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nearly scared to ask... how many people have you adopted...
Haha
that’s… that’s such a great question……
a LOT
(and I love them all <3)
#The weird thing is#i dont ever forget someone is my child#But sometimes I forget someone ISNT my child#Wild#anywho#answered asks#<3 <3 <3#all queued up
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You often leave tags worrying about your English spelling and typos, which is ridiculous because you have better English grammar and correct spelling more than most first language English speakers
ahdjdk i know but ty, i appreciate hearing it!
#ask#anonymous#to be real for a sec i know my level is pretty good but for a long time being good at learning languages was the only thing i was good at#so since there are a lot of words i dont know the meaning of or cant use and other ppl who dont speak english as their native language do#i feel like im not allowed to not know those things bc whats my excuse. would i know what those words meant in my native language if i was#given the translation? definitely not!#and i know i make an equal amount of weird grammatical errors and typos in both english and finnish#but i feel like i will b judged harshly for making those mistakes in a 2nd language and people will look at me and think damn#at least im better than him lol cant believe he actually writes like that yikes#which isnt true but idk i just feel like it's socially more acceptable to make mistakes in your native language than a language that youve#been learning since you were a child. its ridicilous to strive for perfection especially bc im not a writer or getting a degree in english#or anything like that#idk man#and the stress i have about speaking in a perfect manner has made it so that idk how to pronounce a lot of words and sometimes#find it hard to get even a single word out bc i know im going to sound dumb bc i have a strong accent and forget words#but not only that its bc i have nearly no practice in actually speaking english bc im terrified of it bc i have no practiced bc im terrifi#you get the point#anyways saying/writing things weird on purpose helps in a weird way?? everyone else with this problem should also try it#but yea idk something about being judged in a complete different way as soon as someone finds out english isn't your native language#like i know i got all a's in english all thorough school and stuff but agh idk#i hold myself to higher standards than i hold native speakers lmaoo#im trying to learn out of it tho#ive literally done some translation jobs and notice nuances some non native speakers miss bc some things you just have to feel no matter ho#w good your knowledge is#yet im still here like sigh if someone knows one more thing than i do its over for me#which is not good lmaoooo#leevi talks
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I missed the Dreamtale twins....well, my version of them atleast
Honestly I redesigned Nightmare and Dream because I hate the creator and since she throws a tantrum like a baby whenever someone makes a change in her au I use it to make her mad :]
Anyways here is a bit of lore about them:
-Dream and Nightmare arent really "a version of sans", they never been one
-Dream has some plant features in his sans form just like his Mother (he hates it lol)
-Dream uses a sans look like appearance because he doesnt wants to scare people he helps, after all, Both Dream and Nightmare are the sons of an Angel (Yes they do technicaly have a dad), and looking at an Angel like creature is hard and kind of disturbing for mortals, its not hard for their friends to look at them since their eyes have got used to it, but someone Who just met Dream or Nightmare wont be that okay with it
-Nightmare and Dream can be called she, it, he or anything else, they dont label things, That also counts for sexualities, races, genders and more, they are whatever you call them, they wont really care
-Dream and Nightmare has an older brother called "Savior" (Who looks like a papyrus)
-Dream and Nightmare hates their mom, Nim ruined Nightmare by manipulating him to do shit she's not able to do herself and also was one of the reasons for the Apple incident, Dream was neglected a lot by Nim since she was more focused on Nightmare, she was manipulative towards him as well
-Nightmare and Dream made a truce almost a decade ago, they are mostly okay with eachother (they both technicaly are good guys in their own way)
-The only thing Dream and Nightmare has in common with a sans is their love for junk food and bad puns
-Nightmare turning Dream into stone bit might not be in this au (Im not sure yet)
-Nightmare usually doesnt uses a sans disguise since he has trauma related to the incident with it, he usually uses an Undyne disguise if he needs to, Also her second favorite disguise is Asgore
-Nightmare can have a disguise but he cant hide what happened to his eye, that part stays the same
-Sometimes flowers blooms on top of Dream’s head if he's happy or frustered
-Nightmare sees his team as his kids (and talks about them like they are his kids) while Dream sees his team as friends
-Dream's best friend is İnk
-Nightmare and Dream are in good terms
-Dream and Nightmare shares a similiar hate towards mortals like their mom, but ofcourse they have expections
-Nightmare's best friends are Ccino and Abby/Abolitionist Chara
-Dream dates Fresh while Nightmare is with Reaper Sans 🤭
-Nightmare likes reading and tea
-Both Dream and Nightmare will outlive their teams :(
-Dream keeps forgetting that his friends are mortals and they need stuff like sleep and eating at times, meanwhile Nightmare was forced to learn since everyone in his castle are insane and ignores their own needs, meaning Nightmare had to learn to take care of them
-Both Nightmare and Dream are physicaly very strong
-Both Dream and Nightmare can consume rotten food without any issue, they are literal gods of Negativity and Positivity, they cant get sick that easily
-Dream is nice but he isnt weak or dumb, he also does NOT has the mind set of a child, he will kick ass if he needs to
-Both Dream and Nightmare has issues with the english launguage since some words were very different, as an example, the word gay meant "joyful" and "happy" in the past....I dont think I need to explain what kind of train wrack this cauzed
-Savior is a good older brother so both Dream and Nightmare loves him
-Both of the guardians teams did several tests behind Dream and Nightmare's backs to see if they are plants or not, neither of them find the answer yet...
-Dream and Nightmare suspects they might turn into a tree when they become older, they dont like the idea :(
Thats all that I can remember
#undertale multiverse#Dreamtale#my au#my design#nightmare#passive nightmare sans#Dream#dream sans#gacha life 2#Nim#Bad sanses#star sanses#undertale au#nightmare sans
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Ran Haitani as a single father
✩Bonten!Ran Haitani as a single dad
✩Headcanon's
✩Fluff
✩A/N:The child's gender isnt mentioned anywhere. SORRY THIS TOOK A WHILE (i litreally had to write this so many times...) 😭 Also im sorry if this isnt really that good english isnt my first language
✩Honestly he had no idea on who the mother was
✩didnt even belive it at first that he had a kid
✩But when he saw the childs eyes he knew that they were his
✩Not the greatest father but he tries his best
✩Sometimes he forgets to feed the baby💀.... "Wait they cant eat by themself?"
✩Luckily the other Bonten members are there to help him
✩The bonten men become the childs uncles
✩The bonten Hc became way more chaotic with the kid around
✩Mikey one time made them cry by eating their candy
✩Sanzu calls them little Haitani
✩Takeomi would be the most responsible since he took care of Sanzu and Senju
✩ Ran would be really carefull about taking their child outside
✩Tho he has a insta account for them but he blurs their face
✩His biggest fear is that an enemy gang finds out about the child and that it would put them in danger
✩He dresses his child only in the most expensive clothing
✩Ran cried A LOT when it was the kids time to start school
✩(Rindou recorded him and sent it to the bonten gc)
✩Ran is obv an overprotective father
✩One time little Haitani was getting made fun of at school and they said that their dad is apart of tokyo's most dangerous gang
✩Ofc the bullies didnt belive it till the next morning they find their parents dead
✩When little haitani was a teen they went out with someone and Ran was mad
✩Sent the person a message saying that if they hurt their baby they would rip their head off
✩When little haitani tried introducing their s/o to their family it was a mess.
✩Their s/o was quite the entire time. I mean imagine being in a room with Tokyo's most dangerous men and one of them (Sanzu) was sharpening his katana while staring into his soul
✩When their s/o asked for little haitani's hand in marriage it took Ran a while to accept
Taglist: @alviy4n @goldeneagles-posts @okkalo @haitani-maki @kodzukein @kira-rrh
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Hey could I request a klaus x reader where the reader is around his age and works for VFD (as a singer for her cover but is actually someone who charms people for information yk) but is like super lonely because all their attention isnt really/longterm but klaus and the reader fall in love anyway ( also if you could add him confessing at like a masquerade ball but the reader almost gets killed by count olaf kinda like the lemony and Beatrice flashback ) sorry for the long and specific request
The Siren and The Bookworm (Klaus Baudelaire X Reader)
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Summary: As a siren, all the attention you received was fake or short lived. But your new partner proves to be an outlier.
A/N: Klaus and reader have been working for the VFD for a few years, so they’re in their early twenties. Count Olaf didn’t die at the end of the series. Klaus confesses after the ball instead of during it. Also based off of the ball scene from Cruella. One more also, this is my last ASOUE fic!!! So I hope you enjoy
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It felt simple, almost fun working for the VFD. Given your unique ability, you did much of your work and investigation at parties. You were a singer, but you had a certain charisma that made you able to get anyone to tell you anything. You loved it; the attention, the trust.
