#DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD HTIS WAS

[hungerpunch]

hiii lo pls tell me ur top 3 plants 💕

this is truly very cruel what do u expect me to saaaaay ಥ_ಥ what if i type three plants and the other plants SEE IT!!!! idek if you mean plants that i personally own or plants in the world? okay i'm gonna give myself rules

going with plants that i personally own and i'm going to divide them btwn what i have inside and outside so !!! there!

inside:

i'm fuckingggldk fkldfjdf. i have like 40-something houseplants. honestly maybe more i haven't counted in quite some time. top 3? ummm okay okay. it's fine. i am strong and i can do this.

scindapsus pictus (it's not a pothos!!!!!) - atp my scindapsus is the oldest houseplant that i have due to the fact that in 2018 the furnace for our apartment died while we were out of town for christmas, so i returned to 26 dead houseplants and had to start over. she's my heart plant; she's been with me thru so much, she's been so forgiving, she stuck with me despite grief-driven neglect a couple years ago. i think scindapsus pictus are underrated. they're super tolerant of most conditions and are the opposite of drama queens. my beloved.

monstera deliciosa - i meaaan!!! how could it not be. i call mine goliath or monstro and he's big big. he's taller than me. i've had him for several years now and he's easily my biggest plant. he makes me feel very safe and settled when i just hang out with him.

epipremnum pinnatum marble - i have not had this guy very long; i got him as a babybaby off buynothing from a Serious Plant Dude who had to downsize his collection for an emergency move (thank u joey). i call the plants i got from him the joey plants and of them, i am most digging the marble king pothos. i had no idea it was as new of a cultivar as it was when i got it. it's still little but it's growingg and it's already giving me fenestrated leaves! oh it's so precious to me!!!! if i can get it to maturity, it will be absolutely drop dead gorgeous.

outside

swamp milkweed!! just posted ab them this morning. they're so fucking cute!

an olive tree that i was gifted by a truly ancient woman i was picking up a starter lemon tree from; it's so pretty i think!

the raspberry bushes!! hello i have eaten raspberries from my own yard!!!! incredible!

[anonymously (or not) ask me any question you’d like to know about me]

[front-facing-pokemon]

[lucifer-kane]

rain and i are rewatching tlovm and quite simply i miss vm more than anything in the world

[kaoharu]

how would you rate every a' song & ciel song ever! looks

yippeeeeeeeee !!!!!! heart heart

ill start with ciel bc he has less songs lol

Ache&Deny – worlds most predictable baby ( me ) ok anyways im just a reallly big sucker for kenns vocals in this song. the guitar Also gets me so bad really fucked up how its Always there . even when the loud drums come in . eheh :my eyes tear up: i dont have any comments for the lyrics unfortunately ( mg illness doesnt allow it . . . )

Heaven's Door – i really like the instrumentals for this song also . also always a big fan of when lyrics reference religious concepts and stuff like literally wahtever ( htis is just like hanadoll . sorry )

BLACK ANTHEM – religious concepts again. hi i think hes so interesting stares off into space did you know that die fledermaus is thw name of a german operetta . which im pretty sure is why in the intro ( and the instrumental breaks ) there is the opera like singing. so cool right thumbs up emoji

LUV (Your) StiNG – i just think he sounds really good in this one . no further comments :scratches head:

Vibes – i actually reallly lvoe the lyrics of this song it sucks i cant place it higher . sinc ehe only has five songs. bursts into tears sorry ok also random but it just feels really criminal for vibes ro be last. i love this song i just love the others more for various reasons waaaahhhhh

aaaand for a' 👍 im so excited for his headliner release in :checks calendar: october . strained smile

Pinch102gou – worlds most predictable baby pt2 ( its still me ) i dont even have a really good explanation other than the instrumentals have kept me captive for literally forever. oh yeha and i rlly kimuryos vocal performance its very cool . . . the lyrics are ❓️ if im being honest.i still dont know what he meant but its fine. i like it i dont have to understand

SorakaraHuruYume – this song makes me want to shatter into ten billion pieces i have a hard time listening to it purely bc it makes me stupidly emotional whej i thinkna little too hard in fact i havent even fully listened to it in a while bc i keep skipping and avoiding it cause i get really sad LMAO im ill

THE MIRROR HOUSE – this peaked i love it veryvery much the contrast between it and sorakarahuruyume is wild to me. anyways tho i like to look at the lyrics and jst sit down and think a bit its his second song talking abt mirror images . . . hrmmm

Kamukamu Miracle – I LOVE THE LYRICS FOR THIS SONG. theyre truly as fun as the instrumentals if we ignore his mental health streaks . its season one :] hes just a sillyguy :] and whatnot anyways this is Truly a nsfw song to me heart heart

RE:Morse – big fan of mirror imagery and stuff. i feel liek the lyrics here are an interesting glimpse into how a' views himself and his issues . . . . not rlly sure how to articulate my thoughts on this aside from theyre just kinda Separate from his identity raaaahhh what am i saying

Dakara Onegai Dakara – this song fucks i think it should be listened to more 👍 the lyrics are surprisingly ( or not rlly surprisingly bc this is a' afterall ? ) serious despite his instrumental whimsy what do you mean do you want to kill yourself why are you asking us man /silly

Masaka no Massacre! – worlds biggest sin is that i have literally never been able to find a tl for this song. who cares tho ig it can still be peak to me

