#EVERYONE SOUNDS THE SAME TO ME IM AUTISTIC

[hcguesstheauthormessageboard]

i'm not the lucid dreamer, sadly. but here's another hint: remember your advice about switching up the typing style in our asks? -puzzle book anon

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[piplupod]

feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.

[bitegore]

i must not become a bitter joyless hater. bitter joyless haterism is the mind-killer. genuine bitter joyless haterhood is the little-death that brings total obliteration. i will face my annoyance and frustration. i will permit it to pass over me and through me. and when it has gone past i will turn the inner eye to see its path. where the bitter joyless haterism has gone there will be nothing. only i will remain.

[nexus-nebulae]

ppl always say that autistics don't get jokes but honestly when has a neurotypical person ever clocked the fact that I've told a clearly telegraphed joke like. I'm the one who takes everything too seriously?

[waybrightgender]

is there any way that i can tell moirail that theyre definitely autistic or at least suggest that they look into it without sounding mean

[pezpenser205]

me being largely nonhuman/antihuman and a lesbian, therefore being forced by my brain to be attracted to humans has actually allowed me to fully understand how men attracted women who say they wish they were lesbians are real and based and do not deserve the hate they get. like girl i get it thats literally how i feel about you.

no offense to the good humans out there #notallhumans <3

[phagodyke]

see I get its abt repression and letting that bury u alive but theres still time it doesnt have to be like this etc !! and it does that powerfully. but I've just. never been repressed or closeted in that specific kind of sense. dysphoria has never manifested like that for me... I kind of feel like social pressures esp gender related ones didn't exert the same force on me growing up that they did on a lot of ppl I know (and still don't now) bc I never fully understood them or was excluded for various reasons. but man. fucking rough for ppl who did/do still feel that way 💔

[darlinimamess]

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[muttfangs]

I don't understand neurotypical cis queer men who want so so so so badly to be catty and mean on purpose

[purityonice]

Hiiii!!! Could you write a Autistic!Reader x Clay where the reader is like really over stimulated and Clay helps them (NB reader preferred/nf)

📗CLAY X AUSTISTIC! NB! READER

Please note that this is my first time writing an autistic character 🙏🏽 and if i made ANY mistakes please tell me in the comments and i will change it ASAP!

Clay noticed how overwhelmed you were when you went to Pop Village it was to overstimulating with all their bright lights, loud sounds were too much. So he decided taking you away from everyone would help calm you down.

You were walking with Clay he was chatting as you nodded or shook your head in response was you stimmed trying to calm yourself with this new enviroment. Looking at the ground a small ball rolled towards you too.

The ball exploded as a glitter bomb went off infront of you and clay the sound frightening you as the glitter stuck to your skin. The feeling of the glitter and the sound of the bomb going off still ringing in your ears made you shake as you ran off your hands covering your ears.

Clay tried to follow you but he was pulled away by a few trolls that sang. He felt himself fill with anger as he watched you run into the forest. Freeing himself from the trolls who looked at him confused, As he turned around and began running after you.

He ran for awhile trying to listen out for you running from place to place before hearing you wail.

He ran out of breath huffing with his hand son his knees as his eyes landed on you. You had your knees against your chest as you rocked yourself trying to settle down as glitter was scattered around you crying and wailing could be heard from you as you hit the floor beneath you.

His eyes softened as he relaxed his body his chest still jagged as he walked closer to you as you continued to cry shaking as you tried hard to scrape the glitter off of your face.

“Baby?” Clays voice was low as his chest rose and fell rapidly his eyes never leaving you as tears rolled down your face he reached out to touch you before backing away. “Right-no touching. im sorry i- got your headphones you dropped them.” He said reaching to his side to give you your headphones.

You sniffled lifting your head fron your arms are your glitter covered face looked at him with teary eyes. “T-thank you Clay.” Your voice was meek and raspy as you took your headphones from his hands and placing them on your head. The sounds of nature being drowned out by silence giving you somewhat of a relief as you continued to sway and stim rubbing your face.

