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NICK BLOOD?!??!??!?!?!?? ON SLOW HORSES??????
#Calling all the aos fandom please watch this show#slow horses#Nick blood#Aos#Slow horses season 3#apple tv+#lance hunter
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Season 1 of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. is not bad. It really isn't. To both a longtime fan and a complete newcomer to the MCU, it would not be seen as a bad show if they just did more than surface research on it
If you look at the ratings on Rotten Tomatoes for the show overall, it has a 95%. 89% for s1. On IMDB, 7.5/10, with their lowest episode being only 7.1/10. Critics like it, audiences like it
So why is it that it is viewed so negatively by a large majority of Marvel fans? And to that I say: they never stuck around till the end of the season
See, when AoS was coming out, there was massive hype around it. Marketing would have you think that it was some type of Avengers crossover, with people like Tony Stark and Natasha Romanoff showing up every other episode (but hey, this is Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Not Agents of T.H.O.R.)
This is what led to the massive turnout of 11 million viewers for that first episode, but when it turned out to be a show about S.H.I.E.L.D. featuring new people, like it always was supposed to be, people very quickly tuned out
(Even tho, hey, it's a SPY show and you only watched 1 EPISODE. Give it some time)
But most didn't give it time. They wanted to see Hawkeye and Fury and Maria go on adventures that would stand the test of time, fighting Loki and essentially just being mini Avengers, and when that didn't happen, they left. They wrote early reviews claiming that the show didn't meet expectations and wasn't worth the time. You get a very sharp dip from episode 1 bc marketing claimed this was an Avengers show, and people felt that it fell short
Those reviews are what Marvel fanboys use now, without ever watching the show themselves or pointing out that they're literally 11 years old. They bring the idea that the show is boring and lazy, putting aside the fact that basically everything else from it is called innovating and jaw-dropping. They praise the use of THEIR ideas in other Marvel shows, but call it plain in their home territory. They don't bother
So hey, if you're planning on watching Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D., please ignore literally everything those fanboys say. They haven't watched the show, those early reviews couldn't stand watching past episode 2, just ignore them. Trust the fandom when we say that not only is season 1 perfectly fine, it's truly amazing fun, and so many of the plotlines they executed in that season are incredible
Because if we all stopped at season 1, there wouldn't be any shows
#that last bit is aimed primarily at streaming today#but seriously aos s1 is good#and if you think that it is great just from there#it really only gets better#those first couple episodes aren't bad#people just wanted an avengers show and whoa what!! a show called shield isn't about avengers!! how dare they!!#agents of shield#agents of s.h.i.e.l.d.#aos#agents of shield season 1#daisy johnson#phil coulson#melinda may#fitzsimmons#deke shaw#elena rodriguez#alphonso mackenzie#marvel fanboys get snapped please and thank you
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Star Trek AMV Masterpost (ongoing)
I feel like amvs are so often forgotten in fandom culture, so here's a list of my favourites! All are on YouTube, and all credit goes to the original creators. the links should take you straight there. (the majority of these are spirk, but there's definitely variety!!) some of these are pretty popular, others obscure, but they're all amazing and you should totally check them out. My all time fav ones are marked with a 💙.
Spirk:
Star Trek || A Thousand Years - [Kirk/Spock] -- this one is super well known, incredibly crafted, a beautiful homage to TOS Spirk and their journey that fades seamlessly into AOS through Spock Prime's memories 💙
Kirk/Spock - If I Were Gay -- absolutely hilarious TOS amv that feels like a parody, I laughed my ass off. all the suggestive scenes and hella funny lyrics to accompany it
Kirk & Spock │Renegades -- amazing x ambassadors song, the lyrics fit them so well and the colouring was spot on. TOS going through the original series and the movies!! 💙
Kirk & Spock │ Come right back to you -- exploration of TOS spirk's bond interspersed with show quotes and the most melancholic soundtrack. shed a tear at this one
Spock and Kirk Feel Again - A Star Trek Music Video -- absolute BANGER of a One Republic song, a TOS amv focusing on Spock and Kirk (with some stunning song parallels to Spock's emotions and the lyrics!)
Star Trek TOS | Two Slow Dancers - [Kirk + Spock] -- would you like to cry today? do you want to sob into your pillow? then this is the video for you. Mitski and TOS Spirk together is a gorgeous combo, and the editing is /on point/
Star Trek - Can't Help Falling In Love (Kirk/Spock) -- an oldie but a goodie, Jim and Spock's ballad of love all throughout TOS and the movies
Keep Holding On (Kirk/Spock) -- its the combo you never knew you needed! glee and Star Trek!! show tunes, glitter, and a completely TOS movie based amv about the events of Search For Spock and The Voyage Home
Running Up That Hill (Kirk/Spock) -- Kate Bush cover and Star Trek TOS? yes fucking please. don't diss the Kate Bush, people. ITS NOT CRINGE HERE. all your swoon-worthy, love-for-the-ages spirk content, some suggestive scenes spliced in the middle, a lot of amok time hehe
K/S (Kirk/Spock) - FUN -- adrenaline inducing AOS spirk fighting amv set to Troye Sivan!! some seriously talented editing and a very pretty AOS colouring
Spirk 'Blank Space' -- christ, this video was what got me to actually watch AOS. One of the only AOS amvs I cherish with my whole heart. the song is a cover of Taylor Swift's Blank Space - and imo it's even better than the original. I've ranted about the editing on a lot of these but this one just about takes the cake. fucking gorgeous 💙
Spock/Kirk - Blue (Star Trek TOS/AOS) -- angsty af and set to Halsey's 'Colors', this one'll get you sobbing. more slow-paced. also, both TOS and AOS!!
Spock / Kirk - Stay {TOS/AOS} -- Hurts is such an underrated artist but so many of their songs are spirk coded!! Very pretty edit, lots of parallels
Kirk/Spock - Landslide -- Fleetwood Mac and some lovely melancholic TOS movie reminiscing about Kirk and Spock's relationship as they're growing older and losing their youth
Kirk/Spock - Wait for It -- calling all Hamilton fans, this one'll be right up your alley. TOS fading into AOS and focusing primarily on Kirk and Spock's dynamic through Spock's perspective. fast paced and fucking wicked
Star Trek: Kirk/Spock || Hold on -- the obligatory Hold On amv (I feel like every fandom has one lol). AOS, spirk, some great angst here!
James T. Kirk:
James T. Kirk | I'll Be Good -- absolutely STUNNING exploration of AOS Kirk's character and psyche, done with gorgeous editing and colours and scene selection. I'm not a huge AOS fan but I played this on repeat for a week. Song is I'll Be Good by Jaymes Young, which is incredibly Jim Kirk coded. so so amazing 💙
Icarus | Jim Kirk [HD] -- snappy cuts and a great portrayal of AOS Kirk. Spirky undertones but nothing explicit. super poignant lyrics
Little Talks - Captain Kirk Tribute: A Star Trek Music Video -- captivating, beautifully edited amv by First Officer Nims (who make some of the best amvs I've watched), one of the most meaningful TOS Kirk videos I've had the pleasure of finding. It's constantly in my head, in my heart, in my soul. 10/10 💙
{James T. Kirk} BI BI BI -- all y'all bi Jim truthers, this one's for you. all of Jim's fruitiest moments from TOS (and behind the scenes) gathered into one camp edit and set to the glorious sounds of NSYNC!! featuring "are there men on this planet", "they seem to be bisexual" and Jim nearly kissing McCoy ;) 💙
jim kirk's babiest moments | fanvid -- not exactly an amv but it's close enough!! exactly what it says on the tin - TOS Jim being the most babygirl ever, pouting, flirting with spock and bones, fighting people by throwing himself at them, and much more. go watch it, you'll thank me
Spones:
What's On Your Mind | Spones || Star Trek [TOS] -- a masterfully put together and downright hilarious eighties-themed spock/bones TOS amv!! (featuring both Nimoy and Kelley's voices in the actual song recording)
Spock & Bones • Hopeless place -- two words: RIHANNA COVER. it's short, its AOS, it's fuckin Rihanna. what is there not to love? I have nothing more to say. go listen to Rihanna
The Night We Met || Spones -- Lord Huron and TOS Spones amv, it's just a general lovely video, great editing and the lyrics fit them so well. I felt Lots of Emotions watching this, and so will you
[Star Trek] Spock/McCoy - Please Don't Leave Me -- beautifully put-together video for TOS' Spock and Bones. It's giving so much 'we're divorced but still in love' energy. painful and funny and the bridge of the song is just *screams incoherently* 💙
You Had A Bad Day -Spock/McCoy *Slash* -- sobbing at this one, TOS and absolutely chefs kiss. scene selection is on point, it tells a full story. creator has found what I consider to be the holy grail of Bones' best angsty moments
Star Trek In General:
Star Trek - This Is Me -- I will be preaching about this video for the rest of my fucking life. think of every positive adjective you can; they all do nothing to describe how wonderful this amv is. Greatest Showman is good on its own... when you add Star Trek into the mix something beautiful happens. an absolute anthem of positivity and inclusivity and everything Star Trek is at its heart. Clips taken from every show, but especially DS9, Discovery and the AOS movies!!! probably my favourite on the whole list 💙
Star Trek || I'll keep coming -- very very well done HD AOS amv about the whole cast. feels like a movie. the creator has put so much effort into this and it pays off!! great homage to AOs as a whole
Star Trek | You Are Loved -- AOS tribute to the soundtrack of Lights by Sleeping At Last. Perfect cuts, great lyrics, big fan
[Star Trek: TOS] Party Rock Anthem -- the video for those who want to bust their ass laughing. superb chaos, you will have no idea what's happening and it will be fabulous
Star Trek DS9 - Last Friday Night -- the DS9 group bullshitting around and having a whale of a time for almost four minutes straight. ever wanna show a friend just how weird Star Trek really is? this'll do it. it's like if three hundred punch drunk aliens threw a queer party! wahoo!
Assorted Others:
Garak x Bashir - Hooked -- sexy, dangerous, catchy garashir amv with perfect beat drops and lyrics to die for. fucking sweet, I have this on repeat
Undisclosed Desires | Deep Space Nine -- DS9 Bashir/Garak slash, amazing editing and a sick ass song. Really shows off their - again - dangerous dynamic and the 'I can make him better' 'I can accept his violence' aspects of their relationship
King of Shadow ★ Garashir -- a more intimate, kind-hearted look into Bashir/Garak's relationship, less fast-paced and on-edge. Superb and filled with lies and whispers. love this one!
ϟ twenty years || Jim|Spock|Bones [TOS] -- melancholic but still quick-paced TOS McSpirk exploration. goes through the original series and the movies
Scotty/Uhura- "Hey Soul Sister" -- sweet and utterly adorable lil scotty/uhura amv. fluff fluff and more fluff!! big fan, I am such a simp for the cuteness omg
Garak/Bashir | ST: DS9 | Some Boys -- back on the dangerous garashir shit, this is the stuff of my best nightmares. amazing editing and the song choice is spot on. I've had the single by Death Cab For Cutie on Spotify repeating for a week *heart eyes*
Kathryn Janeway || Soldier -- I'm a big Voyager fan, and this is the perfect tribute to Janeway. It shows exactly how her character works, getting right into her head, and the whole thing is action packed. Paced spectacularly and argh just amazing
Those are some of my favourites!! Please go check some of them out! There are so many more, and the list is growing every day. AMV creators are amazing and I'm kissing you all on the forehead. thank you for your service 💙. I'm in the process of making a public YouTube playlist with all of these on it, so if you want to have that I'll probably link it eventually!!
#star trek#spirk#star trek tos#star trek movies#star trek voyager#star trek the original series#star trek ds9#amv#Star Trek amv#aos#star trek aos#james t kirk#spock#scotty#leonard bones mccoy#leonard mccoy#garashir#elim garak#garak x bashir#julian bashir
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Finished another amazing series Mob Psycho 100
And it was a exceptional experience y’all, ( Spoilers a head for the non telepaths and psychics)
So the last season I heard it was just meh till the end from my friends who whatched it and DAMN they were dead wrong on that mark I LOVE BEGINNING TO END THIS SEASON
Want to talk about each arc that blown me away
Which I don’t have a single clue what the fandom name these arcs so I gonna make some simple names for it
Back to mob arc (1-3 episode)
Was really amazing as a starter for what to come for those school elements that was every episode that was ther. I related to mob so good dam hard that first episode from just his fear of the future and that advice gave at the really helps me get my head looking forward at the future without fear but with excitement for the possibility. Just speech from the teacher was soooo reassuring and I could just understand on that feeling so hard then that yokai hunter episode was just hilarious and cute having mob solves his own problems in such a way that incorporates his passion and reliability was just a real fun time to watch. Having that yokai king( the one that mob made) was cute to seee all of that effort that been put together. And now what I I would say the last place episode and by no means I think it was bad I just felt incomplete but with that next arc it has been a amazing to hint at and show what to come .
The divine tree arc (4-6)
This arc was just sooo good and for it was too reason the eeriness of the first part like how everyone started to ignore mob and starts to be more of a out cast while the religion starts to slowly take over. Like this what was One of favorite YouTuber videos Supereyepatch wolf video about social anxiety horror was about ( and yall should watch that video if you want to explore that same feeling with mob) but yea having that feeling of slowly becoming a outcast is just a fear that now looms over me. And then having those little scary moments of just the spread will linger in my mind for a while. The other part of why I love this arc is dimple from how he was in the beginning and end. I don’t know what the opinion on the beginning of the arc about dimple but I loved how unnerving it was about. The concept of someone takes your place is equally as scary as the becoming a outcast to your friends and I think it went hand by hand perfectly but the ending with dimple was sooooooooooo good like I thought oh easy back stab here but the genuine kindness that mob showed actually made him change and I love that soo much and how he made mob go home made me cry actually tears with that wave because aaaaahhhh I can’t really explain it in words but if anyone can explain please do but it was so gooood.
