#Fox gets soooo many hugs

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It’s Fox Day so have a fluffy lil Corrie Guard Talent Show story I wrote based on this post featuring a bunch of my talented writer friends OC’s and Fox trying so hard to develop better mental health patterns and so so many hugs 🥰❤️🦊

Ten Out Of Ten

7k words! Click the title for the AO3 link. @corrieweek TW: Suicidal thoughts mentioned, KMS joke and general implied past abuse and decom, but things are better and they’re healing now ❤️‍🩹

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“I’m going to fucking-”

Stitch’s eyes snapped to Fox’s face the moment he started mumbling those words under his breath, and he cut himself off. Kill myself, was what he wanted to say, but he wasn’t supposed to make jokes like that was he? They’d talked about this at length after the war was over, after the Senate voted to declare clones were Sentient in an upset he still wasn’t sure he believed really happened. Their newfound position was so fragile, even if the decom orders he shielded them from for years had been stopped. His vode weren’t expendable anymore, there were consequences for abusing them now that Fox had the right to enforce, but the sense that all those protections could be ripped away had seeped deep into his bones. Fox hadn’t been able to protect them before, his efforts hadn’t been enough, he wasn’t enough! Palpatine might be gone, but Fox couldn’t shake the icy dread that he would see those leering yellow eyes around every corner, hear that cruel voice disguised with grandfatherly patience threatening his vode if Fox didn’t comply, feel the sudden pang of lightning sear across his skin -

“Fox,” Stitch said his name in a hard tone, snapping him out of the spiraling thoughts for a moment. “Stop that.”

Right. Fox took a breath.

Stitch had a point, he knew he did, as much as he hated to admit it a couple of weeks ago when he made his last ill-timed joke passing by a familiar spire. Jokes like that only reinforce negative thought patterns, Stitch had snipped. It’s not funny, it’s only making your damn mental health worse and it’s going to give me a fucking aneurysm one of these days if you don’t knock it the hell off! 

The reminder filled him with a new wave of guilt. His poor CMO could never trust Fox wasn’t serious about those sort of things, and Fox honestly couldn’t blame him, but Stitch already had to put up with so much. Now Fox was adding to it. Maybe it would be better if he just-

“I’m serious, Fox,” Stitch snarled. “Want to try that again?”

Fox scowled at the floor. He was trying to do better, he really was, he had to, for his brothers sake. He’d promised them he would, even if he didn’t understand why they still bothered, now that the primary threat to their existence was gone. But Stitch was still glowering at him expectantly. Thorn and Thire had gone quiet too, right in the middle of their own conversation. Great. Now they were all concerned again, just because of his bad coping skills. Fox looked up at the ceiling, trying to remember what Stitch had said to do with thoughts or jokes like that instead, even if it was just to appease them. Just say something different, right? Something positive or funny or ridiculous? 

He let out an exasperated sigh and blurted out the first load of nonsense that popped into his head. “I’m - I’m going to put on the best talent show Coruscant has ever seen,” Fox muttered, his voice thick with sarcasm.

There was a pause, and Fox felt a flush creep up his neck. Where the hell had that come from? It wasn’t even really funny, it was just ridiculous, Thorn and Thire were bound to give him shit, and -

“Wait seriously?” Thorn jumped up eagerly from his spot on the floor. “We can do that?”

Thire’s eyebrows shot straight into his hair. “I ah. Think the Commander was joking, vod.”

“But we could?” Thorn pressed, practically bouncing on the balls of his feet with a huge sparkling grin on his face. 

Fox blinked a couple times at his vod’ika with a pit in his stomach. Thorn had to be joking too, didn’t he? 

“Cause I had this idea, there’s this song I found that I want to make a routine with Lowkey to and -”

“Isn’t that what the holonet is for?” Thire chuckled.

“Trust me, this would be so much better live! I could - No wait, can’t say. That would be a huge spoiler!”

Both troopers looked excitedly at Fox, and his heart dropped. Kriff. This wasn’t a complication he was prepared to deal with, not today.

“I…” He gulped, trying to stall, trying to think of any way to tell them no, it wasn’t possible, they didn’t have the resources or the time… But it was useless. He couldn’t stand to see their faces fall if he could help it, not after everything the Guard had been through for so long. If they wanted to do something like that so badly he would find a way, he… He could never say no to them. Not with enthusiasm like that, not when they were looking at him like that!

“Sure,” He caved, cursing himself internally as he did. “We can have a… A talent show.”

Thire gasped, Thorn let out a whooping cheer, and Fox had to grin in spite of himself, at least until Stitch snorted from behind him. Fox shot a tired glare back at his CMO, who didn’t look sorry in the slightest, in fact he looked downright pleased. Stitch had to know exactly what just happened in Fox’s head, and this whole self-esteem issue he was constantly pestering Fox about had just taken a turn that his vod’ika couldn’t have planned better if he tried. It wasn’t like Fox could really regret it, though. Thorn had already lit up like a life day tree, sending frantic comms to Lowkey with ideas for their next routine, and Thire wore a thoughtful little grin on his face that Fox could have melted at.

“What are you going to do for it, sir?” Thorn asked suddenly, looking up from the comm he had been typing out.

“I’m not competing,” Fox said automatically.

“Whaaat?” Thorn frowned.

“Why not?” Thire said in bewilderment. “It’s your idea!”

“What would I even do?” Fox exhaled, shaking his head. “I don’t have any special talents.”

“Sure, vod. You just killed the Sith, ended the war and set us all free, that was a normal Benduday,” Thorn snarked.

“That wasn’t all me… And how exactly would I do any of that on stage?” Fox protested.

Thorn opened his mouth to offer up what was sure to be some sort of insane suggestion, but thankfully, Stitch came to Fox’s rescue.

“He told you you could have the show, that’s enough,” Stitch snapped. “I karking swear, if you try to hijack his sleep schedule just to make him prep for some damn act, you’ll be seeing my special talents in the med bay first hand!”

That made the pair of them back off, but it didn’t seem to damper their excitement for the thing, which was good. Fox let out a breath as they shrugged in acceptance and got back to their conversation from before, this time with giddy little grins on their faces.

This… This couldn’t hurt, could it? If the idea was making Thorn and Thire this happy, it would probably be good for the rest of his men, too. Fox wasn’t the only one who struggled, maybe they could all use the boost. He would still make sure it was closed to anyone but the Guard, to be safe, even if the galaxy was nominally safer for them already. Outsiders seeing his vode in the spotlight was still a risk he wasn’t willing to take, but they could keep this small, just celebrate a few of his brothers who he loved so much and remind them of their worth. He could manage that.

Stitch slung an arm across Fox’s back as he started thinking it all through, and Fox automatically pulled him into a hug, letting out a deep sigh.

“It’s a good idea, vod,” Stitch told him softly. “I’m proud of you. You caught yourself, you’re forming better patterns already, that’s progress. But this isn’t going to fuck up your sleep.”

“Someone has to plan all this,” Fox reminded him, but Stitch shook his head as he pulled back to look Fox in the eye.

“Yeah. Someone. Not you,” His CMO told him pointedly, mouth twisting into a wicked smirk. “Either you let me handle this or you go down to one shift a day, don’t try me. We have rights now, thanks to you, so you can’t work more than your doubles or I’ll fucking report it.”

“This wouldn’t be work related-“

“It could be,” Stitch threatened with glee, and Fox let out a half-hearted scoff. That wasn’t even fair. His brothers needed those protections in place, but Fox hadn’t considered how Stitch might use those new laws against him, too.

“Fine,” He bit out. “If you’re sure, but if you need anything, tell me. I should still be involved.”

“It’s your own damn show, you’ll have a role,” Stitch shot back, but his eyes were soft, and Fox nodded. It was settled, then. For better or worse, Fox really was going to kill himself put on the best fucking talent show Coruscant had ever seen.

---

It might have been Fox’s half-baked, sarcastic suggestion to throw the talent show in the first place, but Stitch stayed true to his word and took charge of the whole production so Fox wouldn’t work himself into the ground trying to do it all it himself. He still wasn’t sure whether to be relieved or put off by the help. This really was something he could have handled on his own, he used to pull triple or quad shifts, the doubles were already a massive improvement and adding the show to his plate really wouldn’t have been pushing himself more than he had before. Pointing that out Stitch again later that night, though, proved to be a mistake, as the CMO kindly offered to break his fucking legs and throw the bone knitter off the goddamn Rotundra if he tried to go back on their agreement now…  So Fox let Stitch handle coordinating the thing, went to bed, and hardly slept, but at least he tried. 

Fox had barely begun his first shift when it became clear word had spread and clones on and off duty all started acting strangely. He had only pictured a small gathering in his head, something held quietly in the barracks or the mess, far from prying eyes, but the more excited vode he encountered throughout the day the less that seemed like a viable option. 

Thorn and Lowkey passed Fox as he left the barracks that morning, both of them soaking wet, squelching in their boots and giggling like kriffing cadets. They froze when they saw Fox and tripped all over their promises to clean up the mess before Fox let them go. Only a couple hours later, Lefty’s pet tooka somehow got stuck in a vent in the armory, and when he got her out, she was wearing a miniature version of shock trooper armor. The red paint hadn’t dried yet and was smeared in places on the thin plastoid, but that, at least, was a cute problem. He gave a blushing Lefty a comforting hug once his pet was safe and gently scratched the little tookas head before moving on with his day.

The talent show was farther from Fox’s mind again by the time he was making rounds near the east wing of the building on his second shift. Suddenly he heard noises from a storage room that was supposed to be unoccupied, and panic flared in his gut. He’d heard things like this before. Muffled voices echoed from inside, one of them shouting something indistinguishable, and they sounded like his vode!

All the worst possibilities raced through his head, but they had rights now, he could protect them if someone was trying to hurt them and he would! He would do anything to keep them safe, no matter the cost. Fox drew his twin blasters with his heart in his throat, raced right up to the door and -

The voices started to sing. Fox stopped dead in his tracks.

Theeeeere once was a man come from Sriluur, Say now did he really? A handsome pirate, that’s for sure! All of that’s a lie!

It… It was several voices, echoing loudly through the door now in the otherwise empty hall, all of them clones but… But nothing was wrong. Fox’s adrenaline fizzled at once and he let his hands with the blasters fall at his side. They were just practicing in there, a call and response song like some of them made up back on Kamino in training, nothing that was hurting them. There weren’t even rules against that kind of thing, at least, not anymore.

Hondo Ohnaka, Hondo Ohnaka, Hondo Ohnaka! All of that’s a lie!

Fox shook his head and closed his eyes for a few seconds, letting their little song remind him that they were okay. They did sound good, now that he knew no one was locked in there with a fucking Senator, and some of the lines they made up almost made him chuckle, lessening his nerves. If they had written it themselves, it was a very clever shanty. After a minute or so he trudged off to continue his rounds, but practicing vode continued to catch him off guard through the rest of that shift. By the time he made it back to the barracks he had ran into Pointe with wide eyes and his arms full of bright colored fabric and ribbon scraps, Tree practicing an attempt to make a strange plant disappear for Senator Chuchi, and Crow trying to smuggle no less than six mouse droids out of the Senate halls for who-the-hell-knows-why.

Fox was tired when he finally returned, but before he could make Stitch’s whole kriffing day by collapsing into bed at the end of it like he was supposed to, Thire burst in with a grin on his face that lit up the whole room.

“I found us a venue!” He announced, and Fox blinked at him in bleary-eyed confusion.

“A what?”

“You know that old theater just down the street?”

“The one you just issued eighteen building citations to last week?” Fox said with a raised eyebrow.

Thire rubbed awkwardly at the back of his neck. “Yeeeah… I might have offered to waive those if they can get the violations fixed by Taungsday… And let us use the place that night.”

Fox’s face stayed impassive as he looked at his blushing vod’ika. “…For the talent show?” He asked at long last, and Thire nodded.

“I mean, where were we gonna have it? The mess?”

That had been what Fox was picturing, but… Well, it didn’t really matter to him if the theater paid those fines, just that they fixed their shit, so if this was just as effective he didn’t see a problem with it. Besides, Thire seemed proud, and after seeing so much more enthusiasm today than he expected, maybe being on a real stage would be good for his kih’vode too, at least if the event was still private. They deserved to feel special. They were special. Especially since so many of them really had cultivated great talents, even while stationed here, of all places, where stifling conformity was a matter of survival.

“Good work, vod,” Fox yawned, standing up again and crossing over to Thire over to give him an appreciative hug. “They’ll love that.”

“You think so?” Thire said, letting out a breath and straightening up a bit at the praise.

“Of course,” Fox assured him. He let him go with a pat on the shoulder and sank back down onto his bed. “You’ll have to tell Stitch, though…”

“Will do, sir!” Thire beamed.

Fox smiled as he closed his eyes, even through his exhaustion. He hadn’t expected all this, but it really did feel like the spectacle was needed, somehow. Maybe he should have known, with how long they had all had to keep their individuality hidden away, for safety’s sake. But things were different now, they really were. Even if he was still having a hard time believing it. 

Fox found it a little easier to drift off to sleep that night, even if he could have sworn someone was practicing an entire tap dance routine in a nearby room. 

---

The day of the talent show came and the old theater was packed. Even knowing how excited his kih’vode were about this, Fox stared around in wide-eyed wonder at the number of them who showed up! Stitch had to half-drag him through the crowd of smiling, laughing Corries, most of them in armor but a few in military dress clothes or civvies or even full costumes that rivaled the worst dressed Senators, towards the judges booth in the center of the room. The rest of the panel, with Thire, Stone, Hound and Rosie, were already gathered there, chatting and laughing as they waited for everyone else to find their seats. 

It was slow moving through the crowd though, even with Stitch’s intimidating scowl to cut them a path, since Fox’s kih’vode kept turning to smile at him, laugh, and hug him along the way.

“Commander!” A fresh faced shiny, Zed, grinned up at him with a a sharp salute. “Thank you sir, I - I can’t believe I get to show off my hoverboard tricks! I always saw the holos of the pros on Kamino but I never thought…”

“You’ll do great tonight,” Fox reassured him, giving his shoulder a squeeze that made the kid swell with pride and bounce on his toes. They only made it a few more steps before another trooper tapped on his shoulder. 

“I was hoping to catch you, Sir,” The trooper said softly, fidgeting with a piece of flimsi in his hands, and Fox recognized him as Penner. “I didn’t sign up, I don’t think this would be very exciting from the stage but… I’ve been learning origami to give me something to do with my hands when I’m anxious and… I think I’ve gotten good at it,” He explained, blushing a little as he spoke. “I want you to have this one…” He held up the flimsi in his hand and Fox’s eyes widened. What was a flat and fragile sheet just a minute before was suddenly a perfect little Fox.

“That’s incredible,” Fox breathed, and he meant it. He picked up the little fox as gently as he could, looking at the little details, the tiny folds that seemed to fit impossibly together in awe. It was so personal, so heartfelt... ”Thank you, Pen’ika,” Fox smiled. “If you were competing I’d give you ten out of ten.”

Penner looked like he was about to cry. “It’s nothing, you… You saved my life,” Penner whispered, his lower lip wobbling just a bit as he did. “I don’t know if you remember but… But thank you, Commander.”

Fox felt like the air had been knocked clean from his lungs. He did remember, of course he did. Penner had been one of the first men he had been too late to protect… But he wrapped his arms around his brother, drawing him close and taking care to keep the oragami fox cupped protectively in his hand. When they pulled apart, both their eyes were misty, and Penner gave him a watery grin before turning away.

“I hope you’re paying attention,” Stitch said under his breath as he took Fox by the hand again. “See what can happen when you’re not a fucking asshole to yourself?”

“This was mostly your work,” Fox pointed out in a raw sounding voice, but Stitch shook his head.

“Only because you’re still running yourself into the damn ground trying to keep us safe. This was your idea, its happening because you said so and you did it for their sake, don’t you dare deny it!”

Fox didn’t dare. He wasn’t sure why he had said anything about a talent show in the first place, what possessed him to speak those words with hardly the thought in his mind or where they even came from, but he… He wasn’t sorry. His vode needed this, maybe more than he even realized, or maybe he knew but just hadn’t understood it yet. 

“How many of them do you think…” Fox started, but trailed off.

“Think what?” Stitch pushed.

“… Need to know they… Matter,” Fox said quietly. “Even if they’re not competing tonight.”

Stitch stopped in his tracks, turning back to him with a solemn, troubled look on his face. “All of them,” He said, without a hint of bluster or sarcasm.

Fox nodded. That’s what he thought, too. “I wish I could tell them all…”

“I know. They would say the same about you,” Stitch told him gently. “Come on.”

A few more hugs and encouraging words later, Thire, Stone, Hound and Rosie all turned to greet him and Stitch as they approached the judges booth. Thire waved him into the centermost seat that they had left open for him and immediately sank into the seat at his right. Stitch paused, giving Fox an odd look and whispering something to Rosie, who nodded her head. 

Fox was finding it a little difficult to pay attention to the small talk the others were making. Instead, he traced the edges of the little origami Fox in his hands. After a moment Stitch leaned in to give his shoulder a final squeeze before heading backstage, and Thire scooted closer to Fox’s side, his presence cool and steady. 

Something about this night that had started out as a bad cover for a worse joke already felt so important. They’d been wearing the same matching armor and using their numbers instead of names for years for their own protection. He had to make so many stifling rules to keep them safe, even if it wasn’t enough. Everything that they did had been to blend in, to avoid drawing attention to themselves, to make themselves indistinguishable from the next clone so they couldn’t be easy targets, but now…

Now the war was over. They were people. They could stand out, show off, shine… But even if so many of them weren’t ready for that, they deserved to be celebrated, too.

Thire reached out, giving Fox’s hand a quiet squeeze, and he exhaled. He was already proud of them, so proud of every single one of his brothers, wherever they were at on their journey. Then the lights dimmed, the eager voices of his vode that filled the theater quieted in anticipation, and Thorn and Lowkey took the stage in the most ridiculous bright red bedazzled suits Fox had ever seen.

“Olarom, olarom, olarom!” Thorn shouted excitedly in Mando’a to a loud set of cheers, spinning an umbrella around his arm for some reason. “Welcome to the first annual Coruscant Guard Talent Show, vode!”

Fox raised an eyebrow. He never said anything about this being annual.

“Shiny or veteran, Grunt, ARF, Shock troop, Medic, Mechanic, Prison guard, Security, Massiff handlers, Massiffs themselves and anyone else, none of that matters tonight! So forget your test scores, fuck whatever the long-necks thought of you, nobody’s perfect and tonight we get to see some of what you’re all really made of! The good stuff! Like… What do we have tonight, Lowkey?”

“What, besides us? In these gorgeous suits?” Lowkey said lightly, strutting across the stage in the glittery red thing and puffing out his umbrella behind him dramatically to the cheers and cat-calls of the men in the audience. “I’ve got to give credit where credit is due though, our own Commander Fox picked these out special himself!”

That wasn’t true.

“Oh he’s got such great taste, vod, in anything but caf. Still won’t use the cream and sugar we have now, says it’s better black.”

…That part was.

“But actually, this whole night was Fox’s idea, if you haven’t heard!” Thorn continued, and that… Was true too, somehow. Fox was still having trouble remembering he had actually started all this, him and his terrible joke had teamed up to make an event that the whole guard was more excited about than anything he’d seen since the end of the war. Their brothers clapped and hooted their approval of the idea, and Fox tried not to notice how many of them had turned to stare at him just now, but Lowkey chuckled into his mic and shut his umbrella with a crisp snap that got their attention again.

