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cherryxbooo · 2 days ago
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Yeah, I’m the lucky one
Summary: Hiding it when you're sick from your boyfriend is one thing, but hiding it from your clingy boyfriend is a whole other challenge.
Reader x Lando Norris
Genre: fluff
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The paddock is alive with energy, buzzing with anticipation, the sound of engines roaring in the distance, and the hum of the crowd outside.
Lando is in his element, calm yet radiating an excitement that’s palpable.
The focus in his eyes is like nothing I’ve ever seen, and it’s clear that today matters more to him than most.
The weight of the race, the pressure of the expectations, and the fire in his heart are all simmering beneath the surface.
It's a mix of raw determination and adrenaline, and it brings out the best in him.
But me? Well, I feel the complete opposite.
I woke up feeling off, my head pounding and my body aching with a fever I couldn't shake.
I knew I should stay in bed, but I couldn’t. Not today.
Not with everything he’s worked for. I couldn’t let something as trivial as being sick get in the way of him having the best race of his career.
He’s been talking about this day for weeks, getting ready for it with an intensity that I’ve only seen in the world of motorsport.
But as I made my way through the paddock, trying my best to act normal, I felt the weight of my own discomfort pulling me down.
I’ve been silently counting the minutes until I can just crawl into a quiet corner and hide.
But the last thing I want is for him to see me like this. He’d immediately worry, go into panic mode, and lose focus.
Lando, with his big heart, would put everything aside just to take care of me, and I don’t want to do that to him.
Not today. Today is about him.
As I stand next to his family, making small talk with his friends, I feel dizzy.
The lights are a little too bright, and the sounds a little too loud.
I try to steady myself, offering a weak smile whenever someone glances my way, but the effort feels exhausting.
Lando’s mum catches my eye, and for a brief moment, I see a flicker of concern in her expression.
But she doesn’t say anything, just gives me a warm, reassuring smile. I’m grateful, but I can tell she knows something’s off.
Then, out of nowhere, I feel a familiar hand on my back. A small shiver runs down my spine as I turn to face Lando, and I instantly feel a warmth spread through me, despite the fever still creeping in.
“Hey baby, you okay?” His voice is soft, but there’s a sharpness in his eyes, like he’s always aware of everything around him, especially me.
I don’t want to worry him. I can’t.
So I give him a smile that’s more practiced than I’d like to admit,
“Yeah, just a little tired. Big day, huh?”
Lando raises an eyebrow, clearly not buying it.
He studies me for a second, his gaze lingering a little longer than usual, his hand gently squeezing my back.
The touch is warm, comforting. “You sure? You don’t look so great.”
“I’m fine,” I assure him, leaning in to press a soft kiss to his cheek.
“You focus on the race. I’m just here to cheer you on.”
Lando hesitates, his lips pressed into a thin line as if trying to gauge if I’m really okay.
But then he nods slowly, though his concern doesn’t quite vanish.
“Alright… but if you need anything, you let me know, okay?”
His voice is almost a whisper, like he’s trying not to give away just how much he cares.
“I will,” I promise, trying to keep my tone light and convincing.
But as he walks away to prepare for the race, a sense of loneliness settles over me.
The noise around me feels overwhelming, and the crowd only amplifies the ache in my head.
I find a quiet corner, away from the chaos, hoping to just breathe for a moment.
I didn't realize that I had been hiding away for a while already.
But before I know it, Lando’s voice cuts through the distance.
“You’ve been hiding from me.”
I turn to see him standing there, leaning against the wall, arms crossed with a playful smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
His presence alone seems to calm the storm inside me.
“I wasn’t hiding,” I protest weakly, though my voice cracks just slightly.
“Just… taking a break.”
Lando raises an eyebrow, clearly not buying it.
“Taking a break from what? From me?”
He takes a step closer, his hand reaching out to gently touch my cheek, his fingers warm against my skin.
I close my eyes for a second, leaning into the touch, even though I feel like I might collapse at any moment.
“From the chaos of the paddock,” I admitted softly, my voice barely above a whisper.
His gaze softens, the teasing in his eyes fading. He steps in closer, his body brushing against mine as he gently cups my face with both hands, forcing me to meet his eyes.
“Hey…” His voice is tender now, a deep, comforting lull.
“Are you really feeling okay love?"
I swallow hard, the lump in my throat suddenly unbearable.
“Yes, don't worry Lan. I'm fine.”
I whisper, my voice slightly breaking as I fight the urge to lean on him completely.
I stare up at him, feeling a mix of love and pain.
I don’t want to be the one who holds him back, but I can’t deny how much I crave the support and warmth he gives me without even thinking.
Lando lowers his hands, but not without giving me one last comforting touch, his fingers brushing my wrist.
“You need to rest,” he says firmly, but there’s a hint of playfulness behind his words now.
“I’m not going to let you make it through today without me taking care of you at least once.”
I laugh softly, despite the dizziness still swirling in my head.
“I’m fine, Lando. You go be amazing out there.”
He looks at me, his eyes soft but filled with determination. “I will be. But only because you’re here.”
Before I can say anything else, he leans in, planting a gentle kiss on my forehead.
“I’ll be right back, okay? I’ll make sure to get at least P3 for you.”
And with that, he’s gone, disappearing into the crowd of engineers and teammates.
But the moment he’s out of sight, I feel my energy drain completely.
Regardless of how I felt I still made my way to the rest so I could support Lando and be there for him.
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Everywhere I look, there’s movement, excitement, and a sense of urgency.
Lando’s already suited up and surrounded by his team, getting ready to focus on the race that could mean everything for his career.
I’m supposed to be the one cheering him on, being his support, his calm, but instead, all I can do is try to survive the overwhelming wave of heat coursing through me.
Every few seconds, my head spins, my chest feels like it's on fire, and the nausea rolls in like a tide.
It’s getting harder to keep it together, but I’m trying. I can’t let anything distract him.
I can't make this his problem today, not when he’s been working so hard for this moment.
I take a seat next to Max and Pietra, hoping the three of us can keep the mood light and give Lando a little peace before he heads into the race.
I force myself to laugh at Max's joke about the weather, but it comes out more like a wheeze.
My throat feels like it’s coated in something dry and scratchy, and each breath feels like I’m not getting enough air.
Max doesn’t notice, but Pietra does.
She’s always been that way, observant, kind, and so very perceptive.
I’ve always admired how in tune she is with people.
She shifts in her seat beside me, her eyes narrowing as she studies my face.
“You okay, Y/n?” she asks gently, her voice laced with concern.
“You look a little pale.”
I immediately try to put on a smile, but it feels like the most exhausting thing I’ve done all day.
“I’m fine, really,” I say, hoping I can convince her.
“Just a little tired. I didn’t sleep well last night.”
Pietra doesn’t buy it, not even for a second.
She leans in closer, her gaze steady as she inspects my face, my trembling hands.
“You sure?” she presses, her brow furrowing.
“You don’t look fine. Maybe you should lay down for a bit?”
The room suddenly feels like it’s closing in on me.
The dizziness that had been simmering beneath the surface is starting to take hold, and it’s all I can do to keep my eyes focused on her.
I swallow hard, trying to push the wave of nausea down, but it’s impossible to ignore now.
I nod weakly, doing my best to stay composed.
“I’m okay, Pietra. Just... a little dizzy. I think I’ll sit down for a moment.”
Max, still glued to his phone, glances up briefly, probably sensing the shift in the air.
His eyes scan me quickly before he leans closer to Pietra, muttering something under his breath, probably about how pale I look.
I’m about to wave it off, to reassure them both that it’s nothing, when Pietra’s soft hand touches my shoulder.
It’s warm and grounding, her touch gentle but insistent.
“No, you’re not okay, Y/n,” she says firmly.
“You’re not fooling me. You need to go back to the hotel and rest. Max and I will handle everything here. Don’t worry about Lando. He’ll understand. He doesn’t need to know right now, and you’re not helping him by pretending you’re fine.”
My heart clenches at her words. I don’t want to leave. I don’t want to make him worry.
He’s about to race, about to compete for something so important to him.
The last thing I want is to make this about me. But Pietra’s expression leaves no room for argument.
Her hand squeezes my shoulder, and I feel a wave of guilt hit me hard.
“I... I can’t just leave,” I whisper, my voice shaky.
“I don’t want him to—”
“Y/n,” Pietra interrupts, her voice soft but full of authority.
“Lando will be fine. He’ll be more upset if you stay here, pretending to be okay when you’re not. Let us take care of everything. He doesn’t need the distraction. He needs you to get better, not to keep pretending.”
I shake my head, still fighting it. “But he’s going to think I don’t care.”
“He knows you care. You don’t have to prove it by running yourself into the ground,” she says, her tone firm yet reassuring.
“You need to listen to your body. Max and I can make sure everything’s fine here.”
I hesitate for a moment, my vision swimming in and out of focus, and then I feel it, the dizziness getting worse.
My stomach turns violently, and I barely suppress a gasp. Before I can protest, Pietra’s up and at my side, helping me stand.
“Max,” she calls out to him, her voice tinged with urgency.
Max looks up from his phone, his attention now fully on us. He doesn’t need to ask questions.
Without a word, he stands, motions to security, and gestures for them to clear a path.
“We’re getting you back to the hotel,” Max says, his voice gentle but decisive.
“No arguments.”
I open my mouth to protest, to tell them I’m fine, but the dizziness overtakes me again.
I feel my legs wobble, my knees threatening to give way beneath me. The nausea is so strong now that I can’t hold it back any longer.
My head feels like it’s filled with cotton, and my heart races as I fight to keep everything together.
“Okay,” I whisper, too weak to resist any longer. “Okay, let’s go.”
Max’s arm wraps around my shoulder, steadying me as Pietra follows closely behind.
I glance over my shoulder at the paddock, seeing the hustle and bustle of the team preparing for the race.
And even though I want nothing more than to stay and support Lando, I know Pietra’s right, he doesn’t need to see me like this.