Space arc( 7-8)
This was just a cute nice simple arc. I just love how it expanded so much with occult club members and it just so cute and wholesome having them together, and the message of make memories is resonating to me sooo hard. Wanting to make a friend dream a reality is real heartwarming and how it explored more on a different psychic is really interesting and love that new character so much with his excitement for the adventure. And the aliens was just a treat to because having them there made sense in that strange world of mob psycho and having them either real or not really didn’t matter but just making them real felt so complete.
Final (9-12)
Okay ao I. I don’t want dismiss the other parts of this great season but wow this is the best way to end a series like this one from the amazing action to the most heart felt speeches and the overall tone of this felt soo right. Having experienced this was great bringing back last season big bad was a treat and the fights were great but that running scene from Reigan was just immaculate just him running towards Mob as the world turns to ruins it just amazing. And I love how each character ending was felt so complete like with Teruki Hanazawa him with that scene calling himself mobs rival was soo good he save everyone because he knew that fighting mob wasn’t the main thing but protecting mob from killing people was. And there were so many more great moments like this to round out most characters in this great story. But we have to talk about tumblr sexy man Reigan and his speech and I don’t know how many people are said this but I just love how he was honest to mob and helped him accept himself to become more of a complete person and it just makes me have goosebumps from just listening to him admitting to his faults it just soooo god damn good.
I don’t have any good ending statements but I am just glad to experience this amazing show and I hope yall have similar experiences with this great series
#excess thoughts#mob psycho 100#txt post#i ramble#this show is so good#I am glad to experience this great show#btw#reigan arataka#is such a banger#character#and dimple tooo
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001 for both mckirk and spones please!
This is gonna be long :D I'm gonna have to use read more
001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: mckirk
when I started shipping it if I did: so when the lockdown in 2020 started, I had nothing to do and just watched stuff. I have this favourite dubber and I was looking at the list of stuff he dubbed, and saw Star Trek AOS on that list. This guy is the voice of 2000s Alan Rickman, Tom Hanks, Tony Stark, he also apparently dubbed Garak in that one Star Trek series, and so seeing the reboot films on the list and his name next to McCoy, I was like, gotta check how he sounds. The fact that Kirk was also dubbed by a guy I generally like was a plus. (funnily enough Captain America/Iron Man and Kirk/McCoy are dubbed by the same guys here, which is funny to me). So I checked youtube and the scene I saw was the scene in Beyond where Kirk and McCoy are alone and are having a drink. And that scene did something to my brain, and I was like this is the dynamic I want, I wanna read fics, so before that I had to watch the films. So I watched AOS, basically through McCoy (Kirk/McCoy) lenses and started to read fics. Three weeks later, I decided to watch TOS because a lot of the fics referenced Kirk's backstory, so I wanted to know about it. The three weeks reading fics and looking through livejournal, kind of made me think that McCoy wasn't really an important character in TOS and that AOS made up the mckirk relationship (such a lie), so when I started watching TOS, I only planned to watch episodes heavy on McCoy. Which like... were most of them at the beginning lol I kinda decided not to trust the fandom after like three episodes or something. I binged the three seasons of TOS in like three weeks. I've had a hard time seeing tos!Kirk with men for a long time (I've had a complicated "relationship" with tos!Kirk for so long), so my interest in tos!mckirk was primarily as a platonic relationship [but it was always my fave relationship, I liked it even more than spones, actually] (but romantic in aos), but I started to insert Kirk into my spones fics, wrote a part from his POV, and then one day I just woke up and decided to write a tos!mckirk fic (it was actually because I started to read aos fics again, getting back into aos!mckirk, but... the tos version has been calling me) and just embraced the romantic (and sexual lol) aspect of their relationship.
my thoughts: I love their friendship so much. It's very important to me. I like that McCoy knows what to say to pull Kirk back on the right path, I like that Kirk can be vulnerable around McCoy. In AOS I like that McCoy is the only one Kirk shares stuff with about his mother and his insecurities (in Beyond it looked like he never even allowed the other crew to acknowledge his birthday... until McCoy finally decided to give him a party, after 5 years on the Enterprise...)
What makes me happy about them: we see both of them the most at ease around each other. They can forget who they are around each other, for a moment, at least. McCoy gives Kirk some of his most brightest smiles; McCoy can make Kirk genuinely laugh. Kirk needs him. badly.
What makes me sad about them: I eat angst for breakfast, so uhm...
things done in fanfic that annoys me: the lack of their friendship even in gen fics T_T (we all know what annoys me in aos fic, we don't need a rehash)
things I look for in fanfic: having more fics would be fun lol You know, just a genuine intimacy they show in the the show. Jim's sense of duty being the cause of angst.
Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: McCoy with Spock (I do like the idea of mckirk to spones after the movie era, more or less). tos movie era Kirk? Actually, no one.
My happily ever after for them: buying a cabin in the mountains and getting two dogs (one big and one small) post TUC (then we can stop time lol or not...)
who is the big spoon/little spoon: idk haven't thought about their sleeping position. It would probably change based on what kind of story I'd wanna tell
what is their favorite non-sexual activity: .... you know, they're happy when they find the time to have sex...
spones under the cut
001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: spones
when I started shipping it if I did: so above I said that I started to watch TOS because of mckirk, right? Mainly because of The Conscience of the King and Tarsus IV, right? Well... I finished that episode shipping spones LMAO It really was quite quick for me.
my thoughts: the most engaging dynamic in TOS imho
What makes me happy about them: The loyalty, the trust. They were in each other's lives for 100 years. 100 years. That they're more similar than different. That they actually understand each other, but would never admit it. "I don't think I could stand to lose you again." < what is that? so real to have McCoy say that
What makes me sad about them: that they would leave the other one behind and die if it meant to save Kirk (this isn't meant negatively, I'm not really explicit about it or talk about it, but my spones know that Kirk's life is a priority, sometimes even just to show that no, we're not emotionally compromised, we know what our duty is kinda way. I just think it'd be great to explore that in a fic)
things done in fanfic that annoys me: uhm (I'm speaking in general, it is just my opinion based on my taste; I believe that everyone should write what makes them happy, we can't ever please every single person) McCoy using hobgoblin, elf, jackrabbit (the last two are terms that Kirk used to make Spock angry) as a form of affection/endearment, or at all tbh. McCoy being insecure because of Kirk. (give me Spock being insecure because of McCoy-Kirk friendship) Some people feeling guilty about writing spones and therefore still making kirk-spock have the specialest bond *rolls eyes* I just don't get the need to quantify relationships, I guess. Any kind of pet names.
things I look for in fanfic: balanced relationship, mature arguments that don't rely on pettiness, trying to combine the different world views, not needing to express love in a traditional way, but a way that works for the two of them and their two differing cultures.
Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: McCoy with Kirk, obviously. Spock with Chapel or T'Pring (even during the movie era, yes).
My happily ever after for them: 100 years. What more do you want? LOL My personal hc is that when McCoy dies, and Spock goes to Romulus, McCoy's spirit is always there because a part of his soul stayed inside Spock's katra. So Spock is just haunted by McCoy's spirit until he dies on New Vulcan, and then they're put into the katra stone. Together forever.
who is the big spoon/little spoon: I imagine them more as Spock sleeping on his back and McCoy's head on his arm/chest.
what is their favorite non-sexual activity: banter (they especially enjoy if it makes Kirk exasperated)
[ask meme]
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*walks up to the top of the room w/ my thumb and ring fingers pressed together*
Hm. *brief silence where I hold in all the 'em's that want to come out*
My name is Marzipan and I was born on August 19th, 1951. No I was not that was a Queen joke. Queen was my first fandom. Anyone who found that funny hmtfu *raises eyebrows and waggles my right hand in a phone symbol*
ANYWAY so I accrue fandoms chronologically and there is a definite pattern of my interest in older fandoms getting left behind for the new interest. In order my fandoms have been Queen, Harry Potter (Drarry), Stranger Things, The Umbrella Academy, Doctor Who, Good Omens, and uh. David Tennant. Lol. *realises i just said 'lol' out loud* *clears throat hm. So anyway I still love all these pieces of media and have fic Ideas for all of them bit I haven't actually written anything yet. Or. Okay actually I was very diligent in writing down my ideas for my FIRST fic *gestures to Harry Potter* but. I still never wrote any of the *fic*.
I implicitly trust my Dad's taste in music, movies, and books, and he has never led me wrong thus far. I also have my own taste in books, which largely amounts to "mystery-solving kids" but I am hoping to expand. Yes you read that implication right I do not in fact have much of my own taste in movies or music--or I find it really difficult to describe, more accurately, since it's basically 'Mostly Dad's recommendations plus some other stuff' only I don't know what the 'other stuff' is called or how to define it.
Um.
I have a list of musicals I need to watch, starting with Les Mis, a list of books I need to read, starting with Children of Blood and Bone/Children of Virtue and Vengeance, and a list of shows/movies I need to watch, starting with. PJO and The Owl House. Although I have to read the books for them first, so. Also The Hunger Games!! Aaaa!! So many things!!!
I play the violin, and I used to be in two orchestras, but now I'm in just the one, thank goodness. I went on tour in Lisbon last week! Dublin youth orchestra!! First time on tour, we did two locations, the food was amazing, it was suncream-hot in February (unheard of) and I have a VERY LONG post about it buried in my drafts. (I need to go through my drafts.....)
Ao, uh, anyway, that's me. Oh also!! I got myself adopted by Arthur, and he's reallly nice, but @howmanyholesinswisscheese can you be my uncle?? Please?? I feel like that fits the vibe better :).
ALSO also I'm watching The Good Place right now with @rainbowpopeworld. XD.
School-style getting to know you
So I don't actually know a lot about my mutuals, so I thought it would be a fun idea to have everyone introduce themselves like they were in school. (i've seen other people do this, but i've always been too scared to try for myself)
I'll start:
*slides to the front of the class in heelies* *jumps up onto a desk, basking in the spotlight like the theatre kid I am* "You can call me Aeylia (not my real name), I have done theatre since I was 5, I am extremely ADHD, and I am in the PJO, Good Omens, Sherlock, Dr Who, The Owl House, and Medoran Chronicles fandoms, (although the Medoran Chronicles fandom is tiny), I love musicals, acting, reading, writing, and baking, and I have a labradoodle (labrador poodle cross) named Leo. *jumps down from the desk* *slides back to my desk* *sits on top of my desk, completely ignoring the chair*
@madfangirlontheloose @good-usernames-were-taken @gyrovagus-bibliophile @aroaceblackhole @arkytiorlecter @howmanyholesinswisscheese @falling-raine @queermarzipan
@ anyone else who wants to join in
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Thank you for the tag, @ryder616!
This tag game has unexpectedly led to an interesting discussion about what exactly an “Endgame Ship” means... which seems to be largely open to interpretation. I’m still not sure how I see that term, but for the purposes of this post, but to narrow it down and not mention way too many ships, I’ll take Endgame in two different meanings: for “Favorite Ship(s) That’s Endgame”, I’ll take it to mean pairings that were together and in a happy relationship at the end of the story. But for “Ship(s) You Wish Had Been Endgame”, I will take “Not Endgame” to mean that the ship was not treated as these characters’ main romance at the end of the show, or at least there was a lot of ambiguity and/or a rival ship for one or both characters was instead the current one at the end of the story. (A lot of my favorite ships have the tendency to end up unhappily in spite of being portrayed as the main romance of the story..)
Warning: this post contains spoilers for Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Agents of SHIELD, The Hunger Games, The Leftovers, The Americans and The 100 (though if you’ve spent any time on my blog, you’ve certainly already been spoiled for the ending of The 100) and .
1. First Ship - When I was about 4 or 5, I was obsessed with Lady and the Tramp (I had a book version with a few pictures and it fell apart from how much I was reading it - it may have been my first book that wasn’t mostly a picture book), so I guess my first ship was two dogs (which is really appropriate, since I love dogs). If we’re talking TV, again going back to my childhood, before puberty and before I even knew what “shipping” was, I remember being pleasantly surprised when Raquel first appeared on Only Fools and Horses as a love interest for Del Boy - the show was an episodic comedy where the two brothers, in the early years, usually didn’t have a serious love interest. I thought “oh, he really is in love with her! And she feels the same, and they are so cute together.” I hoped she’d come back and wouldn’t just be a one episode character but a long-term LI. And then I was so happy when that very much did happen. I guess this can be considered the start of my TV shipping (and also an early sign of my love for contuinity and longer arcs on TV).
2. First OTP - Ignoring pre-puberty: at the age of 12, I was really obsessed with Wuthering Heights and Heathcliff and Cathy and read the book who knows how mny times. Regarding TV, I’ve shipped over the years, but I guess the first TV ship I would really call my OTP was in This Life, a 1990s UK drama about a bunch of 20-somethings in London, which I watched on TV in 2001. which now sadly seems almost forgotten. Anna and Miles had an on-off, love-hate relationship throughout - they were sexy, snarky, and it was painfully obvious that they were in love, but these idiots had trouble admitting it to themselves and even more to each other. If it had been a romcom, they would’ve been certain to end up together, but it was a realistic drama.
