#DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD HTIS WAS

[hungerpunch]

hiii lo pls tell me ur top 3 plants 💕

this is truly very cruel what do u expect me to saaaaay ಥ_ಥ what if i type three plants and the other plants SEE IT!!!! idek if you mean plants that i personally own or plants in the world? okay i'm gonna give myself rules

going with plants that i personally own and i'm going to divide them btwn what i have inside and outside so !!! there!

inside:

i'm fuckingggldk fkldfjdf. i have like 40-something houseplants. honestly maybe more i haven't counted in quite some time. top 3? ummm okay okay. it's fine. i am strong and i can do this.

scindapsus pictus (it's not a pothos!!!!!) - atp my scindapsus is the oldest houseplant that i have due to the fact that in 2018 the furnace for our apartment died while we were out of town for christmas, so i returned to 26 dead houseplants and had to start over. she's my heart plant; she's been with me thru so much, she's been so forgiving, she stuck with me despite grief-driven neglect a couple years ago. i think scindapsus pictus are underrated. they're super tolerant of most conditions and are the opposite of drama queens. my beloved.

monstera deliciosa - i meaaan!!! how could it not be. i call mine goliath or monstro and he's big big. he's taller than me. i've had him for several years now and he's easily my biggest plant. he makes me feel very safe and settled when i just hang out with him.

epipremnum pinnatum marble - i have not had this guy very long; i got him as a babybaby off buynothing from a Serious Plant Dude who had to downsize his collection for an emergency move (thank u joey). i call the plants i got from him the joey plants and of them, i am most digging the marble king pothos. i had no idea it was as new of a cultivar as it was when i got it. it's still little but it's growingg and it's already giving me fenestrated leaves! oh it's so precious to me!!!! if i can get it to maturity, it will be absolutely drop dead gorgeous.

outside

swamp milkweed!! just posted ab them this morning. they're so fucking cute!

an olive tree that i was gifted by a truly ancient woman i was picking up a starter lemon tree from; it's so pretty i think!

the raspberry bushes!! hello i have eaten raspberries from my own yard!!!! incredible!

[anonymously (or not) ask me any question you’d like to know about me]

[front-facing-pokemon]

[lucifer-kane]

rain and i are rewatching tlovm and quite simply i miss vm more than anything in the world

[lucigoo]

Would You Love Me If I Killed Them All For You?

New Wolfstar fic for you all. I have been istitng on this fic a while and am glad it is now complete. It was from a mix of the song "If I Killed Someone For You" by Alec Benjamin and a convo with my fandom wifey @brandileigh2003 about how Wolfstar are the perfect murder husbands with Sirius often grey morals and Remus has to be a little feral under all that forced politness. So here we go, and I hope you enjoy!

Warings: canon typical violence, minor character death and blood and gore and murder!

Summary: Sirius has learnt where Dumbledore has been sending Remus, back to the packs he despises. Using his as bait to lure out Greyback. The monster of Remus' nightmares.

Sirius can not, will not stand by and let htis happen, let Remus be used like this. No matter what he has to do to stop it, to keep hi Moony safe.

And as always, and excerpt:

The reality of all that Remus had been enduring for him, for James, for Lily, for Harry, and for Dumbledore hit Sirius like a bludger to the chest. Everything made so much sense now. He had the final piece to the puzzle of what Remus had been up to. The bruises Remus had come home with that Sirius thought had been left by a lover were left from both rough full moons and for fighting other werewolves to get himself established enough in the pack he was infiltrating. The exhaustion in Remus’s eyes made sense. After all, it wouldn’t be like it was with him, James, and Peter curled up together and tending Remus after he transformed back. The vague, evasive answers every time Sirius asked him about where he had been and who he had been with, which had Sirius questioning his partner in a way he had never expected to, all clicked together for Sirius. Sirius had never pressed Remus too hard for answers, terrified of what they would have been. All his mind and paranoia could imagine was Remus leaving him for another man. He had only suspected Remus of being the spy once, and he had shaken that absurd idea away. Remus would never betray the Potters to death like that, but cheating on Sirius, upgrading to a less mercurial and touchy bastard. Yeah, that had made sense to Sirius at the time. But now, having just learned what he had, knowing that Remus had been sent to the packs where Greyback was bound to catch on eventually made Sirius feel ill. That Dumbledore would willingly put Remus back in that monster’s path proved to Sirius just how little regard Dumbledore actually had for them as people. That Dumbledore would even think of Remus and Greyback, that monster, in the same sentence, let alone throw Remus into a situation where he would inevitably come face to face with the man who had terrorised him since he was a boy, well, that betrayal cut deeper than anything Sirius had ever felt before, and he had been abused and disowned by his own family.

[kaoharu]

how would you rate every a' song & ciel song ever! looks

yippeeeeeeeee !!!!!! heart heart

ill start with ciel bc he has less songs lol

Ache&Deny – worlds most predictable baby ( me ) ok anyways im just a reallly big sucker for kenns vocals in this song. the guitar Also gets me so bad really fucked up how its Always there . even when the loud drums come in . eheh :my eyes tear up: i dont have any comments for the lyrics unfortunately ( mg illness doesnt allow it . . . )

Heaven's Door – i really like the instrumentals for this song also . also always a big fan of when lyrics reference religious concepts and stuff like literally wahtever ( htis is just like hanadoll . sorry )

BLACK ANTHEM – religious concepts again. hi i think hes so interesting stares off into space did you know that die fledermaus is thw name of a german operetta . which im pretty sure is why in the intro ( and the instrumental breaks ) there is the opera like singing. so cool right thumbs up emoji

