#DIABETES DONT TOUCH
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The hardest part about diabulimia I think is the lack of visibility for it. I go into eating disorder support areas and nobody there knows what it is, or I hear them jealous I can "eat whatever I want and get skinnier" while my body is slowly killing itself with a lack of insulin. I struggled with anorexia and bulimia for years and I had been recovered for a year or so before my diabetes diagnosis, now I'm right back into that slump but I can't seem to get actual help for it because nobody understands how bad this is.
Anyways. If you have diabulimia I see you. You deserve to recover, your illness is just as real as any other eating disorder and I hope one day you're comfortable enough in your body to heal.
#diabulimia#diabetes#type one diabetes#type one diabetic#type 1 diabetes#type 1 diabetic#actually diabetic#eating disorder mention#ed mention#serious#serious post#text#eating disorder accounts are allowed to interact with this post if you want to recover#otherwise dont touch it
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I also found out I have pretty pretty high cholesterol. This wasn't something my doctor flagged for me just 4 years ago when I last had labs, meaning it's a pretty new issue. That checks out since I've always had good cholesterol.
In good news I'm not even in the ballpark of at risk for diabetes which is the one everyone's worried about for me constantly cuz im fat.
Made an appointment with a psych but I can't get in till May. But once I get my vitamin D under control and get on some kind of mental health pills/assistance and get some energy back it'll be a lot easier to exercise. Until then I'm just gonna focus on eating meat and dairy a little more discerningly and drinking more water cuz my labs came back dehydrated too >_>;
I really wish my doctor had given me some more specific instructions than just "go on a diet and exercise" without even asking me about my diet or activity levels but what can you do. Once you're over 300 pounds you're not really a person to a doctor until you've lost half that.
#diet tw#weight#nice to know I don't really need to worry about sugar#i keep getting tested for diabetes cuz everyone wrings their hands at me about it and its literally never been a concern according to tests#its not in my family which is like 80% of it or some crazy number#high cholesterol is in my family but heart attacks arent really#my mom's side is pretty healthy just riddled with addiction which is why i dont fuck around with substances besides a touch of the maryjane#dont know a lot about my bio fathers side except theyre very mentally ill and also very fat#my mom says i look just like my paternal grandmother but i never met her#kind of scary to only know about one side of family history but what can you do#anyway enough with the rambling i have to be up in like 6 hours...
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I went off today because I'm so tired of people asking me "but will you die?" when I ask if I can have food of some sort, because I'm diabetic.
Like why do people not learn even a shred of what I say??
Why would I ask for something if it would be bad for me??
Why are you treating me like a fragile little shard of glass???
I've only been doing this for 4 years and will do it the rest of my life. I think I will probably know if I'm going to die.
Use a little critical thinking but ALSO listen when I tell you things!!! About my chronic illness!! No one ever bothers to listen!!! Aaaa!!!
#im not that mad just a little perturbed#i know i make jokes about it but im tired of being treated like even eating a tiny bit of sugar will cause me to die#people act like a single drop of soda touching my tongue is going to cause me to go into diabetic shock#im just frustrated by it today because that happened like multiple times from different people#and a couple of them were close friends and it bothers me that people just dont learn#listen to the chronically ill/disabled and please learn when they share information okay#type one diabetic#chronic illness#diabetic#rant post
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Hey I wanted to send a request in for a type 1 diabetic reader with Neteyam and sullys I never see diabetes anyway, so I think it's be interesting for them to see her just inject something into her arm anytime she's eats something and at first their kinda like 😨 "what was that?" Before she has to explain. If you don't want to do thats okay ❤️ and have a good day !!
Hellooooooooooo darling! So I will say this up front. This request hits a bit personal for me, since my mother is type 1 diabetic too. So hopefully you enjoy this one along with everyone else!
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Tsan'ul
“I think we should have our lunch break now, doing chores all day really worked up and appetite” lo’ak says while wiping off the sweat from his forehead. Him and his siblings along with spider and tsan’ul all sat down together under a shade from the trees.
“Finally” tuk sighs tiredly. Kiri and neteyam happily unwrapped the packaged meal their mother prepared in the morning. Handing everyone their portions. It was one of their favorites. Wrapped in steamed leaves, there was meat mixed with roasted fungi sprinkled with puffleaves for that yummy salted taste. Fortunately its the type of food spider and tsan’lu can eat without feeling sick.
Everyone ate their fill, they all relaxed and gathered their energy before continuing on. Spider however nudged at tsan’lu, “hey dont forget your insulin” he reminded her. Tsan’lu makes a popping sound and grabs her pouch. Everyone looks at what she is doing and takes out a long yet thin vile.
“What is that…?” tuk asks in a bit of a whisper. Everyone silently observes tsan’ul as she takes out the blue cap of a needle. Lifting her sleeve up to the shoulder, a white patch is revealed. Removing the cover, tsan’ul injects the needle to where the white patch was. It only lasted a few seconds when she removed the needle to cover the spot of the injection. Rolling down her arm, she sighs in relief.
“What?” she asks.
The sully kids were staring at her wide eyes.
“Die-ah-beetees…?”
“Diabetes”
Tsan’ul was giving a little lesson to the sully kids as they all gathered to know what they just saw.
“Sooooo….there are two types?” Kiri asks, tsan’ul nods.
“And you have type 1?” lo’ak asks soon after. Again, tsan’ul nods.
