#For the love of god

[essektheylyss]

I do want to add, because some tags reminded me, that I do think this comes from the same origin as Veth's initial self-loathing, and I don't think she's completely moved past that. At the same time, much of the Nein, Veth included, ends up at an understanding that (to paraphrase Ursula Le Guin) no one deserves anything in life, they just take what they're given and what they make, and that's absolutely growth for them!

A lot of the issue with that for Veth, I think, is that this translates to "drive it like you stole it." And to an extent, I do think she understands that this will end in ruin, and it's very clear to me that she doesn't want that! It's why she doesn't commit to trying to have an affair, and it's also why she has mostly stopped acting in dangerous scenarios like she has a death wish. But this is also why fully consensual polyamory probably wouldn't help; she often acts like she feels she's getting away with something, and I think there's some part of her that thinks that if she finally pushed Yeza to his limit, if she finally got what she was coming to her, then that would paradoxically absolve her of guilt—because she'd finally actually have something to be guilty of.

My thing about Veth potentially venturing into polyamory is that I do think everyone involved would be perfectly fine with it and happy to help her experiment, and I think that no matter how they do it, it would not fix her. This isn't to say that she wouldn't get any benefit out of trying! It's just to say that it's not a solution to her actual problem, because I genuinely don't think the problem is that she's lacking any one thing that would make her life complete.

Fundamentally, I think Veth struggles with the idea that there will come a point at which she has to settle. Not in a bad way, just in the sense that she is one person with one life and she will have to live within those bounds. Because the thing is, I don't really think her issue ends at struggling to "have it all"; to an extent she does! She is a good parent, even if her kid is a little rebellious; her marriage is supportive (and has fun sex); she gets to go off to save the world with Yeza's blessing on occasion, when the world needs saving. She doesn't have all of these things all the time, but... that's not really a flaw, that's just a fact of life.

But she started out her adult life settling to an extent—even if she loved Yeza and loved being Luc's mom, she did the safe thing that was expected of her. The goblin attack and everything that transpired after shoved her out of that life, but in retrospect, to an extent it likely feels that that pushed her to find something more that she wouldn't have had otherwise. Being pushed to her limit under the worst conditions made her better, stronger, braver, and at the end of it she found that she could have both her original life and much of her new life—so why wouldn't she then wonder if further experiences of that ilk could do the same?

Crucially, she has not actually run up against a hard limit yet, and as such she hasn't had reason to believe that there is a point at which she has to stop and recognize that there isn't more for her to find. When she was drinking more heavily during missions, even when it caused the death of herself or others, there were no long-term consequences. And the thing is, I'm not saying that she should face that kind of major consequence, but she seems as though she is scared to accept that maybe she could be happy if she stopped before she does.

I'm also not suggesting that she should stop experimenting or trying new things—the Luxon knows I am not one to talk in that realm—but I do think she is searching for novelty not because that would make her happy, but because she doesn't believe that she has the capacity to know what would make her happy. She was unaware that polyamory was even an option, so think of what else she might not be aware of! She doesn't have perfect knowledge of the world, after all, so how can she trust that she's found what she really wants? So yeah, she could fuck someone else, and it might even be an enjoyable experience that she didn't know was missing! But that only prolongs the question of what else she might be missing.

I think that deep down, she's terrified that if she doesn't keep pushing until that external hard limit, she will end up with regrets later, and simultaneously she is resentful that her friends all seem to have reached a point where they are largely content with what they have, because she wants them to have everything. She wants herself to have everything. And she has not yet allowed herself to come to terms with the fact that only she can determine when the everything of what she already has is enough, and anything else is the cherry on top.

[morisbasement]

if i get an a on my self portrait assignment ill post it here

[batunatu]

at least with this trailer people began to reach a conclusion:

[aghsed]

For fuck’s sake…

THIS VIDEO!!!!!!!

Arctic Shadow via tiktok

[anpanman95]

the way yinwar just keeps on giving

I’m glad they had such fun doing this scene even if they altered my brain chemistry forever

pull the collar war (im dead)

holy shit another angle for that moment

no amount of gifsets will make justice to this part so ofc you get the video my lovelies:

look at them goooooo

you can see the desire from afar their acting skills are no fucking joke

the laugh of two men who know they delivered the best quality content of all time

war going all blah blah blah i can’t

this again, cause we need all the angles we can possibly get from this masterpiece

god they are so fucking cute

they laugh we die

true kings of BL everyone

[agentwaffle]

If this post makes it to 1000 notes, I'll read the dr seuss yaoi I found on ao3

EDIT: goal reached...

It'll be read by tomorrow, I'll post updates on my blog showing the hell I've experienced while I read

[porcelainapparition]

Refusing to vote is turning your back on all the people who will suffer under Republican leadership.

There is SO much at stake in this election. We have a candidate who attempted to stage a coup, and has been completely honest about wanting to dismantle democracy. He wants to take away a woman's right to choose, and dismisses police brutality. He demonizes immigrants and spreads lies and fear. People are SCARED. And for good reason.

I was living in Charlottesville, Virginia when Nazis with MAGA hats and swastika armbands murdered Heather Heyer. My heart broke. Anyone who honestly believes there is not a difference between these two candidates is exercising willful blindness. This is NOT a joke.

VOTE.

[mismatchsocks]

hey guys this is really important

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#For The Love Of God 

[nokmietarchive]

more sillays based on this meme

also bonus funny. tfw your older sister catches you calling people hoes for the tiktoks.

[venerablegreatking]

How the fuck did they come up with these bullshit ideas for kosa? Like yeah I know that we specifically are focusing on how it'll fuck over marginalized groups but like, how do the people who don't know that possibly think this is a good idea? Like actually? Who the hell is falling for that shit?

"We want minors to be safe on the internet, so we're going to start requiring them to attach their full legal name, age, and face to everything they do online."

??????????????

[scrimpswrites]

Alpha Wade this, in heat Wade that, where’s beta Wade dealing with everyone else’s proclivities because he can handle it better than anyone?? This man is a certified vers, a qualified switch, a professional bicycle, and everybody is taking a ride on their heats and ruts!!

[lawrencesflower]

When I say that autism is a spectrum it's like...

Autistic

Autistic

[harbingerofsoup]

it’s nearly 2024, i think we as a society frankly deserve a mainstream sherlock holmes series that actually commits and makes them gay. we’re ready.

[mysteriouseggsbenedict]

Nobody cares about my opinions (and you shouldn't because I'm just a girl) but I've been thinking about the issue of low voter turnout and people choosing not to vote.

I always think of the people who fought so hard for my right to vote. I am only a few degrees away from a time when women could not vote. My grandmother's mother was alive when women could not vote. My grandma remembers her mom, and I know my grandma right now, so that is only two degrees of separation.

Women were arrested, went on hunger strikes, were put in prison, in the UK someone died, the list goes on. The reason I am allowed to vote is because of what those women did who came before me.

Voting isn't a freely given right. It had to be fought for and won, not just for women but for everyone who isn't a white land-owning man.

I'm begging people to take it seriously. Vote because your ability to do so was not inevitable.