LUV (Your) StiNG – i just think he sounds really good in this one . no further comments :scratches head:

Vibes – i actually reallly lvoe the lyrics of this song it sucks i cant place it higher . sinc ehe only has five songs. bursts into tears sorry ok also random but it just feels really criminal for vibes ro be last. i love this song i just love the others more for various reasons waaaahhhhh

aaaand for a' 👍 im so excited for his headliner release in :checks calendar: october . strained smile

Pinch102gou – worlds most predictable baby pt2 ( its still me ) i dont even have a really good explanation other than the instrumentals have kept me captive for literally forever. oh yeha and i rlly kimuryos vocal performance its very cool . . . the lyrics are ❓️ if im being honest.i still dont know what he meant but its fine. i like it i dont have to understand

SorakaraHuruYume – this song makes me want to shatter into ten billion pieces i have a hard time listening to it purely bc it makes me stupidly emotional whej i thinkna little too hard in fact i havent even fully listened to it in a while bc i keep skipping and avoiding it cause i get really sad LMAO im ill

THE MIRROR HOUSE – this peaked i love it veryvery much the contrast between it and sorakarahuruyume is wild to me. anyways tho i like to look at the lyrics and jst sit down and think a bit its his second song talking abt mirror images . . . hrmmm

Kamukamu Miracle – I LOVE THE LYRICS FOR THIS SONG. theyre truly as fun as the instrumentals if we ignore his mental health streaks . its season one :] hes just a sillyguy :] and whatnot anyways this is Truly a nsfw song to me heart heart

RE:Morse – big fan of mirror imagery and stuff. i feel liek the lyrics here are an interesting glimpse into how a' views himself and his issues . . . . not rlly sure how to articulate my thoughts on this aside from theyre just kinda Separate from his identity raaaahhh what am i saying

Dakara Onegai Dakara – this song fucks i think it should be listened to more 👍 the lyrics are surprisingly ( or not rlly surprisingly bc this is a' afterall ? ) serious despite his instrumental whimsy what do you mean do you want to kill yourself why are you asking us man /silly

Masaka no Massacre! – worlds biggest sin is that i have literally never been able to find a tl for this song. who cares tho ig it can still be peak to me

Papipupepo de Rarirurero – no one loves this song like me. itd be second place if not for factoring in lyrics . the lyrics are ok papipupepo and rarirurero are really fun to say tho and i can spell it out without having to double check myself anymorw . heh

Yoiyami ni ainori – i looooove how this song sounds . nodding the lyrics are also interesting to me with the various meanings of some phrases in it

Crazy≒Nutrient – i rlly like how it sounds. im not gettung into the lyrics :seal eyes:

#HAPPY – the lyrics for this song are really sweet to be honest. a' happiness ambassador . . . . . . . . . . . . . . i like this song 👍 to be honest maybe it shld be a little bit higher but the instrumentals dont strike me as much as some of his other songs and such . but yes i think everyone shld read the lyrics nodding

Calling Cat – everytime i listen to this song i think of lady gaga im sorry anyways its a very solid song tho i think the lyrics are an interesting read . glimpses into his strange as fuck mind as they say(?)

Ningen Yametatte yo – this song is Very heavy instrumental wise. i think it is neat still . . . yeah :]

Yotsuba CLOVER – i wish i liked this song more like. its very good its jusr surprisingly not up my alley . the lyrics are quite nice however so hearttt

Mirai e – this song is alright . j feel like id like it more if i cld find a tl for the lyrics WAAAAHHHHH anyways not too much to say i feel like unfortunately. i do like the music break its very fun sounding everything else was just Average for me. is this mean

S≠O≒S – waaahhh. i have a complicated relationship with this song. i think the lyrics are ok and the music is fun but i juust feel like his other songs are Better im sorry sos i still like you

KKK->E – another one i cant find a tl for my misery but its ok 👍 this one is a weaker a' song imo like i like it but its not very nsfw soundign thay sounds awful hello . you know i mean it just doesn't sound like their bands usual music to me

[cocomuffy]

I watched Teen Titans: The Judas Contract (2017) because The Batman (2022) was too long.

7/10

spoilers, obviously. here are my live thoughts:

I THINK ITS A DICKORY MOVIE AND IF IT IS I WILL BE SO HAPPY YOU HAVE NO IDEA

Kory kissed him to learn English- I'm laughing so hard right now this is hilarious.

if i had watched this movie in 2020 i would have realized i was bi a lot sooner

The coloration of the "Five Years Ago" and "Now" text is messing with my designer heart rn

it's the red nightwing outfit!!!!!! i havent got to see that much. i much prefer the blue bc there's already like seven red batfam members but like i do think it looks stylish because its dick and dick pulls off everything

"Nightwing." "Nightwing." "Dick..!" "oh, yeah?"

OH THEY'RE SO CUTEEEEEEEE

"they're different..." trails off. "like kory will tell you." "noo, you go aheaddd..." "I've been studying them for years--"

I ALREADY LOVE THEM "robin stop complimenting the bad guys"

no they did not just got there (at 9:40)

damian is just such a brat i love him

kicking my feet, squealing, giggling, throwing up BECAUSE SHE HAS HIS NINE AND HE HAS HER SIX--

i took a fifteen minute break to do the math on how old dick and kory are and got 36?!??!?!?!

garfield has no rizz

i just got like... punched in the gut seven times??? "i just miss my son"

it's the fact that damian is like "i approve of your gf" and nightwing's like "okay???"