“So this whole…diabetes sickness. How does it affect you? Were you born with it? '' Neteyam asks, still feeling a bit confused. “And how come just now are we seeing this?” kiri adds. Tsan’ul felt a bit shy as they pointed it out. But if they are curious, why not share?
“Well for me, I wasn't exactly born with it. But it does affect me in a slow manner. Right now I can be as healthy as I can be, but when I grow older things will change” tsan’ul explained. “How so?” tuk asks. “
Smiling a bit sad she replies, “because I have diabetes, my health may decline later on. My vision won't be the same, some organ failure or worse, my heart can weaken or other health problems. Since my body no longer produces enough insulin. And insulin is very important for our human bodies. It helps control blood sugar. So, for example, since we just ate our lunch, I have to take this pen”. Tsan’ul takes out an unopened insulin pen to show to the kids.
“Of course there are other ways to take this. But insulin pen injection is better for me, I can easily carry and already has the right dose for me to take” the human girl goes on.
Lo’ak was close to touching it but tsan’ul pulls the pen away before he could. “Nuh uh, no touchie. This is only for me” tsan’ul gently warns as she puts away the other pen back in her bag.
“You said you weren't born with it. So how did you get it?” Kiri asks another question.
“That kiri, is a story for another time. Come on, we wasted enough time already, gotta finish our chores before the eclipse” tsan’ul tells. Everyone agreed their break was already long enough. Packing their things they head their way back to where they were.
However, as everyone was quick to change the subject of the topic, neteyam wasn't fooled. When kiri asked her question, neteyam didn't miss the strange look in tsan’ul’s eyes. Clearly kiri touched something she didn't know and tsan’ul was not so keen on answering it.
After everyone had their fill at the communal dinner, neteyam was chatting with his siblings when he noticed tsan’ul leaving with her bag. Spider is still here, perhaps to take her insulin medicine again. Deciding not to leave the girl alone, neteyam gets up and silently follows her to keep her company.
So neteyam follows her to a little area both were familiar with. Not too far from the village. Tsan’ul sits comfortably on the ground, taking out her insulin pen. “Mind if I keep you company?” Neteyam says out of nowhere, it made tsan’ul jump startled. “Phew, neteyam you nearly scared me to death!” she says with a huff but a friendly smile. Neteyam returns that smile with his own as he sits next to her.
“Are you going to take your…medicine again?” neteyam asks. Tsan’ul nods and starts to prep her pen. Removing the cap, it reveals a needle. Looks slightly different from the other needles neteyam has seen before. Tsan’ul removes the white patch from her arm and gives her skin a bit of a pinch and inserts the needle to the area.
Neteyam stays silent, letting her concentrate on what the human girl has to do. And like before, after a few seconds, she removes the needle and covers the spot with the white patch. “There, all done” tsan’ul concludes. Putting away the empty covered pen back in the bag, she leans down to lay on her back, staring up at the starry night sky. “Thanks for keeping me company neteyam, you didn't have to” she thanks. .
Neteyam gives her a little grin, laying down beside her, “didn't want you to be alone” he says.
And they stayed in a comfortable silence together, enjoying the beautiful view. However, neteyam had to ask, he knew he would be touching a sensitive topic. “When kiri asked you…how you got the disease…you didn't answer her '' he says slowly. His large hand slowly reached her smaller hand.
“We were wasting time and had a lot of stuff to get done, so of course I couldn't tell her” Tsan’ul answers a bit too quickly. “Couldn't? Or wouldnt” neteyam says, almost challenging her. There was a long pause between them. “We have nothing else to do right now. Maybe you can tell me? I promise I won't tell kiri or anyone else for that matter” he swears.
Tsan’ul released a long deep exhale. And a slow blink.
“My mom”
Neteyam’s ears perked a bit to hear her correctly.
“Your mother?” he repeats.
Tsan’ul nods.
“My mom is also diabetic. For the majority of her life. She believes it's her fault that I got the sickness. A curse she would say. Always feeling guilty that I won't be as healthy or as strong as a normal human. I do my best to tell her it's not her fault, nobody, not her, not me would have guessed I would get it. Yet she can't help but feel guilty for a crime she never commited…”
Neteyam listened very carefully. Tsan’ul’s voice carried sadness and a sort of guilt of her own.
“Does it run in your family?” he asks.
Tsan’ul shrugs, “I am not sure. But, I wouldn't be surprised. From what norm told me, being a healthy human is a luxury and a privilege back on earth. So I would assume it is normal…”
“Hey, its not her fault. It is also not your fault either. How you got it doesnt matter, what matters now is that you are here and alive and thriving. So what if this diabetes has you, you can overcome it. You are strong tsan’ul. And I know you won't let this set you back. I have seen how you can be. So the only thing you can do is continue to be who you are and get better every day, "Neteyam encourages. Tsan’ul smiles, intertwining her hand with his.
“Thanks neteyam, I needed to hear that ''
I may have used some real life stuff for it. Also I had to ask my mom so many questions for this. She did wonder why the need to know, I had to make an excuse. But I am happy how it turned out. So I hope you all enjoyed this one! Until next time! see ya!