But it never lasted. It was always temporary. When you were done getting the information you needed, you’d move on, and the person you had talked to would forget all about you and your conversations. But at least you always had the stage to return to, your one constant.
Although it felt easy, VFD work was sometimes dangerous. So, after a few minor incidents of being followed or getting found out, the VFD assigned you a partner to accompany you on missions and such. His name was Klaus Baudelaire, the son of the late VFD alumni Bertrand and Beatrice Baudelaire. A lot of the time, when you were undercover, he acted as your bodyguard. This amused you because he was better at reading about defensive strategy than practicing it. But it was still nice to have his company.
You were first assigned to each other a few months ago. It was strange to form an actual relationship with someone. But after some time, you two became best friends despite your differences. The characters you portrayed accurately depicted your true selves in a way. You were known as The Siren, where being charming and open was just as important as your voice when you were put in front of the microphone. And when Klaus joined the VFD, he was lovingly nicknamed The Bookworm, for his mind was like an endless library that constantly desired to be filled.
You knew you shouldn’t get close. Eventually, he’d be like everyone else, a distant memory. But knowing that didn’t stop you from falling.
You were getting ready in your hotel room when Klaus came in. He was practically itching to leave, because this mission was especially important to him. The VFD had heard whispers of someone who was finally seen after years of hiding. And after years of attempts, he was seen in the limelight. Klaus knew this man all too well, and because of his stories, it felt like you knew him just as personally.
Count Olaf was now known as a talented and famous theater actor, instead of a murderer, kidnapper, and child endangerer. You don’t know how he did it. From Klaus’ stories, Count Olaf seemed to completely lack any sort of talent beyond fooling foolish adults with disguises. You and Klaus couldn’t understand why people were so favorable to him now, but you guessed that it had something to do with the fame and people having their opinion of someone so easily swayed.
The VFD wanted Count Olaf put away once and for all, which was why you were getting ready to go to a press event in his honor and why Klaus was practically about to push you out of your chair and into the car.
“Y/n, please hurry. The car’s here.” You couldn’t blame Klaus for his excitement. He had been wanting revenge on Count Olaf since he was first placed in his care. And although Klaus wasn’t a violent person, he was itching for justice to be served in any sense possible.
“I’m almost done, Klaus, I promise.” You sighed, applying a final touch of lipstick before standing from your chair. As you moved, you felt your dress was looser than it should’ve been and realized it wasn’t zipped. “Klaus, can you zip me up?”
“Uh, yeah.” If you were paying closer attention, you would’ve seen that he had a harsh blush on his cheeks and was about to choke on his spit when he answered you. But you were too focused on the tasks ahead of you. He zipped your dress up, being gentle in a way like he was almost scared to touch you. But you didn’t comment on it. “Ready?” You turned to see an outstretched hand. You took it, and the two of you made your way down to the car provided by the VFD.
“You remember the plan?” You asked as the driver took you to your destination. You fiddled with the ring on your pinky as you thought about it. This was probably the most risky mission you had participated in in all your years working for the VFD.
“Yes.” Of course, Klaus remembered the plan; he remembered everything. “And you’ll be okay.” He grabbed your hand and squeezed it tightly to emphasize what he had said. It wasn’t a question; it was a statement. A fact. Even though what’s supposed to happen hasn’t happened yet, Klaus believed that everything would work out perfectly. Despite the series of unfortunate events that he had to endure in his child, he was such an optimist at times.
“I’ll be okay.” You repeated after him. If you said it enough times, it was sure to be true.
Count Olaf resided in a mansion on a cliff. The drive to the estate was long, and the view was incredible from any part of the property you stood on. Clearly, he was doing well for himself.
When the driver stopped in front of the mansion, littered with guests coming in and hanging around the entrance, Klaus stepped out first before reaching for your hand to help you out of the car. Immediately there were murmurs and gasps as the lights touched your face. It was funny how your undercover persona was more known than the person you actually were. It seemed very counterintuitive. Count Olaf’s doorman greeted you and Klaus when you reached the doors.
“Ms. Hent, it’s such an honor. The Count will be most pleased by your arrival.” He smiled at you and then glanced at your partner. “And this is?”
“This is my bodyguard, and plus one. I don’t go anywhere without him.” You grinned, signaling for Klaus to introduce himself.
“Hembro Kotow, how do you do?” It was Klaus’ idea to use anagrams to form your identities. And it was your idea to use your nicknames for each other to turn into anagrams because if someone could unscramble your fake names, they still wouldn’t know your real ones. So you, The Siren, were also Ires Hent. And Klaus the Bookworm was Hembro Kotow. Klaus felt somewhat ashamed about the idea because he had gotten it from Count Olaf and his antics from when he’d chase him and his siblings around for their fortune. He hated that he had learned something actually useful from the crazed lunatic.
Before you knew it, you were on the stage in the main room, because of course Count Olaf would have a stage in his house. As you sang, you scanned the crowd to find your host. Everyone was masked because Count Olaf seemed to love secret identities. You and Klaus didn’t participate in the masquerade part of the ball, because the vital part of your undercover work was to be seen.
After a few songs, you found him chatting it up with a guest by the doors that lead to the back courtyard. As you sang the final note, the crowd turned their attention to you and started to applaud, Count Olaf being one of them. He smirked, and although you were disgusted, this was part of the plan. You nodded to Klaus, and he accompanied you on your journey through the sea of people.
“I’ll give you five minutes with him before I send everyone out,” Klaus whispered, hand pressed to the small of your back to guide you. “And I’m being very gracious by giving you that much time.”
“Five minutes is all I need.” You whispered back. “And stop worrying; I’ll be okay.”
“You’ll be okay.” He repeated softly.
“Count Olaf, it’s such a pleasure to finally meet you.” You gave a sweet smile to the man when you finally reached him. He immediately brushed off whoever he previously talked to and focused on you. He grabbed your hand, and you pretended to be delighted when he kissed the back of it.
“Believe me, Ires Hent, the pleasure is all mine.”
“This is such a beautiful home. Absolutely magnificent.”
“Perhaps you’d like to see more of it?”
“I’d love to.” You linked your arm with his and gave Klaus a nod that said, ‘I’ll be right back, don’t follow me,’ and although this was all part of the plan, he wished he didn’t have to leave you alone with Count Olaf. “Could we see the ocean first?”
“Of course.” Count Olaf led you out of the mansion, and the two of you walked through the courtyard to get to the edge of the cliff that was fenced off by cobblestone structures. “Who was that man you’re with? He seemed familiar.”
You tried not to panic. After all, Count Olaf hadn’t seen Klaus in years, and he had grown up and matured a lot since their last meeting. Or at least you hoped.
“Oh, just my bodyguard, Hembro. He came from Canada a few months ago.”
“So why isn’t he here now, guarding you?”
“I don’t necessarily think you’re someone I should be guarded from.” There was a flirtatious tone in your voice, even though you wished nothing more than to be away from this man. Count Olaf smirked, and soon, you two were looking out at the sea. “This view is absolutely marvelous.”
“It really is.” Count Olaf sighed, glancing at you. You caught it and had to play along.
“Very handsome.” You said, turning to lean against the fencing while facing him. You played with the lapel of his suit jacket, wishing it was someone else’s. It was bad enough that he was so much older than you, but the fact that you knew of all the things he had done, especially towards someone you care so deeply about? It made you sick to your stomach. You hated having to act so pleasantly toward a monster. But it would all be over soon. He gripped your hips to pull you closer. “You wanna know a secret?”
“Oh, how I love secrets.” You leaned forward to put your mouth to his ear. In the distance, you saw Klaus talking to different groups of people inside, gesturing to the courtyard. Slowly but surely, they started gathering outside.
“Well, this is a good one.” You took a deep breath, preparing yourself for the inevitable. “The VFD found you, and they’re ready to put you away for everything that everyone else had forgotten about.”
“What?” He hissed, squeezing you tighter. You tried not to grimace from the slight pain. You had to stay strong and confident. “Who the hell are you, and what do you know about the VFD?” You decided to not answer that question.
“I guess it was a mistake to chase the spotlight, Count Olaf. Now the only light you’ll be seeing is from a jail cell.” He turned you around quickly, pushing your body against the stone barrier.
“I don’t think so, Darling.” He said with a sick grin. You gulped. “I think it’s time for you to see what you wanted to see.”
“Which is?” You asked, trying to wiggle your way out of his grip.