"You don't have to move a mountain to help people, Terra." - Probably the theme of this movie

i was not ready for the sexual jokes

oh no raven is on the groundddd

how stupid is damain?!?!??!?!?!?!! especially after the part that slade says about lazarus pits?! he has to know that there is no way he can feasibly win this! and terra isn't helping! which means that terra is probably working with slade!!! GUESS WHO CALLED IT!!!!!!!!!!!

oh god this slade and terra stuff is no good

please tell me that we were not about to get a dick and kory makeout scene

oh thank god for damian

oh my god imagine going into your surpise party thinking people are about to kill you :skull:

ugh i dont like this garfield selfie timeskip whatever

and hasn't anyone noticed robin isn't here???

im doing os much calculations rn for no reason at all

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW STARFIRE'S GOT SOMETHING TO SAYYYYYYYYYY THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND THEY JUST WANT THE BEST FOR EACH OTHER I LOVE THEM

aw. beastboy being supportive

"Do you know why I'm an orphan?" "uhhh... your parents died?"

nooo terra and beast boy kissed absolutely not they are not for each other terra doesn't need any relationships periodddd

aww but bb is really cute after so ig it makes it a lil better

slade shut up this is supposed to be a nice moment

i will never get over dick calling kory babe its too precious i love them so much

i dont trust that gift. i dont trust that.

they're making their moveeeeee- they're taking all the titansss oh noooo

i think that leaves nightwing as the last survivor which is really nerve wracking because i love dick grayson so much??

gar youre so stupid

oh no kory i love you kory please be okayyy

dick just got shot in the chest oh my god, oh my god. screaming crying hyperventilating oh my god oh my god oh my god.

oh i shouldve known he'd be just fine htis is why i love him hes so dependable

OH MY GOD HE JUST RE-SET HIS SHOULDER ON A SUPPORT BEAM HOLY MOLY

"What did you do to Robin?" "I beat the crap out of him for being mouthy."

i have the stupidest sense of humor.

guys i love dick grayson so much and he's the only one left and mmmmm im so ready for this i love dick grayson hes my favorite

ohhh huh terra's getting betrayeeddddd (i never liked terra even though she makes sense she just gives me ickies)

eugh i hate slade he just likes to make sexual references to people that he should not be making those references to i know hes like a predator but it just doesnt make me happy

what is this machine even doing? is it draining their blood? you would need some sort of needle or something? ik that brother blood said something about life? is it draining their life force like some kind of dark crystal jim henson type stuff? what's going on with it? their powers? like... if they wanted nightwing then they weren't going for powers, and they did regular humans first anyway? i dont understand.

woah its the titans against a villian with similar powers!!!!!!!! /j

i like this first pairing of kori and jaime and gar and raven against brother blood and damian and dick against slade bc it feels really personal and also fair.

terra was obivously going to save them all there was no doubt in my mind.

and then teamwork and then they win because of course they do

woah she just shot him like three times that was excessive

oh noooo terraaaaa ( im not sad )

DAMIAN GOT A PUPPY EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD IS RIGHT WEONFOIEWFOIBEWOINFOWNEONFEW

"Terra Markov was like a diamond, the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen."

no beast boy dont make me feel for her

i just realized that i think i called "jaime" "hime" for some godforsaken reason i swear to god my ears are stupid.

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final thoughts:

this movie was a bit much for me on sexual innuendos and references, but most of it was plot relevant. i love to see dickory so im good with that. animation was good. characters were good. had to warm up to gar but that's okay.

7/10

[gayspock]

ugh

its like i try not to be so pathetic about it but fuck it man i dont know. i guess iwas already spiralling again but its just... every time justrandom strangers decide to harass me its just like. ok. itws not that im even taking it personally like i genuinely dontcare what theyre saying no matter how persistent it is. its just that thatsthe only interaction you ever get. and i dontknow. something something ifeel like im always either completely fucking invisible to people or just... the vastmajority of people in this world think youre weird. or dislike you on principle for tenbillino things i cant fucking balance at once on top of the rest of it. and like i mean it wheni say the majority. like i genuinelyjust feel so fucking disconnected every time someone tries it with the "nobody is judging you"horsehsitwhen its like this isnt... me being fucking delusional here it keeps. happening. it happens so regularly. and not just ppl bothering me on the street. i feel like everywhere i go or everytime i try to integrate into somesort of place irl it just.... slowly slowly slowly i feel like peoplejust think im really fucking stupid and assume i cant tell cuz yeh i cant tell a lot of things but like. dude i can catcdh the snide remarks. and like everytime i start thinking about it-starty thinking about trying to get out there again- it just all comes back to me. likeiwant to fucking think people are nice and not maliciousand i think mostly theyrenot but i just i dont know. ive managed to exist inthat little pocket of freak that i cant get the fuck out of and i think ... do you ever feel so fducking dehumanisedall the fucking time and itsjust like. genuinely imtrying not to be pathetic about it. but why dontfucking people care man why dont people actually fucking care i mean for real i mean idont expect them to CARE-CARE but whatswrong with me why am i such fair fucking game im not trying to be a cry baby little victim i jsut. i dont get ti its jsut over stuff i cant deal with and i dont expect people to liek me i just. i dont know why it has to be genuinely so funny to everyon e like. i dont know again. isometimes think about triyng again and trying to date or do anything fucking remotely normal but something something..... evenif you manage with the rest of it, the already way too fucking hard part of pulling yourself together, how much more is there to to dealwith. becauseits one thing to just. handle it when its like some people or a small percentagebut i jsut feel like ... i dont know man . i dont know who im not a fucking joke to on some level and something somehtign. i think im going to be alone forever becausetheres too many things ot fucking overcome and e and like. andits already so fucking difficult exisitng and if i have to bealone i wish i was just. alone. properly. sometimes instead of it always jsut being like this. andits like baby mode shit.