Papipupepo de Rarirurero – no one loves this song like me. itd be second place if not for factoring in lyrics . the lyrics are ok papipupepo and rarirurero are really fun to say tho and i can spell it out without having to double check myself anymorw . heh

Yoiyami ni ainori – i looooove how this song sounds . nodding the lyrics are also interesting to me with the various meanings of some phrases in it

Crazy≒Nutrient – i rlly like how it sounds. im not gettung into the lyrics :seal eyes:

#HAPPY – the lyrics for this song are really sweet to be honest. a' happiness ambassador . . . . . . . . . . . . . . i like this song 👍 to be honest maybe it shld be a little bit higher but the instrumentals dont strike me as much as some of his other songs and such . but yes i think everyone shld read the lyrics nodding

Calling Cat – everytime i listen to this song i think of lady gaga im sorry anyways its a very solid song tho i think the lyrics are an interesting read . glimpses into his strange as fuck mind as they say(?)

Ningen Yametatte yo – this song is Very heavy instrumental wise. i think it is neat still . . . yeah :]

Yotsuba CLOVER – i wish i liked this song more like. its very good its jusr surprisingly not up my alley . the lyrics are quite nice however so hearttt

Mirai e – this song is alright . j feel like id like it more if i cld find a tl for the lyrics WAAAAHHHHH anyways not too much to say i feel like unfortunately. i do like the music break its very fun sounding everything else was just Average for me. is this mean

S≠O≒S – waaahhh. i have a complicated relationship with this song. i think the lyrics are ok and the music is fun but i juust feel like his other songs are Better im sorry sos i still like you

KKK->E – another one i cant find a tl for my misery but its ok 👍 this one is a weaker a' song imo like i like it but its not very nsfw soundign thay sounds awful hello . you know i mean it just doesn't sound like their bands usual music to me

[cocomuffy]

I watched Teen Titans: The Judas Contract (2017) because The Batman (2022) was too long.

7/10

spoilers, obviously. here are my live thoughts:

I THINK ITS A DICKORY MOVIE AND IF IT IS I WILL BE SO HAPPY YOU HAVE NO IDEA

Kory kissed him to learn English- I'm laughing so hard right now this is hilarious.

if i had watched this movie in 2020 i would have realized i was bi a lot sooner

The coloration of the "Five Years Ago" and "Now" text is messing with my designer heart rn

it's the red nightwing outfit!!!!!! i havent got to see that much. i much prefer the blue bc there's already like seven red batfam members but like i do think it looks stylish because its dick and dick pulls off everything

"Nightwing." "Nightwing." "Dick..!" "oh, yeah?"

OH THEY'RE SO CUTEEEEEEEE

"they're different..." trails off. "like kory will tell you." "noo, you go aheaddd..." "I've been studying them for years--"

I ALREADY LOVE THEM "robin stop complimenting the bad guys"

no they did not just got there (at 9:40)

damian is just such a brat i love him

kicking my feet, squealing, giggling, throwing up BECAUSE SHE HAS HIS NINE AND HE HAS HER SIX--

i took a fifteen minute break to do the math on how old dick and kory are and got 36?!??!?!?!

garfield has no rizz

i just got like... punched in the gut seven times??? "i just miss my son"

it's the fact that damian is like "i approve of your gf" and nightwing's like "okay???"

"You don't have to move a mountain to help people, Terra." - Probably the theme of this movie

i was not ready for the sexual jokes

oh no raven is on the groundddd

how stupid is damain?!?!??!?!?!?!! especially after the part that slade says about lazarus pits?! he has to know that there is no way he can feasibly win this! and terra isn't helping! which means that terra is probably working with slade!!! GUESS WHO CALLED IT!!!!!!!!!!!

oh god this slade and terra stuff is no good

please tell me that we were not about to get a dick and kory makeout scene

oh thank god for damian

oh my god imagine going into your surpise party thinking people are about to kill you :skull:

ugh i dont like this garfield selfie timeskip whatever

and hasn't anyone noticed robin isn't here???

im doing os much calculations rn for no reason at all

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW STARFIRE'S GOT SOMETHING TO SAYYYYYYYYYY THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND THEY JUST WANT THE BEST FOR EACH OTHER I LOVE THEM

aw. beastboy being supportive

"Do you know why I'm an orphan?" "uhhh... your parents died?"

nooo terra and beast boy kissed absolutely not they are not for each other terra doesn't need any relationships periodddd

aww but bb is really cute after so ig it makes it a lil better

slade shut up this is supposed to be a nice moment

i will never get over dick calling kory babe its too precious i love them so much

i dont trust that gift. i dont trust that.

they're making their moveeeeee- they're taking all the titansss oh noooo

i think that leaves nightwing as the last survivor which is really nerve wracking because i love dick grayson so much??

gar youre so stupid

oh no kory i love you kory please be okayyy

dick just got shot in the chest oh my god, oh my god. screaming crying hyperventilating oh my god oh my god oh my god.

oh i shouldve known he'd be just fine htis is why i love him hes so dependable

OH MY GOD HE JUST RE-SET HIS SHOULDER ON A SUPPORT BEAM HOLY MOLY

"What did you do to Robin?" "I beat the crap out of him for being mouthy."

i have the stupidest sense of humor.

