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hi, I don't use tumblr often, but i when i do, i always check your account to check if you posted something. LIAB is amazing. i truly have no words. i have read a LOT of fanfics from very different fandoms and i can confidently say that Leaving It All Behind is the best one i have ever read. the world you've built around the main characters is so deep, and realistic. even though benders are not real, it feels like i'm reading about true events. you describe the horrors of war and trauma so well. i'm actually very, very impressed. i happen to be a person that suffers from ptsd and other mental illnesses and and the way you portray traumatized characters is very realistic. i know you always say that the main characters' recovery is unrealistically fast, but don't worry about that. the way you describe zuko and sokka's feelings is perfect. their recovery doesn't seem rushed. it just looks like they're adapting and learning how to deal with it fast (we have to remember that the war is still very much happening and sadly they don't have a lot of time to deal with everything that happened to them). i'm so grateful i found your work. it's truly amazing, i hope you won't give up on writing when you finish the LIAB trilogy. have a good day/night
AWWWW OMG THANK YOU <3
seriously this was so kind Iâm still in shock. Iâm so happy you think the healing arc is realistic because I try to balance the stories pace with the characters struggles and emotions (some of them make it DIFFICULT haha) but Iâm always worried it doesnât translate well.
I have a lot of fun writing LIAB & Iâm really glad you like it so much. I hope I continue to make you proud & thank you so much for this amazing ask you made my day <3
#This is so validating you have no idea ahhhh#I have read so many fics where the chatacter (zuko lol) has gone through extreme trauma or torture and he gets rescued or escapes#& then itâs like after a quick patch up job he is essentially back to normal#Which⊠no. lol. I canât do it!#Trauma follows a person whether they like it or not & everyone copes differently to it#So even with zuko and sokka going through so much theyâll both handle their trauma completely different#I try to show that lol so Iâm glad you like it#I am totally worried about the upcoming battle though#Cause shits about to get really rough#But we are in a fun arc right now (as fun as liab can be itâs a fic about children fighting a war so idk⊠Iâd say 25% fun 75% angst)#So we have a few more fun chapters idk 4/5 and then we are on the home stretch#Idk what Iâll do when itâs over this has been so much fun and Iâm so sad itâll come to an end this year#But thanks again for this amazing ask#Its comments and asks like this that pets the head and makes me feel like a good author lol#Gets me fired up to finish the fic!#Wohoooo thank you !!!#Deansnoodle#Zukka#liab#ITF#RIA#ask#Leaving it all behind
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I regret to inform everyone we're back in the white space. Expect the fire alarm to go off periodically in typical fashion of whenever it detects a steaming pile of garbage on the way. Like me! [i'll give a cookie to whoever recognizes where the sfx is from!!]
#hand jumper#sighs#projected second taeho gyeon tag on ao3.....#where did i go wrong#we're so joever guys#we're so joever...#mandatory plugin for the hand jumper discord server because i think the culprit wouldn't want to own up#or even has tumblr idk#but just know they're on my hitlist and i hate[/pos] them#also yes it's more cell 3#if i had to summarise think of it an evil version of the halloween fic#except even worse#honestly though if you're able to JOIN THE HJ DISCORD SERVEEEEEER#SOMEONE WAS COOKING FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!#it's like that one bromie on discord said if 3 guys came to the same conclusion at radically different intervals then maybe it's something!#or eveyone's on the same drug#BUT I CHOOSE TO BELIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVE#and so in orderly fashion what do i do when i really wanna poke and prod at them more?#throw them in the torture nexus#granted it's not really a torture nexus because the bet is everytime cell three appears in a chapter i delete and start the draft over agai#it is.#but that's not my problem!!!#it's future me who'll fret over tuesday's episodes problem!!#also it puts it in a perpetual state of agony because if what if the day we sayâi'll finish tomorrow p much doneâ is the day cell 3 shows u#ctrl+shift+del+seethe+mald+cope#also i'd say compared to finish in three days it's the most lenient artificial deadline ever#because either cell 3 or cell 3 mentor appears and i win by getting more food to improve the work#or i hand it in as is if they don't and shoot myself when they do after i just finished#also if you ever want to ask me to drop/drop the hj memes i made in the server just holler#because i forget to post here chronically!!!!!!!!
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this is a post scribbled angrily in glitter pen in my diary pls ignore <3
#this is so insecure and bullshit but like#sometimes writing fics is. no fun#bc you feel like you can't keep up with other writers just churning out fics and they're all so good and nuanced and better than yours#or bc you can't keep up with your own brain and all the ideas and you don't have the time to do them all justice#or bc you just can't get a spark of a conversation with other fans to catch fire the way you want to so you're just.#spinning wheels in your own head wishing you were better faster friendlier less alone#and let's not forget the fucking commodification of fandom#getting messages in your inbox only to find it's people harping for more content for a fandom on the back burner or a fic you've left behin#i love that you love my work like that but. it makes me feel like i'm at a family reunion and my aunt is asking me about the job i had#two jobs ago#and somehow you keep getting those messages even tho your current work is sparse on comments and reblogs#so you spend your slivers of free time writing something you hope is good for these characters you love only to feel like you're standing#alone in the street hawking a mediocre finished product and everyone is walking past you disinterested#it's fucking isolating. it's draining#you can only write âfor yourselfâ so much before it's not worth the time and effort#obviously i will keep writing. but like. it's fucking frustrating. and i feel like a petulant child about it but i just can't shake it#anyway. here's wonderwall or whatever
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I was talking to someone about ScĂĄrthur and this is basically how I view them (I wanted to share) cause why not
My reason for shipping them was primarily because of their fathers, but I later thought about shipping them. I like to think that someone like Arthur, whose mind is constantly filled with revenge, would let loose around someone as calm as ScĂĄthach. Also, they would help each other in battle, with one of them being a sword fighter and the other being a mage, they would cover each others weaknesses. Theyâre also older brothers, so they would understand the need to protect their younger sisters (tho they have very different dynamics with them). ScĂĄthach would always remind Arthur to take care of himself, and ScĂĄthach can even break from the facade of being mature to being silly with Arthur. They would balance each other out
I love my rarepair so much I need to write about them (I should finish that fic I was working on lol)
#yeyarants#fire emblem#fire emblem 4#fe4#jugdral#fire emblem genealogy of the holy war#genealogy of the holy war#Arthur fire emblem#Arthur fe4#scĂĄthach#scĂĄthach fire emblem#scĂĄthach fe#ulster#ulster fire emblem#ScĂĄrthur#scĂĄrthur nation rise up#itâs me Iâm the ScĂĄrthur nation#I NEED TO FINISH THE 30 DAY PROMPT CHALLENGE#I am not even halfway#ugh ignore me#just me ranting about my rarepair#*holds them gently in my hands* themïżœïżœ#I love them#I promise I will get that fic finished#âŠsomeday#slapping ScĂĄrthur content on my friends dash because Iâm the only one that ships them#convert to them#am I making you ship them?#with my 10 posts about them?#i hope my mutuals see the appeal when I finish the fic and publish it
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Today's snippet is from Copper Fires Burning Bright, aka The Lost Prince fic:
âStop thinking so hard.â Fox mumbles into his pillow, shifting slightly to be plastered against Quinâs chest. With how hot Fox runs, Quin tends toward sleeping shirtless when theyâre together, the skin-to-skin contact simply blissful. âThis bed is the best thing Iâve ever felt and I want to enjoy it.â Quin huffs a laugh and slings an arm over his waist, holding him close. âAll right, baby.â He presses a kiss to his head, breathing him in and letting his eyes slip closed. He has no responsibilities until they reach Kiffu; he can sleep in if it means Fox is happy.
#chapter three should be up tomorrow after I finish proofreading it#chapter four is fighting me a little but I will prevail because chapter five is when Fox finally gets to show up#quinlan vos#commander fox#quinfox#series: copper fires burning bright#fic snippet
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Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)
#Doodles#I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really!#Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me#Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah#Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe âȘâ«#Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft#I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!!#The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! âȘ#Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year#There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written!#These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe#I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft#Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major â€ïžđđđđ Small details give me big love you must understand this lol#As evidenced lol âȘ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol#Terrible âȘ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful â«#Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors#Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general#That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :(#So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3#And then finishing off đđ Beautifully heartbreaking ah#Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh#Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have â„ Another tally on the wall haha <3
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Carolus' children have names!
Porcelain von Valancius, called Penny (or sometimes Porky by her brother), her oldest child. Conceived during her time as a guard for merchant ships, after she was exiled from her position as a battle psyker in the military, with a Drukhari soldier who she met and fought during multiple assignments. Coincidence (and skill at survival) had them meet again and again and develop a personal rather than general hatred for each other, which then culminated in an extremely angry and prejudiced one-night stand. About two weeks later she finally managed to kill him. Carolus was in a very bad mental state during that time, so when she noticed she was pregnant she couldn't really bring herself to care. She didn't expect the fetus to be viable anyway, so she decided that either it would kill her and solve her problems that way, or the resulting miscarriage would be of scientific interest to someone. Except that against her expectations when the baby was born she was entirely healthy, if odd looking. Put on the spot Carolus made the decision to be a mother. She built herself up again as best as she could, pretended her daughter was a low level mutant and found a somewhat peaceful colony of mutants in a corner of her sector where she could trust someone to take care of the child while she went off to earn money to send back. When Theodora called her to the expanse she took her daughter with her and found her a safe place on Janus before going on board.
Porcelain is a highly energetic child, easily excitable, and due to her heritage drawn to strong emotions. This can manifest both in temper tantrums to provoke the people around her into anger or things like long monologues of compliments or singalongs to incite excitement or happiness. She is not cruel but oftentimes callous about the feelings of others, since she gets as much out of people's anger or grief as out of their joy. That does not however mean that she doesn't like people, quite the opposite. She easily connects with people, regardless of their opinion of her, leading her to occasionally declare people her friends who deeply despise her, precisely because of their strong reaction. This includes Marazhai, who only got survive his terrible decisions because Carolus is concerned about her daughter's safety without at least rudementary knowledge about the other half of her legacy. He gets brought onboard specifically as Porcelain's babysitter and tutor. He absolutely despises it and Penny, but knows that she is the only reason he's alive and thus cannot just kill her without consequences. She loves him. Absolutely adores him and everything he does end up teaching her. Her mother's influence does remain strong she does not fall into indiscrimenate murder and torture but she does highly enjoy the tussles she has with Marazhai and the occasional hunt he takes her on. He also tendency to just grab her by the scruff of the neck and carry her around like a handbag. She thinks it's hilarious. She also calls him "Uncle Marzipan" and is absolutely gleeful about how much he hates it. He in return calls her "Pentakill" because he decided that her name is terrible and not to be tolerated. The Mon-keigh should be glad he didn't choose a drukhari name.
Leopold von Valancius van Calox is Carolus' son with Heinrix. (Yes there is a whole situation going on my brain how he deals with Penny's existance but that's for later.) He is born sometime during the game, though I have not exactly figured out when yet. When Carolus learnt she was pregnant again she gave Heinrix a decision: he could either claim the child as his or they sweep their prior relationship under the rug and she would never mention the child's parentage. Either way she would not stand his way. She certainly would have been sad if he had decided to deny it, but she would have respected his decision, and it had to be just his choice to make. Some of the officer's would have certainly known, but no one would go against a Rogue Tradr's orders to shut up about her private life. It took him the entire duration of the pregnancy to finally make a choice and only when Carolus went into labour did he break and made his decision to be a father, with the thought that he would come up with a way to deal with Calcazar's judgement some time later. Of course it turned out that said dealing would be both a lot easier and a lot harder than expected. He never did say anything about it, but he went to her chambers, was let in and stayed for the duration of the birth, which was as good as admission. Abelard judged him greatly, for many reasons.
Leopold is a calm child, curious but by far not as exciteble as his sister (who was absolutely extatic about getting a sibling and had to be forcibly kept from the birth so as to not be distracting). Later in his life he showed Psyker abilities, something that concerned but not surprised his Psyker parents. The reveal was thankfully not nearly as dramatic as both his parents' . His sister felt it coming and refused to play with him because of it, feeling unsettled by the weird energies around him. This persisted until he eventually threw a temper tantrum and set a rug on fire, thus confirming both Carolus' and Heinrix' concerns. Although they both he agreed he would have to be sanctioned, they also agreed to never under any circumstances put their son on a Black Ship. Eventually it was decided that Heinrix himself would bring him to Terra, monitor any and all procedures and eventually take him home again. They both leveraged all of their political powers to make sure they could take him back, calling in many, many favours and issuing equally as many threats and bribes. They succeeded. Leopold himself only learnt multiple years after that trip what had actually happened. (I do have notes on a short one-shot about the trip maybe) (How does this work with the whole Warp storm situation? I don't know and frankly I don't much care, both the warp and the god-emperor will bow to my will to ignore canon)
#warhammer 40k rogue trader#carolus von valancius#heinrix van calox#marazhai aezyrraesh#oc descriptions#i thank all my discord buddies who helped me come up with this stuff#i swear i will finish something for this game#i want to post fics again so badly#Omnissiah grant me the strength to just get done with something#but yeah I love my children#my overdramatic backstories#and carolus' ability to set her friends on fire so they do more damage#it's very fun#btw she was named for the song carolus rex in case you were wondering
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Biannual chamberlain crew posttt
I think they're silly, nay, goofy
#tldc#tldc anders bergstrom#tldc russ#tldc tootega#this isnt as funny as it was a week ago but the second page still makes me cackle#been drawing this piecemeal since monday and i truly did not expect it to take as long as it did#im in hand to hand combat w chapter 3 of the fic rn its getting stupid đ#what i havent done is finish it. what i have done is write upwards of 20k in three different projects... soo la voo or whatever ig#i am TRYING and itll happen#im looking at the images as im about to hit post and i havent given russ his grey streaks.... imagine them for me đđ#tootega being aroace was a joke for me bc hes so poorly written and doesnt have any wants/relationships#therefore i hit him with that aroace beam#(im still catching up on firestar/fire eternal again so i may be proven wrong but he doesnt give a shit about anyone but his family)#i made a joke about it when i was writing him for the current fic and then. well you know how i love to commit to a bit
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I SWEAR I KEEP TRYING TO DO ART BUT THEN SOMETHING GETS IN THE WAY AND THEN I PROCRASTINATE AND THEN SIX MONTHS PASS
#this has been happening for like TWO YEARS BUT I SWEAR TO GOD I AM TRYING.#my usual art motivation (my webcomic idea) has been put on hold for a bit and because of that i forgort... everything#my will to draw specifically#but in my defense i have been writing k*arlach / oc indulgences and i've been VERY focused on finishing it#i also got a marketing manager (my friend <3) to help with advertising my comms and stuff so uh... look forward 2 that#i might need to start posting all of my art on a sideblog so she doesn't have to log into my main though#so there might be some changes#but i promise i want to do art!!!! but there's always something to do first and then months pass :(#or i get the urge to draw and then life is like ''have a cancer scare'' lmao...#(ended up being cancerous actually </3 but because it's skin stuff it was easy to remove)#(but that really took the piss out of me for most of july... not to mention that ffxiv released a new expansion and i have been...#having a good time with my new friends doing content and stuff!) i also made a friend irl after like 3-4 years of total isolation#we feed ants and watch them move around together and comment on their behaviour patterns...#but like when i say this takes literal hours.#we just sit out there and talk about random shit and watch ants walk across the floor. both of us hate ants btw.#like we don't like having them ON us so it's a bit like playing with fire.#but anyways yeah i've also been really low energy recently too bc of the heat and burnout from college...#but the good news is that i'm transferring in fall to a much more relaxing college & courseload!#i'm hoping it'll stop me from feeling so... awful ?? i guess ??#like i was taking classes i didn't need to that were really difficult & punishing#not to mention extremely boring & hard to pay attention to when dealing with literally anything. i did not want to be there.#my next college is much more interest-oriented so i will finally be able to take classes i want to and learn from them...!#and then maybe i will feel a bit more in control of my life / more encouraged to draw#anyways thank u for reading my ramble. hoping it all comes together soon.#i need to do a lot of work but most of it is so i can sell commissions again#but once the karlach fic is done we're so back on the webcomic train !!!!!!!!
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So anyway, it's sweet sweet sacrilege hours đ
#OOH BOY#OOOOHH BOY OH BOY#WHO'S READY FOR SOME FUCKED UP RELIGIOUS ALLEGORIES OF INSANITY#PSALMS OF PSYCHOSIS IS YOU Wâ *gets shot by 3 different snipers; one of which is blind*#anyway here we are#i promised myself that i will finish and put up fics this year and i did it#:'') *pops a bag of fire cheetos for myself* cheers to me in this chilli's tonight#Farimah writes#wayleska#wayleska fic#batjokes#batjokes fic#Gotham#Gotham TV#Jeremiah Valeska x Bruce Wayne#Jeremiah Valeska#Bruce Wayne
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On the one hand, I've been in bed sick since Friday. On the other hand, I finished two books this weekend, which is nice?