“The ocean.” His grip was soon off your body, and you were free-falling off the side of the cliff. The last thing you heard was gasps of horror before your plummet took you too far down to see or hear anything else.
Count Olaf turned around, shocked for once that he had an audience. His guests looked at their host in horror, murmuring about how they just watched the Count push the famous Siren off his cliff.
“What?” He glanced back, realizing what they had seen. “She jumped. Everyone, I know how distressing this must seem. But Ms. Hent was deranged, threatening to take me with her.” He was putting on the performance of a lifetime, but it wasn’t to convince the audience this time. “She jumped.”
But they didn’t believe him. Soon, the police (who were secretly VFD agents) came and arrested Count Olaf for the murder of Ires Hent. He screamed as he was being dragged off, talking about how it wasn’t what it looked like and how he was innocent.
Klaus sighed as he walked to the car that had returned to pick him up. He prayed you were okay, even though he knew you were. After all, this was all part of the plan.
Knowing the layout of Count Olaf’s party and his murderous tendencies, the VFD had fashioned you a gown that was both expensive looking and practical for getting thrown at sea to your death in. The skirt’s volume hid the fact that it could also be used as a parachute. You were able to guide yourself into the water, close enough to the shore that you wouldn’t risk getting pulled back into the sea. You insisted to the VFD (more Klaus than anyone else) that you could make your way back to the hotel on your own, and to not send a car for you to avoid the risk of drawing attention. Using VFD tunnels beneath the city, you secretly made it to the hotel. When you opened the door to your room, you were squeezed and lifted in the air.
“Oh, thank God.” Klaus sighed, keeping you close to him as he rested his head against yours. “I knew you’d be okay, but then the minutes kept passing, and I kept thinking the worst.”
“I’m okay.” You combed your fingers through his hair which seemed to help calm him. You pulled him away from nuzzling further into you to press your forehead to his. “We’re both okay.”
“We’re okay.” He repeated, still refusing to let you go. He needed the comfort of knowing you were still alive, and you’d be a fool to deny both him and yourself that. He put a hand on the side of your face, stroking your cheekbone with his thumb. He pulled away just enough to look at you. It was like he wanted to say something, ask you something. But he didn’t know how.
Even though he was the Bookworm, you knew how to read him. “Please.” The simple word drove him forward, pressing his lips to yours and pulling you as close to his body as physically possible. The kiss had so many unsaid words: ‘Thank God you didn’t die,’ ‘I’ve been in love with you for quite some time,’ ‘Never do something so crazy and risky like that again because I can’t lose you.’ Yet none of the words had to be said. Deep down, you had both known for a while. It just needed almost dying to confirm it all.
#klaus baudelaire#klaus baudelaire x reader#asoue x reader#a series of unfortunate events x reader#a series of unfortunate events#agaypanic
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id like to hear more of your thoughts on hato! shes my fav jojolion character and no one else talks ab her i love her sm
wAHH i love Hato I really really do love herrrrr
she's defiantly probably my fav character in that part which i know is a bit silly because she really didn't get as much screentime as a lot of others but i really just like what we did get of her. she's just delightful. i really wish we got more of her, in general but also in replace of Joshu. I would have love Hato and Yasuho friendship
then theres the part of me that reads too much into her!!! i know iv overanalyzed her but i did and it sits in me!
Hato rambling under the cut lol
This idea of her oldest daughter, but second oldest child. Her parents love her and her siblings but dad works on their family business and as much as mom never lets you forget she loves you, she clearly has subconsciously picked a favorite in your older brother. Theres something between them you could never have with your mother or brother. This special clique just between them. Then your mother is taken from the picture, your brother is older than you and even if she isnt there his best friend is mom, and its not long now that he's working with dad. You have a younger sister but the age difference is there and she's become quite the daddys girl as dad's stepped in to be both parents. So your left with the sibling closest to you in age, Jobin. He isnt great but you get to have your moments, but even then he's busy being self entitled and chasing some girl who doesnt want him around and constantly doing his own thing.
Despite all this your the odd man out in a house where everyone is the odd man out of each others relationships.
Some time goes by and you find out about your absent mom, and with that disconnection from everyone else, you don't say anything. You dont want to upset them, you simply have to digest the truth of the matter, the bond of your mother and brother. Your the oldest daughter, your not going to stir shit up. But you can't help but feel a bit of resentment toward the whole thing... maybe jealousy that it wasnt you? Its stupid to feel that way on the topic of the death of a child, but she missed out on having that connection with either of them.
Your considered silly and air headed, and you are you guess, you like to have fun and things escape you sometime. But your finding a nice well off boyfriend, the perfect first boyfriend to bring home to your family. Someone thats yours. Plus, shows everyone your a responsible adult who can have an adult relationship. You can step up you can be someone people rely on and trust, your going to be a good person who brings no trouble to your family. Your not your mother, your not your brother and your not going to let personal feelings lay harm.
Then despite all that, all that you've tried to do right backfires and you've put everyone in danger. Your misjudged and it caused everyone to get hurt. Maybe you are air headed..
All this business with these people trying to hurt her family, her mom back in the picture, jobin acting more distant from the family than ever before, falling back into this way with their mother, secrets just for them while you just have to sit and watch and stew in your own feelings.
... then their gone. It's all over and their gone, and your left with having resented your mother for the last years. But you dont hate her, well.. maybe you do. you just hated that she wasnt as attentive to you as you wanted. You hate that you couldn't have had a proper relationship with her or your brother and now it's too late.
But its not too late for family.
I love to picture after the events of Jojolion, Hato going on to pick up Jobins work. She steps up as the eldest child of the family and starts working closer with her dad, helping with the family business, as well as her and everyone else stepping up to help Mitsuba with Tsurugi and the new baby.
Hato finding some peace in the new flow of the family, through strengthening her bond to family finally, finding some sense of connection to the ones they lost through them.
miss growing pains!!
also this comic i love it soo much on twitter i think about it a lot with miss hato
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Giggles and kicks my legs. Soooo .. how about YOU make a headcanon post
OKAY!!!! i actually have. like a. insanely long list for my mother headcanons and have an uncomplete Google docs document on them because im insane but i will make it as short as i can by only taking about mother 2 LMAOOO so imma just add a silly read more thingy here because i am about to info dump so hard
Imma go character by character because ITS JUST CLEANER...
first off silly baseball child ness
Because I'm silly like that I woke up one day and decided he was trans masc. if ness or just any male protagonist in media (looking at you link) could make money out of the amount of people that made headcanons of him not being cis I imagine there'd be alot of cash coming in
I like to think of him as half-latino and knowing spanish because WHY NOT!!! and since every single latinoamerican breathes and cherishes goku HE NEEDS TO BE A DRAGON BALL FAN he would not be accurate latinoamerican representation IF HE WASNT A DRAGON BALL FAN!!!
Out of the whole group I imagine he tries to use PSI as little as possible in his daily life once the whole journey is over, for he is more comfortable living as a normal kid. WILL NOT HESITATE TO USE HEALING POWERS IF NECCESARY but otherwise avoids it (except telepathy on animals because i have this funny thought where he has unintentionally used telepathy his entire life and thats how he knows what animals are saying BUT THOUGHT THIS WAS NORMAL??? once he figures out its not a normal thing he avoids doing it as much with people but he cannot live without knowing what the dawg be saying...