3. Current Favorite Ship - Bellarke - oh, what an OTP of all OTPs that was before it was stupidly destroyed out of spite. Over the last couple of years, Dark (season 3 mostly) made me really love Jonas and Martha (the first pairing I’ve made gifsets about), and most recently (last month!), I binged Halt and Catch Fire and fell in love with the show and with Joe and Cameron’s relationship (which, I just realized now, shows that my taste in OTPs hasn’t changed in 20 years).
If we’re talking current as in, in current shows rather than finished ones, then Kanej (Shadow and Bone), Harlivy (Harley Quinn), Gereon and Charlotte (Babylon Berlin) and Roy and Keeley (Ted Lasso).
4. Your ship since the first minute - I really rarely ship anything from the first minute (unless we’re talking Morticia and Gomez, who are of course already a perfect couple and nothing ever changes there). It usually takes time for me to fall for a ship. A rare exception is Roy and Keeley - their first one-on-one scene in S1 already had huge OTP vibes.
5. Ship(s) You Wish Had Been Endgame - Do I even have to say it? BELLARKE. A hundred times Bellarke, who were portrayed as endgame before the showrunner decided to retcon and ruin them together with the show overall.
Others: Jessica and Luke in Netfix Narvel shows, May and Andrew on AoS, Willow and Oz; or, depending on how you interpret Endgame, Willow/Tara (some argue that it is Endgame as Tara is definitely portrayed as the love of Willow’s life regardless of everything else). Spuffy (again, there are different opinions as to its status as both the show and the comics ended ambiguously and tried not to have a clear Endgame pairing for Buffy’s character), Xander/Anya (if you take comics into account).
6. Ship You Wish Was Canon - Some would say Bellarke, again, but I tend to consider it canon. It’s debatable, for sure (if you only consider making out/sex and/or “I love you” as markers of canon, it is not canon; if it is enough for the show to make it so blatant in the first 6 seasons that you have to actively search for ways to deny it to make it sound platonic, and for actors to confirm it was portrayed as romantic- than it is.)
So my answer would be: Kastle (Netflix Marvel shows), QuakeRider (AoS), and Octavia and Diyoza (The 100) and maybe Faith and Buffy (mostly in the sense that canon could have explored the nature of Faith’s feelings for Buffy a bit more and a bit more openly).
7. Ship that Most of the Fandom Hates, but You Love - Angel and Darla, May and Andrew, Coulson and Rosalind (hated how it ended though). Miller and Bryan (because they were more interesting than Mackson, and Bryan had a personality), Though “ships that most of the fandom ignores” would be a more apt term. The one that most of the fandom does hate and I like it is Octavia/Ilian - I liked it for what it was, two damaged people finding comfort together in what could have grown into something more - instead of the “we’re ve just met and talked to each other once and we’re already IN LOVE!” trope that the writers of The 100 were so fond of.
8. You Don’t Even Watch the Show, but You Ship It - Why would I ship something from a show I don’t watch?
9. Ship That You Wish Had A Different Storyline - BELLARKE (duh - the ending). Veronica and Logan (the ending, again). Coulson/Rosalind - they had such an interesting and fun dynamic that could have been explored much more; instead, the writers opted for one of the worst tropes there are, and I hated that entire plotline for so many reasons. Tyrol and Boomer on Battlestar Galactica - what they did with Boomer was crap. Baltar and Caprica - all the bad writing in season 4. This is a weird example of a ship that I shipped so hard for 3 seasons and that was given Endgame in every sense of the word, but, by that point, I barely cared anymore, because the writers forgot about their relationship throughout the final season and made it seem like they didn’t even remember each other, and then slapped a last minute happy ending. Plus they retconed/explained their connection in such a stupid and anticlimactic way that ruined it retroactively.
10. Favorite Ship(s) That’s Endgame - Everlark, Nora and Kevin (The Leftovers), Philip and Elizabeth (The Americans), and Josh and Della on Night and Day (a really obscure early 2000s UK show that was watched by maybe 100 people.) Some others worth mentioning: FitzSimmons, Niles and Daphne, Tim and Dawn (original UK The Office), Jake and Amy, Memori (the only bright spot in a rubbish ending). And of course, there’s Morticia and Gomez, though they are less Endgame and more AlwaysGame.
Tagging: @jeanie205 @kizo2703 @poppykru @sheigarche @weareagentsofnothing @sometimesrosy @misskittyspuffy @otp-armada @carrieeve @sexy-zeitreise-detektiv @jonaskanwalds @immortalpramheda @ladyofthefrostfangs @tennyo-elf @fandomkru @natassakar @hadrianvonpaulus @sillier-things @angearia @thekawaiislartibartfast @foolishnymeria @erikiara80 @heartbellamy and anyone else who sees this - sorry I didn’t tag you and please consider yourself tagged. :)
#ships#tag game#ship asks#fandom asks#the 100#buffy the vampire slayer#agents of shield#halt and catch fire#dark netflix#the hunger games#the leftovers#the americans#only fools and horses#wuthering heights#shadow and bone#harley quinn#babylon berlin#ted lasso#jessica jones#battlestar galactica#bellarke#veronica mars#brooklyn nine nine#jonas x martha#cameron x joe#joe x cameron#kanej#willow x tara#spuffy#angel x darla
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Kinktober 2021 Monster Fuckers Extravaganza
From October 1st until October 31st, I will be posting drabbles for this year's Kinktober celebration.
Some ground rules before we get started.
I will be tagging all my Kinktober stories as "lemon". If you are a minor DO NO INTERACT! Please, respect my blog and remember to block "lemon". I'm trying to keep this October safe and fun for everyone.
Send all request to my ask box. If it is sent as a submission or into my messages, I will not answer them.
Do not ask me if I got your request. Just assume I have I'll get to it when and if I can. If you message me multiple times asking about it, I will delete it.
If I do answer your request, please reblog and/or comment. It's just common courtesy. I'm not getting paid here. Your engagement is my payment.
And now for the fun stuff.
Step 1: Select a Character
Chose any from the following fandoms:
Star Wars (Original Trilogy, Prequel Trilogy, Sequel Trilogy, The Clone Wars, Rebels, Thrawn Trilogy, Rogue One, The Mandalorian)
Marvel/MCU
The Magnificent Seven
Star Trek: TOS/AOS
M*A*S*H
Any of My OCs
Anything else you've seen me reblog: Hammer Horror, ACD Sherlock, Good Omens, etc.
Step 2: Select Your Monster
Vampire AU
Werewolf AU
Dragon AU
Demon AU
Angel AU
Mermaid AU
Fae AU
Ghost AU
Alien AU
Shifter AU
Or any other kind of monster or supernatural being your heart desires; let's get weird
Step 3: Select a Sentence Prompt
“Are you sure? Once we start, i might not be able to stop.“
“Aw, you’re so cute when you blush like that.”
“Aw, your legs are trembling~ does it feel that good?”
“Baby, it’s cold outside.”
“Bet I can make you come without ever touching you.”
“Can you guys just fuck already?”
“Car sex looks so much easier in the movies. “
"Catch me if you can!”
“Christ, put some clothes on!”
“Cum all over my face”
“Cum for me.”
“Did I just say that out loud?”
“Did you come inside?!”
“Do you like it? I put it on just for you.”
“Do you want to kiss as bad as I do right now?”
“Don’t treat me like a princess”
“Don’t argue. Just do it.”
“Don’t cover your mouth… I like hearing you.”
“Don’t talk, just spread your legs”
“Don’t you dare to pull out.”
“Don’t you know how to knock?!”
“Fine, but… only if we go slow, okay?”
“Finish inside me, I mean it.”
“First one to cum is the loser.”
“Forget the bed… let’s do it right here.”
“Here, let me show you how to do it.”
“Home is too far away. No one’s going to see us here.”
“How long do we have?”
“I can’t wait until we’re alone. There are so many things I want to do to you right now.”
“I could watch you ride me all day.”
“I don’t care about consequences.”
“I don’t have to be inside you to make you feel good…”
“I don’t like the blindfold… I want to see you!”
“I like it when you touch me there.”
“I like your toys. Can I have them in me? ”
“I swear this was an accident!”
“I think you deserve a treat.”
“I want to see those pretty little lips wrapped around my cock.”
“I want you to fill me.”
“I wanna fuck you right up against the window.”
“If I’d known how much you liked to be watched I would’ve invited him/her/them sooner.”
“If we get caught, I’m blaming you”
“If you don’t like my teasing, then why are you moaning?”
“Is this sofa strong enough for both of us?”
“I’ll call in sick again.”
“I’ll do anything you want me to do to you, but you have to say it out loud.”
“I’m gonna marry you just for doing that.”
“I’m in heat./ I’m horny. ”
“I’m not gonna stop leaving marks till I’m sure everyone will know you’re mine.”
“I’ve been thinking about doing this all day.”
“Just sit back and let me give you a show.”
“Keep doing that, and I’ll cum in no time”
“Lay back and touch yourself. I want to watch.”
“Leave your hand there, sweetheart, it feels good.”
“Let me show you why we should stay in bed. ”
“Let’s do it in the bathroom, you can be as messy as you want.”
“Let’s sneak in and do it there.”
“Lick it. Right there.”
“Looks like someone wants to be a dad/mom.”
“Make sure I won’t be able to walk tomorrow.”
“My cum’s dripping out, let me push it back in you.”
“Oh, look who’s not wearing any underwear~”
“On all fours, right now!”
“Please tell me you got protection.”
“Please, let me taste you.”
“Please, ruin me.”
“Round 2, baby” (or any number, lol)
“Someone’s happy to see me.”
“Stop undressing me with your eyes and start using your teeth.”
“Swallow. All of it.”
“That is kinky even by my standards…”
“That position looks impossible enough, let’s try it.”
“That’s a nice way to start a day”
“That’s it, keep cumming.”
“They’re all watching the movie. They’re not even going to notice.”
“Three is not a crowd. Three is just a start.”
“WOAH- is that going to fit?”
“Were you just masturbating?”
“We’re already late… do you want to be more late?”
“We’re gonna need a bigger bed.”
“We’ve been doing it for three hours… How come you’re not tired?” (or any number, lol)
“What a nice little sound, I think I’ll bite there again.”
“What are you doing in my bed?!”
“What else are you hiding under there?”
“What if I want them to hear/see us?”
“What the fuck, that was amazing. Do it again.”
“Who cares if everyone’s watching?”
“You are better than any toy I’ve tried.”
“You look so hot when you dance.“
“You really do love drinking my cum, don’t you?”
"You saw me naked!”
“You taste so sweet/salty”
“You weren’t supposed to hear that.”
“Your head between my legs sounds good right now.”
“You’re bigger than I expected.”
“You’re cute when you’re worried.”
“You’re mine, and I don’t share.”
“You’re so cute when you’re all tied up and needy…..”
“You’re so flexible…”
“You’ve got too many clothes on.”
[Insert your own]
Step 4: Send Me My Ask Box
Please remember to specify that your ask if for Kinktober
Step 5: Profit
Happy Halloween Everybody. ;)
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hi lacey!!! oh i'm so excited for this event like you have no idea!!
name: emcon
fandom/movie/show: MCU
extra choice: mentor
gender/pronouns: female, she/her
sexuality: lesbian
likes: anything related to the internet/computers/hacking, writing, poetry, radio culture (ham, am, fm), the paranormal, outer space, bats, geography, anything cyberpunk, bad sci-fi, horror movies, betta fish and shrimp, nighttime drives, when we get to work a job onsite and I get to hack someone or break into something ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و
dislikes: needles (actually literally anything medical), falling asleep without meaning to (sleep disorder gang let me HEAR YOU!!), cold calls from my boss
hobbies: writing, cryptography/hacking, playing the flute + piano, web design, running around the woods, learning languages, exploring the city with my friends (and sneaking into places we shouldn't be!)
extra info about you/any random stuff:
internet drama / reality TV is a guilty pleasure of mine
I'm super interested politically with online privacy, anti-policing, anti-surveillance (+anti- surveillance capitalism), cybersecurity, and anonymity and this is one of my favorite political stances. I'm like the shitty Saul Goodman of my friend group
I love love love stormy weather I think we should have thunderstorms every night as a treat
please emcon im so happy i clicked that link dhsjacshhsvs OKAY LETS GET IT (as for the mentor thing i STILL haven’t watched AOS so prepare for MCU timeline man)
s/o: yelena belova already felt close to her sister through you because she was your best friend, but you also helped her discover herself as an individual after the two of you had met. you introduced her to your likes and she would be honest if she also liked them or not and you were never offended if she didn’t because you loved that she could tell you that!!! but she did phrase it harshly sometimes. like “this sucks. i hate this.” but it’s okay it’s kind of funny.
enemy: jarvis/friday/ultron/vision because like, how could you trust any of these bitches. you absolutely REFUSE to ask friday for any assistance and ultron on his own was a threat to everyone’s privacy and safety, then there’s vision and he’s just so sketchy. all of that stark AI doesn’t sit well with you and you were so close to creating a kill switch for the currently active AI you happened to live with. it’s totally not because vision walked in on you one time.
best friend: natasha romanoff has been your best friend since you met. you were a SHIELD agent and also happened to be an expert hacker that helped her out on quite a few missions. that is, until you were added into the avengers’ lineup. you’d literally take a bullet for each other and i mean, you literally had the BEST girls nights. either it was ice cream and movies in the living room or a random vacation where you two became untraceable.
mentor: phil coulson was just a good guy, you know? one of your superiors when you were working for SHIELD and always steered you the right way. you think about him often in times of stress and try to think about what advice he’d give. he was always understanding, as well, but knew when to be tough in contrast to fury and hill, who were always pretty strict. in conclusion, coulson is awesome.
