#But im also bawling my eyes out
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im going to craft a happy ending rn before I bawl my eyes out
we cant trust u with joy 😔🙏
26 for the prompts? perhaps w the cat n mouse lads :3 (also look danny i did it i sent a prompt are u proud)
I...actually don't remember what the prompt was for this one, but I'm 87% sure it was "I'm not that scary, am I?"
So fine since y'all keep asking for 'em, here's more of the cat and mouse bois. Shoutout to @gabbydafurry and an anon for finally giving them names.
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“C’mon.”
“No.”
“Please?”
“I said no.”
“I’ll make pollo asado for dinner, we can eat it together while we watch!”
Aaron sighed and rubbed his hands against his forehead, trying to ease the dull throb that had yet to wane over the past two days. His headache certainly wasn’t being helped by the constant badgering of his...roommate, for a lack of better words (as well as being a title so eagerly self bestowed by the cat in question) but much like many of their other interactions, his resolve was starting to wear thin. Usually, he was able to hold his ground for at least a week until he was bribed into giving the other some type of social interaction with the promise of his favorite foods. Today, however, the poor mouse just wanted a moment’s peace free from knocking on the walls or calling through the cracks until he answered, and if that meant watching some stupid movie then fine.
Plus, Lucas did know how to make some incredible Mexican food.
“...fine,” Aaron conceded after a pause, the pressure behind his eyes giving him a sharp pang before fading to its usual ache, almost like his own body was projecting how horrible of an idea this was.
As soon as the mouse slipped out from behind the curio, he came face to face with the massive grin of the cat mere inches away from the opening. Seeing the grin only split wider when he was fully in view of the other normally would have instinctively sent a shiver up his spine, it was kind of difficult to be intimidated seeing how Lucas had strangely contorted his body to lay on the floor between the curio and the bookcase. Most cats seemed to be fairly flexible, so it probably wasn’t too uncomfortable for him to be so bent and curled up, but he definitely lost some of that hunter’s prowess with his back twisted sideways and one leg leaning against the shelving.
In a flash, Lucas had managed to untangle his strange positioning to instead be crouched on his knees, now looming over Aaron in a way he wasn’t sure he would ever get used to. He flinched back when his hand started to reach out towards him, fully intending to scoop him up to dizzying heights without a second thought, but the appendage stopped just short of touching him at all. Instead, he dropped his hand palm side up and waited, smiling all the while. At least he was getting better at remembering Aaron’s explicit request to not be grabbed without permission, though he did always apologize with a sheepish look and some little treat whenever he forgot.
Once Aaron climbed onto the awaiting hand that radiated a delightfully intense warmth into his already aching muscles, Lucas was already jumping up a chattering a mile a minute about how much the mouse was going to love the movie he picked out, how dinner would be ready soon, how he wasn’t expecting him to actually agree to watch a scary movie with him since he never seemed like the type who would be into that sort of thing but--
“It’s a scary movie?” Aaron interrupted, the noise finally registering beyond the headache. Truthfully, he tuned a lot of what the other said out for almost every conversation, not that it ever seemed to make a difference. Yeah, sorry, I’m a bit of a chatterbox, he admitted once, but it’s less weird talking to someone who doesn’t respond than to talk to yourself, right?
Debatable.
Lucas tilted his head and snorted. “Uh, yeah? That was one of the first things I told you about. You know that one actress who’s in almost every one of those Christmas movies we watch, who’s always the jealous best friend?” Aaron has no idea who he was referring to given that he never absorbed anything from those stupid romance movies he was boarderline forced to watch, but nodded anyways, “Right, this is supposed to be her big break out role, or something. It’s the first thing she’s doing as a lead actress, and you know, good for her! I’m glad she’s getting out of that typecast she’s been in forever. Horror probably wouldn’t be my first choice for her, but I guess since she has those singing vocals it could carry over to being a scream queen. Kind of like when--”
And Aaron was out of the conversation again.
Lucas continued to drone on about the actress’s entire film career, or at least that’s what the mouse was assuming he was doing when he occasionally zoned back in to pick up a stray word here and there. The headache he had been staving off to the best of his ability was starting to come back with twice as much force as it often did in the later days. He probably could have just asked the other for some aspirin, maybe even some cold medicine as that was no doubt what this bout of illness was turning into, but asking the cat for anything was always out of the question. Of course, Lucas tried to sway him numerous times into thinking it most certainly was not and that he could always ask for whatever he needed, never to his avail. Aaron was indeed willing to prolong his suffering if it meant not having to stomach the dreadful embarrassment that would come to being indebted to the feline, no matter how insignificant.
