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"i love drawing" i say through tears and several days of nothing i draw looking right
#a talking bunny#this is a cry for help if anyone has ANYTHING that can help me out with this i am. begging#like pls. pls. i'll take anything i've already tried changing methods and brushes but its not. Working#please god dont tell me to take a break ive been there done that it didnt help
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would you pet marmalade's sweet little head after she forgot to take care of her chores for the 3rd time this week
#cliff png#oc workshop#im pairing her up (at least background wise) w/ plum#plums an oldie im fixing up already but he was adopted by the head priestess of a temple where he grew up#i thiiink i wanna make the god they serve centered around stuff like safe travels and calm seas#smthn id think would be important to mermaids yknow#anyways marmalade is from a fsmily thats been working there for generations! shes one of the youngest#she takes her work seriously but also she is very sleepy and has a bad memory#so they usually relegate her to work thats simpler and can be done quickly#she does also just take off herself when she doesnt want to do her work sometimes though you can find her often-#hiding in plum's hair taking a nap when shes purposefully skipping out
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I realized that what I Really want rn is lighthearted domestic modern au
So im coming up with yet another au
t4t best friends & roommates vashwood who are both so in love with each other but both so dumb about it. Cue accidental toddler acquisition bc Vash's cousin (Domina)(sorry Domina) died & they're looking for a relative to foster said toddler. And Chronica and Nai are certainly not the nurturing types (general idea rn of the twins still being adopted but keeping in touch with their cousins, tho Chronica and Domina are cousins too in this) SO they ask Vash and well. He is nothing if not a bleeding heart. So he ends up saying yes.
Cue Vash not rly knowing how to take care of a toddler, but it's ok Wolfwood is here. He's a Professional. & them parenting together is the push they need to actually sort out their feelings....
(Putting the rest of this under a cut lol)
Not fully decided yet, but I was thinking mid to late 20s wolfwood and early 30s vash. Vash was a computer scientist that got so tired of the soul-killing salary job that he quit his job. And now he's a local oddball, almost a local celebrity, bc he does dog walking and other odd jobs in a very ostentatious way (based off of my own local legend of a dog walker who is known and beloved for this). He's also largely in local entertainment. A hobbyist roboticist who makes his own rigs, both for the over-the-top dog stroller he uses for small dogs that don't want to walk (something I saw from my own local legend dog walker) & also for any sort of festivals or w/e he's hired for. And if he needs the extra money, he takes on freelance programming work online, but overall he's just trying to have FUN.
And then there's Wolfwood, working some low wage job just trying to make his way through part-time school. Some sort of kids-focused career. Undecided still. But he's much shorter on money than Vash, aka why they started living together a few years back. Bc Wolfwood couldn't afford rent alone and Vash was more than happy to live with him. & tbh, Wolfwood is probably the reason Vash quit his corporate job in the first place. He Inspired him... to be true to himself!!!!
.......... I could make Wolfwood work at a bubble tea shop. Finally do a bubble tea shop au like I was wanting to ages ago to vent my woes. He's fucking miserable there. Vash really likes the free drinks Wolfwood takes home, though.
Hfkshfmsbfms honestly I'm tossing a lot of things into this au idea, but I just really want something lighthearted and domestic. And also put a kid in there bc I still really love vashwood dads.