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Tsan'ul = Improve, get better
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my Graves headcannons :)
(includes dating hc's)
so.. despite the fact he's southern, i personally believe that this man cant make decent tasting sweet tea. he'll just douse the liquid in sugar and it commits a war crime of its own on consumer's tastebuds. you can practically feel the diabetes forming. its not even to the point where it tastes good, theres just a glob of accumulated sugar at the bottom of the cup/pitcher.
however... THIS MAN CAN COOK !! man's knows how to make steak like NOBODY else (my favorite food 🗣️‼️)
i cant see him having jelousy issues, he knows you can handle yourself and he trusts in your relationship (although he does get a little insecure sometimes, none of us are perfect. and he DEFINITELY gets more insecure if youre younger than him by a good few years but thats for a different hc list.) but je will definitely get involved if someone dares touch you / threaten to touch you / looks at you weird / -- okay, okay, he just REALLY wants to protect you.
to really dive into dating hc's..
princess/prince treatment. if youre tougher and wanna do everything yourself, he'll lay back but if you let him, he'll open the passenger door for you every time, pull your chair back and push it into the table for you. he'd do it all, a proper gentleman as his mama raised him to be.
i dont really have many hc's for his oarents, honestly. but if i ever do, i'll update this post with them 🤔
otherwise, idk. he's very big on physical touch, its his love language. as we've seen via him bonking Oz on the head and giving his team little punches to their shoulders. he's very big on it. also a words of affirmations guy for sure.
i think he practically BREATHS giving words of affirmation. says compliments so casually, its hard to question it. he'll compliment and move on afterwards, sometimes he'll stick to a compliment and if you try to deny it, he'll REALLy make sure you feel valued :)
very teasing & loving guy, despite him being a w@r cr1m1n@l :D
this is all i have for him rn i am very tired & dehydrated so i must run away... mayhaps i'll update this sometime :)
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Heeyy! I have this idea on my mind, and i think you would be amazing writting it! So: poly lost boys with a diabetic reader. I have diabetes and i can image the boys kinda worrying about it (ok, Paul may crack a joke about the reader having 'sweet blood'), specially bcs i have to have doses of insuline before every meal and if i dont eat in periods of time i have an hypoglycemic episode. Take your time to write, but i realy want to see it! Love and hugs Anna!
I know only couple of people with diabetes, but I hope that my short experience of spending time with them and a bit of Google is good enough for my knowledge c:
Love you too c:
The Lost Boys x Diabetic Reader
Even if they didn't know it from the start, they did notice something strange at least after some time.
How you always control how much sweets or milkshakes you consume at night. How you constantly have a bottle of water that is going to run out till the end of your time together. How your smell is just a tad sweeter sometimes.
The boys don't pay much attention to it, though. Smell can change even with emotions taking over you, Paul is very picky eater, when it comes to human food, and Dwayne always have a flask with some liquid. This liquid is usually some liquor, but still.
They don't pay much attention until one night.
You were too involved in Marko and Paul's shenanigans, running around and having fun. Dwayne and David watched you from afar, standing near bikes. They talked quietly about something, while you just had your fun.
But after you took sharp turn, you suddenly stopped, instantly being overcome with dizziness.
"Don't be so slow, baby!" Marko laughed, pinching you on the side, jumping away from you. But you didn't follow him, closing your eyes and furrowing your brows. Heavy feeling settle itself inside of you, your head now pounding and your stomach fell at the realisation of what was going on. "Doll?"
"I can't, I need... Shit..." You stumbled, but got quickly caught by Paul before your body even had the chance to start falling down.
"Baby? What's happened?" He instantly panicked, looking at you. You shivered from your sensations.
"Sweet... I need something sweet." You mumbled, feeling very light, almost as if you were floating, but at the same time like something was pressing on your head.
"Marko, get something." David's voice was suddenly very near, though he and Dwayne were far from you. The boys got you to the side, letting you sit on a bench.
Marko came running back with sweets, chocolate and candies in his arms just couple minutes later. You grabbed one of it, eating the chocolate right away. You were slowly coming to your senses, but still felt light-headed.
"Kitten?" David carefully touched your cheek, making you look at him. "Are you fine? Do we need to go to the doctor?"
"No! No... I just need to rest and... Eat something." You weakly answered, chewing on a chocolate. Marko bit his thumb nervously, looking between the boys.
"I swear we didn't do anything." He said. Paul pursed his lips together, clearly worried, clutching his arms.
"You aren't... Dying, are you?" He carefully asked, a bit of fear in his voice.
"I sure hope not." You smiled weakly, but that reassured none of the boys. "I have diabetes." You admitted. You weren't ashamed of your condition, not even once in your life. But the guys were so active, so healthy, you couldn't help but doubt you could keep up with them. You didn't get their confused and perplexed expressions, though. "What?"
"What is diabetes?" Paul blurted out, furrowing his brows. Dwayne smacked his head in response.
David, Dwayne and Marko knew about it, even if their knowledge was limited. Paul was a bit high. And he had never really encountered it before. So you had to explain it to him and to the others.
They were understanding. And mad that you didn't say anything to them earlier. What if you needed help? What if you were in need of insulin? What if you were to be hurt? And they didn't know shit about how to help you. But they quickly adapted to new information.
Dwayne remembers to carry sweets around now. Lollipops, little chocolates, even fruits if he can. Once at the Boardwalk, he usually gets you milkshake or ice cream as a treat. He tries not to overbear with his observation of you, and he is actually pretty good with hiding it. Dwayne always remembers about personal space and doesn't interfere with it. He just keeps an eye on you to be sure that you are alright. He questions the details of what you need, what you can experience, what can happen, what to look for in case of need. Once he hears it, he remembers it and reminds others too. He is careful around you, but he doesn't want you to feel lesser, like an ill person, but still he worries.
