#Especially at my skill level

[fatedroses]

Two former military elites taking merc jobs perform absolutely hellish battle tactics together.

[braceletofteeth]

he's got the fire and he walks with it

[tainebot01]

Another Ace Attorney animatic, this time inspired by a video by @arcticflakes here!

[thebramblewood]

The Vatores Present... A Decennial Vampire Bash: Part X

Featuring everyone in some poorly lit and questionably edited shots, I'm so sorry! Endless thanks one last time to you all! @sprout-sims @melancholicsimmer @moonfromearth @sueniia @sims4thehoes @loveryss @igotsnothing @sammyshuno @madebycoffee @simming-in-the-rain @deathtulips @eggysimblr @jaigny @sylvan-glade @forssims

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Helena: [slurred] I'm suddenly not feeling so hot, Lilith. Lilith? LILITH!!!

[VAMPIRE CHAOS ENSUES]

Lilith: Helena?

Helena: STAY BACK!

Lilith: What's wrong? Give me your hand. You're shaking.

HELENA: DON'T TOUCH ME! NO, GET AWAY! YOU'RE MONSTERS, ALL OF YOU!

Lilith: Helena, what are you talking about? It's only me, and I'm no monster.

Helena: [edgily scans the room, now silent and empty] Do you promise?

Lilith: You can trust me.

[rendevok]

I’m not sure I’ve accepted the whole “writer” label, even after writing many many words now, because for some reason I am certain I will never be sharing anything I write unless it is absolutely 100% complete, and I am so serious about that. The artist in me would not like to post a work until it is done, and thus, the writartist in me says “yeah that”

[omaano]

“You’ve come for your turn early,” the stranger says, turning to look at Boba as if Gregor does not exist. Gregor flashes Boba a grin, all too-sharp teeth, as the stranger steps away, shaking off the attractive glamour as if it’s nothing. Gregor seems as delighted as Boba is troubled to realise that their would-be customer is more cunning than he seems.

Mereel & Family Booksellers by binz, shiplizard

Allow me to recommend one more awesome Bobadin fic - since @sidhebeingbrand and @toughbreaks were kind enough to let me illustrate their fic for my "Jaster lives" square for @bobadinweek's Bobadin AU bingo card... with a bit of cheating - my love for which only grows and grows with time (and trust me, it does get better with every re-read! ). Fantastic and delightful world building with Victorian era and fae magic, and beautifully written characters where every single one of them vibrate with life. (Boba gets to suffer his 99 siblings, Jango is forced through some emotional catharsis kicking and screaming, and Din is trying his best to be a dad of a fae child. It's just the best, okay?) I'll eventually want to make one more drawing for chapter 2, I just realized during my latest re-read that I imagined the whole scene wrong ^^;

[novaauster]

girl help i have written 26 pages of my aftg bjj au in the span of three days

[giantkillerjack]

Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!

You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!

You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!

You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!

Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!

Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!

So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.

Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!

You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.

Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!

Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.

Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.

Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*

Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...

Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.

Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.

Better not get confident.

Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)

Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people

- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties

- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations

- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you

- you might start loving the effect you have on a room

- you might enjoy conversations more

- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently

- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations

- you might stop apologizing so much.

- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.

Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!

Why, it would be carnage!!

In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!

If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:

- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.

- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.

- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.

- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.

You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.

So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.

[in-study-hell]

Brain’s been all over the place recently, here’s some of those places

[figofswords]

I want to know which octopath developer woke up and chose violence

[kaurwreck]

The extremely literal approach to interpreting Crime and Punishment in the context of Fyodor's skill is making me gnaw my own leg. The relationship between the Eastern Orthodox eucharist in Crime and Punishment is also reflected in Fyodor's skill and isn't a particularly complicated analysis. It only requires a minimal, Sparks Notes-level of engagement, and y'all won't go beyond the title of the book.

Which, I suppose, is an improvement on the collective refusal to acknowledge bsd's references to the irl Great War, but I'm nevertheless. Tired.

[darksouls2yuri]

on the topic of music. a difference btwn how my wife and i listen to/enjoy music is she really only cares about lyricism whereas while i like good lyrics i can identify with or pick apart and study, i really really love technical skill and the actual instrumental elements in music. uhhh child of musician syndrome probably but i think that probably does contribute to our differences with like metal especially. while there is a lot of lyrical depth in a lot of the bands i like i enjoy a lot of artists purely for their skill as musicians. i think thats probably obvious from the way i talk abt music when i do on here

[trickarrows-bishop]

thought about it and why are the parents in salt lake practically in a competition to be the worst parent ever ( other than kourtney’s ofc what a queen) like. why are they all not that good at parenting at all 😭

[thenamessparkplug]

every second i spend not making a twisted psychological horror is a second wasted

[t00thpasteface]

i'm probably completely alone in this, but my stance on watermarking/signing most of my art is if it's breached containment so completely that it's being reposted to other sites, i kinda don't WANT people to find me from there. my stuff is aimed at a very particular subset of weirdos and was never meant to have millions of extra eyes funneled to it from tiktok or pinterest or whatever. plus i've seen enough online creators get known for making One Specific Thing that made the rounds across several different platforms and they almost always end up resenting the disproportionate popularity of that One Specific Thing. if a random one-off meme i draw ends up uncredited on some mass-market aggregator site, then i'm going to let it wander off from the nest and unwittingly sacrifice itself to keep the rest of the litter safe.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of drawing people's faces and lifting any art of [will roland role based] characters overhead when you can tell the artist was actually trying to meaningfully use that inspiration beyond "brown hair. glasses" like wow once in a lifetime unsame as it ever was

not coming up a lot that Professional Illustrators are drawing will roland as [role] or like, in general, but that in fact there Are the examples of professional illustrator justin "squigs" robertson drawing him several times and it's like, doing stylized portraits of people working in theatre that are indeed focusing on distinguishable individuals versus, say, the style being more abstracted

all drawn differently but various gists are there, and none of the people in these group collages look interchangeable or like oh and this person gets thee "generic/default" look

there's also the fact i'm like 99% sure there's a squigs-drawn larger portrait of will roland just as himself that i love to think of / sure further encapsulates that "thank god this artist drawing Features" but i can't find it or remember exactly what context it was in. augh

but also there's this other deh illustration ft. wrol jared i found lol. bonus