#speculation nation#honestly i know the 'roommates vw foster kids together' idea has been done before. so im trying to make this into its own thing#i just dont wanna wait and write the leadup to Feelings. i want them to already Have feelings. which is a lot of why my other aus havent#been appealing to me right now.#so. local oddball quasi-celebrity vash and Eternally Suffering bubble tea shop worker & college student wolfwood#(very autobiographical of me there lmfao)#end up accidentally becoming dads because vash just Couldnt say no to that little face.#i'll have to look up what fostering process is actually like. but i do know theyd look to relatives first.#so if vash proves he can take care of her (he Does have a decent amount of money) theyd probably shove her off to him#bc there are way too many kids in the foster care system anyways... better to give her to someone like him#even if he is a bit Strange with his career. he makes it work tho#ok. tag for this. im not gonna lose it.#oddball au shit#officially dubbing it oddball au until i come up with an actual name#god i need to actually write down all my au ideas. i have so many. why am i like this
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shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name
#bruh lmao#so awkward. say something you dingus lol#ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already#gyatt#spacie spoinks#literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like#heres the thing#if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate#im like a vampire like that#and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now#like dude sdkfjshlkdfj#im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic)#am i gonna hafta say something. lol#probably#''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.''#cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean 😭#also like. this person has been staring at me lol#which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful#for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!!#its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks#im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin#i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs#i dont wanna put her on the spot#the only time i see her is when im in class#and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd
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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!
#probably the nerdiest thing i will ever read in my entire life but I AM SO HAPPY#Its the unabridged and corrected 1992 republication btw. if you wanna get specific#the only book in which i have actually decided to read the introductory notes and i do NOT regret it because the editor's one IMMEDIATELY#brought up the “oh but surely the second dimension has thickness how else would flatlanders see anything” AND GAVE A REALLY GOOD ANSWER.#which i cannot tell you here. bc it is several paragraphs long and idk how i would shorten it. i would hit tag limit. if thats a thing.#anyways. I'm only a little bit into the first part which basically explains how Flatland works as a society so i haven't even gotten to the#sphere yet but OH MAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED ABOUT A ROUND OBJECT IN MY LIFE#IM LOSING IT OVER THIS BOOK AAAA :D#me: im so glad i dont have a math class during my senior year! now i dont have to learn anything math-related!#also me: but what if i started studying a complex and almost entirely theoretical part of geometry#bc YEAH i didn't just buy this book bc of gravity falls. I BOUGHT IT BC IVE BEEN RESEARCHING THE 4TH DIMENSION WOOOOOOO!!!!!#one thing i will say i dont like. introductory note suggests the the 4th dimension might be time. this is ok tho bc its followed up with#also saying that time is not a spatial dimension and exist across the 0 1st 2nd and 3rd dimensions which. that epuld mean we live in 4d#already. so. i was worried for a second but THANK YOU THANK YOU OH MY GOD PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY “OH THE 4TH DIMENSION IS TIME” I HATE THAT SO#MUCH AAAAGGHHHH AT LEAST RECOGNIZE ITS NOT SPATIAL!!! TIME IS NOT A SPATIAL DIMENSION!!!!!!! IF IT WAS THEN 4D TRAVEL AND TIME TRAVEL WPULD#BE FHE SAME THING AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUCH COOLER POSSIBILITIES WPULD BE THROWN AWAY IF THAT WAS THAT CASE!!!!! AND. AND. IF THE 4TH#DIMENSION IS TIME. THEN WHATS THE 5TH?? 6TH?? YPU CANT KEEP GOINF ON FOREVER LIKE THAT. YPURE JUST MAKEING MORE 3D WORLSS WITH STUFF IN#ADDITION TO TIME. INTERESTING BUT THAY IS NOT ABOHT HIGHRER DIEMSBSJSNSBAKAJSHDHDHHDHDHDJ#sorry for the rant. jsut. agh i want a spatial 4th dimension. i dont think tesseracts exist through time that would just be an aged cube#anyways yeahhh i love the 4th dimension. new hyperfixation or new special interest? ill have to wait and see. anyways i have done it i have#an oc whos 4 dimensional now and she is the coolest ever i love her#but yeah this book is sosososo good i am literally gonna bring it to school to read instead of draw bc i would lose it if i didn't#10/10 would recommend to anyone who wants to Think