“Well, we better get on with it then, Thorn, or we’ll keep the Commander up past his bedtime.”

“What’s wrong with that?” Thorn asked with feigned innocence.

“I’m afraid of Stitch,” Lowkey hissed under his breath, pointing behind his hand towards the curtains where Fox knew his CMO was standing just out of sight. A single gloved hand popped out from backstage to flip him off.

“Oooh, good point. In that case, Taps! Get your ass out here quick!” Thorn cried, and the pair of them pranced back off the stage, blowing kisses to the crowd to laughter and cheers.

The ARF trooper Taps stepped gingerly out from behind the curtains with a nervous grin on his face. Fox wasn’t sure what sort of act he would be performing, he wasn’t wearing a costume and didn’t seem to have any special gear, but the music picked up and Taps started tap dancing! The irony almost made Fox burst out laughing by mistake, because of course! The tap dancer who he heard the other night must have been Taps! He should have known. The clone wouldn’t have lasted a kriffing day in the Rotundra, not with the nervous habit that earned him his name, so Fox put him on street patrols, which was a much better fit. But he had no idea his vod had turned all that energy into something so rhythmic and percussive and artistic! When the routine came to a close and Taps bowed with a flourish the whole theater broke into applause and Fox held his score card high, a perfect 10/10, smiling ear to ear.

Next up was Tree in a bright green cape he could have stolen off Bail Organa himself and… Likely had, given how the trooper seemed to trust more of the Senators than Fox really appreciated. He took the stage with several of his friends carrying exotic looking plants behind him in big silvery pots, but once the show began Fox was completely mesmerized! The disappearance act he saw him practicing the other night for Senator Chuchi had a Part Two that he hadn’t seen, where the towering fern reappeared on the judges booth! Grizzer flew into a tizzy, barking like mad at the trick, and Fox shot his hand into the air with the 10/10 before the act even concluded.

Every other act was just as outstanding as the one before, from the squad who got the entire crowd to join them in singing the shanty about Hondo Ohnaka to the green-haired Pointe running his piebald massiff Bespin through a series of tricks with colorful ribbons and bows streaming behind her! Guts put on a gorgeous display of his automatons whizzing through the air to music that a music box he built himself played, Coro performed juggling routine that he claimed to have learned by literally jugging up to twelve medical charts at the same time (Fox wasn’t sure if that was a joke, and no one else seemed to know either, but he didn’t mistake Stitch’s barking laugh from behind the curtain when he said it), and Lucky’s graceful and risky sword dance captivated everyone except for the worried medics in the crowd, especially Rosie, who gasped loudly at Fox’s side every time he made a dangerous looking move. She still burst into applause with the rest of them once it was over, relief written all over her face.

Captain Taser’s speed painting was already a beautiful piece of artwork even before he spun the canvas rightside up to reveal he had been painting upside down the whole time , showing off a colorful Coruscant sunrise and adding the sparkle of morning stars with a last few taps of his brush. Later on the twins Kando and Sii’s four-armed General Grievous improv routine had the entire building bursting with laughter, then Zed’s hoverboard tricks sent Stitch rushing onto the stage for half a second before he twisted a miraculous third time in the air and landed his final combo. Lefty’s routine with his Coruscant Guard Shock Tooka melted about half the audience out of pure cuteness, then Xia performed a song in the voices of our judges, which was just their own voice the entire time, but they put on a long yellow wig for “Thorn’s” part and dramatically held a Massiff plushie in the air for “Hound’s”. 

Fox was laughing so hard he could barely see by the end of it, so he gave them a 10/10. They all deserved 10/10, they all deserved the whole world, he didn’t even care when Stone elbowed him hard and shook his head at his unchanged scorecard! He couldn’t help it, and he didn’t want to. 

He did at least hesitate after the slicer Crow’s reprogrammed mouse droids were revealed to have stolen boots off no less than seventeen troopers in the audience AND Thire himself, apparently working unseen throughout the entire show to amass their collection undetected. Fox shook his head and let out a heavy sigh at that. He really had to keep an eye on Crow. The kind of shit he could get up to, with skills like that… It was concerning, but admittedly impressive. So. 10/10.

“Another 10 out of 10 from our own 1010,” Thorn read off with a hearty laugh from the stage. “What does that make Crow’s total score there, Lowkey?”

“With Thire’s whopping zero, he’s coming in at 21/50,” Lowkey announced, and Crow pouted at the other Commander, making a little heart with his hands and then breaking it, but his eyes still sparkled with the usual mischief.

“Neat trick, but you gotta pick your targets better there vod. Thire holds a grudge!” Thorn said, twirling that umbrella of his in the air with a teasing grin. “Try Fox next time, he wouldn’t fault you tonight if you stole his whole kit right off his shebs!” 

A few heads turned his way with good natured chuckles, and Fox blushed a little, fixing Thorn with a glare that had no heat in it at all. It was true, but he didn’t have to say it. Even if, judging by their reactions, everyone else seemed to already know.

“Speaking of Fox,” Lowkey said slowly, and Thorn’s grin widened in a very concerning way. “I thought I heard a little rumor about a last minute addition before the grand finale?”

“Oh, right, we did hear that didn’t we!” Thorn teased, turning his gaze directly on Fox.

Fox abruptly stood from his seat with alarm bells ringing in his head. No, they had talked about this, he wasn't performing! Whatever Thorn had planned wouldn’t happen, he had nothing prepared, but before he could take a single step, Thire and Rosie had brought hands down on his shoulders. 

“Usedii, vod,” Thire murmured to him. “This won’t be bad, trust us.”

“I don’t have any special talents,” Fox hissed back. “I already told Stitch-”

“He thought of something, just before he left,” Rosie whispered. “But don’t worry. It’s good, you’ll like it.”

“Commander!” Thorn sang dramatically from the stage, his eyes somehow sparkling even more than that ridiculous suit he was wearing. “I had a whole speech planned about how you’ve been holding out on us tonight, but you had to go and ruin it! With all those big scores you kept turning in and some of what I saw in the lobby before this even began -”

“I’m sorry,” Fox blurted out, absolutely crestfallen at the realization, but of course he had gone and managed to screw up such a wonderful night somehow. He had tried, but something had gone wrong, hadn’t it? Was it because he gave everyone 10/10? Was he a useless judge? He should have just left this to Stitch, he shouldn’t have gotten involved at all - 

“Oh my god, Fox,” Thire mumbled under his breath.

“No,” Hound said firmly with a shake of his head.

Fox blinked back up at Thorn on the stage in confusion. His vod’ika looked thoroughly unimpressed at his apology, with just a twinge of amusement tugging the corners of his mouth into a grin, and Lowkey scoffed at his side.

Suddenly, Fox became very aware of all the eyes pinned on him.

“Take a breath, Commander,” Thorn said a little softer than before. A few troopers in the seats began shuffling around in their seats, but Thorn ignored them and continued to talk. “Point is, we know of something you’re better at than anyone else in the galaxy, even if you don’t. So tonight we’re gonna prove it to you.”

Fox narrowed his eyes towards the last place he saw Stitch, that spot behind the curtains his CMO had disappeared to after Zed’s hoverboard act was over, since he was responsible for this, but before he could spot him there Thire reached out and wrapped Fox in a bone-crushing hug. Fox hadn’t expected that but he returned the hug on pure instinct, pulling Thire in protectively and cradling the back of his head. 

“What is it?” Fox asked urgently. “What’s wrong?” 

But Thire just chuckled affectionately into his neck. “Nothing’s wrong, ori’vod. This is it. Your talent.”

Fox blinked a few times in confusion out at the crowd over his brothers shoulder. More of them were turning around in their seats now, understanding of some sort dawning on their faces and making them grin. Stitch stood at the far end of them all with a gloating glint in his eye.

“You’re really good at loving us,” Thire said, pulling back to look him in the eyes. “And you’re really good at hugs.”

…Oh. 

Fox wasn’t even sure how to respond to that. For a moment he just stared back at Thire, processing the words. Of course he loved them, they were his vode, they made it so easy…

“My turn,” Stone said simply, and Thire complied, stepping away so Stone could wrap his arms around Fox instead.

“The war was hard on us all, Fox,” Stone said quietly into Fox’s ear. “But you’ve been our rock. Thank you.”

Fox nodded against his brothers neck, fighting back the lump in his throat. “I… I couldn’t have survived it, without you…” He said thickly.

“Neither could we. I think we all need this,” Stone replied, giving him an extra squeeze before letting go. 

Hound stepped up next, whispering a reminder of how sending him to work with the massiffs had changed everything for him, made his life worth living, then ordered Grizzer to jump up and lick Fox straight across the face, making Fox laugh again so he felt a little less like he was on the verge of tears. Then Rosie stepped up, passing off her forearm crutches to Thire to hold as she threw herself into Fox’s arms with a bright, determined smile.

“Thanks for taking me in, ori’vod,” She said jovially. “And for finally sticking to just the two shifts. We’ll keep working on that.” 

“Stitch mentioned that to you?” Fox murmured, and Rosie flashed him a sharp look as she let go and Thire passed back the crutches.

“No, that’s common kriffing sense,” She said with a smirk.

Fox didn’t know what to say to that, but before he could take a seat again two more of his kih’vode jostled their way onto the platform, the twin shinies Kando and Sii from the comedy act. Kando opened his arms with a sheepish little grin and Fox caved like wet flimsi, sweeping both of them up into a hug, too. One of them let out a little squeal, as if his heart wasn’t enough of a puddle already. They were sweet kids. A couple seconds later he let go and scruffed both of their hair, but froze as he looked back over their heads and spotted the rest of the crowd.

Almost all of them were out of their seats. What started as a somewhat proper line of his fellow judges was now an amoeba-shaped pile of vode, with Stitch in his white medical officer’s uniform striding up the middle of them all with a face full of absolute triumph. Fox could hardly breathe as his CMO shouldered past the others and marched up the few stairs, clasping a hand on Fox’s shoulder and pausing.

“What are you waiting for?” He said with a wicked grin. “You wanted this. Get loved, moron.” 

All Fox could do was nod, and the only way he could tell the next clone who hugged him was Tree was by the bright green cape billowing down his back that definitely belonged to Bail Organa. He didn’t know how much time it took to hug the rest of his brothers and tell them they were loved, and he lost count of how many there were, but if there was anything he could do for them he would, of course he would, especially something so simple as this! The program stayed paused as they all filed through, and Fox put his whole heart into every embrace. Some of the men mumbled kind things to him, like Lefty, some stayed silent, like Guts, and some even managed to make him laugh through the tears, like Crow. He tried to apologize to the ones he knew he had let down before, even if not a single one of them would hear it he had to say it, but the message that came back to him was always the same. He was only one person, he had done his best. They never blamed him. He saved some of them, more than just Penner, and every time he heard that he held them tight for an extra couple seconds before letting them go. His kih’vode meant everything to him, and all he wanted was for them to know it.

Apparently, they did… And he meant everything to them, too. 

By the time the last of his family had made their way back to their seats, he had a feeling they had overshot how long their production would take by a while, but it hardly seemed to matter. That was a problem for later on. Stitch brought up the very end of the line with an expression full of compassion and care that Fox still wasn’t sure he deserved. Fox just shook his head in disbelief at his absolutely impossible CMO, and Stitch pulled Fox into the gentlest, warmest hug of the entire night.

They didn’t need words, but Stitch provided them anyways.

“I fucking told you.”

Fox just nodded against his brother’s neck. Stitch had been right about everything… Not that Fox would admit that just yet. If Stitch heard him say that it would go straight to his head and Fox would really would be forced down to just one shift a day. He couldn’t risk that, but he made no move to let go of Stitch again either, even as Thorn and Lowkey finally retook the stage.

“Hey Lieutenant! Something about this doesn’t quite seem fair, does it?” Thorn said with a shit-eating grin, causing most of the vode to turn back to him at once.

“Oh, definitely not. Fox is a judge, he can’t vote for himself,” Lowkey sniggered. “But we can’t let that 40/50 stand, can we?”

40/50? Fox shot a confused glance back down the judges booth to Thire, Stone, Hound and Rosie, and had to stifle an exasperated sigh. He still hadn’t thought they were taking this as a serious act, but all four of them had all gone off and awarded him a perfect 10/10. 

“Alas, we cannot!” Thire declared with a sweeping gesture to the crowd. “Looks like we all have to help him out. What do you think? What’s his score?”

Fox could feel the blush rising up his neck and his cheeks as his brothers in the crowd sounded off with whistling and cheering and chants of TEN! TEN! TEN! all around. Really, the hugs were enough, he felt the love and now this was just getting excessive, but after a minute Thorn raised both hands and lowered them slowly to soothe the crowd.

“You got all that, Lowkey?” He asked with feigned innocence. “What’s his final score?”

“Ten thousand one hundred and ten!” Lowkey called out in dazzling confidence.

“Mmm. Yep. That’ll be a tough one to beat,” Thorn mused. “Think we can manage it, vod?”

“Absolutely not!”

“Are we gonna try anyways?”

“Hell yes!”

Music kicked on, both of their umbrellas opened with a snap and suddenly the glittering suits were gone! Instead, the pair of them posed for half a second in skimpy black leotards as their brothers gasped before diving whole-heartedly into the routine Thorn had been so excited about from the start.

When the sun shines, we'll shine together Told you be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath, I'ma stick it out to the end

Thorn and Lowkey were up there having the time of their life and Fox smiled so hard it hurt! The entire crowd cheered raucously for them, some even singing along with the words that they knew as the pair hit every move in tandem with huge perfect flourishes and over-the-top energy. Then Thire somersaulted off the stage and leap onto the judges booth with a bang in front of Fox! He lip-synced directly at him, holding his umbrella like a mic, dropping low and flipping around his hair with pure, unfiltered joy on his face.

Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we'll still have each other You can stand under my umbrella You can stand under my umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh

Even Stitch had doubled over at Fox’s side, and Fox laughed so hard at the antics it brought tears to his eyes, happy tears this time, seeing his brothers shine, so full of life and joy. When Thorn jumped back on stage a burst of water rained down on them from above and they danced and stomped in the puddles it made, sending sparkling water and mist into the air as the song hit its climax, then struck a dramatic pose with their umbrellas on the final note. 

The theater went wild, Fox included, hollering their praises at the two of them! Thire and Rosie were on their feet, Grizzer spun in circles at Hound’s side, Stone was shouting for an encore and Stitch squeezed Fox’s arm with the hand still slung around his back. 

It didn’t matter who won, what everybody scored, or if they all wanted to throw the whole contest for the sake of his own self esteem. He had the best kih’vode in the GAR, with the biggest, most thoughtful hearts and the most incredible talents he could imagine, and he couldn’t be prouder to be their commander. Everyone had needed this tonight, hadn’t they?

Especially him.

Fox looked around the room at their faces with a heart that felt like it was seconds away from bursting. This night truly meant everything to him. He really had thrown the best fucking talent show Coruscant had ever seen, because he had the best family the galaxy could ever know, and he was so glad that he lived to see it.

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Credit and thanks for the following OC’s go to my talented pocket friends!!!!!!

Stitch - TooManyTeeth Tree - MagicalStardust Guts - ProwlingThunder Pointe & Bespin - Gracklewarp Rosie - Mira-Starfall Lefty & Lucky - John_in_Art and Wolviecat Kando & Sii - Dragomir and Star from discord! Crow, Penner & Lowkey - My own lil guys, Crow is from my The Lights You Make series, Penner from Brothers Gained Brothers Lost, and Lowkey from Dying Isn't Very Regulation!

Oh! And I HAD to make Thorn and Lowkey dance to Umbrella just like Tom Holland, it was WAY too perfect, and so was the Hondo Ohnaka shanty! Highly recommend checking both these out if you haven't seen them before, 10/10 no notes!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hi hello my anglest angel!!! now that i have uh caught a breath from the knight!sugu fic (i went insane btw) i am here to talk about the songs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY'RE SO GOOD!!!!!! i know you said that you have Thoughts about them and now i am beggggging to hear more about those!!! please please please more knight!sugu n brat!reader crumbs i loved them so much

THE SECOND GOODBYE MY DANISH SWEETHEART STARTED PLAYING IT JUST CONJURED UP THE PRETTIEST CASTLE AND I WAS ALREADY IN THE STORY I LOVED IT SO MUCH

there’s nobody better than you // it took me a while till i knew // but you knew from the start it was us, didn't you? // it just took me a while till i knew

sad face emoji sugu the all-knowing-one sighhhhh oh i adore him so much ari i nEED TO HUG HIM

I LOVE RISES THE MOON AAAAAAAA I LOVE IT SO SO SO MUCH i think it fits the reader so fucking well. it's such a good pick for them. the little lamb the little fox. sigh they're very dear to me already.

btw i just realized that i asked moss a while ago for their knight!sugu songs and "tongues and teeth" was one of the songs!!!!!! idk if u happened to see that but if not then this is a very cute little coincidence it's the knight hivemind!!!!

i’ve grown a mouth so sharp and cruel // it’s all that i can give to you, my dear // and when you come in quick to steal a kiss // my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear

THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH THIS FITS THEM SO WELL WHAT

no but overall all of these songs were perfect for them i listened to the playlist multiple times and then i listened to classical music lmao don't ask it fit surprisingly well OKAY BUT NOW DON'T HOLD BACK ON ME!!!!! (THREAT!!!! VERY SERIOUS THREAT!!!) I NEED TO KNOW EVERYTHING YOU'RE HIDING IN YOUR BRAIN ABOUT THEM LAY IT ALL ON ME SWEETHEART I'M GIDDY I'M EXCITED I'M READY!!! LOVE YOU ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS<33333

- @softgirlgonehaywire

MICKEY I’M HERE I’M HERE I’M FINALLY HERE 😭😭😭 pls ignore the fact that i’m many months late ok my brain refuses to cooperate with me sometimes but i’ve been soso excited to answer this properly!!!! this got . Extremely long. like. actually. i got VERY carried away . i’m sorry i genuinely can’t stfu when it comes to them <///3

anyway !!!!! knight!sugu & bratty royal!reader our beloveds :333

first off!!!! i’m sooo glad to hear you enjoyed the songs 🥺🥺🥺 and that you got knight!sugu/royalty!reader vibes from them too!!!!! i’m just gonna get right into it bc we have . a Lot to discuss 😭😭 i really didn’t hold back in the slightest AND ON THAT NOTE pls just know that there’s literally zero pressure to reply to this at all, esp since it’s so late!!! i’m so happy just knowing you think of these silly little guys 🥺 i love you soooo much my sweetest little kitty cat mwah MWAHH <333

goodbye, my danish sweetheart

MY FAVORITE MITSKI SONG EVER EVER EVERRR and honestly i think it fits the fic more than any other song on this list . like. just the vibes + instrumentals alone are sooo perfect for a royalty au…. it sounds nostalgic and bittersweet and very tender . and the LYRICS 😵‍💫😵‍💫ohhhh my fucking god mickey . i’m gonna need to go through them one by one but they just … make me think of royalty!reader so much . how they just want to be accepted. the feelings of inferiority …. the belief that nobody can love them as they are . :(((

there's nobody better than you // it took me a while 'til i knew // but you knew from the start it was us, didn't you? // it just took me a while 'til i knew now i lay as i study a blank wall // would you spare me your voice if i call? // ’cause you waited and watered my heart 'til it grew // you can see how it’s blossomed for you