the airhead in the group. he is mostly gut oriented instead of going by brains his brain mgiht as well be a burger
ALSO THE LOUD ONE a very empathetic and easy going boy that gets easily excited about everything and just likes having fun. which means every time he gets a semblance of a negative emotion he will proceed to numb it down and ignore it causing him to just accumulate it😰 LIKE HOW HE HAS TO BEAT DIFFERENT CREATURES AND ENEMIES in his magicant they appear and look down at him for hurting them WHICH MIGHT BE HIM FEELING GUILTY BY THE FACT HE HAS TO DO THAT AND I IMAGINE HE CAN ONLY PULL HIMSELF TO DO SO BY NUMBING THE GUILT DOWN... he's just like look lets lets just get this done😞 what goes on with Pokey ending up on Giygas's side also applies to this but i will not go on detail. because I am writing fanfiction about it and rather not spoiil it😊😊😊😊
the baseball fan ever that practices daily without missing a single day and basically drags Pokey alongside him
and since. i am NORMAL... he's an ENTJ 7w8. i have spent endless hours doing personality tests for these kids i am so normal about them
he has a crush on Paula (which she returns) but is too flustered to admit this so he pretends he is not catching on to her VERY VISIBLE HINTS (she enjoys getting him flustered shes silly like that) because he's nervous about it💀💀💀
anyway PAULA TIME!!!! i am insane so i have provided some backstory for her
I imagine that she awakened her PSI pretty early on and is very gifted around it, and since it is so rare she became very popular in the media at a young age and is essentially a celebrity child. She thought it was very fun initially but she feels pressured to keep a perfect image of herself for she is considered to be a role model which painted an image of someone that wasn't her. She feels very upset about this nowadays and has tightly held onto what is important to her and her true self as to not lose it in attempting to be someone else. She basically has some anger issues out of this because she has gotten used to people not really respecting her boundaries and not being very interested in who she actually is
SHE'S STILL REALLY CARING SHE GENUINELY ENJOYS HELPING OTHERS AND IS THE ONE KEEPING THE TEAM MORALE IN BETWEEN THE FOUR even when she tends to forget taking care of herself sometimes
so yeah she isnt really amused when she's kidnapped SHE JUST GENERALLY HAS LIGHT REACTIONS TO THINGS GOING SOUTH BECAUSE SHE BASICALLY KINDA EXPECTS THAT? despite how much optimism she spreads around she's quite the pessimist (though never voices those thoughts) so she feels very drawn in when Ness is actually genuinely optimistic about everything
loves cute things so much she needs every single big plushie she finds IMMEDIATELY. kirby merch hoarder
generally a sweetheart but very bold and feisty not as much as Kumatora is but she is
if she was in the modern era she'd be a gamer and live breathe minecraft she would be the type of person that gently explains things to her friends on one side but yells when a random stranger in her team is playing horribly
really excited over her frying pan she would have gotten a bat if she didn't think itd be cool if she could use her frying pan as both a weapon and something to warm food up in. like SHE WILL USE IT IN ANY CHANCE POSSIBLE TO FEEL COOL like "Yeah ... give me that cold slice of pizza imma put in the pan . ..." pk fire some random oil she keeps around for thiw specific purpose and there it is it makes her so happy
AS I PREVIOUSLY MENTIONRD SHES VERY STRAIGHTFOWARD ABOUT HER FEELINGS FOR NESS EVERYONE KNOWS IT SHE IS NOT TRYING TO HIDE IT AT ALL but does not directly confess because she likes teasing Ness. she finds it amusing when he gets flustered about it and pretends he isn't catching on
ESFP 2w3 hehehehehehehe
now Jeff he's my favorite out of the four so his is probably going to be stupidly way longer because he's silly like that
not the usual type of shy who hides from people and stutters a lot I IMAGINE HE JUST GETS REALLY AWKWARD AND SPEAKS AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE AND ENDS UP SOUNDING REALLY FORMAL BY ACCIDENT. He will respond to you just in very few words if some stranger suddenly starts talking to him he basically freezes up and fights internally to even say a word because he does not know how to do conversations
He's very knowledgeable in many different things and if you ask him about anything he'll answer VERY NONCHALANTLY AND SHORTLY AS IF HE DOES NOT FULLY UNDERSTAND THE SUBJECT WHEN HE IN FACT, DOES. HE SIMPLY IS NOT INTERESTED. but then you bring up inventions and guns and he will provide you a full rambling session with visual examples test runs different things to reference to for different concepts he's mentioning and every single minute detail. THERE HE ACTUALLY GETS EXCITED LIKE HE ISN'T SHY AT ALL THERE
cannot for his life comprehend social cues or idioms he takes things very literally and doesn't assume there's any hidden meaning HE'S BETTER AT THINGS THAT ARE LOGICALLY ANSWERED THAN ANYTHING SOCIAL. so yes Tony can accidentally drop a hint that he's crushing on him and DESPITE JEFF FEELING THE SAME WAY, he'll be like hm thanks tony cool I'm sure that is a very best friend thing to say i do not think there are any romantic implications here....
has an inferiority complex over the fact people credit his skills to be coming from his father (who he basically HARDLY KNOWS OR REMEMBERS SEEING PHYSICALLY BEFORE THE PROPHECY) and not to his own efforts!!! he's constantly compared to him and is expected to have the same amount of genius he does so Jeff tends to overwork himself at times to reach this standard.
has tested million types of coffee to see which one keeps him awake at night the best— but hates coffee! he prefers tea. friends assume he likes coffee because of how mcuh he drinks it he does not
oh yeah as i implied has a big fixation towards inventions and guns. he just thinks they're inteesting as hell he wasn't one to use them he just thought they were rad as hell and he WILL recognize specific ones if shown even a peak of one. he cannot live without being 100% up to date with every single type of gun in existence he needs to know all about them and understand how they work and does elaborate dissections into how they're built
even if shy once comfortable with the rest of the team he actually is one to occasionally tease them and joke around sometimes HE HAS THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH NESS WHERE THEY ARE CONSTANTLY TRYING TO ANNOY EACH OTHER without actually annoying in each other idk how you call it but they just playing around they silly like that
type of person who's face turns red at even the slightest embarassment it just happrns really easily
im not even gonna lie to you he's essentially me irl i needed a character to project myself into so i dont feel bad about not being good at social cues and at anything that is not my main interest
OH YEAH HE'S THE TALLEST HE'S VERY LANKY BUT HE'S THE TALLEST he's confused to be older than he actually is a lot of the time
i almost forgot— ISTP 5w4
NOW POO!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!
Initially took things very seriously and remained stone faced for a while but ironically became the one that made the most jokes out of everything and has a very contagious laugh— he still takes things more seriously than the rest and is the one that keeps everyone focused when it's important but is now able to relax a lot more
REALLY CHARISMATIC. LIKE HE'S AMAZING AT DEALING WITH PEOPLE EVEN IF HE PREFERS SOLITUDE.
loves animals and animals love him once found a dog and was very sad when he couldn't take him along in the journey... HE GENUINELY JUST SITS DOWN AND SPEAKS TO ANIMALS VERY CASUALLY LIKE hello sweet little dog. how are you doing on this fine saturday. awesome😊.. AND DOES MAGIC TRICKS FOR THEM😭😭😭 He's the disney princess of the group animals will just come to him and be nice to him birds sing along to this boy existing AND HE'LL BE LIKE OH, THIS IS NORMAL, while the rest of the group is just dumbfounded by rhat
i think he'd be quite tech illiterate as he spends most of his time concentrating on his training he really didn't pay much mind to technology (he preferred putting time into working on himself instead of wasting it trying to properly understand technology). BUT HE'S DOING HIS BEST HE IS INTRODUCED TO ARCADE GAMES AND THANKS TO FRIENDS BECOMES HOOKED he was a little lost but hes okay
becomes good friends with jeff because both felt like the odd one in the team at some point and come from very different backgrounds than ness and paula did THEYRE GOOD BUDDIES
He speaks multiple languages very well, but since english is not his first language he feels a bit lost sometimes when with friends. So doing his best effort he brings A WHOLE DICTIONARY WITH HIM AT ALL TIMES like these four will find a word not a single one of them knows and Poo will be there like. dont worry guys i got this AND PULLS OUT HIS DICTIONARY😭😭😭😭 DUDE'S READING THE ENTIRE THING TO PROPERLY UNDERSTAND HIS FRIENDS😭😭 picks magazines for english so he doesn't have to ask them every single time he's lost and to keep at the same pace they do
might be noticeable already but POO'S A TOTAL SWEETHEART HE DOES NOT MIND SAYING THE MOST SWEETEST AND CARING WORDS EVER KNOWN TO MAN and is very confused when one of the 4 cries in emotion because his words are very nice. THAT'S JUST NORMAL FOR HIM HE'S JUST LIKE THAT JUST NATURALLY VERY VERY NICE AND KIND no one can beat him on being very nice
Sometimes the only sane one in the group he is silly, but he balances the silly properly he knows when to save the silly for later
talking about him being good with people if you need to distract someone NO PROBLEM and he just does it really well DOES MAGIC TRICKS!!!! he likes doing his silly little tricks it's something he learned on the side from his training he loves seeing how people react to them
oh yeah the shortest and is confused to be younger than he is sometimes when he's the oldest in the group. basically Jeff backwards but Jeff isnt the youngest
...infj 8w9
NOW YOUD BE LIKE DAMN MICHAEL THATS A LOT OF TEXT ALREADY YOU SPENT AN HOUR WRITING THIS (yes its been an hour i think i i dont know ive been writing this since you asked when was it HELP) BUT I AM NOT DONE. I AM NOT DONE!!!