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the heart of the matter (is Leonard McCoy)
Followers...friends. I come to you today, hat in hand, to ask for your support in a certain fandom matter, a trifling concern of little real consequence which nevertheless has been driving me absolutely cross-eyed bonkers for some years now.
Simply put: can we please all agree that Bones is the heart of the Enterprise???
In AOS, I mean. I’m not aware of any debate over this when it comes to TOS, where the roles of the triumvirate have always been explicit, though there are a few different ways to identify them:
Spock = logos = superego = head
Bones = pathos = id = heart
Kirk = ethos = ego = soul
So clear! So clean! So universally accepted by Trek fandom at large!
Oh, but things get murkier in AOS, and there are plenty of posts floating around which suggest that it’s Kirk, not McCoy, who serves as the heart in the Kelvin timeline. Even the writers of the first two AOS films have outright stated that their interpretation of the triumvirate had the original roles switched, with Kirk as the highly emotional one and McCoy as the arbiter between Kirk’s passion and Spock’s logic. It’s true that this technically counts as a Word of God pronouncement by the actual creators of 2/3 of the series thus far, which some would argue renders it canon. However, it’s equally true that those same creators also felt that Kirk was a fuckboi and that Benedict Cumberbatch wonderfully embodied their vision for Khan Noonien Singh, so honestly, who gives a hot hollerin’ fuck what those dingdongs think. This seems as justified a time as any to invoke Death of the Author, and in fact, it’s my firm belief that despite the writers’ intentions, Star Trek and Into Darkness both support the original triumvirate breakdown.
Under the cut you’ll find a long-winded and self-indulgent ~*~character analysis~*~ of the Kelvin-timeline incarnations of Jim Kirk and Leonard “Bones” McCoy, reviewing why Leonard is still unmistakably the heart, unpacking what the hell Jim’s deal is, and finally taking a look at some key examples from canon, because ya girl believes in showing her work.
Let’s get down to business.
[A quick warning, as this is starting to spread beyond my own followers: if you don’t like McKirk as a romantic pairing, you ain’t gonna like part IV, so I’d bow out before then or just take your leave now.]
i. Leonard
Independent of Jim’s characterization, it should be blindingly obvious that Leonard is the heart. He’s by far the most nakedly emotional of our seven core crew members, a trait we see writ large and small throughout the films. He’s reactive; he’s passionate; he’s humane. He cares, first and foremost.
Not about Starfleet, of course. Leonard doesn’t give a damn about playing the game or advancing his career, or even really about the Enterprise’s mission - he has no desire to explore strange new worlds, he’ll pass on seeking out new life and new civilizations, and he spends half his time trying to convince everyone else that boldly going where no man has gone before is a great way to die horribly. Fuck exploration, fuck space, and fuck the Federation while we’re at it. Leonard is perhaps the most improbable of the Enterprise’s senior officers for the simple reason that he seems to resent everything about the job.
Well. Almost everything.
See, what Leonard cares about is people. He cares about their lives, about their stories, about their hopes and dreams, about their suffering. That’s why he entered and has stayed in an extremely taxing caring profession, and it’s why he’s still on the Enterprise despite his incessant bitching about everything they do. He wouldn’t trust anyone else to take care of the crew he’s become so attached to, and he finds fulfillment in helping the people they encounter out there in the nightmare of space.
In every timeline, Leonard McCoy defines himself by what he can do for others: the pain he can ameliorate, the wounds he can heal, the diseases he can cure, the small amounts of good he can bring to a galaxy filled with so much absolute horseshit. Unlike most of his colleagues, he’s not motivated by curiosity or an adventurer’s spirit or a burning desire to make sense of the universe. (Fuck the universe, too, as a matter of fact.) Instead, he’s driven by the incredible depths of his compassion and empathy and concern for the people he serves alongside and those they meet along the way.
Sure sounds like the heart to me.
ii. Jim
I actually totally get why some people characterize Kelvin-timeline Jim as the heart. He’s quite literally a different man than the original timeline’s Kirk, and he definitely has more of the pathos qualities to him. Early on, he’s a total spitfire, fierce and hot-blooded, quick to anger and other sharp-edged emotions we’re not used to associating with James T. Kirk. Even as he grows into himself and leaves some of those traits behind, he remains spontaneous, passionate, protective, and self-sacrificing - easy enough to mistake for the heart if you squint.
But let’s not confuse having a heart for being the heart. Sure, Jim is more openly emotional and reactive than his TOS counterpart, but there’s still a marked difference between the way he and Leonard express and act on their emotions.
AOS Jim definitely has a lot of feelings - big ones - but at the end of the day, he’s not driven by his heart. He’s driven by his gut.
Whenever there’s trouble, Jim makes a beeline right for the center of it. He’s impulsive as hell, rarely pausing to think past his first instinct, because he just wants to be doing something, no matter the odds, no matter what it costs him. He explicitly calls himself out on this in ST:ID when arguing with Spock: “I have no idea what I’m supposed to do. I only know what I can do.” He doesn’t have the patience or the constitution to sit and debate all the options, either internally or with his crew. If there’s a path forward from where he is, even a bad one, Jim’s gonna take it.
[Sidebar: One could make the case that the roots of Jim’s instinct to act reach back to his childhood traumas - canonically ignored abuse and neglect on the one hand, and the Tarsus IV famine and massacre on the other - but that’s a whole post on its own and we ain’t got all day here.]
Jim can’t not act, and while that gets him into a lot of trouble, it also saves lives. Sulu probably appreciated that Jim’s gut drove him to leap off Nero’s drilling platform without a moment’s hesitation after a man he’d only just met. He may have been a real shithead about it, but Jim’s impassioned insistence on going after the Narada and not wasting time on the possibility of a better option was key to saving Pike and Earth itself. And I don’t know why Spock was so surprised that Jim intervened to save him on Nibiru, considering that the reason they were there in the first place was because Jim couldn’t sit back and watch the Nibirans die when there was something his crew could do to help them, even if it meant risking a violation of the Prime Directive.
Jim is a good man with a big heart, and he cares about people, absolutely. But he cares most of all about Doing The Right Thing - which in the heat of the moment often translates to Doing Something, Anything, Hold My Beer.
iii. heart vs. gut (i.e., time for some receipts)
I think one of the main reasons Leonard and Jim’s characterizations get confused is because they both tend to act on instinct, only lightly informed by higher reasoning. However, I’d argue that their motivations and the nature of those actions are super distinct, and those distinctions remain relatively consistent throughout all three films. (And y’all know I really mean this shit if I’m out here calling ST:ID consistent.)
Jim is a big picture guy, figuratively and often literally heaving himself full-body into the mix of whatever problem the crew has encountered for lack of any better alternative. That energy propels the plots of all three films: the chaotic path he carves through the events of Star Trek and ST:ID, and the slightly calmer but still undeniably bananas course he charts for himself and his crew in the second half of Beyond.
As the heart, Leonard operates on a more micro level. His concern invariably lies with the individual people caught up in those grand events Captain Chaos is busy dragging them all through. While Jim’s zooming around flipping plot switches, Leonard can always be counted on to bring it back to the personal.
We frequently see this juxtaposed right there on film. Think of that slow pan through medbay in the first movie after the Narada’s ambush and the destruction of Vulcan: while Jim is stewing over what to do about the Big Bad, Leonard has stepped into the CMO role without fuss or fanfare to care for the wounded crew and traumatized survivors.
Or jump ahead to Beyond: during Krall’s attack on the Enterprise, there’s a gorgeous cinematic shot of Jim sprinting down the corridor with two crew members to take on the invaders - and then we cut to Leonard moving slowly through those same ghastly red-lit corridors, searching for casualties in need of help, visibly affected by what his scanner is telling him about the downed crewman he tries to save.
Actually, Beyond as a whole does terrific justice to each of their roles. (Perhaps because it was not written by dingdongs.) The first act finds Jim flailing around for a sense of purpose and forward momentum - an understandable consequence of a gut-driven character having stalled out for too long - and he ultimately gets his mojo back by spending the rest of the film careening through one insane seat-of-his-pants ploy after another. Meanwhile, in the quieter moments between all the mayhem, Leonard serves as the empathetic sounding board for both Jim and Spock as they struggle with deep emotionally charged secrets and Big Life Questions, helping them untangle their feelings and reminding them of the emotional attachments which are ultimately key to their respective decisions to stay on the Enterprise.
More examples, you say? Don’t mind if I do!
Star Trek
GUT: Jim hurtles around the Narada, improvising almost every step of the way and paying the price for his and Spock’s scheme in bodily harm, and ultimately succeeds in rescuing Pike. HEART: Leonard calls out for Jim as he runs into the transporter room, overwhelmed with relief that he’s made it back, and takes Chris Pike’s weight literally and figuratively onto his own shoulders to begin healing him while Jim runs back off to the center of the action.
Star Trek: Into Darkness
GUT: Jim argues with Leonard, Spock, and Scotty in quick succession as he’s preparing to drag them all off to Qo’noS, immune to their attempts to reason with him because, unraveled as he is by grief and pain, he can only focus on his visceral drive to Do Something. HEART: Unlike the others, Leonard is upset not about the larger moral questions of whether it’s right to go after John Harrison or bring torpedoes aboard the ship, but about the fact that Jim himself is hurt and hurting and won’t accept help.
GUT: Jim makes a snap decision to sacrifice himself by hurling his body against the warp core to realign it and save his crew. HEART: Shellshocked by the emotional grenade of his best friend’s death, Leonard suddenly realizes, through the haze of his own numbness and upswelling grief, that he might still be able to do something for this lonely radiation-ravaged body he’s been brought and the life it represents.
Star Trek Beyond
GUT: At the tail end of an improvised plan to out-maneuver Kalara, Jim quite literally shoots first and asks questions later, igniting a fuel tank and setting off an explosive series of events which he and Chekov just barely escape. HEART: The next time we see Leonard, Spock is opening up to him about Ambassador Spock’s death and his own plan to leave Starfleet for New Vulcan - and while he’s empathetic toward Spock (I can’t imagine what that must feel like), Leonard’s thoughts go immediately to the emotional impact of Spock’s plan on the other people he’s closest with. (I can see how that would upset [Nyota]. / I can tell you, [Jim]’s not gonna like that.)
GUT: Jim frantically strains to reach the final switch in the life support hub, believing that he’s going to die either way since the vent has already opened, but spurred on by the knowledge that his ability to move that switch is the only thing standing between Yorktown and annihilation. HEART: Knowing exactly what’s at stake, with the fate of the station and millions of lives hanging in the balance, Leonard’s greatest concern is that Jim won’t make it out in time.
iv. never bet against the heart
Let’s wrap this up with a deep dive on one of the absolute best examples of Leonard as the heart: his decision to sneak Jim onto the Enterprise in the first movie.
As relentlessly as I drag him for the, you know, poisoning and kidnapping aspects of that whole deal, there’s no denying that it is a god-tier heart move. Is it logical? Absolutely not. Is it really the right thing to do for either himself or Jim, as far as he knows at the time? Nope. It’s 100% the wrong choice for his own job security, reputation, and relationships with his fellow crew, and it’s almost guaranteed to get Jim into even worse trouble. Leonard is a smart dude who must understand that this course of action will likely end up coming back on them both in a real bad way. For someone who argues loudly and often in defense of self-preservation, this is a shockingly bad idea.
But none of that matters, because Jim shakes his hand and tells him to be safe with that horrible empty-eyed smile, and it gets him right in the heart, one-two-three.
One: sympathy, worry, and affection for Jim - his best friend, his wild and troublesome stray, his only family.
Two: guilt over adding onto Jim’s pain, and the instinctive urge to fix whatever‘s hurting him.
Three: fear of heading out into the unknown by himself, the agonizing uncertainty of not knowing what’s coming, craving for the security and reassurance Jim’s presence would give him.
“Dammit,” Leonard says, as his heart wins out over his brain. He knows this is a garbage plan, and he doesn’t care. His heart chooses Jim. That’s all that matters.
So he goes back for Jim, and to his own surprise it turns out that this Very Bad Idea was actually a Very Good Idea because Jim’s impulsive instincts end up saving Earth, and Leonard’s not in the habit of fixing what ain’t broke so he figures he may as well keep on chasing Jim’s crazy ass around the galaxy for a while, through jungles and off cliffs and into the goddamn afterlife when need be, until finally one day Jim’s gut drives him right into Leonard’s arms and he suddenly realizes that this is what his heart was choosing all those years ago: Jim’s wide terrified eyes, Jim’s voice breaking over his name, Jim’s hand pressing hard against his chest, reaching out for what’s his.
But that’s another story.
#mckirk#otp: bedside manner#fic related#palimpsest verse#@animetrashmuffin is a gift#several people messaged me when i vague-tagged about this a while back#but you're the one who had to listen to me rant at great length about this while i was sick so CONGRATS PAL THIS MESS IS FOR YOU#mccoy#kirk#star trek#aos#long post
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fic: hold to the now, the here pt 14 | philinda | AoS | mature
So this is the end, and I've been writing this for over two years, which is the longest I've ever written anything (though there was a huge break) I finished it, and it's an amazing feeling.
Many many thanks to @meanderings0ul, because without your nudge I wouldn't have met the podcast folks and they're so supportive and it's just...everything. I'm so happy in fandom again.
Summary: Daisy visits Coulson to help look after baby agent Iris while May’s in Europe with FitzSimmons.
Notes: set about one year after the wedding. (because one year laters, should be happy, show, and have hugging)
"Hi Daisy, thanks, here." Coulson deposits a slightly sticky toddler in her arms the moment she has her coat off. "Iris, say hi to Daisy."
