#Bungo stray dogs akutagawa

[lux1i]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY GLORIOUS BLACK EYED GOTH PALE KING AKUTAGAWA RYUUNOSUKE ❤️

[kodea34]

Happy birthday SLUT

[lumiqa]

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

The Purple Sign. Part XI

Self-Aware! Akutagawa Ryunosuke x GN! Reader

Description: There is a Purple Sign on your door. Part XI

Fluff. Akutagawa pampering

Warning: OOC. English is my second language

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"My brother is on his way. He has the sign. Will be with you in fifteen minutes. Be ready."

You sent a quick "thanks" to Gin and start preparing.

You turn on the electronic kettle, prepared two tea mugs, take a box of black tea and a box of figs in chocolate from the drawer with Akutagawa's name on it.

You were paying attention at how much time you still have, while brewing the tea. You managed to do it just in time. Barely.

The moment you put the full teacups on the table, your door was open.

Like a black hurricane, Akutagawa crashed into you, squeezing in a hug. Black tendrils of Rashoumon moved around you two, putting you and Akutagawa in a protective cocoon.

At the end, Akutagawa ended up sitting on the floor, while you were sitting on his lap. His chest was firmly pressed against your back, he put his chin on your shoulder.

His breathing was fast. With the corner of your eye, you saw, that Akutagawa's gaze was hold as ice. He tried not to show it, but he was trembling.

You stayed silent, letting Akutagawa calm down for a bit. His embrace was tight, but it wasn't hurting you.

You could describe the current situation you were is as w drowning man holding into a life preserver, with Akutagawa being the drowning man and you being the life preserver.

Who could have thought, that Black-Fanged Hellhound could act like this.

You slowly ran your fingers through Akutagawa's hair. The position wasn't comfortable to do it, and, to be more accurate, you run fingers through a few strands of Akutagawa's hair. For now, it was enough to Akutagawa.

Soon, Akutagawa's breathing became calm again. His embrace loosened for a bit. You put your hand on top of his and squeezed it.

"There is a tea and figs on the table."

Rashoumon moved. For a moment, the cocoon was broken, but soon after Rashoumon bring tea and figs to you and Akutagawa, it was restored.

But it became bigger. It was hard to enjoy tea in your current position, so Akutagawa has let you go, and now you two were sitting opposite each other on the floor.

For a moment, you two were just holding your teacups, not making a sound. Then slowly, Akutagawa took first fig and ate it, taking a sip of his tea.

Akutagawa was one of the more difficult "cases" among BSD Cast.

Not because of the difficulty of his problems, but because of his refusal to let himself be truly vulnerable. He often held his emotions back, not letting anyone see them.

Akutagawa spoke, looking at the tea cup.

"The last month was busy. Port Mafia business were doing great. New deals were made. Some old enemies are dealt with. And I was needed. My help had true impact. It mattered."

You take a sip of your own tea.

It seems, there was an agreement between BSD Cast. If someone knew something about how another feel after gaining self-awareness, and if it was an appropriate moment to share that information, they were allowed to share it.

You knew that, when Akutagawa gained self-awareness, he, among other emotions, felt lost. He thought, that his actions were meaningless, that no matter what he had done, Port Mafia would still exist, and Dazai would still see him as a failure.

You decided to let him talk more.

"All of my actions matters here. I can do whatever I want, and there will be a reaction."

Akutagawa glared at the ceiling. He took one fig from the box. Akutagawa hissed, squeezing the fig between his fingers, before eating it.

"I feel ashamed of how I was feeling back then. It's just caught up to me."

You spoke, carefully choosing your words.

"Don't feel bad for having feelings. The situation was terrible and surreal back then, and all feelings were valid and right. There were no wrong reactions."

Akutagawa turned away from you.

"I know! I don't feel bad for feeling, I feel bad for..."

Akutagawa stopped talking and just looked at you. Silently asking you to speak.

You decided to prob.

"For letting your emotions flood your mind?"

He nodded.

"For running away from them, for overworking yourself to the bone to prove your thoughts wrong?"

He nodded again, before speaking.

"And for wanting to hurt you."

You sighed, putting the cup away. You take Akutagawa's free hand in yours, making sure, that he won't drop his teacup.

"I still stand with my point. You had the right to have negative thoughts. You had the right to dislike me. Nothing bad happened."

Akutagawa looked above your head.

"And what if something happened? What if we?"

You squeeze his hand again.

"You didn't. And past doesn't care about 'what ifs'."

Akutagawa didn't make a sound. He followed your example, putting the cup away. A quick move, and he was hugging you again.

"I know, My Sparkle, but, sometimes, I can't help but wonder if I should have reacted differently."

You whispered.

"Real people act irrational, Ryunosuke. And Real People can have troubles. And it's not a weakness, if we are asking for help, showing our vulnerable sides. That's a part of who we are."

Akutagawa froze.

"We?"

You nodded.

"Yes. We. Real people. Like you and me."

He still was silent. A small, faint smile appeared on his face. He squeezed you harder, leaving a quick, small kiss on your temple.

"Thank you, My Sparkle."

You hummed.

"You are always welcome. Want to stay here tonight?"

Akutagawa's answer was another squeeze.

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Akutagawa was warm. His breathing was lulling you to sleep. His arms were wrapped around you.

You yawned and make yourself comfortable. You hopped, that today you will make one more step in making Akutagawa comfortable opening up.

You slowly fall asleep, laying next to Akutagawa.

[qirongisabrat]

Go for it baby!! U can grow still

He's insecure about it

[faiblesss]

do you remember this trend

[humpityhumper]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AKUTAGAWA

[porcicaaaa]

a bit rushed akutagawa art that was supposed to be for his bday but i forgot february is only 28 days so i missed it… (｡•́︿•̀｡)

[nininikolai]

bsd chapter 25 and chapter 121 comparisons

Bro i js wanted to reread ch.25 to find more abt Q but i ended up finding this 😭😭 btw another part of my 'the hallucination of dazai is fyodor's manipulation' theory: when atsushi met Q he started hallucinating bc of their ability and similarly he's hallucinating in ch121, I think there are alot of parallels in the ch25 and 121

[crowscadence]

When I said “akutagawa is so cool” that didn’t mean that I wanted a free trial of his lungs

[renvrue]

Either the theories are true or sensei just pulled the Akane Shuichi shit on us.

[iwachansarm]

Who is this DIVA?

[ra3kiv]

[novazimuth]

Smart of them to fear Dazai respectfully

(Pls go check out our dead tiktok… novazimuth…)

[kylorenclub]

My god feral looks good on him

[mercurymaceo]

Some Akutagawa Siblings doodles :))

close ups below cut