guys i love dick grayson so much and he's the only one left and mmmmm im so ready for this i love dick grayson hes my favorite

ohhh huh terra's getting betrayeeddddd (i never liked terra even though she makes sense she just gives me ickies)

eugh i hate slade he just likes to make sexual references to people that he should not be making those references to i know hes like a predator but it just doesnt make me happy

what is this machine even doing? is it draining their blood? you would need some sort of needle or something? ik that brother blood said something about life? is it draining their life force like some kind of dark crystal jim henson type stuff? what's going on with it? their powers? like... if they wanted nightwing then they weren't going for powers, and they did regular humans first anyway? i dont understand.

woah its the titans against a villian with similar powers!!!!!!!! /j

i like this first pairing of kori and jaime and gar and raven against brother blood and damian and dick against slade bc it feels really personal and also fair.

terra was obivously going to save them all there was no doubt in my mind.

and then teamwork and then they win because of course they do

woah she just shot him like three times that was excessive

oh noooo terraaaaa ( im not sad )

DAMIAN GOT A PUPPY EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD IS RIGHT WEONFOIEWFOIBEWOINFOWNEONFEW

"Terra Markov was like a diamond, the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen."

no beast boy dont make me feel for her

i just realized that i think i called "jaime" "hime" for some godforsaken reason i swear to god my ears are stupid.

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final thoughts:

this movie was a bit much for me on sexual innuendos and references, but most of it was plot relevant. i love to see dickory so im good with that. animation was good. characters were good. had to warm up to gar but that's okay.

7/10

[gayspock]

ugh

its like i try not to be so pathetic about it but fuck it man i dont know. i guess iwas already spiralling again but its just... every time justrandom strangers decide to harass me its just like. ok. itws not that im even taking it personally like i genuinely dontcare what theyre saying no matter how persistent it is. its just that thatsthe only interaction you ever get. and i dontknow. something something ifeel like im always either completely fucking invisible to people or just... the vastmajority of people in this world think youre weird. or dislike you on principle for tenbillino things i cant fucking balance at once on top of the rest of it. and like i mean it wheni say the majority. like i genuinelyjust feel so fucking disconnected every time someone tries it with the "nobody is judging you"horsehsitwhen its like this isnt... me being fucking delusional here it keeps. happening. it happens so regularly. and not just ppl bothering me on the street. i feel like everywhere i go or everytime i try to integrate into somesort of place irl it just.... slowly slowly slowly i feel like peoplejust think im really fucking stupid and assume i cant tell cuz yeh i cant tell a lot of things but like. dude i can catcdh the snide remarks. and like everytime i start thinking about it-starty thinking about trying to get out there again- it just all comes back to me. likeiwant to fucking think people are nice and not maliciousand i think mostly theyrenot but i just i dont know. ive managed to exist inthat little pocket of freak that i cant get the fuck out of and i think ... do you ever feel so fducking dehumanisedall the fucking time and itsjust like. genuinely imtrying not to be pathetic about it. but why dontfucking people care man why dont people actually fucking care i mean for real i mean idont expect them to CARE-CARE but whatswrong with me why am i such fair fucking game im not trying to be a cry baby little victim i jsut. i dont get ti its jsut over stuff i cant deal with and i dont expect people to liek me i just. i dont know why it has to be genuinely so funny to everyon e like. i dont know again. isometimes think about triyng again and trying to date or do anything fucking remotely normal but something something..... evenif you manage with the rest of it, the already way too fucking hard part of pulling yourself together, how much more is there to to dealwith. becauseits one thing to just. handle it when its like some people or a small percentagebut i jsut feel like ... i dont know man . i dont know who im not a fucking joke to on some level and something somehtign. i think im going to be alone forever becausetheres too many things ot fucking overcome and e and like. andits already so fucking difficult exisitng and if i have to bealone i wish i was just. alone. properly. sometimes instead of it always jsut being like this. andits like baby mode shit.

like i dontknow why man. why can somepeople just walk down the street and not getpestered . the same as always.why do you haveto work so so fuckinghard and it never to even matterwhen everyone else can just. exist. and ifeel like . i dont know. ive been feeling so fucking revolting recently cuz i cant getit together and redacted and et cetera and i just i feel like im fucking delusional hiding onlineall the time and triyng not to think about it but then it htis again the second i try to goback to reality or go into work or anything ifeel so fucking disconnected and out of place and i jsut. its already fucking bad enhg is my point why is it like. actively fucking funny. to people. why is it so fucking funny. i dontknow. or the people who whisper about how youre so sad and quietlaughter about how theyve never heard you talk about anyone or seen you talktoanyone and its like pleasewhy g away fucking come on i know itslike i know i just. its even the people who are meantto be "accepting"

. i dontfucking know. whatever over and out i stink of fucking juice after ive been sprayedwith it for like 40 minutes straight on the bus and afterive beentrying to pickapart some. Comments. sent my way and after this and that and during the whatevwer the fuck neverending fucking cycle of just feeling like i dont know what to fucking do with myself everand this and that and why am i always just a fucking joke to peoplewhy what the hell is on my head THE SPIRALLLERRRRRRRRRR and im actually fucking crying about it cuz i was sat there thinking about offingmyself already

[magic-foraging-tooltips]

Forag magjic plseae helkp me idnetify reason t olive

(Srory if htis istoo dark no.one lse is onielne also sorty for hte tyopos iam.tierd an dzzy)

Hey man. This is Forage's mod here, just the guy behind him, no character. There are so many reasons to keep living--and I know firsthand that it's probably really, really hard to see that right now. I've been in that same place for almost a year now, so please know that you're not alone, no matter how much it feels like you are. I'm gonna put a read-more here because this is a triggering topic.