The tiny little being in her arms stares for a long quiet moment. "Oh you look just like mommy now, with the face."
"Mama," Iris repeats and Daisy looks to Coulson.
"Everything okay?"
He sounded kind of frazzled on the phone as he'd tried to give her directions from the nowhere airport Bobbi had dropped her off at to the nowhere town he and May were living in. GPS found it no problem because there wasn't anything to find but pine trees.
"Mama's okay," Coulson says, kissing Iris' head and meeting Daisy's eyes for a moment. "She'll be back later, I have to get some work done, can you amuse her for a while?"
"Yeah, I'll try."
"Thanks." Coulson touches the baby again then he disappears into his office and it's just Daisy and the kiddo.
"No," Iris says, staring at the floor. "No."
"No means down or no means not down?"
Kid could really squirm when she wanted to.
"No!"
Daisy sets her down and that seemed to be what she wanted. Iris crawls over to a bookshelf and starts pulling all the books off one at a time, looking at them for a moment before making a little mountain. She seems happy enough so Daisy sits on the floor next to her, watching.
Books with bright covers stack on top of each other. Daisy picks them up, looking at the dinosaurs and planes, then one is shoved into her hands.
"This one?"
Iris doesn't nod. She stares, and it's disconcerting getting a May death glare from someone who only weighs twenty-five pounds. Can she say yes? Is yes harder than no?"
"No."
"No, I don't like this one or no- please read this to me?"
Iris squinches her chubby face then crawls into Daisy's lap. She makes an expectant noise and hits the book.
"Okay, I got it."
The book seems to be about a pigeon who is a private eye, except it's full of puns that are actually really funny, but Iris turns the pages as soon as she gets bored of them, which is fast, so Daisy's not really sure what's going on. The pictures are nice. She can't really read it because the kid doesn't have the patience so she comments a few things.
"Bird."
Iris looks back, waiting.
"It's a bird, kid. I don't know what kind. Red."
"Bye."
"Bye is like bird."
"No."
"No?"
"Oh no." Iris turns the book to the beginning and waits. When Daisy doesn't start reading, she makes a noise. Iris makes a noise again, more insistent and hits the book.
"Sorry kid," Daisy starts, "where were we? Right, the pigeon is sitting in his office, wearing a tie like daddy's because of course a detective would wear a tie."
Iris makes a delighted noise and hits one of the illustrations, a brightly coloured bird. She looks back at Daisy, almost hitting her in the nose with her dark little head.
"Yeah? That's good?"
And then they're at the beginning again. Daisy's not sure how many times they read the book, but she's made up her own plot by the fifth time and decided there should be a sequel later.
Bored of that, Iris shoves off Daisy's lap and skips the pile of books to start pulling down toys. No toddler needs this many toy airplanes, and yet, kid has quite a collection, also a really nice toy version of a Zephyr and two SHIELD badges that look a little chewed on.
"Is she supposed to have your badges?" Daisy yells up towards the office. No response. Figures. Walking over she tries to listen for what Coulson's doing, but maybe he has headphones on. When she looks back, Iris is gone and Daisy's heart jumps into her throat.
Fuck. Where could she?
Daisy jogs into the kitchen and Baby Agent is sitting in front of the fridge, legs crossed, looking expectant.
"Hey, sorry, I didn't know you were so fast."
Iris hits the fridge with her hand and makes the 'read my book' noise. Kind of like an excited puppy.
"You need something?" What time is it? Should she feed her? Does she need a snack? What do kids eat? Daisy has to scoop her up to open the fridge and they stare into it together. It's healthy, of course, because it's Coulson and May's fridge, but she can't just hand the kid a carrot.
Can she?
Iris pulls a bag of salad and an onion out of the drawer before Daisy can stop her. She takes a big bite of the onion and looks immediately offended.
"Okay, you want to bite something?"
"Abyye." Iris says, like Daisy speaks baby.
"Apple?"
"Up-ah."
"Apple?" Daisy asks again, grabbing one from the counter. "This?" Holding it up gets two hands in the air, reaching for the fruit. "Okay, here."
She hands over the apple before it occurs to her that she can't just hand a kid a whole unwashed unpeeled apple...and it's too late because the kid has the apple in her mouth and she takes a huge bite, but Iris has tiny teeth and it's a little mouthful of apple skin she spits out before taking another bite.
"Good?"
Iris smiles over the apple and keeps biting. She chews and spits out a lot of it, but at least she's entertained. Daisy grabs the kid and her apple and heads to the stairs. Lugging Iris up the steps with her, she pauses outside the door to the office. She shouldn't listen, but it sounds like Coulson's on the phone. They should leave him to it, maybe it's May, or FitzSimmons, wasn't she going out there to help them with something?
"Ap-uh," Iris repeats, holding up the partially gnawed apple.
"Apple," Daisy echoes. "You'll get it."
Holding her apple up to Daisy, Iris grins. "Uh."
"Apple."
"Um," Iris says, holding up with more intention. "Um!"
"Yum?" Daisy tries, pretending to take a bite.
"Um." Iris agrees, delighted. She mashes the apple into Daisy's face. "Um."
"Thank you, no thank you."
"No, um." That seems to mean, yes, eat my sticky, slobbery, mangled apple.
So she does. What else can she do. Daisy takes a bite of the least sticky part and Iris laughs.
"Glad you're happy. Come on, let's see what else we can do."
All the airplanes are sticky and on the floor after they've done that for five minutes. Pieces of apple cling to Daisy's hair, there's water and a squished cracker inside her bra somehow but Iris thinks it's the most hilarious thing if Daisy builds a tower and then quakes it down so they start stacking the blocks again.
Tower six has died for Iris' amusement when Coulson finally comes down the stairs.
"No," Iris yells at him. "No, no."
"Yes, yes, daddy," Coulson teases her, scooping her up so she squeals. "What are you two doing?"
"Pulling everything down from everywhere."
"That happens."
"We shredded an apple."
"We have a good vacuum."
"But we found a good game, watch." Daisy indicates the blocks, then quakes down tower number seven.
Iris laughs and squirms and immediately wants down so she can build tower eight for sacrifice.
"How's it going?" Daisy asks while they watch Iris stack.
"Oh you know, May's stuck doing field work with FitzSimmons somewhere in Finland and Mack swears none of them are actually on this mission he just really needs trustworthy people.
"Sounds great."
"Sure." Coulson takes a breath, then sits on the sofa, dropping his head in his hands. "I'm sorry, do you need anything?"
"Me?"
"Yeh, you came all this way and I don't have coffee or anything."
"I can make coffee."
"Right, you could do that."
"Sit, watch Agent Danger here and call me when she's ready for me to destroy her tower."
"You're sure?"
"I'll make coffee, I need it, you look like you need coffee injected."
"If only that worked." Coulson shuts his eyes, leaning back.
"How long are you stuck doing the single dad thing?"
"A few more days, she's trying to get back."
"She must miss Baby Agent terribly."
Coulson nods, smiling at Iris. "She does, they haven't been apart this long Iris' whole life, but FitzSimmons really needed her."
"Well, of course. She does everything."
Daisy makes coffee, listening to Iris and Coulson's strange conversation. His side has words and sentences, Iris' side seems to consist of "No" and little screeches. She sets black coffee on the table next to the sofa and Coulson grins.
Coulson and Iris yell "Oh no," in union as Baby Agent knocks down the tower. This is what he does all day? Build and destroy, read the same book fifty-nine times?
"So she gets back when, Tuesday?"
"Maybe Wednesday."
"Wow." Daisy sits next to him with her own coffee, shaking her head. "That's a lot."
"Free for the weekend? Iris and I would love to have you."
"Yeah," Daisy agrees. She has plenty of leave saved up and she doesn't get to do domestic very often. Kiddo's pretty sweet too and it seems like Coulson needs the help. "Seems like you need some help with towers."
Iris crawls to Daisy and pulls herself up on her knees, bouncing a little as she babbles.
"I think that means she wants you to stay."
"Okay. You've got me. Can't say no to baby May face."
"Doesn't she look just like her?"
"Yeah, it's almost creepy."
It's a whirlwind of time with Coulson and Iris. There's constantly something they need to be doing, where is she, is the kiddo okay, what is she into? Does she need a diaper, where are her extra clothes, going to the grocery store is a full on mission and Daisy's not sure how much help she is, but he definitely needs back up. Even if she's just moral support.
And it's nice to see him laughing while they try to get shampoo out of Iris' hair and how far the kid can throw noodles (definitely some Mamma May in there). So she and Coulson trade off making coffee and picking up take out and reading and it feels like she's been there forever by the time it's finally Wednesday.
Coulson rocks and sings (Daisy did not know he sang) but Iris is out for a nap and Coulson's trying to get work done and Daisy sits and plays with her phone because it feels like she hasn't done that in hours.
Maybe hasn't, Iris is a lot.
She doesn't remember falling asleep, but she did, sitting on the sofa in the warm sunlight. Coulson touches her arm, shaking her gently.
"Hey, sorry, could you go get May from the airport? She's going to be back and I don't want to wake up Iris or have her wake up while I'm gone and be all difficult for you."
"Good call."
"She's back?"
"About an hour. You have time to get coffee, it's a tiny airport."
"Where's the coffee?"
"Down to the main road, turn left twice. It's a drive through with a moose."
"A moose?" Daisy shakes her head. "You do live in the middle of nowhere."
"It has perks."
"Never waiting in traffic?"
"No one notices the quinjets."
"See, I knew it was something." Daisy drags herself up as Coulson hands her keys to the really nice BMW SUV thing they got because carseats don't fit in Lola. "This one I'm allowed to drive?"
"It's May's."
"Great."
"You'll be fine, just don't spill coffee in her car."
Daisy shakes her head and leaves him to finish lesson planning or whatever it is he's working on. The coffee shop with the moose is exactly where Coulson said it was, and she grabs a cup before driving to the nowhere airport by the lake. There's only one flight coming in that hour. It's a little connector flight from Chicago with only a handful of people on it.
Coulson would probably get a May a tea or something so Daisy grabs a green tea from the little kiosk in the airport and holds it with her arms crossed over her chest, waiting for May to come off the plane.
May's third from last off the flight, her bag over her shoulder. She looks across the handful of people, then smiles at Daisy.
"I was wondering if he'd send you."
"Got you tea. Baby Agent was napping so you get me."
May hugs her, warm and strong, and then takes her tea. "It's nice to see you."
"How was Scotland?"
"Wet, and rainy, in Finland it snowed." Her smile fades a little and she touches her forehead. "It was good to see Fitz and Simmons. They're happy."
"Annoyingly so?"
"A little."
Daisy takes the keys out of her coat pocket and hands them over. "Coulson let me drive your car."
May smiles and shakes her head. "You can drive."
Taking the keys back, Daisy tries to hide her surprise. "Okay..."
"I have a headache."
"You don't have to have a reason, you just always drive and I--"
May smiles at her. "You're a good driver."
"You've let me drive literally once because you were pregnant and something-" she pauses, trying to remember, "-was it paint? Something set your stomach off."
"Wet paint."
"Were they painting the plane?" Daisy teases, leading May out of the airport towards the parking lot.
"N, sometimes I get headaches."
"Like a normal person?" Daisy touches the door handle and it opens. May sets her bag in the back seat and climbs into the passenger seat.
"I don't get to be a normal person?"
"You pulled a piece of pipe out of your leg and fought aliens, flew a plane when you couldn't stand up and were in labor for what, like half a day before you admitted it hurt?"
May laughs, leaning back in the seat. "Don't see why any of that means I can't have a headache."
"I don't mind driving, it's just, weird."
"I'll let you drive more in the future."
"So I don't think it's weird and you're knocked up whenever it happens?"
"Is that really the only time I've let you drive?"
"Yes, that's really the only time you've let me drive. I mean, Coulson let me drive Lola when he didn't have a hang so I'm used to it."
May reaches over and pats her shoulder. "We're both just stuck in our ways, getting old and stubborn."
"You're both stubborn, but your're not old."
"Thanks." May takes a sip of her tea and shuts her eyes.
"Do you have painkillers in the glove box or anything?"
"It's fine."
"You have a headache, normal people take things when they have a headache because they don't like suffering."
"Home is twenty minutes away." May holds her tea against her forehead, then sets it in the cupholder.
"We can stop."
"You sound like Phil."
"I guess you need him to look after you."
"You do fine, Daisy."
She can't win this argument, so distract May, tell her nice things. "So Iris made me read the same book a billion and seven times."
"Sounds like her."
"And then she destroyed an apple."
"Eating with teeth is hard."
"I guess so."
"And we made towers."
"Good." May sighs, keeping her eyes closed. "Thank you for coming, I bet Phil appreciated having you."
"Sure, Coulson sounded like he needed back up."
"He did, I dropped a lot in his lap to help FitzSimmons."
Daisy reaches over, squeezing her hand. May's hand is warm and damp against Daisy's fingers, and she squeezes back as if she were hugging her tight. "It was nice for me to help."
"I'm glad."
"Baby Agent's adorable, it's peaceful here. We took her for walks and watched the stars come out. When she's bigger, she can play in the woods and all you'll have to worry about is moose."
"There aren't actually moose here."
"What about the coffee shop?"
May opens her eyes again and smiles. "That one doesn't move."
Chuckling, Daisy takes a breath and just enjoys this moment. She missed May too. Being with her is comfortable and familiar, and Daisy missed her over the last week. Being with Coulson and Baby Agent was great, but May was missing and now that she's back it just feels like coming home.