As we make our way out of the paddock, past the busy crew and excited fans, the world seems to blur again.
All I can think about is Lando, how much he’s worked for this, and how much I wish I could be there cheering him on.
But right now, all I can do is focus on getting back to the hotel and trying to heal.
“Everything’s going to be fine,” Pietra murmurs, sensing my anxiety.
“Lando will understand. We’ll make sure he stays focused.”
“Thank you,” I whisper back, squeezing her hand.
Max looks over at me, offering a reassuring smile.
“No problem, Y/n. We’ve got you.”
And as they guide me toward the exit, the sound of the engines roaring to life in the distance feels far away, almost like a distant memory.
All I can focus on is putting one foot in front of the other and hoping that, by the time Lando crosses the finish line, I’ll be okay.
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Meanwhile,
The race was intense, there was no other way to describe it.
Lando’s heart was pounding, his breath coming in quick bursts as he fought to stay focused on the track ahead.
Each corner, each straightaway felt like it mattered more than the last.
The roar of the engine under him, the vibration in his hands as he gripped the wheel,it was like the world was screaming at him to push harder, to get everything he had into every lap.
And he did.
Adrenaline was coursing through his veins, the world outside of his car becoming a blur of colors and sounds.
But amidst the chaos, there was something else tugging at his mind, something he couldn’t quite shake.
Just before the race started, he had caught sight of Y/n sitting among their friends, looking beautiful as always, but something was... off.
Maybe it was the way she had looked at him, her tired eyes betraying a sense of exhaustion that didn’t quite match the energy of the day.
Or how quiet she seemed, like a flicker of something hidden behind her usual smile. He couldn’t pinpoint it, but something wasn’t right.
But there was no time for that.
He pushed those thoughts away, focusing back on the race, his hands steady on the wheel as he navigated the track with everything he had.
He couldn’t afford to think about anything but the next corner, the next lap, the next move.
And when he crossed the finish line, the elation of victory should’ve been enough to make everything feel perfect.
After all, he had gotten P2.
The cheers, the confetti, the roar of the crowd, it was everything he’d been working for, everything he’d dreamed of.
But in the midst of it all, he couldn’t shake the nagging thought of Y/n.
His gaze searched the area, instinctively looking for her.
He was surrounded by teammates, sponsors, friends, but all he wanted in that moment was to see her smile, to know she was okay.
He scanned the area again, but she wasn’t there.
Not where he had left her. His stomach tightened, his mind racing. Something wasn’t right.
Lando quickly moved through the crowd, dodging everyone on his way, his eyes darting between faces, searching for any sign of her.
He was so focused on finding her, he almost didn’t see Max and Pietra standing off to the side.
When he finally noticed them, his heart skipped a beat. You weren't there.
Lando’s pace quickened as he approached them, his voice betraying the worry he couldn’t hide.
“Where’s Y/n?” he asked, his words coming out sharper than he intended.
Pietra exchanged a glance with Max before she sighed, the look on her face telling Lando everything he needed to know.
"She wasn’t feeling well," she said softly, her eyes clouded with concern.
"We had to send her back to the hotel."
Lando’s chest tightened, a heavy weight settling over him.
His pulse quickened, the sudden rush of guilt and worry clouding his thoughts.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” The words slipped out before he could stop them, his voice rising slightly, not in anger, but in genuine confusion.
Max stepped forward, his expression calm but serious.
"Mate she didn’t want to distract you. She said it was important not to take your focus away from the race."
Lando’s mind was spinning now, the elation of his victory evaporating as quickly as it had come.
Guilt was flooding him, he couldn’t believe Y/n had been struggling, that she’d hidden it from him.
She’d always been there for him, supportive, understanding, even when he was caught up in his own world.
And now, he couldn’t shake the feeling that he’d let her down.
He took a deep breath, trying to steady himself, but the weight of the situation was suffocating.
He didn’t know what to say.
All he could think about was how she had been sitting there, probably feeling miserable, and he hadn’t even noticed.
The race, his career, all of it felt so insignificant compared to the thought of Y/n being alone and sick.
“Why didn’t she just tell me? I would’ve understood. I could’ve—”
Pietra stepped forward, her hand gently resting on his arm, grounding him in the moment.
“Lando, she didn’t want you to worry. She knew how much today meant to you. She didn’t want to take that away from you.”
Max nodded in agreement.
“She’s always there for you. But she’s not the type to let herself be a distraction, not when you’re in the zone like that. You know how she is, she cares about you more than anything, but she didn’t want to pull you away from your focus.”
Lando let out a long breath, feeling like the weight of the world was pressing down on his chest.
“I should’ve noticed,” he muttered, his gaze dropping to the ground.
"I should’ve been paying more attention."
"You’re not a mind reader, Lando," Pietra said, her voice calm but firm.
Lando realized that she was right.
He quickly greeted the rest of his family and did some other duties before changing and heading back to the hotel.
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Lando arrived at the hotel room, his body still buzzing from the race, but his mind consumed by a different kind of worry.
As soon as he entered, the first thing he did was quietly close the door behind him.
The soft hum of the air conditioning and the dim light from the lamps were the only sounds in the room.
His eyes immediately fell on your figure, still asleep, your peaceful face glowing softly under the sheets.
The sight of you, so vulnerable yet so beautiful, made his heart ache with both affection and guilt.
He quietly pulled a chair from the small desk and sat down beside the bed, never taking his eyes off you.
He wanted to be close to his girl, but he didn’t want to wake you.
He knew you needed rest, but the worry of the day, the worry about you, hadn’t let up.
He reached out, brushing a lock of hair from your face.
His fingers lingered there for a second before he let out a soft breath, resting his chin in his hand, his elbow on his knee.
He could almost hear the questions running through his mind, wondering why you hadn’t told him what you had been feeling.
He could feel the weight of your absence, the quiet ache in his chest from not knowing exactly what had been going on with you.
The minutes seemed to stretch on, each tick of the clock amplifying his thoughts.
He hated this uncertainty, this feeling that something had been left unsaid.
Then, after what felt like forever, a soft groan escaped from your lips, and Lando’s attention snapped to her immediately.
Your eyes fluttered open, blinking against the dim light in the room.
Your gaze slowly focused on him, confusion settling on her face as she took in her surroundings.
Lando watched her with a mix of relief and concern, his heart lightening at the sight of you waking up but still heavy with the questions that lingered in his mind.
"Hey, sleepyhead," Lando said softly, his voice full of warmth and affection.
My vision cleared, and I smiled sleepily at him.
Lando’s heart squeezed.
"You’re awake. I’ve been here waiting for you to wake up for, like, ages now." He chuckled softly, though his eyes were still filled with concern.
"But seriously… why didn’t you tell me?"
I sighed, feeling the weight of everything pressing on me.
My hand reached for his, finding his fingers weakly, and I squeezed them, my fingers trembling a bit.
"I didn’t want to be a burden," I admitted, my voice barely above a whisper.
"I didn’t want to ruin your day or take away from the race. It was important to you. I just… I didn’t want to distract you."
Lando smiled at me softly, his thumb gently stroking the back of my hand.
"You’re never a burden, Y/n." He looked at me with such sincerity, it made my heart ache in the best way.
"You are always my priority, okay? Not the race, not the fans, not the win. You. Always."
I felt my heart flutter at his words, my eyes softening as I looked back at him.
The tears I’d been holding back threatened to spill, and I could feel them welling up.
Being sick just makes people extra emotional, give it a break yeah?
"I’m sorry," I murmured, my voice breaking slightly.
Lando shook his head, his heart aching.
He leaned closer, cupping my cheek gently, his thumb brushing over my skin.
"You don’t have to apologize," he whispered.
"You never have to hide anything from me, especially not when it comes to you."
I felt the weight of his words, the tenderness in his touch, and I wanted so badly to just melt into him.
I was so grateful for him, for the way he always made me feel safe, loved, and heard.
Lando sat beside me on the bed, leaning back just enough to grab the water and medicine he’d set out earlier.
"You need to drink this," he said softly, his voice gentle but firm.
"Get some rest, and I’ll be right here with you. Just take it easy."
I hesitated for a moment, but then reached for the glass of water he held out to me.
My fingers were still shaking slightly, but I took it from him gratefully.
There was a small, tired smile on my lips as I drank, and Lando’s eyes never left me.
He was watching me closely, making sure I was okay. It felt nice to be looked after this way.
After I finished the water, Lando sat back down next to me again, his hand finding mine once more.
"You don’t ever have to hide something like that from me, okay?" he said, his voice soft but serious.
"If something’s wrong, you have to tell me. Promise me you’ll tell me next time."
I looked up at him, my eyes full of emotion, and I nodded slowly.
The tears I’d been holding back finally spilled over, and I felt a few of them slide down my cheeks.
Before I could say anything, Lando quickly wiped them away with his thumb, his touch light, tender.
"I’m sorry," I whispered again, my voice barely audible.
He slightly laughed, "You're such a crybaby when you're sick babe."
Lando leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to my forehead, his lips lingering there for a moment.
"You don’t have to apologize," he said, his voice full of love and affection.
"I love you, baby. I love you, and that’s all that matters." His voice was quiet but strong, filled with reassurance.
I pulled him closer, resting my head against his chest, letting out a small, exaggerated sigh.
"Mmm, this is the best pillow ever," I mumbled, half-laughing, half-groaning in exhaustion.
Lando wrapped his arms around me, pulling me in tighter.
His chin rested on top of my head, and he chuckled softly.
"You come first," he said with a mock-serious tone, trying to sound all deep and dramatic.
"Always."
I snuggled in a little closer, feeling his warmth.
"Oh, I know now," I said, glancing up at him with a grin.
"You’re basically my personal butler, aren’t you? Always there when I need you."
He let out a dramatic gasp. "But of course! My whole existence is to serve you, my queen."
I rolled my eyes, fighting back a laugh.
"Thank you for being here," I said, the words half-sweet, half-teasing.