David doesn't like the idea of your potential vulnerability. It is yet another one possibility for you to die when they wouldn't be around. Or for you to be taken to the hospital, seriously hurting yourself. Both of these outcomes is the same for him - you would be taken away from them. Maybe even permanently. So, unlike Dwayne, he is overbearing. Even if not fussing over you openly, he still keeps himself close to you. He watches what you eat, what you drink, restricts you from performing some of the activities e.c. You literally have to remind him that you have managed to keep yourself alive before you meet them. He is still overbearing even after this talk. But in some distance, understanding and respecting your opinion, still never unable to get rid of his own fears.
Paul has noticed something strange earlier about you, like every boy has. How you always has your bag with you, how you always do something in the corner of the cave before dinner. But he has never had anyone close to him with diabetes, nor has he heard about the decease. So he has to sit through an entire lecture given to him by both Dwayne and David about what it is and why it is hard for you. If you think he would be more accurate in his words and actions... Nope, now you are his 'sugar' and 'sweetheart' and you can't be offended by him, he just loves you. As well as he likes sweet stuff. And you are his sweet stuff and favourite dessert (and he isn't talking about blood. Well, not only about blood 😉). Though he is careful around what you eat and how often you do it. He doesn't want you faint once again.
Marko knows it all too well. One of his relatives had diabetes. But even if it was long time ago. Even if he is immortal now. Even if he let go of his family long time ago. He still remembers the symptoms, how accurate the person was around their life, how they suffered from some episodes. So at first he keeps his distance. Not because he is afraid to hurt you, but because he is reliving it all again and trying to remember everything useful. Marko approaches you after getting smacked in the head by Dwayne, who pointed out how sad you are by his distance. Once Marko explains everything to you, he's back to being his usual cheer himself, just watching you a bit closely, which is almost unnoticeable.
They can almost smell the changes in you, if you are close enough to them, and they are attentive enough. If at first they didn't pay attention to these changes, now they always track your scent. Once or twice you caught Dwayne or Paul near your neck or shoulder, almost smelling you. Even if they told you it was nothing, you called them weirdos.
Once they told you the truth, you finally understood their shenanigans. Yes, you needed time to adjust, but them being vampires didn't really change your feelings for them.
Sometimes you even use David or Dwayne for testing your blood. Paul would get too distracted, and Marko isn't really sensitive to sweetness.
You are their sweet lover. Quiet literally. They only wonder how it would work once you become immortal, but you would cross that bridge, when you come to it.
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hey can you do a rin x reader but reader really likes rins legs and touches them lors because they're so pretty and sleek
and then rin is like "Hey... wanker/loafer..." but in the most slash pos way possible
ALSO I DONT HAVE DIABETES (yet)
I hope these headcanons are sweet enough to give you diabetes tho ❤️
Tags: gn!reader x Rin, reader's love language is physical touch, lots of touching but all non-sexual, established relationship
-your favourite part about Rin is his legs. You touch them at any chance you get. Whenever you sit next to each other, one of your hands is on his thigh
-you also love resting your head on his lap and it's literally the best place ever for you to take a nap. Especially because Rin's favourite part of you is your hair so he runs his fingers through it while you sleep
-at the beginning of your relationship, you were very shy with the way you liked to touch Rin and especially his legs. But the longer you were a couple, the more comfortable and touchy you started getting. Rin did notice the progress of how much more touchy you were getting as time passed on, but never commented on it
-but he likes teasing you about being so touchy. He will go "uhhh what you doing?" whenever your hand approaches his thighs. He will also lovingly insult you on occasion
-but you know that Rin enjoys you being so touchy a lot! Especially since your favourite part is to touch his legs. Cause you know, he uses his legs a lot for soccer so he likes the attention you give them
-he really loves feeling your soft hands on his skin so he tries to return it back, but he's just less touchy than you are
-whenever you cuddle he wraps his arms around you and pulls you close to him, wrapping his legs around yours
#blue lock#bllk#blue lock headcanons#bllk headcanons#blue lock x you#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#bllk x you#blue lock rin#rin itoshi#rin x reader#rin x you#rin itoshi x reader#rin itoshi x you#itoshi rin
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so ive said i wanna talk about tadc since i have a LOT of thoughts on it so here it is. tagging @ermine-57047 since they asked for that too!!