"So any news from FitzSimmons you're allowed to say?"
"The published some new papers, remodelling a cottage."
"No playmates for Iris yet?"
"Not yet." May looks forward for a while, staring at the road, then turns to Daisy. "But soon though."
"Soon? Jemma's pregnant?"
"No, no." May stares straight ahead, but she smiles, Daisy can hear it in her voice. "I am."
"Wait, what?"
"Eyes on the road."
"Yeah, I got it, not going to smash your car, but what?"
"We had another embryo frozen, from when we got pregnant with Iris. We were near the clinic on the mission for Simmons, and I wanted to surprise Phil."
Surprise? "I suppose that's the fun part of having medical help. You can surprise the dad when you end up pregnant." The world tastes like an alien concept, as weird as Kree or Asgard. "Shit, congrats, I mean."
"Thanks Daisy." May turns, leaning against the door so she can look at Daisy better. .
"You okay, really?"
"I'm thrilled."
Yeah, that's what thrilled looks like, kind of pale and really tired, except May is happy. She radiates it. "That's wonderful. Second kid, huh? Everyone's going to lose it."
"You think so?"
"I can just picture Jemma and Fitz, Mack and Elena settling some bet."
"Which side did you bet on?" .
"Should have bet yours." Fuck. two tiny little field agents destroying everything? They should unretire just to get some peace. Yet they're both so fucking happy, and they're good parents. Iris is great, and she's so smart, and this one.
They sit in silence for a while, and if possible, May's even more pale when Daisy looks at her. "You okay?
"I forgot how brutal the hormone shots are." May shuts her eyes again and Daisy remembers how much time they spent trying to keep her from throwing up when she was pregnant with Iris. She knew what this was going to be like and she did it anyway.
"You're a really good mom."
May opens her eyes, surprised. "Why do you say that?"
"Iris is the cutest little person and sure, she screams and throws things sometimes, but she's so content and trusting. I remember seeing kids who had bad parents in my foster homes and they were so broken already, even the little ones. I'm not used to happy toddlers."
"Daisy-"
"And you know how much it sucks to be pregnant and having a baby hurts-"
"-It's not that bad."
"And you can say that!" Daisy pulls into the driveway and stops, shaking her head as she turns off the engine. "You're a great mom."
May pauses, looks at her and doesn't say anything for a long time. She smiles, her eyes impossibly soft. "Thanks Daisy."
Daisy gets out of the car, grabbing May's bag as she comes around. May moves a little slower, holding the car for a moment, so the headache must be bad.
Daisy touches her shoulder, then hugs her again. "Iris is lucky, the new baby agent is really lucky too."
"We're lucky we have you." May's hands hold her tight and it's like that mom energy's rubbing off. She's loved, and it's so easy that Daisy just stands there in awe for a moment. She didn't have a family before SHIELD, and now she's loved.
They walk in together, still holding hands because that's cool, that's something they do. Coulson's on the floor, playing with Iris, who looks up when the door opens with the biggest smile.
"Mama!"
"Come here, Li." Iris crawls over and May grabs her before she's gone a few feet. They spin around, May laughing as Iris pats her face, babbling happily about Mama, over and over. Coulson watches them with the softest expression she's ever seen and that's what love looks like, not that silly romance novel kind, but the exhausted, will do anything for you, this is everything kind of love. It's just his face, and Daisy touches his arm, then hugs him.
"Pretty cute, huh?"
"Iris looks so much like Melinda, luckily."
"You're in there too, dad."
"I know, but the two of them, they're everything."
Daisy raises her eyebrows because fuck he's going to freak and she should like, give them space, but she'd also love to see what he's going to say. He's totally going to cry.
"Did you have a good time with Daisy and daddy?"
"Aysee," Iris repeats, waving her arm towards Daisy. "Aysee."
"That's pretty close," May says, kissing Iris's head. "What a smart girl."
"She was great, they both were."
"I was telling Daisy in the car how much it meant to us that she came to help."
"She let me drive and everything."
"Oh?" Coulson tilts his head, and takes a moment to welcome May back, hugging her and Iris, then kissing her forehead. "You okay?"
"I can let Daisy drive without something being wrong."
"Uh-huh," Coulson teases, as unconvinced as Daisy was. "Jet lag?"
"Headdache."
"I'll make tea."
"I've got it," Daisy says. "You have to welcome her back and stuff."
May kisses Iris' cheek once more and sets her down when the toddler starts to squirm. "She means do the kissing while she's in the kitchen."
"Oh, I see, I can do that." Coulson leans in, kissing her deeply and yeah, it's a good time to make some tea.
Iris babbles to herself in the living room, hitting her blocks together and making some kind of running commentary while her parents are totally making out.
Daisy puts the kettle on and waits, watching the comforting blue light. There's a green ginger that's probably good. Coulson will need coffee. She's grinding beans and setting up the pot when Iris crawls into the kitchen, dragging a toy kangaroo. She holds it up, then flings her arms up to be picked up.
"Hey kiddo."
"Aysee!"
"That's me I guess. Mom and dad okay?"
"Mama," Iris repeats, delighted.
"Yeah, Mama's home."
"Iris is in here," Daisy calls, just in case they're worried. "We're just making coffee."
"Don't turn her to the dark side, Daisy," May calls from the living room and then she laughs, really laughs and Daisy's both curious and grateful that she's not in the living room, watching whatever's happening.
They seem to be done by the time she's back, and they're just sitting on the couch, hands wrapped around each others, May's head on his shoulder.
"Mama," Iris says again, reaching her arms out and Daisy hands her over.
"I missed you."
"She missed you too."
"I swear she's bigger."
"Not much taller, must get that from you."
May laughs and shakes her head. "Don't listen to daddy, he's silly."
Iris pats Coulson's face with her fingers, and just beams to be between both of them. It's cute, like painfully cute and Daisy brings drinks and sits on the floor next to them and just watches.
"Aysee," Iris pleads, reaching for her.
"Daisy, come up. We're not going down to the floor."
Daisy sits next to May and Iris crawls over her legs, peering at her coffee before deciding to crawl back to Coulson.
"I think I've actually finished Ulysses-- " Coulson starts to say, still toying with May's hair.
"I'm pregnant."
"What?"
The house is completely quiet, even Iris stares, chewing on her toy kangaroo.
"Really?"
"Simmons and I were near the clinic in Sweden and I thought--"
Coulson laughs, rubs his chin, and then kisses May hard enough that Daisy pulls Iris out of the way before she can interrupt them.
"Surprise."
"I love surprises."
"I know."
"Not as much as I love you." He rests his hand on her belly and there's the tears. His eyes shine and dammit, Daisy's the last person who should be crying but it's just really nice.
Kind of wonderful.
"Good."
"Good?"
"Life without surprises would be dull, life without me would be-"
"Absolutely unbearable," Coulson interrupts, then kisses her. "Baby Agent the second. You're amazing."
May touches his cheek and smiles. "I know, you can show me later."
"You're going to be a big sister," Daisy tells Iris, who shakes her head because she's still much better at no than yes. "That's a big responsibility."
"She has a great role model," May says.
Fuck, that's not fair. Daisy was close to crying, but she wasn't, and she's not Iris' big sister, except, maybe she is, and maybe that's okay and maybe they all love her just as much as she loves them.
It's all pretty fucking amazing.
"We love you," Coulson whispers, patting her shoulder. Iris gets way too into the patting and it's basically swatting but she's little. "We'll love you more if you can take some time off next summer, about eight months from now."
May laughs and nods. "You'd be a big help."
"Yeah, yeah as long as you need."
May hugs her with one arm, and she curls in because May's warm and she's home. They all are.
#philinda#fic: hold to the now the here#wow it's been a ride#but I made it!#thanks so much to philindacast#you are the best dears#and meanderings0ul
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“alpha rin okumura x omega, fem reader? maybe where they have to separate rin from the omega for safety reasons and he absolutely goes insane until he rescues her.”
alpha! rin okumura x omega! fem reader
fandom: blue exorcist / ao no exorcist
note: requests open and I haven’t watched AoE in about two years so it might be fuzzy. please let me know how my first A.B.O fic went.
You were trying to fend for yourself as you noticed demons coming from every which way. You knew the cram school did their best to have everyone prepared for situations like and you couldn’t lie, you were a lot stronger than you looked but one of the demons had grabbed when you weren’t paying attention and held you captive.
“Rin, RIN!” You screamed as you tried get his attention. It was a call to Rin but you were trying to see if anyone was paying attention. “YUKIO! BON!” Once Yukio turned around, it was too late, you were too far gone for them to catch you. They needed assistance and fast.
Rin was the last one to realize that you were taken but once he realized that his omega was taken, it was a sight that no one had seen before. His face contorted to anger, sadness, confusion, and every other heightened emotion.
“Relax-” Yukio started to say as he noticed his brother turn to him like he was ready to pounce him. Yukio knew he just needed Shura to defeat the demons before it was too late and they found you dead somewhere. “I’ll contact Shura and I’m leaving it up to all of you to watch Rin while I’m gone.”
Bon knew that it was really up to him and Nemu to try and calm Rin down. It was useless nonetheless because they knew that Rin was your alpha and you stuck to his side at all times. You were strong, no one doubted that, but they had never seen how angry an alpha got when separated from their omega.
//
You entered the cram school a two months after classes started. Yukio knew of you enrolling a few weeks ago but what got him up in arms was the fact that you were one of the only two omegas in the class. Konekomaru being the other. The rest of the class were betas and alphas so it wasn’t too much of a struggle until you came.
When your first day at the cram school came, it was nerve wracking to say the least. You felt the auras of the alphas in the class and you took a deep breath before you opened the door.
All eyes immediately fell on you and while you were nervous, the alpha energy seemed to calm down a bit. It wasn’t threatening and if you were being honest, it was comforting in a way.
“Everyone, this is ( your name ). She’s the new student in the cram school and while she did enroll a little late, welcome her warmly.” Yukio said as he ushered you to your seat. “I’ll have one of the students catch you up on work after class and yes it will be extra credit for whoever volunteers.”
They all perked up at the news but the one that caught everyone off guard was Rin who immediately volunteered. “Dude, are you sure you’re even smart enough to give her lessons?” Shima taunted. Rin jumped which caused Yukio to smack his desk with a ruler. “Rin if you’re interested, I’ll look over your notes and go from there.” The class snickered as Yukio began his lesson.
Rin couldn’t help but continue to look over at you. He felt attraction like this one time before this and it was with Shiemi. When he realized that she wasn’t interested, he gave up and now you showed up and flipped his alpha instincts upside down again.
“Hey, I’m Rin.” He wrote down in a note. He slid it next to you and you quietly opened it. You smiled and wrote back. “I’m ( your name ), it’s nice to meet you Rin.”
Throughout the entire lecture, the both of you were passing notes. He would crack a joke every so often and he was glad that it was just passing notes. Rin knew that if he had to actually speak to you, he would be a flustered mess.
Once class finished for the lunch break, you grabbed your wallet from the book bag and walked out. Rin immediately ran after you and managed to grab your shoulder before you turned the corner.
“Hey!” You said as he gave you a sheepish smile. “What’s up?”
He rubbed the back of his neck nervously. “I was wondering if you wanted to eat lunch together?” He held his breath as you nodded yes. Rin smiled as he took you to his favorite spot.
From that day forward, Rin would be by your side and whenever someone from the non-cram school was around you, especially if they were an alpha, he would try to make them scram. It usually worked and Yukio knew this was another thing he had to worry about with Rin.
It took Rin a few months to finally ask you out but once he did, he immediately scented you. He knew it was a huge step to take but he couldn’t take it anymore. The two of you didn’t have the same non-cram school classes and he didn’t know what was going when you weren’t around him.
During your heats and Rin’s ruts, it was tough. You wanted nothing more than to welcome Rin into your nest but you were nervous so when the day finally came, Rin was happy beyond belief. He couldn’t believe you were finally letting him into your most intimate space.
//
Rin watched as Shura and a few others walked into the scene and Yukio gave them the rundown. He was pacing back and forth but he couldn’t help but notice that they kept looking over at him. It looked like Shura was holding something and Rin wanted nothing more than to tell them to hurry the hell up and get the plan going.
He noticed Shura give Yukio the thing she was holding. Once Yukio got closer to Rin, he tackled him to the ground. “YUKIO, WHAT THE FUCK, LET ME GO!” Yukio held him down as he handcuffed his own brother while Shura put a muzzle over him.
“Rin, we need to save her quickly and safely. With your emotions at an all time high, we don’t need her coming back even more injured or you getting hurt during the process.” Rin screamed as Yukio tried bringing him to the truck that Shura provided but he couldn’t get too far as Rin was thrashing around and screaming so he could be released. It took Shura, Yukio, Bon, and even Shima to get him loaded into the truck and buckled into the belts.
“It’s for the safety of everyone involved that you don’t come on this mission.”
Yukio couldn’t help but feel for his twin brother. While he had never felt the connection between an alpha and an omega, he could feel the heartbreaking feeling from Rin.
They had someone watch the truck as they went to retrieve you. Rin continued thrash around the truck and the person watching over Rin felt like he was going to explode at any second. Any alpha in a ten mile radius heard his scream. It was the scream that made any alpha feel for him. He was separated from his omega and that was a position no alpha wanted to be in. Any omega within the radius of your presence heard your whimpers and cries.
Rin couldn’t even fathom to think what those sickening demons were doing to you. He need to be next to you and cover you in his scent. He was on the verge of releasing his flames and he knew that if he did that, Rin feared that he wouldn’t be able to come back from it.