JUST JUST A FEW MORE FOR OTHER PEOPLE ASIDE FROM THE CHOSEN 4 BECAUSE i need an excuse to talk abojt tony he's my favorite favorite I could make an essay on his character
I like to think Tracy is super smart and is so smart that she's a few school grades (whatever you call um idk um school years?) ahead of what she would be for her age for it. EVEN THOUGH SHES LIKE 9 she's smarter than ness thats for sure and she mentions this but he's silly so he still needs to be the cool older brother regardless so he ignores that she's smarter GIRLIE GOT A JOB AND HE WAS LIKE TRACY WHAY ARE YOU DOING ON THE ESCARGO EXPRESS LIKE YOU ARE 9😭😭😭
i dont actually have any particular Pokey headcanon besides him being interested in tech because of mother 3 BECAUSE HE FEELS VERY FLESHED OUT ALREADY AT LEAST TO ME SO I DONT FEEL THE NEED TO DO AN ENTIRE BLOCK OF HEADCANONS FOR HIM I REALLY LIKE HIS CHARACTER THOUGH best i got possibly just enters theory territory instead
AND ABOUT TONY!!! like in the game he's a very earnest and good kid. I imagine he's seen as someone very sociable and easy to get along with to his peers LIKE HE WILL DO ANYTHING TO HELP EVERYONE FEEL INCLUDED and does an extra effort to get Jeff friends and for people to understand and like him like he be taking him to some of his other friends like. THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!! and theyre like Tony rhis is the sevenrh time you introduced him TONY IS THE MAIN REASON JEFF HAS ANY OTHER FRIENDS IN SNOW WOOD
tony sucks at science like really bad he's not good at anything scientific process like and would be bad at remembering them...IF HE DIDN'T TAKE THE EFFORT TO MANUALLY REMEMBER THEM BECAUSE JEFF IS THE ONE TELLING HIM. he be sitting there absorbing all that information and casually mentioning it here and there so Jeff gets really excited about it. ASIDE FROM THAT HE'S ACTUALLY GOOD AT MATH AND IT GAINED HIM A SCHOLARSHIP AT SNOW WOOD IN THE FIRST PLACE WHICH I IMAGINE IS VERY PRESTGIOUS
hes just a very hardworking kid in general THOUGH HE'S VERY CLUMSY AT TIMES. he's seen as the funny guy he cracks out jokes for everyone to laugh at people just generally like him a lot
sprta silly because lil dude is so honest and good natured he has to fight so hard to tell a lie. he's quite naive and easily forgives people WHICH OF COURSE HE'S LIKE 12 OF COURSE HE'S LIKE THAT BUT HE'S MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE
anyway im not makikg thisbany longer its already scary enough I AM SORRY. . .....I DID NOT WANT IT TO BE THIS LONG. . ..im very thankful you asked but ay the same time i feel obligated to ask for forgiveness at how long ive rambled for I just I just love this game I COULD DO MORE BUT NAW💔💔💔
#not art#headcanons#THANKS FOR ASKING BY THE WAY!!!!! I GOT TO RAMBLE!!!#I am so sorry to every one of my followers for this one#honestly it wasnt my plan to expose myself as the guy that rambles a lot that i am and was planning to keep myself short wirh my art only#but oh well#i think this is fine too#when did you ask help me i dont remember how long ive spent writing this I BEGAN WRITING SINCE YOU ASKED AND FINISHED JUST NOW HELPPP
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a friendly reminder to everyone in a place that celebrates today as father's day: it is okay to not celebrate your father. it doesn't matter what the reason is or how much pressure other people want to put upon you.
this is my second father's day being no contact with him, and it's hard. every one of my blood relations thinks that im dramatic to some degree; that he's my father and i should love him and i should want to talk to him, or, at the very least, that the idea of coming in contact with him again shouldnt be one that tears up my stomach and causes increasing levels of agoraphobia. it's hard sometimes not to feel like they're right, that i should still see him, should still talk to him, should still care about him, even though he spent my entire life abusing me. that the fact that i hate him with my very core and my life would be much better off would he just die, is unforgiveable and horrid.
but it isnt. i went through things that no one should have to, let alone a child, and i have no obligation to forgive him for those things. i have no obligation to want anything to do with him.
and the thing is, no one does. you dont have to have a solid terrible reason to not want to celebrate someone. the fact that you don't want to is enough. you dont have to want to reconcile with someone you cut contact with, the fact that you dont want to is enough. not all fathers are good fathers, and you dont owe any explanation or justification to anyone.
so, to all of you out there who also struggle today because he wasnt who he shouldve been, i love you, and i hope you can find good in the day. be gentle on yourself. never forget that you are enough, and you deserved better. dont let anyone tell you otherwise.
#sometimes his best wasnt good enough#and we shouldnt have to celebrate him for a shitty job#no matter how much he or anyone says he 'tried'#fathers day#not all fathers are good fathers#be kind to yourself
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Pssst... Try not to take what they say in interviews too seriously. Sometimes things will be intentionally vague or an outright lie to confuse or appease people or throw them off from something. Ennis is infamously known for that although I don't think everyone realizes he does this, but he's also working on the show with them.
They said Marie surviving "wasn't as simple as them needing her alive" and it's kinda funny to see fans take it one way or the other when that can be so many different things in context of The Boys universe and especially what we saw in Gen V.
"Plans to kill Homelander" is Billy every season without success, but even if he did, I think we'll see him getting haunted by Homelander big time after the fact. I still want Hughie to be the one who kills Billy but maybe it's beyond the grave Homelander who's there as Billy is dying instead of Becca. I think that would be fitting and Billy honestly deserves it.
There's definitely an element of groundwork they are following from the comics which has been pretty consistent but what I really suspect will happen is that the control virus will end up used on Homelander by someone to purely weaponize him. I think we'll see him become an attack dog and fully efficient berserker without getting to enjoy any of it and having a different sort of mental break after.
The comics sort of rob you of the gratification Homelander's death could give and I think they want to recreate that effect for the show but who knows.
The scary part for me is all the genocide apologism that is going around but The Boys is sort of meant to unmask people and have us reevaluate the way we think so I guess I shouldn't be too surprised. Still hurts though.
As far as Cate "going too far", he's technically right. Not because Shetty wasn't a complete scumbag who wouldn't deserve death, but because she'd been completely neutralized with Cate's powers.
Neutralizing someone by killing them and killing someone who has already been neutralized are two very different things. Just jail her and let her suffer and stew in her own anger and actions knowing she lost at that point because death is the easy way for someone like that. She asked for them to just make her forget but Cate should have forced her to remember or even live through the memories of her victims.
Actually, if they wanted to make Billy fail and survive with Homelander permanently haunting him I'd be completely down for that because fuck that genocidal shithead.
Lol I don't know if this will make you feel any better but just things to think about I guess.
I could see Homie being a ghost haunting Billy as Billy already hallucinates Homelander for some reason that they still havent explained but he its a cash cow for Amazon and they might not just give us 5 seasons so I doubt the execs would want to get rid of him... the writers ans Kripke might hate HL but audiences have proven he its likable and profitable and frankly the idea that all of HL fans are maga type fascist its absurd bcuz my gay brown ass sure as fuck isnt maga and i adore him.
Its getting clear that they will copy the comic to some degree like Homie building an army to have a coup and Billy wanting to use a virus to commit genocide.
Will disagree on Cate v Shetty cuz absolutely nothing she did was wrong in my opinion and yes am being an apologist but i dont feel anything for killing child abusers like absolutely nothing. this bitch was Voguelbaum lite and everybody in the woods deserved it. My only issue its just how jarring the writing and ediring made the whole scene play out but its likely the shortened ep count and time per ep did that.
My ideal ending its Homelander winning and realizing it didnt fix anything and that now he its even more alone than before. I think bad guys winning its the most subversive thing for the stale af genre of superhero media. I want him to win not bcuz i love him but bcuz it would be more devastating for the narrative and shocking to the audience if he did.
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HI THERE! IM BACK FROM MY TRIP! And holy moly i didnt missed a lot???? (i think..? I’ll have to read back your post but i want to send an ask now!)
First, love the new theme btw. Yaoshi is also my fav aeon from the aeons we currently know! They are so pretty and divine and i did have a huge stupid smile when Yaoshi kissed us in the simulated universe THEY JUST WANTED US TO STAY SAFE!!!!!!! I sometimes wonder if Hoyoverse is just building them up to be someone you should hate just to make plot twist that turns out, them just simply doesnt know the horrible results their actions does. They do it with good intention but didnt know the results would be bad. But i honestly like their ambiguous morality that hoyoverse have for most of the aeons because well they’re aeons they’re gods ofc they wont follow human morality.