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this could've been me missing school (but instead i feel like garbage over winter break)
#i say things sometimes#oh my god this week has been horrible#the vyvanse has finally built up in my system and now my body is rejecting it#like cmon. i already knew it didn't work for me#the only eating once a day was bad enough. i don't need to get horribly dizzy and nauseous every time i leave my bed :/#and if you were going to render me bedridden then couldn't you have done it on a week where i'm not going out and about every day????#im mad about this actually. i could've spent any other week feeling horrible and missing school and instead i almost threw up in an#restaurant parking lot#fuck youuuu#AND this entire ordeal has given me many symptoms of pregnancy. i could make so many jokes but NOOOO instead i am having a dysphoria week#i just wanna make fun of my situation and instead i am filled with mental turmoil :(#ughhhh i hate this#vyvanse stop giving me all the negative side affects challenge (impossible because it hates me)#and it's a capsule pill so i can't break it in half to lower my dosage#instead i need to slide the two ends apart and dump the powder out so i can mix half the powder into juice or something
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Love being the one who has to be responsible for all the organization bs in a group work </3
#morningtalks#Ask someone to be in a group. We can't find a third. Mail the prof and see if my groupmate has ideas. Finally get an answer from the prof.#Have to contact those two people too because my groupmate won't and the other two also don't#I'll also get to be the one making the groupchat and the shared document and probably having a bit of a Control Freak momence to be sure#Everything is done on time (I swear to god if my current groupmate/friend(?) doesn't do her work I will have a fucking freakout)#(she should. Normally she's pretty good at Doing Her Work. But silly old me with my sleep deprivation anxiety and Problems#Gets to be the one managing everything)#I just got my diagnosis back for the autism tests I ran (it's autism and trauma. Don't have ADHD according to them)#(don't fully trust it but trauma does have massive effects on attention and shit so maybe?)#I have been running on 4 hours of sleep and did like three detours even by the time I got to receive my results#And thus I sent a message to that friend of mine asking if 1. She had seen the mail and 2. She would contact our two groupmates#She said I could send that mail myself if I wanted to (I didn't)#Anyways. That mail looks like this but one of the two new groupmates has already answered and I'm very thankful for that#Now let's hope the other one also does on a timely manner or I'll blow up
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Currently terrified cuz my cat escaped sometime around 3:30 to 4:00 and it's been around 8 or so hours and we can't find him.
#cw animal death#tw animal death#(in the tags)#just... I hope he isn't dead right now#not the first time this happened but god I'm scared#doesn't help that my family's currently having work done on our front door area#I have HOPE he hasnt been run over already but he's barely over a year old and fucking tiny#we'll for a cat he's growing in size but HE'S STILL FUCKING TINY#I have to have hope but... worst case scenario has already happened to a cat of mine#sorry it's almost midnight and I have no sign of him and I need to just talk
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I'm going to defenestrate myself
#I can't do this. I can't fucking do this. I'm going to crash and burn like I did friday. I'm fucked.#I don't even care if this is catastrophizing or whatever but I am so stressed and overwhelmed that I can't breathe and I'm kind of dizzy#usually I can blame this kind of anxiety on the weed but I am completely sober! lmao!#I still need to shower and get at least 4 documents done before tomorrow. god.#I'd been planning to have alex over to study for midterms but she got scheduled to work every night this week and had to cancel#I know everyone around me is telling me I can do this and that they believe in me. I can't. I'm going to disappoint everyone#the way I am already disappointed in myself#the worst part of having done well in term 1 is that now everyone thinks I'm smart and competent and has expectations for my performance#I'm just a fucking high school dropout that should have been held back at least one grade. I'm not who everyone thinks I am now and they're#going to figure out any day now that I don't know what I'm doing and I'm not as smart as they think I am#it hasnt even been a full year and I had to drop 2 courses that I need to graduate already#I don't want to graduate late again
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Someone fuckin save me I am so so so so tired
