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Can you tell us a bit more about your Sharpclaw? Why is he so concerned with loyalty when he likely was on his own before and this whole “being loyal to a clan” thing is probably as new to him as any cat else?
Long ago, Spiderstar realized that her Clan would not be able to survive if they stayed together.
No matter how many times they killed the rats, they would come back. For every warrior lost, it seemed like the hordes gained another. Her cats were admitting taking food from twolegs, always ready to run from the gorge at a moment's notice, looking at her with guilty eyes. She began to wonder if she was wrong for admonishing them, the way a leader is expected to.
The story goes that one day, she observed a web of spiders hatching from their eggs. The mother watched as her children created small plumes, and floated away on the breeze. It hit Spiderstar, in that moment, that this was how they would survive. Connected by a great web, but scattered to the sky, where they could not be found.
BB!SkyClan never fully disbanded. Like a web, they would share news, come to help one another and inform of safe twoleg houses, trade kittens to each other to raise as apprentices.
From Spiderstar, to her successor, and down to Skywatcher, there was always a "keeper" of this information. When Firestar and Brokenstar arrived, Skywatcher simply spread the news on the breeze. His connections told their connections, and soon, a dozen cats had answered the call.
And, of course, Sharpclaw was one of them.
He may be a rogue, lived most of his life on his own, but in his head that just means he knows more about what it's like to not have a Clan. He's happy to work with ex-Kittypets who choose the Clan above their humans... but even them, how can they ever truly understand what it's like to have nowhere else to go?
He's been waiting for this moment his whole life, from the time he was a young kit being told the stories of Old, from the second he was first introduced to old Skywatcher as a child. "And here," He argues, "Are kittypets who see our way of life as a game. The time of SkyClan's Scattering is over, we are upon the days of a new dawn, and these outsiders are clinging to the past. We don't need twolegs, or the kittypets that can't choose between US or THEM. Leafstar, loyalty is the value that this Clan is built on-- we have to be strong without the help of these Daylight Warriors."
"Lol," Leafstar says, "Lmao even"
I'm bit a bit hyperbolic, but that's how Sharpclaw FEELS about her responses. She's not LISTENING to him (because his ideas suck) or TAKING HIM SERIOUSLY (she is, she's just telling him no and he doesn't like that). She has him as her deputy exactly because she is seeking opposing viewpoints, but this doesn't matter to him in his perceived entitlement.
And this is the resentment that Darktail eventually targets, realizing that his pride and ego is the perfect wedge to drive between him and Leafstar.
Leafstar wasn't picked by SkyClan, someone else picked her for you.
She doesn't want to listen to you, you're so correct and she doesn't appreciate you.
She's letting weakness into your Clan, and if you wait too long it'll be too late
PROVE it to her by taking YOUR supporters and attacking her at night. Show her how good of an ally her kittypets are when they can't defend their Clan, safe in their human nests.
Take leadership from her, you will lead your Clan to the new dawn you've always envisioned.
#I disagree with the idea that you can't be violently committed to new ideas though#You don't have to have been raised with something to think it's important#Even destructively so#especially when you're talking about entitled assholes like my version of Sharp#It's a bit confusing to me how many people kinda like... meet the idea of a BB!Skyclan cat being xenophobic#They're very different from Forest Four but that doesn't mean they don't have their own flavor of xenophobia#Being Forest Four isn't the root of all evil and there are other ways of being bigoted#For a heavy handed example it's kinda like being confused at the idea of an american being xenophobic#because the country was built on immigration#bigotry doesn't really Make Sense. It's emotional and reactionary#better bones au
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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Have you seen my little lad?
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jin zixun#Everytime I have to write his name I feel like I'm running outside in a blood rain trying not to get wet. Misspelling it feels so inevitabl#But so far so good! He doesn't have too many more appearances before he gets Cheesed.#Dear god I love it when characters go on the war path for someone they care about.#And I love it even more when you have an ambiguity between personal debt and genuine act of selflessness.#WWX saving WN is purposefully messy! Like a lot of our real life reasons for how we act - there isn't a clear single cause or answer.#Sometimes we forget that we are a collection of experiences and learnt reactions.#Sometimes we forget that what we see on the surface is not the point to address. Everyone is more complex than we think. Even yourself.#And yet...it always comes back to love doesn't it? Attachment styles and self-esteem and bonds and relationships to others.#Everything comes back to love and our perceptions of it.#WWX is on a self-destructive war path and he will absorb as much damage as he can for those he feels obligated and attached to.#Does it make him feel needed? Does it give him purpose? Does it ease anxieties of the past? I do not think there is an answer.