Second, your second oc you have rn is pretty interesting. So i have QUESTIONS!
1. What do they look like? Ik that you said you’re not finished with their design but are they like in a child/teen body but has the mentality of an adult? (Something similar to bailu i guess)
2. What are their element?
3. What does the other aeons think of Ambrose? Like ‘why the hell does Yaoshi have a little human with them’
4. Is Lan and by extension the Xianzhou Alliance aware of Ambrose’s existance and special connection towards Yaoshi? since their relationship with the said Aeon isnt the typical relationship an emanator and aeon would have (i hc that Yaoshi is known to particuraly have a good relationship with their emanators but Ambrose is noticably their favourite one child)
Thirdly, can i just say something? Since i get busy a lot, I dont get to instantly play the new update which sadly leads me to be easily spoiled. Case in point, Tingyun infamous neck snap. I was just casually scrolling on youtube when i saw ‘Tingyun neck snapping in 4 languages’ Like wth youtube!? I try to just forget about it but the mind could never. By the time i do get to play and get to play the quest, i already knew her fate and just keep giving her the side eye. Ik her fate but idk the reason and stuff leading up to it. It was an interesting experience to say the least
Lastly, i am proud to say that i have FINALLY done Dan Heng IL companion quest and have researched enough that i can FINALLY continue on the brainrot i keep talking about, i might finish it this week if i can manage my time better but we’ll see. So keep your eyes wide open!
I hope you have a lovely day/night, now i should go to bed as im tired like hell.. BYE
- 🐱 Anon
HI BELOVED HELLO <333 oh i am SO excited to talk about ambrose. they are so fucking RRRAHGHG i love them....... pleasmelejldjd......
i agree!!!! you cannot call an aeon "good" or "evil." none of them are either of those things. good and evil are just human perceptions of morality, and divine beings like aeons cannot be placed into those human boxes (which is why i think the xianzhou's attitude towards yaoshi is so. odd. bro it was YOURRRR ancestors who looked for THEM!!!! THEY did not look for YOU ALL!!!!!! YOU GUYS looked for THEM!!!!! and hyv really wants me to think yaoshi is the "villain" here HELP AKJSJSGJUFBAJ) AND YAOSHI KISSING US CRIES SOBS SCREAMS they have such a gentle and nurturing soul in my brain. it is so hard for me to look at them and think "yeah that's a villain" THEY'RE NOT CRIES
i don't know if i prefer the idea of yaoshi being completely 100% aware of the consequences of their blessing, or being completely unaware and being so consumed by their path that they cannot see the harm they're doing. i think both interpretations have their own appeal. the second one is definitely more agonizing, though. either way, i do not see the abundance as a villain personally. aeons are not human. human morals cannot be applied to them.
and as for ambrose--
ambrose is, physically, a young adult! a very young adult. think eighteen or nineteen. i want them to be chronologically older than most people on any of the xianzhou alliance's ships, though, so i am working on an explanation for why their mara is less severe and has not completely consumed their consciousness.
i think they're either physical, fire, or imaginary. i haven't decided yet. i'm open to suggestions.
this is SO funny and i love thinking about this. i think most of the aeons were like... what the fuck. What Is That. why does yaoshi have a little human. what the fuck. i think nous would get along w/ them despite nous' involvement with the xianzhou; ambrose sought to be freed from the limitations of mortal comprehension in order to learn more and see beyond their home world, after all. and really, i don't think nous would give a FUCK about the conflict between the hunt and the abundance. they don't fucking care bro they are more concerned with other things LMAOOO. ambrose clashes really badly with nanook because they have a deep set love for humanity and the universe, whereas nanook... does not. the child of abundance, ambrose, does not like the destruction at all so they are ALWAYS going around and eliminating the antimatter legion when they can. IX could not care less about them rip..... IX's apathy is a stark contrast to ambrose's infinite kindness and passion for existence. in general, ambrose doesn't seek out any of the other aeons except nous. nous and yaoshi are the only ones they really talk to.
I AGREE I AGREE i think yaoshi is one of the aeons who really likes their emanators! ambrose in particular is like an extension of themselves (perhaps this could contribute to why their mara is less severe? ambrose is but an extension of their aeon, after all. their aeon's power probably does not hurt them as bad as it does to those who do not share that kind of bond with yaoshi; i think yaoshi can literally FEEL when something is not right with ambrose and vice versa. like, they share a sort of metaphysical bond). lan knows about this, and therefore, so does the xianzhou alliance. ambrose is regarded as an enemy, a thing that needs to be eliminated from the universe... even though they did nothing wrong. ambrose honestly doesn't care because fuck it, you know? there is no point in lamenting the loss of potential allies when those potential allies seem to vehemently hate their parent... but ambrose has learned from yaoshi to have love for every living thing in the universe, so the hate is very one-sided. they are not just a pathstrider. they are an emanator. they cannot emanate their parent's will and strength if they are hateful. so, they have a gentle and tender love for life and that does include the xianzhou alliance. the alliance sees their softness as patronizing, unfortunately. ambrose avoids lan like the fucking PLAGUE because they know that lan would absolutely take any given opportunity to remove them from the universe, and yaoshi would absolutely come to their aid if they sensed that ambrose was in danger. and ambrose cannot be responsible for aiding the hunt in eliminating the abundance. if they survived, and if yaoshi happened to... not survive, they would not be able to live with themselves. so they don't bother trying to make amends with the xianzhou or lan.
NOOOOOO YOUTUBE SPOILERS ARE THE WORST. THEY ARE SO UNAVOIDABLE. TUMBLR SPOILERS? THOSE CAN BE AVOIDED BUT YT.......
ahh that's awesome! i still have to do it HSKNKHSBGKA but you're welcome to brainrot in my inbox whenever you'd like to <3
rest well!!!!
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All this, but for me its not about not feeling relief or pride over finishing a task, its that i cant USE that relief or pride
i know ill feel better if i clean my room, itll feel nice, itll feel more open, there will be many benifits including A (type of) sense of accomplishment.
And though i know this and i can almost taste it, its like my body and mind dont know what to do with that information
I see it, i want it, but how do i get it?
And I say 'a type of sense of accomplishment' because I will feel relief that my room is clean, but my brain doesnt connect it to MY reward system
Soni feel relief and pride to a sense but its detatched from me. The pride is in the moment, stand alone, disconnected, as if ive forgotten what lead up to this pride
Same with relief, so in the end my brain sees the tasks i need to do, sees the relief, wants it, but doesnt know how to get it
and eventually, when i do get it, my brain forgets how we even got here
so in the future its the same game. theres no improvement. Just walking on clothes, feeling stressed about it, knowing that it would feel good to have it all clean and craving that feeling, yet not able to do anything about it. And thats all if i can get my brain to focus on that specific thing.
My brain can feel so jumbled up that its like shutting a monitor off. im awake, but literally nothing going on in my brain. at that point i have to just move on. Im staring at my messy room, and cant even understand how i can form a thought of what i want.
Like im actively forgetting what im looking at, and cant even be aware that im forgetting what im looking at. kind of like zoning out
though its not all hopeless, for me i like to talk to myself as a seperate person. out loud. (whenever im able to have A Thought) it feels embarassing but, actually talk as if im talking to someone else, and respond after legitimately thinking. Not only that, but talk to myself like im a scared, stressed child.
And this all banks on my taking advantage of anytime my mind actually has the thought "ugh my room is so dirty" i have to be expecting that, i have to constantly be waiting for that thought so i can catch it and stop myself physically in my tracks. Say out loud what i said, repeat it until i understand exactly what im saying.
Then i can start asking myself questions, out loud, actually thinking about what im saying. like a real conversation.
example:
"Your room is messy"
"yes"
"why dont we clean it?"
"i cant"
"Why? what are you feeling?
"scared"
"You are scared, are you overwhelmed?"
"Yes"
"Why dont we pick up 1 item. Look around the room and take your time and find one item no matter how small. How about that wrapper?"
"I cant move"
"Move your fingers. Now move your toes. Now your arms. Remember, its okay if we put this off until later"
"I pick up the wrapper"
"Yes pick up the wrapper and put it in the trash. the trash is right next to the bathroom. Turn your head and you will see. Maybe count how many steps it takes. You will need to bend your knees first, and move your legs to walk to the trash"
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This can help a lot, with being able to not only be kind to yourself, letting yourself feel safe enough to express your concerns or what youre feeling, but also help paint a picture of what you have to do, actualizing it in your head
I had months of not cleaning my room, i did this and ended up cleaning and rearanging it in a few days to the point there was literally nothing left to do
all because i was kind, i listened, i understood, and i also told myself that its okay for my room to be messy. that happens. and one more day or one more week isnt going to be any worse than where i was a month ago.