Unfortunately, he was only setting himself up for failure in thinking this “agreement” would be providing him any sort of relief. His headache was treading dangerously close into becoming a full fledged migraine and the flashes of light and screams from the television would not be doing him any favors. His only saving grace was that, after he had been settled on the couch and Lucas scampered off to get the dinner he promised, the cat turned off every other light possible to, as he put it, really get them in the spooky mood!
The smell of the food was delicious and nauseating. His stomach both wanted and revolted at the idea of anything filling it, which would only serve to worsen his headache no doubt. Damn it all, he wanted to throttle both himself and this illness, the first for agreeing to watch this stupid movie when he was already feeling under the weather, the second for preventing him from getting his half of the deal. These movie-dinner dates deals were the only reason Aaron continued to stick around, even if he thought the torment of being forced to watch awful romcoms in exchange for a hot, homemade meal was a little unfair. No, that wasn’t entirely true, Lucas was a freaking culinary genius as far as the mouse was aware. It was a wonder why he wasn’t majoring in a cooking field.
“I’m not hungry right now,” Aaron lied when Lucas had asked why he wasn’t eating. “I’ll try some later.”
The cat looked at him strangely before shrugging. “Alright, just let me know. If you don’t like it, I can always make you something else.” There he goes again, offering things he knows the other can’t accept. At least he could let it slide this time as he had no appetite to think of any other dish.
Lucas finished his own meal in silence, completely fixed on the television as the opening scene carried on, introducing the canine main character that Aaron did, in fact, vaguely recognize. This was fine, he figured, the dark apartment coupled with a painfully slow movie, a warm body moving to curl up behind him as it so often did during these deals, he could probably get a few moments of real rest in before the credits rolled. As much as he loathed to admit it, the cat was actually rather...comfortable to be forcefully cuddled by. He wasn’t like other movie goers that needed to make a comment on every character’s decision, steady breathing and the occasional purr helping the mouse slowly relax.
That relaxation was cut short as soon as the romcom actress tore her tiny avian neighbor to shreds by the end of the first act.
Aaron had hardly been paying attention to the storyline up until this point, something to do with the girl being bitten and experiencing insatiable hunger lately. The sudden carnage of the otherwise trusting little prey creature made both of them flinch in surprise, though Lucas was quick to laugh it off. From then on the mouse’s unwavering attention was glued to the screen, but not by his choice. A chill ran through him each time she claimed another unsuspecting victim, always a prey animal, and ripped them apart with her teeth and nails like a starving animal. The way the tiny’s incredibly realistic viscera was slurped into her bloody mouth made him queasy, all too easily imagining himself in their shoes.
Eventually, her hunger became too strong and she began attacking fellow predator species as well. Ripping into throats and soft bellies was far messier than snacking on a tiny creature in three bites, making her feast all the more gory. While the violence still unsettled him, it was a touch more bearable now that he couldn’t picture his own body being mangled between the teeth of a predator he thought he could trust. Speaking of…
The mouse gulped and risked a glance behind him at the other who had hardly moved, save for a few jolts and snickers whenever a particularly good jump scare managed to startle him. It didn’t go unnoticed that every time Aaron had physically reacted to a sudden screech or attack, the cat would curl just a little bit tighter around him, hiding a laugh behind a rumbling purr. He wanted to believe this was meant to be an act of comfort and not something equally as nefarious as the canine plotting her next kill. Regardless, Lucas was equally transfixed on the movie, except he seemed to be enjoying every minute of the horror aspect. His tail would flick in interest during the high tension scenes, even more so when a chase sequence was underway. It made sense, considering that was his favorite game to make Aaron play.
Whatever the case may be, the mouse couldn’t help but be unnerved tenfold that the other had the audacity to enjoy a fictional movie he was interested in seeing. The last thing the mouse wanted was for Lucas to get any more ideas when it came to chasing him around the apartment, much less awaken any sort of primitive instinct to maim his prize after it had been captured. To this day, it remains a deep seated fear in the back of his mind that every time the cat cupped his hands over him, his teeth would be quick to follow. Natural instincts were hard to shake for a reason when it came to prey animals such as himself, he could only hope the same wasn’t true for predators.
His imagination was running rampant, enough so that he completely missed how the movie ended. Something about a cure, something about being put down, whatever. The only thing on his mind was the morbidly hilarious thought that if Lucas were to go feral like the canine, would he eat him raw or would he cook him up in another fantastic dish?