Lmao I just checked the time stamps and I started Nona The Ninth at 5pm Saturday and finished it at 3am Sunday morning, so that's less than 12 hours start to finish xD
I also finished a reread of Network Effect for like the third time, which is a delight as always
#next up is finishing Witch King and Stars Hide Your Fires#and then i will no longer have 4 separate library books ticking down in my phone lmao#we are also 2 hours from the end of book 5 in the Apollo series!!!!!!!!#(me and my sister have listened to the entire series while driving places haha)#it is EXTREMELY good and feels like a return to the style of the original pjato series and all pjato fans should read it please and ty#and then WRITE ME FIC ABOUT APOLLO HANGING OUT WITH HIS KIDS!!!!#oh wait the MOST important part of finishing apollo is that then i get to read the Will/Nico book!!!!! hype!!!!!!!!#lori chat
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Reading my old Star Wars wips and damn do some of these slap, canât wait until the author posts an update!
OhâŠoh noâŠoh god no!
#seriously might make that never gonna get finished wips collections#fulcrum and the negotiator my beloved!#sith!obi-wan teaching baby Ahsoka my messed up darling!#my padawan which I never even finished posting here my baby boy!!#I just wanna read them not write them đą#leaving a few open juiiuuust in case I suddenly have the will to write#itâll only have been *checks notes* like 3ish years since I last wrote a thing in them#I am the dog in the fire right now like this is fine Iâm fine#Iâm feeling a normal amount of things in a totally normal way ty for asking#complaining about writing#ah having to write a satisfactory endingâŠmy beloathed#Sith sassy pants and his daughter is so well written#and then the last ââsceneââ is just five lines of shorty dialogue#half as a joke and half as a guiding post#gdi me#and then thereâs the fact that I stopped engaging with sw media so now Iâm lost on the lord#god the amount of research I did for sw fic is insane!#reminder to self: do more with BttF and get over the time shift#or make it a new story and itâs a series now idk#you got options baby take one#DID I SAY 3 YEARS I MEAN 4.5
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Tried to write something Derangedâą and Fucked Upâą and ended up with one character describing at length how excited they are over the idea of listening to their spouse talking about a book they like.
#to be fair. this thing IS still pretty derangedâą#like this IS very much a story people will have to be wary of regarding the trigger warnings#but I gotta have people bonding over shared Nerd Interestsâą#also several key emotional development moments hinge on classical music so there's that#The Fic That's A Lot#the thing is. this is mostly a thought exercise. I wanted to try writing something different than the kinds of things I normally write#and there's a lot of oblique exposure-related stuff tied up in this too that I would rather set myself on fire than fully explain#so it's been. a Processâą. even more than writing usually is. I gotta have some easier/more personally familiar kinds of moments in there#just so I actually finish the damn thing#(my God I am so sorry everyone is probably getting SO annoyed about me talking about this and STILL NOT HAVING IT FINISHED when#it's been like 5-6 months)#(<-it's The Conditionâą)
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little bitch - cs55
summary: yn piastri and carlos sainz absolutely hate each other. carlos thinks sheâs immature, yn calls him a little bitch on social media. they also kiss every now and then. PART TWO
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folkie radio: guys this fic is my baby okay đ„Čđ„Č please take care of it i spent like two weeks writing it. FEEDBACK IS ENCOURAGED AND APPRECIATED !!
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ynpiastri thatâs my optimistic little brother cry about it đ see yâall after the break
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username1 LAJSIA SO MESSY
username2 yn really said you will NAWT mess with my little brother
lilyzneimer Love you forever đ
âł ynpiastri ilysm
username3 the sainz - piastri drama just spiced this season up
mclaren Thatâs our boy đ§Ą
username4 carlos sainz and yn piastri fighting on the internet and oscar is just đ§
username5 the fact that daniel ricciardo and pierre gasly liked ynâs tweet too đ
landonorris Stop fighting people on the internet please
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"You didn't have to tweet that," Oscar said, giving you a look from his seat.
You were currently traveling from Belgium to Monaco in McLaren's private jet after the race weekend, and the main topic of the day was your little message to Carlos Sainz after his statement about your brother.
"Osc, he's being a petty bitch," you shrugged, "He keeps blaming you for what happened on the track and we all know it was his fault."
"Lando, can you help me out please?" Oscar looked at his teammate, who was immersed on his phone as a way to avoid the conversation.
"Oh no, don't put me in the middle of this," Lando shook his head, "I have enough PR issues myself."
"We know you're siding with your bestie anyways," you said, making him roll his eyes.
This dynamic was nothing new. Lando and Carlos Sainz were best friends, and so were Lando and you. The issue? You couldn't stand Carlos at all, and Lando was always in the middle of your bickering.
Oscar sighed, rubbing his temples as he glanced out of the window. "Look, I appreciate you standing up for me, but sometimes it's better to let things slide. Engaging with him on social media only adds fuel to the fire."
He had a point. Deep down you knew it, however, your were short tempered and protective towards your loved ones, so it was natural that you took the chance to come for Sainz's neck when he gave you a reason to.
"I get it, Osc. I just can't stand seeing him drag your name through the mud when you're not even at fault," you stressed, "You're my little brother, I'll always get protective, you know?"
"I know, and I appreciate you having my back," Oscar said, softening his tone. "But it's not worth it. Like you said, I'm not engaging with whatever he's saying so there's no point of starting stuff."
"He started it, I'm just finishing it," you shrugged, and Oscar gave you a pointed look, you were older than him, but he was definitely more mature than you. "Fine, I'll try to hold back next time," you sighed, leaning back in your seat.
Lando finally looked up from his phone, a smirk on his face. "See, that wasn't too hard, was it? Now, can we all be friends?"
"If that includes Sainz then no, we can't,"
You could never be friends with Carlos Sainz. That was literally impossible.
For starters, you were pretty sure he didn't even know your name, he was always too full of himself to even acknowledge those around him.
And lastly, he was a bitch to your brother on and off track.
"I just, I would really like for you two to get along," Lando said and you immediately rolled your eyes at his words, "You're both important to me, and it sucks being caught in the middle. Plus I don't even understand why do you dislike him so much."
You knew the real reason why you disliked him so much, you perfectly did. However, that was a subject that you decided to ignore every single time.
"Honestly? I find him arrogant. He always acts like he's the center of the universe. He never takes responsibility for his actions and always tries to shift the blame onto others. It's frustrating to watch."
Lando sighed, running a hand through his hair. "I get it, but you have to understand, Carlos is actually a good guy once you get to know him. He's passionate and competitive, sure, but he's also loyal and a great friend."
"I get that he's like your hero or something," you teased, "But it's not going to happen, Lando. I don't think I'll ever like Carlos, and I really wish youâd stop pushing the subject."
"Look, you don't have to be his best friend or something," Oscar intervened, "Just promise me you won't punch him when you see him in the paddock after the summer break."
"No promises."
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ynpiastri a weekend in monaco with some of my favorite people đ€ back to race cars soooon (love being a nepo sister)
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âł charles_leclerc Donât do this to me
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Going to Jimmy'z the last day of the summer break was a tradition among the drivers at this point.
You looked forward to it, for you, nothing could beat a night of loud music, drinks and friends. You thought that was the reason you got along with Lando and quickly became best friends.
âReady to tear up the dance floor?â Lando shouted over the music, giving you smirk
âAlways!â you replied, grabbing his hand and dragging him towards the center of the action, Oscar and Lily being their introvert selves decided to stay at the table with some of your friends.
After a few songs, you returned to the table to catch your breath and order another round of drinks.
Oscar looked up from his conversation with Lily and smiled as you approached.
âHaving fun?â he asked.
âAbsolutely,â you replied, taking a seat next to him. âYou two should join us on the dance floor.â
Lily laughed softly. âMaybe later. Right now, weâre enjoying people-watching.â
âSuit yourselves,â you said, shrugging, "I'm going to the bar, does anyone want anything?"
Oscar shook his head. "No, thanks. I'm good."
"I'll have another gin and tonic," Lily said, giving you a warm smile.
"Got it," you replied, turning towards the bar.
As you made your way through the crowded club, you found an open spot at the bar and flagged down the bartender. As you waited for your drinks, you felt someone step up beside you. Glancing to your left, you saw the last person you wanted to run into tonight... or ever.
Carlos Sainz was standing there with what you called his "resting bitch face" and acting like he owned the place.
You knew chances of him being at Jimmy'z for the last day of the summer break were high and you had decided earlier that you were just going to ignore him for the night if you ever ran into him. After all, you were there to have fun, not to get into a confrontation. But you were known for being short-tempered, a stark contrast to your brother's laid-back demeanor.
When you heard Carlos order his drink without so much as a âplease,â you couldn't help but call him out.
"Whiskey, neat," he ordered, his tone clipped and lacking any form of politeness, his Spanish accent that you found absolutely irritating coming through.
âA 'please' would be nice, you know,â you interjected.
Carlos turned to you, his brow furrowing. âExcuse me?â
âYou heard me,â you replied coolly. âIt's not hard to be polite.â
"Do I know you?" Carlos stared at you for a moment before recognition dawned. âOh you're Piastri's sister, aren't you?â
âThat I am,â you confirmed, your tone equally cold.
âFigures," Carlos scoffed, shaking his head, "Youâre the one who sent me that lovely message on Twitter.â
âYou deserved every word,â you replied, crossing your arms.
âDid I now?â Carlos leaned closer, his expression hardening. âYou don't even know the whole story. You just assume I'm the bad guy because of Oscar."
âI know enough,â you shot back. âI know you never take responsibility for your actions. You always blame someone else.â
âAnd what about you?," Carlosâs jaw tightened, "Hiding behind your keyboard, throwing insults. That's real mature.â
âSomeone had to say it,â you replied, refusing to back down. âYou can't just go around acting like you're untouchable.â
âAnd you can't go around thinking you're some kind of vigilante,â Carlos retorted. âCan't your little brother handle things himself?.â
âMaybe if you weren't such a jerk, people wouldn't have to call you out,â you snapped, feeling your temper flare.
Carlos sighed, clearly frustrated. âLook, I don't have time for this. Just stay out of my way, alright?â
âGladly,â you replied, turning away from him.
When you rejoined your friends, they noticed your tense expression. Lando shot you a questioning look, but you just shook your head.
"Ask you bestie," you simply said and Lando threw his head back in frustration, once again, he was in the middle of his two best friends tension.
âIâll talk to him," Lando said, sipping on his drink.
"Don't bother, he's a bitch."
Later that night, Lando found Carlos near the dancefloor chatting with some friends. He pulled him aside, needing to get to the bottom of the latest incident.
âWhat happened with YN now?â Lando asked, trying to keep his tone casual.
Carlos shrugged before speaking, âI was minding my own business, ordering a drink, and she just came at me."
âAnd?â Lando raised an eyebrow.
âAnd sheâs just so immature and arrogant,â Carlos continued, âSheâs always ready to pick a fight over the smallest things. Itâs embarrassing.â
Lando shook his head. âLook, Carlos, YN is protective of Oscar. She sees you two butting heads and she gets defensive. Itâs not ideal, but itâs not like sheâs completely unreasonable.â
âWell, she sure seems unreasonable to me," Carlos crossed his arms, "I donât know how you deal with it.â
Lando sighed. âSheâs my friend, and so are you. I wish you two could just get along, but I know thatâs asking a lot. Just... try to give her a bit of slack, alright? Sheâs not a bad person.â
"She's insufferable."
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The Ferrari hospitality was the last place you wanted to be during a Grand Prix, the mere thought of it being the place where Sainz (or as you liked to call him, the little bitch), was most likely to be kept you away from it.
However, Alex told you to meet her there after the Qualifying so you could leave together for dinner. Oscar and Lando already left with the rest of the team, so you had no choice but to wait for your friend.
"Looking for someone, hermosa?" your eyes immediately rolled without even turning around to see who was speaking, the thick Spanish accent that you despised filling your ears.
"Not for you, that's for sure," you said, not even bothering to face him.
"Are you sure? Because this is not the McLaren garage, did your little bro finally kick you out or something?"
"Sainz," you retorted sharply, finally turning to face him, "Shouldn't you be busy making excuses for your next mediocre performance on track?"
"Ah, always so angry, Piastri," he chuckled, unfazed by your hostility, "Maybe you're just frustrated because you're not getting enough attention. I could help with that."
"I don't need or want anything from you," you shot back, your voice laced with irritation.
Carlos leaned casually against a nearby wall, his smirk widening. "Come on, hermosa, you know you've got a temper. Maybe you just need to let off some steam."
Hermosa, the word he used often when he wanted to get to your skin. When you first heard it, you had no idea of what it meant. You were never good at learning Spanish growing up. But after a quick google translation search you found out that it meant beautiful. And for some reason you felt like throwing up.
"Believe me, Sainz, you're the last person I'd ever turn to," you replied icily, folding your arms across your chest, "And don't call me that."
He chuckled again, seemingly enjoying your discomfort. You wondered how Lando could be friends with him when he was nothing but an arrogant little bitch, and you cursed Alexandra for taking so long to get her stuff from hospitality.
"I hope you know that you have some serious issues, Sainz," you said, your patience wearing thin as his cocky stare weighted on you.
"Issues? Me?," Carlos raised an eyebrow, clearly entertained by your anger, "I think you're the one with the problem, querida. Like I said, maybe you need to get laid. I could help you with that, your brother won't find out."
Your eyes narrowed, your blood boiled to the point where you could feel your skin burning up. If it wasn't for the all the people around, you swore you could've punched him.
You took a step closer to him, your voice dropping to a deadly whisper. "I hope your car sets itself on fire so you're not able to race tomorrow."
Carlos's smirk only widened, he was well aware that he got into your skin and he enjoyed every minute of it. Before he could respond, Alex finally appeared, her eyes flicking between the two of you with a mix of curiosity and concern.
"Ready to go?" she asked, sensing the tension.
"More than ready," you replied, shooting Carlos one last glare before turning to leave with Alex.
The next day, news spread quickly through the paddock that Carlos' car had suffered a mechanical failure during the warm-up, rendering him unable to compete in the Qatar Grand Prix. Meanwhile, Oscar had won the Sprint and finished P2 in the race.
Karma got that little bitch, you thought to yourself
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The end of the 2023 season was a blur of celebrations, laughter, and champagne showers. Oscar had closed off the season as the Rookie of the Year and you couldn't be more proud of him, you were grateful you got to be by his side through it.
And of course, with the end of the season a celebration at Jimmy'z was in order, all drivers, their girlfriends and friends pulling up to Monaco for one last night of partying before the winter break.
You had stuck close to Lando and Oscar for most of the evening, since it was a special occasion, you decided not to hold back with your drinking and have as much fun as you wanted, Lando being your partner in crime as always.
So by 2 a.m, you were pretty drunk, not to the point where you couldn't stand on your own feet, but drunk enough to make a couple of bad decisions.
With that thought on your mind, you decided that it was time to find your brother or best friend and call it a night. But for some reason, both of them were nowhere to be found.
Stumbling through the crowded dance floor, you made your way toward the back of the club, hoping to spot them. The alleyway was dark and you couldn't see a single thing, but they weren't definitely back there.
"Fancy seeing you here, hermosa," a voice behind drawled, almost making you jump.
"What the actual fuck!" you said, holding a hand to your chest.
Of course it was fucking Carlos Sainz, once again
"You scared the hell out of me!" you snapped, narrowing your eyes at him, "Do you hide in dark alleyways like a creep all the time?"
"Slow down, hermosa, why are you so angry all the time?" his Spanish accent was thicker than usual, a clear sign that he was as tipsy as you were.
"I'm not in the mood for your games tonight," you retorted, trying to brush past him.
"Relax, I'm not here to cause trouble," he said, blocking your path with an easy grace. "Though you do seem to find me wherever you go."
"Only because you insist on being everywhere I am," you shot back, folding your arms over your chest.
"Or maybe you just can't resist my charm," he teased, leaning casually against the wall.
"Charm? Is that what you call it?" you scoffed, "More like arrogance and an inflated ego."
"Arrogance? No. Confidence? Absolutely," he replied with a smirk, "And I think you secretly like it."
"You're delusional," you muttered, feeling the alcohol clouding your judgment. "I can't stand you."
