#FUCKED ME OVER AND MY MENTAL HEALTH

[kaorunai]

Here for you (pt. 2) Kayano Mikoto x reader

Note : I AM FEELING A'OKAY! HAHA! HAHAHAHA! again not proofread so..

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You walked into Mikoto's cell while carrying a tray of food. There, Mikoto was laying in his bed as his eyes were puffy from leftover tears. His cell was a mess, it was disheartening to see Mikoto sleeping in such a state.

You placed the tray of food on the table that was sitting at the corner of the room and sat on Mikoto's bed. Mikoto's expression was uncomfortable, stressed, and upset.

Even in his sleep he couldn't rest peacefully. Having these horrible thoughts running around his mind, especially after kotoko's attack. It doesn't matter if he doesn't remember anything, the bruises and wounds were still laying all over his body.

You moved his bangs behind his ear to take a better look at him, you were worried. Worried about how things will turn out for him, for everyone.

As you were too busy playing with his hair, Mikoto's eyes slowly open, groaning as he does. You took your hand off of his head and waits for him to realize his surroundings.

When he saw you sitting on his bed, he asked why you were in his cell, sitting up as he does. When he made groaned at the pain of his wounds you rush to try and hell him, before being stopped by Mikoto himself.

"I'm fine.. I'll be fine." He looks at his wound, before giving you a weak smile. Painful. It was painful to see him smile like that. It was still all a shock to you.

Everything went by too quickly. And now the four prisoners, including Mikoto, was terribly injured, whether it was mentally or physically. As Mikoto was still staring at his wound, you asked him to stay in his cell for a minute.

After a while you came back with a medical kit that you borrowed from shidō. Startled, Mikoto quickly asks you to let it be, and how he was okay and didn't need any help. You didn't believe him for a second, and went to sit beside him.

As you opened the med kit, Mikoto was fiddling around with his fingers. A look of guilt can be seen on his face. You felt angry that he had the audacity to feel bad at all, but bitter that he feels bad for receiving help.

You placed the bandages on his shoulder and neck, then a cloth strip on his arm. Grabbing a cotton and pouring some alcohol on it you dabbed the cotton ball onto the covered wounds.

Mikoto groaned for a bit before accepting the pain. As you two sat in semi-comfortable silence, Mikoto opened his mouth

"Thank you.. For helping me. And I'm sorry for wasting your time this like." He looked down. You stared at him feeling irritated, then exclaimed how he doesn't need to apologize for anything.

Mikoto was about to protest before shutting his mouth, not wanting to say something bad on accident. A few seconds passed by and you were done.

Mikoto looked at his wounds before softly smiling. "Thank you.. I don't know what I'd do with you." He said while feeling a little flustered. He looked at the table and saw the tray of food.

"Did you.. Bring that too?.." You nodded.

"Ah.. I'm so sorry. I-" before he could finish his sentence he saw you glare at him, waiting for him to finish his sentence. He quickly stopped before awkwardly smiling.

"Thank you, you.. Really are amazing.." He rests his head onto your shoulder. He doesn't want to leave your side, even if it was a sin. Then he would gladly be viten guilty at all times.

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[uncanny-tranny]

I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.

If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!

[cursoulla]

twiddling my thumbs, i realized in ways i rlly do prefer 2010 Nier over the remake. but ofc, i love them both very much. just … smth about the 2010’s. there’s so much charm. i also think nier (adult to be exact) and kainé just look quite nice, even if the faces are a little goofy. and the piss filter + maximum grittiness is peak.

[fairycosmos]

i need a job so fucking bad and i will probably kill myself if i get one

[deoidesign]

Thinks about my next series again... I drew the icon for it!

I'm planning to have it launched within a year! I'm hoping for summer 2025. I want to make a prelaunch page before Time and Time Again ends so people can subscribe if they're interested, but I'm worried the series return would be too early...

[lesbianwyllravengard]

Wyll breaking up with the player character if Ulder dies so Wyll must become the Duke makes me wanna throw up sobbing because he actually thinks that just because his father's first duty being to Baldur's Gate made him a Bad Father that Wyll himself will inevitably be a Bad Lover because surely no one could match love with duty if his father couldn't, unknowing he has more love in one hand than his father had in his entire body. fuck

[foxsnails]

Forever trying to balance the fact that people often do not pick up that I'm being hyperbolic to be silly and also the fact that I hate explaining that I'm joking when I say smth because then it's less funny !!