Aaron jumped when Lucas moved to sit up behind him, only now registering the credits scrolling across the screen. He stretched a bit, the quickly fading warmth that had been surrounding the mouse making him realize just how tight the other must have been snuggled around him. How did he not notice?
“Wow,” Lucas said, pursing his lips. “That...was one of the worst movies I have ever seen in my life.”
That wasn’t the reaction Aaron had been expecting him to have, but it was certainly better than to hear him go on about how it was a brilliant masterpiece. He got up to flick the lights back on, still laughing as he recounted each poorly written scene and cheesy effects. “I mean, oh my god, right? The mail man saved everyone? Seriously? I actually feel bad for making you watch that, you totally have dibs on the next movie night.”
He turned around to look at the mouse who was still huddled tight on the couch, wide eyes glued to the screen even if it was just names moving along with ominous background music. Lucas gave him another quizzical look, smirking.
“C’mon, even you have to admit those tinies had zero survival instincts. Like, who goes up to a rabid dog and asks for directions? I get suspending my disbelief and all, but they could have made it just a pinch realistic. This is so going to tank her acting career…” The cat shook his head and moved closer to the couch so that he stood right in front of the television, finally drawing the other’s attention to himself. “Hey, you hungry now?”
Oh, absolutely fucking not. An hour and a half of being tensed up gave no relief to his aching muscles and now that the lights were back on, so was his pounding headache. His stomach rolled, the nausea a mix of dizziness and disgust from the special effects. He didn’t even want to think about food, he didn’t want to be out in the open anymore, and he most certainly did not want to spend another minute in the cat’s company right now.
“S-sure…” Aaron finally squeaked out. He just needed Lucas out of the room, distracted somewhere so he could make a break for it. In some instances, he would have just darted off whether the cat saw him or not, but that always resulted in a game of chase that had a 50/50 success rate, the other loving it anyways. All he wanted was some peace and quiet to rest up and heal and not think about how easy it would be for the other to bite off his head whenever he felt like it.
Lucas stood there for a minute, studying him, and just when Aaron genuinely feared he was going to pounce, he flashed an innocent smile. “Cool, just give me a couple minutes to get it heated up.” And with that, he disappeared into the kitchen.
Aaron decided to be bold and waste a few precious seconds of his head start to collect himself. Deep down, he knew he was being ridiculous. Lucas had been nothing but kind to him. Aloof, but still kind all the same. But as a prey animal that spent the better part of his life living in walls and stealing to survive, trust was a risk he simply couldn’t take. There was hardly any benefit to keeping up this con if the end goal was simply to eat him. For all he knew, though, Lucas was nothing more than a merciless sociopath that was willing to milk every ounce of fear he could before chowing down. A sociopath obsessed with romantic comedies and wore an apron when he cooked and had begged Aaron for two months straight to tell him when his birthday was so that he could make him a miniature cake.
...okay, so maybe Lucas wasn’t a sociopath, but that didn’t mean he was trustworthy. Evolution gave him sharpened fangs and agile reflexes for a reason and the mouse was not about to find out what it was like to be on the receiving end of those one day.
With his head as clear as it was going to be for the time being, sans the dull throb behind his eyes, the mouse finally pushed himself up to make his way over to the couch arm. Slowly, as to not overwork his stiff joints, he climbed his way down to the floor and skittered under the couch for a little extra protection. Strangely, he noticed that he didn’t hear any noises coming from the kitchen just up ahead and when he stopped by the doorway, he couldn’t see anyone either. Losing track of the massive cat should not be possible, especially considering this was a one bedroom apartment and there was literally nowhere else for the feline to go without coming back through the entryway. Aaron should have taken it as a blessing, but of course he couldn’t leave well enough alone.
He proceeded to be daring and come out from under the couch completely to peek into the kitchen, confirming it was empty. Again, that shouldn’t even be possible for Lucas to slip out without having to directly pass the living room to go somewhere else. Unless he had, which would mean Aaron missed him somehow. He had been in quite a deep thought process on the couch...but he could have sworn he was only collecting himself for a minute!
The answer became glaringly obvious when the mouse took a few hesitant steps back and turned to retreat under the safety of the couch, only to come face to face with Lucas. He damn near jumped out of his skin, slamming his back against the wall in an effort to gain another inch of distance between himself and the face taking up his entire view. Really, this was nothing too out of the ordinary for the cat, he loved to sneak up and pounce whenever the opportunity presented itself and Aaron wasn’t too obviously close to heart failure. What made his heart stutter, however, was the fact that Lucas didn’t look like...well, Lucas. There was no smile, no warm eyes, no words being talked a mile a minute about nothing.
