#Gap Year

[deadthehype]

October 12, 1999: Mos Def released his solo debut album Black on Both Sides.

September 6, 2024: His daughter Laila! is releasing her debut album Gap Year!

[daintydaisystudies]

Day 3/271 days until finishing my A-level resit

Pretty chill day today, met up with some friends tonight and was totally fascinated by some flowers they had in their living room :D

Did some essay plans for the evaluation of the cognitive perspective

Edited a 15 mark essay for my tutor next week

FINALLY finished off my Observational Methods Research essay!

I’m looking at trying some more study resources/methods. I’m currently using Quizlet and Notion a lot but I’d love some recommendations of other interesting resources!

Snack of the day ~ left over mac and cheese

[mostlyjels]

study session #001

જ⁀➴date: june 27, 2024

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ﾟ。 time: 11:30am - 1:30pm

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lessons learned:

- significant figures

- stoichiometry

- limiting reactant

―୨୧⋆ ˚ notes:

- it's summer break here in the ph, but i got accepted into one the top universities so its time to channel my inner rory gilmore, elle woods, paris geller, or whichever patron saint of girlbossing in academics i can call upon

- unfortunately for me though, the writer of my life has different plans for me and i have to take a gap year 😞

- well atleast i have time to prepare! the program that i got accepted into is CHEMISTRY!!! sorry for the caps, i just really love learning chem

- it's been a year since i last learned it in a classroom setting and now that i graduated i'll try to brush up on my memory

- my memory is baddd. i can remember the concepts, but i SUCK when it comes to computations. so here i am, trying to relearn them.

- i am so thankful that mit published these online video lessons and review problems for free, because trust me i wouldn't know where i would start studying

- the little guy kept me company whilst i suffered on how to find the limiting reactant (which was embarrassingly easy, and it made me wish that i watched a tutorial first before i started winging it)

[kappuccinostudies]

thursday — 02.01.25 [D-170]

chemistry. a lot of chemistry. honestly, only chemistry! since my mum was hosting a brunch today, I got out of the house early and headed to the library. met my boyfriend’s childhood friend, she is really sweet. we studied for four hours before having lunch, my bf was fasting so he didn’t eat with us but later I had dinner with him :) I went back to the library and this cat kept me company for the rest of my studies! I have seven pictures of her but this is the loveliest one. Istanbul really is ruled by cats.

studied: chemistry, social sciences (ew)

[maiapoetica]

you're young until september ⋆☀︎.

[welcometolansstudy]

9 nov 2024 - saturday, 22:51

hii how was your saturday ?!

i didn't do anything that was on my to do list today 💗 i should learn to be more realistic, but i really thought i'd study, even just for a little bit. instead i was just busy getting ready and running to the supermarket for some last minute lunch

the 国語発表会 was fun! we couldn't be there from the start because my sister had to go to her violin class in the morning, so we actually only catched the last 15 minutes of the show-and-tell. after that, my former teacher told me to visit the junior high (middle school) classroom. and so i went there with my sister & mom and we suddenly got asked to 1) quickly (re)introduce ourselves & talk about how we're doing now that we graduated and 2) what we thought of the play. my teacher literally was like "i'd like you to do that! right now!! 😁". that's what i like about her tho, she keeps you on your toes, and i think it's a good thing to always be ready to speak in front of a group. i've missed her a lot

after that, we went out for dinner with a few (20) people, (former) students + their parents. the food was good, especially the starters (borrelplankje, something light to eat while you're chatting and sipping your drink).

we got home around 21:00, but since it was so dark it really felt as if it already was 23:00 or even midnight! i feel so tired so quickly lately

i hope you had a great day, and i'll see you tomorrow <3

[angiospleen]

Got to make a vision board at work:

[walebynature]

Laila!

Gap Year! - September 6, 2024

[kiwi-duckquack]

I am going to spend my gap year learning as many niche skills as possible. These will be side quests.

This is my side quest year.

[lonely-parrot]

can't i take a gap year to write fanfics ?

[llamasaysrandomstuff]

the fear of mediocrity

sylvia plath was right when she so relatably said

what horrifies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age.

i too believed myself to be brilliantly promising, brimming with potential. maybe this delusion was constructed by my consistently high grades and praise from authority figures. however it came about, it stuck with me. carried into my college years. made me despise the person i am.

academic validation. a noose, a vice, a chaotic destruction. nothing ever good comes from it. movies have been made and books have been written to try to decipher the utter wreck it can make a person. because what am i if not the worth of the results in front of me. the romanticised notion of dark academia. chasing that high is something i should have left behind. taking it one day at a time is the only thing i'm currently capable of.

it is said that reality is often disappointing. in my case, it was fine. i never expected a bright future, a big house or a shiny car. i just wanted to live on my own terms. so when none of these things seemed to be actually happening, i was relaxed, cemented in reality. but still. i had potential. i was smart. i was talented. i was at the top of my class. what happened. where did it go. i wasn't supposed to be just average, forever cornered at the crest of something great.

i feel stupid. i am stupid. wrong decisions at every step. no future plan. because how am i supposed to work towards something that i don't believe exists. always in the back of my mind, since i turned into a legal adult, a voice saying i wasn't supposed to live this long. so if it's borrowed time anyways, what does it matter. failure and mediocrity should then be embraced. but there are expectations. people more stupid than u have done this so why can't you.

justifications and excuses for failure, ready beforehand. realising that no matter the effort i put in, it won't compare to my own potential. fuck the other people, i can't even compete with myself. it has led me to not even try, because why do something that is doomed for failure. but. regret. i could have done more. i know I'm smarter than this. i know i can do better. then why can't i do it. it kills me knowing that i let something so achievable slip through my fingers. not because i want it or care for it but simply just for the satisfaction of it. to prove a point. to maybe feel like life isn't that hard.

what ifs have a grasp on me. detaching from the present to live in a hypothetical. rarely do i tap into what's happening around me. even then. disappointed, i withdraw.

there is this undying, pestering want to achieve everything. a want to do everything, be everything. never settling for one thing. losing everything as a result. opportunities gloss by me. too scared to reach out and cement a future. settling for mediocrity is the last thing i want. but. mediocrity is my undeniable truth and my heaviest burden.

if that's not enough, i am but the myriad of the things i want to achieve. but trying to be good at several things and lacking excellence in all is not praised. yk jack of all trades master of none and all that. but then what am I supposed to do? carry on with something i'm not naturally perfect at? absurd.

perfectionism. procrastination. laziness. doubt. hindrance to what i could have had.

and for fucks sake, i know I'm young, i know i have my entire life to figure it out, i don't need to achieve everything right this moment, but the crushing burden of expectations and hope is right now. you can figure it out later. your 20s are for you. but. establish a career in your 20s so u can enjoy the later years. both can't be true. one is a condolence in the face of failure the other is reality.

[daintydaisystudies]

Day 4/271 days until finishing my A-level resit

Suuuuuper productive day today! Caught up on all the work I’d missed at certain points in the past 2 weeks.

Finished all my work for tutoring next week

Completed my revision on the cognitive perspective

Finally perfected some knowledge on Moray (1959)

Even had time to meet up with a friend group before they head off to uni next week! Had some lovely vegetarian curry that my friend made me and found some conkers :)

Snack of the day ~ falafels and hummus

[leevalley]

and a kath

[myoldiaries]

is anyone else abnormally overwhelmed with their life hahahahaha