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I CAN’T BREATHE
#WHY IS JOEL EVEN HERE THIS IS HERMITCRAFT 9 I’M GONNA BE SICK#IM LAUGHING SO HARD PLEASE#dbhc sillies#dbhc art#dbhc#dbhc etho#destruction#dbhc doc#dbhc xisuma#dbhc Joel#I CAN’T#art escapades
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on a break
#original art#illustration#digital art#artists on tumblr#character art#marcia#marciaillust#oc art#tcm#the clockmaster#orion lavont#garret#you cant see em but ive been drawing so many cigarette pics recently#with these two just huffing darts#this pic in particular is very funny to me personally because#worst blunt rotation to these two is each other#as for regular ol smokes garret might have one but orion would probably refuse#tho tbf it depends on how the weeks is going for em. a little mild self destruction as a treat :)#but i believe orion wouldnt be into stink and gunking up his lungs on the reg. things would really have to be not optimal for him#and garret. oh garret. oh my little scrunky. smokes are so hard to steal from convenience stores arent they. and they cost so much.#i think he wouldnt even have the possibility of getting addicted or getting them on the reg#he definitely could be a social smoker#that's actually pretty funny#garret: i dont smoke unless i bummed it off someone else#i dont believe either of them knows where to get weed though
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I recall saying this before, but it bears repeating:
There could be a billion trans people in the world and it still wouldn't be a bad thing because being trans is not a bad thing. Even if the rate of people discovering they are trans is "disproportionate" to trends from decades ago, that is not a bad thing. In fact, it's a natural consequence for there being more trans people being able to stay alive, and, overall, being able to live in a slightly more tolerant world. You'd only see that as a bad thing if you actively didn't want trans people to either live or live a life that facilitates wellness.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#like even with there being more OPEN AND OUT trans people there are still more cis people by volume#even in my high school with three trans girls and three trans guys (including me) and a few NB people...#...there were still a THOUSAND cis kids going to school with us. imagine complaining when cis people are still 'dominant'#i don't know what my secondary school's population is because it's a big campus so you can deal with high school stats lol#like thank gd we are beginning to live in a world where the trans population CAN grow#i want there to be more trans people. because trans people will continue to be trans#we will continue being trans no matter what laws you put into place. no matter how dangerous you make the world for us...#...we will continue to be trans whether or not you approve. and that's fucking beautiful. i want us to live. i want us to eat well.#i want us to not worry about anything in this world. and that's going to happen one day. it will happen just like the sun rises each morning#if that is a threat to you then that is your own fault - your own self-destructive and sad thoughts about people and our world#and that is not my burden to carry - i have my own.
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he giggles
#wriothesley#neuvillette#wriolette#neuvithesley#genshin impact#he goes aheeheehooheehoohee#i think once neuvillette figures out how to make him laugh. he'd do it all day. and the formula is simple too he just gotta say something#really stupid. and absurd. in his usual super serious iudex voice#and wriothesley is in stitches. it's so easy. he just gotta say 'yippee' and profit. 'slay queen' and wriothesley is incapacitated#also. imagine he's ticklish. but i dont think Neuv would tickle him intentionally I think he's like. 'i heard tickling gets violent fast'#'i will not resort to that to summon moethesley'#he doesn't want to Hurt Him he just wants to see him smile and laugh and be all pink in the face. but I do think he accidentally#sets him off all the time. with kisses (neck/ears) or just like grabbing his waist and suddenly wriothesley violently Wriggles yknow.#the tickled reaction. wriothesley laments the destruction of his scary big dog image every day#but. neuvillette would only make jokes at home anyway. and to be clear it's the simple fact that neuvillette is trying to Be Funny .#that's really funny to wriothesley. or just like his awkwardness. back before he figures out he can Intentionally make wriothesley laugh#he'd bewitch him with his his gap moeism#the layers to it. Wriothesley gets embarrassed later on when he catches on because he Knows Neuvillette likes seeing him all tickled.#and flustered. and that's like so mortifying bro what do you mean you're happy just seeing me being moe#and he's embarrassed because he should not be falling for it every single time. it should not be this funny#the nerves just makes him laugh even harder. and the whole time neuvillette is just sitting there. silently delighted. waiting for the#perfect comedic timing. so he can drop a 'cowabunga!' with the exclaimation mark and all. wriothesley can't even catch his damn breathe#art#my art
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give this angle another tri