Everyone's reasons to keep going are going to be different. Take some time to think about them--that might have to wait until you're feeling a little bit more stable, if you're having a hard time not spiraling right now. For me... those reasons are the people I love--Magic, my little siblings, my parents, my friends, even the people who just know me in passing. I know it'd hurt a lot for me to be gone. And I stay for the things I make, too. I write a lot outside of this blog and I make jewelry--and I can't do either of those things if I'm not here anymore. I don't want to leave all the projects I care about just cast aside. I wanna play all the video games I've bought and all the games I've been looking forward to--I gotta at least make it to the next Elder Scrolls game, you know? Maybe in my lifetime some more mysteries I care about will be solved. If I didn't make it to summer, I wouldn't have known that several that meant a lot to me were finally put to rest. No reason to keep living is too small. All the small ones I have bring me joy, and I think the more of them you have, the better! Collect them like pokemon cards! Think about all the things that you love, and what makes you happy despite everything. Those are all good reasons to live. You don't have to think of all of them right now--collect and treasure them while you keep going.

I also keep going because the way things are right now isn't how they're always going to be. I know it feels like it when you're in crisis mode. God knows Magic spent enough time trying to convince me of it himself. But that's what's important to remember--the circumstances you're in right now, though they may last longer than you'd like, are not permanent. You and I--we both have a future, as much as we don't believe it. I want to see my future, and I want you to see yours too.

Get yourself a snack and lie down a bit if you're able, and keep seeking help. I'm proud of you for coming to me, and there are other places you can go with better-trained people who can help you more. If you're in the US, these are a couple options available to you--if you aren't, go to google and look up the numbers for your country.

The Trevor Project: (for LGBTQ youth 13-25) Call - 1-866-488-7386 Text - text "START" to 678-678 And they have a chatting option on their website.

Suicide and Crisis Hotline: Call or text 988 Chat via desktop via this page

If you need a reason to keep going and take care of yourself right now: I care about you. I think you are worthy of living, and I know for an absolute fact that other people do too. You're doing amazing and I'm so proud of you for being here right now.

[heyitsthatonesmolgay]

Why I Find Green Plaid So Annoying, And What I Intend to Do about It: An Explanation of My Heroic Actions by Constance Contraire

For one thing plaid’s hideous, a pattern cooked up

By dimwit designers who must have been mad

It’s also perfidious(a word I looked up—it means lots of different things, all of them bad)

Why, it’s nothing but lines! Lines and more lines!

Not one single curve! Not one polka dot!

What monstrous minds could have called these designs?

They ought to be caught and tied up on the spot!

But worse, even worse, is the fact that it’s green,

The color you turn when you’ve eaten a bug,

And all of the gross and nasty things I’ve ever seen,

Like pond scum and slime molds or that horrible slug,

All covered with fungus out in the backyard

That I saw Tuesday night right before I got sick.

No matter how hard I have tried (I’ve tried hard)

I’ve never seen green things without thinking, “Ick!”

So what can I do? There isn’t much for it

If I’m to get rid of this hideous sight:

If green plaid I hate (and I do abhor it)

Then action is called for! A battle! A fight!

I must free the man who has been held

Behind prison fences (that crisscrossing plaid!)

Long covered by so much grass green it’s a veld!

I must free this man who will soon be my dad!

(For if he’s my dad, with him I’ll be seen! So away with this plaid, and good day to this green!)

I have no idea what I did to deserve this glorious post, but I must know because I want more like htis in my inbox. :D

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I can see that happening, so you think the final scene with the couch theory this season is Buck and Eddie after Eddie and Lucy end it. If Eddie and Lucy date I don't see that lasting more then an episode and definitely not carrying over to S7.

Hey

Well we know that the couch Margaret is picking out for him isn't going to last and that he's going to be picking his own couch at the end of the season, so for me that is very much a metaphor for buddie. I don't think its going to be Buck choosing Eddies couch because I don't think Buddie will actually be together at season end, but I do think we'll see him with a couch that compliments Eddies one that can go with him when they eventually move in together and combine their stuff (theres enough room in Eddies sitting room for a second couch!!) and that is ultimately more of a satisfying thing - it plays on the idea that they are both still individuals as well as a couple, and that unlike Taylor getting rid of Bucks couch, they are on equal footing!

I think we'll be seeing Lucy in 6x17 and 18 because they seem to be set up as a double episode arc with the bridge collapse etc. We know Lucy is now with the air operations team and if you try telling me that an episode entitled love is in the air doesn't have some connection to Lucy and dating in it then I'll eat one of Ryans hats!! ( I also love the idea that love is in the air and the Lucy being a female Buck of it all is also very much about the fact that Eddie saved Buck when he was up in the air - literally hanging in the air - its very much playing into the concept of dating the wrong person) We might see her in 6x16 for a bit of set up - depends how they set it up - are they going to start 6x17 with the 118 bumping into Lucy pre the big diaster that will happen towards the end of the ep (for resolution in 6x18) or are they going to put her return in a little earlier so its less jarring - my thinking and feeling is 6x17 is when she'll be back but its hard to know at htis point.