like i dontknow why man. why can somepeople just walk down the street and not getpestered . the same as always.why do you haveto work so so fuckinghard and it never to even matterwhen everyone else can just. exist. and ifeel like . i dont know. ive been feeling so fucking revolting recently cuz i cant getit together and redacted and et cetera and i just i feel like im fucking delusional hiding onlineall the time and triyng not to think about it but then it htis again the second i try to goback to reality or go into work or anything ifeel so fucking disconnected and out of place and i jsut. its already fucking bad enhg is my point why is it like. actively fucking funny. to people. why is it so fucking funny. i dontknow. or the people who whisper about how youre so sad and quietlaughter about how theyve never heard you talk about anyone or seen you talktoanyone and its like pleasewhy g away fucking come on i know itslike i know i just. its even the people who are meantto be "accepting"

. i dontfucking know. whatever over and out i stink of fucking juice after ive been sprayedwith it for like 40 minutes straight on the bus and afterive beentrying to pickapart some. Comments. sent my way and after this and that and during the whatevwer the fuck neverending fucking cycle of just feeling like i dont know what to fucking do with myself everand this and that and why am i always just a fucking joke to peoplewhy what the hell is on my head THE SPIRALLLERRRRRRRRRR and im actually fucking crying about it cuz i was sat there thinking about offingmyself already

[magic-foraging-tooltips]

Forag magjic plseae helkp me idnetify reason t olive

(Srory if htis istoo dark no.one lse is onielne also sorty for hte tyopos iam.tierd an dzzy)

Hey man. This is Forage's mod here, just the guy behind him, no character. There are so many reasons to keep living--and I know firsthand that it's probably really, really hard to see that right now. I've been in that same place for almost a year now, so please know that you're not alone, no matter how much it feels like you are. I'm gonna put a read-more here because this is a triggering topic.

Everyone's reasons to keep going are going to be different. Take some time to think about them--that might have to wait until you're feeling a little bit more stable, if you're having a hard time not spiraling right now. For me... those reasons are the people I love--Magic, my little siblings, my parents, my friends, even the people who just know me in passing. I know it'd hurt a lot for me to be gone. And I stay for the things I make, too. I write a lot outside of this blog and I make jewelry--and I can't do either of those things if I'm not here anymore. I don't want to leave all the projects I care about just cast aside. I wanna play all the video games I've bought and all the games I've been looking forward to--I gotta at least make it to the next Elder Scrolls game, you know? Maybe in my lifetime some more mysteries I care about will be solved. If I didn't make it to summer, I wouldn't have known that several that meant a lot to me were finally put to rest. No reason to keep living is too small. All the small ones I have bring me joy, and I think the more of them you have, the better! Collect them like pokemon cards! Think about all the things that you love, and what makes you happy despite everything. Those are all good reasons to live. You don't have to think of all of them right now--collect and treasure them while you keep going.

I also keep going because the way things are right now isn't how they're always going to be. I know it feels like it when you're in crisis mode. God knows Magic spent enough time trying to convince me of it himself. But that's what's important to remember--the circumstances you're in right now, though they may last longer than you'd like, are not permanent. You and I--we both have a future, as much as we don't believe it. I want to see my future, and I want you to see yours too.

Get yourself a snack and lie down a bit if you're able, and keep seeking help. I'm proud of you for coming to me, and there are other places you can go with better-trained people who can help you more. If you're in the US, these are a couple options available to you--if you aren't, go to google and look up the numbers for your country.

The Trevor Project: (for LGBTQ youth 13-25) Call - 1-866-488-7386 Text - text "START" to 678-678 And they have a chatting option on their website.

Suicide and Crisis Hotline: Call or text 988 Chat via desktop via this page

If you need a reason to keep going and take care of yourself right now: I care about you. I think you are worthy of living, and I know for an absolute fact that other people do too. You're doing amazing and I'm so proud of you for being here right now.

[heyitsthatonesmolgay]

Why I Find Green Plaid So Annoying, And What I Intend to Do about It: An Explanation of My Heroic Actions by Constance Contraire

For one thing plaid’s hideous, a pattern cooked up

By dimwit designers who must have been mad

It’s also perfidious(a word I looked up—it means lots of different things, all of them bad)

Why, it’s nothing but lines! Lines and more lines!

Not one single curve! Not one polka dot!

What monstrous minds could have called these designs?

They ought to be caught and tied up on the spot!

But worse, even worse, is the fact that it’s green,

The color you turn when you’ve eaten a bug,

And all of the gross and nasty things I’ve ever seen,

Like pond scum and slime molds or that horrible slug,

All covered with fungus out in the backyard

That I saw Tuesday night right before I got sick.

No matter how hard I have tried (I’ve tried hard)

I’ve never seen green things without thinking, “Ick!”

So what can I do? There isn’t much for it

If I’m to get rid of this hideous sight:

If green plaid I hate (and I do abhor it)

Then action is called for! A battle! A fight!

I must free the man who has been held

Behind prison fences (that crisscrossing plaid!)

Long covered by so much grass green it’s a veld!

I must free this man who will soon be my dad!

(For if he’s my dad, with him I’ll be seen! So away with this plaid, and good day to this green!)