#speculation nation#just got done with orchestra. gotta get home and eat then get back to work on my website stuff#i can do it im fairly sure. i am just. so so so so so so tired#the kind of desperately tired where even just having my eyes open is a chore#i might... need to take a little nap or something. i dont know. rest my eyes for an hour or two.#i dont have much time but i feel like my brain is about to melt out of my ears#and at least i finished my header and footer stuff for my html pages#i just gotta put the content in. which has already been made. just gotta. figure out formatting.#and class is canceled tomorrow morning so i can sleep in. i just need to get through the last of this project. then i can rest a bit.#of course then i have a presentation on thursday but at least ive already organized that#so i just need to do my slide(s) and make sure everyone else has done theirs#since i went and appointed myself unofficial leader and organized the damn work allotment for everyone#since Someone had to do it. i gave it 3 days and no one did anything so i went ahead and did it myself.#that at least can wait until after class tomorrow ish. at the very least.#maybe i can do my dishes in the morning tomorrow. i dont think im gonna manage it today either.#but that begs the question of what the fuck im doing for dinner today. i have... two clean spoons. bc i washed them yesterday#i washed a bowl a fork and two spoons yesterday. i had none clean before. i have no clean bowls again.#my soul fuckin screaming for the love of god help me. ive got no clean dishes and im so desperately tired#and i have to finish making 6 web pages before midnight or im !!!!!!FUCKED!!!!!!#for now.. i just need to focus on getting home... i get home and then i'll figure Something out for food.....#ugh.......
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speaking of bsol through speaking of xmas xtrav that like i'm so augh god hand over heart falling over (just like the bloodsong b/c it's the like conclusion of being Overwhelmed By Artistic Effect that then in the ideal version you may as well die) at the thought of the finale where you have the main plot conclude as that Story w/those Themes like ah but even then, the influence, the other the musicians now, that this whole time like yeah you have to do it even if you just keep building or die or were thwarted even prior to that b/c you didn't know you wouldn't be....but that then just like in the opening song Outlaw or sort of distillation of the theme abt being someone making art Last On Land or that at other points other characters have emerged as not really their characters not really a greek chorus but elements of the story helping to Tell It, here's Everyone again for the friendship song altogether & each with an instrument & like not even able to see it but pics & imagining & the enthusiasm & the Thematic Resonance like this is when you are pursuing these pursuits together like _o__ (splayed out facedown emoji) aaauuughhh ;;mm;; bsol finale with everyone showing up playing & singing & dancing the song celebratory finale it's all the Theme when the full cast of Characters had only ever all been together for the one standoff scene at the end & yet obviously We've known them all & everyone is outlaws which is a song like i'm already going sicko mode & this is just the intro, so yknow, The Conclusion, good lord find an iconis musical finale without that place for the celebratory outpouring of enthusiasm right amidst other feelings & situations but Good Lord Here's This in a story that'll always have been all about people's depths & heights & widths & breadths & variations & tumult & all the dimensions, people will have Brought It all over the place & it's like yes leap around together playing & singing this song together which isn't The Story but is such an extension of it b/c bsol has its show within the show quality still infused all in it & if this flurry of Actors Celebrating Outpouring We Put On This Show but still within the show you are seeing as an audience in this venue wouldn't have been part of the original plan with a whole [outside the show within the show] plotline like. embraces bsol holding it so hard my becherished
#bsol#& in true xmas nature yknow like yeah i think of the whole show like wwaaughh think of the baby please come home like Aauuuughhh#think of specific moments within & none of those make me weep but they do make me go omg & woww yayy & clap & cheer & caper & gambol#but what everything has been: all about its central theme & bsol/xmas playing w/& sending up Genre Conventions we all know & thus can be#enough on the same page about so as to then be on the same page abt what's Unexpectedly done w/them but it's not just about#like oh we do this to be Above it b/c it's also done abt genre convention stuff that's enjoyed & interesting to its creator here so#that also as ever the Heart of w/e the genre stuff being messed with is Earnestly Kept & that's what all this is used to express things#with in addition to being able to have fun & explore things that plausibly a completely straightforward recreation type homage couldn't#or couldn't do as well without sacrificing one or the other vs if you're already doing an open like remix playing with exploration; then...