Even though people knew the connection between an alpha and an omega, they didn’t know the dangers that came from it. An alpha could go into a state of insanity if he didn’t have his omega and Rin was on the brink of getting there.
Just as Rin was about to break from the chains, what felt like years later, the doors of the truck opened. Yukio looked at his brother and felt like crying right there. He never seen his own twin brother this lost in his life. Sweat, tears, and even spots of blood were running down his arms and face.
“She’s safe.” Yukio managed to say as he noticed Rin finally break free from the chains and belts. He ran out of the truck and Yukio plus Bon and Shura tackled him down to the floor. “She needs to be evaluated before you can even think of seeing her.”
Rin with all the power in his body broke through everyone and sprinted to where he thought he could find you. Yukio and Bon chased after him but by the time they tackled him to the ground again, Rin seen you.
“RIN CALM DOWN!” Bon screamed as he felt like if he pulled Rin’s arms back anymore, he was going to actually break them. “Rin, you’ll see her in a few minutes. Calm the hell down before Shura gets the chance to sedate you and then you for sure won’t see her.”
For the first time all day, Rin actually listened. Bon and Yukio continued to hold him to the ground as they waited for the people working on you to give them the cue to let Rin go.
Again, it felt like Rin waited for hours to finally see you but when they screamed to Yukio that Rin was free to go, they didn’t even get the chance to finish the sentence before Rin ran towards you at full speed. He knew that he should’ve been more careful with you considering he didn’t know the full extent of your injuries but as soon as he got into arms reach, he tackled you into a hug. He immediately started scenting you as he noticed everyone leaving the small tent.
“WHAT HAPPENED? DID THEY TOUCH YOU? WHERE? ARE YOU SERIOUSLY INJURED?” Rin didn’t even give you the chance to respond as he continued to scent you. “YOU’RE OKAY, YOU’RE WITH ME NOW.”
You nodded as you let him continue to scent you. You knew it was a rough few hours with for the both of you and you just let him do whatever he needed to do as you silently wiped your tears from relief.
“I’m glad you’re okay.” You whispered to Rin as you managed to get him to calm down for a second. “We’re both fine and we can try to get back to normal.”
Rin nodded as he wiped the final tear that ran down your face. “Okay, as long as you’re okay, I’ll be fine.” The rest of the night was the both of you wrapped in a blanket and no one dared to disturb the both of you. They had seen Rin angry before but never like this and if everyone was being honest, they never wanted to see Rin like that again.
ALITA
#Ao no Exorcist#ao no exorcist imagine#ao no exorcist x reader#blue exorcist#blue exorcist imagine#blue exorcist x reader#rin okumura#Rin Okumura x reader#rin okumura imagine#requests open
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Fandoms
Y’all are gonna hate me, but I’m gonna make a super long post about all my fandoms! I don’t wanna list them on the description of my blog because there are soooo many! These are books/movies/TV shows that I like and also have a following that can be called a ‘fandom’, at least, I think so. I can do one on musicians and music if enough of you like and take the time to read this one. I just thought it was nice to let followers and friends know what I like so that we have stuff to talk about or they know what fandoms to send me asks about etc. Right, I’ll stop waffling and get into it. (They’re listed in alphabetical order - blame my weird brain). Try to not judge me, please?
The Addams Family (1990′s movies)
Atlantis (BBC TV series)
The Batman 2022 universe
The Big Bang Theory
Broadchurch (ITV TV series)
Castle
Class (BBC Doctor Who spin-off)
Cornetto Trilogy + Paul (The Simon Pegg & Nick Frost films)
Criminal Minds
Crimson Peak (Del Toro’s Gothic Horror film)
DCEU(all DCEU films, but only those specific films)
Disney (most of the Princess movies as well as other classics like Bambi etc.)
Divergent Trilogy (movies + books, mainly the books)
Doctor Who (all of it, but mainly 2005+)
Downton Abbey
The End Of The F***ing World
Enola Holmes 1 & 2
Ghosts (BBC sitcom)
Glee (stopped after The Quarterback, not sure if I want to continue)
Good Omens, my favourite! (book + series)
Gotham (TV series, started season 3! Major Nygmobblepot shipper!)
The Great (historical comedy)
The Great Gatsby (book + LD movie, the book is better, imo)
Hannibal (NBC series + books, only read Red Dragon though)
Heartstopper (series + comics)
His Dark Materials (BBC series, the books & the film)
The Host (book + film. I like it okay?!)
House M.D
How To Train Your Dragon (books + movies)
Humans (Channel 4 TV series)
The Hunger Games (books + movies)
I Am Not Okay With This
Ice Age films (3rd one’s the best in my opinion!)
Independence Day (only watched the sequel for Jeff Goldblum)
Interview With The Vampire (AMC show, books & film)
IT (miniseries, movies + the book)
John Green books & adaptations (specifically Fault In Our Stars)
Jurassic Park/World (books + movies, apart from no. 3)
Kingsman (the movies)
Kinky Boots (the movie)
Knives Out
KONG: Skull Island (It’s got Tom Hiddleston in!!)
Lord of the Rings & The Hobbit (films + books, need to finish LOTR book)
Madagascar films
The Mandalorian (the only Star Wars property I like)
MARVEL (All MCU films, ALL Spider-Man films, Fox’ s X-Men, Venom, Netflix shows, Agents of SHIELD & Agent Carter)
The Mentalist
Merlin (BBC TV series)
Misifts (Channel 4 TV series)
Narnia (films + books)
NCIS (Mainly normal NCIS and LA)
Night at the Museum trilogy
The Night Manager (BBC series + the book)
The Old Guard (I LOVE IT!!!)
One Dollar Horse book trilogy by Lauren St John
Only Lovers Left Alive (Another film with Tom Hiddleston in!)
Pans Labyrinth (Del Toro film)
Pegasus book series by Kate O’Hearn
Pirates of The Caribbean films (yes, all of them!)
Pride & Prejudice (book + BBC series) & Pride & Prejudice & Zombies (books + movie)
Primeval (BBC TV series)
Red, White & Royal Blue (book & movie)
Sanders Sides (Thomas Sanders’ YT series)
The Sandman (Netflix series & comics)
Sarah-Jane Adventures (Doctor Who spin-off)
Sex Education
Shadow & Bone (Netflix show ONLY atm)
Shadowhunters (Netflix series), ALL Shadowhunters Chronicles books & City of Bones movie
Sherlock (BBC TV series + books)
Shrek films
Slaughterhouse Rulez (It’s a decent film with Asa Butterfield, Michael Sheen and Simon Pegg in it okay?!)
Star Trek (AOS and TOS)
Stranger Things
Supernatural (only on season 14 here in the UK, and I’ve not started it yet, so...)
Titans (the Netflix show only)
Torchwood (Another Doctor Who spin-off)
Trainspotting (only the movies)
Twilight (NO LOVE FOR MEYER)
The Umbrella Academy (only the Netflix series)
Vampire Academy (movie + books)
Vampire Diaries & The Originals (TV series + the VD books)
Victoria (ITV TV series)
Wallace & Gromit (BBC series)
Warm Bodies (film)
Wil.E.Coyote (all series)
Winnie the Pooh (the books and some of the old series and films)
The Witcher (only the Netflix series, need to order the books)
The Wombles (TV series)
That’s it guys! I like lots of other movies and shows, but these are the ones that I’ve seen stuff for one here or seen people talk about. Try and not to judge me too harshly for my taste okay. If anyone wants to talk about any of the above fandoms, I’m happy to do so! Thanks for reading this super long list!
#its-all-ineffable's fandoms#talk to me about any of these things#these are my 'fandoms'#I know there are loads#please don't judge me for some of them#multifandom#wow#there are loads#my fandoms
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One last game of Tag? Agents of Shield #PartingShot
Tagged by the lovely @morganalefays 😊❤
With this tag game, I want to know the answers to these five (5) questions and then tag 5 or more mutuals. Wasn’t tagged but want to join? Join in! Everyone is an essential part of this fandom!
Where were you in life when you first started watching AOS?
I started watching September 25, 2013. One day after original airtime because I couldn't watch it live in the Netherlands because I did not know how and it is easier to download the day after. I was ovsessed with Marvel and heard about a pilot about SHIELD agents, I was stoked.
I was 16 years old at that time, in my last year of high school. Back then I thought I wanted to study international business and I was planning a trip to Peru to do charity work. Throughout the year I thought I wanted to major in economics. I remember that the final of the 1st season took place the day before my first final exam (comparable to SATs), I was fangirling about the final with my friend Maegan while we were standing in line to enter the gym where the exams took place.
Where are you now?
I am 23 now. I passed my high school finals, but I did not end up choosing a economics major. Instead I ended up as an engineer with a bachelor's degree in water management and now I am 6 months away from my master's degree. I was never really interested in technical subjects and I always thought I did not have the skill to practise them. Though Iron man and SHIELD made me more interested in technical subjects. The day of the deadline I did a full 180 and chose a technical major (still not the most technical of all, but for me it was this huge step, since my exam subjects were creative like music, languages and economics). SHIELD gave me the courage to follow through with my choice. I had lots doubts starting the major and along the way. I had to retake so many courses many times, but I got my degree with only 1 year of delay.
What character development arc (or storyline in general) did you love the most?
I love Daisy's storyline so much. What really appeals to me is that she has learned to love her chosen family but still honor her own father (and maybe her mother since this season). Her relationship with Coulson is my absolute favorite. What I especially like about it, is that they acknowledge that Coulson is a parental figure to Daisy. But she does not call him dad, she does not have to because their actions speak for themselves. There are things in my life that I only learned to accept fairly recently in the last year or so, and it felt vaguely similar to what happened to Daisy and her relationship to Coulson on screen. I guess that is why have always felt drawn to Daisy and her story.
What will you miss the most?
Waking up SUPER early before school to first scan tumblr for all the shield spoilers, then watch the episode that aired the night before in the USA. I never had to set my alarm, I just woke up because I would be THAT excited about an episode. I will miss speculating about new episodes with my friends IRL and my friends online. Back when I read fanfic on ff.net and switched to ao3 years later. I would chat, beta read and speculate with all these wonderful writers.
I will miss staying up until 3 a.m. to watch the season finals live and watch them again the next morning to actually process what happened.
Favorite Quote?
What I love about these characters is the resilience they show. They are knocked down so many times, but they always get up. That is why it is so heartbreaking to watch, but to see them grow is amazing. That's why I chose this fragment I guess:
Phil Coulson:
That's the thing about Skye. What I told her shattered her world. Her lifelong search led to stories of murder, and now it's too difficult to continue. Her search is over. Her story ends here. But you know what she said?
Melinda May:
Tell me.
Phil Coulson:
She said no-her story started here. Her whole life, she thought she wasn't wanted, that she didn't belong, that every family that took her in didn't want her to stay, didn't care. But all that time, it was S.H.I.E.L.D. protecting her, looking after her. That's what she took away from the story-not the family she'll never have, but the one she's always had. Here I am, telling her something that could destroy her faith in humanity, and somehow she manages to repair a little piece of mine. The world is full of evil and lies and pain and death, and you can't hide from it-you can only face it. The question is, when you do, how do you respond? Who do you become?
I want to thank all my wonderful mutuals, blogs I follow, my followers and all the fic writers that got us through that heart-wrenching drama we put ourselves to by watching this show. It has been worth every minute.
I tag: @captainaspie @iamproudlysmile , @b00k-freak , @creativereadingfanfiction , @agentmarymargaretskitz , @carry-on-my-wayward-wesley , @tippykazoo , @ellsey and if you see this and want to do this CONSIDER YOURSELF TAGGED PLEASE!! I love reading people's experiences :) so please tag me!
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sorry I didn’t mean to bring the mood down, I’m just always anxious. I’ve binge watched the entire show so far during quarantine, which honestly is a pretty impressive feat for me given my adhd makes it hard to concentrate on something like that for a long period of time. I cried buckets when Bobbi left she’s definitely my fave. But I do love fitzsimmons too. I kinda see myself in fitz somehow? Sorry for the ramble! I’m just excited to discover fandom even with a little hesitation
Hi Anon,
You are totally okay! I think anxious is the basic resting state of this fandom and we go up from there as the season progresses.
The whole series during quarantine is AMAZING! Part of me wishes I could have done that without having to endure all these hiatus’s that went on and on and on. But the flip side is we’ve been able to do fun things like go to Wondercon with kids in cosplay and meet the cast between seasons.
Spies Goodbye pretty much left the whole fandom sobbing for a good few days. “when Mack cries we all cry” The soundtrack alone still, UGH the feels!
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Again Bear serious shut up and take my money situation here....please release the tracks!
I do have hope that we’ll see Hunter in Time Traveling fun times, I mean give me just ONE scene with him and Deke causing chaos or Hunter learning he’s Fitzsimmons Grandson. Bobbi I don’t have as much hope for as Adrienne has said she wasn’t returning....but there is a small part of me that will cling to the hope she’s hiding we’ll see Huntingbird in action on last time.
Fitzsimmons is my ride or die. From like second one I was attached and it was a bonus they came with a prepackaged ship name.
Fitz is one of those characters that means a lot to a lot of fans, myself included. Which is usually why we have some sort of annual panic around him and the annual Fitznapping to look forward too. So you are in very good company there.