"Is that so?" he said, stepping closer. "Because you seem pretty invested in this conversation for someone who supposedly hates me."
True
"Maybe because you won't let me leave," you said, your voice rising in frustration.
"Or maybe because you've spent the entire season trying to get my attention by being rude to me and blasting me on social media, calling me a little bitch and all."
"I was defending Oscar," you snapped. "You kept messing with him on track. Someone had to call you out."
Carlos shook his head, his cocky smirk even bigger now. "It was never about Oscar, and you know it."
"God, I hate you," you said, ready to walk away but he blocked your way one more time.
"No, you don't," he replied, a knowing smile on his lips. "You just hate that you can't help but get all hot and bothered whenever I'm around."
"You're really are such a little bitch," you spat, but even as the words left your mouth, you felt a strange thrill.
"And you're a firecracker, Piastri. That's what makes this so fun."
"You're so full of yourself," you retorted, but the words lacked their usual bite. The alcohol was making it hard to keep up your defenses, and Carlos's close proximity was doing strange things to your resolve.
"Maybe," he conceded, his voice dropping to a husky whisper. "But I think you like it more than you let on."
Before you could argue back, Carlos took another step closer, his body almost pressing against yours. The tension between you crackled like electricity, and despite your best efforts, you found yourself unable to pull away.
"You're infuriating," you muttered, your heart pounding in your chest.
"And you," he said, his breath warm against your ear, "are insufferable."
Without another word, he closed the gap between you, capturing your lips in a fierce, almost desperate kiss. It was a collision of anger, frustration, and undeniable chemistry, and you couldn't help but respond in kind.
Your hands found their way to his hair, fingers tangling in the soft strands as you kissed him back with equal fervor. His hands roamed down your back, pulling you closer until there was no space left between you.
What the hell was happening?
For a moment, all the animosity, all the bickering, melted away. It was messy, it was intense, and it was everything you hadn't realized you wanted.
When you finally pulled away, breathless and dazed, you could see the same mix of surprise and desire reflected in Carlos' eyes.
Before either of you could say anything, you were interrupted by Lando's voice calling out your name. You quickly stepped back, putting some distance between you and Carlos as Lando approached, a curious look on his face.
"Everything okay here?" Lando asked, glancing between the two of you.
"Just fine," you replied, giving Carlos a final, challenging look. "Just fine."
Carlos nodded, his smirk returning. "See you around, Piastri."
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Formula 1 was back and in full swing. And with that your "nepo sister" privileges, which included traveling with Oscar for races came back too.
You were excited for this season, Oscar was no longer a rookie and he had a lot to prove, and you couldn't wait to see him rise to the challenge.
In addition to that, this season was going to be extra interesting, since the news of your least favorite driver on the grid (or at least the one you swore you hated) being replaced by Lewis Hamilton in Ferrari were announced a few weeks prior.
"Did you hear the news?" Oscar asked, making his way to you.
"What news?" you replied, setting down your coffee cup.
"Lewis Hamilton is moving to Ferrari next season," Oscar said, watching your reaction closely.
Your eyes widened in surprise. "Wait, what? So the little bitch is out?"
Oscar nodded. "Yeah, it's going to be an interesting season."
Carlos Sainz was both a source of irritation and inexplicable attraction. You had tried to push the memory of that kiss at Jimmy'z to the back of your mind all winter long, but you just couldn't stop thinking about it.
Plus, Lando was firm on his mission of making wither of you confess that apparently you "liked each other", which made ignoring the whole situation even harder.
You just hoped that he would keep it chill this season, not bothering either you or Oscar so you could just pretend he didn't exist.
With that thought on your mind, you made your way back to the hotel. You spent the day exploring around Bahrain with Oscar and Lando, and now you were ready to unwind in your room. The boys deciding to spend a few more hours walking around before heading back.
Once in the lobby, you stepped into the elevator, pressing the button for your floor. Just as the doors were about to close, a familiar hand slipped in, forcing them open.
Carlos Sainz stepped inside, his ever-present smirk firmly in place.
Speak of the devil and he shall appear, they say.
"Not going to say hello, querida?" he said after a few seconds of complete silence from you, leaning against the elevator wall.
"Carlos. Still popping up where you're least wanted, I see," you rolled your eyes, folding your arms over your chest.
"Missed you too, Piastri," he chuckled, pushing off the wall to stand closer you, "How was your break?"
"Great, thanks for asking," you replied coolly. "Did you enjoy yours, planning how to be a pain to other drivers this season too?"
"Is that really how you want to start our first conversation of the season?" Carlos raised an eyebrow, "I though we've left that in the past, specially after what happened at the end of last year."
You tensed at his statement. More than once during the break, you wondered if he remembered what happened that night. He was as drunk was you were, if not more, so you convinced yourself that he had forgotten about it.
"I don't remember much from that night. Must have been the champagne."
Carlos leaned in slightly, his voice low and teasing. "Oh, I think you remember perfectly well. Especially the kiss."
Your heart skipped a beat, but you kept your expression neutral. "I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Playing dumb doesn't suit you," he said with a chuckle. "But fine, we'll pretend it never happened. For now."
"Good," you replied sharply. "Because I have no intention of discussing it."
"Maybe you're playing dumb because you want me to kiss you again," Carlos teased, making you throw your head back in frustration.
"I'd rather choke on my own spit, little bitch,"
"Ahh, missed hearing that," Carlos said, his tone cocky and satisfied with your frustration. You mentally cursed the elevator for taking so long to get to your fucking floor.
"You know what? I hope you don't find a seat for next season at all. You act like a total peacock when everyone knows you're basically unemployed right now," you spitted out before you could even think twice.
Carlos raised an eyebrow, his expression momentarily serious. "Low blow, Piastri. Even for you."
You held his gaze defiantly, refusing to back down. "Just stating the obvious."
The elevator finally dinged, announcing your floor, and you stepped out swiftly, eager to end the conversation before it could escalate further.
Carlos Sainz had a way of getting under your skin like no one else, and the season had only just begun.
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It was a sunny day in Melbourne, and the paddock was buzzing with excitement. The Australian Grand Prix was always a favorite, and this year was no exception.
You felt good to be back home, you always felt proud when you saw Oscar on the track, but seeing him racing in your home country was something even more special.
Carlos was also back from his emergency surgery and ready to race again. And even though you would never admit it out loud, you were relieved to see him back and healthy. The news of his appendicitis had shocked you more than youâd expected, and youâd found yourself genuinely concerned about his wellbeing.
I'm just being a decent human being, you tried to convince yourself, It would be really scary if that happened to Oscar or Lando.
Walking through the paddock, you looked for a familiar face to hang out with before it was time for the track action to start, spotting Lando's back talking to someone you couldn't quite identify, you decided to approach him.
As you got closer, Lando shifted slightly, revealing the person he was talking to, Carlos.
He looked well, a healthy glow back in his cheeks, his smile easy and relaxed. He was wearing his team gear, the Ferrari red suiting him perfectly. His dark hair was slightly tousled, and despite the casual setting, he looked effortlessly handsome for someone who had a major surgery just two weeks ago.
Your stomach did a little flip. You hated to admit it, but lately your hatred towards Carlos had cooled down. Maybe it was the memory of that kiss, seeing him vulnerable after his surgery or the fact that he had been decent to Oscar so far. You couldn't deny that there was something about him that made you feel⊠softer.
However, you decided to ignore those thoughts and feelings every time they got to your head, because at the end of the day, there was no way he could ever feel or think the same way. It was better to keep hating each other.
Lando noticed you approaching and gave you a teasing grin. "Hey, YN! Look whoâs back from the dead!"
Carlos turned to face you, his eyes lighting up when he saw you. "Hey, Piastri," he greeted with a warm smile. "Back to your home turf, huh?"
"Yeah," you replied, trying to keep your tone casual despite the flutter in your chest. "It feels good to be back."
Lando gave Carlos a pat on the shoulder. "I'll catch up with you later, mate," he said, winking at you before walking away, leaving the two of you alone.
You stood there for a moment, awkward silence filling the air. Maybe he was still tired from what he had been through, but he didn't show any signs of cockiness or wanting to annoy you this time.
"You look well," you finally said, your voice softer than usual. "I'm glad you're back."
Carlos chuckled, his eyes twinkling. "I heard you were worried about me."
"Don't let it go to your head," you replied quickly, though the usual bite in your tone was missing. You felt a bit embarrassed that he knew, "Iâm just being a decent human being."
"Of course," Carlos said, his voice nonchalant, "Decent human being, sure."
"Iâm serious," you insisted, though your voice lacked the usual edge. "But I am glad youâre okay. It must have been scary."
Carlosâs expression softened. "It was. But I had good doctors, and Iâm ready to race again. Thanks for worrying."
There was silence again, and you noticed that this was the first time you and Carlos had an interaction that didn't include biting each other's heads off.
It felt nice.
"Well," you said after a minute of silence, "donât expect me to go easy on you just because you had surgery. You're still on my watch."
"Wouldnât have it any other way," Carlos smirked, "But for the record, itâs nice to see you care, even if you wonât admit it."
"Don't push your luck, Sainz," you warned, but there was a hint of playfulness in your voice.
"I wouldn't dare, Piastri."
"I should get going," you said, pointing towards the McLaren hospitality, "Good luck out there."
As you turned to walk away, Carlos's voice stopped you in your tracks.
You glanced back at him, eyebrows raised in question.
"You know, this is the first time you don't call me a little bitch," Carlos said, a small playing on his face.
"What, you miss it already? Does it turn you own?"
"Maybe a little," Carlos chuckled, "Keeps things interesting."
You shook your head, trying to hide the smile that threatened to spread across your face.
"Well, good luck out there, little bitch."
You didn't wait to see his reaction, but you knew he was grinning from ear to ear.
Later that day, Carlos crossed the finish line first and won the Australian Grand Prix, sending the crowd into a frenzy. You watched as Carlos celebrated on the podium, spraying champagne with Lando and Charles and holding up the winner's trophy with pride.
You swore you played it cool, but everyone around you noticed the huge smile on your face.
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"You're not my best friend," Lando said, sitting on the plush couch of your hotel room, watching as you put a sweatshirt on, "You've been replaced with an alien or an evil twin, there's no way you're YN Piastri."
"Can you quit being dramatic," you rolled your eyes at him, "It's no big deal."
"You're grabbing sushi with Carlos Sainz," he stressed, moving his hands to emphasize, "You hate Carlos Sainz, it's been an issue for me for the last year because both of you force me to pick sides and I have to make sure you don't kill each other. And now you're suddenly going on dates."
"This is not a date," you protested, "Don't even say that out loud, it's gross."
"Then what is it? Because he asked you out and you said yes, that's literally a date."
You didn't give him a reply right away, hiding behind your your busy hands as you pretended to adjust your sweatshirt.
Truth was, you didnât have an answer, at least not one that made sense. You couldn't blame Lando for thinking you've been replaced with someone else, because you'd never accept anything from Carlos last year, let alone willingly grab dinner with him.
But here you were, about to head out to meet him.
"I just want free dinner," you shrugged, "And he offered to buy it, so I'm taking advantage of it."
"Sure, free dinner," Lando gave you a skeptical look, crossing his arms, "Because youâve never had other options for free dinner before, right? Your brother is rich, he could buy you whatever you want."
You huffed, trying to sound annoyed but feeling a bit defensive. "It's just sushi, Lando. Stop making it a big deal."
"You know, it's okay if you like him," he said, his tone genuine. "I mean, I get why you're hesitant, but it's fine to have feelings for someone, even if it's Carlos Sainz."
"Are you out of your mind?" you immediately said, your voice sharper than intended, "We're talking about the little bitch, what on earth makes you think that I could have feelings for him other than disgust and irritation."
"I don't know, maybe the fact that you're getting ready to get dinner with him, or that you were on the edge of your seat worrying the entire time he was recovering from the surgery, or the time I almost caught you kiss-"
"God, just shut up," you interrupted him, "Oscar would understand. He knows I'm never going to get all lovey-dovey over Carlos."
"Oscar might buy whatever you tell him," Lando raised an eyebrow, "But that doesn't mean you're being honest with yourself. It's not the end of the world to admit you might have a crush."
"I do not have a crush on him," you insisted, your cheeks heating up. "It's just... complicated."
"Complicated how?" Lando pressed, leaning forward. "Because from where I'm sitting, it looks pretty straightforward. Youâre intrigued by him, heâs intrigued by you, and you both canât seem to stay away from each other."
You let his words sink in, Lando might be a year younger than you, and often perceived as a carefree guy who didn't have a serious bone in his body. But in reality, he was a very wise person who understood the complexities of situations better than most.
That was one of the reasons why he was your best friend.
"Look, itâs not that simple," you sighed, rubbing your temples, "We have history, and not the good kind. I don't trust him, and I donât think he trusts me either. We're just⊠trying to be civil for once."
"That's good," Lando stood up from the couch, sitting beside you and wrapping an arm around your shoulders, "Honestly I was tired of dealing with your constant bickering, if you didn't kiss and make up on your own, I was going to lock you up in a closet until you resolved it."
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After a nice dinner and a couple of drinks, you and Carlos walked back to the hotel. The sushi had been surprisingly good, and the conversation⊠surprisingly pleasant.
The bickering between you was still present, but this time it wasn't harsh or spiteful, it was playful and and light-hearted. The tension that usually accompanied your interactions had lessened, and you actually acted friendly towards each other.
"I still can't believe you made me try that weird seaweed thing," you said, bumping your shoulder against his as you walked.
"You loved it, admit it," Carlos chuckled.
"Maybe a little," you conceded with a small smile, "How did you know this place anyways?"
"I like reading restaurant reviews online," he shrugged, "It's a random hobby of mine, and I'm going to need those in case I don't have a job next year."
You paused, his words sinking in. Carlos joked about it, but you knew the uncertainty of his future in Formula 1 must be horrible. The sport is cutthroat, and the thought of not finding a seat to race must be weighing on him heavily. It made you think about Oscar, and how that could happen to him too.
"I'm sorry for saying that I hope you don't find a seat next season," you blurted out, feeling a pang of guilt. "You're right, that was low, even for me."
"Are you really apologizing, Piastri?" he teased, "First you cared about my health, now you apologize. What's next? You'll stop calling me a little bitch?"
You rolled your eyes, but there was no malice behind it. "Don't push your luck, Sainz. Just take the apology and run with it."
"Alright, I'll take it," Carlos laughed, a genuine sound that made your heart skip a beat, "You must be praying I stay just so you have an excuse to argue with me, aren't you?"
"Don't flatter yourself," you shot back, grinning. "I can argue with anyone."
"But you like arguing with me the most," he said, his voice softening.
You didn't reply, the truth in his words making your heart race. From the corner of your eye, you saw the satisfied grin on his face.
Soon enough you reached the hotel lobby, and once you walked through the doors you spotted Charles and Alexandra by the reception desk.
"Well, well, well, what do we have here?" Charles called out, drawing the attention of Alex, who looked at you with raised eyebrows.
"Just coming back from dinner," you replied, trying to keep your tone casual. "What are you two up to?"
"We were just about to head up," Alexandra said, linking her arm with Charles's. "How was dinner?"
"Surprisingly good," Carlos said, glancing at you with a smirk.
Charles raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. "This is new. You two actually getting along?"
"Don't get used to it," you said, rolling your eyes. "I just wanted free dinner."
"Right," Charles said, not convinced. "Well, we're heading up, you coming?"
You all piled into the elevator, the small space filled with a mix of comfortable silence and light conversation. When the elevator reached your floor, you stepped out, Carlos following close behind.
"Goodnight, guys," Alex called out as the elevator doors closed, giving you a look that screamed 'TEXT ME ASAP'
Carlos walked you to your room, the hallway dimly lit and quiet. As you walked side by side, the occasional brush of his arm against yours sent small shivers down your spine.
"So, the only reason you agreed to come with me tonight was because you wanted free dinner?" Carlos asked once you reached your room.
"Exactly, what else do you think would make me want to spend an evening with you?"
Carlos chuckled, leaning against the wall beside your door. "I don't know, maybe my charming personality and good looks?"
"Charming?" you raised your eyebrows at him, "You're literally the most annoying person I know."
"Likewise, Piastri," Carlos shot back, his smirk widening, "But here we are, aren't we?"
"You really think you're that special, don't you?" you said, rolling your eyes.
"I know I am, querida," Carlos replied, stepping closer. "And you can't get enough of me."
You looked away from him, his stare suddenly becoming overwhelming. He was really close, as close as he was the night you kissed at Jimmy'z, and even thinking about it has your neck crawling away in sweat.
"See? You can't even deny it." Carlos grinned, his eyes locking onto yours again, his voice dropping an octave as he took another step closer.