Lando smirked, pressing a kiss to my hair.
"Please don't cry again... and well yeah, where else would I be? I’m not going anywhere."
Then, with a mischievous twinkle in his eye, he added,
"Besides, you’ve got me wrapped around your finger. You know that, right?"
I couldn’t help but laugh lightly, feeling him grin against the top of my head.
"Oh, I know," I said, playfully tapping his chest.
"You're my big soft marshmallow. I practically own you."
Lando chuckled, his arms tightening around me. "You absolutely do. And you’re not even sorry about it."
I smirked, rolling my eyes. "Well, I am your number one priority, aren’t I?"
His eyes sparkled with affection, and he pulled me a little closer.
"You’re my number one everything, Y/n. No competition."
I snorted, unable to help the grin that spread across my face.
"Good. Glad we’re clear on that."
As we sat there, wrapped up in each other, the world outside felt miles away.
All that mattered was us, his heartbeat, my tired sighs, and the way we fit together like we’d always been meant to.
For a moment, everything else faded, and all I could think was: Yeah, I’m the lucky one.
The end
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celestialgalaxyglow · 2 days ago
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Batfam and Danny, Part 13
Bruce (walking into Jason and Danny's apartment): Hey Jason, sorry to come by unannounced but I forgot to give you-
Bruce froze as he saw Jason and Danny (currently in a less than human form) arguing in the living room.
Jason: My word is final!
Danny: I̵̼͂ ̷̦͓͊͂͐͘a̸̧̛̖̱͆̏͝m̴̘̈́ͅ ̴̺̘̈͐ͅȯ̷͇͓̯͓̕ń̶̫̺̔͘ë̷́̆̅̚ͅ ̵̀͑͘ͅw̶̭͒͊i̷͍͙̭̒̃̈͗t̴̙́͌̅̀h̵̖̔͆̃ ̴̳̲̙͆t̵̨̨̩͓̉h̴͚̾̓͠e̷͇͍͑͊̊͠ ̸̭̉͆n̵̟̍̄̅̕ḭ̸̭͇͒̈́g̵͋͒̐ͅh̵̳̔̎́̐t̸͓̝̤̅ ̸̭̰̺̹̆̀̓a̵͕͓̫̐͐n̵̒̏ͅd̸͇͆ ̴̡̞͕̙͘ţ̶̜̫͓̏͑h̷̦̦̮͛̽̕ę̸̹͠ ̷͕͓̒͆e̶̘͔̥̓̀̌͌n̷̤̝͋͛̓̋d̷͇̽l̶̐̎̂̂ͅe̷̩̖͂̌͗͝ͅs̵̛̥̣̾̄s̶̢̮̜̘̉̒ ̸̛̛̭̺͉́̉v̵̖͖̺͓̾ö̵̺͕̱́͗̐͝i̸̖͍̊d̷͈͔͂,̸̲͍͊͛̈́̓ ̷͈̝̲̭͐̀̉͌Ḯ̷̙̣̚̚ ̵̮͎̇̈́́͜d̵͉͉̰͝ơ̵̹̤̈́͂ ̴̨̏n̵͈̜̪̺̐o̶̩̒̕t��̻͍͇̄ ̷̪̌́̍̕r̶͖̫͂ͅͅe̷̅��͈͉q̵̬̿u̴̼̲͔̟̾͛͂i̶͍͕͚̝̇͐̄r̵̦͝ê̴̢̨̼̟̏͋͝ ̴̞̃͐ṱ̵͔̪̰̑h̸̲̪͎͊͂̓e̸̻̗̺̾͝ ̷̢̞͒̇a̵̡̦̞̿̈̓r̴͓̄̈́̿͝c̸͖̿̆̀ḣ̸̰a̶̹̾í̶̲̗͋c̸͚̐̑ ̶̤̯̹̈̈ͅp̵̧̅̂̑͒ͅr̷̡̞͔̂̽͠a̷̢̮͆̉ċ̶̨̠̚͝t̷̜̺̖̒̓͊i̴̹̾c̶̯̫̥̩͝͠e̴͚͔͓͌͊́͑ ̸̠̜̳̙̆͋͘ó̷̼̹f̸̛͖͒͂͌ͅͅ ̷͍͗̎̀s̵͖͕̀l̶̪͔͉̏̈́́̓ę̵̛̦̳͔͂͊̚e̶͉̼̒p̸̟͠.̵̦̓̇
Jason: I don't care, you have school tomorrow and you WILL sleep.
Danny: Ḯ̵̤̩ ̷̼͌͌̚a̸̯̿m̷͔͙̲̏̉̂ ̴̛͈͑́ẙ̵̻̓̉͜ṏ̶̱̘͎́u̵̧͎̼̓̋̄r̸̖͍̈́ͅ ̷̻̹̈́͜k̴̜̹̦̉i̸̩͝ṋ̸̨͔̈́͆̈́g̸̖̈́͛̓,̶͈͍̤̋ ̴̢̍͆ỵ̸̓͋o̴̺̾̋͘u̴̘͂͊͝ ̵̡̲͕͂c̵̺͖͑̊a̴̛͍̺̥n̷͎͋̾́n̵̗̂̆̈́ȏ̸̞̫t̷̞̺̺́ ̷͍̞̓ǧ̵̜̜̜̐͠i̶͓͖̫͒̕v̶͎̰̈̋e̶̜̿̐ ̶̪͕͚͊̕m̵͖̖̓͆͐ě̸͆̀͜ ̷̙̖͖̓́̕o̴̮̥̽r̷̡̫̤̉̌̂d̷͇̰͒͆ë̸͈̫̙́̕r̶̟̖̉́͜s̴̞͐͛!̸̭͐͊̋
Jason: And I am your father, and I'm telling you to go to sleep.
Bruce cleared his throat. Jason and Danny turned to look at him.
Danny (moving towards Bruce slowly turning back into a human form): G̵̤̜̥̐̄͆r̸͎̪̀̑a̶̰̮̾n̴̟̯̘̅̿̉d̷̡̲̼̐p̸͖̭̰̂ạ̵͂͒,̸̰̱̀̓ ̵̡̰̻͑̆ḍ̸̩́ä̷͔͖́̌d̴̳̪͒͆ į̷̐s̶͉͠ ̶̭̒b̷̪̎ë̶͙́ì̴͍n̶͘ͅg̴̨̔ m̶e̶a̵n̵ ̴t̴o̷ me.
Bruce looked at Danny, then at Jason, then back at Danny.
Bruce: Sorry kid, your dad's right you need sleep.
Danny looked up at his grandfather, took a deep breath and produced an inhuman screech before marching to his bedroom and slamming the door.
Bruce (looking at Jason): Is that normal?
Jason: He refuses to sleep once in a while. He doesn't actually need to sleep but it's still good for his mental health, so I make him.
Bruce: I see.
Jason: You need something?
Bruce: No, I meant to give you and Danny these. He hands Jason two boxes.
Jason: Are these the new generation of phones Wayne Enterprises made?
Bruce: Yup, two moths before they're set to be realized to the public.
Jason (smiled): Thank you Bruce.
Bruce: Sure thing Jason.
Danny: Um, dad.
Jason and Bruce to look at Danny who was sheepishly sticking his head out of his door.
Danny: Can you tuck me in?
Jason: Sure thing kid.
Jason followed Danny to his bed, tucked him in, and gave him a kiss on the head.
Danny: Goodnight dad, I love you.
Jason (leaving Danny's room): Love you too son.
Jason walked back towards Bruce who was smiling.
Jason: Shut up, you used to tuck us in as well.
Bruce: I know. Just happy to see you two get along so well.
Jason: I try my best, but sometimes I don't know if it's enough.
Bruce: That's what all parents feel like Jason. Personally I think you're doing a great job.
Jason: Thanks dad.
Bruce (smiling): Anything for you. They looked at each other for a few seconds. I should get going, I have some paperwork to go through.
Jason (walked up to Bruce and hugged him): I love you dad.
Bruce (hugging him back): Love you too son.
(Master Post)
Danny's distorted lines:
1 - I am one with the night and the endless void, I do not require the archaic practice of sleep.
2 - I am your king, you cannot give me orders!
3 - Grandpa, dad is being mean to me.
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meleebites · 2 days ago
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🧸 Hugs, kisses, snuggles, words. He's very warm.
🦢 "You need to stop snoring, Gorey. I'm a light sleeper." "I told you far too many times that I can sleep on the couch if you can't sleep with me!"
🍡 How many times have I answered this question? He has no nicknames for me, I call him everything in the book that isn't "babe", "bae" or "baby".
🪽 Still working this part out but damn was it ever warm and comforting. He deserved it. His soft lips deserved it. <3
🪺 "Oh, he's pretty and he's nice and I kinda wanna hug him." to "Most charming man alive, 10/10, I'd marry him and start a new family with him."
🪷 Picture a divorced middle-aged man starting a selfship blog. That's literally it.
🧊 Proper grammar, emojis (particularly hearts), no extreme tones. Has autocorrect.
🍋‍🟩 Probably something cheesy. "My beloved Kannon ♡" "MY PRECIOUS BUTTERCUP ♡"
💍 We'd get married ASAP if we didn't care about how long we've been a thing for. Asgore would LOVE to get married, as his last divorce really affected him and he wants to get back what he once had, but he'd be nervous about me leaving him like he normally is. I'm a bit less ready for marriage, as I have less experience and am younger, but I want our bond to get even stronger so nothing could tear us apart.
🪻 In source his favourite is golden flower tea. He'll drink any herbal or floral tea. He probably doesn't drink them cold usually.
☁️ We don't actually do much, come to think of it. We just coexist and breathe in each other's air. And eat. And sleep. And play games. And go on walks. And make out. And cuddle. And travel. Or something close.
🛍 He always gives me flowers. They mean a lot to him. He gives me ones that remind him of me. I mostly get him food, or I make art for him, or whatever he asks me to get him... but if he does that, he's in a great mood. He usually tells me not to buy or get him anything as he says he is undeserving of gifts. He isn't.