[ya-what--ya-erster]

Okay so. For those of you who are out to get me over ANY opinion of mine ever.

I'm a minor. I just had my first day of high school today. Some (most) of the people who have given me shit over my thoughts (again of any kind) are GROWN ASS ADULTS. Like, in their bios, they list themselves as 25+

So. When I have an opinion that you don't like, that's not okay at all, but when you, again, a grown ass adult, send me hate in my asks and tell me off for voicing my opinions and dm me telling me all the reasons why my opinion is not valid, then its totally chill and fine.

Additionally, you don't know me, adult or not. You have no clue who I am and you shoot hate my way like nuts. You don't know that I struggle with mental health, and you don't know that the musical I'm talking about literally saved my life, you don't know that the post I made about my queer identity were made after getting chewed out relentlessly just for who I love, you don't know that I'm shit at reading people and often come off as harsh because of that.

But you make fun of me for saying that I was anxious about something, saying I'm just a dumb teenager being anxious over nothing. You rip into me for having a favorite musical. You make my post about being bi all about how you think bisexuality is a sin. You mock me for being blunt.

So. Fuck off. I don't give a shit about your opinion. And, adults, don't you think cyber bullying youth is taking it a little bit too far?

[maraschinotopped]

undertale yellow. clutches head in anguish.

[takemetodragonstone]

okay i’m going to be a bitch for a second but hear me out. i hate posts like this. i hate them so fucking much. they’re branded as “self-care” but they just assume so much. and if the things they’re assuming as givens happen to not be true for you, they make you feel even worse.

“everything that has ever felt like a hurdle, you’ve passed through”. except what if you haven’t? what if life has knocked you down, and you still haven’t figured out how to get back up? what about us?

i’m still afraid of the same things i was afraid of ten years ago (and five years ago and two years ago). i haven’t overcome anything. i haven’t pushed through. i’m alive, but that’s pretty much all i have going for me in terms of survival. i’m actually probably worse off than i was ten years ago.

posts like this have a place in the discussion of mental health, i’m not denying that. if this kind of thing makes you feel better, that’s great. i’m genuinely happy this resonates with so many people. i’m just exhausted with seeing this kind of message presented as The standard of mental health everywhere. this “look how strong you are! look how far you’ve come!” message just rings hollow to me. idk i just think when it comes to mental health we need to get more comfortable talking about people who genuinely aren’t progressing and “overcoming” too.

[uncanny-tranny]

It's weird how people paint "daddy issues" and even "mommy issues" as, like, a joke or a failure on part of the person who has those issues, rather than recognizing that daddy and mommy issues stem, for so many people, from abuse. What this all is is just abuse apologia, and nobody seems to either notice or maybe even care.

When somebody with daddy or mommy issues opens up about the "why," I can't ever seem to shake the fact that they tend to have gone through a ton of abuse and bullshit as a child. It's just crazy that other people would look at that and see a joke or a failure of the once-child who was abused.

[shima-draws]

Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[venacoeurva]

Called my healthcare marketplace to unlock my account bc I forgot a security thing, and the guy over the phone proceeded to:

Get all my info and account's email, confirmed that was me, yet still kept asking for other emails associated with our address in a very confusing way where I thought he was asking for a backup email separate from the one I used, NOT the one tied to the account. Then he actually asked for the backup email, great

and reset for the wrong person in our family, despite the fact those accounts have our NAMES ON THEM

Also I'm pretty sure dude was stoned as all hell, which explains basically everything

I'm so tired

[ms-hells-bells]

99% christmas shopping done. total including the few final things i need is around $550....i did choose to completely spurge on my coworkers as i'm just happy to have a job where i'll be making that money back and more solely in commissions next week. no car, no licence, no experience, and they hired me based on vibes. won't be doing this every year, but compared to my heated parting from the old job at the start of the year, and 5 months unemployment, the year has ended super well.

[anaalnathrakhs]

love this part of my life where the things that are difficult but challenging and good for me are things i can stop and skip and halfass, but the things that are difficult and painful and pointless are the things i have to live with no matter what