"Don't get any ideas," you warned, but your heart was racing, and you were sure he could hear it.
"I can't help it," he said softly, his face now inches from yours. "You bring out the best in me, Piastri."
"I still hate you," you whispered, your breath hitching as he leaned in even closer.
"No, you don't," Carlos whispered back, his lips brushing against yours.
Before you could protest, he closed the distance and kissed you. It was gentle at first, tentative, as if he was giving you a chance to pull away. But when you didn't, the kiss deepened, becoming more intense and filled with a raw passion that took your breath away.
Your hands found their way to his shoulders, gripping tightly as you kissed him back, losing yourself in the moment. His arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you even closer.
When you finally pulled away, both of you were breathless, a small smile playing on Carlos's lips.
"Goodnight, Piastri," he whispered, his voice husky.
Unable to move from your spot, you watched him walk through the corridor and disappear into the elevator doors, your mind still blurry about what happened just seconds ago.
You were fucked.
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A playlist full of pop classics played as you got ready for Lando's millionth win celebration.
He took the win at the Miami Grand Prix and the next following days were full of partying and champagne. You were beyond happy for him, and willing to put up with his multiple celebrations of his well deserved win.
This time, the setting was not that over the top, just a casual dinner at his place in Monaco with his close friends.
"Can I come in?" you heard after a knock on Oscar's guest bedroom, the place where you stayed when visiting Monaco.
"Sure," you replied, quickly meeting with your brother's figure.
Oscar entered the room, a casual grin on his face. He glanced around before his eyes settled on you. "Are you almost ready?"
"Yeah," you replied, adjusting an earring. "I hope this is Lando's last celebration, I can't keep up anymore.
"He's definitely on a roll," Oscar chuckled, "You know, Carlos is going to be there."
"I know," you said, looking away from him for a moment and trying to keep your tone nonchalant.
"You do?" Oscar raised a eyebrow.
"He's Lando's best friend, Osc, it's obvious he'll be there."
Oscar nodded slowly, a knowing smile playing on his lips. "Right, of course. But you two have been getting close lately, haven't you? You didn't even come for his neck after Miami, and you always do that."
You sighed, knowing where this conversation was heading. There was no denying that there was something between you and Carlos, your friends might not know about the times you've kissed, but they definitely noticed the shift in your behavior towards each other.
You found yourself enjoying his company, looking forward to catch a glimpse of him every weekend and craving his touch. You don't know if he feels the same way, but the way he looks at you and finds ways to get you alone tells you he does.
Admitting this to Oscar felt like crossing a line, even though he had always encouraged you to be open about your feelings.
"We're just⊠getting along better. That's all," you muttered, "And you asked me to behave on social media this season, I'm trying to do that."
"That's bullshit, YN," Oscar shook his head, a teasing smile forming on his lips, "Come on, admit it. Maybe the real reason you didn't attack him this time is because you like him."
"Oscar, we're not having this conversation," you quickly became defensive, "I don't know why everyone insist on something that's far from the truth. I don't like Sainz."
"Sis, it's okay if you like him," Oscar said, his tone gentle but insistent. "You don't have to hide it from me."
You looked away, feeling conflicted. Ever since you first met Carlos, there was something about him that intrigued you, however, you were too caught up in convincing yourself that he would never see you as more than his brand new rival's sister. Things getting worse when his incidents with Oscar on track started and you took that as an opportunity to be reckless to him.
It was a self defense mechanism for your own feelings.
"It's complicated, okay?" you said, feeling vulnerable but knowing you could trust him, "We spent last year coming from each other's necks all the time, but now he's nice to me and I am too, we spend time together, we kiss. But at the same time, I feel like I can't trust him, that he's going to switch to little bitch mode again and I'll end up feeling stupid for potentially catching feelings."
"Holy shit you've kissed!" Oscar said, his eyes widening, "Lando was right all along."
"Oh god, I shouldn't have said anything," you threw your head back in frustration.
"Sorry, sorry," he put his hands up in defense, "But It's okay to feel confused. You can talk to me, you know. I'm your brother, and I just want you to be happy. I can tell that this is really bothering you."
You sighed, sitting down on the edge of the bed. "I just don't know what to do, Osc. One minute I think I might actually like him, and the next I'm terrified of getting hurt."
"Look, I know Carlos can be intense on track, but off track? He's a good guy," Oscar sat beside you, putting an arm around your shoulders, "When he's not trying to push me off the track, he's really supportive and a nice guy. There's a reason why Lando adores him. Plus, maybe he's figuring things out too."
You leaned into Oscar's side, grateful for his comforting presence. "Do you really think so?"
"Yeah, I do," Oscar nodded reassuringly. "And you deserve to give yourself a chance at happiness. If Carlos could make you happy, then why not see where it goes?"
"When did you become so wise?" you teased, giving him a small smile, "You're supposed to be my annoying little brother who picks his nose and runs around the house."
"Hey, I can be wise when I want to be," Oscar chuckled, giving you a playful shove, "But don't worry, I'll always be your annoying little brother, nose-picking and all."
You laughed, feeling some of the tension ease from your shoulders. "Thanks, Osc. I needed this."
"Anytime, sis," Oscar said warmly, giving you a quick hug. "Now, come on. Lando is probably drunk already and we haven't made it to his house yet."
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You're not sure how it happened, but Carlos' arm laid casually in the back of your chair as you chatted with those around you. His fingers gently brushed your bare shoulder from time to time, his thigh pressed to yours under the table.
Maybe it was the couple glasses of champagne you both had, you're not sure. But you definitely didn't want to move from your spot.
No one dared to say anything about it, but your friends had teasing grins at the sight. You knew you'll have to deal with them later, but you decided to ignore it for the night.
"Alright, I think I'm calling it a night," Oscar said as he got up from his chair, Lando immediately booed, "Are you coming, YN?"
You looked at him with raised eyebrows, you definitely didn't want to leave yet, feeling too comfortable in Carlos' presence. In addition to that, you haven't had a chance to get him alone, and that was enough to not want the night to end.
After a minute of silence from you, Carlos spoke up, "I can give her a ride home if she doesn't want to leave yet," he offered, his voice smooth and nonchalant.
"Oh, a private chauffeur service now, Carlos? How fancy," Max teased from across the table, making the entire group laugh.
Oscar hesitated, glancing between you and Carlos, his protective instincts kicking in. "Are you okay with that, YN?"
"Yeah, I'm okay with it," you met Oscar's eyes and nodded, "Or I can just crash here, Lando is too drunk to notice anyway, don't want to cause much trouble."
"It's really no trouble," he insisted, his hand still resting gently on your shoulder. "I'll make sure you get home safely."
Oscar seemed to relax a bit, though you could tell he was still a little uneasy. "Alright then. Just... be careful, okay?"
"Don't worry, Osc," you replied, standing up and giving him a quick hug. "I'll see you tomorrow."
As Oscar left, the group continued to tease and laugh. You always enjoyed when the drivers were in a casual setting like this one, where they could forget about competition and teams and just hang out and have fun.
You stayed glued to Carlos the entire time, getting even closer as the night went on, you could feel your eyelids getting heavy, so you laid your head on his shoulder.
"You're falling asleep on me, hermosa," Carlos whispered to you, not moving your head from its place.
"I'm not," you protested, but at the same time you did a yawn escaped your mouth, which made Carlos laugh.
"Come on let's get you home," Carlos offered you his hand.
You took Carlos' hand, not even thinking twice about it. As you both stood to leave, your friends couldn't resist one last round of teasing.
"No funny business, Carlos," Charles called out, grinning widely. You couldn't help but roll your eyes at him. "We have Oscar on speed dial."
"Yeah, don't make me come after you, that's also my sister," Lando added, too drunk to even make sense.
You laughed, waving goodbye to everyone as you and Carlos made your way out. The cool night air was refreshing as you walked to his car, your hand still in his.
The drive to Oscar's place was quiet but comfortable. Carlos kept one hand on the wheel, the other resting on the center console close to you. You found yourself stealing glances at him, admiring the way the streetlights played over his features.
At one point, Carlos glanced over and caught you staring. "You're staring," he said, a smirk playing on his lips.
You felt your cheeks heat up but didn't look away. "Maybe I am," you replied, a teasing edge in your voice. "You have a problem with that?"
"Not at all, Piastri. Not at all."
When you arrived at Oscar's place, Carlos parked the car but you made no move to get out. The silence stretched between you, heavy with unspoken words and lingering tension.
"Are you ready to stop pretending we hate each other?" Carlos asked suddenly, his voice low and earnest. "Because I am."
His words hung in the air, causing your heart to skip a beat. The intensity in his gaze made it clear he wasn't playing around or teasing you. He was being real and serious.
You took a deep breath, your eyes locking onto his. "Yeah, I am."
Your heart pounded in your chest as you closed the distance between you, your lips meeting his in a kiss. His hand cupped your cheek, pulling you closer as his lips moved against yours with a mix of tenderness and hunger. The world outside the car ceased to exist, and all that mattered was the way his kiss made you feel.
Carlos' other hand found its way to the back of your neck, deepening the kiss as he pressed you closer. Your hands tangled in his hair, holding on as if letting go meant losing this moment forever.
When you finally pulled away, both of you were breathless, your foreheads resting against each other as you tried to catch your breath. Carlos' eyes searched yours, a satisfied smile playing on his lips.
"But⊠I'm not ready to stop calling you a little bitch, though."
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Listen to your elders
So last week I posted abut the importance of downloading your fic. And then three days later AO3 went down for 24 hours. No one was more weirded out by this than I was. But while yâall were acting like the library at Alexandria was on fire I was reading my download fic and editing chapter eight of Buck, Rogers, and the 21st Century. And also thinking about what I could do to be helpful when the crisis was actually over.
So first off, Iâm going to repeat that if youâre going to bookmark a fic, you really need to also download the fic and back it up in a safe place. I just do it automatically now and itâs a good habit to get into.
But letâs talk about some other scenarios. Last October I lost power for over a week after hurricane Ian. Apart from not having internet or A/C I did find plenty to do, I collect books so I had plenty to read, but maybe, unlike me, your favorite comfort reads arenât sitting on a bookshelf. So letâs do something about that, shall we?
In olden times many long years ago around 1995 we printed off a lot of fic. It was mostly SOP to print a fic you planned to reread and stick it in a three ring binder. And thatâs totally valid today too, but you can also make a very nice paperback with a minimum amount of skill and materials.
Letâs start with the download; Go to Ao3 and select your fic, weâll be working with one of mine. This method works best with one shots, long fic tends to need a more complicated approach. Get yourself an HTML download
Open up the HTML download and select all then copy paste into any word processor. Set the page to landscape and two columns, then change the font to something you find easy to read, this is your book, no judgement. This is all you have to do for layout but I like to play a little bit. I move all the meta, summary, notes to the end and pick out a fun font for the title:Â
No time like the present to do a quick proofread. Congratulations, youâve just created your first typeset. On to the fun part.
Now youâre going to need some materials:Â 8.5x11in paper ruler one sheet of 12x12 medium card stock (60-80lb) scissors pencil pen or fine tip marker sheet of wax paper white glue two binder clips 2 heavy books or 1 brick butter knife
Youâll also need a printer, if youâre in the US there is almost a 100% chance your local library has a printer you can use if you donât have your own. None of these materials are expensive and you can literally use cheap copy paper and Elmers glue.
Print your text block, one page per side. Fold the first page in half so that the blank side is inside and the printed side out:
use the butter knife to crease the edge. Repeat on all the sheets. When youâve finished, stack them up with the raw edge on the left and the folded edge on the right. I used standard copy paper, because youâre only printing on one side thereâs no bleed to worry about. Take the text block and line everything up. Use the binder clips to hold the raw edge in place.
Wrap the text block in the wax paper so that the raw edge and binder clips are facing out. Iâm going to use my home built book press but you donât need one, a brick or a couple of books or anything else heavy will work fine.
Once the text block is anchored down, take off he binder clips and get out the glue.
You can use a brush but you donât need one, smear some glue on that raw edge.
Go make a margarita, watch The Mandalorian, call your mother. Donât come back for at least an hour
In an hour smear some more glue on there and shift your brick forward so that the whole book is covered. This keeps the paper from warping. While glue part 2 is drying weâll do the cover. Get out your 12x12 cardstock
Mark the cardstock off at 8.5 inches and cut it. Measure in 5.5 inches from the left and put in a score line with the butter knife (the back edge not the sharp edge)
Carefully fold the score line, this is your front cover. You have some options for the cover title, you can use a cutting machine like a cricut if you have one, you can print out a title on the computer and use carbon paper to transfer the text to the cardstock. I was in a mood so I just freehanded that beoch. Pencil first then in pen.
Take your text block out from under your brick. Line it up against the score mark and mark the second score on the other side of the spine
Fold the score and glue the textblock into the cover at the spine. Once the glue dries up mark the back cover with the pencil and then trim the back cover to fit with your scissors.
Voila:
Iâm going to put this baby on the shelf next to the Silmarillion.
The whole process, not counting drying time, took less than an hour.
If you want to make a book of a longer fic, I recommend Renegade Publishing, they have a ton of resources for fan-binders.Â
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HELP ME FIND A WAY TO BREATHE | M. FUSHIGURO
⥠tags ; afab + fem!reader, aged-up characters (20s), mutual pining, friends to lovers, canon-typical violence, canon divergent, sex pollen, dubious consent (they are both very enthusiastic to fuck but it is still sex pollen), brief one bed trope lol, light femdom, praise kink, penetration, unprotected sex / creampies, making out, not beta'd we die like [REDACTED MANGA SPOILERS] 18+
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⥠a/n ; hello! happy june, and welcome to my first of three installments part of my @ficsforgaza intiative. please go check them out and join us in fundraising for the people of palestine.
no other really notes on this one other than it's egregiously horny and even more sappy. a super lovey-dovey pining fic. title from sleep walking by bmth
⥠synopsis ; megumi has loved you for as long as he's known you and then some - which is why he avoids going on overnight missions with you at all cost. he's going to kill gojo-sensei when he gets back.