🫧 Skipping this one yet again as it's difficult for me.
🪼 Writing fanfiction is something I do to cheer myself up. I'm good at writing (I think) so I always have a fanfiction I'm working on. Unfortunately, I don't really share these as the contents are usually sexual and might offend some people. It's not proshippy though, that stuff's gross.
misc. selfship asks ❤︎
thank you for 400! <3 answer these asks however you'd like, but please practice reblog karma if applicable! 💌
🧸 - how would your f/o try to comfort you if you were upset? 🦢 - what's a petty argument you'd have with your f/o? 🍡 - what nicknames do you have for each other?
🪽 - what was your first kiss with your f/o like, if you've had it?
🪺 - describe your f/os perception of you before you got together, compared to what it is now! 🪷 - if the roles were reversed and your f/o was the one selfshipping with you, what would their blog look like?
🧊 - how would your f/o text you? would they use proper punctuation/capitalization, or type more informally?
🍋‍🟩 - similarly, what would your contact names be for each other?
💍 - how do you and your f/o feel about marriage?
🪻 - what's your f/o's coffee or drink order?
☁️ - how does your f/o like to spend their free time with you? 🛍️ - what would your f/o get you as a gift? additionally, what would you get for them?
🫧 - what song(s) remind you of your f/o?
🪼 - what’s your favorite way to feel closer to your f/o?
proship/comship/neutral dni
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totalswag · 1 day ago
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raw next question? pt 2 ⎯ RAFE CAMERON!
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summary after leaving a comment under rafe's post, he responds back showing interest and reaches out.
warning(s) flirting, kissing at the end, cuteness, and meeting rafe for the first time.
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rafecameron: hey! bold move, I think we should talk.
The only thing running through your mind is⎯what the actual fuck. To be fair, you were expecting a response or comment, not even a dm. You don't know what to say.
"Okay, we need to think of something to say because," you hesitate for a few minute, "yeah, I don't have anything to say" you trail off before stretching the back of your head.
Zoie lets out a breath: "I say we wait to respond then once we come up with a response, send it to him."
Five minutes later, you open your phone, click on the text, and begin typing a reply. "This is what I'm going to respond with," you say, pointing to your phone to the girls. 
yourusername: hey haha, thought I’d hop on the trend. didn’t expect you to reply tho.
Two minutes later, he responds.
rafecameron: oh, so I’m just part of a trend? damn, i thought i was special... 😔
yourusername: haha so funny, rafe
yourusername: i admit though you're attractive
rafecameron: ahh the truth comes out huh
rafecameron: since we're speaking the truth, you're gorgeous
Rafe and you started conversation among other topics. One of the main things you two found out is that you live an hour away from each other. By the end of the week, you exchanged phone numbers.
After Rafe responded to your comment, you two started leaving sly/flirty comments on each other's posts that spiked conversations between your supporters.
They're messing with us right?
They keep playing eye tag... HOLLA AT YO BOY!!
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"Would you like to meet up sometime?" Rafe asked casually over FaceTime while searching the kitchen cupboard for something, his phone resting against a glass cup. 
It's been a month since Rafe and you have been texting and calling. Constantly texting⎯quick responses. It became a routine for the both of you. Learned a lot about each other in a span of a month.
Your back was against the headboard as you sat on your bed. He wants to meet you in person, and your eyes almost pop out of their sockets. "Yeah, I would like that," was all you could offer.
Peeping over his shoulder, Rafe chuckles quietly and smiles. "I'm thinking this weekend if you aren't busy?" "I would drive to you," he says, suggesting.
You raise your upper body off the headboard and reply, "I'll send you my address the day before, I'm not doing anything this weekend."
"Perfect!" He smiles.
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Today was the day⎯Rafe and you are meeting for the first time. Nervous and excited about all this. You don't want to make a fool of yourself. Rafe was forty minutes away, in the meantime, you were on the phone with Zoie and Evenly.
Rafe offered to drive to visit you, and you couldn't help but be anxious. He was an hour away, yet his attempt to see you meant more than you could express.
"Bitches I'm shitting bricks" you confess feeling anxious, running your hands down your thighs, walking around the kitchen.
"Y/N, it's normal to feel this way especially since you're meeting him for the first time. Take a few deep breaths and if you need anything from us, we're one call, and few doors down" Evelyn reassures you in a soothing tone.
"Agreed, you got this, it's normal to feel this way," Zoie expresses.
"Thank you, you two are such great friends, I love you so much" you say with honesty, your phone buzzes, you put your phone back.
rafe: five minutes away
you: perfect, see you soon!!
You gasps, quickly putting your phone back to your ear, "he's five minutes away um, I'll text you guys throughout the day."
Once Rafe got to the apartment complex, you walked down the stairs to where he parked⎯he was getting his bags from his trunk. You were amazed how tall he was too.
Before you can say anything, he turns around and says, "Hey, Y/N," with a smile that conveys how happy he is to see you.
Seeing him in person made you realize he's even more handsome. Rafe couldn't keep his eyes off you, he couldn't help but think how he's standing infront of someone as beautiful as you.
"Hey, Rafe, It's good to see you" you say, taking a big breath and gazing up at his towering body. You grin and lean into the hug. The height difference between you two is insane. He
"It's great to finally meet you; you're even more beautiful in person," he says to you, smiling. You chuckle softly at his compliment, "thank you handsome" and smile.
After arriving at your place, you show Rafe where everything is and where he will be staying—either your bed or the guest bedroom, which has been thoroughly cleaned and sanitized. 
Rafe was happy to see your apartment and commented on how well it matches your vibe. He took his time looking around the apartment. Since you were already ready for the day, you spent ten more minutes in the apartment before heading out.
You have no idea what the plan was today. Rafe intended for a lasting and enjoyable day. You persisted on showing him around, but he said he wanted to be the one to take you places, even if he didn't know where. 
"This is has been such a great day, thank you Rafe" you tell him with full honesty as you two get settled to play mini golf.
He looks up from the floor and responds with a kind, sincere smile, "I'm glad you're enjoying it." "I remember you mentioning you loved mini golf too."
He is able to recall the small details.
Your heart sank to your feet since no male has ever recalled the small information you shared with them. As you playfully nudge him, you exclaim, "I can't believe you remember that."
He chuckles, "I'm just good at remember."
Mini golf was a lot of fun, with plenty of laughs and competition between you two. In the beginning, he noticed your concentration and took out his phone to record you until you spotted him flipping him off.
Towards the end of the night, Rafe and you drove to an ice cream shop and ate it outside. You had little conversations and learnt more about each other today.
Before putting a scoop of his ice cream in his mouth, he says, "We should make a tiktok."
After contentedly leaning back in your chair, you decided to do it. In addition, many who support you have been wondering if you two will ever cross paths. They're going to be amazed.
she knows remix slowed.
Rafe began lip-syncing, his expression playful and undoubtedly attractive. When it got to looking like the Fourth of July, you're officially coming with me, he switched the phone to you. You were already staring at him, eyes full of admiration, unable to conceal the warm smile on your lips.
The camera returned to him, and he tried not to chuckle, tilting his phone downward as he giggled. The final second of the video showed your arms wrapped around his neck.
rafe cameron: 👀
tagged yourusername
Fans were blowing up the comment section.
⇾ fan23: DO YOU SEE THE WAY SHE LOOKS AT HIM!!
⇾ fan12: you know you have thirty minutes
⇾ fan1: i decided if i want y/n or rafe 😔
⇾ fan3: im sat for this
By the time you returned to your flat, the tension had grown to a point where it could no longer be ignored. Rafe took a step closer as you paused nervously by your door. His hand softly stroked your cheek, his gaze seeking yours, before he asked, "Is this okay?"
You barely had time to nod before his lips touched yours, gentle and languid, like if he was savoring the moment. The kiss was pleasant, but it also hinted at something deeper.
When you eventually pulled away, he leaned his forehead against yours, chuckling. "Best decision I ever made was replying to that comment."
"Best decisions I ever made was commenting" you softly say, smiling.
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silent-stories · 2 days ago
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𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐎
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Pairing: Noah Sebastian x reader
Summary: based on this.
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Noah felt it before you even said a word.
That something sitting between you, like you were about to say something that was going to change everything. You were curled up on the couch, picking at a loose thread on your sleeve, your knee pulled up to your chest like you were trying to make yourself smaller. That wasn’t normal.
And then you spoke.
"I got a job offer."
His fingers stilled around the beer bottle, grip tightening just enough that he could feel the condensation slide against his skin. He didn’t look at you. Didn’t trust himself to. "Yeah?"
"In another city."
The words hit harder than he expected.
For a second, just one, he let himself think about what that meant—about this house without you in it, about days without your voice filling the empty spaces, about knowing you were somewhere else, somewhere new, somewhere without him.
And it made his stomach fucking sink.
But you didn’t belong here, did you? You never had.
You weren't his and he wasn't yours. All you had ever been was just friends.
He always knew you’d go. He just never thought it would be so soon.
You kept talking, explaining—something about better pay, bigger opportunities, a smart move. Noah heard it all, but it was like listening through static, every word just another reminder that this was real. That this was happening. That you weren’t just thinking about leaving. You were already halfway gone.
And what was he supposed to do? What was he allowed to do?
Because yeah, maybe he thought about it. Maybe he thought about pulling you in, pressing his forehead against yours, telling you he didn’t want you to go. That he needed you here, that he—
And then, for the first time, it really hit him.
He never told you. Never fucking told you.
Not when he first realized that the way he looked at you wasn’t the way a friend should. Not when you laughed at his dumb jokes, and he caught himself staring at your smile like it was something he could get addicted to, wishing he could bottle up the sound of your laughter, save it for the nights when the silence felt too heavy—when you weren’t there to fill the space beside him.