I have no idea what I did to deserve this glorious post, but I must know because I want more like htis in my inbox. :D

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I can see that happening, so you think the final scene with the couch theory this season is Buck and Eddie after Eddie and Lucy end it. If Eddie and Lucy date I don't see that lasting more then an episode and definitely not carrying over to S7.

Hey

Well we know that the couch Margaret is picking out for him isn't going to last and that he's going to be picking his own couch at the end of the season, so for me that is very much a metaphor for buddie. I don't think its going to be Buck choosing Eddies couch because I don't think Buddie will actually be together at season end, but I do think we'll see him with a couch that compliments Eddies one that can go with him when they eventually move in together and combine their stuff (theres enough room in Eddies sitting room for a second couch!!) and that is ultimately more of a satisfying thing - it plays on the idea that they are both still individuals as well as a couple, and that unlike Taylor getting rid of Bucks couch, they are on equal footing!

I think we'll be seeing Lucy in 6x17 and 18 because they seem to be set up as a double episode arc with the bridge collapse etc. We know Lucy is now with the air operations team and if you try telling me that an episode entitled love is in the air doesn't have some connection to Lucy and dating in it then I'll eat one of Ryans hats!! ( I also love the idea that love is in the air and the Lucy being a female Buck of it all is also very much about the fact that Eddie saved Buck when he was up in the air - literally hanging in the air - its very much playing into the concept of dating the wrong person) We might see her in 6x16 for a bit of set up - depends how they set it up - are they going to start 6x17 with the 118 bumping into Lucy pre the big diaster that will happen towards the end of the ep (for resolution in 6x18) or are they going to put her return in a little earlier so its less jarring - my thinking and feeling is 6x17 is when she'll be back but its hard to know at htis point.

She definitely won't last very long as a love interest it will be a couple of dates and then something will happen to end it and move things forward! and I'm pretty confident that Lucy won't be around in season 7 - it all very much smells of tying up loose ends and a very specific narrative purpose!

[mothpile]

hi i'm back with going home fandragon concept scrys 4 you. the only ones i'm considering changing are rats and Q (breed changes for both) but idk. desire to put q in the stupid fr sweater instead of the skin... and unsure abt rats being a coatl type animal

GWEEGWEGWGEEE GWAAAA NODDING NODDING THESE ARE ALL SO GOOD GWAA... i will say it is

1. feels really Right that we both chose skydancer and obelisk for charlotte and hope respectively

2. its really funny that Seeing the spiral one made me realize i completely. forgot about That Guy because i HAVENT MADE A . DRAGON FOR HIM. HELP?

3. also just want to say i absolutely love the clothing choices i feel like thats where im weaker coz i haveonly seen so much and dont. know whatis andisnt in game and its hard for me to browse. SO seeing what youve done and all the details with thte choices gwaaaa

4. AND using thatone gene to make rats have a pink tail Genius. really smart. looks like a real certified Rat Tail...

also hold on ill share Mine Too Under the cut so that this post isnt. Super Long sfjdhgjf

Charlotte Dragon Thought Process: having a cloak/robe would cover up the Cherub Gene andi Like the detail of the spiral... cracked stuffbecause she does this. shes a bit yellower than her normal self becuase i wantedto have yellow wings = like her wings eyes to at least Try mimicking that idk how much that came across..

Hope Dragon Thought Process: Butterfly Gene = just like moth wings

Ink: if i didnt go with coalt (i love coalts . so many dragonsin my lair. are. coalts..) i wouldve gone with wildclaw too.. wanted to make her have as many like. splotchy/ink like genes while still looking cohesive

Q: leaning harder on him being a little worm guy for this.. not super 100% on all the genes for them here But the idea is there

rats: i actually really struggle with deciding a dragon for rats!! i wanted to do something with the fact shes a rat king basically but unfortunately flight rising hasnt put in a rat king dragon yet -_- tch...

purple guy (SECRET BONUS AND REVEAL OF WHO I THOUGHT TO MAKE BEFORE MAKING [GUY WHO HAS LITERALLY ALREADY SHOWN UP BEFORE] ): who the dink is htis Pondering his sdamn orb Ill probably go less hard on the Patchwork Genes . ease up a little there buddy.

[clonehub]

thinking of how id want kiki's first animation debut to go. there's a few options:

First, when she rescues crusade squad from a separatist testing facility and confronts the jedi who wants to expose her secret network of escape plans for clone deserters.

Pros: hospital gown!kiki where we can see her Arms, a good introduction for each member of CS since they'd be separated and in different conditions, good tease into what kiki's hiding (with the implication that Bliz knows but is keeping it secret/hiding that he knows from kiki), a good show of the grey morality of kiki (yes she's saving the clones but she's choking out like 8 different normie scientists to do so), a Lightsaber Duel, a huge bloody nose, and a one-hit standoff in the rain

Second, the gala arc. All pros except for the fact that it's later in her time in the GAR and literally the next day she's pushing into the deicion to leave the Order entirely. so anything after that would have to be a) EXTREMELY dark and b) her in the process of leaving (this is also nearly a year before O66)

third is a good if underdeveloped idea. they're moving civilians from one area to another to keep them safe from seppies (good to show how even if she tries her best, there's still harm because she's forcing a relocation that people dont want even if its to get them out of harms way). shit hits the fan. she's injured and taking the losses personally but she's visibly trying to hold herself together despite both these things. Bliz, sensing this, is like "I can finish up here, sir" (good: shows how in tune they are). Kiki walks back to her room. shes smiling at the clones she passes. she shuts the door. the room is dim. she leans heavily against the door and slides down, breathing hard, her brown furrowed in pain. its silent (not even music). she pulls her knees up and you think you can hear her start to sob but then her comm rings, its Bliz asking if she wanted to hit the mess (good bc it shows how in tune with her he is). kiki says no, crawls/limps to a drawer that has some medical supplies (shows that she's done this before). shes trying to patch her hands when she gets a comm from Cord (CMO) telling her to come to the medbay rather than doing what she's doing (shows she's done htis before). kiki refuses. cord threatens to send a medical droid down and have her escorted, but in a sort of sarcastic way, like "i could have the med droid escort you if that would make you more comfortable, sir (it wouldnt and it knows this)" so kiki has to haul herself to the medbay

this would be the last episode/scene of a four-part arc that would take place earlier in the war. its only a few months in and we can already see that the war is breaking her.