THIS IS SOOOO READER @ SUGU. he’s the one who keeps pushing and fighting for a connection between them and reader keeps resisting until they just . can’t. and they really do think there’s nobody better than their knight !! nobody stronger or kinder. they love him sm :(((( every time they call for him he’s there. and he waters their tiny little heart until it’s not afraid to flourish anymore…..

there’s some kind of burning inside me // it’s kept me from falling apart // and i’m sure that you've seen what it's done to my heart // but it's kept me from falling apart

AND THEN THIS . oughhh . :(((( this is both royalty!reader AND knight!sugu…… they both keep their true self at arm’s lenght to protect themselves. and they both cling to something rotten to keep themselves intact. in reader’s case they cling to the idea of themself as a spoiled, bratty, scummy royal — cling to the anger and bitterness they feel . and suguru clings to knighthood. it burns him but it makes him feel alive. it’ll turn him to ashes but he doesn’t mind. etectc.

strawberry blonde

aaaand then another mitski banger :33 i picked this one mostly based on vibes !!! the instrumental just sounds like it could fit into this au … the more peaceful scenes between the two . but the lyrics are also just brimming with devotion and adoration..

i love everybody because i love you // when you stood up, walked away barefoot // and the grass where you lay left a bed in your shape // i looked over it and i ached i love it when you call my name // can you hear the bumblebees swarm? // watching your arm // i love it when you look my way

IT’S PERFECT BECAUSE . i think the lyrics work both ways !!! i can see both sets of lyrics being from reader’s pov; loving suguru makes it easier for them to love the world . they want him to call them by name. but it also works well from sugu’s pov…. he aches for them and yearns to follow them . he loves it when they call his name, too. they’re both yearners…. what can i say…..

rises the moon

ANOTHER VIBE-BASED SONGGG i also love this one mickey … it’s so beautiful and soothing :((( i imagine it playing during the scene where suguru shares a bit of his past with reader . sitting by the windowsill in their room as the moon glows….. and then he carries them to bed and tucks them in :) i can picture him humming them to sleep with this song.

oh-oh, close your weary eyes // i promise you that soon the autumn comes // to darken fading summer skies you’ll be visited by sleep // i promise you that soon the autumn comes // to steal away each dream you keep breathe, breathe, breathe

and the lyrics are just ???? soooo incredibly soothing. i think knight!sugu brings a lot of peace into reader’s life . they feel very safe with him. and the mentions of dreams and seasons feel fitting, since those are motifs in the fic :3

honestly !! i associate a lot of my character/reader pairings with seasons …. especially this one though. i’m also always thinking about your little knight and prince and how he’s the summer to their spring :3 in my case i think suguru is probably reader’s autumn!! a bridge that softens the gap between summer and winter…. he gives them stability and comfort. and they give him both summer and winter. he meets them right in the middle <33

tongues & teeth

HEAVY BREATHING …… this one is a Must for any knight character or pairing . any character who views themself as a monster . I DID SEE THIS ON MOSS’S PLAYLIST TOO AND THEY’RE SO BIGBRAINED FOR THAT !!!!! it’s just… oughh. i think i mostly associate this one with suguru’s rampage after reader gets kidnapped but the lyrics are more readercoded !!!!

i’ve grown a mouth so sharp and cruel // it’s all that i can give to you, my dear // and when you come in quick to steal a kiss // my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear oh, i will ruin you // it’s a habit, i can't help it // i know that you mean so well // but i am not a vessel for your good intent i will only break your pretty things // i will only wring you dry of everything // but if you're fine with that // if you're fine with that…

IT’S ABOUT . the violence . and tenderness. a person who thinks they’ll bring this brighter, kinder, more ”pure” person nothing but pain . reader assumes they’re too much for anyone to handle so they keep everyone at arm’s lenght . i think they view the people they admire as paintings. and they’re convinced they’ll smudge the canvas if they get too close . but deep down they want to be accepted, claws and all :(((

and suguru does!!! they both accept each other as they are . a fox and a wolf. suguru will let reader bite and hiss and claw at him as much as they need. he won’t love them any less . and reader sees suguru covered in blood, manic and frenzied, and still only thinks about how beautiful he is . how nice their name sounds when it’s falling from his lips . they don’t love each other despite their flaws or because of their flaws . they just like each other. scratch marks and all . i’m normal abt them btw

the garden

THIS ONE 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 MICKEYYYY HOLD MY HAND. this one is almost TOO perfect . i love the crane wives and so many of their songs would fit super well into this fic …. but this one is just . insane . the album cover even has a little fox 🥺 BUT AAA JUST . the instrumental and the LYRICS … i’m gonna need to really pick them apart because they’re so unbelievably perfect for royalty!reader i’m going to. scream.

the crows in the garden are laughing at my expense // drowning out all the lies that i might have told instead

OK SOOO . crows . are a bit of a motif in the fic. crows remind me a lot of suguru maybe that’s why. then there’s also the garden, which is mentioned a lot in the fic too!! all the flower imagery…

but . here’s the thing. royalty!reader is a Liar. they lie. they wear a mask. they’re not honest with their own self and not with anyone else either. and they assume everyone is looking down on them. i can picture them looking out into the garden, seeing those free crows, and imagining their cawing as mocking laughter . it drowns out the sound of their own lies . (crumbles to the floor)

my stone // my shield, my steady hand // hold your light // to the darkness in my head

AND THIS ONE . THIS ONEEEE

mickey ….. grabs your shoulders. i know you’ll see the vision. this is royalty!reader @ knight!sugu and it makes me . Ache . very deeply. he’s their stone. their shield, their steady hand. he holds a light to the darkness in their head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oughhhh they make me insane 😔😔😔 i think reader holds a light to suguru’s darkness too though . it’s more subtle with him but i wrote the fic with the idea that reader saves knight!suguru from his destined doom. he grows to care more for them than knighthood, which saves him from his fate, which is. breaking under the pressure of knighthood. you Get me. you must choose love Every Time.

put your ear to my heart or set your teeth against my throat // give me something pretty to wear beneath my blood-stained clothes

this one is just . really fitting right??? i guess this one is more knight!sugu coded though . i can imagine him returning to the castle after a bloody duel and getting patched up by a worried little reader :((( they give him a clean blouse . maybe bite his throat a little . who knows .

…. i think they also really love the sound of his heartbeat. it helps them sleep :3

get on your knees and // dig up the garden // won’t you throw down that spade and // dig up the garden, darling? // get your hands dirty and // rip up the garden // won’t you cut down that apple tree for me?

and finally This …….. i think the garden is like. a Metaphor . you know how it is . something something reader is a flower growing under the soil…. suguru has to dig their heart up…. etcetc. but i also love the devotion of it all . the loyal knight gets on his knees and digs and digs at his lord’s request. he’s eternally devoted to their joy.

my love is sick

dies . explodes .

mickey this song …. this goddamn song….. oughhh i love madds buckley sm :((((( she’s so good!!! i adore this song and i think it fits very well for both of them but especially royalty!reader…. it goes back to the whole thing where . they think they’re unloveable. their love is ”sick.” but they still crave tenderness and companionship……

my love is sick // it’s messy and wrong // but i pray for a bit of contagion // hands without fingers // like spoons at the source // coat evenly // oh, won’t you touch me? you’re an infection // i am keeping // no matter the sepsis // you are staying my love is sick // it’s taken me whole // i’m simply a host to a haunting // ghosts without corpses // still linger in flesh // holding on to a love they keep wanting

THESE LYRICS ARE JUST . soooo good. so good. the idea that they view their love as messy and wrong but still want him to touch them . they view him as an infection because intimacy scares them so much but they still don’t want him gone.

and then the final line ….. ”holding on to a love they keep wanting”…….. yeahhh . suguru and reader are both afraid to bare their hearts to one another but they keep holding onto that love anyway.

anything, anything, anything

aaaand then finally!!! another madds buckley song :33 this one is ADORABLE and it’s just . dripping with devotion and adoration !!!! i guess i see it almost as a post-fic song ??? like. after the final scene. the culmination of their relationship. it encompasses their love for each other really really well and the lyrics are just so sweet 🥺🥺

honey, i hate wine // but i’d gladly down a bottle of your name // just to get another taste of you // a single drop not on my tongue would be a waste and i hate mornings // but i like waking next to you // you always wake up before i do // so i can sleep in your embrace and i hate time // the minutes shared will never last enough // no amount of time will ever be too much // and parting leaves a bitter taste

THESE LYRICS ….. soooo royalty!reader. they’re a little sap but they don’t want to admit it!!!! i think their love comes down to making Exceptions. like. suguru is their exception. they hate wine but they’d drink some if he brewed it for them. they hate mornings but wake up early just to get a glimpse of his sleeping face . they hate time, but cherish the clock-ticks they spend with him. they’re a little softie and i love them :(((((

we burn like gentle firewood // we yearn like vines and leaves // and we settle in the comfort of // the bones that rest beneath // and i’d stop staying home and wasting time // to keep your soul with mine

THIS IS BOTH OF THEMMMM. they burn and yearn and settle in the comfort between each other…… they’d stop staying home and stop wasting time to keep each other close .

i’d do anything, anything, anything // anything, anything, anything…

this is really like . the Core of the fic i think. especially on knight!suguru’s side . he’d do anything. there’s something very gentle and tender about this repetition and it makes me wanna cry. sniffle . i adore them mickey :((((( he’d do anything for themmmmm

BUTTTT OKAY . songs aside…… the reason it took me so long to answer this (faulty brain aside) is that i really wanted to include some siken poems for you too :’3 since his poetry inspired me sooo much when i was writing the fic!!! and so many of them are knight!sugu +/ royalty!reader coded….

i’m just gonna go through the ones that remind me of them the most !!!! :33

the way the light reflects

title of the fic was snatched right from this so ofc i had to include it 🫡🫡

the paint doesn’t move the way the light reflects, so what’s there to be faithful to? i am faithful to you, darling. i say it to the paint.

i think this. encompasses the fic. i really do. the paint and the light. the Faith. what’s there to be faithful to? well, the knight by your side has something to say. if reader is faithful to the paint then he is faithful to Them. he’s made out of it. and all reader wants is for someone to have faith in them. they’re the paint, and suguru’s the light.

i paint in his face and i paint it out again. there is a question i am afraid to ask: to supply the world with what?

and this … royalty!reader is really . confused i think. to supply the world with what? what’s their purpose? what good can someone do when they’re stuck in a castle? they don’t know, so they keep painting. and maybe that’s enough.

…. i can’t remember if i mentioned this to you before but. i imagine that reader paints suguru a Lot once the events of the fic are over. as in…… eventually a corner of their room is dedicated to him and no one else . he’s very embarrassed about it. cutie <333

portrait of fryderyk in shifting light

THIS POEM . richard siken when i fucking catch you. it’s one of my absolute favorites of his and it…. really really REALLY helped me write some scenes 😭 especially the one where reader is painting. the writing is just so beautiful and flows so well. and it fits the themes of the fic perfectly !!

i sussed the gesso into foam and white roses, stalling. i troubled the shadows and silvered his edges. what can you know about a person? they shift in the light.

silvered his edges …. something something royalty!reader @ knight!sugu . BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING …. what can you know about a person? they shift in the light. that’s another quote that really gets to the core of the fic i think….!!! both sugu and reader aren’t what they seem to be. they shift in the light!!!

i find the parts that overlap with mine and light them up in clayd and creams, yellow music singing pink, the flicker of his mouth a purple rust. his face congeals as he settles in. his hair is bronze in here, not gold: walnut, bark, and cinnamon, chipped brick tipped in ink.

OUGHHHHHH AGAIN I’M JUST . so . enamored with the way he writes 💔💔💔 the colours…. the paint……. this is what goes through reader’s head when they’re painting suguru

difficult, to be confronted with the fact of yourself. opaque in the sense of finally solid, in the sense of see me, not through me.

SEE ME NOT THROUGH ME 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 yeah. reader wants to be Seen but not Discovered. suguru does both. he sees them and sees through them and stays anyway. it’s difficult to accept yourself but he does it for them. he sees the wolf and the lamb and the little fox beneath !!!! and reader sees him for the kind wolf that he is :333

litany in which certain things are crossed out

h … heavy breathing …. another of my favorite siken poems . this one was my absolute fav for a while….. it’s a really long one and there are just . soo many lines that reminds me of them!!! :((((

of course, she wakes the dragon. love always wakes the dragon and suddenly flames everywhere. i can already tell you think i’m the dragon, that would be so like me, but i’m not. i’m not the dragon. i’m not the princess either. (…) okay, so i’m the dragon. big deal. you still get to be the hero. you get magic gloves! a fish that talks! you get eyes like flashlights! what more do you want?

THE DRAGON/PRINCESS IMAGERYYYY. LOVE ALWAYS WAKES THE DRAGON !!!!!!! reader views themselves as The Dragon while suguru views them as The Princess . he’s The Hero obviously. i think reader is bitter towards suguru at the beginning for a Lot of reasons but one of them is jealousy. knights are domesticated creatures so they aren’t exactly Free but . they have more freedom than a chained royal . they get to run around in the forest and by the sea and they get to see the world :((( what more could he want?

you said i could have anything i wanted, but i just couldn’t say it out loud.

throws up blood . yeah . the knight offers his lord anything they wish for but they can’t say what they truly wish for . they can’t push the words out of their mouth .

forget the dragon, leave the gun on the table, this has nothing to do with happiness.

EXPLODES !!!!!!!! one of my favorite siken lines Ever. idk it’s just the vibes . i know you’ll understand mickey!!!!!!!! forget the dragon, this has nothing to do with happiness……

i want more applesauce. i want more seats reserved for heroes. dear forgiveness, i saved a plate for you. quit milling around the yard and come inside.

🥺🥺🥺 this line is so…. pretty. and hopeful. it makes me think more of knight!sugu than reader because i think he’s done many things he can’t forgive himself for . but the forgiveness he yearns for is just within reach . all he needs is a push. and i think reader more than anyone wants the better things in life — for themselves and for their knight.

suguru is passive in his suffering, but reader is willing to reach for what they want. and i think that inspires him. quit milling around the yard and come inside!!!!!! stupid silly knight >:((

unfinished duet

this is knight!suguru’s anthem . boy oh boy do i have thoughts about this ……

he wants to be tender and merciful. that sounds overly valorous. sounds like penance. and his hands? his hands keep turning into birds and flying away from him. him being you.

heavy breathing …. he wants to be tender and merciful. sounds like penance. 😵‍💫😵‍💫 i have …. soooo many thoughts about knight!suguru but the center of his character really is Guilt. shame. he wants to repent for things he can’t remember doing. knights are meant to be ashamed . it’s the catholic in them i think

then there’s the bird line ….. as much as he pushes and pushes for that connection, he’s just as scared as reader is when it comes to intimacy!! his hands turn into birds and fly away from them . he’s afraid of crossing a line or boundary. i tried to show it in the fic but like …. he’s very particular about certain things . he’s willing to bend certain rules (esp later when his devotion starts sticking more to his lord than his knighthood) but he’s Very firm about other things . like not calling them by name at first . it’s a little… too much for him. knights really have to tiptoe that line.

…. there’s this one arthurian work that i love. that you’ve definitely heard about bc it’s so popular + they made a movie out of it and i don’t think it was a good adaptation but it was soooooo so good as a movie . gawain and the green knight….. I DON’T WANNA RAMBLE TOO MUCH BUT UM. i love the arthuriana :333 and i’m mentioning this story because gawain is tested on his value as a knight right. there’s a whole thing about how he kisses a man’s wife because it’d be impolite to deny the lady’s wishes (rejecting her would go against his honour as a knight), but he can’t sleep with her because that would go against … his honour as a knight. it’s a whole. purity thing. you need to be chivalrous but also chaste. so knight!sugu acts all charming and flirty but when reader wants him to cross the line between them he’s like 😳 yeah. he’s . a silly little guy .

what did you really want? someone to pass this with me. you wanted more.

cries . throws up . this is both knight!sugu and royalty!reader actually …. they limit themselves because they don’t think they capable of / allowed to have the thing they really want :(((( just having somebody by their side is enough for now….

was there no one else? his hands keep turning into birds, and his hands keep flying away from him. eventually the birds must land.

…. yeahhhh . 😔😔 yeah . sorry this poem is wrecking me a little . eventually the birds must land!!!! knight!suguru can resist and royalty!reader can resist in kind but one day that distance Will be breached. they’re doomed to fall (positive).

snow and dirty rain

and finally …. this beast . it’s the final poem of siken’s crush collection and it goes…. insanely hard. soooo many lines here remind me of them mickey :((((( it’s sickening actually . just a little push more and then you’re free 🫂🫂🫂 here is a drink for u to sip while reading i made it just for you ☕️

we can do anything. it’s not because our hearts are large, they’re not, it’s what we struggle with.

OUGHHH . yeah . knight!sugu and royalty!reader both have pretty small hearts but they’re kinda…. overfilled . i think . they both struggle with kindness despite wanting to Do Good .

my dragonfly, my black-eyed fire, the knives in the kitchen are singing for blood, but we are the crossroads, my little outlaw, and this is the map of my heart, the landscape after cruelty which is, of course, a garden, which is a tenderness, which is a room, a lover saying hold me tight, it’s getting cold.

….. i just realized every single one of these quotes is gonna wreck me entirely . I’M JUST???? THIS IS THEM?!????? IT WAS MADE FOR THEM?????? MY DRAGONFLY MY BLACK-EYED FIRE. MY LITTLE OUTLAW. the landscape after cruelty which is OF COURSE a garden which is OF COURSE a tenderness which is OF COURSE a room of sleeping lovers. tenderness is a garden . etcetc.

we have not touched the stars, nor are we forgiven, which brings us back to the hero’s shoulders and a gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.

just kill me actually . i wrote some of these lines here wayyyy back when you first sent this ask so being forced to read them again is . hurting me mickey 😭😭😭 FOR THE RECORD. this one is extremely knight!reader/prince!toru coded. the gentleness that comes not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it… yeahhh. you get me.

you said tell me about your books, your visions made of flesh and light and i said this is the moon. this is the sun. let me name the stars for you.

🥺🥺🥺 reader asks about his life and visions and dreams . and suguru tells them about the moon and the sun and the constellations ….. ”let me name the stars for you.” <- SUCH a sugu thing to say. i can’t stand him . he’s so devoted it hurts when i think about him

we were in the gold room where everyone finally gets what they want, so i said what do you want, sweetheart? and you said kiss me.

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😵‍💫😭😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 KISS ME . this is literally the final scene between them . under the stars. suguru asks what they want and all they want is a kiss. THE SWEETHEART …… lowkey his favorite petname. i’m partial to it. they go through all the suffering and growing together and finally arrive at the gold room. where they get what they want. and all they want is each other . (sound of muffled sobbing)

we are all just trying to be holy. my applejack, my silent night, just mash your lips against me. we are all going forward. none of us are going back.

and finally …… this 💔💔💔 it’s just . perfect. it’s so hopeful and it makes me so emotional. just mash your lips against me; none of us are going back. even though they were both born for doom there’s a bright future ahead of them :’3

OKAY I’M DONE . FINALLY . if you read all this then just know i’m smothering you in kisses…. i’m doing that regardless though . i love you!!!! thank you for loving them with me!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 i hope this was a fun read despite the wait </3

[dreamingsushi]

Till the End of the Moon - Episode 21

Susu just arrived to the camp where Tantai Jin is located now. I can’t wait, like I said last time, to discover what their reunion will look like. So without further do, let’s just discover that. I hope no drama lama.

