't have..."

"Too late!"

He strokes my hair while giggling. His eyelids seem still heavy.

An angel. My angel.

"We also have a snack", I say before kissing him on the cheek. "Or perhaps you want me instead~"

"Let me awaken fully, would you?" he replies.

***

The snack was ultimately forgotten due to an impromptu made-out session. How dare he destroy my insecurities with his delicious lips? How dare he make me feel so good? How dare he make me have butterflies in my stomach? How dare he?

I need his hands and his lips and his mouth and his touch. I need his lithe body under mine and his hands on my waist, on my hips. I need my fingers in his hair and my hand on his chest.

"I love you", Sigi whispers.

"I need you", I answer immediately.

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Yes we need more chaste twee baby gay romances like heartstopper and yes we also need more shows where men fuck raw to express their love for one another like Élite and yes we need more toxic gays having hate sex like Interview with the Vampire and yes we need more incidental gay characters like the dads in cartoons like Owl House.

It's not a competition! It's a hoard and I'm like a gay little Smaug.

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“I don’t want to be a burden” you’re more like a relief, a gift, a blessing actually

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Reblog if you’re OK with people sending you asks about your OCs, ‘sonas or even about yourself

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the trolley problem vs. systemic oppression: a comic.

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"Uhh AFAB transfem people could be intersex-"

Without looking it up, tell me what types of intersex people would be assigned female at birth and simultaneously need to transition to being female. I don't think you know, because most of you were just using intersex people as a rhetorical shield for your real audience - cis women who aestheticize and objectify trans women.

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in one of the servers I'm in, we've been discussing looking back at your old art, and a couple people mentioned that getting compliments on their old art makes them feel like their artistic growth isn't as evident to other people as it is to them, or like they havent improved as much as they thought for people to still be complimenting their old work

but it's really not like that! Your personal perception of your art is inherently going to be very different to the audience. This is how i explained it in there & i thought i'd share it here as well:

A compliment on your old art doesn't undermine the growth in your new art, it's just admiring the qualities of your work that were already there!

Our art can change direction, our grasp of the fundamentals can get stronger, and this means our personal standards will always go up and the choices we would make creating a piece change, so when you as the creator look back on your old art, you're hit with a lot of "oof, I'd do x and y and z differently now".

But your audience doesn't have any of those hangups, to them youve drawn some good art, and when they look at your current art, you're making even stronger art, and both of them are worth admiring.

not that any of this makes it any less psychic damage inducing to look at your own old art LOL but putting yourself in the shoes of the audience and looking at it for what it is rather than how well it reaches your current standards can still help a little with that

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sucks that "incel" is just like a generic insult now synonymous with "virgin" bc if people had much of an idea of what incel ideology actually entails, we could have a conversation about radical feminism being quite literally, beat for beat, incel shit for girls

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why are people pretending that sex is the only axis upon which some people willingly enjoy things that hurt/scare them

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