It is amazing to me that the show has a character who:
Explicitly says “my father forced me to kill and I was good at it, but I hated it”;
Makes multiple efforts to walk away from a fight where his opponent is doing the absolute most to provoke him and, upon finally snapping, handily beats him;
Stabs a dude with a pair of scissors in self-defense and immediately looks horrified at himself; and
Can stomach all kinds of gross and scary shit unless it involves harm coming to his little brother, whom he obviously has a lot of baggage about protecting.
And a not-insignificant number of people are like “his neurosis is that he feels bad about not being a fighter or a badass.”
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The thing about fem! Yuu, is that I do genuinely think she’d be treated a bit differently than her male and gn counterparts, not in a weird way though ofc, just that some characters would treat her differently. Like, Leona is obviously going to be a bit more respectful to her, or maybe Deuce wouldn’t know how to talk to her at first. After a couple of weeks or maybe a month I think they’d just. Forget that she was a girl and start treating her the same regardless. Idk, there would be slight differences but nothing that’s like. Weird or anything. Because NRC is an all boys school so fem! Yuu would be even more of an “outcast” for lack of a better word, but that’d be gone in a month
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whats fun about barry as a protagonist vs other Morally Complicated Guy Shows is that he seriously has no ambition lol, his wildest dreams arent like becoming super rich or relishing in holding power over people, like all he wants is simple happiness, maybe career success, normal life stuff, his wildest dreams are like…. being able to have a wedding. having a kid or two. and theres something reasonable about that, it makes him relatable for a while until the show is very clearly like No dude, that is a fucking serial killer, you should not gaf! and you’re like oh right lol. it’s crazy to make such a simple desire seem so malicious but still human
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TW for vent talk and then bf lovey dovey PDA talk gamers
When you’re forced to remember such visceral and vile trauma that you physically can’t take it, have a heart attack and throw up while your bf strokes your hair and mutters comforts. I was shaking and trembling and sobbing so violently I ended up calling out for my mum (NOT my bio mother, Jin.). I’ve never seen my face in the mirror and my mind is burdened by vile things that happened. Plus! my physical health is FUCKED thx to it. My heart, my guts, my head, my chronic fucking shitass health in general. Idk. I’m so tired. I’m exhausted…I’m sick of ppl lying to me maliciously or to spare me. I’m sick of ppl using me up and abandoning me when I’m just dead meat to them. Whatever. Banjoh is in a VERY bad way and I’m worried sick. I’m angry but mainly just. Devastated.. I miss him.
Through all of this tho I’m grateful and so so thankful to have my boyfriend by me. He’s so beautiful at heart and despite struggling with certain things he tries so so hard to accommodate my feelings and needs. He holds my hair out of my face when I throw up, he squeezes my shoulders and my body when I’m shaking from pain, he warms my skin when I’m cold, he feeds me when I’m hungry and fetches me cold water when I’m sick. He instinctively presses his hand to my chest when he’s worried for my heart. He looks me in the eye and then cries, telling me it’s because he’s overwhelmed with love for me. He’s gentle and patient with me and so enthusiastic about us being a system. He finds it hard to listen to most things but will sit there and smile at me when I talk. Banjoh tells me how my bf is the first out of system person he’s ever trusted with his full heart. He feels safe with him and cared by him. So do I. So do all of us. He’s soft and warm and his eyes squint when he smiles. His nose crinkles too. His hair is so silky between my fingers and my body fits perfectly into his when we hug. He makes little noises in his sleep that make my heart squeeze. Hes silly and sweet and so so funny. He makes me laugh til my tummy aches and I’m dizzy and finding almost everything is hilarious, only to ask why it’s funny. He knows I don’t enjoy being complimented physically, so he says things like “you’re so heart shaped right now” which makes me explode. He’s so adorable and thoughtful. I feel so secure with him. I don’t need to obsess over future fantasies for the first time EVER in my life because I don’t feel unstable or afraid of us ending. Every argument ends in communication and apologies that MEAN something, then kindness and loving affection. We grow closer with each day. 9 months now….wild. Went by so fast. I sleep so soundly by him within his radiating, warm aura of safety. The sun and the moon and the stars and the sky remind me of him. When we stand beneath the shower head and smile at each other and wash our hair together I feel a sense of peace and …something so mundane in the BEST way possible. It’s casual and kind. He Is everything I needed RIGHT now. After everything that’s happened and everyone who’s hurt me or used me, left me behind for something new…he’s who I deserve. And I hope that he feels he deserves me too. Because he does. I know I’m full of love. I’m kind and patient and despite my flaws I KNOW I’m fundamentally a good person who is simply hurt. So is he. We are so different but we work it out and we’re going strong. I hope that I spend it all with you by my side, this silly life we have. But even if you leave, I hope I was able to be loving enough to show you how special you are.
He is everything I deserve.
I am everything he deserves.
📺💚love you my Angel
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