Pianran tells Susu where are Tantai Jin’s quarters. She says she can only take one glance at him and then she’ll send her back to the capital. Meanwhile, the fox lady is going to see Ye Qingyu. She also teaches some manners to a few monsters. Susu quickly finds Tantai Jin and she’s relieved to see that he’s doing fine. Then she feels something on her head: specifically a crow, which scares her and she shouts, drawing Tantai Jin’s attention. The crow reports he saw that demon that made it send so many letters. Tantai Jin is so happy.

Susu ran away to a river border. Tantai Jin goes to her and when she turns around, explaining why she came and not to punish Pianran, he hugs her thus creating one more nail. I’m not sure if she’s happier about the nail or the hug huhu. Then he says she smells bad haha. I mean after two weeks of walking she must. They were matching outfits. He’s so happy that they’re matching and he carries her because her feet hurt. Though they did a very bad job a make up for her blisters. It doesn’t look like it at all. He puts ointment on for her. She gets all shy and rushes out first after saying she feels all better. That was soooo cute. I liked it so much.

So it’s taking too long for Fuyu to prepare the puppet army, so the king urges her to find a faster way. Now they will sacrifice 9 pairs of boys and girls, a loved one from Tantai Jin and they need the bones of a close relative to kill him. But it’s risky.

Susu got lost in the camp. Tantai Jin tells her that whenever she feels lost, she can follow the golden crow. She plays a little hard to get, saying that since he’s not injured anymore, she’ll leave the next morning. He tells her she can’t go anywhere before her feet are healed. She makes him promise to never leave again without saying goodbye. For the first time, she isn’t overjoyed that the pearl is acting up and she leaves first to go to bed. Tantai Jin is feeling somewhat uneasy. Pianran tries to kick Susu out of her bed, but she says she’s playing hard to get like she told her. Pianran asks her again if she does like Tantai Jin and this time, she doesn’t deny it as fast.

Nian Baiyu tells Tantai Jin that the Sheng king stole the remains of his mother. When Susu wakes up, Tantai Jin is leaving camp. Pianran can’t tell Susu what is happening. Instead of staying put, she follows them. Ah, no. She went to see Xiao Lin. She tells him that Tantai Jin left the camp. Xiao Lin orders her to go back before Tantai Jin learns she was there. Meanwhile Tantai Jin deals with the king. He kills every one and makes the king bow to his mother. But he’s pretending to comply and throws her urn on the ground, shattering it to pieces, spilling her ashes under the falling rain. The king has gone crazy. Yingxin stabs Tantai Jin. He kills her to free her. Seems like the crazy king is out for now. Panic in the palace. Someone tries to rob Ye Bingchang and she uses her maid as a shield to protect herself, leading to her death. Xiao Lin’s soldiers come to try and stop Tantai Jin. He doesn’t kill the guards. Ye Bingchang rushes to seek safety from Tantai Jin because he is the most powerful man. She plays the card of the weak lady to ask him to take her along with him. He agrees? I find it quite strange that he would pity her.

Susu has been pacing around waiting for Tantai Jin to come back. He knows she went to see Xiao Lin because of the crow. It’s a little creepy to keep spying on your wife through a bird. Now he thinks she betrayed him because of Xiao Lin. Maybe that’s why he took Ye Bingchang with him. He totally ignores Susu and lets Ye Bingchang follow him. Susu thinks that he likes her.

Pianran is happy because now that Sheng is defeated, maybe Tantai Jin is going to release her. She also tells Susu to be careful because he came back with a beautiful woman. Pianran is worried about Qingyu. Susu wonders what happened and what made Tantai Jin that way. She goes to see him and he asks her if she waited for him all along. She doesn’t answer and only ask what happened. This is a red alert! Miscommunication incoming! He tells her he went to the palace to kill people, the king. Yingxin. He thanks her for tipping Xiao Lin, since he was so close to kill him. She says she regrets being stupid enough to want to stay by his side, that you can’t change one’s nature. He’s definitely hurt, but this time around I can’t pity him. He kind of pushed her to say such things. He’s good at sabotaging his chances of happiness. He says he doesn’t care who serves him and tells her to leave, resulting in the nails to resorb and he ends up in a bad state after she leaves. The sword Yingxin used to stab him was cursed which doesn’t help with his state.

Painran goes to visit Ye Qingyu, but he’s with Ye Bingchang. When they come out, Ye Bingchang seems to recognize Pianran. I guess the person who guessed she stole her love string was right.

Tantai Minglang doesn’t care that Sheng was defeated. He has bigger plans.

Tantai Jin sees Susu everywhere now that she’s gone. Ye Bingchang tries to see Tantai Jin and even tries bribing Nian Baiyu. I have to say that I love Nian Baiyu and I’m always super afraid that something bad will happen to him. She wants to thank and repay him. He seems rather uncomfortable. He tells her to keep him company and cook for him. She thinks he still has feelings for her. I think he wants to rub it on Ye Xiwu’s nose.

And this is it. Even though I didn’t like the results of the fight between Susu and Tantai Jin, it was one of my favorite moments of this episode because of the amazing chemistry between the two main leads, but also thanks to their unbelievably good acting skills. I hope they can reconcile soon and that they’ll yeet Ye Bingchang out of their life.

[microsuedemouse]

my friends and I had our annual Secret Santa party last night and it was wonderful in a lot of ways and my heart feels so warm and happy. just a few highlights, without even getting into any of the nonsense that Requires Explanation:

Harley made sooooo much delicious food. about two thirds of that food was dessert. she’s incredible

Amanda was my Santa and she got me some very excellent things, including a little Shirley Jackson book and a positively delightful little felted mouse man with an umbrella

while I was self-conscious about the little fox decoration I made (out of polymer clay) for Keynan, he was delighted, and blown away that I’d made it by hand. he’d assumed it was store-bought 🥲🥲

Nick let me snuggle with him while we chilled on the kitchen floor on and off (but mostly on) for at least a couple hours - my head in his lap for a bit, or leaning on each other’s shoulders, or arms around each other’s backs in a loose kinda hug - and it Healed Me significantly. good god but friends with whom you can casually cuddle are a precious goddamn resource in this life. I’m not even lacking touch at home - my family hugs and holds hands and kisses and otherwise Touches a whole lot - but like. prolonged physical contact with someone you love and trust… god, you guys. (for the record, also: most of my friends would be game for this, and we lean on and otherwise touch each other all the time. it just happened to be Nick I was cosy with on this occasion. he’s a good easy pal and we’ve gotten to know each other better this year and I’m very glad of that.)

I watched several of my friends drunkenly DIY and play Twister at about 12:45 am and it was absolutely ridiculous

the kitten of the household is soooo full of beans and mischief. Harley and Evan are still working on socializing her and she’s pretty cautious of new people, so she wasn’t really letting me pet her, but I WAS allowed to play with her. my hand has many new perforations. it was worth it

there were other highlights that would require more explanation but I’m (very pleasantly) tired so I’m not gonna explain. but my heart is very full. I love my friends a lot

[theredheaded-stuff]

If : Damian son of the devil

sorry for not posting I was reading mangwas

I was wondering what if the Al ghuls were really demons? Maybe not the common kind maybe some who use ancient power and come from nature or environment

Or something like nature-bound Yokai, I can completely see Al ghul's as Kitsunes Foxes that gain more tails as they increase in power or live another millennium, perhaps suits them.

And here it goes!

What if damian Wayne when he went to Gotham wasn't a human child but a hybrid of Kitsune and human? Of course using magic to keep the human form "nice" to everyone but him

Some characters in the manga that are linked to Yokais or beasts have a Berserker mode where they get out of control as they grow and usually someone in the family has to help them control themselves

Kitsune can use energy orbs in some stories, imagine making Robin so angry that he simply throws one of those massive, destructive energy balls right at your side

Kitsunes are very connected to beauty, what about Al ghuls? Beauty is not lacking

In some Kitsune mythologies they can be both bad and good, the Al ghuls would be "good" but always in search of more knowledge and protection of nature

In anime Kitsunes have incredible power! I'm not talking about skills...I'm talking about cuteness, they are soooo cute!

....So imagine the scene

Richard arrives with a quiet boy at home, makes sure the boy has everything he needs and goes to bed, in the middle of the night Damian is looking for food with the lights off (night vision/magic)

Tim who went to get a glass of chocolate milk only sees a tail and a pair of slitted eyes, glowing green, which is why Tim called Damian a demon many times.

Tim already called Constantine to exorcise the house, Alfred wouldn't let Constantine in

The first time Jon saw Dami's 'original' form, everyone expected him to freak out even Damian, but he just hugged him, maybe to check if his tail was really as fluffy as it looks? Maybe

Jon continues saying to Damian "I'm an alien, you're a being that can live for millennia, what else can there be? Maybe ghosts or objects that speak like beauty and the beast!?" Okay he freaked out a little

When Maya found out, she just didn't give a big reaction, even though later she was wondering if he could eat certain things that foxes can't normally,Maya started to be more careful with what she offered Damian, she didn't want to end up killing her best friend by accident.

Bruce didn't know how to react, but went on to say that he also suspected at the time of Talia that she wasn't so normal, he assured Damian that nothing would change.

Tim and Babs decided to remake Damian's Robin costume, to be more comfortable for him even if accidents happen due to his fox nature.

When he arrived in Gotham not knowing what to say he would sometimes say "I'm a Kitsune" to guests in the ballrooms or in interviews, the guests just laugh and smile at Damian They think it's just a child's game, so they just smile at him and say "Of course my sweetie"

You know when Jon hugs Damian like a koala in the comics? So imagine that but now he has a "fluffy pillow" aka Damian's tail, Damian gave up complaining

Stopping here because I'm tired

[wangxianficrecs]

Follower Recs

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Hello Mojo, hope you're doing well and that you had a good break! I wanted to signal boost the MDZS May Diaspora event collection on AO3, and point out my favorite fic from there: 归心似箭 | Longing to Go Home by dragongirlG! It's both tender and bittersweet and it features such mature writing. The author got some hate for it when it initially got posted so I wanted to counter that and give it some love instead! [Who would do such a thing?!  @dragongirlg-fics I’m sorry that happened to you, and here, have *so many hugs!* I’ll try to do a thing just for the diaspora event, but meanwhile, I’ll just treat this as a follower rec.]

归心似箭 | Longing to Go Home

by dragongirlG (M, 8k, wangxian)

Summary:  The destruction of the Yin Tiger Seal does not kill Wei Wuxian; it ages him instead. He takes shelter in a cave expecting to die, but instead he lives, slowly learning to embrace life with each new day.

Thirteen years later, a young man with a Lan forehead ribbon stumbles into the cave. His name is Lan Sizhui.

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Hi Momjo!!! I recently read the most *adorable* fic, and I loved it so much that it dragged me out of seclusion (read: social anxiety cave) to rec it. It's called 'Covered in Bees' by ScarlettStorm in which the Cloud Recesses is an apiary, and Wei Wuxian has suddenly found himself host to a swarm of bees. ~ @akyra-talanoa

Covered in Bees

by ScarlettStorm (T, 8k, wangxian)

Summary: “Cloud Reccesses Apiary,” says a toneless, deep masculine voice, with zero question in it. Wei Ying doesn’t care, because whoever possesses that voice is probably going to come save him from bees like a fucking hero while wearing like, a suit of armor. That’s what you wear to catch bees, right?

“I have like, so many bees outside my front door right now,” he says, mouth running out ahead of him before he can even begin to think about reining it in. “It’s like a sandstorm of bees out there. There are so many bees. I got out of my car and there were just bees and I don’t want these bees. Do you want these bees? Please tell me you will come get these bees. I can’t leave my house and I have enough food for maybe a week but then I’m gonna have to learn how to cook dry beans and no one wants that, especially not me.” Wei Ying runs out of air, takes a breath, and belatedly adds, “My name is Wei Ying. Hi.”

Or: The beekeeping AU that no one asked for.

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Hi, you are a bless to this fandom. Your blog feels like a library, so thoroughly arranged and always within hand reach. [Thank you, wow!]  Recently, I was going through Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn is a Wēn tag and came across a fanfic, it has 3 chapters till now and is so intriguing that i thought to recommend it to you. I don't know if I can recommend or if you have already checked the story, The legendary Phoenix and his Dragon by Devipriya. I am in love with this story. I hope you will enjoy it too, do check it out

The legendary Phoenix and his Dragon

by Devipriya (T, 7k, wangxian)

Summary:  Wen Wuxian, the essence of who he is, he is a naughty child, a prankster, an enchanting dizi player, a graceful dancer, an irresistible lover, a truly valiant warrior, a ruthless vanquisher of his foes, a man who left a broken heart in every home, an astute statesman and kingmaker, a thorough gentleman, a righteous individual of the highest order, and the most colorful incarnation.

He has been seen, perceived, understood and experienced in many different ways by different people. Different people saw different facets of who he is. For some, he is God. For some, he is a crook. For some, he is a lover. For some, he is a fighter. He is so many things.

But the phoenix, seen from the eyes of time was just a playful man. A man who plays with his awareness, with his imagination, with his memory, with his life, with his death. An individual who does not just dance with somebody. He dances with life. He dances with his enemy, He dances with the one he loves, He dances even at the moment of his death.

To taste an essence of who is Wen Wuxian, be with me in the journey of exploration, NO! playful exploration of life of a playful man.

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Hi! Thanks for running this blog, it's helped me find so many fics. For your next follower recs post, I wanted to rec "This love like a flood, a fire, a fear" by natcat5. Its summary is vague (which I suspect is why it isn't better known) but it is a beautiful retelling of canon from LWJ's POV with slight canon divergence. I love the author's characterization of him and the prose is gorgeous. It is easily my favorite fic in the entire fandom, and I don't say that lightly. ~ @nyanja14

This love like a flood, a fire, a fear

by natcat5 (M, 57k, wangxian, lan wangji & lan xichen)

Summary:  “I will love you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence, and as justice loves to sit and watch everything go wrong.”   - Lemony Snicket

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i came to this ask to rec this baseball one called "Waiting for Spring" by thievinghippo on ao3. It somehow made me care about baseball soooo 'nough said ~ @scifikimmi

Waiting for Spring

by thievinghippo (E, 131, wangxian)

Summary:  “It is a well-known fact across the major leagues that one does not smack Lan Wangji’s ass.”

Wei Wuxian rolls his eyes. Everyone smacks everyone’s ass in baseball. It’s how the game is played. Lan Wangji does not get to be exempt from this most sacred of baseball traditions.

Wei Wuxian will make sure of that.

Or, a Major League Baseball AU

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hi mojo! i wanted to rec Something Good by boxoftheskyking (a loose sound of music/canon divergence au) and also MDZS: The Golden Engine by iffervescent (immortal wangxian modern au where they gotta solve a mystery and save china, featuring jiang cheng/lan xichen)

Something Good

by boxoftheskyking (T, 43k, wangxian)

Summary:  "That Wei Wuxian, you know he used to be such a promising cultivator. Head Disciple of the Jiang Clan, can you believe it? You see, juniors, the punishment for traveling the path of demonic cultivation. No golden core, not so much as a whisper of spiritual power."

As a punishment for real and imagined crimes, Wei Wuxian is sentenced to work at Cloud Recesses as the lowest of servants. When a surprising reassignment lands him with eleven children to care for, everything changes again.

A Sound of Music AU

MDZS: The Golden Engine

by iffervescent (E, 82k, wangxian, xicheng)

Summary:  In the modern era, immortals Lan Zhan and Wei Wuxian return to Gusu. New evil and old friends + new friends and old evils.

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Hi Mojo! First of all let me just tell you that you are amazing and this blog is like a gift from the gods! Bless you and your endless patience and hard work. [Oh, thank you so much!]  I know that you have just accepted follower recs and I have missed miserably but I still wanted to write and bring attention to a writer by the pseudo Xiao_Hua on ao3, I think they are quite good and I just recently found the account with so much content. If you do have the time to check them out, I'd rec catfish, my fox or the red ribbon.

The Red Ribbon

by Xiao_Hua (M, 21k, wangxian, TGCF crossover)

Summary:  Wei WuXian died but not before saving HanGuang-Jun and A-Yuan, leaving so much more behind than just his ribbon.

My Fox

by Xiao_Hua (E, 13k, wangxian)

Summary:  Once he headed to YiLing that all changed for him. His priorities have been mingled with and ordered in complete disarray even without him noticing as he was left heavily influenced by a creature.

Or one where Lan WangJi is a dragon-spirit and he finds his mate in the form of a fox.

Catfish

by Xiao_Hua (E, 15k, wangxian)

Summary:  Wei WuXian has a common sense that believes it has a nine-to-five job while Lan WangJi finds that incredibly hot.

Or one where two catfish realise that neither of them truly catfished.

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Hi Mojo i'm recommending this amazing fic it is called song of joys and regrets. it's a time travel AU it's amazing. And your Blog is a Godsend Thank you! [Aw, you’re so sweet!]  ~ @highgoddess

Song of Joy and Regrets

by HelloKitten (not rated, 59k, wangxian, WIP)

Summary:  The Archery competition at Qishan this year has hit a snag. As the Sects face the wrongs perpetrated by their future selves, Wei Wuxian finds himself adopted by half of the cultivation world who are determined to save him from himself.

Baby Wangxian suffers. Adult Wangxian's job here is done.

"I'm starting to see a pattern to all his plans..." "Do they all involve him being bait?" "Yes" came deadpanned responses.

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Here’s a 2021 Reverse Big Bang entry, in time for Father’s Day; [Oops, my bad, sorry!]  Under a Blanket of Black Wings, by ChaoticAndrogynous (#31398395); LWJ, recuperating from the 33 lashes, tells A-Yuan a series of fairytales about a heroic monster and the brave little boy he befriended. Vampire! WWX (in the framing story as well as the story-within-the-story); happy ending.

Under a Blanket of Black Wings

by ChaoticAndrogynous (T, 19k, wangxian)

Summary:  Lan Wangji tells A-Yuan a bedtime story about a beautiful monster and the brave little boy who was his friend. Thirteen years later, the monster returns.

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Hello Mojo! Have you read ‘Key Differences’ by Pupeez4eva? Its a MDZS!WWX meets CQL!WWX and its really good! [It’s on my list!]

Key Differences

by pupeez4eva (T, 6k, wangxian)

Summary:  “I don’t understand,” Wei Wuxian said, while his alternate self continued to stare at him with almost a look of hurt in his eyes. There was longing in there too, which Wei Wuxian would have easily recognised if he paid enough attention. “How could you not get together, after everything. What even went on in the Guanyin Temple if you didn’t confess?”

“The Guanyin Temple,” Wei Ying repeated incredulously. “You’re asking me if I confessed at — honestly, a lot went on that day. It was a life and death situation. There was no confessing.”

Wei Wuxian stared at him, appalled.

(Wherein Wei Wuxian ends up meeting an alternate version of himself who, much to his horror, never married Lan Wangji. Obviously he has to do something to fix this).

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Hey Mojo i would recommend this fanfic if you already haven’t, it’s called “ take me back to a time “ by DizziDreams. It’s sooooo good

take me back to a time

by DizziDreams (T, 144k, wangxian, 3zun)

Summary:  Wei Ying has a lot on his plate right now.

It’s finals week -- which isn’t so bad. He’s never had to study much to do well in classes. But that just means that things are that much more tense with Jiang Cheng, who, as far as Wei Ying can tell, only takes study breaks long enough to glare at Wei Ying where he sits on the couch playing video games.