#the conclusion of the xmas show isn't yeah i love xmas isn't that cringefail of me. yeah these xmas special media we're working off of#isn't that all so silly & no matter how much i love it it's important to end up Above It. like nobody's here to be above shit good god#soooo much more you can do if you don't have to prioritize That central theme. [you & me; We're superior] undermines Anything Else#while never holding yourself as Apart & Better lets anything else grow & flourish & have the Capacity & Flexibility to be & do whatever#the villain as an emotional reflection of part of the hero / representing a Possible Version of them; not Who They Could Never Be#as Only a force to be overcome with your greater force; though naturally yes the villain creates conflicts & stakes & obstacles#& in these so very genrey xmas bsol situations i'm clapping cheering go also very fun & funny little villain who kills you Gooo#100% this bitch Oh No Not Miserthorpe Krampington Thornwassail Cocodrilo that's right you fucks ahahahaaa >:) die btw#thinking about specific parts of bsol like oh wow oh yay oh this fun turn into this bit oh what a scene what a song wahooo#then overall like lying back reaching up Bloodsong....#thinking of the finale friendship song actors as actors ish characters ish ft. instruments 😭😭😭😭😭😭 (one each)#this mf (gesturing to myself who'll inevitably fire up Outlaw.mp3 at any moment & go Augh the harmonica the harmonies the chorus The This)#also that obviously i get to have a delightful time going well so of course lo cocodrilo is gay; perhaps & trans; &....
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can't wait until my brother moves out next month
#he has no concept of sharing he's all individual. wanting to be alone in the living room when he's been down there all day and taking up#all the space and time in the kitchen despite knowing I haven't been able to cook. he's acting like he already fucking lives alone#like I know my presence never really matters especially not to him but jesus fucking christ#and he's only working five days out of the next two weeks. god I need him gone call us both selfish. I told him to tell me when he'll#need clothes and I'll have them ready for him but he ignored me so honestly nevermind. I'll just wash mine & anything he wants#done he can do it himself. forgive my bitterness I can't stand how much he can't stand me and how he's been treating my dad#like he's the laziest person ever because he hasn't fixed a damn door yet. my dad with a cracked spine and chronic pain#he's just the most ridiculously selfish person ever & I love him he's my brother but I can't live with him for much longer#praying for his future patients. take care of yourselves some of the most evil people I know are studying psychology etc#log
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"Do you not realize it? Do you... truly not see what this means?"
The next Destiny Bond update is in progress! ❄️✨ –> Check out the latest part here 🔷 –> New to the series? Follow from the start! 💜
#we back for the winter season bois :} ☃️#got some Particularly Fun parts I wanna have done before the end of the year--that I'll hopefully have time to do over the term break !!! 💫#it's actually so? insane? how we're nearing the end of the year already??????????????HUH#just a little over a week and some Ridiculous cramming I'll have to pull off (no thanks to past me sdskjfs) before I'm free for the holiday#I mean I'd--still have freelancing to do of course but without the looming dread of actively avoiding college responsibilities at least /lh#it's even more insane somehow looking back on when I actually started this whole comic that spiraled Wildly out of controlSKDJFNSDFS#to think that this all started from a prompt I had a few days after my birthday--into its own whole story I wanna see through is---#honestly something I'm really proud of. something I'm really happy I got to do for myself since it's-above all a passion project if anythin#I'm a lot slower these days what with juggling my own mental crises here and there on top of work for sure#but I get to come back to working on this whenever I find myself feeling down or with some free time to unwind and it's--really nice 💖💕#and we're still in the beginning I swear to god we're still so early I'm so sorry this is gonna take so longSDHFIUSHDNFKJSDHS#but it bears repeating how thankful I am to everyone who's joined along for this ride- who've been so wonderful and patient thus far#to know that even a handful of people out there tune in to this silly ol thing and are genuinely excited for its sporadic updates--#--has been a definite highlight in what's been a- Ridiculously--almost comically cruel year (in ways I can't begin to express skjdfnsdfs)#and what with this holiday season being all about giving and gratitude---I want to emphasize on how thankful I am for all of y'all 💖💖💖#I'll see what surprises I can sneak in to my schedule these coming weeks- the insanity of these following updates included hehee ✨#Destiny Bond comicverse#mystery man eusine#eusine pokemon#pokemon#pokemon fancomic#pokemon gsc#pokemon hgss#comic wip
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thinking long and hard about the ballpoint nouveau kit has been making me go through every emotion humanly possible i want to know what it is so badly...