No, there was just a frowning cat with his ears pinned back and pupils slit, stalking closer with a terrifying rumble in his throat.
Instinct overtook him as soon as he saw the other’s lip twitch, trying to dart under the couch for safety and having his path immediately blocked by a hand being slammed down, claw out. Aaron couldn’t even yelp, the bile in his throat threatening to turn into vomit if he idled around too long. So, he didn’t. Instead, he turned on his heel and scampered in the opposite direction with the cat hot on his trail. He very nearly dodged a swipe, Lucas hissing that his blow didn’t land while Aaron only tried to speed up his sprinting. They circled maybe half of the living room, the mouse weaving under furniture while the cat knocked into them in an effort to jarr his prey into taking a misstep.
It worked, unfortunately, when Aaron took a sharp turn at the bookshelf and caused Lucas to clip it with his shoulder. The small bump did nothing to deter the cat on his hunt, but the two books that came tumbling down were enough to make the smaller skid and trip to avoid being squashed under the novels. He ended up twisting his ankle awkwardly, stumbling flat on his face while the momentum of his running made him roll twice until he landed on his back. Despite being winded and the additional pain in his leg, he knew there was no time to waste, trying to pull himself. It was too late, though. The cat was already on top of him, hand coming down to pin him under his palm while only his head poked free from between his fingers.
That cold, terrifying face came nearer, eyes tunnel visioned on its prize. Oh God, Aaron would give anything to have the other Lucas back right now. He’d watch a thousand sappy movies, do a date night for every meal, actually move into his bedroom like the cat had suggested he do a dozen times. He wanted...fuck, he wanted his friend back. What he thought was his friend, anyways. Not this killer, not this predator who was baring his teeth and was now mere inches away from biting off his face and--
The growling above him broke off into a snort shortly before turning into a full blown laugh. Aaron wasn’t sure when he had closed his eyes in preparation for his certain death, but when he dared to open them and blinked away the budding tears, he saw that smile he had been wishing for again. Kind and warm, just like eyes, and it was like Lucas had never even taken the form of a starving hunter in his life. Like he hadn’t been moments away from devouring his beloved roommate.
“Oh, come on,” he howled with laughter, “You can’t be serious! That movie actually scared you? I mean, I thought you looked a little freaked out by it, but wow!”
The movie...so this...this wasn’t real. Lucas was just pretending, just playing a prank on him. He thought that the movie had simply wound him up and made him jumpier than usual, no different than watching a zombie flick and popping out from behind a bush at your friend later on.
Except it was different. It was different in the fact that zombies aren't real, but predators are. Predators didn’t need an excuse to go feral and maim and consume their tiny cohabitants, they simply could by the laws of nature. And yes, it may be illegal and have several laws in place to protect prey species, but if no body was ever left behind, who could say if foul play was involved? That was the whole plot point in the otherwise dull movie they sat through together, the reason why the woman was able to avoid suspicion of her sickness by feeding on tinies that could only be reported missing at most.
Lucas’s laughter had tapered off, still clearly enjoying himself. “Alright, note to self, no more horror movies.” Finally, he released Aaron from under his hand to sit back on his haunches. “Man, I really didn’t think you would scare that easily, especially from a B-movie like that. Anyways, are you actually ready to eat now? I put your stuff in the oven so it would reheat better, but it should be done by now….Ronnie?”
Aaron hadn’t moved an inch since he was originally pinned, not even after the hand had been lifted off of him. He just stared up blankly at the cat, trembling and wide eyed, unable to do anything as the rapid succession of events sunk in. The cat’s humor died down a little, smile hesitating.
“Hey, look, I’m sorry. I just couldn’t resist, you know?” He shrugged a little sheepishly. “You didn’t even notice when I came back so I thought...I don’t know, it was funnier in my head. I almost broke character and started laughing before you ran!” With still no verbal response, Lucas reached out a hand. “Aaron? You good? Come on, I’m not that scary, am I?”
The reaction he got probably wasn’t what he was hoping for with Aaron suddenly scrambling to push himself away from the outstretched hand that might trap and tear apart his limbs. He gave a sharp squeak, managing to find his footing only to come crashing down as soon as he took the first step, his ankle noticeably swollen by this point. His cry of pain was muffled into a desperate grunt, trying so hard to drag himself away as a last ditch effort to avoid the same fate as the bird and the squirrel and the mole in the movie.
Lucas gasped. “Oh, Ronnie, your leg!” Both hands were reaching for the mouse now, aiming to cup around him and scoop him up before they surely put him out of his misery. “Oh my God, I’m so sorry! I didn’t...oh my God, I hurt you.”