It’s not studies that have Wei Ying stressed out. It’s everything else. It’s the recruitment for the research trial he’s coordinating. It’s jiejie and her impending marriage to His Royal Douchebag Jin Zixuan. It’s the volunteer work at the palliative care facility. It’s Wen Ning’s worsening condition. It’s Wen Qing working herself thin to care for her brother and Wen Yuan. It’s the way Wen Yuan never seems to have enough food.

So, yeah. There’s enough on Wei Ying’s plate already, meaning it’s not entirely welcome when he comes home and finds a man standing in his bedroom. A man in extravagant white robes, a ribbon tied around his forehead, long hair gathered into a topknot, fist clutching a sword at his side, who asks him, “Where am I?”

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Idk if this has already been rec’d (I’ve been off the grid for a while now), but there’s this absolutely incredible fic called Restitution by an anon on ao3 people should definitely check out!

this one?

on restitution

by Anonymous (M, 78k, wangxian, jin ling & wei wuxian, lan sizhui & wei wuxian, WIP)

Summary:  When Wei Wuxian regains consciousness, he is in a bed. A real, proper bed, not the slab he called a bed in his cave in the Burial Mounds.

Jiang Cheng is glowering above him.

Wei Wuxian doesn't die during the siege of the Burial Mounds. Rather, he is captured in secret and confined at Lotus Pier. Things change accordingly.

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Hi momjo! I feel like every time I come to your blog there's twenty more new and amazing fics for me to read. Thank you for everything you do for this fandom!  [Thank you, sweetie!  And yes, I think there ARE 20 new fics every day out there in the fandom.  It’s amazing!] Today I come bearing my own rec to you. I've recently read this and it's IMO one of the best fics out there. It's called Lapsteel by carriecmoney and it's a modern stormchaser AU featuring country songs and coming home. ~ @manaika-chan​

Lapsteel

by carriecmoney (T, 42k, wangxian)

Summary:  Now and then, I think about you now and then...

It's been thirteen years since Wei Ying ran for the prairies, leaving behind a family in shambles and a secret on the Pacific wind. What happens when the storm he swirled catches up to him?

Modern AU with country music star Lan Zhan, stormchaser Wei Ying, and shared crossroads.

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[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

seeing you so hype about prg2 is giving me life rn girl xD drift compatibility things will be discussed, hopefully in this next Actual Chapter i'm writing, where Fox is formally introduced to this story. fox being touchedstarved oh my gosh, absolutely yes, ESPECIALLY after Newt gets real sick. And please. please hug hansen girl she needs it so MUCH.

ohohohoho cannot wait to see drift compatibility stuff 👀👀 there's so many ways this could go i am SO invested (but especially in Fox n Yancy. as u might be able to tell. I love their dynamic SOOOO MUCH I cannot even explain it)

ksakskskwhdsj he's touchstarved... and Yancy and Isaac both seem so tactile (at least based on vibes)... maybe Yancy's affection shows more through bonks and bumps but STILL that is VALUABLE I'm having Thoughts

*hugs her* *hugs her* *hugs her* *hugs her* *hugs her* *hugs her* *hugs-

[imaginebnhaomegaverse]

All good! But aww, that sounds adorable! I’m on it!

Alpha! Kitsune! Bakugo Katsuki x Omega! Kitsune! Gender-neutral! Reader

The humans thought that they were the strongest beings in the world.

Countless rituals, offerings, incense and fruit were offered for their protection as the humans prayed to them for safety. Some say that if you leave bells in front of two burning sticks of incense, no harm will come to you.

Jingle jingle!

Some say that they’ve heard the jingling of bells deep in the forest. A few children have seen two foxes lazing at the temple in front of the stone figures of the two gods.

Jingle jingle!

“[Name], what are you doing?” Katsuki asked, his index finger coated in a deep red liquid. [Name], who was on their knees by the temple offerings, giggled.

Katsuki sighed as they lifted up a pair of small bells that were tied together with a red ribbon.

“Look, Suki!” Katsuki’s ears twitched at the affectionate nickname, red blossoming in his cheeks. “Bells!”

“We already have many bells back home.” He grumbled, ducking his head as he entered the shrine that housed both his and his partner’s statues. He applied the red paste over their stone foreheads, covering the half-dried red that was already on them. “And don’t call me that! It’s a dumb name that the humans came up with.”

“Aww, but that name means ‘to love’, which is so cute!” [Name] huffed. Their large, fluffy white tail wagged behind them. “The humans come up with such adorable names!”

“It’s not adorable, it’s stupid!” Katsuki snapped, wiping his finger on the wall to rid himself of the paint.

“Su-ki~!” [Name] teased. “Suki, Suuuukiiii!”

They laughed as an apple came hurtling at them, dodging the fruit as they dashed behind a tree. Katsuki’s ears were flat against his skull with embarrassment.

[Name] peeked from behind the tree, squealing as an orange barely missed their face.

“You nearly ruined my cute face!” They whined. Katsuki scoffed, grumbling to himself as he examined a basket of fruits that were set as offerings. “How could you do this to me?”

“Keep whining.” He moved away as [Name] approached him, ignoring them as he turned a plum over in his hand. He rolled his eyes as his arm was hugged, cheeks growing pink as [Name] peered at him with a large pout.

“You could have hurt my poor cute face!” They sighed dramatically. Katsuki squeezed their cheeks, snorting as the god stuck their tongue out.

“Yeah, yeah, you’re adorable.” [Name] let go of his arm with a smug grin, happy that they finally cracked their lover’s tough shell. 

Well, he isn’t the god of love and luck for nothing. He could even make the god of destruction and calamity fall for his words.

“It’s more like you fell for me, idiot.” [Name] was broken out of their thoughts at Katsuki’s voice. “Is your memory that awful?”

“Oops, I shouldn’t talk out loud.” [Name] giggled nervously, then pouted. “Hey, that was aeons ago! Can’t blame a god if they can’t remember.”

“Whatever you say.” Katsuki rolled his eyes.

“Besides, you were the one to comment on my scent first.” [Name] said. “And you were the one who courted me too! I didn’t even have to hint at it.”

“Well, I had to say that our feelings were mutual since you basically fell over your words and actions every time I came into the room,” Katsuki smirked smugly. “You’re the god of love. Your emotions are written on your face as clear as day.”

“You’re so mean to meeee!” [Name] cried dramatically. 

A few minutes later, the couple were on their way home. The bells around [Name}’s neck jingled with every step, and even Katsuki seemed to relax at the somewhat soothing sound.

“Suki, what’s for lunch?” [Name] asked, stopping to pluck a red camellia. They held it up to Katsuki, who shifted the basket of fruits to his hip so he could take it.

“Rice and oyakodon.” Katsuki replied, fixing the flower behind his mate’s ear. “You’re not going to get any because you keep calling me that stupid name.”

“Aah, not fair!” [Name] gasped. “I won’t call you that anymore then! I’m so hungry, I really want your legendary oyakodon!”

Katsuki was too busy admiring his [Name] to pay any attention. They looked so adorable, pouting up at Katsuki with that flower on their head.

“Katsuki, will I get any lunch? Hellooo-o?” [Name] waved a hand in front of their mate’s face. Katsuki snapped out of it, grunting a yes.

“Yay~! Oy-a-ko-don! Oy-a-ko-don!” [Name] skipped on ahead, singing loudly. Katsuki followed their sweet omega scent, eyes lidded as his tail swished happily behind him.

[Name] was already inside when Katsuki reached their shared home; a lovely, decent sized cottage in the middle of the forest. There was a large garden next to the house, where Katsuki went to pluck some vegetables for lunch.

“-are, yes you are!” The happy chirping of a fox accompanied with [Name]’s adoring voice echoed through the house as Katsuki stepped inside. He made his way to the kitchen, struggling to hide an affectionate grin as he saw his mate fussing over two excited foxes. Their elated omega scent was floating thickly through the house, and Katsuki had no complaints.

“You two better leave before lunch is ready.” He called. The two foxes whined and barked at him. “Don’t fucking sass me. You’re going to get fat if you eat so much. You just had breakfast.”

“D’aww, don’t be mean to them!” [Name] whined. The foxes busied themselves in trying to climb into their lap. “They just wanna play!”

“They just want food.” Katsuki deadpanned. “Now come here.”

“Oh! Am I helping you cook?” [Name] asked, looking elated with their ears perked up high. 

“You’re going to throw these into the compost.” Katsuki gestured to the small pile of tomato, carrot and other veggie bits that were left over after he chopped them up.

He felt a little bad as [Name]’s ears lowered.

“You can help me cook tonight.” He said nonchalantly, pretending not to notice the way they perked up happily again.

“Okay!” [Name] chirped. Katsuki went red as they pressed a kiss to his cheek, exclaiming a “love you!” as they raced away with the vegetable waste.

“Idiot,” Katsuki muttered with a soft smile.

After thirty minutes or so, the food was ready. [Name] licked their lips eagerly as Katsuki scooped a decent amount of oyakodon over their bowl of rice. After waiting for their mate to sit down and scoop food into his bowl too, [Name] picked up the chopsticks.

Katsuki watched closely as his omega took their first bite, smirking victoriously as [Name] released a moan of ecstasy as the meal touched their tastebuds.

“This is soooo good!” They said through a full mouth. “I love you and your food so much!”

“Heh.” Katsuki chuckled, cheeks flushing a little. “If you think this is good, wait until dinner.”

“I cannot wait.” [Name] smiled sincerely. Their heart leapt as their mate shot them a small grin back.

After lunch, Katsuki was washing up. [Name] had insisted on doing it, but their mate had refused.

[Name] collapsed on the hammock behind their home, a content sigh leaving their lips as the afternoon sun disappeared behind a few fluffy white clouds. They absentmindedly rubbed the bond mark on their neck, humming as their eyelids dropped shut.

Leaves crunched as feet trampled over them. [Name] giggled quietly as a rough but familiar hand brushed over their mark.

“Move over,” Katsuki said gruffly. [Name] complied happily, the hammock rocking as their mate climbed on.

The two struggled to find a comfy position, Katsuki giving up after a few minutes.

“Well, hello.” [Name] laughed bashfully as their nose brushed against Katsuki’s. They were basically on top of their mate, arms shaking as they tried to hold themselves up so they don’t crash into their alpha.

Katsuki rolled his eyes.

“Come here, dumbass.” He snorted, knocking [Name]’s arms out from under them so they could fall onto him. Katsuki capture’s his mate’s lips, humming in content as they melted into him.

“Alpha~!” [Name] laughed as Katsuki peppered kisses all over their face. “My turn!”

Katsuki sighed as his lover kissed along his jaw, giggling occasionally as his arms brushed against their ribs.

“You’re fucking gorgeous.” Katsuki breathed as [Name] lifted their head up. The sun peeked out of the clouds, casting a halo of light over them. “Fucking hell, [Name].”

[Name] grinned, cheeks flushed. Katsuki’s fingers rubbed one of their soft, white fox ears, smirking to himself as his mate basically fell into his chest, releasing happy giggles. Their scent was strong, and Katsuki fucking loved it.

[Name] stuffed their nose into the crook of his neck, nibbling at his scent glands. Katsuki pushed his head back to give them more access.

“Hey, [Name]?” He asked quietly, seemingly embarrassed.

“Yeah?” [Name] asked quizzically. “What is it?”

“You know the name you call me?” He asked hesitantly. “Can you...”

“What name?” [Name] was confused. Katsuki huffed, face red as he looked away.

“You know, the stupid fucking name you always call me that drives me insane?” He prompted. [Name] tilted their head.

“Umm... alpha?” They tried. Katsuki shook his head. “Katsuki?”

“That’s my name, dumbass.” He snapped. [Name] apologised with a laugh.

“What other name...” [Name] trailed off. Katsuki seemed to go redder.

“You know...” He grumbled. “The stupid human one...?”

“Oh.” [Name] said. “Oh!”

Katsuki’s ears flattened as his mate laughed loudly.

“Shut up, idiot!” He hollered. [Name] didn’t listen.

“You like the name!” They gasped, delighted. “You like me calling you Suki!”

“Fuck off!” Katsuki glowered. “I’ll upturn this hammock!”

“Suki! Suki! Suki, Suki, Su-ki~!” [Name] teased, then yelled in alarm as their whole world went upside down as they and Katsuki tumbled out of the hammock. “Owww!”

“Told you that I would do it, didn’t I?” Katsuki said too smugly, already getting to his feet.

“I guess you did, Suki.” [Name] giggled, then spluttered as they got a mouthful of grass and leaves kicked at their face. “Hey!”

[potatotrash0]

Question time~

What's your favourite TV show you watched as a kid? (I'm projecting here I'm feeling nostalgic)

Favourite colour?

Any inside jokes that you have?

Do you have any stuffed animals?

Finally: Are you taking care of yourself? Please do so if not! Love ya Em! /p

Hi I am doing this with voice to text because I am slightly tired and I don’t feel like typing right now soooo yeah

Adventure Time? or maybe Glitter Force or Pokémon. I don’t know I don’t remember my childhood TV shows too well. Oh no wait Pucca!!! I used to watch that show all the time it was like my childhood. I love it so much dude

God I haven’t been able to figure out my favorite color in years. Purple pink and orange are my go to‘s.

I guess one of the inside jokes I have with my friends is the joke about me being the main protagonist in an anime? Or like. I would be if we were in an anime.

I used to have a whole basket full of stuffed animals but I got rid of them a while back because I had too many. I kept a few though. There’s a white tiger, a panda, and a fox and a chocolate labrador dog. this one isn’t actually a stuffed animal, it’s just a pillow, but I have this rainbow cheetah print pillow that I like to hug because it’s soft and plushy

Thank you Cookie :) I. Should probably eat smth. And drink water. Uhhh Imma go do that now, you take care of yourself too!!! I think you might be asleep by now. Or getting ready to go to bed. Idk but don’t stay up too late m’kay?

[kyovtani]

ASKS

hey babies! i’ve decided to answer the asks about back to life one and two like this because ive received so so so many and you guys blew me away so answering every single one of them is the least i can do to show you guys just how grateful i am. thank you so much for giving both parts SO much love, i love and appreciate you guys and the support you’re constantly sending my way with my whole entire heart <33

BYE THE FIC IS SO GOOD SO FAR. MY ANXIETY THO FROM THE ENDING, LIKE PLS KYO REALIZE THE MCS ANXIETY PLS DONT GO OUT WITH SORA PLEASE PLEASE HE SEEN HOW SHE DIDNT LOOK OKAY WHEN HE CAME IN PLEASE REALIZE HER ANXIETY PLEASE

– THANK YOU SO SO MUCH BABY !! this was the very first ask about back to life and it’s honestly the cutest thing ever! I hc Kyoutani to be rally understanding of things like anxiety and depression, generally mental health so that’s why it was easy for him to understand the reader’s situation and mindset! 

BACK TO LIFE!!!!!!!! MY HEART!!!!!?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SO GOOD!!!!! i was really excited when you started posting about it!! i can't wait for part 2, i wanna know how they fix this!

AAAH !! thank you so much for the love and support baby!!!! I really hope you enjoyed part 2 just as much, sending you lots of smooches MWAH

OH MY GOD THE KYO FIC IS AMAZING

THANK YOU SO MUCH BABY !!!!! 

OH MY GOD YOUR KYOUTANI FIC HAS ME ACTUALLY FROTHING I LOVE IT SM

IM NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAY THAT MY JAW ACTUALLY DROPPED AT THE LAST COUPLE PARAGRAPHS AS WELL I CANT WAIT FOR PART 2

AAAH YOU GUYS !!! this made me so happy !!! thank you so much and I hope part two met your expectations and you enjoyed the ending MWAH!! 

HOLY FUCK THAT KYOUTANI FIC WHEW IT WAS SO SO GOOD IM SO EXCITED FOR PART 2

thank you for the food <33

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LOVE AND SUPPORT BABY !!!

YOUR KYOTANI FIC AHHHHHHH my heart can’t handle this

I AM SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT BABY !!!

OW THE END ON BACK TO LIFE HURTED THOUGH GDFGHJDFHJRY

Was overwhelmed by the hurty that I forgot to say how much I ADORE your characterization of Kyoutani. fdjkhgjkgdr

THANK YOU SO MUCH !! honestly- that means the world to me, probably the best compliment you can give me :((

Back to life was so good OMG 😳😳 HELLO??? You're amazing

Thank you so much, my love! it honestly is everything to me when you guys tell me such sweet things I love you so much MWAH!!

the new fic did not help me with my insecurities now i’m just frustrated and insecure. great writing tho.

honestly- same. when I wrote this, I lit indulgent every bit of my mind working into this fic and thats why it means so much to me ?? so youre not alone, my love; but thank you so much <33

The way I panicked at the end of the fic thinking there wasn’t gonna be more to it, holy shi that fox was so good I almost cried thinking they were just gonna end things like that 🥺🥺🥺🥺

I’d NEVER end a fic like that- I hate bad endings and cannot stand cliffhangers but the formatting didn't give me another choice im sorry for the heart attack baby kfhflashsj but am glad you liked it!

@au-roraaa said: ZADE I WAS NEVER A KYO FUCKER BUT I THINK YOUVE CONVERTED ME HOLY FUCKSJFJSJDJSN

THIS IS MY JOB AT THIS POINT I WANT YOU ALL TO TURN INTO KYOU FUCKERS KSSSOH 

UR THE BEST WRITER WTF?? WHEN DO U THINK PART TWO WOULD BE UP... and does kyoutani flirt with sora 😣💔

YOU GUYS- NOOO- pls my heart made a loop :(( I love you so much :(( thank you baby and I think now you know what he does with sora MWAH

@kawakuto said: hi hi zade!🤩 (ajdjs idk if you remember me but i moved main blogs and I was @/gukooky before LOL) THE KYOUTANI FIC ANDJWNS I DIDNT EXPECT THE END WAHHHH🥺🥺 it was so well written omg I loved it!! (wtf kyoutani, you said we were going slow what if I wasn’t ready to call u my boyfriend wtffff😔😔 pain.)

AAAAH OFC I DO REMMEBER !! hope youre doing well baby !!! and thank you SO much for your sweet words, I honestly appreciate them so much :((<33

pls I’m in love with your writing. You write kyoutani so well so now I’ll always be grabbing at any crumbs you send my way 🥵

thank you so so so much baby!!!! these kinda words always hit me right at the heart, I appreciate them so much and I love you sm much

bb i love ur kyoutani fic sm :(( ur rlly so talented <33 i look forward to pt 2 ^3^

thank you so much baby, sending a smooch your way mwah 

zade that kyoutani piece im in so much pain why would u do this to me 💔💔💔💔

believe me when I say It hurt me even more than you </3

I just finished reading part 2 and it waS SO GOODAJSFHJLFG you did amazing!! (n˘v˘•)¬

THANK YOU SO MUCH BABY !!!

Hi! New nonnie coming through :) First time I'm writing something because I'm such a nervous wreck but I just had to

THE FIC WAS SO GOOD THE VIBES ARE CHEFS KISS. IT WAS SO GOOD I LITERALLY DROOLED I CAN NOT GET OVER IT !

Mister kyotani pls rail me thanks 🐱

THANK YOU AAAH YOURE SO CUTE !!! I truly appreciate this with my whole entire heart so thank you so much baby, hope you have a good one mwah

Wait did he do anything with Sora?

nope!! they just went to the party together but in my mind he didn’t even hug her and she didn’t try anything else, too, simply bc she knew how in love he is with reader!!

YOUR MINDDDDD!! THE KYOU FIC WAS SOOOO GOOOD!! Omg i hope you do a part 3 😭😭

i have a Little sequel which is really really soft but I'd love to write some more for it! 