She definitely won't last very long as a love interest it will be a couple of dates and then something will happen to end it and move things forward! and I'm pretty confident that Lucy won't be around in season 7 - it all very much smells of tying up loose ends and a very specific narrative purpose!

[mothpile]

hi i'm back with going home fandragon concept scrys 4 you. the only ones i'm considering changing are rats and Q (breed changes for both) but idk. desire to put q in the stupid fr sweater instead of the skin... and unsure abt rats being a coatl type animal

GWEEGWEGWGEEE GWAAAA NODDING NODDING THESE ARE ALL SO GOOD GWAA... i will say it is

1. feels really Right that we both chose skydancer and obelisk for charlotte and hope respectively

2. its really funny that Seeing the spiral one made me realize i completely. forgot about That Guy because i HAVENT MADE A . DRAGON FOR HIM. HELP?

3. also just want to say i absolutely love the clothing choices i feel like thats where im weaker coz i haveonly seen so much and dont. know whatis andisnt in game and its hard for me to browse. SO seeing what youve done and all the details with thte choices gwaaaa

4. AND using thatone gene to make rats have a pink tail Genius. really smart. looks like a real certified Rat Tail...

also hold on ill share Mine Too Under the cut so that this post isnt. Super Long sfjdhgjf

Charlotte Dragon Thought Process: having a cloak/robe would cover up the Cherub Gene andi Like the detail of the spiral... cracked stuffbecause she does this. shes a bit yellower than her normal self becuase i wantedto have yellow wings = like her wings eyes to at least Try mimicking that idk how much that came across..

Hope Dragon Thought Process: Butterfly Gene = just like moth wings

Ink: if i didnt go with coalt (i love coalts . so many dragonsin my lair. are. coalts..) i wouldve gone with wildclaw too.. wanted to make her have as many like. splotchy/ink like genes while still looking cohesive

Q: leaning harder on him being a little worm guy for this.. not super 100% on all the genes for them here But the idea is there

rats: i actually really struggle with deciding a dragon for rats!! i wanted to do something with the fact shes a rat king basically but unfortunately flight rising hasnt put in a rat king dragon yet -_- tch...

purple guy (SECRET BONUS AND REVEAL OF WHO I THOUGHT TO MAKE BEFORE MAKING [GUY WHO HAS LITERALLY ALREADY SHOWN UP BEFORE] ): who the dink is htis Pondering his sdamn orb Ill probably go less hard on the Patchwork Genes . ease up a little there buddy.

[clonehub]

thinking of how id want kiki's first animation debut to go. there's a few options:

First, when she rescues crusade squad from a separatist testing facility and confronts the jedi who wants to expose her secret network of escape plans for clone deserters.

Pros: hospital gown!kiki where we can see her Arms, a good introduction for each member of CS since they'd be separated and in different conditions, good tease into what kiki's hiding (with the implication that Bliz knows but is keeping it secret/hiding that he knows from kiki), a good show of the grey morality of kiki (yes she's saving the clones but she's choking out like 8 different normie scientists to do so), a Lightsaber Duel, a huge bloody nose, and a one-hit standoff in the rain

Second, the gala arc. All pros except for the fact that it's later in her time in the GAR and literally the next day she's pushing into the deicion to leave the Order entirely. so anything after that would have to be a) EXTREMELY dark and b) her in the process of leaving (this is also nearly a year before O66)

third is a good if underdeveloped idea. they're moving civilians from one area to another to keep them safe from seppies (good to show how even if she tries her best, there's still harm because she's forcing a relocation that people dont want even if its to get them out of harms way). shit hits the fan. she's injured and taking the losses personally but she's visibly trying to hold herself together despite both these things. Bliz, sensing this, is like "I can finish up here, sir" (good: shows how in tune they are). Kiki walks back to her room. shes smiling at the clones she passes. she shuts the door. the room is dim. she leans heavily against the door and slides down, breathing hard, her brown furrowed in pain. its silent (not even music). she pulls her knees up and you think you can hear her start to sob but then her comm rings, its Bliz asking if she wanted to hit the mess (good bc it shows how in tune with her he is). kiki says no, crawls/limps to a drawer that has some medical supplies (shows that she's done this before). shes trying to patch her hands when she gets a comm from Cord (CMO) telling her to come to the medbay rather than doing what she's doing (shows she's done htis before). kiki refuses. cord threatens to send a medical droid down and have her escorted, but in a sort of sarcastic way, like "i could have the med droid escort you if that would make you more comfortable, sir (it wouldnt and it knows this)" so kiki has to haul herself to the medbay

this would be the last episode/scene of a four-part arc that would take place earlier in the war. its only a few months in and we can already see that the war is breaking her.

[cleoselene]

okay so this is a 4.5 hour Twin Peaks theory video lol and I watched the whole thing and I have OPINIONS on it and literally no one to talk to about it, because I don't know anyone who has even watched all of TP let alone a 4.5 hour video on it, so time to shout into the void of tumblr

I have never ever watched a youtube video this long so it's a testament to this dude for actually holding my attention? I'll start out nice because the time went quickly, it was presented well, and I wasn't bored at any point. It was coherent and I can tell he's done some time in academia because he's really really diligent about driving home his thesis, over and over and OVER again, probably too much, but it screamed academically trained how intense he was about his thesis. I do think some of his observations are very strong: Mike saying "I mean things like they are, like they sound" being a nice big clue is a good one. Gordon Cole literally being THE DIRECTOR and being played by David Lynch.