âYou should be more firm with Gojo-sensei about stuff like this,â Megumi leans back, eye twitching as he voices his complaints. âYou know he always puts it on you because you wonât say no.â Â
Youâre sitting next to Megumi reclined in your seat. He doesnât even have to turn his head to know what face youâre making - a forgiving smile, your eyes crinkled at the corner as you shrug unbothered. Â
âItâs fine with me,â You turn your head to look at him a little better, pulling your eyes way from the window. âJust how it goes sometimes, you know? Plus, Sensei was nice enough to upgrade us and sending us on these expensive seats. When else are you gonna ride in one of these?â Â
Your smile reaches your eyes, light filtering through the windows in quick motion bursts as you speed along the rails. Megumi knew thatâs what you were going to say. He shakes his head. Â
âDonât make excuses for him,â Â
âDonât be so prickly,â You reprimand, a long sigh leaving your lips. You reach across the armrest and pat Megumiâs shoulder âIf we finish up early, we should go sight-seeing. Thereâs lots of temples in Sendai Iâve never seen before.â Â
Megumi doesnât say anything to that. You havenât moved your hand from his shoulder either. The touch is subconscious and friendly - and makes Megumi want to light himself on fire. Heâs almost sure this is one of Gojoâs famous schemes, since thereâs little to no reason he couldnât handle a request like this one by himself. Or at least, Megumi couldâve gone alone and prevented himself from being alone with you on a trip for several consecutive days. Â
(Heâs got a special talent for avoiding this exact thing - always planning ahead and switching things around so this kind of incident never occurs. Heâs had a ninety-nine percent success rate. Without Gojoâs meddling, itâd probably be one-hundred)Â
Thereâs not a lot of information about the mission at present. The case files were barely filled out when he got them - only three papers tucked away neatly in a manila folder. On those pages are a few reports of cursed energy in the area and a map - outlining the general perimeter. From what intel the two of you do have, the concentration of said cursed energy in an abandoned commune. Megumi thinks it spells trouble, but some part of him is holding onto hope that itâs an easy to deal with curse. Something quick - so the two of you can be back on the next train ride to Tokyo. Â
Pitiful yearning fills him when your hands float away from his shoulder and settle back into your lap. Youâre lost in your own thoughts, eyes lidded as you stare outside of the window. He doubts you got much sleep last night. You always stay up before long trips. He sighs a little. Â
âWeâve still got,â He checks his watch. âAt least another hour and fifty minutes. Nowâd be the time to get some rest.â Â
You startle at the sound of his voice, a yawn escaping you. âNo,â You whine, lips formed into a soft pout that makes the corners of Megumiâs lips twitch. âWonât you be lonely without my company, Megumi-kun?â Â
He gives you a long suffering sigh. âNo. I have a lot to read. Get some sleep.â Â
Your frown deepens but Megumi doesnât budge. The both of you make prolonged eye-contact until you final give in after another yawn interrupts your protesting. Your eyes are barely open as is. How stubborn of you. Â
âWake me up like fifteen minutes before weâre there, please?â You relent. Â
Megumi just nods. You smile at him and his heart beats loudly at the sight as you close your eyes and succumb to exhaustion. He starts scrolling on his phone, opening his library app to read when your head falls onto his shoulder. He goes stone stiff - body locking up and blood pressure sky-rocketing before he regains control of his senses and loosens his muscles so you donât end up waking. He leans his head back against the cushion of the seat and takes a deep breath. Â
His phone buzzes in his hand, mood dropping as soon as he sees who itâs from. Â
donât respond: my dearest megumi-chan ! have the two of you arrived safely?Â
Megumi thinks about not responding, quickly reminded of the fact Gojo-sensei would not only keep texting him but abuse the âNotify Anywayâ option given half the chance. Ignoring the oncoming migraine, he types back carefully in order to leave you undisturbed. Â
(sent 6:58pm) weâre on the train now. Â
The reply is instant. Â
donât respond: oh my⊠how late. was there a delay. Â
(sent 6:58 pm) yeah. Â
donât respond: tskâŠwhy pay all that money for the good seats if this was the outcome...Â
donât respond: well. nothing you can do now. get a hotel in Sendai and check out the location during the day.Â
Megumi squints at his phone, scowl forming instantly. Â
(sent 7:02) a hotel?? what for?? Â
donât respond: megumi-chan⊠i raised you better than this. you are going to let a beautiful young maiden walk around the dark unknown at night? Â
He makes a face of disgust at the phrase. Not that Megumi thinks you arenât beautiful, but hearing the sentiment from Gojo-senseiâs mouth is truly nauseating. Â
(sent 7:02) ⊠weâll get the hotel.Â
donât respond: wonderful ! and if i may offer you some advice my dear boy Â
(sent 7:03) please donât. Â
donât respond: do not miss your chance ! this beautiful gift your sensei has bestowed upon you to make progress in your youthful loveÂ
Megumi scowls. He knew that was it. Â
(sent 7:04): You disliked âdo not miss your chance ! thisâŠâ Â
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Megumi stares at the attached meme (a dog gyaru posing) with a grimace - no doubt borrowed from Itadori or Kugisaki. He frowns, disliking that one too before putting the messages between them on mute and opening the app to read his book. Heâs been reading a lot of his usual nonfiction. Lately itâs an autobiography of a famous Japanese author - Soseki, the father of all modern novels. Heâs gotten farther into it than he thought he would since heâs only had it for a few days. The writing is engaging. Â
He bought it per your recommendation too, so he wants to finish it. The sudden memory of that makes Megumi blush again, his skin prickling under the fabric of his uniform.Â
 Youâre still sound asleep beside him, your breathing even and steady. If he focuses, he can see you clearly from the corner of his eyes. The soft plumpness in your lips, and each of your lashes sitting against your cheek.Â
He keeps focused on reading, though - and prays that the train ride goes a little faster. Â
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âHey,â His arm feels stiff as he moves it away from you gentle, making sure to keep your head upright and steady on the seats headrest as he wakes you from your sleep. âWeâre almost here.â Â
He sees your eyes stir behind your lids, nose crinkling as you regain consciousness. Heâs grateful you canât see him smile at you as you wake up. Quickly getting his face back to itâs baseline neutral, he waits for you to wake up as you pull away from him and sit up. You let out a long yawn, rubbing underneath your eye as to not smudge your makeup. Blinking the sleep away from your vision, you finally open your eyes. Megumi watches on in silence, trying not to look too endeared. Â
âGood morning,â You say as a half joke. Megumi doesnât bother hiding his laugh.Â
âMorning.â Â
You smile at him, pleased by his response. You pat around your body looking for your phone, visibly relieved when you find it. Megumi continues watching you as you pull it up, resting your hands on the pull-out table in front of you. You chuckle at your screen. Megumi raises his eyebrow in interest. Â
âDid you talk to Gojo-sensei?â Â
He nods. âCouple of hours ago. Why?âÂ
Instead of replying, you pull your notification center down and show Megumi the barrage of texts sent two hours-ish prior. Your phone mustâve been on DND while you were asleep since Megumi hadnât heard them either. Thereâs at least ten messages. Megumi scowls in displeasure, and you break out into a terribly lovely laugh seeing it. Â
âSee what I mean? If you give sensei an inch, heâll take a mile. Why is he texting you this student this much?âÂ
You canât suppress your giggles. âDonât be so hard on him. Heâs a little lonely now that youâre old enough to do things by yourself - thatâs all.â Â
âThen he should bother me instead of you,â Megumi grumbles. Your smile doesnât fade. Â
âHe texted you afterwards, so I guess itâs a start.â Â
âStop being so nice to him.â Â
You laugh again. Megumi tries not to smile and ultimately succeeds. Â
You study him for a brief moment before reclining a bit.  Â
âGuess Iâll have to be extra nice to you, then.â Â
A blush crawls up the back of his neck almost instantly. Your grin has a crooked edge, a touch of mirth and amusement that makes Megumi want to crawl into somewhere dark and disappear. Warmth and restless makes home in his ribcage, your perception endlessly tormenting. You donât tease him more than that, allowing Megumi catch his breath. Â
âI donât even know how thatâd be possible.â Â
âReally?â You say without missing a beat, not even looking at him as you gather up your things. âI can think of plenty of ways to be even sweeter to Megumi-kun, though?â Â
He can feel the blush deepen. His cheeks are undeniably crimson by now, heâs sure - and he can barely stand the soft quality in your voice long enough to breathe. Youâre still calm, the words genuine but undeniably tilted along the axis of teasing. If Megumi were any less stubborn, he might even beg you for mercy. He is, of course, incredibly bull-headed and refuses to do so. He huffs a little instead.Â
âYou make it sound like thereâs some quota for it.â He says, kind of lamely. Your eyes flutter, something passing in your gaze - gone before Megumi can get hold of it and know what it is. You make an impassive noise, but donât say anything in reply. Your non-answer makes him think that you might really have one. He tries not to blush any more than he is now and shakes the thought off. Â
âYou all ready to go?â You ask finally. He lets out a sigh of relief. Â
âYeah. Should be.â Megumi replies, looking down at his phone for the time. Itâll be closer to 9:30 by the time you get out of the station. âDunno if you read Senseiâs messages but he told us to stay the night at a hotel first since itâs already this late and itâs nothing urgent.â Â
Your brows raise in surprise before you nod. âThatâs probably smart. As much Iâd love to be done sooner, probably not the best idea to go lurking around in the night. Weâll do that, then.âÂ
âIâll start looking at hotels,â Megumi adds. Â
âThanks for being so helpful, Megumi-kun.â Â
He rolls his eyes. âUh-huh. Youâre welcome.â Â
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âThis isâŠreally the only place with available rooming for tonight?â Â
Megumi looks at you with an absent grimace, affirming you with a curt nod. You glance at each other, sharing mutual disbelief and basking in the solidarity of your absurd situation for a bit. A long silence stretches over you both, a weighted quiet that makes Megumi wish a giant curse would literally swallow him into the ground. Â
He wishes he had some explanation for this. His name meaning blessing feels like a spit in the face given how deeply unlucky everything about this mission has been so far.Â
Of all the hotels in Sendai, the only one within reasonable distance of your mission site that is accepting last minute is a love hotel. A love hotel is something of a non-issue. Itâs a tourist misconception to view them as kinky paradises. More modern love hotels are usually just short stays - last minute bookings with cheap prices and always adult. The full blown kinky stuff tends to stay in the several entertainment districts scattered across Japanese metropolitans. Â
Itâd be nice if that was the case here, but based on various reviews and the neon flashing blue sign at the top of the building - this is definitely the kind of love hotel for couples. The kind used for sex. Itâs the only one in proximity accepting last minute bookings, and the only hotel for miles. Megumi lets out a long suffering sigh. He can see you smiling sympathetically from the corner of his eye. He pinches the bridge of his nose as a new wave of regret settles in his bones. Â
âIâm sorry,â Megumi says, unsure of what else to say. He is truly and deeply sorry for the level of misfortune he seems to have around you. You shake your head in reply, shrugging. Â
âLetâs make the best of it,â You respond, pausing before going on. âSensei is going to be really annoying about seeing this charge on his card, huh?â Â
Megumi must look as distraught as he feels because you laugh immediately at his expression. You squeeze his shoulder sympathetically, though you clearly find it funny. âSorry, sorry. Itâll be fine. Maybe he wonât notice.â Â
 Gojo-sensei tends to keep tabs whenever people are away on missions. Itâs a common precaution for sorcerers, and when more experienced sorcerers relegate their own work - they are solely responsible for that task. Megumi can only hope heâs too busy to keep watch on it for the night. Realistically though, it means Sensei will definitely see. Â
Megumi decides to overlook this information as best he can. At least for now.Â
You trek into the hotel with your away bag, Megumi in-step behind you with his head hung low.Â
It sounds corny to him retroactively (he canât help but cringe when he says it aloud), but Megumi had foolishly hoped he could be somewhat useful to you in this mission. Every fight the two of you have been in together, youâve saved Megumiâs skin at least once. Heâs incredibly aware of the increasing debt between you. Thank youâs and paid dinners stopped being enough a long time ago. He wasnâtâŠhoping to be a knight in shining armor or anything like that - but he really wanted to do more this time since youâre already going together. Â
You probably understood that talking to the front desk in these conditions would give him a hernia and took the responsibility on without complain. You make these acts of consideration look easy and natural - smooth like the flow of water. Megumi has yet to learn how to swim against the tide instead of getting swept up in its motion. Â
Despite Megumiâs countless attempts at repaying your kindness, heâs never been able break even. He reflects on this as you speak to the woman at the front desk. Â
The lobby of Hotel:SAPPHIRE is exactly what someone might expect from an actual love hotel. The lights are dim even up front and thereâs a lot of glittery, mildly gaudy decor. Aside from the front desk, the first floor hosts some kind of amenities store and a lounge or bar. Â
 Megumiâs awareness of his surroundings is making his blush worse. Heâs not concerned by being seen in a love hotel, as much as heâs hung up on the idea that people are assuming youâre both a couple. Rationally, he knows that means nothing. Youâre two people of the opposing gender and similar age - of course people would think that. Â
Still, it makes him soâŠughâŠshy, he could genuinely die of misery. Â
He tries his best to zone out, but ultimately canât. He tunes in to listens to you talk to the woman at the front desk instead. Â
âThereâs probably no double beds here, huh?â You ask. The woman at the front desk gives you a confused look of both sympathy and apology. You shake your head with a pleasant smile. Â
âYeah. I thought so. Whatâs the nicest room you have?â Â
âWe have a queen room, with a queen bed, couch and a jacuzzi. It has one of our more spacious bathrooms as well.â Â
Megumi closes his eyes. Your reply is chipper. âSure! Weâll take that one.â Â
âAnd how long will you be staying?â Â
âAbout five days?â Â
His eyes snap open. Megumi gives you an incredulous look from where heâs standing. You turn back with a small smile as if having predicted it and then shrug again. Â
âI still wanna go sightseeing.â Â
He canât say anything to refute you in the moment, despite how much heâd like to push back on the idea. Youâre definitely enjoying yourself, at least. Maybe he shouldâve expected that. Youâre not exactly the type to get easily embarrassed. Even getting the words of complaint out feel too humiliating given the context. He sighs. Â
âWhatever,â Â
The woman at the front desk, increasingly baffled by the nature of your relationship, puts you down for five days before handing you two room cards. Â
She briefly explains some of the perks, and gently points you to the small store which freely offers things like lube, condoms, scented lotions and oils, and bath products. Itâd be great if some meteor hit Earth right now and killed him (and only him) instantly. You give her your kindest thanks and take the two room cards, turning around to pass one over to Megumi. He gives you a long look. You reply with two thumbs up and goofy grin. Â
âLetâs go to the little store place!â Â
âWhy the hell would you want to do thatâ Megumi hisses, blushing profusely. You are predictably nonplussed by his reaction. Â
âI want to see the scented lotions. A souvenir. If you will.âÂ
Itâs truly imperative to to him in that moment he remembers how often youâve saved him from mortal peril. He relents easily after that, trailing along behind you. Â
Itâs less of a store and more of a display case of possible lewd items on four sides of a centered wall, with just enough space to walk around. Megumi stonewalls as soon as the two of you are within five feet of it. You take your time looking through the different thing and snickering at the display case. Â
At one point, you tug Megumiâs sleeve and snap him out of his trance. He begrudgingly follows your gaze, eyes widening at the display case of condoms. There are so many condoms. He didnât even know they made that many kinds. Â
âMaybe we should bring one? You know, just in case.â You do a stupid wiggle with your eyebrows. Megumi is painfully aware itâs just jokes, closing his eyes with a deep sigh, elbowing you lightly. Â
âFuck off.âÂ
Your voice is sing-songy as you continue your tirade. Â
âYou never know, Megumi! What if end up in a condom emergency trying to fight curses?â Â
âPlease shut up.â Â
Your laughter sounds again behind your closed fist, but youâre merciful and turn the corner to look at everything else. Â
You indeed pick up two scented lotions and a bath bomb before you finally agree to retire to the room. Â
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Megumi is rendered speechless when you finally unlock the door to your room. Â
He isnât sure why. He shouldâve expected much worse. Â
The room is big as promised. Probably three times the size of his own dorm at Jujutsu Tech. Thereâs one bed in the middle (certainly king-sized, not queen) - with a couch and glass table adjacent to it along the back wall. The couch is upholstered with a creaky, gold fabric and the walls are painted mostly white with the exception of one wall being painted sapphire blue, decorated with a rose mural. The throw pillows and complimentary blanket share a familiar loud pattern, incorporating all three colors and stitched with gold threads. Â
Thereâs rose petals everywhere. On the bed, floor, and the table. The glass table accompanying the couch even has two champagne flutes and complimentary bottle to go along with it. Thereâs a present box on the bed, wrapped in shiny white wrapping paper and a sickly sweet, red bow. Â
Megumi doesnât want to know whatâs inside. Â
You shut the door behind him after dragging in the rest of your luggage. Â
The two of you take in the view together for a minute before Megumi hears you break out into a long fit of laughter, making him jolt. He looks over at where youâve dropped down into a squat, giggling hysterically beside him. He feels suddenly winded from the days events as you break the tension. Â