“Do you want to stay here for awhile or get the glitter off of you?” Clay asked leaning against the rock his face filled with worry as you, you didnt answer him as you closed your eyes basking in the silence your face still cringing in disgust as the glitter was still on your face. “Are you okay?”

Clay was filled with concern as you calmed yourself down. A few minutes passed before you decided to leave looking into Clays worried eyes. “I’m ready to go please.” He sighed in relief sitting up from his spot on the floor dusting himself off.

You walked through the forest making your way back to the village. “I don’t think I can live here Clay… everything is to…UGH it just isnt right nothings the same and it’s so loud all the time.” You vented as Clay listened nodding his head in agreement. Drinking in your form as you walked.

“Yeah it is alot right? I don’t get why they have so much energy 24/7 it’s like having a village full of Vivas.” You both laughed at how reckless that would be. You let out a sigh before looking into your boyfriends eyes.

“T-thank you for being there for me Clay…” You trailed off hesitanting before grabbing his hands. Blushing at how warm he was. He looked at you shocked before a huge smile crawled onto his face.

Turning his head hiding his blush as you did the same. “ eh hm yeah no worries its the least i could do you know i love you alot so i’d do anything for you.” He spoke as you guys walked hand in hand together back to Pop village and to get all the glitter of off you.

After you guys got back he made sure to protect you from any more glitter bombs after that.

IM SO SO SO SORRY IF THIS IS BAD please tell me if i made any mistakes!!!!!!!

[zebulontheplanet]

Another stupid question, hope you dont mind :l

not mocking or anything, just genuinely interested.

but, as you are nonverbal, can you scream and/or laugh?

i have seen this autistic teen in my yt shorts, on and off, its been a long time now though, he is nonverbal, but i realised i have never seen him laugh, he just smiles a little and im wondering, can nonverbal peeps actually laugh, i do realise not everyone is the same, so some may be able to, im imagining?

Hello! Not a stupid question. Yes, I can laugh. I can make grunting sounds. I can scream. I can even do “mhm” and that type of noises. I just cannot verbally form words.

Every person is different! But this is just for me personally!

[sexhaver]

me n bailey marathoned the first season of this show over the last few days. some thoughts:

Alan Cumming, specifically his accent and wardrobe, are by far the highlights of this show. i sincerely hope someone has made an edit compiling all of his outfits without any of the actual gameplay, because he is consistently serving cunt

like just look at this

that being said i did keep seeing him as Fegan Floop from Spy Kids

oh right there's an actual game/competition component to this

im just gonna get this out of the way: the entire premise of the show is fundamentally flawed. they keep trying to make it sound like the three Traitors in the group are "backstabbing" and "working against" the Faithful (non-Traitors), but, like, everyone on the show (Traitor or Faithful) is competing for the exact same prize pool. it's not like The Mole (or any other social deduction game), where the secret evil team actually has different goals diametrically opposed to those of the good team and has to complete them without having anyone notice. here, the evil team just... votes on someone to "murder" every night. that's it.

to emphasize this point: the literal only thing that can ever give you away as a Traitor is being bad at lying/concealing guilt. there are ZERO gameplay differences between the goals of a Traitor and the goals of a Faithful, which means the arguments over who to vote for banishing are based entirely on "gut feelings"

nobody on the show has ever played a social deduction game before. late into the season, there's a day where all 3 Traitors are alive and it's down to 6 people total (so 3v3). anyone who has played Mafia/Werewolf/ToS/etc knows what this means: barring bullshit last-minute rules from the producers, it is quite literally impossible for the Traitors to lose, because none of them can be voted up. it takes 4 out of 6 votes to exile someone, and there are only 3 Faithful left. if no Traitor votes for another Traitor, then it is, again, literally impossible for a Traitor to be exiled. furthermore, if they all coordinate their votes on one Faithful, all they have to do is convince one of the remaining two Faithfuls to vote with them, and they instantly win $180k (split three ways). and hey, wouldn't you know it, one of the Faithfuls (Kate) was already really suspicious, and another one of the Faithfuls (Quentin) said out loud multiple times that he was voting for her!

so what do you think the Traitors did?