But oh my god, lol, what the fuck at him opening the video being like OKAY NOT JUST SPOILERS BUT THIS THEORY IS SO CORRECT IT WILL RUIN YOUR ENJOYMENT OF HTIS SHOW. Like, dude, no, have some humility. Also, him declaring he's going to completely ignore all the contributions of Mark Frost is... a Choice, because David Lynch himself literally says Mark Frost is 50% of the creative force. You can't just ignore half of the creative team because it doesn't suit your thesis.

Not just that, this guy has little to say about The Return. The Return is 18 episodes. Lynch FOUGHT for it to be 18 episodes and not 9. I get that he feels his theory holds with just the first two seasons and FWWM, but why would Lynch push as hard as he did for another 9 hours of television if his message was already covered in S1/2 and FWWM? And when he does make connections with The Return, they are... really not as strong. Like, it's obvious he had a long time to marinate on this theory for the older content, and The Return, not so much.

I also don't think Twin Peaks (or any longform expansive piece of art) has such a neat and tidy theory (hilarious, I know to call it neat and tidy when it's a 4.5 hour video, but it' actually is very simple, he just uses a lot of examples). Longform art like this touches on a lot of ideas and themes and concepts and isn't so basic. Like, anyone who has done any kind of longform creating would know this, because it would be BORING to make a project this long and ongoing with just one concept being driven home and over and over and over again. Artists like to repeat themselves but not THAT much. There's a lot more richness to the text than this theory gives it credit for, I think

Still, there are a lot of good ideas here, but they are often reduced to fit the sort of cypher that the theorist wants to fit, and I think that's sort of a shame!

And I'm trying to be nicer on the internet so I'll just say he should have not done the David Lynch impression and leave it at that >_>

[auspex]

16, 20, 23 for mark !

OH you asked some Good Ones. - What is your OC's pain tolerance like?

eh. i mean. as a vampire obviously all senses are dulled so. but i guess since he is good at putting up a Front he has somewhat betterthan average tolerance but not enough for an extra dot mechanically (he has average stamina at 2). he went through a lot of Gorey stuff early on (like the worst case of road rash everrr) so has some tolerance to it.

As for as emotional pain... damn good. resolve 4, composure 3. he is good at Putting Off Thinkingof Pain. thankfucking god too, he needs that shit.

-

Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

Hmhmhm. You know i think he was a pretty good romantic partner cause of his belief in true love so unless you did something to make him Suspicious he wouldn't get jealous. but once he IS suspicious he would start getting jealous frequently cause paranoid, but would be easy to convince cause gullible. fuckin idiot. love him.

i feel it manifested differently pre embrace (not sure how) butpost embrace it would now manifest in him literally scrying on you. he gets no privacy so its harder for him to respect others privacy. toxic for sure - still better than using dominate or something iguess? like its not INhuman its just fucked up.

-

What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

Process: HMMM ok this is gonna sound weird cause he's a romantic but. hear me out. Unexpected desire.

Unless its very obvious that the other person is interested, and thus be forced to think about it, he will NOT realize he has a crush. and not just with romance. He is constantly worried about so many things that he doesn't worry about want he wants, really. it was hard for him to answer when he was asked what he wanted and he STILL talked around it. like when he was a human he had decided that Tenure Was Something He Should Get so he put all of his effort into that even though, i think had he taken a step back and asked what he wanted, he would have actually preferred to take some time to pursue other things he cared about! but he put everything into that because he wasn't worried about what he wanted. AND OOOPS THAT MADE HIM A REAL PROLIFIC WRITER WHICH CAUGHT THE ATTENTION OF JULIUS OOOPSSSS fuck i just realized htis. ouch.

Express: is vulnerability an emotion? those walls are up so high that even he has problems getting past them or knowing they are there. he will almost always downplay and/or avoid issues.

he is FINALLY gonna address some things with sampson but this is after MONTHSSS like 8 months of NOT doing so which is insane. dude. please. and its only cause sampson is bringing it up too alkjdslkfds

[the-firebird69]

You might have to do this this is great and it's we might have to they're saying it's a great idea and they like it and it's Thor and Freya and company . We like it too this is a great idea we can make a kit car and stamp it it'd be really nice making so it has doors and a roof and we're gonna go ahead and try and do this instead we can make like a hard top with quick connect you can take the front off or the whole thing and GP has one we're gonna go ahead and look at that detachable doors so you can drive around like this if you wanna.