After you gather yourself you stand to your feet and look at him warmly, wiping tears from the corners of your eyes. Megumi wishes he could take it as easy as you. Â
âAhhâŠhehehe..â You put a hand over your mouth trying to suppress the sound as you turn away. âOkay, sorry. Uhm. Hah. Do you want to shower first or should I?â Â
Megumi responds reflexively. âYou can shower first.â Â
You nod, yawning as you stretch your arms up. He forces himself not to look at the way your shirt rides up over your stomach. Patting his shoulder after collecting yourself, you shoot him a tired but reassuring smile. At least he knows youâre both exhausted. Â
âThanks, Megumi-kun. Do me a favor and order room service, please? Iâm starving.â Â
He nods. âDo you want to look at the menu?â Â
You wave your hand dismissively, taking your bag and turning to the bathroom. âI trust you know me well enough to know what I want.â Â
The instant preening internally makes Megumi want to crawl in a hole. Heâs glad you canât see him. Â
âYeah. Go shower, already.â Â
âMm,â You make a noise as you stretch. âWill do.â Â
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The room is unnaturally dim. Â
Thereâs a movie playing in the background as both you and Megumi sit on the bed. Youâre doing some work on your laptop - typing in short bursts every few minutes. Megumi has no idea what youâre working on. Youâre oddly meticulous with paper work but aside from the disaster of finding room and board - there isnât anything to report on. Â
Whatever it is though, youâve been working on since you finished dinner an hour ago - nursing your beer while typing away. Â
Megumi glances at you from the corner of his eyes, heart unfairly racing at the lack of distance between you. He really should be past this. Your skin is damp from the shower and you smell like the scented lotion from earlier which makes him feel weird and warm. He decided to drink with you, but his tolerance is much worse than yours so he feels a little tipsy. He isnât sure if thatâs better or worse. Dealing with everything sober hasnât been very fun. Â
Heâs staring at you openly but youâre too preoccupied to take notice. Heâs kind of grateful. His fingers tap the sides of his can as his eyes flits up to the cheap action movie playing on the TV. Â
After a little longr, you stretch your arms over your head and shut your laptop.Â
âAll done with your work?â Â
You blink rapidly, momentarily taken aback before smiling. âYeah. Finally.â Â
âWhat were you actually doing?âÂ
âStarted on the report and then dug around some old archives for information on the commune.â Â
âDid you find anything?â Â
You laugh humorlessly. âMore or less? But nothing we couldnât have figured out on our own. The commune was more like a curse cult but it ran functionally for almost ten years. They did some type of curse breeding.â Â
âCurse⊠breeding? As in likeâŠ?â Megumi asks, making a face. Â
âItâs what it sounds like? I think. Thereâs not really any more information. The uploaded documents were barely legible. How it works, why they did it, and if it was effective - we have no information on that. Just that there was some powerful curses in the area in the late nineties.â Â
âIn the nineties? So itâs been what, decades since any activity? Why now?â Â
You shrug. âBest guess is that the sudden uptick in tourism caused it. You know, Sensei had some business in Sendai a few years back. It was right before Itadori-kun got hold of Sukuna I think. Itâs not impossible for all of it to be connected.â Â
Megumi sighs. âDonât know if that makes it better or worse.â Â
âI want to look into Gojo-senseiâs case right now but,â A yawn interrupts your train of thought. âWeâll need to be up and at âem early tomorrow.â Â
âRight,â He says, immediately preparing to sleep on couch and praying you wonât notice. âGoodnight, then -â Â
His plans are foiled fast of course. Before he can get up, you tug at the sleeve of his robe. Your face is flush from beer and sleep. Youâre so effortlessly alluring to his brain heâs irritated. The motion picture casts a soft glow on your features, picturesque in how pretty you seem to be with no effort. Â
âWhere are you going?â Â
âTo sleep on the couch.â Â
âI canât let you do that,â You shake your head. Megumi says nothing. âIâll take the couch.â Â
He purses his lips. âDid you think I was gonna say yes to that?â Â
You press your lips into a flat line. âNoâŠnot really. But.. I canât let you sleep on the couch. Itâll be a long day and you need rest,â You smile at him sleepily âI donât mind sharing the bed.â Â
âAbsolutely not,â He replies instantly. You pout at him. Damn it.Â
âMegumi-kun, please? We can just put one of the pillows between us.â Â
Megumi stares at you with a hardened brow. He knows from experience that a pillow would barely resolve the issue. A lesson he learned at fifteen where a similar incident had you both sleeping in the same tent. Â
You move in your sleep. A lot. As a result, fifteen year old Megumi spent an entire night with you, paralyzed by the lack of distance and missing an entire night of sleep. Every muscle in his body in his body had set rigid like early onset rigor mortis from stress that night. Â
He barely slept. Worse, the next morning Sensei had practically harassed him about his disheveled state. Megumi couldnât look you in the eye for the rest of the mission, though he got over it eventually. Only because you seemed very troubled when he didnât talk to you. Â
Youâre making a similarly distressed expression now at the thought of making Megumi sleep on the couch. He winces, swayed with embarrassing ease. The feeling fades after he sees how brightly you smile. Â
âThank you,â Â
He wants to ask why youâre thanking him, but doesnât know if he can handle hearing the answer so he says nothing. You turn the TV off and finish your beer and toss the can before returning to bed and undoing the covers. Megumi sits on the edge, watching as you rearrange the various pillows. You place a body pillow in between the both of you and fluff up another pillow to give to Megumi. You smile as you hand it to him, and he takes it with a soft blush. Â
He reminds you to go brush your teeth and watches you pad off to go do it, sighing and trying to meditate before itâs his turn to do the same. The alcohol is wearing off quicker than he hoped. Â
The room is nearly pitch black except for a single dim light when Megumi comes back from the bathroom. Youâre already in bed, and you smile when Megumi emerges with a stupidly cute giggle following. Heâll never get used to you, heâs sure. Â
Megumi craws into bed beside you. The bed is wide and spacious - and thereâs plenty of room seperating you. He isnât any less self-conscious of the fact heâs still sleeping in a bed next to you though, for better for worse. Â
âNight, Megumi.â You mumble, barely awake. Youâll fall asleep fast. Megumi reaches over and turns off the lights. Â
âNight.â Â
He lays in the dark, facing the other wall and waiting for your breathing to go even. Compelled to turn towards your back, Megumi does so as quietly and unobtrusively as possible. He can make out your silhouette in the dark, tracing the outline of your shoulder with his eyes as he continues to feel incredibly nervous and lovesick. Heâs been pining like this for so long, he finds it pathetic. Â
 Youâre less than a few feet away but he can barely bring himself to look at you. Oddly overwhelmed, he lets his eyes close and tries his best not to think too much about the next few days. Â
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Against all odds, Megumi sleeps well and wakes up feeling better. Â
You, of course, moved around a bunch in your sleep - ending up on his side of the bed with a single arm thrown across his waist and your face in his chest. He woke up earlier than you, thankfully - and carefully pried himself from your touch to take a cold shower in the bathroom and not die of embarrassment at the resulting morning wood.Â
You were awake by the time he got out. After you were both ready for the day, you ate breakfast together and had coffee before leaving the hotel. The whole situation was more embarrassing during the daylight. Â
Your hotel is a twenty minute drive from the site location of the mission. A quick taxi cab ride to a small temple. Navigating isnât exceptionally difficult. The temple itself is somewhat obscured, not marked on any online maps. Itâs well known locally though, enough that a taxi driver could take them towards the bottom of the hill where itâs located. Itâs listed as a temple, but on further inspection itâs a small and worn shrine. The details about the shrines origin or history are unclear even. Â
After arriving, you were both relying on the provided map. The commune itself is away from civilization. A couple hundred meters Northeast from the temple sight is a path through the forest - leading out to the clearing where the commune is supposedly located. Â
The communes ruins are a one straight distance after that. If someone was taking a short hike, it wouldnât be hard to find. Â
So it isnât difficult to find for the two of you either. Â
Megumiâs shikigami follow along side him, divine dog sniffing along the trail. Youâre up front, checking the path and making sure the trail is correct, as well taking notes for your report later on. Â
You turn your head and share a look with Megumi - no doubt feeling the same thing he does. Thereâs cursed energy around here, but itâs weird and hard to trace. Neither him nor the Shikigami can make sense of exactly where itâs coming from. Â
Eventually, you come across stone - laid deliberately like a pathway, and glance at Megumi with hopeful eyes. Â
A clearing comes in view. Ruins, with cursed energy brimming somewhere within them fall into his sightline. Itâs a bigger location that Megumi thought itâd be - stretching out far despite hosting so few residents. There are dilapidated cabins and other buildings, the place filled with overgrowth and ivy. Shattered windows, graffiti, and trash affirm to Megumi that this place was found by other people at one point or another. Â
Megumi stands besides you as you assess the situation, silently taking the lead. You step forward, further in. A sigh leaves your lips as you turn to Megumi. Â
âWeâre here but,â You scratch the back of your neck. âWhat to do now isâŠâ Â
âWhat are you thinking?â Â
You sigh. âPart of me wonders if we should split up to check the buildings, but the information is so vague that I donât know if itâs a good idea.â Â
âItâs fine.â Megumi assures. Heâs not thrilled but splitting up for now is the best course of action. He can handle himself. Heâs sure youâre worrying about that. âAs long as we can hear each other, it should be fine.â Â
Your concern muddles your features, brows drawn together as you frown. You relent eventually though. Megumi feels the corners of his mouth twitch up at how long you think about it. Â
âOkay then,â You use your fingers to point towards the left half, right at what looks like an abandoned dormitory. âIâll go look in there. Megumi-kun can go that way. And if anything sticks out, call for me immediately.âÂ
âDonât worry so much.â Â
âIf itâs Megumi, I canât help but worry,â Your reply comes in the same beat. He feels himself blush, casting his gaze to his Divine Dog with a frown. Â
âIâll be fine so letâs hurry up and look around already.âÂ
You still hesitate to part ways with Megumi, but you budge eventually. He waits for you to summon protection for yourself, watching in awe as you unzip a deck of cards from the side pocket of your uniform. Beautiful, steel enforced hanafuda cards shine in the daylight. You shuffle them with your eyes closed, feeling along the backs for the right one before sliding the set back into your uniforms compartment. Â
You make a gesture to follow along with the command two-handed tanzaku, ten points - and Megumi watches the curse manifest around your arms. A strand of bi-colored tanzaku paper appears in your hand, razor-sharp with cursed energy. You coil it around your wrist before turning to Megumi with a small smile. Â
Despite how often heâs seen you do it, the appreciation in your face at the newly summoned curse make his emotions bubble and swell with impossible longing. Â
âLetâs meet back here if we get lost,â You say precariously. Megumi huffs. Â
âWe wonât get lost. Itâs barely that far.â Â
You pout at him. âItâs better to be safe then sorry.â Â
He wants to ask when youâre doing when you drop down to your knees - but the words die in his throat as your hand comes up to pet his shikigami affectionately. You give it a small smile. âPlease take care of Megumi-kun in my absence.â Â
The Divine Dog lets out a pleased chuff that makes you smile. Â
ââŠ.Weâll be fine,â He says - because as much as he would like to make fun of you for it, he finds it all terribly cute. You stand back up to your feet, seemingly more reassured. Thatâs good at least. âIâll go ahead, then.â Â
Megumi turns to leave before you can get another embarrassing word in edgewise, blush crawling up against his skin. Once he hears your foot steps fall lighter and lighter in the opposite direction, he takes moment to steel himself and prepare for the mission. Â
Itâs easier to tear his mind away from you when the threat of mortal peril looms - so for once, Megumi is just a little grateful to be a sorcerer. Â
He takes a better look at his surroundings, shikigami sniffing along the crumbling pathways of the ruined commune and searching for a scent. Itâs a strange place with a strange aura, aside from the curse. Thereâs not much way to describe other than tiny village. The half youâve gone to explore seems to be nothing but houses and communal living - with some kind of central house if Megumi had to guess based on itâs layout. Â
Where Megumi is walking along though seems to be amenities. On the right is open space - rustic wood stakes stuck into the ground with clothes-wire with a rotted fence separating it from another big patch of dirt. Thereâs signs tacked onto some of the structural poles along the outside, but theyâre too dirty for Megumi to read. Itâs easy to tell from how crude everything is that all of it was hand-made. Â
On the left of him are storage sheds and old-crates that have somehow stood the test of time - covered in dust and dirt and moss. One of the storage sheds has a completely collapsed roofÂ
Itâs entirely uninteresting, and that feels unsettling. The cursed air still lingers, but the familiar acrid scent doesnât seem to be there. Itâs something else, something new - and itâs simmering under the surface. Neither he nor his Shikigami seem to pick up on anything clearly.Â
After a few minutes of walking, Megumi thinks they start to close in on the end of the trail. His shikigami suddenly comes to life. He looks forward. Â
At the end of the trail, obscured by more forest and trail is a greenhouse. Itâs made with all glass, and thereâs moss and condensation surrounding it. Something about it feels alive, but Megumi canât tell if thatâs just his well-developed paranoia. Â
âGo find her,â Megumi says. The shikigami makes an affirmative noise and darts off in the opposite direction as Megumi closes into the building and surrounding structures. Â
The front door of the structure is pried open and pushed against the wall. Itâs an interesting shape - a half-dome and much bigger than how it looks from the outside when Megumi steps in. Too big. Itâs weird. Â
All of the hair stands on the back of Megumiâs neck as he stands inside of it. He fits with plenty of space to move his limbs. There are raised beds along both sides of the facility - the material boxing them in now covered in dirt and dust. Overgrowths and some kind of small plant crush underneath his feet and surround him. It smells⊠sweet. Very sweet but distantly. Megumi canât figure out what it is. Towards the back are gardening tools and a table with things on it. Â
Itâs here. This is the center of whatever unusual cursed energy heâs been feeling since theyâve been within one-hundred feet of this place. Itâs in here, surrounding him. Â
His skin starts to feel hot. He figures the presence of the glass might be concentrating sunlight and brushes it aside. Â
He doesnât get much time alone in his assessment of the place. A few minutes pass before you find him again, smiling at him upon your return. Megumiâs heart does a soft pitter-patter as you enter, his shikigami proudly behind you. Thereâs a sudden leap in his affection laying eyes on that doesnât make sense. Itâs unusual and unprofessional for him to get so caught up on it during a mission. Heâs had enough with you to know how to tamp the feeling down. He has a hard time with it this time thought but shakes it off. Â
âDid you find anything?â Megumi asks. Your tanzaku is wrapped around your wrist like a bracelet, Megumi notices. Â
âYeah, actually. Notes. I didnât get much time to check and a lot of them were too water-damaged to read, but I think curse breeding mightâve been an inaccurate,â You say, scratching the back of your neck. âIt seemed like something else. With different kinds of cursed energy, or something to create more output.â Â
Megumi doesnât know what that means, and it must show on his face because you laugh in understanding. âYeah. It wasnât clear to me either but I havenât seen everything yet. I thought I should come here first so we can expel whatevers here.â Â
âThatâs the problem, though.â Megumi says. âCanât figure out what exactly is here. The cursed energy isâŠâ Â
âObscured,â You say easily. Megumi nods. Â
âExactly,â Â
âNever seen anything like this before, honestly.â Â
Megumi is surprised by that. Youâve been a special grade for a long time, the extent of your abilities equal to Okkotsu-senpai He doesnât know how worried he should be. Youâre focusing hard as you look around.Â
He tries to do the same, wants to contribute more to the conversation but his mind feels strangely cloudy. He slept well he thought. Maybe the heat is bothering him more than expected. The uniforms have always been stuffy during summer. Â
You step around around him to look at your surroundings better, but find the same problem. Â
After a minute or two of aimlessly searching, something seems to click in. You drop down to your knee. Your fingers caress whatever is sprouting in the ground underneath you. Plucking one from the soil, you bring it up to your face and frown. Youâre gentle with the petals. It looks like a clover of some kind, but the color is too bright - more like a small flower maybe. Heâs never seen anything like it. Â
Megumi feels his skin go hot again watching you touch it. Itâs odd. Too sudden and almost nonsensical, how much magentism he feels towards your innocuous gesture. Â
Thereâs another shift in the air, deliberate - and something moves underneath Megumiâs feet. Your voice is panicked as some sudden realization dawns on you, his shikigami barks loudly. Â
Everything moves around him in a daze. His ears are ringing suddenly, heart thumping hard against his chest as the flowers beneath him move and distort into tendrils, curling around his ankles. Â
âMegumi-kun, we have to get out of here. We have toââ Â
Your words are cut short before he can heed them. A scream rips from his chest as the ground opens up and swallows him whole.Â
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He falls for a long time. It seems endless. Â
His voice is trapped in his throat, despite his attempts to scream. His body weightless, crashes through empty space for what feels like hours. Despite the situation, all Megumi can worry about is you. You arenât falling beside him though heâs sure you came in together. The whole that ripped the ground was too big for that not to be true. The thought of you dying is so familiar, but it makes Megumi want to throw up mid-air. Â