#doctorsiren#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#scalene cipher#euclid cipher#stanford pines#theraprism#gravity falls fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#yeah I finally checked out thisisnotawebsitedotcom hooray!#don’t ask what everything on the second page says#I don’t even remember at this point LMAO#I just wanted to make it look neat but now my hand hurts from all that coded writing#there also may be some spelling errors in there bc that always seems to happen with me HAHUIHS#by merely messing up the cipher lmao#I based Scalene and Euclid off of old cartoon parents#Scalene is based around just like…50s cartoon mom#and Euclid has that 50s cartoon dad thing but also Professor Utonium#little billy….he’s just my young Miles Edgeworth…he’s Astro Miles real…#when I think of his home world I envision it all 50s styled#like cartoon depictions of that time with bright colours and bold geometry#in my head it’s idealistic but done so on purpose so that destroying such a place would be an even more absurd thing to do#destruction caused by his hubris and thirst for wanting something MORE wihtout appreciating what it was he already had#and now he has nothing in the end and it’s his fault and he knows it#thinking about him missing his parents and regretting that decision every single day hurts me 😭
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house's little laugh as wilson openly flirts with him through an MRI microphone is Doing Things to me
#they're just. they're#idk they're sure something#house md#hilson#damn it wait i just realized why this moment is getting to me so much#there is just something so *genuine* about it#like it's the tiniest little chuckle but#no one can see house right now#wilson can't see his reaction#he can't even hear house laugh because it's soundless except for the little breath house takes before returning the banter#house is in a ton of pain from his leg and he's self destructive and generally miserable#but just for a second wilson made him happy#and as tiny a moment as it is#there's something so precious about it because it's a rare moment of complete sincerity from house#and we know it's sincere because literally nobody can see him#so yeah as i said. it is Doing Things to me#house s02e13#house season 2#videos - house#op#house 2x13
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year of silver…. year of silver please sega… unpack his trauma…. pleasee….
#silver the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#mephiles the dark#eggman nega#silvaze implied#really proud of this piece but idk how to break through into the sonic fandom atp haha#but he’s my favorite and I know it’s more than likely they’re not gonna do another year of#or if they do it’ll probably be Amy but#idk it’d be cool#I imagine it would be like. a lot of time loop stuff . probably happens due to leftover time eater destruction or mephiles escaping again#and it would devolve into an MGS2 style ending#in a perfect world silver would have no idea it’s Blaze he’s chasing even at the end . he just knows he has to give up restoring the#sonic 06 timeline….#or maybe he realizes mephiles and iblis are im the same boat as him and blaze and he reunites them in a normal way#idk#I have so many silver ideas….. so little time to make comics
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imagine being orin (already terrible) and passionately orchestrating your kills to worship your father and god with your art and being constantly shit on for it cause “bhaal only cares about quantity” but then hearing your stupid bloodkin flirt with a stupid banite using poetic violence and shit like “oh gortash when you and i are the last living souls we will wed upon my father’s alter and be forever bonded in bloody death” and still be the favorite child like fuck off i’d be so pissed 😭😭😭
#being obsessed with durgetash has also given me such insane orin brainworms as a side effect#just can’t win can i 😮💨#orin the red#enver gortash#dark urge#durge#durgetash#also the idea of when orin takes durge’s place she gets mad at gortash for being disgusted at her is funny#like she doesn’t like him at all it’s pure hatred#not that coy play fighting shit durgetash does#but its just another reminder of how she just can’t escape this role of annoying destructive brat#even though she’s trying so hard to convey her passion and loyalty to bhaal it’s just always worthless to everyone around her#waaaahhhh orinnnn my poor orin 😢😢😢#baulders gate 3#bg3
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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time
#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head#but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know#and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them#would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood#ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes#the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when#the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor#the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool#idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff#very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his#third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt#go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that#also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#the one who waits#cotl the one who waits#narilamb#art#au#myart#my art#character design#cotl au#false prophet! au
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can you draw 2763 from the new short....
ok sure. back wigh my caterpillar number bs again
#2763 is a cutie actually#just having fun..#bfdi#battle for dream island#osc#tpot#xfohv#fanart#2763#2763 xfohv#so little tags whao there#umm#yap ? yaptime ? yap#i really like this character#they just showed uo but i rlly like hwo theyre just this . Being of chaos and they have the freakiest design#and they have an analog horror esque intro theyre so cool#but they dont even seem like . evil necessarily. lkke sure theyre fine with causing destruction but#they just want to hang out!