The centenario has merit it's a new car it's only like 10 years old or little more but it's a new style and it looks awesome and it has some rad features like the Lamborghini Kuntosh we don't think the Quintosh would sell and there's a couple of reasons it doesn't look that modern it doesn't look fast enough even though it's very fast it's an old look it's like the day tomaso older car and we actually seen people try it and it doesn't work but this one will work this one's great we think it looks better than the new ones a lot of people do and they discontinued it. And we know how to make it and we can make replicas from the ground up with the metal hull and a real frame in a real motor and it's easier to do than a kit although we have a lot of cars that we can put it on that are used that's typically a pain if you don't know if the car is history for real it's it's awful so he's wondering how long it would take if we could stamp them and make a specialty plant to make this car and other cars like it and see what happens and we're gonna go ahead and try that

Savage Oppress

The 1990 is the top one and the new one is towards foreground it does look really awesome and he says there's a real quick cure for the odd looking intake and you can see it on the old one he says you just paint that white instead of black and it looks awesome and it really does i've seen it but you want to keep the middle there in the back black and it looks really cool it's supposed to be a hybrid and it didn't sell they were trying to compete with the Ferrari. And he says this is a nice approach to make a replica. And he wants to offer it an electric or gas and the electric would go very fast and when you make a replica you'd don't really use the name you're not allowed to and they won't let you use Lambeau and he said wow that's not good and he has a name and so does she it's an Italian name they use it all the time so they wanna use the name and she knows what is from and it's really a replica and we listed as a replica and it would move so we wanna make this replica company work and he's got an idea they want to trace down what they think of replicas of people called replicants so he's thinkingwe these people treat their cars like people. could name the company that. We are thinking about it they say and that's good

and that's goo

Savage Oppress and we can use iit for what we need they say yes we see. so we do it now and good.

we need htis in and on. so we shall find p lants nwo. and use them and bring them in. what an idea replicas of discontinued supercars and the hypethetical cars too the ones they put at shows. and tried to get going but did not. we use them too. wonderful time today we use this now.

and ye swe like the co name

REPLICANTS INC.

AND int hat font computer good we do this we like t make it work now

and can use it for fly cars if nobody bus them and have sponsors now we see. different cars good we do it.

Thor Freya

and we se t it up ad get orders.

and show what we use and sell it now

Savage Oppress

i have an idea lets set up the fctory today i have orders in and seven differetn cars thousands each...and will give a forward to start it. we willl set up the factory andshow them and tours if need be and they say no we shall look ok good

Darth Maul Darth Talon

we do the go between stuff no but ok we need the now and the lambo is good centnario and the new countach both. electric is good gas better

mac daddy

we can fix it thats why. ok unless he uses stndrd parts true too we see hi good

we do that and now this idea

Olympus

[onlysomethingamazing]

Kelechi quotes

All of these quotes , you said. I have not fabricated or spun any of these up. I obviously couldn't get all of the cute things you said to me , because then i would be here forever , but here are the few i caught.

Enjoy 

" It doesn’t matter what you wear, there’s more to love about you than your hair" 12/02/13

" c: i’m not perfect, but I’m fine if I can make you happy" 10/26/13

" she has a fox face , i don’t like fox faced girls" 11/13/13

"FFBP" 11/14/13

"i love you " 10-23-13

lol

you are wanted

i want you next to me

so rather than htis heater

I can cuddle with you

and we can warm each other

and talk

and fall asleep in each others arms

12-11-2013

 me :when did you fall for me ?

 Him : “lbh, i dont know the exact moment

but i realized when i pick up my phone waiting for your text

when i told you about my dad and you listened

when you said you pray for me

when ilegit got worried when i didnt hear your reply lmao

i

was

so

scared

#embarassing

paranoia

sometimes its good

sometimes it isnt

i dont know exactly when

but its a series of events

when i find myself wanting to tell everyone about you

or interject you into my conversations

and bring you up

"just casually, my girlfriend…"

then i have to stop cuz paranoia’s a bitch

and no loose ends

and if this is gonna work, its gonna stay under wraps

and i thought to myself

fuck, i hate this

having to be quiet

not being able to shout out yea she’s mine

and then i knew i fell for you c:” 12-19-13

"so i’m happy if you’re happy" 12-24-13

me: describe the year 2013 in 5 words

him: “the year I  met  osa “ 

12-26-2013

"no matter wherever in the world you are, as long as i have this * points at me * , it’s adequate

12-27-2013

*after jamming to Hakuna Matata*

"I looooooove seeing how happy this makes you feel" 12-30-13

Me : ” What if we didn’t talk for a whole week, Could we do it?”

Him: ” if you wanna start it and do it. go ahead. we could, if necessary we will. But it’d be very hard for me to leave you alone and i imagine likewise. therefore, i dont want to. I love talking to you. I enjoy your company. I, for lack of better words, need you. So could I? Yes, if the continuance of our relationship depended on such, I would. If not, I feel no need to torture myself. I am a masochist but not that much” - 1-4-14

"in the eyes of the world, there is undoubtedly another woman who is more… "womanly", "dateable" etc than you. In my eyes however, you are quite special for many reasons and you are the best c:"  1-4-14

sumn  Hey, lemme tell you sumn Don’t live in fear of what’s to come  Cuz, then you don’t truly appreciate what you have now. I love you, alot. And you’re what I find myself thinking about. I usually don’t think about this topic very often if any at all Cuz I wanna enjoy our every moment together.” 1-5-14

"and no matter what, I’m always gonna be here to let you know that we can share the burden ,we’re in this together. and i can help you carry your cross" 1/10/14

"  you're a peice of art but i dont think God when he made you based you on anything else c:" 1-20-14

Me: give me 5 reasons i should stay 

Him:  

I love you 

You love me 

We listen to each other 

We support each other 

I need you 

-2/1/2014

"

you

me

"twas great tonight babe

i had sooo much fun wiht you

and i miss you already

i just got home

wow.....