The crash comes eventually. Bracing himself for impact as he falls backwards , he lands onto something like grass. Itâs not painful in the least. His skin prickles at the sensations surrounding him. Saccharine sweetness distorts the air, an artificial scent clogging his lungs as he gasps and opens his eyes. Â
He senses a presence next to him and turns to find you beside him in the grass. His body aches, both wanting to find relief in the fact youâve appeared beside him and feeling uncertainty at the same fact. Cursed energy seeps through every inch of this place, and part of him worries youâre some kind of illusion or mirage. Regardless, he calls out for you and hopes youâll answer. Â
âHey,â He tries saying your name but you donât budge. He nudges your arm but retracts just as quickly, hissing - the sensation making his skin burn at point of contact. A hole sears in your uniform where he touches you. âWake up, shit. Please wake up.â Â
After another minute, your eyes open. Megumi lets out a breath he wasnât aware heâd been holding. You groan as you sit up. Megumi sits up with you. Â
âFuck,â Your voice is thick as you sit with one leg up, a pressing a knuckle to your temple. âMy head is pounding.â Â
Megumi makes a noncommittal noise. âYeah. I canât tell what kind of domain this is.â Â
âThese were just apart of the curse, then. I felt something off of them but..,â You pick a flower up from the grass and it..moves. He frowns. âThey must just be apart of the domain. Which means thereâs a special grade behind this.âÂ
Right. Megumi has been too hung up on everything else to make proper note of that. He rubs the back of his neck as he tries to absorb his surroundings. The air around him is hazy pink. He canât acclimate to it, breathing shallow. From the flower-curse you picked, to the plants on the trees nearby. Itâs lush and humid, but the makeup in the surroundings is dreamlike. A woodland forest of some kind, maybe. Thereâs a waterfall and round body of water, a short distance away and trees on every side. Itâs alarming in how beautiful it is, disconcerting since the cursed energy inside is potent enough to make all the hair on Megumiâs neck stand straight. Â
âMy, my. What delicious sorcery Iâve stumbled upon,â Â
Megumi looks around to try to find the source of the voice but comes up with nothing. You and Megumi share a look in silent understanding. Â
âAn unregistered Special Grade in the underground of Sendai.â Your voice is resolute. It sounds so different to how you usually speak, firm and cold. âHow did you obscure your cursed energy like this.â Â
âSo many questions. Donât be so hostile to your host,â The voice is soft and feminine but deeply distorted at the same time. Grating. âIâm a benevolent spirit, little sorcerer - so I wonât kill you right away. Keep in mind you are in my domain. To attack me would be unwise. And I promise, youâll feel good until the very end.â Â
You quiet, assessing the situation. Thereâs so little about the curse that either of you can make out. The curse is intelligent enough to bargain - to reason, which means the danger youâre both in is substantial enough to be incredibly cautious. You realize it quickly, Megumi is sure. He shoots you a look, your brows furrowed as you try to make everything make sense. Â
âWhat are you after?â Â
âYou must know, little sorcerer. Human desire is filthy thing. Money, power, fame.â The air changes around you - flowers besides you blooming higher and higher until youâre all but surrounded. The sickly sweet scent becomes stronger and headier. Megumiâs lungs fill with the strange gas, burning the back of his throat. He coughs, trying to expel it. âWhat beautiful curses are born from pent-up and unspoken wants.â Â
âFuck this is so irritating,â You seem to be in a similar condition, holding up your first to your mouth as you cough along side himÂ
âHuman beings are so foolish in the face of lust, so inducing such a fever is easy. But the results can be so lackluster.â The curse is taunting, giddy at the prospect of you. âHow lucky and I to come across such talented jujutsu sorcerers with such ripe energy, hm?âÂ
âAn underhanded method like this,â You talk mostly to yourself. âYour physical form must be weak, then. To obscure yourself inside of your domain.â Â
Megumi can feel the cursed energy amplify, a sneer in the Special Gradeâs voice. Â
 âHow clever.â It remarks sarcastically. âBut not clever enough. Itâll be staring any minute now. Fight it to your hearts content, little sorcerer. Iâm looking forward to the show.â Â
Itâs only a split second before the heat starts to sink into Megumiâs body. He burns so intensely, so suddenly - it makes every other sensation feel trivial. Itâs painful, searing, and all-consuming. Breathless, he feels his vision blur as a strong wave of physical arousal completely dominates him. Itâs like an injection, nerves on high alert as he pulls at the neck of his uniform and gasps. The flowers surrounding you bloom into something grotesque, an open mouth in the center hissing out more of the pink hazy gas thatâs surrounding you before turning again, until you can barely see a few feet away from each other. Megumi can feel the cursed energy course through his body, like pure fire in his blood stream. His cock is hard as steel, makes him feel like heâs going to pass out if he doesnât touch himself. Â
Forcing himself to remain steady for as long as he can, he searches for you. Your condition isnât better as you lean back on your palms - your chest heaving in out as visible arousal paints your face. You share the same pain, the same lust, the same fever. The thought of it makes Megumiâs cock stir again shamefully. Â
âIâm sorry,â Megumi can barely make out his voice. Itâs so painful. His entire body feels like itâs screaming but he canât bear the idea of forcing you to touch him. These conditions, this situation - this terrible heat. Whatever loose threads of rationale are keeping him afloat in these few minutes are begging him to find a way out of this.Â
He knows itâs the circumstances. No one understands things like this more clearly than him but he feels deep resentment anyway. Mostly towards himself. âIâm sorry.. aah, fuck - I donât want to force this.â Â
âMegumi-kun.â You manage to voice some of your lucidity like he has, the brunt of it closing in. He feels like heâs only deluding himself, biting the inside of his cheek hard enough to draw blood. âCome here.âÂ
âNo,â He almost screams it. He wants too. But he canât find his voice to speak to you like that. He hopes the urgency reaches you. âIâm sorry. Shit, shitââ  Â
He doesnât want to shatter the thing heâs so desperately protected - to ruin the relationship heâs felt so precious about so many years of his life. He doesnât want it to happen this way. He can feel the self-loathing as he bites his tongue.Â
 Heâs dreamed of it so often, to touch you and kiss you and hold you. But at the hands of a curse feel so unfair. Â
âItâs okay,â Your voice is so soft - a salve to his nerves. A balm to ache of his whole life, calm and smooth and so kind. He burns so deeply he wants to scream. Your expression is somber but still assured. âItâs okay. It hurts right? So itâs fine.â Â
He closes his eyes. Such a pure despair. Fuck. Tears well up his vision. The pain is unbearable without you. Perhaps itâs always been that way. Â
âPlease,â Â
A desperate attempt to no one to wake up from this. Â
âMegumi-kun,â Â
Itâs the sound of your voice, calling his name so assuredly even in the face of death, that finally makes Megumi shatter. The heat overtakes him. Posesses his sense and forces him onto you like a lifeline. Â
He throws himself at you in the grass, almost knocking you back with the force of his body. Both hands clasp your face as he presses his lips with yours with nothing but desperation. Itâs less of a kiss and more of crash landing. He can feel his own conflict stirring inside of him but the relief of your touch drowns out his surroundings. All else in the world becomes silent except the taste of your mouth and the feeling of your face. How much heâs longed to this very thing, dreamed of it. Years. Over a decade of his life hiding in your beautiful shadow. Â
You pull away from Megumi with a gasp and your face makes his entire body jolt. A flush dusts along your cheekbones as your hands reach for his shoulders. His head feels light. He can feel his cock twitch at the contact, suddenly gaining awareness of just how hard he is. Â
âMegumi-kun,â You sound so serious it jolts him awake. His eyes open wide as he watches you undress hastily. Youâre stumbling in your movements as you take everything off as quickly as you can - grabbing Megumi by the collar as he sits stiffly. âTake it off. All of it. Now, please.â Â
At his wits end, he does. His hands tremble. His rational mind is fighting him at every gesture but his clothes feeling so constraining, binding him. His skin prickles, an itch skipping over his whole body as he takes everything off as fast as his hands allow. His vision is distorted from the heat. His uniform is sticky as he peels it off, drenched in sweat. He doesnât see where they go, only feeling the relief as they come off his body. He looks for you unconsciously, immediately wanting to pull away from you as he finds you naked. The feeling is so primal it strikes fear in him. Another wave of unimaginable want pours over his skin like magma spilling across rock. Â
He canât count how much time heâs spent shamefully wondering what you look like naked. You exceed his expectations just like always, unbearably gorgeous. Soft edges and curves, scars and stretch marks - so unfairly enticing to his senses. He groans at the sight of you, eyes lidded in unadulterated, carnal want as you crawl over to him. Â
Your hand pushes his shoulders back lightly towards the bed of grass underneath you both, until heâs flat on his back. Heâs overwhelmed when you crawl on top of him. Youâre fever-sick just like he is, and Megumi is sure that youâre in just as much pain.Â
But the face you make when you look like you want him is so fucking unfair. Â
Youâre beautiful and tricky and cunning and Megumi wants and wants and wants. Wants so fucking bad he might die, wants you so bad the heat in his body threatens to kill him without you. He needs you to touch him. Needs to feel your pretty hands slide across his body and touch whatever you want.Â
 You lean forward to kiss him again much harder then before. Desperation makes kissing feel so pleasurable, so good. You feel so damn good. His mind is a blank slate, your tongue carving his wants into, rewiring his conscious to pine after you until the end. Your lips are soft - pillowy and plush against his own despite how much the kiss feels like little more but tongue and teeth. He wants to forfeit it all for the sake of this lasting a little longer, just as he has his entire life. Â
Your existence a proof of his namesake - tongue and taste a blessing. Â
Your body is soft and hot against Megumiâs skin but together the temperature cools comfortable. Itâs sensual how slippery the sweat makes your bodies as you rub against each other. A mutual oasis, your tits squish along his abs and chest as Megumi holds you tight. Each time your nippls brush, his cock floods with precum. Â
You slip your tongue into his mouth, and kiss Megumi sloppily. His cock pulses awake at the wetness, a strong wave of arousal backing him into a corner. Your pussy is barely hovering against his cock but Megumi strains. It gets pulled from him, an involuntary reaction. Cum spurts out of him, splashing up against your skin - dripping as it sticks to your pussy in hot spurts. He groans into your lips. Â
âDid you cum from us kissing?â You ask, your voice completely gone. Itâs you but itâs not. It matters but it doesnât. Â
He makes an affirmative noise and you giggle into his mouth, teeth bumping together as you kiss more. âMegumi-kun is cute.â Â
Heâs still so painfully hard. Electricity flares through everyone of his nerves as he slides just barely against your cunt. Fuck. Youâre so wet. It feels so good it makes Megumi want to buck his hips and be inside of you already. Impatience makes his grip on your hips tight. His brain feels like itâs weighted with lead. Heâs losing himself, losing his fucking mind like this. You taste sweet against his tongue as you sink your pussy down and grind against his length. Youâre throbbing so hard Megumi can feel every pulse, the desperate spasming of your sex approaching orgasm. Â
The filthiness of your arousal mixing together makes Megumiâs cock twitch against your clit hard. You moan loudly into his mouth and the sound sends him over edge, a life-time of pining make it hard to breathe as you take initiative and pleasure yourself with his body. Heâs incredibly eager to allow you. Over and over, you slide your soft pussy over the length of his cock and balls - aimlessly covering it with slick, hips rutting and shivering with motion. Drools drips along the corners of your lips as you kiss him. Â
He already wants to cum again, wants to take you in such a primal way it makes him dizzy. He feels whole thinking about what it might feel to cum so deeply inside of you. Heâs thought about before, but the thought holds so much more weight in the state of his fever. Â
But now itâs the only thing he wants. His teeth ache at the mere prospect. Of filling your pussy with his cum until it overflows and drips. Wants to see it pulse and push and spill and fuck it into you at your request. He wants to hear you praise him for it just like he always does, the desire much stronger than ever. Easier to admit in this curse induced sex. Â
Youâre breathless as you orgasm above him, on top of him - sliding along his cock and soaking his lower half with stickiness of your pussy. You pull away from his mouth to laugh delightfully. Heâs so hard. He wants you so much he doesnât know how to express it other than kissing you desperately - still restraining himself. Â
Itâs so much easier to catch his breathe now that youâve both cum. Even painfully highstrung from the high with such a horrible temperature, something settles before it builds back up again. Â
The relief is burdensome almost. Â
âSo we,â Youâre breathless, more yourself and Megumi has never been happy yet so sad to see this glimpse of you again. âWe both have toâŠhaah.. cum. For the fever to slow...Thatâs something to work with.â Â
Your expression is more serious as you lean forward, sweaty forehead touching his. Itâs you doing it, not the curse forcing you both and that makes his body react. âMegumi-kun. Everything will be okay.â Â
âIâm sorry. I didnât,â He screws his eyes shut hard. âI didnât want this to happen. This is..â Â
He wants to say the worst possible outcome, but he doesnât. You smile at him. âItâs okay because itâs you.â Â
Even in the middle of all of this, you manage to get his hopes up in the worst possible way. He canât do anything but laugh at that, genuine exhaustion starting to make him lose sense. Another wave is coming quickly, steadily. Taking a serious look at his face, you hold him close to you. Â
âWeâll survive this. Weâve fought worse.â Â
âYouâre comforting me at a time like this,â Â
You just smile at him. The heat spikes again, even more intensely than before and both of you stare at each other as the lust glosses over your expression. A pit forms in his stomach, the arousal spiking so high he chokes on it. Youâre kissing again - no build up as you slide your tongue sloppily against his mouth and rub against his cock. Itâs not enough this time, not even close. His chest is tight as he gasps the words against your mouth. Â
âInside.â He breathes the word between kisses, spit and saliva dripping down the sides of his face. âNeed to be inside. Please, shit. Please.â Â
âI want it inside.â You say and Megumi groans as your hands reach between your bodies - sticky from the mess. His cock twitches as soon as your hand wraps around the base of his shaft. You pump it twice as you sit up completely to get better accesses to it. The absence of your body makes him needy again. Â
Pre-cum dribbles pathetically from the tip as you guide his cock to your pussy. Without any prep at all, you lean back and slam your weight down onto him with full force. It slides with no resistance - as you take him all the way down to the base with complete ease. Your body collapses into a shiver when you take him inside. You both cum at exactly the same time, your pussy sucking him in with a vice-like grip as he shoots another load into you. Inside of you so deep heâs aroused all over again. His cock is still hard as he fills you - and you ride your mutual high out before another brief moment of sobriety takes you. Heâs briefly sated as you pas back down against him, littering bites along his neck. Â
You smile at him when you pull back, suddenly lucid - bending down to meet his mouth in a kiss sober. He can feel himself blush as he joins you in the brief lucidity. Â
âMegumi, youâre so big.â You say with breathless laughter. He almost wants to scream he loves you but buries it immediately. Â
He groans. âI canât believe youâre being like this given the situation.â Â
You hum pleasantly and Megumi feels his heart tug. The moment lingers to briefly before itâs interrupted again. Itâs abrupt and makes you lean into his chest. Â
âYou sorcerers are boring me to tears,â The curse starts again, making you both stand to alert almost immediately. âDonât be so shy now.â Â
The Special Grade repeats the incantation of a technique. Â
Cursed Technique: Hidden Desires. Â
The air around Megumi changes suddenly. Instead of the lush oasis, heâs surrounded by a vague, all encompassing darkness similar to when he had been falling. Heâs standing in it though he canât see anything, not even himself. The fever has subsided despite him being inside the domain. Hidden DesiresâŠfrom the speech the Special Grade went on earlier, heâs sure itâs related. He stands still, unsure of what to do before something appears in front of him. Â
A sphere of cursed energy, a memory of some kind - at the brush of his fingertips. Despite his attempt to retract his hand, an outside force makes him touch it. Â
Several emotions course through his entire body at one, passing through his mind steadily. He connects to your body, your cursed energy seeping into him as he touches whatevers in front of him. His skull throbs from the exposure of someone elses memories, the fever returning to his body one-thousand times hotter than normal. A life time breaches his mind but he doesnât get to sift through any of it.Â
 It comes to a sudden halt, and Megumi hears a whisper in his subconscious. He canât make the words out properly. Â
Arousal spikes into his body as what seems to be your desire manifests in his head.Â
He does not know what reaction to have when memories and images of himself appear. Himself from your perspective, in perpetual motion - memories over the course of years crossed over with manifestations of your desires. All of it is him. Tied up, blindfolded, all other things. But him, always. Some visions are more tender than the rest. He can barely process the information, increasing stimulation making his brain fog once more. Â
Fever spikes through him again. Confusion, embarrassment, and uncertainty make his stomach flip. He remains cautionary and assumes itâs another trick of the light.He doesnât get to recover when heâs thrust back into the domain in the same position he was before he left. You look just as confused when he comes back. Â