Yes and no. In truth, Aaron had been the one to hurt himself by making his body move in ways it physically shouldn’t. But that didn’t change the fact that Lucas had shown his true colors. Perhaps in hindsight, that wasn’t a fair assessment, as he really did think he was playing a harmless little joke on a skittish friend. The pain came from knowing that the cat could turn feral, though, no matter how genuine he was being. There was still clearly an instinct within him, one that knew how to hunt and bare his teeth and hiss, one that knew deep down where they both ranked on the food chain. It hurt in knowing everything he thought about his friend, everything that kept him from really letting down his walls like the other so desperately wanted, was right. Cats and mice were not friends.
“Get away from me!” Aaron shrieked when the hands came too close. Though they withdrew quickly, he didn’t bother to watch if they would move again as he forced himself up to stumble back to his nook behind the bookshelf.
“Aaron, wait!” It was a fruitless request and Lucas knew it as he didn’t even try to stop the mouse from disappearing behind the furniture back into the walls. It would only make matters so much worse. “Aaron, please, you’re hurt, just...at least let me help you. Please. I...I’m so sorry! It was an accident, I promise!”
The cat shuffled closer, leaning down in hopes that the other could at least hear his pleas better, could hear how sincere he was trying to be. “I would never hurt you, Aaron. You’re one of my best friends. Look, it was a stupid prank and I’m an asshole and I’ll never do it again, just please come out. Just let me know if you’re alright?”
It didn’t matter how hard or for how long he tried, Aaron was long gone within the walls.
#PEAK STORY#10/10 would reccomend#But im also bawling my eyes out#POOR GUY BRO#g/t#fearplay#g/t writing
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woe.betober day 16 - favorite ship
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to no-ones surprise
#its intentionally vauge whether im picking mdawg/edman or edgar/mike because i also don't know#the mdawg edman plotline makes me want to BAWL my EYES out but also edgar/mike are classic and im basic#i didnt do the favorite character prompt because its mikey and i feel like thats boring#i have no hot woebegone takes i just sort of take everything thats handed to me#anyways.#woe.betober#woe.begone#my art :D
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today went to a town where i spent a lot of my worst times in my sickest years and now my brain hurts plus seeing my current body made me want to end me felt like i was gonna vom but kinda over it now cos at least i bought this top and jorts and also 2 pairs of super soft comfy wide leg lounge pants yay
#actually the town i went back to contributed massively to me getting sick in the first place but anyway#bought the top in the middle doe cos was trying in diff sizes#i am 25 i can be grown i am 25 I should be grown i am 25 i am 25 i am allowed to be grown we can be grown i am 25 i am 25 we grow by 25#i am almost twice the size i was at 18 but that is a good thing because we don’t always need to die sometimes we can live#wait actually since i was 21 even ughhhh ANYWAYS#anyways im happy bc the clothes r very me which is great bc yesterday morning i bawled my eyes out from gender dysphoria lol yay#it was also 40 degrees today and it was still so hot in the shop so not very enjoyable#but i went with my mum and we just played my music in the car the whole way there and back which was slay and depressing#and i had a frozen orange juice which is my fav#and also i had a convo wif someone from my past who served me at the shop and it was actually really lovely
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life is starting to feel like I should reread crimson rivers and all the young dudes
#it’s been a hot minute#so why not#i say like i wouldn’t bawl my eyes out#I’ll probably read it after i finish the fic im currently reading#I’m like half way through#ooooh maybe I should also reread sweater weather#that fic never gets old#marauders#marauders era#fanfic#fanfiction#crimson rivers#all the young dudes#bizarrestars#mskingbean89#atyd#sweater weather#wolfstar#jegulus
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Older Yukio meeting Current Yukio…
Me thinking about current yukio (after satan's hopeful demise) meeting a 15-20 years older anime version of himself, demonic features and flames and all, from an alternate timeline.
It kinda freaked current yukio out when he first saw his older self, thinking that everything the Illuminati and Order told him was somehow still wrong, and he would inherit the flames.
Older yukio is calmer, genuinely so, and has fantastic control and acceptance of his own flames. He quickly realizes the younger self before him will not befall the same fate as he did (times and dates don't match up), and is able to gently calm his younger self down.
Rin is fascinated but also appalled because 1. How the fuck did yukio get even taller?? and 2. Why the fuck was older yukio's tail longer than his??
It's revealed that one of older yukio's sons AND older rin's daughter had somehow made off with the kamikakushi key and toddled their way here, so he chased in a panic. Younger yukio was still wrapping his head around the fact that this other version of him was married while rin was trying to get older yukio to tell him who he married.