god this part pissed me off so much im having to pause for breathe while typing this. okay. so.

two of the Traitors voted for the third Traitor, who got voted off.

after being voted off, youre supposed to walk up to the Circle of Truth and reveal if you were a Traitor or not. the guy who got eliminated (Christian) was entirely too nice and gracious about it. me n bailey discussed this and came to the conclusion that we would either a) out the other Traitors on the stand and explain, using game theory and math, exactly how fucking stupid they are, completely ruining the game for them, or b) pretend to cry a little while walking up to the Circle of Truth but as soon as you walk behind the first other Traitor's chair you flip it over backwards and elbow drop their nose into their face while screaming "YOU STOLE $60K FROM ME YOU SON OF A BITCH"

also the guy who got eliminated (Christian) was very clearly autistic and Every Single Reason the other traitors gave for not liking him was like straight out of the DSM V diagnostic criteria ("he talks too loud and laughs weird", "he's got way too much energy all the time", "his emotional responses don't make sense")

apparently there's a season 2 but i cannot bring myself to watch it after seeing Christian thrown to the lions (ayyy Sunday school reference)

also at one point a Faithful has to leave because of COVID (this was filmed in 2020) so the producers don't let the Traitors murder anyone that night for balance reasons, but to compensate, they tell them they can like. write down three names that will be publicly revealed to everyone the next morning, and then one of those people dies the next night. so obviously this is mostly a nerf for the Traitors because they miss a night of killing someone, but the intention was clearly to give the Traitors an opportunity to sow confusion by putting one or two of their OWN names onto the list to make them seem like Faithfuls. and they even had an extra objective during that day's game where one of the three people could earn a "shield" to protect them that night, so if a Traitor was on the list, they could basically "steal" the shield from the other 2 (since they obviously weren't getting killed no matter what). but i think the Traitors heard "write down three names" and "kill" and had all the blood rush to their respective dicks because they just wrote three Faithfuls lmao. deeply unserious show

[salemontrial]

My (probably unfinished) official list of everything I love about the trailer💫

- "How's it going :))-" SWERVED. ALEXANDER CLAREMONT-DIAZ GOT FUCKING S W E R V E D-

- Nora looks like she's going to stab Alex with her high heel. Also she's so pretty. Xjakcjd

- "you've done some pretty stupid things in your life, but this-" "Takes the cake? :DD-"

- The way Henry looks at them when they're lying on the floor covered in cake. It's like he's restraining himself from strangling Alex with his own suit jacket for the sole purpose of not worsening the scandal.

- "HENRY. SHOVED. ME.😡🥺" "An urge I currently share."

- Ellen in her pantsuit.. hey Ellen👉👈

- Alex is looking for ways to escape the room when she says the words "damage control" he fucking knows-

- THEY. GOT. LIL NAS X. ON THE FUCKING SOUND TRACK. Oh I p r a y they got the rights to Get Low I p r a y.

- ALEX'S FACE WHILE ZAHRA IS BRIEFING HIM HES SO DRAMATIC

- Im sorry guys henry is so fine alexander isnt going to be the only one thirsting over henry for the entire 2 hours/jjj

- That FUCKING handshake in the park. I can see the veins in their hands they are g r i p p i n g-

- these faces this is a point.

- "My NDA is bigger than yours, I want you to know that." "You're wearing Lifts. I know that too, sweetheart." -H e a d t u r n--- HES SO FLOORED FJSNF-

- HENRY'S LITTLE MOUTH QUIRK AFTER HE SAYS THAT

- I CAN SEE THE KEY NECKLACE. I CAN S E E IT BLESS THE COSTUME DEPARTMENT SHOVING HIM IN A LOWCUT SHIRT-

- "You better act like the sun shines out of his ass and you have a vitamin D deficiency" ZAHRA HAS THE BEST LINES AND ITS WHAT SHE DESERVES.