Thereâs not a moment to speak to each other, as the curse gets amplified ten-fold the minute he steps back into the domain. His entire body breaks out in a cherry red blush as arousal twists through his gut, curling up his neck. Claims his whole body all in on forceful gesture. The sensitivity is cranked so high, he can barely feel your hand your hand on his chest without his cock spilling pre-cum. Â
Furious lust overwhelms him as you lean forward and meet his mouth again. It feels different somehow, the kiss. You press your tongue against his lips as Megumiâs cock twitches inside you.Â
âMegumi-kun,â Your voice is shot. âWant you to fuck me. Fill me up. Be good and do it, okay? Fuck me so good,â Â
The words alone are enough to break him from his state of mind. He takes one more look at you after youâve granted him permission before flipping you over onto your back. He shudders as you wrap your legs around his waist - hands on either side of your head staring down hard, as he positions himself as deep as he can go inside of your cunt. Itâs indescribable, the sensation of needing to fuck you. Heâs never been one to chase his base instincts like this unless itâs life or death - but it feels so fucking good to let go. It feels like life or death to sate you with hi cum. Megumi is used to sitting on his hands and playing at indifference, but right now you let him take and take and take. Your hands cup his cheeks, your expression hazy with pleasure. He drops his head down to your shoulders and fucks you with every ounce of strength in his waist - animalistic and desperate to scratch the skin deep itch. He bites into your shoulder as you hips slam, the sound of wet-skin slapping against each other ringing in his ears - cum frothing white at the base of his cock and dripping down your ass each time. He needs to cum again, until the heat subsides. Â
He barely gets a few thrusts in before his body strains in the familiar wake of an orgasm. The words to warn you come out choked as his hips slam against the backs of your thighs harder than ever- cumming inside of you again in what feels like seconds. It goes forever, balls emptying as he pumps his seed inside. You cum alongside him, at the same time - pussy throbbing hard around his shaft as he fills you with spend. Itâs not enough, doesnât give him the same relief this time. He needs more. Â
âFuck thatâs so good,â You praise making him groan. âYouâre so good, baby - fuck, Megumi.â Â
You moan his name against his neck. Possession settles itself into his chest at the sound as you tell him to give you more, your hands on his ass to push his cock further into you. He fucks into you again - harder, faster, deeper - cumming every time. Pure adrenaline sends him careening down a cliffs edge, unspeakable fervor making it all but impossible to part from you. Scorching like the desert sun along his spine, a solar flare inside of his stomach as you cum together in constant motions. Â
He canât stop fucking you. He canât. His body wont allow him even a minute seperated from the euphoria of your swollen cunt sucking in him like it needs his cum more than anything in the world. His brain feels like liquid matter in his skull, thrashing uselessly when he tries to will himself away from you. Delirium drives his every movements as Megumi fucks his cock into you over and over and over. Â
You goad him with every thrust of hips - wrapped tight around his waist, fingers tugging at his hair. Praise bubbles from your mouth - champagne light against his skin but so impactful each time. His dick throbs every time you call him good, call him perfect as he fills you with his cum again and again and again. Â
âMy perfect fucking boy. Fuck me, thatâs it.â Â
It goes on like that for what feels like forever. Â
He loses track by the time the heat starts to subdue again. The curse still simmers under his skin but he finds grounding after unloading a few more times. By then, he can feel how much heâs cum in you and canât help but blush. The hint of another wave tingles in the back of his head, and he canât pull away from you without feeling sharp pain. Â
But he does sober again eventually. He waits for you to join him, and tries not to feel sick at the intimacy of it. Heâs back to his senses enough to feel utter embarrassment. Â
Your voice is soft and exhausted. âMegumi-kun,â Youâre so gentle to him. âWhat did you see?â Â
He knows what you mean immediately, sensing you mustâve seen the same thing. âI think it might be another illusion of the curse.â Â
âWhy do you think that?â Â
He can feel his blush darken all over his body. âIt was uh, me. In the technique. Tied up and uhm. Anyway. I thought it might be something to provoke the other party into sex.â Â
Your eyes go wide at the confession. ââŠ.Yours was me, too.â Â
Oh. He blinks. You look at him again, too suddenly - peering at him through your lashes. Â
âIt wasnât wrong,â You say. You seem scared, just a little. Heâs never seen you like that before. ââŠIf you saw yourself and some⊠kinkier stuff. It wasnât wrong about that.â Â
His throat suddenly feels so dry.Â
 âWhat wasâŠwhat did you see?â He asks. Â
âIt was me,â You say bashfully. âMostly romantics and stuff. And some other stuff, but I donât know if I should tell you, hehe.â Â
He finds the action mercifully. He wonders if this whole thing is made-up when it dawns on him. Some type of fantasy. Maybe he was the only one down here from the start - and thatâs why everything has felt so alarmingly right.Â
Otherwise. Otherwise it would mean that youâŠÂ Â
âMegumi-kun,â Â
He canât breathe, but itâs for an entirely different reason. He wonders if heâll die from his heart beating too fast.âHm?â Â
A bated breath follows a sweet smile. Â
âLove you,â You mumble it against his mouth. The air is so vulnerable - more fragile than the wings of a dragonfly, more fragile than blown glass. âIn that wayâŠ.have for a long time. So long.â Â
His reply is reflexive. Â
âNo you donât,â Â
You pause before bursting out into giggles. So beautiful and clever. He loves you with painful devotion. âThatâs your reply to my love confession?!â Â
âShut up,â He hisses, though he canât bring himself to make the words sound any meaner. He feels high.  Â
âI love you, Megumi.â You say more clearly. Your eyes shine with familiarity heâs adored for years. Even with all the fog and haze surrounding you, theyâre clear and gorgeous. âMore than anyone else in the world, I think.â Â
He buries his face against your neck, struggling to get it out. Heâs afraid to say it. Afraid if he confirms it that everything is going to collapse here. Like a dream thatâs gone on too long. Megumi doesnât want to wake up. Â
He wants more than anything, for all of it to be real - even if it means he ends here. Â
He wonât curse you after death, that way. Â
He canât find his voice. Â
âMe too,â The weight of one thousand deaths, a thousand days of longing and loving and pining. Itâs too burdensome to say. Heâs afraid of what will happen to him - mind and soul, should he let himself admit what he kept so well-hidden. âI love you. YouâŠâ Â
When he manages to meet your gaze, your eyes are welled up with tears. He panics. âDonât cry. Sorry,â Â
âYou too. Donât cry,â Â
âIâm notââ His vision blurs. Damn it. Â
âI love you,â You say again and Megumi feels something inside of him mend. âIâll say it as many times as you want.â Â
He doesnât sense a fever this time. But he braves himself to kiss you one more time. It feels more intense than all else. He kisses you soft and slow, lets himself melt into your affectionate touch and gaze. Thereâs love behind it so obviously it makes him want to cry. He might really start sobbing, but heâs distracted by your mouth. Â
He feels boneless, throat tight. Â
âI donât feel any fever.â You tell him when you pull away from him. He presses his forehead to yours. âI like kissing you.âÂ
So embarrassing. âYeahâŠâ Â
âLetâs make love one more time.â You offer, and Megumi looks at you in disbelief. Just as always, youâre collected but ridiculous. Itâs oddly comforting. Megumi wants to believe in you, so he does. âJust one more.â Â
The fever is no longer there, but the sensitivity is still strong in his body. Your mouths meet in a chorus of affection. Megumi is still hard, somehow. But he can feel everything much more clearly. Can understand the taste of your lips and the feeling of your pussy pulsing - that itâs for him and he feels so elated he wonders if it will ever go away. He kisses you gingerly and lets himself slide out as your hand goes to his nape. Â
âYouâre so good to me, Megumi,â Your words make him ache. A whimper leaves his lips. âMy beautiful boy. It mustâve been lonely, huh?â Â
âYes,â His words meet a thrust, slow but deep. A communication of needs so raw he can barely show them to you without feeling shy. âSo long. Loved you for so long.âÂ
âMe too,â You mutter. The praise pierces his heart, suffocates him in such a euphoric feeling he canât help but gasp at each reminder. âI love you so much, baby. And weâre gonna get out of here and be together, right?â Â
He feels his head fill with nothingness. Relief like cold air brushes along his skin. Like being bathed in cool water. Youâre his cure - but thatâs always been true. âYeah. Please.â Â
âYou canât run away, okay?â Â
âI wonât,â Â
âEven though I want to monopolize you?â Â
He blushes but grunts with affirmation following another slow roll of his hips. âI want to be with you. Nothing else matters. A-and I didnât hate it⊠or anything.â Â
You smile at him. He loves you. He loves you, he loves you, he loves you. Itâs all he can come up with - watching your eyes crinkle in the corners with nothing but delight. âMm.â You slide a hand between your bodies, rubbing your clit soft as you moan a little. âSensitive. Gonna cum soon.âÂ
âMe too,â Â
Heâs barely holding it together as is. It takes a little more to push him over the edge one last time. This orgasm feels different. Feels rooted in reality. The mutual pleasure grounds him completely, relieving his ailment despite the remaining hints of fever. He kisses you as he cums inside of you one last time, shuddering as you cum right alongside him. He whispers the words against your lips as you let go. He loves you.Â
The fever cools down. It takes a while for him to slip away from you after everything, but he manages. Â
âSorry,â He mumbles, watching the cum leak out of you in embarrassment. You just laugh, patting his cheek. Â
âItâs okay, promise.â You stand to your feet as Megumi tries not to be self-conscious about the way itâs dripping down your thigh. âI canât feel the presence of the Special Grade. It must be watching from somewhere inside the domain.â Â
âYeah,â Megumi says, trying to find his clothes.âNo idea how the curse broke. Maybe since weâre already curse users?âÂ
You hum noncommittally. âYeah. Letâs⊠clean up best we can and get outta here, yeah?â Â
Megumi smiles, soft and relieved. âYeah.â Â
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âAre you interested in hearing the details of the curse, my dearest Megumi-chan?â Â
Megumi grimaces. Â
âNo. Why are you even here?â Â
Gojo-sensei feigns a look of offense that makes Megumi want to strangle him. He wants to go home and bathe properly already but thereâs always a lot of hooplah with unregistered special grades. Heâs relieved in one sense of the word, though itâs not like Gojoâs appearance made any difference since you two defeated the curse together and promptly passed out. Â
He woke up clothed, and not as sticky as he was during the fight. Apparently Gojo had found you both first and once you were awake, you cleaned him.Â
He sits on a tree stump in the forest nearby, his eyes flitting over to to you. Youâre debriefing an archivist for Jujutsu when he catches your eye. His heart pounds, blushing at the happiness on your face.Â
He feels six-eyes on him and glares at Gojo, whoâs currently hiding his mouth behind his hand. Â
âHow long have we been out?â Â
âMm,â Sensei holds up three fingers. âAbout three days? I only got here on the third and found you. I was here before, several years ago - for a related case. It took some time, but we fond information of the curse in one of the houses. Are you curious?â Â
Heâs surprised for a minute, groaning right after. âJust tell me.â Â
âSpecial Grade Kuroyuri uses a technique called Fever, to induce whatâs essentially heat - forcing all parties into extreme physical discomfort that can only be alleviated by sexual contact - no matter the party,â He spouts off, pretending to push his glasses up. Megumi frowns at him. âFever works by inducing conditions related to inner desires and producing cursed energy that way. However, as a result, should two people experiencing Fever - be capable of sating the others desire deeply, they are able to break free from it. As the condition is vague and difficult to achieve, itâs very rarely met which is what has allowed the domain to get so strong.âÂ
Megumi makes wide eyes. âSo youâre sayingâŠâ Â
âMegumi-chan, the stairwell to adulthood and true love saved you! How wonderful!â Â
Megumi blushes as Gojo giggles, glaring at him. He should kill him someday. Â
Gojo-sensei pretends to wipe a tear from his eye. âThe painful years of pining were worth something Megumi-chan. To think your desires were so pureâŠâÂ
âShut up! Iâm going to kill you!â Megumi groans, pinching the bridge of his nose and sighing. âDo we have any idea why the curse was created?â Â
âSeems the cult worshipped cursed energy as a measure of human experience. A curse intending to induce more cursed energy as evidence of their belief. Something like that. The details are vague, but weâre still looking.â Â
Megumi sighs again. âRight. Thanks,â Â
He puts a hand on his shoulder as Megumi feels the exhaustion tamp down on him. He feels better and embarrassed as you pad over to him after youâre done. Â
âMegumi-kun,â You smile at him before nodding to Gojo-sensei. He smiles back. Â
âIâll leave you two lovebirds alone,â Â
Megumi shoots one last glare at Gojo before looking towards you. You sit down beside him on the ground, resting your head on his lap in a way that makes his whole body break out into a blush. Heâs happy though. Â
âI love you,â Â
âWhat are you saying?â Â
You look up at him. âJust want to make sure you know.â Â
He looks down at you from where you lay and frowns. âHow could I not?â And then, a little softer. ââŠItâs mutual.â Â
You reach a hand towards his as you giggle to yourself. âThatâs good.â Â
Megumi squeezes your hand and closes his eyes. Better than good, maybe. Â
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PROLOGUE:Â Â
[ SEPTEMBER 4TH, 2018 | 4:45pm]Â
Megumi waits a while before going into the courtyard, hoping that youâll move and practice elsewhere if he waits long enough. Â
Heâs been sitting behind the wall for the last half-hour at least. No luck. Â
He feels bad about avoiding you, but itâs the only course of action he thinks helps both parties. Â
He doesnât exactly like you. Itâs easier to say he finds it difficult to get used to you is all. Your personality eludes him, and you remind a little too much of Sensei in how you act. Not to mention youâre already so strong. You get along well with everyone else, especially the other first years. Youâre a nice girl so itâs obvious Kugisaki-san would favor you, and Itadori-kun can get along with basically everyone. Â
But you and him have been at odds since your arrival to the Tokyo branch months prior. Megumi canât figure out how to bridge the gap between you, and finds it hard to force himself to like you. He doesnât dislike you, either though. Itâs not something he can put words too. Â
He feels guilty about it since you havenât done anything to him to cause his discomfort. He just⊠doesnât know what to do. Â
Lost in thought, he nearly jumps out of his skin as someone stands over him where he sits, casting shadow on him from above. He opens his eyes to see you standing over him, an unreadable look on his face. Â
âHow long did you plan on waiting here, Fushiguro-san?â Â
Megumi stares up at you before frowning, rubbing his neck awkwardly. âSorry for disturbing you.âÂ
Youâre hard for him to read, though youâre smiling. You seem amused as you step back, allowing Megumi to stand up at full-height and glance at you. Â
âI donât mind. I know you donât want to train with me, but itâd be kind of pointless to try and find somewhere else so itâs better to just bear with it a bit.â Â
He stares at you. You smile knowingly. Â
âYouâre surprised I know you were avoiding me?âÂ
He nods. Â
âNo offense Fushiguro-san, but itâs hard not to notice something like that when our grade is four people,â Youâre a little smug but itâs not mal-intended, though it kinda pisses him off. âNo hard feelings.â Â
You say that then sit next to him behind the wall. He stares at you feeling more uncomfortable - but canât will himself to get up. Â
âWhat are you doing?â Â
You smile again.Â
âMessing with you,â Â
He stares at you. You stare back until you break out into laugher. Â
âPfft, Iâm sorry. I really am. You make it so obvious on your face when I make you mad..hah.â Â
âItâs that part of you I really donât like.â Â
âMm, yeah - thought so.â Your reply is nonplussed but not unkind. âYouâre the moody, serious type. Sensitive.â Â
Megumi watches you shuffle through your deck of cards - the ones youâd been practicing with for the last few hours. You peruse through the thick boards of your Hanafuda deck, silently stacking them into different matching suits and using them with your cursed energy. Megumi watches on as you manifest different thing. He wants to ask you about it but canât find the wil. Youâre so strong, despite how you act. The strongest of the first years even outclassing him. Â
âItâs fine if you find me hard to be around, but donât avoid me so blatantly.â You reason coolly. âItâs best we get along.â Â
ââŠDo you want me to get along with you?â Â
You laugh at that but he isnât sure why. Itâs nice.. the sound of your laugh when itâs sincere. This is the first time heâs ever properly talked to you, he realizes. Â
âOf course! I like getting along with everyone, even someone as brooding as you.â Â
âWhy.â Â
âItâs good for my public image.â You say seriously. He deadpans as you perk up and laugh again. âKidding, Iâm kidding!â Â
âIâm going to leave.â He threatens flatly. Â
âFine, fine. Do you want to know the real reason?â Â
âI donât really care,â He responds. You smile at that. Â
âIâm more than happy to tell you,â You say, completely ignoring him. âDespite your various character flaws, I think Fushiguro-san is kind of innocent.â Â
âHuh?â Â
You smile warmly. âYour philosophy to only save people you think are good I thought was cute. Itâs a very simple way to think about jujutsu. I like that part of you, I guess? You were raised with a lot of love, I think. Since itâs a difficult way to live.â Â
Megumi thinks of his life - thinks of Tsumiki and his sensei with some begrudging. He doesnât know what else to ask you. Heâs a little uncomfortable that you seem to know him so well with the little information you have. Â
âWhy are you a sorcerer then?â Â
Megumi watches you stack your cards into a card house and collapse them, humming to yourself. You seem deep in thought for a while. The sunlight moves away from the clouds briefly, a beam of line brushing against your skin. Your lashes cast shadow on your cheeks. Heâs never seen you so clearly. Â
You answer with utmost clarity and confidence - all shiny grin. âAh, well why not, you know? Since Iâm super talented.â Â
He stares at you, dumbfounded before the corners of his lips twitch. Somehow he understands you a little better than before, and he thinks that mightâve been what you wanted. Â
âYouâre an idiot.â Â
Your grin goes even wider. Â
âLetâs be good friends, Fushiguro-san. Okay?âÂ
âSure,â He relaxes his back against the wall and shuts his eyes with a small laugh. âWhy not.â Â
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