SORRY IF THAT THING DOESNT LOOK VERY....... ORGANIZED AND ALL THAT? thats literally just some of my thoughts about tadc put in textual format. aaand it may have headcanons
i was basically thinking. so. thats confirmed that you WILL go insane in the digital circus eventually if you stay there long enough and all that. but this made me start thinking "but what if you LOVE that kind of stuff like circuses and digital stuff and everything" since i do love all of it. those are some of my HUGE special interests which made me think "well then its probably gonna be possible to stay sane here if you do like that stuff-" but ive started accidentally overanalyzing it and. no i dont think you can even if youre like me and you love that type of stuff
you know how nothing feels real in there? well ive kinda overanalyzed. that. I DID saw gooseworx' answer that its possible to feel pain, but, looking at everything I saw already, I imagine that when its NOT stuff like glitching out, then its not a REAL sensation of pain but the..... phantom touch in vr kinda thing? and. imagine feeling that every time instead of a usual normal kind of touch. or like the virtual sensation of food. i imagine that it feels similar to the time I had a dream where I ate a chocolate cake. and it tasted EXACTLY how it should taste. but it didnt feel REAL in any way. imagine feeling THIS every time too (tbh doesnt sound too bad for me but i think it does fuck you up in a way)
the fact that you dont need to sleep, drink or eat may sound alright too but its also. very fucked up in a way? like. imagine going from your normal life and needing all of that and then you just suddenly..... dont need this. you CAN do this, but it wont really do anything to you and it must feel really. really fucking weird. especially the sleep part. I feel like this feeling of neverending energy (basically, having no need to sleep) can and will mess you up
and BECAUSE OF IT i dont think that its going to be really possible to sleep even if you tried. also ive had a hallucination one day WHEN I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP and it was like MY WHOLE ROOM WAS DIGITAL CIRCUS and I couldnt sleep for a whole hour because of that. i dont know what was that
and then the fact that youre pretty much always forced to be in this colorful circus place and theres adventures and everything going on even when youre in a bad mood or when youre tired or anything like that. and you dont really have any other choice but to do those things and be there
oh and not just that. you know what would feel REALLY bad in that place? overstimulation. i dont even know how youre supposed to deal with that in the digital circus
OH AND ALSO........ I FEEL LIKE THERES MUSIC PLAYING CONSTANTLY. Or at least a LOOOT of times. imagine if its the tadc main theme for most of the time
would I still like to be there though? YEAH ABSOLUTELY at least I probably wont have my toothache anymore or my diabetes and im also understimulated right now and i feel like it will give me the right amount of stimulation. it wont probably be good for me in the long run but hey
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i really hate trying to google things related to my intrusive thoughts but i want to try and understand why i think the things i think, but a lot of the time the results i get are unrelated or i get helplines suggested or i end up being triggered by something
it fucking sucks man
i dont want these thoughts, i dont want to deal with this - im very good at stopping myself from following through and at talking myself down when they get bad, i can recognise when they're getting too much for me and have ways to calm down without help
i just want answers as to why its happening so i can better prepare myself for when it happens and adjust my methods for safely resolving my intrusive thoughts in a more productive manner
i just want to know if my occasional sudden urge to drink is just my intrusive thoughts or if its something more, you know???
i have a family history of alcoholism and almost fell deep into a steady pattern of alcohol abuse myself when i was in college before i realised what i was doing and immediately stopped myself before it became a proper problem
are these urges to drink a symptom of a more serious underlying problem or is it just my brain being a piece of shit to me for no fucking reason
i know intrusive thoughts and alcoholism can go hand in hand, my main concern is am I handling these thoughgs correctly or am i setting myself up for hell down the road?
i haven't drank in months, last i drank was cider at Christmas and i had maybe 2 small cans and that was after having nothing for a whole year
and when i did drink in college it wasn't like i was binge drinking, i had a small sip of whisky maybe twice a day whenever i had to go into college and only on those days
that was more than enough as it was, honestly - it can start with just one sip to manage a headache, then its 2 then its 5 then you lose count
the moment i realised i was starting to try and justify drinking when it really couldn't be justified, and that i was falling into a pattern of harmful behaviour that would only worsen if i continued to ignore it, i immediately got rid of the last of my whisky and have never touched a drop since
i know not everyone can do that, I was incredibly lucky that i realised what i was doing before i couldn't stop myself
but now im worried that i had already done irreparable damage by that point