- Alex faffing about with his hair via his phone camera before the interview thats my b O Y-

- Henry slides over the box of cornettos so hard like thats the only hostile act hes allowed to parttake in

- To the person who theorized in the comments of one of my posts that Alex was going to do a little shoulder punch in the interview scene i am going to draw you a little firstprince fanart-/hj

- Because that was so funny and so fucking cute henrys fucking face through that whole interaction was just. He looks like he's actively trying to dissociate from the situation fjsjfj-

- The cancer ward🥺🥺

- Alex's u g l y ass suit at the new years gala... its such a gross jacket guys Im sorry this is what happens when you dont have jUNE TO MICROMANAGE HIS WARDROBE-

- Alex putting his arm around Henry and Henry smiling to himself because he's probably got the most insane case of butterflies

- I'm marrying the lighting director of this movie.

- GUYS GUYS SHUT UP ITS THE KISS.

- HENRY'S FACE BEFORE HE GIVES THE "Christ, you are as thick as it gets" LINE IS SO FUNNY. QUESTIONING WHY HE EVER WENT AND FELL IN LOVE WITH A DUMBASS

- THEY D O N T KISS LIKE THEYD RATHER GO DOWN A RAZOR WATERSLIDE🎉🎉🎉🎉💫💞💞🏳️‍🌈/GEN

- He does Henry's "Oh shit" face so w e l l-

- ALEX'S STETSON EVERYONE GET AWAY FROM ME

- KARAOKE SCENE KARAOKE SCENE I SEE HENRY AT THE MICROPHONE

- Guys hes g o i n g to do the thing he does with the bottle I just know it oh my god

- "Get O V E R yourself your majesty -p i l l o w-" "It's your royal HIGHNESS -p i l l o w-" "OHoho-"

- The polo match sjsjf. Same alwx-/J

- The little new voters goal thingy poster thats so cute actually-

- The pride flag in the back of the campaign office

- Henry texting while he's getting the royal preening sjcj

- never thought id cry just hearing henry say he misses alex out loud-

- THEYRE NOT SANITIZING IT TO MAKE IT PALATABLE/POS

- HENRY IN THE CLOSET I AM GOING TO SCREAM-

- "If anyone sees you leave this hotel I will brexit your head from your body....... Your royal highness." I LOVE HERRRRRR

- IF YOU FEEL FOREVER ABOUT HIM. AND THE AND THE PANNING TO THEM IN BED WITH THE SOFT LAMP LIGHT. AND THEYRE SO SOFT. AND AND AND AND. UEUE

- "Do you love him?" "What difference would it make if I did?"

- Bea's voice is so pretty sobs..

- It's always the blond autistic boys in the blue hoodies I swear to god/lh

- Theyre just chilling in their robes🥺🥺🥺

- DAVID!!!!!!!😭😭😭💞

- "Prince Henry belongs to Britain" and what if i sobbed.

- THEM HOLDING HANDS SOMEBODY SEDATE ME.

- NO SHUT UP NO GO AWAY HENRY CRYING... I TRUST HIM WITH HENRY'S HEAVIER SCENES NOW

- THEYRE AT THE LAKEHOUSE😭😭😭

- "It's like there's a rope attached to my chest and it keeps pulling me towards you"

- THE ASS GRAB. ALEXANDER GABRIEL CLAREMONT-DIAZ

- "The night is young, ma✨" <- said as if he isn't currently groping the prince of England's ass

- She sees right fucking through him sjcjsj

CONCLUSION: I will eat my hat. The movie looks really really really fucking good, it looks spectacular and I am so excited for it. I trust them. I'm only SLIGHTLY mad they barely had Nora in it and I'm only SLIGHTLY bitter at cutting June and Luna. But I am an optimist and I will focus on the good which is that they're doing the characters incredible justice, and if I see one person try to deny their chemistry I will A Clockwork Orange their ass to this trailer for days. Because That Is Alex and Henry. That's them in front of my eyes and I think they're in very good hands and this is the most coherent thing I can write I'm still crying-/srs

[neuroticboyfriend]

there is a difference between "i'm scared to do X because im afraid of judgement or being wrong" vs. "i'm scared of X because it confuses me/doesnt meet my needs." in autistic people, these can occur at the same time; but the former is probably caused by the latter... which is made worse by the trauma (ableism, abuse, etc) in our lives... and unfortunately, a lot of professionals don't realize this, so they blame all the struggle on poor self esteem alone.