[cleoselene]

okay so this is a 4.5 hour Twin Peaks theory video lol and I watched the whole thing and I have OPINIONS on it and literally no one to talk to about it, because I don't know anyone who has even watched all of TP let alone a 4.5 hour video on it, so time to shout into the void of tumblr

I have never ever watched a youtube video this long so it's a testament to this dude for actually holding my attention? I'll start out nice because the time went quickly, it was presented well, and I wasn't bored at any point. It was coherent and I can tell he's done some time in academia because he's really really diligent about driving home his thesis, over and over and OVER again, probably too much, but it screamed academically trained how intense he was about his thesis. I do think some of his observations are very strong: Mike saying "I mean things like they are, like they sound" being a nice big clue is a good one. Gordon Cole literally being THE DIRECTOR and being played by David Lynch.

But oh my god, lol, what the fuck at him opening the video being like OKAY NOT JUST SPOILERS BUT THIS THEORY IS SO CORRECT IT WILL RUIN YOUR ENJOYMENT OF HTIS SHOW. Like, dude, no, have some humility. Also, him declaring he's going to completely ignore all the contributions of Mark Frost is... a Choice, because David Lynch himself literally says Mark Frost is 50% of the creative force. You can't just ignore half of the creative team because it doesn't suit your thesis.

Not just that, this guy has little to say about The Return. The Return is 18 episodes. Lynch FOUGHT for it to be 18 episodes and not 9. I get that he feels his theory holds with just the first two seasons and FWWM, but why would Lynch push as hard as he did for another 9 hours of television if his message was already covered in S1/2 and FWWM? And when he does make connections with The Return, they are... really not as strong. Like, it's obvious he had a long time to marinate on this theory for the older content, and The Return, not so much.

I also don't think Twin Peaks (or any longform expansive piece of art) has such a neat and tidy theory (hilarious, I know to call it neat and tidy when it's a 4.5 hour video, but it' actually is very simple, he just uses a lot of examples). Longform art like this touches on a lot of ideas and themes and concepts and isn't so basic. Like, anyone who has done any kind of longform creating would know this, because it would be BORING to make a project this long and ongoing with just one concept being driven home and over and over and over again. Artists like to repeat themselves but not THAT much. There's a lot more richness to the text than this theory gives it credit for, I think

Still, there are a lot of good ideas here, but they are often reduced to fit the sort of cypher that the theorist wants to fit, and I think that's sort of a shame!

And I'm trying to be nicer on the internet so I'll just say he should have not done the David Lynch impression and leave it at that >_>

[auspex]

16, 20, 23 for mark !

OH you asked some Good Ones. - What is your OC's pain tolerance like?

eh. i mean. as a vampire obviously all senses are dulled so. but i guess since he is good at putting up a Front he has somewhat betterthan average tolerance but not enough for an extra dot mechanically (he has average stamina at 2). he went through a lot of Gorey stuff early on (like the worst case of road rash everrr) so has some tolerance to it.

As for as emotional pain... damn good. resolve 4, composure 3. he is good at Putting Off Thinkingof Pain. thankfucking god too, he needs that shit.

-

Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

Hmhmhm. You know i think he was a pretty good romantic partner cause of his belief in true love so unless you did something to make him Suspicious he wouldn't get jealous. but once he IS suspicious he would start getting jealous frequently cause paranoid, but would be easy to convince cause gullible. fuckin idiot. love him.

i feel it manifested differently pre embrace (not sure how) butpost embrace it would now manifest in him literally scrying on you. he gets no privacy so its harder for him to respect others privacy. toxic for sure - still better than using dominate or something iguess? like its not INhuman its just fucked up.

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What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

Process: HMMM ok this is gonna sound weird cause he's a romantic but. hear me out. Unexpected desire.

Unless its very obvious that the other person is interested, and thus be forced to think about it, he will NOT realize he has a crush. and not just with romance. He is constantly worried about so many things that he doesn't worry about want he wants, really. it was hard for him to answer when he was asked what he wanted and he STILL talked around it. like when he was a human he had decided that Tenure Was Something He Should Get so he put all of his effort into that even though, i think had he taken a step back and asked what he wanted, he would have actually preferred to take some time to pursue other things he cared about! but he put everything into that because he wasn't worried about what he wanted. AND OOOPS THAT MADE HIM A REAL PROLIFIC WRITER WHICH CAUGHT THE ATTENTION OF JULIUS OOOPSSSS fuck i just realized htis. ouch.

Express: is vulnerability an emotion? those walls are up so high that even he has problems getting past them or knowing they are there. he will almost always downplay and/or avoid issues.

he is FINALLY gonna address some things with sampson but this is after MONTHSSS like 8 months of NOT doing so which is insane. dude. please. and its only cause sampson is bringing it up too alkjdslkfds

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

I have a horrible cold, the sleep meds are hitting, but it's been two and a half months and htis feels like a good day for making questionable choices so HERE I AM TO SEE HOW WELL THIS FUCKING POST HOLDS UP HUH LET'S SEE HOW IT HOLDS UP, MAGGOTS, AHAHAH.