#splatoon#splatoon 3#splatoon oc#minatoast#lizzy does art#comic#IM THINKING SO LONG AND HARD IM SO#i was not expecting the octobrush to get beakon WITH ink storm which is literally ballpoint nouveau's kit in s2#it's hard for me to think that they'll do completely identical kits within the same season (emphasis on season because the new goo tuber-#shares a kit with the luna blaster neo). there are overlaps in special with both dynamo and stringer getting chumps-#so it makes me think that maybe bp can still get beakons? i think beakon's among one of the best subs that it could get#not that bp needs like. a god kit when the current kit it has is already so good but i digress#if for whatever reason they decide to make the new ballpoint have point sensor and reefslider/zipcaster im going to eat dirt and draw-#my guy doing the shinji chair meme. i hope they dont do that to bp </3#anyway thats all!! ive been working on stickers and i think i'll be halfway done with my first set of them by the end of the week#i hope you are all having a very swag week!! love you all!!
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#lakes can cure everything right ?#<- if you know something about me it is that i will caption a post this on every webbed site forever.#HIIII i have service everyone say hello to the puppies. they are the lucky charm babies i would die for them#they are so small. in that picture they are one (1) week old!!!!!! i could cry just thinking about it!!!!!!!!!#liv in the replies#anyway this is my semi-annual ‘having unhinged emotional imbalances’ & then i go jump around in a lake and i’m cured. great lakes i love u#what i was actually going to say there was also. musher au my beloved i will never write you but you live SO fondly in my brain forever#there are many fics that are my great white whale but that one. that one is up there#currently the whale i am chasing is dewey^2 p2 but my cast is tearing up my computer keyboard and my work schedule has been hilarious#and. y’know. the aforementioned *** ****** countdown wreaking havoc so!! self-imposed deadline of dewey^2 p2 done by the time my cast’s off#also i wanted to put in a poll that said lakes? puppies? but tumblr said: no you still can’t have polls#WAIT HOLD ON I FIGURED IT OUTTTTTTT OH MY GOD WAIT THIS IS REVOLUTIONARY#i forgot to tell everyone the bargain that i made sorry to the eleven of u that voted already but. if puppies wins i will tell u their names#if lakes win idk i’ll name all the great lakes ig y’all can pick something else fun. i will give u fish pictures from work if u want them
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"block anyone on your dash for not voting in this election!!!" babe i get what ur saying but im also not gonna block half my leftist mutuals just for being pissed off to the point of apathy and choosing to vent about it on tumblr. like i get it, i do, but also? nuance.
also here's a relevant newsweek article i read the other day. i think it's worth noting that voter apathy is very high rn and most of it is not social-media based (and the solution is not to cut out or block people who disagree with you, but it never is and tumblr users always seem to think it is so 🙄)
#why would i take the advice of a rando on my dash regarding my mutuals who i know hm? 🤨#im probably gonna vote but it genuinely feels more pointless and frustrating than ever before#and im not gonna villify people for being upset that we're basically being forced to vote for a candidate that no one rly wants#bc i swear to god if the primaries were done in a slightly different order i don't think joe would have won#no one fucking liked him they just start the primaries in the least politically informed parts of the country#by the time it gets to me i don't even need to bother voting bc iowa et al already chose my candidates for me#bonkers how that system works imo#anyway let's just all be a little patient with each other because politics has been scary and stressful for like a hot minute now#and everyone is a little exhausted!#bri babbles
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