#Blame spring

[brokenmusicboxwolfe]

Sorry about the rambling. I dunno why I wrote so much, but I don’t want to consign it to the draft folder purgatory I only so recently purged.

Today, in the grocery store parking lot**, a truck transporting hogs had broken down.

I dunno if everyone knows what these trucks look like. They are double decker things, these slivery crates with the animals packed in tight. When I was little, before the road was four laned, the trucks would come right through the middle of the town, reeking of pig shit.

Actually, those trucks and those too tiny pig lots local farmers used to have had me assuming pigs naturally stunk. When my little Ryoga showed up I assumed I was going to just have to endure a terrible stench out by the pool. It turned out that if you actually give pigs enough space they don’t stink at all! Who knew!

Anyway, as the trucker worked on his engine the giant cage rattled as hogs moved about. You could see them, the side of a pig, an ear, just glimpses through the gaps. Every now and then a snout would stick out, sniffing at the air. Despite the fact there was the occasional unhappy squeal, the pigs probably didn’t know they are on their way to die, only they were packed in tight in a metal box, and now that they weren’t being jostled around they were baking in the sun and smelling the same horrible diesel exhaust that was choking me.

My god, Ryoga doesn’t know how lucky he was when he ran away and found me! That would have been his fate. He would have been butchered years ago.

Instead he has his cozy house surrounded by trees. He has a human that feeds him twice a day, gives him apples, shares her oranges with him, gives him newspapers to thrash to death, rubs his belly, and frets if he pulls a muscle or catches a cold.

I was buying him fresh wood chips, hog feed, and apples on this trip, while I watched his cousins becoming agitated in a truck that started rocking. I’d be petting and scratching at Ryoga, snuffling back at him face to face just a few hours later. And they would soon be dying.

Look, I get humans are omnivores. I am too. But I can’t stand the thought of eating bacon, ham, etc ever since Ryoga entered my life. It’s no different than how most people would never seriously entertain the idea of eating dogs or cats. I see those pigs, and I see my “little one”.

Ok, Ryoga isn’t exactly little anymore(my tusky buddy weighs much more than me), but he’ll always be “my little one”, the scrawny, battered, little piglet the size of a cat that took Mom and I by surprise late one October day. He’s special to me, but maybe some of those pigs on that truck are smart or silly or cute or playful too. It was just insane luck that he escaped and found me.

At Walmart two people held up signs begging for money, one someone that looked decidedly sickly who said they were disabled, the other a frail old woman, hunched over. Both looked sad, ashamed, and exhausted as they struggled at different ends of the parking lot to keep standing.

So very little separates me from them, as my body breaks and my bank account dwindles. My home is dilapidated, but it is a home. Many of the things my family left me a broken, but some work. I have a very meager allowance to survive on, but it has so far been enough to not quite starve. But how long before I have no livable house and not enough money to meet basic needs?

And it occurred to me that I was like Ryoga. We both got lucky. And loved.

He doesn’t appreciate it, of course, and has no concept of the precariousness of existence. If I die before him, he is probably doomed.

I was like that once too. Taking my family and the life they offered for granted, intellectually getting I was lucky, but emotionally incapable of truly predicting the future that lay ahead.

Like most animals I have a terrible problem of existing too much in the now, and almost paradoxically that has gotten worse now that the reality of my life has proven the folly of such a life. The trouble is, once I started falling there is no time or energy for planning or preparing when everything has become about surviving. How an I exist outside the now, when every moment yanks me back with a new crisis?

Today I watched pigs in a truck, on their way to slaughter, and people that life has crushed desperately hoping for a moment of anonymous kindness from people that would rather not make eye contact. And I feel all the luck I have, and all the fear of how it cam so easily slip away.

**Super stressful shopping trip. I was trying desperately to get the essentials on my list yet still save enough I could pay a certain bill due this month. The good news is I succeeded. The bad news is I may or may not be able to buy groceries for myself again this month! LOL (Don’t worry. The animals come first. )

[psymachine]

hear me out: you, me, dennis, and god all know he looks good in lingerie, but maybe he's a little bit unsure what mac "the problem is you're into all that early 80s glam rock femme shit; definitely had masc4masc in his grindr profile" mcdonald will think of it

[amanedachi]

calcium / top die

Part of LoL Esports Elemental Series.

[lurkingshan]

My kingdom for a cdrama that doesn’t go randomly off the rails in the final two episodes

[honeyhare]

Evolution of me drawing bnuny.....