@soranihimawari said: Part 1 & 2 with kyoutani was amazing as always Zade! I really liked the ending. This was such a fun read. I was wondering who’s else would be sharing the apartment with Kyoutani. What made you choose tattoo artist Iwa & Oikawa? Those two made me chuckle with the way they came in like that. Hope you have a great day/evening/late night/etc.

✌🏼&💜

—sora—

aaah thank you so so much, baby!! I truly appreciate your sweet words, youre the cutest! regarding your question: You shares an apartment with Iwa, Oikawa and Yahaba (who also works at the tattoo studio!) and i don't know to be really honest- I just like the thought of these three being really good friends so after contemplating whether or not to go with iwaoi or matsuhana, I ended up going with those two dorks! hope you have a good one baby mwah!!

@sakusapetals said: PLEASEE I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH

AAAH THANK YOU SO SO MUCH BABY !!! I LOVE YOU SM 

How long did it take you to write the entire two parts? Like wow that’s alot👁👄👁 i adore long fics though

oooh- hm ?? tbh i don't really know ?? I can’t remember ?? I think it took me about a month or like three weeks since I did write it all in one go yk? it was the only WIP I worked on during that time and it felt SO relieving to publish it! 

AAAHHH the kyou fic was a masterpiece bb!!! ❤️❤️

thank you so so so much baby!!<33

U LITERLALT WRIYE KYOU THE BEST ABSOLUTE BEST. he’s so aggressive and demanding but he still is willing to show someone special his vulnerability. I LOVE READING STUFF ABOUT HIM FROM U

AAAAH thank you so much- you guys have no idea how much these kinda comments mean to me- I love you so MUCH MWAH 

I just read the first part of "back to life" an it had me speechless so many times, almost cried at the end, it's honestly so well written. I'm off to read part two. Have a nice day 🐰

sdoalfsla thank you so much baby! I hope you enjoyed both parts equally as much and thank you for all the love mwah!!<3

Hana is a baddie

SHE IS!! she’s literally the baddest bitch to ever exist ft. saeko ofc but nobody acknowledges it </3

@tonhwa said: I’m in love with the way you write kyoutani pls. Even your previous fics on your old account ( if you don’t mind me mentioning it ) are so fucking amazing. GOSH YOU CHARACTERIZE HIM SO WELL AND THE PLOT IS ALWAYS SO JUICY AND INTERESTING I CANT HELP BUT GO BACK AND READ IT. and then you release this fucking wonderful piece and I feel like it’s my birthday even though it’s already passed LOL ty ily have a wonderful day I’m sobbing tears of happiness

YOU GUYS PLEASE- the fact this made me tear up when I first read it- thank you SO much honestly. knowing you guys enjoy my characterization of my favorite character is honestly everything to me so thank you sm I love you baby have a good one!!<3

I’ve been on this app from high school, and now I’m a college grad. I have to say I’ve never sent a message to anyone I’ve followed. But that tattoo artist! Kyou fic, part 1 and 2 are 😩💕 *chefs kiss* you are one of my favorite writers I’ve ever followed since joining this app. You NEVER disappoint!

-💕 a very satisfied reader

thank you so much baby!! aaah this is honestly so so sweet :(( thank you for taking the time out of your day to send me such a sweet thing, I appreciate it and you so much mwah!!

i gotta say babe THANK YOU FOR THE KYOTANI CONTENT!! muAAAAHH💞💞

NOO THANK YOU GUYS FOR GIVING IT SO MUCH LOVE MWAH!!!

i love kyoutani and he obvs deserves his dick sucked 🤧🤧 but i catch him posting up with other girls I DONT CARE THE SITUATION he gonna catch these hands for a real one 👊🏼👆🏼🤜🏼🥊🥊 kidding 😐😐😐 he’d body me

pls the way this had me chuckling like crazy bc same sajlskjpw he can get mad all he want but he better stay his pretty ass where he is- by my side  😌

[dark-and-kawaii]

Soooo....Kakashi, Minato and Itatchi...what kinks/turn ons dya reckon they have? 🤔💭

A/N: I got so scared for a minute because i thought i deleted this by mistake!!! ಥ_ಥ

*wipes forehead* Phew!! I’m glad i found this!!! I’d love to do this!!! And i’ve been waiting for the right moment where im inspired so it turns out good!!! 

Please Enjoy and i hope you like it / agree with me!!!

Kakashi 

Kakashi is all about that lingerie life!!! Especially if it’s in the color red, there’s something so spicy about it and it really gets his blood flowing... To his cock... Hehehe don’t worry he still finds you extremely attractive in any color lingerie but red is his favorite. It makes your skin glow, and the way it makes your eyes pop... Absolutely stunning for him. 

When it comes to the lingerie Kakashi doesn’t mind what type of fabric it is made out of so long as there’s lace hugging your hips and other areas. To him the lace is like a tease, granted your basically naked in these types of get ups, but the lace is like a steamy window... You can see a little bit, but not all of what it covers. It’s almost like unwrapping a gift, he can’t wait to unwrap you and see what is concealed. 

You wouldn’t think it, but Kakashi actually likes being bossed around in bed. He doesn’t mind when his partner takes control, hell Kakashi doesn’t mind the least bit if you were wanting to tie him up and have your way with him. He’s all for it and he likes trying new things.

So as you can guess, with the whole tied up situation, Kakashi likes to relax and enjoy his time with you. He definitely can go at a fast pace and make your eyes roll in the back of your head, but he much rather take his time and make you orgasm over and over again when he is in charge. 

When Kakashi does take charge he likes to get into the whole pet play. Putting a color on you and some cute fox/dog ears... Oof, you can basically see a small stain in his pants from the pre-cum. He enjoys calling you “pet”, saying things such as “Good girl (or boy)” And every now and then he likes to add a leash to your collar so he can tug at it while pounding you from behind doggy style.

Being blindfolded is a 100% kink for him, whether it be you or him. It heightens the senses and his favorite is when he’s reading a book of his and you sneak up behind him and blindfold him. He’ll place his book on his lap and see where you take things. But most the time you leave him where he is and slowly pull his pants down so you can suck his cock. Gripping onto whatever it is he is sitting on, Kakashi’s toes curl as he focuses just on your lips around his cock. 

Minato 

*arches eyebrow* Must i say what he truly like to fantasy about? Minato, HANDS DOWN.... Is all about that breeding kink. Seeing the woman he loves walking around with a swollen tummy get’s him hard in seconds. He’s not sure why really himself, maybe it’s pride, maybe it’s his way of being possessive, but he just loves watching you walk around with his child growing inside you. At a young age it took a lot for Minato not to get your pregnant hehehe.

Minato is a romancer, he will do anything to set the mood, and like Kakashi he much rather take his time with you than having a quicky. When it comes to setting the mood, Minato will send you away to the store or some errand that gets you out of the house so he can prepare everything. Candles, Rose Petals, and he’ll even have oil ready so he can massage your back before he begins pleasuring you. Whenever you get back from your silly errand he sent you to do, Minato will grab the bag from your hand and place it on the floor so he can have full access to your hand. Taking your hand in his, Minato will tell you to close your eyes and then lead you to your shared bedroom. “Open, ____.” Standing in front of you with a cheesy grin and pink blush, Minato shows has his hand out showing you what he had done for you. As if in a fairy tail, he slowly lifts you into his arms and places you on the bed that holds many rose petals in variety of colors. 

He doesn’t mind quickies, and if you were to do it or come up with the idea he likes it when you show up spontaneously in his Hokage office. He knows what’s about to go down, maybe? Sitting back in his chair he greets you with his famous smile. Swaying back and forth you come up to him and place your hands on his shoulders before sliding them down to his pants. Licking your lips, you hide beneath his desk and suck his cock. Not caring if someone were to show up, its a fun game for you, and even though it shows on his face that he is dying, Minato always comes up with an excuse, “I- I uh feel fine! I’m just... It’s uh, i’m really hot today is all!”  

A turn on for Minato would be coming home to you cooking a homemade meal for him. Seeing you work hard and taking care of his and your home is something he cherishes because in his eye’s it shows that you wish to live with him for a long time. He’s sentimental and this just is a cherry on top. 

Itachi

This poor guy, Itachi used to love spending all his time with you until well... Ya know... He became apart of the Akatsuki. Itachi used to be about pleasuring you all night long. Massaging your thighs, working his mouth up to your sweet spot... It was such a turn on for him to watch you crumble before him...

Now though, as someone who must keep his distance from the village, when he shows his face to you he makes it quick. But you know it’s not because he wants to, you know he wishes he could take his time, it shows every time he rests his forehead on yours as he slides his cock inside you. 

When Itachi is willing to risk it, his kinks are tying you to your bed and torturing your clit with his teeth. At first he will gently latch on to it and grind his teeth slowly, its torture that feels heavenly, and once you’ve cum he will bite down harder and harder until you’re screaming his name and begging for him to release you. 

Kunai play is another thing Itachi enjoys, it’s a trust thing, he likes knowing that you trust him with such a deadly weapon. So i guess you could say trust is a huge turn on for Itachi. He never thought you would trust him after all he’s done, but you believed his every word, and you would never allow someone to talk down about him in your presence. You trust him and his actions, and this alone is something Itachi can cherish and relish in.

It takes a lot out of him, but using his Tsukuyomi on you is SUCHA big turn on for him. It always makes him pass out since he is in fact ill as well, but watching you wither in pleasure is such an enjoyment while fucking you. Knowing he can give you threesome without sharing you with another man *ok emoji* 

Itachi is another one who has a breeding kink, it’s not as big as Minato’s but it’s there in him and he’s always wanted a family. Sometimes a turn on for him is whispering in your ear that he’s going to get you pregnant and cum inside you. That there isn’t anything you can do about except accepting your fate as his forever. 

Blowjobs, Itachi loves them and he enjoys coming to your place collapsing down on your couch. He knows you’ll give him a special treat for making the journey to you, and he can’t ever wait. Sometime’s you’ll walk into your living space and his pants will already be down. Though it’s rare since he isn’t very demanding usually. 

~ Love Kiwi xoxo 

Ahhh!!!! I hope you liked these!!! I have so much more to say about these guys but it was getting a little long ^-^;!!!

[randomfandomfamily]

Sad one-shot idea incoming :( After putting Sheryl in her “cell”, Gary starts getting really REALLY sad and ends up starting to miss his dad IMMENSELY and then locks himself up in his room and starts drinking a lot while the rest of the crew is worried sick about him as he won’t open the door.

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angst angst angst angst angst angst yes!

As happy as it made Gary to leave Sheryl alone with KVN, there was a piece of him that regretted not sticking to Nightfall’s plan. A couple of hours ago, he might not have had a problem killing her. In fact, he knew he wouldn’t have had a problem killing her.

If the choice was her or Quinn, he’d choose Quinn every time.

But he hadn’t considered the fact that he could do both. It wasn’t until he saw Sheryl crying--genuinely upset--that he realized he didn’t necessarily have to choose. Keeping his mother contained on the ship? Why hadn’t he thought of that first? It’s what he did with Avocato.

It bothered him that killing his mother was the first solution he thought of. Did it really matter that he didn’t or couldn’t follow through? Wasn’t just considering it bad enough?

What would his father think of him? The less rational part of him worried his father would never forgive him for considering something like that. But the more rational part of him knew that his father would be proud he made the right decision and didn’t follow through.

A few words of encouragement would have been fantastic, actually. And his dad had always been pretty good at that. As if his day wasn’t emotional enough, now he missed his friggin’ father. Awesome.

God, he needed a drink. It’d been a long few days. Weeks. Months, really.

Luckily, he knew Clarence had kept a stash of it back when he was still on the ship. And since he was no longer welcome on the Crimson Light (or anywhere near his family ever) Gary figured the con man probably wouldn’t miss it all that much.

It’d been a while since he drank anything. He had a shot with Quinn when they went to New York, but other than that, it’d been about five years since he’d had a proper drink. He was going to have to fix that.

And that night was as good a day as any.

He successfully grabbed a couple of bottles from Clarence’s room and snuck them back to his room. In hindsight, maybe he should have grabbed a cup, but he figured it wouldn’t really matter. There wasn’t anyone else to drink with.

Just him and a couple of bottles. What an evening.

Things didn’t start out so bad. Sure, everything got a little hazy, but other than that he was fine. He couldn’t even remember what he was upset about really. And that was a good thing, right?

Unless it was something important? He hadn’t forgotten anything important, had he? Was he upset about something important? Something about…

His dad.

Oh yeah.

Gary tried to recall some good memories with his dad to distract himself, but he was way too tired and way too drunk. Mostly, he was just sad. Why the hell was he so sad? Wasn’t he drinking to not be sad? Or was he getting drunk to forget?

Either way, the drinking was definitely happening.

The happy part didn’t seem to be happening though. And neither did the forgetting. The more he looked at the bottle of alcohol he was holding, the more he thought about his dad…

And his mom.

Specifically everything that had happened in his younger years. How did his dad ever find it in himself to love her? She was so miserable all the time.

And of course she drank when she was miserable. Which made her more miserable. A vicious cycle, really. Gary didn’t understand why anyone would-

… wait.

“Ohhhhh nooooooo,” Gary groaned, “I’m doin’ th’ same thing she did!” He flopped back onto the bed. “This night… is soooo not my night.”

And that was how Gary spiraled into his own little personal void of misery. His father would be so disappointed in him if he ever found out he had resorted to alcohol like this. He wasn’t an addict, obviously, because he hadn’t really drank in five years. But even turning to alcohol just for one night was bad enough.

There was work to be done. There was a mission to finish. There was a planet to save, and Gary decided it would be a good idea to get drunk? Boy oh boy, another great decision from Gary Goodspeed the Loser of Planets.

He took another swig instinctively, and pretty much immediately regretted it. Why would he keep doing this to himself? It wasn’t going to make things better.

But it gave him something else to blame. If he was miserable because of the alcohol, then he wouldn’t have to miserable about his father or his mom or Quinn or Avocato or the Earth or the endless cycle of bullshit that kept happening all around him.

And with every sip, more of all the bullshit faded away. So why not drink a little more? Why not drink until he forgot? Let the bullshit be bullshit some other day, he was allowed to have a break for just one night.

So why did he keep on crying?

The crying didn’t go unheard, either. Exhausted as everyone was, there was still a high amount of tension on the ship. Fox and Ash were in the medbay, making sure all of Fox’s mechanical life supports were functioning alright, and Nightfall was with them to make sure nothing went wrong.

But Little Cato was wandering the halls. He usually spent his down time with Gary, but he was nowhere to be found. So Little Cato thought maybe he oughta check Gary’s room, see how the guy was holding up after everything that happened.

He could some shuffling sounds coming from Gary’s room as he approached, meaning he was in there. That was the good part.

The not so good part was that it also sounded like he was crying.

“Thunder Bandit?” Little Cato knocked but Gary wouldn’t answer. “Gary, open up.” He tried to get the door open but it wouldn’t budge. Gary must have locked it. “Come on, man, I just wanna talk.”

When he still didn’t get an answer, Little Cato sighed and stepped away from the door. “AVA. Can you open his door?”

“That’s an invasion of privacy, Little Cato,” AVA reminded him, “I’ll open it, but if he’s mad, that’s on you.”

“Yeah yeah, whatever,” Little Cato said, “Just let me go check on him.” The door slid open and Little Cato entered cautiously. “Gary?”

He flicked on the light and was immediately met with protesting. “Turn it ooooooff.” Gary rolled over and buried his face in his pillow. “Hurts m’eyes.”

Little Cato was kind of confused. “Gary, are you… doing okay?”

Gary suddenly gasped and sat up. “Spider-Man!” He wobbled a little as he stood up. “How’re you doing, kid?”

“Uh… I’m not…” Little Cato didn’t even know who this Spider-Man was. “Did you mean Spider-Cat?”

Gary snorted. “Probably.” He reached out and ruffled Little Cato’s hair. “What’re you doin’ in m’room? I lock- uh… I’m pretty sure I locked the door.”

“I asked AVA to open it.” Little Cato pushed Gary’s hand off his head. “Normally he didn’t mind, but Gary seemed really out of it. The behavior was almost kind of familiar. He just couldn’t place it… “I heard you crying and wanted to check on you.”

His father gasped. “Awwwwwww, you’re so sweet.” He ruffled Little Cato’s hair again. “You’re a… you’re just, like, a really good kid.”

Little Cato smiled awkwardly. “Well, thanks, I-I think.” He looked around the room to try and figure out what the heck could be making Gary act like this. Was he tired? Upset about his mom?

Then he saw them. Two bottles sitting beside Gary’s bed. Gary wasn’t tired.

He was drunk.

Little Cato pushed past Gary and grabbed one of the bottles, holding it up. “What are you doing with these?” he demanded.

Gary tilted his head. “Uh… drinking them?”

“You know what I mean.” Little Cato the second one. It was almost empty, maybe an inch or so of liquid swirling at the bottom. “Gary, we’re on a mission. You really think now is a good time to be getting drunk?”

“Who cares?”

“I care!” Little Cato shouted. “Do you know how many soldiers I’ve seen get wasted before an assignment and then not come back? What we’re doing is important. You can’t just- you-” He sighed. “Never mind. You’re probably only hearing every third word I say.”

Gary giggled. “Wha-ha-hat?”

“Exactly,” Little Cato muttered. He set the bottles back down and tried to think of what to do. Nightfall would probably smack Gary if she found out he got drunk. And honestly Little Cato was seriously considering it himself.

Two arms wrapped around him and pulled him off the ground. “Y’know what? I’m glad you’re here, Spider-Man.”

“Spider-Cat,” he corrected, “Or just call me Little Cato if it’s really that confusing.”

“I was reeeeaaaally sad before you came to check on me,” Gary continued as if he hadn’t heard, “Then you showed up and now I feel- I’m… I’m feeling a lot better.”

Little Cato squirmed out of Gary’s grasp and smoothed out his sweater. “What were you so upset about?”

“Don’t remember,” Gary admitted, “Somethin’ about my dad, I think.”

Well, it certainly explained a few things. Little Cato felt the initial anger ebb away, but he was still a little frustrated with his guardian. “Alright, just… don’t drink anymore.” He looked Gary up and down. “And you should probably, like, lay down or something.”

“Mmmmmm’kay.” Gary threw himself onto the bed unceremoniously. “I feel like shiiiiiiit,” He scrubbed at his eyes. “Oh my dad would kill me if he saw me like this.”

"No he wouldn't," Little Cato said.

Gary laughed. "Yeah, no he wouldn't." The drunken smile fell away from his face. "I miss him."

Little Cato felt a tug of sympathy. As much as he didn’t like the idea of Gary drinking, he knew how it felt to lose a father. “Yeah… I get that.”

That made Gary bolt upright and roll out of bed. “Oh my crap!” He fell face first on the floor, and scrambled to stand. “I’m so sorry!”

“What are-” He was interrupted by Gary scooping him up for the second time. “Dude, dude!”

Gary patted his head, bawling his eyes out. “I didn’t even think about- and you… awwwwww and Avocato.” He sniffed and hugged Little Cato tighter. “I’m such a bad influence. I’m a very very bad influence.”

Little Cato once again pried himself from Gary. “Look, man, it’s fine! It’s fine.”

“Do you wanna talk about it?” Gary put his hands on Little Cato’s shoulders. “Because we can- we can talk about our feelings.”

“No, I think you need some sleep.” Little Cato gently pushed Gary back towards his bed. “Just go back to bed, seriously. We can talk in the morning.”

Gary nodded. “Okay.”