"signals foir help" lmao bitchboy you THOUGHT.

i mean tyeah we're all queer it's trUe of this entire hellsite not just the show but yes so queer oh my god it's more queer than a pineapple-platypus fanart

oooooh yes they likey and then we all see them likey and we think me likey

fuck you pasta asmi it's black literally anything can be silver or white if you make it reflect enoguh light is that phislosophical maybe

AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH CROWLEY BEING EMO AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA BITCH HE WISHES HE COULD BE THAT COOL AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA OMG THAT DISASTER

listen. listen. it's true. but you doN'T HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING UPPITTY ABOUT IT OKAY YOU'RE NEARLY THERE YOU'RE GOING TO BE A CHILD OF DIVORCE TOO WAIT AND SEE.

i think gabriel causes problems just be existing tbh but big mood anyway fuCK YOU GABRIEL LOVE YOU JIM OR SOMETHING IDK

no no that's true that's true that's fair marriage is a social construct and theyre so married fr

shut the fuck up DON'T JUST SAY THINGS LIKE THAT DON'T STAND AND WATCH EVERYTHING CROWLEY LOVES BURN FIRST THE BOOKSHOP WHICH WAS THE ONLY PLACE HE WAS SAFE FROM HELL AND THEN THE BENTLEY AND THEN HE HAS TO STAND AND BURN IN THE BODY OF THE ANGEL HE LOVES OKAY SHUT UP PAST ASMI SHUT UP

I--HOW DID YOU NOTKNOW ABOUT TDAVID TENNANT LIKE OKJAY YOU WERE JUST TWO WEEKS INTO THE HELLSITE BUT EVERYONE HERE KEEPS TALKING ABOUT HUIM (REFER BAFTA INCIDENTS)

NO HE ISN'T FICTIONAL, TERRY GNU

Is Neil fictional? Am I fictional? I mean I still haven't evaded all the I'm Delirium from Sandman accusations so like. Um. ANYWAY GONNA ASSUME YOU'RE PROUD OF ME NEIL OKAY SINCE YOU'VE NEVER SAID OTHERWISE K COOL THANKS.

Uhhhhhh two preteens actually well I mean depends I mean. I mean. Why am I trying to make sense of either my rambling or the show. Why am I trying.

The baby delivered was the son of satan and became the preteen idk what to tell you man it do be like that sometimes

diSCo TonYyyYYY he even has a stripper name (NO HE DOESN'T, BY THE WAY. WHY DID YOU ALL LIE TO ME ABOUT THIS I WATCHED THE SHOW WAITING FOR THE DISCO TONY STRIPPER ERA.)

....what

you enver understand anything what's new (neither do i, it's ok)

and just like it's mascot.

like the book says "every little bit helps". I mean the book also says "right mumbled crowley suddenly feeling very alone" so like AAA

is there anything they DONT do with homoerotic undertones tho IS there because i haven't seen it yet

man y'all were right i really did make crowley sound like a stripper in this post i'm sorry crowley i love you but your disaster ass could never actually go through with that career stick to being in love with aziraphale as a full time occupation okay

WHICH FUCKING HAIRCUT ARE YOU INSLUTING ASMI CME FACE ME WHICH ONE HUH BECAUSE THEY LOOK GEOGROUS IN THEM ALL FUCK YOU

stop saying queer it's so redundent queer and good omens are the same ffs

i feel fucking called out by MY OWN PAST SELF OW OKAY FINE MESSAGE RECEIVED DID I EVER BLAME NEIL NO SO STOP BRAINROT-SHAMING ME PAST-ME, OK? I KNOW. I KNOW I'M THE PROBELM.

NIOPE JUST GONNA LEAVE THAT THERE NOPE

*nasally front bench student voice because yes* ACTUALLY, it was both oF THE--i forgot what the point i was making was but uh it was both of them is generally a safe point about everything in GO

children. THE THEM,MMMMM AND TY TENNENT AND IM JEMBIMAN AND I MADE THIS POT /NOT DRUG

oh wow really was there nearly missed that apocalypse damN NO I DIDN'T THE APOCALYPSE WAS COOL YOU ALL REALLY CONVINCED ME IT DIDN'T EXIST HUH no fair you were brainroted i exucse it

WE'RE ALL SAD AND AZIRAPHALE DOESN'T WANT TO GO TO HEAVEN EITHER AND AZIRAPHALE IS SAD TOO I MEAN NO WAIT CROWLEY IS SAD TOO IDK OKAY I AM SO ILL RIGHT NOW

shut THE FUCK UP I'VE NEVER BEEN CALLED OUT SO HARD BY MYSELF. FUCKING BITCH-SLKAPPED BY THE PAST. WHO LET YOU HUH. WHO.

HAHAHAHAH SANIOTY WHAT SANITY WHUICH SANTY HEY MAGGOTS YOU SEE ANY SANITY BECVAUSE I SURE AS FUCK DON';T

holds up pretty wrlll methinks i'm just shocked that you all didn't instantly punch me in the face klike that's so wiLD.

oh i am so ill and wozozy i may have covid who knows i'll go to a doc but mainLY I'M IN LOVE WITH CROWLEY. just gonna run with the assumption that neil is proud of me and that you maggots are proud too because i am so dazed that i do not entertain alternate thoughts i barely entertain thoughts at all love you xoxoxo

Pt III good omens but i STILL SOMEHOW haven't watched it (and i'm increasingly passive aggressive)

i'm now basically held hostage adopted as mascot by this fandom. it's fine i'm fine *SIGNALS FOR HELP DESPERATELY*

Alright fuckers I swear this time I'm going to get some shit right. Without further ado, here's my third attempt at a good omens summary:

Everything everywhere is queer all at once

Angel Aziraphale and demon Crowley on earth likey each other

The car is a bentley and it is BLACK not silver and everyone is very upset about this. my bad yall it was reflecting light therefore i guessed more silver than black but I'm not Anish Kapoor take your black.