I barely doodle Rosie anymore but she is so special 2 me....... Baby's first fnaf oc was the queen of cringe

[hanschen-rilow]

here’s a reminder that all the children in SA are just that— children. they are 14-15 years old ‼️‼️

[between-a-ship-and-a-hard-place]

i.

You’re standing on a platform with a broken man (steel battered and rusted through cruel winters) and his soft smile says: I trust you like the sun rising and his soft hands on your shoulders say: ask and I will follow you anywhere and his eyes are screaming

“you are half of what is left of me when I didn’t know my own name, I loved you seeing you go is a death I’ll take before keeping you”

and you don’t hear it.

ii.

You’re standing on a platform—a broken man (ribs crushed under the endless empty weight of ice and regret) and your careless mouth says: we will be okay and your careless hands on his shoulders say: I swear to ask nothing more of you

and you’re lying.

iii.

You’re standing on a platform with a beautiful man (rust gently stripped and polished under a kind sun)

and you’re still choking on ash and your shattered bones are screaming

“I never learned to exist in a time without you I’m a grave dug in the shape of your absence leaving is a death I’ll take before letting you be swallowed by it”

iv.

You’re standing on a platform and you can’t look back (into storm-cloud, knife-blade, summer-sky eyes)

you will turn to stone

the weight of an entire universe in this case tied to your sinking body

and you know if you lean on him, you will be his fall there will be nothing to catch either of you any outstretched hand forever too little, too late.

v.

You’re standing on a platform with all of time in your hand and a world to save

you look back.

vi.

You’re standing on a platform

you fall

he catches you

time can wait.

[beck404]

me if rewatching heartstopper every week was illegal

[minsarasarahair]

Scenes that reminds me of Book Murong Jinghe. I say Liu Xueyi did a great job in portraying Murong Jinghe. He's arrogant and frivolous at least in the beginning plus his episode 28 performance. I just wish it lasted longer or the transition when he start showing his softer side is more smoother.

I appreciate the few moments where he don't exactly cry but has redish eyes because most of the book characters cries a lot in the drama adaption to make them softer. What's important to me is I see a resemblance of the Book character in few episodes than nothing. I don't mind a toned down version. I just appreciate it more that they included some of the personality traits or core of the characters from the book version. Such as Murong Jinghe having a paralyzed body, his anger/revenge, arrogant demeanor etc.

[jamieedlund]

🌸In the season of the white cherry, standing in full blossom🌸

retouch of last year spring doodle and a little doodle💗

[witchy-aster]

My mom: there is so many spiders and cobwebs around the house, I wonder why?

Me, who is worshipping Loki without her knowing: Yeah... it's such a mystery.

Me, later in front of Loki's alter: tone it down, tone it down, they are cluing in on us.

Loki: *shrugs*

Me: what's that supposed to mean????

[coochiequeens]

Another TIM who terrorized a girl in his family. Keep him in jail to protect the community and the sister

By Shay Woulahan. February 1, 2024

A transgender teenager has been sentenced to six years in prison after threatening to carry out a mass attack at three schools and a church in Colorado Springs, Colorado. William Whitworth, 19, was originally charged with two counts of attempted first degree murder in April of 2023 after officers uncovered a manifesto detailing his plans to target the public.

William Whitworth, who uses she/her pronouns and also goes by the names “Lily” or “Lilly,” was first arrested on March 31 of last year after a concerned family member called the Elbert County Sheriff’s Office. Police visited Whitworth’s address after his sister, Melissa Whitworth-Mathes, called and informed police that he was punching walls and making references to school shootings.

One of the texts Whitworth sent his sister read: “How clear do I have to make it. I’m going to walk into Timberview Middle School with an AR.”

Police quickly arrived to Whitworth’s home and found him living in squalor. Deputy notes reveal that there were numerous containers filled with moldy, half-eaten food and numerous alcoholic beverage containers laying around the house. There was also “trash piled up all around the house to the point where it made it hard to walk inside.”

Upon searching the home police discovered a “manifesto” which included the names of several school shooters, as well as additional drawings and floorplans of schools.

There were also photos describing a make-shift bomb and detonation device. While speaking to police, Whitworth stated he had gone onto YouTube to learn how to make a detonator for a bomb. Contained within Whitworth’s notebook was also a list of firearms with 3D printing instructions, and a list of political personalities, including commentator Lauren Southern and former US president Donald Trump, with derogatory comments.

Investigators determined that there were three schools Whitworth had intended to target, including Timberview Middle School, Prairie Hills Elementary, and Pine Creek High School. He previously attended Timberview Middle School. There were also names of other targets, including local churches and police stations.