Little Cato picked up the bottles as Gary laid back down. “You know, you probably should have used these to celebrate with Nightfall instead getting drunk and miserable all by yourself.”

“Celebrate?” Gary frowned.

“Yeah,” Little Cato said, “Celebrating. We got the Dimensional Keys, Gary. We got them back from your mom, we won this time. Your dad would be really-”

He stopped, realizing his moron of a father had fallen asleep at some point while he was talking. “You son of a-” Resisting the urge to hit Gary over the head with his pillow, he turned around and walked away, taking the two bottles with him.

His father was a clueless idiot, but drunk he was even more of a clueless idiot.

Clueless idiot or not, Gary was still his father. And while he couldn’t necessarily give him a lecture on the ethics of drinking on a dangerous mission, Nightfall definitely could, so the first thing he was going to do was tell her.

Right after he got rid of the alcohol.

Did this stuff really even help people? It just seemed to make things worse, as far as Little Cato could tell. What was the appeal? Sure it was fun at parties when you had people to laugh with, but it didn’t seem like too much fun if you were just… sad and alone. So why did so many people do it?

He studied the bottle and shook his head. “Man, grown-ups are stupid.”

[oleganotest]

So, Recode reported today that Twitter was tinkering around with the idea of expanding its 140 character limit to a number a bit higher….10,000 characters.

But what, you ask (and I’m glad you did), does 10,000 characters look like? Well, hey. Let’s find out.

Soooo, did you see the Warriors game last night? Crazy, right? It was nice to see Harrison Barnes back and the entire crowd cheered when he entered the game. Steph Curry is probably not human, because he shoots the ball from the parking lot and it swishes like butter. How many characters am I up to now? Lemme check, so hold on….

597.

Anyways, then it started raining today and my dogs don’t like rain so it’s really difficult to take them outside to do their business in the morning when they don’t want to deal with the rain. I try to talk them into the fact that they’re actually getting a bath and pooping at the same time, kind of a two birds with one stone thing. They don’t buy it. Speaking of rain, it didn’t rain on my wedding day like the weather people thought it would. How do they keep their jobs when they’re wrong all of the time? It’s almost like they could do my job. Wait, I didn’t mean that how it sounded. Where are we at now?

1194.

OK. So anyways. Here’s a favorite quote of mine from Bill Clinton:

If you live long enough, you’ll make mistakes. But if you learn from them, you’ll be a better person. It’s how you handle adversity, not how it affects you. The main thing is never quit, never quit, never quit.

I think what he’s saying is that you can make mistakes, but you have to learn from them. I’ve made a bunch of mistakes, how about you? My dogs made a mistake this morning because they didn’t want to go out in the rain. But that’s cool, I don’t get mad. Life’s too short, you know?

Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit. Never quit.

2507.

Did you see the President speak about gun control today? It’s important. Probably the most important problem of our time and we have to solve it. Here’s what he said today:

THE PRESIDENT: Happy New Year, everybody. Before the New Year, I mentioned that I had given the charge to my Attorney General, FBI Director, Deputy Director at the ATF, and personnel at my White House to work together to see what more we could do to prevent a scourge of gun violence in this country.

I think everybody here is all too familiar with the statistics. We have tens of thousands of people every single year who are killed by guns. We have suicides that are committed by firearms at a rate that far exceeds other countries. We have a frequency of mass shootings that far exceeds other countries in frequency.

And although it is my strong belief that for us to get our complete arm around the problem Congress needs to act, what I asked my team to do is to see what more we could do to strengthen our enforcement and prevent guns from falling into the wrong hands to make sure that criminals, people who are mentally unstable, those who could pose a danger to themselves or others are less likely to get them.

And I’ve just received back a report from Attorney General Lynch, Director Comey, as well as Deputy Director Brandon about some of the ideas and initiatives that they think can make a difference. And the good news is, is that these are not only recommendations that are well within my legal authority and the executive branch, but they’re also ones that the overwhelming majority of the American people, including gun owners, support and believe.

So over the next several days, we’ll be rolling out these initiatives. We’ll be making sure that people have a very clear understanding of what can make a difference and what we can do. And although we have to be very clear that this is not going to solve every violent crime in this country, it’s not going to prevent every mass shooting, it’s not going to keep every gun out of the hands of a criminal, it will potentially save lives and spare families the pain and the extraordinary loss that they’ve suffered as a consequence of a firearm getting in the hands of the wrong people.

I’m also confident that the recommendations that are being made by my team here are ones that are entirely consistent with the Second Amendment and people’s lawful right to bear arms. And we’ve been very careful recognizing that, although we have a strong tradition of gun ownership in this country, that even though it’s who possess firearms for hunting, for self-protection, and for other legitimate reasons, I want to make sure that the wrong people don’t have them for the wrong reasons.

So I want to say how much I appreciate the outstanding work that the team has done. Many of you worked over the holidays to get this set of recommendations to me. And I’m looking forward to speaking to the American people over the next several days in more detail about it.

Thank you very much, everybody.

Regardless of where you stand on the matter, we have to change some things.

Back to tech. Are you at CES? I’m not this year. Mostly because there’s a lot of germs and I shouldn’t be around them if I can help it. I’m pretty sure my dogs would have liked it though, because there’s a lot of tech in Vegas for all kinds of people (and pets). If you were a dog would you want a phone? Or a self-feeding thing? Of course you would. You’d have to sit around all day watching your parents use technology while you sit around and lick yourself. What kind of existence is that? I know, right? I hope there’s some dog tech that comes out of the conference, otherwise it’s a wash.

6294.

Time for another quote. JFK this time:

When written in Chinese, the word ‘crisis’ is composed of two characters. One represents danger and the other represents opportunity.

I think what JFK meant was just because things aren’t going your way doesn’t mean that it won’t eventually. You have to play the long game, you have to stick in there and see things as far as you can possibly see them. It’s like Twitter . People are worried about whether Twitter can weather the storm of lack of growth. I think it can. What about the character count? Well, I personally feel like asking people to keep their thoughts shorter make them more powerful. They’re easier to share. Repeat, etc. What will happen when people can put this much text in a tweet? I don’t know. I do know that I don’t want to spend hours reading tweets because I like the fact that I can glance at the app and figure out what’s going on pretty quickly.

If I wanted to write a book, I’d do it on Facebook.

But maybe people want more characters. I’m not sure who, though. I’d like to meet them. Maybe they have dogs, too. We could chat about that.

What are your favorite movies? I have a top 10 and it changes sometimes:

– Rocky – Forrest Gump – Cast Away – Fantastic Mr. Fox – Signs – Lars and the Real Girl – Superbad – Spaceballs – Shawshank Redemption – Jackie Brown

Share yours in the comments if you want.

7657.

Here’s another quote, this time from Maya Angelou:

The thing to do, it seems to me, is to prepare yourself so you can be a rainbow in somebody else’s cloud. Somebody who may not look like you. May not call God the same name you call God – if they call God at all. I may not dance your dances or speak your language. But be a blessing to somebody. That’s what I think.

Being a blessing to someone is a great way to be. Have you been a blessing to someone lately? I feel like we could all do a better job of that, even if it’s in small ways. I feel like people always want to do something great and massively huge, but forget about all of the little things along the way. Making someone smile, holding the door for someone, giving someone a hug when they really really need it. Those kinds of things last forever. Don’t hold back on doing a bunch of little great things to do something huge that you’ll get overwhelmed with and not follow through on.

8614. Wow, this is a lot of characters.

I feel like Kurt Wagner did a good job of talking about the ramifications of expanding tweets to 10,000 characters:

The design aspect is key. Making Tweets bigger by adding more content or bigger pictures has diminished user engagement in the past, according to one source. That makes sense. If tweets take a long time to consume or take up more space on your screen, it’s likely that you’ll view (and engage with) fewer of them. So Twitter is trying to add more content without disrupting the way you currently scroll through your timeline.

How can Twitter become more like Facebook without becoming Facebook? There’s too many words on Facebook, something the company itself is trying to get away from by introducing all sorts of new media, like 360 degree videos. There’s always a place for long form content, and just because you have the space doesn’t mean you have to fill it. But still, a lot of people will try. Spammers will definitely try. In fact, can you imagine getting spam tweets that are over 140 characters? Ugh. It’ll be like reading SPAM in your EMAIL!@$#!@#!@#

One more quote, this one from Clarence Darrow:

When we fully understand the brevity of life, its fleeting joys and unavoidable pains; when we accept the facts that all men and women are approaching an inevitable doom: the consciousness of it should make us more kindly and considerate of each other. This feeling should make men and women use their best efforts to help their fellow travelers on the road, to make the path brighter and easier as we journey on. It should bring a closer kinship, a better understanding, and a deeper sympathy for the wayfarers who must live a common life and die a common death.

Maybe Twitter should just acquire Medium instead.

Oops, I went over the “limit.”

[jarcinda]

AU!Purple Paladin

Okay, I can’t get this AU idea out of my head, so I have to write it down xD

But before you read this shit, please beware of three things:

1. You may have some struggles to understand my writing or see some huge mistakes. English isn’t my first language. Honestly, I’m really bad in English but I try my best. No one else corrected this text, so there will be many mistakes in it. If you have question, cause you didn’t understand something, you can ask me 😊 (pls don’t hate me for being bad at english D:)

2. TRIGGER WARNUNG: Short mention of suicide and depression

3. I didn’t finished season 7 of Voltron yet, just for you to know.

 Imagine that beside the lions there is another spaceship build by Alfor, looking like a majestic spread eagle. This spaceship is called hawk and it was hard to find a pilot for him, cause Hawk is being more stubborn than red. Alfor built Hawk as a support in fight for Voltron.

So, after Zarkon turns to be bad and all Hawk and his paladin (in purple armour) got hit bad from Zarkon and Hawk himself decides to flee and brought him and his paladin to earth, where they crashed into a cave. Hawk can’t move anymore and his paladin blame him to be a terrible spaceship, useless and not worthy to fight alongside Voltron. Hawk is hurt and shut himself down, never responding. So, the paladin, who is hurt and can’t move is doomed to die in this cave. He managed himself to get rid of his amour and cradle out of Hawk. He lends to a wall next to his spaceship, where he dies.  

Soooo years later a little orphan girl, who ran away from her orphan home, cause she got bullied, finds Hawk still resting in this cave. He is still shut down and all dirty. The Girl also finds the skeleton of the paladin but after the first shock she tries to figure it out what happened. Even she is a little child she can sense the aura of Hawk and that there is something with this spaceship. She talks to Hawk, of course he isn’t responding. But the girl, called Luna, doesn’t give up and starts to clean Hawk, managed to bury the dead paladin and starts to visiting Hawk every day and talks to him. Mostly she tells him about being bullied and that her parents died a few months, after her birth so she doesn’t remember them. First Hawk is annoyed like hell by her, but with the time he gets used to her and kinda starts liking her.

So years passes and a few weeks after Luna turned 10 years old, a single galracruiser landed unnoticed next to the cave to get Hawk for Zarkon. Luna is terrified about the aliens and can feel that Hawk doesn’t want to get caught by them, so she refuses to hand Hawk over to them. When the galra about to kill Luna Hawk starts his system again. He doesn’t want her to get hurt so he attacks the galra, grabs Luna with his mouth and escapes the cave. Luna can’t stop him from entering the space and suddenly they are miles away from earth.  

First Luna was really terrified. Even she doesn’t really enjoyed her life back on earth, she didn’t think she would ever be in space all alone by herself. But somehow it seems that Hawk is made to be the perfect spaceship for her. It doesn’t take her long to manage the controls and soon the grow to a pretty good team with a deep connection. Luna is able to her understand Hawk talking to her, also she can sense his feelings. Hawk tells her everything about Voltron, Alfor, Zarkon and the Galra Empire. She learns a lot and decides to bring Hawk back to the castle of lions, the place where he belongs.

On there trip they stranded on a strange planet on gather some supplies for Luna. The girl meets this white, cute furry animal, which looks like a cat crossed with a fox. They become friends and Luna names her Mascha. Mascha has the special ability to share her memories with other thanks to the blue stone on her forehead. Mascha joins Luna and Hawk on their journey and kind of becomes a diary for Luna.

Well after weeks flying through space, sometimes fighting against single little galra spaceships, Hawk traces the other paladins on a planet. (This whole scene is taking place at the beginning of season two of Voltron) When they got there, they noticed that the paladins without there are attacked from some galra spaceships. Luna and Hawk managed some super epic rescue and take all enemies down.

Luna leaves Hawk to greet the paladins. Of course, Shiro, Keith, Lance, Hunk and Pidge are kinda shocked that their life are saved by a little kid. But before they can talk about everything more cruisers are coming and Luna commanded everyone on her ship. After defeating another cruiser, Luna brings the paladins back to their lions and together they fly to the castle.  

When they arrive Allura is shocked of seeing Hawk. She tells the other paladin of the sixth spaceship her father build as a support of Voltron, then she asked Luna how she become the pilot of this stubborn spaceship. Luna tells everyone the story of the cave without mention that she is an orphan. Luna is all excited about finding the other paladins and the princess, she wants to join Voltron. But the others refuse, because she is only ten years old, way too young to die in a war. Shiro tells Luna that she has to get back to earth to her family and home. Suddenly Luna becomes all sad and tells him that she is an orphan and that no one on earth cares about her, misses her. “If I really should die out there, it’s okay, cause I don’t have a place I a can return to.” Everyone is more shocked and feel sorry for her, but don’t know how to act. Coran is the one who breaks the ice and pulls Luna into a tearful (he was crying like hell) hug.

Luna stays at the castle of Lions. Shiro still doesn’t like the idea of her getting into this war, but he also can’t force her to fly back to earth. Also Hawk only accepts her as his pilot (Coran tried, but Hawk didn’t open up) so Luna becomes a part of team Voltron. For Luna it’s the best time of her life. Fast she becomes friends with everyone, even with Keith (she begged Keith to teach her fighting). Luna tries for the first time the purple armour and the purple bayard turns out to be a lance (which triggered Hunk and Pidge to make fun of the actually Lance).

Luna gets a really strong bond to Lance. She is very clumsy and he is used to take care of his younger siblings. So, every time she gets hurts, because of tripping or running into a door and tries not to cry cause of the pain, Lance is the first one who takes care of her, making here laugh and treating her wounds. He gives her his jacket and carry her around the castle until she is smiling bright like the sun. Spending time with Luna gives Lance the feeling not to be a useless goofball. Luna starts to see Lance as a brother and asks him thousand questions about his family and how it is to be in a family. They have the same sense of humour, which made them get along very well.

Luna also gets a strong bond with Shiro. He is very protective about her, always caring about her, making sure she gets not wounded in a fight or something. He feels responsible for her and is scared that she might get killed in this war. But the most reason that he cares about her, is that Luna kinda managed to pull all the stress off of him. He isn’t sure how, but every time he feels stressed and exhausted Luna gives him a big cute motivating smile and tells him how great he is doing, then she asks him to tell her a story and soon he forgets how stressed he was. Fast Shiro starts to have some father feelings for her and wishes he could adopt her and be her real dad. He doesn’t know, that Luna feels the same way. She wants Shiro to be her father, because he gives here the feeling of having a family. (Once she had a nightmare. Shiro allowed her to stay in his room and shared his bed with her. Luna was happy to cuddle with Shiro and fell asleep fast)

Hunk and Luna spending a lot of time together in the kitchen. Hunk teaches her cooking. They having a lot of fun together. Pidge teaches Luna a lot of science stuff, Luna isn’t dumb and she wants to learn everything about mechanic and all that stuff. With Allura Luna shares a lot of girly time. Brading hair (Luna also as long, straight hair), skin care and trying on different dresses. Luna finds a way to bond with everyone in the castle.

Yeah, time pass by and Luna helps Voltron a lot in their fight against galra and everything. So, when they about the go back to earth, Luna and Hawk get caught in a turbulence, some space light vortex or whatever. Well, she loses control over Hawk and they get separated from the team, finding their way first to earth. But of course, they get attacked from the galra and Hawk takes a really bad hit. They fell down on earth crushing into a deep hole. The galra didn’t follow them, cause they thought they destroyed Hawk and his paladin. Luna passed out when they crashed on ground.  

When she wakes up, she finds herself in a dark cave next to a campfire. Her wounds are treated and someone covered her with a blanket. Confused she looks around and spied a stranger sitting at the other side of the fireplace. Turns out to be Adam, who survived the galra attack, but was badly hurt and had to hide himself from the galra. (oh, hell I wish it would be turned out like this in season 8) He tried to get back to the garrison, but he had no weapons, no supplies … the galra would have taken him out. Luna knows him, because Shiro told her about his boyfriend Adam. They start to talk a lot, thanks to the supplies Luna carried with Hawk, they had enough food and water for weeks. Luna wants to bring Adam back to the garrison, but her leg is broken, so she can’t fly, also Hawk had to recharge.  

Adam and Luna become very fast friends. She tells him a lot about Shiro and how he is doing. They also discuss the fight Adam and Shiro had before the Kerberos Mission and Luna suggested that Shiro might hurt Adam on purposes, because of his illness. “Maybe Shiro thought it would be easier for you to manage his death, if you’re hate him. I mean Shiro thought he had to die, cause of his disease sooo … yeah, I could imagine that he acted like this, because he didn’t know it better.” Luna also tells Adam a lot of her past as an orphan, she even reveals her biggest secret, that she tried to kill herself, shortly before she got into space. “But why? You’re way too young to have depressions!” – “Well I was at a point in my life … there was no sense in living anymore. No one wanted to adopted me, I got bullied and I felt like everyone hates me, forced me into leaving. And I thought that maybe … if I die … I could join my parents.” – “…” Adam decides that he wants to adopt Luna, give her the love and the home she deserves and more than that. He wishes her to be happy.  

After a couple of days Lunas leg finally recovered, she and Adam fly together to the garrison. Voltron arrived in the meantime and they are relived that Luna is okay and alive. But then also Adam appears and Shiro is shocked. Tears running down his face, when he sees his boyfriend, who supposed to be dead. While Shiro can’t move, Adam runs towards to him and pulling him to a hug. Adam also has tears in his eyes. “I love you, Takashi” is the only thing he can say.

Later Luna explains what happen to her and Hawk and how she met Adam. She also forced Adam and Shiro to talk with each other, calling herself “Space Cupid”. Adam and Shiro have a long talk about everything. About Kerberos, Shiro’s disease and their feeling for each other. They also talk about Luna. In the end they decide to get married after the war and adopt Luna together, they still love each other more than anything else and so they get engaged.

But there is still a war on going. I don’t know what’s going to happen in season 8, but I will tell you my idea I made up, even if this idea doesn’t fit to the real event. Well, bad bad bad Galra and everything. Voltron has to fight, blablabla, but than a big black thing appears in the space (next to earth of course), something like a wormhole but total bad and all, maybe something with the quintessence (I didn’t really think about that a lot). This black bad thing, is about to explode and destroy the whole universe. There is only one way to destroy it. Someone has to place a bomb, build by pidge and hunk inside the black thing, so it’s going to explode and vanish, before it explodes  itself (doesn’t make sense, right?)  

Anyways. Voltron volunteers to place the bombe inside, but the danger that they all gonna die inside, is very high. Still they want to do it, cause there is no other way. But before they can reach the black thing, they suddenly get caught by Hawk and lose the bomb. Confused about what’s going on, they yell at Luna. It takes them a minute to recognizes that Luna left Hawk and carries the bomb all alone by herself into the black wormhole. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” Keith yells at her, terrified because Luna definitely will die. Voltron struggles and can’t get out of the grip of Hawk. “I’m going to save your lives, Keithy” Luna answers and enters the black thing.  