Not when you fell asleep on his shoulder during long car rides, and he stayed perfectly still, barely breathing, just to make the moment last a little longer. Not when he watched you dance around the kitchen in his hoodie, not when he felt his heart ache just being near you.
Not when he should have.
Not when it would’ve mattered.
And now, sitting here, the words he should’ve said—I like you. No, I love you. More than a friend. More than anyone—were useless. Too late. You were already slipping through his fingers, and he had no one to blame but himself.
So he stayed quiet. Because what was the fucking point now?
What was he supposed to do—throw everything at you now, at the last second, when you had a whole future waiting for you? When you were basically already half out the door? When he had every chance before, and he wasted them all?
No. That wasn’t fair.
Not to you. Not to the life you were about to build. Not to the love he’d never had the guts to give you.
So he bit his tongue. Kept his hands in his lap so he wouldn’t reach for you. Forced his voice steady as he said, "You should take it."
And fuck—he hated how easy it sounded. Hated that it came out smooth when his chest felt like it was caving in.
You hesitated. He could feel you watching him.
"You think?"
Noah swallowed hard, leaned forward, let his eyes settle on the floor instead of your face. "Yeah," he said. "Sounds like a great opportunity." Another shrug. Another lie. "You’d be an idiot not to."
The silence that followed was the worst part.
Because he could feel it—the shift, the way something between you cracked, just slightly, just enough that he knew it wouldn’t go back to how it was.
He tried to imagine what it would feel like to be around someone else the way he was with you. He’d never been able to picture anyone else in your place, never wanted to. You were a part of him now, you were the person who knew him best, the one he always leaned on when things got heavy, the one he could rely on when everything else felt like it was falling apart, the one who always answered his texts sent in the middle of the night when he couldn't sleep.
And now you were walking away. And he couldn’t imagine filling that gap.
The comfort of having you around, the steady presence of your friendship, even if it had always just been friendship, was something he never thought would disappear. It was just always there. And it was hard, almost impossible, to wrap his head around the fact that it might never be like that again.
How would he ever find that again? He couldn’t even begin to picture it. And the worst part? He wasn’t sure he ever wanted to. You were it. And now, as he sat there, heart heavy with the weight of what he couldn’t say, of what he had never had the guts to tell you, he knew that he had just let you slip through his fingers. The easy, effortless thing they had—the laughter, the comfort, the quiet moments, the understanding—was something he couldn’t replicate. Not with anyone. Not now. Not ever.
"Right," you said, voice quiet. "Yeah. That’s what I thought."
Noah didn’t move. Didn’t look at you.
Because if he did—if he saw the way you were looking at him, if he saw even the smallest flicker of doubt in your eyes—he knew he’d break.
And if he broke, he’d beg you to stay.
So instead, he just sat there, fingers gripping the beer bottle like it was the only thing holding him together, and let you slip further away.
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A few days later, you were sitting on the leather couch in the living room of the house you’d spent so many nights in again.
Folio was giving you one of his usual "don’t forget" lists—one that had become a comforting part of your routine over the years for all the times you went on a tour or trip together. This time, however, it sounded different, as if it was the last.
"Okay, remember to pack all your jackets. And the extra batteries for your camera. Oh, and make sure you’ve got your phone charger, you always forget it!" He waved his hands in the air as though he was trying to remind you of the most crucial thing in the world, like the fate of the universe rested on you not forgetting your phone charger.
You chuckled, leaning back on the couch, a small smile tugging at your lips as you gave him a playful eye roll. "Yeah, yeah, I got it, Nick. I’ll pack everything. No need to worry."
Folio grinned. "Good. You know I worry." He paused, then his tone softened, almost hesitant, like he was preparing to say something serious. "I’m really going to miss having you around. It won’t be the same without you here."
The words hit you harder than you expected. You had been preparing yourself for this goodbye for days, but hearing him say it out loud made it real, made it feel final. You swallowed, forcing a smile. "I’ll miss you guys too. And don’t worry, I’ll send plenty of pictures. And I’m sure I’ll come back to visit."
Folio nodded. "Yeah, of course. And we’ll come to visit you, too. So you don't forget us." He said it with such certainty that for a brief moment, you let yourself believe it—believe that things could stay the same, even when you knew they couldn’t.
But as Folio finished his sentence, you glanced over at Noah. He had been sitting at the other end of the room, quietly listening, but now he abruptly stood up, his movements stiff and awkward, as though something had snapped in him.
Noah didn’t say anything, just turned toward the door and walked out without a word. His departure felt like a heavy silence in the room.
You blinked, watching him leave, confused. "Did I say something wrong?" you asked softly.
Folio didn’t seem surprised by Noah’s reaction, but there was a hint of concern in his eyes. "It’s been like that for a couple of days now," he said, his voice low. "I don’t know what’s going on with him. He’s been… off. Something’s going on in his head, but he won’t talk about it."
You felt a knot form in your stomach.
You couldn’t stop thinking about the way he had acted the first time you spoke about the job offer. That cold, almost detached response, like he had no opinion on the matter at all. You replayed it in your mind over and over: "You should take it. Sounds like a great opportunity." But something in the way he said it—something in the way he couldn’t even look at you when he spoke—made you wonder if there was more to his reaction than he let on. Was he angry? Disappointed? Did he hate you for making the decision to leave?
You tried to push those thoughts away, but they kept creeping back. It was impossible, you told yourself. He couldn’t possibly hate you. Because you were just friends, right?
But just friends never felt like the right term for what you two had. Not for the long nights you spent talking, for the way you always seemed to understand each other without saying a word, for how comfortable you felt in his presence—like you were home when he was around. It had never been just friendship for you. Not really. Maybe it had started that way, but over time, something shifted. You couldn’t pinpoint when it happened, but you’d always known that your feelings for him ran deeper than what you were supposed to admit.
You thought back to that first time you’d met him, to the way he’d walked toward you with that easy, confident stride but still looking so damn shy. You liked his long hair t, and his eyes—those brown eyes, warm and sweet—that had locked onto yours in that instant.
He had smiled, and you’d felt it all the way down to your bones. It was like something clicked, something undeniable. That’s when you knew, even if you didn’t have the courage to admit it then, that there was something about him that made your heart race.
And all these years, that same feeling never really went away. Not when he touched your hip for a second to grab a cup from a high shelf you couldn’t reach, not when he would pass you the last slice of pizza even though he was starving, not when you’d sit together in silence and it never felt uncomfortable.
You told yourself over and over that it was just a crush, that you were just friends, but every time he touched you, every time his hand brushed yours or he’d take your hand in his while walking through a crowded space, your heart would skip.
And when he would hold your hand, you’d feel the heat flood your face, and when he was on the stage and his eyes locked with yours for a moment, it was like the world disappeared. It was just the two of you.
Did he ever notice?
Did he ever feel what you felt? Was it possible he ever sensed the way your heart raced when he would grab your hand, as if the world didn’t matter and you two existed in your own little bubble just for a while? You wondered if maybe, just maybe, he’d caught the way your breath would hitch when he’d look at you with those brown eyes, like you were the only person in the room.
But now, all of that was left in the past. You were about to leave, and nothing between you two was ever going to change. You were just friends.
You thought about getting up and going after him. But what could you say? "I'm sorry I'm leaving?"
He was the first person to tell you to take that job, it wouldn't have made sense. So you stayed there.
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The day had finally come. It felt surreal, the finality of it weighing on you as you stood in front of the door, ready to say your goodbyes. You had spent the last few days avoiding the inevitable, pretending like you still had time, still had something to hold onto. But now, as you stood there, your suitcase in your car and your heart feeling like it was somewhere deep inside your chest, the reality of leaving was all too clear.
You walked into the living room, where the band was gathered. They were all quieter than usual. Folio was the first to greet you, giving you one of his bear hugs that made you feel both comforted and sad at the same time. “Take care of yourself, alright?” he said, pulling back to look at you. “Don’t forget the pictures. And don’t be a stranger.” You nodded, blinking back the sudden lump in your throat.
“Yeah, yeah, I will,” you managed to say, your voice wavering a little.
Then, one by one, the others came over to say goodbye.
“Don’t forget us,” Matt said, pulling you into a quick hug. “I'll miss the food you made for us.”
You laughed and pushed him away as he pretended to be hurt.
Finally, there was Noah. He was standing a little apart from the group, his hands in his pockets. He didn’t approach you right away, and you weren’t sure why that felt different. But when your eyes met his, his gaze softened, and you could see something unsaid flickering in his eyes.
He stepped forward slowly, pulling you into his arms, and for a moment, you didn’t want to let go. You hugged him tightly, the warmth of his body against yours a reminder of all the small moments you’d shared over the years. You could hear his breath, steady and calm, like he was trying to hold onto this moment too.
He pulled back slightly, just enough to look at you, and the quiet between you both felt almost too much to bear.
“I’m really going to miss you,” you whispered, your voice cracking just slightly.
Noah gave you a small smile, one that didn’t quite reach his eyes. His hand lifted, gently brushing a strand of hair away from your face, a touch so tender it made your heart ache.
“I’ll miss you too,” he said softly, then, without saying another word, he kissed the top of your head.
You only looked at him for a few seconds before taking a step back, as if if you stayed longer, it would only hurt more.
Then, you finally turned toward the door, ready (or maybe not) to leave and start something new. But you also knew, deep down, that no matter where life took you, a part of you would always be right here, with them. And with him.
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About two hours later, Noah was sitting on the edge of the couch, his leg bouncing up and down nervously, the restless energy radiating off him like a low hum. His gaze was distant, unfocused, as if he was somewhere miles away from where he actually was, lost in thoughts that seemed impossible to escape.
Nick, who had been trying to make sense of the silence in the room, finally broke it. "What's going on with you?" he asked, eyeing Noah with a raised brow.
Matt, who had been observing Noah for a while, leaned forward, a knowing look crossing his face. "It's about Y/N, right?"
Jolly, sitting across from them, raised an eyebrow. "Y/N?" he echoed, confused, like he hadn’t caught on.