had i? or is it just my intrusive thoughts making me feel like i need alcohol so everything will be okay?? this bothers me a lot
i wont drink, i can't really rn anyway with the current state of my diabetes, but the urges are getting more and more frequent it feels like
and i am so fucking tired
anything that helps me shut up the urges would help a lot, even if it's just knowledge of what is causing them to start with
if i know what the problem is i can work on a solution
problem is, i dont know what the fucking problem is
the stress this causes does not help suppress the intrusive thoughts, as you can probably imagine, and only makes drinking sound all the more appealing.... the fucking joys
for the record, i am safe and sound tonight im just angry
angry and tired and angry at being tired and tired of being angry and maybe im also feeling a little bit robbed
but I'll be okay, just needed to voice this Bullshit somewhere
the ravens know i cant say any of this to my family lmao
fr tho, any info or advice is appreciated guys 💕
#vent#cw intrusive thoughts#cw alcoholism#love being undiagnosed despite two mental health professionals agreeing i most likely have ocd#i can survive on a autism self-diagnosis sure#and im scared to learn i truly have ocd#but i need to know#vaxxy vents#vaxxy will be okay
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2023
Rap:
Sexyy Red - Hood Hottest Princess & (Deluxe)
Veeze - Ganger
Babyface Ray - Summer's Mine
MarijuanaXO & Joe Pablo - 30 Mil No Deal
BabyDrill - MadMan
SME TaxFree - Standin On Bidness / Im Still Industreets / Just Like Brothers (w/Big Homie Dre Cash)
Lil Yachty - 2023 singles
BandGang Lonnie Bands - Bam Bam / Provisions / Can't Ban the Bandman 2
Wizz Havinn - Super Wizz / Super Wizz_ The Sequel
Paco Panama - The Wire Vol. 1 / The Matrix / Faces of the Hill (w/Deemuney)
Armand Hammer - We Buy Diabetic Test Strips
Niontay - Dontay's Inferno / Demon Muppy
ICYTWAT - Siddhi World (Deluxe) / Final Boss / HAVE MERCY ON US /G4ost 2 / 4 tha Troopz
youngfootsoldier - Life Of A Young Soldier / Most Wanted
KP SKYWALKA - GRANDMA HOUSE (DELUXE) / Rhythm N Bip
YT - #STILLSWAGGIN
LUCKI - s_x m_ney dr_gs
Tae Rackzz - Who is Ju
Smoke Chapo - Over The Counter (Deluxe)
Ken Carson - A Great Chaos
YTB Fatt - Who Is Fatt / Foxes Only
Ethan Uno - Bachata Jersey Youtubes 2023
Mariboy Mula Mar - Effortless / Bitty Breaker / No auto mar 2 / Mula ova errthing
2Sdxrt3all - FUCK SCHOOL / Stop Holdin Nuts / gotta be geeked
Mari Montana - Outstanding Member
Lil 2 Dow - 21 Gun Salute
RRB Duck - Half Man Half Dog / Back In Da K / Scrooge McDuck Vol 1 & 2
Glokk40Spaz - Took The Biggest Risk
Baby Osamaa - Tank Girl
D30 - Sorry 2 My Fans / Trappers & Scammers
WifiGAWD - Been Bout It / BLOCK MUSIC
OsamaSon - Osama Season / Flex Musix
Mike - Burning Desire
TisaKorean - Let Me Update My Status
CEO Trayle - The Collection Vol. 2
Slimesito - Paid N Full / RSG
HM:
454 & SURF GANG - FAST 5
786 Ju - 786 Year
Akai Solo - Verticality/Singularity
Anycia - EXTRA
BabyK turnt - $tack Or Starve / Rich B4 A Deal
Bb Trickz - Trickstar
Bear1Boss - Lil hotsauce / GlacierGuru
Beatking - She Won't Leave Houston
Bigskiis - MR. Ouuweee Scusemee
Billy Woods - Maps
Bucky Malone - DERREN
Cash Cobain - Pretty Girls Love Slizzy / Slizzy Day
Chavo - Chavo's World 3
Che - Crueger / Closed Captions
Chloe Hotline - jouissancé
Chicken P - BussaBrick Vol.3 ReallyRich4eva / Ain’t Lost Shit
Dani Kiyoko - REAL $tREET RUNNA 3
DaeMoney - Slae Season 3
Dai Ballin - 844 pt.3 / 448 Pt. 2
Durkalini - PYRO THE PASTOR
Four50 - DRUNKEN STYLE
Devstacks - Scriptures
Earl Sweatshirt - VOIR DIRE
El Cousteau - Dirty Harry
Funny $money - Dont Talk 2 Much, Vol. 2 / Trap Money (w/ Trap Baby)
HavinMotion - Bang Music
J Billz - Streetz Hottest Young'n
Ju Swipin - #786FreeBro
L5 - Blood on switch st
Lil Gray - Swipe Renaissance
Lil Tony Official - TKEY / Chasin Pape deluxe (w/PCF Jaey)
Lilqua 50 - Only For The Fans
Los - War On Drugs 2
Lucille Ghatti - BLACK BALLED
ManMan Savage - For Players Only
Moh Baretta - Unorthodox
NBA YoungBoy - Don't Try This At Home
NeedNoName - All Off Backendz 2 Deluxe
Popstar Benny - University!
Raised Round Bosses - Ain't NuN Better Den A Cracking Phone Vol 2
Reace Sosa - Till I Touch The Ground Again
RealYungPhil - Victory Music
Reed - Downtown Chronicles
Rob Lee - Level Up
Rx Papi - Marlo
Rylo Rodriguez - Been One
SCY Jimm - Trench Baby / Highly Favored
Sérane - SGPM
Shaudy Kash - On The Yeah Side 2
Sideshow - DON’T JUST STAND THERE!
SparkHeem - Survivors Guilt
Starlito - LOVE DRUG
Subiibabii - Subiworld / swagg school / WEBB
Super Throwed Dave - Smacking Fire
Talinwya - BiRDMAN & Deluxe
Teeglazedit - The Blueprint
TrapKane - Free My Team
Tree - FREE TREE
Yung Threat - Se Grim Reaper
Valee - CAR TOONS
Vayda - breeze
Wiki - 14K Figaro
Contemporary :
Lionel Marchetti - MÉANDRE(S)
Eva-Maria Houben - Toccata et Fuga (celebrating our disorientation)
Ayami Suzuki & Leo Okagawa - while it's warm
Graham Lambkin - No Better No Worse Vol 3
Stephen Yip - By Moonflowers
Jim O'Rourke - Steamroom 61
Atte Elias Kantonen - a path with a name
Natasha Barrett - Reconfiguring the Landscape
Action Pyramid & Jack Greenhalgh - Mardle: Daily Rhythms of a Pond
Véhicule - Aubusson
Antoine Beuger & Anastassis Philippakopoulos - floating by
Mordecoli - Château Mordécoly
Jana Winderen - The Blue Beyond
Kate Carr - on cabbages, salt, bacteria and transformations
MP Hopkins - Misting
Maddalena Comunale Massaro - La Religione Degli Insetti
Zizia - Genera
Sunik Kim - Potential