They do find older yukio's son, Kohaku, which is actually the younger twin to Shiro. Rin almost sobs at how he named him after their dad, but he actually starts bawling uncontrollably when he sees his older self's daughter, Yuri, named after their mother.
Without giving away too much even though their timelines don't affect each other, older yukio tells them that there's a lot to look forward to in the future. The worst is over, and moving forward will bring them peace.
ALTERNATIVELY
If this happened like, before yukio's mental break on dominus liminus, younger yukio would have freaked the fuck out and started mass panicking trying to kill himself harder because oh no no no I cannot possibly become a demon like nii-san oh no no-
Yeah no my baby needs peace… not… everything else.
#i have massive brainrot if you cant tell#this is also a rinshi hc so… older rin's daughter is straight up blonde hair blue eyes#hence rin bawling his eyes out#obvs this is yukio and runa (oc) ship#yukiru!!!#anyway#hc that all firstborn children in the shemihaza line are girls#hence rin got a daughter first#but yukio and runa ended up with twin boys… the cycle continues#older yukio soothing his younger self#with this yukio is actually able to see that there is a future for me#ao no exorcist#blue exorcist#yukio okumura#okumura yukio#rin okumura#okumura rin#Runa Light#fuck it im giving my oc a tag#this is an obscenely excessive amount of tags#oops
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3x13 | 4x13
#brb bawling my eyes out#this ending got me#it was literal perfection#the best ending to a show in a long time#also ive had without you on repeat#nancy drew#3x13#4x13#soulmate things#ace hardy#bess marvin#george fayne#ned nickerson#the drew crew#im gonna miss them#gif#gifs#gifset
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NEW YEAR NEW GIF CHALLENGE RULES: give your 2023 music review by showing your fave boy group, fave girl group, fave soloists, fave debut and most played song of the year, then tag some friends to do theirs!
tagged by @woodziecup and @xiaojuun <3
tagging (no obligation! sorry if u did one of these music round-up compilations already 🙈): @blonde-riwoo @dakbees @hohowonho @hwichanis @insoeng @irlvernon @kimjiwoong @leewonseo @lee-minhoe @lloveorloved @mattwooks @mjyunie @nctsworld @pookiez @quokki @seonghwacore @shnryjn @shorelinnes @starcatching @strayklds @sunghanbin @wayvs @xuseokgyu
#tag game#nct dream#nct#dreamcatcher#woodz#chuu#riize#kiss of life#the boyz#*ambiv.gif#flashing tw#i followed eri's suit and did fave gg and bg debuts hehe :)#also thank u eri for tagging me in the other top 20 title tracks / prereleases but i dont think im brave enough to narrow down my top 20 :'#sorry i did not color these i just sharpened and threw a gradient at them which is why my deukae girls look so pale :(#tho i colored hyunjae bawling his eyes out singing horizon bc he literally looked monochromatic in the livestream#aLSO I COULDNT FIND 4K FOOTAGE OF JACOB </3 even tho he's the one i associate the song w the most.... :(#2023 was the year of crying to and sleeping to horizon on loop
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What the fuckk??? What what vv??? Huhh????
#bawling my eyes out#im definitely gonna be on team past cuz of sonic CD#Also because squid sister TH E GOAATTTT I LOV E U MARIE!!! SQUID SISTER!!
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ZACH OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT DO YOU MEAN I MISSED YOUR BIRTHDAY?!!! IM SO SORRY OFERJGFERN IM SO MAD IM ONLY FINDING OUT NOW.
IM SENDING YOU ALL THE GODDAMN AMAZING VIBES AND HUGS AND BEST TIMES EVER IN THE WORLD. TY FOR BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL LIGHT IN THIS COMMUNITY AND ABSOLUTELY FEEDING US WITH YOUR ENDLESS RICH CREATIVITY AND BEAUTIFUL MIND!!! YOUR PASSION, ART, AND REFLECTIONS NEVER CEASE TO AMAZE ME AND FILL ME WITH SM HAPPY STIMS LIKE- AGH!!!!
IM GONNA STOP YELLING NOW BUT ILYSM /P AND HOPE ONLY THE BESTEST THINGS EVER HAPPEN FOR YOU AND AND YOUR THE BEST AND AHHHHHHHHH QAQ <33 <33 <3333333
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NO WORDS. ONLY CRY.