Matt shot him a look as if the answer was the most obvious thing in the world. "Of course, it’s Y/N. He’s been in love with her since the first time he saw her."
Nick blinked, a little stunned. "What? And you never told me?" He looked genuinely surprised, a slight hint of betrayal in his voice.
Folio let out a smug little laugh. "Ah! I knew it. I ducking knew it!"
Noah, who had been tuning them out, suddenly snapped back to reality. He stood up, his frustration bubbling over. "Enough. You’re not helping," he interrupted, his voice louder than usual, the words spilling out in a rush. "I fucked up. I let her go. I feel like shit. Because…" He hesitated, but it was like the weight of it was too much to keep in. "Because I love her. I’ve loved her for years. And when she told me about the job… I thought it was too late to say anything." He shook his head. "I’m such an idiot. I'm such a fucking idiot."
"Yeah, you are." Said Folio, who had been waiting for the confession.
"It’s not too late." Jolly spoke.
Noah turned to him, shaking his head with a defeated look in his eyes. "Yeah, it is. She’s gone."
Matt glanced at his watch. "Her flight hasn’t left yet," he said, his voice steady, as if offering a lifeline Noah hadn’t considered.
Noah froze, his eyes wide for just a moment before the doubt came crashing in. "I can’t do it," he muttered.
Nick leaned forward, a serious expression on his face. "Do you love her?" he asked, not bothering with any other words, just cutting straight to the core of it.
Without thinking, Noah nodded immediately. "Yes," he said, his voice barely a whisper but resolute. "Yes, I love her."
Nick didn’t waste any time. "Then go," he said, his voice firm. "Go fucking get her."
The words hung in the air, and for a split second, Noah didn’t move. He was caught in all his own doubts, his fears, his regrets. But then, something clicked. Maybe it was Nick’s certainty, maybe it was the look in his friends’ eyes, but Noah felt it—he had to go. If he didn’t, he would regret it forever.
He had nothing to lose.
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Noah never thought he’d be that guy—the one who ditches his car in traffic, sprints through a crowded airport, and makes a total fool of himself in the name of love. And yet, here he is, running through the terminal, heart hammering in his chest, lungs burning with every breath, because you’re about to board a plane and leave, and he can’t let that happen.
Traffic had been his worst enemy, but he didn’t care. His car had been left behind in the middle of the arrivals lane, engine still running. The thought of you, suitcase packed and ready to leave, was all he could focus on. Every second spent on the road felt like an eternity, but he had to get to you.
He run through the airport.
He narrowly avoided a child who’s been skipping along, then almost tripped over a suitcase abandoned in the middle of the aisle. He bumped into people left and right, his shoulder knocking into a couple who glared at him as he shouted, “Sorry! Sorry, I’m in a hurry!” He didn't wait for their response, didn't care. His focus was on you only.
He cut through crowds, hands brushing against strangers as he weaved between them, the sound of his own breath growing louder in his ears. Another wave of people blocked his path, and he barely managed to swerve, knocking into a woman holding a cup of coffee. It splashed across the floor, the warm liquid spreading out in a wide arc.
“Watch where you’re going!” she yelled.
"I'm so sorry! It's important, I swear!"
The overhead announcement blared, sharp and unrelenting. Final boarding call for Flight 237, please... He didn’t hear the rest. His mind was focused on one thing: You. The gate was in sight. There you were, standing at the counter, your ticket in hand, a look of quiet resolve on your face, your eyes scanning the people around you.
"Wait!"
Heads turned. People gasped. A security guard stepped forward as Noah sprinted toward you, chest heaving, his breath coming out in ragged bursts.
"Don’t go," he blurted out, his voice raw with desperation.
Your brows furrowed as you turned to face him. "Noah, what—?"
He took a step closer, suddenly overwhelmed by the need to confess everything he’d kept locked away for years. "I love you," he said, the words tumbling out, frantic and real. "I fucking love you," He could barely keep his breath steady as he looked at you, his heart thundering in his chest. "And I know—I know I should’ve said this sooner, that I should’ve told you everything before it got to this point. I should’ve been braver, I should’ve figured it out sooner, but I didn’t. I’ve been so damn stupid, too scared to say what I’ve been feeling because I never wanted to mess this up. But I can’t—I can’t let you go without telling you, because if I don’t, I’m going to lose you, and I can’t lose you."
He ran a hand through his hair, "I know I don’t deserve a second chance. Hell, I probably don’t deserve even one, not after all the times I avoided the truth, but please—please don’t get on that plane. I can’t imagine my life without you in it. It scares the shit out of me, honestly, because I’ve let you slip through my fingers, and I’ve never been more afraid of anything in my life than losing you."
He took a deep breath, struggling to steady himself. "Please, just… give me a chance. Don’t go. We can figure this out. You and me, together. I’ve been an idiot for not telling you this sooner, but I know now—I know what I want. And it’s you. It’s always been you. Just don’t walk away from me. Not when I finally have the guts to tell you that I have been in love with you since the first moment I saw you."
There was a moment of silence.
You were sure that a girl was filming the scene, ready to post it on tiktok, probably without even knowing who Noah was.
The security guard took a step toward him, but Noah didn’t flinch. “Sir, you can’t be here—”
"Just give me one second," he said with his eyes locked on yours, pleading.
You stared at him for a moment, a mixture of shock and disbelief in your eyes. Then, as if the weight of his words hit you all at once, your ticket slipped from your fingers and hit the ground. Without thinking, you grabbed his face, pulling him into a kiss.
It wasn’t like the movies—there wasn’t a crowd cheering or anything like that. Just the hum of the airport and the soft murmur of an old woman sitting nearby, who, after a brief pause, simply gave a small smile as she went back to reading her book. It made you almost laugh, the absurdity of it all.
Noah smiled against your lips, the warmth of your kiss sinking into his chest.
“You are such an idiot,” you murmured, smiling through the kiss, your hand gently resting on his cheek.
“But an idiot you love, right?” he said, his voice barely above a whisper, as he pulled back just enough to meet your eyes.
You rolled your eyes, but there was no hiding the affection in your gaze. "Yeah, you idiot. An idiot I love."
You both shared one last smile before you pulled away, glancing back toward the gate. The security guard had stepped back, his hands raised in surrender.
Noah took your hand, leading you out of the airport, and you couldn’t help but feel a sense of relief.
As you walked with him, you couldn’t help but tease him a little. "I never thought you’d pull the 80s movie move to tell me you love me."
Noah gave you a sheepish grin. "At least the security didn’t tackle me."
You laughed, the sound light and free, as the two of you walked through the terminal, together.
"You should write a song on that, you know?"
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itsabouttimex2 · 21 hours ago
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Not a request, just blabbering about the “not the beloved au” because. God. Poor MK. Obviously, y/n is the one suffering the most from the dynamic, but MK’s development is being stunted by the way the two kings are raising him. Never being told no, having everything and everyone live their life to accommodate around him- sure he’s still a toddler, they’re going to be stupid, but he’s resorting to hurting himself when he doesn’t get what he wants (ie Y/N, a whole person!) that is very troubling behavior.
I’d hate to see how he’d be grown up- he’d definitely still be a hero- he IS a good kid, he’d want to help people- but what happens if he’s not able to beat someone in a fight immediately or he’s outmatched? How much of him fighting would just make things worse because he’s used to the world bending over backwards to make him happy?
Poor kid.
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Not The Beloved
Anon, I'm so glad you brought this up, because on surface level, NTB!MK is a little entitled menace. But when you take a moment to scratch past that unfortunate facade, then... well, yeah. He is a victim all in his own right, hard as it may be to see from a certain viewpoint. The only world MK knows is his own family and their home- his two dads, Y/N, the Flower Fruit Mountain monkeys, and the mountain itself.
The end. No school. No friends. Nothing.
And that's just the way his dads like it! Sun Wukong likes that his kiddo is isolated, stunted, socially awkward and somewhat entitled! That just makes him easier to spoil! Easier to love! And Macaque, too! If he helps to custom-cater a world that his beloved baby boy can't survive outside of? Then MK can't leave, and thus can never escape his love and care!
Which is exactly why MK needs the reader.
In spite of being everything that the little kid is not, Y/N's startling normality is the only grounding factor that MK has to let him know that something is wrong. Because Y/N didn't have the upbringing that their little brother had, they have a legitimate claim to being the least mentally-skewed of the family, which is, unsurprisingly, one hell of a boon.
Like, MK has it great... at first. Never Having to do chores or make your own food, and having your overbearing daddies brush your teeth and tie your shoes for you is awesome when you're four, but sucks ass when you're twelve and can barely function outside your role as a spoiled prince-
But! There's still Y/N!
Frustrated, jealous, and angry Y/N. Y/N, who seethes and huffs and kicks their feet and grits their teeth and punches their pillow into pulpy fluff, who curses under their breath and has to burn all the letters they write about how much they despise their family. Y/N who was only spared punishment after the scraps of those letters were found because MK cried and begged for his daddies to forgive his older sibling because-
Because Y/N, in spite of their jealously and anger, will still roll up both sleeves, sit down, and teach their little brother how to tie his shoes, how to roll up a tube of toothpaste to squeeze the last bit out, how to boil water and brown meat.
There's this normalcy to being hated by someone that anchors MK to reality, even though he's a little too young and naive to really put his grateful feelings into words, so instead it all manifests as "Y/N is my favorite person ever and ever!" that Wukong and Macaque don't like (because they are both horribly jealous) but will force Y/N to reciprocate.
And even when his beloved older sibling bullies their parents into coughing up the necessary resources in order to head off to college, MK keeps in touch with the phones he begs both his fathers to buy, and manages to maneuver them both into two strict "buts".
Specifically, "You can go off to college, but you have to keep in touch with us and MK." and "We'll foot the bill, but you have to come back and stay here during the weekends."
Which is... enough. Enough of a thread cut loose that Y/N slips free to experience at least a mildly normal life pursuing their desired field with some actual space to grow and heal and establish normal relationships outside of their toxic family.