And sometimes it goes like
"I have to do the dishes..... the dishes. the dishes. go to the kitchen. food. kitchen where food is made. im in the kitchen. dishes. the dishes in the sink. only plates. one plate."
its like trying to push two of the same magnet together.
Also listening to music and smoking weed helps a lot but not always
adhd is so embarrassing ur basically like “I have to have fun right the fuck now or I’m throwing myself off the roof” 90% of the time and you also have very little control over this
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Prev anon sorry for rambling but i just. Its gets my blood boiling when people think women dont deserve to have a choice on what to do with their lives. I don't know your personal reasoning on that, i just hope you can see why being prolife isnt the single morally correct choice and why, in many ways, its misogynistic. And again as i said a kid's disability should never be the why for an abortion because disabled people deserve to live too (im disabled as well), but i dont believe that it should come at thr cost of the mother's dreams/career or even life
hello! thank you for being so upfront with your reasoning and explaining your logic so clearly. personally, i am aware of the controversy surrounding this. but i am not, in fact, strictly a pro-life or pro-choice person.when i reblog prolife posts, one of which your comment seems to be replying to, i am affirming the idea behind the specific prolife post. in this case, the idea that mothers should not abort their children simply because they are disabled. this is a completely different thing from wholeheartedly embracing the ideology. let me be upfront myself here: sometimes mothers don't make good choices. everyone is human, and everyone makes mistakes. everyone who has had a mother must agree that they are far from perfect. in the case of career/dreams. imagine a man, for whatever reason, gets a woman pregnant. for whatever reason, she cannot abort. should he, then, be responsible to take care of her? of course he should. regardless of how it affects his career/dreams, he made a choice that impacts someone else. i feel that it is the same with women who get pregnant. they have the responsibility of taking care of that child, even if they regret that decision. this is not misogynistic. this is equal responsibility to go along with equal rights.
let's imagine that post was about all the people whose parents had them accidentally, without planning, and had to give up on a career for it. there are buckets of them. I'm one of them. would you still say that my mother should have aborted me so that she could have her career?it's definitely distressing. now that there is the technology, it's only natural that people would seek to dislodge themselves of responsibility. it's human. but i would argue that this is a wilful choice, even a selfish one, because these are the consequences of the things you have done, if the sex was consensual.
'There are many women that choose to kill the newborn because they didn't want it. And how many women choose to die by suicide because of that unwanted pregnancy too? (Like, congrats! Now both the child and the mother are dead because she didn't have a say in what to do with her own life!)'
Is there a difference between choosing to abort and killing off the newborn? If the women dies by suicide because of an unwanted pregnancy and this grants her the right to forget her moral obligation to protect and nurture the child, assuming that she wasn't a victim of rape, that basically opens the doors to the moral argument that anyone should be able to do anything they want if the alternative makes them miserable enough. in this case it's a character flaw on behalf of the mothers, not the policy. while I can certainly empathise with their feelings, it doesn't change the fact that abandoning responsibilities you yourself chose by having risky sex. when you do so, you know there is the possibility of having a child. it's a bit too late to say actually, I changed my mind.if you sign a contract, even if the contract is one you regret taking part in, you are required to fulfill it. why? because as sad as it is, legislation is there since we can't trust in people's goodwill to put their money where their mouth is. manytimes, we are selfish and self-seeking. a natural instinct! one I can empathize with! but it's not the guide we should follow.
killing a child off for the convenience of one's life is a morally incorrect decision. it's entitled, and awful given the sex was consensual. say the mother has the child, but abandons it in a ditch. would you still say that it's her choice, when presented with that abandoned child? science sometimes says all sorts of arguments about how children aren't really children until a certain number of days. well, teens aren't really adults until their prefrontal cortex is developed! should we therefore treat them like they don't have any worth? the child having the potential to grow is enough reason to love it, to cherish it! AT ANY STAGE OF LIFE, CHILDREN DESERVE TO BE SAFE.
i should say this again: even if the consequences are unpleasant, unless they are dangerous to the mother who consented to sex, such as staying in an abusive relationship or dying or otherwise, no child should be aborted.
now, you also mentioned the mothers who are put in danger by having children. personally i think doing tests first to ascertain how safe it is to have children before trying to conceive is a wise option. but it's true that one never knows, and the information might come later.in that case, the mother is absolutely within her rights to abort. full stop. i'm not arguing that point because that is no argument. same for with rape, although the beautiful souls who do indeed keep their children are to be praised.
to summarise and conclude, thank you for your informative ask! women definitely deserve choices in what to do with our lives! but like all flawed beings we do indeed sometimes shirk our responsibility and it must be factored in that out knee jerk response can, in fact, be the wrong decision. feelings are valid to feel but not always the morally correct way to go. it is conscious thought and moral standard that humans should follow, not base instincts. and always better to save a life than to lose it!
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i had a dream my parents gave me up when i was young. i came home from school one day and they told me they didnt want me anymore.
but that isnt what the dream was about. i knew that already.
it was a dream about being wanted.
my older cousin had a room for me, a whole country away, with exposed auburn wood and a big bed. big canvasses, with tubs of paint. a soft carpet. billboards for photos of memories i would make. set up for me like the aquarium for a long waited fish of an excited child.
que parecidas from the lips of relatives and strangers alike. it means ‘how seeming’. or ‘how belonging.’ they were commenting on how we look alike. we do. i could almost let myself forget i wasnt always here.
my cousins children became my little sisters. i did ballet with mis hermanitas down the hallways of our home. they dont know theres someone who called me hermanita too - i could almost let myself forget that, too.
my old friends called me sometimes, but less and less, as i started forgetting english. maybe as i forgot the words for friend and mom and sister i’d forget them too. maybe i could let myself remember only amigo y mamá y hermana. only the ones that wanted me.
but not when you called me. i could feel the dream realize - i didnt know you yet when i left - you can’t be here. large oilspilled hands replaced your face with someone else. someone who made sense in a timeline where i am wanted. you don’t make sense here. but you wiped off all the other faces. it was always you. breaking through. reaching out to me.
i couldn’t forget. not you. i wished i could. i clung to this dream where i was wanted. i didnt want to remember. you hugged me as it begun to rain. the murals i painted on my walls washed away drop my drop. until downpours claimed my dance trophies and tutus. my pictures of made-up friends. the walls dripped bare until through the haze of rain it was my real life again.
but you still hugged me.
it was a dream about being wanted. it still was.
#the words in spanish feel so cringe to me rn but i think im just being self conscious#real dream i had btw#it was An Experience it was really vivid and i woke up crying#it was after visiting said cousin and her daughters#my dad took a picture of the two of us and the whole trip was showing everyone every time someone told me i looked like her#i miss them already :( i didnt get to see my little cousins very long and i know the next time i will they wont be near as little#like ik that when my family goes there its like a 3 week long party but still its so nice there#i wasnt built for a nuclear family man i want to live with extended family#anyways i thought of this again bc i saw something like ‘would you still love me if we never met’#and i was also kind of thinking about soulmates and how i feel like my ex was my soulmate even though it cant work between us#and i feel like thats what a soulmate is to me#someone that im in love with in every universe#and i love the person im closest too now very much but its never felt like theyre someone i couldnt have not met#even though i know i can be happy with them and have already found out i couldnt be happy with my ex#but then#theyre the one that showed up in this dream#a dream about if i never met them#and they still loved me.#blargh anyways#and Thats why i made this blog bc both people in question do follow me#and i Already wrote a post abt soulmates that lowkey was subtweeting the two of them#and Both people in question liked it dhjdsh#wait let me reblog it here
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Moving the whole 'rizzing the boss' thing aside, i just wanna tell you that i actually don't like kaeya that much lolol, but it's so funny cuz you made me like him a lot more than before after i got matched with him!! (Puzzle is my passion-)
Anyway i don't think i ever thanked you before for matching me with him? Welp, i guess i'll say it now. Thank you so much for matching all of us, especially bcuz there's like 30 of us lol. In any case, don't forget to rest and take care of yourself!! <3
- 🍀 anon
"I actually don't like kaeya that much lolol"
Me, laughing: Oh, dear God, this is a treat.
But fr, that's actually very surprising. I wasn't expecting for you to not like him before this event, so seeing you come around is a massive "oh!" (and fits what I put in Childe's matchup which was "WELL WELL WELL, IF IT ISNT THE CONSEQUENCES OF MY ACTIONS" /silly) HAOSHDIEJS
I think it's really funny with how you just came around to liking him, which... Well, is a feat. I guess puzzles are something that can make people who dislike someone slowly get to their enemies to lovers arc.