DDK Trio - A Right to Silence
Damon Smith, Louis Wall & NNN Cook - Fire Point
David Velez - Beta Vulgaris
Digital Beats :
Chuquimamani-Condori - DJ E
Ghost Notes Worldwide with billdifferen_ Funk Special mix 24/08/2023
Nidia - 95 MINDJERES
Tropa do Bruxo - Baile do Bruxo (DELUXE)
Dj Nigga Fox - Gás Natural 2 (Dedicação ao Nagrelha)
Nondi_ - Flood City Trax
Olof Dreijer - Rosa Rugosa EP
jaijiu - SET ULTRARRÁPIDO DE 10 MIN FUNK 260 BPM
DJ Manny - Hypnotized
Maryyx2 - Silent Noise (The Album)
Speaker Music - Techxodus
HiTech - DÉTWAT
Amal - PRESSURE
Emma DJ - g0drm2
DJ Smiley Bobby - Dhol Tasha Drum Exercises from Maharashtra
Dj Wesley Gonzaga - Antidepressivo
R’n’B:
Amaarae - Fountain Baby
Brent Faiyaz - Larger Than Life
Lucille Ghatti - Tears from a clown
Jim Legxacy - homeless n_gga pop music
Vontee the Singer - LOVERS & FRIENDS
Other stuff:
John T. Gast - SINEAD MEMORY TAPE (2015)
Canva6 - Cco2
Model Home - endless spool / SMMR MMRY / 20 / JuJu MineField
Matana Roberts - Coin Coin Chapter Five_ In the garden
Nourished by Time - Erotic Probiotic 2
Jeff Tobias - Music from Milky Way Underground
Aprxel - tapetumlucidum_3
Fever Ray - Radical Romantics
Rắn Cạp Đuôi - *1
Sbatax - Spires
NewJeans - Get Up
Babsy Konate - Tounga
New old :
Black Rob - Life Story 2
Don Cherry & Jean Schwarz - Roundtrip (1977) (Live)
Hiroyuki Onogawa - August in the Water- Music for Film 1995-2005
Jon Hassell - Further Fictions [Rec. 1989]
Lil Kev - Lil Kev Mix 04-18-12 (Full Mixtape) (youtube)
Main Source - The Science
Primetime and Digga - PRIMETIME & DIGGA GREATEST HITS
Various Artists - Unruly Records Anthology - 1991-1995 (The Early Years)
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Doctor Elise Ep 2
So much for trying to do individual episode posts every week! We gonna do them in clumps and queue-away instead because life gets in the way some times! Trying to still break them up by episode though~
If episode 1 was the introduction to how the reincarnation stuff works and her previous life, episode 2 is the introduction to Fantasy Britannia/Germany/Russia before the Fantasy Crimean War, and setting up the premise of the show. The royal family are the de Romanoffs but they're blond haired and blue eyed, and the world feels more German than British, so FANTASY EUROPE IT IS YALL.
BY THE WAY Elise is from the de Clorance family which is hiLARIous play of FLORENCE NIGHTINGALE!!!
Also. We get a character that WAS NOT IN THE MANHWA and LOOKS LIKE HAKU FROM SPIRITED AWAY. I didn't completely forget this man from the manhwa did I???? It's been a year or two since I read it but I wouldn't forget a long haired man.
Spoilers and Pictures below the cut
HELLO WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU??? THE SNARKY KING'S GUARD??? (IS THIS GOING TO BE A RARE PAIR SHIP because I'm here for it. A guard who demands that everyone respects the king but keeps interrupting the man himself??? yes, hello, thank you lmfao)
MAN I wish I had hair as gorgeous as this king. (Who is voiced by Inoue, Kazuhiko who plays Kakashi (Naruto), Madara(Natsume), and fricken YUKI FROM GRAVITATION BTW LMFAO)
and HERE he is.. Prince Sparkly Himself!!! Prince Linden de Romanoff.
He looks like he's going to be your typical Ice Prince, but this man blushes SO DAMN MUCH ITS REALLY CUTE.
I was trying to figure out why he has two voice actors and... Well. His main voice actor is Azakami, Youhei who plays a ton of supporting characters, including a dozen of small roles in Aggretsukko which is hilarious to think about.
Anyways, we get a lot of set-up about who Elise was before she died in her first life, and a declaration that she no longer wants to marry the crown prince and instead wants to be a doctor, setting up the stakes for the story, and gives us some fun Doctor flavored power fantasy tidbits, with a fairly accurate(?) diabetes diagnosis!
She's not trying to hide her knowledge at all, including knowledge about what's to come like war tactics, but the hand waving of (OH, I read about it in a book! Oh, I was just thinking about the topic very hard!) is very powerful magic in this world it seems.
Elise makes a wager with the King that if she can pass the medical exam, she gets to call of the engagement. Everyone thinks she's craycray, but this girl has a one track mind that has jumped of the rails of PrincePrincePrince and on to ScalpelScalpelScalpel.
But also. This girl legit smiles at him while thinking about surgery and doctor stuff, and has him blushing. This man has zero interest or experience with women up until now, and it shows, or will show in later episodes.
ELISE is also oblivious to this as she apologizes for everything she's done up until now, and everything she hasn't dont yet in this time line. And is like.. "I know you don't want this engagement, so sorry for forcing you and always stepping over your boundaries."
YOU DID BRUH. IN YOUR PAST LIFE.
It feels like your typical self sacrificing female protag in a shojo. BUT. She's self-sacrificing for the selfish (positive) sake of CUTTING PEOPLE OPEN!!! It's cute to know the romance will have a base to build off of though, and hopefully be realistic.
My favorite take from this episode, and in the series so far though is...
Capybara: THERE IS NO CULTURAL TOUCH STONE IN THIS WORLD FOR MOTHER TERESA!!! Crow: YOU DON'T KNOW THAT. Capybara: ...I don't know that. But there's no Christianity in this world!!! Crow: You don't know that. Capybara: ...I don't know that. NO CHRISTIANITY IN MY ISEKAI PLEASE!!!