A couple of minutes before, when Voltron was still flying to the thing, Luna was talking to Hawk, shutting down connection from the others. “Hey, buddy, we had a good time together, right? But I’m afraid this will be our last ride. Hawk, you have to do me a favour. They all have home, they all have family. Every one of them. Even Keith found his super cool Galra Mum. I’m so happy for him. He deserves to have a family … They have to get back on earth alive … Their families and friends … I don’t want them to suffer like me, when I lost my parents. There is a place for everyone … except me … I have no home, no family, no one who is waiting for me … beside Mascha maybe. But she will be fine. Shiro will take care of her. And you will be fine to. You are with your friends and you will find a new paladin, who you can trust … So please Hawk, do this last favour for me …”  

Inside of the black wormhole, Luna is placing the bomb and starts the timer. She feels the pain, that the aura and the air inside is causing to her. Even with her helmet it’s hard to breath. Luna knows that there isn’t enough time to escape. The continuous river is keeping her in de middle. Her body starts to feel heavy and tired. Luna tries to stay awake, but her eyes shut down. “Am I dying? Does death feels like that?” her last thoughts, before she loses consciousness.  

Luna thought she would die, but suddenly she feels her body again, she feels that she’s breathing, she smells the air (it smells like a hospital) and she hears noises someone’s talking and a constant beep. She feels the pain running through her body. Luna tries to open her eyes, they feel heavy. She tries again and again, until they finally open. Founding herself in a hospital room. Slowly Luna realizes that she didn’t die. She moves her head to the side and sees Shiro and Adam. They are discussing about something and didn’t recognize that Luna woke up. “Shiro?” It was here quiet, cracking voice, which turns the attention to her. Adam and Shiro’s eyes widened and both quickly get next to Luna’s bed. “You’re awake, finally!” Shiro can’t stop himself from crying. He pulls Luna carefully into a long hug. “What happened?”  

With a terrified look Luna stared down the wreck, which supposed to be Hawk. Hawk saved her. He flew inside the black storm and grabbed Luna, who already passed out. With all his power Hawk managed to escape the Storm, but he didn’t get far away enough. They got caught in the explosion. Hawk got huge damage, unable to move anymore and Luna still not responding to the others. Voltron got them an brought them back on earth. They had to use violence to open Hawks mouth causing even more damage. Shiro was the first one who cradled inside Hawk, finding Luna unconscious with a lot of bad bruises and wounds, lying on the ground. Shiro first thought the was dead, but after a close look he saw her breathing. A very weak breath, but a breath. 4 days passed until Luna woke up.

Well I shouldn’t go more into detail, because my English is terrible. But yeah it turns out that Shiro is yelling a lot at Luna, cause she sacrificed herself and he thought he lost her and Luna starts to cry, cause she thought it would be the right thing, because she has no family. Well Adam steps in and tells Luna that she has a family now, cause Shiro and him love her like a daughter and they going to adopt her.

Month passed, peace is back, beside some single Galra battleship, Shiro and Adam got married and adopted Luna. Together with Coran and Hunk Luna is working on repairing Hawk, because she wants her best friend back. Everyone is happy, as a Klance shipper I say in this AU Lance und Keith get together after spending a lot of time together after war.

Oh, I have still a lot of ideas what could all happen after war, but I will leave this at this point. Maybe I will share my ideas with you another time.

If you have any questions about the AU or my character you can ask me :3

The idea of the AU!Purple Paladin belongs to me, pls don’t use it without permission and credit!

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LOST rewatch (season 3):

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episode 1 – A Tale of Two Cities:

Time for Dooooowntooooown!!!

“So I guess I’m out of the book club.”

Aaaah it’s THAT Jack flashback episode aka the lowest he’s ever been aka

It’s not that Matthew Fox is a bad actor… it’s just that everyone else on the show is better than him. It becomes even more apparent with the presence of Michael “I single-handedly invented acting” Emerson being around there to stay now.

Sawyer solving the bear cage puzzle is so cute I wanna hug him.

episode 2 – The Glass Ballerina:

Awwww yaaaaas Ben’s round glasses jkdgnidfgnoidsfg

It always baffles me how long it takes for the credits to finish. Going on minute 8 of this episode and they still rolling.

It’s Sally Slingshot

Only Ben Linus can use a camping chair as a dramatic prop

“My name is Benjamin Linus and I’ve lived on this island all my life.”

episode 3 – Further Instructions:

John being speechless after seeing naked Desmond running through the jungle – #same

Wait… is that the sweat lodge episode? If so it means sweaty topless Terry O’Quinn and my body is absolutely and 100% ready!!!

Charlie just made the same “you don’t call, you don’t write” joke on John that he already pulled on Eko

It’s probably the only totally… useless John flashback. Like… we don’t really learn anything about his character that we didn’t already know. I still enjoy every second of John screentime we get but… I wish they had used this one for something else.

“amendable for coercion” is probably what Ben has written in John’s file as well

episode 4 – Every Man For Himself:

Oh shut up Charlie, you jealous ass.

It’s the episode in which Ben knocks Sawyer out with his phallic baton.

“the big kahuna”

First time appearance of the true star of the show: bunny #8

I love that of all the characters on the show, Sawyer’s the one who reads every book he can get his hands on.

Murder cactus hair!!!

Ben’s Bunny Bag™!!!

episode 5 – The Cost of Living:

Sexy linen outfit, Ben! Love the abundance of chest hair!

“Do you believe in God, Jack?” – “Do you?” – “Two days after I found out I had a fatal tumour on my spine a spinal surgeon fall out of the sky, and if that’s not proof of God then I don’t know what is.”

“I guess he’ll be expecting us.”

episode 6 – I Do:

Yet another bad wig for Evangeline Lilly

Random Nathan Fillion

I love the cage frickle frackle scene

Nice psychological warfare, Benjamin fucking Linus!

episode 7 – Not In Portland:

 I love Juliet’s curly hair <3

“I’m Tom btw.” – nice timing, Tom!

RICHARD ALPERT!!!

Ben just lying there, chilling with his back cut open… getting some fresh air on that spine.

There it is: Angel Hair Pasta story 2.0

“I wanna know what he said. You owe me an answer.” Good God what is it with Jack and this overly possessive behaviour? Why does he always have to know everything about the women in his life?!?!?! That’s not healthy, Jack!

episode 8 – Flashes Before Your Eyes:

More Desmond, hell yes!

istg that blue semi-unbuttoned shirt is such an iconic look for Desmond and it’s also hot as fuck

OF COURSE Charlie is playing Wonderwall

episode 9 – Stranger In A Strange Land:

The worst episode yet it gives us topless Benjamin Linus.

Seriously, I have hardly anything else to say about this one.

“Your bedside manner leaves something to be desired, Jack.”

Good fucking God, Jack you entitled self-righteous asshole!

episode 10 – Tricia Tanaka Is Dead:

Roger Workman!

Where’s Sayid btw?!??!?! Haven’t seen him in a while!

Aaaah there he is my bebe Sayid!!!

“SHUT UP! Red…. Neck… Man….”

episode 11 – Enter 77:

It’s the Mikhail Bakunin episode!!!

Oh wait…. Is that a Sayid episode? The one with the cat that I had completely forgotten about until now?!?!?!

I loves Sayid’s flashback hair in this episode.

NOT EVERY NOOK AND CRANNY, JOHN!!!

Oh John, what is it with you and beeping computers?

episode 12 – Par Avion:

“Remind me why we’re keeping him alive?” – “What do you suggest? We shoot him like a dog?” – “No. I like dogs.”

I love you, Danielle!

“The John Locke I know was…” nice time travel foreshadowing

Claire’s aunt is such an asshole!

John throwing Mikhail through the sonic fence is my jam!

DADDY SHEPHARD!

Okay but… if you can just go over the fence? Then why does Smokey not just… fly over it?!

episode 13 – The Man From Tallahassee:

OH NO NOT THAT EPISODE!!! Right in the feels!!!

John finally reunited with his future island husband.

The bedroom scene! Yassss!!!

“The man from Tallahassee? What is that, some kind of code?” – “No, John, unfortunately we don’t have a code for: there’s a man in my closet with a gun to my daughter’s head. Although we obviously should.” FUCK YAAAAS!!!!

“I know you, John Locke. […] Tell me John, did it hurt?” – “I felt my back break. What do you think?”

I like Tom Friendly – he really lives up to his name.

I can’t believe that Jack – the only doctor the survivors have – wants to leave the island all because Kate fucked Sawyer. Sounds like something a guy would do who’d detonate a hydrogen bomb because his girlfriend left him.

Ben and John out-sassing and manipulating each other is foreplay tbh.

“I was born on this island…” LIAR!

THE MAGIC BOX!!!! Fgnidgnidflsgnlkdd FUUUUUCK!!!! SHIT’S GETTING REAL!!!

Also a very rare occasion in which Ben’s beautiful face has no wounds, scratches, bruises…

You can see I adore this episode by how much I have to say about it even if it’s just a ramble of feels

And now it’s bondage John!

“And then you came striding out of the jungle, John, to make my dream come true.”

episode 14 – Expose:

Wow… I can’t believe I’m already that far down into my rewatch.

Unpopular opinion: I actually love Expose. It’s so… useless and dorky that it’s amazing!

“I’m just a guest star and we all know what happens to guest stars.”

It’s Boone and Shannon *cries forever*

I can’t believe someone called Maggie Grace and told her “hey, we know you got totally screwed over and we killed your character before you could have any substantial character development but… we need you back for an episode, you gotta scream your fucking lungs out of your body once more!”

Seriously…. This is the creepiest death on the whole show.

episode 15 – Left Behind:

Hahahaha it’s the one where Hurley tricks Sawyer into being nice

I loooove Cassidy and I love they mirrored this flashback with the Kate-and-Juliet-are-handcuffed-together episode

“My name is Kate.”

episode 16 – One Of Us:

It’s the one where Ben is very very creepy

That’s probably the only episode in which I can somehow understand the people who dislike Ben…. But I still love my dear rat boy!

episode 17 – Catch 22:

Ooowwww I love Desmond episodes

Oh Kate…why?!?!

I deadass forgot the whole freighter plot, like… I knew Miles & Co. where about to appear but I forgot how this whole thing started

episode 18 – D.O.C.:

Jin’s the only one who has a nice dad and a terrible mother

Also I just typed “John” instead of “Jin” which makes me wonder: where’s my bald jungle baby?

Aaaah first mention of fake 815

episode 19 – The Brig:

Fuuuuuck I’M NOT READY!!!

They made me miss my dear John for two (three?) entire episodes only to come back with this to totally rip my heart out

The “previously on” bit already wrecks me

IT’S THE PINS AND NEEDLES SCENE!!! Also known as: Ben tries this “flirting” all the cool kids are talking about.

Terry’s looking hot as fuck in that entire episode

Ben knocking out Anthony Cooper with his walking stick is my aesthetic.

Danielle causally poppin by to get some dynamite

“little hot for heaven, isn’t it?” – I would looooove this whole red herring if it weren’t for the “they were dead the whole time”-crowd

God that Anthony Cooper = The OG Mister Sawyer reveal is AMAZING!

“I thought I was special.” – “Well, everyone makes mistakes.”

Yes, James, KILL THAT ASSHOLE!!!

“I’m on my own journey now.”

episode 20 – The Man Behind The Curtain:

My precious Carrie Preston!

Uncle Horace

“Call him Benjamin.”

“You are the man behind the curtain – the wizard of Oz. And you’re a liar.”

Namaste!

Sterling Beaumon was the best casting choice for baby Ben!!!

Mikhail Bakunin still running like the devil’s chasing him (literally, kinda, considering Smokey revived him.)

John: [Ben] and I are going to see Jacob. – Everyone else: Wuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?

Ben really has a history of very shitty birthdays.

And this is making me very emotional because it reminds me of the “video of tears and pain” which makes me wanna cry my fucking soul out.

“Kinda hard to celebrate on the day you killed you mom.” Oh fuck off, Roger.

Ben’s Bunny Bag™ back in action

“I don’t wanna go back there. I hate it there.”

The way Richard talks to baby Ben is soooo similar to the way Ben talks to John I’m gonna scream!!!

Okay but this is no kiddon the best episode of this entire show so far. Like… Nothing that happened up until this point compares to this!!!

I FORGOT ABOUT BEN SPEAKING TO AN EMPTY CHAIR!!!!

Still baffles me they thought they could slap some fake hair and make-up on Emerson’s face and make him look like a 20yo – when he was already older than Ben is in our now-timeline… like… was there no 20yo actor with a big nose and bug eyes around?!?!

“Goodbye, Dad!”

“The Dharma Initiative. They came here seeking harmony, but they couldn't even coexist with the Island's original inhabitants. And when it became clear that one side had to go, one side had to be purged, I did what I had to do. I was one of the people that was smart enough to make sure that I didn't end up in that ditch, which makes me considerably smarter than you, John.”

John Locke seriously bringing a knife to a gun fight!

alright kiddos, I am #fucked up now.

episode 21 – Greatest Hits:

How many episodes actually start with someone running through the jungle?

Danielle just showing up to blow something up!

According to Jack this is day 90? So it takes another 18 days for them to actually get off the island at that point?!?! Wow.

Guess that’s the end of bunny #8

episodes 22 & 23 – Through the Looking Glass:

OH MY GOD IT’S THE FIRST FLASH FORWARD!!!

“WE HAVE TO GO BACK, KATE!!!!”

“I’m a dentist. I am not Rambo.” – I love these two so much!!

Can you believe they thought it was a good idea to give Ben round glasses that make his eyes look even bigger than they already are? He looks like straight out of a manga.

There really is a lot of fatphobia in this episode.

It’s taller ghost Walt

ALEX AND DANIELLE MEET FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!! WELP!!!

Ben letting himself be tackled and punched by Jack is such a power move. I am 100% convinced he let it happen on purpose because it’s already canon that he can easily knock out friggin Sawyer!!!

NOT PENNY’S BOAT

From Ben’s perspective this is once again John “striding out of that jungle to make my dream come true”

“I don’t wanna shoot you.”

Remember when you watched that finale for the first time and didn’t know all the time it was a flash forward and not a flashback?!?!? And then Kate steps out of that car and you were all like WOOOOAAAAHHHH?!?!?!

Remember when you didn’t know whose funeral they were talking about?!?!?!

That last scene was the first time I found Jack actually likable and relatable!

WE HAVE TO GO BACK!!!

[bangcakes]

Day6 Live and Meet in Toronto :^)

Here's my fan account as promised !!

The members came out one by one and I had a fxxking heart attack every time one of them came out... the screams that left me .... unholy lmao.

They sang a few songs (I can't remember which ones. I was too excited 😭 Plus my seat was right in line with where Sungjin was standing so rip I was distracted). Their voices were amazing! Even better than the recordings... especially Brian whoaaa. I was slain. 😱😱😱

Then the games and Q&A started. I can't remember all of them but I'll try !!

Jae got the pop the balloon game and was Not About It since it involved hugging his members to make the balloons pop so he tried to switch the game, but the MC wouldn't let him 🙅 Jae made it real quick with the popping to get it over with lol. The MC asked how the other members felt about getting their hugs and Sungjin was like "Wow he's a Man!!" bzhnnshddjdbdkd idek. Jae also kept mentioning how he feels like A Real Musician now and that he couldn't believe it was at all possible to tour in North America so successfully. He was meme-y through out. Even dabbed when we were singing the jeopardy theme song 😂😂

Wonpil had to play the mystery box game at one point and was so hesitant and scared. He kept asking what the thing was and the members would be like "NO YOU TELL US WHAT IT IS!!!" Anyway after a bunch of that, he got it right (a fur scarf. Brian thought it was a fox though lmao). He was supposed to only have 30 seconds to guess... but it took like over 5 minutes 😂😂. He was very very cute. His thank you speeches were so long and heartfelt 😭

Dowoon was asked about why he drums or something like that and he said it's helped him with his blushing? Idk 😂 He was very cute. At one point a fan screamed that she loved him and he gave a very awkward thumbs up. It was so great 😂😂

Brian was really excited to be back in Toronto. Couldn't even believe how much had changed since he'd been here last. That so many people came and all that. He tried to avoid some of the games lmao. Oh and there was a bingo game and everyone wanted him to pick 6 (for day6 and because Toronto is also known as The Six. Idk why okay. It just is lol), but he ended up going with 2 and felt bad about it 😂

I'm a horribly biased person and rmemeber the most about Sungjin... rip. He was just so great throughout. His face was so expressive lmao. Like you could tell exactly what he was thinking 😂😂. He also like busted a few moves during the jeopardy songs and during their performances... he was so so soooo cute. At one point he got asked what he was in a previous life and he said a king... but then changed it to dictator king and made this like idk dictator stance and expression ??? Anyway he said he's the dictator of his group... and the MC asked the members if it was true... they like ... were silent lmao. Then Jae got up (like a comedian of course lmao) and explained Everything. How where they eat depends on what Sungjin wants. They'll ask him what he wants and he'll say that anything is okay, but then rejects all options - with no reason at all 😂😂 (buddy SAME). Sungjin was like !!!! You should know what I want by now !! It's been years !! Also like when they were playing another game (hackey sack game), Sungjin said he hit it 4 times (he actually did 3 how sneaky 😂😂). He was fighting the MC about it so the MC asked the crowd and we said it was 4 😂😂. He also had to sing a song about Toronto (in English!!). His voice was beautiful my heart eyes were huge. Imeantheywerethewholetimebutevenmoresocough.

After a bit of the games and Q&A, they played a video of them in Toronto while they got ready to preform again. It was weird seeing them in places I've been before lol. Omg at one point in the video Sungjin sang hotline bling and Brian was like "Who used to call you? That's right! ME!" 😂😂

They then performed a few songs. I was blown away again drjsfbdjjdbd. But then they stopped the music because Brian's bass got unplugged so he had been pretending to play it for the last few songs 😂😂😂. While we were waiting for everything to be fixed they all said how they felt about being here and how they felt about the tour being over. They were all very thankful and kept mentioning on how surprised they were that people showed up for the concerts. Brian was like "I know Toronto has my back !!!" Then they played the two last songs.

Before they left though they were like heyo if you scream encore we'll come back ;))) so we did and they came back as promised. They went wild. Brian went into the crowd and Sungjin was dancing all over the stage. They thanked us again then left for real 😭😭

Theeeeeen it was time for high touch. When I was in line my legs were fxxking shaking okay. When it was my turn Sungjin was the first you got to meet. I saw him and I just. Idek. He was glowing and so so sooo beautiful and handsome. Radiant even. Wow. I looked right into his eyes and eeeeee they were so pretty and he was so enthusiastic about the high five. He just one of those people that glows. Then Brian was next and like wow all of a sudden I was looking into his eyes and it took a second to process (because ffs I had just met loml Sungjin). But when it processed that I was looking at Brian I just idek it was A Lot. He was so very pretty. Both him and Sungjin were quite broad I was shook dhnsbdjdd. Then I can't remember if it was Jae or Dowoon next, but they were greaaaaat. I looked into both their eyes too 😭😭. Wonpil was last and he was so cute and little I could not handleeeee. Then it was over and I was in shock for like .... well I'm still in shock 😂😂😂. I meant to say something to each of them, but all I could do was smile widely at them omg. Goodness they were all so beautiful aaaaaahhh !!!!

It was one of the best experiences of my life. I would totally see them again 😭💕