(that's going to be fun for me who's experimenting stuff on writing hehe)
Anyway, thank you as well! Matching most of you have been very fun (and sometimes a bit of a headache oops), and there's literally JUST A FEW MORE... OTL God help me
Dw, I'm doing my best making sure that my body doesn't collapse on me one day (because I have my moments on going "oh. Oh I should get smth seriously dealt with" and it's me missing my dinner.)
#💌 ;; messenger writes#💌 ;; promising letter: one last call#💌 ;; a letter from: 🍀 anon#;; it happens often i promise#;; sometimes i focus on one thing that when i look then oops#;; suddenly its not 4 PM and i havent ate lunch#;; im trying to break that habit though. its difficult but im trying.#;; one day ill actually eat at the right times and not think 'oh wait ill eat later' like an oblivious dumbass
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My 2023 recap (but it's through all my favorites posts I've made this year)
Part 2! (part 1 here)
Aug 14th
Me @ the prequels haters:
Aug 14th
Aug 18th
He did it for me specifically and I thank him every day ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Aug 20th
Me progressively spiraling in my latest sw posts:
Aug 26th
Discovering you’re ace is wild cause like, you guys were serious when you said you wanted to fuck that character/celebrity?
We weren’t just exaggerating and being silly?? UH???
Aug 27th
Watching the end of ROTS: a moodboard
Aug 30th
Having a R2d2 and C3po cameo might be the laziest form of Star Wars fan service but you know what that shit work my dumbass goes “OMG it’s R2 and threepio 🥺🥺🥺” everytime
Aug 31st
Tumblr staff be like: somehow they’re still using desktop, lets add an evil clown
Aug 31st
“I want the main character to end up with this person, even though I hate one of them who sucks and doesn’t deserve to end up with such a good-”
My brother in Christ call me crazy but I don’t think you actually love this ship. Read an x reader or x OC fanfic at this point jfc.
Sept 4th
Me sending a feedback report to complain every time tumblr makes another idiotic change:
Sept 10th
I’m always so scared to assemble it
Sept 15th
I love doing research, I am not tearing my hair out (lying)
Sept 21st
Im so good at forgetting my blorbo is a child murderer you wouldn’t even believe
Sept 29th
Lowest luminosity setting is not low enough why is my iPhone a fucking beacon of light burning my retina with the force of a thousand suns
Sept 30th
Me every few months:
Oct 4th
Oct 18th
Me reading fanfic titles on ao3 after first becoming a Taylor Swift fan:
Oct 28th
My boy was so sleep deprived this would have fixed him.
Oct 29th
Can’t believe you hate on my ship just because it’s toxic, unhealthy and has disastrous consequences for everyone around them. Grow up. 🙄
Nov 11th
I have beef with TCW Anakin
Nov 14th
When people go “ew why would you be into this ship when it’s toxic and problematic” and I’m just
Sometimes you don’t need another reason than "it makes my brain go brrrrr” it’s fiction babes it doesn’t have to be good or healthy ❤️
Nov 15th
I thought “oh it would be fun to randomly send a kitten picture to this one mutual” and then I went insane 🧍♀️🧍♀️ sorry about that besties
(this isnt a good post but since i'm making this as a 2023 recap I want to commemorate that time I sent kitties to all the beloved mutuals LOL)
Nov 18th
I love these “what do you most associate with [insert US state]” polls bc my non-American ass is always:
Baby I literally have no idea what you’re talking about ❤️
Nov 17th
hate when people are like “why would Padme be into cringefail Anakin it’s so unrealistic”
Like, um, CLEARLY she saw his pathetic weepy eyes and immediately decided she wanted to fuck that. What’s hard to understand.
Nov 20th
I think when you break up with someone their memory of you should be wiped men in black style thank you
Nov 22nd
Philosphy class be like
Nov 25th
Me when the known mass murderer starts murdering
#you’re telling me my genocidal babygirl is in fact genocidal???
Nov 26th
The thing about philosophy class is that most of these dudes you have to learn about just suck.
“Ohhhh humans only use each other and every relationship is only built on the potential advantages you can get from it” So your heart has never exploded thinking about how much you love your friends?? Sounds like a you problem.
Nov 28th
Snow being judgmental and having a constant sense of superiority…. brother you can’t even buy a new shirt HUMBLE YOURSELF
Nov 28th
Me starting the Ballad of songbirds and snakes and reading snow’s inner monologue: this guy sucks lmao I will NOT be rooting for him and Lucy Gray to be together 🙅♀️
Snow:
Me: oh goddamn it
Dec 1st
“I liked this thing before it was cool!“ Boohoo you’re not special. You just stumbled upon it before other people, congratulations.
"I still like this thing after it was cool, now that public opinion has shifted from being overly positive to considering it bad and cringe” now that takes strength. Courage. Who I aspire to be.
Dec 3rd
Snow: is always nice to Sejanus, helps him distribute food to the tributes, offers him a seat, gives him advice, CALLS HIM HIS FRIEND, save his life-
Also Snow: wtf this bitch thinks we’re friends????
#babyboy you are so stupid
Dec 4th
Me when I see my friend sadposting: I will smother you with kisses and love. Do you need me to kill someone btw
Also me, when I’m sad posting and friends send me encouragements: Friend??? 🥺 Friend cares about me??? 🥺🥺 friend wants to cheer me up? 🥺🥺🥺
Dec 7th
Tumblr rn feels like a landlord trying to make its tenant leave by not fixing shit and cutting utilities, but unfortunately for everyone involved, I am a rat
Dec 10th
No but seriously no one should try being tumblr famous, this website is for one thing only, and that’s having a silly time with your friends and mutuals 😤
Dec 12th
If your mutuals don’t say hi in the tags when they reblog one of your popular posts from someone else then what is it all for
Dec 12th
“Ew liking unhealthy ships is so toxic-”
“Actually toxic ship are INTERESTING unlike those boring healthy ships that have no flavour-”
Meanwhile me, who can appreciate and enjoy any ship dynamics:
Dec 18th
I’m like an old man shouting at clouds except I’m a 20 years old trying to make everyone listen to La Lumière by pomme asdagshdjfk
#I don’t think anyone is buying what I’m selling but I shall keep trying 😔
Dec 20th
Snow when being friendly to Sejanus results in becoming friends with Sejanus
#bro was really like: you’re telling me the person I’ve been treating well and interacting with regularly thinks I’m his friend??? #and that everyone else also think we’re friends???? #like yeah bby that is how friendship works ❤️
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some times i read posts and i sit here like. im not like other tumblrinas
#this was abt the childhood frienda live in ur mind post bc i rlly. cant relate? i dont think aby them much?? one i never wanna see again nd#oh wait. its teo. like i dont wosh them bad i just rlly dont care to ever reconnect or see what theyre up too and 90 percent of the time i#just forget. i remember those memories. they were goid at the time but i dont wish ti be back in those days. it just is what it is#and the rest of them i have on social media and we've just grown apart and thats ok#rlly. i dont rember my childhood in a very large bulk. which makes it roly funny that i teach elementary school bc so much of it is a blur#and i dont mind bc i know its insignificant what i do. good or bad. so idk. its comforting. if its bad. those kids wont rber and if its#good. well thats nice and all! but im it rlly means very little unless for some reason one of my lessons rlly shine thru or smth i do. i#like if so. amazing but im not holding mt breath. all i need to do us make sure they dont have any significant bad memories cuz of me.#but yeah. rlly. being a child is a daze. made teaching hard bc i... sadly. rlly forgot you have to teach kids things and tell them and.#well. yea. train them to do things like line up and clean up and yea. rlly. i dint remember being a kid so i feel like all those skills i#have are innate but no. its bc someone i dont remember at all. took the time to teach me. its weird. i dont think im fit to teach kids#being a kid. time. growing up. rllyis such an odd thing. is this normal??#like nit to be an 'evertything is a trauan response' bitch but i dont know#bc all my friends say the same that i ask but they also share that trauma#tho sadly. sometimes when i meet ppl and they say they have trauma im like 'trauma for real or trauma in the tiktok way?' but then i r#realize. ppl probably think that abt me too. like i dont seem traumatized and when i say what ive lived thri. it feels so.fake and contrite#but it happened and that makes it wrong for me to question anyone. ik trauma isnt what it seems at times but i hate the way socmed has made#it trendy and lose its meaning#🐌.txt#anyways!!! gn
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