tonight was surreal

you were there

we were safe

no lookin over shoulders

no nothing

you were mine

and i was yours

and we kissed alot

though i missed some of your hints at first lol

too usy watching the game

but the time with you

invaluable

priceless

  cute

arousing

fun

sexy

in a word, surreal

it was hard not msiling in the car

but now in my room

i'm beaming

and reliving every second of tonight with you

te quiero mi amor y espero que podamos hacer eso mas"

2-07-14

"Tu me fais tellement heureux

too many reason

your smile

yo face

yo eyes

that blush giggle you do

your morning texts

asking me how i'm doing

supporting me

being there to listen

being a friend

but also my closest companion

being the ray of light after the nsun in my world is dead

and then brightening my day

loving me

accepting my love

understanding me for the wreck i am

and dealing with me despite that

for taking my jokes

and responding with even feistier oines

for helping me realize that i'm a great person

and not ugly

and not shit

and that i deserve good

for entrusting me

with

the closest thing to you

the thing that is you

your heartand allowing me to give you mine also

for gifting me

with your inner secrets and trust

for giving me the honor of reassuring you that you are beautiful

sexy

intelligent

honest

caring

wonderful woman

not done

also

for being intimate with me

for gifting me with many ofyour firsts

and also for accepting mine

for being honest

trustworthy

considerate

in a nutshell

for loving me, and being you

thats how you make me happy

*loving me/lettingme love you"

02-08-14

" You wore it a long time ago, but then again you're always on my mind"

02-11-14

" Flawless , you can call me Queen K"

02-24-14

" It's big but it small, it;s small but it;s big , if you keep it close it will never fall"

I can't remember the rest but it was really mysterious loll

4/17/2014 

"omg

you're awake!

i'm so happy

i thought youd slep

it was finna be a lonely night

i miss you

ok that was gushy and nasty

heehehehehheh"

6/1/2014

"You don’t shake for a passing breeze. Be a pillar and stand still because you know it won’t affect you/bother you."

06/23/14

  Me: Stop staring , it's weird

You: Staring is ok , if it;s at a work of art 

06-22-14

It’s over ten years in the future and these still make me smile. The puppy love was strong. But what is beautiful is how the love has matured for the better.

I love you Kelechi Basil.

Always have, always will.

-Bubby

[gayspock]

bwehhh

and i dont know ido try . itsreally fucking humiliating that i do . and i dont know i wishsomeone wasthere to just believe me when i say i fuckingtry but it jsut doesntfucking do anything. but it jsut fucking does ntohing. and i feel so fuckign hopeless. and thats the problem. and i feellike the only thing there is is people just assuming i havent tried. and i djsut feel so much fucking grosser inside because i know. i knew i already fucking cant do it and its alread y fucking snowed me under and i already feel so alone and its jsut so isolating and fuckign sic k to mystomach when i fe el like the only assessment people ever have is . you havent worked on yourself enough you havent done this enough you havent done that enough you havent suffered enough you havent wethered through it enough it will work out if you justdo it enoug- qne i jsut feel so fuckiign alone i fuckign wonder sometimes i dont know the millinofucking tmes people have explained to me over and over "getting better is HARD. you KNOW that righr?" LIEK YEAHN DFUDE TEAh dude yeAH DUDE YEAH DUDE IVE DONE IT IVE DONE ALL THE SHIT YOU DFUCKING DO IVE DONE IT A MILLNION FUCKGINT RIMES IVE DONE IT SO SMUFHCI NA DI TMEANS NOTHING AND ITS SO FUCKING . i feel so fucking worthels s i really fucking do ijsut go round and round i hit my head against walls i get nowhere i fee l so ufcking hopeless smeone tells me i didnt do it enog because gues what. the trying isnt enough it doesnt d anyhyign it doesnt mean anything . its jsut a lose fucking cause but i cant . i jsut i dont know i want to die i want to let it all go but theres htis fucking embarrasisng fucking want in me for someone to jut pretend t fucking care at least for jsut fufking ten seconfs wit me i keep feeling so fucking emebarrasse di think about all the poeple ive cared about and hw fucking mortified i am of everything they think of me and how i cantdo anyhting t change it and theyre never going to care back and i cant say that because im a fucking cunt if i do but its the truth and i think theres also that sufcking anger within me i dot know eeyr time i see recovery , see peoples fuckign storeis of getting bwtter theres osmething theres got to be somethign the re to fucking help them beut theresnothing there for me i dont have family to lean on i dont have friends to talk to i dont have a fucking suport system there sntohing to go towards there sntohing that makes it better i dont htink theres anythign worthwhile ot fucking resolve in side me and thereslike why dont people just admit to that right lie . i dont know . is this the nasty shitty fucking feeling that people dont like looking at. i think of all the things ive read, the fucking ways people have tried to go through ancedontes of people whove gottenbetter and thats the unifying factor yhat they were good at osmehting that someone else could like them that they dfodund love that they had anyhting i dont . know it feels s o mcuh worse every time i fe el like its always jus t a kick int he face qwhereis there to go what isthere to do any more i keep trying peopledont believe me because materially it makes so littled difderence and i feel so so so fucking useless and im noteven a lowed to cry about it without fucking being atheigver upperi dont know what to say i dont have it in me i dont afducking have it im not a strong person what do i have i have a fucking TUMBLR BLOG I CAN FUCKIGN SCREAM AT ANF THATS IT HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOL i need to delete oh my fodddd FUCKKK BRO