(Even though they're definitely becoming the mom/dad friend.)
Then there's the matter of "How good of a hero will MK be without his good-natured upbringing, courtesy of Pigsy and Tang?" that you brought up, and the answer to that question is: "Don't worry about it, because MK doesn't get to be a hero."
After all, why would his dads risk losing their miracle baby?
So it isn't even "Would MK ditch a fight or otherwise give up on it when he struggles?", it's "Can Y/N bare-knuckle Red Son's cute face into pulp with only their long suppressed rage as fuel?" because MK isn't the hero of NTB- Y/N is.
And they don't ever intend on losing the new life they fought to find.
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someone1348 · 3 days ago
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It was long overdue...its time; I'm doing a squid games fic! I'm scared, but I'm posting it anyway! I've wanted to write for it for a while now, I just never had ideas or motivation! There's already so many great squid games writers, and I just am nervous!
Anyway!
The people in this: Ler!Jung-Bae, Lee!Dae-ho (naturally, I had to do them first!)
Tw: Anxiety, a little cursing, regardless this is a tickle fic, so if you don't like it, please keep scrolling! Thank you! :]
Also, squid games season 2 spoilers, so if you haven't watched it, I'd recommend watching it first!
With that being said enjoy!! <3
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Such a ticklish marine
They had just finished the six-legged pentathlon. Spirits were high for about five seconds before they heard the gunshots again from the other side of the room. Dae-ho squirmed back again, covering his ears. Heart racing as Jung-Bae put a hand to his shoulder. It was almost like it was second nature. Dae-ho definitely showed his love through physical touch, and Jung-Bae did, too, so it just worked. They mirrored each other perfectly. The older of the two really took Dae-ho in, especially after he found out he was also an ex-marine. The bond of marines is unbreakable, but with how big Jung-Bae's heart is, he saw Dae-ho like the son he never had. Even if he doesn't admit it out loud, his actions show everything.
So when he's freaking out, covering his ears, fidgeting, the whole nine yards, he clocked his ptsd pretty fast. It made his heart ache a little for the poor boy. He wanted to, no, needed to do something to help him out. Jung-Bae took a deep breath and walked behind him as they entered the main room. Several teams who made it already sitting on one of the bunks groupped together, naturally. They did the same, sitting down waiting now for dinner to be served. Dae-ho was fidgeting again with his hands, scanning the room as some of the teams gave their team ugly stares. Jung-Bae placed a gentle hand to his knee for support, to try and ground him so he knows that he's not alone. Dae-ho's shoulders jumped a little at the impact but relaxed when he realized it was just Jung-Bae.
"Don't worry about them... they're just greedy assholes. We won't let anything happen to you or anyone on our team." Jung-Bae said with a determined smile as Dae-ho nodded.
"Sir, yes, sir!" Dae-ho replied out of instinct as Jung-Bae giggled gently at this.
"Atta boy!" He gently squeezed Dae-ho's knee as his hearty laughter grew. Without having time to hold back a reaction, Dae-ho squeaked quietly, but it definitely caught Jung-Bae's attention. Even through his laughter, he definitely heard that correctly. Blinking gently, Jung-Bae looked up at the boy with curiosity. Dae-ho's eyes widened. He tried to keep a poker face, like nothing happened, but he was really bad at that. Jung-Bae and everyone around him could see right through him.
"Dae-ho...?" Jung-Bae said a slight tease in his voice.
Dae-ho gulped gently and blinked "Yes...Sir...?"
The nervous reaction sent Jung-Bae's smile into a wicked smirk. He scooted closer to the already anxious marine. Now his heart was racing again, not out of fear, though. It moved quickly knowing what was potentially about to happen. He has four older sisters. He knows a 'I'm gonna tickle you' look when he sees one!
"Don't tell me, you, a strong, brave, ex-marine is ticklish?" He teased him, obviously not talking down to him. Dae-ho knew this and was thankful that he didn't make fun of him for it. It was normal, nothing to be ashamed about. Dae-ho took a deep breath, not knowing how to respond. Jung-Bae just giggled.
"This is gold!" He seemed happier than ever at this newfound information. Was...was that it? Was he really not going to get tickled? Dae-ho was overthinking it before the gaurds called everyone to grab dinner. Snapping out of his thoughts, they all got in line to get their portion of the meals. It was barely anything. Every day, there was less. They did that on purpose, but hey, at least they were getting something to eat.
After getting his tin and water, Dae-ho sat back down in the same spot. Jung-Bae, however, moved up a step to sit next to Dae-ho. The younger looked at the older with wider eyes than normal. Jung-Bae didn't say anything he just opened his tin and started eating.
"What did you get?" The question made Dae-ho blink before he opened his tin.
"Um...the same thing as you, we all get the same thing, sir," he said matter-of-factly. Which again made Jung-Bae giggle. This man was just always full of laughter, even in a situation like this. Something that made Dae-ho admire him even further. The conversation fell silent again as they kept eating. Jung-Bae talking to Gi-Hun and the others before turning back to Dae-ho.
"So...where are you most ticklish?" He asked teasingly and excitedly.
Dae-ho nearly choked on his rice at the question. Coughing a little before regaining his senses, Jung-Bae laughed.
"You okay, soldier?"
Dae-ho nodded quickly. The older patted his shoulder again happily. Jung-Bae was doing all of this on purpose. Sure, he wanted to know this information, but he wanted to help, mostly. He thought that maybe tickling him could help get him distracted enough to calm his anxiety. It worked on Gi-Hun whenever he had nightmares as kids, so maybe it'll help Dae-ho, too. He needed to try regardless. If it doesn't work, he'll try something else. Jung-Bae smirked and went back to teasing.
"If you won't talk, that's fine, I'll figure it out one way or another," he hummed gently, running a hand down his spine. Dae-ho arched gently out of instinct and smiled. Good a smile, that's a start. He's not uncomfortable. That's all he wanted to make sure of first before he could do anything.
Once dinner was completed, Jung-Bae finally put his plan into action. Dae-ho tried to move away to throw his tin away, but Jung-Bae pulled him back.
"Ah ah ah... you can do that later! I wanna see what you can do, boy! You've impressed me a lot as of recently. Let's keep that streak up, sha'll we?" He hummed as Dae-ho raised an eyebrow.
"I'm honored, sir, but I'm not exactly following..." He said honestly as Jung-Bae's smirk returned.
"Don't laugh~" he teased. Without warning, he used both hands to gently squeeze at Dae-ho's sides. A loud shriek rang through the place, followed by laughter and Dae-ho rolling over, trying to escape him. If he started with any other spot, he would've been able to hold it in, but Jung-Bae had to get his worst spot first! On a total guess too! Not fair!
Jung-Bae giggled with him. "You didn't even last a second! Such a ticklish marine~" he teased again, stopping for a second so Dae-ho could catch his breath and sit up.
"That wasn't fair! I could've done better if you didn't go for-" he inhaled and bit his lip as Jung-Bae tickled his neck in retaliation for the attitude. This was so fun for him now.
"Ohhhh, there we go! You're lastly relatively well. Let's see how you pair up against two spots at once!" He cheered before using his other hand to skitter gently across his ribs. Dae-ho squirmed a little but kept his laughter back as best as he could.
"You can do it, Dae-ho!" He supported him while actively scribbling across his stomach to get to each side of his ribs. Back and forth, while his other hand still wiggled against the right side of Dae-ho's neck. It took 10 more seconds before Dae-ho burst out in giggles again. Lying on the steps to try and get away. Jung-Bae's hands followed his movements with a smile.
"Juhuhung-bahahae!! Sihihir! Please! Hahaha!" It was light airy giggles since Jung-Bae was being relatively nice about it, for now. The older marines heart practically melted into puddy at the sound.
"Please what Dae-ho? I can't understand you with all this laughter!" He pulled up his shirt a little, using both hands to now tickle his stomach, which got Dae-ho kicking now. His water bottle now knocked off the stairs. Thank God it was closed. But Young-il had to duck, moving out of the way of the water bottle and the pair.
"JUHuhUhung-BAHaEHe!" He laughed a little more as his hands held onto the others' wrists. The other laughed with him and continued to tease him. One finger finding it's way into his belly button. This caused Dae-ho to make a sound similar to a snort and laugh some more.
"You know I think this might be why you're not a marine anymore, you're an interrogation risk, one little tickle and you'd spill all the beans of our plans" he joked which made the other a little embarrassed. His ears were a little red as he kept laughing.
"HaHaHAHAHA!" He kept going. "I wOhoHould nEHeHeVer! BETraHAhay! My TeHEHEheam!" He tried to defend himself before Jung-Bae smirked. He knew that, duh, but that was still adorable. He liked it when he was laughing rather than panicking. It suited him.
"Tickle Tickle Tickle~" he teased more, moving up to gently tickle his underarms. Dae-ho slammed them down quickly, his laughter never subsiding as he squirmed around on the step.
"GEhehEt OhoHOUT oF tHEHehere!!" He shook his head no as Jung-Bae giggled.
"Oh? Do you want me to pick a different spot?" He asked gently as Dae-ho nodded frantically through his laughter. He soon regretted his decision as Jung-Bae's hands went from his underarms to his sides, squeezing the ex-marine's most ticklish spot with determination.
"AHAHAHAHA NOHOHO HAHAHAHA!" Dae-ho let out a bout of laughter mixed with some incoherent speech. His kicking increased ten-folds as well. He was a squirmer, that's for sure. Jung-Bae smiled and kept going.
"What's the matter soldier? Is it too ticklish for ya? Hmm? I'm gonna getcha!" He was deep into tickle monster mode now. There was no stopping Jung-Bae now. Dae-ho squeaked this time as he let himself laugh.
"IHIHHIT TIHIHIHICKLES! JUHUHUHUNG-BAHAEHE!" He threw his head back gently, laughing as his back arched into his hands out of instinct. This was amusing to Jung-Bae. So he was enjoying this, good!