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<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH TRIONAAAAAA#IM BAWLING MY EYES OUT#LOOK!!!!! AT MY BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOYYYYYS!!!!#YALL ARE FREAKING SPOILING ME SM RN#ALSO#LIGHT IN THIS COMMUNITY UM BITCH HAVE U LOOKED IN A MIRROR?..#????#DONT BC YOULL BLIND URSELF U ABSOLUTE BEACON OF GOODNESS HOW DARE U#ADFJBKKJHSDFJKHSFDKHJ#fandom friends#rat sons fanart#ask reply#THANK YOU THOUGH SERIOUSLY THAT MEANS SO MUCH AND MAKES ME GENUINELY SO EMOTIONAL#legitimately i am so so so glad and touched to be a part of this little corner of the internet#and to have met so many of you amazing incredible wonderful people <3#i for real love you all so very much /p#SOMEDAY IMMA STEAL U AND ARCHIE AND THE REST OF THE MOOTS AND WE'LL ALL HANG OUT TOGETHER#ILL BUY U GUYS SNACKS OR SMTHN#CUT FRUIT OR PLAY CATCH#IDK!!!!!#OLD MAN FORMS OF AFFECTION#AS I AM NOW OFFICIALLY ANCIENT#ALSO APOLOGIES THAT IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO RESPOND LIFES BEEN KICKING MY ASS A BIT THIS WEEK#got a second job so my time to draw and be online is even less than before :((((#but!!! im hoping i can eventually slowly shift from my old retail job to just this new one which should improve things!! :D#THANK YOU AGAIN TRIONA!!! LOVE U SM /p AND SENDING U THE MOST AMAZING WONDERFUL VIBES FOREVER#KICK ASS OUT THERE!!!! 💪💪💪
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gonna vomit blood. tryna look into different types of lighting to quell the unquenchable thirst for making art and its ALL SHADING TUTORIALS. WHAT KEYWORDS AM I EVEN MISSING. I DONT NEED TO KNOW HOW TO LIGHT STUFF UP I NEED TO KNOW HOW THINGS LIGHT UP IN DIFFERENT ENVIRONMENTS.
#im notoriously awful at researching things#if u ever wonder why my art doesnt improve a lot its bc i have to have things drop into my lap by chance#when i go looking i actually cant find it#normally it ends up in my bawling my eyes out and someone else having to help me#i like being able to make connections no one else sees but also i cant see the connections everyone else does#keywords are my enemy and we are not about to become lovers in a slowburn 100k word work#anyway enough bitching like a lil baby IMMA FIND THESE FOR TRUE AND I WANT TO IMPROVE MY ART A LIL THIS CHRISTMAS!!!#no fun only work. thats my fun
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IM BACK AGAIN GUYS
yeah i deleted tumblr again ik ik
Anywho
I JUST FINISHED WATCHING TDP S7
i wont have any spoilers here but GODS DAMN that was crazy
The tdp crew really do love their cliff hangers.
im SERIOUSLY hoping we can get another arc because I think it would be great to continue the story
LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT !!
#wow tdp s7 was actually a bit traumatising#TERRESTRIUS MY SON#i think im the only one#in the fandom#who doesnt like#aaravos#like- yeah#i feel bad for him#but leola would probably be SO upset with him#just my thoughts#the dragon prince#tdp callum#tdp rayla#tdp ezran#ALSO QUEEN AANYA#my girl is finally making appearances#tdp aanya#tdp janai#aaron ehasz#when i find you#how dare you#ep 2 and#i was bawling my eyes out#the dragon prince season 7#watch it
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kuli thinking kids wouldnt be excited and immediately mob him when he has a shiny trophy in his hands is funny in retrospect but like WHAT DID HE THINK WOULD HAPPEN 😭😭😭
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they did mob him and everytime i think about it i cry LIKE LOOK AT HIM. JUST SURROUNDED BY GAGGLES OF KIDS
Kuli Cup Day | 8.25.24 (x)(x)
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woe is the guy who has to take the shiny tincan away from him he is not giving that up without a fight those are GRIPPERS
#dmitry kulikov#florida panthers#his laugh as he remembers all the questions the kids asked him#just how utterly happy he is with the chaos that devolved on the ice#was it unexpected? yes! but would he have it any other way? absolutely not!#you know you can tell when people like kids but it becomes increasingly obvious when some REALLY love them#his bright laugh at “youre my favourite hockey player!” that he has to stop midsentence to get it all out#to the quiet admittance that is “im really happy for em”#once again its very obvious when someone LOVES kids#this is like a prime example of that#im gonna bawl my eyes out if youll excuse me#also the arm around miss stanley during the questioning oh he loves that cup fr thats his lover
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Theres something about things that were created to look like people asking their creators for permission to do something and their creators being like “you never needed to ask me” with all of this love in their voice aaaaaaaa it just gets to me
#i know yall are gonna say this is about barbie and ir half right#i cried during that scene it got to me frfr#but its also about the season 3 finale of ninjago when pixal asks dr borg if she can join the ninjas crew because she loves zane#and im not ashamed to say i nearly bawled my eyes out#barbie 2023#ninjago