Then it is yellow, and aziraphale likes it. crowley preferred the black because he's a flamboyant emo.

God is a deadbeat absentee parent and you are all children of divorce.

There's a naked archangel and they cause problems for the husbands somehow. By being naked? By being an archangel? By being at their doorstep? Who knows not me

They were actually married for 6000 years, they just are the last to know about it.

Crowley is on fire. Like, he's slaying for sure, but also he is literally on fire, like Aziraphale's bookstore.

The actors like I said before are Michael Sheen and David Tennant but this is the place where I finally admit that I don't actually know who is whom. I'm going to assume Michael is Aziraphale because Michael sounds angel-y and David is Crowley because uh Michaelangelo made David and was gay for him.

Terry Pratchett is not fictional.

He co-wrote the book with @neil-gaiman, who IS fictional, because he does not have social media. Several of you have assured me that he is in fact a fandom inside joke. I like to think he would be proud of me.

They adopt a preteen and Crowley gives him bad advice.

At some point a baby was delivered to someone and was exchanged for the son of Satan. Idk if the baby is the preteen, or the son of satan is the preteen, or neither. This could be a fanfic, I have no way of differentiating the fanfic from canon on tumblr, except that the canon is weirder.

Crowley does not go down a chute. He goes down a telephone cord after making himself microscopic to pole dance on a pin with shroom-induced backgrounds.

During this his stage name is Disco Tony. Get it king go slay you're making better life choices than I am tbh.

Aziraphale is a biblically accurate angel, and you have all gone to extensive lengths to prove this to me. I understood nothing, but there you go.

It's all very queer, just like the fandom.

Crowley is a retired demon but he still sins by breaking the speed limit.

They eat at fancy restaurants and bicker but like in a sexual undercurrent way.

Crowley gives Aziraphale a private dance that is not a lap dance, it is an apology dance, but not in a kinky way, until it is.

Their haircuts keep changing and range from 'this is acceptable and gay' to 'i let a drunk chimpanzee take gardening shears and a blowtorch to my hair'

It's all ineffably queer my good fellows

Everyone keeps trying to convince me Neil Gaiman is the villain yeah no guys I know it's really you. Y'all be like 'SEASON TWO BROKE ME' and then you're making headcanons to make it sadder yeah I see you mmhm.

There is a final fifteen. It is sad. What is it? No one told me.

The demon turns goats into crows and the angel turns them back and then children are turned into newts (does the angel turn them back? who cares not yall) and the demon was the snake in the Eden garden and everyone's furry game seems to be on point.

There are a rather lot of children. I have not seen them. But I am assured they are there. They are, guys. I assume they were turned into the alcohol Aziraphale and Crowley drink or something.

There was an apocalypse plotline. It was averted. It is not important. You don't talk about plotlines in this fandom, no sir.

Crowley doesn't want to go to heaven. Aziraphale is sad.

The kiss is not nice, just like this fandom. It is queer, just like this fandom. It is sad and desperate and masochistic, just like this fandom.

Aziraphale doesn't want to stay back with Crowley. Crowley is sad.

Season 2 ends. Fandom is sad.

Everyone's sanity is hinging on the promise of a happy ending in season 3. Good luck guys.

Y'all better appreciate this. I can't even boast to my mother about this legacy of mine, hey mum your son has been held hostage kidnapped inducted into a cult adopted by a fandom he's not part of look he's winning at life.

[stoneclaw]

i dont want toooo i dont wanna think abt it i dont wanna tlak abt it i dont wanna hve fto feel iti or work towards decisions ughghgh. i dont wanna wake up early i dont wanna stay the way i am i dont wanna have to work so hard to be a diffefren tway i espeically dont wanna do all ths when i feel FINE most of the time bc im in some weird interim where im sufficiently focused on something else so i dont remember how much things are botheering me except on rare occasions. specifically bc then i feel like im making this sall up as if i wasnt at the end of my wits at the start of the eyar n had been on a long backslide for a while before that

let me just bury my heAD IN TEH SAND dand then pass away when it does not work anymore arrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. that isi insincere iik i ahve to maek ana efffort at least before. that recourse. i owe it to enough ppl -A-; idk if i ifeel like im in the right headspace to work thru things tho bc its not That Bad rn. but it needs sdoinng and im here now n waiting will accomplish waht exactly? its easier when its do it ro die i think. and then tehres sthe whole. are eu sure it snot that bad or are u thinking that to weasel out of it. fuck if i know.

no point really im just. uncertain about everyt8ing all the time always, and annoyed by taht -_- the amount of times im both there and just going around about my day thats ike 'sshut it you ought to have a girp on this thing already' whatever patience with myself i managed to learn a long time ago is a bit gone.

im not ofixing the typos i wrote this with myu face resting on my arm and my eyes shut bc im sleepy and ((skjghsghihrghisrhgs,.))

i dont want to be a person. can i be a leaf. or a rock.

htis is probably mostly just bc i dont wanna talk about it tho. i just

dont