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I just think he deserves a glitter bazooka
YOU UNDERSTAND.
Scar, standing directly in front of the glitter bazooka: cub I can not allow you to use the glitter bazooka. I am looking you in the eyes. You are a danger to yourself and others. I am telling you that you can not use the glitter bazooka. Hand over the glitter bazooka.
Cub, with the glitter bazooka:
#scar misunderstands cub in the way that he believes that if he asks nicely#cub will simply not blast him with the glitter bazooka#scar is wrong. every time.#even grian is growing concerned after scar’s 15th time getting cubguy’d#hermitcraft#gtws#goodtimeswithscar#cubfan#cubfan135#btw THANK YOU?#he’s serving cunt??????????????#this is so sick#cubfan135 will craft weapons of mass destruction in this au.#this is a promise#amen#CUBGUY#CUBGUY‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#I think actually the only person cub respects enough to have any restraint is mumbo#they r equally scared of each other#to me#as a treat
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YOOOO DEMA YOU LIKE ARCANE???!! omg who's your favorite character??? and favorite moment(s) from s1??? (and fav ship too 👀 👀) will you draw for Arcane in the future???? (peak show with peak art =perfection, just saying)
Anon, you have the. Best. Timing. Ever. I literally just finished an Arcane artstyle study with Katara of the Undercity as a subject!
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My favorite Arcane character is and forever shall be Ekko (best boy). Other faves are Viktor (chronic illness baby) and Jinx (trauma gremlin).
As for the S1 scene... Besides the finale and that breathtaking Guns for Hire sequence? The Ekko/Jinx fight from ep 7. It broke me. (And turned me into a Timebomb shipper. Which was arguably worse.)
#dema answers#atla#avatar the last airbender#atla fanart#katara#atla art#arcane fanart#arcane netflix#arcane#atla katara#katara fanart#katara of the southern water tribe#Except here it's#Katara of the Undercity#Because I say so#And because an Arcane AU would be so fun to think about#arcane au#Katara and Sokka would be from the Undercity. Which has pretty intense connotations when you realize that means Kya was killed by Enforcers#But I digress#Sokka is an engineering genius whose dream is to study at the Academy and change science as we know it. At the same time he's a pragmatist.#He knows that's all they ever will be: dreams. So instead of chasing useless wishes he focuses on using his talents to help his community.#Katara is all about the social cause. She's a natural leader who would do anything to help those in need. Which gets her in trouble often.#She would never cross the line like Jet and so many of their fellow Zaunites do—she wants peace and prosperity for her people.#But that doesn't mean she's afraid of having to fight for their rights. On the contrary.#I think she and Sokka would create some Firelights-esque community. They bring people together and care for them.#Even weird tattooed kids with an odd connection to the Arcane itself.#Zuko is a former Heir from Piltover. His father holds a seat in the Council and is not afraid of underhanded tactics to gain more power.#Ozai banished Zuko from his home with the condition that he could return only if he brought an end to a rebellion in the Undercity...#...and got rid of an object of great power that would only bring destruction upon his people.#(But nobody ever told Enforcer Zuko that this supposed great weapon that the people of the Undercity stole...was a kid.)
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The Isagi Effect:
Bachira:
Boy was in love within minutes of laying eyes on him.
Chigiri:
Made him want to actually play again.
Barou:
Made him an aggressive yet oddly supportive simp.
Nagi:
Made him go from lazy house cat to barely motivated house cat then back to lazy house cat.
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Reminded him of his horribly abusive father?????????
Rin:
Reminded him of his brother who shockingly and cruelly abandoned him??????
The range I'm telling you. It's impeccable.
#what a tumblr post cannot convey is the absurdity of the effect isagi has had on kaiser and rin#like lmao look at the difference! between them two and everyone else!!#also those aren't even all the examples of the GOOD impacts he's had!!#but these two crazy bastards just willingly let him ruin their lives lmao like my GOD#blue lock#isagi yoichi#itoshi rin#michael kaiser#bachira meguru#bachisagi#chigiri hyoma#barou shouei#on a meta level there is something to be said about how isagi makes rin and kaiser better soccer players#but they go through so much self-destruction and a long process of self-loathing before they improve#like they can't just decide to get better they have to either revert back to how they felt when they were getting beaten to a pulp every da#or they have to revert themselves to a state where they tell them they're going to kill everyone in sight lmao#like they cannot be normal about isagi idk what it is he has about him but#idk it's the isagi effect
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