Recent drama aside the AOS fandom is absolutely amazing. Our Gif Makers work at the speed of light so we have some serious quality content blowing up our dashes quickly after episodes. Those like me churn out predictions, metas, and what we call Its going to be okay posts. We get insanely attached to side characters (Doug we love you wherever you are) and aren’t sorry about it #davislives. Artists who do the most stunning fan art @captainironnerd @eclecticmuses @agentsofship @agentreeb barely scratch the surface. And our writers! I can spend hours on AO3 re reading my favorites over and over again....and yes I am quite partial to Fitz/Fitzsimmons fics on there. If you love Bobbi I highly recommend checking out @robotgort and her impressive list of fics. We can also be sassy as all get out when the situation calls for it, like right now when we are 13 days out and have no cast pics! (I’ll shower tonight guys I promise and see if that does it since I can’t go to the store).
So welcome to the fandom. Never be afraid to send me an ask and some of the best advice I can give someone coming into the fandom is build yourself a nice moat of people you follow and block or blacklist anything that makes you unhappy. Your dash is your happy place so make it what you want it to be.
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First Time for Everything
Fandom: Star Trek. Fits TOS or AOS Relationship: Mirror!McCoy x reader Word Count: 2.8k Warnings: ohhh boy. Smut. Dominant!McCoy, Sir kink, blood kink, choking, fingering, oral (female receiving), cutting, knife play, lotta hickeys, biting, language, etc etc. just a lot of bad stuff lmao. Request: none. :) Extra: I’ve been delaying on writing the new chapter of my Lost Boys (1987) fic for this shit so,
I wasn’t sure how I got into some of the shit I did. I wasn’t sure why the hell I had a crush on the psychotic Doctor McCoy. Either way, I was down in engineering when I fell from the ladder after a security officer thought it would be funny to kick it over, leaving me injured to where I was told to leave and get it ‘checked out.’ Of course, that was said with a sneer from my superior.
After dragging myself to the medbay, one of the nurses sat me down on the bed with a roll of her eyes and a groan. She was smacking gum loudly. Then again, it was hard to find absolutely anyone on here that was mildly happy. That emotion had been lost a long time ago.
I had been sitting on the bed for a good few minutes, just swinging my legs back and forth, when the doctor entered, tapping away at his PADD. I sat up a bit straighter. I hadn’t even wanted to come here in the first place. I knew what he did to the patients he didn’t like.
He ignored me for a few moments before looking up and raising an eyebrow. “I haven’t seen you here before.” His voice was gruff and leering in a strange sort of way.
I tapped my thigh rhythmically as a way to calm myself down, something I knew he took notice to as he stared down at hands. “I try to keep as safe as possible, sir.”
He snorted and nodded. I eyed the knife on his belt before looking away. “So, why are you here now?”
“Security officer decided pushing my ladder over would be hilarious. I think something got embedded in me from when I fell. I landed on something.”
He sighed through his nose before nodding and stepping around the bed, grabbing a tricorder and a couple of tools that I did not like the sight of. “Lay on your back.”
I complied quickly, hoping it would be over soon. He paused again, and I felt his one eye scan over me from my feet to my face. Fuck.
He took a step forward. “You don’t have a single scar on you, do you,” he mused as he held the tricorder above my body, reading what it said. “I don’t see one anywhere.” He placed the tricorder back down and picked up a tool. His free hand was placed on my upper thigh, making my breath catch for a moment before I calmed myself.
“I try to keep as safe as possible,” I repeated, inhaling quickly as I felt tweezers of some sort dig into my skin, enough to where I could feel it but not enough for it to hurt a ton.
McCoy gave a harsh kind of laugh, and he pulled something out of me. I heard it clink on the table before he pushed the tweezers back in. I knew he had tools that could do this faster, but I also knew he relished in the pain of others. “Well,” he grumbled as he pulled out something else, “you’re definitely going to scar from this.”
I nodded. “There’s a first for everything I suppose.”
He grumbled some sort of affirmation and grabbed another tool. He pressed it against my skin, and I hissed as heat closed the wound. “You had two screws pushed deep into your skin. Did you retaliate against the guard?”
He placed the tool back down as I spoke. “There was no point. It wasn’t going to do anything but get me in more shit. I can’t fight all that well.”
He hummed, his thumb rubbing harshly against my thigh. “Less work for me, I suppose. Though I always love treating most guards. Their pain tolerance is high, I could practically do anything.” His voice rose to a gleeful tone at the last sentence, and my breath hitched again. His smile was beautiful, even if it was a psychotic kind of thing.
I nodded, not moving out of fear and unfortunately a bit of arousal as his hand rose just a bit more. “I’m going to be okay, right, Doctor McCoy?”
He nodded, his fingers dancing along the end of my skirt. “You’ll be just fine.” His free hand picked up a bit of my hair, twirling it around his fingers. “You know, you’re very beautiful, Miss L/n. I’m very glad to have you in my part of the ship after so long.”
I gulped, staring up at him. My mouth dried as he licked his lips. “You’re good looking as well, doctor.”
He chuckled. His hand was rising higher, now at my panty line. “Many men on this ship would kill to be in my position right now. You’re on my bed in my medbay with my hand running up your skin. Perfect, unscarred skin.”
My eyes were wide, I knew it, and my breathing was harsh, but I didn’t stop him. No, I could even feel myself getting aroused. “Well, what are you going to do while I’m in here, doctor?” My voice was smaller than I wanted it to be, but it caught his attention, so I couldn’t complain too much.
His lips turned up into a large smile, and he traced the line of my panties. “Depends. Do you want me as much as I want you right now, L/n?”
I nodded quickly. “Yes, yes, I do.”
He pushed away my panties, pressing two fingers between my folds before bringing them back out. His eyebrow twitched up, and his grin remained on his face as he watched his fingers glisten in the light. “You’re already so wet, and I haven’t even touched you yet. This may be a fun, little afternoon for us, won’t it.”
I moaned lowly as he pushed his middle finger into me. His movements were slower than I thought they would be like he was testing the waters. I pushed back into his movements, trying to get him to speed up. He complied after pushing a second finger in. “Doctor,” I whined, looking at him as he watched his fingers.
He chuckled quietly and leaned forward over my face. His breath was hot, and it smelled oddly nice. “Call me sir, darlin’,” he whispered before ducking down to press his lips against mine fiercely. I responded just as fast and groaned as pushed a third finger into me.
I clenched around his digits, oh so close to my release. “Sir,” I whined against his lips. “I’m gonna cum.”
As soon as I finished the sentence, he pulled his fingers out and pressed his lips against mine for a short kiss. “Not so fast. Open your mouth.”
I opened my mouth just a bit, and he pressed the fingers that were just in me against my lips before sliding them in, letting me taste myself. I moaned around his fingers and flattened my tongue before licking all the way up his fingers. He seemed to like that because he groaned out a soft ‘fuck’ and pressed deeper into my mouth, making me choke.
He held them there for a second longer before pulling them out and pressing his lips to mine once again. His hands moved down and gripped my waist, and he swiftly moved me so my legs were dangling off the bed. Then, he grabbed the back of my thighs as I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he picked me up.
I pulled away from his lips for a moment to breathe, and he slammed my back against the wall as he moved to press mouth against my neck, kissing, sucking, and biting as he went. I wrapped my legs around him to pull him closer to me, and he responded by biting my shoulder harshly, drawing blood. I let out a loud, pornographic kind of moan.
“I’m going to fuck you so hard you won’t be able to walk back to work, and then maybe we’ll place some new scars on your skin to show where you were.”
I whined loudly as he bucked his hips against mine. “Please, sir, please!”
“Please, what, darlin’? Are you enjoying the thought of me fucking you? Maybe the idea of me pressing a blade to the skin right here,” he squeezed my waist with one hand, “until you’re begging me to stop. Maybe the thought of both at once. Oh, that would be a fun time, wouldn’t it.”
I nodded quickly, breathing heavily as I leaned forward to kiss him. It was heavy, full of lust, and I pulled away after a few moments. “Please, use me as you want, sir. I’ll do anything.”
His face lit up in that psychotic grin again, and he leaned forward to drag his lips against my jaw before he bit the skin there. He was determined to leave as many marks as possible, it seemed. “Then, we need to move back to the bed.” I whined, but he shushed me with a bite to my throat. “But first, I want to try something.”
With a quick push, I was suddenly much higher on the wall with my thighs on either side of his face and my hands gripping his hair. “Sir,” I breathed out as he pressed a kiss to the inside of my thigh, “what’re you-” I cut myself off with a loud moan as McCoy dived forward and licked a broad stripe up my cunt.
He let out a grumbly kind of laugh and wrapped his lips around my clit, gripping my thighs a bit tighter. I took fistfuls of his hair and tugged harshly. He groaned against me and one of his hands reached up and grabbed at my clothed breast. He pulled away from me, looking up at me with hooded eyes. “Take off your shirt.”
I quickly pulled it off along with my bra, and his hand immediately grabbed at the new skin. He pressed himself back to me again, directing his attention to my clit so much that I was brought to the brink of an orgasm yet again only for him to pull away as I began to arch my back and grip his hair tighter.
I whined again, this time louder than the last, but he ignored me, pressing his lips to the inside of my thigh, sucking hickeys languidly instead. After my breathing had returned to normal besides the soft moans I let out from his ministrations, he slowly let me down. My legs were already shaky, something that made him laugh a bit as I had to wrap my arms around his neck to stay standing.
He led me over to the bed and threw me onto it. My legs were hanging off, but I was comfortable enough. He gave me a quick once-over before walking away and toward the drawers he had set up on the opposite side of the room. He rummaged through his stuff, humming some sort of melody under his breath as he searched.
I waited in anticipation, and when he finally came back, I looked at the scalpel resting in his hands. He twirled it between his fingers as he slotted himself between my legs, rocking forward to buck his hips into mine. “I want to fuck you so hard. You felt so good against my fingers. I can’t imagine what my cock must feel like.”
I hummed quietly and arched my back. “I’m yours, sir. Use me as you will.”
He liked that answer, I noted as he bucked his hips into mine again, this time harder. I could feel his erection. “I plan on it, darlin’.”
He placed the scalpel down on my stomach, and I shuddered from how cold it was. Then, he stepped back and pulled his shirt over his head, and then, he shoved his pants down his legs, letting his cock spring free. Next, he grabbed my skin and underwear and pulled them down in one quick movement, leaving both of us in only our boots. It was something that made me feel even more naked than if they were off.
He slid back into his spot, and his cock pressed against my entrance easily. He grabbed the scalpel again, and I held my breath as he cut across my hip just enough to draw blood while using his other hand to guide himself into me. The sensation of pain and pleasure overcame my senses as he snapped his hips into mine, filling me completely.
With his now free hand, he trailed up my body before gripping my throat harshly, cutting off enough air to make me gasp. He snapped his hips again, dragged out almost all the way, and snapped again. As he did so, he made a cut against my hips and stomach. From what I could feel, it was patterns, some line deeper than others, but all following some sort of design.
I couldn’t think properly from everything going on. I couldn’t breathe, but I could breathe just enough. I was hurting all over, but the pleasure seemed to override it all. I couldn’t remember a time where I ever felt like this, and it was thrilling.
With each snap of his hips, slash of his knife, and moan from me, I could feel myself reaching my orgasm finally after getting pulled away from it twice. “Sir,” I yelled out, “please, can I cum. Please, please, please, please, please.”
He sped up his movements and grunted out an affirmation. I let out a scream that I knew a good portion of the people around the medbay would hear before cumming. His grip tightened against my throat to where I couldn’t breathe at all, and he dug the blade in particularly deep. Then, his hips stuttered, and he let out a quiet groan as he came.
I was gasping for air, my hands gripping the one on his throat, but he didn’t pay me any attention as he took a few deep breaths to calm himself. He squeezed my neck tighter for a moment before letting go completely.
I gasped loudly, letting my senses return to me. I collapsed against the bed and closed my eyes, trying to let my thoughts reel back. My head was spinning.
I heard McCoy pull his pants back up and place the scalpel in a dish before grabbing something else. I opened my eyes as he slotted himself back between my legs. He was holding a tool, and when he pressed it against my skin, it tingled in a strange sort of way. I didn’t look down yet, though. I wanted to look at myself in a mirror when he was done, not like this.
McCoy was humming that song again as he worked, and as I watched his face, I noticed how he looked proud of what he did and almost content. His face was relaxing in a way that I had never seen. It was nice.
When he was finally done, he stood still for a moment and admired me. “I think I prefer you more with the scars.”
I gave him a stupid little smile and lolled my head to the side while still looking at him. “You sure marked me good, doc.”
He nodded and leaned down to kiss me again. “Call me Leonard when we’re not fucking.”
“So this will happen again?” My tone was more hopeful than I meant it to be.
He nodded. “Darlin, now that I have you, I’m not lettin’ go.” I practically preened at the attention, my back arching in a way that showed I was proud. “Now, why don’t you go admire my artwork.”
Leonard pulled me off the bed, holding me steady with his arms around my waist as we faced a mirror on the wall. I froze, staring at the marks on me. I traced them with my finger as I stared at myself. It was a pattern after all. Some sort of swirling pattern that went up my right side from my hip to right before my breasts. It then trailed left but didn’t even make it halfway across my stomach like he wanted to save the rest of the space for another time, which was probably true.
He stood behind me and placed his hand over mine, stopping me tracing. “Do you like it,” he questioned.
“I love it, and I can’t wait for more.”
Leonard chuckled and kissed my neck again. The hickeys and bite marks there were already incredibly prominent, and I smiled at myself in the mirror.
When I finally returned back to engineering, nobody talked to me, and nobody bothered me again. I knew they wouldn’t dare. After all, accidents happened quite a bit on the ship, and if you weren’t careful, you’d end up in Doctor McCoy’s office, and Doctor McCoy happened to have a small list of people he’d love to experiment on.
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