"SHIHIHIT!-" He said, moving his body back to the floor. Jung-Bae smirked at this.
"Such fowl language for an ex-marine! Watch your tone, young man!" He smiled before blowing a raspberry into one of his sides, still tickling his other side with the other hand. He lost his mind.
"SIHIHIHIR! IHIM SOHOHORRY! MERCY PLEHEHEHEHEASE HAHAHA!" He asked for mercy. Jung-Bae gave him a few more scribbles before he finally stopped. Beaming, Jung-Bae sat back and watched Dae-ho catch his breath, giggles poking through every now and again.
"At ease, buddy"
"Thahank you...sir" he sat up gently as Jung-Bae patted his shoulder again. His duty was done. Mission completed.
"Dae-ho, don't worry about it, you aren't the only ticklish ex-marine around." Gi-Hun smirked as Jung-Bae gasped
"Gi-Hun!" He said, sounded offended even though he really wasn't. Dae-ho giggled at this and turned to Jung-Bae.
"I see..." he hummed teasingly
Like father like son.
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Thank you @sleepy--anon for pushing me further to write for squid games and giving me the duo idea! I hope I did the fandom/show justice!
-K :]
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sanchoyo · 2 years ago
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i start that new job tomorrow 😶 ...
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clanoffelidae · 1 year ago
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if the only source of stimulant i ever had access to was coffee i would just choose to deal with the full brunt of my adhd
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i think i'm getting anemic from my period time and time again. whys it gotta be like this. imagine an organ that's straight up stealing blood from your body‼️
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murobrown · 2 years ago
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#hello friends I just took ventolin and I am having a panic attack and possibly dying#my heart will soon pop up from my chest#and my whole body is shaking and shivering#so I am looking for some way to distract myself and not to hyoerfocus on my bodily functions#it should be a normal side effect but I never experienced it before so I'm freaking out#how are you all doing? i really hope that everyone is happy and healthy and safe#if not I'm sending all the best things your way#like tomorrow will be the best day of your life...i promise... I'm sure you will feel better tomorrow#whatever is worrying you right now will go away and you will be happy#we will all be okay#everything will be okay#I'm not dying#i really don't want to die#I wanted to die for many years and even did some stupid things but now I'm so grateful to be here#i love my life now and I'm so scared that I'll die and lose everything#because usually when you think you're doing great the universe is preparing something disastrous for you#...so thay you don't stay happy for too long#I'm trying to breathe deep but I feel like it makes my chest hurt more#and I'm so scared to sleep because I don't want to die in my sleep i want to have everything under control if I need help#but I'll be okay... I'll get through this it's just nothing#do you guys have any plans for the summer?#do you remember being at school and having two months holiday without any responsibilities#honestly I don't think I miss it...maybe I prefer to work and have just few weeks off#it's just too much free time for me#now I feel like my body is burning#and I feel my neck pulsating#like I feel my heartbeat in my head#my smart watch is saying that everything is in normal numbers but what of they're inaccurate#I'm losing control of my thoughts so back to getting distracted#maybe I'll try to lay down and sleep
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shego1142 · 1 month ago
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I’m failing and I know I’m failing but please if someone can just tell me that it’s okay, that I’m allowed to fail, I’ve been given permission to fail and I don’t have to worry anymore I’ll still have a house, a home, friends and family and food and maybe a nice thing to do or something entertaining for a little while
Tell me it’s not all my fault, it can be some my fault but tell me it’s not all my fault all mine all alone
Tell me it’s not that everything is exactly this hard for everyone and only I am the one who is getting left behind
That can’t be it right? It can’t be this hard for everyone, right?
Tell me the bone deep weariness is a missing vitamin
Tell me the exhaustion and pain is a sickness
It doesn’t have to have a cure just don’t tell me it’s the norm
Tell me it’s not just excuses
Tell me you believe me, tell me you know it’s not just an excuse.
Tell me you have seen how hard I try.
Just let me know if I can stop trying so hard
Because I’m starting to think my best is not enough
So just tell me if I can stop giving it my all?
Tell me you’re proud of my attempts even if they don’t come with success
Even if they never come with success
Tell me I’m missing a vitamin
Me: You know how when you were a kid and you’d wish that you’d get sick or injured in a way that would justify why you didn’t live up to your potential?
Everybody, apparently: No?
#a lament for those who are also in the gifted kid to chronic illness pipeline#sorry this got real#but I love the vitamin post as a chronic illness metaphor but it definitely makes sense in a gifted kid to burnt out adult sort of way too#I don’t live up to my own expectations of myself#and yeah that’s my new normal but it doesn’t even have a name yet because diagnosis is hard af#I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired#chronic illness#chronic pain#sad#sorry lol#I’m okay I’m just venting btw don’t worry about me#had a good cry writing this#gonna fail some more#I know I don’t need outside permission but it sure does help#reassurance isn’t necessary but damn is it addictive#it’s just you know that feeling when you got so super sick as a kid that you were shaking and in pain and throwing up and everything#and you go to the doctor and they’re like omg you’re really so sick you need bed rest now and absolutely no doing anything stressful#and you felt like oh I’m being heard and seen my needs are being met#I’m getting attention and medicine to make me feel better and I’m not expected to do anything because I really am very sick and it’s real#the horrible awful way I feel is verifiable by tests and the experts agree that it is okay for me to sleep which is great because I need it#that’s what the missing vitamin is to me#because I feel like I can’t breathe and I’m exhausted and I am in real horrible pain so constantly#and I just want that moment of ‘omg we didn’t believe you I’m so sorry your needs have gone unmet for so long’#it’s not about attention or money or being let off the hook#I know I am sick I know it is real but I really need other people to hear me#I want other people to know it as fact and not as just an excuse#to know that if and when I am able to I will be an unstoppable force#please don’t count me out right now#but I just need to rest right now#I just need my missing vitamin
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puppyypawsss · 4 months ago
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It’s really fun and really cool when ur mom dismisses ur anxiety and makes u feel stupid and crazy and AAUUUHHVGBHHH.
#I need to move out ASAP but I don’t have a job and my friends and partners live too far and#my mom has been doing this ever since my anxiety got worse because she just looks at me like I’m crazy and comes up with some bullshit#answer like ‘ oh everyone has anxiety “’ SURE YES BUT YOUR CHILD SUFFERS FROM IT EVERY SINGLE DAY ?#like I literally deal with this shit EVERY DAY and she KNOWS that and all she has to say about it is that everyone deals with it every day#okay but does everyone curl into a ball and cry so much that they can’t breathe and their head feels like it’s going to explode because of#a weird symptom/bodily sensation that they have probably dealt with before and been fine#does everyone dissociate on a regular basis because their anxiety is so bad that they need to dissociate to cope#does everyone get depressed from how anxious they are because it’s so debilitating and sometimes I feel like there’s no way out#no !!!!! I don’t think so!!!! so why does she act like my anxiety is fucking normal !!!!! it is not !!!#and then she wonders why I never talk to her (which i do by the way because I love her deep down even if her words are literal deep cuts#and have genuinely scarred me)#that’s the painful part is that i love my mom but I can’t understand why she doesn’t want to grasp the idea that my anxiety may be a little#a LOT worse than normal#she doesn’t think I have an anxiety disorder or autism#so she basically just thinks I’m insane#her neurotypical brain cannot even grasp the idea of her child having neurological problems#because she just wants me to be ‘ normal ‘#guess what mother you gave birth to me I inherited YOUR genes so what’s that telling me about you#I’m so tired#sorry for the long ass vent in the tags I’m suffering a GREAT fucking deal rn#vent tw#anxiety
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pa-pa-plasma · 5 months ago
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so this post is definitely about me lol & i just wanna say that
me only having mental illness is a really big assumption
the experiences i talked about were my own & some friends i'd had while going to an alternate school, they weren't secondhand or made up
idk what is wrong with this person but they are super fucking ableist, & going through their blog, it's clear they love to accuse everyone of faking being disabled or needing accommodation for some reason & are obsessed with interacting in bad faith.
just gonna assume they're constantly having a really bad day every day but man if you're gonna make multiple blogs dedicated to speaking about disabled issues, maybe don't alienate a majority of the community & accuse them of not being "disabled enough" for you to fucking listen to them
#i think when your advocating of one specific group turns into putting down everyone else .you've failed#if you want to be a voice for a community you have to be able to speak coherently about a subject without getting aggressive#& picking fights with anyone who even breathes in your direction#which this person seems to love to do btw holy shit they are super fucked#anyways was just reminded of this dipshit. this screenshot & some other shit they said (like accusing me of thinking disabled ppl are gross#was in response to me saying addiction is a disability & they flipped the fuck out about that#my point was that you can't cater to every single disability all at once. there is going to be some conflict & you have to problem solve#like imagine a person who's super cold & another who's super hot#the person who's cold can keep putting on more layers but the person who's hot can't. so the cold person is gonna have to compromise#& turn the heat down & just put on a jacket or something#OP said that taking medication in public should be normalized & (while that is hyperspecific region-wise) that is true#but also you need to work with other disabled people (like addicts) when making things accessible#because an accessibility option might be great for one person & horrible for another#because when i was at that alt school there were a bunch of kids who were recovering addicts or parents were#& so i was asked to take my medication away from them & i did. because i'm not a fucking asshole#it would be cool if you could take your meds whenever wherever but that just isn't realistic#if you can help someone with trauma or an addiction without negatively impacting yourself then why not#like why would you force someone else to suffer just because you're personally angry about an imaginary slight#if you can't leave or leaving would fuck things up then let them know you take your meds at that time so they can leave beforehand#or if it's an emergency then just fucking take the meds & the other guy can decide what to do with themself#like there is a nuance here that the OP refuses to acknowledge because they don't actually care about disabled people#they only care about themself#like cool advocating. still ableism#anyways if you got this far for blocking reasons the user is disbabeled
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