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if anyone needs me I'll be in my room screaming, crying, hyperventilating, and throwing up
#linkin park#mike shinoda#emily armstrong#rob bourdon#chester bennington#colin brittain#brad delson#joe hahn#IM NOT READY FOR THIS MUSIC VIDEO#i feel like when i watch this mv im gonna have the exact same reaction that i had when i listened to thick skull by Paramore for the first t#ime#which was absolutely bawling my eyes out and screaming#from zero#im gonna start crying#i cant do this rn#also im gonna miss the premire of this because i will be AT SCHOOL!! 😡😡😡#fuck you school let me watch this fucking music video please
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sorry sorry I'm still riding the high of yesterday's episode. do you know? do you know what it's like to be aroace and queerplatonic to watch that ending? I'm going to get personal on main for a second - despite the fact that I am in the most wonderful, most loving, best relationship with my dearest friends my actual true norths and my soulmates, despite all our plans for the future — I've spent so long unable to imagine a happy future for myself, because I thought "I'll always be the one without a romantic partner so I will always be the outsider and never truly belong and my feelings for them don't matter as much because it's not just straight friendship and it's not even romantic so how selfish of me is it to want a relationship with the level of commitment that a romantic one has, when I can't even feel those things?"
and it's not even that I necessarily want a romantic partner, I just had it drilled into my head that I wouldn't be happy and that I'd never belong. That I still wouldn't fit in with the people I hold most dear in my life. The internalized arophobia was so strong that I was actually crushed when I realized my queerplatonic attraction wasn't romantic attraction.
(and I do know my feelings matter bc I've got great partners who constantly reinforce that and I love them dearly for it, it's just hard to remember)
And after a year (or more) of seeing people value romantic relationships on here more than interpretations of friendship or qprs, of watching shows bend itself over backwards to make sure no one is single because clearly the only thing that matters in life is a romantic relationship — having Doctor Who come out of the gate with three entire episodes dedicated to the galaxy shaping, profound, pure and strong adoration that the Doctor and Donna have for each other was a breath of fresh air.
But yesterday's episode? Oh my god. When Donna said he could come home I had to pause the episode because I broke down sobbing. I wept for so fucking long yesterday because it was the most cathartic, affirming thing I had ever watched in my entire life — because the Doctor loves Donna and Donna loves the Doctor and that is held just as equally as her love for her family and her husband, and it is treated as the thing that the Doctor needs and wants the most. Donna knew her life wasn't complete because her best friend wasn't there.
Doctor Who looked every single queerplatonic aroace in the eyes and said "actually, the future is a garden full of the people you love, and you're right in the middle of that family, loved and understood and exactly where you belong" and it's the most fucking healing thing I've ever had the privilege of watching, and I'm pretty sure it threw out some of the internalized arophobia I carry.
#i have not bawled my eyes out SO heavily during a doctor who episode since totd and thats when /my/ doctor regenerated#okay that. This episode is everything. its everything#im never going to shut up about it#nym speaks#doctor who#dw spoilers#aroace tag#it was just. yeah. yeah.#y e a h.#it was also such a nice change of pace for a lot of recent stuff ive seen where its like 'and then they go their separate ways fuck found#family' but that's neither here nor there
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maybe i will elaborate later maybe i won’t but something that i did not catch until rewatching little women (2019) is how greta gerwig has this common thread tying her movies together and that is change. like, yeah okay all movies have change they have to have change in order for the narrative to progress. but lady bird, little women, and barbie are all connected by their themes of change and growing up and not wanting to grow up and having to anyway. it’s why beth has to die in little women—beth represents innocence and childhood and therefore has to die; it’s why lady bird calls herself christine in the final moments of lady bird—her mother was right; it’s the entire thesis of barbie (2023) etc etc.
#yes i know that they’re all coming of age movies and i realize im the last person to pick up on this.#and there is also something to be said that these movies are all from a very white perspective and that is definitely something to account#for in these coming of age movies#but idk why it took so long for that to click for me.#maybe i will elaborate maybe i won’t i have a headache (<- bawling my eyes out about beth march)#lady bird#little women 2019#barbie 2023#<- tagging so i can come back to it if i need to
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