Moral of the story: Anything goes in an Isekai. Just don't look to closely or you'll break it. lolol
#gekai elise#medical drama#isekai#manhwa recommendation#doctor elise#anime#shojo anime#villainess#fantasy europe
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I'm a type 1 diabetic as well. I have a tandem and a dexcom. I always get self conscious about my infusion sites and CGM sites around guys. I love that you can see them in your ho pics bc it makes me feel more normal about it. I worry they're ugly but you take such beautiful pictures and you don't try to hide it and it makes me reconsider how self conscious I am about it. So just saying thanks for that !
gotta tell you truly nobody has ever given a shit about the diabetes stuff in a negative way! most people are more nervous about touching my sites than they are touching me hahaha
so go out & get some! but remember to eat complex carbs before so you dont get low bc ive had to stop sex to have a granola bar way too many times
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hihihiihihihihihihihi
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHH HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP HELP AHHHH AHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHH PLZ HELP IM TRAPPED IN MINDS BASMENT AND HE'S MAKING ME HIS DUMB LITTLE BRAINDEAD KITTEN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MEOW MEOW MEOWMEOWMEWMEWMEW MEOW MEOW MAWWWW MIAWWWWWW MEOW MEOW MEOWWWW MEEEEEEEEEE EEEEOOWWWWWWW WWWWWWW MEE MEOWWOWOWOWOWOWOW OWO MEOW UWU OW MEOW MEOWMEOWMEOWMEOWMEOWMWEOW
omg deserved
JAY KAY FAM! ill save u...maybe XD dont let mind touch you with his diabetes his hands are covered with food and slop...
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pineappleciders 3:59 pm
im on the toliet rn
what
WHAT WHAT WHAT
4:00
sometimes when i shit i cna like
i strain so hard thay ut feels like im@gonna shit my organs out
is that normal?
4:01
AITA for shitting so hars i kill myself
li dont have diabetes
no i have
the vaccine
LIVEOFBETES
too late for that
4:02
my farts are so little and petite
earthquake
4:03
u know when ur walking and u fart and like with every step u take u keep farting
4:04
u can
makw them go out the other wnd
into ur intrsument
playign the sax with my fart
oh
u can still try
if ur creative enough
how could you say that
4:05
touche
omori regerence
okay i agve to go wipe my ass
LOL
Dont put me on blast
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ok ok more about my gf cos i love her and im obsessed. she dances right, shes a Bharatnatyam dancer. Imagine that, someone who can do all of that, but ask her to walk in a straight line and ooh hoho nope. no way. she goes tera like in 2 seconds. I think half of our relationship stemmed from. "DHYANSE" being yelled from me and her turning around with a furrowed brow because she doesnt speak hindi, and yet keeps walking and walks straight into a pole. now she knows what dhyanse means, for one, and 2 i hold her hand to lead her from time to time.
another thing if she asks to hold my hand i must. and her hands are always cold. like we could be in a desert and shes an icecube. and its always adorable. because she always leans closer bc she. she is icecube.
i have more but i dont wanna bore u
THIS AMOUNT OF SWEETNESS IS GONNA GIVE ME DIABETES (touch wood)
WE ALL NEED SOMEONE LIKE YOU AND YOU AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND ARE FREAKING ADORABLE
also the part about not being able to walk straight, can totally relate to that because two of my friends cannot walk in a straight line even if it meant that they would be saving lines 😭😭
and please this is not boring, TELL. ME. MORE.
nazar na lage dono ko 🧿🧿
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What is the Keto Diet?
This article is originally published on Freedom from Diabetes website, available here. A lot of people want to lose weight and fat, but if they don't follow to a proper diet, they might not succeed in their weight loss efforts. So today we will discuss about keto diet for you. First we understand about the ketogenic (keto) diet, it is a high-fat, very low-carbohydrate, and moderate-protein diet. It decreases blood sugar and insulin levels while shifting the body's metabolism from carbs to fat and ketones.
How keto diet works?
To understand how ketogenic diets deliver their amazing weight loss results and the corresponding downsides, so first you have to understand how the Kito diet plan works? Keto diets depend on getting the body to switch from using glucose obtained from carbohydrates for energy, to ketones which are produced by the liver using stored fat. This diet will more effective than normal diet, because it takes more calories to use fat for energy than it does to use carbs.
What foods include keto diet?
In keto diet include fish and seafood, meat and poultry, non-starchy vegetables like bell peppers, broccoli, and zucchini, avocados, berries, nuts and seeds, eggs, high-fat dairy products etc. These are low in carbs and appropriate for the keto diet. We dont include no vegetables, fruit, or grains.
So this is about keto diet. Do you want to switch to keto diet, you also understand their risk.
Nutrient deficiencies With no vegetables, fruit, or grains in your diet, you are depriving your body not just of carbohydrates but also critically needed micronutrients and vitamins, magnesium, phosphorus, selenium, iron, and vitamins B, C, K.
Liver problems The enormous quantity of fat that the keto diet requires you to consume places a very heavy burden on the liver, which can cause dangerous liver problems.
Kidney issues This is a big one. The kidneys have one major job, and that is to metabolize protein.
Gut ill-health The absence of fiber in the diet, since high-fiber foods like grains and legumes are banned, leads directly to constipation and gut health issues.
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