so now, if you're wondering if your anxiety is linked to being autistic, here are some questions to ask yourself:

is my anxiety less severe if i'm in a familiar situation? do i feel comforted when i know what to expect?

is my anxiety made worse by communication styles (like small talk) that dont make sense to me?

are things that are usually distressing for me easier when they are explained in ways i understand?

is my ability to do things without distress related to how sensory friendly a space is? can i do X in a quiet, calm room, but not a loud, bright one?

do i feel better when i fidget? am i calmer in places where i know i have somewhere comfy to sit or something i like to eat?

where did i learn to judge myself for this? do these judgements sound like ableism against autistic people? (ex: they're so annoying, they never stop talking about [intense interest])

these are based on my own experiences, so they may not work for everyone but. learning how my anxiety connects to being autistic and experiencing ableism has allowed me to employ coping skill that are actually effective, and i want others to be able to do the same.

[gatsbydyke]

oh god i have to listen to his voice the entire time? no thank you. can i skip the parts hes in /j

yknow what... its only 11.30 the night is young. im gonna watch my low quality slime tutorial (THIS IS GOING TO BE A MISTAKE.)(prepare for me to hop in here occassionally to complain)

[dervampireprince]

Hi prince :3 would you ever like consider making audios with listener having explicit mental illnesses? Like .. autism, did, etc . （＾＿＾）also ,, might become a patreon this month !!!!!!!!

I've thought about, I've made ones where the speaker has autism or DID, but not ones where the listener does mostly for two reasons,

1. my audios are based off my patreon requests and i either haven't had requests for these, or i can only do so many requests per month and there's others i'm drawn too more

2. worry about acutely portraying mental illnesses, especially of its ones i don't have. even with having voiced eg marc spector who has DID, I've never done an audio where he wants confort for having DID because that doesn't feel right for me to make. i have had and turned down before request/s for an autistic listener having a meltdown because i have no idea what to do for that audio as for me personally when im having a meltdown the last thing i need is someone talking to me trying to comfort me, I need to be left on my own so I have no idea what to say in an audio trying to comfort someone in that situation when I wouldn't want anyone to say anything to me, hope that makes sense.

Of course everyone's free to imagine themselves as any of the listener characters in my audios including the listener character having whatever mental illnesses you have. I hope the audios always sound inclusive to that, I know I try and mention things in comfort audios like panic attack/regression ones like asking if the listener is able to talk, saying its okay if they can't (alluding to them potentially having a verbal shutdown) , and so i hope people know any listener character is there to be like you and if you imagine the listener character has any mental illnesses you're welcome too.

Making a comfort audio for someone else's mental illness feels like a big weight on me in terms 'what if I get some wrong? What if I say something in the audio that makes whoever listening with this mental illness feel worse or panic or triggered' and that fear makes it too scary for me to have made any audios for mental illnesses and I don't have. And for ones that I do, not everyone experiences then the same way, autism is a spectrum and I don't want to say an autistic listener character acts one way and then thr requester or people in the comments be upset because that's not true of how they act.

For some mental illnesses and mental health topics I won't make audios on as they're too serious and/or triggering and those are listed in my audio request guide post (link is in pinned post).

And some people not understanding that I'm not their therapist, that they should not vent or trauma dump on me in requests is part of the reason why i closed commissions ages ago. It just got far too stressful to have people asking for comfort audios for very serious and triggering topics.

Tldr: So I don't know, sorry this answer got long, I just wanted to get all my thoughts about it out. I dont know if I will make audios with explicitly mentally ill listeners (other than panic attack comfort audios) as I don't want to risk generalising any mental illnesses, and I get too anxious and stressed worrying about if ill say the wrong thing and someone listener who's in a vulnerable state will feel worse for it. But my audios are always inclusive to people with autism, adhd, DID/osdd, and other mentally illnesses and its always fine to interpret the listener character as having those mental illnesses as they're supposed to be able to be anyone who is listening