Once arrested, Whitworth confessed to his plan and told the deputies he watched a YouTube video on how to make the detonator. When asked why he intended to target his previous middle school, he said he had “no specific reason.”

Initially, Whitworth was booked and held on a $75,000 bond, but while in jail, Whitworth reportedly told a prison official that he still wanted to carry out his plans if bonded out. As a result, his bond was increased to $750,000 in order to make it more difficult for him to leave pretrial detention.

In the press release detailing the plea agreement from the Office of the 18th Judicial District Attorney, Whitworth was referred to using “they/them” pronouns.

Whitworth accepted a plea deal but still could have faced up to 16 years in prison. During his sentencing at Elbert County Courthouse on January 30, he barely spoke but told the court: “I was in too deep, way too deep. The choices I’ve made, I regret.”

His lawyers sought a non-custodial sentence, asking Judge Theresa Slade to only give Whitworth probation so that he could attend rehabilitation for alcohol dependency. They argued sending him to jail would be harmful to his recovery and overall mental health. Judge Slade delayed sentencing to give the defense an opportunity to build their case for a probation-only sentence. 

But despite the time extension, Judge Slade ultimately disagreed, sentencing Whitworth to six years in prison. The term is still considerably less than the maximum of 16 years he could have received. Judge Slade decided that a prison sentence was the only way to “ensure a sense of security” among the community.

The prison sentence will be followed by three years of mandatory parole. Whitworth was charged under his birth name William. However, documents from Elbert County Sheriff’s Office refer to him as “Lilly” and use “she/her” pronouns. He is currently awaiting transfer to a correctional facility from the county jail, but the name of the facility has not yet been released. He is booked as a “male.”

District Attorney John Kellner acknowledged the courage it took for Whitworth’s family members to come forward and report his disconcerting behavior to authorities.

“In this case, a family member had the courage and strength to pick up the phone and call for help. I encourage everyone when it comes to school security, if you see something concerning to report it right away. That call may save lives.”

Whitworth’s sister, who reported him to police, told the media: “We are also victims in the cases against Lily, and are struggling to come to terms with what has happened and what we had to do to protect the public.”

Christopher Whitworh, the teen’s father, urged the court earlier this month to release him on probation.

“I know Lily is capable of some amazing things if just given a chance,” he pleaded with the court. “Lily has seen a host of people back in Texas waiting to help them, love them, support them, show them something better to come home to.”

It is currently unclear where Whitworth will be held after being moved out of the county jail. However, Colorado is set to become the first state to provide trans-identified males with their own separate unit as opposed to housing them in a male or female prison.

This decision came after Colorado Department of Corrections reached a $2.1 million settlement with 170 trans-identified males who launched a a class action lawsuit in 2019 after claiming they had not been protected in male prisons or provided “gender-affirming” treatment.

The proposal is still under review by the court but, if approved, the state would have until January of 2025 to implement all of the conditions of the settlement. Currently, the state reviews transgender inmates on a case-by-case basis to decide which unit to house them in.

[glaciescustodia]

Do the girls know?, the answer is yes.

Do he go in the hotsprings to soothe his scales?, yes very much so.

Did the Springs people there notice?, yes.

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

MY BUTTONS FROM @bunmuffin

ARE FINALLY HERE!!!!

My two best boys and best girl.

They love them!!!

[attic-saltsz]

as much as i try to be i am not immune to white girl pop

[colorlesschristmastree]

I strongly disagree with any sentiment that Feyre destroying the spring court was rash, out of line, or poorly thought out. Everything in the text prior to Tamlin's tantrum during the HLs meeting points to destroying the spring court being the best move to ensure the safety of Prythian. Tamlin had made a bargain with Hybern so powerful that if he had attempted to go against it his powers as High Lord and entire court would have been forfeit, Feyre checks to make sure this is true and even consults Lucien on it before going through with her plans. Making it so that Hybern did not have access to spring court support was essential seeing as there was no real way for Tamlin to outwardly go against Hybern. His actions caused the wall to fall and many many innocent humans to die. Perhaps they could have used the Spring Courts army in the war, yes, but how would they have even used it if Tamlin can't go against Hybern without losing the spring court entirely? Tamlin's actions caused the wall to fall, the deaths of many many humans, entire towns of his people in the west to have to pack up and leave, and the attack on Adriata.

Feyre didn't open his court up to Hybern. He did. Destroying the spring court was necessary. Not to mention there's zero evidence beyond assumption that Feyre's actions caused the death of spring court civillians but there is evidence of Tamlin's actions causing the death of civillians.